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Have you ever felt like you met your soulmate but could never be together | He's married and I'm taken, but when I see him, I can tell he has a good heart. He's someone who's caring and patient even though he had a troubled past. It's eery how much we are alike as if we were both somehow related in our past life. I can truly understand what he went through because I have nearly gone through the same things. I can understand what he experiences every day because I go through the same things. But my feelings for him are forbidden and so I swallow my feelings waiting for them to disappear. | 7 |
please help | My girlfriend killed herself about an hour ago and i have no idea what to do and i am just screaming and crying | 5 |
I lost most of my friends but i got hella bitches | null | 0 |
Do u ever feel like you are fading away reality? | null | 5 |
I guess it's a part of life... (sadness, that is) | Yes, I cried. Yes, I stayed in bed for days. Yes, I drank, Yes, I took whatever pills I could get my hands on.
No, I don't feel any better yet.
Yes, I thought about ending it all.
But I'm too chickenshit....
This whole sadness thing is caused by attachment - if I could only let it all go. But, like most people, I have my identity wrapped up in my relationships with others.
If my lover rejects me then I'm a terrible partner.
If my children reject me then I'm a terrible father.
I try so hard to have the ones I love - love me back.
But it's not totally within my control. I can love them, but it's no guarantee.
Maybe I don't really know how to love...
Anyway, I'm just sad. But I know it is part of a process...
I'll be sad for a while, and then, over time, the intense feelings will begin to fade.
It is amazing what you can lose and yet somehow recover from.
I already lost a daughter (she rejected me) and although I ache from her loss every day, I have absorbed the pain so that I don't even notice it most days.
And so it will be with the latest loss.
Sadness will be replaced with numbness.
And I roam the earth numb, waiting for death. Nothing left to lose.
And yet somehow I'll seem fine...
I'm not fucking fine.
Are you? | 7 |
Crying | Do you guys ever wanna cry buy you just can’t? Do you ever just feel like you will never find anyone who loves you because you are unlovable and worthless because same. | 9 |
my friends always not serious :( | i watch a tv show and i think its one of the things i adore the most, and my friend thinks its very humorous to spoil the show for me, ive tried explaining to them that its very important to me, i love it so much but they dont seem to understand that, sometimes i debate whether its better to just pretend i dont watch the show. and to just feel happy watching it. but i enjoy speaking to them about it, but moments like these make me not want to share my love for it. what do i do. this life is very tough, we are all on our own journey but surely its not hard to respect what someone else likes. WHAT DO I DO! | 6 |
How often are you happy? | null | 4 |
goodbye everyone | null | 2 |
How often are you sad/depressed? | null | 3 |
I’m just at wits end of continuing to be… | null | 2 |
so tired of being not enough . | Yes I know it's bad.to be a people pleaser but shoot can't I just make one person happy . Can't one person say thank you . Can someone acknowledge that I'm trying . I can't even make myself happy. | 11 |
Emptiness | Nothing . I feel like shit I feel like a shot parent a shot partner a shit wife I feel fat and ugly and useless and lazy and sad and mad and frustrated and full of regret and wondering how many times I have to cry and beg for help before someone does something anything . I can really see now when people kill themselves and people say they had no idea and never saw it coming . But we suffer in silent and when we do ask no one heard.no one helps and then one day it's just to late . I'm to much of a.coward to end.my.life I can't emd.up in hell but more importantly I can't.leave my kids here not to these people I have in my life . Sorry you don't have to ready it . I'm just having a shit day | 4 |
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I just feel like a disappointment | Every day I try to be happy and nice to everyone but I just want to cry I just want someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright. No body invites me to anything I'm failing three classes and I feel horrible every day I come home from school I either sit in my room and eat or just sit there sad thinking about how everyone I know has so many friends and are so happy while I'm just there never being invited even though I try my best to liked and not be annoying. | 2 |
Do you think everything will be alright? This has been demotivating me, to the point where it makes me want to cry. |
I consider myself a very shy and insecure guy, I work in a store like 24/11, I've been here for 5 months, there's a very beautiful girl who goes on weekends at night, I never spoke to her because I didn't think I had that chance of liking him, out of nowhere he started talking to me and joking around, I was all nervous I couldn't even answer him, I didn't imagine he would feel interested in talking to me, I couldn't believe it was happening, I told my colleagues and they told me that they also speak because if not someone else would. On a piece of paper I wrote that if there was the possibility of one day putting agreed to go out and write down my number, I was determined to give it to her, the weekend came and I got nervous to the point that my body got cold and my heart started beating super fast when I saw her, in the end I didn't know I said and it went away, but I got very excited because I was about to give it to him xd, I thought, the next time I'll give it to him, the next weekend it turns out it wasn't, I was saved, I thought, the third weekend arrived and nothing, It didn't go either, I was worried and discouraged, I thought he wouldn't come back, one Friday it was a man who always accompanies her, I plucked up the courage and asked him who was the girl who came with him and what had happened to her, he smiled and She answered me, she is my granddaughter and she has not come because she can only come on weekends, that reassured me and I asked her if I could send her my regards, to which she replied that I should give them to her when I returned to the store, I began to laugh and went back to the store. The week passed and Saturday arrived, I realized that she and her grandfather were coming, I was super nervous and excited at the same time, I asked my partner to support me by charging for what I talked to her about xd they went around the store a thousand times and I couldn't talk to him, I didn't have enough courage, I even felt sad that he would let that great moment pass again, even his grandfather looked at me somewhat disappointed, there were so many emotions at the same time and I didn't know what to do, they came to pay everything they wore her grandfather went ahead to the car to leave part of the purchase and she stayed, at that moment it was that I forgot everything else and spoke to him, I told him I can speak to you for a moment, he began to laugh and said, yes already They told me, that made me nervous but I also took away the tension at the moment, almost babbling I managed to ask her for her number, I even asked her out, she said yes, that for the next time we agreed, she left the store and I thought that I didn't ask her for her number, immediately I remembered the piece of paper that I was supposed to give her and I ran after her, I told her, take it, you shut up, I received it and I got back in, you don't know how much happiness and satisfaction He gave me, I finished my shift, I came home happy with life and at about 11 he sent me a message, I didn't believe it, one of those moments in which I thank God for being who I am. We've talked about a couple of things, like his birthday was the day after I talked to him, I bought him a present to give him when we go out, supposedly. In the end, today (a week later) I think she's not interested in me, there are even times when she doesn't answer me, and I've always been the one to start the conversation, maybe I confused things lol :( It's just been a week, maybe she's too busy with her studies, I'll try not to lose hope and motivation. | 2 |
What is the worse feel that you ever had? | null | 2 |
Just lost my best and only friend | null | 5 |
I know no one cares or cares, but I need to vent, I've been noticing and it's been following me since I was 14 15 and I'm 24 now, I think about negative things a lot, I have a lot of nightmares, most of my day is thinking about bad things , this is very strange, does anyone go through something simi | null | 7 |
when someone else eats the chip | just leave me here to die
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I know to myself I'm fine, but most of the time I'm sad :( | I can say in front of most people, I'm okay. Deep inside me, I am sad. I always find time to be upset, not to mention this to all people because I want to hide my sadness and it's already a part of my personality.
There are so many reasons why I'm always sad and my brain can't find peace. It's okay. I'm still myself.
Don't know if this makes sense for you but, yeah, just wanna be alone most of the time. | 4 |
Talk? | does anyone wanna talk to me about their problems. im open to listen 😄 | 6 |
Gray | I walked on to the next door, in the wake of a misplaced essence
treading on invisible embers beneath the trees
The shadow of an endless search cast against an off-white wall.
Hope rolled off my hand as I raised it to knock
and came to rest on the coals
as I saw the many worlds dancing in the air among the ladders and the cobwebs
and the veil of a long deserted hankering.
Entire constellations floating by the window pane, unprecedented colors on stranger air
Torrents of northbound light washing away the dawn.
Astonishing.
But I am not sitting by the ladder, this door remains shut
I am not sitting by the window with a pen in my hand
The map of life itself remains mute on the floorboards
That snowdrop garden will fade before it knows that all I really wanted to bring was peace.
Will the wind pick up?
There's a light up ahead.
I will walk on. The next door might be the one she's standing behind. | 1 |
“Is your friend single”-My crush | This cut deep man | 11 |
Fuck life |
hi, I think it's the first time I talk about this, and it's the first group that I think I could vent and say a few things, if there are others I would want to participate and see if I can find people like me, the point is that I just feel that I'm not part of this world, I don't feel like living, I'm always thinking about death, I have some people, but I try to make them move away from me, I'm 24 years old and I feel like I won't live very long, here It's not my place, I don't have a purpose in life, and everything in this world irritates me and affects me, it's war, death, people starving, it's cowardice they commit, it's racism, prejudice, you know, I don't understand why I can't take it anymore, I just can't help but think that someday I'm going to die, it would be good to sleep, or I don't know a shot, or something that I don't feel pain, I know my family members will be sad, but one day it passes, I never sleep well, I don't even enjoy playing games anymore, my head is I've been fucked since I was a teenager, I don't know how to express myself, I can't look people in the eye and I always feel inferior to everything and everyone and that sucks. | 4 |
Just not happy | Survived cancer. Not once but Twice! Now I’m alone because everyone who care about me is exhausted. I’m alone now while they work and continue life. I’m excluded now and feel like an afterthought. Oh yeh— he is alive! Invite him (sarcasm).
I hate surviving. | 5 |
How I feel | I have a lot of friends , but I really just don’t. At school we’ll be joking and speaking normally but when I’m coming home I feel alone and with no purpose, these friends don’t feel like friends , they never talk to me in private , when I’m feeling down , sometimes I feel like they hide stuff from me or just don’t tell me stuff that friends would tell each other. I’m no being invited to their parties but they always seem to love interacting with me on a daily basis. I have phases where I would feel like I’m watching everything unfold in front of me like I’m not me,like I’m playing a character. I feel like I’m hiding away myself from my own friends. I think Videos games and especially Fortnite kinda killed me , I missed pretty much every party of 2020 and 2021, I distanced myself from my friends because I was persuaded I could succeed in gaming and I didn’t. I have no purpose ,I can’t cope with living with my parents no more , every small action they do bothers me and I would hide my anger and frustration pretty much every single second of my life. My mom would do this weird noise after swallowing something while talking and it would change her voice for like 0.5 seconds and this simple thing would make me insanely mad and I just wanna scream but I can’t. My parents were always there for me but it’s like they weren’t also. I never talked about being sad with them , ever. I never talked about my previous girlfriends or just sex,ever. My interaction with my parents would resume to school and walking the dogs. I just can’t express my sadness and how I feel like I have a whole another face of myself hidden under something I’m projecting as myself publicly. I have the smallest interaction skill with girls as I really just abandon very quickly with them, I hate starting a conversation and even speaking to someone regularly just annoys me. I hate most of my friend’s personality and I can’t cope with the fact that they have much more friends/encounters than me. When I wake up in the morning , no one’s talked to me. I wake up to nothing. I’ve never experienced such emptiness in my life , I think it all started back in 2019 when I had the worst week I could have ever imagined.
Monday : I was dumped by my very first girlfriend that I actually cared about and deeply loved , I was dumped like I was a piece of plastic. She just told me she didn’t wanna be with me no more , she told me that I wasn’t my fault and that she had no experience (?). This was devastating.
Wednesday , I was laying in the living room and my mother asked my to put the dog out, she never asks that, we always love having our dog next to us on the sofa. By the time I sat down again she had sat down also but she had a empty look on her face, it made my blood freeze. She told me that my grand father just got killed in a car crash, he apparently didn’t suffer. He was 83 years old. I didn’t cry. I was so chocked and everything felt like it was falling to the ground. My parents never really told me further to what happened even with like the situation with the police and the other people involved. The rest of the week I was just empty , and to be honnest , since then I feel like I’ve been missing a part of me. Friday I had football with my class mates and I remember I couldn’t play because I would fucking brake down crying. The shock of having someone you loved life being taken away just like that litteraly killed me. The funeral was too hard for me , I cried for the first time right before the ceremony started, when I saw the coffin, he was there , in front of me , my grand father. Seing my grand mother being alone was also one of the most traumatic things I’ve seen since then. Now I constantly fear the day my grand mother will pass away. I just don’t think I’ll be able to register it. It’s not possible. I can’t loose her. I will always love my grandmother , she is the most perfect human on this planet , she’s always there for me, she’s always smilling and asking if I need anything. Writing all of this made me feel better. I think that expressing your feelings even when it’s to no one will always help. I still would feel emptiness sometimes, but i feel like I have to prove to all my fake friend that the weird friend will make it and will be more successful than them. | 7 |
There is no point to my life. I just want to be gone. | I’m 18F senior in high school and I got rejected from U of New Hampshire (out of state) with an 85% acceptance rate and waitlisted from U of Vermont (out of state) w 71% acceptance rate. I just want this to all end. I never thought this would happen. What’s even the point of all of this. I had such a hard time in highschool and so upset that everything is messed up. I am so hurt. No one even cares about me. I messed up my grades because my parents are still in the process of a divorce since 2016 and I didn’t think I would actually make it to senior year. I got average grades and no extracurriculars and no SAT scores my essay was probably horrible. I was so smart. I believed I could do anything and go to UPenn that has been my dream school. Obviously I can’t fucking get in anywhere. I don’t see anything left for me. I still have other schools to hear back from but those schools are more difficult to get in than these so what’s the point of waiting. I’m so upset and sad and mad. I hate my parents that they ruined me. All I needed was to get into school so I can leave but now that isn’t even a possibility. I just want to be able to go in my sleep and just leave. No one even cares about me. There’s no one to stay for. I just need to be gone. And I understand this may seem so little to others but I need to go to Uni there is no other option.
Disclaimer ****I’m not going to commit but I’m just really sad at the moment I don’t think I would able to go through with it. I just needed to vent i guess****
Edit not really looking for advice I guess none of it really helps I’m sorry. | 6 |
I hate myself | I gave my crush that i’ve had for years a box of chocolates on valentine’s day, they were just rejected by their crush too, so i feel as though i had made them feel even shitter about that. Since i follow them on social media i saw a post about me and how they said i was weird. And before this we were kinda flirting, and now i feel i messed it up and i wanna fucking end. it i hate this damn world.. | 5 |
I am broken | I am always available when my friends and family need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on. I love to be there for them. However, It seems a lot like I am alone because no one can do that for me. Every time I try to talk to someone or reach out of my comfort zone and express myself no one is there. They're always too busy or don't have time. I am suffering on the inside because I feel absolutely alone.
I just wish I had someone I could turn to. I just wish for somebody to be there. | 13 |
"-and then one day you'll realize that the only reason why they were so special to u is because u wanted to believe that they are" | null | 5 |
DID YOU NOW I’m still Lonely |
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Anyone spend their celebration with tears this past couple years? | It's supposed to be a day of celebration, my day of birth, I should be writing in the selflove sub, but here I am. Anyone else spend their birthday in just total mental breakdown tears this past couple of years? I mean, I'll have my happy moments today... when I look at my little family, a few messages and missed calls from distant relatives... when I see my husband's attempt to cheer me up. I really don't enjoy being a sad person. I mask with acting, almost convincing myself to forget and dump things. Hence, short term memory issues. I really don't want to xanax myself on my day. Or take my adderall. Shit, I'm cool with not even smoking a bowl on my birthday. I want to be able to spend my birthday in complete total sobriety. I just can't do it without all the ADHD intrusive thoughts... I can't pick up any of these phone calls because I break down in tears if I talk to anyone. I try my best to be as present as possible, but I'm constantly in my head. And tears roll even when I'm smiling.
I'm not intentionally an introvert, but I can't control my emotions enough to make any kind of connection unless it's with my teletherapist, and even that's in tears for the most part.
Welp... happy birthday me. Please be kind to yourself. Breathe. And just for today, do your best, on your birthday, to keep your shit together you, for the sake of your husband and kids.
Happy Birthday Mama Me, Happy Birthday Wife Me, Happy Birthday Me, you deserve to feel your feelings even if it's sadness. I'm trying to convince myself birthday sadness is okay.
I'm just glad I'm not in the suicidal sub today... that would be ironic. You can be unsuccessful and still be a part of the "suicide squad"... it's a mental issue though.
As a 31 year old, I've been a crier all my life, but not over silly small things. I'm an over thinker, I get lost in my head. I feel really strong feelings all the time. Happiness, excitement, but Sadness man... sadness has been by my side for almost as long as I've been living.
fuuuughckKme man. fuck me.
For me, the saying Happy Birthday is just confusing to me... "Have a Birthday " "Havay birthday"... it's just changing the p sound to a v sound. Thanks for letting me vent. | 4 |
My only safe space | Is Reddit.
Today was an awful unbelievable day.
Im crushed
It’s the only network where my family is not.
I feel so betrayed, worried and scared.
Sometimes burning bridges is the best option.
Hoping for the best. | 5 |
Overwhelming and frightening circumstances and I'm scared and sad. |
I'm permanently disabled, and if you live with pain, you know how lacking effective treatment is these days, especially for people who need medication to live. I'm one of those, for starters.
My husband is having shoulder surgery on Friday, and he usually takes care of both of us. I don't know what we're going to do. Snow removal is mandatory in our city, but I can't shovel. Our neighbors are renting, and we don't know them.
I just cry thinking about it. I'm scared, helpless and sad. I'm terrified. | 5 |
Lost | I have lost my children forever. I had hopes to find them when they were older, but now the agency that took them, has disappeared..... Their phone number do not work nor their website.....All I was keeping myself alive for was to one day see them again. Now with this.... why? why keep going on u.u | 6 |
I am a forever alone woman | I come from a very conservative & religious background where girls are not allowed to socialize with guys. Having a bf is forbidden. I got in so much trouble when I was just a 9 year old little girl cuz I was seen playing outside with a boy. Ever since then Ive had really bad anxiety around the opposite gender. I was so afraid of getting in trouble. I developed an unhealthy relationship with boys & started associating boys & boyfriends with shame & something bad to feel guilty about. Although in my late teens/early 20s I had a couple of secret boyfriends for a few months. Nothing too serious. Nothing really came of it. Because I was so secretive about the relationships, the guys didn't want to put up with that. I mean what guy wants to date a woman child living at home under her parents rules who is not even allowed to properly date? I felt a lot of guilt after each of my relationships because I had been brainwashed since I was a little girl to associate with boys with sin. I feel so dumb now. I should have openly dated those boys & rebelled against my culture & who knows maybe I could've been married by now.
Now I am 24 years old & utterly alone & scared. Scared that I will never find anyone. Most girls my age are in serious relationships & some are even married with kids. Im just frozen in time as everyone around me is living their best lives. Im so far behind. I'm still living at home under my parents' control. My parents didn't let me go to college cuz they didn't want me to get spoiled by "degenerative American culture". Covid & quarantine just made things worse. I have no friends either. I mean absolutely zero. I used to have friends but my parents were strict & never let me hang out with them. So I lost them one by one. I have always had social anxiety. I can't just go out and make friends and meet someone. That will never happen for me. I've kind of just accepted that I will die alone. Once my parents die I will have absolutely nobody in this world. I am very jealous of normal American girls, especially white girls. They seem to have it so easy. Everyone wants a white girl. Even men from my culture/race are willing to run us over with a truck if it means they can get their hands on a pretty blonde. I am jealous of white American culture because parents are super supportive of their kids. They let their kids be their own person and allow their daughters to be human beings with equal rights and let them date. Meanwhile I can't even leave my house or move out. I cant even wear clothes that show my legs or arms. Everything in my life is so controlled. People are like “Just move out bro & everything will fix itself”. But they don't understand that in my culture & its not that easy. My parents have all my things like my passport & stuff locked away in a safe. Even my banking, medical & finances are controlled by them. If i do leave, i will get disowned & shunned by my family. I can't have that happen because i have absolutely nobody else other than my parents in this world so I need to obey them and keep them happy. I am an only child too btw. I know I sound like a pathetic little girl but thats just how my reality is.
I kind of resent my culture and especially the men from my culture. I feel like my culture was almost invented to hold women back while letting men run loose. Its not fair. Boys have so much freedom they can roam around at night, sleep at their friends houses, hang out whenever they want, wear whatever they want, do whatever they want, and their mothers will coddle them no matter what just cuz they were born a son. Meanwhile girls are just kept locked away at home with minimal contact with the outside world. Boys are even allowed to have girlfriends & nobody cares. In fact they are praised when they score a girl that is from outside our culture esp if its a white girl. But us girls are not even allowed to talk to boys so marrying a partner outside of our culture is out of the question. We get called race traitors if we even think about men from outside our culture. We are ~~expected~~ forced to marry within our culture or else be shunned. I dont think parents realize the harm this does to their kids esp their daughters. Yeah it's bad for boys too but I feel like its 100 times worse for girls in my culture.
My advice to any girls who come from strict religious backgrounds like me, DON'T LISTEN TO YOUR PARENTS OR ELSE YOU WILL END UP BEING FEMCELS LIKE ME! Go live your own life on your own terms while you are still young. Don't live to just make your parents happy. Live for yourself. Anyways I don't think I'm going to be on this planet much longer. I don't see the point. And I can't deal with the loneliness any longer. I am getting old. 24 is when they say women are no longer in their prime so its pretty much over for me. I have no opportunity to ever meet a guy. Plus i am getting old so no guy will want me anyways because I have nothing to offer. I am not super pretty, i am not super smart and i'm not all that interesting either. I guess i'm just waiting to die. I cry myself to sleep every night because I have so much anxiety about the future. What is going to happen to me? WIll I ever meet my soulmate? Do I even have a future on this planet? All I've ever wanted in life was a few close friends and a loving husband that I can have kids with and build a happy home with. But my wish will probably never come true. I dont know what I did to deserve this. | 8 |
Hopelessness | I hate the fact I still think of you. I hate myself for missing you. I hate the fact I still have memories of you. I hate the fact the last time I saw you you were boarding a plane with resentment towards me. I hate the fact I can’t do anything I’m powerless. I hate myself for still shedding tears years later. I hate myself for still holding hope. I hate myself for holding that flame. I hate myself for still being in love with you😔 | 3 |
Tears Fall Everyday | My mind wanders.
Not in a daze or off to a place of oblivion.
It wanders with must dos, likes, needs, wants, desires, exhaustion, thoughts of being unwanted a lot constantly (this is one I hate that I struggle with [aka possible abandonment issues] so unintentionally strongly.
Whether its tears for a simple CPTSD flashback moment or lost in a PTSD feeling.
Or even getting sad because I timidly and humbly get my feelings hurt a lot... but supposedly it's all me in my mind and everything that I feel sad about is apparently all in my own control. You know, The Control, I'm supposed to have to change every sad negative thought and feeling into a good positive one.
It's a cycle.
I joke that I'm naturally part of this make believe "Suicide Squad " of people in this world that battle with mental issues on a daily basis. When really where are all our criers?
People hurting, sad, crushed, but still have the willingness to see what fuckery this world has to offer us.
To be honest, I'm trying to understand that there really are people like me that cry every day and are easily emotional...
Just thought I'd reach out, vent a little, cry while I write this... and let you know that if there are people that experience sadness everyday on multiple different thoughts and feelings randomly because they "just come up", from your past, present, or high expectations let you down... or you got your hopes up, your feelings hurt, you think you're stuck, trapped, physically, mentally, emotionally.
You're not alone, and even though I'm asking if there are others that experience crying breakdowns everyday out of my curiosity of not wanting to be alone, I really do wish no one is able to respond to this, because I never wish this constant feeling of sadness about multiple things everyday for anyone.
Breathe... cry... breathe... cry... rest... cry... breathe.cry.
Pandemic and toilet paper? Fuck that, I need Tissue Boxes, Kleenex, Puffs, etc for my teary hyperventilating breakingdown emotional ass. | 4 |
Плохой день | hello, how are you? I’m not very good, my good friend with whom we go to volleyball forgot about me. she had a birthday yesterday, she called a lot of mutual friends (they probably were there) and no one even remembered me. she told her mother that such and such people would come, including me. only no one personally told me anything that they invited me, they didn’t say what time it would be and where it would take place. | 4 |
Looking to interview 18-30 year olds with depression for a class project | Hello! My two teammates and I are working on a design project with a focus on mental health for a Human-Computer Interaction class, and we are looking to recruit participants for a 30-minute interview (via Zoom). Specifically, we would like to talk to people who are 18-30 years old and currently experiencing symptoms of depression.
We are hoping to conduct the interviews in the next couple of days. If you're interested in participating, please send me a private message. Your participation will be greatly appreciated as it will help us discover needs in those who are affected by depression with the ultimate goal of designing an effective mobile app that helps users improve their condition.
(Apologies if this is not the right place to post this request) | 9 |
My tamagotchi died today | null | 3 |
It was going smoothly… | Honestly I thought things were starting to be good yk i quit my old job got the same kinda job but better pay and I get more time to myself, more time to spend with my brother.. but I still feel the same. And the overthinking just kills me. | 8 |
Life | When you want a person to open up to but everyone is fake and you know your parents won’t listen to what you say and won’t believe you but then you have deep conversation with someone and you realize what happens after life. And all the sudden you don’t want to die anymore but one mistake and boom and all comes burning down | 5 |
Unheard | I want a fucking heart attack.
The kind that takes you in your sleep.
The need to be heard is huge;
To tell my story,
To have every invalidated injustice held in someone's hart for just a moment.
The ones who hurt me, discarded me for something new and shiny,
The ones who once embraced my pain and brought me comfort have gone and left silence in my heart.
I haven't listened to music in months. The joy of life has left my person. My emotions are debris in a tornado unable to caught and rebuilt into words. | 5 |
Is this love? (Tw abuse and depression) | (This is my first time posting something like this so please don’t be overly rude but I would appreciate feedback as it is my thoughts and feelings of experiences I’ve had with my family mainly my mom so..um..enjoy!)
You telling me what’s wrong with me you choose to tear me down instead of watching me fly you constantly feeling the need to watch me break down and cry only to tell me I’m fine instead of everything will be all right I try so hard to please you yet all you do is ignore me and it’s eating up at me every second of the day but I can’t bring myself to hate you I love you so much so tell me why it’s so hard to love me back am I just supposed to smile and pretend I don’t notice our relationship falling apart why do you hurt me then tell me it’s love I know that you don’t love me I’m not stupid but when you look at me and smile like that how do you expect me to not get a little bit of hope so why won’t you give me your love when I’m willing to do anything for it I’m tired of not feeling like a priority when that’s all I make you feel I think it’s the idea of love that you want but how can I keep loving you when I can barely find the strength to love myself I ask if it’s my fault if I’m not enough and instead of comfort you give an answer
Yes
so tell me is this love? | 2 |
Abuse | I am in an abusive relationship.
I see this and know this.
I have refused to leave it.
I know this and hate it.
I remain complicit in my own abuse;
Because I want to have it acknowledged (at the least), and because I want access to the good things that person is, and because I feel hopeless to find better.
The people to whom I spoke my abuse and who also know/love this person have not stood up for me. They help to perpetuate the abuse and enable my engagement of it. | 5 |
Blame me and only me | Does anyone in this group lead a good life with a loving family or friends that are caring? I do , I lead such a great life but why do I still feel sad? I blame myself for everything bad that happens to my close ones even though it has nothing to do with me. I have man friends but still feel lonely inside , I want to express my sadness towards my close ones but I'm scared they would be worried for me so I choose to keep it inside and pretend to be happy. I am lonely and someone please save me from this loneliness it's like I'm trap in a deep dark hole with no help , I wake up to despair with nothing to look forward to even though I have a good life. | 4 |
Brothers | This is the only way I can get my sadness about without being laughed for being overdramatic. I hate it when almost everyone I know is a hypocrite. I get picked on by my brother for looking a certain way and everytime they say it's a joke. I get hit by him for doing the slightest things and everyone says it is his temper and It is not completely his fault. I am the second born and my brother is the oldest. I feel like that who I am in my family is merely as a stepping stone for my brother. I would go and cry everything out after something happens but it still is there. My brother is always joking about how I look. It was so much to the point that everyone my age would do it. My friends I understood as humour but it never felt that way with family. They do this so much that they have almost accepted that I was adopted even though I was not. It still feels like I am sad but I'll get there. | 3 |
Happy new year's....be kind!!! | Yea confirmed that I'll never be happy again😔✌ | 1 |
It hurts | I learned a valuable lesson today. Even if it's not love, it still hurts to let them go. | 5 |
The darkness...again | Where does this sadness come from?
Feeling alone. Unwanted.
This probably comes from being left alone and abandoned as a child.
I know that I can find connection again. Being wanted. But there is both dread and fear attached.
It's not easy for me to find connection. So it's hard. I'm tired of everything being hard.
And when I do, I attach too hard and too much.
And I need too much.
That's because of the absence of that connection. The deep feeling of being unwanted. The long, deep, dark absences across my life.
I can't figure out how to not feel too much. I can't figure out how to hurt any less when I feel unwanted. And so I can't figure out how to keep that hunger sated when I am wanted.
I crush. Myself and those with whom I connect. And the cycle repeats. | 4 |
Does anybody else feel even more miserable when they come across beautiful things? | I’m like that with music. Some songs are so expressive and beautiful that I just can’t bare it, it’s like I can’t live up to them. It sucks that something I used to love so much hurts me now. Never mind, I was just wondering if it happens to anyone else | 9 |
living with untreated medical problems- wishing i had someone to spend my time with | hi! im jasmine, and i have severe health issues and the worst part, i dont know what they are. my mother wont help me so i dont have resources to get help but i know im covid- (negative) despite my lack of taste or smell (honestly cant smell a thing). i have coughed up blood, dark green phlegm with black specks in it. all i know is that im going to die soon at a young age because of these health issues. i didnt list all my symptoms . but my life is short...in these short years ive been fucked over time and time again...nobodys really shown me how it feels to be loved properly and treated well. id like to have a boyfriend to spend these last few months or years with, even if he is just online my heart will be so full knowing that im loved by just one person when i [go](https://go.my). my home life is incredibly toxic, but i do love my family.. but i endured so many years of abuse and child sexual abuse, bullying at school and online. this life i have feels so worthless and meaningless, ive been used for sex pretty much ...neveer been loved and im going to pass away eventually alone.. | 4 |
I'm somewhat grateful that im not in a toxic and abusive relationship, but i am also getting tired of being alone... Everyone's falling in love while i keep forcing myself to believe that being alone is what i want ... | null | 6 |
Anything?😔🖤 | What does it mean when someone is sad....well to be clear not exactly sad but just crying daily also every night and if someone is to ask them what's wrong and their willing to talk but...........just don't know what to tell them because they themself doesn't know what's wrong 😔 | 5 |
I never know how to comfort others after a death in the family | In less than a week, my dad’s younger brother died and my mom’s older sister died. I am a complete shit because I have no idea how to comfort my parents. This isn’t the first time, I am terrible in these situations and to top it off it’s Christmas time. I always say and do the wrong things. I somehow always start an argument and that is not what I intended. 😢😢😢 | 3 |
Why is everything boring to me.... | Lately ive been trying to think about to find some hobby to keep my mind distracted. But i notice that i get bored quick. Not sure if is because of i have some type of adhd and i dont know but shit... for example i try video games, arts and crafts, books, music, series, movies etc.... at this point i just sit on the couch after a hard day of work and do nothing just eat take a shower and that's it. Hopefully I'm not the only one going through this... if you have any ideas please share. | 6 |
2021 and its ups n downs | So at the beginning of early 2021 my dads liver cancer became worse and he would have less energy and this didnt change much until he began to eat less, he became so skinny and tired all the time and u could notice the change in him both physically n mentally, i loved him very much but i was a bit selfish and self centered and i always cared about my well being and me playing games. a couple months later he slowly and slowly became dead inside and he was ready to pass then on april 6th he passed, ive never been this devastated i would cry and wouldnt sleep i would fall on my knees and cry everytime i would think about all out memories i would cry and realize how shitty our relationship began he used to be so happy and i used to always make him happy and i always have that constant lingering thought that im a failure to this day.. after a month or two i realized truly how lonely i was i would sit on my bed lonely watching tiktok for hours laying on my bed during summer.. school began again and i reconnected with a child hood friend lets call him jay and he introduced me to these group of friends and i havent been happier it feels like a tremendous amount of weight on my chest has been lifted and i am doing good recently. I am only a 13 yr old boy and i have found my hobbies | 4 |
True self hatred | I hate myself. No matter what I do no matter what I say. I can’t get over it. I have tried everything. eating healthy, going to the gym, therapy, you name it I have tried it. The amount of pain and sadness and anxiety I feel is immense. I feel like all my friends hate me. Even my boys, my homies, my lads. I feel like they despise me. I cry every night and no one knows. I try to hold down a job or a girl but my fucked up mind just messes it up. My mood swings are getting worse. My depression and anxiety are getting harder to control. I have no clue what to do. I feel like I want to die but I think suicide is selfish. I strive to be this beacon of light at my school. Like I’m kinda the funny guy I make people laugh. I get in trouble for others amusement. Just to help them through their day. As soon as I get home or I’m alone. I feel the pain. I feel the loneliness. I want to be better. | 6 |
So many untold feelings........ | It's like you want to talk but can't find that person to have a conversation with,you're afraid that they will look at you differently,hate you,judge you,say you're wrong,won't understand you.......what to do? 😔
I'm tired▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎ | 2 |
Alone and lonely | Today I went to a medical appointment and I received some concerning news. I went alone. I live alone. I’m single. My family is dysfunctional and in another country and I don’t feel comfortable talking to them about this kind of stuff. My friends are all busy doing their own thing and although I can think of a couple of friends who are free to chat how on earth do I bring up something like this?! 🥲
I see peoples Christmas trees up and bright festive lights line the streets and shine through people’s windows, people talk about Christmas shopping and when they ask me if I’ve done mine yet I always lie and say I have left it to the last minute. Christmas Day will come around and I’ll be at home alone - note, I’m actually okay with it but I feel embarrassed because I think others feel sorry for me.
In the past, people have invited me to celebrate with them and their families but it becomes uncomfortable for me when it comes to gift giving time and family photo time, no one wants the random orphan photo bombing their Christmas Day memories.
I don’t receive gifts and while every year I normally donate in some way to various charities to help make other peoples festive season nice this year I just can’t bring myself to do it and I went out and bought myself two pairs of shoes and a mani/pedi.
I rarely feel lonely, I enjoy being single for the most part and consider myself incredibly fortunate to have what I have but today I just wish I had someone to bare the burden of the news I received today.
And so here I am sharing this with strangers. I’m just going to sit here in my feelings for a moment and feel them for a change, instead of ignoring them, pushing them aside and hoping they don’t resurface. | 10 |
17 days till Christmas😔 | Mmmm not rele excited😔...happy holidays🎅🎄🎆 | 1 |
Anything at all | I have been conclusively defeated.
Only hope could possibly save me,
But hope, what is it?
An elusive, evasive emotion with only faint glimpses of solace.
I want to detect yearning, a desire for anything.
How long it has been since I longed for anything?
I’ve spent so much time in anguish
Giving into acres, miles, ages of despair
The desire for something, anything seems foreign, Alien.
My thoughts so consumed with the absolution that would come with ending it all.
There seemed to be no yearning left in me.
No desire for anything at all. | 3 |
skeleton lover sad story | null | 1 |
Depression on thanksgiving... | How do you guys handle anxiety and depression on the holidays. We are supposed to be happy and having fun but theres always something in the back of my mind that makes me sad. Any advice? Sometimes i think i am crazy... | 2 |
Something strange happened | Today something so strange happened to me, something that I did not think would happen.
I am a person who finds it difficult to socialize, and I am almost always alone in termsof whom too talk to, today I went out with a girl who I get along well, but it was so strange, because for a long time I suffered because I had no one to go out with, then In the end I felt bad, I don't know if I liked it or not I liked going out with her, everything was very cool, but deep down I felt something strange
I lose myself mentally, I get so used to loneliness that for those 15 minutes that I spend with her I lose everything, not because I like her (she doesn't, she's just a friend) but because of the fact of being able to socialize with someone like that. shape after so long.
Life is a fiasco | 2 |
I never really dealt with sadness | I barely felt sad ever since I grew up. I just felt depressed most of the time but no sadness in it.
Now when i feel sadness it breaks my heart. got no idea how to deal with it but it hurts me and I'm not sure what to do when I'm like this. I kinda don't let myself cry all the way cause I feel like it's too much for me to handle.
any tips for accepting sadness and deal with it better so I can feel it all but not let it crush me?
thanks:-) | 4 |
I keep farting whenever I have to tell someone something important at work | I started a new job and I’m trying really hard to be ambitious and prove myself to co-workers and supervisor but I cannot stop farting. I’ve tried changing my diet and using pepto but this issue will not resolve. It’s just nasty, rank gaseous funk following me around all day. I think I’m just gonna quit and go back to my job at PathE Tech... | 1 |
Just Alone...2 | I never feel welcome in any place, whenever I manage to meet with other people I think "I better not go near them, I don't want to ruin the good time they have with my presence", thanks to the fact that people have pushed me away, now I do it with myself, and it sucks because I also want to have a good time with those people, but I am afraid of damaging the moment with some word I say or with some action, I always live in fear of everything and at all times. I just don't know what to do... | 4 |
Just Alone.... | I live every day thinking about an internal and stupid pressure that I have on myself, I don't know why I question myself or how to stop doing it.
I don't accept loneliness as it is, it hurts a lot, having to wait for a message that will never arrive, I get tired of showing every person I meet what a great person I am, I do favors, I am attentive to the smallest thing, I even help to get a job... I do all that so I don't feel alone, when people leave me alone it sucks because I never stop thinking about everything, and if I think too much I get cloudy and blocked, I just stop moving forward as a person.
I don't feel loved, with my family because they know what a great person I am and all they do is push me away, it's very hard because every day I try harder and everything stays the same.I feel that everyone is progressing but I am still stuck there....
I do everything every day to not feel empty, to not feel useless, but my way of thinking and my way of acting I think they are in conflict, because every time I go to do something I think it's right, but it is always wrong. | 5 |
My inner struggle is affecting my entire life | I thought to have found the relationship of my life, but I am not sure anymore. I love my boyfriend but I have feelings also for another guy and this situation is struggling me. I hate myself for feeling this way. I am always sad and depressed and I can't do my work as well. I always had great results in my career, while at present time I am a failure both with work and life. | 9 |
How do you stop being sad or at least be a little happier | I can’t stop thinking about this like paintings of this sad cat and they have sad captions and I can stop thinking about it and when I think about it I cry. Sad story’s get me way sadder then other people. I overthink everything which makes sad things sadder stress more stressy can anyone give me some sort of help. Thanks lot! | 8 |
I’m struggling | My 2021 has been by far the worst year of my life. I’m a 15 year old boy from SE London. A bit of backstory to my family, my mum has ME, which is a chronic illness that basically just saps your energy away and it got so bad back in late 2016 and all the way through to mid 2018, she was almost always in bed and was even put in hospital just to not go into a coma, not a great start is it. She’s doing better now though, and has been relatively well for the past year and a half I would say
The start of the year it was all COVID and stuff but honestly I didn’t find all that too bad. I still used the COVID regulations to see some of my mates and it was okay.
Fast forward to just before the start of summer I left my Sunday league team that my dad was the manager of. He had had enough and wanted to spend more time with the family. I’d been there for 10 years exactly and the entire community around the club was very homely and I was quite well known as my dad was the chairman of the club. Enough waffle. It doesn’t sound that deep but honestly it was quite hard to accept.
Then one night, how poetically, my life was changed forever. I’m in my room and I all of a sudden hear glass smashing and my mum screaming at my dad to get out. The way things are in the family I didn’t think to go down and find out what’s going on. Then for the next week, my mum was constantly looking through my dads phone and screaming at him. From the things I was hearing her say it did sound as though he has been seein another woman.
It was the next week that an argument between my parents made my mum tell me and my siblings that my dad had indeed been seeing the mum of one of the boys in my old football team for the past 3 years. She preyed on him whilst he was caring for my mum whilst she was sick. It started late 2017 and ended once the UK went into lockdown. That is the only moment in my life where I have felt proper pain. It digs into your chest and stomach.
I didn’t cry. I told myself there was no point in crying, it doesn’t solve anything. I thought it would be best just to not think about it and try my best to continue living normally. It’s been a massive struggle. No one knows about it, none of my mates even know something bad has happened. It’s been so draining, keeping a smile on my face and keeping people happy. I’ve been trying so hard but sometimes it gets too much and for m just laying there, emotionless, not knowing what to do with myself, feeling helpless and useless.
My dads not been home a lot recently. He’s been basically living at his dads house, who’s pretty much terminally ill with Parkinson’s. I’ve barely been speaking to him. When he comes home I can’t even look at him.
I’ve been doing my best to keep my mum happy. I’ve been going out of my way to do extra special things for her. But sometimes I hear her crying by herself and I want to go and help her but I don’t have the mental strength to and it makes me feel worthless. I don’t know what to do. I’m trying so hard and nothing seems to be doing anything.
I have my year 11 mock exams coming up this week coming and I’ve been struggling it’s finding the motivation to study for it. It just seems that nothing is going right at the moment.
I’m just gonna try to keep moving forwards and try my best to be positive and not let this change my life in too bad a way.
Thank you for your time
Leave a comment 👍🏻 | 3 |
Missing my dad | He passed back in June of this year. Every now and then I remember little conversations we've had, arguments and happy moments. I'm sad I can't see him anymore, we can't talk or eat food together, or watch terrible action movies and laugh about the shotguns with 60 "Hollywood rounds" as he would call them.
I don't have his ashes yet, I inherited his vehicle and laptop, but I want him instead. Everyone tells me he "set me up good" but it's just stuff. Stuff that can be replaced and broken. | 5 |
I wanted to help a friend in a test(he didn't learn) and than | THE TEST WAS COMPLETELY AT DIFFRENT TOPIC and now i Feel terrible beacaue i think i screwed him over with the stuff i teached him and now im sad | 1 |
How do I get rid of overthinking? | I can't talk with people without thinking too much, someone can give me reassurance whole day and attention but soon as they do one change, everything goes down hill for me. Am i too dramatic or do I just have intense abandonment issues?
I can't have a conversation with someone without my thoughts racing, specially if I like someone. My thoughts will bring pain to my body, And I will just bring pain to it physically since I can't learn my mistakes.
I used to have problems with overthinking to the point I would have breakdowns and committing harm to my body.
- killerbee_606 | 6 |
When harmony breaks between the two of you, it just hurts. | Sadness totally hits different when the person you least expect will hurt you the most. Am I the only one who feels so nostalgic during the consistency from the beginning before our relationship began? I miss those good old times when it was just all sweet times and we were just in that getting to know each other stage. Now it’s like our own waves just continuously crash into each other. | 6 |
I rehomed my cat because of anxiety, and now I play with her toys and pretend she's still here. | I rehomed my cat because of anxiety, and now I pretend she's still here and give her food and look at photos of her. | 5 |
Sadness discord | https://discord.gg/Y5TbftHZ | 0 |
༼ಢ_ಢ༽ | My girlfriend and I just broke up...
Because we want to marry someday and have kids. We loved each other but we think our relationship doesn't have a direction. We've been together since senior high and we're on college now, graduating.
I'm both happy and sad. I'm crying | 6 |
my cat and i are sad. | :( | 2 |
Guys.... i hate to break it to you..... mega chad died.... | [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ct0E3cM6g0](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ct0E3cM6g0) | 3 |
Just wanted to share whatever you would call this. |
Life’s a cursed existence, bestowed with knowledge of impending death and fading memories.
Best intentions, followed by tears and scars. Shown by blood and hardened souls.
Cursed from birth, carried through life. A heart that was made defective yet yearns for more.
Grantor of forgiveness, plagued by mistakes. Mercy never requested just understanding.
Loved yet lonely, forced to endure the baggage of life and circumstance.
Soul weakened, a collapsing star in its own galaxy. None to appreciate its splendor, but all to question where it disappeared to.
A fleeting thought, and desire. Peace, darkness, silence. A gift of sleep. Just a choice away.
Too strong or too weak to choose. Day by day an ending sought. Is there a difference between a good or bad end if they all lead to the same place?
None appreciate the struggle, all weep at the absence. Why keep their tears safe when no one holds his.
Endlessly chases happiness, never to realize it was an illusion all along. Choose rest for the weary soul. | 5 |
Lonely….. | Why do I feel so alone. I have a gf that absolutely loves me and I her we are doing the long distance relationship and it’s really hard because my last 3 exes have all cheated on me and left me so I guess it’s hard for me to trust as well as I used to, but with my current girlfriend I feel deep down that she won’t do anything to hurt me. But lately I have been feeling like I can’t get out of this rut with my depression. I’m also in a mound of debt which doesn’t help and things at work haven’t been going very well either. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I wasn’t around. Like would anyone miss me if I was gone or would anyone care. Life has kicked me in the balls so fucking hard for the last 6 months and idk how to move on from it.
Thank you for reading if you did have a good night everyone. | 5 |
My Dad thinks i'm a failure | some context to start:
2020-2021 my final year as a pharmacy student, i have a few resits, pass the resits but for some reason, i don't have enough credits/something to do with university policy that i won't end up with my MPharm, end up with a BSc (Hons) in Pharmaceutical studies. Told my parents this, upset i've not got my MPharm, told them the situation etc, had meeting with uni staff they can't change it etc ect.
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fast forward to now:
My dad think's i'm a failure. There's no other way to put it. So far i've talked to around 10 people, friends & academics within this area (Pharmacy/healthcare) they're sympathetic to my issue. My dad on the other hand, he thinks that i'm a failure as i've ended up with something else, yes true i feel the same. i feel let down, distraught, everything that relates to these sorts of semantics. However, my dad seems to believe that i've failed him by not achieving what i was supposed to achieve. I can see his point of thinking, fair enough but at the end of the day, yes i've ended up with something can't you at least be happy at that fact. i know i can go into further study & get an MSc in something healthcare related to at least help with some job opportunities, because right now, the options of finding a job related to my subject either want experience or a higher level of education. that being said, i am considering doing a MSc in something to help me. on the other hand, i'm thinking of an apprenticeship in an entirely different field - accounting. why? some more context: i like stocks & economics. since the stock crash given covid, i've found it simple & interesting enough to understand. yes i like healthcare, but if you put two books in front of me healthcare or economics, i'll pick the economics one. so you could say "go for the accounting". that's the issue, my dad finds it to be an area with too many lies (acceptable) but if it's something that can allow me to A) enjoy it B) earn some money C) be happy just why can't i get his support in the decision.
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i honestly just feel broken at this point | 6 |
In all honesty I liked this girl for almost a year I was waiting for months to ask her the question but now I wonder why did I bother.Today I found out she was talking with my best friend it hits deep you know. | null | 5 |
Heartbroken | I spent the last year finally opening up to someone and taking down my walls. She tore down my walls and took my heart. And now she's dumped me and I'm lost and lonely and heartbroken. I don't know what to do | 5 |
online gf left me last night q_q (random poem I guess I need to vent into the void) | I make songs that people like
I'm always up at night so
I might be the type a life
that won't find that girl or guy
that fills that spot, wonder why
it was left unfilled.
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I felt so confident what
the hell is wrong with me ..
cuase I was there .. .. ..
and I feel good .. .. ..
What the hell is wrong with me | 3 |
"Fold" - poem by Nick DeMolay (me) | I fold,
I give up my cards,
I've done too much, I've gone too far,
I know I'll never win this game, its just a beast I'll never tame,
and If I go any longer,
their hand will just get stronger
and I'll know I'll never be okay,
oh well its just another day,
As I walk down my old memory lane,
the nostalgia strikes my heart with pain,
I know that after all I've done,
the game of life is no longer fun,
So take upon this word to light,
the game of gambling is a fight,
the summer's heat and the winter's cold
choose to call or choose to fold. | 8 |
Traumatized | I was biking home from my youth group and I flew by a cat that had been hit by a car. It was paralyzed and probably in the last few minutes of it’s life. I was instantly stunned and realized I couldn’t save it but I couldn’t just leave it to die alone. So I stayed with it all the way up till… well when it passed. I came home and just cried for a solid hour. I keep thinking there’s another little boy out there who can’t have a cat to call brother now or another older woman to draw comfort from the animal in her final hours. So I’m glad I got the honor of being able to at least be there in its final moments, and even if it didn’t notice me maybe it helped me feel honorable about being able to care about this poor thing in pain. I couldn’t bury it because it would’ve fallen apart but I did lay leaves over it in commemoration so it would be respected. Thank you for reading this. | 9 |
Life Sucks | I have this feeling in my gut that nothing in this world matters...I feel like I'm the only person who realizes this and I wanna tell everyone I know but then I realize it doesn't matter...my life is as useless as throwing a spec of sand towards the Sun | 5 |
Patience😤don't go well with anger.... | null | 2 |
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The survey covers questions including future thinking (positive things that you will enjoy, that you are looking forward to and negative things that you are not looking forward to, that you will worry about), suicide, depression, hopelessness, and anxiety.
We would really appreciate anyone who is willing to help us out by taking approximately 25 minutes to complete the survey. Participants will be offered prize draw entry (£200 in shopping vouchers) for their time.
Thanks so much! | 1 |
wish | my only wish is for their happiness and it just left us all.
off to mountains, off to rivers, off to cities afar
i miss their happiness yet still not gone, he left them for a woman
he left them for a woman, they were his children
my only wish is that he loved them, that he would acknowledge them so
he has forgotten the days, the nights, the strange habits, the fun
he las left for Illinois, his children are non the wiser, their mother and sister are in despair
yet i only wish for once that i didn't expect this day to come
the day of pain, not because i miss him, but because of the pain it causes all around me
i am the big sister
i never gor to know him
i remember exactly who he is
yet he can leave his two children like they don't even matter
like their objects
like they aren't human
like they don't exist
what us wrong with him
i wish i understood
he stayed for so long
why did he leave them | 1 |
Sad gurl | I just died a little inside. Im heart broken that you're leaving on the 30th and never again will i see that smile of yours. | 1 |
Feeling really sad, no idea if I’m overreacting or not | I’ve just started high school (year 9). I’m 14 years old and I’ve been talking to this year 10 girl called hal for about 6 months, she’s super cute, 4’11, really hot and such a nice person. I’ve never confessed feelings for her because she’s always had boyfriends and such and I didn’t want to ruin anything. So I go to my locker on the 3rd day of school, turn around, and there she is. Just standing below me smiling (I’m almost a foot taller than her). I get this overwhelming feeling of happiness and anxiety all at the same time. I don’t know why but it felt really weird. After school I go to talk to her on Instagram after not being able to get my mind of her all day. And I get a text back after 1 hour of being on opened form another girl called Leah on hal’s phone calling me a pedophile and telling me to get the fuck away from her friend. Baring in mind these guys are super grown up for their age doing stupid shit like drugs and staying out till 4 am. I get this message in voice message form and I can hear hal laughing in the background. By the way hal is in the year above me so I look up to her in a way. I jus feel this empty pain and I can’t seem to get rid of it. Getting my past from 2 years ago brought back up to ruin someone i care about so much. On top of the new school I feel so shitty and I would like some advice on what to do. Please tell me If I’m overreacting. | 3 |
I want to kms | So I usually don't have alot of sad things happening,but lately I've been pretty down.what happened today really topper the fucking cake.someone knocked on my houses door.my dog ran outside barking and my dad walked out with me.thats when I saw it.my fucking kitten was laying lifeless on the ground.some mf hit a small kitten with thier car and drove off.i had to dig her grave.i feel so empty without her.i didn't even get to say goodbye.it was only a few days ago where she slept on me,now ill never get to experience that again.this morning she was screaming at me for food.now she's fucking gone because ppl don't know how to fuvking drive safely!WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE ANIMALS! | 2 |
I honestly want someone to tell me anything | I've been 2 days in highschool, traumatised to death by a very catholic middleschool
I have no friends and its getting harder and harder to speak to people
I feel like i dont fit here
My mom fell into a depression after my step-dad left her
And today, shit got really bad
My mom got attacked by my uncle over an argument, my little brother in tears saw it all
Her crying made me crying, im insecure as fuck, and i dont think i will be able to keep on with normal highschool education
Shit got so bad i had to give to a friend my whole discord group chat because i was unable to keep it running since i had suicidal thoughts at the moment
I just need some fucking advice | 4 |
Another dose of jealousy and sadness about unfairness | Whenever I see all these happy couples on social media, I can't help but feel sadness within me. I see that all these other normies out there have someone that likes them back, and meanwhile, nobody has never liked me back. It's not fair. When other people fall in love with someone, the person likes them back, but when I've fallen in love, the person doesn't like me back. It's not fair, I don't get to be as lucky as they are, and it's something I can't really control because you can't just make someone fall in love with you, it's something you can't really control, you can't control someone's feelings. It makes me feel unloved, I mean I know I am beautiful, but at the same time I'm not attractive because nobody never falls in love with me. I want to be liked back for a change. Nobody has never loved me back, it makes me feel unloved, or like I'm not good enough for anyone, now don't get me wrong, I'm not> saying that I'm not good enough for anyone, I'm just saying that it feels that way, and it sucks, I feel sad, but that doesn't mean that I want to feel sad. I want to be happy. Sometimes I feel like I'm about to burst into tears. | 3 |
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