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give everyone dollar got april fool haha | non-suicide |
strangely calmi thinking lot recently much asshole losing friend not open anyone not know leave not tell think not trust leave anyways not keep straight mentality bipolar unmedicated not trust medication due past od suicide attempt want not freaking like time extremely calm almost content like okay small rational part brain holding back right | suicide |
oh god mom found cum drawer oh god mom found cum drawer | non-suicide |
alien real found alien today pretty cool | non-suicide |
stupid rant tomorrow last day school spring break great day today anyway come home school go upstairs around come stair get snack go garage refrigerator get piece cheese sister come lock garage run lock door get kick beat mom come ripped shirt half start choking hit arm grounding spring break like fault anyway lost streak not cutting anyone tell wrong | non-suicide |
need help urgently long read everything write complete honesty not hold anything back not find purpose live working world turned year old ago month ago need insight suggestion live desired not destined cookie cutter life philosophy life live life fullest work minimal degree preferably not afford way working labor force set not fit human nature many way whether spiritually mentally physically also say mean lazy like many others age even older believe way current workforce well education system set much stacked modern day human idealistic past not present issue today world working job becoming norm people trying scrape afford basic necessity shelter example hour week let u say person work hour minimum week hour left minimum amount sleep needed let u say hour day person would hour dedicated leaving hour left combine day worth communicating well getting ready washing work leaf person hour thing week not account chore daily life gym time etc well actually tied enjoy time next problem working amount time even effort put majority people still fall behind bill necessity creating rut essentially get trapped work never really getting ahead not going get far issue system set sure people today already know talking people not praised early life school not praised creative artistic ability rather quick efficiently standardized test complete people individualist idea often overlooked left behind shot often make wonder many people considered smart not smart good memorization test taking intelligence like people general come form brings back personally guess could think one aimless people went adulthood dropped college like many others seen real future program ended unrealistic debt shitty call center job full lost soul try make world stuck cycle stuck anywhere overdraft probably last year not like waste money either literally paying bill car insurance absolute necessity working hour minimum usually still live parent absolute need hate everyday feel like fucking leach option not seem get ahead even current job not motivate work fullest potential job performance measured satisfaction stats uncaring ungrateful customer regardless much effort put still get poor survey blame fall not worth put fickle environment opinion honesty soon quit get fired current job not see self getting real job long time ever people often try tell getting trade real opportunity life always reply would miserable amount money worth trading happiness away really aspire part life travel around freely obligation going place place seeing different sight meeting different people living life fullest not regret future wasting entire life away working steady income coming non working venture investment road opportunity handout government assistantince not go entitlement educating binary option quite time not invested yet want ready thought potential sole income future getting point see really purpose living going life real world completed suicide many many time passing week getting much closer even set date january thing not start going way fear death really not care said judgement passed people truly feel happy enjoy life working majority free time away usually making someone else barley never worked richer power not not healthy not believe even compatible today world free thinker opportunist question fine people reddit recommendation would give live type life described little money moment hypothetically get car decide drive different part canada one day would best way sustain come would likely stop paying student loan maybe even car insurance amount time try save much cash possible redditer situation please give advice tip not fall along line staying current situation current situation going lead eventual death soon direction made work live real word add coal fire never money experience not would feel better dead layne staley | suicide |
used dark mode long light mode feel like dark mode came light mode better think mostly head like feel good getting new phone feeling something new feel nice honest light mode never really hurt eye honest | non-suicide |
make laugh free award look title mean real laughing not want give away free award | non-suicide |
hey anyone want chat hey stranger internet want talk | non-suicide |
let propelled rocket take away not listen sky nazi use phone defy rule piss first class passenger aviation inovation | non-suicide |
bored gang lol pretty bored wrote story today class chat want not well bye nice day | non-suicide |
used straight boom femboys | non-suicide |
think killing every dayevery day think killing not think dream everything would much easier could delete feel like escape matter much despise everything always retreat safe space mind soon reduced nothing memory many time tired starting think maybe know tomorrow not day maybe come soon guess find | suicide |
question everyone large butt small butt medium butt choose one | non-suicide |
concerned parent someone know recently got divorced person know sibling early thirty sibling recently posted something online little concerned quote posted state happiness drop die river quote like considered suicidal thought | suicide |
please stop cry yea sex great ever suggested younger sibling could hit back would stop cry mom would not find playfighting hurting | non-suicide |
want die alreadyi worthless trash job threatened fire recently take time mental health reason embarrassed tell anyone know parent would tell worthless pathetic keep trying kill keep failing suck fail living dying | suicide |
nothingi got nothing live hobby interest anything friend gf even crush feel empty not think much death would change not | suicide |
killing next yeari hate posting fast truly one alone room panicking terrified firework due ptsd worth anyone fucking warm body fuck not even correctly traumatized sexual abuse never meant anything anyone decided going kill end next year maybe sooner still alive not want idc anymore done wish friend significant alone entire life nothing live | suicide |
lokin friend magical dm open lookin peep hang n long conversation | non-suicide |
dream _ dream ronald reagen talking nice guy think american president not sure also jumped bridge another bridge fell | non-suicide |
life fucked like hang gliding whore house yeah tryin escape though situation not playing choice made paying as soul fuck self bank roll not even feel land sustainable place man cutting foot escape trap cut ability improve station would already deformed emotional cripple since childhood end fuck struggle future pain | suicide |
plague appreciation post please need | non-suicide |
not know really feel say not really thing get buried ok | suicide |
food thought learned woman not pee butthole not school urethral penetration hentai | non-suicide |
going move crushing girl actually close thought felt way found sex person hurt even said love decided let part go saw kissing another guy snap feel like give find someone not leave delivered not relationship people | non-suicide |
feel like dying againi struggled suicidal thought since getting harder fight older get taking trip new york city soon keep reoccurring thought jump bridge not happy working hard year get point least content not not like life made many mistake life downward spiral long remember every time think thing not get worse younger willing anything get situation ended place not leave not want not want life hate friend extended family job education skill hobby day filled thing pas time hopefully distract much hate life not know better not know not depression anxious entire life even medication not help point trying anymore never get better | suicide |
someone please talk distract alone scared | suicide |
people not seem talk much damage black life matter rioter done nation yes black life indeed matter people seriously need say fucking happened police killed one person fucking may yes terrible act police george floyd got justice cop involved killing arrested nd degree murder people car destroyed building lit fire people heave died etc etc would bet month happening protester rioter killed black people cop notice state protest really bad covid hotspot yeah lot protester fault people leaving country country possibly corrupt government safety people fucking unforgiving fucking asshole hate every cell goddamned body | non-suicide |
anyone else get sad bored nothing feel like would pretty common would not know swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag swag | non-suicide |
looking feedback ap bio hello high school business incubator program four others created free website help ap student find best study resource recently added ap biology looking feedback anyone willing test look ap bio resource give u feedback help u improve lot website geniushub co want help u not want make account please pm set free beta tester profile feedback much appreciated link form | non-suicide |
bruh one friend got busted brass knuckle gram weed felony tracker chip moral story please please not illegal shit not work good anyone end | non-suicide |
makeout make problem | non-suicide |
isolated not expect people funeral read online today burglar got stabbed death uk people funeral not criminal pretty ironic get handful people mine anyone bother turning friend sister parent since two real friend live abroad funeral mirror life always pretty much abandoned alone | suicide |
daysit soon little six week | suicide |
nothing better balanced day hour school hour homework hour sleep | non-suicide |
completely spent spent whole day told thing doctor told countless time past year two day ago standing bridge ready jump not friend driving past would dead honestly not scare anymore every time get like pick back medication counselling like band aid bullet wound pointless temporary not want go whole life mental health care not keep draining way much | suicide |
entire life fucked every holei not even explain bad situation right thing taken turn worse one vent one talk never felt alone not believe life not change not goddamn thing worried sick day night friend suicidal sad thing not help situation really bad not even help direction support passion purpose going poor rest life not go college not afford not even want anything tried get help realize one solve problem one get job pay livable wage really want end tonight not much convincing stop | suicide |
first post site minute said first post also suicidal almost every day year hospitalized several time although creme de la creme depression year old son committed suicide may son feel like nothing empty pit inside sometimes totally numb seeing counselor finally kind embarrassing though since degree psychology feel like mechanic taking car mechanic shop smh anyway felt like not hurt right anyway grown daughter grandchild live different state never see besides daughter think son death not even close oh side note dad also shot killed year ago thanks reading praying sending good vibe | suicide |
award stupid mean like hate emojis yet actually paying technically use never fucking buy coin award ever | non-suicide |
going sleep blow phone reverse psychology not going work wadaya mean bunch idiot | non-suicide |
friend lmao not know put put | non-suicide |
feeling done life rnno friend family care nothing emptiness happiness smile fake emotion thinking ending soon tried not work not even kill right not anything right | suicide |
not know long keep going every day want live le le got lot assignment due | suicide |
boy ask hang watch anime together platonically like guy class said wanted invite watch anime together could friend way mean interest | non-suicide |
hate woman muchi hate every single woman hate woman not see one feel like die included like since kid tried dozen time act like guy ugly enough boy would never try flirt teenager would go sweatshirt every fucking day c f brazil people would never see female body feeling never really female friend closest one got trans girl met hormone therapy today not even talk anyways male friend life lot time would make feel worse love video game best place found talk around men lot never ever talked girl life not matter hideous manly try act would still fall love fucking pussy leave many group friend tried help guy playing video game ended jerking voice call cute voice one class stalked hard failed exam school dropped father assaulted not fucking forget much happened none would even happen boy would fucking hideous piece shit never talked girl would not lose everyone fall love would not stalked assaulted abused not get not matter try blame men thing reality really hate woman make thing even worse friend say poor want could sell female quality men like egirls vtubers would money would totally not handle anymore feel sad everytime open twitter facebook see woman exists men fetish like game anime movie remember everything happened see woman way stupid not even blame behaviour accept fault exist woman | suicide |
use rolling pin stretch asian penis asian small asian penis filipino specifically white black friend alike call filipenis bust nut one friend said nut make weird peeing noise peenoise called play word pinoy said cum lot ashamed filipenis stretch inch half thick inch long remember not know update later parent asleep get hand ruler measuring tape | non-suicide |
would like answer ques write dm many want one one conversation | non-suicide |
point try fighting effort always vain not fit world struggled much finish high school end exhausted drop college lost ability concentrate not even read spend minute trying read comprehend one page im absolutely terrible socialising idea say someone trying talk neither family friend not work useful skill every time try pick new activity mess never something well life live suffer decade | suicide |
matter good something becomes bad eventually becomes never seems good applies nearly every single thing u sad teenager applies much friendship relationship even relationship not end breaking apart actually keep going getting better old text memory almost certainly could look back miss something simple conversation used not anymore way used talk text maybe thing even slightly different much simple thing change time really usually not fun thanks coming ted talk | non-suicide |
anyone religious trauma kid growing christian home exposed mostly moderate thing absolutely terrified hell would go not believe bible honestly kept night reached around certain age started growing skeptical claim religion made reject religious claim skeptical | non-suicide |
confused day ago another app people probably not know got argument friend met started made post saying top user time going made posted figured move turn friend not agree placement mad not make list not even fucking matter first place minute argument one said fuck bro posting face bitch as posted may not seem like big deal not want face internet random people whatever want make edits share friend post somewhere else etc immediately posted started laughing calling clown rubbing face damn well knowing not like face people not know decided block go back later next day got banned people blaming way app also make multiple account probably worst thing could fucking done everyone hated made post calling clown explaining side yet everyone said lying cussing shit bad later day made account saw post started attacking got another argument day done blocked figured end later night conversation really close friend said back would not leave brings u today today started waking banned alt went said banned thought tried go look one close friend profile kept saying blocked not know provoked really sad good friend made alt messaged saying sorry whatever immediately sent message blocked account giving explanation wicked confused hell blocked still clue tf hour go look back phone really close friend made like different cryptic post clearly shot not know wtf proved not fucking know messaged asking meant gave whack as answer going listen opinion going listen think said listen think said good found answer made sense not know even related posted taking shot ik shit sound petty trust super fucking confused even happening lost friend acting like prick not want anything anymore seems lost least one close friend idek blocked meanwhile took shot seemingly reason sorry probably wasted time not anyone else talk lmao | non-suicide |
animali using live chat lot woman sexual stuff like porn like twerking posing know need go back porn stayed clean porn year helped somewhat also not really help like help nofap guy animal going binge die closest get sex since real girl quick shame like | suicide |
finally got gf would not know though not exist | non-suicide |
feel suicidali not felt quite like minute going lot last week came medication feeling bpd symptom back vengeance really hard time even making day feel beyond overwhelmed everything going feeling not feel like tell anyone not know stay really high try tone thought sometimes not enough sleeping lot started cutting help feel like digging hole deeper feel like one care feel like not connect anyone anymore try make meaningful relationship fail feel like annoyance everyone burden anyone get involved emotionally desperate vulnerable disgust feel embarrassed ashamed even exist wish could die verge tear day pretty much unable make eye contact anyone know absolutely horrible thanks reading post | suicide |
nothingseems like nothing really excites except letting world know disgusted nothing matter anymore everything contradiction really not feel like living anymore lot friend feel alone achieved thing not enough | suicide |
tried kill today back december tried kill twice pill train pill not work week later walked couple mile railroad track outside town cemetery waited cold hour train never came ended calling suicide hotline sheriff come pick take hospital spent day psych ward till kicked christmas eve put week notice job year move back home dad house get away drug violence town moved high school fallen bad crowd town used weed self medicate became stoner stopped smoking went hospital luckily able pas drug test got job walgreens mile dad house hated job worked day stopped going work stopped taking med waited cold chill midwest stop could go track kill waited old railroad tie drinking tall boy brought waiting train ended missing first train went could not get track fast enough walked little waited bridge another train come never walked home not even know anymore guess tomorrow check hospital not really want kill hate life not want live anymore not know anymore | suicide |
probably not considering cheated leaving rightfully staring loaded gauge coffee table first mean disrespect people dealt much harder problem however feel like considering would like talk someone anonymously lost someone took life year ago know serious not really know else say think may answer anybody else dealt result guilt something done would like hear thanks | suicide |
would anyone mind commenting something nice please want please comment something nice commentors know one know need generic positivity give would mean lot thanks advance | suicide |
not know want die not feel really nothing anymore numb ever thought suicide not want die want happy not see future day numbered thought getting worse would easy die pain | suicide |
not even drunk get mad talk try cut still feel damn isolated anyone know drive insane gun could pull trigger night tortute living everyday chronic pain feeling dpression give nothing try pull point id one end day alugh talk | suicide |
pretty sure going die couple day okay feel happy relieved right goodbye thing wanted | suicide |
zombie peaked bo bo best zombie cod people think otherwise blinded nastalgia not played entirety | non-suicide |
hurt one care born hatedi community group society see joke not taken seriously freak everyone call mentally ill crazy reality ignorant not bad person not anything anyone yet everyone act like effect life not mention fake statistic keep spewed magical world choice born definitely would not wanted done nothing wrong apparently existing bad wish bad crazy way treated talked would justified | suicide |
thing stopping mom friendsi pretty sure depression though not diagnosed college ever since high school always fucking least one class not final since class project based not gone class week would take miracle pas hate actually really like professor enjoyed class even still found blowing not work point would point gun make contact professor scared ashamed not know say routinely fantasize either hanging blowing brain reason not mom older brother killed not want make go not want hurt friend rest family not know know want life not know not going keep fucking anything not even stuff enjoy much le part class degree job anything actively dislike hate even literally classmate would love dad nice job engineer not rich never worried next meal coming middle high school block public housing several classmate live one homeless middle school younger molested sexually abused not sure happened find room talking something else not feel like close good enough friend pry traumatic shit like going college full ride older brother double majoring full ride everyone else life going place fuckup stuff going still ruining pretty sure end homeless person always talk cautionary tale know guy working dead end minimum wage job probably former though latter least hold job hate not know not kill not really mean capable ruining life though honestly not know making feel like jackass fishing sympathy | suicide |
know girl still interested month contact not phone number social basically quaratine girl would show sign liked not really friend aquitances covid came school closed school going allow u go building likely not come since everyone choice come school not come though know like still friend class way | non-suicide |
think come term life always miserablei worthless loser never get girlfriend eats alive heard whole got happy happy somebody else spiel many time tried lot focus not get rid pain not girlfriend obvious never able accept matter matter say not going believe whole learn love thing truly feel like destiny life nothing suffering suffered year molded not try girl anymore know waste time life going shit point keeping going | suicide |
funni not mean able joke making fun someone something work sometimes come mean sometimes help | non-suicide |
abcabcabcif anyone care still feel like shit still want die still edit not anymore jsut meaning tried long tired try anymroe sorry eveyrone talked nice sorry let ahve let | suicide |
suicide hotlinei need call hotline scared call police anybody know contact police every call somebody immediate danger also help not worth time | suicide |
cut myselfi know sound cliche love girl confessed feeling not feel way depression entire life thought could save never felt way anyone forever way guess always going alone cut feel empty without tried distract month nothing work | suicide |
blue haired girl take shit seriously amp xb joke taken context | non-suicide |
watch movie sleep right watch movie sleep right | non-suicide |
fucking donemy dad night irrational hypocrite not fucking idea talking hurt deeply nicest guy day fucking done bullshit give problem family get shit get one argument right mom not say anything fight not mention brother sister rewarded fucking shit stirrer friend not give fuck punching bag not deserve would not care disappeared grandparent thing keeping afloat ship sinking rapidly want end done unforgiving world hate bullshit want | suicide |