JackBAI/bert_pretrain_datasets · Datasets at Hugging Face

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`` 'night . ''
`` goodnight . ''
i walk back upstairs with the phone number burning a hole in my pocket .
it 's amazing to me that i 've gone from being almost sure that pierce is lying , to feeling like i 've betrayed his trust in the span of one short conversation with him .
is he telling the truth , or does he just possess a consummate politician 's ability to spin the story for himself ?
i get ready for bed slowly , my mind wandering uncontrollably .
before this summer , i felt sure of things in my life .
sure of my ideas and opinions .
sure that i was right .
but i feel less and less sure of myself the longer i stay in this house .
just as i finish brushing my teeth , i hear a thud from the hallway , then a groan .
that sounded like nate .
with a frown , i open my bedroom door .
sure enough , there 's nate , lying on the carpet just outside his own room .
i hesitate , realizing i 'm wearing my little nightgown , but figure he 's seen me in it already .
`` nate ?
are you ok ?
what happened ? ''
i murmur , hurrying to kneel next to him .
the whiff of alcohol coming off of him gives it away before he says anything .
`` i 'm so drunk , brynn , '' he says , beginning to laugh .
`` shhh , you 'll wake up our parents , '' i admonish him .
`` why are you on the floor ? ''
`` tripped .
on my own foot , '' he replies with a sigh .
`` well , come on , get up , '' i order him , sliding a hand under his torso to pull him upward .
he slowly obeys and stands on his feet , where he sways dangerously .
`` ok , now in here , '' i continue , pushing his bedroom door open with my foot as i slide an arm around his back to stabilize him .
i feel his muscles clench under his t-shirt as we walk .
not the time , brynn .
`` shoes off , '' i order him as we reach the bed .
`` mmm , '' he grunts , as he kicks them off .
`` i 'm getting you some water .
do n't move . ''
i hurry back to my bedroom and grab my water glass from the bedside table , then refill it from the tap in my bathroom before heading back to his room .
i shut the door behind me to keep the noise from filtering around the house , then stop in surprise as i see that nate has stripped down to his boxers and is standing at the foot of his bed .
`` thanks , '' he slurs , as i hesitantly walk forward and hand him the water .
i watch him gulp the whole glass down , the grey moonlight from the window illuminating his ripped torso .
he puts the glass down on his desk and wipes his mouth with the back of his hand as he sways slightly .
`` you alright ? ''
i ask worriedly .
`` i 've never seen you drunk before . ''
`` do n't really drink .
no time .
work , practice , work , game . ''
`` and i thought i was the nerd , '' i tease him .
`` you 're funny , '' he says , cocking his head slightly , then takes a step toward me .
`` nate ... '' i say as my core clenches .
`` yes , brynn ? ''
he asks innocently .
`` you said this was wrong .
those were your words , '' i remind him .
`` do you think it 's wrong ? ''
he takes another step toward me , and looks down at me .
`` i- '' his hand reaches around my waist .
`` does it feel wrong ? ''
`` yes ... no , '' i breathe .
i barely have time to inhale before his mouth is on mine .
his mouth tastes like whiskey , but i do n't care .
i wrap my hands around his neck and he grabs my ass with both hands , our kiss picking up right where our last one broke off .
i dig my fingers into his hair as our mouths open to one another .
he pulls me roughly against him and groans deep in his throat as our bodies collide .
suddenly he stumbles back , steadying himself on my shoulders .
`` sorry , '' he whispers , shaking his head as though to clear it .
`` will you just stay with me for a while ? ''
`` yes , of course , '' i reply immediately , even though i 'm taken aback by his request .
i watch him turn to his bed and crawl over to his pillow , then curl up on his side and look at me expectantly .
i pause , then follow him , crawling across the bedspread and curling around his back .
i bury my head between his shoulder blades then drape my arm over his waist , and feel him take my hand in his and pull me closer against him .
i lie as still as i can , barely breathing .
i ca n't believe he 's letting me touch him like this .
well , he is wasted , but still .
i never thought he 'd be so vulnerable around me .
i hear his breathing deepen .
`` i 've always looked up to him , '' he murmurs , startling me .
`` i know , '' i whisper back , knowing that he 's talking about his dad .
`` i do n't know what i would do if he- '' `` i know , '' i murmur , softly kissing the back of his neck .
he stills on his pillow , and his breathing slows down again .
i stay with him for a while , until i know he 's asleep .
i need to understand nate 's feelings about his mother before i tell him what she told me .
his world is already falling apart around him , and i do n't want to make it happen faster .
i sigh .
i should probably go back to my room .
i turn over with a sigh and frown .
my sheets feel different , and the light coming in from the window is much too bright .
i blink my eyes open and then sit up with a gasp .
i 'm in nate 's room .
`` it 's ok. '' i glance up to see nate sitting at his desk with a glass of water , his tousled hair sticking out at odd angles .
`` they left early this morning for meetings .
your door is closed , so they thought you were still asleep in there . ''
`` oh , good , '' i reply .
i realize my nightgown is riding dangerously high on my thigh and pull up the sheet self-consciously .
`` coffee , '' nate says , pointing to the bedside table next to me .
i glance over and see he 's placed a steaming cup there .
`` cream and one sugar , right ? ''
`` yeah , thanks , '' i reply , reaching for it .
`` sorry about last night .
i do n't remember anything after i got home . ''
i smile even though i 'm disappointed that he does n't remember the kiss .
`` you were drunk , and just asked me to stay here for a bit .

`` 'night . ''

`` goodnight . ''

i walk back upstairs with the phone number burning a hole in my pocket .

it 's amazing to me that i 've gone from being almost sure that pierce is lying , to feeling like i 've betrayed his trust in the span of one short conversation with him .

is he telling the truth , or does he just possess a consummate politician 's ability to spin the story for himself ?

i get ready for bed slowly , my mind wandering uncontrollably .

before this summer , i felt sure of things in my life .

sure of my ideas and opinions .

sure that i was right .

but i feel less and less sure of myself the longer i stay in this house .

just as i finish brushing my teeth , i hear a thud from the hallway , then a groan .

that sounded like nate .

with a frown , i open my bedroom door .

sure enough , there 's nate , lying on the carpet just outside his own room .

i hesitate , realizing i 'm wearing my little nightgown , but figure he 's seen me in it already .

`` nate ?

are you ok ?

what happened ? ''

i murmur , hurrying to kneel next to him .

the whiff of alcohol coming off of him gives it away before he says anything .

`` i 'm so drunk , brynn , '' he says , beginning to laugh .

`` shhh , you 'll wake up our parents , '' i admonish him .

`` why are you on the floor ? ''

`` tripped .

on my own foot , '' he replies with a sigh .

`` well , come on , get up , '' i order him , sliding a hand under his torso to pull him upward .

he slowly obeys and stands on his feet , where he sways dangerously .

`` ok , now in here , '' i continue , pushing his bedroom door open with my foot as i slide an arm around his back to stabilize him .

i feel his muscles clench under his t-shirt as we walk .

not the time , brynn .

`` shoes off , '' i order him as we reach the bed .

`` mmm , '' he grunts , as he kicks them off .

`` i 'm getting you some water .

do n't move . ''

i hurry back to my bedroom and grab my water glass from the bedside table , then refill it from the tap in my bathroom before heading back to his room .

i shut the door behind me to keep the noise from filtering around the house , then stop in surprise as i see that nate has stripped down to his boxers and is standing at the foot of his bed .

`` thanks , '' he slurs , as i hesitantly walk forward and hand him the water .

i watch him gulp the whole glass down , the grey moonlight from the window illuminating his ripped torso .

he puts the glass down on his desk and wipes his mouth with the back of his hand as he sways slightly .

`` you alright ? ''

i ask worriedly .

`` i 've never seen you drunk before . ''

`` do n't really drink .

no time .

work , practice , work , game . ''

`` and i thought i was the nerd , '' i tease him .

`` you 're funny , '' he says , cocking his head slightly , then takes a step toward me .

`` nate ... '' i say as my core clenches .

`` yes , brynn ? ''

he asks innocently .

`` you said this was wrong .

those were your words , '' i remind him .

`` do you think it 's wrong ? ''

he takes another step toward me , and looks down at me .

`` i- '' his hand reaches around my waist .

`` does it feel wrong ? ''

`` yes ... no , '' i breathe .

i barely have time to inhale before his mouth is on mine .

his mouth tastes like whiskey , but i do n't care .

i wrap my hands around his neck and he grabs my ass with both hands , our kiss picking up right where our last one broke off .

i dig my fingers into his hair as our mouths open to one another .

he pulls me roughly against him and groans deep in his throat as our bodies collide .

suddenly he stumbles back , steadying himself on my shoulders .

`` sorry , '' he whispers , shaking his head as though to clear it .

`` will you just stay with me for a while ? ''

`` yes , of course , '' i reply immediately , even though i 'm taken aback by his request .

i watch him turn to his bed and crawl over to his pillow , then curl up on his side and look at me expectantly .

i pause , then follow him , crawling across the bedspread and curling around his back .

i bury my head between his shoulder blades then drape my arm over his waist , and feel him take my hand in his and pull me closer against him .

i lie as still as i can , barely breathing .

i ca n't believe he 's letting me touch him like this .

well , he is wasted , but still .

i never thought he 'd be so vulnerable around me .

i hear his breathing deepen .

`` i 've always looked up to him , '' he murmurs , startling me .

`` i know , '' i whisper back , knowing that he 's talking about his dad .

`` i do n't know what i would do if he- '' `` i know , '' i murmur , softly kissing the back of his neck .

he stills on his pillow , and his breathing slows down again .

i stay with him for a while , until i know he 's asleep .

i need to understand nate 's feelings about his mother before i tell him what she told me .

his world is already falling apart around him , and i do n't want to make it happen faster .

i sigh .

i should probably go back to my room .

i turn over with a sigh and frown .

my sheets feel different , and the light coming in from the window is much too bright .

i blink my eyes open and then sit up with a gasp .

i 'm in nate 's room .

`` it 's ok. '' i glance up to see nate sitting at his desk with a glass of water , his tousled hair sticking out at odd angles .

`` they left early this morning for meetings .

your door is closed , so they thought you were still asleep in there . ''

`` oh , good , '' i reply .

i realize my nightgown is riding dangerously high on my thigh and pull up the sheet self-consciously .

`` coffee , '' nate says , pointing to the bedside table next to me .

i glance over and see he 's placed a steaming cup there .

`` cream and one sugar , right ? ''

`` yeah , thanks , '' i reply , reaching for it .

`` sorry about last night .

i do n't remember anything after i got home . ''

i smile even though i 'm disappointed that he does n't remember the kiss .

`` you were drunk , and just asked me to stay here for a bit .