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my eyes widen as i taste myself on his lips and he pushes his tongue inside me with abandon .
`` i 'm going to make you feel so fucking good , '' he promises with a wicked smile , undoing his belt buckle and unzipping his pants in one fluid motion before pushing them and his boxers to the ground .
i gape at his massive cock as it 's unsheathed from his underwear .
its size snaps me back to the reality of what 's about to happen , and i feel overcome with fear and adrenalin ... but i ca n't take my eyes off it .
i want to feel him inside of me so much , but i think there 's one thing i need to tell him first .
he bites his lip and moves against me again .
i can feel his cock , throbbing and ready , against my stomach .
he wraps his arms around me , and eases me back onto the bed and lays on top of me , kissing my neck .
`` nate ... i ... i have to tell you ... '' i murmur , his mouth a complete distraction .
`` mmm , whatever it is , it does n't matter now , '' he replies , biting my earlobe .
`` it might , though .
i just thought i should tell you , or warn you maybe , in case i 'm not very good- '' `` i doubt that- '' `` i 'm a virgin . ''
i feel his body stiffen as the words cross my lips .
he pulls back and looks me in the eye .
`` what ?
no .
no way . ''
i nod .
`` but it 's ok .
i want to do this . ''
`` how ... how are you a virgin ? ''
oh , dear .
this is not the kind of conversation i want to have right now .
`` i do n't know , i just am .
it just has n't happened yet , but i 'm ready now . ''
i assure him .
`` but you 've ... you must have done some things ... '' he begins worriedly .
`` yeah , sure , you know , kissing ... '' `` and ?
wait , was that the first time anyone 's ever gone down on you ? ''
i can only shrug .
`` i did n't think it would be that big of a deal .
i just was telling you , in case i 'm not that good , or if i bleed or something . ''
he rolls off of me and sits up .
shit .
`` brynn , it is a big deal , it 's a very big deal to me . ''
`` i do n't understand ... '' i reply , sitting up and pulling the sheet over to cover me , suddenly feeling very self-conscious .
`` it 's just , your first time ... it 's going to mean a lot to you . ''
`` so ? ''
i say , confused .
he spreads his hands open on his legs but does n't say anything .
i feel a sensation like a rock sinking to the bottom of my stomach .
`` oh ... you 're saying it will mean a lot to me , but it wo n't mean a lot to you . ''
i stare straight forward as he turns to me .
`` brynn , you 're smart , gorgeous , funny , ambitious ... you 're wonderful ... but like i told you before , i do n't lie to women and say that i 'm interested in something more when i 'm not . ''
`` i guess i forgot about your policy , '' i reply flatly , feeling like the biggest idiot in the world .
the biggest naked idiot in the world .
`` could you ... could you close your eyes ? ''
`` brynn , i 've seen- '' `` just close them , ok ? ''
i glance at him to make sure he 's complied , and then stand up and begin to gather my clothes from the floor .
i slip everything back on as quickly as i can , and then look back at him .
his eyes are closed , and he 's sitting nude and perfectly still on the edge of the bed .
he looks as perfect as i 've ever seen him look , which is really saying something .
my heart breaks a little , as i move to the door and shut it behind me .
i hurry down the hall and into my own bedroom , which now feels cold and empty .
i crawl into bed without bothering to take off my clothes and pull the covers over me .
i 'm no different to nate thornhill than any of the other girls he 's been with , and i should have known that .
stupid , stupid , stupid .
i hear a soft knock at the door and pull the covers up a little higher , but do n't answer .
if it 's my mom , i do n't want to see her , and if it 's nate , i really do n't want to see him .
there 's another knock , a little louder , and then the door is slowly pushed open .
i can just see nate 's shadow in the moonlight .
he closes the door behind him and moves into the room .
to my surprise , he walks around the foot of my bed and to the other side , then hops on , lying down over the covers next to me .
`` i 'm sorry , '' he whispers , laying his hands over his stomach .
`` you do n't have to apologize .
you were just being honest . ''
`` no , i think i do .
and i 'll stop interfering with you and other guys . ''
i clear my throat to keep the pain down .
`` good . ''
`` i do n't really have female friends ... '' he says .
`` dana ? ''
`` dana and i are , well , fuck buddies , mostly .
and that 's what she wants , too , so it 's ok. '' `` mmm . ''
`` but i 'd ... i 'd like us to be friends . ''
`` we 're already step-siblings , '' i point out .
i can hear him smile next to me .
`` true .
but that was n't by choice . ''
he pauses .
`` i like you .
i ca n't deny that i 'm attracted to you , of course , but i 'm just not the relationship kind of guy .
not to mention the kind of issues that dating my own stepsister would bring up . ''
he sighs .
`` so can we be friends ? ''
i consider for a moment .
if i 'm nate 's only female friend , then i really am different to him .
maybe not in the way i 'd most like , but still , it 's something .
`` ok. friends , then .
wait , actually , '' i turn onto my side and face him .
`` before we 're officially friends , i have to ask you some non-friend questions . ''
`` ok ... '' he replies warily , turning on his side , too .
`` was i ... am i ... ok at all that stuff ?
you know ... '' he laughs .
`` what we just did , you mean ?
yes .
you are more than ok at it . ''
i smile .
`` when did you lose your virginity ? ''
`` when i was fourteen . ''

my eyes widen as i taste myself on his lips and he pushes his tongue inside me with abandon .

`` i 'm going to make you feel so fucking good , '' he promises with a wicked smile , undoing his belt buckle and unzipping his pants in one fluid motion before pushing them and his boxers to the ground .

i gape at his massive cock as it 's unsheathed from his underwear .

its size snaps me back to the reality of what 's about to happen , and i feel overcome with fear and adrenalin ... but i ca n't take my eyes off it .

i want to feel him inside of me so much , but i think there 's one thing i need to tell him first .

he bites his lip and moves against me again .

i can feel his cock , throbbing and ready , against my stomach .

he wraps his arms around me , and eases me back onto the bed and lays on top of me , kissing my neck .

`` nate ... i ... i have to tell you ... '' i murmur , his mouth a complete distraction .

`` mmm , whatever it is , it does n't matter now , '' he replies , biting my earlobe .

`` it might , though .

i just thought i should tell you , or warn you maybe , in case i 'm not very good- '' `` i doubt that- '' `` i 'm a virgin . ''

i feel his body stiffen as the words cross my lips .

he pulls back and looks me in the eye .

`` what ?

no .

no way . ''

i nod .

`` but it 's ok .

i want to do this . ''

`` how ... how are you a virgin ? ''

oh , dear .

this is not the kind of conversation i want to have right now .

`` i do n't know , i just am .

it just has n't happened yet , but i 'm ready now . ''

i assure him .

`` but you 've ... you must have done some things ... '' he begins worriedly .

`` yeah , sure , you know , kissing ... '' `` and ?

wait , was that the first time anyone 's ever gone down on you ? ''

i can only shrug .

`` i did n't think it would be that big of a deal .

i just was telling you , in case i 'm not that good , or if i bleed or something . ''

he rolls off of me and sits up .

shit .

`` brynn , it is a big deal , it 's a very big deal to me . ''

`` i do n't understand ... '' i reply , sitting up and pulling the sheet over to cover me , suddenly feeling very self-conscious .

`` it 's just , your first time ... it 's going to mean a lot to you . ''

`` so ? ''

i say , confused .

he spreads his hands open on his legs but does n't say anything .

i feel a sensation like a rock sinking to the bottom of my stomach .

`` oh ... you 're saying it will mean a lot to me , but it wo n't mean a lot to you . ''

i stare straight forward as he turns to me .

`` brynn , you 're smart , gorgeous , funny , ambitious ... you 're wonderful ... but like i told you before , i do n't lie to women and say that i 'm interested in something more when i 'm not . ''

`` i guess i forgot about your policy , '' i reply flatly , feeling like the biggest idiot in the world .

the biggest naked idiot in the world .

`` could you ... could you close your eyes ? ''

`` brynn , i 've seen- '' `` just close them , ok ? ''

i glance at him to make sure he 's complied , and then stand up and begin to gather my clothes from the floor .

i slip everything back on as quickly as i can , and then look back at him .

his eyes are closed , and he 's sitting nude and perfectly still on the edge of the bed .

he looks as perfect as i 've ever seen him look , which is really saying something .

my heart breaks a little , as i move to the door and shut it behind me .

i hurry down the hall and into my own bedroom , which now feels cold and empty .

i crawl into bed without bothering to take off my clothes and pull the covers over me .

i 'm no different to nate thornhill than any of the other girls he 's been with , and i should have known that .

stupid , stupid , stupid .

i hear a soft knock at the door and pull the covers up a little higher , but do n't answer .

if it 's my mom , i do n't want to see her , and if it 's nate , i really do n't want to see him .

there 's another knock , a little louder , and then the door is slowly pushed open .

i can just see nate 's shadow in the moonlight .

he closes the door behind him and moves into the room .

to my surprise , he walks around the foot of my bed and to the other side , then hops on , lying down over the covers next to me .

`` i 'm sorry , '' he whispers , laying his hands over his stomach .

`` you do n't have to apologize .

you were just being honest . ''

`` no , i think i do .

and i 'll stop interfering with you and other guys . ''

i clear my throat to keep the pain down .

`` good . ''

`` i do n't really have female friends ... '' he says .

`` dana ? ''

`` dana and i are , well , fuck buddies , mostly .

and that 's what she wants , too , so it 's ok. '' `` mmm . ''

`` but i 'd ... i 'd like us to be friends . ''

`` we 're already step-siblings , '' i point out .

i can hear him smile next to me .

`` true .

but that was n't by choice . ''

he pauses .

`` i like you .

i ca n't deny that i 'm attracted to you , of course , but i 'm just not the relationship kind of guy .

not to mention the kind of issues that dating my own stepsister would bring up . ''

he sighs .

`` so can we be friends ? ''

i consider for a moment .

if i 'm nate 's only female friend , then i really am different to him .

maybe not in the way i 'd most like , but still , it 's something .

`` ok. friends , then .

wait , actually , '' i turn onto my side and face him .

`` before we 're officially friends , i have to ask you some non-friend questions . ''

`` ok ... '' he replies warily , turning on his side , too .

`` was i ... am i ... ok at all that stuff ?

you know ... '' he laughs .

`` what we just did , you mean ?

yes .

you are more than ok at it . ''

i smile .

`` when did you lose your virginity ? ''

`` when i was fourteen . ''