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it was n't the song from the other night , this one was slow and dreamy , with a catchy little lilt to it that made me want to strain to hear the words since she was singing so low .
`` sing louder princess i wan na hear you . ''
she turned wide eyes to me and looked down at her feet .
`` i 'm not really good at that . ''
`` come again . ''
`` i mean i 've learned how to control my fear somewhat before i go out on stage , but i ca n't really sing in front of anyone just like that . ''
`` so how do you do it ? ''
'my manager gives me these pills ... '' i did n't like the sounds of that one bit .
`` what kind of pills ? ''
i lowered my glass and looked at her .
`` it 's nothing bad , just something to calm my anxiety . ''
`` is there a prescription ? ''
`` no nothing like that , i never even asked him where he gets them ... '' `` do you have them with you now ? ''
`` no why ? ''
she looked at me quizzically . ''
`` i 'll just like to have a look at them that 's all , make sure they 're okay . ''
`` oh i 'm sure they 're fine doug would never do anything to hurt me . ''
`` so you have the pills back at your place ? ''
`` no , doug keeps them with him , he gives me one before each performance or sometimes when i have to go on one of those talk shows .
looks like i was gon na have to have a talk with her manager .
she was so f**king green , i was sure it would never cross her mind to question anything the man did .
though i did n't know him personally , i 'm a businessman and i know all about the bottom line .
her voice is like liquid gold , i 'm sure dear old doug would do anything to see that nothing got in the way of her making them money .
that was something else i was gon na have to look into as well .
when i 'd made the decision to own her , everything that she is became my responsibility .
there might be some friction because i 've noticed that she has a bit of an independent streak , but i had no intentions on letting that stop me .
though i 'd save it for another time , nothing was going to mar the night for us .
`` voila , dinner is ready . ''
she seemed nervous as she served me , and then herself .
i closed my eyes with the first taste of the succulent lamb .
`` wow , where did you learn to cook like this ? ''
`` my mom taught me and i love watching the cooking channel , you really like it ? ''
i took another bite and it was good as the first .
nodding my head i leaned over and pecked her lips .
`` it 's amazing princess , wow . ''
i kept the conversation light over dinner , asking her more about life on tour and what she enjoyed most about her fame .
as far as i could tell she was more interested in the singing than anything else .
`` um , trace , you were n't serious about that ovulating thing were you ? ''
i 'd almost forgotten about that , still was n't quite sure what had possessed me to think of it much less say it .
but now that she 'd asked me outright ... `` as a matter of fact i am .
it 's crazy i know , and if one of my colleagues had come to me with this story i would tell him he 's crazy .
i have no explanation for it , the reality is that from the moment i saw you up on that stage something inside me shifted . ''
`` i find myself reverting back to childhood , to a time when i had to scrounge for every scrap i wanted or needed .
when i became successful , i promised myself that i 'd never go hungry again , and not just for food , but for any of those things i 'd longed for as a child , or anything my heart may desire as an adult . ''
`` you 're the first thing my heart 's ever desired .
i 've known wants before do n't get me wrong , but this , this is different .
this goes beyond my own comprehension .
like i told you before , this past weekend was about getting to know each other and i 've gotten to know you .
you would n't have come home with me had you not felt some of what i was feeling .
i also know that you 're more about hearth and home than the night life . ''
i did n't tell her that i knew that 's why she 'd stayed with the ass**le who 'd ended up cheating on her .
i 'd done some research after she was less than forthcoming about the reason for their split .
it was n't a known fact as yet but i had my ways of finding out things .
i wo n't tell her that i knew though ; it was her story to tell if and when she was ready .
i did know that if i ever ran into the little prick , i was gon na beat the crap out of him for putting his hands on her though .
it did n't matter that i did n't even know her when it happened , it 's just the way i am , or at least it 's the way i seem to be where she 's concerned .
`` but a baby ?
we hardly even know each other . ''
`` i do n't think that whatever is going on here has anything to do with time and convention .
either way , it 's nothing to worry about now .
what 's done is done , and if it is n't , i 'm gon na make damn sure that it is .
the only problem is your upcoming tour , but i 'm sure people have performed while pregnant before . ''
`` do you know how crazy this all sounds ? ''
i shrugged my shoulders at her .
i thought it was crazy too in the beginning so i could n't fault her for having her own doubts .
it was crazy when you looked at it , but it 's what i felt and well ... `` i 'm sure there have been people who got married after only one day of meeting or maybe two .
i 'm even more sure that there are people who get pregnant after just one meeting .
look at this way ; at least we both know where we stand .
if the last few hours are anything to go by , we want each other more than a little bit and the bottom line is princess .
i want you , in my life , with me , no matter what .
so baby or no baby , you 've met your future , so i suggest you get used to the idea . ''
`` what if i had other plans ? ''
`` like i said , i 've gotten to know you , and all that aside , this is what i want baby .
as time goes on you 'll find that i never let anything stand in my way , nothing and no one .
dinner was delicious why do n't you go find us something to watch while i clean up ? ''
chapter 6 shiane i guess the conversation was over and what a strange one at that .
i headed out of the kitchen on wobbly legs for the tv room to find something to watch , though i really did n't have much interest .
my mind was awhirl with all the new things that were going on in my life .
in the space of a few short days , it seems my life had been turned upside down .
i find myself doing things that were totally outside the box for me .
but this latest was a lot to take in , though the thought of it made me hot .
trace was right .
i 've always only ever wanted to be a mother and a wife .
i 'd thought i would have that life with donnie , but was it possible to have it with this man that i 'd only just met ?
what if he was just saying these things because like he 'd said , he 'd come to know me and knew that 's just what i wanted to hear ?
how was it possible that he could want me like that after a chance meeting ?
i 'd spent some time today looking for any and everything i could find about him on the net .
the one thing that stood out except for his success as a businessman , was the fact that he had a different woman every couple of months .
had he used this same line on them ?
somehow , he did n't strike me as the type .
still , i had another worry .
the things he 'd made me feel .
how will i live without them if this was all just a game to him ?
he 'd made me feel things i never knew were in me .
my body has never reacted this way before , and even though his size was a little uncomfortable , the pain was more a pleasure-pain than a real hurt .
i felt myself creaming just thinking about it .
could a man really make love to a woman that much without some kind of feeling involved ?
what if it was just lust ?
i 'd seen pictures of some of the women he 'd dated in the past and i have to say some of them were drop dead gorgeous , including the last one he 'd been seen with a couple weeks ago .
the though caused me a moment 's doubt and i thought if ways to shield my heart this time , but i was afraid i might be too late .

it was n't the song from the other night , this one was slow and dreamy , with a catchy little lilt to it that made me want to strain to hear the words since she was singing so low .

`` sing louder princess i wan na hear you . ''

she turned wide eyes to me and looked down at her feet .

`` i 'm not really good at that . ''

`` come again . ''

`` i mean i 've learned how to control my fear somewhat before i go out on stage , but i ca n't really sing in front of anyone just like that . ''

`` so how do you do it ? ''

'my manager gives me these pills ... '' i did n't like the sounds of that one bit .

`` what kind of pills ? ''

i lowered my glass and looked at her .

`` it 's nothing bad , just something to calm my anxiety . ''

`` is there a prescription ? ''

`` no nothing like that , i never even asked him where he gets them ... '' `` do you have them with you now ? ''

`` no why ? ''

she looked at me quizzically . ''

`` i 'll just like to have a look at them that 's all , make sure they 're okay . ''

`` oh i 'm sure they 're fine doug would never do anything to hurt me . ''

`` so you have the pills back at your place ? ''

`` no , doug keeps them with him , he gives me one before each performance or sometimes when i have to go on one of those talk shows .

looks like i was gon na have to have a talk with her manager .

she was so f**king green , i was sure it would never cross her mind to question anything the man did .

though i did n't know him personally , i 'm a businessman and i know all about the bottom line .

her voice is like liquid gold , i 'm sure dear old doug would do anything to see that nothing got in the way of her making them money .

that was something else i was gon na have to look into as well .

when i 'd made the decision to own her , everything that she is became my responsibility .

there might be some friction because i 've noticed that she has a bit of an independent streak , but i had no intentions on letting that stop me .

though i 'd save it for another time , nothing was going to mar the night for us .

`` voila , dinner is ready . ''

she seemed nervous as she served me , and then herself .

i closed my eyes with the first taste of the succulent lamb .

`` wow , where did you learn to cook like this ? ''

`` my mom taught me and i love watching the cooking channel , you really like it ? ''

i took another bite and it was good as the first .

nodding my head i leaned over and pecked her lips .

`` it 's amazing princess , wow . ''

i kept the conversation light over dinner , asking her more about life on tour and what she enjoyed most about her fame .

as far as i could tell she was more interested in the singing than anything else .

`` um , trace , you were n't serious about that ovulating thing were you ? ''

i 'd almost forgotten about that , still was n't quite sure what had possessed me to think of it much less say it .

but now that she 'd asked me outright ... `` as a matter of fact i am .

it 's crazy i know , and if one of my colleagues had come to me with this story i would tell him he 's crazy .

i have no explanation for it , the reality is that from the moment i saw you up on that stage something inside me shifted . ''

`` i find myself reverting back to childhood , to a time when i had to scrounge for every scrap i wanted or needed .

when i became successful , i promised myself that i 'd never go hungry again , and not just for food , but for any of those things i 'd longed for as a child , or anything my heart may desire as an adult . ''

`` you 're the first thing my heart 's ever desired .

i 've known wants before do n't get me wrong , but this , this is different .

this goes beyond my own comprehension .

like i told you before , this past weekend was about getting to know each other and i 've gotten to know you .

you would n't have come home with me had you not felt some of what i was feeling .

i also know that you 're more about hearth and home than the night life . ''

i did n't tell her that i knew that 's why she 'd stayed with the ass**le who 'd ended up cheating on her .

i 'd done some research after she was less than forthcoming about the reason for their split .

it was n't a known fact as yet but i had my ways of finding out things .

i wo n't tell her that i knew though ; it was her story to tell if and when she was ready .

i did know that if i ever ran into the little prick , i was gon na beat the crap out of him for putting his hands on her though .

it did n't matter that i did n't even know her when it happened , it 's just the way i am , or at least it 's the way i seem to be where she 's concerned .

`` but a baby ?

we hardly even know each other . ''

`` i do n't think that whatever is going on here has anything to do with time and convention .

either way , it 's nothing to worry about now .

what 's done is done , and if it is n't , i 'm gon na make damn sure that it is .

the only problem is your upcoming tour , but i 'm sure people have performed while pregnant before . ''

`` do you know how crazy this all sounds ? ''

i shrugged my shoulders at her .

i thought it was crazy too in the beginning so i could n't fault her for having her own doubts .

it was crazy when you looked at it , but it 's what i felt and well ... `` i 'm sure there have been people who got married after only one day of meeting or maybe two .

i 'm even more sure that there are people who get pregnant after just one meeting .

look at this way ; at least we both know where we stand .

if the last few hours are anything to go by , we want each other more than a little bit and the bottom line is princess .

i want you , in my life , with me , no matter what .

so baby or no baby , you 've met your future , so i suggest you get used to the idea . ''

`` what if i had other plans ? ''

`` like i said , i 've gotten to know you , and all that aside , this is what i want baby .

as time goes on you 'll find that i never let anything stand in my way , nothing and no one .

dinner was delicious why do n't you go find us something to watch while i clean up ? ''

chapter 6 shiane i guess the conversation was over and what a strange one at that .

i headed out of the kitchen on wobbly legs for the tv room to find something to watch , though i really did n't have much interest .

my mind was awhirl with all the new things that were going on in my life .

in the space of a few short days , it seems my life had been turned upside down .

i find myself doing things that were totally outside the box for me .

but this latest was a lot to take in , though the thought of it made me hot .

trace was right .

i 've always only ever wanted to be a mother and a wife .

i 'd thought i would have that life with donnie , but was it possible to have it with this man that i 'd only just met ?

what if he was just saying these things because like he 'd said , he 'd come to know me and knew that 's just what i wanted to hear ?

how was it possible that he could want me like that after a chance meeting ?

i 'd spent some time today looking for any and everything i could find about him on the net .

the one thing that stood out except for his success as a businessman , was the fact that he had a different woman every couple of months .

had he used this same line on them ?

somehow , he did n't strike me as the type .

still , i had another worry .

the things he 'd made me feel .

how will i live without them if this was all just a game to him ?

he 'd made me feel things i never knew were in me .

my body has never reacted this way before , and even though his size was a little uncomfortable , the pain was more a pleasure-pain than a real hurt .

i felt myself creaming just thinking about it .

could a man really make love to a woman that much without some kind of feeling involved ?

what if it was just lust ?

i 'd seen pictures of some of the women he 'd dated in the past and i have to say some of them were drop dead gorgeous , including the last one he 'd been seen with a couple weeks ago .

the though caused me a moment 's doubt and i thought if ways to shield my heart this time , but i was afraid i might be too late .