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dr strange in ite gown and head bending over the steel table with its and then nurses holding and cotton and a thing just a chin and a of in the midst of which was a square of sallow flesh with a a little bloody at the edges from the a cluster of like clinging he ut the door with it may be that his repentance of the night and had not eaten in but this of ber who had been so shook him utterly and as he crouched again on the stool in the he swore faith to his wife i to to business to the to faith of the of good fellows thai a nurse was soothing au perfect she ll come out fine shell be out from the soon and you can see her he found h on a curious bed her face an yellow but her purple lips moving slightly then only did he really believe that she was alive she was muttering he bent and heard her sighing hard get real foe he laughed he beamed on the nurse and proudly confided think of her talking about by i m going to go order a hundred of it ri t from was out of the bo in seventeen days he went to see her each afternoon and in l they drifted b to i nt once he hinted something of his and the and she was by the view that a wicked woman had her poor george if once he had doubted his neighbors and the supreme charm of the good he was convinced now you didn t he noted see coming around with any oc dropping in to chat with the but mrs brought to tbe hospital her wine with real wine jones spent hours in picking out the kind of novels mrs liked � nice love stories about new york and a pink bed jacket and bis merry brown eyed of a wife the prettiest in all the stock of and all his friends ceased about him suspecting him at the they asked after her daily club members whose names be did not know stopped him to inquire how s your good lady getting on felt that ha was swinging from bleak down into the rich warm of a pleasant with cottages one noon suggested you planning to be at the hospital about six the wife and i ht we d drop in they did drop in was so humorous that mrs said he must stop making her laugh because honestly it was her as they passed down the hall demanded george old you were about something here a back i don t know why and it s none of my business but you seem to be feeling all again and why don t you come join us in tlie good citizens league old man we have some times together and we need your advice then did almost tearful with joy at being instead of at being permitted to stop fighting at being able to desert without his of himself cease utterly to be a domestic he patted s shoulder and n� ct day be became a of the good two weeks no one in the league was more violent regarding the wickedness of the crimes of labor the perils of and the delights of morality and bank accounts than was george f � i� chapter i xxiv i the good citizens league had spread through the country but nowhere was it so effective ana well esteemed as in cities of the type of commercial cities of a few hundred thousand inhabitants most of which � not all � lay inland against a background of and mines and of small towns which ended upon them for ge art social philosophy and to the league belonged most of the prosperous citizens of they were not all of the kind who called themselves regular besides these hearty fellows these r of prosperity there were the that is the who were richer or had been rich for more generations the of banks and of the land owners the lawyers the fashionable doctors and the few young old men who worked not at all but reluctantly remaining in collected ware and first as though they were back in paris all of them agreed that the must be kept in their place and all of them perceived that american did not imply any equality of wealth but did demand a wholesome of thought dress painting morals and in this they were like the ruling class of any other country particularly of great britain but they differed in being more vigorous and in actually trying to produce the accepted standards which all classes everywhere desire but usually despair of the longest struggle of the good citizens league was � b against the open sh � was secretly a struggle against all union labor it was an movement with evening c in and history and and daily article i in the newspapers so that newly arrived foreigners learn that the true blue and one hundred per cent w y of settling labor was for workmen to trust and love their en q the league was more than generous in which agreed its aims it be ed the y i ca to raise s two thousand fund for a new building and charles the at how great an foe manly the good old y had been in their own and the and mi ty r mb � ford snow of the advocate times was clasping the band of of the y m c a it is true that a when li ed you must come to one of oi t meeting the ferocious the hell would i do that for i ve got a bar of my bat this did not appear in the public prints league was of to tbe american at a time when certain of tbe lesser and
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of dame but what is worse having a of in her disposition showed it on one or two occasions to her lover which produced a downright quarrel and jack being very proud and fiery has absolutely turned his back upon her for several successive sundays the poor girl is full of sorrow and repentance and would fain make up with her lover but he feels his security and stands aloof in this he is doubtless encouraged by his mother who is continually reminding him what he owes to his family for this same family pride seems doomed to be the eternal of lovers as i hate to see a pretty face in trouble i have felt quite concerned for the ever since i heard her story it is a sad thing to be in love at any time but particularly so at this tender season of the love charms year when every living thing even to the very butterfly is sporting with its mate and the green fields and the groves and the singing of the birds and the sweet smell of the flowers are enough to turn the head of a love sick girl i am told that the coolness of young ready money lies very heavy at poor s heart instead of singing about the house as formerly she goes about pale and sighing and is apt to break into tears when her companions are full of merriment mrs the of my lady has had long talks and walks with up and down the avenue of an evening and has endeavoured to squeeze some of her own into the other s nature she speaks with contempt and of the whole sex and to despise all the men as heartily as she does but s loving temper is not to be she has no such thing as hatred or contempt for mankind in her whole composition she has all the simple fondness of heart of poor love charms weak loving woman and her only thoughts at present are how to and her the and love charms which are of sport to the other are serious concerns with this love stricken she is continually trying her fortune in a variety of ways i am told that she has absolutely for six and three having understood that it was a sovereign charm to being married to one s liking within the year she carries about also a lock of her sweetheart s hair and a he once gave her being a mode of producing constancy in a lover she even went so far as to try her fortune by the moon which has always had much to do with lovers dreams and fancies for this purpose she went out in the night of the full moon knelt on a stone in the meadow and repeated the old rhyme au hail to thee moon all hail to thee i pray thee good moon now show to me the youth who my future husband shall be � s love charms when she came back to the house she was faint and pale and went immediately to bed the next morning she told the porter s wife that she had seen some one close by the hedge jn the meadow which she was sure was young at any rate she had of him all both of which the old dame assured her were most happy signs it has since turned out that the person in the meadow was old the who was walking his nightly rounds with the great hound so that s faith in the charm is completely shaken the library yesterday the fair made her first appearance down stairs since her accident and the sight of her spread an universal cheerfulness through the household she was extremely pale however and could not walk without pain and difficulty she was assisted therefore to a sofa in the library which is pleasant and retired looking out among trees and so quiet that the little birds come upon the windows and peering curiously into the apartment here several of the family gathered round and devised means to amuse her and make the day pass pleasantly lady lamented the want of some new novel to while away the time and was almost in a pet because the author of vol i r the library had not produced a work for the last three months there was a motion made to call on the parson for some of his old legends or ghost stories but to this lady craft objected as they were apt to give her the general gave a minute account for the sixth time of the disaster of a friend in india who had his leg bitten off by a whilst he was hunting and was proceeding to menace the company with a chapter or two about at length the captain himself and said he believed he had a manuscript tale lying in one corner of his trunk which if he could find and the company were desirous he would read to them the offer was eagerly accepted he retired and soon returned with a roll of blotted manuscript in a very but nearly h nd and a great part written on paper it is one of the said he of my poor friend charles lightly of the the library he was a curious romantic fanciful fellow the favourite and often the unconscious of his fellow officers who entertained themselves with his he was in some of the hardest service in the and distinguished himself hy his gallantry when the intervals of duty permitted he was fond of about the country visiting noted places and was extremely fond of ruins when at his quarters he was a great and passed much of his leisure with his pen in his hand as i was a much younger officer and a very young man he took me in a manner under his care and we became
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you she stood up just help me on with my coat thanks � that s right oh i say there are the on the looking for you s tragic eyes turned naughty malicious gay even for a moment what sport she said � unhappy the withered leaf has intentions i see that she d like to eat me without salt don t marry her � promise me you won t ah heavenly heavenly she cried i need no promises bless you your face is quite enough wretched withered leaf but look here she went on as she gathered the soft warm garment about her i m tired of your give me your the far horizon card i may want you again so let me have your name and address and giving it to her as she requested she studied it for a minute silently then she turned away i want nothing more don t come down with me one of the boys will get me a i d rather be alone so just go back to your beloved and no longer nameless one she said chapter xxi thin sunshine in through the lace curtains of the dining room window encouraged thereby the its feathers making little snapping and noises meanwhile with its tongue and the grass of the green seen between the black stems of the trees glittered with while the houses on the opposite side of it looked flat and owing to the veil of mist s carts by at a sharp trot the defined sound of them breaking up the all murmur of london and dying out into it again as they passed at the street comer some twenty yards away a german band doubtfully sweet music the making earnest efforts to keep the rest of the instruments up to their work by the of loud and it was a pleasant and cheery morning as december mornings go yet reigned at the breakfast table the day of s oft discussed departure had dawned a few hours hence she would remove herself and her boxes to her cousin lady s residence in square this should have proved a source of regret to her host and hostess and they were conscience stricken to themselves � though not to one another since each the other with more sentiments than his or her own � that relief rather than regret did actually possess them a secret from one another and that a slightly one was so foreign to the experience of the excellent couple that it lay heavy upon their hearts each moreover was aware of shame in the presence of as in that of a person upon whom they the far horizon had inflicted an injury hence which the sunshine was powerless to may i pass you the eggs or bacon or both george inquired his blue eyes meanwhile humbly imploring pardon for his lack of sorrow at her impending departure s manner was stiff and abstracted this combined with the rustling of her filled him with anxiety was it possible that she knew thank you only an egg not that one please it is much too large i prefer the smallest i am not feeling hungry i should never call you much of a breakfast mrs observed in her comfortable voice from behind the tea urn she was desirous to her guest now i am rather hearty myself in the morning always have been so i do not know whether it is a good thing or not as a habit still i think to day you should force yourself a little you should always make provision against a journey and then no doubt you are rather fatigued with packing and getting home so late from the theatre i am pleased to think you had an your last night here tells me the play was very i dare say it was replied of course george would be a much better judge of that than i am mamma was always very particular what we heard and saw when we were children and i know i am inclined to think things vulgar which other people only find amusing i did not remark any vulgarity and do not think mr would countenance anything of that kind in the presence of a lady he would ascertain beforehand the nature of the piece to which he invited any lady � this from george oh of course i don t say there was anything vulgar t the far horizon i should not like to commit myself to an opinion i really have been to the theatre very seldom mamma never encouraged our going and then of course old dr the of st s at whose church we always attended of the theatre he had great influence with mamma and he thought it wicked indeed mrs commented i should be sorry to think that as so many go but he may have come across the evils of it personally he had a son an artist who was very wild i believe and i remember to have heard our dear speak of dr as but a true and a very grand preacher i dare say he was � i don t mean that his son was wild � i know nothing about that of course but that dr was a great preacher spoke the of her egg meanwhile as though on the watch for unpleasant foreign bodies but she continued i cannot of course be expected to remember his sermons though i may have been taken to hear him i suppose i certainly was taken but i was quite too much of a child to remember remembers them but then was so very much older she ceased to contemplate her egg and looked up at her hostess must be very nearly your age or she may be a year or eighteen months younger yes judging by the difference between her age and mine she must be quite eighteen months
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event happening so suddenly and happening to one with whom i had been in any respect at � the appalling in the room he had occupied so lately where his chair and table seemed to wait for him and his handwriting of yesterday was like a ghost � the impossibility of separating him from the place and feeling when the door opened as if he might come in � the lazy hush and rest there was in the office and the relish with which our people talked about it and other people came in and out all day and themselves with the subject � this is easily intelligible to any one what i cannot describe is how in the recesses of my own heart i had a lurking jealousy even of death how i felt as if its might would push me from my ground in s thoughts how i was in a way i have no words for envious of b grief how it made me restless to think of her weeping to others or being consoled by others how i had a grasping wish to shut out everybody from her but myself and to be all in all to her at that time of all times in the trouble of this state of mind � not exclusively my own i hope but known to others � i went down to that night and finding from one of the servants when i made my inquiries at the door that miss mills was there got my aunt to direct a letter to her which i wrote i the death of mr most sincerely and shed tears in doing so i entreated her to tell if were in a state to hear it that he had spoken to me with the utmost kindness and consideration and had coupled nothing but tenderness not a single word with her vol m the personal and experience name i know i did this to have my name brought before her bat i tried to believe it was an of justice to bis memory perhaps i did it my aunt received a few next day in reply addressed outside to her within to me was overcome by grief and when her friend had asked her should she send her love to me had only cried as she was always crying oh dear papa oh poor papa but she had not said no and that i made the most of mr who bad been at since the occurrence came to the office a few days afterwards he and were together tor some few moments and then looked out at the door and beckoned me in oh said mr mr and myself mr are about to examine the desk the drawers and other such of the deceased with the view of up his private papers and searching for a will there is no trace of any elsewhere it may be as well for yon to assist us if you please i had been in agony to obtain some knowledge of ihe circumstances in which my would be placed � as in whose and so forth � and this was something towards it we began the search at once mr the drawers and and we all taking out the papers the office papers we placed on one side and the private papers which were not numerous on the other we were very grave and when we came to a stray seal or pencil case or ring or any little article of that kind which we associated personally with him we spoke very low we had sealed up several and were still i by of david going on and when mr said to os applying the same words to his late partner as his late partner had applied to him mr was very to move from the beaten track too know what he was i i am disposed to think he had made no will � oh i know he had said they both stopped and looked at me on the very day when i last saw him said i he told me that he had and that his af were long settled mr and m shook their heads with one accord that looks said very said mr surely you don t doubt � i began my good mr said laying his hand upon my arm and shutting up both his eyes as he shook his head if you had in the as long as i have you would know that there is no on which men are so inconsistent and so little to be trusted why bless my soul he made that very remark i i replied persistently i should call that almost final observed my opinion is � no will it appeared a wonderful thing to me but it turned out that there was no will he had never so much as thought of making one so far as his papers afforded any evidence for there was no kind of hint sketch or of any intention whatever what was scarcely less astonishing to me was that his affairs were in a most disordered state it was the personal and experience difficult i heard to make out what he owed or what he had paid or of what he died possessed it was considered likely that for years he could have had do clear opinion on these subjects himself by little and little it came out that in the competition on ail points of appearance and then running high in the he had spent more than his professional income which was not a very large one and had reduced his private means if they ever had been great which was exceedingly doubtful to a very low ebb indeed there was a sale of the furniture and lease at and told me little thinking how interested i was in the story that paying all the just debts of the deceased
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me and that being the case you must be aware that my wish would be to remain with lady to the last and besides what i felt on her account i have really been so busy have had so much to do that i could not very conveniently have left sooner dear me what can you possibly have to do a great many things i assure you more than i can in a moment but i can tell you some i have been making a of t e catalogue of my father s books and � pictures i have been several times in the garden with trying to understand and make him understand which of elizabeth s plants are for lady i have had all my own little concerns to arrange books and music to divide and all my trunks to from not having understood in time what was intended as to the and one thing i have had to do mary of a more trying nature going to almost every house in the parish as a sort of take leave i was told that they wished it but all these things took up a great deal of time oh well and after a moment s pause but you have never asked me one word about our dinner at the yesterday did you go then i have made no because i concluded you must have been obliged to give up the party oh yes i went i was very well yesterday nothing at all the matter with me till this morning it would have been strange if i had not gone i am very glad you were well enough and i hope you had b pleasant party persuasion nothing remarkable one always knows beforehand what the dinner will be and who will be there and it is so very uncomfortable not having a carriage of one s own mr and mrs took me and we were so crowded they are both so very large and take up so much room and mr always sits forward so there was i crowded into the back seat with and and i think it very likely that my illness to day may be owing to it a little farther perseverance in patience and forced cheerfulness on anne s side produced nearly a cure on mary s she could soon sit upright on the sofa and began to hope she might be able to leave it by dinner time forgetting to think of it she was at the other end of the room a then she ate her cold meat and then she was well enough to propose a little wall where shall we go said she when they were ready i suppose you will not like to call at the great house before they have been to see you i have not the smallest objection on that account replied anne i should never think of standing on such ceremony with people i know so well as mrs and the miss oh but they ought to call upon you as soon as possible they ought to feel what is due to you as ray sister however we may as well go and sit with them a little while and when we have got that over we can enjoy our walk anne had always thought such a style of intercourse highly but she had ceased to endeavour to check it from believing that though there were on each side continual subjects of offence neither family could now do without it to the great house accordingly they went to sit the full half hour in the old fashioned square parlour with a small carpet and shining floor to which the present daughters of the house were gradually giving the proper air of confusion by a grand piano and a harp flower stands and little tables placed in every direction oh could the of the portraits against the could the gentlemen in brown velvet and the ladies in blue satin have seen what was going on have been conscious of such an overthrow of all order and neatness i the portraits themselves seemed to be staring in persuasion the like their houses were in a state or tion perhaps of improvement the father and mother were in the old english style and the young people in the new mr and mrs were a very good sort of people friendly and hospitable not much educated and not at all elegant their children had more modern minds and manners there was a numerous family but the only two grown up excepting charles were and young ladies of nineteen and twenty who had brought from a school at all the usual stock of accomplishments and were now like thousands of other young ladies living to be fashionable happy and merry their dress had every advantage their faces were rather pretty their spirits extremely good their manners and pleasant they were of consequence at home and abroad anne always contemplated them as some of the happiest creatures of her acquaintance but still saved as we all are by some comfortable feeling of superiority from wishing for the possibility of exchange she would not have given up her own more elegant and cultivated mind for all their and envied them nothing but that seemingly perfect good understanding and agreement together that good humoured mutual of which she had known so little herself with either of her sisters they were received with great cordiality nothing seemed amiss on the side of the great house family which was generally as anne very well knew the least to blame the half hour was away pleasantly enough and she was not at all surprised at the end of it to have their walking party joined by both the miss at mary s particular invitation chapter vi anne had not wanted this visit to to learn that a removal from one set of people to another though at
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good with rather thin bark and scattering their seeds every year as soon as they are ripe they are quickly driven out of fire swept regions when the were melting these hardy trees were probably among the first to arrive on the new soil beds but as the became and fires began to run they were driven up the mountains and into the wet spots and islands where we now find them leaving nearly all the park to the pine which though as thin as they and as easily killed by fire takes pains to store the national park � � up its seeds in firmly closed and holds them from three to nine years so that let the fire come when it may it is ready to die and ready to again in a new generation for when the killing fires have devoured the leaves and thin bark many of the only open as soon as the smoke away the store of seeds is sown on the cleared ground and a new growth immediately springs up triumphant out of the ashes therefore this tree not only holds its ground but extends its farther after every fire thus the and of its growth are accounted for in one part of the forest that i examined the growth was about as close as a the trees were from four to eight inches in one hundred feet high and one hundred and seventy five years old the lower limbs die young and drop off for want of light life with these close planted trees is a race for light more and so they push straight for the sky off ten feet from the top of the forest would make it look like a crowded mass of telegraph poles for only the sunny tops are leafy a ten years old growing in the sunshine has as many leaves as a crowded tree one or two hundred years old as fires are multiplied and the become this wonderful pine bids fair to obtain possession of nearly all the forest ground in the west our national how still the woods seem from here yet how lively a stir the hidden are dig biting eyes shining at and play getting food young through the climbing the rocks solitary tracing the banks of the lakes and streams insect are in th b b� � g in a � a cloud of witnesses telling nature s joy the plants are as busy as the animals every cell in a of enjoyment humming like a hive singing the old new song of creation a few columns and of steam are seen rising above the some near but most of them far off indicating and hot springs and noiseless as clouds softly the reaction going on between the surface and the hot interior from here you see them better than when you are standing beside them frightened and confused regarding them as lawless the and of storms the of waves the of sap in plants each and all tell the orderly love beats of nature s heart turning to the eastward you have the grand and reaches of the river in full view and yonder to the southward lies the great lake the largest and most important of all the high fountains of the and the last to be discovered the national park in the year de with a ro b l of a nt r � � gold and glory and the fountain of youth he found the a few hundred miles above its mouth and made his grave beneath its floods la in after discovering the one of the largest and most beautiful branches of the traced the latter to the sea from the mouth of the through adventures and not easily realized now about the same time and father reached the father of waters by way of the but more than a century passed ere its highest sources in these mountains were seen the advancing stream of civilization has ever followed its guidance toward the west but none of the thousand tribes of indians on its banks could tell the whence it came from those romantic de and la days to these times of and how much has the great river seen and done great as it now is and still growing longer through the ground of its and the of receding at its head it was immensely broader toward the close of the period when the ice mantle of the mountains was melting then with its three hundred thousand miles of branches over the plains and valleys of the continent laden with fertile mud it made the biggest and most generous bed of soil in the world national think of this mighty stream springing in the first in ihe j fl on the on the in hail and snow and rain lingering in many a fountain feeding the trees and grass then gathering its scattered waters gliding from its noble lake and going back home to the sea singing all the way on it sweeps the gates of the mountains across the vast and plains through many a wild gloomy forest cane and sunny from and and pine woods to warm gloves of and palm dancing at its head keeping time with the sea waves at its mouth and nay in in broad gleaming in long silvery reaches swaying now hither now thither whirling bending in huge folds serene majestic overflowing all its and bounds the upon its banks building wasting planting old islands and making new ones taking away fields and towns as if in sport carrying and ships of commerce in the midst of its spoils and drift the continent as one vast farm then ite work done it gladly in ite ocean home welcomed by the waiting waves thus naturally standing here in the midst of its fountains we trace the fortunes of the great river and how much more comes to mind
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all this while and what was her opinion of the new comers few young ladies of eighteen could be less called on to speak their opinion than in a quiet way very little attended to she paid her tribute of admiration to miss s beauty but as she still continued to think mr very plain in spite of her two cousins having repeatedly proved the contrary she never mentioned him the notice which she excited herself was to this effect i begin now to understand you all except miss price said miss as she was walking with the mr pray is she out or is she not i am puzzled she dined at the with the rest of you which seemed like being out and yet she says so little that i can hardly suppose she is to whom was chiefly addressed replied i believe i know what you mean but i will not undertake to answer the question my cousin is grown up she has the age and sense of a woman but the and not are beyond me and yet in general nothing can be more easily ascertained the distinction is so broad manners as well as appearance are generally speaking so totally different till now i could park not have supposed it possible to be mistaken as to a girl s being out or not a girl not out has always the same sort of dress � a close bonnet for instance � looks very and never says a word you may smile but it is so i assure you and except that it is sometimes carried a little too far it is all very proper girls should be quiet and modest the most objectionable part is that the alteration of manners on being introduced into company is frequently too sudden they sometimes pass in such very little time from reserve to quite the opposite � to confidence that is the part of the present system one does not like to see a girl of eighteen or nineteen so immediately up to everything � and perhaps when one has seen her hardly able to speak the year before mr i dare say you have sometimes met with such changes i believe i have but this is hardly fair i see what you are at you are me and miss no indeed miss i do not know who or what you mean i am quite in the dark but i will you with a great deal of pleasure if you will tell me what about ah you carry it off very well but i cannot be quite so far imposed on you must have had miss in your eye in describing an altered young lady you paint too accurately for mistake it was exactly so the of baker street we were speaking of them the other day you know you have heard me mention charles the circumstance vol i � park was precisely as this lady has represented it when first introduced me to his family about two years ago his sister was not out and i could not get her to speak to me i sat there an hour one morning waiting for with only her and a little girl or two in the room the being sick or run away and the mother in and out every moment with letters of business and i could hardly get a word or a look from the young lady � nothing like a civil answer � she up her mouth and turned from me with such an air i did not see her again for a she was then out met her at mrs s and did not recollect her she came up to me claimed me as an acquaintance stared me out of countenance and talked and laughed till i did not know which way to look i felt that i must be the jest of the room at the time and miss it is plain has heard the story and a very pretty story it is and with more truth in it i dare say than does credit to miss it is too common a fault mothers certainly have not yet got quite the right way of managing their daughters i do not know where the error lies i do not pretend to set people right but i do see that they are often wrong those who are showing the world what female manners should be said mr gallantly are doing a great deal to set them right the error is plain enough said the less courteous such girls are ill brought up they are given wrong notions from the be park they are always acting upon motives of vanity and there is no more real modesty in their behavior before they appear in public than afterwards i do not know replied miss hesitatingly yes i cannot agree with you there it is certainly the part of the business it is much worse to have girls not out give themselves the same airs and take the same liberties as if they were which i have seen done that is worse than anything quite disgusting yes that is very inconvenient indeed said mr it leads one astray one does not know what to do the close bonnet and air you describe so well and nothing was ever tell one what is expected but i got into a dreadful scrape last year from the want of them i went down to for a week with a friend last september just after my return from the west indies my friend � you have heard me speak of his father and mother and sisters were there all new to me when we reached place they were out we went after them and found them on the pier � mrs and the two miss with others of their acquaintance i made my bow in form and as mrs was surrounded by men
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making great progress toward a comprehension of the but mere vanity would not have to induce you to undertake the labor of writing at such a length there is another motive indeed you admit as much you say that one of your reasons for writing me this letter is to put before me the pleasures that await me if i can be from you wish to meet me in rome this request me again into all my former why should you wish to meet me in rome how can my presence add to your pleasure you are clearly enjoying every moment of your life my presence could only prove a an obstacle unless perhaps your is such that you are willing to sacrifice your pleasure for the sake of my education i grant you that to walk behind mr and to listen to every remark that may fall from his lips whether he be speaking of michael or or the architecture of st peter s would be a privilege that could not be your object in asking me to meet you in rome cannot be because you think that anything i might say would be of the slightest interest to so superior a person as mr i said in a former letter that perhaps you wrote to me with a view to the of my life in and perhaps this is one of the reasons that inspired your last letter if so i think it might have the lake been more for not the least odd are the passages in which you speak with marked of our divine lord and if a desire to please me any part of your motive in writing this letter you would have avoided saying things which you knew would wound me in my most intimate feelings but no you seem to go out of your way to say things which you know must shock me � indeed you admit as much you refer to a letter in which i the license of your speech nevertheless you go on to speak with still further of him whom you know i hold as divine the only interpretation i can put upon your manner of writing is that you are unable to restrain yourself from writing anything that you for the moment i am willing to think that you are unable to restrain your levity of mind if this excuse were not available it would be impossible for me as a priest to reply to your letter the passages i refer to were written more or less unconsciously in obedience to an impulse to be witty to be but i cannot help thinking that if you had really wished me to meet you in rome you would have written me a different letter however this may be the result would be the same i cannot leave this year however much t stand in need of a holiday and i stand in great need of one but i shall not leave certainly not for a long while and my reasons for remaining here will not appeal to you they are entirely conscientious i am passing through a difficult period there is no reason why i should disguise this fact from you or from anyone there are times in every life when life seems a burden even my sister sometimes of her and no one ever had a more distinct religious than she but for all that she would not leave it i must wait till my present mood has passed before i go abroad if i left now i might never have courage to come back the best way not to fall into temptation is not to put yourself in the way of it for the flesh is always weak i might grow interested in what you call ideas i might linger abroad until it was no longer possible for me to return and then what a scandal would arise if i remained away think of the shame i should cause my poor people they would be pained to find that the priest they had looked up to was unworthy of the confidence they had placed in him there are material reasons also which will appeal to you i have accepted and i still accept the money of these poor folk you will say that i can gain my living elsewhere � in london you gained your living in london and it would be disgraceful if i could not succeed where you succeeded but that has nothing to do with what i am thinking now i entered the of my own free will i chose a path and i shall follow it through life till the end i have not ceased to believe in my i am as convinced of it as i ever was more than i ever was for were it not the most real thing in me i should have gone away for a holiday long ago and left it to chance whether i should ever return to this mood of discontent which i do not hesitate to admit which has i the lake its origin perhaps in the great error of judgment i committed when i spoke about you in church will pass away as i said in a previous letter i have only got to bear my discontent for a while and i shall come out at the other side a stronger and a better man sincerely yours after his letter he walked home himself that he had made it plain to her that he was not a man she could she had written that long letter in order to annoy him and the more he thought of her letter the more plain did it seem that it had been inspired by but what could s reason be for wishing � well to make a of him was he jealous of him there was a moment s satisfaction in the thought but it
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but he got not very far for at the first swell of his voice cut in i will tell you what james more is meaning said she he means we have come to you and have not behaved to you very well and we are ashamed of our ingratitude and ill behaviour now we are wanting to go away and be forgotten and my father will have guided his gear so ill that we cannot even do that unless you will give us some more for that is what we are at all events beggar folk and by your leave miss said i i must speak to your father by myself she went into her own room and shut the door w a word or a look you must excuse her mr says james more she has no delicacy i am not here to discuss that with you said i but to be quit of you and to that end i must talk of your position now mr i have kept the run of your more closely than you for i know you had money of your own when you were mine i know you have had more since you were here in though you concealed it even from your daughter i bid you beware i will stand no more he broke out i am dick of her and you what of a damned trade is this to be a parent i have had expressions used to me there he broke off sir this is the heart of a soldier and a parent he went on again laying his hand on his bosom outraged in both � and i bid you beware if you would have let me finish says i you have found i spoke for your e my dear friend he cried i know i might have relied upon the generosity of your character man will you let me speak said l the fact is that i cannot win to find out if you are rich or poor but it is my idea that your means as they are mysterious in their source so they are something in amount and i do not choose your daughter to be lacking if i speak o herself you may be certain i would never dream of trusting it to you because i know you like the back of my hand and all your talk is that much wind to me however i believe in your way you do still care something for your daughter after all and i must just be doing with that ground of confidence such as it is whereupon i arranged with him that he was to communicate with me as to his whereabouts and s welfare in consideration of which i was to serve him a small he heard the business out with a great deal of eagerness and when it was done my dear fellow my dear son he cried out this is more like yourself than any of it yet i will serve you with a soldier s let me hear no more of it says i you have in which i am left alone got me to that pitch that the bare name of soldier rises on my stomach our traffic is settled i am now going forth and will return in one half hour when i expect to find my chambers of you i gave them good measure of time it was my one fear that i might see again because tears and weakness were ready in my heart and i cherished my anger like a piece of dignity perhaps an hour went by the sun had gone down a little of a new moon was following it across a scarlet sunset already there were stars in the east and in my chambers when at last i entered them the night lay blue i lit a and the rooms in the first there remained nothing so much as to awake a memory of those who were gone but in the second in a corner of the floor i a little heap that brought my heart into my mouth she had left behind at her departure all that ever she had of me it was the blow that i felt perhaps because it was the last and i fell upon that pile of clothing and behaved myself more foolish than i care to tell of late in the night in a strict frost and my teeth chattering i came again by some portion of my manhood and considered with myself the sight of these poor and ribbons and her and the stockings was not to be endured and if i were to recover any constancy of mind i saw i must be rid of them ere the morning it was my first thought to have made a fire and burned them but ray disposition has always been opposed to for one thing and for another to have burned these things that she had worn so close upon her body seemed w in the nature of a cruelty there was a comer cupboard in that chamber there i determined to bestow them the which i did and made it a long business folding them with very little skill indeed but the more care and sometimes dropping them with my tears all the heart was gone out of me i was weary as though i had nm miles and sore like one beaten when as i was folding a that she wore often at her neck i observed there was a corner neatly cut from it it was a of a very pretty hue on which i had frequently remarked and once that she had it on i remembered telling her by way of a that she wore my colours there came a glow of hope and like a tide of sweetness in my bosom and the next moment i was plunged back in a fresh
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it should appear from anything i may set down in this narrative that i was a child of close observation or that as a man i have a strong memory of my childhood i undoubtedly lay claim to both of these characteristics looking back as i was saying into the blank of my infancy the first objects i can remember as standing out by themselves from a confusion of things are my mother and what else do i remember let me see there comes out of the cloud our house � not new to me but quite familiar in its earliest remembrance on the floor is s kitchen opening into a back yard with a pigeon house on a pole in the centre without any in it a great dog in a comer without any dog and a quantity of fowls that look terribly tall to me walking about in a menacing and ferocious manner there is one cock who gets upon a post to crow and seems to take particular notice of me as i look at him through the kitchen window who makes me shiver he is so fierce of the outside the side gate who come after me with their long necks stretched out when i go that way i dream at night as a man by wild beasts might dream of lions of david here is a long passage � what an enormous perspective i make of it � leading from s kitchen to the front door a dark store room opens out of it and that is a place to be run past at night for i don t know what may be among those and and old tea w hen there is nobody in there with a dimly burning light letting a air come out at the door in which there is the smell of soap candles and coffee all at one then there are the two the parlor in which we sit of an evening my mother and i and � for is quite our companion when her work is done and we are alone � and the best parlor where we sit on a sunday but not so comfortably there is something of a air about that room to me for has told me � i don t know when but apparently ages go � about my father s funeral and the company having their black put on one sunday night my mother reads to and me in there how was raised up from the dead and i am so frightened that they are afterwards obliged to take me out of bed and me the quiet churchyard out of the bedroom window with the dead au lying in their graves at rest below the solemn moon there is nothing half so green that i know anywhere as the grass of that churchyard nothing half so shady as its trees nothing half so quiet as its the sheep are feeding there when i kneel up early in the morning in my little bed in a closet within my mother s room to look out at it and i see the red light shining on the sun dial and think within myself is the sun dial glad i wonder that it can tell the time again here is our in the church what a high backed with a window near it out of which our house can be seen and is seen many times during the morning s service by who to make herself as sure as she can that it s not being robbed or is not in flames but though s eye she is much offended if mine does and to me as i stand upon the seat that i am to look at the clergyman but i can t always look at him � i know him without that white thing on and i am afraid of his wondering why i stare so and perhaps stopping the service to � and what am i to do it s a dreadful thing to but i must do something i look at my mother but site not to see me i look at a boy in the aisle and he makes faces at me i look at the sunlight coming in at the open door through the porch and there i see a stray sheep � i don t mean a sinner but mutton � half making up his mind to come into the church i feel that if i looked at him any longer i might be tempted to say something out loud and what would become of me then i look up at the on the wall and try to think of mr late of this parish and what the feelings of mrs must have been when affliction sore long time mr bore and were in vain i wonder whether they called in mr and he was in vain and if so how he likes to be reminded of it once a week i look from mr in his sunday to the pulpit and think what a good place it would be to play in and what a castle it would make with another boy coming up the stall s to attack it and the history and experience having the velvet cushion with the thrown down on his head in time my eyes gradually shut up and from seeming to hear the clergyman singing a drowsy song in the heat i hear nothing until i fall off the seat with a crash and am taken out more dead than alive by and now i see the outside of our house with the standing open to let in the sweet smelling air and the ragged old nests still dangling in the elm trees at the bottom of the front garden now i am in the garden at the back beyond the yard where the empty pigeon house and dog are � a
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means to prove the mistaken samuel and see what stuff is in him he must leave these of oxford want like an armed man compelling him retreat into his father s mean home and there abandon himself for a season to disappointment shame and nervous melancholy nigh run mad he is probably the man in wide england in all ways ho too must become perfect through suffering � high thoughts have visited him his college exercises have b en s writings praised beyond the walls of college pope himself has seen that translation and approved of it samuel had to himself i too am one and somewhat false thoughts that leave only misery behind the fever fire of ambition is too painfully extinguished but not cured in the frost bath of poverty johnson has knocked at the gate as one having a right but there was no opening the world lies all encircled as with brass nowhere can he find or force the smallest entrance an at market and a between him and sir the patron of the school him bread of tion and water of affliction but so bitter that human nature cannot swallow them young will grind no more in the mill of hold of sir and the domestic so far at least as to say grace at table and also to be treated with what he represented as intolerable and so after months of such complicated misery feeling doubt less that there are worse things in the world than quick death by famine a situation which all his life he recollected with the strongest aversion and even horror men like johnson are properly called the forlorn hope of ae judge whether his hope was forlorn or not by this i to a dull who called himself sir � as you appear sensible than your readers of the of your poetical article you will not be displeased if in order to the improvement of it i communicate to you the of a person who will undertake on reasonable terms sometimes to fill a column � his opinion is that the public would c c if such a correspondence will be agreeable to you be pleased to inform me in two posts what the conditions are on which you shall expect it your late offer for a prize poem gives me no s of johnson to distrust your generosity if you engage in any literary projects besides this paper i have other designs to impart reader the generous person to whom this goes addressed is mr cave at st john s gate london the of it is samuel johnson in nevertheless life in the man its right to be even to be enjoyed better a small bush say the scotch than no shelter johnson to be contented with humble human things and is there not already an actually realized human existence all stirring and living on very hand of him go thou and do likewise in itself with his own purchased goose he can earn five pounds nay finally the good a friend who will be wife to him johnson s marriage with the good widow porter has been treated with ridicule by many mortals who apparently had no understanding thereof that the faced lonely woe stricken like some irish with club whose speech no man knew whose look all men both laughed at and shuddered at should find any brave female heart to acknowledge at first sight and hearing of him this is the most sensible man i ever met with and then with generous courage to take him to itself and say be thou mine be thou warmed here and to life � in all this in the kind widow s love and pity for him in johnson s love and gratitude there is actually no matter for ridicule their wedded life as is the lot was made up of and dry weather but innocence and worth dwelt in it and when death had ended it a certain johnson s affection for his was always venerable and noble however be this as it might johnson is now minded to wed and will s miscellaneous writings live by the trade of for by this also may life be kept in let the world therefore take notice at near in young gentlemen are ed and taught the latin and greek languages by johnson had this enterprise how might the issue have been johnson had lived a life of unnoticed or into some dr of no avail to us would have into official or risen by some other elevation old had never been afflicted with that a or obliged to hospitality by a do god sir he kings ken that there was a in their neck but the enterprise did not prosper destiny had other work appointed for samuel johnson and young gentlemen got board where they could elsewhere find it this man was to become a teacher of grown gentlemen in the most surprising way a man of letters and ruler of the british nation for some time � not of their bodies merely but of their minds not over them but in them the career of literature could not in johnson s day any more than now be said to lie along the shores of a whatever else might be gathered there gold dust was the chief produce the world from the times of st paul and far earlier has always had its teachers and always treated them in a peculiar way a shrewd town clerk not of once in a when the question came how the should be maintained delivered this brief counsel d � n them keep them poor considerable wisdom may lie in this at all events we see the world has acted on it long and indeed improved on it � putting many a of its great to a death which even cost it something the world it is true had for some s
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that mrs gave both her hostess and me a warm feeling of enjoyment and expectation as if she had the power of social suggestion to all neighboring minds the two friends did not for at i hear their busy load and low by turns as they ranged from public to confidential topics at last mrs remembered me and giving my door a knock before she stepped in with the small in her wake she reached behind her and took mrs s hand as if she were and and her a gentle for i don t know yon m to take to each or not no no body can t tell whether yon h other but i expect yoa get along having seen the world oar ton can inform mis how we die island die other d f she a always country of pointed well acquainted with mother slip oat now an pat away the things an set my bread to rise if you u both me yoa can come oat an keep me company when yoa get ready either or both and mrs large and amiable disappeared and left as being not only with a subject of conversation but with a safe refuge in the kitchen in case of mrs and i sat down prepared to make the best of each other i soon discovered that she like many of the elder women of that coast had spent a part of her life at sea and was full of a good s curiosity and by the time we thought it discreet to join our hostess we were already sincere friends you may speak of a visit s setting in as weu as a tide s and it was impossible as mrs whispered to me not to be pleased at the way this visit was setting in a new impulse and refreshing of the social currents and seldom visited of memory appeared to have begun mrs had been the mother of a large family of sons and daughters � sailors and sailors wives and most of them had died before her a i soon grew more or less with the histories of all their fortunes and misfortunes and of an intimate nature were no more withheld from my ears than if i had been a shell on the mn was not without a touch of dignity and ei she was fashionable in hot dress but it was a curiously well provincial fashion of some years back in a wider sphere one might have called her woman of the world with her unexpected bits of modem knowledge but mrs s wisdom was an intimation of truth itself she might belong to any age like an of but while she always understood that entertaining pilgrim could not always understand mrs that first evening my friends plunged into a sea of reminiscences and personal news mrs had been staying with a family who owned the farm where she was bom and she had visited every sunny and shady field comer but when she said that it might be for the last time i detected in her tone something expectant of the which promptly offered country of tee pointed � � said mrs with sadness jou may say what you like bat i am one of nine brothers and sisters brought up on the old place and we re all dead but me your sister ain t gone is she why no ain t gone i mrs with surprise why i never heard of that i � � yes m she passed away last october in she had made her distant home in state but she was making a visit to her youngest daughter was the only one of my family whose funeral i was n t able to attend but t was a mere accident all the rest of us were settled right about home i thought it was very slack of em in not to fetch her to the old place but when i came to hear about it i learned that they d recently put up a very elegant monument and my sister was always great for show she d just been out to see the monument the week before she was taken down and admired it so much that they felt sure of her wishes so she s really gone and the funeral was up to i repeated mrs as if to impress the sad fact upon her mind a sail she was some years younger than we be too i recollect the first day she ever came to school t was that first year mother sent me to stay with aunt s folks and get my you fetched little to school one monday in a pink dress an her long curls and she set between you an me and got after a while so the teacher sent us home with her at recess she was scared of seeing so many about her there was only her and me and brother john at home then the older boys were to sea with father an the rest of us wa n t bom explained mrs that next fall we all went to sea together mother was uncertain till the last minute as one may say the ship was waiting orders but the baby that then was was bom just in time and there was a long spell of extra bad weather so mother got about again be fore they had to sail an we all went i remember my clothes were all left ashore in the east chamber in a basket where mother d took them out o my o drawers an left em ready to aboard she did n t have nothing aboard of her own that she wanted to cut up for me so when of thb pointed dress wore out she just me into a spare suit o john s and trousers i was n t bat eight years
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of than among some other classes in other parts of europe but then he belonged by the discipline as well as by the force of his mind rather to europe than to his education at school though even for a scotch peasant s son irregular and scanty was to fit him for becoming a citizen of the world and a citizen of the world he did become by the study of the best english authors in prose and verse and by critical familiarity with the songs and of his country in virtue of this the spirit of revolution being abroad in europe he was as certain to encounter it as was o on his way home from and from the company of to see in a he sings as he himself says the sentiments and manners he felt and saw in himself and his rustic around him but it is after the manner of one who is accustomed to live and move in a larger world than that in which he and they had to toil while he has never yet set foot beyond his native county his mind has travelled he is familiar with the continental of persons of quality with hunters of who have to rhyme with with scenes events characters in eastern lands and in the literature and history of antiquity his ideas sentiments aspirations hopes fears range easily and naturally beyond and provincial limits into national affairs and the struggling life of mankind if he is ever more truly himself than in s address to his troops at a patriotic it is in that golden age of the poet and the when man to man the world o er shall brothers be for a that his countrymen are a pushing and adventurous race wherever robert burns they go they carry with them as a feature of the national mind an estimate of man as man of wealth and worth of rank and work which bears the stamp of one man s genius poems and songs are a programme of social and political reform and progress or at any rate � as radical a programme as could well be framed no such programme it is certain ever had such in one nation as it has at home and abroad for almost a century it has been and sung by high and low by rank and fashion by and and aged inmates of the children it and it it is the privileged of public houses and privileged almost like the bible young ladies it at the request of their tory and to please in as well as where the shepherd tells his tale the echoes of it are never still as far as there is any need to his poetical and development this with the revolution it him with it as respects the style of his poetry and also as respects its substance machine of all kinds by use allowance should be made in cases that of poetry not for of value as the effect of wear and tear only the forces of nature are inexhaustible happily for him poetical life fell within a period in which it had come to be felt that the machinery of the classical school of poetry was worn out and that recourse must be had for poetical power to and inexhaustible nature he owed thus to the spirit of the time that passion for truth and nature in the style of his poems which them such welcome as the time could give to novelty and excellence combined he was a to the same source for the ideas and sentiments or many of the ideas and sentiments to which his poetry owes not a little of the vitality and the it has among men and nations to whom it is known only in an almost unknown tongue or in more or less inadequate his poetry is instinct with the life and movement of one age one which was an era of from the dead and of revolt against all that had lived too long any explanation of however which is thus to be found where we find an explanation of europe itself in the spirit of a particular age is of course partial its merit is that it points to what is more essential and more comprehensive than burns poetry shares with all poetry of the first order of excellence the life and movement not of one age but ll the english ts of all ages that which belongs to what calls essential passions of human nature it is the voice of nature which we hear in his poetry and it is of that nature one touch of which makes the whole world kin it is doubtful whether any poet ancient or modern has as much personal attachment of a and quality as burns has been able to draw to himself it is an attachment the amount and the quality of which are not to be explained by anything in the history of the man anything apart from the exercise of his genius as a poet his though they were great do not account for it � these are by his faults from which his misfortunes are not easily separated what renders it at all intelligible is that human nature in its most ordinary shapes is more poetical than it looks and that exactly at those moments of its consciousness in which it is most truly because most vividly and powerfully and itself has a voice to give to it he is not the poet s poet which no doubt meant to be or the philosopher s poet which in spite of himself is he is the poet of homely human nature not half so homely or as it seems his genius in a manner all its own associates itself with the fortunes experiences memorable moments of human beings whose humanity is their sole to whom liberty and whatever like liberty has the
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and drinking breathing and sleeping it is only when he raises himself and concerns himself with the immortal spirit within him that he becomes in very truth � man ye how sad a thing it would w th w af tbe r be to no em the ft if he not li any and j t pi li tbe college of the in t� i that one weak and l ur a� i � to teach another that which he finds it hard to t prettily i that of the it was a had a good in france read to s a the whole truth of the the upon him in the garden in tn th these of his may have holy h t they were of no great account as at arms there wa one indeed peter smote out like a true man h t he ia he did a i ear which w t np very deed by these j ten had i there with black of j and but one score of picked men of the com p we had held em in play co ld we do no more we had at st filled the false knight sir no full i if h w that h purse the day that ever he came on an errand the clerk smiled at his companion s earnestness had be wished h he s id he could have of from heaven so what need had he of poor bow and a besides y u of his own i � who live by the ll perish by the sword and how ld man die better asked the a if i had my wish it would be to fall not mark yon in any m t pf the company but in a stricken field with the great banner waving over us and the red in front amid the shouting of my i and the of the strings but let it i be or bolt that strikes me down � for x should think it e to die fr n an ir n ball from er ke pr s weapon is only fitted to scare with its foolish noise and smoke i have heard much even in the quiet of these new and dreadful engines it is said though i can scarce bring myself to believe it that they will send a ball twice as far as a can shoot his shaft and with such force as to break through of proof true enough my lad but while the is thrusting in his dust and dropping his ball and lighting his i can very easily loose six shafts or eight maybe so he hath no great after all yet i will not deny that at the of a town it is well to have good store of i am told that at they made in the wall that a man might put his head into but surely comrades some one who is hurt hath passed along this road before us all along the track there did indeed run a scattered straggling trail of blood marks sometimes in single drops and in other places in broad over the dead leaves or the white flint stones it must be a stricken deer said john nay i am enough to see that no deer hath passed this way this morning and yet the blood is fresh but hark to the sound they stood listening all three with side long heads through the silence of the great forest there came a whistling sound mingled with the most groans and the voice of a man raised in a high kind of song the comrades hurried onward eagerly and the brow of a small rising they saw upon the other side the source from which these strange noises arose a tall man much stooped in the shoulders was walking slowly with head and clasped hands in the centre of the path he was dressed from head to foot in a long white linen doth and a high white cap with a i ed cross printed upon it his own was turned back from his shoulders and the flesh there was a sight to make a man for it was all beaten to a and the blood was into his gown and down upon the ground behind him walked a smaller man with his hair touched with gray who was clad in the same white garb he a long rhyme in the french tongue and at the end of every line he raised a thick cord all jagged with of lead and smote his companion across the shoulders until the blood again even as the three stared however there was a sudden change for the smaller man having finished his song loosened his own gown and handed the to the other who took up the once more and lashed his companion with all the strength of his bare and arm so alternately beating and beaten they made their way through the beautiful woods and under the arches of the fading trees where the calm strength and majesty of nature might serve to rebuke the foolish energies and of mankind such a spectacle was new to john and to but the treated it lightly as a common matter enough these are the beating otherwise called the he i marvel that ye should have come upon none of them before for across the water they are as common as i have heard that there are no english among them but that they are from france italy and en that we may have speech with them as they came up to them could hear the which the was bringing down his heavy whip at the end of each line while the groans of the sufferer formed a sort of dismal chorus it was in old french and ran somewhat in this way or fort en la grant pe et sa qui f ut
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an increased share of the joint product is being carefully and shaped for a political assault upon society the leaders with the carelessness of do not hesitate for an instant to publish their intentions to the world they intend to direct the labor revolt to the capture of the political machinery of society with the political machinery once in their hands which will also give them the control of the police the army the navy and the courts they will with or without all the possessions of the class which are used in the production the class struggle and distribution of the necessaries and luxuries of life by this they mean to apply the law of eminent domain to the land and to extend the law of eminent domain till it embraces the mines the the and the ocean in short they intend to destroy present day society which they contend is run in the interest of another class and from the materials to a new society which will be run in their interest on the other hand the class is beginning to grow conscious of itself and of the struggle which is being it is already forming offensive and while some of the most prominent figures in the nation are preparing to lead it in the attack upon the class struggle the question to be solved is not one of projected nor it is a question of might whichever class is to win will win by virtue of superior strength for the workers are beginning to say as they said to mr be damned in their own they find no sanction for continuing the individual struggle for the of the as mr has said they want more and more and more the import of mr s plan of the present generation putting up with less in order that race may be projected into a remote future has no bearing upon their actions they refuse to be the glad so described by it remains to be seen how promptly the the class struggle class will respond to the call to arms upon its rests its existence for if it sits idly by that what ought not to be cannot be it will find the roof beams crashing about its head the class is in the and bids fair to be if it does not put a stop to the vast being by its enemy it is no longer a question of whether or not there is a class struggle the question now is what will be the of the class struggle � the tramp mr francis o general of police speaking of the tramp says � despite the most police a great city will have a certain number of to shelter through the winter despite � mark the word a confession of organized helplessness as against necessity if police are and yet fail then that which makes them fail namely the tramp must have still more reasons for succeeding this being so it should be of interest to inquire into these the tramp reasons attempt to discover why the nameless and sets at naught the right arm of the power of our great cities why all that is weak and worthless is stronger than all that is strong and of value mn o is a man of wide experience on the subject of he may be called a as he says of himself as an old time desk and police captain i have had almost unlimited opportunity to study and this class of floating population which seeks the city in winter and abroad through the country in the spring he then continues this experience the lesson that the vast majority of these are of the class with whom a life of is a chosen the tramp means of living without work not only is it to be inferred from this that is a large class in society which lives without work for mr s testimony further shows that this class is forced to live without work he says i have been astonished at the multitude of those who have unfortunately engaged in occupations which practically force them to become for at least a third of the year and it is from this class that the are largely i recall a certain winter when it seemed to me that a large portion of the inhabitants of belonged to this army of i was stationed at a police station not far from where an ice harvest was ready for the the ice company advertised the tramp for and the very night this call appeared in the newspapers our station was packed with men who asked shelter in order to be at hand for the morning s work every foot of floor space was given over to these and scores were still and again and it must be confessed that the man who is willing to do honest labor for food and shelter is a rare specimen in this vast army of shabby and tattered who seek the warmth of the city with the coming of the first snow taking into consideration the crowd of honest that mr o station house on the way to the ice cutting it is patent if all were looking for honest labor instead of a small that the honest the tramp would have a far harder task finding something honest to do for food and shelter if the opinion of the honest who mr s station house were asked one could rest confident that each and every man would express a preference for fewer honest on the morrow when he asked the ice for a job and finally mr o says the humane and generous treatment which this city has accorded the great army of has made it the victim of and this well intended policy of kindness has resulted in making the winter of a vast and floating population that is to say because of her
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of meal made into a with it at a situated village which we visited twice we were received at the house of the who had accompanied us throughout he is a and the large house in which he made us welcome stands in his own everything was prepared for us the mud floors were swept cotton were laid down on the blue and cultivated for religious ornament were in all the rooms and the women were in dress and loaded with coarse right hearty was the welcome mr loved and therefore was loved the to him were not natives but brothers he drew the best out of them their and were not to him rubbish but subjects for minute investigation and study his courtesy to all was frank and dignified in his dealings he was just he was intensely interested in their interests his and knowledge of sacred literature gave him almost the standing of an among the among them and his medical skill and knowledge joyfully used for their benefit on former occasions had won their regard so at as everywhere else the elders came out to meet us and cut the branches away on our road and the silver horns of the above a come along the valley the servants of englishmen beat the in the and valleys the beat and cheat them and the women are shy with strangers but at they were frank and friendly with me saying as many others had said we will trust any one who comes with the missionary s home was typical of the dwellings of the richer and it was a large rambling three house the lower part of stone the upper of huge sun dried bricks it was adorned with projecting windows and brown wooden fuel � the dried of animals � is too scarce to be used for any but cooking purposes and on these in the severe cold of winter the people sit to the warm sunshine the rooms were large with rods and with split white pebbles set in clay there was a temple on the roof and in it on a platform were life size images of seated in eternal calm with his downcast eyes and mild face the ra the great mercy jam the wisdom and na the justice in front on a table or altar were seven small lamps burning oil and twenty brass cups containing minute of rice and other things changed daily there were prayer wheels horns and drums and a prayer six feet high which it took the strength of two men to turn on a shelf immediately below the were the brazen bell and a brass blossom and the brass decorated with feathers which is used at and for pouring holy water upon the hands at in houses in which there is not a roof temple the best room is set apart for religious use and for these which are always surrounded with musical instruments and of power and receive worship and daily being a religion of the family and household in his family temple offered gifts and thanks for the of the journey he had been assisting mr for two years in the translation of the new testament and had wept over the love and sufferings of our lord christ he had even desired that his son should receive and be brought up as a christian but for among the himself he could not break with custom and his creed in the usual living room of the family a platform raised only a few inches ran partly round the wall in the middle of the floor there was a clay fireplace with a prayer wheel and some clay and brass cooking pots upon it a few shelves fire bars for a wooden and some spinning arrangements were the furniture a number of small dark rooms used for sleeping and opened from this and above were the and reception rooms wooden posts supported the roofs and these were with the of the field narrow steep in all houses lead to the family rooms in winter the people live below alongside of the animals and in summer they sleep in loosely built of branches on the roof s roof was covered like others at the time to the depth of two feet with hay i e grass and which are wound into long ropes experience having taught the that their scarce is best preserved thus from and waste i bought hay by the yard for our food in this hospitable house was simple fresh or dried and with honey y milk and cheese sour cream peas beans balls of and of abominable things a dirty looking beer made from was offered with each meal and tea frequently but i took my own on the sly i have mentioned a as part of the of the living room in the is used for making tea i give the for six persons boil a of tea in three of water for ten minutes with a heaped of put the into the with one pound of butter and a small of salt until as thick as cream tea made after this fashion holds the second place to in affections the butter according to our thinking is always the mode of making it is and it always has a rank from the in which it was kept its value is by age i saw skins of it forty fifty and even sixty years old which were very highly and would only be opened at some special family festival or funeral during the three days of our visits to both men and women wore their festival dresses and apparently abandoned most of their ordinary occupations in our honour the men were very anxious that i should be amused and made many grotesque suggestions on the subject why is the european f among the woman always writing or sewing they asked is she very poor or
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vexed that sir e� should know anything of the matter lady which we foresaw would make him bo uneasy he caught all your fears the moment he had read your letter and i am sure he has not had the out of his head since he wrote hy the same post to a long letter full of it all and particularly asking an explanation of what he may have heard from lady to contradict the late shocking reports his answer came this morning which i shall to you as i think you will like to see it i wish it was more satisfactory but it seems written with such a determination to think well of lady that his assurances as to marriage etc do not set my heart at ease i say all i can however to satisfy your father and he is certainly less uneasy since s letter how provoking it is my dear that this unwelcome guest of yours should not only prevent our meeting this christmas but be the occasion of so much vexation and trouble i kiss the dear children for me your a� mother c d� xiv mr de to sir my � i have this moment received your letter which has given me more astonishment than i ever felt before i am to thank my sister i suppose for having represented me in such a light as to injure me in your opinion and give you all this alarm i know not why she lady to make herself and h t un easy bj on event which no one but i affirm would ever have thought possible to such a design to i would be taking from her every claim to that excellent understanding which her bitterest enemies have never denied her and equally low must sink my pretensions to common if i am o matrimonial views in my behavior to her our of age must be an i objection and i entreat you my dear father to quiet your mind and no longer harbor a suspicion which cannot be more injurious to your own peace than to our i can have no other view in remaining with lady than to enjoy a short time as you have yourself expressed it the conversation c a woman of high intellectual powers if mrs would allow something � to my affection for herself and her husband in the length of my visit she would do more justice to u ail but my sister is unhappily prejudiced be the hope of conviction against lady from an attachment to her husband which in itself does honor to both she cannot forgive the at preventing their union which been attributed to selfishness in lady but in this case as well as in many others the world has most injured that lady by supposing the worst where the motives of her conduct been doubtful lady had heard something so materially to the disadvantage of my sister as to persuade her that the happiness of mr to whom she was always much attached would be lady wholly destroyed by the marriage and this circumstance while it explains the motives of lady s conduct and all the blame which has been so on her may also convince us how little the general report of any one ought to be since no character however upright can escape the of if my sister in the security of retirement with as little opportunity as inclination to do evil could not avoid censure we must not condemn those who living in the world and surrounded with temptations should be accused of errors which they are known to have the power of committing i blame myself severely for having so easily believed the tales invented by charles smith to the prejudice of lady as i am now convinced how greatly they have her as to mrs s jealousy it was totally his own invention and his account of her miss s lover was better founded sir james martin had been drawn in by that young lady to pay her some attention and as he is a man of fortune it was easy to see her views extended to marriage it is well known that miss m is absolutely on the catch for a husband and no one therefore can pity her for losing by the superior attractions of another woman the chance of being able to make a worthy man completely wretched lady was far from intending such a conquest and on finding how warmly miss resented her lover s determined in spite of mr and mrs lady s most urgent entreaties to leave the family i have reason to imagine she did receive serious proposals from sir james but her removing to immediately on the discovery of his attachment must her on that article with any mind of common you will i am sure my dear sir feel the truth of this and will learn to do justice to the character of a very injured woman i know that lady in coming to was governed only by the most honorable and amiable intentions her prudence and economy are her regard for mr equal even to his deserts and her wish of obtaining my sister s good opinion merits a better return than it has received as a mother she is her solid affection for her child is shown by placing her in hands where her education will be properly attended to but because she has not the blind and weak partiality of most mothers she is accused of wanting maternal tenderness every person of sense however will know how to value and commend her well directed affection and will join me in wishing that may prove more worthy than she has yet done of her mother s tender care i have now my dear father written my real sentiments of lady you will know from this letter how highly i admire her abilities and esteem her
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sent to school some years miss bell was still retained though the others even then were nursery children they have some good reason i dare say though i cannot penetrate letters of jane it and till i know what it is i shall invent a bad one and amuse myself with for the difference of measures by supposing miss s to be a superior sort of woman who has never stooped to recommend herself to the master of the family by flattery as miss bell did i will answer your kind questions more than you expect miss is put upon the shelf for the present and i do not know that she will ever come out but i have a something ready for publication which may perhaps appear about a hence it is short � about the length of this is for yourself alone neither mr nor mr is to know of it am got tolerably well again quite equal to walking about and enjoying the air and by sitting down and resting a good while between my walks i get exercise enough i have a scheme however for more as the weather grows spring like i mean to take to riding the donkey it will be more independent and less troublesome than the use of the carriage and i shall be able to go about with aunt in her walks to and i hope you will think wm looking well he was the other day and at supplied him with a dose at his own request i am sure you would have approved it wm and i are the letters of jane best of friends i love him very much everything is so natural about him � his affections his manners and his he and interests us extremely mat and a m are people whom i cannot care for in themselves but i enter into their situation and am glad they are so happy if i were the of i should be very miserable about my son s choice our fears increase for poor little the latest account is that sir ev home is confirmed in his opinion of there being water on the brain i hope heaven in its mercy will take her soon her poor father will be quite worn out by his feelings for her he cannot spare at present she is an occupation and a comfort to him sunday march i am very much obliged to you my dearest for sending me mr w s conversation i had great amusement in reading it and i hope i am not and do not think the worse of him for having a brain so very different from mine but my strongest sensation of all is astonishment at your being able to press him on the subject so and i agree with your letters of jane papa that it was not fair when he knows the truth he will be uncomfortable you are the creature nervous enough in some respects but in others perfectly without nerves quite hardened and impudent do not oblige him to read any more have mercy on him tell him the truth and make him an apology he and i should not in the least agree of course in our ideas of novels and pictures of perfection as you know make me sick and wicked but there is some very good sense in what he says and i particularly respect him for wishing to think well of all young ladies it shows an amiable and a delicate mind and he deserves better treatment than to be obliged to read any more of my works do not be surprised at finding uncle henry acquainted with my having another ready for publication i could not say no when he asked me but he knows nothing more of it you will not like it so you need not be impatient you may perhaps like the heroine as she is almost too good for me many thanks for your kind care for my health i certainly have not been well for many weeks and about a week ago i was very poorly i have had a good deal of fever at times and indifferent nights but i am considerably better now and am recovering my looks a little which have been bad letters of jane enough � black and white and every wrong color i must not depend upon being ever very blooming again sickness is a dangerous indulgence at my time of life thank you for everything you tell me i do not feel worthy of it by anything that i can say in return but i assure you my pleasure in your letters is quite as great as ever and i am interested and amused just as you could wish me if there is a miss i perceive whom she will evening � i was languid and dull and very bad company i wrote the above i am better now to my own feelings at least and wish i may be more agreeable we are going to have rain and after that very pleasant genial weather which will exactly do for me as my saddle will then be completed and air and exercise is what i want indeed i shall be very glad when the event at is over the expectation of it keeps us in a worry your especially she sits brooding over evils which cannot be and conduct impossible to be understood now the reports from st are rather better little s are and sir is satisfied with the effect of the and does not despair of a cure the complaint i find is not considered nowadays provided the patient be young enough not to have the head hardened the water in that case may be drawn letters of jane off by but though this is a new idea to us perhaps it may have been long familiar to you through your friend mr
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much as that not so much sir i tell you that a hundred thousand pounds is a well i know it s a big sum mr here there was a general laugh all the other present were more cultivated than mr s is the french for trifle my friend said mr christian don t talk over people s heads so scales i shall have hard work to understand you myself soon come that s a good one said the head gardener who was a ready admirer i should like to hear the thing you don t understand christian he s a first rate hand at said mr scales rather don t be man fu ring the bell for and make some punch that s the thing for putting people up to the unknown tongues said mr christian starting up and scales s shoulder as he passed him what i mean mr is this here mr scales paused to puff and pull down his waistcoat in a gentlemanly manner and drink he was wont in this way to give his hearers time for meditation come then speak english i m i� t against being taught said the reasonable what i mean is that in a large way of trade a man turns his capital over almost as soon as he can turn himself bless your soul i know something about these eh � h� the radical to be sure you do � few men more said the gardener who was the person appealed to not that i ve had any thing to do with commercial families myself those feelings that i look to other things besides but i can t say that i ve not been intimate with parties who have been less nice than i am myself and knowing what i know i shouldn t wonder if had as much as five hundred thousand bless your soul sir people who get their money out of land are as long five pounds together as your trading men are turning five pounds into a hundred that s a wicked thing though said mr however he went on retreating from this difficult ground trade or no trade the have been poor enough this many a long year i ve a brother a tenant on their estate � i ought to know a little bit about that they ve kept up no establishment at all said mr scales with disgust they ve even let their kitchen gardens i suppose it was the eldest son s gambling i ve seen something of that a man who has always lived in first rate families is likely to know a thing or two on that subject ah but it wasn t gambling did the first mischief said mr with a slight smile feeling that it was his turn to have some superiority new comers don t know what happened in this country twenty and thirty year ago i m turned fifty myself and my father lived under sir s father but if any body from london can tell me more than i know about this country side i m willing to listen what was it then if it wasn t gambling said mr scales with some impatience t pretend to know it was law � law � that s what it was not but what the always won and always lost said the too ready scales yes yes i think we all know the nature of law there was the last suit of all made the most noise as i understood continued mr but it wasn t tried they said there was a deal o false swearing some young man pretended to be the true heir � let me see � i can t justly remember the names � he d got two ite swore l e was one man and they swore he was another however lawyer won it � they say he d win a game against the old one himself � and the young fellow turned out to be a stop a bit � his name was � henry mr christian here let a slip from his hand into the punch bowl with a which sent some of the into the company s faces what a i am he said looking as if he were quite by this unusual awkwardness of his go on with your tale mr � a named harry well that s the tale said mr he was never seen nothing of any more it was a deal talked of at the time and i ve sat by and my father used to shake his head and always when this mrs was talked of he used to shake his head and say she carried things with a high hand once but lord it was before the battle of and i m a poor hand at tales i don t see much good in em but if any body u tell me a cure for the sheep rot i ll thank him here mr into smoking and silence a little that the knowledge of which he had been delivered had turned out rather a and insignificant birth well well by should be by there are secrets in most good f said mr scales and this young coming back with a fortune to keep up the establishment and have things done in a decent and gentlemanly way � it would all have been right if he d not been this sort of radical madman but now he s done for himself i heard sir say at dinner j i � l i � thb radical that he would be and that s a pretty strong take it what does it mean scales said mr christian who loved ay what s the meaning insisted mr encouraged by finding that even christian was in the dark well it s a law term � speaking in a sort of way � meaning that a radical was
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to assume the animation of life � their eyes to pursue me in every movement i carried away by the of fancy i almost myself surrounded by the shades of the and holding sweet with the of antiquity i ah i bom in a age abandoned to the of a stranger and a weary pilgrim in thy native land with no weeping wife nor of helpless children but doomed to wander neglected through those crowded streets and by foreign from those where once thine ancestors held sovereign empire i let me however lose the historian in the man nor the recollections of age to overcome me while dwelling with fond on the virtuous days of the � on those sweet days of simplicity and ease which never more will dawn on the lovely island of the renowned or walter van was descended from a long line of dutch who had away their lives and grown t upon the bench of in and who history of had themselves with such wisdom and propriety that they were never either heard or talked of r which next to being a d be the object of ambition to all sage and r his of is said to be a corruption of the original t which in english means a name admirably descriptive of his habits for though he was a man shut up within himself like an and of such a turn that he scarcely ever spoke except in yet did he never make up his mind on any doubtful point this was clearly accounted for by his affirmed that he always conceived every subject on so comprehensive a scale that he had not room in his head to turn it over and examine both sides of it so that he always remained in doubt merely in consequence of the astonishing magnitude of his ideas there are two opposite ways by which s men get into one by talking a vast deal and thinking a little and the other by holding their tongues and not thinking at all by the first many a superficial the reputation of a man of quick parts � by the other many a vacant like the owl the of birds comes to be by a world with all the attributes of wisdom this by the way is a mere casual remark which i would not for the universe have it thought i apply to governor van on the contrary he was a very wise for he never said a foolish thing and of such invincible gravity that he was never known to laugh or even to smile through the course of a long and prosperous life certain however it is there never was a matter proposed however simple and on which your common narrow minded mortals would determine at the first glance but what the renowned put on a mighty m vacant kind of look shook his head and new having smoked for five minutes with earnest ness observed that he had his doubts about the matter � which in process of time gained him the of a man slow of belief and not easily imposed on the person of this illustrious old gentleman was a formed and nobly as though it had been by the hands of some cunning dutch as a model of majesty and grandeur he was exactly five feet six inches in height and six feet five inches in his head was a perfect sphere far in magnitude that of the great who thence called or head � indeed of such dimensions was it that dame nature herself with all her sex s ingenuity would have been puzzled to a neck capable of supporting it wherefore she wisely declined the attempt and settled it firmly on the top of his back bone just between th shoulders where it remained as as a ship of war in the mud of the his body was of an form particularly at bottom was wisely ordered by providence seeing that he was a man of habits and very averse to the idle his legs exceeding ere sturdy in proportion to the weight they had to sustain so that when erect he had not a little the appearance of a beer barrel standing on his that in index of the mind presented a vast p or by any of those and which the human countenance is termed ex two small grey eyes feebly in the midst like two stars of lesser ma in a and his fed cheeks which seemed to have taken toll of every thing went into his were curiously and with dusky ce � af le his were as regular as his person he daily history of took his four stated meals exactly an hour to each he smoked and doubted hours and he slept the remaining twelve of the four and twenty such was the renowned van a true her for his mind was either elevated above or settled below the cares and of world he had lived in it for years without feeling the least curiosity to know whether the sun round it or it round the sun and he had even watched for at least half a the smoke curling from his pipe to the ceiling without once troubling his head with any of those numerous theories by which a philosopher would have perplexed his brain in for its rising above the surround ing atmosphere in his council he presided with great state and he sat in a huge chair of solid oak in the celebrated forest of the by an experienced of and curiously carved about the arms and feet into exact of gigantic claws instead of a he swayed a long pipe wrought with and which had been presented to a of holland at the conclusion of a treaty with one of the petty powers in this stately chair would he sit and this magnificent pipe would he smoke shaking his right
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of hay and came in to see if dinner was ready � i ain t goin to get a regular dinner to day as long as father s gone said his mother � i ve let the fire go out you can have some bread an milk an pie i thought we could get along she set out some of milk some bread and a pie on the kitchen table � you d better eat your dinner now said she � you might jest as well get through with it i want you to help me afterward and stared at each other there was something strange in their mother s manner mrs did not eat anything herself she went into the and they heard her moving dishes while they ate presently she came out with a pile of plates she got the clothes basket out of the shed and packed them in it and watched she brought out cups and and put them in with the plates by mary e what you goin to do mother inquired in a timid voice a sense of something unusual made her tremble as if it were a ghost rolled his eyes over his pie you ll see what i m goin to do replied mrs if you re through i want you to go up stairs an pack up your things an i want you to help me take down the bed in the bedroom o mother what for gasped � you ll see � during the next few hours a feat was performed by this simple pious new england mother which was equal in its way to s of the heights of it took no more genius and audacity of bravery for to cheer his wondering soldiers up those steep under the sleeping eyes of the enemy than for at the head of her children to move all their little household goods into the new bam while her husband was away and followed their mother s instructions without a murmur indeed they were there is a certain and quality about all such purely original as their mother s was to them went back and forth with her light loads and with sober energy at five o clock in the afternoon the little house in which the had lived for forty years had emptied itself into the new bam every somewhat for unknown purposes and is in a measure a prophet the of s bam while he designed it for the comfort of four footed animals had planned better than he knew for the comfort of saw at a glance its possibilities those great box with hung before them would make better than the one she had occupied for forty years and there was a tight carriage room the harness room with its chimney and shelves would make a kitchen of her dreams the great middle space would make a parlor by and by fit for a palace up stairs there was as much room as down with and windows what a house would there be looked at the row of before the allotted space for cows and reflected that she would have her front entry there by mary e at six o clock the stove was up in the harness room the kettle was boiling and the table set for tea it looked almost as home like as the abandoned house across the yard had ever done the young hired man and directed him calmly to bring the milk to the new bam he came gaping dropping little of foam from the on the grass before the next morning he had spread the story of s wife moving into the new bam all over the little village men assembled in the store and talked it over women with over their heads into each other s houses before their work was done any from the ordinary course of life in this quiet town was enough to stop all progress in it everybody paused to look at the staid independent figure on the side track there was a difference of opinion with regard to her some held her to be insane some of a lawless and rebellious spirit friday the minister went to see her it was in the and she was at the bam door peas for dinner she looked up and returned his salutation with dignity then she went on with her work she did not invite him in the expression of her face remained fixed but there was an flush over it the minister stood awkwardly before her and talked she handled the peas as if they were bullets at last she looked up t nd her eyes showed the spirit that her meek front had covered for a lifetime there ain t no use mr said she i ve thought it all over an over an i believe i m what s right i ve made it the subject of prayer an it s me an the lord an there ain t no call for nobody else to worry about it well of course if you have brought it to the lord in prayer and feel satisfied that you are doing right mrs � said the minister helplessly his thin gray bearded face was pathetic he was a sickly man his youthful confidence had cooled he had to himself up to some of his pastoral duties as as a catholic and then he was by the smart � i think it s right jest as much as i think it was right for our forefathers to come over from the old country cause they didn t have what belonged to em said mrs she arose by mary e the bam threshold might have been rock from her bearing i don t doubt you mean well mr said she but there are things people hadn t ought to interfere with i ve been a member of the church for over forty
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say no deception about this tale by accident stumbled upon a village that is well known to exist though he is the only englishman who has been there a somewhat similar institution used to flourish on the outskirts of and there is a story that if you go into the heart of which is in the heart of the great indian desert you shall come across not a village but a town where the dead who did not die but may not live have established their and since it is perfectly true that in the same desert is a wonderful city where all the rich money retreat after they have made their fortunes fortunes so vast that the owners cannot trust even the strong hand of the government to protect them but take refuge in the sands and drive c spring and buy girls and their palaces with gold and ivory and and mother o pearl i do not see why s tale should not be true he is a civil engineer with a head for plans and distances and things of that kind and he certainly would not take the trouble to invent imaginary traps he could earn more by doing his legitimate work he never the tale in the telling and grows very hot and indignant when he thinks of the treatment he received he wrote this quite at first but he has touched it up in places and introduced moral reflections thus � the strange ride in the beginning it all arose from a slight attack of fever my work my being in camp for some months between and � a desolate sandy stretch of country as every one who has had the misfortune to go there may know my were neither more nor less than other and my work demanded sufficient attention to keep me from had i been inclined to so a weakness on the d december i felt a little feverish there was a full moon at the time and in consequence every dog near my tent was it the brutes assembled in and and drove me frantic a few days previously i had shot one loud mouthed singer and suspended his in terror em about fifty yards from my tent door but his friends upon fought for and ultimately devoured the body and as it seemed to me sang their hymns of afterwards with renewed energy the light head which fever acts differently on different men my irritation gave way after a short time to a fixed determination to slaughter one huge black and white beast who had been foremost in song and first in flight throughout the evening thanks to a shaking hand and a giddy head i had already missed him twice with both barrel of my when it struck me that my best plan would be to ride him down in the open and finish off with a f this of course was merely the semi notion of a fever patient but i remember that it struck me at the time as being eminently practical and i therefore ordered my groom to saddle and bring him round quietly to the rear of my tent when the pony was ready i stood at his head prepared to mount and dash out as soon as the dog should again lift up his voice by the way had not been out of his for a couple of days the night air was crisp and chilly and i was armed with a specially long and sharp pair of with which i had the strange ride been rousing a that afternoon you will easily believe then that when he was let go he went quickly in one moment for the brute bolted as straight as a die the tent was left far behind and we were flying over the smooth sandy soil at racing speed in another we had passed the wretched dog and i had almost forgotten why it was that i had taken horse and spear the delirium of fever and the excitement of rapid motion through the air must have taken away the remnant of my senses i have a faint recollection of standing upright in my and of my spear at the great white moon that looked down so calmly on my mad gallop and of shouting to the thorn bushes as they past once or twice i believe i swayed forward on s neck and literally hung on by my spurs � as the marks next morning showed the wretched beast went forward like a thing possessed over what seemed to be a expanse of sand next i remember the ground rose suddenly in front of us and as we the ascent i saw the waters of the shining like a silver bar below then heavily on his nose and we rolled together down some unseen slope i must have lost consciousness for when i recovered i was lying on my stomach in a heap of soft white sand and the dawn was beginning to break dimly over the edge of the slope down which i had fallen as the light grew stronger i saw i was at the bottom of a shaped of sand opening on one side directly on to the of the my fever had altogether left me and with the exception of a slight in the head i felt no bad effects from the fall over night who was standing a few yards away was naturally a good deal exhausted but had not hurt himself in the least his saddle a favorite one was much about and had been twisted under his belly it took me some time to the strange ride put him to rights and in the meantime i had ample opportunities of observing the spot into which i had so foolishly dropped at the risk of being considered tedious i must describe it at length inasmuch as an accurate mental picture of its
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nothing could be objected to when it came under the discussion of the neighbourhood except that the carriage which conveyed the bride and bridegroom and from tbe church door to wm e chaise which mr had used for a before in every thing else the etiquette of the day ind the investigation done and tbey were gone sir thomas felt as an anxious father must feel and was indeed much of the agitation which his wife had been of herself but liad fortunately escaped mrs most to assist in the duties of the day by spending it at the park to support her sister s spirits and the health of mr and mrs in a glass or two was all joyous delight � for she had made the match � she had done everything � and no one would have supposed fi om her confident triumph that she had ever heard of in her life or could have the smallest insight into the disposition of the niece who had been brought up und r her eye the plan of the young couple was to proceed after a few days to and take a house there for some weeks every public place was new to maria and is almost as gay in winter as in summer when the novelty of amusement there was over it would be time for the wider range of london was to go with them to since between the sisters had ceased they had been gradually recovering much of their former good understanding and were at least friends to make each of them exceedingly glad to be with the other at such a time some other companion than mr was of the first consequence to his lady and was quite as eager for novelty and pleasure as maria though she might not have struggled through so much to obtain them and could better bear a subordinate situation their departure made another material change at a chasm which required some time to fill up the family circle became greatly contracted and though the had added little to its gaiety they could not but be missed even their mother missed them � and how much more their tender hearted cousin who wandered about the house and thought of them and felt for them with a i� of regret which they had never done much v chapter s consequence increased on the departure of her cousins becoming as she then did the only young woman m the drawing room the only of that interesting division of the family in which she had hitherto held so humble a third it was impossible for her not to be more looked at more thought of and attended to than she had ever been before and where is v became no uncommon question even without her being wanted for any one s convenience not only at home did her value increase but at the too in that house which she had hardly entered twice a year since mr s death she became a welcome an invited guest and in the gloom and dirt of a november day most acceptable to mary her visits there beginning by chance were continued by mrs grant really eager to get any change for her sister could by the easiest self deceit persuade herself that she was doing the kindest thin by and giving her the most important opportunities of improvement in pressing her frequent calls having been sent into the village on some errand by aunt was overtaken by a heavy shower close to the and being from one of the windows endeavouring to find under the branches and lingering leaves of an oak just beyond their premises was forced though not without some modest reluctance on her part to come in a civil servant she had but when i r park grant himself went out with an umbrella there was nothing to be done but to be very much ashamed and to get into the house as fast as possible and to poor miss who had just been contemplating the dismal rain in a very state of mind sighing over the ruin of all her plan of exercise for that morning and of every chance of seeing a single creature beyond themselves for the next y four hours the sound of a little bustle at the front door and the sight of miss price dripping with wet in the was delightful the value of an event on a wet day in the country was most forcibly brought before her she was all alive again directly and among the most active in being useful to in her to be than she would at first allow and providing her with dry clothes arid after being obliged to submit to all this attention and to being assisted and waited on by and maids being also obliged on returning down stairs to be fixed in their drawing room for an hour while the rain continued the blessing of fresh to see and think of was thus extended to miss and might carry on her spirits to the of dressing and dinner the two sisters were so kind to her and so pleasant that might have enjoyed her visit could she have believed herself not in the way and could she have foreseen that the weather would clear at the end of the hour and save her from the shame of having dr grant s carriage and horses out to take her home with which she was threatened as to anxiety for any alarm that her absence in such weather might occasion at home she had nothing to suffer on that score for as her being out was known only to her two she was perfectly aware that none would be felt and that in whatever cottage aunt might choose to establish her during the rain her being in such cottage would be to aunt it was beginning to look bright when
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my fine fellow said he at last you have burned your fingers and i do not fancy that you will come near the fire again or do you perhaps think of continuing with politics as a profession if your majesty will overlook what i have done stammered i shall promise you that i will be your most loyal servant until the day of my death uncle hum said the emperor a pinch of snuff over the front of his white jacket there is some sense in what you say for no one makes so good a servant as the man who has had a thorough fright but i am a very master i do not care what you require of me everything will be welcome if you will only give me your forgiveness for example said the emperor it is one of my that when a man enters my service i shall marry him to whom i like do you agree to that there was a struggle upon the poet s face and he clasped and his hands may i ask you may ask nothing but there are circumstances there there that is enough i cried the emperor harshly turning upon his heel i do not argue i order there is a young lady de for whom i desire a husband will you marry her or will you return to prison again there was the struggle in the man s � e and he was silent and in his it is enough cried the emperor call the guard no no do not send me back to prison the guard i will do it i will do it i will marry you please i the end you villain i cried a voice and there was standing in the opening of the curtains at one of the windows her face was pale with anger and her eyes shining with scorn the parting curtains framed her tall slim figure which leaned forward in her of passion she had forgotten the emperor the everything in her of feeling against this whom she had loved they told me what you were she cried i would not believe them i could not believe them � for i did not know that there was upon this earth a thing so contemptible they said that they would prove it and i defied them to do so and now i see you as you are thank god that i have found you out in time and to think that for your sake i have brought about the death of a man who was worth a hundred of you oh i am rightly punished for an act has had his revenge enough said the emperor sternly constant lead into the next room as to you sir i do not think that i can condemn any lady of my court to take such a man as a husband suffice it that you have been shown in your true colours and that has been cured of a foolish remove the prisoner there de said the emperor when the wretched had been conducted from the room we have not done such a bad uncle piece of work between the coffee and the it was your idea and i give you credit for it but now de i feel that we owe you some for having set the young a good example and for having had a share in this business you have certainly acted very well i ask no said i with an uneasy sense of what was coming it is your modesty that speaks but i have already decided upon your reward you shall have such an allowance as will permit you to keep up a proper appearance as my de camp and i have determined to marry you to one of the ladies in waiting of the my heart turned to lead within me but i stammered this is impossible oh you have no occasion to hesitate the lady is of excellent family and she is not wanting in charm in a word the is settle and the marriage takes place upon thursday but it is impossible i repeated impossible when you have been longer in my service sir you will understand that that is a word which i do not i tell you that it is settled my love is given to another it is not possible for me to change indeed i said the emperor coldly if you persist in such a resolution you cannot expect to retain your place in my household here was the whole structure which my the end tion had planned out crumbling hopelessly about my ears and yet what was there for me to do it is the bitterest moment of my life said i� and yet i must be true to the promise which i have given if i have to be a beggar by the roadside i shall none the less marry de or no one the had risen and had approached the window well at least before you make up your mind de said she i should certainly take a look at this lady in waiting of mine whom you refuse with such indignation with a quick of rings she drew back the curtain of the second window a woman was standing in the recess she took a step forward into the room and then � and then with a cry and a spring my arms were round her and hers round me and i was standing like a man in a dream looking down into the sweet laughing eyes of my it was not until had kissed her and kissed her again upon her lips her cheeks her hair that i could persuade myself that she was indeed really there let us leave them said the voice of the behind me come napoleon it makes me sad it reminds me too much of the old days in the so there
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t admit it he grinned oh maybe once or twice when will has positively known of a case where doctor � ere one of the others has continued to call on longer than necessary he has laughed about it but he stiu grinned o really and en you say the wives of the doctors share these mrs and i haven t any particular crush m each other she s so stolid but hear mother mrs � nobody could be sweeter yes i m sure she s very bland but i wouldn t tell her my heart s secrets if i were you my dear i insist that there s only one professional man s wife in this town who plot and that is you you blessed won t be ed i t believe that medicine the main street of healing can be turned into a penny kicking business see here hasn t ever hinted to you that you d better be nice to some old woman because she tells her friends which doctor to call in but i t to she remembered certain remarks which had regarding the widow she looked at he sprang up strode to her with a nervous step smoothed her hand she wondered if she ought to be offended by his caress then she wondered if he liked her hat the new oriental of rose and silver he her hand his elbow brushed her shoulder he flitted over to the desk chair his thin back stooped he picked up the across it he peered at her with such loneliness that she was startled but his eyes faded into as he talked of the of he stopped himself with a sharp good card you re not a jury you are within your legal rights in refusing to be subjected to this up i m a tedious old the obvious while you re the spirit of rebellion tell me your side what is to you a bore � � can i help how could your � � i don t know perhaps by listening i haven t done that tom u but can t i be the of the old french plays the maid with the mirror and the loyal cars � � oh what is there to confide the people are and proud of it and even if i liked you i talk to you without twenty old watching whispering � � but you will come talk to me once in a while � � not sure that i shall i m trying to develop my own large capacity for and contentment failed at every positive thing i ve tried i d better settle down as they can it and be satisfied to nothing � � don t be cynical it hurts me in you it s like blood on the wing of a humming bird � � not a humming bird a hawk a tiny hawk to death by these large white but i am grateful to you for me in the faith and going home � � please stay and have some coffee with me td like to but succeeded in me fm afraid o what people might say not afraid of that i m only afraid of what you might he stalked to her took her hand cared you have been hai y here yes i m begging she squeezed his hand quickly then snatched hers away she had but little of the curiosity of the and none of the s joy in if she was the girl was the clumsy boy he about the office his fists into his pockets he stammered i � i � i oh the devil why do i awaken from smooth to this jagged e i m going to trot down the hall and bring in the and well all have coffee or something the yes really quite a decent young pair � and his wife he s a just come to town they live in a room his office same as i do here they don t know much of anybody heard of them and never thought to call fm horribly ashamed do bring them she stopped for no very clear reason but his e q said her faltering admitted that they wished they had never mentioned the with enthusiasm he said splendid i will from the door he at her curled in the leather chair he slipped out came back with dr and mrs the four of them drank rather bad coffee which made on a they laughed and spoke of and were and started for home through the november wind chapter jl she was marching home no i couldn t fall in love with him i like him very much but he s too much of a could i kiss him main street no at twenty six i could have kissed him then maybe even if i were married to some one else and probably td have been in persuading myself that it wasn t really wrong the amazing thing is that fm not more amazed at myself i the virtuous young matron am i to be trusted if the prince charming came a married a year and yearning for a prince charming like a of sixteen they say that marriage is a magic change but i m not changed but i wouldn t want to fall in love even if the prince did come i wouldn t want to hurt will i am fond of will i am he doesn t stir me not any longer but i depend on him he is home and children i wonder when we will begin to have children i do want wonder whether i remembered to teu to have tomorrow instead of she will have gone to bed by now perhaps be up enough ever so fond of will i wouldn t hurt him even if i had to lose the mad love if the prince came
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now existing in england has been produced by human hands within the last twelve months meantime three or four days rain will reduce hundreds to starving in london � one secret of their power is their mutual good standing not only good minds are born among th but all the people have good minds every yielded some good wit if as has chanced to many only one but the intellectual organization of the english admits a of knowledge and ideas among them all an electric touch by any of their national ideas them into one family and brings the of power which their is always into use and play for all is it the of the or is it the pride and affection of they have or and trust in each other their minds like wool admit of a which is more lasting than the cloth they embrace their cause with more than their life though not military yet every common subject by the is fit to make a soldier of these private reserved mute family men can adopt a public end with all their heat and this strength of makes the romance of their heroes the difference of rank does not divide the national heart the poet that who writes in writes to two hundred readers in there is one speech for the learned and another for the masses to that � that it is no sentiment or phrase the works of any great german writer is ever heard the lower classes but in england the language of the j the language of the poor in parliament in in theatres when he rise to thought and pa ion the language the people in the street understand the words and their language seems drawn from the the common law and the works of bacon milton pope young cow per and scott the island has produced two or three of the greatest men that ever existed hut they not in their own time men quickly what found out in and the boys know all that knew of or of or of blood vessels aad these studies once dangerous are in fashion so what is invented or known in or in trade in war or in art or in literature and � a great ability not on a few giants but poured into the general mind so that each of them could at a pinch in the shoes of the other and they are more bound in character than in ability or in rank the is a possible lord the lord is a possible maker every man carries the english system in his brain knows what is confided to him and does therein the best he can the carries england on his the at the point of his the smith on his hammer the cook in the bowl of his spoon the cracks his whip for england and the sailor times his oars to god save the king the very have their pride in each other s english in politics and im war they hold together as by hooks of steel the in s history is the unselfish greatness the i of being supported to the by those � whom he to the whilst they are � some ages ahead of the rest of the world in the art of i living whilst in some directions they do not represent the � modem spirit but constitute it � this of civility and power they coldly hold marching in ot after foot file after file of heroes ten thousand deep chapter vi i the englishman to be him of � u men who in his shoes they have in themselves what they value in their horses and bottom on the aj of my arrival at liverpool a gentleman in describing to m� the lord lieutenant of ireland happened to say lord has pluck like a cock and will fight till h q dies and what i heard first i heard last and the one thing the english value is pluck the have it the have it the have it the a have it the journals have it the newspaper say is the thing in england and had made it a proverb that little lord john the minister would the command of the channel fl et to morrow they require you to dare to be of your own and they hate the who cannot in a answer directly yes or no they dare to nay they will let you break all if you do it and with spirit you must be somebody then you may do this ot that as you will has been applied to all work and carried to such perfection that little is for the men but to mind the engines and feed the but the machines re punctual service and as they never tire they too much for their mines mills steam pump steam plough of ments of police rule of court and shop have to give a mechanical regularity to all the and action of men a terrible machine has itself of the ground the air the men and women and hardly even thought is free the mechanical might and organization requires in the people constitution and answering spirits and he who goes among them must have some weight of metal at you ti e your hint from the fury of life you find aad � aj one thing is plain this is no country for people don t creep about � make up your take your own course and you shall respect it requires men say a good constitution to travel in i say as much of england for other cause simply on of the vigour and of the people but the most serious business could give one any to these though they were only to order and for their breakfast the speaks with all his body his is as the american s is the englishman is and
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around it would make the lake twenty or thirty feet deep of course in ancient times when a portion of the country became thus it was for the people to consider whether they would abandon it or try to pump all that water out again by means of the wind mills they would think that if they it out it would be some years before the land would be good again for the salt in the water would tend to make it barren so they would sometimes abandon it and put all their energy into to strengthen the around it in order to prevent the tion from spreading any farther for water in holland to spread and to destroy life and property just as fire does in other countries the lakes and rivers where they are higher than the land are liable to burst their after heavy rains falling in the country or great floods coming down the rivers or high tides rise from the sea and so run into each other and the people have continually to contend against this danger just as in other countries they do against spreading in the case of spreading fire water is the great friend and of man and in the case correspondence what has become of the holland lake of these spreading of water it is wind that he upon the only mode that the dutch had to pump out the water in former times was the wind mills when the rains or the tides the land they called upon the wind to help them lift the water out to where it could flow away again there was a time two or three hundred years ago when all the wind mills that the people could make seem not to have been enough to the work and there was one place in the centre of the country where the water continued to spread more and more � breaking through as it spread from one to another � until at last it swallowed up such an extent of country as to form a lake thirty miles in this lake at last extended very near to the gates of and it was called the holland lake you will find it laid down on all the maps of holland except those which have been printed within a few years the reason why it is not laid down now is because a few years ago finding that the wind mills were not strong enough to pump it out the government concluded to try what virtue there might be in steam so they first repaired and strengthened the range of that extended round the lake in fact they made them double all around leaving a space between for a canal in holland steam engines hare accomplished what wind mills could not they made both the inner and outer of these water tight so that the water should neither back into the lake again after it was out nor out into the beyond the way they made them water tight was by them on both sides with a good thick of clay when the the lake were completed the set up three very powerful steam engines and gave to each one ten or twelve enormous to work these engines were made on such a grand scale that they lifted over sixty of water at every stroke but yet so was the lake and so vast the quantity of water to be drained that though there were three of the engines working at this rate and though they were kept at work night and day it took them a year and a half to lay the ground dry the work was however at last accomplished and now what was the bottom of the lake is all converted into pastures and green fields but they still have to keep the going all the time to lift out the water that falls over the whole space in rain you may judge that the amount is very large that falls on a district thirty miles round they calculate that the quantity which they have to pump up now every year in order to keep the from an ot the ice in holland being again is over fifty millions of and that is a quantity larger than you can ever conceive of and yet the piece of ground is so large that the cost of this makes only about fifty for each acre of land which is very little besides these great spreading which holland has always been subject to from the lakes and rivers in the middle of the country there has always been a greater danger still to be feared from the ice of the and other great rivers coming from the interior of the country the you know flows from south to north and often the ice in the spring breaks up in the middle of the course of the river before it gets in holland the broken ice in coming down the stream towards the north is kept within the banks of the stream where the banks are high but when it reaches holland it is not only no longer so confined but it finds its flow by the ice which there still remains solid and so it gets and forms and that makes the water rise very fast at one time when such a dam was formed the water rose seven feet in an hour at such times the pressure becomes so prodigious that the along the bank of the river are burst and water band gravel and ice all pour over together upon in holland terrible reads his letter the surrounding country and and destroy every thing that comes in its way some of the caused in holland by these floods and have been terrible in ancient times they were worse than they are now because now the are stronger and are better guarded at one that occurred
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though well aware that both will claim my attention on a foreign shore such opportunities as i have been enabled to from my domestic duties i have devoted to corresponding at some length with my family for i own it seems to me my dear mr said mrs who always fell back on me i suppose from old habit to else she might address her discourse at starting that the time is come when the past should be buried in oblivion when my family should take mr by the hand and mr should take my family by the hand when the lion should lie down with the lamb and my family be on terms with mr i said i thought so too this at least is the light my dear mr pursued mrs in which view the subject when i lived at home with my papa and my papa was accustomed to ask when any point was under discussion in our limited circle in what light does my view the subject that my papa was too partial i know still on such a point as the coldness which has ever between mr and my family i necessarily have formed an opinion though it may be no doubt of course you have ma am said my aunt precisely so assented mrs now i may be wrong in my conclusions it is very likely that i am but my individual impression is that the gulf een my family and mr may be traced to an apprehension on the part of my family that mr would require pecuniary accommodation i cannot help thinking said mrs with an air of deep sagacity that there are members of my family who have been apprehensive that mr would them for their names � i do not mean to be conferred in upon our children but to be inscribed on bills of exchange and in the money market n k the personal history and experience the look of penetration with which mrs announced this discovery as if no one had ever thought of it before seemed rather to astonish my aunt who abruptly replied well ma am upon the whole i shouldn t wonder if you were right mr being now on the eve of casting off the pecuniary that have so long him said mrs and of a new career in a country where there is sufficient range for his abilities � which in my opinion is exceedingly important mr s abilities peculiarly requiring space � it seems to me that my family should the occasion by coming forward what i could wish to see would be a meeting between mr and my family at a entertainment to be given at my family s where mr s health and prosperity being proposed by some leading member of my family mr might have an opportunity of developing his views my dear said mr with some heat it may be better for me to state distinctly at once that if i were to develop my views to that assembled group they would possibly be found of an nature my impression being that your family are in the impertinent and in detail said mrs shaking her head no you have never understood them and they have never understood you they have never understood you said his wife they may be incapable of it if so that is misfortune i can pity their misfortune i am extremely sorry my dear said mr to have been betrayed into any expressions that might even have the appearance of being strong expressions all i would say is that i can go abroad without your family coming forward to favor me � in short with a parting of their cold shoulders and that upon the whole i would rather leave england with such as i possess than derive any of it from that quarter at the same time my dear if they should condescend to reply to your communications � which our joint experience renders most improbable � far be it from me to be a barrier to your wishes the matter being thus settled mr gave mrs his arm and glancing at the heap of books and papers lying before on the table said they would leave us to ourselves which they did my dear said leaning back in his chair when they were gone and looking at me with an affection that made his eyes red and his hair all kinds of shapes i don t make any excuse for troubling you with business because i know you are deeply interested in it and it may divert your thoughts my dear boy i hope you are not worn out i am quite myself said i after a pause we have more cause to think of my aunt than of any one you know how much she has done surely surely answered who can forget it of david but even that is not all said i during the last fortnight some new trouble has vexed her and she has been in and out of london every day several times she has gone out early and been absent until evening last night with this journey before her it was almost midnight before she came home you know what her consideration for others is she will not tell me what has happened to distress her my aunt very pale and with deep lines in her face sat immovable until i had finished when some stray tears found their way to her cheeks and she put her hand on mine it s nothing trot it s nothing there will be no more of it you shall know by and by now my dear let us attend to these s i must do mr the justice to say began that although he would appear not to have worked to any good account for himself he is a most man when he works for other people i never
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story but the time had not yet come for me to reveal it to nor could i do so without s consent yet as i thought of su s boy a laughing rascal fresh as the morning such as might have been but for the stain in him � perhaps was in his youth who knows my heart beat faster for a joy that might yet come into her life and the boy s mother was a good girl � she had committed no long base treachery against � if she had loved anyone it was and they who forgive most the years she had spent with him had surely made remote the misfortune of so many years ago paul said my theory is that it s all planned out for us with if any free will � the very good or ill we do is meant to bring out good or ill in others in short we fulfil our destiny god s orders not our wishes and duty is the short cut to happiness after all � pleasure the long way round where we lose our way brave i said and touched her hand but you throw away your life s happiness she said mournfully follow your star � which is i did not answer � my heart was very sore � a great longing came over me to put my head down on her shoulder and shed the tears that nothing had been able to make since my boyhood for i had thrown away the sweet of life � love and kisses and home intellectual and congenial company for ae empty of tom s trust � a trust of which i already saw the th� folly the crime � and if and i were both suffering she had a clear conscience which i had not what is it dear she said anxiously and at that moment came in and startled me into of self for though it was only a fortnight since i had seen him yet the man had shrunk even in that time his so the clothes looked empty his face was yellow his hand struck chill as i touched it � and i knew well what that peculiar meant � knew that blame was wasted on now for approaching death was putting into him all the wisdom life had never taught him went out of the room somehow we both knew she was not coming back and as we sat by the open window looking out on the flower filled in balcony it was the first time we had been alone together for years the is not worth the candle he said quietly as if in continuance of a former conversation it doesn t pay no it doesn t pay i said grimly i was badly brought up had worse associates later who taught that it was the correct thing to run as many women out of sight of each other as i could afford oh drop it i cried savagely i am not treating you to this bond street on a saturday afternoon of my emotions to please myself he said so perhaps you will let me proceed i loved i love her still � she is the only really good woman i ever knew in my life the good women don t count and as my doctor gives me three months at the outside i am anxious about her future why she is precisely the type of woman to choose i they who forgive most the wrong man twice over � and if she neither she nor he will ever forget that he loved her during my lifetime � and it will probably occur to that he may love another woman during hers so he had been jealous of all along just as i thought well she will not marry � at least that is my impression but should she go farther and fare worse � you and your brother tried to stop her marriage with me � i look to you to do so in reality if she again chooses � as bad as i am that would be difficult but not impossible � though no one is so really bad as your really good people say i may be wrong � but i do not think she will marry again still things are more even than they appear � if i have apparently had all the sweet and the sour it is i who am dying early a failure knowing it � and she who having bravely endured all things will be free still a young woman of all the gods can give says mistake that which limits life for life itself � but i hold to my mistake if one it be and do not expect to be given a fresh chance in a future state for i believe that man only can on earth immortal be a comfortable theory i said and the one shared by most wrong must surely be a more serious consideration to think that if we wrong another both the wrong and the wronged may reap through countless ages the consequences of their actions than to believe that for both it will be in a few short years as if the act had never occurred he did not trouble to argue the point i wish our child had lived he said it was probably the nearest approach to a confession he ever made which child i said for in a flash the resolve had come to me to speak to him � i might myself be removed before he was it would be madness to leave things to chance i could do it without bringing into it i thought s child and mine he said s i said he started the yellow of his face became you mean there was no child he is ten years old i said you may thank your stars if
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effect of minute of high power just before the clock struck five oak and passed the village cross and went on together to the fields they were yet barely in view of their mistress s house when oak fancied he saw the opening of a in one of the upper windows the two men were at this moment partially by an elder bush now beginning to be enriched with black of fruit and they paused before emerging from its shade a handsome man leaned idly from the he looked east and then west in the manner of one who makes a first morning survey the man was his red jacket was loosely thrown on but not at an upper window and he had altogether the relaxed bearing of a soldier taking his ease spoke first looking quietly at the window she has married him he said had previously beheld the sight and he now stood with his back turned making no reply i fancied we should know something to day continued i heard wheels pass my door just after dark � you were out somewhere he glanced round upon good heavens above us oak how white your face is you look like a corpse do i said oak with a faint smile lean on the gate i ll wait a bit au right all right they stood by the gate awhile staring at the ground his mind sped into the future and saw there in years of leisure the scenes of repentance that would from this work of haste that they were married he had instantly decided why had it been so mysteriously managed it had become known that she had had a fearful journey to bath owing to her the distance that the horse had broken down and that she had been more than two days getting there it was not s way to do things with all her faults she was itself could she have been the union was not only an unutterable grief to him it amazed him notwithstanding that he had passed the preceding week in a suspicion that such might be the issue of s meeting her away from home her quiet return with had to some extent dispersed the dread just as that motion which appears like stillness is infinitely divided in its properties from stillness itself so had his hope from despair differed from despair indeed in a few minutes they moved on again towards the house the still looked from the window far from the crowd morning comrades i he shouted in a cheery voice when they came up replied to the greeting ye going to answer the man he then said to i d say good morning � you needn t spend a of meaning upon it and yet keep the man civil soon decided too thai since the deed was done to put the best face upon the matter would be the greatest kindness to her he loved good morning he returned in a ghastly voice a rambling gloomy house this said smiling why � they may not be married suggested perhaps she s not there shook his head the soldier turned a little towards the east and the sun kindled his scarlet coat to an orange glow but it is a nice old house responded yes � i suppose so but i feel like new wine in an old bottle here my notion is that windows should be put throughout and these old walls brightened up a bit or the oak cleared quite away and the walls it would be a pity i think well no a philosopher once said in my hearing that the old who worked when art was a living thing had no respect for the work of who went before them but pulled down and altered as they thought fit and why shouldn t we creation and preservation don t do well together says he and a of can t invent a style my mind exactly i am for making this place more modern that we may be cheerful we can the military man turned and surveyed the interior of the room to assist his ideas of improvement in this direction and began to move on oh said as if inspired by a l at an upper window tion do you know if insanity has ever appeared in mr s family reflected for a moment i once heard that an uncle of his was queer in his head but i don t know the rights o t he said it is of no importance said lightly well i shall be down in the fields with you some time this week but i have a few matters to attend to first so good day to you we shall of course keep on just as friendly terms as usual i m not a proud man nobody is ever able to say that of however what is must be and here s half a crown to drink my health men threw the coin across the front plot and over the fence towards who it in its fall his face turning to an angry red his eye edged forward and caught the money in its upon the road very well � you keep it said disdain and almost fiercely as for me i ll do without gifts from him don t show it too much s d for if he s married to her mark my words he ll buy his discharge and be our master here therefore tis well lo say friend outwardly though you say within well � perhaps it is best to be silent but i can t go further than that i can t flatter and if my place here is only to be kept by him down my place must be lost a whom they had for some time seen in the distance now appeared close beside them there s mr said oak i
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early in life we witnessed experiments of every sort and we were too easily satisfied with their results then came the intellectual necessity of and explaining such amazing phenomena that is to say of and them with the sphere of science a little band of fellow students looked to us for such a service and the which has been above was the product of our eager meditations having seen reason however to question the of evidence our poor is now advanced as nothing more than a playful of the intellect in so � as all the more of are concerned whatever may be its worth or as a piece of thought its value as a contribution is exactly equal to and we do not entertain the very faintest e wish or expectation concerning its future fortunes in the world the earth hath as the water hath and this is of them the of art ii � the poetry of we shall not be accused of popular approbation in tbe selection of a subject for the following essay the english poet whose name is written above is with few exceptions ihe least known among us true he has admirers among the of genuine poetry but the great verse devouring public cannot stop to and appreciate the beauties of writers like him like and therefore mrs cook mrs and are the names by which modem english poetry is commonly represented among us there are exceptions to these remarks has long been before the public in a form and is at last coming into notice since it has become fashionable to read the princess has but lately appeared in a manner worthy his merits one only of charming volumes has strayed among us but its modest presence wag forgotten amid the flourish of trumpets that announced the new and home the authors of bells and and are yet to come perhaps we ought not to complain of this it is easier to read songs than study the bells of rhyme sound pleasantly enough to ears not to the sphere bom melody of the singer but we may certainly be excused in our attempt to write a few imperfect words on a poet widely in several ways from all other living english or american writers this peculiarity is the of the beautiful in nature and life with a corresponding beauty of form poets of this class have little of the of the higher spiritual insight of which we shall hereafter speak as the characteristics of the lowest and highest species of poetry represents beauty as it itself in outward forms not from any moral purpose but simply from a love of the beautiful in itself he is an artist of the first degree his at times in forms of surpassing beauty as in the eve of st and portions rf such being the feature of this writer it seems necessary previous to a review of his works to indicate the relation of the beautiful to poetry this will require a definition of poetry which we will endeavour to give in a brief the poetry of space though at the risk of repeating t hat has been better said by critics before what then is the essence of the poetical with what objects material or spiritual is poetry concerned the least informed reader of the will discover that every man has an answer to this one tells us poetry is imitation another creation another that its legitimate province is the beautiful another that it should be a teacher of truth and morality in fact the subtle spirit seems to the grasp of all no sooner have the critics built their walls of around it than it lightly scales them and off into every original poet finds the materials of his art lying in by places and comers which had been given over by common consent to the dominion of the we must not look to criticism to teach us the possibilities of poetry it can deal only with the past and explaining what has been done it must follow in the train of genius content with being her the weather prophet may sit in the fields on a bright day surrounded with his and instruments and the changes of the elements but the sudden rising of a thunder storm all his fine calculations and sends him dripping to his home our of poetry must not be narrow any theory of the art is which the door against the future we must accept the past acknowledge and it if we will but stand m reverence before the awful coming of every new bard the of all these critical at once appears when we attempt to define our ideas of the beautiful the true and the good the very terms employed to limit the art what is this beauty this truth this love which are separately or considered the of poetry as far as our vision extends truth love and beauty appear to complete the circle of being they are perceived by what we call the intellectual and imaginative faculties of the this distinction seems the least arbitrary of any we can make it is one which the mind appears naturally to recognize this is all we are now permitted to know of absolute being as much of the deity as he is pleased to reveal to us as much perhaps as our faculties in their present state can comprehend but here arises a difficulty are truth love and separate elements or is being one revealing itself in these forms in nature are the forces of heat and the poetry of attraction different or only one force acting in different circumstances in morals are humility piety self denial separate virtues or is there but one essential virtue receiving these names from its several these questions especially the first which the others are of the first importance to the decision of our subject for if there be but
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would say he sighed well it w so at all events it is plain to her that i am old enough to be her grandfather no i can think of no reason except some exaggerated notion of the gift itself s a thousand pounds to me on the other hand it would have been a great assistance to her it was mad in her to refuse it no mr it was not mad i am doubtful whether she would have taken it in any case though i think it should have been taken had there been no bar to its acceptance in the spirit � a most generous and noble one � in which it was offered ut there was a bar listen miss s father who was buried yesterday and is therefore safe from the reproaches of a man like you was unlike his daughter of the world worldly i know it she is a from a thorn god bless her well being such as he was by bringing up perhaps more than by nature he looked to his daughter s rather than to her happiness he loved her we should remember though to our minds his way of showing it was a mistaken one and his object was to get her married to some rich man no matter how he might be to her in other respects that wish was uppermost in his last moments as i happen to know and i have no doubt that he imparted it to miss very likely said mr but what has all that to do with her refusal of my little gift i should have thought that the advice of such a man would have tended to its acceptance even had it not been his daughter s due undoubtedly it would but don t you see how he made it impossible for her � being what she is � to accept it from your hands not a bit of it i m as much in th et suppose mr thai her x s a from a thorn matrimonial advice he gave ber as to point out some particular individual i know he put his against some one and is it not possible he indicated to her � by name � the person whom he wished her to marry suppose for example it was yourself i indicate me as miss s future husband why what a villain pardon me mr put in quickly do not use a term so harsh in mr s rank of life nothing is more common than this sordid disposal of a daughter s hand and in your case � except for the of years except i broke in the old man indignantly don t talk of exceptions i say that no man dead or alive had any right to take me for such a scoundrel did he think because i have been in india where folks buy their wives in the slave market you are frowning sir and quite right too at my this charming young lady with such an institution it is a to do so even by way of then how much more to think of it as a practical possibility p i was never so much shocked and in my life then how much more think you must miss have been shocked by such a suggestion mr at first no doubt like you she was slow to believe the possibility of the seriousness of her father s project but once having learnt the truth i see i see there is no need to fill up the picture your outline is quite enough mr from my hand of course she could never have taken a sixpence then how much more a thousand pounds said smiling to be sure the more the worse answered the other it must have seemed like an advance of the purchase money i perceive now why the poor girl never wished me good bye it was not for want of gratitude nor respect mr of that you may be sure said and you know how she loved little god bless her yes returned the old man thoughtfully then after a long pause said something about a since mr was so good as to select me for a son in law it may seem to inquire who was the gentleman he did not approve of in that capacity but it is not lor the purpose of over him that i ask the question i suppose not said smiling still it is a private matter and i ought never to have alluded to it you know so much however that you may as well know all upon his mr a promise from that he would never propose to miss unless he had an income of a a year to share it cruel to propose such an arrangement and to � i i to a air explanation and do these two young people love one another i can answer for one of them said gravely you mean of course but what of i do not presume to read her heart answered i think however her father read it which suggested his precaution and will keep his word most undoubtedly showed his knowledge of mankind in trusting to it and the thousand a year he will never acquire the half of it such a is like one of the impossible tasks that are imposed by the evil in fairy tales will do his best and break his heart over it but a thousand a year is not much make it is not much to a nor even to the professional man nay it is not much to make as the phrase goes out of his own head to the man of genius but falls short of that indeed i i thought he was such a clever young man so he is but he is no more a genius than i am he has the same
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or would the candidate where could i get the the third da i talked to about it and as a favor he oat a paper in which a rough was made which showed that the choice between david hill and with a third man as a dark horse sentiment seemed to be him and in case no agreement could be reached b the new york as to which of its two opposing it would their vote m ht be thrown to this third man of coarse this was all very to me i did my best to get it straight learning that the two thousand strong was to arrive om new york this same day and that the leaders were to be at the i made my way there determined to obtain an interview with no less a person than richard who along with and a hard faced individual by the name of john f seemed to be the brains and of the organization in honor of their presence the was decorated with and some of crossed with or indian feathers above the lined bar was a huge tiger with a stiff projecting tail when pulled downward as it was every few seconds by one and another caused the r n image to a deep growl this delighted the crowd and after each growl there was another round of drinks red faced men in silk hats and long each other on the back and out their joy or threats or on the first floor above the office of the hotel were richard his friend and adviser and they sat in the of a great room on a huge red receiving and talking as a representative of the a cheap star fastened to one of the of my waistcoat and concealed by my coat my soul stirred by being allowed to mingle in affairs of great import i finally made my way to the of this imposing group and to a for an interview with a book about myself the eat man carefully almost too carefully dressed his face the of that of a tiger looked at me in a genial way and said no i remember the patent leather button shoes with the gray e tops the heavy gold ring on one finger and the heavy watch chain across his chest yon won t say who is to be i persisted i wish i he grinned t wouldn t be sitting here trying to find oat he smiled again and repeated my question to one of his companions they all looked at me with condescension and i beat a swift retreat defeated though i was i decided to write out the little scene lai to prove to the city editor that i had actually seen and been refused an interview i went down to the bar to review the scene being there while i was standing at the bar drinking a there came a curious lull in the midst of it the voices of two men near me became audible as they argued who would be hill or some third man not the one i have mentioned bursting with my new political knowledge and longing to air it i at the place where one of the strangers mentioned the third man as the most likely choice solemnly shook my head as much as to say you are all wrong well then who do think inquired the stranger who was short red faced of south i replied feeling though i were an truth a tall fair dark haired in a white hat and paused at thi moment in his hurried passage through the room and looking at the group exclaimed who does me the to mention my name in connection with the i am of south no intrusion i hope i and the two others stared in confusion a book about myself none whatever i replied with an air thinking how interesting it was that thia man of all people be passing through the room at this time these gentlemen were that of be and i was going to sa that sentiment is more in favor well now that is most interesting my young friend and i m e ad to hear yon say it it s � n to be even mentioned in connection with so great an office however small my and who are yon may i my name in i represent the e oh do that makes it doubly wont yon come along with me to my rooms for a moment f ton interest me man yon really do how loi t have yon been a oh for nearly a year now i replied and have yon ever worked for any other tea i was on the last fall he seemed elated by his he most have been one of those swelling flattered silly by this chance of his name in a national atmosphere an older newspaper man would have known that he had not the least chance of seriously considered somebody from the south bad to be mentioned as a compliment and this man was fixed upon as one least likely to prove disturbing later he out to a shady balcony overlooking the lake ordered two and wanted to know on what i based my calculation in order to not seem a fool i now went over my conversation with i spoke of different and their as though these conclusions were my own when as a matter of fact i was quoting my bearer seemed surprised at my intelligence tou seem to be very well informed he said but i know you re wrong the party will never go to the south for a candidate � not for some years anyway the same since you ve been good enough to champion me in this public fashion i would like to do something for in return i suppose your paper is always for a book about advance news
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both sides of the shoulders with hands that against the grain of the hair and that made slight pushing forward these were so many suggestions also their effect was for began to growl very softly deep down in his throat there was a correspondence in between the and the movements of the man s hands the growl rose in the throat with the of each movement and down to start up afresh with the beginning of the next movement the end of each movement was the accent of the the movement ending abruptly and the growling rising with a jerk this was not without its effect on white the hair began to rise on his neck and across the shoulders tim gave a final forward and stepped back again as the that carried forward died down he continued to go forward of his own in a swift run then white struck a cry of startled admiration went up he had covered the distance and gone in more like a cat than a dog and with the same swiftness he had with his and leaped clear the was bleeding back of one ear from a in his thick neck he gave no sign did not even but turned and followed after white the clinging death the display on both sides the quickness of the one and the of the other had excited the spirit of the crowd and the men were making new and increasing original again and yet again white sprang in and got away untouched and still his strange foe followed after him without too great haste not slowly but deliberately and in a sort of way there was purpose in his method � something for him to do that he was intent upon doing and from which nothing could his whole every action was stamped with this purpose it puzzled white never had he seen such a dog it had no hair protection it was soft and easily there was no thick mat of fur to white s teeth as they were often baffled by dogs of his own breed each time that his teeth struck they sank easily into the yielding flesh while the animal did not seem able to defend itself another thing was that it made no such as he had been accustomed to with the other dogs he had fought beyond a growl or a the dog took its silently and never did it flag in its pursuit of him not that was slow he could turn and whirl swiftly enough but white was never white there was puzzled too he had never fought before with a dog with which he could not dose the desire to dose had always been mutual but here was a dog that kept at a distance dancing and here and there and all about and when it did get its teeth into him it did not hold on but let go instantly and darted away again but white could not get at the soft of the throat the stood too short while its massive jaws were an added protection white darted in and out while s wounds increased both sides of his neck and head were and he f but showed no signs of being disconcerted he continued his pursuit though once for the moment he came to a full stop and at the men who looked on at the same time his stump of a tail as an expression of his to fight in that moment white was in upon him and out in passing his trimmed remnant of an ear with a slight of anger took up the pursuit again running on the inside of the white was making and striving to fasten his deadly grip on white s throat the missed by a hair s breadth and cries of praise went up as white doubled suddenly out of danger in the opposite direction the death s the time went by white still danced on and leaping in and out and ever damage and still the with grim toiled after him sooner or later he would accomplish his purpose get the grip that would win the battle in the meantime he accepted all the punishment the other could deal his of ears had become his neck and shoulders were in a score of places and his very lips were cut and bleeding � all from those lightning that were beyond his and guarding time and again white had attempted to knock off his feet but the difference in their height was too great was too too close to the ground white tried the trick once too often the chance came in one of his quick and counter he caught with head turned away as he whirled more slowly his shoulder was exposed white drove in upon it but his own shoulder was high above while he struck with such force that his carried him on across over the other s body for the first time in his fighting history men saw white lose his footing his body turned a half in the air and he would have landed on his back had he not twisted still in the air in the effort to bring his feet to the earth as it was he struck heavily on his side the next instant white he was on his feet but in that instant s teeth closed on his throat it was not a good grip being too low down toward the chest but held on white sprang to his feet and tore wildly around trying to shake off the s body it made him frantic this clinging dragging weight it bound his movements his freedom it was like a trap and all his instinct resented it and against it it was a mad revolt for several minutes he was to all insane the life that was in him took charge of him the wiu to exist of his
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might have thought had been assumed as a machinery for feeling martin s pulse the change in the old man found such a slight expression in his figure that mr looking after him could not help saying to himself and i can wind him round my little finger only think old martin happening to turn his head saluted him affectionately mr returned the gesture why the time was said mr and not long ago when he wouldn t look at me how soothing is this change such is the delicate texture of the human heart so complicated is the process of its being softened he looks the same and i can wind him round my little finger only think in sober truth there did appear to be nothing on which mr might not have ventured with martin for whatever mr said or did was right and whatever he advised was done martin had escaped so many from fortune hunters and had withered in the shell of his suspicion and distrust for so many years but to become the good man s tool and with the happiness of this conviction painted on his face the went forth upon his morning walk the summer weather in his bosom was reflected in the breast of nature through deep green where the boughs arched over head and showed the sunlight flashing in the beautiful perspective through from which the startled leaped up and fled at his approach by pools and fallen trees and down in hollow places rustling among last year s leaves whose scent woke memory of the past the placid strolled by meadow gates and hedges fragrant with wild roses and by roof cottages whose inmates humbly bowed before him as a man both good and wise the worthy walked in tranquil meditation the bee passed onward humming of the work he had to do the idle for ever going round and round in one and ring yet always going on as fast as he danced merrily before him the colour of the long grass came and went as if the light clouds made it timid as they floated through the distant air the birds so many sang gaily upon every branch and mr i life and adventures of paid his homage to the day by on his projects as he walked along to trip in his abstraction over the spreading root of an old tree he raised his pious eyes to take a survey of the ground before him it startled him to see the embodied image of his thoughts not far a head mary herself and alone at first mr stopped as if with the intention of avoiding her but his next impulse was to advance which he did at a brisk pace as he went so sweetly and with so much innocence that he only wanted feathers and wings to be a bird hearing notes behind her not belonging to the of the grove she looked round mr kissed his hand and was at her side immediately with nature said mr so ami she said the morning was so beautiful that she had walked further than she intended and would return mr said it was exactly his case and he would return with her take my arm sweet girl said mr mary declined it and walked so very fast that he remonstrated you were when i came upon you mr said why be so cruel as to hurry now you would not me would you yes i would she answered turning her glowing cheek indignantly upon him you know i would release me mr your touch is disagreeable to me his touch what that touch which mrs � surely a discreet lady � had endured not only without complaint but with apparent satisfaction this was positively wrong mr was sorry to hear her say it if you have not observed said mary that it is so pray take the assurance from my lips and do not as you are a gentleman continue to offend me well weu said mr mildly i feel that i might consider this becoming in a daughter of my own and why should i object to it in one so beautiful it s harsh it cuts me to the soul said mr but i cannot quarrel with you mary she tried to say she was sorry to hear it but burst into martin tears mr now repeated the performance on a comfortable scale as if lie intended it to last some time and in his disengaged hand catching hers employed himself in separating the fingers with his own and sometimes kissing them as he pursued the conversation thus i am glad we met i am very glad we met i am able now to ease my bosom of a heavy load and speak to you in confidence mary said mr in his tenderest tones indeed they were so very tender that he almost my soul i love you a fantastic thing that maiden affectation she made believe to shudder i love you said mr my gentle life with a devotion which is quite surprising even to myself i did suppose that the sensation was buried in the silent tomb of a lady only second to you in qualities of the mind and form but i find i am mistaken she tried to her hand but might as well have tried to free herself from the embrace of an affectionate if anything so may be brought into comparison with although i am a said mr examining the rings upon her fingers and tracing the course of one delicate blue vein with his fat thumb a with two daughters still i am not my love one of them as you know is married the other by her own desire but with a view i will confess � why not � to my my condition is about to leave her father s house i have a character i
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stone to stone we managed to clear it but the tide was coming in we saw and i heard somebody say in a hollow voice that something would come of our been thirteen at dinner bound the next we had to knee deep and carry the ladies pick we ran on over the intervening sand at speed for we knew our case was getting very and found at the third point the water was up to our there was but one more and that once rounded we knew that wo should be in safety we that passage for as we were well aware we were cut oflf by the waves from all retreat � even to that strip of beach where we had dined and where indeed the surrounding rocks were just as as elsewhere we found the tide at the last point six feet in at least and quite a look of unutterable horror stole over every face the philosopher dropped his of with a tremendous crash upon the it s no use my myself with any further at all events no statement however not even this all comes of our having been thirteen at dinner which here again forth could have had a more awful effect upon us than this for we knew that he had had his second cigar and that his judgment was there was a little rock some twelve feet in the sea which would not be covered over for an hour perhaps and thither with mournful hearts we to our lives out by that scanty space i too had a good mind to let that heavy young person whom i had hitherto supported on my shoulders get there as she was only going to be kept dry for so short a time it was very lucky that my good nature prevailed for behind the rock lay our good old in his concealed and laughing to ah i thought you d get your feet wet round the point so i just waited here in case you might want me the heavy young person threw her arms about him there and then and kissed him and for my part i shall not forget him either nor that spring tide autumn although the mark of the stone has as i have said by this time away common sense have a good deal of talent about them but they have no common sense is the verdict universally passed upon our family and it is a just one everybody says so and what everybody says � it stands to common sense � must be true the virtue expired with a certain of ours a sort of of who under the houses of and was never out of favour with the powers and who at last like a jolly fat as he was went off in his he could seek the lord with on perform the lighted candle and business or vex the soul of the in of the period with all equally well he was a man of the strongest common sense and died worth and where would you be without him is a remark i have frequently made to members of my family when they have been inclined to question his principles it is quite certain that none of his descendants would have ever made that money his second son was put into a and ended there because he was always with fire and water and persisted in asserting that carriages could be moved common sense without horses another member of his race proposed to keep oflf by means of the of a cow and a third spent a good deal of his time in building a room to sit in under water there was a good deal of a certain sort of talent in all these persons but what is so much to be regretted is that what they did was contrary to common sense the world never forgave them for it to their dying day my father who might have stepped into a family living of a year as soon as he left college chose instead to join a marching regiment and live in that upon � per besides his pay because he had religious scruples now in the first place all scruples are foolish and religious scruples are worse than foolish � they re wicked and in the next place the living actually went out of the family what harm would my governor have done to it he was not an � he was not a � he was not a person he would have hunted i suppose and shot and � occupations which he delighted in very naturally more than in anything else in the world and as for visiting the poor people which it seems he considered himself for why he might have got a to do all that paying him very handsomely and still receiving � out of the living he could have bought most excellent sermons � and it stands to common sense that these must be much better than what one makes for himself he could but in fine he lost everything and did nothing au through having scruples or which is the same thing from the want of a little common sense with au my regard for the governor it positively makes me mad to think of what he threw away not only the actual advantages but the chances why with our connection � ive got two common sense first cousins in the house of and our arms are the same as the � he might have been made a bishop or even an � who knows � the spiritual shepherd of the church of england with six and twenty thousand pounds a year but then he never could have said for he had not the common sense for it then my mother she was my father s cousin and a regular at twenty one years of age and
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she yes for in a rising place like with so many new it must be quite a task for the older inhabitants to welcome them i have been so surprised by the kindness which every one has shown oh i see said her visitor you think that i live here i have really just come down from london indeed said and awaited an explanation as none was she added you will find a very nice place a nice place to be buried in alive or dead said her visitor there was something peculiarly in her tone and manner it seemed to that she had never before been alone with so singular a person there was in the first place her striking and yet rather sinister and beauty a then there was the absolute of her manner the quiet assumption that she was outside the usual of it is a manner only to be met in english among some of the highest of the high world and some of the highest ot the world it was new to and it made her while mingled with it there was something else which made her feel for the first time in her life that she had incurred the hostility ot a fellow mortal it chilled her and made her unhappy the visitor made no effort to sustain the conversation but leaned back in her chair and stared at her hostess with a very critical and searching glance those two questioning dark eyes played eagerly over her from her brown curls down to the little shining shoe tips which peeped from under the grey skirt especially they dwelt upon her face reading it and it never had been so and her instinct told her that tlie inspection was not altogether a friendly one violet having her rival proceeded now with the same cool attention to take in her surroundings she looked round deliberately at the furniture of the room and in her own mind the ot the i who owned it ventured upon one or two danger conventional remarks but her visitor was not to be diverted to the weather or to the of the south western train service she continued her quiet and silent inspection suddenly she rose and swept across to the side table a photograph of frank in his uniform stood upon it this is your husband mr frank yes do you know him slightly we have mutual friends an smile played across her face as she spoke this must have been taken after i saw him it was taken just after our marriage quite so he looks like a good little married man the photograph is flattering oh you think so i said coldly my own impression is that it fails to do him justice her visitor laughed of course that would be your impression said she s gentle soul began to rise in anger it is the truth she cried it is right that you should think so the other answered with the same laugh you must have known him very slightly if you can t see that it is the truth then i must have known him very slightly was very angry indeed she began to a find sides to her own nature the very existence of which she had never suspected she tapped her little shoe upon the ground and she sat with a pale face and compressed lips and bright eyes quite prepared to be very rude indeed to this eccentric woman who ventured to her frank in so free and easy a style her visitor watched her and a change had come over her expression s evident anger seemed to amuse and interest her her eyes lost their critical coldness and softened into approval she suddenly put her hand upon the other s shoulder with so natural and yet a gesture that found it impossible to resent it he is a lucky man to have such a warm little champion said she her strong character and greater knowledge of the world gave her an over the girlish wife such as age has over youth there were not ten years between them and yet felt that for some reason the conversation between them could not quite be upon equal terms the quiet assurance of her visitor whatever its cause made resentment or remonstrance difficult besides they were a pair of very kindly as well as of very shrewd eyes which now looked down into hers danger you love him very much then of course i love him he is my husband does it always follow you are married yourself don t you love yours oh never mind mine he s all right did you ever love any one else no not really was astonished at herself and yet the questions were so frankly put that a frank answer came naturally to them it pleased her to lose that cold chill of dislike and to feel that for some reason her strange visitor had become more friendly to her you lucky girl you actually married the one love of your life i smiled and nodded what a splendid thing to do i i thought it only happened in books how happy you must be i am very very happy well i dare say you deserve to be besides you really are very pretty if ever you had a rival i should think that it must be some consolation to her to know that it was so charming a person who cut her out laughed at the thought i never had a rival said she my husband never really loved until he met me a did he � oh yes quite so that is so nice that you should both start with a clean sheet i thought you were very handsome just now when you were angry with me but you are quite delightful with that little flush upon your cheeks if i had been a man your
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five per cent on all the captain his residence on shore and sends lor goods from his vessel a they are wanted while the mate and crew remain on to despatch and receive the cargo every vessel has in ite employ several by whom all the boat service is formed when the demand for goods appears to have ceased captain either takes his cargo away or leaves a d by lo b disposed of in his � bid � i� here the same process is md lo on the is sold the captain at the different places where he has left goods to the proceeds and thence home to for a new o regular have numerous orders to fill op from persons resident on the coast taking of course to allow a good profit for their trouble and freight the trade with the is easy and sufficiently plain the difficulty being the somewhat essential one of payment in abundance are eager to buy oa credit but possessing little or no capital they often fail id satisfy their obligations at the period assigned � if they ever pay at all commercial integrity is not here of high aa order as in older countries where the great body of merchants have established a standard of which must not venture to another large branch of business is at places where slave trade is carried on as at and here guns powder cotton and other goods suitable for the purchase or of slaves are sold at good prices for cash or bills of exchange bills of ihe notorious slave dealer at on an eminent spanish house in new york and another in london are taken as readily as cash a large number of the vessels engaged in the african trade whether english or american do a considerable part of their business either with the or wi natives settled at the slave and who from their connection with the trade have plenty of money some of the large english houses give orders to their captains and not to traffic with men to be slave but if a come with money in his hand and liberal prices it requires a conscience and integrity are usually met with on l e coast of africa to the temptation the merchant at is by journal of an to know nothing of all this it is quite an ing moral question however how far either old or new land can be pronounced free from the guilt and ot slave trade while with so little they its profits contribute essential aid to its the method of trade with the natives is more tedious that with the and entirely in its on at a trade it is necessary first of pay the king his dash or present varying in value twenty dollars to seven or eight hundred such sums as latter are paid only by ships of eight hundred or a tons and in the great rivers as or the may be considered as equivalent to the duties on foreign ports in civilized countries and doubtless as in those the himself by an price upon the king being dashed to his satisfaction trade the bring off the articles which the have for sale and the goods of the vessel are exhibited return at first it is a slow process either party o� iii little for the of the other and asking much own but in a few days prices becoming established sides business grows brisk and flags only when one party has little more to exchange native agents are red l the stranger some being attached to the vessel and others trade men the native towns these in addition to their small regular pay continually receive presents which are necessary in order to excite their zeal there is still another mode of trading resorted to masters of vessels they quantities of goods � in value from a trifling sum up to a thousand dollars or e to native trade men these or part of them trade man goes into the interior makes trade with the and brings the proceeds to his employer these by he african be general plan is a block house in the centre with extending from each angle two for for trading houses the whole enclosed within a b they are imposing and constructed k evident view to it is said that all but i vessels are to be from trading within range f and that a man of war is to be stationed at each settlement the captain of a informed me that the are about to sell their fort at to the french ne gave as his authority the single officer remaining at it is perhaps to be regretted that the colonies of were not originally planted in the fertile territory along which we have sailed and which other nations are pre occupying does not appear to possess so rich a soil as most other parts of the coast there is more sand and more marsh above than below cape but the country between cape and is inhabited by cruel warlike and powerful tribes and a colony would need more strength than has ever yet to save it from destruction from to there is a chain of which have been held by different european nations for centuries nearly all the coast is claimed by these foreigners while the interior is occupied by such powerful as those of and on these accounts the tract now called extending about three hundred miles from cape to cape was the most open for the purposes of even within the limits just named however both france and england have recently betrayed a purpose of it is to be hoped that these nations will hereafter transfer their titles to their policy doubtless is to hold the country for its exclusive trade or until they can obtain advantageous terms of commercial intercourse with the and natives the attention of the society at home m
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renown of so great a man as peter should depend upon the pen of so little a man as and now having refreshed ourselves after the and perils of the field it us to return once more to the scene of and inquire what were the results of this renowned conquest the fortress of being the fair metropolis aud iu a manner the key to new what is immortal fame its capture was speedily followed by th entire of the province this was not a little promoted by the gallant and courteous of the peter though a man terrible in battle � yet in the hour of victory was he with a spirit generous merciful and he not over his enemies nor did he make defeat more by � for like that mirror of virtue the renowned he was more anxious to do great actions than to talk of them after they were done he put ho man to death ordered no houses to be burnt down no to be on the of the and even gave one of his officers a severe with his walking staff for having been detected in the act of a hen he moreover issued a inviting the inhabitants to submit to the authority of their high but declaring with that whoever refused should be lodged at the public expense in a goodly castle provided for the purpose and have an armed to wait on them in the bargain in consequence of beneficent terms about thirty stepped forward and took tlie oath of in reward for which they were graciously permitted to remain on the vol lu op banks of the where their descendants reside at this very day but i am told by divers observant travellers that they have never been able to get over the chap fallen looks of their ancestors and do still from father to son manifest marks of the sound given them by the sturdy the whole country of new having thus yielded to the arms of the triumphant peter was reduced to a colony called south river and placed under the of a lieutenant governor subject to the control of the at new this great was called william or rather man who derived his as did of from the dimensions of his nose which projected from the centre of his countenance like the of a he was the great of die tribe of the one of the most ancient and honourable families of the province the members of which do gratefully the origin of their dignity not as noble families in england would do by having a glowing in their but by one and all wearing a right goodly nose stuck in the very middle of their faces i thus was this perilous enterprise peter s triumphant return terminated with the loss of only two men � van home a tall spare man who was knocked overboard by the boom of a in a flaw of wind and fat van who was suddenly carried off by an however were as having bravely fallen in the service of their country true it is peter had one of his limbs terribly being shattered to pieces in the act of the fortress but as it was fortunately his wooden leg the wound was promptly and effectually healed and now remains to this branch of my history but to mention that this hero and his victorious army returned to the where they made a solemn and triumphant entry bearing with them the conquered and the remnant battered crew who had refused v for it appears that the gigantic had only into a at the end of the battle from whence he was speedily restored by a wholesome of the nose these captive heroes were lodged according to the promise of the governor at the public expense in a fair and spacious castle being the prison of state of which the conqueror of bay was i at new � ed governor and which has ever since remained in the possession of his descendants it was a pleasant and goodly sight to witness of the people of new at beholding their warriors once more return from this war in the wilderness the old women thronged round van who gave the whole history of the campaign with accuracy saving that he took the credit of fighting the whole battle himself and especially of the stout which he considered himself as clearly entitled to seeing that it was effected by his own stone the throughout the town gave holiday to their little who followed in after the drums with paper caps on their heads and sticks in their breeches thus taking the first b k on in the art of war as to the sturdy thronged at the heels of peter wherever he went waving their greasy hats in the air and shouting hard for ever it was indeed a day of roaring and a huge dinner was prepared at tlie in honour of the where were this castle very much altered and is still in being and stands at the corner of facing slip l a in one glorious the great and the little of new there were the and his � the with their at their elbows � the officers at the elbows of the and so on to the lowest on of police every having his rag at his side to finish his pipe drink off his heel and laugh at his of immortal in short � for a city feast is a city feast all the world over and has been a city feast ever since the creation � the dinner went off much the same as do our great and fourth of july loads of fish flesh and fowl were devoured of liquor drank thousands of pipes smoked and many a dull joke honoured with much fat sided laughter i must not omit to mention that to this victory peter was indebted
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upon the though no fear could the master from attempting to recover what he regarded by watch and wait or as his own by the law of god and man it was otherwise with the captain of the for he declared that he was in a tremendous hurry to make his trip having been detained over night at the foot of the lake he with colonel in his desire to recover his slaves but he positively refused to put the boat about and capture the it is not improbable that the captain of the steamer saw the guns and the preparations made to receive a boarding party and possibly he reasoned in his own mind that a chance shot was as likely to kill him as any other man on board at any rate he was as resolute in his refusal as any of the resolute parties we have already mentioned dan could hardly believe his senses when he saw the standing out towards the before the plantation when her wheels started again he himself for the encounter for he supposed she would come about and bear down upon him it was incredible that colonel should give up the chase without an effort to capture them and he knew his master too well to think after more consideration that he would abandon his slaves without an energetic effort to recover them by the young the steamer went in to the landing place leaving dan to wonder and rejoice at the happy turn which had taken place in the affairs of his party he informed lily of the altered state of things on deck and the devout girl was happy in the reflection that her prayers had been so promptly answered but we haven t seen the end of it yet lily o no added dan colonel will never give us up he would spend more money than we are all worth for the pleasure of me for running away but he shall never have that satisfaction i had rather die here like a man than to be to death at the dead oak can t we get away is there no chance to escape asked lily whose beating heart was full of mortal terrors � � what s de reason we can t take de and row to de shore and take to de woods suggested well what then demanded dan calmly why den run like a up a tree with blood hounds and slave hunters on your by watch and wait ob track no we should certainly be taken if we did that what shall we do dan murmured lily we shall certainly be taken if we stay here no we have beaten off the slave twice and we can do it again they will come in small boats and i will shoot them down one at a time if they persist answered dan bringing down the butt of the rifle upon the floor of the standing room to his words but you may be shot yourself dan said lily with a visible shudder no i will conceal myself behind the when they come within range of my rifle but can t we get away can t we escape without shooting any of them pleaded the poor girl with a natural horror of we cannot unless we have wind come exclaimed pointing to two boats pulling out from the of the plantation heaven protect and defend us cried lily i will pray for wind i will pray with all my soul for a by the young breeze dan and our father in heaven who has so often heard my prayers will hear me again stop a minute lily stop a minute interposed gazing earnestly down the lake needn t pray no more lily dare s a breeze coming up from de east de breeze am like a down a cotton tree de breeze am coming shouted as he danced round the deck like a needn t pray no more lily de breeze am come then i will thank god for sending it replied the poor girl a smile of joy playing upon her fair face if dan was not so extravagant as his companion on deck he was not less rejoiced especially as the wind from this quarter promised to be a strong one the was hastily hoisted upon the deck of the and the sails trimmed to catch the first breath of the coming breeze breeze a hun d million dollars shouted as the first puff of the welcome wind swelled the sails of the by watch and wait ok � it may be worth more than that replied dan it may be life and liberty to ns the breeze had come and plenty of it but for the course the wished to lay it was dead ahead yet it mattered little v here it carried them if it only enabled them to escape from the terrible man who was the of slavery to them as the wind the lake was agitated and the dashed on as though she understood the issues which depended upon her speed in half an hour the pursuing boats could not be seen and no doubt they had abandoned the chase in despair it was useless to seek a place for concealment for the white sails of the were doubtless watched by scores of eager eyes so dan ran up under the lee of one of the small islands that dot the lake and came to anchor there he did not care to run up the lake any farther than was necessary and he did not think it prudent to beat down the lake in the face of his no more anxious than he of the ever paced a deck colonel was as energetic as he was and would leave no means to capture the by the dan was at first afraid that he would the steamer and pursue them in her but
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by gratifying rather than the angry feelings that were then against england and here let me acknowledge my warm my thankful feelings at the effect produced by one of my trivial i allude to the essay in the sketch book on the subject of the literary between england and america i cannot express the delight i have experienced at the unexpected sympathy and approbation with which those remarks have been received on both sides of the atlantic i speak this not from any paltry feelings of gratified vanity for i attribute the effect to no merit of my pen the paper in question was brief and casual and the ideas it conveyed were simple and obvious it was the cause it was the cause alone there was a on the part of my readers to be affected my countrymen responded in heart to the filial feelings i had in their the author s farewell name towards the parent country and there was a generous sympathy in every english bosom towards a solitary individual lifting up his voice in a strange land to the injured character of his nation there are some causes so sacred as to carry with them an irresistible appeal to every virtuous bosom and he needs but little power of eloquence who the honour of his wife his mother or his country i hail therefore the success of that brief paper as showing how much good may be done by a kind word however feeble when spoken in season � as showing how much good feeling actually exists in each country towards the other which only wants the slightest spark to it into a genial flame � as showing in fact what i have all believed and asserted that the two nations would grow together in esteem and if and malignant spirits would but throw by their mischievous pens and s the author s farewell leave kindred hearts to the kindly impulses of nature i once more assert and i assert it with increased conviction of its truth that there exists among the great majority of my countrymen a favourable feeling towards england i repeat this assertion because i think it a truth that cannot too often be and because it has met with some contradiction among all the liberal and enlightened minds of my countrymen among all those which eventually give a tone to national opinion there exists a cordial desire to be on terms of courtesy and friendship but at the same time there exists in those very minds a distrust of good will on the part of england they have been rendered sensitive by the attacks made upon their country by the english press and their occasional on this subject has been into a settled and unnatural hostility for my part i consider this jealous the author s farewell as belonging to generous natures i should look upon my countrymen as fallen indeed from that independence of spirit which is their birth gift as fallen indeed from that pride of character which they inherit from the proud nation from which they sprung could they sit down under the of and insult indeed the very impatience which they show as to the of the press proves their respect for english opinion and their desire for english for there is never jealousy where there is not strong regard it is easy to say that these attacks are all the of worthless and treated with silent contempt by the nation but alas the of the travel abroad and the silent contempt of the nation is only known at home with england then it remains as i have formerly asserted to promote a mutual spirit of she has but to hold the language of friendship and respect and she the author s farewell is secure of the good will of every american bosom in expressing these sentiments i would utter nothing that should commit the proper spirit of my countrymen we seek no boon at england s hands we ask nothing as a favour her friendship is not necessary nor would her hostility be dangerous to our well being we ask nothing from abroad that we cannot but with respect to england we have a warm feeling of the heart the glow of that still in our blood interest apart � past differences forgotten � we extend the hand of old relationship we merely ask do not us from you do not destroy the ancient tie of blood do not let and drive a kindred nation from your side we would fain be friends do not compel us to be enemies there needs no better ground for than that furnished by an eminent english writer there is says he the author s farewell a sacred bond between us of blood and of language which no circumstances can break our literature must always be theirs and though their laws are no longer the same as ours we have the same bible and we address our common father in the same prayer nations are too ready to admit that they have natural enemies why should they be less willing to believe that they have natural friends to the spirits of both countries must we trust to carry such a natural alliance of affection into full effect to pens more powerful than mine i leave the noble task of the cause of national to the intelligent and enlightened of my own country i address my parting voice them to show themselves superior to the petty attacks of the ignorant and the worthless and still to look with and philosophic eye to the moral character of england as the � from an article said to be by robert esq published in the review it is to be lamented that that publication should so often forget the generous text here given vol ii d d the author s farewell intellectual source pf our rising greatness while i appeal to every generous minded englishman
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along the of the summit peaks in so open a region of course he is well seen everybody notices him and nobody at first knows what to make of him one he must be a another a crow or some sort of another a he seems to be a pretty thoroughly mixed and f ei compound of all these birds has all their strength cunning shyness and wary suspicious curiosity combined and he flies like a dead limbs for insects big holes in pine to get at the seeds cracks nuts held be national his toes cries like a crow or � but in a far louder and more forbidding tone of voice � and besides his crow and screams has a great variety of small chatter talk mostly uttered in a fault finding tone like the he articles that can be of no use to him once when i made my camp in a grove at cathedral lake i chanced to leave a cake of soap on the shore where i had been washing and a few minutes afterward i saw my soap flying past me through the grove pushed by a crow in winter when the snow is deep the of the mountain pines are empty and the and dwarf pine orchard buried he comes down to seeds in the yellow pine f startling the with his loud screams bat even in winter in calm weather he stays in his high mountain home the bitter frost once i lay through a three days storm at the timber line on mount and while the roaring snow laden blast swept by one of these brave birds came to my camp and began at the on the branches of half buried pines without showing the slightest distress i have seen feeding their young as early as june at a height of more than ten thousand feet when nearly the whole landscape was snow covered they are excessively shy and keep away from among the birds of the the as long as they think they are observed but when one goes on without seeming to notice them or sits down and keeps still their curiosity speedily gets the better of their caution and they come flying from tree to tree nearer and nearer and watch every motion few i am afraid will ever learn to like this bird he is so suspicious and self and his voice is so harsh that to most ears the scream of the eagle will seem melodious compared with it the who has and suffered and struggled must admire his strength and endurance � the way he faces the mountain weather the icy cares for his young and a living from the stem wilderness higher yet than dwells the little headed from early spring to late autumn he is to be found only on the snowy icy peaks at the head of the and his feeding grounds in spring are the snow sheets between the peaks and in and autumn the many bold insects go almost as soon as they are bom ascending the highest on the mild breezes that blow in from the sea every day during steady weather but comparatively few of these find their way down or see a flower bed again getting tired and chilly they alight on the snow fields and attracted perhaps by the national glare take cold and die there they lie as if on a white cloth purposely for them and the find them a rich and varied requiring no pursuit � bees and on ice and many a perpetual feast on tables big for guests so small and in vast halls by cool breezes that the feathers of the fairy happy fellows no rivals come to dispute possession with them no other birds not even as far as i have noticed so high they see people so seldom they flutter around the with the curiosity and come down a little way sometimes nearly a mile to meet him and conduct him into their icy homes when i was exploring the group climbing up the grand between the and red mountains into the fountain of an ancient just as i was approaching the small active that back in the shadow of mountain a flock of twenty or thirty of these httle birds the first i had seen came down the to meet me flying low straight toward me as if they meant to fly in my face instead of attacking me or passing by they round my head and fluttering for a minute or two then turned and escorted me up the on the nearest rocks on either hand and flying ahead a few yards at a time to keep even with me among the birds of the i have not discovered their winter quarters probably they are in the desert to the eastward for i never saw any of them in the winter refuge of so many of the mountain humming birds are among the best and most conspicuous of the flashing their throats in countless wild gardens far up the higher slopes where they would be least expected all one has to do to enjoy the company of these mountain mi ts is to display a blanket or handkerchief the is another delightful singing a wild cheery song and � carrying the sky on his back over all the gray and of the region a fine hearty good natured lot of dwell in the park and keep it lively all the year round among the most notable of these are the magnificent log cock the prince of and only second in rank as far as i know of all the of the world the large black glossy that and flies like a crow does but little and in great part on wild and and the carpenter who stores up great quantities of in the bark of trees for winter use the last named species is a beautiful
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to provoke criticism and his age too little to inspire fear she was ready � not to say pleased � to selecting from the some old family that in years i a pair of blue eyes by had been played and sung by her mother sat down to the and began twas on the evening of a winter s day in a pretty voice do you like that old thing mr smith she said at the end yes i do much said � words he would have uttered and sincerely to anything on earth from glee to that she might have chosen you shall have a little one by de that was given me by a young french lady who was staying at house je l ai je l ai ce beau oil les c and then i shall want to give you my own favourite for the very last s when the lamp is shattered as set to music by my poor mother i so much like singing to anybody who really cares to hear me every woman who makes a permanent impression on a man is usually recalled to his mind s eye as she appeared in one particular scene which seems ordained to be her special form of throughout the pages of his memory as the patron saint has her attitude and in illumination so the sweetheart may be said to have hers upon the table of her true love s fancy without which she is rarely introduced there except by effort and this though she may on further acquaintance have been observed in many other phases which one would imagine to be far more appropriate to love s young dream miss s image chose the form in which she was beheld during these minutes of singing for her permanent attitude of to s eyes during his sleeping and waking hours in after days the is seen of a young woman in a pale gray silk dress with of swan s down and opening up from a point in front like a waistcoat without a shirt the cool colour a pair of blue eyes admirably with the warm bloom of her neck and face the candle on the piano comes immediately in a line with her head and half invisible itself forms the accidentally hair into a haze of light surrounding her crown like an her hands are in their place on the keys her lips parted and forth in a tender the closing words of the sad o love who the of all things here why choose you the for your cradle your home and your her head is forward a little and her eyes directed keenly upward to the top of the page of music her then comes a rapid look into s face and a still more rapid look back again to her business her face having dropped its sadness and acquired a certain expression of mischievous the while which lingered there for some time but was never developed into a positive smile of suddenly shifted his position from her right hand to her left where there was just room enough for a small to stand between the piano and the corner of the room into this nook he squeezed himself and gazed wistfully up into s face so long and so earnestly gazed he that her cheek deepened to a more and more crimson tint as each line was added to her song concluding and pausing motionless after the last word for a minute or two she ventured to look at him again his features wore an expression of unutterable you don t hear many songs do you mr smith to take so much notice of these of mine perhaps it was the means and vehicle of the song that i was noticing i mean yourself he answered gently � now mr smith so a pair of blue eyes it is perfectly true i don t hear much singing you mistake what i am i fancy because i come as a stranger to a secluded spot you think i must needs come from a life of bustle and know the latest movements of the day but i don t my life is as quiet as yours and more solitary solitary as death the death which comes from a of life but seriously i can quite see that you are not the least what i thought you would be before i saw you you are not critical or experienced or � much to mind that s why i don t mind singing airs to you that i only half know finding that by this confession she had vexed him in a way she did not intend she added i mean mr smith that you are better not worse for being only young and not very experienced you don t think my life here so very tame and dull i know i do not indeed he said with it must be delightfully poetical and sparkling and fresh and there you go mr smith well men of another kind when i get them to be honest enough to own the truth think just the reverse that my life must be a dreadful bore in its normal state though pleasant for the exceptional few days they pass here could live here always he said and with such a tone and look of unconscious revelation that was startled to find that her had fired a small in the shape of s heart she said quickly but you can t live here always oh no and he drew himself in with the of a s emotions were sudden as his in but the least of woman s lesser � love of caused an disposition on his part so exactly similar to her own to appear as in him as modesty made her own seem in her iv where the turf in many a mould ring heap jt or reasons
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repeated oh i see for the i nay dick i promise you if there come talk of any e we shall act at once till then or till the time is ripe we shall all disappear even like shadows at morning j sir daniel shall look east and west and see none enemies he shall think by the mass that he hath dreamed awhile and hath now awakened in his bed but our four eyes dick shall follow him right close and our four hands � so help us all the army of the saints � shall bring that traitor low i two days later sir daniel s garrison had grown to a strength that he ventured on a sally and at the head of some two score pushed without as far as hamlet not an arrow flew not a man stirred in the thicket the bridge was no longer guarded but open to all comers and as sir daniel crossed it he saw the villagers looking timidly from their doors presently one of them taking heart of grace came forward and with the presented a letter to the knight his face darkened as he read the contents it ran to the and cruel sir daniel these i ye were and fro the first ye have ray father s blood upon your hands let be it will not some day ye shall perish by my so much i let you to and i let you to farther that if ye seek to wed to any other the woman whom that i am bound upon a great oath to wed myself the blow will be very the first step will be thy first step to the grave � t � in my lord chapter i ths house by thb e months had passed away since richard made his escape from the hands of his guardian these months had been for england the party of which was then in the very article of death had once more raised its head the defeated and their leader on the field it seemed for a very brief season in the winter following upon the events already recorded as if the house of had finally over its foes the small town of on the till was full of the of the neighbourhood earl was there with three hundred men at arms lord with two hundred sir daniel himself high in favour and once more growing rich on lay in a house of his own on the main street with three score men the world had changed indeed it was a black bitter cold evening in the first week of january with a hard frost a high wind and every of snow before the morning � i thk black in an obscure in by street near tbe three or four men sat drinking ale and eating a hasty mess of eggs they were all likely weather beaten fellows hard of hand bold of eye and though tbey wore plain like country even a drunken soldier might have looked twice before he sought a quarrel in such company a little apart before the huge fire sat a younger man almost a boy dressed in much tbe same fashion though it was ea y to see by his looks that he was better bom and might have worn a sword had the time suited nay said one of the men at the table i like it not ill will come of it this is no place for jolly fellows a jolly fellow open country good cover and scarce foes but here we are shut in a town about with enemies and for tbe s eye of misfortune see if it snow not ere the morning tis for master there another nodding bis head towards the lad before the fire i will do much for master returned the first but to come to the gallows for any man � nay brothers not that tbe door of the inn opened and another man entered hastily and approached tbe youth before the fire master be said sir daniel forth with a pair of links and four dick for this was our young friend rose instantly to bis feet t hi l lawless he said ye will lake john s watch green she ve follow with me lead forward we will follow him this time an he go to york the next moment they were outside in the dark street and the man who had just come pointed to where two in the wind at a little distance the town was already sound asleep no one moved upon the streets and there was easier than to follow the party without observation the two went first next followed a single man whose long cloak blew about him in the wind and the rear was brought up by the with his bow upon hie arm moved at a brisk walk the intricate lanes and drawing nearer to the shore he hath gone each night in this direction asked dick in a whisper this is the third night running master returned and still at the same hour and with the same small following as though his end were secret sir daniel and his six men were now come to the outskirts of the country was an open town and though the lords who lay there kept a strong guard on the main roads it was still possible to enter or depart unseen by any of the lesser streets or across the open country the lane which sir daniel had been following h the black to an abrupt end before him there was a of rough down and the of the sea surf was audible upon one hand there were no guards in the neighbourhood nor any light in that quarter of the town dick and his two drew a little closer to the object of their chase and presently as they came forth from between the
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at any action of p un h which his cannot approve but reflection doubly severe when he himself obliged in appearance such action by his authority this hard case was mine when on the d of april lust i on st mary s isle knowing lord s interest with hi king and us i his character wished make him the happy instrument of the horrors of less when ihe brave are overpowered ami made of war it was perhaps fortunate for you madam that he w from home for it was my intention ut have taken him on board and to have detained him until through his means a � fair of prisoners as well in europe a in at bad l when i was informed by some men whom i met at landing his was absent i walked back to my boat determined to leave the island by the way however officers who with could not forbear expressing their discontent that in america no was by the english who away all of property setting fire not only lo low and to he houses of the rich without distinction but not even ing the wretched and cows of the poor and at the approach of an winter party had been wit mi as the same ai some therefore was due i had but a moment ho i mi bi gratify them and at the same lime do your thi c ut injury i d the two to permit none of the to of paul s i m ii ui tht or to hurt an about it to treat madam with the to accept of the plate which was and to come making a si or any nm induced to thai i am l that ihe plate which they brought u far of the quantity in which it i have met and when plate i tile r wilt mu own by it to you by conveyance ns you l please to direct had been on board the tin following evening he would a v the awful pomp and dreadful of a ma ei affording � m cl for pencil a� well a melancholy for the mind humanity at such scenes of horror and cannot but the vile detected war ii � h� ll a h rt i made ship of war mounting guns with more than her full and men besides a number of came out from in order to attack and take american continental ship of war of and of h r of and men the met and the wa i disputed with fortitude on each side at ml hour and five when the gallant commander of he fell and victory declared in favour of the amiable lieutenant lay wounded besides near forty of the inferior and crew and wounded a melancholy demonstration of the of human � i buried iu the spacious grave with the due to the memory of the brave though i e drawn my sword in tl c present struggle the rights of men yet i urn not in merely as an american nut am in pursuit of riches my is enough hav do wife nor family and having lived long enough to know that cannot happiness i profess a citizen of the world totally d by the little mean distinctions of climate ur of country which din ih the of the heart ai d set lo i this war begun i had at an time of life withdrawn from the sea service in f of calm and ease i have sacrificed my favourite scheme of life but the ii tke heart and my of domestic and i am ready to my life also with cheerfulness if that would peace and among mankind as the feelings of your bosom cannot in that respect but ik congenial with mine let me ac you madam to use your soft art with your husband to to stop this cruel and destructive war in which never can succeed heaven can never countenance the ut wa � ia j y sm l� tt of j of in america which would ut which will in justly i mu il you fail in this for ain hat will it who can the r ol such im i advocate your to effect ii g of � rs wilt be an act of humanity which al ril i n i l � � kings on a l e i hope i contest will soon be � l should it con � c no war with the fair � i and bi it with profound l f i no the of me a an � i ar of h� r and and would do with my duty to merit it the honour of a i me from hand in to this will ib r a ven singular and if i can render you service in france or i hope you sec into my character ao far n to command mi the least grain of e i wish lo know the behaviour of my people as i lo ih if they have exceeded their liberty t have the to be with much esteem and with your ot and humble to i l of si v t of the here stated i confirmed by following account given at the tn the magazine between ten and eleven a servant brought word tliat a bad landed near the this the i the had given out in order is was supposed to get out of the wa all the servant ami might np i th m i m thirty and forty armed came up of whom themselves round the house except three who entered each with two pistol at and witli fixed they demanded to see th� lady of and upon her appearing told her with a mixture of and civility who were and that � ill he to hem lady behaved with great o and of mind she soon directed
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going to suggest with a modest sense of my youth and the familiarity i had been already guilty of that i had better give him the full benefit of that name when my aunt went on to say but don t you call him by it whatever you do he can t bear his name that s a peculiarity of his though i don t know that it s much of a peculiarity either for he has been ill used enough by some that bear it to have a mortal for it heaven knows mr dick is his name here and everywhere else now � if he ever went anywhere else which he don t so take care child you don t call him anything but mr dick i promised to obey and went up stairs with my message thinking as i went that if mr dick had been working at his memorial long at the same rate as i had seen him working at it through the open door when i came down he was probably getting on very well indeed i found him still driving at it with a long pen and his head almost laid upon the paper he was so intent upon it that i had ample leisure to observe the large paper in a corner the confusion of bundles of manuscript the number of pens and above all the quantity of ink which he seemed to have in in half by the dozen before he observed my being present ha said mr dick laying down his pen how does the world go i tell you what he added in a lower tone i shouldn t wish it to be mentioned but it s a � here he beckoned to me and put his lips close to my ear � it s a mad world mad as boy said mr dick taking snuff from a round box on the table and laughing heartily of david without to give my opinion on this question i delivered my message well said mr dick in answer my compliments to her and i � i believe i have made a start i think i have made a start said mr dick passing his hand among his grey hair and casting anything but a confident look at his manuscript you have been to school yes sir i answered for a short time do you recollect the date said mr dick looking earnestly at me and taking up his pen to note it down when king charles the first had his head cut off i said i believed it happened in the year sixteen hundred and forty nine well returned mr dick scratching his ear with his pen and looking at me so the books say but i don t see how that can be because if it was so long ago how could the people about him have made that mistake of putting some of the trouble out of his head after it was taken off into mine i was very much surprised by the inquiry but could give no information on this point it s very strange said mr dick with a look upon his papers and with his hand among his hair again that i never can get that quite right i never can make that perfectly clear but no matter no matter he said cheerfully and rousing himself there s time enough my compliments to miss i am getting on very well indeed i was going away when he directed my attention to the what do you think of that for a he said i answered that it was a beautiful one i should think it must have been as much as seven feet high i made it we go and fly it you and i said mr dick i do you see this he showed me that it was covered with manuscript very closely and laboriously written but so plainly that as i looked along the lines i thought i saw some allusion to king charles the first s head again in one or two places there s plenty of string said mr dick and when it flies high it takes the facts a long way that s my manner of em i don t know where they may come down it s according to circumstances and the wind and so forth but i take my chance of that his face was so very mild and pleasant and had something so reverend in it though it was hale and hearty that i was not sure but that he was having a good humoured jest with me so i laughed and he laughed and we parted the best friends possible well child said my aunt when i went down stairs and what of mr dick this morning i informed her that he sent his compliments and was getting on very well indeed what do you think of him said my aunt i had some shadowy idea of endeavouring to the question by replying that i thought him a very nice gentleman but my aunt was not to be so put off for she laid her work down in her lap and said folding her hands upon it l the personal history and experience come your sister would have told me what she thought of any one directly be as like your sister as you can and speak out is he � is mr dick � i ask because i don t know aunt � is he at all out of his mind then i stammered for i felt i was on dangerous ground not a morsel said my aunt oh indeed t observed faintly if there is anything in the world said my aunt with great decision and force of manner that mr dick is not it s that i had nothing better to offer than another timid oh indeed he has been called mad said my aunt
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d that their study will not only prove interesting to pupils inspire them with a desire to read still same subjects or from the works of the for it is only by loving books and learning to know them that any one can become a really good reader the pupils should be encouraged to seek for and point out the particular passages in each selection that are distinguished for their beauty their truth or their peculiar to the purpose in view the habit should be cultivated of looking for and enjoying the admirable qualities of any worthy production and special attention should be given to the style of writing which and gives value to the works of various authors these points should be the subjects of daily between teacher and pupils the notes under the head of expression which follow many of the lessons are intended not only to aid in securing of expression but also to afford suggestions for the reading of the and an intelligent comparison of their literary peculiarities in the study of new difficult or unusual words the pupils should invariably refer to the dictionary contents brother and sister my last day at house the departure from miss s two gems from i incident of the french camp n dog tray the discovery of america the glove and the lions st francis the gentle the sermon of st francis in the woods bees and flowers song of the river song of the war and peace l war as the mother of and civilization n friendship among nations m soldier rest iv the soldier s dream v how sleep the brave early times in new york a winter evening in old new england the old fashioned a first days at george charles w m robert robert washington hunt william henry w john b a j � victor sir walter scott thomas william washington j g g robert doubting castle shooting with the a christmas hymn christmas eve at s the christmas the new year s dinner party the town pump come up from the fields father the address at to the dead the chariot race � the at midnight the s � dogs and cats � � the owl critic mrs s umbrella lecture the dark day in � john sir walter scott alfred charles cook charles lamb henry from henry w james t fields william j g two interesting letters l to the lord of spain � � � ii governor to a friend in england � � poems of home and country l this is my own my native land sir walter n the green little of ireland a cherry in my heart s in the iv the v home the age of coal something about the moon the coming of the birds the return of the birds the poet and the bird i the song of the lark il to a robert � james r richard a john � � � � � b hark hark i the lark � � � � shakespeare echoes of the american i henry s famous speech n s men w in in memory of george washington henry lee three great american poems i � � � william ii the bells in � � � the indian edward national who are blessed the bible little gems from the older poets i the noble nature n a contented mind iii a happy life iv solitude v a wish � how king arthur got his name s over s dead body william shakespeare to be i the prayer perfect � � james ii be just and fear not iii if i can live iv the song v the vi � ben sir henry alexander pope samuel proper names list of authors william shakespeare author unknown alfred book of acknowledgment and thanks are proffered to for permission to in this volume his tract on war as the mother of civilization and to the company for their courtesy in allowing us to use the prayer perfect from james s of childhood to david for the poem by entitled come up from the fields father to charles s sons for the song of the from the poems of and also to the same for the selection the old fashioned from bound together by g the from john james t fields henry w and john g are used by permission of and special arrangement with company the of the works of those authors eighth reader brother and sisters i the home coming tom was to arrive in the afternoon and there was another fluttering heart besides s when it was late enough for the sound of the wheels to be expected for if mrs had a strong feeling it was fondness for her boy at last the sound came � that quick light of the wheels there he is my sweet lad mrs stood with her arms open jumped first on one leg and then on the other while tom descended from the and said with masculine as to the tender emotions � what are you there nevertheless he submitted to be kissed willingly enough though hung on his neck in rather a fashion while his blue eyes wandered toward the and the and the river where he promised himself h would begin to fish the first thing tomorrow morning he was one of those lads that grow everywhere in england and at twelve or thirteen years of age look as much alike as � a lad with from the mill on the by george a in which it seems impossible to discern anything but the character of boyhood said tom taking her into a comer as soon as his mother was gone out to examine his box and the warm parlor had taken off the chill he had felt from the long drive you don t know what got in my pockets nodding his head up and down as a means of rousing
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away thy mother be dead she was an old woman said but did not hear and with hand upon his shoulder roused him again i shall speak to thee what the man has spoken which is the tale of the troubles thou hast done and which thou hast told o fool to the captain alexander and thou shalt understand and say if it be true talk or talk not true it is so commanded had fallen among the mission folk and been taught by them to read and write in his hands he held the many fine sheets from which the man had read aloud and which had been taken down by a clerk when first made confession through the mouth of to captain alexander began to read listened for a space when a rose up in his face and he broke in abruptly the league of the old men that be my talk yet from thy lips it comes when thy ears have not heard with self appreciation his hair was parted in the middle nay from the paper it comes o never have my ears heard from the paper it comes through my eyes into my head and out of my mouth to thee thus it comes thus it comes it be there in the paper s voice sank in awe as he the sheets thumb and finger and stared at the it be a great medicine and thou art a of wonders it be nothing it be nothing the young man responded carelessly and he read at hazard from the document i that year before the break of the ice came an old many and a boy who was lame of one foot these also did i and the old m n m e much noise � it be true interrupted he made much noise and would not die for a long time but how dost thou know the chief man of the white men told thee no one beheld me and him alone have i told shook his head with impatience have i not told thee it be there in the paper o fool the league of the old men stared hard at the ink surface as the hunter upon the snow and says here but yesterday there passed a rabbit and here by the willow it stood and listened and heard and was afraid and here it turned its trail and here it went with great swiftness leaping wide and here with greater swiftness and wider came a and here where the claws cut deep into the snow the made a very great leap and here it struck with the rabbit under and rolling belly up and here leads off the trail of the l alone and there is no more rabbit � as the hunter looks upon the of the snow and sa rs thus and so and here dost thou too look upon the paper and say thus and so and here be the things old hath done even so said and now do thou listen and keep thy woman s tongue between thy teeth till thou art called upon for speech thereafter and for a long time read to him the confession and remained musing and silent at the end he said it be my talk and true talk but i am grown old and forgotten things come back to me which were well for the head man there to know first there was the man who came over the of the old men the ice mountains with cunning traps made of iron who sought the of the him i and there were three men seeking gold on the long ago them also i and left them to the and at the five fingers there was a man with a and much meat at the moments when paused to remember translated and a clerk reduced to writing the listened to each little tragedy till told of a man whose eyes were crossed and whom he had killed with a remarkably long shot hell said a man in the of the he said it and sorrowfully he was red haired hell he repeated that was my brother bill and at regular intervals throughout the his solemn hell was heard in the nor did his comrades check him nor did the man at the table rap him to order s head drooped once more and his eyes went dull as though a rose up and covered them from the world and he dreamed as only age can dream upon the colossal of youth later roused him again saying stand the league of the old men up o it be commanded that thou why you did these troubles and these people and at the end here seeking the law rose feebly to his feet and swayed back and forth he began to speak in a low and faintly voice but interrupted him this old man he is damn crazy he said in english to the square man his talk is foolish and like that of a child we will hear his talk which is like that of a child said the square man and we will hear it word for word as he speaks it do you understand understood and s eyes flashed for he had witnessed the play between his sister s son and the man in authority and then began the story the of a bronze which might well itself be wrought into bronze for the generations the crowd fell strangely silent and the square judge leaned head on hand and pondered his soul and the soul of his race only was heard the deep tones of with the shrill voice of the and now and again like the bell of the lord the wondering and meditative hell of the red haired man the league of the old men i am of the people so ran the interpretation of whose inherent hold of
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by this order which the ship s rules yon are made independent in all matters relating to the management of tlie vessel i there can be no trouble now sir replied paul delighted to find that his conduct was approved i hope not and i do not expect any mr returned to the ship satisfied that he had healed the wounds of both the paul was happy and he determined to treat the professor with the utmost deference and kindness and thus remove the remembrance of the difficulty at four o clock after the had passed and entered the territory paul went down to young america t his greek as usual he could not seeing that mr s lip quivered and that be was laboring under strong emotions when he took his place at the mess table the captain was hardly less embarrassed but he hoped an opportunity would soon occur for him to perform some kind act for the gentleman when the was nearly finished and both parties had recovered their self possession the vessel gave a sudden wliich nearly tipped the professor off his stool but he and was too much absorbed in his favorite study to of the incident for a moment mr me to report to you that the vessel is said one of the in breathless touching his cap to the captain paul blushed deeply and was intensely annoyed at this repetition of the circumstances of saturday but there was no alternative but for him to go on will you excuse me mr asked paul rising the professor bowed but made no reply in words he wondered if the vessel had not been run on purpose to and annoy him he was inclined to think that such was the case and that it had been done to enable the captain to display his absolute authority paul went on deck but tlie pilot assured him that the accident would not subject the vessel to half an hour s delay for tlie tide was rising very rapidly he had run her a too near a while the young america by keeping in mid channel had gone clear a there was for the captain to do on deck and he retained to hia class the came off the ground within the half hour and by putting on more sail the ship before she reached here is the city paul said dr as the rounded a bend in the river you can bee the spire of cathedral i see it sir i have heard a great deal about it this is farther than wc have been from tlie sea since we sailed yes it is a long from the sea for a sailing vessel but is the only convenient port for visiting the greater part of we are only a short distance from and li ge i suppose we shall visit no other port in indeed there is no other convenient one except there is a whole fleet of british at anchor opposite the town said paul when the had gone a little farther a great many merchant come up the river there are regular lines to london and by the latter route you may leave at four in the afternoon and be in london at nine the next morning though the or line is quicker and better those are large added paul as the approached the fleet at anchor why that s the victoria and exclaimed the doctor pointing to the largest of the ships that is the of the of england i y young america in holland and i it is a pretty large replied paul what are the other they are the of the the one that lies nearest to her is the was formerly the queen s state vessel � the others are merely a kind of guard of honor does it take five to bring the queen over to asked paul laughing she must go in state when she goes added the doctor tlie victoria and is a ship of twenty four ed tons i hope we shall liave an opportunity to go on board of her i hope we shall but that is hardly to be expected they do not exhibit her she la in english waters but i think they do when she is abroad all ready to ship mr said paul as the young america gave the signal the ran up to a point ne ir the ship and within a couple of length of the royal let go her anchor port officers came on board and explained the harbor among them one whose duty it was to determine the amount due the pilot this the vessel or measured her draught as the drew about ten feet of water the charge was one hundred and everything was made snug on board the ropes were carefully and all the running hauled for lying near tlie queen s paul desired to have the vessel present her best appearance the work of the day was ended and the students were ii i i l le i a at liberty to observe the strange scenes around there was the city of bat it was not much from any other city the formed a in front of tlie town and there was a multitude of vessels lying at tlie as the space on the shore is called the river is about fifteen hundred feet wide and deep enough to float a ship of the line the city is very fortified on both sides of the river here we are for a week or two said to the first lieutenant after all the ship s duty had been performed i suppose so replied it seems to me just as though we had been sailing down hill ever since we came into the river hark it w as just six o clock and the of bells on the great cathedral played a silver toned melody which was almost
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next lady day you will be turned into the street woman on lady day a tooth for a tooth and the old man ground his teeth which were white as ivory and his fist clenched itself while his eye glittered and he swelled out from the chair and literally with hate � a tooth for a tooth o mr said sorrowfully how soon you have foi gotten my last lesson meadows for a moment felt a chill of fear at of � � it is never too late to mend in this oriental whom he had made his enemy to this succeeded the old hate multiplied by ton but he made a monstrous effort and drove it from his face down into the recesses of his heart well said he may you enjoy this house as i have done this last that does you credit good mr meadows cried simple missing his meaning meadows continued in the same tone and i must make shift with the one you on � solomon teach me to this dog come mr i have visited mr meadows and now i am going to your house � you shall be welcome kindly welcome said the old man with large and flowing courtesy and will you show me said very tenderly where used to sit r � ah and where and loved to � ah me ah me ah me i yes i could not show another these holy places but i will show you and will you forget awhile this unhappy quarrel and listen to my words � surely i shall listen to you for even now your voice is to my ear like the wind among the of and the wave that plays at night upon the sands of t is but the frail voice of a foolish woman who loves and respects you and yet said her color with enthusiasm with it i can speak you words more beautiful than s or s shore ay old man words that made the stars brighter and the sons of the morning rejoice i will not tell you whence i had them but you shall say they never came from earth selfish cruel earth these words that drop on our hot passions like the dew and speak of forgiven and peace and good will among men oh magic of a lovely voice speaking the truths of heaven how still the room was as these goodly words rang in it from a pure heart three men there had all been raging with anger and hate now a music fell like oil npon these human waves and them the men drooped their heads and held their breath to make sure the sounds had ceased then ed in a tone gentle firm and low very different from his last bitterness from my as you speak but experience remains he turned to meadows when i wander forth at lady day she shall still be watched over though i be far away my eye shall be here and my hand shall still be so over you all and raising his thin hand he held it high up the nails pointing downward it looked just like a hawk hovering over its prey i will say no word than that to day and in fact he delivered this without apparent heat or malice come then with me � a goodly name it comes to you from the despised people come like peace to my dwelling � you know not this world s as i do but you can teach me the higher wisdom that the folly of passion and the soul the pair were gone and william and meadows were left alone the latter looked sadly and gloomily at the door by which had gone out he was in a sort of he was not conscious of william s presence now the said william had a in the country a man s roof is sacred he had meadows under his own roof and then mr had come and him there too william began to doubt whether this was not a little hard moreover he thought he had seen meadows brush his eye hastily with the back of his hand as retired he came towards meadows with his old sulky honest hang the head manner and said mr meadows seems me we have been a little bard upon it is too late to mend yoa in own and i am not quite easy about my share on t meadows shrugged his shoulders well sir i am not the almighty to read folk s hearts � least of all such a one as yours � but if i have done you wrong i ask your pardon come sir if you don t mean to my brother with the girl you can give me your hand and i can give you mine � and there t is meadows wished this young man away and seeing that the best way to get rid of him was to give him his hand he turned round and scarcely looking towards him gave him his hand william shook it and went away with something that sounded like a sigh meadows saw him out and locked the door impatiently then he flung himself into a chair and laid his beating temples on the cold table then he started up and walked wildly to and fro the room the man was torn this way and that with rage aod remorse what shall i do v thus ran his thoughts at angel is my only refuge and yet to win her i shall have to walk through dirt and shame and every sin that is i see crimes ahead such a heap of crimes my flesh at the number of them why not be like her why not be the greatest saint that ever lived instead of one more villain added to so many let me tear this terrible love out of my
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without prejudice or partiality the journal which is first entitled to notice is the times the distinction of being the first in the will be to it by every one however much he may differ from it in politics the times once called itself die leading journal of europe and it has � been sneered at at least ten thousand times for so doing by its perhaps the assumption of the title by itself was not in th best but few of what sir once ae of europe will dispute tiie ice of ite to it for die last years and upwards during whidi it has been under the control of mr it has exercised an of england such as no other journal e ki this er iti any other country it is not to be denied that it has often represented rather than sentiment but it � equally true it has frequently given a tone to public opinion and a to public action on questions of the greatest importance on which the public mind bad been asleep before its voice of thunder was and what no less strikingly the power of the times in many of the instances to which i refer was the wonderfully short time in which ite articles produced their intended effect i recollect on various occasions the mind not only in the bat throughout the has its � the been called the e it once spoke oc thundering forth an � i again give up the good taste of so character own articles but must at the same time that no term could a better idea ef the r by of its the press evinced the most intense interest on questions but a few weeks previously no one even thought o much less talked about who does not what it did in the way of interesting the public mind on behalf of the spanish who were of hunger in this country some years ago but to go back and to give one very instance who has yet the influence it exercised over the minds of the people of england in the case of queen it is generally believed that the question was regularly and formally decided by vote among the proprietor whether the times should support or oppose the cause of that unfortunate lady and that it was agreed by a majority of one that its most exertions should be made in her favour be this as it may the fact was that the did the cause of queen and with an energy a perseverance and talent which were the admiration of her friends and which filled her foes with indignation and dismay and the success of the ad with the skill the singular boldness and commanding talent of the the public sympathies from one extremity of the empire to the other were all pa in of queen and even manifested themselves in such a way as to cause the house of lords to shrink from r turning a verdict of guilty to the times belonged in a great measure the glory of ing the triumph of that princess � though she unhappily did not live many months to enjoy it not less striking was the display of the power of the times during the great crisis of the reform bill day after day did it send articles in favour of that measure which tor vigour of conception and energy of expression have never been surpassed by any tions in the english language their great on the public mind was visible to all it was doubtless also sensibly felt by the members of both houses of parliament who can help that so powerful an ally in of liberal that did such signal service to the public cause � should now the very it once so and with such marked success to destroy the amazing power of the times is admitted by men of all parties but people often express at a loss to account for it my impression is that various s to produce it people frequently ask is the ability rf its leading articles the s the n� source its undoubtedly is one element in it and it is one in the absence of which all the others go for nothing there other elements in the great ence of the times is for example the of its vast its circulation is greater than that of any daily journal in england and is only surpassed in europe by one or two paris papers were its circulation limited the talent it would have no field on which to operate its light to use a phrase would be hid under a but in the proportion which the circulation of the toils amount of power regard must not be had to the mere extent of circulation the character of that must be taken into account well then one of the leading attributes of the circulation of the is its other papers some cases almost read by classes the times is read by all it of its ten thousands of readers among upper there ib not a member of house of who does not read it there is n m � s club which not take it in while if is read a eagerness and by of the lower indeed may it ie read by you never meet by with any person who any pretensions le who does not by some means or other see the times what is somewhat singular is that even those who are most liberal and hearty in th ir abuse of it are its most eager and constant readers every one knows that time after time the have entered into a sort of solemn league and te it altogether and to convert house square to some other us than that of broad sheets they groan at it at their public me until they make themselves hoarse au the at these meetings their of abuse
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about the crowd for the same purpose to the greater part of these a slight nod or a look from s companion was sufficient greeting but now and then some man would come and stand beside him in the throng and without turning his head or appearing to communicate with him would say a word or two in a low voice which he would answer in the same cautious manner then they would part like strangers some of these men often re appeared again unexpectedly in the crowd close to and as they passed by pressed hia hand or looked him sternly in the face but they never spoke to him nor he to them no not a word it was remarkable too that whenever they happened to stand where there was any press of people and chanced to be looking downward he was sure to see an arm stretched out � under his own perhaps or perhaps across him � which thrust some paper into the hand or pocket of a and was so suddenly withdrawn that it was impossible to tell from whom it came nor could he see in any face on glancing quickly round the least confusion or surprise they often trod upon a paper like the one he carried in his but his companion whispered him not to touch it or to take it up � not even to look towards it � so there they let them lie and passed on when they had the street and au the avenues of the building in this manner for near two hours they turned away and his friend asked him what he thought of what he had seen and whether he was prepared for a good hot piece of work if it should come to that th the better said i m prepared for anything � so am i said his friend and so are many of us and they shook hands upon it with a great oath and with many terrible on the as they were thirsty by this time proposed that they should repair together to the boot where there was good company and strong liquor yielding a ready assent they bent their steps that way with no loss of time this boot was a lone house of public entertainment situated in the fields at the back of the hospital a very solitary spot at that period and quite deserted after dark the tavern stood at some distance from any high road and was only by a dark and narrow lane so that was much surprised to find several people drinking there and great merriment going on he was stiu more surprised to find among them almost every face that had caught his attention in the crowd but his companion having whispered him outside the door that it was not considered good manners at the boot to appear at all curious about the company he kept his own counsel made no show of recognition before putting his lips to the liquor which was brought for them drank in a loud voice the health of lord george president of the great association which toast pledged likewise with corresponding a who was present and who appeared to act as the appointed of the company forthwith struck up a scotch and that in tones so that and his friend who had both been drinking before rose from their seats as by previous concert and to the great admiration of the assembled guests performed an no dance chapter the applause which the performance of and his new friend from the company at the boot had not yet subsided and the two dancers were still panting j om their exertions which had been of a rather extreme and � violent character when the party was by the arrival of some more guests who being a of united were received with very flattering marks of distinction and respect the leader of this small � for including himself they were but three in number � was our old acquaintance mr who seemed physically speaking to have grown smaller with years particularly as to his legs which were little but who in a moral point of view in personal and self esteem had swelled into a giant nor was it by any means difficult for the most person to detect this state of feeling in the for it not only proclaimed itself and beyond mistake in his majestic walk and eye but found a striking means of revelation in his up nose which all things of earth with deep disdain and sought communion with its kindred skies mr as chief or captain of the was attended by his two one the tall comrade of his younger life the other a knight in days of � mark bound in the time to thomas of the golden these gentlemen like himself were now j om their and served as but they were in humble of his great example bold and daring spirits and to a distinguished state in great political events hence their with the association of england by the name of lord george and hence their present visit to the boot gentlemen said mr taking off his hat a great general might in addressing his troops well met my lord does me and you the honour to send his per self you ve seen my lord too have you said see him this afternoon my duty called me to the when our shop shut up and i saw him there sir mr replied as he and his took their seats how do you do lively master lively said the fellow here s a new brother regularly put down in black and white by muster a credit to the cause one of the stick at sort one my own heart d ye see him has he got the looks of a man that u do do you think he cried as he on the
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freely in their word and gesture a beautiful form is better than a beautiful face a beautiful behavior is better than a beautiful form it gives a higher pleasure than statues or pictures it is the finest of the fine arts a man is but a little thing in the midst of the objects of nature yet by the moral quality from his countenance he may all considerations of magnitude and in his manners equal the majesty of the world i have seen an individual whose manners though wholly within the of elegant society were manners never learned there but were original and commanding and held out protection and prosperity one who did not need the aid of a court suit but carried the holiday in his eye who the fancy by flinging wide the doors of ne w modes of existence who shook off the of etiquette with happy spirited bearing good natured and free as robin hood yet with the port of an emperor � if need be calm serious and fit to stand the gaze of millions the open air and the fields the street and public chambers are the places where man his will let him yield or divide the at the door of the house woman with her instinct of behavior instantly in man a love of trifles any coldness or or in short any want of that large flowing and which is indispensable as an exterior in the hall our american have been friendly to her arid at this moment i esteem it a chief felicity of this country that it in women a certain awkward consciousness of inferiority in the men may give rise to the new chivalry in behalf of woman s rights certainly let her be as much better placed in the laws and in social forms as the most zealous can ask but i confide so entirely in her inspiring and musical nature that i believe only herself can show us how she shall be essay ly served the wonderful generosity of her ments raises her at times into and regions and the pictures of or and by the firmness with which she her upward path she the that another road exists than that which their feet know but besides those who make good in our imagination the place of and of are there not women who fill our with wine and roses to the brim so that the wine over and fills the house with perfume who inspire us with courtesy who our tongues and we speak who our eyes and we see we say things we never thought to have said for once our walls of habit reserve vanished and left us at lai e we were children playing with children in a wide field of flowers steep us we cried in these influences for days for weeks and we shall be sunny poets and will write out in many colored words the romance that you are was it or that said of his she was an force and astonished me by her amount of life when i saw her day after day every instant joy and grace on all around her she was a powerful to reconcile all persons into one society like air or water an element of such a great range of that manners it readily with a thousand where she is present all others will be more than they are wont she was a and whole so that whatsoever she did became her she had too much sympathy and desire to please than that you could say her manners were marked with dignity yet no princess could her clear and erect on each occasion she did not study the grammar nor the books of the seven poets but all the poems of the seven seemed to be written upon her for though the bias of her nature was not to thought but to sympathy yet was she so perfect in her own nature as to meet intellectual persons by the fulness of her heart warming them by her sentiments believing as she did that by dealing nobly with all all would show themselves noble i know that this pile of chivalry or fashion which seems so fair and picturesque ta those who look at the contemporary facts for science or for entertainment is not equally pleasant to all spectators the constitution of our society it a giant s castle to the ambitious youth who have not found their names in its golden book and whom it has excluded from its honors and privileges they have yet to learn that its seeming grandeur is shadowy and relative it is ly great by their allowance its gates will fly open at the approach of their courage and virtue for the present distress however of those who are to from the of this caprice there are easy to remove your residence a couple of miles or at most four will commonly relieve the most extreme for the advantages which fashion are plants which in very confined in a few streets namely out of this they go for nothing are of no use in the farm in the forest ih the market in war in the society in the literary or scientific circle at sea in friendship in the heaven of thought or virtue but we have lingered long enough in these painted courts the worth of the thing signified must our taste for the emblem every thing that is called fashion and courtesy itself before the cause and fountain of honor creator of titles and namely the heart of love this is the royal blood this the fire which in all countries and will work after its kind and conquer and all that approaches it this gives new to every fact this the rich suffering grandeur but its own what is rich are you rich enough to help anybody to the and the eccentric rich enough to
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within the theatre all went with the and precision of a military code and the one who lived the most lived the most thoroughly the life of a student was philip himself for days together did not see him except upon the stage and weeks passed without any sign that he was taking further notice of her or interest in her than to have given her the little part of the page in due course as he had promised a line or two a word here a salutation there were put in for her then she received instructions to one of the minor characters of the play this was the part of a young girl � a sort of rival of the heroine of the piece a dainty charming part to play which would be an enormous advance on the work she was doing at last her opportunity came owing to a ankle the principal could not appear and the under � heart and sword study otherwise took the part in her stead to it was as formidable as any ordinary first night afterwards became sir john and his lady were present and at least half a dozen whom he had asked as a personal favour to attend the performance and came up from on purpose and mary about her giving her hints and encouraging her in every way that was possible to herself the result seemed nothing short of hideous she had studied the part so diligently had watched her principal so closely that she seemed unable to get inside the character try as she would but when it was over mary whispered to her you ll do and patted her on the shoulder with a word of encouragement the morning brought her a note from sir john asking her to go to tea at place the following afternoon and one of the morning papers spoke of her as miss a young of great freshness and great distinction of style another paper spoke of her as a new discovery of mr s and of course told her that she waa too for words and that was the beginning of s career she played the part nightly and at the various es for nearly a month as the ankle which was the cause of her chance continued extremely troublesome and difficult to cure then miss came to her own again and s candle was promptly put out philip said miss to when was back at the theatre once more what are you going to do for little now nothing nothing she echoed well i don t see that i can do i have given her a very good chance and most her ankle just at the nick of time miss but you cannot expect her to continue an invalid just to oblige a new comer of course not philip how tiresome you are you are not going to put the child back to page s work i can t do that at least it would be but she can continue the work � that is heart breaking business said miss she must wait said in a tone of decision she has had a better chance than most girls she has done brilliantly and i am very well pleased with her but no theatre can be run solely for the benefit of the who want chances for a week or two it seemed as if there was practically nothing for but � and the drawing of three guineas a week then she received an offer from another manager for the run of a piece just about to be produced and mr was pleased to lend her as the phrase goes for the engagement s new manager was called harry a man of different from philip a man who had no ideas about high art one who was himself a brilliant and ran his theatre purely as a place of amusement and for the purpose of making money the play itself was the work of a modern one walter half comedy half domestic drama he had been one of those to see during the time she had played s part at the and he had marked the exquisite fi of her voice and manner her airy charm and grace and the general of her style the part assigned to her was as fresh and as herself it was as he said a big risk to give so prominent a part to so young an but the end fully justified his choice my dear child he said when he met her for the first time at you are to io l heart and sword your only chance of succeeding is to do precisely what i tell you while you are in if i had wanted somebody to create the part i would have chosen she might have done great things with it but she is just a little too studied she knows just too much to give me precisely what i want i want the smell of the new hay to across the to the public i want my to be as simple and as sweet as under a i want her to be as as the and which we gather in the meadows in the early morning if you can be all that � that is to say if you can be yourself � you will have the greatest success that any girl has had upon the stage within my recollection it is easy enough to play heavy parts it is easy enough to and scream and like a dog as mrs john is doing every night at the but to give a real fresh dainty of sweet and charming so that every man will feel my wife was like that once and my daughter will be like that to morrow is the most difficult task which can be set to any young now will you do your best she turned a
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so he may be in a dark lantern sort of way but he is a stick if he had to say catch my soul but i do love her he would say it in just the same tone as here the second lesson oh said shocked at these allusions and it is very of you to speak so of him for he you very much i heard say one day to mamma is regularly upon she was very angry with him but i know what it means it is what they say at college for being in love how can i help it said rather contemptuously catch my soul if i love him no of course papa i think would not wish it and he is to go away soon but it makes me sorry when you ridicule him what shall you do to me when i ridicule said now dear you mil not t said her eyes filling with tears i could not bear it but there really is nothing in him to ridicule only you may find out things for no book i � the spoiled child one ever thought of laughing at mr before you every one said he was nice looking and his manners perfect i am sure i have always been frightened at him because of his learning and his square cut coat and his being a nephew of the bishop s and all that but you will not ridicule � promise me ended with a look which touched you are a dear little she said just touching the tip of s chin with her thumb and fore finger i don t ever want to do anything that will vex you especially if is to make everything come off � and and when at last was there the animation he brought into the life at and the and his ready in s plans left her no inclination for any ridicule that was not of an open and flattering kind such as he himself enjoyed he was a fine open hearted youth with a handsome face strongly resembling his father s and s but softer in expression than the one and larger in scale than the other a bright healthy loving nature enjoying ordinary innocent things so much that vice had no temptation for him and what he knew of it lay too entirely in the outer courts arid little visited daniel of his mind for him to think of it with great vicious habits were with him what some fellows did � stupid stuff which he liked to keep aloof from he returned s affection as fully as could be expected of a brother whose pleasures apart from her were more than the sum total of hers and he had never known a stronger love the cousins were continually together at the one house or the other � chiefly at where there was more freedom or rather where there was a more complete sway for and whatever she wished became a ruling purpose for the came off according to her plans and also some other little scenes not contemplated by her in which her acting was more it was at that the and were and presented mrs seeing no objection even to mr s being invited to share in them now that too was there � especially as his services were indispensable who was studying for india with a coach having no time to spare and being generally dismal under a of everything except the answers needed at the examination which might disclose the welfare of our indian book i � the spoiled child empire to be somehow connected with a knowledge of s mr was persuaded to play various grave parts having flattered him on his of countenance and at first a little pained and jealous at her with he presently drew encouragement from the thought that this sort of familiarity excluded any serious passion indeed he occasionally felt that her more formal treatment of himself was such a sign of favour as to warrant his making advances before he left though he had intended to keep his feelings in reserve until his position should be more assured miss quite aware that she was adored by this young clergyman with pale whiskers and square cut collar felt nothing more on the subject than that she had no objection to be adored she turned her eyes on him with calm and caused him many mildly hopes by seeming always to avoid dramatic contact with him � for all we know depend on the key of interpretation ome persons might have thought beforehand that a young man of having a sense of much exercised on small vol l g daniel things as well as rarely laughing save from politeness and in general regarding the mention of by their naked names as rather coarse would not have seen a fitting bride for himself in a girl who was daring in ridicule and showed none of the special grace required in the clergyman s wife or that a young man informed by reading would have reflected that he was not likely to meet the taste of a lively restless young lady like miss but are we always obliged to explain why the facts are not what some persons thought beforehand the apology lies on their side who had that way of thinking as for who would possibly have been sorry for poor if he had been aware of the excellent s inward conflict he was too completely absorbed in a first passion to have observation for any person or thing he did not observe he only felt what she said or did and the back of his head seemed to be a good organ of information as to whether she was in the room or out before the end of the first fortnight he was so deeply in love that it was impossible for him to think of
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to form temporary we will consider that demand but you must not call them marriages for though they may be the same to you they are fer wise to us ii as to the religious or christian view of the subject i test on the simple explicit of of as universally understood and regarded by the christian for eighteen centuries we know what hebrew roman laws and customs respecting the union were in christ s day we know that and his accepted a very different law � that of marriage but by death op by that crime which is death to all the of marriage we know that and catholic and literal and liberal with barely exceptions enough to prove the rule have understood the s doctrine of marriage throughout the christian centuries as i do to day that this christian doctrine of marriage is a chief reason for the moral intellectual and even material of europe over asia in our day i do most firmly believe you will regard it as you think fit and as to moses and his law with all you have to say of them all the answer that seems to me needed is contained in the few words of on that very point moses for the hardness of your hearts permitted easy divorce but from the beginning it was not so iii i have said that the divine end of marriage is the and increase of the human race by that i abide of course i did not say that marriage has no other end than this so au your criticism seems to me i do not urge that in a true union everything else but the production and of children must be ignored i do insist that there must be nothing or inconsistent with this if required to say whether the union of this man with this woman is true noble and honorable or selfish and i must ask would they gladly have children bom of it would they proudly acknowledge those children before the world and undertake to fulfil toward them all the duties of parents marriage and divorce b k not their though impelled by admiration and by a flood of passion is shameful and the union which the immediate parties prefer should be has no ri t to be at all i was shocked when i heard an of your say some years since we hold that the parents are not to be sa to the children i hold on the contrary that the lives of true parents are with acts of self sacrifice for their children � that their lives have been well spent who have given to the world nobler than themselves and while i admit that the conduct of a husband may be so outrageous so brutal as to justify the innocent wife in requiring a separation i insist that one who truly the nature and purposes of marriage wiu seek to marry another while the father of her children is still living i do not think she could look those children in the eye with all a mother s conscious purity and dignity while that their father and her husband both living were men do i feel that she could be to them all that a mother should be under such conditions iv the vice of our age the main source of its is a morbid which the social necessities in its mad pursuit of individual personal ends your fling at that called society is directly in point you are concerned chiefly for those who having married unfortunately if not seek relief from their bonds i am anxious rather to prevent or at least to render and unfit hereafter the miseries of the maybe deplorable but to make divorce easy is in effect to invite the and selfish to profane the of marriage whenever appetite and temptation may f here are a man and a woman who know absolutely nothing of each other but that they are pleased with each other s appearance and think marriage would to their mutual enjoyment � so they form a next year � perhaps next month � they have tired of each other � discovered of temper � quarrelled � in short they hate each other as they very well may so they are and ready to marry again that under the liberty of divorce by which was and ultimately ruined a woman had eight husbands within five years me whenever you shall have succeeded in our word marriage as a fig leaf for this sort of thing you will cause us to invent or appropriate some other term to what we mean by marriage and then you will very soon drop your own and come ours again so please leave us what belongs to us and choose a new term for your arrangement now it is very hard said a to the judge who him that i should be so severely punished for merely stealing a horse man replied the judge you are not so punished for merely stealing a horse but that horses may not he stolen the distinction seems to me clear and vital the wedded in soul may know each other if they will it is impossible that others should certainly know them to those who are thus wedded the to take each other for better for worse and to live together till death do part has no terrors they enter upon it without hesitation and fulfil its conditions without regret but to the the the selfish of personal and present enjoyment at whatever cost to others the of marriage is an obstacle a restraint a terror and god forbid that it should ever cease to be thousands would take a wife as readily as as as they don a new coat or sport a new if it were understood that they might themselves whenever or disgust or mutual dislike should prompt to that step but
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her husband poor died there were original traits in s character mrs had some experiences i fancy while she lived in colonel happened to look full at as the latter finished speaking his thoughts had been engaged with somewhat penetrating personal considerations and he had hardly noticed what the other man had been saying the two were standing quite near each other in the narrow glancing at him suddenly the colonel was aware of a singular expression about his companion of an of gaze as though he was watching him with some distinct purpose put his hand over his eyes for a moment with an indolent half disgusted gesture dear me he said how vulgar those wretched little look after the moonlight i and yet and i were rather pleased with our illumination at first even now � though i own it is a lamentable exhibition of the purity of my taste � i think it has a certain value it presents a contrast and there is a great deal to be got out of they are very teaching they make one aware of a number of sensations one might otherwise miss and at my age i begin to cherish sensations � that is if they are not too vivid he moved on as he spoke into the gleaming garden and then smiling at philip added � talking of colonel here is a sufficiently telling one it is a little unkind to one of the ladies certainly but that alas is just look there at my cousin pierce and my cousin lover and mistress colonel came a few steps into the garden too he started and could hardly repress an he was conscious of a sudden luminous in his brain the solid ground seemed to give a and then slowly settle itself into i ace again where the four gravel paths met in the centre of the garden with the light of a row of swaying falling fully upon her stood her white figure showing in high relief against a dim background of leaves and flowers she was speaking with considerable vivacity and animation � apparently describing her late game of play by her side listening to her clear speech was a tall thin woman who had shaken hands with the days of her youth she wore a plain travelling dress of dark material and gave the impression of being a tired careful over individual of having reached a state of mind in which she was indifferent to those small of feminine attire and was unequal to that of gesture and manner so important to every woman who her natural desire of appearing to advantage in masculine eyes as a connecting link between these two very persons stood the little boy � holding the hand of the elder woman kicking about the gravel with his foot and putting in a remark from time to time in thin tones i hope you have not tired yourself said mrs with an even utterance you have been very kind in amusing so long laughed gently she looked wonderfully sparkling with her fresh face and quick graceful movements the emotion she had displayed a short time before when talking to colonel had apparently passed away leaving no trace save perhaps a brighter light in her blue grey eyes and a slight in her voice i am hardly ever tired she answered unless i am bored and then i just go to sleep mamma says i am remarkably i am very glad of that i am not fond of sickness or sick people � it all seems unnatural you know mrs appeared a little bewildered she drew the boy nearer to her as she replied � sickness maybe unnatural lam sure i don t know it is very common smiled he glanced at the two women under the orange trees and then at colonel this contrast interests you he inquired io colonel en s wife the expression had resolved itself out of simple astonishment into one of considerable resolution the position was a painful and embarrassing one but he was determined ta carry it through with a high hand i believe i have the honour of knowing that lady he said with some dignity of manner she has probably forgotten me though as it is a long while since we met i must ask you to mention my name to her to recall me to her remembrance made a gesture of assent by all means but here are mrs pierce and my worthy aunt mrs just coming out of that little speak to them first my cousin is not in her happiest mood to night i grieve to say therefore it is advisable to observe mrs pierce did in fact sweep up to the two gentle men in a rather dramatic manner she shook hands with philip in silence and then stepping aside said � colonel mrs mrs me that you and she are old friends that was the term wasn t it � old friends colonel philip bowed profoundly to a figure which blocked the of the ah perhaps colonel won t admit the friendship said the lady with a large and slightly biting of address we women remember every little event in our quiet monotonous lives but with you gentlemen it is so different a thousand things happen to you you know and the old recollections while we poor things sit at home with our fancy work and our memories and our regrets ah dear me philip felt i too have an excellent memory i assure you he said quietly eh what exclaimed mrs sharply then she turned to mrs pierce with an assumption of great of we have always watched colonel s career with so much interest you know the papers have not been silent they have given us information � very deeply interesting information at times i have often said to i wonder if we shall ever meet colonel again and
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get away fr you t have to stay i do so i want to change it do you know that men like you prominent men do quite a amount of by that your native towns and native states are perfect it s you who encourage the not to change they quote you and go on believing that they live in paradise and she clenched her fist the incredible of it suppose you were right even so don t you think you waste a lot of thundering on one poor scared town kind of mean ten you it s the find it dull these couples like the have a high time dances and cards they t they re almost every one here is and bad manners and that s what i hate those things � course they re here so are they in boston and every place else why the faults you find in this town are human nature and never will be changed but in a boston all the good admit i have no faults can find one another and play but fm al � ie in a stale pool � except as it s stirred by the great mr my to hear you tell it a fellow d think that all the as you c em are so unhappy that it s a wonder they t all up and commit suicide but they seem to struggle along somehow they t know what they miss and anybody can endure anything look at men in mines and in he drew up on the south shore of lake he glanced across the reflected on the water the quiver of like the distant shores patched with woods silvery and deep yellow wheat he patted her hand you re a darling girl but you re difficult know what i h maybe you do but my humble not too opinion is that you like to be different you like to think you re peculiar why if you knew how many of thousands of women especially in new york say just what you do you d lose all the fun of thinking you re a lone genius and you d be on the band wagon it up for and a good decent family life there s always about a million young women just out of college who want to teach their how to eggs ow proud you are of that homely rustic you use it at and meetings and boast of your climb from a humble you may have my number i m not telling but look here you re so prejudiced against that you the mark you those who might be inclined to agree with you in some particulars but great guns the town can t be all wrong o it isn t but it could be let me tell you a fable imagine a complaining to her mate she doesn t like one single thing she hates the damp cave the rats running over her bare legs the stiff skin garments the eating of half raw meat her husband s face die constant battles and the worship of the spirits who her unless she gives the priests her b t her man but it can t all be wrong and he thinks he has reduced her to absurdity now you assume that a world produces a and a velvet must be civilized it is aren t we only about half way in i suggest mrs as a test and we ll continue in just as long as people as intelligent as you continue to defend things as they are because they are you re a fair child but by i d like to see you try to design a new manifold or run a factory and keep a lot of your fellow from on the job you d drop your so dam quick i m not any of things as they are sure they re rotten only fm he preached his gospel love of playing the game loyalty to friends she had the s shock of discovery that outside of tracts do not tremble and find no answer when an turns on them but retort with and main street he was so much the man the the friend that she him she most tried to stand out against him he was so much the successful tliat she did not want him to despise her his manner of at what he called though the phrase was not new had a power y made her wish to his com of well fed speed when he demanded would you like to associate with nothing but a lot of turkey horn nuts that have and need a hair cut and that spend all their time kicking about conditions and never do a of work she said vo but just the same when he asserted even if your was ri t in knocking the wh ae i bet some red regular fellow some real he man found her a nice dry cave and not any radical she her head feebly between a nod and a shake his hands lips easy voice supported his self confidence he made her fed young and soft � as had once made her fed she had to say when he bent hb powerful head and my dear tm sorry fm going away from this town you d be a darling child to play with you are some day in boston show you how we buy a lunch well hang it got to be starting back the only answer to his gospel of beef which she could find when she was home was a wail of but just the same did not see him again before he departed for washington his eyes remained his glances at her lips and hair and had revealed to her that she was not a e alone but a that there still were men in the as there had been
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on the together with the rear of the poor house and and the full front of the hospital so that it is the room in the whole house during the whole time that he stayed with us we found him a very worthy good sort of an old gentleman though a little queer in his ways he would keep in his room for days together and if any of the children cried or made a noise about his door he would out in a great passion with his hands full of papers and say something about his ideas which made my wife believe sometimes that he was not altogether indeed there was more than one reason to make her think so for his room was always covered with scraps of paper and old books the author lying about at and which he would never let any body touch for he said he had laid them all away in their proper places so that he might know where to find them though for that matter he was half his time worrying about the house in search of some book or writing which he had carefully put out of the way i never forget what a he once made because my wife cleaned out his room when his back was turned and put every thing to rights for he swore he would never be able to get his papers in order again in a upon this my wife ventured to ask him what he did with so many books and papers and he told her that he was seeking for immortality which made her think more than ever that the poor old gentleman s head was a little cracked he was a very inquisitive body and when not in his room was continually about town hearing all the news and into every thing that was going on this was particularly the case about election time when he did nothing but bustle about from to attending au ward meetings and committee account of rooms though i could never find that he took part with either side of the question on the contrary he would come home and rail at both parties with great wrath � and plainly proved one day to the satisfaction of my wife and three old ladies who were drinking tea with her that the two parties were like two each at a skirt of the nation and that in the end they would tear the very coat off its back and expose its indeed he was an among the neighbours who would around him to hear him talk of an afternoon as he smoked his pipe on the bench before the door and i believe he would have brought over the whole neighbourhood to his own side of the question if they could ever have found out what it was he was very much given to argue or as he called it about the most trifling matter and to do him justice i never knew any body that was a match for him except it was a grave looking gentleman who called now and then to see him and often posed him in an argument but tliis is nothing surprising as i have since found out this stranger is the the author ix city and of course must be a man of great learning and i have my doubts if he had not some hand in the following history as our had been a long time with us and we had never received any pay my wife began to be somewhat uneasy and curious to find out who and what he was she accordingly made bold to put the question to his friend the who replied in his dry way that he was one of the which she supposed to mean some new party in politics i scorn to push a for his pay so i let day after day pass on without the old gentleman for a but my wife who always takes these matters on herself and is as i said a shrewd kind of a woman at last got out of patience and hinted that she thought it high time some people should have a sight of some people s money to which the old gentleman replied in a mighty manner that she need not make herself uneasy for that he had a treasure there pointing to his saddle bags worth her whole house put together this was the only answer we could ever get from him and as my wife account of by some of those odd ways in which women find out every thing learnt that he was of very great being related to the of and to the man of that name she did not like to treat him what is more she even offered merely by way of making things easy to let him live free if he would teach the children their letters and to try her best and get the neighbours to send their children also but the old gentleman took it in such and seemed so at being taken for a that she never dared speak on the subject again about two months ago he went out of a morning with a bundle in his hand � and has never been heard of since all kinds of inquiries were made after him but in vain i wrote to his relations at but they sent for answer that he had not been there since the year before last when he had a great dispute with the man about politics and left the place in a and they had neither heard nor seen any thing of him from that time the author xi to this i must own i felt very much worried about the poor old gentleman for i thought something bad must have happened to him that he should be missing so long and never return to pay his
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i beg your pardon but have made my way to you on purpose to entreat your help quite surprised endeavoured to show herself mistress of the room by her and looked at the bright bars of her empty grate with concern thank you � i am quite warm very warm allow me to stay here a little while and do have the goodness to hear me my third act i have brought my book and if you would but it with me i should be so obliged i came here to day intending to it with � by ourselves � against the evening but he is not in the way and if he were i do not think i could go through it him till i have hardened myself a little for really there is a speech or two you will be so good won t was most ci in her assurances though she could not give them in a very steady voice have you ever happened to look at the part i mean continued miss opening her book here it is i did not think much of it at first � but upon my word there look at that speech and that and thai how am i ever to look him in the ce and say such things i could do it but then he is your cousin which makes all the difference you must it with me that i may fancy you him and get on by degrees you have a look of sometimes have ii � i will do my best with the greatest readiness � but i must read the part for i can say very little of it none of it i suppose you are to have the book of course now for it we must have two chairs at hand for you to bring forward to the front of the stage there � very good school room chairs not made for a theatre i dare say much more fitted for little girls to sit and kick their feet against when they are learning a lesson what would your and your uncle say to see them used for such a purpose could sir thomas look in upon us just now he would bless himself for we are all over the house is away in the i heard him as i came upstairs and the theatre is engaged of course by those and if they are not perfect i be park surprised by the bye i looked in upon them five minutes ago and it happened to be exactly at one of the times when they were trying not to embrace and mr was with me i thought he began to look a little queer so i turned it off as well as i could by whispering to him we shall have an excellent there is something so in her manner so completely maternal m her voice and countenance was not that well done of me he brightened up directly now for my she began and joined in with all the modest feeling which the idea of representing was so strongly calculated to inspire but with looks and voice so truly feminine as to be no very good picture of a man with such an however miss had courage enough and they had got through half the scene when a tap at the door brought a pause and the entrance of the next moment suspended it all surprise consciousness and pleasure appeared in each of the three on this unexpected meeting and as was come on the very same business that had brought miss consciousness and pleasure were likely to be more than momentary in them he too had his book and was seeking to ask her to with him and help him to prepare for the evening without knowing miss to be in the house and great was the joy and animation of being thus thrown together � of comparing schemes � and in praise of s kind offices she could not equal them in their her spirits sank under the glow of theirs and she felt herself becoming too nearly nothing to both to have any comfort in having been sought by either they must now together proposed urged entreated it � till the lady not very unwilling at first could refuse no longer � and was wanted only to prompt and observe them she was invested indeed with the office of judge and critic and earnestly desired to exercise it and tell them all their faults but from doing so every feeling within her shrank she could not would not dared not attempt it had she been otherwise for criticism her conscience must have restrained her from venturing at she believed l park herself to feel too much of it in the for honesty or safety in particulars to prompt them must be enough for her and it was sometimes � w r than enough for she could not always pay attention to the book in watching them she herself and agitated by the increasing spirit of s manner had once closed the page and turned away exactly as he wanted help it was to very reasonable weariness and she was thanked and pitied but she deserved their pity more than she hoped they would ever at last tiie scene was over and forced herself to add her praise to the compliments each was giving the other and when again alone and able to recall the whole she was inclined to believe their performance would indeed have such nature and feeling in it as must their credit and make it a very exhibition to herself might be its effect however she must stand the of it again that very day the first regular of the three first acts was certainly to take place in the evening mrs grant and the were engaged to return for that purpose as soon as they could after
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another s feet at and eve should and another s voice � perchance more sweet � make music in our home that where we locked our hands and talked amid our chosen flowers the lips we pressed should be by other lips than ours � that other eyes should watch for him and other arms embrace until our image growing dim yield to another s face and this is love injured dove thy wings have many a stain but pure and white in the land of light they shall be spread again the deep true love our spirits earth never has supplied wild flowers nor till we leave the dreary grave shall we be satisfied dear dear sweet so early gone to rest i love to think of thee as one among the good and � no shadow on thy radiant eye no sorrow in thy breast dear sweet i cannot call thee dead tis true i do not see thy face nor hear thy tread yet in my heart of hearts sweet friend thou never be dead when by the solemn stream of death we parted long ago how little of the world we knew but i have lived to know how friendship how love how all things change below time changes some and absence some and envy � oh the shame of those who played together once some rise to wealth and fame while in the of poverty the rest remain the same but nothing now can come between thy heart and mine sweet friend sighs on with every image of the past thy memory will and what thou in early life thou wilt bo to the end i love to think � oh call it not a fancy wild and vain � that thou hast seen and pitied me through all these years of pain but i shall know how that has been when we two meet again my bleeding feet have left their mark wherever they have passed but now the sun is getting low the shadows fast and dear all will be well at last on the death of a friend she sleeps the quiet sleep of death and i survive but for what purpose why was not i called first to explore the regions of eternity tis known only to him whose mighty arm often the humble flower while the waving trees that stand around it are torn from their roots by the roaring tempest she has gone before me and yet how long may it bo ere i shall follow her solemn thought � well might it sink deeply into my heart and taking root there spring forth yielding fruits of repentance soon may death the great enemy of mankind add one more ghastly victim to the lifeless piles that lie wild flowers heaped together in every and on every shore and when my death shall sound will it be the signal of a spirit wailing in the regions of the lost or rejoicing in the bright of everlasting bliss it is for me and me alone to decide perhaps it is for this that my life has been spared � that i might make a firm and decided choice and shall i still draw back shall i still hesitate and remain no no for now is the accepted time and now is the day of salvation the heavenly what strange i am every day learning thank god for them they are very unpleasant to human nature but they are leading me to place less confidence in earthly love and more in heavenly i have leaned too much upon an arm of flesh and it is right i should suffer for it sweet fold me in thine arms comfort me with thy love and as soon as thou best let me go and live with thee forever all earthly hopes have passed away stay with me my stay thy blessed smile is all the light that breaks upon my dismal night i cling to thee � thou must not go oh let me tell thee every woe sighs on i and whisper in thy ready ear what friends would frown to hear distressed in body and in mind and wretched poor and blind i only care to see thy face � i only sigh for thy embrace i i faint beneath the rod it is so heavy my god spare me i cry in mercy spare � but thou still the prayer � sometimes i murmur and prefer my stubborn will to thine and doubt if love or anger deal the dreadful anguish that i feel then suddenly before me stands � with bleeding side and feet and hands � he lamb that groaned and died for me that i live such love o me and with shame i call upon thy holy name forgive me thou blessed one and let thy will not mine be done o my friend and guide take health take thou wilt beside but let me see the lovely face that makes a heaven of every place nay turn hot from my earnest prayer thy smile can save me from despair the shadows round my way stay with me my stay wild who save thee god the human heart pity me for thy rod is heavy my earthly hopes are all torn and crushed � oh may they turn heaven ward and there find support and nourishment this is father s discipline shall i murmur nay but rather rejoice that he does not leave me to myself but with me as a child � and preparing me by all these for the rest that for the people of god and sweet the rest will be after such a weary journey ho i shall fold my hands upon the bosom that shall never again be troubled and say in all sincerity i thank thee god for the sweet that was mingled in my earthly cup but more do i
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in the promotion of this object she was active as far as her ability reached and missed no opportunity of projecting among all the young people of her acquaintance she was remarkably quick in the discovery of and had enjoyed the advantage of raising the and the vanity of many a young lady by of her power over such a young man and this kind of enabled her soon after her arrival at to pronounce that colonel was very much in love with she rather suspected it to be so on the very first evening of their being together from his listening so attentively while she sang to them and when the visit was returned by the dining at the cottage the fact was ascertained by his listening to her again it must be so she was perfectly convinced of it i would be an excellent match for he was rich and she was handsome mrs had been anxious to see colonel well married ever her connection with sir john first brought him to her knowledge and she was always anxious to get a good husband for every pretty girl the immediate advantage to herself was by no means for it supplied her with endless jokes against them both at the park she laughed at the colonel and in the cottage at to the former her was probably as far as it regarded only himself perfectly but to the latter it was at first incomprehensible and when its object was understood she hardly knew whether most to laugh at its absurdity or censure i � impertinence for she considered it as an reflection on the co advanced years and on hia forlorn condition as an old bachelor mrs dash wood who could not think a man five younger herself so exceedingly ancient as he appeared to the fancy of her daughter ventured to clear mrs from the probability of to throw ridicule on his age but at least mamma you cannot deny the absurdity of the though you may not think it colonel is certainly younger than mrs hut he is old enough to be my father and if he were ever animated enough to be in love must have long every sensation of the kind it is too ridiculous i when ia a � man to be safe from such if age and infirmity will not m protect him � infirmity said do you call colonel i can easily suppose that his age may appear much greater to you than to my mother but you can hardly deceive yourself as to his having the use of his limbs did not you hear him complain of the and is not that the commonest infirmity of life my dearest child said her mother laughing at this rate you must be in continual terror of m decay and it must seem to you a miracle that my life has been extended to the advanced age of forty mamma you are not doing me justice i know very well that colonel is not old enough to make his friends yet of losing in the course of nature he may live twenty years longer but thirty five has nothing ta do with matrimony perhaps said thirty five and seventeen had better not have any thing to do with matrimony together but if te should by any chance happen to be a woman who is single at seven and twenty i should not think colonel s being thirty five any objection to his a woman of seven and said after sense and sensibility pausing a moment can never hope to feel or inspire affection again and if her home be uncomfortable or her fortune small i can suppose that she might herself to submit to the offices of a nurse for the sake of the provision and security of a wife in his marrying such a woman therefore there would be nothing it would be a compact of convenience and ihe world would be satisfied in my eyes it would be no marriage at all but that would be to me it would seem only a commercial exchange in which each wished to be at the expense of the other it would be impossible i know replied to convince you that a woman of seven and twenty could feel for a man of thirty five any thing near enough to love to make him a desirable companion to her but i must object to your colonel and his wife to the constant confinement of a sick chamber merely because he chanced to yesterday a very cold damp day of a slight feel in one of shoulders but he talked of flannel said and with me a flannel waistcoat is invariably connected with and every species of that can the old and the feeble had he been only in a violent fever you would not have despised him half so much confess is not there something interesting to you in the flushed cheek hollow eye and quick pulse of a fever soon after this upon s leaving the room mamma said i have an alarm on the subject of illness which i cannot conceal from you i am sure edward is not well we have now been here almost a fortnight and jet he does not come nothing but real could occasion this extraordinary delay what else can detain at had you any idea of his coming so soon said mrs had none on the contrary if i have felt any anxiety at all on the subject it has been in that be sometimes showed a want of and readiness in ac sense and sensibility o i mi b m j i talked of hie coming to does expect liim already i have never mentioned it to her but of she must i rather think you are mistaken for when i was talking to her yesterday of getting a new grate for the spare she observed
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your voyage i am honoured in enjoying your s society the captain but i am sorry that your be so afflicted yes indeed it is the cursed glare of the sun on the white streets of which has gone fer to bum them out � � � i had heard also that you had been by a yes i have had a which has reduced me much we had set aside a cabin for your surgeon ah the rascal there was no him for he has a snug business amongst the merchants but hark he raised his ring covered hand in the air from there came the low deep thunder of cannon captain it is om the cried the c in astonishment can it be a signal for us to put back � the governor laughed you have heard that the is to be hanged this morning i ordered the to salute when the rascal was kicking his last so that i might know of it out at sea there s an end of there s an end of cried the captain and tiie crew took up the as they � d in httle knots upon the deck and stared back at the low purple line of the vanishing land it was a cheering omen for their start across the western ocean and the invalid governor found himself a popular man on board for it was generally understood that but for his upon an immediate trial and sentence the villain might have played upon some more judge and so escaped at dinner that day sir charles gave many anecdotes of the deceased and so was he and so skilful in his to men of lower degree that captain mate and governor smoked their long pipes and drank their as three good comrades should and what re did cut in the dock asked the he is a man of some presence said the i had that he was an ugly devil remarked the mate well i dare say he could look ugly upon occasions said the governor i have heard a new say that he could not forget his eyes said l captain they were of the with red was that not so sir charles alas my own es will not permit me to know much of those of others t i remember now that the said that he had such an eye as you describe and added that the jury were so foolish as to be visibly when it was turned upon it is well for them that he is dead for he was a man who would never forget an injury and if he had laid hands upon any one of them he would have stuffed him with straw and him for a figure head the idea seemed to amuse the for he broke suddenly into a high the two laughed also but not so heartily for they remembered that was not the last who sailed the western seas and that as grotesque a te might come to be their own another bottle was to drink to a pleasant voyage and the governor would drink just one other on the top of it so that the were glad at last to the one to his watch and the other to his but after his four hours spell the mate came down again he was amazed to see the governor in his wig his glasses and his gown still seated at the lonely table with his pipe and six black bottles by his side i have drunk with the governor of st s when he was sick said he and god forbid tiiat i should ever try to keep pace with him when he is well the voyage of the morning star was a one and in about three weeks she was at the captain of the british channel from the first day the had to recover his strength and before they were half way across the atlantic he was save only for his es as well as any man upon the ship those who the qualities of wine might point to him in triumph for never a night passed that he did not repeat the performance of his first one and yet he would be out upon deck in the early as fresh and as the best of them peering about with his weak eyes and asking questions about the sails and the for he was anxious to learn the ways of the sea and he made up for the deficiency of his eyes by obtaining leave from the captain that the new england seaman � he who had been cast away in the boat � should lead him about and above all that he should sit beside him when he played cards and count the number of the for he could not tell the king firom the it was natural that this should do the governor willing service since the one was the victim of the and the other was his one could see that it was a pleasure to the big american to lend his arm to the invalid and at night he would stand with all respect behind his chair in the cabin and lay his great forefinger upon the card which he should play between them there was little in the pockets ther of or of the first mate by the time they sighted the and it was not long before they found that they had heard of the nigh temper of sir charles fell short of the mark at a sign of opposition or a wind of argument his chin would shoot captain out from his his nose would be cocked at a hi er and more insolent angle and his cane would whistle up over his shoulder he cracked it once over the head of the carpenter when the man had accidentally him upon the deck once too when there was some and
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i draw more water and wash one or two garments daily taking care that there are no witnesses of my yesterday a calf sucked one into hopeless rags the rest of the day i spend in mending knitting writing to you and the various odds and ends which arise when one has to do all for at twelve and some food is put on the box by the door and at dusk we make up our beds a distressed iv the rocky mountains woman has just given birth to a child in a temporary by the river and i go to help her each day i have made the acquaintance of all the struggling within a walk au have come for health and most have found or are finding it even if they have no better shelter than a or a blanket on sticks laid across four poles the climate of is considered the finest in north america and and from nervous diseases are here in hundreds and thousands either trying the camp cure for three or four months or settling here permanently people can safely sleep out of doors for six months of the year the plains are from to feet high and some of the settled or mountain valleys are from to the air besides being much is very dry the is far below the average are rare and nearly unknown the sunshine is bright and almost constant and three of the days are the milk beef and bread are good the climate is neither so hot in summer nor so cold in winter as that of the states and when the days are hot the nights are cool snow rarely lies on the lower and horses and cattle don t require to be either fed or during the winter of course the air all this is fix m i am not under favourable the effect of the climate of can hardly be a lady s life ik iv either for mind or body and at present i feel a singular and difficulty in taking exercise but this is said to be the form of the affection known on higher as or mountain sickness and is only temporary i am forming a plan for getting farther into the mountains and hope that my next letter will be more lively i killed a this morning close to the cabin and have taken its rattle which has eleven joints my life is by the abundance of these � and both deadly carpet and green dangerous water tree and mouse harmless but abominable seven have been killed just outside the cabin since i came a snake three feet long was found under the pillow of the sick woman i see in all withered twigs and am ready to flee at the sound of a shaken leaf and besides the earth and air are alive and noisy with forms of insect life large and small humming striking devouring exaggerated in travelling through the territory afterwards i found that nine out of every ten were cured and medical works on the climate of the state as it now is represent as the most remarkable in the world l l r v the rocky v those hands of yours � a � � the house mother � family a grim sunday � a thick englishman � a morning call � another atmosphere � the great lone land � found � a log camp � bad footing for horses � accidents disappointment september the absence of a date shows my tliey have no newspaper have no the father is away for the day and none of the others can help me and they look contemptuously upon my desire for information on the subject the monotony will come to an end to morrow for offers to be my guide over the mountains to park and has persuaded his wife for once to go for a and with much reluctance many at the waste of time and many apprehensions of danger and loss she has consented to accompany him my life has grown less dull from theirs having become more interesting to me and as i have made myself agreeable we are on fairly friendly terms my first move in the direction of was however a few days ago having finished ic a lady s life in my own work i offered to wash up the plates but mrs c with a look which conveyed more than words a curl of her nose and a sneer in her said guess you ll make more work nor you ll do those hands of yours very brown and coarse they were ain t no good never done nothing i guess then to her awkward daughter this woman says she ll wash up ha ha look at her arms and hands this was the nearest approach to a laugh i have heard and have never seen even a tendency towards a smile since then i have risen in their estimation by a lamp � fashion � by putting a of rag into a tin of fat they have actually condescended to sit up till the stars come out since another advance was made by means of the shell pattern i am knitting for you there has been a tendency towards of it and a few days since the girl snatched it out of my hand saying i want this and apparently took it to the camp this has resulted in my having a knitting class with the woman her married daughter and a woman from the camp as pupils then i have gained ground with the man by being able to catch and saddle a horse i am often reminded of my favourite � beware of desperate steps the darkest day live till to morrow will have passed away v the rocky mountains but oh what a hard narrow life it is with wliich i am now in contact a
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sensations on the discovery made her perfectly speechless she could hot even thank him she could only hang over little charles with most disordered feelings his kindness in stepping forward to her relief the manner the silence in which it had passed the little particulars of the circumstance with the conviction soon forced on her by the noise he was making with the child that he meant to avoid hearing her thanks and rather sought to testify that her conversation was the last of his wants produced such a persuasion confusion of varying but very painful agitation as she could not recover from till enabled by the entrance of mary and the miss to make over her little patient to their cares and leave the room she could not stay it might have been an opportunity of watching the loves and of the four � they were now altogether but she could stay for none of it it was evident that charles was not well inclined towards captain she had a strong impression of his having said in a tone of voice after captain s interference you ought to have minded me walter i told you not to your aunt and could comprehend his that captain should do what he ought to have done himself but neither charles s feelings nor anybody s feelings could interest her till she had a little better arranged her own she was ashamed of herself quite ashamed of being so nervous so overcome by such a trifle but so it was and it required a long application of solitude and reflection to recover her chapter other opportunities of making her observations could not fail to occur anne had soon been in company with all the four together often enough to have an opinion though too wise to acknowledge as much at home where she knew it would have satisfied neither husband nor wife for while she considered to be rather the favourite she could not but think as far as she might dare to judge from memory and experience that captain was not in love with either they were more in love with him y et ere lt wa not l� ve i wn a u e ever persuasion of admiration but it might probably mast end in love with some charles seemed aware of being and yet had sometimes the air of being divided between them anne longed for the power of representing to them all what they were about and of pointing out some of the evils they were exposing themselves to she did not attribute to any it was the highest satisfaction to her to believe captain not in the least aware of the pain he was there was no triumph no pitiful triumph in his manner he had probably never heard and never thought of any claims of charles he was only wrong in accepting the attentions for accepting must be the word of two young women at once after a short struggle however charles seemed to quit the field three days had passed without his coming once to a most decided change he had even refused one regular invitation to dinner and having been found on the occasion by mr with some large books before him mr and mrs were sure all could not be right and talked with grave faces of his studying himself to death it was mary s hope and belief that he had received a positive dismissal from and her husband lived under the constant of seeing him to morrow anne could only feel that charles was wise one morning about this time charles and captain being gone a shooting together as the sisters in the cottage were sitting quietly at work they were visited at the window by the sisters from the mansion house it was a very fine november day and the miss came through the little grounds and stopped for no other purpose than to say that they were going persuasion to take a long walk and therefore concluded mary could not to go with them and when mary immediately replied with some jealousy at not being supposed a good oh yet i should like to join you very much i am very fond of a long walk anne felt persuaded by the looks of the two girls that it was precisely what they did not wish and admired again the sort of necessity which the family habits seemed to produce of everything being to be communicated and everything being to be done together however and inconvenient she tried to mary from going but in vain and that being the case thought it best to accept the miss much more cordial invitation to herself to go likewise as she might be useful in turning back with her sister and the interference in any plan of their own i cannot imagine why they should suppose i should not like a long walk said mary as she went up stairs everybody is always supposing that i am not a good and yet they would not have been pleased if we had refused to join them when people come in this manner on purpose to ask us how can one say no just as they were setting off the gentlemen returned they had taken out a young dog which had spoilt their sport and sent them back early their time and strength and spirits were therefore exactly ready for this walk and they entered into it with pleasure could anne have foreseen such a she would have staid at home but from some feelings of interest and curiosity she fancied now that it was too late to and the whole six set forward together in the direction chosen by the miss who evidently considered the walk as under their guidance anne s object was not to be in the way of anybody where the narrow paths across the fields made many persuasion necessary to keep
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is found to return the compliment each with a good story to the proof there is so much in the islands and no more a man s share of it is his share of bread and commerce like politics is here to a shows its ugly side and becomes as personal as close at their elbows in all this stands the native looking on like a child his true he and is usually silent as in a child a considerable of speech is accompanied by some power of secrecy news he his eight years of trouble in thoughts have often to be dug for he looks on at the rude career of the dollar hunt and wonders he sees these men rolling in a luxury beyond the ambition of native kings he hears them accused by each other of the meanest he knows some of them to be guilty and what is he to think he is strongly conscious of his own position as the common milk cow and what is he to do surely these white men on the beach are not great chiefs is a common question perhaps asked with some design of flattering the person questioned and one stung by the last incident into an unusual flow of english remarked to me i begin to be weary of white men on the beach but the true centre of trouble the head of the boil of which is the german firm from the conditions of business a great island house must ever be an inheritance of care and it chances that the greatest still has its chief seat in bay and has sunk the main part of its capital in the island of when its founder john caesar went over russian paper and iron his most considerable was found to elements of discord foreign be the south sea business this passed i understand through the hands of brothers in london and is now run by a company rejoicing in the name of the und fur see this piece of literature is in practice to the d h and p g the old firm the german firm the firm and among the long handle firm even from the deck of an approaching ship the island is seen to bear its signature � of cultivation showing in a more vivid tint of green on the dark of forest the total area in use is near ten thousand acres hedges of fragrant lime broad avenues them you shall walk for hours in of palm tree regular like soldiers on parade in the recesses of the hills you may on a mill house toiling and trembling there deep in forest on the carpet of clean troops of horses and herds of handsome cattle may be seen to and to one accustomed to the rough of the the appearance is of the many of them eight years of trouble in man sea captains are enthusiastic in their new employment experiment is continually coffee and both of excellent quality are among the more recent and from one plantation quantities of are sent at a particular season to the a hundred and fifty thousand pounds of english money perhaps two hundred thousand lie sunk in these magnificent estates in the expense of maintenance quite a fleet of ships must be remembered and a strong staff of captains and clerks these last mess together at a liberal board the wages are high and the staff is inspired with a strong and pleasing sentiment of loyalty to their seven or eight hundred imported men and women toil for the company on of three or of five years and at a of a few dollars in the month i am now on a burning question the labour traffic and i shall ask permission in this place only to touch it with the suffice it to say that in new and it has been either suppressed or placed under elements of discord foreign close public in where it still there is no of which the public receives any evidence and the dirty linen of the firm if there be any dirty and if it be ever washed at all is washed in private this is unfortunate if would believe it but they have no idea of keep their business to themselves rather affect to move in a mysterious way and are naturally by which they consider from men who would import labour for themselves if they could afford it and would probably them if they dared it is said the whip is very busy on some of the it is said that extra labour by which the s term of service is extended has grown to be an abuse and it is complained that even where that term is out much occurs in the of the discharged to all this i can say nothing good or bad a certain number of the many of them wild from the west have taken to the bush harbour there in a state partly or creep into the back quarters of the town to do a day s eight years of trouble in stealthy labour under the nose of their twelve were arrested one morning in my own boys kitchen further in the bush huts small patches of cultivation and smoking have been found by hunters there are still three in the woods of whither they escaped upon a and the regard these dark with extreme alarm the fourth in was shot down as i was told in that island while carrying off the virgin of a village and tales of run round the country and the natives shudder about the evening fire for the are not do not seem to remember any period when they were and regard the practice with a equal to our own the firm is among the and it must not be forgotten that while the small independent are fighting for their own hand and with the usual
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he said cheerily men in the bud like leaves on a tree but you seem boys to a tough old stump of humanity such as i am that is my way � my child though they tell me she is a woman grown is always a babe to me tis one of the many privileges of the old to see the world about them always young and full of children and he led the way past the wide open where they could dimly perceive the spinning wheel standing alone as though thinking deeply of the fair hands that had lately left it idle and so round to the actual front of the house which was exceedingly picturesque and literally overgrown with roses from ground to roof the entrance door stood open � it was surrounded by a wide deep porch richly carved and ornamented having two comfortable seats within it one on each side through this they went involuntarily brushing down as they passed a shower of pink and white rose leaves and stepped into a wide passage where upon walls of dark polished pine hung a large collection of curiously shaped weapon all of manufacture such as stone and rough together with bows and arrows and two handled swords huge as the weapon of william opening a door to the right the stood courteously aside and bade them enter and they found themselves in the very apartment where they had seen the maiden spinning sit down sit down said their host we will have wine directly and shall come hither where is the child she hither and thither like a mountain wait here my lads i shall return directly and he strode away leaving and delighted at the success of their plans yet somewhat abashed too there was a peace and gentle simplicity about the little room in which they were that touched the sentiment in their natures and kept them silent on one side of it half a dozen broad shelves supported a goodly row of well bound volumes among which the time honoured golden names of shakespeare and scott glittered together with such works as s s the poems of john s rome and while mingled with these were the works in french of de the imitation also in french � and a number of books with titles in � altogether an collection of literature yet not without interest as displaying taste and culture on the part of those to whom it belonged himself learned in books was surprised to see so many standard works in the library of one who professed to be nothing but a farmer and his respect for the sturdy old increased there were no pictures in the room � the wide window on one hand looking out on the roses and the pine wood and the other smaller one close to the entrance door from which the was distinctly visible were sufficient pictures in themselves to need no others the was roughly made of pine and seemed to have been carved by hand � some of the chairs were very quaint and pretty and would have sold in a k shop for more than a sovereign apiece on the wide mantel shelf was a quantity of curious old china that seemed to have been picked up from all parts of the most the land of the midnight sun of it was undoubtedly valuable in one dark corner stood an ancient harp then there was the spinning wheel � itself a curiosity fit for a museum � of the mistress of all these surroundings and on the floor there was something else � something that both the young men were strongly inclined to take possession of it was only a bunch of tiny meadow fastened together with a bit of blue silk it had fallen � they guessed by whom it had been worn � but neither made any remark and both by some strange instinct avoided looking at it as though the innocent little blossoms carried within them some terrible temptation they were conscious of a certain embarrassment and making an effort to break through it remarked softly by jove if this old really knew what you are up to i believe he would bundle you out of this place like a tramp didn t you feel a when he said we had told the truth like men philip smiled he was seated in one of the carved chairs half absorbed in what was evidently a pleasing reverie no not exactly he replied because we did tell him the truth we did want to know him and he s worth knowing too he is a magnificent looking fellow don t you think so rather assented with emphasis i wish there were any hope of my becoming such a fine old in my � it would be worth living for if only to look at myself in the glass now and then he rather startled me when he threw down that knife though i suppose it is some old custom i suppose so answered and then was silent for at that moment the door opened and the old farmer followed by a girl bearing a tray glittering with of italian wine and long graceful glasses shaped like round set on particularly slender stems the sight of the girl disappointed the eager visitors for though she was pretty she was not she was short and plump with rebellious nut brown locks that about her face and from under her close white cap with persistent her cheeks were as round and red as love apples and she had dancing blue eyes that appeared for ever engaged in good natured efforts to each other sha � � � f � � � � � � i � � c� lave ft the v ice i ar i c i r i the land of the midnight sun softly on the garden path the door of the
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boyhood he found out something which can bo longer be concealed in fact be discovered the inward n � nature of a man whom we have accepted as a real and as one of us gentlemen i cannot trust my voice to say it so z have written it down he ed a large and on it in huge c was the legend george � oh you i the cheered they laughed they wept they threw y rolls at they cried speech oh you y president continued that gentlemen is the awful thing has � been concealing all these years when we thought he was just plain george f now i want you to tell us taking it in turn what you ve always supposed the f stood for f they suggested and face and and and and and by the of their knew that he had be taken back to their hearts and happily he rose i boys i ve got to admit it i ve never worn a wrist watch or parted my name in the middle but i will confess to my only justification is that my old � thou otherwise he was perfectly sane and packed an awful hen it came to the city at � named the after the family old dr i boys in my next d call it ni see to it that i get named something really practical � something that swell and yet is good and � something in fact like that grand old name so familiar to every household � that bold and almost overpowering name jim he knew by the cheer th at be was secure again an d v j t m han nt good fellows henry dashed into the office george big says the bunch are dissatisfied with the way and wing handled their last deal and they re willing to with was pleased in the that the last of his rebellion was healed yet as he drove home he was annoyed by such background thoughts as bad never weakened him in his of ii v u mj that he ft ii i t � � � ip q h wc t well he d carry out one more deal for them but as soon as it was practicable maybe as soon as old henry died he d break away from all association from them he was forty eight in twelve years he d be sixty he wanted to leave a clean business to his course there was a lot of money in for the people and a fellow had to look at things in a practical way only � he he wanted to tell the group what he thought of them oh he couldn t do it not now if he offended them this second time they would crush him he was conscious that his line of progress seemed confused he wondered what he would do with his future he was still young was he through with all he felt that he had been into the very net from which he had with such fury escaped and jest of all been made to rejoice in the they ve licked me licked me to a finish he the was peaceful that evening and he enjoyed a game of with his wife he indignantly told the that he was content to do things in the good way the day after be went to see the of the street company and th made plans for the secret purchase of lots the road but as he drove to his office be ed i m going to run things and figure out things to suit myself � i retire ted bad come down from the for the week end he no longer spoke of mechanical en and he was about his opinion of bis he seemed no more reconciled to and his chief was his set on saturday evening he took to a dance at woods had a glimpse of her in the seat of the car brilliant in a scarlet cloak over a frock of silk they two had not returned when the went to bed at half past eleven at a indefinite time of late night was awakened by the ring of the and gloomily crawled down stairs was speaking george isn t back yet is ted no � at least his door is open � th ou t to be home said the dance would be over at t what s the name of those pe le where they re going why tell the truth i don t know it s ome of ted s out in woods don t see i t we can do i ll iq and ask if she knows name turned on the light in ted s room it was a brown boyish room disordered worn books a high school photographs of basket ball and ted was decidedly not there mrs awakened observed that she certainly did not know the name of ted s host that it was late that was but little better than a born fool and that she was sleepy but she remained awake and worrying while on the sleeping porch struggled back into sleep through the incessant soft rain of her remarks it was after v en he was aroused by her shaking him and calling in something like horror � � what is it come here quick and see be quiet she led him down the hall to the door of ted s room an pushed it gently open on the worn brown rug he saw a of rose colored ling e on the chair a girl s silver and on the pillows were two sleepy heads � ted s and s ted woke to grin and to with defiance good let me introduce my wife � mrs good god from and from bis wife a long wailing you ve gone and � we got married last evening
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color did yon ever see a rainbow here is a picture of a child looking at a rainbow do yon see the in the sky f do yon know what a rainbow f it is the shining on of bright little drops df rain in the sky what advantage is there in having the fields green in t green is a very pretty color to see the grass were red what harm there be in it the bright in the summer would shine upon it so as to make it oar eyes does not the sun shine upon the snow in winter does it our eyes tea why then did gk d make the snow perhaps because white snow makes it lighter in the night why should not the fields be covered with something white in summer too perhaps because the nights are not so long and there is not so much danger if it is dark what then would be the harm if the fields were of any bright color in summer our eyes would always be dazzled what would be the harm if the fields were of any dark color in winter it would be very dark and gloomy in the night and persons would often be lost in the snow and what color is fire very bright � yellow and red what good does it do for the fire to be of a very color it gives us light in the night is it any safer to use fire on account of its being very bright yes if any thing takes fire it makes a great light and people see it sooner what color is water it has no color is not water white no milk is white and milk is very different from water what kind of things are in nature that have the brightest colors the things that are seen but seldom or that last but a short time what things are there in nature that are seen seldom which have bright colors some birds in the woods especially in countries where there are but few men what things are th re in nature that last but a short time which have bright colors the rainbow and flowers why is it that only such things as are seldom seen or that last but a short time have bright colors because we soon get tired of bright and gay colors though they are very pretty at first hardness and softness hardness and can you think of any thing that is hard can you think of any thing that is soft tell me as many things as you can think of that are hard tell me as many things as yon can think of that are soft what do you mean by saying that a thing is soft it when we push against it what do we mean when we say it is hard that it does not when t against it feel of the table and tell me whether it is hard o oft does it yield when we push against it feel of your cheek and tell me whether it is hard or soft does it yield when you push against it is a cushion hard or soft why is a cushion made soft what part of the body is the hardest the teeth why is it necessary that the teeth should be hard why is the table made of something hard so that it may not bend and let the fall off is a pin cushion hard or soft why is it necessary that a should be soft do you know what people put into the inside of a pin cushion to make it soft so that the pins will go in is a made of hard or soft is a bed made of something hard or soft why is the bed made of something soft and the of something hard the must be stiff and hard to keep up the bed and the bed must be soft so as to be easy to sleep upon and here is the picture of a bed with a boy lying in it don t bee how soft it looks the boy looks very comfortable lying in a nice bed do you do you see the table and the lamp what a pleasant room it is don t you think it ia a the gentleman is reading the boy a bt � y do yon see the book i the boy has been sick and is now getting better and the gentleman is a story i see a good many more books in the room do yon see them f do yoa think it is or winter here why do yon think it is night or day why which is the an apple or a piece of wood how do and softness you know because i can cut the apple much easier than i can the wood which is the a pillow or the back of a cat suppose you strike two hard things together what do you observe they make a noise suppose you strike two soft things together do they make a noise with two balls of are your fingers soft or hard there is something hard in the middle of them but they are soft outside suppose they were hard what would be the harm they would rattle together when i moved them what parts of your body are hard my teeth and my nails why did make your teeth hard so that i can bite things with them why did god make your nails hard so that i can point better and take up little things with them which is hardest the shell of a or the meat how do you know because i can bite the meat but can not bite the shell which is the hardest the shell of a or the shell of a chestnut how do you know which
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sent miss a copy of lady s letter and some lines in his own hand describing sir charles s difficulty in a more business like way in due course miss wrote him back that she was in the country hunting at no very great distance from hall she would send up to town for her desk the letter would be there if she had kept it at groaned at this cool conjecture and wrote back directly urging expedition this produced an he had not anticipated one morning lord s met at a large covert about ye miles from and sir charles told lady she must ride to cover yes dear � charles love i have no spirit to appear in public we shall soon enough that is my reason i have not done nor said anything i am ashamed of and you will meet the county on this and on r r howl t a terrible temptation no no not as tliat han it all i i o you know what i do whilst you are hunting i pray all the time that you may not get a fall and be hurt and i pray god to forgive you and all the gentlemen for your cruelty in galloping with all those dogs after one poor thin to hunt it and kill it � kill it twice indeed once with terror and then over again with its poor little body this is said sir charles rather we cannot all be angels like you it is a glorious excitement you are too good for this world i ll let you off going o no dear i won t be let off now i know your wish only i beg to ride home as soon as the poor thing runs away you would n t get me out of the thick covers if i was a fox i d run and round and call on all my acquaintances to set them running as she said this her eyes turned towards each other in a peculiar way and she looked extremely but the look melted away directly the hounds met and lady who was still the beauty of the county was surrounded by at first but as the hounds began to work and every now and then a young hound uttered a note they about and took up different posts as experience suggested at last a fox was found at the other end of the cover and away galloped the hunters in that direction all but four persons � lady and her groom who kept respectfully aloof and a lady and gentleman who had their horses up on a rising ground about a distant lady thus left alone happened to look round and saw the level an towards her and look through it j a result of this inspection the lady towards her she was on a chestnut of great height and bone and rode him as if they were one so smoothly did she move in concert with his easy magnificent strides when she came near lady she made a little sweep and drew up beside her on the grass there was no that tall figure and commanding face it was the brave lady her eyes sparkled her cheek was slightly colored with excitement she looked and than ever and also more i i c q reason y d � tl m v ff s looked lovingly at her before she could speak at last she said yes and you have come to help us again well the lawyer said there was no time to lose so have brought you the letter thank you madam thank you but i m afraid it will be of no use unless you can prove mr wrote it it is in a disguised hand but you found him out by means of another letter yes but i can t give you that other letter to have it read in a court of law b r cause do you see that gentleman there yes � that is marsh o he is a fool but i am going to marry him i have been very ill i saw you and poor marsh nursed me talk of women nurses if ever you are ill in earnest as i was write to me and i ll send you marsh o i have no words to tell you his patience his forbearance his his tenderness to a sick woman it is no use i must marry him and i could have no letter published that would give him pain of course not o madam do you think i am capable of doing anything that would give you pain or dear mr marsh either no no you are a good woman not half so good as you are you don t know what you are saying o yes i do then i say no more it is rude to contradict good by lady must you leave me so soon will you not visit us may i not know the name of so good a next week i shall be mrs and you will give me the great pleasure of having you at my house you and your husband the lady showed some agitation at this an unusual thing for her she faltered some day perhaps if i make him as good a wife as i hope to what a lady you are i vulgar people are ashamed to be grateful but you are a bom lady good by before i make a fool of myself and they are all coming this way by the dogs music won t you kiss me after bringing me this kiss you and she opened her eyes k r or e a terrible temptation s o h h h p o n i h o h o at that contact the stranger seemed to fore described but she replied pretty her character all in a moment she ly
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the island of far in the sky the trade wind clouds drift low over the blue green of the deep sea nearer the sea is and light olive green then comes the where the water is all purple with red still nearer are brighter and lying in alternate and showing where lie between the living coral banks through and over and out of these wonderful colors and a magnificent surf as say i lift my eyes to all this and through the white crest of a suddenly appears dark figure erect a man fish or a sea god on the very forward face of the crest where the top falls over and down driving in toward shore finding one s way about buried to his in smoking spray caught up by the sea and flung bodily a quarter of a mile it is a on a surf board and i know that when i have finished these lines i shall be out in that riot of color and surf trying to bit those even as he and failing as he never failed but living life as the best of us may live it and the picture of that colored sea and that flying sea god becomes another reason for the young man to go west and farther west beyond the of sunset and still west till he arrives home again but to return please do not think that i already know it all i know only the of there lis a vast deal yet for me to learn on the there is a score of fascinating books on waiting for me there is the danger angle of there is the line of which when you know least of all where you are shows most where you are and where you are not there are and of methods of finding one s on the deep and one can work years before he masters it all in all its even in the little we did learn there were slips that accounted for the apparently behavior of the on thursday may for instance the trade wind failed us during the twenty four hours that ended friday at noon by dead reckoning we had not sailed twenty miles yet here are our positions at noon for the two days worked out from our observations thursday � n � w friday � n � w o the of the the difference between the two positions was something like eighty miles yet we knew we had not travelled twenty miles now our was all right we went over it several times what was wrong was the observations we had taken to take a correct observation requires practice and skill and especially so on a small craft like the the violently moving boat and the of the observer s eye to the surface of the water are to blame a big wave that lifts up a mile off is liable to steal the horizon away but in our particular case there was another the sun in its annual march north through the heavens was increasing its on the th parallel of north latitude in the middle of may the sun is nearly overhead the angle of arc was between eighty eight and eighty nine degrees had it been ninety degrees it would have been straight overhead it was on another day that we learned a few things about taking the of the almost perpendicular sun started in drawing the sun down to the eastern horizon and he stayed by that point of the compass despite the fact that the sun would pass the to the south i on the other hand started in to draw the sun down to and strayed away to the you see we were teaching ourselves as a result at twenty five minutes past twelve by the ship s time i called twelve o clock by the sun now this signified that we had changed our on the face of the world by twenty five minutes which was equal to something like six degrees of or three hundred and fifty miles this showed the had travelled fifteen knots per hour finding one s way about i for twenty four hours � and we had never noticed it it was absurd and grotesque but still looking east that it was not yet twelve o clock he was bent on giving us a then we began to train our rather wildly all around the horizon and wherever we looked there was the sun close to the sky line a big wave thai is liable to steal the horizon away sometimes above it and sometimes below it in one direction the sun was morning in another direction it was afternoon the sun was all right � we knew that therefore we were all wrong and the rest of the afternoon we spent in the reading up the matter in the books and finding out what was wrong we missed the observation that day but we didn t the next we had learned and we learned well better than for a while we thought we had at the beginning of the second dog the of the watch one evening and i sat down on the head for a rubber of to glance ahead i saw cloud mountains rising from the sea we were rejoiced at the sight of land but i was in despair over our i thought we had learned something yet our position at noon what we had run since did not put us within a hundred miles of land but there was the land fading away before our eyes in the fires of sunset the land was all right there was no it therefore our was all wrong but it wasn t that land we saw was the summit of the house of the sun the greatest extinct in the world it ten thousand feet above the sea and it was all of a
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� to say good bye more my heart s delight the captain with a countenance of strong emotion r my lad what with the young husband at one window and the young wife at the other the captain hanging on at this door and holding fast by that the coach obliged to go on whether it will or no and all the other carts and turbulent because it there never was so much confusion on four wheels but gallantly her point she keeps a smiling face upon her mistress smiling through her tears until the last even when she is left behind the captain continues to appear and disappear at the door crying my lad my heart s delight with his shirt in a violent state of agitation until it is hopeless to attempt to keep up with the coach any longer i when the coach is gone being rejoined by the captain falls into a state of and is taken into a baker s shop to recover and mr wait in the churchyard sitting on the stone of the until captain and come back neither being at all desirous to speak or to be spoken to they are excellent company and quite satisfied when they all arrive again at the and sit down to breakfast nobody can touch a morsel captain makes a of being about toast but gives it up as a mr says after breakfast he will come back in the evening and goes wandering about the town all day with a vague sensation upon him as if he hadn t been to bed for a fortnight there is a strange charm in the house and in the room in which they have been used to be together and out of which much is gone it and yet it the and son sorrow of the separation mr tells when he comes at night that he hasn t been so wretched all day long and yet he likes it he des in being alone with her and tells her what his feelings were when she gave him that candid opinion as to the probability of miss s ever loving him in the vein of confidence by these common recollections and their tears mr that they shall go out together and buy something for supper miss buy a good many little things and the aid of mrs set the supper out quite before the captain and old came home the captain and old have been on board the ship and have established di there and have seen the put aboard they have much to tell about the popularity of walter and the comforts he will have about him and the quiet way in which it seems he has been working early and late to make his cabin what the captain calls a to surprise his little wife a admiral s cabin mind you says the captain ain t more trim but one of the captain s chief delights is that he knows the big watch and the sugar and tea are on board and again and again he murmurs to himself ed ard my lad you never shaped a better course in your life than when you made that there little property over you see how the land bore ed ard says the captain and it does you credit my lad the old maker is more and misty than he used to be and takes the marriage and the parting very much to heart but he is greatly comforted by having his old ally ned at his side and he sits down to supper with a grateful and contented face my boy has been preserved and says old rubbing his hands what right have i to be otherwise than thankful and happy the captain who not yet taken his seat at the table but who has been about for some time and now stands hesitating in place looks doubtfully at mr and says there s the last bottle of the old down below would you wish to have it up to night my boy and drink to r and his wife oo m am the instrument maker looking wistfully at ike captain puts his hand into the breast of his coffee colored coat brings his pocket book and takes a letter out to mr says the man rom walter to be sent in three weeks time i u read it sir i am married to your daughter she is gone with me upon a distant voyage to be devoted to her is to have no claim on her or you but god knows that i am i why loving her beyond all earthly things i have yet without remorse united her to the and dangers of my i will not say to you you know why and you are her do not reproach her she has never reproached you i do not think or hope that you will ever foi ve me there is nothing i expect less but if an hour should come when it will comfort you to believe that has some one ever near her the great charge of whose life is to her remembrance of past sorrow i solemnly assure you you may in tiiat hour rest in belief solomon puts back the letter ca in his pocket book and puts back his pocket book in his coat we won t drink the last bottle of the old yet ned says the old man thoughtfully not yet not yet the captain no not yet and mr are of the same opinion after a silence they all sit down to supper and drink to the young husband and wife in something else and the last bottle of the old still remains among its dust and undisturbed a few days have elapsed and a stately ship is out at sea spreading its white wings to the wind upon the deck image to the man on board of
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blame to herself and was most tender of throwing any on her husband but anne could collect that their income had never been equal to their style of living and that from the first there had been a great deal of general and joint extravagance from his wife s account of him she could discern mr smith to have been a man of warm feelings easy temper careless habits and not strong understanding much more amiable than his friend and very unlike him led by him and probably despised by him mr raised by his marriage to great and disposed to every gratification of pleasure and vanity which could be commanded without himself for with all his self indulgence he had become a prudent man and beginning to be rich just as his friend ought to have found himself to be poor seemed to have had no concern at all for that friend s probable but on the contrary had been and encouraging expenses which end only in ruin and the accordingly had been ruined the husband had died just in time to be spared the full knowledge of it they had previously known enough to try the friendship of their friends and to ua prove tiiat mr s had better not be tried but it � � not till death tiiat the wretched state of his im fully known with a confidence in mr s regard mat to his feelings than hb judgment mr appointed him the of his will but mr not act and the difficulties and which had heaped on her in addition to the tf her situation had been such as could not be related wi anguish of spirit or listened to without indignation anne was shown some letters of his on the occasion answers to urgent from mrs smith which breathed the same stem resolution of not engaging in a trouble and under a cold the same to any of the evils it might bring on her it was a dreadful picture of ingratitude and and anne felt at some moments that no open crime could have been worse she had a great d o listen to all the particulars of past sad scenes all tiie of distress which in former conversations had bees merely hinted at were dwelt on now with a natural indulgence anne could perfectly comprehend the exquisite relief and was only the more inclined to wonder at the composure of her friend s usual state of mind there was one circumstance in the history of her of particular irritation she had good reason to believe tiiat some property of her husband in the west indies which had been for many years under a sort of for the payment of its own might be by proper measures and this property though not large would be enough to make her comparatively rich but was nobody to stir in it mr would do nothing and she could do nothing herself equally from exertion by her state of bodily weakness and from others by her want of money she had no natural to assist her even with their counsel and she could not afford persuasion to purchase the of the law this was a cruel of actually means it was on this point that she had hoped to engage anne good offices with mr she had previously in the of their marriage been very apprehensive of losing her by it but on being assured that he could have made no attempt of that nature since he did not even know her to be in bath it immediately occurred that something might be done in her favour by the influence of the woman he loved she had been hastily preparing to interest anne as far as the due to mr s character would allow when anne s of the supposed engagement changed the face of and while it took from her the hope of succeeding in the object of her first anxiety left her at least the comfort of telling the whole story her own way after listening to this full description of mr anne could not but express some surprise at mrs smith s having spoken of him so in the beginning of their conversation she had seemed to recommend and praise him my dear was mrs smith s reply there was nothing else to be done i considered your marrying him as certain though he might not yet have made the o� per and i could no more speak the truth of him than if he had been your husband my heart for you as i talked of happiness and yet he is sensible he is agreeable and with such a woman as you it was not absolutely hopeless he was very unkind to his first wife they were wretched together but she was too ignorant and giddy and he had never loved her i was to hope that you must fare better anne could just acknowledge within herself such a possibility of having been induced to marry him as made her shudder at the idea of the misery which must have followed it was just possible that she might have been persuaded by lady i and under such a supposition which would have been most miserable when time had disclosed all too late persuasion it was desirable that lady should be no longer deceived and one of the concluding arrangements of this important conference which carried them through the greater part of the morning was that anne had full liberty to communicate to her mend everything relative to mis smith in which his conduct was involved � i chapter xxii anne went home to think over all that she had heard in one point her feelings were relieved by this knowledge of mr there was no longer anything of tenderness due to him he stood as opposed to captain in all his own unwelcome and the evil of his attentions last night the
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n to mr an say kin i get a fresh horse i kin ride home an get de proof an be back in five hours ef i can get a fresh horse i ll buy him and pay well for him too it s forty miles an back says mr i kin do it i ll be back at half past twelve o clock sharp says de l up he watch an on he gloves an tu to de do well he look so sure o what he kin do i feel like i to help him an i say i ain t know lady twenty th ee or twenty one cause i ain got no but i know she born on sunday de wheat time two years after born i in on de horse when he a baby an went in de an got he bat ry in de battle cross de oat down g an de l say he been him den president de states an he s sleep by he ma in de at home now i bury him an hit s l on he tomb stone now de l tu n an look at mr an mr look out de cause he know so cause he in bat ry you needn you ride says he sort o lady a story of the war an de l pick up a pen an write a little while an den he read it an he had done write what i say for an mr meek me kiss de book cause true an he say he spread it in de so for all de to see den we come on home i a horse de l done hire to rest de mule an i tired as he but de l he as fresh as ef he start an he bring me a nigh way he learnt in de war he say when he used to slip th oo de lines an come at night forty miles to look at de house an see de light shine in lady de preacher an he wife when we home but you know lady ain satisfied in her mine she say she do love him but she don know she ought to marry him cause she ain got nobody to her but he says he be her from dis time an he lead her to de do an kiss her an she went to ready an de lady her an her wait on her while i wait on de l an be he body servant an he warm water to an he cut off all he beard he cause lady say de man she knew didn no beard on he face an she n y she an so she le me come in own house well n y we ready an we come out in in virginia de hall an de l went in de parlor be married an de preacher he in an while we fur lady an i slip out an got up in de j ice an out little rocks gin me an blow de dust off em good and good ef didn shine i put em in pocket an put on clean t an come long back to de house hit late now an de sun all cross de yard an th oo de house an de l he so impatient he set still he he bit so he up an walk bout in de hall an he n y look handsome an young like he did day he stand he cap in he hand an lady say she ain claim no kin him an he say he intrude on ladies an back out de front do he head straight up an ride to her de letter an now he in de hall to marry her an all on a sudden fling de do wide open an lady walk out ef i didn think a angel she white as snow her head to way back down on de her an her veil done fall her like white mist an some roses in her han ef it didn look like de sun done come th oo de do her an blaze all over de an de l he look like she him an an she while we way day done fine dress an veil an all down to de lady a story of the war fan an little slippers bout big as two little white ears o pop corn an de dress had sort o all over it say was lace an hit fit lady like put it in de trunk for her well when de l done tell her how beautiful she is an done meek her walk bout de hall her train an she over her shoulder at it an den at de l to see ef he proud o her he gin her he arm an den i walk up her an things out pocket an de l her arm an back an i put em her an on her arms an gin her de an put em on her ears an shine like stars but her face shine n an she mo put arms neck her eyes over an den de l gi her he arm an went in de parlor an an me em an picture an when he a little boy down at em married an when de preacher to part ax who give dis woman to de man he sort o wait an he eye sort o to me like he ax me ef i know an i don know but i think bout an when he ax me an all dead an all de we done been th oo an how de ain got nobody to her part now me an now in virginia when he wait an look at me way an ax me i to speak up i step forward an
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my dear madam is much beyond my power of doing justice to you will soon i earnestly hope know her thoroughly yourself no description can describe her she must tell you herself what she is yet not by word for never was there a human creature who would so suppress her own merit since i began this letter which will be longer than i foresaw i have heard from her she gives a good account of her own health but as she never i dare not depend i want to have your opinion of her looks i know you will soon call on her she is living in dread of the visit perhaps it is paid already let me hear from you without delay i am impatient for a thousand particulars remember how few minutes i was at and in how bewildered how mad a state and i am not much better yet still from happiness or misery when i think of the kindness and favour i have met with of her excellence and patience and my uncle s generosity i am mad with joy but when i recollect all the uneasiness i occasioned her and how little i deserve to be forgiven i am mad with anger if i could but see her again but i must not propose it yet my uncle has been too good for me to i must still add to this long letter you have not heard all that you ought to hear i could not give any connected detail yesterday but the suddenness and in one light the with which the affair burst out needs explanation for though the event of the th as you will conclude immediately opened to me the happiest prospects i should not have presumed on such early measures but from the very particular circumstances which left me not an hour to lose i should myself have shrunk from anything so hasty and she would have felt every scruple of mine with multiplied strength and refinement but i had no choice the hasty engagement she had entered into with that woman here my dear madam i was obliged to leave off abruptly to recollect and compose myself i have been walking over the country and am now i hope rational enough to make the rest of my letter what it ought to be it is in fact a most for me i behaved and here i can admit that my manners to miss w in being unpleasant to miss f were highly she them which ought to have been enough my plea of concealing the truth she did not think sufficient she was displeased i thought so i thought her on a thousand occasions scrupulous and cautious i thought her even cold she was always right if i had followed her judgment and subdued my spirits to the level of what she deemed proper i should have escaped the greatest i have ever known we quarrelled do you remember the morning spent at there every little dissatisfaction that had occurred before came to a crisis i was late i met her walking home by herself and wanted to walk with her but she would not suffer it she absolutely refused to allow me which i then thought most unreasonable now however i see nothing in it but a very natural and consistent degree of discretion while i to blind the world to our engagement was one hour with objectionable to another woman was she to be tlie next to a proposal which might have made every previous caution useless had we been met walking together between and the truth must have been suspected i was mad enough however to resent i doubted her affection i doubted it more the next day on box hill when provoked by such conduct on my such shameful insolent neglect of her and such apparent devotion to miss w as it would have been impossible for any woman of sense to endure she spoke her resentment in a form of words perfectly intelligible to me in short my dear madam it was a quarrel on her side abominable on mine and i returned the same evening to though i might have staid with you till the next morning merely because i would be us angry with her as possible even then i was not such a fool as not to mean to be reconciled in time but i was the injured person � injured by her coldness � and i went away determined that she should make the first advances i shall always congratulate myself that you were not of the hill party had you witnessed my behaviour there i can hardly suppose you would ever have thought well of me again its effect upon her appears in the immediate resolution it produced as soon as she found i was really gone from she closed with the offer of that mrs the whole system of whose treatment of her by the bye has ever filled me with indignation and hatred i must not quarrel with a spirit of forbearance which has been so richly extended towards myself but otherwise i should loudly protest against the share of it which that woman has known jane indeed you will observe that have t ot yet indulged myself in calling her by that name even to you think then what i must have endured in hearing it between the with all the vulgarity of needless repetition and all the insolence of imaginary superiority have patience with me i shall soon have done she closed with this offer to break with me entirely and wrote the next day to tell me that we never were to meet again she felt the engagement to he a source of repentance and misery to each she dissolved it this letter reached me on the very morning of my poor aunt s death i answered it within an hour but from the
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then ran straight for then they up the coast to and on to the west indies richard never went ashore cousin only once or twice but they about in the everlasting summer of fringed with palms and low dim red houses � just it all the colour and lights and beauty and far of it � and then when the fancy took them got up steam and slipped out again to sea and the name of the is the that s in the picture isn t it paused she leaned forward her chin in her hands her elbows on her knees she looked up at john and there was a singular expression in her clear and serious eyes i used to pity cousin she said i used to break my heart over her and now � now upon my word i believe i envy her � and see here dr she has asked me to go on to from here it seems that though richard refuses to see anyone except you of course and march he at his mother being so much alone what ought i to do i feel rather uncertain i have fought him i i have we have never been friends he and i he doesn t like me he s no reason to like me � anything but what do you say shall i refuse or shall i go and the doctor reflected a little drawing his great square hand down over his mouth and heavy chin the new heaven and new earth yes go he answered go and chance it your being at may work out in more of good than we now know chapter v telling how came to a certain of black ribbon yet as those grey weeks went on to christmas and the coming of the new year it became there was that in the aspect of affairs at which might very well provoke curious comment for the of richard s self imposed seclusion to which miss st had made allusion in her conversation with dr was not relaxed rather indeed did it threaten to pass from the accident of a first return after long absence and illness into a matter of fixed and accepted habit for those years of lonely wandering and rage of living finding their climax in deepening disappointment and the shock of rudely inflicted insult and disgrace had produced in richard a profound sense of from society and from the of ordinary intercourse since he was apparently doomed to survive he would go home but go home very much as some or wounded beast back to hide in its he was master in his own house at least and safe from intrusion there the place offered the silent sympathy of things familiar and therefore in a sense it is to look on that upon which one has already looked a thousand times and so after his reconciliation with his mother followed in natural his reconciliation with here he would see only those who loved him well enough � in their several stations and degrees � to respect his humour to ask no questions to leave him to himself richard was gentle in manner at this period courteous humorous even but a great was upon him it seemed as though some string had snapped leaving half his nature broken and dumb he had no no desire of sport and business were as little to his mind as society more than this � at first the excuse of fatigue had served him but very soon it came to be a admitted fact that richard did not leave the house surely it was enough he said to afford space for all the exercise he needed refusing to sir richard his old of rooms on the ground floor he had sent orders before his arrival that the smaller library adjoining the long gallery should be converted into a bed chamber for him it had been richard s practice when on board ship to steady his uncertain footsteps on the slippery or plane of the deck by the use of and this practice he in great measure retained it increased his poor powers of it rendered him more independent sometimes when secure that lady would not receive visitors he would make his way by the large library the state drawing room and to the chapel room and sit with her there but more often his days were spent exclusively in the long gallery he had brought home many curious and beautiful objects from his wanderings he would add these to the existing collection he would examine the books too procure such volumes as were needed to complete any imperfect series and in the of science literature and travel bring the library up to date he would devote his leisure to the study of various subjects � specially natural science � regarding which he was conscious of a knowledge deficient or merely i really am perfectly contented mother he said to lady more than once look at the length and breadth of the gallery it is as a city of magnificent distances after the deck of the dear old and my twelve foot cabin and fm not a man calculated to occupy so very much space after all let me about here with my books and my don t worry about me i shall keep quite well i promise you let me peacefully the spring anyhow i have plenty of occupation is going to the library catalogue with me and there are those of deeds and order books and which really ought to be looked over as it appears pretty certain i shall be the last of the family it would be only civil i think to bestow a little of my ample leisure upon my forefathers and set down some more or less comprehensive account of them and their doings they ear to have been given to rather dramatic adventures � don t
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the and the outer walls are solid and decorated on the inside with those light colored of the pupils of the inner wall is full of arched pierced windows with many delicate columns through which you look to the green grass and the trees and the perfectly smooth ornamented dome at one end i have paid my tribute to the trees so i will only say that here as always wherever i saw them � one or many � i thrilled with delight they are as fine as any of the monuments or bronze doors or carved or perfect they belong where the great artistic impulse of italy has always put side by side with perfect things for me they added the one final necessary touch to this realm of romantic memory i see them now and i hear them sigh i walked back to my train through highly colored winding quaint streets crowded with houses the of which we in america to day attempt to imitate on our fifth avenues and a at forty avenues and squares the knew so well what to do with the door and the window and the and the wall space the size of their window is what they choose to make it and the door is instinctively put where it will give the last touch of elegance how often have i mentally applauded that artistic and reserve which will use one of colored stone or one or one lamp or one window and no more there is space � lots of it � unbroken until you have had just enough and then it will be relieved just enough by a marble framed in the walls a coat of arms a window s i would like to run on in my enthusiasm and describe that of a palace that is now the at but i will refrain only these streets in were rich with angles and and wonderful and solid plain fronts which were at once substantial and elegant trust the italian of an older day to do well whatever he did at all and i for one do not think that this instinct is lost it will burst into flame again in the future or save greatly what it already possesses chapter first impressions of rome as we approached rome in the darkness i was on the qui for my first glimpse of it and impatient with wonder as to what the morning would reveal i was bound for the hotel continental � the abode for the winter at least of s mother the widow of an oxford don i expected to encounter a severe and lady of great who would eye the of paris and with severity my mother said is a very person she is greatly concerned about me when you see her try to cheer her up and give her a good report of me i don t doubt you will find her very interesting and it is just possible that she will take a fancy to you she is subject to violent likes and i fancied mrs as a rather large woman with a smooth placid countenance a severe intellectual eye that would see through all my and make believes on the instant it was midnight before the train arrived it was and as i pressed my nose to the window pane the beginning lamps i saw streets and houses come into view � apartment houses if you please and street cars and electric arc lights and paved streets and a general atmosphere of we might have been entering for any particular it presented but just when i was to myself on the strangeness of entering ancient rome in a modem car and of seeing box cars and engines i a at forty coal cars and flat cars loaded with heavy material gathered on a score of parallel tracks a touch of the ancient rome came into view for an instant and was gone again in the dark and rain it was an immense desolate tomb its arches flung in great curves its rounded dome rent and jagged by time nothing but ancient rome could have produced so imposing a ruin arid it came over me in an instant fresh and clear like an electric shock like a dash of cold water that this was truly all that was left of the might and glory of an older day i recall now with delight the richness of that sensation rome that could build the walls and the in far and london rome that could occupy the st louis in paris as an that could erect the immense column to on the heights above rome that could reach to the uppermost waters of the and the banks of the and and rule was around me here it vas � the city to which st paul had been brought where st peter had sat as the first father of the church where the first had set up their shrine to and and the she wolf that had nourished them yes this was rome truly enough in spite of the apartment houses and the street cars and the electric lights i came into the great station at five minutes after twelve amid a of italian and a crowd of passengers i made my way to the baggage room looking for a cook s guide to inquire my way to the continental when i was seized upon by one are you mr he said i replied that i was mrs told me to say that she was waiting for you and that you should come right over and inquire for her i hurried away followed by a laboring porter and first impressions of rome found her waiting for me in the hotel � not the large severe person i had imagined but a small enthusiastic gracious little lady she told me that my room was all ready and that the bath 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club mr deliberately wrote down the address well remember that in affairs of this kind moments are worth their weight in gold if i may use that expression and i will trust you not to leave your club too long so that any information may reach me as soon as possible good morning good when got back to his club he found a awaiting him from william at park it ran as follows no wire received several letters forwarded to army and navy club by that time it was approaching the and having put the into an envelope sent it off by special messenger to mr in court then he ordered his luncheon and set himself to await the arrival of the country post evidently william must have sent the letters to be posted in at the same time as the had been returned from park for between four and five o clock he turned into the club again and found that some letters had just arrived there were half a dozen or so of looking and one in a square plain envelope which he seized with a great throb at his heart for the handwriting upon it was s in order to read the letters better he had turned into the smoking room and he sank into the first easy chair that he saw then he took out a closely written sheet and began to read it began my dear a circumstance which in itself was sufficient to make him catch his breath and sit up straight in the great lounging chair as if he had come face to face with a situation of great gravity and danger my dear it said � i feel that an apology is due to you for having left park without telling you what my plans were for the future for letting you think that i intended to return to hollow cottage and wait there till you should join me my dear for you and me there the price of a wife can be no future no meeting no an but separation and if possible forgetfulness i tried so hard to tell you all that was in my mind before i left your father s house you would not understand me although my meaning must have been as clear to you as it was to me why why did you pretend when i told you that i could never be happy again that you did not know what i meant when you came to park taking advantage of my absence as you did you as surely killed your father as if you had given him poison or struck him his death blow when you blew the light out and thrust me on one side did you tor one moment believe that i did not recognize you surely that is incredible you put out the light of my life when you put out that candle when you thrust me on one side you thrust me out of your heart forever i will not reproach you for i know that you had my welfare at heart as much as your own but you must see how impossible it is for us to think of living together with such a secret between us so i am going away right out of your life where you will never see or hear of me again pray do not i look for me or in any way try to me back i could never never come i saved you by putting the keys back again but it is the last service that i shall ever render you my heart is full to breaking my head on fire my eyes burning as though they would never never close again oh why why did you do this hideous thing no money was worth it i thought you cared for me for myself i find that you can care for me second to your father s money if ever a heart was broken you have broken mine and not only my heart but my joy of life my faith all that went to make the sum of my earthly happiness i am going to a life of hard work of ceaseless toil of utter and entire self i shall try in the hard path of duty to forget the dream that i once had of happiness that was too beautiful for this cruel and world i have loved you heart and soul surely i have no need to prove it to you by the memory of that love i entreat you to let me pass out of your life now as if i had never been knowing what we do know we could never never be happy so that our only chance of finding happiness is to put o the price of a wife land and sea between us so that we may never meet again i feel this is the only way by which one or both of us may find happiness or if not happiness the peace of oblivion oh why did you do it why did you do it i would have borne so much for you � poverty obscurity � everything except your wife chapter xix reflection when came to the end of the letter signed your wife the whole truth lay as clearly planned out before him as a printed page so this was the meaning of it all this was why she had declared that she could never be happy again this was the cause of her distress and of her wan looks it was characteristic of that he was not in the least annoyed or angry the first instinct of some men would have been one of pain or anger that a wife could so mistake the nobility of her husband s character not so to him the situation was absolutely natural and one of his first thoughts was that her attitude was perfectly the
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made ever second to my profession � a wife cannot do it and hold the same place as the wife who is a wife only i have drifted away from and has drifted away from me and it is all my fault � my fault there was no reason why could not have given up his wretched regiment particularly when he came into castle i told him so when he told me that he had asked you to give up the stage i said � i said it is preposterous to expect to give up when she is at the very top of the tree let her have five or ten years more and then she will be willing and glad to retire into private life you did cried indeed i did i think it would have been to expect you to give up such a great career such a great sphere of usefulness as the always said no my dear you know quite well that i was dead against your going on the stage when you first suggested it i was dead against it and perhaps i was not quite as kind deserted i to you as i ought to have been � no looking back i don t think that i was but what i said i said for your good and when it was shown to me that it was for your good and for s good as well as for yours and when you showed me how good and distinguished and virtuous an could be then i withdrew my objections absolutely and a loyal friend i have been to you from that day to this and intend to be as long as i am alive you are too good said oh you are too good there is only one thing i have to ask of you � don t make any difference to i entreat you don t let there be any difference to difference said mrs angrily and indeed there must and will be a difference will always be our son � nothing can alter that � but sons who run their course straight are not and ought not and never can be upon the same footing with their parents as the sons who have run their course we had no idea the and i that you and had ever been at we never have been cried what was this wholly unexpected wholly i was expecting him to spend his long leave here with me we had been intending � that is to say he had proposed � to go to paris and have a little trip together if i could arrange for my work to be taken as of course i could have done and would willingly and cheerfully have done and you knew nothing of what was going on not one word said not one single word as to a quarrel � why dear mrs believe me and i never had a quarrel in our lives we have held different opinions � as for instance he never liked my playing the part of prudence and we did not agree upon that point � but we never quarrelled i would not could not have quarrelled with heart and sword but that is gone by now what is done cannot be undone and nothing can give me back the place that i once had � nothing all i ask is that you make no difference or as little difference as you can with on account of this � of this new tie of his she is very young and i believe she is very beautiful i never saw her i dined with the the cried mrs what the of � with whom she lived she is her cousin didn t he tell you he told us nothing he told us nothing except that he had left you and formed a new tie with a girl called it is all that i know � i may say it is all that i wish to know oh no don t say that some day you will receive her at all events don t let me stand in the way of your doing so it will only make me more wretched i will never receive this person in my house cried mrs indignantly perhaps some day you won t fed like that i don t know how to put it i would like to keep your friendship but i would like you to make no difference to him it will be hard enough on them by and by � hard enough at this point the got up and walked to the window he is feeling it dreadfully said mrs in an aside to dreadfully i have never seen him so broken well my poor child my more than daughter we can never the and i thank you sufficiently for the kindness and consideration which you have shown to us in our hour of trouble may it come back to you a thousand fold we felt almost as if you would not be willing to receive us i have left the two girls at home they both wanted to ill news travels come they both begged and prayed to come but we told them that it would be better if we came to you first they naturally do not wish their with you to be broken and they both entreated me to say so and with her love begged me to tell you that if you could possibly bring yourself to attend her marriage as you had originally promised to do she hopes that you will not allow this new state of affairs to stand in the way thereof but cried will not be present at his sister s wedding said mrs with a severe dignity which made feel that this side of the affair was out of her hands and we would wish � would wish and s
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my spectacles the tide was now quite high and i waited an hour or two for it to go down it was much easier to when the water was shallow the sun was almost down when i reached the shore of with my captured fleet behind me how all the little people cheered when they saw me coming i waved my hand above my head and shouted long live the mighty king of the king was at the landing place to welcome me here are the ships of your enemy i said as i fastened the to the shore well done my noble man cried the king he would have shaken hands with me if he could but he did that which was much better he made me a on the spot a in is much the same as a knight it is the highest honor that a man can hold kneel noble man mountain said the king i knelt as humbly as i could i threw myself down before him he struck me three times with the flat of his sword he muttered some words which i did not understand then he bade me rise rise sir man mountain most powerful of my subjects he said it is thus that i reward thee the king was beside himself with joy he was not satisfied with what had been done he wished me to capture all the ships of every kind that could be found on the coast of more than this he wished me to help him conquer the whole country of he wished to build up a great empire he dreamed of becoming the ruler of the whole world i was sorry to see him thus filled with an unworthy ambition i tried to show him that he was happier as king of than he could ever be as emperor of the world besides i said these have a right to life and liberty never will i be the means of bringing a brave and free people into slavery the wisest men of the court declared that i was right we can gain nothing by conquering other lands they said but it was plain that the king did not agree with us at the moment of victory he was displeased how i became a about three weeks passed by the king had not given up the thought of conquering he wanted to become the ruler of the whole world and make all the people ever break their eggs on the little end with the fifty ships which i had captured for him he now had a very large navy he had also a fine army of nearly a hundred thousand men it was a grand sight to see them all drawn up in marching order but the king s wise men held him back they told him how foolish it was to wish to become a world power as they called it let us attend to our own business they said and let the attend to theirs as for myself i stayed quite close at home i gave the king to understand that i thought one great victory was enough at length a ship arrived from with a flag of flying from her mast on board of her were six of the chief men of with a train of about five hundred persons they were all dressed in fine style and when they landed they made a very grand appearance they had come to beg for peace after some days a treaty was signed the were to keep the fleet that i had captured for them the were to keep all the big and make them behave themselves what more could our people wish after this business was ended the six chiefs came to pay me a visit they had heard that by the king i had them and they came to thank me you were very brave to capture our fleet they said but you were a thousand times when you told the king that you would not help him a free people then in their emperor s name they invited me to visit their country i thanked them and asked them to give my respects to their emperor i will surely visit i said before i return to england the chiefs bowed and departed i watched them as they sailed away with their splendid train of followers they were indeed noble looking men the next time that our king came to see me i told him that i very much wished to visit and see what sort of country it was would he give me leave to go he looked at me coldly he frowned but at last he said that i might go for a short time if i would promise to return to it was easy for me to do this and so the business was settled how the people of lived before i go farther with my story i will tell you something more about the country of and how i lived there the people as i have said were very small the men were not more than six inches in height the commonest height was about five and a half inches while the women were somewhat smaller the animals and plants on the island were of like size the horses and oxen were between four and five inches in height the sheep were an inch and a half more or less their were not as big as our their were smaller than our house flies their trees were about seven feet high those that grew in the king s park were but little higher than my head when i walked among them outside of the city there were many beautiful farms where all kinds of grain and cattle were raised it was quite funny to see the little farmers with their little horses or oxen in the fields or their produce to
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the first who reached the top waved his and shouted � v v which was the of italy echoed by his comrades the were flying across the iron bridge oyer the canal the so close after them that the who was to have put the match to a mine beneath them was while some of the french poured water on the powder that was to haye blown them up others rushed forward to secure the railway they continued to till they were in almost as secure a position as the had left but no support and the began to close them in it was almost one o clock yet the gallant little band no for the kept m hotly engaged at meantime the we are speaking of thought to regain their lost position and fresh of were brought up again and again by the railway die shrill whistle of which was perpetually heard amid the din of war to yield was not to be thought therefore induced the two surrounding each to men to hold out as long as life lasted they did so the t bt of italy till two o clock their nearly spent their losses of men terrific surely the emperor need never again hear an voice ask if he were a mere sister of mercy come to walk the at this critical a cloud of dust all along the road behind them showed that the long looked for help was at hand the and the division dashed up to their assistance nearly at the same time m began the attack of while after came up and threatened to the in fact the seeing themselves pressed on their right and left had retreated from to they defended this village with obstinacy on both sides it was felt to be the key of the position many of the poor fellows had not tasted food for twenty four hours and had been dreadfully in the and were both on the field though they did not take the command the french took the story op italy the village house hy house the were forced into retreat and prisoners including officers remained in the hands of the more than and french were put de combat that very saturday evening the were surprised to see war worn exhausted soldiers suddenly pouring into the streets in the greatest disorder the impression instantly prevailed that the could not be far oflf the entire population into the streets and eagerly asked one another what has happened but none could answer at daybreak the troops were seen quietly retiring from the the then became assured that they were free what a moment they had awaited it with eagerness but without demonstration and now in the fulness of their delight they no insult to the troops who were departing nor uttered any many of the soldiers with the people the of as soon as they were gone the issued a the citizens to give the an enthusiastic reception the news of the victory reached the following evening we were sitting quietly round our news room table says a writer when the report of cannon was suddenly heard from the of the fortress we into the streets and soon learnt that louis napoleon thus emphatically published the news of a great victory such a storm of wild joy burst over as i never thought would take possession of a whole population it was past eight o clock and several thousand persons in their holiday dresses were on their way back from their visit to the jolly at the both sexes and all ages were in less time than i can write it burning links and waving came forth as if by magic the multitude fell under the orders of leaders from the and the d the vast mass of men horses the of carriages priests beggars nurses and babies in arms moved down the to the great square of the where a cry was raised to the and to prince napoleon i i never thought so vast a crowd could be animated with such perfect unity of feeling had the victorious army at that moment marched through the streets its movements could hardly have been more compact and orderly the names of italy and victor went up to the seventh heaven the principal streets gave the signal for a general illumination and the example was followed all over the town till the glare the young new moon they shouted themselves hoarse beneath the windows of and prince napoleon then went back to the and the were folded and the links struck to the ground that was the signal for good night for it was within an hour of midnight but no here comes a military band � no one asks from whence � playing a kind of national and music works its spell on italian hearts old and young set up a shout the huge mass d the of starts forward keeping time once more the now dark streets � once more treats and the prince to a song all at once the breaks down in the middle � a window flies up � a word is spoken � prince napoleon has had enough noise the mob goes home � it has been taught a lesson hence home idle i your country wants men horses and money let france and give you stem lessons of duty and sacrifice think as you lie safe and comfortable in your beds how many brave men from germany foreigners to whom the cause of your country is only a word lie and stiff on the green turf beneath which to morrow they will be laid the day after the battle was sunday but no of rest though the would have devoted it to repose and to burying their dead and caring for the wounded the fighting was renewed but without any decisive results � on monday the of waited the of italy
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to catch a blaze only old newspapers were better and he had of these � another evidence of his lord and master s wretched disposition it was a sad world to work in almost every ng was against him still he fought as as he could against waste and extravagance his own were rigid he would wear the same suit of ut down from one of s expensive of years before every sunday for a couple of years les ter s shoes by a little stretch of the imagination could be i made to seem to fit and these he wore his old ties also � the black ones � they were fine if he could have cut down s shirts he would have done so he i did make over the with the friendly aid of the cook s needle s of course were just right f expense for s clothing the remaining stock of s discarded clothing � shoes shirts suits ties and what not � he would store away for weeks and months and then in a sad and gloomy frame of mind he would call in a tailor or an man or a and dispose of the lot at the best price he could he learned that all second hand clothes men were that there was no use in putting the least faith in the of any rag dealer or old shoe man they all lied they all claimed to be very poor when as a matter of fact they were actually rolling in wealth had these stories he had followed them up he had seen what they were doing with the things he sold them he declared they offer me ten cents for a pair of shoes and then i see them hanging out in s z i front of their places marked two dollars such robbery my god they could afford to give me a dollar smiled it was only to her that he complained for he could expect no sympathy from so car as his own store of money was concerned he gave � the most of it to his beloved church where he was con to be a model of propriety honesty in fact the of all the virtues and so for all the ill winds that were beginning to blow was now leading the dream years of her existence in spite of the doubts which assailed at times as to the wisdom of his career was invariably kind and considerate and he seemed to enjoy his home life everything all right she would ask when he came in of an evening sure he would answer and pinch her chin or cheek she would follow him in while always alert would take his coat and hat in winter time they would sit in the before the big grate fire in the spring summer or fall preferred to walk out on the porch one comer of which commanded a sweeping view of the lawn and the distant street and light his before dinner cigar would sit on the side of his chair and stroke his head your hair is not getting the least bit thin aren t you glad she would say or oh see how your brow is wrinkled now you mustn t do that you didn t change your tie this morning why didn t you i laid one out for you oh i forgot he would answer or he would cause the wrinkles to disappear or that he would soon be getting bald if he wasn t so now in the drawing room or library before and she was not less loving though a little more she loved odd like pigs in the spider s hole baby and the like shared in these simple amusements he would work by c l the hour if necessary to make a puzzle come right was clever at these mechanical problems sometimes she would have to show him the right method and then she would be immensely pleased with herself at other times she would stand behind him watching her chin on his shoulder her arms about his neck he seemed not to mind � indeed he was in the wealth of she bestowed her cleverness her gentleness her tact created an atmosphere � which was immensely pleasing above all her youth and beauty appealed to him it made him feel young and if there was one thing objected to it was the thought l� of drying up into an old age i want to keep young or die young was one of his pet remarks and came to she was glad that she was so much younger now for his sake another pleasant feature of the home life was s steadily increasing affection for the child would sit at the big table in the library in the evening her books v would and would read his interminable list of german papers it grieved the old man that should not be allowed to go to a german school but would listen to nothing of the sort we ll not have any thick headed german training in this he said to when she suggested that had complained the public schools are good enough for any child you tell him to let her alone there were really some delightful hours among the four liked to take the little seven year old school girl between his knees and her he liked to the so called facts of life to its and watch how the child s mind took them what s water he would ask and being informed that it was what we drink he would stare and say that s so but what is it don t they teach you any better than that well it is what we drink isn t it persisted the fact that we drink it doesn t explain what it is he would retort you ask your teacher what water is
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glories of which it was the gate and of the good time i should have now i am at home in it every one in it and along the st addresses me in a friendly way by j xvi the rocky mountains name and the newspapers with their intolerable personality have made me and my riding exploits so notorious that travellers speak courteously to me when they meet me on the doubtless wishing to see what sort of monster i am i have met nothing but civility both of manner and speech except that pistol shot it looked beautiful the snow so pure and the sky such a bright sharp blue the snow was so deep and level that after a few miles i left the track and for storm peak rode sixteen miles over the without seeing man bird or beast � a solitude awful even in the bright the cold always great became piteous i increased the of yesterday by exposing my hand in mending the and when the sun sank in indescribable beauty behind the mountains and colour in the sky i got off and walked the last four miles and stole in here in the coloured twilight without any one seeing me the life of which i wrote before is scarcely less severe though lightened by a hope of change and this weather brings out some special the stove has to be in the living room the children cannot go but and good and delightful as they are it is hard for them to be shut up all day with four it is more of a trouble than you would think for a lady in precarious health that before each meal a lady s ufe ik egg butter milk preserves and have to be unless they are kept on the stove there is no part of the room in which they do not it is uninteresting down here in the i long for the rushing winds the piled up peaks the great pines the wild night noises the poetry and the of the free jolly life of my i can hardly that the river which lies ice bound outside this house is the same which flashes through park and which i saw snow born on long s peak park december yesterday morning the had disappeared bo it was below at least i lay awake from cold all night but such is the wonderful effect of the climate that when i got up at five to the household for my early start i felt quite refreshed we on beef and i left at eight to ride forty five miles before night dr and a gentleman who was staying there me the first miles i did like that ride racing with the other through the air in that indescribable sunshine the snow from the horses feet like dust i was soon warm we stopped at a s to feed and the old amused me by seeming to think park almost inaccessible in winter the distance the mountains greater than i had been told and he said that i could not get there before eleven at night and not at all if there was much drift i wanted the gentlemen to go on with me as far as the devil s gate but they could not because their horses were tired and when the heard that he exclaimed indignantly what that woman going into the mountains alone she ll lose the track or be to death but when i told him i had ridden the trail in the storm of tuesday and had ridden over six hundred miles alone in the mountains he treated me with great respect as a fellow and gave me some matches saying you ll have to camp out anyhow you d better make a fire than be to death the idea of my spending the night in the forest alone by a fire struck me as most grotesque we did not start again till one and the two gentlemen rode the first two miles with me on that track the little there a full stream has to be crossed eighteen times and they had been wood across it breaking it and it had broken and several times making thick and thin places � indeed there were which even i thought bad where the ice let us through and it was hard for the horses to struggle upon it again and one of the gentlemen who though a most accomplished man was not a was once or twice a lady s life in in the ludicrous position of hesitating on the with an anxious face not daring to spur his horse upon the ice after they left me i had eight more and then a ride of six miles before i reached the old trail but though there were several up to the saddle and no one had broken a track showed such pluck that instead of spending the night by a camp fire or not getting in till midnight i reached mr s cabin four miles from park only an hour after dark very cold and with the pony so tired that she could hardly put one foot before another indeed i walked the last three miles i saw light through the but hearing an earnest conversation within was just about to withdraw when and on his master coming to the door i found that the solitary man was talking to his dog he was looking out for me and had some coffee ready and a large fire which were very pleasant and i was very glad to get the latest news from the park he said that told him that it would be most difficult for any one of them to take me down to the plains but that he would go which is a great relief according to the scotch proverb better a finger off than aye and as i cannot live
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i can do for you in town nothing i am much obliged to you have you no message for any body my love to your sister if you please and when you see my cousin � my cousin � i wish you would be so good as to say that � i suppose i shall soon hear from him certainly and if he is lazy or i will write his excuses myself he could say no more for would be no longer detained he pressed her hand looked at her and was gone went to while away the next three hours as he could with his other acquaintance till the best dinner that a capital inn afforded was ready for their enjoyment and turned in to her more simple one immediately their general fare bore a very character and park could he have suspected how many besides that of exercise she endured in her father s house he would have wondered that h r looks were not much more affected than he found them she was so little equal to s and s brought to table as they all were with such ts of half cleaned plates and not half cleaned knives forks that she was very often constrained to her meal till she could send her brothers in the evening for and after being nursed up at it was too late in the day to be hardened at and though sir thomas had he known all might have thought his niece in the most promising way of being starved both mind and body into a much value for mr s good company and good fortune he would probably have feared to push his experiment farther lest she might die under the cure was out of spirits all the rest of the day though tolerably secure of not seeing mr again she could not help being low it was parting with somebody of the nature of a friend and though in one light glad to have him gone it seemed as if she was now deserted by every body it was a sort of renewed separation from and she could not think of his returning to town and being with mary and without feelings so near akin to envy as made her hate herself for having them her had no from any thing passing around her a or two of her father s as always happened if he was not with them spent the long long evening there and from six o clock to half past nine there was of noise or she was very low the wonderful improvement which she still fancied in mr was the nearest to comfort of any thing within the current of her thoughts not considering in how different a circle she had been just seeing him nor how much might be owing to contrast she was quite persuaded of his being more and of others than formerly and if in things must it not be so in great so anxious for her health and comfort so very feeling as he now expressed himself and really seemed might not it be fairly supposed that he would not much longer in a suit so distressing to park chapter xii it was presumed that mr was travelling back ic london on the morrow for nothing more was seen of him at mr price s and two days afterwards it was a fact ascertained to by the following letter from his sister opened and read by her on another account with the most anxious curiosity � i have to inform you my dearest that henry has been down to to see you that he had a delightful walk with you to the dock yard last saturday and one still more to be dwelt on the next day on the when the air the sparkling sea and your sweet looks and conversation were altogether in the most delicious harmony and afforded sensations which are to raise ecstasy even in this as well as i understand is to be the substance of my information he makes me write but i do not know what else is to be communicated except this said visit to and these two said walks and his introduction to your family especially to a fair sister of yours a fine girl of fifteen who was of the party on the taking her first lesson i presume in love i have not time for writing much but it would be out of place if i had for this is to be a mere letter of business for the purpose of conveying necessary information which could not be delayed without risk of evil my dear dear if i had you here how i would talk to you � you should listen to me till you were tired and advise me till you were still tired more but it is impossible to put a part of my great mind on paper so i will altogether and leave you to guess what you like i have no news for you you have politics of course and it would be too bad to plague you with the names of people and parties that fill up my time i ought to have sent you an account of your cousin s first party but i was lazy and now it is too long ago suffice it that every thing was just as it ought to be in a style that any of her connections must park have been gratified to witness and that her own dress and manners did her the greatest credit my friend mrs is mad for such a house and it would not make me miserable i go to lady after she seems in high spirits and very happy i fancy lord s is very good humoured and pleasant in his own family and i do not think him so very ill looking as i did j at least one
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the other grew excessively you what he is now and when people say he has made much money � he has not the heart to spend it so we live in the comer of our great old house like sand in an empty shell but come let ns go down to the river before the sun sets throw your veil over your head you will find it enough they strolled down the wood path to the enjoying the refreshing coolness various small animals alarmed at their light tread ran among the and birds and fluttered over their heads they reached the brink of a small but deep river which told contained and other good fish it seemed the spot for a to dream out his days flocks of wild ducks were gliding on the surface of the waters and a couple of themselves on a little of the opposite bank a young man seated under some trees was engaged in fishing close to the spot on which and stood a little boy stretched all along on the ground was intently reading suddenly laid her hand on his shoulder and made him give a great start he turned round his open honest face and looked up to her with great blue wondering eyes ah exclaimed he gladly i did not know you were here and is grand enough for me said why who taught you to read the widow ah the widow the dear good woman we must go and see her to morrow and what book has she given you he silently held it towards her a translation from the english into modem said examining it look i one of s tracts � the young exclaimed how very singular to meet with it here i chapter xiv a lord of the soil the young man who had been fishing now approached with an air his dress though not below that of many a russian country gentleman was so ill chosen and that guessed him to be many degrees beneath the rank that really was his he wore an frock coat far from new with brass buttons leather and a violet satin a good deal his mien was and his countenance not bad but totally destitute of intelligence as he slowly drew near he seemed deeply occupied in pulling a pair of coarse gloves over a pair of coarse hands as if for the sole purpose of immediately pulling one of them oflf again to present his hand all glorious with gaudy rings to the want of between his sentences which he rarely finished had the appearance of proceeding from embarrassment but was in reality a habit that had become natural to him from the confusion of his ideas had yet to and i j learn how and a landed proprietor can become who dwells wholly and solely among his i did not know said he awkwardly that you were here � that is � i supposed � to be sure told me � only i thought it was not to be till next week � that is a day or two � as had very little to do with our arrangements said whose contrasted with his embarrassment it did not signify if he were not quite clear about them you need make no apology paul for fishing in our grounds you know you have my father s free permission to do so and i ve just caught a beautiful continued paul at every other word which i shall do myself the honour � the pleasure i mean of carrying up to the house � thank you pray do not trouble yourself here is little will run up with it ah that will be still that is � of course i should be most happy and paul hid his blushing face among the long grass in which he affected to be seeking for the though it was close at hand all the while here boy cried he with a decision and command that showed how he could speak to a even though not belonging to himself readily i and took the fish tucked his little book under his arm gave another bright look and trotted off to the house it s easy to see how good you are said paul gazing on with a in his round blue eyes that was almost silly that boy now � quite you and so must every one i should think � every one that is that � who � thank you don t it said i believe little is fond of me seeing he owes to me many toys cakes and games of play and now let me present you in form m paul to my friend may ah � french i suppose said paul raising his hat half a yard above his head and holding it there for a minute while his good white teeth were displayed in a smile that extended nearly ear to ear no english said better and better said that every one thinks � oh no every one does not think said quietly as if he had made a general observation and how is m dear me i ought to have asked that before only � that is i may a well walk up to the house and ask him myself your attention is needless as my father has yet joined us and oh � then i ll walk up to the house for the pleasure of seeing looked as if she were inclined to remind him he was doing that already but as she afterwards told she thought he deserved to be rewarded for finishing one of his sentences really coming from him it was quite and where are you in this neighbourhood said as they slowly returned up the alley oh at my aunt s as usual said paul that is � ah yes by the by i recollect i did once stay at m s �
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true thomas the king has called for priest and cup the king has taken spur and blade to true thomas a knight and all for the sake o the songs he made they have sought him high they have sought him low they have sought him over down and they have found him by the milk white thorn that guards the gates o twas bent beneath and blue above their eyes were held that they might not see the that between the oh they were the queens d now cease your song the king he said oh cease your song and get you to vow your vow and watch your arms for i will you a knight cast rt � me of for i will give you a horse o pride wi and spur and page and squire wi keep and tail and and law and land to hold at your desire true thomas smiled above his harp and turned his face to the naked sky where blown before the wind the down she floated by i ha vowed my vow in another place and bitter oath it was on me i ha watched my arms the lee long night where five score fighting men would flee my lance is tipped the flame my shield is beat o the moonlight cold and i won my spurs in the middle world a thousand beneath the mould and what should i make wi a horse pride and what should i make wi a sword so brown but the rings o the gentle folk and my kin in the fairy town � of state and what should i make wi and belt wi keep and tail and and fee and what should i do wi page and squire that am a king in my own for send east and i send west and i send far as my will may flee by dawn and dusk and the drinking rain and my return to me they come wi news of the earth they come wi news o the sea wi word of spirit and ghost and flesh and man that s among the three the king he bit his lip and smote his hand upon his knee by the faith o my soul true thomas he said ye waste no wit in as i desire unto my pride can i make by three and three to run before and ride behind and serve the sons o my body si e cast of and what care i for your row foot or all the sons o your body before they win to the pride o name i they all ask leave o me for i make honour wi mouth as i make shame wi feet to sing wi the priests at the market cross or run wi the dogs in the naked street and some they give me the good red gold and some they give me the white money and some they give me a o meal for they be people o low degree and the song sing for the counted gold the same i sing for the white money but best i sing for the o meal that simple people given me the king cast down a silver a silver o money if i come with a poor man s he said true thomas will ye harp to me cast fit at i harp to the children small they press me close on either hand and who are you true thomas said that you should ride while they must stand light down light down from your horse o pride ye talk too loud and hie and i will make you a triple word and if ye dare ye shall noble me he has lighted down from his horse o pride and set his back against the stone now guard you well true thomas said ere i your heart from your breast bone true thomas played upon his harp the fairy harp that lee and the first least word the proud king heard it the salt tear out o his ee oh i see the love that i lost long i touch the hope that i may not see and all that i did o hidden shame like little they hiss at me cast of the sun is lost at noon � at noon the dread o doom has me true thomas hide me under your cloak god i m little fit to twas bent beneath and blue above � twas open field and running flood � where hot on heath and and wall the high sun warmed the s brood lie down lie down true thomas said the god shall judge when all is done but i will bring you a better word and lift the cloud that i laid on true thomas played upon his harp that and to his hand and the next least word true thomas made it the king take horse and brand oh hear the tread o the fighting men i see the sun on and spear i mark the arrow the that flies so low and sings so clear no � � cast of advance my standards to that war and bid my good knights and ride the shall watch as fierce a fight as e er was fought on the border side bent beneath and blue above twas nodding grass and naked sky where ringing up the wind the stooped upon the true thomas sighed above his harp and turned the song on the string and the last least word true thomas made he his dead youth back to the king now am prince and i do well to love my love fear to walk wi man in fellowship and breathe my horse behind the deer my hounds they bay unto the death the buck has beyond the burn my love she waits at her window to wash my hands when i return l e cast
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plague of school and the dull routine of a little my fir voyage my bosom of this perilous stuff i came home a and a wiser lad � but i had to for another voyage and sailed the sea twenty six long years at the end i came back to the little an ancient with no property but the clothes on my back some about my travels gray hair and a to burden my family and look after my do what you like only be careful to go to sea with a i rarely give advice but i can recommend you never to do anything without seeing where your path goes and if you can keep the old road you will find the beaten track pleasanter on the whole and if the scenery is tame the accommodation is good at the your friend hope made me laugh as i say by his cool to your mother s tenderness he has an old head on young shoulders he told me was thrown into an agreeable excitement by your disappearance mrs was in consternation to lose so quiet a with such a small appetite and the good soul really feared that the hard fare of the university must have driven you desperate a few of the young ladies have manifested some sympathy and set you down as a rejected pray your mother s distressed heart by writing her we are in a here i have had a notion i would get a lawyer s advice � perhaps we could take you with a but it is a good way to send a s and it would be a blank business to have a non est returned your mother me to engage youth of the and the painter july a vehicle and drive down myself your sister suggests we bribe you to come back by the offer of a study and pens a library and permission to pass a week in seclusion what we shall resolve say in the time i puff my pipe at my leisure in the garret and read some old french plays i bought at a book stall your uncle james hope to edward i acknowledge what you say of outline is partly true my dear but i think you have drawn too hasty a conclusion we must in art make a beginning � to leap from the outset to the end cannot produce any work above that of a it is the fault of our time to escape to mar by haste and to suggest rather than perfect i am to hear you remark you wish the poet s power belonged to you for i have always thought you were born to write verse i console myself by reflecting that every true poet has felt this deficiency at the outset and my was the result of the same want of maturity i find everywhere for how could i require you just beginning to write to produce anything sublime i want courage to assert my right to the pencil as much as you do to the pen i believe our age is not only that of but of we are neither willing to nor confide we finish in haste and read our failure of necessity when i consider how the masters who have stamped eternal foot prints in the sands of time spent years in writing characters which were instantly washed out resolve to sit in love and admiration and value my formed as some tendency towards real beauty as the to the bible of art my outlines in this light are worth preserving and i grieve that i was not possessed of this patience years ago for it would have led me to keep my first sketches and i might now see such a change for the better make golden my of the poet and the painter aspirations so much do we learn in and so unfortunate it seems to grow old early and this holiday floor where in games we harvest deep experience i have been long laboring at outlines yet feel i have accomplished little compared with what i might other pursuits have so my time i have not yielded to your earnest request to dwell only in art to abandon these college studies in short to identify my whole external existence with the beautiful i prize the unselfish enthusiasm that leads you to desire for your friend only the happiest results for your sake i should love to yield myself entirely to the radiant sunlight of picture and dispense with the cold economy of the world what will you think if i confess i have not that confidence me to say entirely that i can produce anything to warrant me in following an artist s life an irresistible impulse draws me to landscape i take my pencil but the scenes do not flow warm and living in a measure i satisfy myself yet not to that extent i desire you will send the lesson i have just read on haste and the necessity of taking degrees in art step by step alas i find i can read lessons to everybody better than practise them it would not avail to be an amateur i must be all or nothing and in fully feeling this i found my right to come a painter he who truly to the has the consolation of knowing he can make no failure yet to ass life in stepping from one stone to another would not be sufficient excuse for what other avenues i may have to knowledge i am an man all i hear all i see all i do is but the faint uncertain dawn of what i am equal to and it would be a sensation profoundly satisfactory did i seize what jewels are strewn by the way but i seem to be carried forward with such rapidity that i cannot stoop to seize even these i am possessed
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lame up in the by the would have heard him in those long still mornings at last a day came when he did not see gray brother at the signal place and he laughed and headed the for the by the tree which was all covered with golden red flowers there sat gray brother every on his back lifted he has hidden for a month to throw thee off thy guard he crossed the last night with hot foot on thy trail said the wolf panting frowned i am not afraid of but is very cunning have no fear said gray brother his lips a little i met in the dawn now he is telling all his wisdom to the but he told me everything before i broke his back s plan is to wait for thee at the village gate this evening � for thee and for no one else he is lying up now in the big dry of the has he eaten to day or does he hunt empty said for the answer meant life and death to him tiger tiger he killed at dawn � a pig � and he has drunk too remember could never fast even for the sake of revenge oh fool fool what a s it is eaten and drunk too and he thinks that i shall wait till he has slept now where does he lie up if there were but ten of us we might pull him down as he lies these will not charge unless they wind him and i cannot speak their language can we get behind his track so that they may smell it he swam far down the to cut that off said gray brother told him that i know he would never have thought of it alone stood with his finger in his mouth thinking the big of the that opens out on the plain not half a mile from here i can take the herd round through the to the head of the and then sweep down � but he would out at the foot we must block that end gray brother thou cut the herd in two for me not i perhaps � but i have brought a wise gray brother trotted off and dropped into a hole then there lifted up a huge gray head that knew well and the hot air was filled with the most desolate cry of all the � the hunting howl of a wolf at mid day said clapping his hands i might have known that thou not forget me we have a big work in hand cut the herd in two keep the cows and together and the and the plough by themselves so the book the two wolves ran ladies chain fashion in and out of the herd which and threw up its head and separated into two in one the cow stood with their in the centre and glared and ready if a wolf would still to charge down and the life out of him in the other the and the young and stamped but though they looked more imposing they were much less dangerous for they had no to protect no six men could have divided the herd so neatly what orders panted they are trying to join again slipped on to s back drive the away to the left gray brother when we are gone hold the cows together and drive them into the foot of the how far said gray brother panting and snapping till the sides are higher than can jump shouted keep them there till we come down the swept off as and gray brother stopped in front of the cows they charged down on him and he ran just before them to the foot of the as drove the far to the left well done another charge and they are fairly started careful now � careful a snap too much and the will charge this is work than driving black buck thou think these creatures could move so swiftly called j have � have hunted these too in my time r tiger tiger l gasped in the dust shall i turn them into the ay turn swiftly turn them is mad with rage oh if i could only tell him what i need of him to day the were turned to the right this time and into the standing thicket the other herd children watching with the cattle half a mile away hurried to the village as fast as their legs could carry them crying that the had gone mad and run away but s plan was simple enough all he wanted to do was to make a big circle and get at the head of the and then take the down it and catch between the and the cows for he knew that after a meal and a full drink would not be in any condition to fight or to up the sides of the he was soothing the now by voice and had dropped far to the rear only once or twice to hurry the rear guard it was a long long circle for they did not wish to get too near the and give warning at last rounded up the bewildered herd at the head of the on a grassy patch that down to the itself from that height you could see across the tops of the trees down to the plain below but what looked at was the sides of the and he saw with a great deal of satisfaction that they ran nearly straight up and down while the vines and that hung over them would give no to a tiger who wanted to get out let them breathe he said holding up g the book his hand they have not him yet let them breathe i must tell who comes we have him in the trap he put his hands to his
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in remarked as she swung of ban it s an outrage both to horse and woman to ride in a you look like a young the man said his eyes passing tenderly over the girl as she swung the horse around are you ready she asked all ready to the old mill she called as the horses sprang forward that s less than a mile to a finish he demanded she nodded and the horses feeling the urge of the reins caught the spirit of the race the dust rose in clouds behind as they tore along the level road they swung around the bend horses and at sharp angles to the ground and more than once the low to escape the branches of and overhanging trees they over the small plank bridges and thundered over the larger iron ones to an ominous of loose rods they rode side by side saving the animals for the rush at the finish yet putting them at a pace that drew upon vitality and staying power around a of white oaks the road straightened out before them for several hundred yards at the end of which they could see the ruined mill now for it the girl cried she urged the horse by suddenly leaning forward with her body at the same time for an instant letting the rein slack and touching the neck with her bridle hand she began to draw away from the man touch her on the neck she cried to him with this the mare pulled alongside and began gradually to pass the girl and looked at each other for a moment the mare still drawing ahead so that was compelled slowly to turn his head the mill was a hundred yards away shall i give him the spurs shouted the man nodded and the girl drove the spurs in sharply and quickly calling upon the horse for its utmost but watched her own horse slowly ahead of her beaten by three beamed triumphantly as they pulled into a walk confess sir confess you didn t think the old mare had it in her leaned to the side and rested her hand for a moment on s wet neck ban s a alongside of her affirmed s all right if she is in her indian summer nodded approval that s a sweet way of putting it � indian summer it just describes her but she s not lazy she has all the fire and none of the folly she is very wise what of her years that accounts for it her folly passed with her youth many s the lively time she s given you io no answered i never knew her really to cut up i think the only trouble she ever gave me was when i was training her to open gates she was afraid when they swung back upon her � the animal s fear of the trap perhaps but she bravely got over it and she never was vicious she never bolted nor nor cut up in all her life � never not once the horses went on at a walk still breathing heavily from their run the road wound along the bottom of the valley now and again crossing the stream from either side rose the drowsy of machines by occasional sharp cries of the men who were gathering the on the western side of the valley the hills rose green and dark but the eastern side was already burned brown and tan by the sun there is summer here is spring said oh beautiful valley her eyes were glistening and her face was radiant with love of the land her gaze wandered on across orchard patches and sweeping stretches seeking out the purple which seemed to hang like a dim smoke in the wrinkles of the hills and in the more distant far up among the more rugged where the steep slopes were covered with she caught a glimpse of a clear space where the wild grass had not yet lost its green have you ever heard of the secret pasture she asked her eyes still fixed on the remote green a of fear brought her eyes back to the man beside her with nostrils and wild eyes was the air madly with her fore legs threw himself forward against her neck to keep her from falling backward and at the same time touched her with the spurs to compel her to drop her fore feet to the ground in order to obey the go ahead impulse of the spurs why this is most remarkable began but to her surprise the mare threw her head down arched her back as she went up in the air and returning struck the ground stiff legged and a genuine buck called out and the next moment the mare was rising under him in a second buck looked on astounded at the na conduct of her mare and admiring her lover s he was quite cool and was himself evidently enjoying the performance again and again half a dozen times arched herself into the air and struck stiffly then she threw her head straight up and rose on her hind legs about and striking with her fore feet whirled into safety the horse she was riding and as she did so caught a glimpse of s eyes with the look in them of blind brute madness until it seemed they must burst from her head the faint pink in the white of the eyes was gone replaced by a white that was like dull marble and that yet flashed as from some inner fire a faint cry of fear suppressed in the instant of utterance slipped past s lips one hind leg of the mare seemed to and for a moment the whole quivering body and perpendicular swayed back and forth and there was uncertainty as to whether it would fall forward or backward the man half
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yet more convenient was proposed instead so the great of force which is nothing else but abstract motion or action the s march it would be e� r to out in this s in to all knowledge from and yet building theories upon where ire impossible or at least have been made but the point of interest that these errors are not accidental or at random but show a progress of the system itself beyond its own principles � that it and thereby the term is n used by persons of this way of thinking as equivalent to or m � or misty which is supposed to be the same thing � and as a pretence of human to accomplish what is beyond their sphere but this again can apply nowhere so well as to the system itself for this is precisely its portion it has got so far ae to feel that the reality it seeks is not the phenomenon � bat no reality except matter it does not get beyond this negative conception of matter matter that is from which all attributes are abstracted thus it makes reality an abstraction and at the same time speaks of it as and present to experience it may be worth while shortly to describe the process gone through by the theory were pure realities one act would be as in science as a thousand all that we can learn at all we could learn at once and there would be no need of but every one feels that in every fact there is much that is accidental and belongs to the particular circumstances of its appearance if every fact were a pure reality then a five legged calf would be a new species this however was never imagined unless by a child or a savage men with very little aid of science come unconsciously to the notion of a ti pe that is a universal form to which phenomena ought but sometimes do not an ideal standard is established � that is the reality of the thing is declared to be outside of it and not attained in any one thing though all aim and tend it � � but each more or less wide of the mark this is the true sense of which is nothing else than the attempt to discover the reality in phenomena but this establishing of a type is nevertheless directly contrary to the with which the theory begins � namely that is equivalent to matter for here a distinction is made between the th and its reality the system common sense nothing of these distinctions to it the world is a and reality a calf with a leg or two more or less does not puzzle the he is used indeed to see with four legs and is thus at first with the novelty but he knows no reason why if it pleased god they should not have twenty legs as well as four and if the birth of a five calf should happen half a dozen times would bo quite reconciled to it and think no more of the matter � that is his are he is content with his immediate experience and his being merely instinctive and not a matter of reflection is readily modified instinctively he makes a distinction between and reality matter and form so that degrees of connection between them and thus different degrees of reality are recognized and acted upon in practice though not in theory as the mind is further developed it becomes by degrees conscious of this distinction and re upon it the of the material world become the object of interest and the question arises whether these laws are invariable the answer is that the law invariably acts but from various the effect does not always follow cf importance is thus given to the law the general form and less to the particular case the subject matter in which the law is manifested thus the distinction before instinctively made is now recognized also matter and law are separate ae form and substance and come together only in the ti in which the law is completely embodied and the body completely obedient to the law this is a great step for here reality is placed in the coincidence of matter and law that is they are declared to be really identical and where they do not completely there must bo here however the theory becomes or rather to adopt s distinction tr ce the notion of type that matter is not equivalent to reality that is that the assumption is mr mill accordingly this notion others as mr philosophy of admit it but the main point is admitted by all since otherwise could not go on but though they hold fast to the new view they do not let go the one a contradiction thus arises reality is outside of matter and yet is identical with it it is therefore both identical and not identical that is it is partly identical material objects them are no ii the system march partly real and j unreal these sides are to be separated the phenomenon is to be split in and the one half retained the other thrown away this is the actual position of tlie theory here however it is to be remarked that the two sides are merely declared so that if we fix a to be reality b must be � but it does not appear by what authority one is preferred to the other that is why b not as well be and a in whatever way we establish it some one else may choose to reverse their relative positions � to declare our cases typical and vice all then must be conventional we cannot affirm any identity between things but only it is necessary therefore to find some principle of between these but as they are of themselves mere there is either no such
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that tell me how to do something useful and good thing that you would like done is it not j something that i would like done much what is it j i began explaining to her that secret history i i had not got far into it when i u from her look that she was thinking in a way of me rather than of what i said it se be so for when i stopped speaking many passed before showed that she was the fact i do you break off she asked then with her i air of being afraid of me because you hate m much to bear to speak to me no no i answered how can you think at i stopped because i yon following what i said perhaps i was not she a can you think yon great head begin let me look at some be now tell in she her upon her stick in the resolute that was habitual to her and looked at fire with a strong expression of forcing herself to ud i went on with my explanation and told her � i had hoped to complete the transaction out of means but how in this i was disappointed that t of the subject i reminded her involved matters ch could no part of my explanation for tliey e the of another so said she with her head but not ting at me and how much money is wanting to the purchase was rather afraid of stating it for it sounded a e sum nine hundred if i give you the money for this purpose will jl p my secret as you have kept your own quite as faithfully and your will be more at rest much more at rest are you very unhappy now she this question still without looking at hut in an unwonted tone of sympathy i could reply at the moment for my voice failed me she her left arm across the head of her stick softly laid her forehead on it i am far from happy but i have ir causes of than any you know of they the secrets i have mentioned after a little she raised wa i it in you to tell mo that causes of is it true too true n i only serve you by serving ng that as done is there nothing i can yon yourself nothing i thank you for the i you even more for the tone of the question is nothing she presently rose from her seat and the room for the of writing were none there and she took from her pocket a set of ivory mounted in wrote upon them with a pencil in a case of gold that hung from her neck you are still on friendly terms with mr quite i dined with him yesterday this ia an authority to him to pay money to lay out at your your friend i keep no money here but if yon rather mr knew nothing of the matter send it to you thank you miss i hare not th objection to receiving it from him she read me what she had written and � direct and clear and evidently intended to from any suspicion of by the receipt money i took the from her hand trembled again and it more as she tn the chain to which the pencil was attached at in mine all this aw i i at i my name is on e ti f j r ite under my name i forgive her ever so after my broken heart ia dust � pray do said i i can do it now have been and my life has been and one and i want t and far too much to be with you she tamed her face to me for the first time e had averted it and to my amazement i may even to my terror dropped on her knees at my feet ill ber folded hands raised to me m the manner in when her poor heart was young and fresh and they must often have been raised to heaven im her mother s side to see her with her white hair and her worn face at my feet gave me a shock through all my me i entreated her to rise and got my arms about r to help her np but she only pressed that hand of ae which was nearest to her grasp and hung her id over it and wept i had never seen her shed a it before and in the hope that the relief might do c good i bent over her without speaking she was t kneeling now hut was down upon the ground she cried what have i ne what have i if you mean what have you done injure me let me very little i should ve loved her under any circumstances � is she yes it was a needless question for a new desolation in desolate house had told me so what have i what i � w v hands and crushed j at expectations returned to this cry over and over again what hi i done i knew not how to answer or how to comfort ll that she had done a grievous thing in taking an child to mould into the form that i i wild resentment affection and wounded pi found vengeance in i knew full well but that shutting out the light of day she had a infinitely more that in seclusion she had i herself from a thousand natural and healing i that her mind brooding solitary had grown i as all minds do and must and will that reverse appointed order of their maker i knew equally t and could i look upon her without compassion her punishment in the ruin she was in her un for this earth on which she was placed the
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baby i ll be through in a when she had washed the dish and out by ic the valley of the moon the sink she took off her kitchen apron came to him and kissed first one eye and then the other how are they now cured t they feel some better already she repeated the treatment still better and now well after he had them well he and informed her that there was still some hurt in the right eye in the course of treating it she cried out as in pain was all alarm what is it what hurt my eyes they re like sixty and became physician for a while and she the patient when the cure was accomplished she led him into the parlor where by the open window they succeeded in occupying the same chair it was the most expensive comfort in the house it had cost seven dollars and a half and though it was than anything she had dreamed of possessing the extravagance of it had worried her in a half way all day the salt chill of the air that is the blessing of all the bay cities after the sun goes down crept in about them they heard the engines in the railroad yards and the thunder of the seventh street local down in its run from the to stop at west station the street came the noise of children playing in the summer night and from the steps of the house next door the low voices of can you beat it murmured when i think of that six dollar furnished room of mine it makes me sick to think what i was all the time but there s one satisfaction if i d changed it sooner i wouldn t a had you you see i didn t know you existed only until a couple of weeks ago by ic the valley op the moon his hand crept along her bare and up and partly under the elbow sleeve your skin s so cool he said it ain t cold it s cool it feels good to the hand pretty soon you be calling me your cold baby she laughed and your voice is cool he went on it gives me the feeling just as your hand does when you rest it on my forehead it s funny i can t explain it but your voice just goes all through me cool and fine it s like a wind of coolness � just right it s like the first of the sea breeze in in the afternoon after a hot morning an sometimes when you talk low it sounds round and sweet like the in the and it never goes high up or sharp or or like some women s voices when they re mad or fresh or excited till they remind me of a bum record why your voice it just goes through me till i m all trembling � like with the cool of it it s � it s straight delicious i guess angels in heaven if they is any must have voices like that after a few minutes in which so was her happiness that she could only pass her hand through his hair and cling to him he broke out again i ll tell you what you remind me of did you ever see a mare all in the sun with hair like satin an skin so thin an tender that the least touch of the whip leaves a mark � all fine nerves an delicate an sensitive that ll kill the when it comes to endurance an that can strain a in a flash or catch death of cold without a blanket for a night i tell you they ain t many sights in this world an they re that fine strung an sensitive an delicate you handle em right side up glass with care well that s what you remind me of and i m goin to make it my job to see you get handled an in the same way you re as from other women as that kind of a mare is from work horse by ic the valley of the moon you re a you re clean cut an spirited an your lines say d ye ow you ve got some figure well you have talk about you can give her cards and she s an you re american only your figure ain t you re you re � i don t know how to explain it other women ain t built like you you belong in some other country you re that s what you re built like a french woman an more than that � the way you walk move stand up or sit down or don t do anything and he who had never been out of or for that matter had never slept a night away from his of was right in his judgment she was a flower of saxon stock a in the exceptional and of hand and foot and bone and grace of flesh and carriage � some throw back across the face of time to the french that had with the sturdy saxon breed and in the way you carry your clothes they belong to you they seem just as much part of you as the cool of your voice and skin they re always all right an couldn t be better an you know a fellow kind of likes to be seen around with a woman like you that wears her clothes like a dream an hear the other fellows say who s bill s new skirt she s a ain t she wouldn t i like to win her though and all that sort of talk and saxon her cheek pressed to his knew that she was paid in full for all her midnight and the hours of drowsy when her head
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of one eye and the use of one arm through the injuries he received at some in the war the other was a sad faced poetical looking man of good birth as i understood who had been by his family on the occasion of his with the cook his name was and his chief peculiarity that he was so regular in his that he could always tell the time of day by the state of that he was in he would cock his head think over his own � the letters and then give you the hour fairly correctly an unusual drink would him however and if you forced the pace in the morning he would and go to bed about tea time with a full conviction that all the had gone mad these two strange were among the craft to whom old had in his own words thrown a rope and long after i had gone to bed i could hear the of their glasses and the tapping of their pipes against the in the room below well when i had finished my empty house i found that there was one villa to let which undoubtedly was far the most suitable for my purpose in the first place it was fairly cheap � forty pounds or fifty with taxes the front looked well it had no garden it stood with the well to do quarter upon the one side and the poorer upon the other finally it was almost at the of four roads one of which was a main of the town altogether if i had ordered a house for my purpose i could hardly have got anything better and i was thrilled with apprehension lest some one should get before me to the agent i hurried round and burst into the the letters office with a which rather startled the clerk inside his replies however were the house was still to let it was not quite the quarter yet but i could enter into possession i must sign an agreement to take it for one year and it was usual to pay a quarter s rent in advance i don t know whether i turned colour a little in advance i said as carelessly as i could it is usual or well that depends of upon the not that it matters much said i heaven forgive me still if it is the same to the firm i may as well pay by the quarter as i shall do afterwards what names did you propose to give he asked my heart gave a bound for i knew that all was right my uncle as you know won his in the and though i have seen nothing of him i knew that he was the man to pull me out of this tight corner there s my uncle sir alexander lis the letters more said i he would be happy to answer any inquiry and so would my friend dr of i brought him down with both barrels i could see it by his eyes and the curve of his back i have no doubt that that will be quite satisfactory said he perhaps you would kindly sign the agreement i did so and drew my hind foot across the the die was cast come what might i was on my hand for a would you like the key now i nearly snatched it out of his hands then away i ran to take possession of my property never shall i forget my feelings my dear when the key in the lock and the door flew open it was my own house � all my very own i shut the door again the noise of the street died down and i had in that empty hall such a sense of soothing privacy as had never come to me before in all my life it was the first time that i had ever stood upon boards which were not paid for by another then i proceeded to go from room to room the letters with a delicious sense of there were two upon the ground floor sixteen feet square each and i saw with satisfaction that the wall papers were in fair condition the front one would make a consulting room the other a waiting room though i did not care to reflect who was most likely to do the waiting i was in the highest spirits and did a step dance in each room as an official then down a winding wooden stair to the where were kitchen and dimly lit and as i entered the latter i stood staring in every corner piles of human jaws were grinning at me the place was a in that half light the effect was but as i approached and picked up one of them the mystery vanished they were of plaster of paris and were the evidently of the who had been the last tenant a more welcome sight was a huge wooden with drawers and a fine cupboard in the corner it only wanted a table and a chair to be a furnished room then i ascended again and went up the first of stairs there were two other good sized o the letters apartments there one should be my bedroom and the other a spare room and then another flight with two more one for the servant when i had one and the other for a guest from the windows i had a view of the gray back of the city with the bustle of green tree tops it was a windy day and the clouds were drifting swiftly across the heavens with glimpses of blue between i don t know how it was but as i stood looking through the panes in the empty rooms a sudden sense of my own individuality and of my responsibility to some higher power came upon me with a � which was
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aware of it each day the sun earlier and set later it was dawn by three � the morning and twilight lingered till nine at night � the whole long day was a blaze of sunshine � ghostly winter silence had given way to the great � spring murmur of awakening life this from all the land with the joy of � living it came from the things that lived and moved again things which had been as dead and which had not moved during the long months of the sap was rising in the pines the � the call of the wild and were bursting out hi young shrubs and vines were putting on fresh of green sang in the nights and in the days all manner of creeping crawling things forth into the sun and were and knocking in the forest were chattering birds singing and overhead the wild fowl driving up from the south in cunning that split the air from every hill slope came the of running water the music of unseen fountains all things were bending snapping the was straining to break loose the ice that bound it down it ate away from beneath the sun ate from above air holes formed sprang and spread apart while thin sections of ice fell through bodily r the f trace trail s the river and amid all bursting of awakening life under the blazing sun md through the soft sighing breezes like o death staggered the two men the woman he with the dogs falling weeping and riding swearing and charles yes wistfully watering they staggered into s camp at the mouth of white when they halted the dogs dropped down as had all been struck dead dried her eyes and looked at john sat down on a log to rest he sat down p ery slowly and what of his great did the talking john was the last touches on an axe handle he hat � � the call of the wild made from a stick of he and listened gave replies and when it was asked advice he knew the breed and he gave his advice in the certainty that it would not be followed they fold us up above that the bottom was dropping out of the trail and that the best thing for us to do was to lay over said in response to s warning to take no more chances on the rotten ice they told us we couldn t make white river and here we are this last with a ring of triumph in it and they told you true john answered the bottom s likely to drop out at any moment only fools with the blind luck of fools could have made it i tell you straight i wouldn t risk my on that ice for all the gold in that s because you re not a fool i suppose said all the same we ll go on to he his whip get up there buck hi get up there on went on it was idle he i knew to get between a fool and his while two or three fools more or less would not alter the scheme of things but the team did not get up at the command it had long since passed into the stage where blows were required to rouse it the whip flashed out here and there on its merciless errands john compressed his lips was the first to crawl to his feet followed joe came next with pain made painful efforts twice he fell over when half up and on the third attempt managed to rise buck made no effort he lay quietly where he had fallen the lash bit into him again and again but he neither nor struggled several times started as though to speak but changed his mind a moisture came into his eyes and as the continued he arose and walked up and down this was the first time buck had failed in itself a sufficient reason to drive into a rage he exchanged the whip for the customary club buck refused to move under the rain of heavier blows which now fell upon him like his mates he was barely the call of able to get up but unlike them he had made up his mind not to get up he had a vague of impending doom this had been strong upon him when he pulled in to the bank and it had not departed from him what of the thin and rotten ice he had felt under his feet all day it seemed that he disaster close at hand out there ahead on the ice where his master was crying to drive him he refused to stir so greatly had he suffered and so far gone was he that the blows did not hurt much and as they continued to fall upon him the spark of life within and went down it was nearly out he felt strangely as though from a great distance he was aware that he was � of pain left him ml � thing though very faintly he could hear the of club upon his but it was no long his body it seemed so far away the toil f and then sudden a cry that was cry of an animal man who the ward as though screamed his watery eyes but his john st control himself too if you strike that at last managed to say it s my dog h from his mouth as he way or i ll fix you i stood between him and buck and evinced no intention of getting out of the way drew his long knife screamed cried � ua ce trail y without warning and more like th n sprang upon th club was hurled back ck by a falling tree looked on wistfully did not get up because o od over buck struggling tc
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the requisite letters in the possible style a variety of fanciful that had heretofore distinguished his work in this kind one day during the era of this happy old peter came to visit his former well said he i am glad to hear such good accounts of you from all quarters and especially from the town clock yonder which speaks in your every hour of the twenty four only get rid altogether of your about the beautiful which i nor nobody else nor yourself to boot could ever understand � only free yourself of that and your success in life is as sure as daylight why if you go on in this way i should even venture to let you doctor this precious old watch of mine though except my daughter i have nothing else so valuable in the world i should hardly dare touch it sir replied in a depressed tone for he weighed down by his old master s presence in time said the latter � in time you will be capable of it the old with the freedom naturally consequent on his former authority went on the artist of the beautiful work which had in hand at the moment together with other matters that were in progress the artist meanwhile could scarcely lift his head there was nothing so to his nature as this man s cold v by contact with which every thing was converted into a dream except the matter of the physical world groaned in spirit and prayed fervently to be delivered from him but what is this cried peter abruptly taking up a dusty bell glass beneath which appeared a mechanical something as delicate and minute as the system of a butterfly s what have we here there is in these little chains and wheels and see with one pinch of my finger and thumb i am going to deliver you from all future peril for heaven s sake screamed springing up with wonderful energy as you would not drive me mad do not touch it the slightest pressure of your finger would ruin me forever young man and is it so said the old looking at him with just enough of penetration to torture s soul with the bitterness of worldly criticism well take your own course but i warn you again that in this small piece of lives your evil spirit shall i him you are my evil spirit answered much excited � you and the hard coarse world the leaden thoughts and the despondency that you fling upon mo are my else should long ago have achieved the task that was created for b from an old p� ter shook his head with the mixture of contempt and indignation which mankind of whom he was partly a representative deem themselves entitled to feel towards all who seek other than the dusty one along the highway he then took bis leave with an uplifted finger and a sneer upon his face that haunted the dreams for many a night afterwards at the time of his old master s visit was on the point of up the task but by this sinister event he was thrown back into the state whence he had been slowly emerging but the innate tendency of his soul had only been fresh vigor during its apparent as the summer advanced he almost totally his business and permitted father time so far as the old was represented by the and watches under his control to stray at random through human life making infinite confusion among the train of bewildered hours he wasted the sunshine as people said in wandering through the woods and fields and along the banks of streams there like a child he found amusement in chasing or watching the motions of water insects there was something truly mysterious in the with which he contemplated these living as they on the breeze or examined the structure of an imperial insect whom he had imprisoned the chase of was an apt emblem of the ideal pursuit in which he had spent so many golden hours but would the idea ever be yielded to his hand like the butterfly that it sweet doubtless were these and congenial to the soul they were the artist of the full of bright which gleamed through his intellectual world as the gleamed through the outward atmosphere and were real to him for the instant without the toil and perplexity and many disappointments of attempting to make them visible to the eye alas that the artist whether in poetry or whatever other material may not content himself with inward enjoyment of the beautiful but must chase the flitting mystery beyond the verge of his ethereal domain and crush its frail being in seizing it with a material grasp felt the impulse to give external reality to his ideas as irresistibly as any of the poets or painters who have arrayed the world in a and fainter beauty imperfectly copied from the richness of their visions the night was now his time for the slow progress of re creating the one idea to which all his intellectual activity referred itself always at the approach of dusk he stole into the town locked himself within his shop and wrought with patient delicacy of touch for many hours sometimes he was startled by the rap of the who when all the world should be asleep had caught the gleam of through the of s shutters daylight to the morbid sensibility of his mind seemed to have an that interfered with his pursuits on cloudy and days therefore he sat with his head upon his hands as it were his sensitive brain in a mist of indefinite for it was a relief to escape from the sharp distinctness with which he was compelled to shape out his thoughts during his nightly toil from one of these fits of he was aroused by from an old the entrance
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were not likely to last through more than two or three of those years oh i expect to live longer than that said tlie idiot i think i m good for at least four years don t you doctor i decline to have anything to say about your case retorted the doctor whose feeling towards the idiot was not affectionate in that event i shall probably live five years said the idiot the doctor s lip curled but he remained silent you ll live put in mr with a chuckle the good die young how did you happen to keep alive all this time then mr asked the idiot i have always tobacco in e for one thing said mr i am surprised put in the idiot that s really a bad habit and i marvel greatly that you should have done it the school master frowned and looked at the idiot over the of his glasses as was his wont when he was intent upon getting explanations done what he asked severely tobacco replied the idiot you just said that one of the things that has kept you lingering in this of tears was that you have always tobacco i never did that and i never shall do it because i deem it a detestable diversion i didn t say anything of the sort retorted mr getting red in the face i never said that i tobacco in any form oh come said the idiot with impatience what s the use of talking that way we all heard what you said and i have no doubt that it came as a shock to every member of this assemblage it certainly was a shock to me because with all my weaknesses and bad habits i think tobacco bad the worst part of it is that you it in every form a man who tobacco only may some time throw off the habit but when one gets to be such a victim to it that he up cigars and and of pipe tobacco it seems to me he is it is not only a bad habit then it to a vice mr was getting you know well enough that i never said the words you attribute to me he said sternly really mr returned the idiot with an shake of his head as if he were to the school master to keep quiet � really pain me by these futile nobody forced you into the confession you made it entirely of your own now i ask you as a man and brother what s the use of saying anything more about it we believe you to be a person of the but when you say a thing before a of listeners one minute and deny it the next we are forced to one of two conclusions neither of which is pleasing we must conclude that either your confession you sacrifice the truth or that the habit to which you have confessed has entirely destroyed your perception of the moral question involved undue use of tobacco has i believe driven men crazy eating has destroyed all regard for truth in one whose word had always been regarded as good as a government bond i presume the undue use of tobacco can accomplish the same sad result by the way did you ever try is ruin said the doctor mr s indignation being so great that he seemed to be unable to find the words he was evidently desirous of at the idiot it is indeed said the idiot i knew a man once who smoked one little of it and while under its influence sat down at his and wrote a story of the supernatural order that was so good that everybody said he must have stolen it from or some other master of the weird and now nobody will have anything to do with him tobacco however in the sane use of it is a good thing i don t know of anything that is more satisfying to the tired man than to lie back on a sofa of an evening and puff clouds of smoke and rings into the air one of the finest dreams i ever had came from smoking i had blown a great mountain of smoke out into the room and it seemed to become real and i climbed to its summit and saw the most beautiful country at my feet � a country in which all men were happy where there were no troubles of any kind where no whim was left where were not and where every man who made more than enough to live on paid the into the common treasury for the use of those who hadn t made quite enough it was a national of the golden it rule and i maintain that if smoking were bad so good even in tlie abstract form of an idea could come out of it that s a very nice thought said the poet like to put that into verse the idea of a people dividing up their of wealth among the less successful is beautiful you can have it said the idiot with a pleased smile i don t write poetry of that kind myself unless i work hard and i ve found that when the poet works hard he produces poems that read hard you are welcome to it another time i was over my cigar after a day of the hardest kind of trouble at the office everything had gone wrong with me and i was blue as i came home here lit a cigar and threw myself down upon my bed and began to puff i felt like a man in a deep pit out of which there was no way of getting i closed my eyes for a second and to all and purposes i lay in that pit and then what did tobacco do for me why it lifted
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they certainly wouldn t be slow to use them if they had any reason for so doing of course they don t know anything yet about this confession unless you ve told them and i don t propose that they shall so long as i don t have to use it as for me i have to think of mv wife and kid and i want to do anything them if ey il this would break her all up and i don t want to do she s been too square and we ve gone through too much together i ve thought it all over and convinced that what i m going to do is for the best we have to separate and i came here to day to tell you that i can t see you any more it can t be can t you see that not even for a little while not even for a day it just can t be i m fond of you and you ve been a brick to pull me out of this but don t you see that it can t be don t you really see how it is she looked at him then at the table for a moment and then out over the buildings of the great city oh ed she reflected sadly i ve been such a fool i don t mean about the confession � i m glad i did that � but just in regard to everything i ve done but you re right ed i ve felt all along that it would have to end this way even the morning i agreed to make the confession but i ve been making myself will you walk into my parlor hope against hope just because from the very first day i saw you out there i thought i wouldn t be able to hold out against you and now you see i haven t ell all right ed let s say good bye love s a sad old thing isn t it and she began to put on her things he helped her wondering over the strange l of circumstances had brought them together and was now them apart i wish i could do something more for you i really do he said i wish i could say something that would make it a little easier for you � for us both � but what would be the use it wouldn t really now would it no she replied he took her to the and down to the and there they stopped for a moment well he began and paused it s not just the way i d like it to be but � well � � he extended his hand � � here s luck and good by then he turned to go she looked up at him ed she said wait aren t don t you want to she put up her lips her eyes seemingly misty with emotion he came back and putting his arm about her drew her lips to his as he did so she clung to him seeming to vent a world of feeling in this their first and last kiss and then turned and left him never stopping to look back and being quickly lost in the immense mass which was by as he turned to go though he observed two separate men with taking the scene from will you walk into my j angles he could scarcely believe his senses as he gazed they stopped their work clapped their together and made for a waiting car before he could really collect his thoughts they were gone � and then as i live he exclaimed she did do this to mc after all or did she and after all my feeling for her � and all her the little and now they have that picture of me kissing her stung by george and by the same girl or by them and after all the other things avoided that s intended to make that confession worthless she did that because she s changed her mind about me or she never did care for me grim thought did she � could she � know do a thing like that he wondered is it she and or just alone who has been following me all this time he turned solemnly and helplessly away now after all his career was in danger his wife had returned and all was seemingly well but if he proceeded with his as he must then what this picture would be produced he would be disgraced or nearly so then what he might charge fraud a picture produce the confession but could he her arms had been about his neck he had put his about her two different men had taken them from different angles could he explain that could he find again was it wise would she testify in his behalf if so what good would it do ould any one in politics at least believe a morally man he doubted it the the contempt no one except his wife and she could not help him here will you walk into my parlor k at heart a nd de he on now clearly convinced that because of this one silly act of kindness all his work of months undone and that r � ever h � e nt e r t h e pr land of his better future � not here at least � that future to which he had forward with so much hope � neither he nor his wife nor child fool fool he exclaimed to himself heavily and then � fool fool why had he been so sympathetic and why so interested but finding no answer and no clear way of escape save in denial and counter charges he made his way slowly on toward that now dreary office where so long he
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home after his day s work and seeing in him a native of the district he addressed himself to him and begged my father to point out the road to my father answered i am going thither thou not do better than follow me so the two on together talking of a lodging for the night my father fearing that no house would be open to a stranger which was the truth they knocked at many but received only threats that the dogs would be turned upon them if they did not hasten away my father said never shall it be in that a stranger was turned away and had to sleep in the streets thou shalt have my son s bed and taking by the hand my father him and forced him into our house thou shalt sleep in my house my father said and shook me out of my sleep saying thy bed is wanted for a stranger and to this day i remember standing in my before my eyes dazed with sleep next day was teaching me and it pleasing him to see in me the making of a good and my father being willing that i should go a good carpenter he did not see in me he took me away with him through into and we struck across the desert descending the hills into the plain of and crossed the after a year s i was admitted into the order of the and was given choice of a trade and it was put forth that i should follow the trade of my father or work amid the fig trees along our but my imagination being stirred by the sight of the among the brook the hills i said let me be one and for fifteen years i led my flock content to see it prosper under my care until one day two wolves scratching where i knew there was a cave an empty one i thought the having been taken by wolves not long before i my spear and went forward at sight of me and my dogs the wolves fled as i expected they would and the that had come to the cave came out and after thanking me for driving off the wolves asked me if i could guide him to a spring of pure water thou rt not far from one i said for the cave he had come to live in was situated in the valley of the s den which is but half a mile from our brook i will go thither with thee this evening but first drink from my water bottle i said for i could see he needed water and i spoke to him of the number of we had lost lately from wild animals but he did not heed me and as soon as he had soothed his tongue with i my water bottle he began to tell me that he had come from the shores of the dead sea and was about to begin to preach the of repentance for the of sins and that we must not indulge in hope of salvation because we have for our father his words seemed to be true words and i pondered on them and along the everybody was asking whether he was the promised christ i walked miles to hear him leaving my flock in another s charge or waited for him to return to his cave and often spent the night watching over him lest a wild beast should break in upon him while he slept i had known none but my brethren nor any city and john had travelled through all and it was from him i learnt that the world was its end and that if man did not repent at once god would raise another race out of the stones by the so needful was the love of man to god and though it had always seemed to me god was than he seemed to be in john s the brook yet his teaching suddenly seemed to be right to me i got from him in and went into the wilderness to read the book of daniel in which he y j h a an read at advice i bade farewell to the brethren and and remember my departure you regretted it and tried to me but i answered you saying that god had called me to preach in my own country that has two coats should give one to the poor for it is the poor that will for us on the last day and carrying john s doctrine further i declared that it were easier for a sword to pass through an eye of a needle than for a rich man to go to heaven which may be true but such judgments should be left to god and carrying it still further i said it was as hard for a rich man to go to heaven as for cow to in a s nest in my teaching i wandered beyond our doctrines and taught that this world is but a mock a shame a disgrace and that naught was of avail but repentance john s t teaching took possession of me but i would not have you think here that i am about to lay my sins at john s door for sin it is for a man to desire that which god has not given and i should have remained an shepherd following my flocks in the hills whereas john did well to come out of his desert and preach that the end of the world was approaching and that men must repent for god willed him to preach these things his teaching was true when he was the teacher but when i became his his teaching became false it turned me from my natural self and into such great of mind that in when my mother came with my
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outside the clearing he could hear them crashing in the as they worked their way up the but as soon as they were within the circle of the tree trunks they moved like ghosts there were white wild with fallen leaves and nuts and twigs lying in the wrinkles of their necks and the folds of their ears fat slow footed she with restless little black only three or four feet high running under their young with their just beginning to show and very proud of them with their hollow anxious faces and trunks like rough bark savage old bull from shoulder to flank with great and cuts of fights and the dirt of their solitary mud dropping from of the their shoulders and there was one with a broken and the marks of the full stroke the terrible drawing scrape of a tiger s claws on his side they were standing head to head or walking to and fro across the ground in couples or rocking and swaying all by themselves � scores and scores of knew that so long as he lay still on neck nothing would happen to him for even in the rush and scramble of a a wild elephant does not reach up with his trunk and drag a man off the neck of a tame elephant and these were not thinking of men that night once they started and put their ears forward when they heard the of a leg iron in the forest but it was s pet elephant her chain snapped short off up the she must have broken her and come straight from s camp and little saw another elephant one that he did not know with deep rope on his back and breast he too must have run away from some camp in the hills about at last there was no sound of any more moving in the forest and rolled out from his station between the trees and went the book into the middle of the crowd and and all the began to talk in their own tongue and to move about still lying down little looked down upon scores and scores of br ad backs and ears and tossing trunks and little rolling eyes he the click of as they crossed other by accident and the dry rustle of trunks together and the of enormous sides and shoulders in the crowd and the incessant and of the great tails then a cloud came over the moon and he sat in black darkness but the quiet steady and pushing and went on just the same he knew that there were all round and that there was no chance of him out of the assembly so he set his teeth and shivered in a at least there was torch light and shouting but here he was all alone in the dark and once a trunk came up and touched him on the knee then an elephant and they all took it up for five or ten terrible seconds the dew from the trees above down like rain on the unseen backs and a dull noise began not very loud at first and little could not tell what it was but it grew and grew and lifted up one fore foot and then of the the other and brought them down on the ground � one two one two as steadily as trip the were stamping altogether now and it sounded like a war drum beaten at the mouth of a cave the dew fell from the trees till there was no more left to fall and the went on and the ground rocked and shivered and little put his hands up to his ears to shut out the sound but it was all one gigantic jar that ran through him � this stamp of hundreds of heavy feet on the raw earth once or twice he could feel and all the others forward a few strides and the would change to the crushing sound of green things being bruised but in a minute or two the boom of feet on hard earth began again a tree was creaking and groaning somewhere near him he put out his arm and felt the bark but moved forward still and he could not tell where he was in the clearing there was no sound from the except once when two or three little together then he heard a and a and the went on it must have lasted fully two hours and little ached in every nerve but he knew by the smell of the night air that the dawn was coming the book the morning broke in one sheet of pale yellow behind the green hills and the stopped with the first ray as though the light had been an order before little had got the ringing out of his head before even he had shifted his position there was not an elephant in sight except and the elephant with the rope and there was neither sign nor rustle nor whisper down the to show where the others had gone little stared again and again the clearing as he remembered it had grown in the night more trees stood in the middle of it but the and the grass at the sides had been rolled back little stared once more now he understood the the had stamped out more room � had stamped the thick grass and cane to the into the into tiny and the into hard earth said little and his eyes were very heavy my lord let us keep by and go to s camp or i shall drop from thy neck the third elephant watched the two go away wheeled round and took his own path he may have belonged to some little native of the king s establishment fifty or sixty or a hundred miles away two hours later as was eating early breakfast his who had
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in a comfortable position on deck to which we could repair in case it should clear up on the way over all of this i faithfully did the chairs had the best possible position behind the deck house and one of my pieces of luggage was left there as a that they belonged to me it looked like rain when the train arrived and we went below for a and a cup of coffee but before the boat left it up somewhat and we sat on deck study a at forty ing the harbor and the interesting company which was to cross with us some twenty english school girls in charge of several severe looking were crossing to paris either for a holiday or as t to renew their studies in a paris school a lot of maidens it would be hard to conceive and yet some of them were not at all bad looking and proper conduct were written all over them their clothing was severely plain and their manners were most none of that vivacity which the average american girl would have been under the circumstances there was no undue and little if any they interested me because i instantly imagined twenty american girls of the same age in their place they would have manifested twenty times the interest and enthusiasm only in england that would have been the height of bad manners as it was these english maidens sat in a quaint row all the way over and disappeared quite into the train at this english steamer crossing the channel to france was a disappointment to me in one way i had heard for some time past that the old uncomfortable channel boats had been with and new put in their place as a matter of fact these boats were not nearly so large as those that run from new york to island nor so though much and brighter if it had rained as anticipated the cabin below would have been and as it was all the passengers were on the upper deck sitting in camp chairs and preparing to be sick it was impossible to conceive that a distance so short not more than twenty three or four miles should be so disagreeable as said it was at times the boat did not pitch to any extent on this trip over en route to paris on my return some three months later i had a experience but now the wind blew fiercely and it was cold the channel was as gray as a rabbit and bleak i did not imagine the sea could be so dull looking and france when it appeared in the distance was equally bleak in appearance as we drew near it was no better � a shore line beset with gas and iron but when we actually reached the dock and i saw a line of sparkling french looking down on the boat from the platform above � england was gone gone all the solemnity and the politeness of the who had brought our luggage aboard gone the quiet civility of ship officers and train men gone the solid of the whole english race it seemed to me on the instant as if the sky had changed and instead of the gray misty pathos of english life � sweet and romantic � had come the lively slap dash of another world these men who looked down on us with their eyes were no more like the english than a is like a great they were black haired lean brown active they had on blue and blue and a kind of military cap there was a touch of scarlet somewhere either in their caps or their i forget which and somewhere near by i saw a french soldier � his scarlet trousers and coat poorly so far as goes with the splendid of the british nevertheless he did not look but raw and as one the soldiers of napoleon should be the of the made up for much and i said at once that i would not give france for fifty million i felt although i did not speak the language as though i had returned to america it is curious how one feels about france or at least a at forty how i feel about it for all of six weeks i had been rejoicing in the charms and the virtues of the english london is a great city � splendid � the intellectual capital of the world and the north represent as a realm as the world holds there is no doubt of that the and sweetness of english country life is not to be surpassed for charm and beauty but france has fifty times the spirit and enthusiasm of england after london and the english country it seems strangely young and vital france is often spoken of as � but i said to myself lord let us get some of this and take it home with us it is such a cheerful thing to have around i would commend it to the english particularly on the way over had been giving me additional instructions i was to stay on board when the boat arrived and signal a who would then come and get my luggage i was to say to him whereupon he would gather up the bundles and lead the way to the dock i was to be sure and get his number for all french were and likely to rob you i did exactly as i was told while went forward to engage a section first class and to see that we secured places in the dining car for the first service then he returned and found me on the dock doing my best to keep track of the various pieces of luggage while the did his best to secure the attention of a customs it was certainly interesting to see the difference between the arrival of this
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