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jokes he wanted to tell he listened to the others he started off with a let s hear about your trip to the he was extremely he found opportunities to remark that dr was a benefactor to humanity and profound scholars charles an inspiration to ambitious youth and mrs an to the social circles of washington new york paris and numbers of other places but he could not stir them it was a dinner without a soul for no reason that was clear to was over them and they spoke laboriously and unwillingly he concentrated on carefully not looking at her lovely shoulder and the silken band which supported her frock suppose be going to europe pretty soon again won t you he invited i d like awfully to run over to rome for a few weeks i suppose you see a lot of pictures and music and and everything there no what i really go for is there s a little on the where you get the best in the world oh i� yes that must be nice to try that yes at a quarter to ten discovered with profound regret that his wife had a headache he said as helped him with his coat we must lunch together some time and talk over the old days when the others had labored out at half past ten turned to his wife pleading said he had a time and we must lunch � said they wanted to have us up to the house for dinner before long she achieved oh it s just been one of those quiet evenings that are often so much more than noisy parties where everybody talks at once and doesn t really settle down to � nice quiet enjoyment � but from his cot on the sleeping porch he heard her weeping slowly without hope iv for a month they watched the social columns and waited for a return dinner invitation as the hosts of sir the were all the week after the dinner ith received sir who had come to america to buy coal the new him on ireland naval the rate of exchange tea drinking drinking the of american women and daily life as lived by english county families sir seemed to have heard of all those topics the gave him a dinner and miss pearl society editor of the advocate times rose to her highest read aloud at breakfast table the original and oriental the strange and delicious food and the both of the distinguished guests the charming hostess and the noted host never has seen a more affair than the dinner dance given last evening by mr and mrs charles to sir as we � fortunate one � were privileged to view that fairy and foreign scene nothing at or the sets of foreign could be more lovely it is not for nothing that is in matters social rapidly becoming known as the inland city in the country though he is too modest to admit it lord gives a to our smart such as it has not received since the ever memorable visit of the earl of not only is he of the british but he is also on a leader of the british metal as he comes from a favorite haunt of robin hood though now we are informed by lord a live modem of inhabitants and important lace as well as other we like to think that perhaps through his veins runs some of the blood both red and blue of that earlier lord o the good the robin the lovely mrs never was more fascinating than last evening in her black net gown relieved by dainty bands of silver and at her exquisite waist a glowing cluster of ward roses said bravely hope they don t invite us to meet this lord sight rather just have a nice quiet little dinner with and the at the club they discussed it amply i s pose well have to call from now on said it beats all get out meditated that man of k w hard it is for some people to get things straight here th r call this fellow lord en it ought to be sir is that a fact i sir eh that s what you call eh well sir i m glad to know that later he informed his it s n a goat the way some folks that just because they happen to lay up a big go entertaining famous foreigners don t have any more idea n a rabbit how to address em so s to make em fed at that evening as he was driving home he passed s and saw sir a large ruddy pop ed englishman whose of yellow gave him an aspect sad and doubtful drove on slowly oppressed by he had a sudden and horrible conviction that the were at him he betrayed his depression by the violence with which he informed his wife that really tend to haven t got the time to waste on a bunch like the this society stuff is like any other if you devote yourself to it you get on but i like to have a chance to visit with you and the children instead of all this chasing round th did not speak of the again it was a shame at this worried time to have to think about the ed was a of who had been a failure he had a large family and a feeble business out in the of he was gray and thin and unimportant he had always been gray and thin and unimportant he was the person whom in any group you forgot to introduce then introduced with extra enthusiasm he had admired s good fellowship in college had admired ever since his power in real estate his beautiful house and wonderful clothes it pleased though it him with a sense of responsibility at the class dinner
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to a therefore which has an air of fable and romance but which is recorded by all the contemporary with trivial variations and which us was in current circulation in the island when he arrived there about six years after the event it too with the adventurous and extravagant character of the man and with the wild and exploits incident to indian warfare in the course of their march having halted near the river one day produced a set of of polished steel so highly that they looked like silver these he assured were royal ornaments which had come from heaven or the of that they were worn by the of on solemn dances and other high and were intended as presents to the he proposed that should go to the river and after which he should be decorated with these ornaments mounted on the horse of and should return in the state of a spanish monarch to astonish his subjects the with that fondness for glittering ornaments common to savages was dazzled with the sight his proud military spirit also was flattered with the idea of of those the principal iron of spain are established in where that is found in abundance life and voyages of tremendous animals so dreaded by his he accompanied and his followers to the river with but attendants nothing from or ten strangers when thus surrounded by his army after the had bathed in the river be was assisted to mount behind and the were then adjusted this done they among the savages who were astonished to behold their in glittering array and mounted on one of those fearful animals made several to gain space followed by his little band of the indians shrinking back with from the at length he made a wide sweep into the forest until the trees shut him from the sight of the army his followers then closed round him and drawing their swords threatened with instant death if he made the least noise or resist ance though indeed bis and effectually prevented the they bound him with to to prevent his falling or an escape then putting spurs to their horses they dashed across the and made off through the woods with their prize they had now fifty or sixty of wilderness to on their way with here and there large indian towns they had borne off their captive by dint of far beyond the pursuit of his subjects but the utmost vigilance was requisite to prevent his escape during this long and journey and to prevent exciting the this romantic of is recorded at large by by his l c bj in his and by in his history of st peter martyr and others have given it more alluding to bat not its romantic details f of any they had to avoid uie parts of the country therefore or to pass through the indian towns on the gallop they suffered greatly from fatigue hunger and many pe and swimming the numerous rivers of tlie plains toiling through the deep tangled forests and over the high and rocky mountains they accomplished all in safety and entered in triumph from this most and characteristic enterprise with his wild indian warrior bound behind him a captive could not refrain from expressing his great satisfaction when this dangerous foe was delivered into his hands the haughty met him with an air lofty and to him by submission or to his vengeance for the blood which he had shed of white men he never bowed his spirit to on the contrary though completely at the mercy of the he displayed that defiance which is a part of indian heroism and the savage towards his even amidst the agonies of the and the stake he his achievement in surprising and burning the fortress of and its garrison and declared that he had secretly with an intention of upon it the same desolation though struck with the wild heroism of this considered him a dangerous enemy whom for the peace of the island it was necessary carefully to guard he determined to send him to spain in the meantime he ordered that he should be treated with kindness and respect and lodged him in a part of his own dwelling house where however he kept him a close prisoner in chains pro cap do and voyages of in the splendid which had him this precaution most have been necessary from the of his prison for that the admiral s house not being spacious nor having many chambers the captive could be seen by by from the always maintained a haughty towards while he never evinced the least for the to which he had fallen a victim it rather increased his admiration of him as a con warrior looking upon it as the of a master spirit to have upon him and borne him off in this hawk like manner from the very midst of his fighting men there is nothing that an indian more in w than a deep well executed was accustomed to bear himself with an air of dignity and authority as admiral and and great personal respect when he entered the apartment therefore where was confined all present rose according to custom and paid him reverence the alone neither moved nor took any notice of him on the contrary when entered though small in person and of no state immediately rose and saluted him with profound respect on being asked the reason o this being or great chief over all and but one of his subjects the proud replied that the admiral had never dared to come personally to his an seize him it was only through the of he was his prisoner to therefore he owed reverence not to the ind l c t sup k � � s the of was felt by his subjects for the natives of this island seem generally to have been extremely loyal and
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he appealed to the doctors they laughed at him if he consulted the attendants they turned away with a grin if he hoped to obtain sympathy from the the fitful gleam of intelligence turned into the animal laughter that was hideous i shall go mad said the wretched man to himself unless i hold my peace i will be dumb it is my only safety there were regular visiting days at this particular establishment the proprietor of it did not dare to run counter to public opinion and he was artful enough to encourage these visits of inspection in order to show how admirable and was his system the were driven mad in private and in public they were literally upon and frank was saved by a miracle in his darkest hour of distress he had lost hope in everything but prayer for help prayer for prayer that he might be rescued in order to protect the helpless he was sitting in his room tortured with the sense that his reason would soon be lost to him when he remembered by fm pa te p that this was the day when visitors ere admitted he had prayed until his brow with agony his experience of the curious visitors so far had not been very encouraging whenever he attempted to get into conversation with any of them or to pass a letter into their hands he was greeted with a smile or one of those mocking laughs fellow they whispered how dreadfully mad he is if not they shrank from him as if he had been a wild beast the great iron bell at the asylum gates there were voices in the hall frank listened and listened again it was an english voice talking to an american where had he heard that voice before they were coming upstairs the voices indistinct before became louder and louder yes he knew both their voices they were perfectly familiar to him my god is it possible can it be true are my unworthy prayers answered at last the door of the room opened and before the imprisoned man stood lord and the very american who had been consulted when frank arrived from england here was an unexpected discovery it was a miracle of miracles there had been no search for the missing man there was no hue and cry lord like most englishmen of an inquiring turn of mind wanted to see the sights by of new york in order to record his impressions when he returned home he had employed the services of one of the in the city to show him round and by a miracle he had discovered and probably saved the life and reason of his old friend in an instant the officer of police understood and grasped the situation once given the and difficulties melt into thin air it took very little time to procure an order for the release of the unfortunate englishman and before the medical proprietor of the fashionable was safely lodged in a new york prison and available for evidence on the subject of mrs and more important still the safety and whereabouts of the unfortunate child at one time it appeared as if the troubles of frank would end in an manner the drama was becoming a tragedy he was released it is true he was safe once more the discovery of his child was now more than probable the discomfiture of his enemy mrs was nearly complete but the reaction after all this mental and physical strain nearly cost frank his life the strongest men break down at a given point and now it was frank s turn to once outside the asylum he appeared to be more insane than when he was in it he wanted by thk op to face his enemy and swore he would kill he pleaded to new york for the boy he rushed off to the telegraph office to inform the wretched mother that he was true and she might yet hope but the strain was too much for even his strong constitution and when he had placed in the hands of the every of information he possessed and had almost been urged to leave the work of discovery to the hands of others he went back reluctantly to his hotel half hysterical with excitement but utterly dead beat lord found his friend next morning raging in the delirium of fever at one time he cried for and kissed the pillow where he believed she had rested in another instant he was twisting the into a knot and imagined he was de in the intervals he was sobbing as if his heart would break my boy my boy no woman could have tended a sick man with greater devotion than did lord night and day he never left his friend except to receive reports from the head office of the who once more proved themselves the finest officers in connection with any police service in the world by constant care and devoted nursing the crisis was past reluctantly the doctors gave the permission for a move to be made and on a certain bright morning lord with by scott the aid of an invalid carriage took his worn and wasted friend down to the where he had secured for england on board one of the of a prominent line the journey to the sea seemed to revive the patient as yet he had not been allowed to see any friends save or to ask any questions but the mists gradually disappeared from his eyes and a smile of happiness played on his wan features god bless you old boy he said to as they drove slowly to the ship god reward you never did man find a truer friend i should have been under the turf old man if it had not been for your tender care was anxious not to excite his friend too much for
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described and parade is the area fixed upon for the two brass is � one native and the other german � to play alternate to the distinguished visitors says the at present in mr s receiving its finishing touches from his imaginative but shortly to be in print through the � l and breadth as he has been heard to say the new and the old worlds there will the ling strains of the latest music charm away what of disease the healing waters of our well may have failed to there forget its pangs and consumption its but too customary cough age � age � there renew its youth in the contemplation of the g and the lovely and the domestic affections be ed by the spectacle of full of the high bom children ive decline from motives of delicacy as well as on of the laws relating to to quote merely remark that the whole document is in the same lofty style of glowing eloquence believe although we have no authority to make that if any nobleman in want of a le of thousand pounds would come down at once ur well and be cured of any physical that the money would not be wanting to in other respects the quarter of that sum might aid perhaps even for a bond s � i � ff ta es t second t our well publicly made of � that it did his good but he had better make haste about it for the season of is positively to commence next spring in the meantime a beginning � humble enough it is true but still a beginning � has been made a list for building purposes is at this moment going the round of the parish headed with quite a sum by farmer there are certain miserable who hint that such generosity is not altogether unreasonable since the will be made upon his land a pony is also already conveying over the district in a peculiarly shaped cart the water from our well for sale the two per of it as mr for his private drinking but as the contend for his bed thus far then things have at present towards making famous and in of our well but as impartial we feel it right before concluding our to give mrs s account of the matter who has lived in the parish rather over eighty years and is therefore entitled to be heard upon all local topics she is a little hard of hearing � hard too of conviction and even obstinate as a mule says farmer � and perhaps inclined to cling to ancient legend rather than to modem discoveries but she has her senses about her nevertheless and when she an opinion has r i ss r our well delivering it the following are mrs s very own words well says she tell i about your wells for it s all a pack of nonsense a nasty taste has it ah it s to be nasty d wont know s was a coming years ago with a load of salt and dropped down dead there that eh did and they buried him salt and all in s well nasty why o it s nasty well it may be and salt be at the bottom o it that s why and that according to its oldest is how we make wells at � t come in the evening to come in the evening reader if thou art wealthy or agreeable l � the common thou hast never known thou never know the misery which forms the subject of this touching narrative if thou hast a country house with but so much as one spare room in it or a villa residence by the sea or a cottage om e by the banks of thames so evil a thing can never happen to thee as to be asked to come in the evening no man � nay not even woman would dare to do it or if thou art related to any peer if even he be irish yea if thou art but first cousin to a so that thy host may say in well selected pause at table and how was sir charles when you last saw him this humiliation can ne er be thine or if thou hast a gift for wit and how to lift the talk that hangs and flags sometimes even at a rich man s board thou art saved and spared nevertheless o favoured of fortune it is for thee i write these words list list o list to the complaint of one that is less happy in his social circumstances who is poor who is dull whose name is mr thomas jones � pure and simple jones if hast tears for a wrong that never ie i to come in the evening prepare to shed them now it has doubtless often happened to thee that after at a friend s and filling thy sleek skin with pleasant and generous drinks thou hast wondered upon joining the ladies in the drawing room to see me sitting among them entering the apartment like a conquering with that careless freedom which can only result from having well dined with thy lips yet parted with the smile by the last among thy male companions thou hast i say often started upon beholding mt thou hast said to i have drunk much but i have not drunk too much there were but four of us men at table yonder but lo i behold a fifth steady brain steady and do not let us commit ourselves it may be a bom of that too delicious or it may not let us see whether anybody speaks to it for if not i will sit down upon the very spot it seems to occupy as recommended by dr in his anecdotes of many and many a time have i watched these
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mere in its way and yet here it had risen up this miserable insignificant check and become a mountain of opposition a stone wall a prison wall his further progress it was astonishing he looked around him at the court room how large and bare and cold it was still he was frank a why should he let such queer thoughts disturb him his fight for freedom and privilege and was not over yet good heavens it had only begun in five days he would be out again on would take an appeal he would be out and he would have two long months in which to make an the fight he was not down yet he would win lis liberty this jury was all wrong a higher court say so it would reverse their verdict and he it he to where the latter was the clerk the jury in the hope that some one had been over persuaded made to vote against lis will is that your verdict he heard the clerk ask of philip no i it is replied that worthy solemnly is that your verdict the clerk was pointing to yes sir is that your verdict he pointed to yes so it went through the whole jury all the men answered firmly and clearly though thought it might barely be possible that one would have changed his mind the judge thanked them and told them that in view of their long services this night they were dismissed for the term the only thing remaining to be done now was for to persuade judge to grant a stay of sentence the hearing of a motion by the state supreme court for a new trial judge looked at very curiously as asked that the sentence be stayed until a motion for a new trial could be entertained by the supreme court and owing to the importance of the case and the feeling he had that � the supreme court might very readily grant a of reasonable doubt in this case he agreed there was nothing left therefore but for to return at this late hour with the to the county jail where he must now remain for five days at the least � possibly longer the jail in question which was known as the prison was at tenth and re streets and from an and artistic point o view was not so to the eye it consisted of a central portion � prison residence for the or you will � three stories high with a and a round tower about one third as high as the central portion itself and two wings each two stories high with at either end giving it a highly and consequently from the american point of view a very prison like appearance the of the prison which was not more than thirty five feet high for the central portion nor more than twenty five feet for the wings was set back at least a hundred feet from the street and was continued at either end from the wings to the end of the street block by a stone wall all of twenty feet high the structure was not severely prison like for the central portion was pierced by rather large hung on the two upper stories with curtains and giving the whole front a rather pleasant and air the wing to the right as one stood looking in from the street was the section known as the county jail proper and was devoted to the care of prisoners serving out sentences on some order the wing to the left was devoted exclusively to the care and control of prisoners the whole building was built of a smooth light colored stone which on a snowy night like this with the few lamps that were used in it glowing feebly in the dark gave it an fantastic almost supernatural appearance it was not in the least it was a rough and night when started for this institution imder ess the wind had sprung up driving the snow before it in curious interesting the s on guard at the court of quarter who accompanied and his father and to the jail was a the little man dark with a short and a shrewd though not highly intelligent eye who was anxious to his dignity as a which was a important position in his estimation and next to turn an honest penny if he could he knew little save the details of his small world which consisted of accompanying prisoners to and from the courts and the md seeing that they did not get away he was not to a particular type of prisoner � the well to do r prosperous � for he had long since learned that it paid to be so to night he offered a few suggestions � that it was rather rough that the jail was not so far but that they could walk and that would in all be or could be aroused scarcely heard he was thinking of his mother and his wife and of when the jail was reached was led to the door of the central portion as it was here that the had his private office had recently been elected to office and was inclined to to all the outer appearances in so far as the proper conduct of his was concerned without in reality inwardly thus it was generally known among the that one way he had of his rather lean salary was to rent private rooms and grant special privileges to prisoners who had the money to pay for the same other had done it before him in fact when was into office several prisoners were enjoying these privileges and it was not a part of his scheme of things to disturb them the rooms that he let to the right parties as he invariably put it were in the central portion of the jail where
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only as the future bearer of hia children woe to her if she has not chosen a whose heart is swelled with aspirations that the in whose soul there not a tight pure enough and bright enough to in such a moment as that the lurid flames of desire i it is one of the most beautiful and beneficent arrangements which mark the divine economy that an institution � a physical incident of which is the of the race � should in its higher and nobler be the means of calling forth all that is best and purest in the inner nature of man love in the of that much word � love that man s innate selfishness and teaches the great lesson that the best happiness js to be found in cares for another not in thoughts for himself love that is he indeed by the warmth of earthly emotions but � has an existence above and apart from these to remain when age has passion � to endure beyond the term of our present stage of existence in that higher phase of wedded life which has its origin in sentiments and aspirations such as these not in the results of our nature s lower instincts will a cultivated mind in best moments recognize the divine end of marriage if some day released from the daily round and whirl of politics you give to your better instincts in quiet fair scope and free voice i think they will teach you this meanwhile we are here at issue you have one conception of the divine end of marriage i another if be the correct idea then it may be that nothing except that � which casts doubt on the of should he � i cause for the dissolution of marriage if on the i liave more justly interpreted the higher purposes of that institution then whatever these the divine end of and supplies cause why the relation in its true intent should be is a sound principle in that with the termination of the cause for a law the law also should cease i do merely say in cases where the purposes for god ordained marriage are its defeated and its inmost by evil passions that the relation thus outraged may not cease i say that for the sake of virtue and for the good of mankind in all such cases it o to cease household strife is domestic hatred is heartless is treatment of the weak tlie strong is terrible and that condition of from a noble purpose which evils such as these has become itself and demands in its per should a life of marriage and divorce his laws will fail of their effect in making his demands then ha should have special reference to the powers likely to be at the disposal of those of whom these demands are made it nothing to sa j that a thing ought to be if as a general rule it cannot be but of all the most � even when mature thought has brought wisdom and when age has conferred experience � is the decision whether a being loved now is the one of all others morally physically to whom in a true home we can permanent happiness and from whom we are capable of receiving it mortal eyes even the wisest never fully penetrate the veil there may be that beyond which no foresight could anticipate and if such be the with wisdom and experience to guide what shall we expect from faith just entering a false world serenely ignorant of its an utter stranger to its will its goodness be its protection the reverse in such a trial it is the noblest who are the most exposed the better the nature the more imminent the danger it the cold the heartless the calculating have fair chance of escape it is the warm the trusting the generous who are the usual what belief so blind as that of first pure young affection what so easily cheated as a fresh and faithful and innocent heart and by what right according to what principle i pray you do we decide that there is one mistake that is never to be corrected one error the most fatal of all wliich once committed we shall never be permitted to repair a life long penalty you would inflict and for what offence say that an honest mistake were a crime say that a error were a career of shame even then the sentiment would be not christian an eye for an eye a tooth for a tooth was the rule addressed to the hard heart s nowhere in all christ s will you find the like the sin of your brother seven times you would not forgive yet as a christian you ought to forgive it even to seventy times seventy the to the father s house you would bar against the returning his you would e to him waa the sin the shame his he the life long penalty no rejoicing that he was dead and is alive again no weeping joy that he was lost and i� found let us and stand ce to face with the realities of life the time may come when men and women the of the affections opened shall distinguish and choose their own appropriate mates i have heard argue that it will and that there is a future before mankind even on earth in which separation and will be unknown terms god send it but meanwhile it is with the present and its errors and its and its sufferings and its temptations to sin that we have to deal v le e we fail to cure it is our duty to if � we cannot all the married virtuous and happy let ua do what we can by humane laws of to relieve from situations and thus to domestic misery and arrest vice i thank you
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at the roadside brought to his mind the necessity of the occasion ride in and see he said it s got to be done and it s no work for him when he reached the cross roads there were already two or three early lounging on the store porch and wondering why the doors were not opened the first man who saw him opened upon him the usual course of look a tom he this ain t a to do you a up fore daybreak like the rest of us folks and off knows it ain t a to do now air ye from but as he rode up and dismounted at the porch each fc in connection with the de claim saw that something unusual had happened he tied his horse and came up the steps in silence boys he said when he stood among them i want i ve been out to the hollow and there s a job for him there the � the woman s dead dead they echoed drawing nearer to him in their excitement when tom last night s out there there s a child thunder n ejaculated the only family man of the group thunder v and then he began to edge away still with a air towards his mule boys he explained there d ought to be some women folks around i m for and she ll start the rest on em women folks is what s needed they kin kinder things s trouble well said tom perhaps you re right but don t send too many of em and let your wife tell em to talk as little as possible and leave the man alone he s got enough to stand up under before the day was over there were women enough in the cabin half a dozen faded black riding skirts hung over the of half a dozen horses in the wood round the house while inside half a dozen excellent souls disposed themselves in sympathetic couples about the two rooms three sat in the front room their drawn well down over their faces in the true s spirit one at the head of the bed slowly moving a fan to and fro over the handkerchief covered face upon the pillow a dead silence the place except when it was broken by occasional brief remarks made in a whisper i in connection with the de claim she was a mighty young they said a sight younger than her man what s the child that s a pity ain t much chance of bein raised right they re left t they any folks neither on em nobody don t know nobody t about em they kinder s about to themselves if either on em had any folks � even if they only sort o kin � they might take the they will seems to reason they must have some kin � even if they ain t nigh then the silence reigned again and the woman at the bed s head gave her attention to the slow regular motion of her palm leaf fan in the room beyond a small fire burned in spite of the warmth of the day and divers small tin cups and before and upon the of it aunt varying her other duties by moving them a shade nearer to the heat or farther from it and stirring and at intervals upon a low rocking chair before the hearth sat the wife of the family man before referred to she was a tall creature the mother of fifteen in their number three sets of she held her snuff stick between her teeth and the child on her lap with an easy professional air i t never had to raise none o mine by hand since martin she remarked i ve been mighty glad on it for he was a sight o trouble kinder and in connection with the de claim weakly never done no good till we got him off the bottle he d one cow s milk too all the time i was powerful bout that i d never have raised him if i hadn t bin n to this day martin t what and is dis ain t to be no trouble to nobody put in aunt she s a powerful good to begin with n she s a that s to she t done no no consequence n a starts out way it speaks well for her if had de o wouldn t be no trouble t all der milk well n d down right n a like ain t to have no my young d bought me from i ve raised three o an i m used to it right and d it down right s a heap in de d dis bottle s ready now mis ef ye want it if s the very bottle i raised martin on said mrs it brings back times to see it she takes it well don t she how f she looks for a little thing later in the day there arose the question of how she should be disposed of for the night and it was in the midst of this discussion that tom de entered ain t but one room i s pose he ll sleep in that said mrs n the lord knows he don t look the kind o io know what to do with a we t none o us seen him since this i guess he s kinder round does any of you know he is we might ax what he to do tom bent down over the child as it lay in the woman s lap no one could see his face in connection with the de claim i know what he s going to do he said he s going away to morrow after the funeral n take the child in a chorus no said tom to be
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be thought of at this time in reference to her condition the young man started so suddenly at this that he his aching limb and uttered a cry of pain you ought to know he complained his face con love gone astray with suffering from a double cause that such a warning is unnecessary not only to day but never if there is any way to prevent it shall i allude in the most remote degree to any peculiarity in that matter i trust though my present position may lead you to doubt it that i have still in my veins the blood of a gentleman the made haste to the disagreeable effect of his suggestion and when he had succeeded in so doing he went to write the note to mrs gray informing her of the reason why she must come to his office instead of to the parlor of the hotel which had formerly been for the meeting he smiled gravely as he began the with the words my dear mrs g i regret to inform you that your husband has met with a slight accident when he had placed the letter in an envelope he did not write any address on the outside but gave it to his most faithful assistant with orders to put it into no hands but those of colonel s daughter at the hour came to the office and was escorted into gray s presence mr remained only long enough to make his and then with a smile left them together it took but a glance to show mr gray the beauty of the young girl he had promised to take foi his wife even the terrible suffering she had under gone could not blot out the loveliness of her features which must have been handsome short months before her form was rounded show husband and wife ing an earlier than usual development and she dressed with a quiet taste that spoke volumes for her judgment in such matters her eyes and were dark these observations were the easier made because the girl kept her gaze to the carpet for some seconds after she entered the room but before she spoke one opinion that had formed itself unconsciously in his mind there was nothing in her of the he had supposed if she was pale she was not weak her veins were full of rich blood that only the strangeness of the occasion had driven from her cheeks and still she seemed withal the of modesty and he could not understand no not in the least how it could be true what he had heard of her and there was nothing yet to testify at least to his inexperienced eyes the cause of her presence in that chamber it was she who first broke the silence i am sorry you have been hurt she said in a low but rich voice you are kind to say so he answered and his own tones sounded strange to him as if they were another s a horse with mine as i was riding this morning the doctor says i shall be out in a week then he paused having reached the end of all he wanted to say on that point he realized now with eyes averted that she was studying him as intently as he had been studying her she had as much reason perhaps when a girl is to live with a man for love gone astray the rest of her days it is important to know what he is like saw that her future lord was not ugly in appearance and that his bearing was agreeable though naturally somewhat strained at this time with a thought to the opinion of the world which she had begun a little late to care for she decided that he would satisfy as a suitable mate for her i am glad it is no worse she said when the silence became painful she looked about the room the pictures while he stole another searching glance at her features how he asked himself again could such a girl as that be won to it was inconceivable she who could hardly muster courage to talk there with him in a closed room while he lay helpless on a sofa this reflection was in his countenance when turning suddenly to speak again she saw it there and paused with a crimson cheek oh this is too hard she exclaimed bursting into sobs yes it is too hard for both of us i did not think you would mind not in the same way i do i did not realize what it must mean to you much distressed gray raised himself on an elbow and her to be calm all the chivalry in his nature was aroused he pitied the girl from the bottom of his heart her unexpected flood of raised her immensely in his estimation everything is arranged now everything is understood he answered soothingly mr has husband and wife procured the of of our marriage let me beg you not to repeat these she arose and threw herself on the floor by the side of the sofa laying her head on his bosom while she wept softly he was distressed as much by this move as the former one but he had not the heart to forbid it at least it led in the direction they would ultimately have to take listen he said when she had grown a little we must understand everything exactly alike let us see if we agree on all points for as we have one story to tell there must be no miss i mean mrs gray take your chair again and let us see if there is anything in which we differ the girl rose and took the seat fixing her gaze on a figure in the carpet and answering with that like accuracy which often of mind it was the
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shock but such was memory that though he stood there openly and a converted man who was for his past a fear overcame her her movement so that she neither retreated nor advanced to think of what from that countenance when she saw it last and to behold it now there was the same handsome of mien but now he wore neatly trimmed old fashioned whiskers the moustache having disappeared and his dress was half a which had changed his expression to abstract the from his features and to hinder for a second her belief in his identity to s sense there was just at first a ghastly a grim in the march of these solemn words of scripture out of such a mouth this too familiar less than four years earlier had brought to her ears expressions of such that her heart became quite sick at the irony of the contrast it was less a reform than a the op the d former curves of were now to lines of passion the lip shapes that had meant were now made to express the glow on the cheek that could be translated as was to day into the splendour of pious had become the bold rolling eye that had flashed upon her form in the old time with such mastery now beamed with the rude energy of a that was almost ferocious those which his face had used to put on when his wishes were now did duty in the who would insist upon turning again to his in the mire the as such seemed to complain they had been diverted from their hereditary to signify impressions for which nature did not intend them strange that their very elevation was a that to raise seemed to yet could it be so she would admit the sentiment no longer d was not the first wicked man who had turned away from his wickedness to save his soul alive and why should she deem it unnatural in him it was but the usage of thought which had been in her at hearing good new words in bad old notes the greater the sinner the greater the saint it was not necessary to far into christian history to discover that such impressions as these moved her vaguely and without strict as soon as the pause of her surprise would allow her to stir her impulse was to pass on out of his sight he had obviously not discerned her yet in her position against the but the moment that she moved again he recognized her the effect upon her old lover was electric far stronger than the effect of his presence upon her his fire the tumultuous ring of his eloquence seemed to go out of him his up struggled and trembled the the convert words that lay upon it but deliver them it could not as long as she faced him his eyes after their first glance upon her face hung in every other direction but hers but came back in a desperate leap every few seconds this lasted however but a short time for s energies returned with the of his and she walked as fast as she was able past the bam and onward as soon as she could reflect it appalled her this change in their relative he who had wrought her was now on the side of the spirit while she remained and as in the legend it had resulted that her c image had suddenly appeared upon his altar whereby the fire of the priest had been well nigh extinguished she went on without turning her head her back seemed to be endowed with a to is � even her clothing � so alive was she to a fancied gaze which might be resting upon her from the outside of that bam all the way along to this point her heart had been heavy with an sorrow now there was a change in the quality of its trouble that hunger for affection too long withheld was for the time by an almost physical sense of an past which still her it her consciousness of error to a practical despair the break of between her earlier and present existence which she had hoped for had not after all taken place never be complete till she was a herself thus absorbed she the northern part of long ash lane at right angles and presently saw before her the road ascending to the along margin the remainder of her journey lay its dry pale surface stretched severely onward by a single figure vehicle or mark save some occasional brown horse which dotted its cold here and there e slowly this ascent became conscious of footsteps behind her op the d and turning she saw approaching that well known form � so strangely as the � the one personage in all the world she wished not to encounter alone on this side of the grave there was not much time however for thought or and she yielded as calmly as she could to the necessity of letting him overtake her she saw that he was excited less by the speed of his walk than by the feelings within him he said she speed without looking round he repeated it is i � d she then looked back at him and he came up i see it is she answered coldly well � is that all yet i deserve no more of course he added with a slight laugh there is something of the ridiculous to your eyes in seeing me like this but � i must put up with that i heard you had gone away nobody knew where you wonder why i have followed you i do rather and i would that you had not with all my heart yes � you may well say it he returned grimly as they moved onward together she with unwilling tread but don
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t know that that would be particularly cheerful for you you are not in consumption nor at hy si n of home all likely to be there is a little place not very far from nice that i think will suit you to perfection it ib bright without being glaring quiet without being dull there ie a nice colony of english and a very good english doctor i know him intimately he would look after you and see that yon had everything comfortable and that you were taken care of the place ia called at this point nurse gave vent to a of satisfaction i was hoping that yon would bay sir she in her bright and capable way ah it ib not the first patient of mine that you have taken to nurse not the first by a good many i think would suit mrs oe weu as any place i know and would be good for the baby then too it would enable that dusky lady in the next room to winter in europe i suppose you have no wish to get rid of your oh dear no i should be lost indeed without her i cried with quite a rush of energy he asked me a good many questions � questions about my husband about my life my father and mother it was as if he were trying to not my present state of health but my constitution � what one might call my hereditary well if captain comes home it will be quite easy for him to join you at and would indeed give him a little more time with you if he had to come all the way to england and it would be very good for him too it is a very good climate a climate i don t think that my husband needs anything of that kind i said with a laugh he has never had a day s illness in his life in fact i do not think he the strange of knows what ill health is one place ia very much the same to him as another except put in nurse smiling except that he has a preference for the place where madam ia ah yea i returned with a quick sigh but then that is natural very natural said sir holding out a kind white hand well now do you stay in london a fortnight let me see the effect of my treatment upon you and then do yon get away to and settle yourself there in a nice comfortable little hotel which i will recommend to you the hotel where i send all my we shall soon see if you are not as strong and well as if you had never been in india or had an illness in your life as we drove away down street nurse turned and put a question to me now mrs she said what do yon think of sir oh i think he is quite delightful nurse too charming he is nice she said half proudly indeed i always feel when i take a patient to sir for the first time that i am not only taking them to a great doctor i am introducing them to a great pleasure there is nobody quite like him yon may be a or you may be a charity patient sir s manner is always just the same he takes no more trouble with a than he does with the poor soul who cannot pay even a single fee his kindness is endless his charity unlimited bis good heart � oh what a heart it is i don t know she went on that i ever knew any human being for whom i have such a boundless respect as i have for sir and i was so hoping that he ht first impression of home would bend yon to ia a dear little place all among orange groves and trees and set on the side of a hill which slopes down to the blue waters of the the air is bright and crisp and the life delightfully free and simple indeed i think there is not such another place in all the wide world you have been more than once i several many people go there year after year and those who once get bitten with the love of it always seem to pine for it again it is a little half village half town and quite by what makes most of the big places on the so it is quite simple and primitive quite and yet e said with a smile a fashion of its own q l xii a whole week had gone by since my first interview with sir i was already greatly improved in health and my dislike of london was beginning to wear away nurse and i to leave and baby in the hotel to keep as warm as they by the blazing fire and go off on various errands of business or of pleasure i liked and when i had been to a good fur shop and had bought myself a warm coat i felt quite ready for any kind of climate in which i might happen to find myself i had instructions to go to sir every third day and every day i had a very special kind of bath which took two hours of the morning while in the i did my tor naturally i did not see being in london without taking the chance of some new and pretty cloth s got through a good deal of money but i enjoyed myself as much as it was possible for me to enjoy anything which was not shared by my i had a letter from him during that visit to london written poor dear very soon after our departure and full of regret and anxiety i felt rather like a fraud to think that he was worrying and
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the fashionable societies were discussed at length but no allusion was made to the kind of entertainment given by such clubs as the well known gentlemen had no doubt the had seen that identical thing in his time but it was not the subject for discussion between a man and the father of one who might some day be his wife for the young new still considered miss as among the possibilities that the future had in store for him and miss i hope she is as well as usual he inquired when a chance came to make the allusion not quite responded the the exhibition at the opera house was a little too much for her i fear she has not been used of late to being out much at night it is nothing serious i si miss giddy he added perceiving the blank look of his companion nothing to cause any alarm simply a little weariness a mere warning to us to see that such an occurrence does not happen too frequently after a talk on this matter which lasted five or ten minutes came to inquire what time his employer would dine the said to that he took his meals at a in another part of the city and while it was undoubtedly inconvenient he would be obliged to ask him to accompany him there learning that the hour was of no consequence to his guest the told his to send word to miss may when returned he said miss would be ready for the carriage at half past seven it was in fact rather earlier when the s daughter made her appearance equipped for her ride she bowed sweetly to mr and took the hand which he held out to her but she addressed most of her conversation to her father as became a modest maiden and only spoke to the other gentleman after her first greeting when he made a remark which rendered a reply necessary the dinner was a very good one a fact which noticed even with all the other things that he had on his mind he had been dining mostly at another and experienced a tinge of regret that he had not been to this place instead when the meal was finished the said he was sorry to announce that he had an engagement which would his going away for an hour or so would mr kindly escort miss may to the hotel and await his return in the carriage there were temptations but the a of a fi young man them all he could have reached across to the other seat and taken a little hand in his that lay so in her lap he could have said some very things about her appearance for in spite of her was wonderfully beautiful that evening instead he spoke of the weather and of the city and of the new house that she was so soon to occupy in new york and she answered him as if they were the merest acquaintances and as if mr david had not said to both of them that they would make the greatest mistake in their lives if either married any one else once in the private parlor the occupied at the royal they were again alone the young man found as has many another before him that it was exceedingly difficult to talk for an hour with a pretty girl and not say anything he fell into compliments that he would fain have avoided expressed a greater solicitude for her health than any one but a brother or a lover would have been justified in showing evinced an interest in her likes and in her plans so far as she had any and in herself generally which would have another woman into supposing that he intended to ask her to name the day before he left the room nevertheless he did not quite commit himself had an almost irrepressible desire to say a number of things that he knew it would be sheer folly to utter what would be the use for instance in confiding to this creature in thought as she was in act that he feared himself morally unfit to mate with one so pure and good and that was exactly what he wanted her to know miss giddy he wanted her to realize that he was far from ideal of what a man ought to be and see whether with this information to influence her she would still act as she had done toward him was in a he wanted to know these things and yet he did not want her to know them he wished to ascertain what she would do if she suspected the guilty things he had done to see what she would say in case she ever found them out as he had told the he believed marriage would not cure him of his bad habits he had no confidence that he had enough to conceal everything from a wife what would this girl do if he into her room at six in the morning fresh from a gay party including perhaps people of both sexes when returned the attitude in which the young people were found to him that nothing special had passed between ascertained that mr intended to remain two or three days more in the city and promised to call again before he left town well my dear asked the father anxiously when he was alone with his child she shook her head in a way that was quite as eloquent as words he seemed very agreeable though sighed the she bowed in acknowledgment that she with him he will come home in the summer continued mr and during the watering place season all will be arranged the girl s fair brow contracted with wrinkles a devil of a mess if we had never begun this she said in a low tone i would
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of each weapon was considered a test of high breeding the man was in danger of being tripped up by his sword getting between his legs the fan held looked more of a burden than an a of jane ment while in the hands of an it could be made to speak a language of its own it was not every one who felt qualified to make this public exhibition and i have been told that those ladies who intended to dance used to distinguish themselves from others by wearing a particular kind of on their head dress i have heard also of another curious proof of the respect in which this dance was held gloves clean were considered requisite for its due performance while gloves a little soiled were thought good enough for a country dance and accordingly some prudent ladies provided themselves with two pairs for their several purposes the expired with the last century but long after it had ceased to be danced publicly it was taught to boys and girls in order to give them a graceful carriage and were occasionally danced but the chief occupation of the evening was the interminable country dance in which all could join this dance presented a great show of enjoyment but it was not without its peculiar troubles the ladies and gentlemen were ranged apart from each other in opposite rows so that the for or interesting intercourse were not so great as might have been desired by see spectator no on the fan exercise old gentlemen who had survived the fashion of wearing swords were known to regret the of that it an end to one way of those who had from those who had not been used to good society to wear the sword easily was an art which like swimming and required to be learned in youth children could practise it early with their toy swords adapted to their size a of jane both parties much heart burning and discontent sometimes arose as to who should stand above whom and especially as to who was entitled to the high privilege of calling and leading off the first dance and no little indignation was felt at the lower end of the room when any of the leading couples retired from their duties and did not condescend to dance up and down the whole set we may rejoice that these causes of irritation no longer exist and that if such feelings as jealousy and discontent ever touch celestial in the modem ball room they must arise from different and more sources i am tempted to add a little about the difference of personal habits it may be asserted as a general truth that less was left to the charge and discretion of servants and more was done or by the masters and with regard to the it is i believe generally understood that at the time to which i refer a hundred years ago they took a personal part in the higher branches of as well as in the of home made and of for domestic which are nearly allied to the same art ladies did not disdain to spin the thread of which the household linen was woven some ladies liked to wash with their own hands their choice china after breakfast or tea in one of my earliest child s books a little girl the daughter of a gentleman is taught by her mother to make her own bed before leaving her chamber it was not so much that they had not servants to do all these things for them as that they took an a of jane interest in such occupations and it must be borne in mind how many sources of interest enjoyed by this generation were then closed or very opened to ladies a very small of them cared much for literature or science music was not a very common and drawing was a still accomplishment in some form or other was their chief employment but i doubt whether the rising generation are equally aware how much gentlemen also did for themselves in those times and whether some things that i can mention will not be a surprise to them two homely were held in higher estimation in my early days than they are now the master s eye makes the horse fat and if you would be well served serve yourself some gentlemen took pleasure in being their own performing all the scientific and some of the manual work themselves well dressed young men of my acquaintance who had their coat from a london tailor would always brush their evening suit themselves rather than it to the carelessness of a rough servant and to the risks of dirt and in the kitchen for in those days servants halls were not common in the houses of the clergy and the smaller country gentry it was quite natural that should have contrasted the magnificence of the at abbey with the few in her father s a young man who expected to have his things packed or for him by a servant when he travelled would have been a of jane thought fine or lazy when my uncle undertook to teach me to shoot his first lesson was how to clean my own gun it was thought on the evening of a hunting day to turn out after dinner lantern in hand and visit the stable to ascertain that the horse had been well cared for this was of the more importance because previous to the introduction of about the year it was a difficult and tedious work to make a long hunter dry and comfortable and was often very imperfectly done of course such things were not practised by those who had and and plenty of well trained servants but they were practised by many who were gentlemen and whose occupying the same position in life may perhaps be astonished at being told that
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and later a that crushed him down or rolled him over and over with swift calculating stroke thus he learned hurt and on top of it he learned to avoid hurt first by not the risk of it and second when he had incurred the risk by by retreating these were conscious actions and were the results white of his first npon the world before that he had from hurt as he had crawled toward the light after that he from hurt he knew that it was he was a fierce little so were his brothers and sisters it was to be expected he was a animal he came of a breed of and meat his father and mother lived wholly upon meat the milk he had sucked with his first flickering life was milk transformed directly from meat and now at a month old when his eyes had been open for but a week he was beginning himself to eat meat � meat half by the she wolf and for the five growing that already made too great demand upon her breast but he was further the of the litter he could make a louder growl than any of them his tiny were much more terrible than theirs it was he that first learned the trick of rolling a fellow over with a cunning stroke and it was he that first another by the ear and pulled and and growled through jaws and certainly it was he that caused the mother the most trouble in keeping her litter from the mouth of the cave the fascination of the light for the gray increased from day to day he was the gray parting on yard long adventures toward the cave s entrance and as perpetually being driven back only he did not know it for an entrance he did not know anything about � passages whereby one goes from one place to another place he did not know any other place much less of a way to get there so to him the entrance of the cave was a wall � a wall of light as the sun was to the outside this wall was to him the sun of his world it attracted him as a candle a he was always striving to attain it the life that was so swiftly within him urged him continually toward the wall of light the life that was within him knew that it was the one way out the way he was to tread but he himself did not know anything about it he did not know there was any outside at all there was one strange thing about this wall of light his father he had already come to recognize his father as the one other in the world a creature like his mother who slept near the light and was a of meat � his father had a way of walking right into the white far wall and disappearing the gray could not understand this though never permitted by his mother to approach that wall he had approached the other walls and encountered hard on the end of his tender nose this hurt and after several such e white he left the walls alone without thinking about it he accepted this disappearing into the wall as a peculiarity of his father as milk and half meat were peculiarities of his mother in fact the gray was not given to thinking � at least to the kind of thinking customary of men his brain worked in dim ways yet his were as sharp and distinct those achieved by men he had a method of accepting things without the why and wherefore in reality this was the act of he was never disturbed over why a thing happened how it happened was for him thus when he had his nose on the back wall a few times he accepted that he would not disappear into walls in the same way he accepted that his father could disappear into walls but he was not in the least disturbed by desire to find out the reason for the between his father and himself logic and were no part of his mental make up like most creatures of the wild he early experienced famine there came a time when not only did the meat supply cease but the milk no longer came from his mother s breast at first the and cried but for the most part they slept it was not long before they were reduced to a of hunger there were no more and no more tiny nor attempts at growl the gray ing while the adventures toward the far white wall ceased altogether the slept while the life that was in them and died down one eye was desperate he ranged far and wide and slept but little in the that had now become cheerless and miserable the she wolf too left her litter and went ont in search of meat in the first days after the birth of the one eye had several times back to the indian camp and robbed the rabbit but with the melting of the snow and the opening of the streams the indian camp had moved away and that source of supply was closed to him when the gray came back to life and again took interest in the far white wall he found that the population of his world had been reduced only one sister remained to him the rest were gone as he grew stronger he found himself compelled to play alone for the sister no longer lifted her head nor moved about his little body rounded out with the meat he now ate but the food had come too late for her she slept a tiny skeleton flung round with skin in which the flame lower and lower and at last went out then there came a time when the gray no longer
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is not like me i have never been a and i don t think i would be if i could of a young man conscience the whole of your moral nature is reflected in even to the and i don t think i would be if i i love the and there is certainly some thing strangely grotesque in the life of a but it is nonsense to suggest that is myself � � � you know that my original notion was to do the side of de that conscience that had the genius to leave out really if you can only make disagreeable remarks i think we had better bring this conversation to a close conscience one word more you have failed in everything you have attempted and you will continue to fail until you consider those moral principles � those rules of conduct which the race has built up guided by an of a g man instinct of self preservation humanity herself against those who attempt co her and none neither napoleon nor the wretched such as you are has escaped her vengeance you would have me pull down the black flag and turn myself into an honest with children in the hold and a wife at the you would remind me that grey hairs begin to show that health falls into rags that high spirits split like canvas and that in the end the bright an old tossed by the waves of ill fortune and by the winds into those dismal and dangerous � nurses and uncomfortable chambers such will be my fate and since none may his fate none can do better than to run the course which he must pursue conscience you might devise a moral ending one that would all classes it is easy to see that you are a nineteenth century conscience of a young man conscience i do not hope to find a saint in you an idea one of these days i will write my i again i tell you that nothing really matters to me but art and knowing this you chatter of the of my not concluding my novel with some foolish moral � � � nothing matters to me but art conscience would you the wretched servant girl if by so doing you could pluck out the mystery of her being and set it down on paper xvi and now reader i will answer the questions which have been you this long while which you have asked at every stage of this long narrative of a sinful life shake not your head lift not your finger exquisitely reader you can deceive me in nothing i know the base and unworthy the use of the word sinful here seems liable to the phrase should run of a virtuous life for remember that my virtues are your vices of a young man soul this is a a such a one as will never happen in your life again therefore i say let us put off all customary disguise let us be frank you have been angrily asking exquisitely reader why you have been forced to read this record of a sinful life in your exquisite you have said over and over again what good purpose can it serve for a man to tell us of his unless indeed it is to show us how he may rise as if on stepping stones of his dead self to higher things etc you sighed o friend and you threw the magazine on the table where such things lie and you murmured something about leaving the world a little better than you found it and you went down to dinner and lost consciousness of the world in the animal enjoyment of your stomach i hold out my hand to you i embrace you you arc my brother and i say yourself you will leave the world no better than you found it the pig that is being as i write this line will leave the world better than it found it but you will leave only a fit for nothing but worms look back upon your life examine it it weigh it on it and then say if you dare that it has not been a very futile and foolish affair soldier robber priest virgin i care not this should run forgot your of a young man what you are if you have not brought children into the world to suffer your life has been as vain and as harmless as mine has been i hold out my hand to you we are brothers but in my heart of hearts i think myself a cut above you because i do not believe in leaving the world better than i found it and you exquisitely reader think that you are a cut above me because you say you would leave the world better than you found it the one eternal and delight of life is to think for one reason or another that we are better than our neighbours this is why i wrote this book and this is why it is affording you so much pleasure o exquisitely h reader my friend my brother because it helps you to the belief that you are not so bad after all now to resume the of my year has sounded in three or f ur years my youth will be as a faint haze on the sea an recollection so now while standing on the last verge of the hill i will look back on the valley i lingered in do i regret i neither repent nor do i regret and a fool and a i should be if i did i know the worth and the of more than ten years of enjoyment nature provided me with as perfect a apparatus mental and physical as she ever turned out of her my stomach and brain of a young man are set in the most
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the risk mrs left her children in my care and i mean to be true to the trust i don t know what you think of me mr i am not wholly heartless and i love the children and because i love them i will try to take their mother s place and she turned round and went out of the room and left him standing it was not a very calm face but still it was a steady one that she presented to aunt when she went up stairs again it is more serious than i thought she said the children have scarlet fever and we must prepare for some hard work pa hi � e n chapter xv th b in the pool was sent down stairs to remain in her s care and be kept out of the way for as yet she had complained of nothing serious and they tried to hope that she would escape the then set about her tasks in quietly bathed her face and hands with brushed her hair back into a great knot and changed her dress for a light cool there are some women who do everything gracefully and without losing their self possession was one of them it is astonishing what a woman can and will do when her heart is in her work in days looked back at the dreary hours of danger and suffering that followed with a shudder wondering how she had lived through them it was no light responsibility and no light labor that fell into her hands then sometimes she grew faint under its burden and needed all her strength of will and purpose to rouse herself to fitness it� for a week she never left the nursery bedroom hardly daring to sleep in her anxiety lay upon his bed with fever and wildly moaning for water sometimes and crying for his mother baby and fretted and slept by turns and as a finishing stroke to all the evils at the end of the week dropped fainting on the parlor floor and was brought up to the sick room to be nursed with the rest here was a unique position for the the day was taken ill carried her up stairs in his arms and stayed with her all night when he first entered was sitting by with baby lying across her shoulder as she leaned her head wearily against the chair back and a fierce throb shook his heart as he noted her white face and the purple shadows round her eyes short as they were those seven days had absolutely changed her when he had left with he came back into the nursery feeling as if some force controlled him he said for he forgot everything in his new pity for her and spoke as he would have spoken to bar � you must leave to me and go and sleep another week of such labor and watching will kill you perhaps she had grown weak that bis kindly tone touched her so at any rate she glanced up at him with a smile i could not go to sleep if i lay down she said trying to speak cheerfully i don t like to leave them for a moment look at s face and she drew down the the poor little fellow s temples looked and hollow a great scarlet spot blazed on each cheek and his eyes were heavily closed he has not spoken since yesterday she did not care to control herself now and the sudden tears choked her voice oh i wish mrs would come home looked down at the sweet white face thrilled to his very soul there was something in it which he was to understand but which he had never understood before something of latent truth something of what she had suffered which now in her trouble was not hidden by any of the perfect acting it was months since she had come to his house and every day had been a slow step to the ending of the story for months he had struggled with his fate and now as the soft eyes raised up to his and fell again he felt that all the struggles and and contempt were as nothing and that he stood to night just where he had stood when their met in the little theatre at nearly four years ago he had tried to hate her and learned to love her because her sweet eyes were so tender and as she stood there with s baby in her arms she seemed to blot out some of the past and her red lips drooped as little s might have done in such a womanhood as this when she bad sung the pretty his heart had to passionate regret and yearning the one moment in which her soft cheek had touched his breast had opened his eyes to the truth and now spite of himself and his pride he must needs speak a little of that truth in his remorse for the times when he could see he had been cruel if he had been just you must let me help you he said you have taken too heavy a burden upon yourself she looked up quickly and then turned her face away did not mean to him but there was a ring in his voice that seemed almost a mockery it recalled so much to her but simple as the movement was it stung him cannot we forget the old wrongs for a while he said bitterly or are we to be enemies forever for a i hardly to raise her face the re had shot so sharply over its white like a man he had misunderstood her and like a woman she must hide her pain so she answered him as bitterly as he had spoken this is no time to remember wrongs she said i don t want
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the hall the scatter the sheep this room then turn off all the lights and the wolves crawl in from the hall and in the darkness they try to get the shoes away from the � who are permitted to do anything except bite and use the wolves the captured shoes out into the hall no one excused come on shoes off every one looked at every one else and waited for every one else to begin kicked off her silver slippers and ignored the universal glance at her arches the embarrassed but loyal her high black shoes well you re a terror to old folks you re like the i used to go horseback riding with back in the ain t much accustomed to attending parties but here goes with a and a gallant jerk snatched off his shoes the others and followed when the sheep had been up in the darkness the wolves crept into the living room halting thrown out of their habit of by the strangeness of advancing through toward a waiting foe a mysterious foe expanded and grew more menacing the wolves peered to make out they touched gliding arms which did not seem to be attached to a body they quivered with a rapture of fear reality had vanished a suddenly rose then s high and s astonished quit you re me mrs galloped backward on stiff hands and knees into the safety of the lighted moaning i declare i was so upset in my life but the propriety was shaken out of her and she continued to in my life as she saw the living room door opened by invisible hands and shoes through it as she heard main street from the darkness beyond the door a a a resolute here s a lot of shoes come on you wolves owl y would would you when abruptly turned on the lights in the living room half of the company were sitting back against the walls where they had remained t the engagement but in the middle of the floor was with harry � their torn off their hair in their eyes and the mr was retreating from and with laughter s discreet brown down his back young s net had lost two buttons and betrayed more of her delicious plump shoulder than was regarded as pure in whether by shock disgust joy of combat or physical activity all the party were freed from their years of social decorum george twisted his beard mrs insisted i did too sam � i got a shoe � i never knew i could fight so terrible was certain that she was a great she had needle and thread ready she permitted them to restore the divine decency of buttons the grinning brought down stairs a pile of soft thick sheets of paper with designs of blossoms in and crimson and gray and patterns of purple birds flying among sea green trees in the of nowhere these announced are real chinese i got them from an shop in you are to put them on over your clothes and please forget that you are and turn into and and � and isn t it and anything else you can think of while they were rustling the paper she disappeared ten minutes after she gazed down from the stairs upon ruddy yankee heads above oriental robes and cried to them the princess her court i as they looked up she caught their suspense of admiration they saw an airy figure in trousers and coat of green edged with gold a high gold collar under a proud chin black hair pierced with pins a languid fan in an out main street stretched hand eyes uplifted to a vision of towers when she dropped her pose and smiled down she discovered with domestic pride � and gray staring for a second she saw nothing in all the pink and brown mass of their faces save the hunger of the two men she shook off the spell and ran down we re going to have a real chinese concert messrs and are the rest of us sing and play the the were with paper the drums were and the sewing table editor of the led the with a ruler and a totally sense of the music was a of tom heard at fortune telling tents or at the state fair but the whole company and puffed and in a sing song and looked before they were quite tired of the concert led them in a dancing procession to the dining room to blue of with nuts and preserved in none of them save that city harry had heard of any chinese dish except chop with agreeable doubt they ventured through the shoots into the golden of the and did a not very humorous chinese dance with and there was and contentment relaxed and found that she was tired she had carried them on her thin shoulders she could not keep it up she longed for her father that artist at creating hysterical parties she thought of smoking a to shock them and dismissed the thought before it was quite formed she wondered whether they could for five minutes be to talk about something besides the winter top of s ford and what al had said about his mother in law she sighed oh let em alone ive done enough she crossed her legs and above her of she caught s still smile and thought well of herself for having thrown a rose light on the pallid lawyer repented the supposition that any male save her husband existed jumped up to find and whisper happy my lord no it didn t cost much so main street best party this town ever saw only don t cross your legs in that costume shows your knees too plain she was vexed she resented his she returned to and talked of chinese � not that she knew
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s into the foaming sea onward they bore amidst the roaring mass of water with a speed and force which nothing could resist and striking the stem of the foremost vessel crushed her beneath their from the huge which the sinking wreck occasioned arose a shriek so loud and shrill � the of a hundred drowning creatures blended into one fierce yell � that it rung far above the war cry of the elements and echoed and tiu it seemed to pierce air sky and ocean but what was that � that old gray head that rose above the water s surface and with looks of agony and screams for aid with the waves one look and he had sprung from the vessel s side and with vigorous strokes was swimming towards it he reached it he was close upon it they were ms features the old man saw him coming and vainly strove to his grasp but he clasped him tight and dragged him beneath the water down down with him j down his les grew fainter and fainter until they wholly ceased he was dead he had killed him and had kept his oath he was the sands of a mighty desert and alone the sand choked and blinded him its fine thin entered the very oi his skin and irritated him almost to madness gigantic masses of the same material carried forward by papers of the wind and shone through by the burning sun stalked in the distance like pillars of living fire the bones of men who had perished in the dreary waste lay scattered at his feet a fearful light fell on everything around so far as the eye could reach nothing but objects of dread and horror presented themselves vainly striving to utter a cry of terror with his tongue to his mouth he rushed madly forward armed with supernatural strength he through the sand until exhausted with fatigue and thirst he fell senseless on the earth what fragrant coolness revived him what sound was that water it was indeed a well and the clear fresh stream was running at his feet he drank deeply of it and throwing his aching limbs upon the bank sunk into a delicious trance the sound of approaching footsteps roused him an old gray headed man forward to his burning thirst it was he again he wound his arms round the old man s body and held him back he struggled and shrieked for water � for but one drop of water to save his life i but he held the old man firmly and watched his agonies with greedy eyes and when his lifeless head fell forward on his bosom he rolled the corpse from him with his feet when the fever left him and consciousness returned he awoke to find himself rich and free to hear that the parent who would have let him die in jail � who had let those who were far dearer to him than his own existence die of want and the sickness of heart that medicine cannot cure � had been found dead on his bed of down he had had all the heart to leave his son a beggar but proud even of his health and strength had put off the act till it was too late and now might the club his teeth in the other world at the thought of the wealth his had left him he awoke to this and he awoke to more to recollect the purpose for which he lived and to that his enemy was his wife s own father � the man who had cast him into prison and who when his daughter and her child at his feet for mercy had them from his door oh how he cursed the weakness that prevented him from being up and active in his scheme of vengeance he caused himself to be carried from the scene of his loss and misery and conveyed to a quiet residence on the sea coast � not in the hope of recovering his peace of mind or happiness for both were fled forever but to restore his prostrate energies and on his darling object and here some evil spirit cast in his way the opportunity for his first most horrible revenge it was summer time and wrapped in his gloomy thoughts he would issue from his solitary lodgings early in the evening and wandering along a narrow path beneath the cliffs to a wild and lonely spot that had struck his fancy in his seat himself on some fallen fragments of the rock and burying his face in his hands remain there for hours � sometimes until night had completely closed in and the long shadows of the frowning cliffs above his head cast a thick black darkness on every object near him he was seated here one calm evening in his old position now and then raising his head to watch the flight of a sea or carry his eye along the glorious crimson path which in the middle of the ocean seemed to lead to its very verge where the sun was setting when the profound stillness of the spot was broken papers of by a loud cry for help he listened doubt l of his having heard aright when the cry was repeated with even greater vehemence than before and starting to his feet he hastened in the direction whence it proceeded the tale told itself at once some scattered garments lay on the beach a human head was just visible above the waves at a little distance from the shore and an old man wringing his hands in agony was running to and fro shrieking for assistance the invalid whose strength was now sufficiently restored threw off his coat and rushed towards the sea with the intention of plunging in and dragging the drowning man ashore hasten here sir in god s name help
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live and what do they do when they live i asked what do they call living oh having a nice country house within a short distance of london or paris and being able to dine at the best and visit the best once or twice a week to go to paris or or or two or th� or four or as many times a year as they please to wear good clothes and to be thoroughly comfortable that is not a bad standard i said and then i added and what else do they do and what else should they do isn t that enough and there you have the european standard according to miss x as contrasted with the american standard which is or has been up to this time something decidedly different i am sure we have not been so eager to live our idea has been to work no american that i have ever known has had the idea of laying up just so much a moderate amount and then retiring and living he has had quite another thought in his mind the can � the average american � i am sure loves power the ability to do something far more earnestly than he loves mere living he wants to be an officer or a of something a poet anything you please for the sake of being it � not for the sake of living he loves power authority to be able to say go and he or come and he the rest he will mere comfort you can have that but even that according to miss x was not enough for her she had told me before and this conversation brought it out again that her thoughts were of summer and winter exquisite in the way of clothing miss x open of commanding charming gambling tables at les and elsewhere to say nothing of absolutely un j sex relations english conventional women were and fools they had never learned how to live they had never understood what the joy of freedom in sex was morals � they are built up on a lack of imagination and physical vigor tenderness � well you have to take care of yourself duty � there isn t any such thing if there is it s one s duty to get along and have money and be happy chapter iii at while i was lying in my berth the fifth morning i heard the room steward outside my door tell some one that he thought we reached at one thirty i packed my trunks thinking of this big ship and the fact that my trip was over and that never again could i cross the atlantic for the first time a queer world this we can only do any one thing significantly once i remember when i first went to i remember when i first went to st louis i remember when i first went to new york other there were but they are lost in but the first time of any important thing sticks and lasts it comes back at times and haunts you with its beauty and its sadness you know so well you cannot do that any more and like a clock it and tells you that life is moving on i shall never come to england any more for the first time that is gone and done for � worse luck so i packed � will you believe it � a little sadly i think most of us are a little silly at times only we are cautious enough to conceal it there is in me the spirit of a lonely child somewhere and it to the hand of its big life and cries when it is frightened and then there is a coarse vulgar exterior which fronts the world and bids all and sundry to go to the devil it and and bitterly at times and and and has a joyous time laughing at the follies of others then i went to hunt to find out how i should at do how much was i to give the deck steward how much to the bath steward how much to the how much to the dining room steward how much to boots and so on look here observed that most efficient of all souls that i have ever known i u tell you what you do no � i u write it and he drew forth an ever ready envelope deck steward � so much it read room steward � so much � etc i went forthwith and paid them my soul of a great weight then i came on deck and found that i had forgotten to pack my ship blanket and a steamer rug which i forthwith went and packed then i discovered that i had no place for my hat save on my head so i went back and packed my cap then i thought i had lost one of my which i had n t though i did lose one of my finally i came on deck and sang songs with miss x sitting in our steamer chairs the low shore of ireland had come into view with two faint hills in the distance and these fascinated me i thought i should have some slight emotion on seeing land again but i did n t it was gray and misty at first but presently the sun came out beautifully clear and the day was as warm as may in new york i felt a sudden of spirits with the coming of the sun and i began to think what a lovely time i was going to have in europe miss x was a little more friendly this morning than heretofore she was a creature � uncertain and hard to please she liked me and thought i was able but her physical and so far as men are concerned did not include me we
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girl learning what he to be a set of words sir c s eye had been on her the moment she entered and he watched keenly the effect of s bat apparently the was too deep in her for anything else she came in saying over her and she went on doing so the experienced mr who had divined in an instant drew him into a corner and him on his well timed tou acted mat mighty well sir said he my i if i did not think yon were iu earnest till i saw the had slipped in us it told sir � it told up fired what do yon mean � sir do you sup pose ray of that lady is no need to speak so sir replied the old gentleman she hears you these have ears like he then a wink and a public bow with which he away from mr and walked feebly and np the j whistling fair fixing his eye upon the past and somewhat overlooking the of the present company there is no great harm jn an old gentleman whistling but there are two ways of doing it and as old did it it seemed not unlike a small cock a of general defiance and the of green room swelled now to a considerable by the addition of all the ladies and gentlemen who had been killed in the act or whom the could not keep in hand until the fall of the curtain felt it as such and so they were not sorry when mrs looking up from her cast a glance upon the old waited for him and walked parallel with him on the other side the room giving an exact imitation of his carriage and to make this more striking she pulled out of her pocket a mock search a huge ring on it with a of simple wonder stuck it like s diamond on her little finger and up her j j a quick by some played the old beau s slow ment without being at it as the character of this performance it was clear and as blacksmith the laughed was shocked she herself by whistling thought he mr was confounded he appealed to have no idea whence came this o he looked round placed his hands to his ears and off whistling so did his gentlemen said with pathetic gravity the wind most this evening i took it for a drunken by at this a roar of laughter except mr laughed as be the and showed a set of teeth that were really but all in moment without the an ordinary countenance requires this laughing pulled a face gloomy beyond conception down came her black brows straight as a line and she cast a look of reproach on all present her study as who say are je not ashamed to divert a poor girl om her and then ever and anon glances and this made the lai again the was now respectfully addressed by one of his admirers james tho of the day and tho rival at this time of in ti aj c characters though the general opinion was that he could not long maintain a standing against the younger and his rising school of art off he stage james was a character his were three � a a and an honest man that often caused astonishment and especially the last we not hope tor something from mr s pen alter so long a silence so was the considerate reply who have ye io play it plenty said join there s humble servant there s � humility at the head of the list cried she of the i this so olive here at my side mrs the best tr ic i ever saw who is as good a as you ever saw sir and turned as red as fire keep temper said mrs with accent tou my here was a blow the public said in agitation would if we acted as they did in your how do j on know that sir was the you tried mr was silenced looked off her ns said she coolly we might be mr i turned round slightly ms eyebrows said he added he with a smile will you be kind enough to explain to me how you could be worse if like a we could go back at this the and mr had i to liis spy gentleman was or insolent as the case might demand in three degrees of which the snuff box was and the spy glass the he had learned on the in just used the snuff weapon and now he drew his upon poor have we here said he he looked with his spy glass to oh i ihe little irish whose basket a salary for the first years of his dramatic career was the delicate reply to the above delicate remark it staggered him for a moment however lie a most puzzled air then gradually allowed a light to steal features eh i how stupid i am i understand you sold something besides oh i said mr and colored up to the temples and cast a look oh as much as to say if you were not seventy three his was something so by different from any tone any other person there present could liave uttered that tlie s on him for a single moment and in that moment he felt himself looked through and through i sold the young a you mean was her calm reply and now i am come down to the old ones a mr what do yon understand by an actor tell me i am foolish enough to respect your opinion on these an actor lady said he gravely is an artist who has gone deep enough in his art to make and take it for nature he really which mere man of ihe never does he has learned
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room large enough to contain forty or fifty guests two silver branches for candles � the walls ornamented with paintings and the floors were daily rubbed with wax and shone like a mahogany table a domestic who said prayers every morning and evening in a small apartment called the chapel also a steward and butler the family attended the church at christmas and good friday and gave a grand entertainment once a year by v ic american note books madam at the last of these wore a black gown and with double lace velvet shoes blue silk stockings white and silver the daughter and in rich and yellow satin old in brown velvet with gold and a large wig the parson in his silk and his in brown old general in scarlet velvet and his wife and daughters in white the governor in black velvet and his lady in crimson trimmed with silver the ladies wore bell shoes silk stockings and high head dresses with of lace hanging thence to the waist among the a silver tub of the capacity of four holding a of powdered with white sugar the date assigned to all this about what is the price of a day s labor in where the sun never sets for six months miss a life generally of a grave hue may be said to be embroidered with occasional sports and a father � his reflections on character and the contrast of the inward man with the outward as he looks around on his congregation all whose secret sins are known to him by v ic american note books a person with an ice cold hand � his right hand which people ever afterwards remember when once they have grasped it a stove possessed by a devil june ty � one of my chief amusements is to see the boys sail their miniature vessels on the pond there is a great variety of shipping owned among the young people and they appear to have a considerable knowledge of the art of managing vessels there is a full man of war with i believe every rope and sail that sometimes makes its appearance and when on a voyage across the pond it so a great ship except in size that it has the effect of a picture all its motions � its tossing up and down on the small waves and its sinking and rising in a calm swell its to the breeze � the whole effect in short is that of a real ship at sea while moreover there is something that the imagination more than the reality would do if we see a real great ship the mind and possesses within its real clutch all that there is of it while here the ship is the representation of an ideal one and so gives us a more imaginative pleasure there are many that to and fro on the pond and pilot boats all perfectly i saw a race the other day between the ship above mentioned and a pilot boat in which the latter came off conqueror the boys appear to be well acquainted with all the ropes and sails and can call them by their names one of the owners of the vessels remains on one by v ic american note books side of the pond and the other on the opposite side and so they send the little bark to and fro like merchants of different countries their vessels to one another when any vessel is on the pond there are full grown spectators who look on with as much interest as the boys themselves towards sunset this is especially the case for then are seen young girls and their lovers mothers with their little boys in hand beating round about and occasionally running to the side of the pond rough or perhaps masters or young mates of vessels who make remarks about the miniature shipping and occasionally give professional advice to the visitors from the country and young gentlemen � in short everybody stops to take a look in the mean time dogs are continually plunging into the pond and swimming about with noses pointed upward and at floating then emerging they shake themselves scattering a shower on the clean gowns of ladies and trousers of gentlemen then to and fro on the grass with joyous some boys cast off lines of with pin hooks and perhaps pull out a � that being i think the only kind of fish that the pond the ship of war above mentioned is about three feet from stem to stem or possibly a few inches more this if i mistake not was the size of a ship of the line in the navy of fancy pictures of familiar places which one has never been in as the green room of a theatre etc by v ic american note books the famous characters of history � to imagine their spirits now on earth in the guise of various public or private personages the case quoted in s of a young man of great talents and profound knowledge of who had in view some new discovery of importance in order to put his mind into the highest possible activity he shut himself up for several successive days and used various methods of excitement he had a he drank spirits penetrating sprinkled water round the room etc etc eight days thus passed when he was seized with a fit of frenzy which terminated in flesh and blood � a firm of miss syllable a mankind are with spirits in them a � in one sense he has his money s worth by the purchase of large lots of repentance and other to moral or spiritual disease by disease of the body as thus � when a person committed any sin it might appear in some form on the body � this to be wrought out shrieking fish a strange idea of
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her why would not you speak sooner this will be a bad day s amusement for you if you are to be knocked up every sort of exercise her so soon miss except riding how abominable in you then to let me her horse as i did all last week i i am ashamed of you and of myself but it shall never happen again your and consideration make me more sensible of my own neglect s interest seems in safer hands with you than with me that she should be tired now however gives me no surprise for there is nothing in the course of one s duties so as what we have been doing this morning � seeing a great house from one room to another straining one s eyes and one s attention hearing what one does not understand admiring what one does not care for it is generally allowed to be the greatest bore in the world and miss price has found it so though she did not know it i shall soon be rested said to sit in the shade on a fine day and look upon is the most perfect refreshment after sitting a little while miss was up again i must move said she resting me i have looked across the ha ha till i am weary i must go and look through that iron gate at the same view without being able to see it so well left the seat likewise now miss if you will look up the walk you will convince yourself that it cannot be half a mile long or half half a mile it is an immense distance said she i see that with a glance he still reasoned with her but in vain she would not calculate she would not compare she would only smile and assert the greatest degree of rational could not have been more engaging and they talked with mutual satisfaction at last it was agreed that they should endeavor to determine the dimensions of the wood by walking a little more about it they would go to one end of it in the line they were then in for there was a straight green walk along the bottom by the side of the ha ha and perhaps turn a little way in some other direction if it seemed likely to assist them and be back in a few minutes said she was rested and would have moved too but this was not suffered urged her remaining where she was with an earnestness which she could not resist and she was left on the bench to think with pleasure of her cousin s care but with great regret that she was not stronger she watched them till they had turned the corner and listened till all sound of them had ceased chapter x � a of an twenty passed away and was still thinking of miss and herself without from any one she began to he surprised at being left so long and to listen with an anxious desire of hearing their steps and their voices again she listened and at length she heard she heard voices and feet approaching but she had just satisfied herself that it was not those she wanted when miss mr and mr issued from the same path which she had trod herself and were before her miss price all alone and my dear how comes this were the first she told her story poor dear cried her cousin how ill you have been used by them you had better have stayed with us then herself with a gentleman on each side she resumed the conversation which had engaged them before and discussed the possibility of improvements with much animation nothing was fixed on but henry was full of ideas and projects and generally speaking whatever he proposed was immediately approved first by her and then by mr whose principal business seemed to be to hear the others and park who scarcely risked an original thought of his own beyond a wish that they had seen his friend smith s place after some minutes spent in this way miss observing the iron gate expressed a wish of passing through it into the park that their views and their plans might be more comprehensive it was the very thing of all others to be wished it was the best it was the only way of proceeding with any advantage in henry s opinion j and he directly saw a not half a mile off which would give them exactly the requisite command of the house go therefore they must to that and through that gate but the gate was locked mr wished he had brought the key he had been very near thinking whether he should not bring the key he was determined he would never come without the key again but still this did not remove the present evil they could not get through and as miss s inclination for so doing did by no means lessen it ended in mr s declaring outright that he would go and fetch the key he set off accordingly it is undoubtedly the best thing we can do now as we are so far from the house already said mr when he was gone yes there is nothing else to be done but now sincerely do not you find the place altogether worse than you expected no indeed far otherwise i find it better more complete in its style though that style may not be the best and to tell you the vol i � park truth speaking rather lower i do not think that i shall ever see again with so much pleasure as i do now another summer will hardly improve it to me after a moment s the lady replied you are too much a man of the world not to 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leave me stay with me it will not be for long perhaps what should i ever do without you me leave you my precious cried not for all the world and his wife why what s put that in your silly little head � for had been used of old to talk to my mother sometimes like a child but my mother made no answer except to thank her and went running on in her own fashion me leave you i think i see myself go away from you i should like to catch her at it no no no said shaking her head and folding her arms not she my dear it isn t that there ain t some cats that would be well enough pleased if she did but they shan t be pleased they shall be i stay with you till i am a cross old woman and when i m too deaf and too lame and too blind and too for want of teeth to be of any use at all even to be found fault with then i shall go to my and ask him to take me in and says i i shall be glad to see you and i make you as welcome as a queen bless your dear heart cried i know you will and she kissed me beforehand in grateful acknowledgment of my hospitality after that she covered her head up with her apron again and had another laugh about mr after that she took the baby out of its little cradle and nursed it after that she cleared the dinner table after that came in with another cap on and her work box and the yard measure and the bit of wax candle all just the same as ever we sat round the fire and talked delightfully i told them what a hard master mr was and they pitied me very much i told them what a fine fellow was and what a patron of mine and said she would walk a score of miles to see him i took the little baby in my arms when it was awake and nursed it lovingly when it was asleep again i crept close to my mother s side according to my old custom broken now a long time and sat with my arms embracing her waist and my little red cheek on her shoulder and once more felt her beautiful hair drooping over me � hke an angel s wing as i used to think i recollect � and was very happy indeed while i sat thus looking at the fire and seeing pictures in the red hot coals i almost believed that i had never been away that mr and miss were such pictures and would vanish when the fire got low and that there was nothing real in all that i remembered save my mother and i away at a as long as she could see and then g the personal history and experience sat with it drawn on her left hand like a glove and her needle in her right ready to take another whenever there was a blaze i cannot conceive whose stockings they can have been that was always or where such an supply of stockings in want of can have come from from my earliest infancy she seems to have been always employed in that class of and never by any chance in any other i wonder said who was sometimes seized with a fit of wondering on some most unexpected topic what s become of s lor observed my mother rousing herself from a reverie what nonsense you talk well but i really do wonder ma am said what can have put such a person in your head inquired my mother is there nobody else in the world to come there i don t know how it is said unless it s on account of being stupid but my head never can pick and choose its people they come and they go and they don t come and they don t go just as they like i wonder what s become of her how absurd you are returned my mother one would suppose you wanted a second visit from her lord forbid cried well then don t talk about such uncomfortable things there s a good soul said my mother miss is shut up in her cottage by the sea no doubt and will remain there at all events she is not likely ever to trouble us again no mused no that ain t likely at all � i wonder if she was to die whether she d leave anything good gracious me returned my mother what a woman you are when you know that she took offence at the poor dear boy s ever being born at all i suppose she wouldn t be inclined to forgive him now hinted why should she be inclined to forgive him now said my mother rather sharply now that he s got a brother i mean said my mother immediately began to cry and wondered how dared to say such a thing as if this poor little innocent in its cradle had ever done any harm to you or anybody else you jealous thing said she you had much better go and marry mr the why don t you i should make miss happy if i was to said what a bad disposition you have returned my mother you are as jealous of miss as it is possible for a ridiculous creature to be you want to keep the keys yourself and give out all the things i suppose i shouldn t be surprised if you did when you know that she only does it out of kindness and the best intentions you know she does � you know it well muttered something to the effect of bother the best intentions and something else to the
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know whatever lies upon it i hope you will see the justice of keeping wide and clear of me and will find a consolation in completely all but yourself i hope before many years are out to succeed the master in my present school and the mistress being a single woman though some years older than i am i might even marry her if it is any comfort to you to know what plans i may work out by keeping myself strictly respectable in the scale of society these are the plans at present to me in conclusion if you feel a sense of having injured me and a desire to make some small i hope you will think how respectable you might have been yourself and will contemplate your existence was it strange that the wretched man should take this heavily to heart perhaps he had taken the boy to heart first through some long laborious years perhaps through the same years he had found his lightened by communication with a brighter and more apprehensive spirit than his own perhaps a family resemblance of face and voice between the boy and his sister smote him hard in the gloom of his fallen state for reason or for all he drooped his devoted head when the boy was gone and shrank together on the floor and there with the palms of his hands tight clasping his hot temples in unutterable misery and by a single tear rogue had been busy with the river that day he had with on the previous evening but the light was short and he had he had again that day with better luck and had carried his fish home to mill lock house in a bundle perfect of mine wiu fl i � ti i � i va � � n � t better to be than the new d a r y foundations a l mutual friend chapter a few of the went no more to the business premises of and co in st mary axe after chance had disclosed to her as she supposed the and character of mr she often over her work on the tricks and the manners of that venerable cheat but made her little purchases elsewhere and lived a secluded life after much consultation with herself she decided not to put on her guard against the old man arguing that the disappointment of finding him out would come upon her quite soon enough therefore in her communication with her friend by letter she was silent on this theme and principally dilated on the of her bad child who every day grew worse and worse you wicked old boy miss would say to him with a menacing forefinger you ll force me to run away from you after all you will and then you ll shake to bits and be nobody to pick up the pieces at this of a desolate the wicked old boy would and and would sit shaking himself into the lowest of low spirits until such time as he could shake himself out of the house and shake another o himself but dead drunk or dead sober he had come to such a pass that he was least alive in the latter state it was always on the conscience of the that ne had betrayed his sharp parent for sixty of rum which were all gone and that her would detect his having done it sooner or later things considered therefore and addition made of the state of his body to the state of his mind the bed on which mr was a bed of roses from which the flowers and leaves had entirely faded leaving him to lie upon the thorns and on a certain day miss was alone at her work with the house door set open for coolness and was in a small sweet voice a mournful little song which might have been the song of the doll she was dressing the and of wax when whom should she standing on the pavement looking in at her but mr i thought it was you said coming up the two steps did you miss retorted and i thought it was you young man quite a coincidence you re not mistaken and i m not mistaken how clever we are well and how are you said i am pretty much as usual sir replied miss a very unfortunate parent worried out of my life and senses by a very bad child s small eyes opened so wide that they might have passed vol n q mutual men for ordinary sized eyes as he stared about him for the very young person whom he supposed to be in question but you re not a parent said miss and consequently it s of no use talking to you upon a family subject � to what am i to attribute the honor and favor to a wish to improve your acquaintance mr replied miss stopping to bite her thread looked at him very we never meet now said do we no said miss off the word m so i had a mind pursued m to come and have a talk with yon about our friend the child of so he gave you my address did he asked miss i got it out of him said with a you seem to see a good deal of ham remarked miss with shrewd distrust a good deal of him you seem to see considering yes i do said w considering haven t you inquired the bending over the doll on which her art was being exercised done with him yet no said shaking his head u la been with him all this time and sticking to him still said miss busy with her work sticking to him is the word said miss pursued her occupation with a concentrated air and asked after an interval of silent industry are you in the
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i know all about it trot and myself had quite a gossip while you were out with dick i know all about it i don t know where these wretched girls expect to go to for my part i wonder they don t knock out their brains against � against said my aunt an idea which was probably suggested to her by her contemplation of mine poor said i oh don t talk to me about poor returned my aunt she should m have thought of that before she caused so much misery me a kiss trot i am sorry for your early experience as i bent forward she put her on my knee to detain me and said oh trot trot and so you fancy yourself in love do you fancy aunt i exclaimed as red as i could be i her with my whole soul indeed returned my aunt and you mean to say the little thing is very fascinating i suppose my dear aunt i replied no one can form the least idea what she is f i ah and not silly said mv aunt silly aunt a a the personal history and experience i seriously believe it had never once entered my head for a single moment to consider whether she was or not i resented the idea of course but i was in a manner struck by it as a new one altogether not light headed said my aunt light headed aunt i could only repeat this daring speculation with the same kind of feeling with which i had repeated the preceding question well well said my aunt i only ask i don t her poor little couple and so you think you were formed for one another and are to go through a party supper table kind of life like two pretty pieces of do you trot she asked me this so kindly and with such a gentle air half playful and half sorrowful that i was quite touched we are young and inexperienced aunt i know i replied and i dare say we say and think a good deal that is rather foolish but we love one another truly i am sure if i thought could ever love anybody else or cease to love me or that i could ever love anybody else or cease to love her i don t know what i should do � go out of my mind i think ah trot said my aunt shaking her head and smiling gravely � blind blind some one that i know trot ray aunt pursued after a pause though of a very disposition has an earnestness of affection in him that reminds me of poor baby earnestness is what that somebody must look for to sustain him and improve him trot deep downright faithful earnestness if you only knew the earnestness of aunt i cried oh trot she said again blind blind and without knowing why i felt a vague unhappy loss or want of something me like a cloud however said my aunt i don t want to put two young creatures out of conceit with themselves or to make them unhappy so though it is a girl and boy attachment and girl and boy very often � mind i don t say always � come to nothing still we be serious about it and hope for a prosperous issue one of these days there s time enough for it to come to anything this was not upon the whole very comforting to a lover but i was glad to have my aunt in my confidence and i was of her being fatigued so i thanked her for this mark of her affection and for all her other towards me and after a tender good night she took her into my bedroom how miserable i was when i lay down how i thought and thought about my being poor in mr s eyes about my not being what i thought i was when i proposed to about the necessity of telling what my worldly condition was and her from her engagement if she thought fit about how i should contrive to live during the long term of my articles when i was earning nothing about doing something to assist my aunt and seeing no way of doing anything about coming down to have no money in my pocket and to wear a shabby coat and to be able to carry no little presents and to ride no gallant and to show myself in no agreeable light sordid and selfish as i knew it was and as i tortured myself by knowing that it was of david to let my mind run on my own distress so much i was so devoted to that i could not help it i knew that it was base in me not to think more of my aunt and less of myself but so far selfishness was inseparable from and i could not put on one side for any mortal creature how exceedingly miserable i was that night as to sleep i had dreams of poverty in all sorts of shapes but t seemed to dream without the previous ceremony of going to sleep now was ragged wanting to sell matches six bundles for a now i was at the office in a and boots remonstrated with by mr on appearing before the in that airy attire now i was picking up the that fell from old s daily regularly eaten when saint paul s struck one now i was hopelessly endeavouring to get a license to marry having nothing but one of s gloves to in exchange which the whole rejected and still more or less conscious of my own room i was always tossing about like a distressed ship in a sea of bed clothes my aunt was restless too for i frequently heard her walking to and fro two or three times
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she s like the and won t speak no nor the boy either for all my they ll only together in that of their own poor little souls i � they love one another i fancy so i there s no love lost between em in any other quarter for that matter why they re like a couple of love birds why i believe nothing would please them better than to be hung up together in a gilt cage with plenty of sweet things to eat and liberty to bill and all day see how the boy is caressing her now � he is her poor thing � i like him for it well i m sick of all this myself you could hardly make greater fuss if i had hit you i perhaps i should not make so much inasmuch as you did it unto the least of these little ones you did it unto me i this man speaks like an angel i cried suddenly the if you say so again ni put my fist in your eye i can t help it if you do i believe christ and the would hare talked just in the way he does where there s jealousy there s love said smiling at each in turn come added he there s the church clock striking and we are making no progress when i started just now i was eager to go towards people i care for very much but now i have changed my mind and i shall sit here till you have granted a request of mine you ll waste your time oh no it will not be wasted if it takes me the whole day to bend your will to mine the day will have been well spent he smiled in s face come what an fellow you are said he pleasantly and laying his hand lightly on his shoulder � tell ye what i cried suddenly while the expression of his face changed all at once � you re the chap ever i fell in and with in all my born days aye that you are and yet i like ye laughed yes i do and there s my hand it now then � what do you want i want you to promise never to chain those little creatures again but what and if they stray they will not they shall not and to who instantly towards him accompanied by the boy he began a kind of communication prompted by the quick instinct of human and divine affection which she by the same clue as readily understood at first she evidently from what he was proposing to her but at length yielding entire consent she stepped forward to took his hand his foot placed them first one then the other on her little neck knelt kissed the hem of his coat and then went through the same show of submission to the boy her exactly though less therefore less i m fairly beat now cried with a the short laugh and then brushing his hand across his eyes come you young � and he lifted them up nd kissed one after the other now we re friends all round said he in high good humour so we ll strike our camp without more delay and i own i m heartily glad not to have to go back to look after those chains are you going our road master yes for a mile or two said and if you will put my bag in the cart i ll carry the little girl on my shoulder xiv the child must be covered up or people will see her said whereon was into a of coarse canvas and her head was covered by a large coarse straw hat as fastened the button of her collar she gently and timidly his hand � the hand that had flung the stone come now don t be too said he the of the speech was by his kindly patting her cheek and lifting her up on s shoulder i do believe you ve found me the secret of managing her cried he as the set forth with and seated on the the baggage it was a lucky chance after all til at threw you in my way are you going to the fair no i turn oflf a few miles hence how came you to be sleeping in the open air last night was everybody in the village gone to bed not everybody but they would not take me in beds full perhaps on account of the fair no they had been set against me set against you for what reason his tale became interested in it and asked him many questions the adventures of the drew him out of himself they were simply but told and had always the power of winning his hearers attention and sympathy as long as he clear of anything that did not provoke the old quarrel of the natural heart against god � just as st paul found an attentive among the excited jews of till he began to speak of the privileges to the they gave home sickness � � him audience unto that word and then lifted up their voices and cried away with such a fellow the earth for it is not fit that he should live i a pause at length ensued during which g in a train of deep thought had no disposition to interrupt it the silence however was softly broken by a low singing sound as of a little bird over his head and patted his cheeks to let him know how happy she was and then left off her you make me wish to see at length said abruptly perhaps we may go there another summer and so on through into italy may be as great or greater wonders there than here resumed the story of his native land it
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secured the affections of those who had before detested him and diffused peace and amongst family upon his estate from he watched the of hie tenants and soon found that in their welfare and them in their duties he was more bis own benefactor d by the poor scholar theirs before many years had his property was wonderfully he was called the lucky landlord said the people ever since he spoke to an advised his tenants we find that it s to to live him the people has heart to work a that won t grind them sm so sign s on it every one upon his land an my bnt i believe a rotten stick nd grow on it set in case it was in his popularity became but it is probable that not even his and humanity contributed so much to this as the vigor with which he his suit against sam whom he compelled to the fruits of his heartless this worthy agent died soon after his disgrace without any legitimate issue and his property which amounted to about fifty pounds is now inherited by a gentleman of the honor and integrity to this day his memory is detested by the people who with that bitterness by which they a villain have erected him into a standard of if a man become remarkable for want of principle they d by il usually � he s as great a rogue as sam or he is the greatest that ever was in the country sam we now dismiss bim and request our readers at the same time not to suppose that we have held him up as a portrait of irish agents in ou the contrary we believe that they constitute a most respectable class of men who have certainly very difficult duties to perform the irish we are happy to say taught by experience have for the moat part both seen and felt the necessity of gentlemen of property to so very important and which require so much patience consideration and humanity in those who fill them we trust they will in this plan but we can assure them that all the virtues of the best agent can never in the opinion of the people for neglect in the head landlord one visit or act even of kindness from will at any time produce more attachment and gratitude among them than a whole life spent in � thia tale written twelve years but the author tliat the have to the notice taken of them in the d by the scholar good offices bj an like s french beggar tliey would prefer a pinch of snuff from the one to a from the other the agent only renders them a favor but the head landlord does them an honor colonel b immediately after his return sent for mr o who waited on him with a greater degree of curiosity than perhaps he had ever felt before the colonel smiled as he extended his hand to him mr o said he i knew you would feel anxious to hear the result of my visit to the estate which this man with the managed for me sir did you say managed i spoke in the past time o he is out then your story was correct sir true to a o there is something extraordinary in that otherwise how could it happen that a sickly miserable looking creature absolutely in could have impressed us both so strongly with a sense of the injustice done ten years ago to his father it is remarkable the colonel deeply felt that act of d by thk scholar aad the expression of it came home to the heart i restored his father however the poor man and his family are once more happy i liave their old farm for them in fact they now enjoy comfort and independence i am sir that you have done them justice that act alone will go far to redeem your character from the which the conduct of your agent was calculated to throw upon it there is not probably in ireland a landlord so popular as i am this moment � at least among my tenants on that property restoring m however is but a part of what i have done s were incredible he was a rack of the first water a person named had paid him twenty guineas as a � in other words as a bribe � for a lease for him yet after having received the money he kept the poor man dangling after him and at length told him that he was offered a larger sum by another in some cases he kept back the and made the poor people pay twice which was still more then sir he would not take bank d by the poor scholar notes ia payment no he was so and so in my as he told them on the subject that nothing would pass in payment but gold this d sir they were compelled to receive from himself at a most oppressive bo that he actually them under my name in every conceivable manner and form of he ia a too and i am told worth forty or fifty thousand pounds but thank he is no longer an agent of mine it gives me sincere pleasure sir that you have at length got correct habits of thinking upon your duties as an irish landlord for believe me colonel b as a subject a great portion of national happiness or national misery it is entitled to the deepest and most serious consideration not only of the class to you belong but of the something should be done sir to improve the condition of the poorer classes a rich country and poor inhabitants is an and whatever is done should be prompt and effectual if the irish looked directly the state of their and set themselves vigorously tf d by
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again according to the once in this formation each man felt himself desperately alone and edged in towards his fellow for comfort s sake then the crack of his neighbor s rifle at his ear led him to fire as rapidly as he again for the sake of the comfort of the noise the reward was not long delayed five plunged the in smoke impenetrable to the eye and the bullets began to take ground twenty or thirty yards in front of the as the weight of the dragged down and to the right arms wearied with holding the kick of the leaping the company peered helplessly through the smoke the more nervous mechanically trying to fan it away with their high and to the left a captain till he was hoarse no good cease firing and let it drift away a bit three and four times the shrieked the order and when it was obeyed the fore and aft looked that their foe should be lying before them in of a light the drums of the and aft wind drove the smoke to and showed the y still in position and apparently unaffected a quarter of a ton of lead had been buried a in front of them as the ragged earth that was not they were waiting for the mad riot to die down and were firing quietly into the heart of the smoke a private of the fore and aft spun up his company shrieking with agony another was kicking the earth and gasping and a third through the lower by a jagged bullet was calling aloud on his comrades to put him out of his pain these were the and they were not soothing to hear or see the smoke cleared to a dull haze then the foe began to shout with a great shouting and a mass � a black mass � detached itself from the main body and rolled over the ground at horrid speed it was composed of perhaps three hundred men who would shout and fire and if the rush of their fifty comrades who were determined to die carried home the fifty were half with and wholly mad with religious when they rushed the british fire ceased and in the lull the order was given to close ranks and meet them with the any one who knew the business could have told the fore and aft that the only way of dealing with a rush is by at long because a man who means to die who desires to die who will gain heaven by dying must in nine cases out of ten kill a man who has a lingering prejudice in favor of life if he can close with the latter where they should have closed and gone forward the fore and aft opened out and and where they should have opened out and fired they closed and waited a man dragged from his blankets half awake and is never in a pleasant frame of mind nor does his happiness increase when he watches the of the eyes of three hundred six foot upon whose the foam is lying upon the drums op the fore and aft whose tongues is a roar of wrath and in whose hands are three foot knives the fore and aft heard the bringing that regiment forward at the double while the of the pipes came from the left they strove to stay where they were though the wavered down the line like the oars of a ragged boat then they felt body to body the amazing physical strength of their foes a shriek of pain ended the rush and the knives fell amid scenes not to be told the men together and smote blindly � as often as not at their own fellows their front like paper and the fifty passed on their now drunk with success fighting as madly as they then the rear ranks were to close up and the dashed into the � alone for the rear rank had heard the in front the and the of pain and had seen the dark stale blood that makes afraid they were not going to stay it was the rushing of the over again let their officers go to hell if they chose they would get away from the knives come on shrieked the and their men cursing them drew back each closing into his neighbor and round and of the last company faced their death alone in the belief that their men would follow you ve killed me you sobbed and dropped cut from the shoulder to the centre of the chest and a fresh of his men retreating always retreating trampled him under foot at they made for the pass whence they had emerged i kissed her in the kitchen and i kissed her in the ball child un child un follow me oh said the cook is he to kiss us all the drums of the fore and aft the were pouring through the left and over the heights at the double to the invitation of their step the black rocks were crowned with dark green as the gave tongue � in the morning in the morning by the bright light when blows his trumpet in the morning the rear companies tripped and over loose stones the front halted for a moment to take stock of the valley and to settle stray boot then a happy little sigh of contentment down the ranks and it was as though the land smiled for behold there below was the enemy and it was to meet them that the had doubled so hastily there was much enemy there would be amusement the little men their well to hand and at their officers as grin ere the stone is cast for them to fetch the ground downward to the valley and they enjoyed a fair view of the proceedings they sat upon the to
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to love you and your repeated your will be forgiven only when the law has separated you from him and made you mine forever the hands of mrs gray were clasped over her face and her form rocked to and fro in pain whatever you may have had of love for me she answered i never felt the least affection in return in spite of my conduct in those days when you threw your evil personality around me i never cared for you no never i used to leave your side in the bitterest for my sins i returned to you as the bird goes to the of the snake it knows not how to resist even when giving all that is supposed to go with the deepest love i hated you with my whole mind more than once with lips pressed to yours i have wished that a knife lay near that i might plunge it into your breast and when i remember the suffering you made me endure the misery i brought to the best of fathers the lies i told to the kindest of mothers the shame i became to the most honorable of husbands i wonder i do not find some weapon to kill you now instead of for the mercy it is not in your iron heart to grant the man under the lash but he had no idea of giving up he renewed liis arguments confident that in the end she would have to to his wishes you know what i can do if you drive me to it he said slowly i can send your husband proofs in peril that you have met me here repeatedly and been with me for hours together i but he knows it already she interrupted a shiver what do you mean he asked glancing toward the door in alarm i mean that he accused me of it to day and that i had not the courage to deny the charge yes she added as she saw the effect her words produced he knows it now all about and everything he knows we have had secret meetings and he told me she uttered a gasp that because of this he would never see or speak to me again he left the house hours ago and he has not returned this was indeed unexpected news quick thoughts passed through the brain of the listener what was mr gray doing at the present moment more than likely searching the city to find him and if so with no intentions however inquiry at the hotel office would not reveal the correct name of the of his rooms for a had always been used there all the stronger reasons now prevailed for securing and making the possible flight to europe if your husband has said this he told her you can never hope to regain his affection a gulf is now established between you well in exchange for his coldness i offer the warmest love his home will be closed to you mine will be open you shall bring both your children he went on eagerly i will give them the care of a father without distinction my dearest i do not wish to threaten you i have only tried to use the means to love gone bring you to my way of thinking if there is any other that you wish me to make you have but to ask and you will see how willingly i will grant it only i must have you i cannot live without you she thought of the home that was ruined and her heart sank had cast her off the fortune he had thought to gain by his marriage had vanished if she could bring it back to him perhaps perhaps he would forgive her it would be so easy for you to help me out of my troubles she stammered you say you possess proofs that mr has no right to the property that mr willed you admit that you have nothing personally to gain or lose in the transaction why oh why will you not give those proofs to me and let me take them to my husband with that simple act you would make me the happiest woman on earth and do much to blot from your soul the terrible record of sin that so it you will do it i know you will she cried sinking on the carpet at his feet you have only been trying me he put his hands on her head and the touch seemed to rather than melt him he took you once for money and you think he would do so again he answered bitterly perhaps he would i do not think his estimate of you is much higher than that but i assure you i shall not help him this time no i have the secret that can make him rich and mine it remains unless you give your own sweet self in exchange in this envelope is absolute evidence that the estate is his in swear to go with me to europe and to marry me as soon as a divorce from him can be obtained and i will give you that if you think you owe him anything more than he has already had your debt will be richly paid with these papers all you have to do is to send him this envelope by a messenger with a note saying you will not see him again the children are easily and i will that on saturday we and they will be on the ocean if you decline you have simply lost him and he has lost his property i will make no other terms the woman s eyes began to with strange fires she seemed to realize her helplessness in the presence of this strong force let me see she murmured is to have two hundred thousand dollars in exchange for
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justice to say that she declared her opinion in favour of it then she looked at me through the eye glass again wouldn t you like to go to school i shook my head no why not i went to school when i was a girl of your age yes but i shouldn t like to go to school thank you mother couldn t do without me for one thing she gave a short sort of laugh oh little miss you set yourself at a high value she remarked how do you think my mother did without me i don t know i don t think about it but i m sure mine couldn t could you mother i am not going to try said my mother quietly if she was an invalid my mother was not weak minded and in spite of mrs and one or two other friends who offered advice the magic wheel upon the subject i passed my at and i never went to school so many people then said that it would be better for me if i did that i grew up with a certain amount of doubt upon the subject but looking back over the long years which have passed between then and now i feel sure that my mother was right that had i gone to school i should never have been built up into even the semblance of strength which is now mine i have no recollection of ever having been spoiled i was never punished in my life i never remember being naughty � at least if i was i was unconsciously naughty for nobody ever told me of it but i do not think i was ever a child in the common of the word i lived the same life as my parents i had the same meals that they had i got up when they got up and i went to bed when i wished to go to bed not before i could ride and drive and fish and shoot i knew everything about country life � i mean about animals and things of that kind � and i had an appetite for any sort of reading i read the newspapers and the weekly journals as regularly as my first sign of father and mother did i read every magazine and novel that came into the house and when occasionally they failed i fell back upon shakespeare and the poets from the time i was twelve years until i was turned seventeen the dog cart used to go to the station every morning to fetch a lady who was my she was not a french woman as mrs had recommended but she taught and spoke both french and german exceedingly well and in both these languages she me otherwise i grew up without any of the ordinary accomplishments i never tried to draw anything in my life i could not play a note on the piano i never sang excepting when i went to church and plain was utterly beyond my ken by the time i was eighteen years old and had finished my education i had only been two or three times in london with the exception of single nights when we had broken our journey from where my mother went every year to take the waters consequently i had no passion for a career on the stage i never longed to be on the business side of the al the magic wheel though i in the theatre when i was able to go to it as perhaps no girl ever did before was in fact an creature for i had no and i was perfectly content and happy in my country home i never even thought about the husband that would one day be mine true it never occurred to me that by any possibility i should remain unmarried my mother always spoke of my marriage as a something which would certainly happen just as she might have spoken of my death i had read so many novels that i knew he would come from somewhere and so i never worried about him i never came out in society i had always been out and when i had reached my birthday i had never been to a low dance in my life in fact i never learned to dance at all until one summer at when i had assumed the dignity of long and had turned my hair up i never had a dancing lesson i took up the accomplishment as something to do i suppose if i had lived in london i should have gone in for skirt dancing but at such a thing had never been i first sign of heard of at that time of day and my dancing over which my german mistress had so and of which she had predicted such great issues remained like a rose in the wilderness wasting its sweetness on the desert air then something happened to me i was passing through the hall one day on my way from the garden to pour out my mother s tea i came in by the front door which was shaded by a curious glass porch at all times kept filled with plants in summer it was always in greater beauty than in winter for and blue hung from the roof within the hall which was a large square entrance very much of the nature of a sitting room many other plants were set exactly opposite to the door was an enormous looking glass in a massive gilt frame this stretched from the ceiling to the floor a group of palms and other green plants stood at one side of this glass and its other corner was shaded by a curtain of beads up to one side as i advanced to the glass on my way to the drawing room door i saw a strange young man walking immediately
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looked cross and vexed at the question then past her at the and went forward and was never more fascinating than in the ten minutes walk that left the others free to follow as they chose behind them but when mr had put the into her pony carriage and she had driven away happy as any s e love struck girl of who comes trembling from her first love it seemed that she had taken his good spirits with her and after a word or two to left the young people abruptly after that herself was in haste to go and when she found that they would all meet at the san e ball that evening said that she and would make their plans there for seeing something of each other but when she reached street she went straight to the library where she found mr sitting grim and silent at his table with that vexed look which always strikes so sad and on young eyes she said timidly as she stole up behind him and ventured to draw his head to her shoulder has anyone vexed you to day � have you been disappointed the gentle touch the loving voice moved him almost as as his wife s had done when one of his dark fits overcame him and surely this child was his not s yet nor any other man s but he did not say what his disappointment had been as he kissed her nor for weeks did she again hear the name of major from her father s lips chapter iv is the y in its soft blossom and sweet is the its mantle green yet fairer and sweets and dear to this is young lovely j the flower of was not of the stuff that easily makes she had lived too entirely among men to have much in common with the average frivolous miss and the specimens of she had seen in town did not commend themselves to her but in she found a delightful surprise for here was a nature at once profound and sweet as in mood she was alternately grave and gay wilful tender she resembled an april day that with all its httle showers never suffers you to lose sight of heaven s blue beyond and hke a she moved along the path that was yet set about with many a thorn of trouble father and mother were dead sisters and brothers she had none and her home was made with a distant relation whose bread she ate and whose charity clothed her the bread was good of its kind the clothes were carefully chosen to set her off to advantage in that race which must be run by all well bom maids � the race for a husband on regarded he as one of the e a in the field for her body matched the lovely spirit within and when seen in public with i i was hard to the palm of beauty to either fire courage soul showed in s eyes of that rare that matches so with hair the exact colour of a chestnut when fresh stripped of its the pure of her skin the red of her mouth and the grace of her every movement mental and bodily strength so that when she was present she seemed to other women s looks by the vitality of her own and in other faces men sought in vain for the expression they found in hers in conversation she was not so remarkable as in her appearance and probably no one who met her out would have added the of brains to her already overflowing when very early in the season she discovered that to attempt seriously to converse with either her partners or the men who sat next her at dinner produced only amazement and discomfort in these gentlemen and that the women could be eloquent only on the theme of their own and other folks clothes she banished serious thought from her and but for common sense would have rushed into the airs of a female fool rather than show any signs of wisdom so she the flame in her eyes and learned small talk with more labour than mr s hardest lesson had ever cost her succeeding so well that more than one fashionable found himself exquisitely happy in her company being under the impression that her mental was inferior to his own would sometimes stare but would laugh for had been as complete a revelation to as she had been to yet however intimate e s they became their talk was of books and things and people but of lovers and hearts never a word meanwhile mr had not obtained the interview that he for though he had called so persistently at mrs s house as to feel almost like a beggar who haunts a door step the answer was always the same major was out by way of he was sometimes out of town and his return indefinite or he had just come in and just gone out again though the miracle of it was that no one ever met him abroad while he had not showed at his club for months mr at first attributed this of him to the man s well known aversion to any sort of society and also the dislike he was supposed to entertain to any friends of the late lord but when even his letters were disregarded mr began to suspect that there was some secret here and became the more resolute in his advance as the other retreated could it be possible that in dying frank had dropped some words that had picked up that this actually held the clue that mr believed to have been lost with his friend yet he could have sworn that was frank himself whose eyes had met his and at night and odd times strange thoughts would come into mr s
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am really obliged to you i had no idea of checking your too partial friendship not too partial sir the major i deny it your friendship i will say then mr on any account nor can i forget major on such an occasion as the present how much i am indebted to it says the major with appropriate action that is the hand of joseph of plain old b sir if you like that better that is the hand of which his royal the late duke of york did me the honor to observe sir to his royal the late duke of that it was the hand of a rough and tough and possibly an up old vagabond may the present moment be the least unhappy of our lives god bless you now enters mr gorgeous likewise and smiling like a wedding guest indeed he can scarcely let mr s hand go he is so and he the major s hand so heartily at the same time that his voice shakes too in accord with his arms as it comes sliding from between his teeth the very day is says mr the brightest and most genial weather i hope i am not a moment late punctual to your time sir says the major i am rejoiced i am sure says mr i was ix and son afraid i might be a f w after the appointed time for i was delayed by a of and i took the liberty of riding round to brook street � this to mr � to leave a few poor of flowers for mrs a man in my position and so distinguished as to be invited here is proud to offer some homage in acknowledgment of his and as i have no mrs is overwhelmed with what is costly and with a strange glance at his patron i hope the very poverty of my offering may find favor for it mrs that is to be returns mr will be very sensible of your attention i am sure and if she is to be mrs this morning sir says the major putting down his coffee cup and looking at his watch it s high time we were off forth in a ride mr major and mr to the church mr the has long risen from the steps and is in waiting with his cocked hat in his hand mrs and chairs in the mr prefers remaining in the church as he looks up at the organ miss in the gallery behind the fat leg of a on a monument with cheeks like a yoimg wind captain on the contrary stands up and waves his hook in token of welcome and encouragement mr the chicken behind his hand that the middle gentleman he in the coloured is the father of his love the chicken hoarsely whispers mr that he s as stiff a as ever he see but that it is within the resources of science to double him up with one blow in the waistcoat mr and mrs are mr from a little distance when the noise of approaching wheels is heard and mr goes out mrs meeting mr s eye as it is withdrawn from the upstairs who him with so much drops a and him that she believes his good lady is come then there is a crowding and a whispering at the door and the good lady enters with a haughty step there is no sign upon her face of last night s suffering there is no trace in her manner of the woman on the knees her wild head in beautiful and son upon the pillow of the girl that girl all gentle and lovely is at her side � a striking contrast to her own disdain and defiant figure standing there composed erect inscrutable of will and majestic in the of its charms yet beating down and treading on the admiration that it there is a pause while mr the into the for the clergyman and clerk at this juncture mrs speaks to mr more distinctly and emphatically her custom is and moving at the same time close to my dear says the good i fear i must darling after all and her to go home as she herself proposed after my loss of to day my dear i feel i shall not have spirits even for her society had she not better stay with you returns the bridegroom i think not my dear no i think not i shall be better alone besides my dearest will be her natural and constant guardian when you return and i had better not upon her trust perhaps she might be jealous eh dear the affectionate presses her daughter s arm as she says this perhaps her attention earnestly to be serious my dear she i will our dear child and not inflict my gloom upon her we have settled that just now she fully dear my dear � she fully understands again the good mother presses her daughter s arm mr offers no additional remonstrance for the clergyman and appear and mrs and mr the group the party in their proper places at the altar rails who this woman to be married to this man cousin does that he has come from on purpose confound it cousin says � creature cousin � when we do get a rich city fellow into the family let us show him some attention let us do something for him give this woman to be married to this man cousin therefore cousin meaning to go in a straight line but turning off sideways by reason of his wilful legs gives ike wrong woman to be married to this man at and son first � to wit a of some condition connected with the family and ten years mrs s � but mrs her bonnet turns him back and runs him as on at the good lady whom cousin
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their minds new command takes place new servants and new masters their information their wealth their correspondence have made them quite other men than left their native shore t ey are now and by another patent than the king s had been good had broken the power of the kings and had some very good traits of its own but it had grown mischievous it was time for it to die and as they say of dying people all its faults came out trade was the strong man that broke it down and raised a tht young american april new and unknown power in its place it is a new agent in the world and one of great function it is a very intellectual force this physical strength and combination information science in its room it calls out all force of a certain kind that in the former it is now in the midst of its career is not ended yet our still partake largely of that element trade goes to make the insignificant and to bring every kind of faculty of every individual that can in any manner serve any person on sale instead of a huge army and navy and it to convert government into a of intelligence an intelligence where every man may find what he wishes to buy and expose what he has to sell not only produce and but art skill and and moral this is the good and this the evil of trade that it goes to put everything into market talent beauty virtue and man himself by this means however it has done its work it has its faults and will come to an end as the others do we rail at trade and the philosopher and lover of man have much harm to say of it but the historian of the world will see that trade was the principle of liberty that trade planted america and destroyed that it makes peace and keeps peace and it will slavery we complain of the grievous oppression of the poor and of its building up a new aristocracy on the ruins of the aristocracy it destroyed but there is this immense difference that the aristocracy of trade has no is not was the result of toil and talent the result of merit of some kind and is continually falling like the waves of the sea before new claims of the same sort trade is an instrument in the hands of that friendly power which works for us in our own despite we design it thus and thus but it turns out otherwise and better this beneficent tendency without violence exists and works every observation of history a confidence that we shall not go far wrong that things mend that is it that is the moral of all we learn that it hope hope the mother of our part is plainly not to throw ourselves the young american across the track not to block improvement and sit till are stone but to watch the of successive and to with the new works of new days government has been a it should be a plant i conceive that the office of law should be to express and not to the mind of mankind � new thoughts new things trade was one instrument but trade is also but for a time and must give way to somewhat broader and better whose signs are already dawn ing in the sky i pass in the third place to speak of the signs of that which is the of trade it is in consequence of the revolution in the state of society wrought by trade that government in our times is beginning to wear so clumsy and an appearance we have already seen our way to shorter methods the time is full of good signs some of them shall to fruit all this beneficent is a friendly omen and the swelling cry of voices for the education of the people that government has other offices than those of banker and witness the new movements in the civilized world the of france germany and the trades the english league against the corn laws and the whole so called in paris the the of the has begun to make its appearance in the witness too the spectacle of three which have within a very short time sprung up within this beside several others undertaken by citizens of within the territory of other states these proceeded from a variety of motives from an impatience of many in common life from a wish for greater freedom than the manners and opinions of society permitted but in great part from a feeling that the true offices of the state the state had let fall to the ground that in the scramble of parties for the public purse the main duties of government were omitted � the duty to instruct the to supply the poor with work and with good guidance these preferred the agricultural life as the most favorable condition for human culture but they thought that the farm as we manage it did not satisfy vol iv no iv the american the right ambition of man the farmer after sacrificing pleasure taste freedom thought love to bis work turns out often a like the merchant this result might well seem all this from to for all these years to end in and the s flag and removing from bad to worse it is time to have the thing looked into and with a criticism ascertained who is the fool it seemed a great deal v because the farmer is living in the same town with men who pretend to know exactly what he wants or one side is agricultural coolly exposing the nonsense of our and expense of and o� by means of a of artificial to turn a into corn and on the other the farmer not only eager for the information but with
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one day i ll be trusted again with a flock i m young and can wait and who knows may tell me his cure for the and by serving him i may get a when has a litter in such wise jacob looked to and for future fortune and as he came over the ridge and caught sight of waiting for him he said call up thy dogs master lest they should fall upon mine and upon me has already risen to his feet and growling laid his staff across their backs what will ye attack jacob he cried and what be your quarrel with his dogs poor dogs jacob answered that would be quickly killed by thine if i had had dogs like and the wolves would not but jacob thou have lost thy dogs as well as thy sheep what stand could any dogs make against a pack of wolves and a shepherd without dogs is like a bird without wings as brother used to say yes that is just it jacob replied struck by the of the comparison thou art known to be the most shepherd on the hills but the flock would not have increased without thy dogs is great in his knowledge of dogs and he told me that he had never known any like thine master come now cried come lie down here lay thy against my knee and growl not at jacob or i ll send thee away so spoke of my dogs they are well enough one can work with them but had better dogs whereupon told a story how one night he had lain under a fair sky to sleep and had slept so soundly that the rain had not him but � that was the dog s name � distressed at the sight of me lying in the rain began to my face and when i had wrung out my cloak he led me to a dry cave s� the brook unknown to me though i thought i knew every one in these hills he must have gone in search of one as soon as it began to rain and when he found a dry one he came back to awaken me more faithful dogs he said there never were than these at my feet but i ve known stronger and but i d tell thee another story of and he related how one night in december as he watched having for his protection only his other dogs and being at home one with a lame the other with he had fallen asleep though he knew robbers were about in the hills especially in the winter months he said but i knew i could count on to awake me if one came to steal the sheep now what about to say jacob happened at the time of the great rain of december when the nights are dark about us i was sleeping in a sheltered place in the of a cliff the flock was folded and was away upon his rounds and it was then that two robbers stole into the cave one was about to plunge his dagger into me but i had time to catch his wrist and to whistle and in a few seconds upon the robber that was seeking to me he bit his neck and shoulder and then leaving that robber he attacked the robber s mate and it was wonderful how he crept round and round in the darkness biting him all the time and then pursuing the two he worried them up the valley until his heart him and he thought it wouldn t be safe to leave me alone any longer but would defend thee against a robber jacob said and he called to the dog but only growled at him have patience with them rejoined i ll not feed them for three days and after feeding them thou lt take them to the hills and when they have and killed a for thee it may be that they ll accept thee for master but these rarely love twice come the brook jacob and we ll look into thy flock of and take counsel together they seem to be doing fairly well with thee � a bit tired i dare say thou hast come a long way with them we walked too fast jacob answered saying he had had to go farther than he thought for in search of grass and had found some that was worth the distance they had for the had fallen to at once fell to at once did they repeated when they re folded with the thou it put into their jaws a stick to keep them from and without waiting for jacob to answer he asked which of all these he would choose to keep for breeding from jacob pointed out first one and then another but shook his head and showed him a lamb which jacob had not cast his eyes over and said one may not say for certain but i shall be surprised if he doesn t come into a fine broad shouldered ram strong across the and straight on his legs the sort to get that do well on these hills and thou lt be well advised to leave him on his dam another hundred days him for it will give him strength to take some wool from him but do not take it from his back for he will want the wool there to protect him from the sun and all the first year he will about with the and jump upon them but it will be only play for his time has not yet come in two more years he ll be at his height serving ten a day but keep him not over long thou must always have some new preparing else thy flock will decline the ram thou on the right is old and must soon be replaced
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ind if i do he said rising and moving toward them what do you want me to do who s my partner the three other men stared at one another in surprise for was one of the best players in the regiment and in an ordinary way would as soon have thought of counting honours as of settling the question of partners other than by cutting except in the case of a revenge why take a card of course my laughed in a soft voice was a recent from the white and had taken possession of the place left vacant in every day life by scott s marriage ah yes to be sure � cut of course i believe said looking at the three faces before him in an uncertain way i believe i ve got a headache oh nothing like for a headache answered turning up the last card ace of diamonds however after stumbling through one game � after twice his partner s trick a i several such like � he rose to his feet it s no use you fellows � i m no good to night i can t even see the cards get some one to take my place and make a fresh start why you re ill cried what is it baby it s a devil of a headache answered promptly here s miles � the very man good night good night called the fellows after him then they settled down to their game and dealt never saw before said oh yes he gets these sometimes answered not often though miles your lead meantime went wearily away almost feeling his road under the of the along the broad in front of the officers quarters and up the wide flight of stone steps to his rooms facing the green of the square being the senior captain with only one bachelor field officer in the regiment he had two large and pleasant rooms not very furnished for though a rich man he was not an extravagant one and saw no fun in having costly goods and to be at the tender of soldier servants but they were neat clean and comfortable with a of great easy travelling chairs plenty of fur and lots of pretty little pictures and the fire in his sitting room was fast dying out but a bright and cheerful blaze his sleep big room shining on the brass of his cot on i silver at the � baby dressing case on the three or four scent bottles on the tall table and on the tired but figure of himself he dragged the big chair pretty near to the fire and dropped into it with a sigh of relief absolutely too sick and weary to think about getting into bed just then as had said sometimes these seized him but it did not happen often � in fact he had not had one for more than a year � quite often enough he said well he had been lying in the big and easy chair his eyes shut and his hands hanging idly over the broad which served for arms for perhaps half an hour when to his surprise he heard a soft rustling movement behind him his first and not unnatural thought was that the fellows had come to draw him so without moving he called out oh confound it all don t come a poor devil with a headache by jove it s cruelty to animals neither more nor less the soft rustling ceased and closed his eyes again with a devout prayer that they would in response to this appeal take themselves off but presently it began again accompanied by a sound which made his heart jump almost into his mouth and beat so furiously as to be simply it stopped � was repeated � the devil muttered but it was not the devil at all � like a baby little angel in truth � for after a moment s he sprang from his chair and faced horror behind him it really was a horror to for there sitting up among the pillows of the cot with the clothes pushed back was a baby � a baby whose short golden curls shone in the � a little child dressed in white with a pair of open wondering eyes as bright as stars and i blue as stood in dismay staring at it where in the name of all that s wonderful did you come from p he asked aloud keeping at a safe distance lest it should suddenly start howling but the little stranger did not howl on the contrary as its bewildered eyes fell upon figure his gold scarlet jacket and gold embroidered waistcoat of white velvet his gold and spurs stretched out its little arms and cried took a step back in his and his headache vanished as if by magic by � jove he exclaimed � � the of the cot cheerily went a step nearer why you re i queer little beggar he remarked where did you come from eh the queer little beggar suddenly changed its baby ire � � tone ant started another system of more triumphant and cheery than the first � � � it went began to laugh can t talk � hey well what do you want as it struggled fiercely to rise and stretched out its small arms more impatiently than before want to be lifted up hey oh but dash it scratching his head can t lift you up you know � it s out of the question � impossible by jove i might let you drop and you � � � oo � oo the baby as if it was the best joke in the world positively roared you don t mind well come along then approaching very and wondering where he should begin to get hold of it so to speak the baby soon settled that question
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who was in front bent down and picked up something with which his had it was dark and he could not see it but he recognized it by the touch he flung it back so that it struck the and along it fetched up on bill s you ll need that in your business henry said bill uttered an exclamation it was all that was left of � the stick with which he had been tied � they ate m hide an all bill announced � the stick s as clean as a whistle they ve ate the leather both ends they re damn hungry henry an they ll have you an me before this trip s over henry laughed i ain t been this way by wolves before but i ve gone through a whole lot worse an kept my health takes more n white a handful of them to do for yours truly bill my son � i don t know i don t know bill n uttered f well you ll know all right when we pull into i ain t special enthusiastic bill persisted you re off color that s what s the matter with you henry what you need is i an i m goin to dose you up stiff as soon j as we make bill his with the and into silence the day was like all the days light came at nine o clock at twelve o clock the southern horizon was warmed by the unseen sun and then began the cold gray of afternoon that would three hours later into night it was just after the sun s futile effort to appear that bill slipped the rifle from under the and said � you keep right on henry i m goin to see what i can see you d better stick by the his partner protested � you ve only got three an there s no what might happen who s now bill demanded triumphantly henry made no reply and on alone though the she wolf i he cast anxious glances back into the gray l where his partner had disappeared an hour later taking advantage of the cut around which the had to go bill arrived re scattered an along wide he said up with us an for game at the same time you see they re sure of us only they know they vo got to wait to get us in the meantime they re to pick up that comes handy � you mean they they re sure of us henry objected but bill ignored him i seen some of them they re pretty thin they ain t had a bite in weeks i reckon outside of an an an there s so many of em that that didn t go far they re remarkable thin their ribs is like an their is right up against their the re pretty desperate i can tell you they ll be goin mad yet an then watch out a few minutes later henry who was now travelling behind the a low warning whistle bill turned and looked then quietly stopped the dogs to the rear from around the last bend and plainly into view on the very trail they had just covered trotted form its nose was to the trail and it trotted with a peculiar sliding gait when they halted it halted throwing up its white head and regarding them steadily with nostrils that as it caught and studied the scent of them it s the she wolf bill whispered the dogs had lain down in the snow and he walked past them to join his partner at the together they watched the strange animal that had for and that had already accomplished the destruction of half their dog team after a searching scrutiny the animal trotted fo ward a few steps this it repeated several times till it was a short hundred yards away it paused head up close by a of trees and with sight and scent studied the of the watching men it looked at them in a strangely wistful way after the manner of a dog but in its there was none of the dog affection it was a bred of as cruel as its own as merciless an the frost itself it was large for a wolf its gaunt frame the lines of an animal that was among the largest of its kind stands pretty close to two feet an a half at shoulders henry commented � an i ll bet it far from five feet long kind of color for a wolf was criticism � i never seen a red wolf before looks almost to me the animal was certainly not colored the she its coat was the true wolf coat the dominant color was gray and yet there was to it int � a hue that was that appeared and disappeared that was more like an illusion of the vision now gray distinctly gray and again giving hints and of a vague of color not in terms of ordinary experience looks for all the world like a big dog bill said � i wouldn t be s to see it wag its tail � you f he called � come here you whatever your name is ain t a bit of you henry laughed bill waved his hand at it and shouted loudly but the animal betrayed no fear the only change in it that they could notice was an accession of it still regarded them with the merciless of they were meat and it was hungry and it would like to go in and eat them if it dared look here henry bill said unconsciously lowering his voice to a whisper because of what he meditated we ve got three but it s a dead shot couldn t miss it it s got away with three of our dogs an we put a stop
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blame much their ample discussion of every detail of the ter led to speak of electric flat irons and bed for being so old fashioned as still to use a water bottle and he announced that he would have i the sleeping porch at once he had enormous and poetic admiration thou very little understanding of all mechanical devices they were his of truth and beauty regarding each new intricate � metal two jet machine gun � be learned one good sounding phrase and used it over and over with a delightful feeling of being and the customer joined him in the worship of machinery and they came up to the and began that examination of slate roof doors and seven inch blind nailed began those of hurt surprise and readiness to be persuaded to do something they had already decided to do v ch would some day result in a sale on the way back picked up his partner and law henry t sod at bis kitchen cabinet wo and d n by th drove throng south a hi i � � region new of tile with wire ass windows surly old red brick stained with tar hi i water big red like and on a of side tracks far wandering freight cats from the new york central and e � the great northern and the southern pacific and orange groves they talked to the secretary of the ry an i tr � li artistic project cast iron fence c they drove on to tbe company and the manager l a on a car for mon and were fellow members of the and no felt ri t if he bought anything from another receiving a but henry growled ot t with em i m not to crawl around ing not from nobody it was one of the differences i between the old fashioned lean yankee rugged i stage type of american business and the smooth efficient up to the minute and otherwise modem whenever put your john on that line was as much amused by the as any proper englishman by any american he knew himself to be of a breeding altogether more and sensitive than s he was a he played he often smoked in stead of cigars and when he went to he took a room with a private bath the thing is he to paul these old lack the that you got to have to day advance in civilization could be carried too far perceived manager of the was a frivolous of was a sound and standard ware from that great department store the state wore he wrote long letters about d n by planning and singing and be � u m be was known to in his pocket of in a foreign language all this was going too far i was the of and land the extreme br w e between ai the state defending the and domestic and sound business were and his friends with this just estimate of himself � and with the promise of a on s car � he returned to his in h but as be went the of the building he sighed poor old paul i i got to� oh damn l damn just because they make more than i do they think they re so superior i wouldn t be found dead in their old union i � somehow to day i don t feel like going back to work oh he calls he read the four o clock mail he signed his morning s letters he talked to a tenant about he fought with young the outside was always that be deserved an increase of commission and to day he complained i think i ought to get a if i put the sale i m chasing around and working on it every single evening almost frequently remarked to his wife that it was better to con your office help along and keep em happy stead of on em and em � get more work out of em that way but this led lack of appreciation hurt him and he turned on look here let s get this clear you ve got an idea somehow that it you that do all the selling where d yon get that stuff where d yon think you d be if it wasn t tor d n by t oar a yon our lists of and all the ts we find for yon all you got to do is follow iq our � and dose the deal the hall porter could sell yon say you re engaged to a girl but have to put in your after well why the devil shouldn t you what do you want to do sit around holding her hand let me you if your girl is worth her salt shell be ad to know you re out bustling making some to furnish the home nest instead of doing the the kind of fellow that about working that wants to his evenings reading or and exchanging a lot of nonsense and ne girl he ain t the kind of man with a future � a nd with vision � that we want here how about it ty a y you want to make money and be a member of the is or do you want to be a with no inspiration or was not so to and as usual on bet i want to make mon l that s why i want that i don t want to get fresh bnt this is a fall for it the floor ing a rotten and the are full of cracks exactly i meant to a with a for his oa it hard problems like that that inspire him to do his best besides � matter o fact non i are against as a matter of principle we like yon and we want to you so you can get married
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the oars haste to be gone the first mate of the sprang ashore exchanged a word with the one armed native then hurried toward the day grew suddenly dark as a obscured the face of the sun across the could see approaching the ominous line of the puff of wind captain says you ve got to get to hell here was the mate s greeting if there s any shell we ve got to run the risk of picking it up later on � so he says the s dropped to twenty the gust of wind struck the overhead and tore through the palms the house of n beyond flinging half a dozen ripe with heavy to the ground then came the rain out of the distance advancing with the roar of a gale of wind and causing the water of the to smoke in driven the sharp rattle of the first drops was on the leaves when sprang to his feet a thousand dollars cash down he said and two hundred dollars in trade i want a house � the other began in order to make himself heard you are a fool he flung out of the house and side by side with the mate fought his way down the beach toward the boat they could not see the boat the rain about them so that they could see only the beach under their feet and the little waves from the that snapped and bit at the sand a figure appeared through the it was the man with the one arm the house of did you get the pearl he in s ear is a tool i was the answering yell and the next moment they were lost to each other in the descending water half an hour later watching from the side of the saw the two boats hoisted in and the pointing her nose out to sea and near her just come in from the sea on the wings of the he saw another to and dropping a boat into the water he knew her it was the y owned by the half caste who served as his own and who was even then in the stern sheets of the boat chuckled he knew that owed for trade goods advanced the year before the had passed the hot sun was blazing down and the was once more a mirror but the air was like and the weight of it seemed to burden the lungs and make breathing difficult the house of have you heard the news asked has found a pearl never was there a pearl like it ever up in nor anywhere in the nor anywhere in all the world is a fool besides he owes you money remember that i told you first ha e you any tobacco and to the grass of went he was a man withal a fairly stupid one carelessly he glanced at the wonderful pearl � glanced for a moment only and carelessly he dropped it into his pocket you are lucky he said it is a nice pearl i will give you credit on the books i want a house began in consternation it must be six six your grandmother was the s retort you want to pay up your debts that s what you want you owed me twelve hundred dollars very well you owe them no longer the the house of amount is besides i will give you credit for two hundred if when i get to the pearl well i will give you credit for another hundred � that will make three hundred but mind only if the pearl well i may even lose money on it folded his arms in sorrow and sat with bowed head he had been robbed of his pearl in place of the house he had paid a debt there was nothing to show for the pearl you are a fool said you are a fool said his mother why did you let the pearl into his hand what was i to do protested i owed him the money he knew i had the pearl you heard him yourself ask to see it i had not told him he knew somebody else told him and i owed him the money is a fool she was twelve years old and did not know any better relieved his the house of feelings by sending her from a box on the ear while and burst into tears and continued to him after the manner of women watching on the beach saw a third that he knew heave to outside the entrance and drop a boat it was the well named for she was owned by the german jew the greatest pearl of them all and as was well known was the god of and thieves have you heard the news asked as a fat man with massive features stepped out upon the beach has found a pearl there was never a pearl like it in in all the in all the world is a fool he has sold it to for fourteen hundred � i listened outside and heard is likewise a fool you can buy it from him cheap remember that i told you first have you any tobacco u the house of where is in the house of captain drinking he has been there an hour and while and drank and over the pearl listened and heard the price of twenty five thousand agreed upon it was at this time that both the and the running in close to the shore began firing guns and the three men stepped outside in time to see the two go hastily about and head off shore dropping and flying on the run in the teeth of the that them far over on the water then the rain blotted them out they ll be back after it s over said we d better be getting out
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two or three pi information which we bestow public chiefly because it suits our own p and convenience that they should be and partly because we do not wish tha should be any ill will between us at th of our acquaintance our intention is simply to instruct the reform the old correct the town and ca the age this is an task and th we undertake it with confidence we for this purpose to present a striking of the town and as every body is � m of esq see his o n on canvas stupid or ugly it may be we have no doubt but the whole town will flock to our exhibit tion our necessarily include a variety of figures and should any gentleman or lady be displeased with the truth of their they may ease their by laughing at those of their neighbours � this being what we understand by poetical justice like all true and able we consider ourselves and therefore with the customary of our brethren of the we shall take the liberty of interfering all matters either of a public or private nature we are critics and and as we know � i by the of our � that every opinion which we may advance in either of those characters be correct we are determined though it j be questioned contradicted or even yet it shall never be to conclude we invite all of news papers and literary journals to praise us heartily in advance as we assure them that we whim and opinions intend to deserve their praises to our door neighbour � town � we hold out a of declaring to him that after our paper will stand the best chance for we an exchange of shall furnish us with notices of poem and we in return will with original speculations on all subjects together with � the my grandfather s mahogany chest of draw � the life and of mine uncle � anecdotes of the family � and li ed from that unheard of writ from the elbow chair of esq we were a considerable time in whether we should be at the pains of i � the title of a newspaper published in new york the c of which among other miscellaneous topics occasional on the performances at the theatre � ed of esq ourselves to the public as we care for nobody and as we are not yet at the bar ive do not feel bound to hold up our hands ind answer to our names willing however to gain at once that frank confidential footing which we are certain of possessing in this doubtless � best f all possible cities � and anxious to spare worthy inhabitants the trouble making wise conjectures not one of which ould be worth a tobacco we have it in some degree a necessary of charitable condescension to furnish with a slight clue to the truth before we proceed further however we advise every body � man woman and child � that can read or get any friend to read for them to purchase this paper � not that e write for money for in common with all philosophers from solomon downwards we hold it in supreme contempt we beg the public particularly to understand that we no patronage we are determined on the contrary that the patronage shall be entirely on our side the public are whim and opinions come to buy this work or just as the choose if it be purchased freely so mud the better for the public � and the we gain not a if it be not purchased we give fair we shall bum all ou essays and in one pro blaze and like the books of th and the library they be lost for ever to posterity for the sake therefore of our for the sake o the public � and for the sake of the public children to the nineteenth generation we ad them to purchase our paper if they do let them settle the affair with their own and posterity we beg the old of this city not to be alarmed a the appearance we make � we are none o those who swarm in h york who live by their wits or rather by little wit of their neighbours and who the genuine american tastes of daughters with french and sentiment we have said we do not write for money � neither do we write for fame we of l esq too well the nature of public opinion to build our upon it we care not what ihe public of us and we suspect e the number they will not know what to think of us in two we write for no other earthly purpose but to please and this we shall be sure of doing � � for we are all three of us determined before hand to be pleased with what we write if in the of this work we and instruct aad amuse the public so much the better for die public � but we frankly acknowledge s on as we tired of reading our own works we shall them without the whatever the public may think it while we continue to go on we will go oa merrily if we it will be but and on all occasions we shall be more to make our readers laugh than cry � for we ar laughing philosophers and clearly of opinion that wisdom true wisdom is a plump dame who sits in her arm chair laughs right merrily at the farce of life and the world as it goes we intend particularly to notice the con whim and opinions of the fashionable world � nor in shall we be governed by that s with which narrow minded c at the little of the but with that liberal which every man of fashion while we keep r than a watch over
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political ie which divide and govern thin ing republic done the author this justice we will the liberty of observing it appears a little singular that such his intention merely he has proper to swell his work inn five hundred pages for such is the size of this brief outline bj in with it an hundred pages of copied literally from mr and others we will make free to oak ua further why he gave hia t the high title of of the united of america or a view of the financial c capacity of the american people we are at u low simple ns we are to conceive how a work deserving such a tide page could be than a work since tables could alone date to enable the author to arrive at t the remarks consist of honest t place t ab wi j t ix and tt i i v i rare as chain broad of i vice and � ud many others � cat in it we find u of information familiar to every on we presume who is expected to read ih work we that this is destined to become exceedingly powerful that it for internal and that besides thi atlantic i the new empire in the west has two thousand miles of lake one miles of and one hundred thousand of internal ship and boat n and that the whole country is one continued of rivers communicating with each other the information without a ad and delivered almost in words of mr brown in his preface to the western indeed and in honest truth our seems to have waited and patiently during the eight years employed in book to catch thing that appeared in which could be useful to his purpose and to have it his service just as he found it without giving himself the trouble of the or deserving our forgiveness by adding � of his own there is certainly no in gaining knowledge in this way but we sec no particular reason why a writer should proper to publish a book of live hundred pages without adding to the f f public information or public the works from which he has it would be polite to say borrowed his information arc within the reach of all and we � are just as likely to be as of the l l having thus given us a specimen of style exceedingly unfortunate when we arc aware that he is about to act the part of critic in the course of his work and a of his information not less unlucky our author proceeds to attribute the of correct abroad concerning the united states which he pi to supply to the of travellers a sentiment in which all must and all have of late of course we arc not indebted to mr b for any new this head but content with this honest he couples it immediately with its contrast by asserting that the descriptions of the advantages wc possess by persons in their at home and sometimes from the recent men who ha c been at the bar of in their own as ami and who exchanged the well gallows for exile these and these alone it seems are writers who have praised this country as the seat of superior purity and universal c will here take leave to retort the charge of full upon mr iu thus stating what has in fact we demand of him to name what writer under � ny of these circumstances is known to the p iu e u � � of a book of in this country vi n � i � � off y fact in support of i i of the united j lis it li a thus to be cast on tut fortunate men whom a great of his fellow subjects and a still majority of his fellow � know to have of a b stem of oppression if he not do this wc shall without hesitation place this tion to the earnest desire every where employed under of casting a upon principles cherished by our people and upon the per c themselves by thus thai the writers who have � most ly of them were and justice who praised our country only to be on such however i� the great of this a regular of contrast between known and ol truths generally made the of and absurd assumed facts of which we have no proof he very seldom we have reasons right but from wrong premises and hardly ever arrives at a just conclusion except through the medium of a of reasoning t of the on which it i� founded e wiu instance a case in which will explain what we mean it occurs in the fifth chapter t treating of the laws of the united states the author says a crime in one state is not in another un der such he the only chance of the lies in a provision of the constitution which declares that a n charged in any state with or other crime who flies from justice and is found in state shall on demand of the authority from whence he fled be delivered up to be removed to the state having of the crime now this is one of those facts known to all it is noticed by m as a great defect in our system and if we not he instances the very ca e by our author us a proof of the ill consequences of this in our laws from tile fact however mr as usual draws that have in no resulted from it and in imitation of m a case having no application whatever to the subject that of gen who was killed in a in the state of new by mr an and of new york the same of the constitution alluded to which the state to surrender a criminal also tliat
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l laws and invasion by � arrival of the � establishment of the south african republic � the sand river � growth of the territory of the republic � the native tribes surrounding it � of the country � its its inhabitants � the � their peculiarities and mode of their of settled government and payment of taxes � the dutch patriotic party � form of government previous to the � courts of law � � the system � arrangements � native races in the ii thi elected president � his character and aspirations � his from the english gk � his visit to england � the railway loan � relations of the republic with native tribes � the pass � its quarrel with � of native territory in the � treaty with the king � the war � capture of by the � attack on s mountain � defeat and of the � of the natives � von s � � � treatment of natives by � public meeting at in � the slavery question � some evidence on the subject � pecuniary position of the prior to the � internal troubles � divisions the � hopeless condition of the country chapter in thi anxiety of lord � despatch of sir t as special to the � sir t his great experience and ability � his progress to l and reception there � feelings excited by the of the mission � the not a � brought against sir t of having called np the army to sweep the � its complete falsehood � ce s message to sir t � evidence on the matter desire of the natives for english habitual disregard of their interests � assembly of the � of lord s bill and of president new constitution � president speeches to the � his statement � communication to the of sir t s intention to the � despatch of commission to inquire into the alleged peace with � its character discovered � progress of affairs in the � paul and his party � restlessness of natives � arrangements for the � the � chapter iv thi of the � major and the � effect of the on credit and commerce � of the union jack � of the by parliament � messrs and s mission to england � agitation against the in the cape colony � sir t s tour � causes of the growth of discontent among the � return of messrs and � the gk with their services � despatch of a second to england � outbreak of war with � major ra � the of plot � mission of captain and mr to � its melancholy termination � the disaster � of sir t for england contents � another meeting � the of the on � arrival of sir b at and of the � arrival of sir � his � the expedition � proceedings of the � mr � mr s mid speeches their sir g s speech at its good results � of englishmen and of agitation � financial position of the country after three years of british of the leaders to mr � � � � � � chapter v ths of mr to power � his letters to the leaders and the � his refusal to the � the encouraged by prominent members of the radical party � the incident � of troops to � mass meeting of the th december � appointment of the and declaration of the republic � of to sir o � his reply � outbreak of at � defence of the court house by major � tbe of the of the th under colonel � dr ward � the � the placed under martial law � of their homes by the people of � sir s admirable defence � second issued by the � its complete falsehood � life at during the of natives by the � loyal conduct of the native chiefs � difficulty of preventing them from attacking the � occupation of s by the � sir george s departure to the condition of that town � the attack on s � its desperate nature � effect ef victory on the � the battle at the our defeat � sufferings of the wounded � major � advance of the into � constant expected attack on � and condition � arrival of the and retreat of the to the � despatch of wood to bring up more � hill � our disaster and death of sir g � cause of our defeat � a version of the disaster � sir s xxx c ths or thi th� queen s speech � president brand and lord � sir de � sir s plan � paul s offer sir george s remonstrance � complimentary � effect of on the and english gk � of the gk � reasons of the surrender � professional � the independence committee � conclusion of the � the preliminary peace � reception of the news in � after the declaration of peace � of the loyal inhabitants of the � the value of property in � the officials dismissed � the royal commission � mode of trial of persons accused of � decision of the commission and its results � the of territory arguments pro and can � opinion of sir e wood � humility of the and its cause � their decision on the question � difficulty � the compensation and financial of the report of the commission � the duties of the british resident � sir e wood s from the report of the commission � of the � burial of the union jack � the native side of the question � interview between the and the native chiefs � their opinion of the surrender � objections of the to the � mr � the � its insolent tone � mr the british resident � the festival � the
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farming and in land he had seemed to be greatly taken with his nephew and it had been under fortune stood that he would leave him the greater part if not the whole of his fortune but mr had come under the influence of some poor relations some distant cousins the and had eventually decided to adopt their daughter and leave her his fortune he did not dare intimate his change of mind to his sister but the news having reached mrs price in various she wrote to her brother asking him to confirm or deny these and when he admitted their truth mrs price never spoke to him again she was a determined woman and the remembrance of the wrong done to her son never left her while the other children had been a torment and disgrace had been to his parents a consolation and a blessing they had feared that he too might turn to and drink but he had never shown sign of low tastes he played no games nor did he care for or horses but for books and drawing and long country walks immediately on hearing of his he had spoken at once of entering a profession and for many months this was the subject of consideration in the joined in these dis vain fortune willingly but he could not bring himself to accept the army or the bar it was indeed only necessary to look at him to see that neither soldier s nor lawyer s wig was intended for him and it was nearly as clear that those earnest eyes so intelligent and yet so in their gaze were not those of a doctor but his eyes failed to his future his hands told the story of his life distinctly enough � those long white hands what could they mean but art and very soon began to draw some natural then an artist came into the neighborhood the two became friends and went together on a long tour life in the open air the shade of the hedge the glare of the highway the meditation of the field the languor of the the contemplation of wooded was what s pastoral nature was most fitted to enjoy and for the sake of the life it afforded he pursued the calling of a landscape painter long after he had begun to feel his desire turning in another direction when the landscape on the canvas seemed hopelessly inadequate he laid aside the brush for the pencil and strove to interpret the vain fortune summer fields in from verse he drifted into the article and the short story and from the story into the play and it was in this last form that he felt himself strongest and various were the and that he dreamed from year s end to year s end while he was in the midst of his period of verse writing his mother died and in the following year just as he was working at his stories he received a calling him to attend his father s death bed the old man was laid in the shadow of the weather beaten village church and gathered all his and bade farewell forever to the sitting in the railway carriage he watched the long line running on to london � london beginning in the fields a line of lamps stretching behind the sleeping cattle houses then fields again gardens then a bridge and the street below with yellow lights the train shook springing from rail to rail � there was the immense thames its gray indefinite in london made few friends there were some two or three men with whom he was frequently seen � quiet folk like himself whose enjoyment consisted in smoking a fortune pipe in the evening or going for long walks in the country he was one of those men whose curiosity and his friends noticed and wondered why it was that he was so frequently the theme of their conversation his simple unaffected manners were full of suggestion and in his writings there was always an rainbow like promise of ultimate achievement so long before he had succeeded in writing a play detached scenes and occasional verses led his friends into gradual belief that he was one from whom big things might be expected and when the one act play which they had all so heartily approved of was produced and the newspapers praised it the writer to try again the friends took pride in this public of their opinion after the production of his play every saturday evening some fifteen or twenty men used to in s lodgings to drink smoke cigars and talk drama encouraged by his success wrote divorce the play was refused twice and then accepted by a theatrical to whom it seemed to afford opportunity for the exhibition of the talent of a lady he was interested in fortune there was merit in the play one section of the press spoke of foul while another said at last a literary play can be witnessed in london the life of the play was brief but in dying it left a legend behind � a l end of talent a legend of a good play killed by bad acting and so it was that the production of an tide s second play was a theatrical event of importance some of the critics argued that it contained scenes as fine as any in divorce but it was admitted on all sides that the interest withered in the later acts the next three years wasted in various he explained the difference between the romantic and methods in the he played with a poetic drama to be called the king of ttie beggars and it was not until the close of the third year that he settled down to definite work then all his energies were concentrated on a new play � the a young woman of origin is suddenly
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other made even their mother could not help smiling when she came to see them dressed in this ridiculous the boys took their and a small and proceeded along by a back road which led to a brick yard in the rear of the town john s wore in summer the boys expected that even the would at but they did not indeed the did not look much better themselves they told the men that they wanted to get some clay and the men showed them a place where they might take as much as they liked from a heap of which had been thrown out as refuse these were of all shapes and sizes and were nearly dry so the boys loaded their with them and wheeled the load home when they got there they threw the of clay oflf into the and then went for another load in this way they went to and fro five or six times until they were sure that they had brought enough then john brought an axe and his and with these implements they broke the of clay to pieces and made them as fine as they could then john went and a little water in enough to spread over the bottom of the box and the clay when this was done the boys took off their stockings and shoes and got into the box and began improvement in the pond about among the clay to mix it more com with the water it soon began to assume the appearance of mortar they also got two long round sticks of wood that were off square at the end and used these to up the of clay with until at length after the lapse of about an hour the clay was well mixed with the water and the whole was reduced to one mass � that is to a mass that was all alike in every part it is true that by this time the boys had made themselves very muddy and had themselves well from head to foot but this was of no consequence as the clothes which they wore were of no value at length when the mortar as they called it was all ready john went and made two wooden out of some that he had in his shop and he and spread the mortar smoothly over the whole bottom of the box and it up against the sides in such a manner that at last they had as it were a shallow basin of clay set within a wooden box john s work in summer now said john we can take off these old dirty clothes the boys in fact had by this time become tired of their clothes there is fun and there is also discomfort in wearing old ragged and muddy clothes the fun is great at first but goes on gradually the discomfort on the other hand is not felt much at first but goes on increasing at least john and found it so in this case and by the time that their work was done the discomfort began to greatly over the fun so they washed their faces and hands at the pump and then went up into the garret and put on their proper clothes again hanging the muddy ones up to dry they then returned to the pond and with the brought a number of loads of fresh sand and covered all the clay up several inches deep so that their pond might have a clean and pretty bottom when this was done they the pond full of water and put his boats in again they found after this that the pond held its water very well after it was once filled it remained full improvement in the pond for several days though the water gradually wasted away by from the surface but the clay answered the purpose for which it was intended so well that there was scarcely any through the bottom at all john s wore in chapter xiv the pictures i will now tell you how john and mary proceeded to finish their pictures for although he took great interest in the operation did not do much about it except to stand by and look on and be ready to help when he could by handing to john or mary what they wanted mrs gay had given them fuu instructions how to proceed and they followed the instructions precisely one of the most important of the instructions was that when they commenced upon the work they must carry on all the pictures together instead of taking one at a time and first finishing that completely and then beginning upon another the principle one thing at a time � which is a most excellent one in respect to many things � does not apply to the case of mechanical operations where you have the pictures many things of the same kind to make here the principle is modified and becomes one operation at a time that is it is much better to carry the work all on together by performing one operation on all the pieces at the same time and then taking the next operation for all the pieces until all the work is done you will see how john and mary followed this rule in working upon the pictures in accordance with his mother s instructions then john first put his pot down by the kitchen fire to heat the and by the side of it though in a much place a brick the hot brick was to keep the warm while he was using it on his bench for cannot be used except when it is hot and john was not allowed to have any fire at his bench so when he was going to work with his for some time he used to have a hot brick to set the pot upon and this kept it in
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of anti on both sides he would work with them wherever they were found in short while mr did not ask nor desire nor had any personal ambition to go to the state he would consent to be a candidate of the people regardless of party and would accept no other if elected he would be bound to no interest but that of the public he would be by no and influenced by no if defeated it would give him not the least concern that was the whole thing in a nut shell there was consternation in the party for each had felt that with him as their exclusive candidate victory was assured in advance both saw however that there was only one thing to do their regular must be allowed to pass for that year they must do their best to convince the people that they were the real party on election day everybody for the man who did not care to run who had as be defeated as not everybody but the of the rival bonds who were the objects of general hate these got together and another candidate one of themselves who received showing their entire strength mr s vote was the new railroad manager then only years of age was returned to the on his g en a tor from second year without a of opposition the third year he refused to run though his appealed to him with tears in their eyes his road was now completed that is it was built from end to end so that cars could run over it taking special care at the bridges stations not beautiful like those of the other road but places at which one could certainly alight from or enter the trains were scattered here and there president needed and deserved a rest the prayers of the people followed him with his young wife and babies when it was reported in the papers that he had sailed for a year s voyage abroad perhaps the prayers would have been given with less had they been delayed for another month for at that time it came out that the new railroad had passed into the hands of the and who had made a deal by which they had absorbed a majority of the stock at a very high figure the public could hardly believe its eyes and ears to get the requisite amount of stock to control the the had had to pay per share for a large quantity and who had sold them his stock at this rate why the hon mr was placed at once among the railroad of his day in the opinion of wall street and its newspaper organs he was a very great man his name would henceforth count as a power on change there was no doubt of that one authority placed his present wealth at another declared on information that it exceeded at any rate he mi had a good fortune for a young man of thirty who had started with nothing the people along the line of his late road were too stunned to say much those who could not get half price for their stock now that the v s and a s had got all they wanted and no was likely to be paid for a long time cursed quietly to themselves most of the others said a man could not be blamed for making his fortune when he got the chance and that he was no worse than other people he was a pleasant fellow anyway and had been generous to the poor the found he had not forgotten them altogether he had made it a condition of his sale that all passes should be renewed for at least ten years the first minister who asked for a half rate got it as before really was not as bad as some people would make him out probably he could have come back a month after he went away and secured a re election to the state a sure test of popular approval but in that respect he differed with the cat of he did not come back he remained for a year in europe as he had intended and when he returned to the united states he established two one was in the city of new york for the purposes of trade in for which he believed he had an the other was in the state of van west of the river where he purchased a large of land five years later he was a cattle king silver king and a railroad in many directions he was a member also of the lower house of the national he was a successful man in from material direction he had a handsome wife a boy of seven and a daughter of four years he no longer worked hard at his duties it was easier and better in every way to hire able men to do that for him he grew to be a veritable at the time of his introduction to the reader he was so very wealthy that the figures are quite superfluous no one would have suspected had he the matter to himself that he had not been reared in that delightful locality known as the lap of luxury but with all his money he had found it necessary to throw this fact into the scale on running for the united states there was a prejudice in the minds of some of the against extreme wealth and to carry the majority he had to have printed a picture of the cabin where he was born which he sent a to find a brilliant worked up a touching story of a poor lad who had been forced to leave his childhood s home at a tender age and had risen by the sheer force of industry to his present proud position mr was successful by a majority
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out to his side i looked across the to see whom he was to the great shadow you go too far sir said he angrily i didn t thought you would have gone so far a gentleman has the freedom to act as he choose without your being the spy upon him if we are to be friends you must not interfere in my affairs i don t like these secret doings said i and my father would not like them either your father can speak for himself and there is no secret said he it is you with your that make a secret ta ta ta i have no patience with such foolishness and without so much as a nod he turned his back upon me and started walking swiftly to west inch well i followed him and in the worst of for i had a feeling that there was some mischief in the wind and yet i could not for the life of me think what it all meant again i found myself over the whole mystery of this man s coming and of his long residence among us and whom could he have expected to meet at the was the fellow a spy and was it some brother spy who came to speak with him there but that was absurd what could there be to spy about in and besides major knew all about him and he would not show him such respect if there were anything amiss i had just got as far as this in my thoughts when i heard a cheery hail and there was the major himself coming down the hill m his house with his big held in this dog was the tower a savage creature and had caused more than one accident on the country side but the major was very fond of it and would never go out without it though he kept it tied with a good thick of leather well just as i was looking at the major waiting for him to come up he stumbled with his lame leg over a branch of and in recovering himself he let go his hold of the and in an instant there was the beast of a dog flying down the in my direction i did not like it i can tell you for there was neither stick nor stone about and i knew that the brute was dangerous the major was shrieking to it from behind and i think that the creature thought that he was it on so furiously did it rush but i knew its name and i thought that maybe that might give me the privileges of so as it came at me with hair and its nose back its two red eyes i cried out at the pitch of my lungs it had its effect for the beast passed me with a and flew along the path on the traces of de he turned at the shouting and seemed to take in the whole thing at a glance but he strolled along as slowly as ever my heart was in my mouth for him for the dog had never seen him before and i ran as � as my feet would carry me to drag it away from him but somehow as it bounded up and saw the finger and thumb which de held out behind him its the great shadow fury died suddenly away and we saw it its thumb of a and at his knee your dog then major he as its owner came up ah it is a fine beast � a fine pretty thing the major was blowing hard for he had covered the ground nearly as st as i had i was lest he might have hurt you he panted ta ta ta cried de he is a pretty gentle thing i love the dogs but i am glad that i have met you major for here is this young gentleman to whom i owe very much who has b to think that i am a spy is it not so jack i was so taken by his words that i could not lay my tongue to an answer but coloured up and looked like the awkward country lad that i was you know me major said de and i am sure that you will tell him that this could not be no no jack certainly not certainly cried the major thank you said de you know me and you do me justice and yourself i hope that your knee is better and that you will soon have your regiment given you i am well enough answered the major but they will never give me a place unless there is war and there will be no more war in my time � the tower oh i you think that said de with a smile well we shall see my friend he off his hat and briskly he walked off in the direction of west inch the major stood looking after him with thoughtful eyes and then asked me what it was that had made me think that he was a spy when i told him he said nothing but he shook his head and looked like a man who was ill at ease in his mind chapter vm the coming of the i never felt quite the same to our after that little business at the tower it was always in my mind that he was holding a secret from me indeed that he was all a secret together seeing that he always hung a over his past and when by chance that veil was for an instant away we always caught just a glimpse of something bloody and violent and dreadful upon the other side the very look of his body was terrible i bathed with him once in the summer and i saw then that he was with
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doorway have i your permission to enter he asked then knowing that the moment of trial had come herself for the encounter you are master here she answered in a voice cold as the falling snow without why then do you mock me he to the women to leave the room and when they had gone replied i have little thought of such a thing lady the matter ill hand is too serious for smart sayings and with another bow he sat himself down on a chair near the hearth where a fire was burning rose and stood over against him for upon her feet she seemed to feel stronger the bridegroom and the bride will you be so good as to set out this matter am i brought here to be tried for even so for against the god of love and the sentence of the court is that you must your sin not at the stake but at the altar i do not understand then i will explain my son a worthy young man on the whole � you know that he is my son do ou not � has had the misfortune or i should say the good fortune to fall earnestly in love with you whereas you have the bad taste � or perhaps the good taste � to give your affections elsewhere under the circumstances being a youth of spirit and resource has fallen back upon primitive methods in order to bring his suit to a successful conclusion he is here you are here and this evening i understand that the priest will be here i need not dwell upon the obvious issue indeed it is a private matter upon which i have no right to intrude except of course as a relative and a well made an impatient movement with her hand as though to brush aside all this web of words why do you take so much trouble to force an unhappy girl into a hateful marriage she asked how can such a thing advantage you ah answered briskly i perceive i have tc do with a woman of business one who has that oi gifts � common sense i will be frank your esteemed father died possessed of a very large fortune which to day is your property as his sole issue and under the marriage laws which i myself think unjust that fortune will pass into the power of any husband whom you choose to take therefore so soon as you are made his wife it will pass to i am s father and as it happens he is indebted to me to a considerable amount so that in the as he himself has pointed us out more than once this alliance will provide for both of us but business details are wearisome so i need not the fortune you speak of is lost it is lost but i have reason to hope that it will be found you mean that this is purely a matter of money so far as i am concerned purely for s feelings i cannot speak since who knows the mystery of another s heart then if the money were � or a clue to it � there need be no marriage so far as i am concerned none at all and if the money is not and i refuse to marry the or he to marry me � what then that is a riddle but i think i see an answer at any rate to half of it then the marriage would still take place but with another bridegroom another bridegroom who your humble and devoted shuddered and a step ah he said i should not have bowed you saw my white hairs � to the young a hateful sight s indignation rose and she answered it is not your white hair that i shrink from which in some would be a crown of honour but in my case suggests to you other reflections be gentle and spare me them in a world of rough actions what need to them with rough words for a few minutes there was silence which glancing out of the broke by remarking that the was heavy for the time of year then followed another silence i understood you just now dear lady to make some sort of suggestion which might lead to an arrangement sat the bridegroom and the bride to both of us the exact locality of this wealth is at present obscure � you mentioned some clue are you in a position to furnish such a clue if i am in a position what then then perhaps after a few days visit to an interesting but little rt of holland you might return to your friends as you left them � in short as a single woman a struggle shook and do what she would some trace of it appeared in her face will you swear that she whispered most certainly you swear before god that if you hare this clue you will not force me into a marriage with the or with yourself � that you will let me go i swear it � before god knowing that god will be upon you if you break the oath you still swear i still swear why these needless then � then and she towards him in a hoarse whisper believing that you even you will not dare to be false to such an oath for you even you must fear death a miserable death and vengeance eternal vengeance i give you the clue it lies in the of the sword silence the sword silence what sword is that the great sword of red martin stirred out of his self control struck his hand upon his knee and to think he said that for over twelve hours i had it hanging on the wall of the well i fear that i must ask you to be more explicit
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too was seeing with inner vision got it he cried suddenly t ai fc s� b d ig daylight it s as simple as rolling off a log all i ve got to do is hit on the nose and hit him hard then he explained to the startled and became a good listener again though he could not refrain now and again from making audible of satisfaction and delight that was the scheme bob always whirled to the right very well he would double the in his hand and the instant of the whirl that doubled rap bob on the nose the horse didn t live after it had once learned the lesson that would whirl in the face of the doubled more keenly than ever during that week in the did daylight realize that he had no social nor even with the situation was such that he could not ask her the simple question whether or not she was going riding next it was a hardship of a new sort this being the employer of a pretty girl he looked at her often when the routine work of the day was going on the question he could not ask her at the of speech � was she going riding next sunday and as he looked he wondered how old she was and what love passages she had had must have had with those college with whom according to she and danced his mind was very full of her those six days between the sundays and one thing he came to know thoroughly well he wanted her and so much did he want her that his old timidity of the apron string was put to he who had nm away from women most of his life had now grown so courageous as to pursue some sunday sooner or later he would meet her outside the office somewhere in the hills and then if they did not get acquainted it would be because she did not care to get acquainted thus he foimd another card in the hand the mad god had dealt him how important that card was to become he did not dream yet he decided that it was a pretty good card daylight in turn he doubted maybe it was a trick of luck to bring calamity and disaster upon him suppose wouldn t have him and suppose he went on loving her more and more harder and harder all his old terrors of love revived he remembered the disastrous love affairs of men and women he had known in the past there was old s daughter who had been madly in love with the rich owner and in turn not loving at all but madly loving colonel s wife and down the with her and colonel himself madly loving his own wife and lighting out in pursuit of the couple and what had been the certainly s love had been and tragic and so had the love of the other three down below colonel and had fought it out had been killed a bullet through the colonel s had so weakened hun that he died of the spring and the colonel s wife had no one left alive on earth to love and then there was drowning herself in the ice because of some man on the other side of the world and him daylight because he had happened along and pulled her out of tiie ice and back to life and the virgin the old memories frightened him if this love him good and hard and if wouldn t have him it might be almost as bad as being out of all he had by and had his desire for been less he might well have been frightened out of all thought of her as it was he f consolation in the thought that some love affairs did come out right and for all he knew maybe luck had the cards for him to win some men were bom lucky lived lucky all their days and died lucky perhaps too he was such a man a bom luck who could not lo daylight sunday came and bob out in the hills behaved like an angel his goodness at times was of the spirited order but otherwise he was a lamb daylight with doubled ready in his right hand ached for a whirl just one whirl which bob with an excellence of conduct that was refused to perform but no did daylight encounter he vainly about among the hill roads and in the afternoon took the steep grade over the divide of the second range and dropped into valley just after passing the foot of the descent he heard the beats of a horse it was from ahead and coming toward him what if it were he turned bob around and started to return at a walk if it were he was bom to luck he decided for the meeting couldn t have occurred imder better here they were both going in the same direction and the would bring her up to him just where the stiff grade would compel a walk there would be nothing else for her to do than ride with him to the top of the divide and once there the equally stiff descent on the other side would compel more walking the came nearer but he faced straight ahead he heard the horse behind check to a walk then he glanced over his shoulder it was the recognition was quick and with her accompanied by surprise what more natural thing than that partly turning his horse he should wait till she caught up with him and that when abreast they should continue abreast on up the grade he could have sighed with relief the thing was accomplished and so easily greetings had been exchanged here they were side by side and going in the same direction with miles and miles ahead
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to do with it now most decidedly i should not i like my present position too well to fall out of it i m go ig to be captain next term if i can fetch it any way in the world you mean to be a just like the rest of them you are not the same fellow you used to be yes i am you are getting too big for your boots you wrong me i m just as good a fellow as i ever was i think i m the best fellow in the ship and for that reason i want to be captain i m ahead of so far on marks this month well if you want to be the head i hope you ll get it we are not going ashore to morrow they say added changing the topic to get nearer to the business of the hour so told me are you willing to stay on board and study and do ship s duty on the fourth of july we are going to how i m sure i don t know we shall to morrow just as we do every day � as close prisoners on board the ship i for one ik n t like it and i won t stand it won t you laughed young america afloat when i say i won t i mean so o you do � do you you better believe i do added shaking his head resolutely what are you going to do i m going ashore by hook or by better not get into any scrape say that as one of the well you had better not say anything to me for i shall have to do my duty as an don t say anything to me and then i not know anything about it sneered not pleased witli this non policy i don t want to do anything mean with any of our fellows so don t say a word to me i shall do my duty as an officer as i promised to do when i was made third lieutenant do you mean to say you will stop me if you see me going demanded i do mean so i promised faithfully to do my duty as an officer and i shall do it see here bob you needn t talk to me in that manner i knew the ship s cable from a pint of milk and you can t come the over me i m going to do just as you would do if you were in my place i won t hear a word about any of your but will you interfere with them if it is my duty to do so i shall i intend to obey orders and if i have the deck i shall keep things straight whatever happens outward bound or don t know you as well as i do no matter if he don t he have no fault to find with me this term jf i can help it it s no use for me to the matter with you bob we understand each other too well for tliat s up turned on his heel and was about to walk away hold on a minute continued i won t tell you what s up but i ll tell ou this if you interfere with what i do or with what the fellows with me do i ll tell about the � i will as sure as your name is bob do you understand me well i do and it seems to me that sounds very much like a threat call it what you like if you turn traitor to our fellows you must stand the of it you are not a saint just yet and those that live in glass houses t throw stones i believe i haven t played false to any of our fellows if i don t choose to get into any scrape with them i have a right to keep out that s all i ve got to say but what are you going to do out fellows will want to know i m going to do my duty replied the third lieutenant as he walked away regardless of tlie efforts of his companion to detain him was the truth of the old that honesty is the best policy it is to be regretted that his present devotion to duty had no young afloat higher than mere policy but it may be hoped of those who do their duty from low motives that they may gather inspiration even from their fidelity to obey its from higher motives the third lieutenant of the young america intended to keep the promise he had made in accepting liis simply because it would pay best and his had no difficulty in making up the required number of and before six o clock which was the time fixed for carrying out the enterprise they had planned some of the joined because they anticipated a good time in the city in the fourth and others from a mere love of mischief and excitement the details of tlie scheme had been carefully by and after tlie ranks of the were full having learned a valuable lesson from the daily discipline of the ship the mischief was certainly well planned each boy was assigned to a particular position in the boats and knew on what he was to sit and which oar he was to pull and as the master spirits of the enterprise were to run out first on the swinging boom and slide down the painters each into the boat he was to command the others were to follow in the same way descending from the boom for it was not con prudent to run the boats up to the where some enthusiastic officer might easily interfere with the plan which was to depend for its success
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sad among the young ladies that season margaret smiled at the of the girl s temper and presently saw her off with a mingled feeling of amusement and relief and about half an hour afterwards the highly respectable and wood came and announced prince chapter the tearing op an old wound theirs is the present who can praise the fast life has its bliss for these when past its bloom i know how to describe how those two met again after so many years in circumstances so different to those in which they had parted as wood s voice through the pretty margaret rose from her chair and went a step or two to meet her guest she held out her hand and greeted him in quiet conventional tones and wood shut the door again without having the very faintest suspicion that his mistress s visitor was any but the most ordinary one but when the door was safely closed they stood he holding her hands and looking at her as if he could never sufficiently feast his eyes upon the pale dear face the great brown eyes and sweet tender mouth of her he loved best in all the world poor margaret she had meant to be so different she had meant to meet him with perfect coolness and indifference to remind him by every look and tone and gesture that she was the wife of another man to be quite civil and pleasant towards him and to make him feel that a woman the past was a forbidden topic between them to make him feel that the past was past and done with for ever poor margaret she had it all so many times during the hours which had passed since she had that he had come into her life again and the reality was so very different from the scene that she had so carefully planned out for herself for never made any pretence of being but an ordinary acquaintance � he just took both her hands in his and stood looking down upon her with all his soul and all his heart in his eyes his face by the passion of the moment his lips trembling his hands shaking a more sober time worn than him from whom she had parted in pain and tears years ago in far away yes and if the truth be told as in the telling of such a story as this it always should be told an infinitely more attractive than ever he had been before poor margaret � poor margaret i but in spite of her distress at the turn events had taken she was as full of real courage as she had ever been she had fully made up her mind that she would not utter one word that could in any way be false to her husband and although a perfect storm of old recollection and passion swept over her at thus finding herself face to face with the one great love of her life yet she made a effort to put him at a distance she withdrew her hands gently from the eager clasp of his and turned back to the upon which she had been sitting before his arrival sit down she said with a polite gesture towards a chair near at hand but sat down on the also the chair to which she had pointed you did not see me this morning he said still keeping his eyes fixed upon her no i did not see you she replied where were i was in i saw you driving with � with he half hesitated over the words try as he would he could not bring himself to say your husband oh yes we did go for a drive this morning she said as carelessly as she could then looked up at him you see i was very tired after my party last night i was glad to get a little fresh the tearing of an old for a moment there was silence then spoke is there nothing that you want to ask me he said in a very tone to ask you answered she in a trembling voice oh what should i want to ask you of course you have given up the little flat in the long ago i have never given it up it is my home � my he replied nothing is changed nothing is altered except that is married and two of the are dead he spoke in an exceedingly bitter tone but margaret did not seem to notice it oh she exclaimed is there still yes is still waiting for your coming back again � and i he added in an oh don t � don t margaret cried in a voice of anguish said in a tone you are married you have children you are mistress of a large house and your position is beyond compare with the sacrifice which you would have had to make for me but you are not happy you are wretched and be fate as it will your heart is mine still you cannot deny it i neither deny nor admit anything she said coldly if it is as you say then i have to bear a misfortune which i do not deserve but why should you not admit it but there i did not come to try to make you unhappy � god knows that at any time i would have laid down my life to serve you you know that well enough without my telling you but oh my my one love my very life in mercy tell me that one thing � you have not forgotten i have forgotten nothing she said looking straight at him her tone was very significant and made the hot blood mount up into his face his eyes drooped before hers and he bent his head as if to accept the and yet all to
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man if a was not a at bottom she looked wards her look declined to leave her alone with with � a i suppose said it measured the c he who feels himself a is on the way to be a man said she with genuine d ity so saying she dismissed with a gesture tr ly acting woman id he li the sir replied she whose time is precious i lose no time � i m an attorney � i m my son s education has been given him my own eye � i taught him the of the country and the law he is to be a and a at aw he shall he � i for one said and then we can play into one another s hands aa be i have no opposition to offer to this pretty little scheme of the old � father and son no when he has n t been once u west and every night lo the oh said the old story goes home and and in earnest can t eat his away his prospects and thinks of nothing bat this hb uttered this with rough contempt and had the been a little one this descent to would have or her but its effect on the great was and somewhat singular she opened her lovely eyes on liim i she o mr nobody has called me that name since i left my little native have n t they though said tie rough customer more gently to her heavenly tunes rather than to the sentiment which he in j a used harp m here the attorney began to suspect she was him the point and with a of the lip and a fine masculine contempt for all not on � tou had better say yon do not all this cried he not i was the reply my good sir your son has left you to � me tiie secret of his you have the commission sir of added she with a world of in her jewel eye of i tell je put in the angry and it is now my duty to put some questions to you resumed i hand is not he t answered gaunt simplicity and well built too � he is like me they say there is a point on which i am very particular has he nice teeth j � upon your honor now white as milk ma am and a by i a tale which if you hands aad pray madam said he with smooth does alexander never write to yoa she says never i and there ia hia letter in her very hand � a handwriting what ft of talent to write to yon with it instead of what does the fool say and he the letter rudely from and read out poor alexander with the lungs gracious me if i was puzzled to show the reader how read the prose how on earth shall i make him hear and see i fire read ma hut i will attempt a faint wherein glorious from on high as my soul hangs trembling � fall on that m e voice wi your woe � toil stop when you rejoice a golden chain � here he of i feel hut cannot see � here he began to alexander of insanity earth to heaven � of it ties my heart o like a and now ihe reader wore the ill used look of one who had been betrayed into a of bnt at t s juncture thanks to his alexander began � excite mrs s interest and that poetry is his said no how could my son write poetry t i be hanged if t is n t for all the lines with a capital letter took the paper from him listen said she and with a heavenly and expression she spoke the lines thus � what do yon call that eh why honey dropping from the comb said the astounded lawyer to whom the art of speech was entirely that moment as it is to millions of the human race it is dropping from the repeated i see he has been and bought it ready made and it has cost mm a pretty penny no doubt so now hia money s going good heavens roared the terrified father don t yoa go and fall in love him and now i think on t that is i been working for ever since i came here it i came my son aad i will have him back if yon please n i know said the lady ly he follows you every except here where he never will follow me unless his father him under the head of blushed well ho i was a little but my good lady pray me when did you last see him t i never saw him at which i regret added you he his was a ugly dog she is very polite thought by a dramatic tale that not signed sail she handing die poetical to him with great significance mr began now t� he was sur k in liis present proceedings and the error in which he had cl ed made him suspect his and general report on another head what an thing ho perhaps yon are an honest woman alter all ma am i sir i witli a most i ask pardon ma am i ask j t cried the other by the of this f that is all e do so down in s a but if yon speak so straightforward here you will be sent to i ll take care not madam ill take care not i said tlie other hastily then he paused � a light rose to his eyes sent to i ha i i ho but madam this love will be his ruin it will rob him of his profession which he and of a rich v he can
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clear of it altogether accordingly after possession of his boat he took hold of one side of the frame on which the sail was extended and began to walk out upon the ice keeping the boat close by his side with the edge of the sail as nearly as possible to the wind now as his motion with the wind had ceased he felt the whole of its fury and he perceived that it was an awful storm indeed m possessed a fair share of the stern and resolute in his character but after proceeding a few steps and observing that no land was in sight before him the surface of the ice slippery in the extreme and the wind blowing a and howling in the forests behind even he was somewhat appalled he felt too a peculiar to effort he had a great mind to lie down in the snow and give himself up to his fate but m s mind was one of that class which leads a man to keep pressing on in what they have undertaken even while they are considering whether they had better not stop the moments of of mind which will sometimes come are not allowed to produce of conduct this had become a settled habit or rather it was a part of his nature and so he pushed his way on over the ice by the as it were of his past m m s of working his boat to until he had gone so far as almost to lose sight of the shore he gradually became warmed with the exercise too and in fact his running ashore at this juncture very probably saved his life he would soon have become stupid and drowsy with the cold and then it is but a step and an easy step too to and death he worked his way slowly and laboriously out from the shore which soon disappeared from view and then he had to guide his steps by the direction of the wind and by its sound behind him as it roared among the trees of the forest like surf upon a shore he went on for half an hour during which time this sound gradually died away and as he could hear no similar indications of the vicinity of land before him he concluded that he had reached the wide part of the lake he took hold of his boat behind leaning down over it and then pushing it along upon the ice and turning it at the same instant round before the wind he leaped upon it and was soon again under way as rapidly as before in the mean time the snow began to a little upon the ice here and there it became lodged in small patches through which m s glided noiselessly and without much additional resistance as the snow increased however these patches became more frequent deeper and more solid and m found that his motion was very sensibly by them he listened occasionally on every side to hear the roaring of the wind in the forests but these sounds gradually ceased and thus relieved him of one source of apprehension the increasing snow however embarrassed him he perceived that when his boat was struggling through one of the little or patches of it a very heavy strain came upon his sail and he had to seize the frame once or twice with his hands to prevent its being carried away at length in one the i� e boat sail carried away he to abandon the wreck drift deeper than the rest his boat came to a stand he jumped off and dragged it through and in a moment was again under way on the other side but in a few minutes more he had the same measure to resort to again he worked on in this way fox half an hour when at length the frail craft was brought up so suddenly in a bank of snow of unusual depth and that the sail was burst from its and the top fell over forward into the snow m rose from his place and stood in the drift surveying the wreck he could have repaired it without much difficulty but it was plain that sail or no sail the boat could go but little farther he therefore separated the blanket from the frame and put it over his shoulders securing it by a belt made from his fore and back stays he then took off the front pair of and restoring the to them he fastened them to his feet he then listened for the sound of the wind upon a forest as anxious now to find the shore as he had been before to avoid it but he could hear no sound except the sweeping whistling rush of the wind over the ice and the driving snow around him he therefore determined to bear away to the left hoping to regain the shore in the direction in which he had left it when he had dragged his boat out upon the lake and taking all he wished to carry away from the wreck in a bundle he left it to be buried in the snow by choosing his way among the bare patches of ice and in the places where the snow was thin he got along for some time without any great difficulty but the snow was now falling very fast and it was not long before his way was very much in fact he soon concluded that he could get along without his better than with them he took them off and then endeavored to make as straight a track as he could guiding himself by the wind which he kept upon his side m m is reduced almost to despair but it was a very laborious and mode of the footing was slippery and treacherous and the snow was getting deep then there
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hostile and danger and hostility stalked in the pit the inhabitants seemed to resent the presence of these strangers from the hill dirty little abused them as they passed with assumed bravery and prepared to run away at the first sign of attack and still other little formed a noisy parade at the heels of the boys and grew bolder with numbers don t mind them joe take no notice but keep right on we soon be out of it no we re in for it said in an look there on the comer they were approaching four or five boys of about their own age the of the standing the light from a lamp fell upon them and disclosed one with vivid red hair it could be no other than brick the leader of a gang twice within their memory he had led his gang up the hill and spread panic and terror among the hill dwelling young folk who fled wildly to their homes while their fathers and mothers hurriedly for the police at sight of the group on the comer the at the heels of the three boys melted away on the instant with like of fear this but increased the anxiety of the boys though they held boldly on their way the red haired boy detached himself from the group and stepped before them their path they to go around him but he stretched out his yer here he why don t yer stay where yer b long brick top and we re just going home said mildly brick looked at joe yer got under yer arm he demanded joe contained himself and took no heed of him come on he said to and at the same time starting to brush past the gang leader but with a quick blow brick struck him in the face and with equal quickness snatched the bundle of from under his arm joe uttered an inarticulate cry of rage and all caution flung to the winds sprang at his this was evidently a surprise to the gang leader who expected least of all to be attacked in his own territory backward still clutching the and divided between desire to fight and desire to retain his capture the latter desire him and he turned and fled swiftly down the narrow side street into a of streets the of the and joe knew that he was into the wilderness of the enemy s country but his sense of both property and pride had been offended and he took up the pursuit hot footed and followed after though he them and behind came the three other members of the gang a call while they ran which was evidently intended for the of the rest of the band as the chase proceeded these were answered from many different directions and soon a score of dark figures were at the heels of and who in turn were straining every muscle to keep the footed joe in sight brick darted into a vacant lot for a slip as such things are called which are passages through fences and over sheds and houses and around dark holes and corners where the must go � brick top and fully and where the chances are many that he will soon lose the track but joe caught brick before he could attain his end and together they rolled over and over in the dirt locked in each other s arms by the time and and the gang had come up they were on their feet facing each other d ye want eh the red headed gang leader was saying in a tone d ye want that s i know i want my joe answered brick s eyes sparkled at the intelligence were something he stood in need of then you ve got to fight fer em he announced why should i fight for them joe demanded indignantly they re mine which went to show how ignorant he was of the ideas of and property rights which obtained among the people of the pit a the of the a chorus of and went up from the gang which clustered its leader like a pack of wolves why should i fight for them joe i say so replied an i say goes understand but joe did not understand he refused to understand that brick s word was law in san or any part of san his love of honesty and right dealing was offended and all his fighting blood was up you give those to me right here and now he threatened reaching out his hand for them but jerked them away d ye know who i am he demanded i m brick an i don t low no one to talk to me in that tone of voice better leave him alone whispered in joe s ear what are a few leave him alone and let s get out of this brick top and they ve my joe said slowly in a dogged manner they re my and i m going to have them you can t fight the crowd interfered and if you do get the best of him they all pile on you the gang observing this whispered and it for on the part of joe set up its wolf like howling again afraid i afraid i the young and he s too he is t he spoil his nice clean shirt and then what say shut up their leader snapped and the noise died away will you give me those joe demanded advancing will you fight for em was son s counter demand yes joe answered fight fight the gang began u howl again as the of the and it s me that see fair play said a man s heavy voice all eyes were instantly turned upon the man who had approached unseen and made this announcement by the electric light brightly on them from the comer
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before of u s continued to bo that event i i s wc mu t agree with he least of all is it to regard as strictly historical or to that in the moment he n� his speech employed it in a song of praise il by the exultation and wonder of company which himself to indulge it must at all event be admitted tliat author has additions of his own and the � ry by c of his muse tj that composed and the to the occasion but his strange text there are some other features which it i belong not to the of tho poet such as the to the the debate in the tlie position a angel on the ri ht hand of the but this criticism is merely a proof that or determine to hai e no just conception of poetry or popular k for the genuine characteristic of poetry and is natural and of details i li op the in its stages the al of the necessity and lastly of the possibility of doubting historical fidelity of gospel narrative � ct up s g t tn i du fur und ul i s t ut up on i s l l fr din sl l i st ut a a o st in t i i s v l� m l j h a� t t ir i j pr of led to explain uie of the of a� a com position si hy the attributed by the christian to the of l y the of of the old in which the of r and especially of arc related to liave announced still the matter vas not allowed to be altogether invented il l� and lived long n offspring on one occasion whilst in the temple old man s suddenly soon his wife bore him a son and he in ins joy at e the power of speech at that time but still more when john became a man the tory excited and out ol it the existing legend grew it is surprising to find an identical with the one we have above brought forward under a new title so that the admission of the possibility of an of u in the narrative has little influence on tlie of tlie matter itself j s tlie mode of explanation we arc now confidence in the in of the di must be in and whether historical can he retained for this or that incident be determined only by its either less improbable than the rest or else less in witli the spirit interest and of the poetic legend so as to make it probable that it had n distinct origin of elizabeth and the sudden of are here retained as incidents of this ho only the a and of the angel are up but hy taking the tlie sudden as i ud h ii of the loses its only adequate � e i u that all which the inter n in full a into which these most brought by their o ni for the we enter upon ground all to hold fast the assumed historical of the account ceases to exist besides that which they propose to retain as historic namely the long of the parents of the u ao strictly in with the spirit and character of hebrew l poetry tiiat of this incident the origin is least lo be how confused has this for example the reasoning of it was a opinion he all children born of aged parents who had iii i y ix en shed john was the child of p in nt an l a notable r of ri it was to infer hid wa i predicted by an angel an � e f n w lo i t s it und u iso f and of thi for ho has no than th� that john was of need parents let this be made a � � point and the conclusion n it was readily ic he of remarkable men that were bom of j d and that their no longer in tire ordinary nature to be expected by a john wa a great man and a prophet the legend him to have been of an aged couple and hia to have been by an seeing that this explanation ot the narrative as a i a so called historical is with all the of a half measure had treated it aa a pure philosophical or t likewise considers it and indeed the entire two first chapters of of it a part as an fiction in the birth of tlie together with of his and the concerning the character of the latter framed after the event arc set it being precisely of the the p explains the chapter as a little poem similar in to many of which we meet with in their a he not er it a it might have a foundation in fact and in a wide but d � o full a in ng in and the and of tradition tiiat tlie attempt to the historical in prove a and u goes so far as to � the author of the piece to have been a christian whilst it to have been composed i y a christian of at a period when it coin � mine continued strict john and w rt was ihe object of the narrative to bring over to the of lo the as hu highest destiny and also by holding out the expectation of a state t for the people at the re of christ an attentive consideration of the old testament histories whidi as most admit the narrative of the and of bears a striking will render il rf opinion u � to � � in t id � ib n tl i p s f bad la i p it it am aj at � ji � i tl mv lad � mt
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put her fingers in the neck of her dress as if it choked her it will be better that i go he will never be friends with you while i stay here friends with me exclaimed the other excitedly that s of mighty small consequence i must restore him to you will do it mb chapter he will do it for m e the silent anger that rises to white heat is more dangerous than the kind that itself in outward show knew what it was to feel murder in his heart as he stood by the door of his apartment and saw that couple so close together knowing he was not expected on the earliest train he had gone softly up the stairs he was hardly surprised at the sight that met his gaze but he knew no course except to pack up and leave them to have uttered a word in reply to s offer to explain would have been to release the torrent of rage that filled his being was afraid of himself at that moment only a thin veil separated his self control from the revenge to which a loud voice called him he packed his things leisurely like a man in a dream took his baggage into the public hall happened to meet the on the landing and secured his assistance in getting it downstairs saw a cab passing and before could reach him had gone out of sight directing his driver to turn several corners for the purpose of throwing possible off his track he was nearly but at the time he did not think of that he only wanted to get beyond love at the reach of those who had deceived him he directed the to go as far as twenty eighth street and seventh avenue and when that point was reached he stopped and bought a newspaper the columns in which rooms were advertised a little distance from the corner he found a chamber which he engaged and as he appeared honest and respectable the landlady did not require him to pay anything in advance he had eaten no breakfast but he did not care for any he took a chair and sat for hours in a dazed sort of way looking at the adjacent roofs he was in a state that closely resembled at last night came on long after dark he went to bed by the light of the stars in the morning he awoke cold and hungry examining his purse he found less than a dollar in it he sought a cheap in the vicinity and spent twenty cents for a breakfast having nothing else to do he returned to his room and into the attitude of the previous day at night he went out again to a supper the next day he pursued the same course on the second morning he awoke with his thoughts on in his sleep he had seen her sweet face and she had asked him to come to her yes it was his duty to make the journey had committed an wrong to that girl and she ought to know it writing materials at the desk of a where he went for a cup of coffee he a note stating that he would be at either that night or the one hb will do it m following and asking that keep watch for him at the door in the wall this letter he without stopping to think that it required money to purchase a railroad ticket and that the price of the stamp was the last of his resources at noon on starting for dinner he recollected that he was literally his last cent was gone discouraged he tried to think what he could best there was his trunk and his and the thin overcoat that he wore on chilly evenings he hated to part with any of them and he passed the entire day without food in the morning he lay quite late no breakfast awaited him and he was weak and tired at eleven he dressed and descended to the street from sheer growing every minute he walked about looking at the things in the shop windows bills of fare in front of eating houses had a fascination for him dishes that he would have scorned ordinarily took on a positive as he read over their names baked beans how nice they would taste a banquet fit for the gods could be made of that material he eyed the joints of beef and mutton and the fat displayed in the provision stores until his hunger grew so acute that he had to move on a of air from a kitchen with the of cooking made him dizzy at two o clock he found himself in front of his old place of employment the office of the company he as he passed to see if any of his former acquaintances were in sight love at seventy he did not mean to have them detect him but the looked up and beckoned to him with a smile ton shook his head and was moving on when the man came to the door and called to him i wish you would come in a minute he said there is a balance due you and i want to get it off the books the words rang in the hungry man s ear like the whirling of a saw balance due me he repeated vaguely yes twelve dollars for the last week you were here it would be a convenience if you would take it now though wanted that money as bad as he had ever wanted anything he held back he hated to touch a dollar belonging to but after all he had earned it honestly and he was starving how can there be a whole week s pay he asked i left on a friday you were discharged rather suddenly you remember smiled the
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out or perhaps both if only you two boys could agree he used to say another thing which disturbed was his father s attitude on the subject of marriage � s marriage to be specific never ceased to insist on the fact that ought to get married and that he by was making a big mistake in putting it off all the other children save were safely married why not his favorite son it was doing him injury morally that he was sure of the world expects it of a man in your position his father had argued from time to time it makes for social and you ought to pick out a good woman and raise a family where will you be when you get to my time of life if you haven t any children any home well if the right woman came along said i suppose i d marry her but she hasn t come along what do you want me to do take anybody no not anybody of course but there are lots of good women you can surely find some one if you try there s that pace girl what about her you used to like her i wouldn t drift on this way it can t come to any good his son would only smile there father let it go now i ll come around some time no doubt i ve got to be thirsty when i m led to water the old gentleman gave over time and again but it was a sore point with him he wanted his son to settle down and be a real man of affairs the fact such a situation as this might against any permanent arrangement with was obvious even to at this time he thought out his course of action carefully of course he would not give up whatever the possible but he must be cautious he must take no unnecessary risks could he bring her to what a scandal if it were ever found out could he her in a nice home somewhere near the city the family would probably eventually suspect something could he take her along on his numerous business journeys this first one to new york had been successful would it always be so he turned the question over in his mind l z i c the very difficulty gave it zest perhaps st louis or or would be best after all he went to these places frequently and particularly to he decided finally that it should be if he could arrange it he could always make excuses to run up there and it was only a night s ride yes was best the very size and activity of the city made concealment easy after two weeks stay at wrote that he was to soon and she answered that she thought it would be all right for to call and see her her father had been told about him she had felt it unwise to stay about the house and so had secured a position in a store at four dollars a week he smiled as he thought of her working and yet the decency and energy of it appealed to him she s all right he said she s the best i ve come across yet he ran up to the following saturday and calling at her place of business he made an appointment to see her that evening he was anxious that his introduction as her beau should be gotten over with as quickly as possible when he did call the j of the house and the manifest poverty of the family � rather disgusted him but somehow seemed as sweet to him as ever came in the front room after he had been there a few minutes and shook hands with him as did also mrs but paid little attention to them the old german appeared to him to be merely commonplace � the sort of man who was hired by hundreds in common in his father s factory after some conversation suggested to that they should go for a drive put on her hat and together they departed as a matter of fact they went to an apartment which he had hired for the of her clothes when she returned at eight in the evening the family considered it nothing amiss chapter xxv a month later was able to announce that intended to marry her his visits had of course paved the way for this and it seemed natural enough only seemed a little doubtful he did not know just how this might be perhaps it was all right l seemed a fine enough man in all conscience and really after why not if a united states could fall in love with why not a business man there was just one thing � the child has she told him about he asked his wife no said mrs not yet not yet not yet always something do you think he wants her if he knows that s what comes of such conduct in the first place now she has to slip around like a thief the child cannot even have an honest name went back to his newspaper reading and brooding his life a complete failure to him and he was only waiting to get well enough to hunt up another job as he granted to get out of this mess of deception and a week or two later confided to her mother that had written her to join him in he was not feeling well and could not come to the two women explained to that was going away to be married to mc up at this and his suspicions were again aroused but he could do nothing but over the situation it would lead to no good end of that he was sure i o d l when the day came for s departure she had to
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humour such as bad health and stamp on the � ace the sharp cough whidi accompanied the first words she spoke told her history at she was � sinking under the attacks of consumption surveying me with an air in which kindness struggled with vexation she said a few remarks from my did my husband indeed send you here when i said yes she continued i think is mad he about his house and his hotel and his whereas you may now see with your own whether a place like this is fit for such as you is mad not so mad as you think my good woman said i at least not in the present case what his accommodation is l know not but his prices suit me therefore let the door be shut and stir the fire for it is very cold i sa d i y l i mt with notes of travellers abroad accent and lie himself eagerly to obey my commands while his companion � whom the landlady called � placed a chair dose to the and asked me to sit down on it since yon insist on remaining here added he we will at least do all we can to make you comfortable but i asked to be forthwith shown to a room where i might wash and dress the man in the flushing coat looked and the pale features of the landlady bore an expression of blank dismay she hesitated for some moments and then explained to me that there was no in the house but this in whidi a fire was kept and that to wash and in any other room would give me my death of cold we were interrupted by a violent knocking at the street door which being opened admitted the landlord the pale woman and half a dozen men who were evidently the worse for and who would have been the better for some water and soap their entrance was the signal for a scene of confusion which lasted until the appearance of the landlord who with a huge dish full of hot potatoes gave the signal for dinner a dozen eager hands were at once in motion to assist him the table which still bore the traces of the last meals was covered with a coarse cloth louis the waiter emptied a basket of tin knives and iron forks on the table and while the man in the flushing jacket armed with a large knife prepared to act as by himself of his upper garment and up the sleeves of his shirt the company arranged themselves the table aiid made an attack on the provisions which of cold beef boiled mutton and the hot potatoes the appetite with which the company ate was and the pauses of the w the world here and there or � laughter and swearing each guest seemed eager if impress all with his great in london life coffee was brought in after dinner and the men scarcely of whom had as yet found employment in their respective produced large pipes and fell with great vehemence to and while the landlady and the pale woman with embroidered sat down in a further corner of the presently a man in rusty black entered with a boisterous l which was evidently assumed for the purpose x f a good of the landlord who at once welcomed the new you are just in the nick of time mr said im there is foreign money in the house great demand for sovereigns eh said mr well and good i have brought gold and silver and give much for a dollar or as any man in the trade gentlemen and ladies cried the landlord you he what mr says he is ready to change whatever you may have in your pockets for you must know your or or money could not buy you a penny in a shop some of the guests broke out in exclamations of b and hastened to the table mr produced a large leather bag full of english money and did what he called little business with every one the m an in the and the of the flushing coat alone had no money to change the money was just about to go when he saw the latter who looked at him with a grave ah said he i have not yet found anything for you bad time for now winter � no horses in town � i say what ate you doing here why are you not it your work in notes of travellers ae one has knocked a and i ve f nail into my foot some one knocked a into your said l do jou mean a d he turning to me while the money left tie room i am a carpenter by trade but finding no i engaged myself with a fellow in to cure i done it now n fortnight but some one who wished for my place me by knocking a nail into my i could not make out his meaning had to u at three in the morning he explained i and then went a with hair which i had to upon all day long if i continued that till seven in uie evening i could earn about a shilling a day to keep me and you out of ho miserable an ment there are who wait for one of the to fall ill and if they have to wail long they make him ill hy secretly him every one has his place so long as he can keep it they are all who work there and many of them are clever in trades but they cannot find other employment this afforded me food for reflection what a market is london to bring one s labour to a sudden stillness in the room interrupted the of my thoughts i looked up and found that almost all the
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you faced it a large blue gray car suddenly appeared and a striking looking in a hat stepped out i had the wish and the fancy that i was looking at the himself � a sound stern intellectual looking person � but i did not ask he gave me a sharp inquiring look and i withdrew beyond these sacred and into the cathedral itself where a bell was beginning to ring for afternoon service i am sure i shall never forget the interior of it was the first really old great cathedral that i had seen � for i had not very highly either st paul s or st s i had never quite realized how significant these must have been in an age when they were far and away the most important build of the time no king s palace could ever have had the importance of and the cry from the common peasant to the see must have been immense here really ruled the of all england and here was murdered of all known forms the more nearly to the finest impulse in nature itself � that is to produce the form the of the trees are no more appealing than those of a great cathedral and the overhanging branches through which the light falls have not much more charm than some of these perfect sustained by their many arms of stone much had happened apparently to the magnificent stained glass windows which must have filled the tall pointed at periods and many of them have been replaced by plain glass those that remain are of such richness of color and such delightful variety of that seen at the end of long stretches of and they are like of blood or deep throwing a strange light on the surrounding stone i presently fell in tow of a guide it is said to day that americans are more like the than like the english but from the types i encountered in england i think the variety of american spring naturally from the mother country four more typical new england village specimens i never saw than these cathedral or guides they were sitting on the steps leading up to the choir clad in cap and gown engaged in cheerful gossip your turn henry said one and the of the three came around and unlocked the great iron gates which give into the choir then began for my special benefit a magnificent we were joined after we had gone a little way by a party of ladies from a at forty who were lurking in one of the and nothing would do but my guide must go back to the iron entrance way to the choir and begin all over not a sentence was twisted not a pause good heavens i thought he does that every day in the year perhaps a dozen times a day he was like a with but one record which is repeated nevertheless the history of the the black prince the the carving of the and the disappearance of the windows was all interesting after having made the rounds of the cathedral we came out into the the of which were all black and crumbling with age and he indicated the spot and described the manner in which had been and had fallen i don t know when a bit of history has moved me so much it was the day � the gentle quality of it � its very spring like texture that made it all so wonderful the grass in this black court was as green as new the and of the arches were crumbling into black sand � and spoke seemingly of a thousand years high overhead the towers and the soaring as gracefully as winged living things looked down while i faced the black figure of my guide and thought of the ancient crossing this self same turf how long can be the life of grass when i came outside the gate into the little square or which faces it i found a beautiful statue of the muse � a semi dancing girl erected to the memory of it surprised me a little to find it here facing in what might be called the sacred of religious art but it is placed and brought back to my mind the related kingdom of poetry all the little houses about have heavy overhanging and diamond shaped lead windows the walls are thick and in color from cream to brown they seem to modern life and yet they frequently offered small shop windows full of all the things that make it picture american shoes much advertised and the latest books and magazines i sought a tea room near by and had tea looking out against the wall where some and then wandered back to the to get my and umbrella � for it was to rain for two hours more i walked up and down in the rain and dark looking into occasional windows where the blinds had not been drawn and stopping in or public where rosy waited on one with courteous smiles chapter xx en route to paris one of the things which dawned upon me in moving about england and particularly as i was leaving it was the reason for the charm of i do not know that anywhere in london or england i encountered any characters which spoke very of those he described it is probable that they were all somewhat exaggerated but of the charm of his setting there can be no doubt he appeared at a time when the old order was giving way and the new � the new as we have known it in the last sixty years � was itself very sharply were just coming in and being with the modern hotel was not yet even thought of but it was impending born and raised in london was among the first to perceive the wonder of
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waiter and i my musical breakfast and mr changes at home mrs casts a damp on our departure my magnificent order at the public house i make myself known to my aunt the momentous interview i return to the doctor s after the party somebody turns up i my first fall in life we arrive unexpectedly at mr s fireside i make the acquaintance of miss in hovering near us at the dinner party i i fall into we are disturbed in our xiv list of plates i find mr going out with the tide mr and mrs my aunt me mr and his partner wait upon my aunt mr some remarks makes a figure in parliament and i report him the wanderer and i in conference with the i am married our housekeeping mr dick my aunt s the river mr s dream comes true restoration of mutual confidence between mr and mrs my child wife s old companion i am the bearer of evil tidings the i am shown two interesting a stranger calls to see me line from bottom of page for bo read from bottom of page make the same from bottom of page make the same from top of page make the same twenty lines in advance make the same line from bottom of page for a read personal history and experience david the younger chapter i i am whether i shall turn out to be the hero of my own life or whether that station will be held by anybody else these page must show to begin my life with the beginning of my life i record that i was born as i have been informed and believe on a friday at twelve o clock at night it was remarked that the clock began to strike and i began to cry simultaneously in consideration of the day and hour of my birth it was declared by the nurse and by some sage women in the neighbourhood who had taken a lively interest in me several months before there was any possibility of our becoming personally acquainted first that i was destined to be unlucky in life and secondly that i was privileged to see ghosts and spirits both these gifts inevitably as they believed to all unlucky of either born towards the small hours on a night i need say nothing here on the first head because nothing can show � better than my history whether that was or by the result on the second branch of the question i will only remark that unless i ran through that part of my inheritance while i was still a baby i have not come into it yet but i do not at all complain of having been kept out of this property and if anybody else should be in the present enjoyment of it he is heartily welcome to keep it i was born with a which was advertised for sale in the newspapers at the low price of fifteen guineas whether sea going people were short of money about that time or were short of faith and preferred cork i don t know all i know is that there was but one solitary bidding and that was from an attorney connected with the business who offered two pounds in cash and the balance in b the personal history and experience but declined to be from drowning on any higher bargain consequently the advertisement was withdrawn at a dead loss � for as to my poor dear mother s own was in the market then � and ten years afterwards the was put up in a down in our part of the country to fifty members at half a crown a head the to spend five shillings i was present myself and i remember to have felt quite uncomfortable and confused at a part of myself being disposed of in that way the was won i recollect by an old lady with a hand basket who very reluctantly produced from it the five shillings all in and short � as it took an immense time and a great waste of to endeavour without any effect to prove to her it is a fact which will be long remembered as remarkable down there that she was never drowned but died triumphantly in bed at ninety two i have understood that it was to the last her boast that she never had been on the water in her life except upon a bridge and that over her tea to which she was extremely partial she to the last expressed her indignation at the of and others who had the presumption to go about the world it was in vain to represent to her that some tea perhaps included resulted from this objectionable practice she always returned with greater emphasis and with an instinctive knowledge of the strength of her objection let us have no not to myself at present i will go back to my birth i was born at in or thereby as they say in scotland i was a child my father s eyes had closed upon the light of this world six months when mine opened on it there is something strange to me even now in the reflection that he never saw me and something stranger yet in the shadowy remembrance that i have of my first childish associations with his white grave stone in the churchyard and of the compassion i used to feel for it lying out alone there in the dark night when our little parlor was warm and bright with fire and candle and the doors of our house were � almost cruelly it seemed to me sometimes � bolted and locked against it an aunt of my father s and consequently a great aunt of mine of whom i shall have more to relate by and by was the principal of our family miss or miss as my
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went away down the dark street not so gaily but that she several times said ah poor little pa ah poor dear struggling shabby little pa before she took heart to knock at the door not so gaily but that the brilliant furniture seemed to stare her out of countenance aa if it insisted on being compared with the dingy furniture at home not so gaily but that she fell into very low spirits sitting late in her own room and very heartily wept as she wished now that the deceased old john had never made a will about her now that young john had lived to marry her contradictory things to wish said but my ufe and fortunes are so contradictory altogether that what can i expect myself to be i mutual f ix in which th� orphan his ill the secretary working in the dismal swamp next morning was informed that a youth waited in the hall who gave the name of the footman who this made a decent before the name to that it was forced on his reluctance by the youth in question and that if the youth had had the good sense and taste to inherit some other name it would have spared the of him the bearer mrs will be very well pleased said the secretary in a perfectly composed way show him in mr being introduced remained close to the door revealing in various parts of his form many surprising and buttons i am glad to see you said john in a cheerful tone of welcome i have expecting you explained that he had meant to come before but that the orphan of whom he made mention as our had been and he had waited to report him well then he is well now t said the secretary no he ain t said mr having his head to a considerable extent to remark that he thought must have took em from the being asked what he meant he answered them that come out upon him and his chest being requested to explain himself ho stated that there was some of em you wouldn t with a sixpence pressed to fall back upon a case he that they about as red as ever red could be but as long as they strikes out sir continued � they ain t so much if s their striking in that s to be off john hoped the child had had medical attendance yes said he had been took to the doctor s shop once and what did the doctor call it asked him after perplexed reflection answered brightening he called it something as long for spots suggested no said confidence ever so much longer than sir f mr was elevated by this fact and seemed to consider that it reflected credit on the poor httle patient mrs will be sorry to hear this said mrs said so sir when she it from her hoping aa our would work round but i hope he said with a quick turn upon the messenger i hope so answered it all depends on their he then went on to say that whether had took em from the or whether the had took em from the had been sent home and liad got em that mrs s days and nights being devoted to out m who was ont of her lap the whole of the arrangements had upon and he had had ta a tight time the of honesty beamed and blushed as he said it with the of having been serviceable last night said when i was a at the wheel late the seemed to go like oar breathing it b then as it went out it shook a little and got unsteady then as it took the turn to come home it had a like and a bit then it smooth and so it went on till i know d which was and which was our nor our he scarce know d either for sometimes when the he says me choking and mrs holds him up in her lap and says to me bide a bit and we all stops together and when our gets his breathing again i turns again and we all goes on together had gradually expanded with his description into a stare and a vacant grin he now contracted being into a of tears and under pretence of heated drew the under part of his sleeve across his eyes with a singularly awkward laborious and this is unfortunate said i go and break it to mrs stay you here stayed there staring at the pattern of the paper on the wall the secretary and mrs came back together and with mrs was a young lady miss hy name who was better worth staring at it to than the best of wall ah my poor dear pretty little john mrs tes said the sympathetic you don t think he is in a very very bad way do you asked the pleasant creature with her wholesome cordiality put upon his good � and finding it in collision with his nations threw back his head and uttered a howl rounded off with a so bad as mrs and not to tell me of it sooner i think she might have been mom answered hesitating of what far heaven s i think she might have been returned with submission of standing in our s light there s so much trouble in illness and so much expense and she s seen such a lot of its being objected to but she never can have thought said that i would grudge the dear child no but she might have thought as a habit like of its standing in s lights and might have tried to bring him through it knew his ground well to conceal herself in sickness like a lower animal to creep out of sight and herself away and mutual
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any price you will decide for and take your measures accordingly as far as i am concerned i have no price if i am ever called upon for the truth i tell it but i want no move than i have now done and ended said mr with hearty grip of hand u thank ee thank ee and then walked up sad down the little shop in great agitation but look here by resumed nervously sitting down again if i have to bay up i shan t buy him any cheaper for being out of it instead of his having half the it was to have been halt i suppose share and share alike it was to have been sir answered instead of that hell now have all i shall pay the same if not more for you tell me he s an dog a rascal he is said don t you think mr after looking at the fire for a don t you feel as you might like to pretend to be in it till was bought up and then ease your mind by handing over to me what you had made believe to pocket no i don t sir returned very positively to make amends r mr no sir it seems to me after thinking it over that the best amends for having got out of the square is to get back into the square p mused mr when you say the square you i mean said stoutly and shortly the right it appears to me said mr grumbling over the fire in an injured manner that the right is with me if anywhere i have much more right to the old man s money than the crown can ever have what was the grown to him except the king s taxes whereas me and my wife we was all in all to him mr with his head upon his hands rendered melancholy by � the contemplation of mr e only to steep himself in the luxury of that frame of mind she did not wish so to regard herself nor yet to be so regarded and how am i to live asked mr � if i m to be going buying fellows up out of the little that i ve got and how am i to set about it when am i to get my money ready when am i to make a bid ton haven t told me when he to drop down upon me explained under what conditions and with what views the mutual down upon mr was held oyer until the should be cleared away mr listened attentively i suppose said be with a gleam of hope there s no doubt about the and date of this confounded will none whatever mr where it be deposited at present asked mr in a tone it s in my possession sir is it he cried with great eagerness now for any liberal sum of money that could be agreed upon would you put it in the fire v no sir i wouldn t interrupted mr nor pass it over to me that would be the same thing no sir said mr the golden seemed about to pursue these questions when a noise was heard outside coming towards the door here s said get behind the young in the corner mr and judge him for yourself i won t light a candle till he s gone there ll only be the glow of the fire w egg s well acquainted with the and he won t take particular notice of aim legs in mr at present i see a pair of shoes at the end of tail get your head well behind his smile mr and you ll lie comfortable there find plenty of room behind his smile he s a little dusty but he s very like you are you right sir v mr had but whispered an affirmative response when came in partner said that gentleman in a manner yourself tolerable returned mr not much to boast o� in deed said sorry partner that you re not picking up foster but your soul s too large for your body sir that s where it is and how s our stock in trade partner safe bind safe find partner is that about it do you wish to see it v asked if you please partner said rubbing his hands i wish to see it with or m similar words to some that was set to music some time back i to see it with em � and i will pledge with mine turning his back and turning a key mr produced the document holding on by his usual corner mr holding on by the opposite corner sat down on the seat so lately by mr and looked it over all right sir he slowly and unwillingly admitted in his reluctance to loose his hold all right and watched his partner as he turned his back again and turned his key again there s nothing new i suppose said his low chair behind the counter yes there is sir replied there was something new this morning that old and o r mutual friend mr inquired with a glance towards the s yard or two of smile be cried yielding to his honest indignation dusty that old and sir turns into the yard this morning to with our property a tool of his own a young man by the name of when i say to him what do you want here young man this is a private yard he out a paper from s other the one i was passed over for this is to to overlook the and to watch the work that s pretty strong i think mr remember he doesn t know yet of our claim on the property suggested then he must have a hint of it said u and a strong one that
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in the s belt and the galleries and halls wherein every sung like a pass for this fortune wanted root in the core of god s � was a weed of self and the and and ever the love is the of wars and the parent of remorse iii higher far upward into the pure realm over sun and star over the flickering thou must mount for love into vision where all form in one only form in a region where the wheel on which all beings ride visibly where the eternal worm the world with bound and term where unlike things are like where good and ill and joy and moan melt into one the celestial love there past present future shoot triple blossoms from one root at base divided in their are united there the holy essence rolls one through separated souls and the sunny j on sleeps folding nature in its and every fair and every good known in part or known to men below in their endure the race of gods or those we own are shadows flitting up and down in the still the circles of that sea are laws which publish and which hide the cause pray for a beam out of that sphere thee to guide and to redeem the celestial love o what a load of care and toil by lying use bestowed from his shoulders falls who sees the true the period of peace counsel which the ages kept shall the well born soul accept as the overhanging trees fill the lake with images � as garment draws the garment s hem men their fortunes bring with them by right or wrong lands and goods go to the strong property will draw still to the proprietor silver to silver creep and wind and kind to kind nor less the eternal poles of tendency souls the celestial love there need no vows to bind whom not each other seek but find they give and take no pledge or oath � nature is the bond of both no prayer no flattery � their noble are their plain and cold is their address power have they for tenderness and so thoroughly is known each other s counsel by his own they can without meeting need is none of forms of greeting they can well communicate in their estate when each the other shall avoid shall each by each be most enjoyed not with or gloves do these their loves not by jewels and not by ribbons or by the celestial love but by the sun spark on the sea and the cloud shadow on the the soothing lapse of to and the cheerful round of work their of love so public are they the farthest star the throbbing sea the earth yield sympathy and signs of mirth is none so high so mean is none but feels and this union even the fell are appeased the good the lost are love s hearts are faithful but not fond bound for the just but not beyond not glad as the low loving herd of self in other still preferred but they have heartily designed the benefit of broad mankind and they serve men after their own genius clearly the celestial love without a false humility for this is love s nobility � not to scatter bread and gold goods and bought and sold but to hold fast his simple sense and speak the speech of innocence and with hand and body and blood to make his bosom counsel good for he that men few he serves all who dares be true j the apology think me not unkind and rude that i walk alone in grove and i go to the god of the wood to fetch his word to men tax not my that i fold my arms beside the brook each cloud that floated in the sky writes a letter in my book me not laborious band for the idle flowers i brought every in my hand goes home loaded with a thought the apology there was never mystery but tis figured in the flowers was never secret history but birds tell it in the one harvest from thy field homeward brought the oxen strong a second crop thine acres yield which i gather in a song i thy trivial harp will never please or fill my craving ear its should ring as blows the breeze free clear no s art nor of piano strings can make the wild blood start in its mystic springs the bard must the rudely and hard as with hammer or with that they may render back artful thunder which secrets of the track sparks of the blaze s blows are strokes of fate with the forest tone when boughs boughs in the wood with the gasp and moan of the ice imprisoned flood with the pulse of manly hearts with the voice of with the din of city arts with the of wars with the of the brave and prayers of might from cave great is the art great be the manners of the bard he shall not his brain with the of and number but leaving rule and pale he shall aye climb for his rhyme pass in pass in the angels say in to the upper doors nor count of the floors but mount to paradise by the of surprise master of the games king of sport that never he shall daily joy dispense hid in song s sweet influence things more live and go what time the subtle mind sings aloud the tune their beat and march their feet and their members are combined by he shall no task decline s mighty line extremes of nature reconciled � a tyrant of his will and made the lion mild songs can the tempest still scattered on the stormy air mould the year to fair increase and bring in poetic peace he shall 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a will to gratify all was absorbed in you i call to witness � in the name of w j there may be something more holy something more imposing but the name of mistress was ever to me a more charming sound � the more i myself before you the greater right i thought i should have to your favour and thus also i hoped the less to injure the splendid reputation you had acquired this circumstance on your own account you did not quite forget to mention in the letter to your friend you related also some of die arguments i then urged to you from that fatal marriage but you the greater part by which i was induced to prefer love to matrimony and liberty to chains i call heaven to witness should master of the world me his hand in marriage and secure to me the command of the universe i should deem it at once more eligible and more honourable to be called the mistress of than the wife of caesar f the source of merit is not in riches or in power these are the gifts of fortune but virtue only gives worth and excellence the woman who prefers a rich to a poor man shows she has a soul in a husband it is his wealth and not himself which she and to her who with this view some reward may be due but no gratitude it is clear that i have not t how oft when press d to marriage have i said curse on all loves but those who love has made love free as air c hm t should at my feet the world s great master fall o line s of mid her intentions propose but a richer match and if not too late she will embrace it with the truth of my opinion die learned has confirmed in a with and his wife as related by the of when to effect a reconciliation them she had proposed this � thus when you have got so far as to be convinced that there lives not a better man and a more fortunate all your thoughts will be directed to produce ae greatest will be happy in the reflection that ho is married to the best of women and she on her side that her band is the best of men these sentiments are beautiful they seem the production rather of wisdom herself than of philosophy but in the married state should this favourable opinion be even on error how charming is it to be thus deceived it produces love and on this rests the pledge of mutual fidelity while purity of mind far more than her sister virtue but that happiness which in others is sometimes the effect of fancy in me was the child of evidence they might think their husbands perfect and were happy in the idea but i that you were such and the verse knew the same thus the more my affection was secured from all possible error the more steady be came its flame where was found the king or the philosopher that had your reputation was there a village a city a king that did not wish even to see you when you in public who did not run to behold you and when you withdrew every neck was stretched every eye sprang forward to � you the married and the unmarried women when was away longed for his company and when he was present every bosom was on fire no lady of distinction no princess that did not envy the possession of her you possessed indeed two a tone of voice and a grace in singing which gave you the control over every female heart these powers were peculiarly yours for i do not know that they ever fell to the share of any other philosopher to soften by playful amusement the stem labours of philosophy you composed several on love and on similar subjects these you were often heard to sing when the harmony of your voice gave new charms to the expression in all circles nothing was talked of but even the most ignorant who could not judge of composition were enchanted by the melody of your voice male hearts were unable to resist tiie impression thus was my name soon carried to distant nations for the loves of and were the constant theme of all your songs what wonder if i became the subject of general envy again she reproaches him for his neglect the of and st having as i said complied with all your i thought indeed i had great pretensions to your esteem even at this moment i am a victim to your will it was not religion that called me to the of the i was then in the bloom of youth but you ordered it and i obeyed for this sacrifice if i have no merit in your eyes vain indeed is all my labour from god i can look for no reward for whose sake it is plain i have as yet done nothing when you had resolved to quit the world i followed you rather i ran before you it seems you had the image of the s wife before your eyes you feared i might and therefore before you could surrender your own li i was to be devoted in that one instance i confess your of me tore my heart i blushed for you for my part heaven knows had i seen you hastening to at a single nod i should not have hesitated to have preceded or to have followed you my soul was no longer in my own possession it was in yours even now if it is not with you it is now here it cannot exist without you but do receive it kindly there it will be happy if it find you indulgent if you only return
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on the lower four miles of the creek the higher four or five dollars a day were considered very poor on account of the high price of provisions and of the season after crossing many smaller streams with their of trees and meadows and bright wild gardens we arrived at the le cabin about the middle of the afternoon before entering it he threw down his burden and made haste to show me his favorite flower a blue not a specimen of which he found within a few rods of the cabin and proudly handed it to me with the finest respect and telling its many charms and associations showed in every look and touch and gesture that the tender little plant of the mountain wilderness was truly his best loved darling travels in after luncheon we set out for the highest point on the dividing ridge about a mile above the cabin and sauntered and gazed until admiring the vast expanse of open rolling like dotted with groves and lakes the fountain heads of countless cool glad streams le s simple love of nature preserved through a hard wilderness life was delightful to see the grand with their lakes and streams plants and animals all were dear to him in particular he was fond of the birds that near his cabin watched the young and in stormy weather helped their parents to feed and shelter them some species were so confiding they learned to perch on his shoulders and take from his hand a little before sunset snow began to fly driven by a cold wind and by the time we reached the cabin though we had not far to go everything looked wintry at half past nine we ate supper while a good fire cheerily in the and a wintry wind blew hard the little log cabin was only ten feet long eight wide and just high enough under the roof peak to allow one to stand upright the was not wide enough for two so le spread the blankets on the floor and we gladly lay down after our long happy walk our heads under the our feet against the opposite wall and though comfortably tired it was long ere we fell asleep for le finding me a good listener told many stories of his adventurous life with indians bears and wolves snow and hunger the trail and of his many in the woods hidden like the nests and of wild animals stories that have a singular interest to everybody for they awaken inherited memories of the when we were all wild he had nine children he told me the youngest eight years of age and several of his daughters were married his home was in victoria next morning was cloudy and windy snowy and cold dreary december weather in august and i y gladly ran out to see what i might learn a gray ragged edged cloud the top of the divide its snowy drawn out by the wind the flowers though most of them were buried or partly so were to some extent the bent over shining like eyes through the snow and the too with their twisted shut i could recognize under any disguise and two species of dwarf willow with their seeds already ripe one with comparatively small leaves were growing in mere cracks and of rock where the dry snow could not lie and were flying briskly in the cold wind and on the edge of a grove i saw a from which a bear had stripped large sections of bark for food about nine o clock the clouds lifted and i enjoyed another wide view from the summit of the ridge of the vast grassy fountain region with smooth rolling features a few patches of forest broke the monotony of color and the many lakes one of them about five miles long were glowing like windows only the highest were with snow while in travels in the clouds showed beautiful bits of yellow green sky the limit of tree growth is about five thousand feet throughout all this region from to the grow in in the woods and on dry where the trees seem to have been destroyed by fire and over all the broad above the timber line a kind of bunch grass in particular is often four or five feet high and close enough to be for hay i never anywhere saw finer or more wild pasture here the feed and grow fat the intense winter cold often forty to sixty degrees below winter and summer seem to be the only seasons here what may fairly be called summer lasts only two or three months winter nine or ten for of pure well defined spring or autumn there is scarcely a trace were it not for the long severe this would be a capital stock country and the of the old west from my outlook on the ridge i saw thousands of square miles of this like region drained by of the and rivers le told me that the or were very abundant on this high ground a flock of fifty or more was seen a short time before at the head of creek � fine hardy able animals like their near relatives the of the the indians he said hunted them with dogs mostly in the fall and winter on my return trip i met several bands of these indians on the march going north to hunt some of the men and women were the tar trail carrying on top of their heavy loads of dried salmon while the grown dogs had saddle bags filled with odds and ends on their backs small unable to carry more than five or six pounds were thus made useful i overtook another band going south heavy laden with and skins to trade an old woman with short dress and was carrying a big load of and skins on top of which
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could she help fearing on more serious reflection that like many other great and she had been eloquent on a point in which her own conduct would ill bear examination chapter xii anne and finding themselves the earliest f the part the next morning agreed to stroll down to the sea before breakfast they went to the sands chapters from jane to watch the flowing of the tide which a fine breeze was bringing in with all the grandeur which so flat a shore admitted the praised the morning in the sea in the delight of the fresh feeling breeze � and were silent till suddenly began again with � oh es � i am quite convinced that with very few exceptions the sea air always does good there can be no doubt of its having been of the greatest service to dr after his illness last spring he declares himself that c� to for a month did him more good than all the medicine he took and that being b the sea s makes him feel young again now i cannot help thinking it a pity that he does not live entirely b the sea i do think he had better leave entirely and fix at do not you anne do not ou agree with me that it is the best thing he could do both for himself and mrs she has cousins here you know and many acquaintances which would make it cheerful for her � and i am sure she would be glad to get to a place where she could have medical attendance at hand in case of his having another indeed i think it quite melancholy to have such excellent people as dr and mrs who have been doing good all their lives wearing out their last da in a place like where excepting our family they seem shut out from all the world i wish his friends would propose it to him i really think they ought and as to a there could be no difficulty at his time of life and with his character my only doubt is whether anything could him to leave his parish he is so very strict and scrupulous in his notions i must say do not you think anne it is being over scrupulous do not you think it is quite a miss s accuracy of statement is here shown in the fact that the sands are open only to southern breezes especially to those from the persuasion mistaken point of conscience when a man sacrifices his health for the sake of duties which may be just as well performed by another person and at too � only seventeen miles off � he would be near enough to hear if people thought there was anything to complain of anne smiled more than once to herself during this speech and entered into the subject as ready to do good bj entering into the feelings of a young lady as of a man � though here it was good of a lower standard for what could be offered but general acquiescence she said all that was reasonable and proper on the business felt the claims of dr to repose as she ought saw how ver desirable it was that he should have some active respectable young as a resident and was even courteous enough to hint at the advantage of such resident s being married i wish said very well pleased with her companion i wish lady lived at and were intimate with dr i have always heard of lady as a woman of the greatest influence with everybody i always look upon her as able to persuade a person to anything i am afraid of her as have told ou before quite afraid of her because she is so very clever but i respect her and wish we had such a neighbor at anne was amused bj s manner of being grateful and amused also that the course of events and the new interests of s views should have placed her friend at all in favor with of the family she had only time however for a general answer and a wish that such another woman were at before all subjects suddenly ceased on seeing and captain coming towards them they came also for a stroll till breakfast was likely to be ready but immediately afterwards that she had something to procure at a chapters from jane shop invited them all to go back with her into the town they were all at her disposal when they came to the steps leading upwards from the beach a gentleman at the same moment pi to come down politely drew back and stopped to give them wa they ascended and passed him and as they passed anne s face caught his eye and he looked at her with a degree of earnest admiration which she could not be insensible of she was looking remarkably well her ver regular very pretty features having the bloom and freshness of restored by the line wind which had been blowing on her complexion and by the animation of e ye which it had also produced it was evident that the gentleman completely a gentleman in manner admired her exceedingly captain looked round at her instantly in a wa which showed his noticing of it he gave her a momentary glance � a glance of brightness which seemed to say that man is struck with you � and even i at this moment see something like anne again after attending through her business and about a little longer thej returned to the inn and anne in passing afterwards quickly from her own chamber to their dining room had nearly run against the very same gentleman as he came out of an adjoining apartment she had before him to be a stranger like themselves and determined that a groom who was strolling about near the two as
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time to learn something of them and this would have proved of value to me yet i am thankful that had not yet been thrust into our rural common schools to knot the brains and the time of those who should be learning something of positive and practical utility before the spring of opened father had taken a job of clearing fifty acres of wild land a mile north of our cot and here he and his sons were employed save in winter for the next two years tlie work was rugged and but the land had been with yellow pine a thousand years before � as a hundred giant trunks long since but not yet wholly back to dust this was by a forest of white pines of which hundreds were still standing mostly lifeless while a large number lay prone and dead though the trunks were mainly sound black ash in abundance formed a later and generally living growth though a fierce which swept over this whole region during a great four years before we saw it had devoured much and killed more of the forest but increased the of etc which we were required to dispose of when we first it the snow was just going and the water and were knee deep we were all indifferent when compared with those who usually with great forests and the job looked so formidable that travellers along the which skirted our task were accustomed to halt and comfort us with that we boys would be grown men before we saw the end of it but cutting trees and bushes up great into drawing them together rolling up and burning great heaps of logs saving out here and there a log that would do to saw digging out rotten pines from the boil wherein they had themselves so that they might dry sufficiently to bum and burning brush and rotten or worthless sticks and home such wood as served for fuel we until the job was done when i could have begun another just like it and managed so as not to more than two thirds of the r we expended on this and now if any one has a great tract of land to clear of trees logs and bushes i fancy that i might give him hints worth considering n b � i work for pay we liad been farmers of the poorer class in new we took rank with day in we had lived freely though not much less in our earlier home w e were compelled to observe a the bread of our class in this section was almost exclusively made of e � indian corn being little grown on the clay soil of western � and though there are always about six women alive who know how to make of the best bread ever tasted our mother was not one of these recollections of a busy life and never learned their admirable art then the clay itself with the weather from mire to rock is not well adapted to bare feet while the detestable canada which every road and almost every field in are not to of temper or propriety of speech having the sharp of these dug out of my feet with needles was long my daily terror and my nightly torture the tough with which their rough experiences had covered our naked feet rendering the of the more laborious and painful than any soft footed person can realize i have never since been able to stiff clay at their full value a ledge eighty rods east of the from which we worked westward afforded us good spring water and supplied us also with whereof we killed some which might have proved to us boys as we worked among the brush and weeds had they caught the idea still clearing land is pleasant work especially when you have a hundred heaps of logs and brush burning at once of a dark windy night while ten or twenty acres of fallen leafy timber on fire at once affords a magnificent spectacle we were to have had per acre with the use of a team and half the wood suitable for timber and fuel and though even in those days was not large pay for two years work of a man and two boys we were well satisfied in the event however mr died before we had effected a settlement when his estate was declared and we were out of a part of our pay our third year in was spent two miles farther west where we inhabited and worked a little place known as father ran a neighboring saw mill on shares as he twelve hours on and twelve off with a partner i insisted on being his but i think once working from noon till midnight my ambition and i never fully learned the art and mystery of boards by water power my brother though younger was more persistent and made greater progress i gave that summer pretty diligently to with very meagre results first the season was wet till the of june and our com planted in mortar encountered a brick like crust when it undertook to come up and unable to pierce or break it pushed under it for two inches or so until we dug off the crust and introduced the pale imprisoned shoots to next came a long summer of intense and our fields so that tlie made no serious impression on their rock like masses the corn to stand and turn yellow while the came up thick rank and vigorous covering the fields a most to the eye at a distance we lad failed in an attempt to make sugar that spring the sou being bad the trees distant and our knowledge of the very meagre our crops amounted to little while the we drank here was so bad that the fever ami struck � ti our parents in
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on one shore and then on ai the phantom other till your ship s tore in two i ve come through the bait stem first in the heart o the south east with a sou sou west wind blowing of the flood and our said he wouldn t do it again not for all s you ve heard o s sir yes and was stationed in the � i said no he was not at but much more east o them passages and that s strait at the east end o it s all on the way south to when you re running through that eastern sometimes you go through if you re full and sometimes through strait so as to stand south at once and fetch round keeping well clear o the bank if you aren t full why it stands to reason you go round by the passage keeping careful to the north side you understand that i was not and judged it safer to keep to the north side � of silence and on strait in the between island and the they put in charge of a screw pile light called the light it s less than a mile across the head of strait then it opens out to ten or twelve mile for strait and then it again to the of traffic a three mile with a by it that s old by strait and if you keep his light and the light in a line you won t take much harm not on the darkest night that s what told me and i can well believe him knowing these seas myself but you must ever be of the currents and there they put since he was the only man that that dutch government which owns could find that would go to and tend a fixed light mostly they uses dutch and englishmen being said to drink when alone i never could rightly find out what made accept of that position but accept he did and used to sit for to watch the come out of the forests to hunt for and such like round about the at low tide the water was always warm in those parts as i know well and uncommon and it ran with the tides as thick and smooth as in a there was another man along with in the light but he wasn t rightly a man he was a no nor yet a he wasn t but his skin was in little and cracks all over from living so much in the salt water as was his usual custom his hands was all foot he was called i remember saying now an orange lord on account of his habits you ve heard of an orange lord sir the phantom i suggested that s the name said his knee an of course and his name was what they call a sea told me that that man long hair and all would go swimming up and down the straits just for something to do running down on one tide and back again with the other swimming side stroke and the tides going strong he d be about the beach along with the at low tide for he was most part a beast or he d sit in a little boat praying to old of an evening when the was red at the south end of the strait told me that he wasn t a man like you and me might have been to now i can never rightly come at what it was that began to ail after he had been there a year or something less he was saving of all his pay and tending to his light and now and again he d have a fight with and tip off the light into the sea th n he told me his head began to feel looking at the tide so long he said there long streaks of white running inside it like wall paper that hadn t been properly up he said the streaks they would run with the north and south twice a day to them and he d lie down on the � it was a sc ft the of traffic pile light � with his eye to a crack and watch the water through the piles just so quiet as he said the only comfort he got was at slack water then the streaks in his head went round and round like a in a but that was heaven he said to the other kind of streaks � the straight ones that looked like arrows on a wind but much more regular and that was the trouble of it no more he couldn t ever keep his eyes off the tides that ran up and down so strong but as soon as ever he looked at the high hills standing all along strait for rest and comfort his eyes would be pulled down like to the water and when they once got there he couldn t pull them away again till the tide changed he told me all this himself speaking just as though he was talking of somebody else where did you meet him i asked in harbour a cleaning the of a boat but i d known him off and on through following the sea for many years yes he spoke about himself very curious and all as if he was in the next room laying there dead those streaks they upon his he said and he made up his mind every time that the dutch that to the lights in those parts come along that he d ask to be took off but as soon as she did come something went click it the phantom in his throat and he was so took up with watching her because they ran in the contrary direction to his streaks that he could never say a
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to speak of her as she is i love her too much now he lay still for some time and i had hoped that the brandy had had the effect of sending him to sleep when he suddenly turned his face towards me did you ever read of wolves he asked i answered that i had there is a story he said thoughtfully in one of s books about a beautiful woman who took the form of a wolf at night and devoured her own children i wonder what put that idea into s head he pondered for some minutes and then he cried out for some more brandy there was a small bottle of upon the table and i managed by upon helping him myself to mix about half a with the spirits he drank it off and sank his head once more upon the pillow anything better than that he groaned death is better than that crime and cruelty cruelty and crime anything is better than that and so on with the monotonous refrain until at john in that sentence which followed � he had theories of the power of the human will and of the effect of mind upon matter i remember having once read a quaint which i had imagined to be mere at the time of the power of certain human minds and of effects produced by them at a distance was endowed with some exceptional power of the sort the idea grew upon me and very shortly i had evidence which convinced me of the truth of the supposition it happened that at the very time when my mind was dwelling upon this subject i saw a notice in the paper that our town was to be visited by dr the well known medium and was a man whose performance such as it was had been again and again pronounced to be genuine by competent judges he was far above and had the reputation of being the living authority upon the strange of animal and determined therefore to see what the human will could do even against all the of glaring and a public platform i took a ticket for the first night of the performance and went with several student friends we had secured one of the side boxes and did not arrive until after the performance had begun i had hardly taken my seat before i recognised with his and old mrs sitting in the third or fourth row of the they caught sight of me at almost the same moment and we john bowed to each other the first portion of the lecture was somewhat commonplace the giving tricks of pure with one or two of performed upon a subject whom he had brought with him he gave us an exhibition of too throwing his subject into a trance and then demanding particulars as to the movements of absent friends and the whereabouts of hidden objects all of which appeared to be answered satisfactorily i had seen all this before however what i wanted to see now was the effect of the s will when exerted upon some independent member of the audience he came round to that as the concluding exhibition in his performance i have shown you he said that a subject is entirely by the will of the he loses all power of and his very thoughts are such as are suggested to him by the master mind the same end may be attained without any preliminary process a strong will can simply by virtue of its strength take possession of a weaker one even at a distance and can the impulses and the actions of the owner of it if there was one man in the world who had a very much more highly developed will than any of the rest of the human family there is no reason why he should not be able to rule over them all and to reduce his fellow creatures to the condition of happily there is such a dead level of mental power or rather of mental weakness among us that such a catastrophe is not likely to occur but still within our small john it promised to be for the clouds were up in the north west and the dark was drifting across the face of the moon throwing alternate of light and shade upon the rugged surface of the island and the restless sea beyond we were standing talking close by the door of the cottage and i was thinking to myself that my friend was more cheerful than he had been since his illness when he gave a sudden sharp cry and looking round at him i saw by the light of the moon an expression of unutterable horror come over his features his eyes became fixed and staring as if upon some approaching object and he extended his long thin forefinger which quivered as he pointed look there he cried it is she i it is she i you see her there coming down the side of the he me by the wrist as he spoke there she is coming towards us who i cried straining my eyes into the darkness he screamed � she has come for me hold me fast old friend don t let me go hold up old man i said clapping him on the shoulder pull yourself together you are dreaming there is nothing to fear she is gone he cried with a gasp of relief no by heaven there she is again and nearer � coming nearer she told me she would come for me and she keeps her word come into the house i said his hand as i grasped it was as cold as ice ah i knew it i he shouted there she is waving her arms she is to me it is the signal i must go i am coming i am coming i i threw
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feeling he came forward to assist the host was a little man and could not reach the gifts that hung on the boughs of the tree being tall and having a long reach of arm came to his aid that s right that s right gasped his round face red and shining with his exertions the best gifts are up here as the best gifts of man are from heaven put in mrs with her usual tact laughed quite so quite so he said careful as was else not to offend the lady but on this occasion we can obtain the best gifts i and ware and mrs have contributed to the tree the children have their presents now for the presents of the by this time the children were with food and the christmas tree distracted by many presents they were seated everywhere many on the floor and the room was a chaos of trumpets toy horses and the chatter of the children and the noise of the instruments was fearful but seemed to enjoy the riot and even his wife s grave face relaxed when she saw her three precious jewels rosy with pleasure she drew anne s attention to them and the smiled miss was popular with save in that happy home meantime handed down the presents mrs received a chain purse from her affectionate husband mrs a silver cream which she immediately as cheap mrs laughed over a case which she admitted revealed her favorite vice and the was made happy with a it has been taken to your house this evening explained we couldn t put that on the tree ha a chain for said presenting hei with the packet and i hope you will like it dear did you buy it she asked sparkling and of course i bought presents both for you and miss here is yours he added turning to the who grew rosy a very simple i wish it were more worthy of your acceptance and he handed it with a bow her heart filled with jealousy glided away saw her face guessed her feeling and followed in a comer he caught her and placed something on her finger our engagement ring he whispered and once more smiled her lover smiled also but his heart was heavy chapter n an letter after the riot of the evening came the silence of the night the children departed amidst the stormy laughter of and it was anne s task to see that the were put comfortably to bed she sat in the nursery and watched the washing and and hair curling and listened to their joyous chatter about the wonderful presents and the wonderful pleasures of that day afterwards when they were safely tucked away she went down to supper and received the compliments of on her in entertaining children mrs also and in a more genuine way added her of praise you are my right hand miss she said with a smile in her weary blue eyes i don t know what i shall do without you oh miss is not going said the master of the house who knows smiled anne i have always been a wanderer and it may be that i shall be called away suddenly it was on the tip of s tongue to ask by whom but the of anne s face and the flash of her dark eyes made him change his mind all the same he concluded that there was by whom she might be summoned and guessed also that the obeying of the call an letter would come as an unwilling duty mrs saw nothing of this she had not much brain power and what she had was devoted to considerations dealing with the passing hour at the present moment she could only think that it was time for supper and that all present were hungry and tired hungry anne certainly was not but she confessed to feeling weary making some excuse she retired to her room but not to sleep when the door was locked she put on her dressing gown shook down her long black hair and sat by the fire her thoughts were not pleasant filled with shame at the knowledge of his treachery towards the woman he was engaged to marry had kept close to s side during supper and afterwards he strove to interest himself in her somewhat childish chatter and made her so happy by his mere presence that her face was shining with smiles by love and by gratified vanity looked really pretty and in her heart was scornful of poor anne thus left out in the cold she concluded that loved her best after all and did not see how he every now and then stealthily glanced at the wearily striving to interest herself in the conversation of or the domestic chatter of his wife in her heart anne had felt a pang at this desertion although she knew that it was perfectly and unable to bear the sight of s brilliant face she retired thus early she loved it was no use the fact she loved him with every fibre of her nature and with a passion far stronger than could be felt for him by the doll with the shallow eyes for she would have lost the world but she would not have him lose his for her and after all she had no right to creep like a a coin of edward vii serpent into the of silly in her own way the child � for she was little else � adored and as he was her lover it would be base to come between her and her god but anne knew in her heart that loved her best if she did but lift her hand he would leave all and follow her to the world s end but lift her hand she would not it would be too cruel to break the
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alarmed about it i think it is so of you that reminds me that i never finished what i wanted to say at the beginning of this letter even supposing that i am pretty and my complexion sometimes is simply awful you must bear in mind how quickly the years slip by and how soon a woman why we shall hardly be married before you will find me full of wrinkles and without a tooth in my head poor boy how dreadful for you men seem to change so little and so slowly besides it does not matter for them for nobody a man because he is pretty but you must marry me frank not for what i look but for what i am � for my inmost inmost self so that if i had no body at all you would love me just the same that is how i love you but i do prefer you with your body on all the same i don t know how i love you dear i only know that i am in a dream when you are near me � just a beautiful dream i live for those moments � ever your own little p s � papa gave us such a fright for he came in just now and said that the window and all his family were very ill this was a the concluded joke because the coachman had told him about my wasn t it horrid of him f june my own sweetest � i do want you to come up to town on saturday morning then i will see you home to st in the evening and we shall have another dear delightful week end i think of nothing else and i count the hours now please to manage it and don t let anything stop you you know that you can always get your way oh yes you can miss i know we shall meet at the at cross railway station at one o clock but if anything should go wrong send me a wire to the club then we can do some together and have some fun also tell your mother that we shall be back in plenty of time for dinner make another and i shall eat it things are slack at the office just now and i could be spared for a few days so you have had a fish it is so strange because on that very day i had my first present and it was a fish also we shall have fish at each end when we give a dinner if we get another fish then we shall give a � or keep one of the to give to your a friend when she gets married they will always come in useful and i have had two more presents one is a from my friends in the office the other is a pair of from the club they got it up without my knowing anything about it and i was amazed when a came up to my rooms with them last night may your be long and your unbroken you each make a hundred not out that was the inscription upon a card i have something very grave to tell you i ve been going over my bills and things and i owe ever so much more than i thought i have always been so careless and never known exactly how i stood it did not matter when one was a bachelor for one always felt that one could live quite simply for a few months and so set matters straight but now it is more serious the bills come to more than a hundred pounds the biggest one is forty two pounds to and the street however i am ordering my marriage suit from them and that will keep them quiet i have enough on hand to pay most of the others but we must not run short upon our � what an awful idea perhaps there may be some among our presents we will hope for the best the but there is a more serious thing upon which i want to consult you you asked me never to have any secrets from you or else i should not bother you about such things i should have kept it for saturday when we meet but i want you to have time to think about it so that we may come to some decision then i am to a man for an indefinite sum of money it sounds rather dreadful does it not but it is not so bad as it sounds for there is no harm done yet but the question is what we should do in the future about it and the answer is not a very easy one he is a very pleasant fellow an agent and he got into some trouble about his accounts last year the office would have dismissed him but as i knew his wife and his family i became that he should not go wrong again and so i saved him from losing his situation his name is he is one of those amiable weak good fellows whom you cannot help loving although you never can trust them of course we could give notice that we should not be responsible any longer but it would be a to this poor family and the man would certainly be ruined we don t want to begin our own happiness by making any one else do we but we shall talk it over and i shall do what you a advise understand that we are only liable in case and surely it is very unlikely that he will do so after the lesson that he has already had i think the house will do splendidly the is the name and it is on the not more than a quarter of a mile from the station if your
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one fourth it is said of the of his successor in his housekeeping public or private there was only one thing much to be boasted of and remarked upon strange to say t� at was the master of the house he was never by his own brass and mahogany he had what are called habits and served himself in preference to being served by others he treated all that were about him with a marked deference and courtesy carrying his respect for human rights into the details of common life john he was a model of diligence though not perhaps very his state papers prepared while he was minister secretary or member of his numerous and � though not always distinguished for that orderly arrangement of parts which is instinctive with minds of a high philosophical character � are yet astonishing for their number and the wide learning they display he was well acquainted tlie classic and most modern languages at home in their he was familiar with modern � no political man was so thoroughly acquainted with the political history of america and that of christian europe the last two hundred years he was widely read and in all that relates to and to law he was fond of and commented on more like a professor than a in that department few in america it is said were so widely read in their peculiar lore as he he had read much i l much understood much however he seems to liave mi little attention to physical science and perhaps less to his speeches and his conversation though neither brilliant nor rich in ideas astonished yoimg men with an of learning which seemed marvellous in one all his hfe devoted to practical affairs but this is a trifle to achieve that nothing is needed but health diligence memory land a long life mr had all these he had higher qualities lie loved his country perhaps no man more so he had patriotism in an heroic degree yet was not thereby blinded to humanity he thought it a principle of human society that each nation should contribute to the of all and therefore that no nation should its conduct by the exclusive or even the consideration of its own interest yet he loved his his whole country and when she was in the wrong he told her so because he loved her this said he would be a r sentiment our country may she be always whether successful or not � may she be always in ttie right ho saw the faults of america � saw the corruption of the american government he did not make gain by this in private � but set an honest face against it he was a conscientious man this peculiarity is strongly marked in most of life he respected the limit between s john right and wrong he did not it thy of a to refer to moral principles � the absolutely right i do not mean to say that in his whole life there was no departure from the strict rule of duty i have mentioned some examples but kept one more for this place he pursued persons with a certain of spirit i will not revive again the aid quarrels nor dig up his hard words long ago consigned to oblivion it would be unjust to the living he was what is called a good if he loved an idea he seemed to hate the man who opposed it he was not content with replying he must also retort though it weakened the force of the reply in his on persons he was sometimes unjust sharp and sometimes cruel and even barbarous did he ever for an enemy every opponent was a foe and he his foes with an iron and them with a storm most awful specimens of which the language can be found in his words � bitter and i am sorry to say these it hurts my feelings to say them not less to hear but it is not our fault they are true � it would be none if they were true i did not on this occasion point them out in warning words mr says that was conscientious and it is ei true of himself perhaps mr had little humor but a giant s wit ho used it and like a giant wit has its place in debate in it is a legitimate weapon offensive and after one has beaten the single corn of good sense out of a whole wagon load of ch ff the easiest way to be rid of the rubbish is to burn it up with the lightning of wit the danger is that the begin before the separation is made that the fire the good and bad indifferently when argument is edged and pointed with wit it is doubly effective but when that edge is jagged with ill will too with personal then it becomes a weapon unworthy of a man sometimes mr used his wit as fairly as his wisdom and bags of wind on which might have stamped and beaten a but in vain � at a single from that keen wit gave up ghost and into nothing a vanity to ail men but a vexation of spirit to him who had blown them full of his own soul but sometimes � often mr s wit a different j art it sits as a judge � unjust and � often deciding wrong and john adam when right from wrong motives it was the small dagger with which he smote the fallen foe it is a poor praise for a famous man � or � to beat a with his own weapons it must be confessed that ia mr s arrows were sharp and but they were often and sometimes poison true he encountered more political opposition than any man in the nation for more than forty years he has never been
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back and slept or made pretence to sleep the day passed visited them as and told them that the excitement grew in the city indeed the of the cold weather was driving the people into a state of superstitious fury that must soon express itself in violence of one form or another and the priests were doing everything in their power to the trouble no immediate danger was to be apprehended however after and went out into the to inspect the weather according to their custom there was no sign of a change the wind blew as bitterly as ever from the mountains the sky was and the stars seemed far off and cold will it never break said with a sigh and te entered the palace followed by having solemnly to keep a strict c the people of the mist h guard over soil they wrapped themselves up in the h blankets id order to get some rest which both of h needed sadly had retired already laying h ain tips ain da i of und the b man h ain i needed sadly had retired already laying down to sleep immediately on the other side of the curtain foe she feared to be alone indeed they could see the tips of her fingers beneath the bottom of the curtain very they were asleep for even terror must yield s last to the necessities of rest aiid a dense silence over the palace broken only by the tramp of the without once opened bis eyes hearing something move and instantly stretched out hand to assure himself of s safety she was there for in her sleep her fingers closed instinctively upon his own then he turned round and saw what bad disturbed him in the doorway of chamber stood the bride of the snake a lighted in one hand and a in the other and very that handsome young woman with her noble by the glare of the light wliat is the matter said it is all right answered the old woman here is as safe as the stone statue yonder and quite as quiet brings me some water that is all i bade her do so because of the fire that inside me and the pain in my head fear i do not drink beer when i am on guard beer or water i wish you would keep your wife at distance answered come tell her to be off then he looked at his watch the hands of which he could just distinguish by the distant glare of the torch and went to sleep again this took place at ten past eleven when ha awoke again was breaking and was calling to him in a loud hoarse voice he said come here jumped up and ran to him to find the dwarf his feet and staring at the wall against which had been sitting she was gone but there on the floor lay the ropes with which she had been tied sprang at and seized him by the shoulders wretched man i he cried you have been sleeping and now she has escaped and we are lost yes i have been sleeping kill me if you for i deserve it and yet never was t more father and daughter awake in my life until i drank that water i am not wont to sleep on guard said that wife of yours has you � it may be so at least the woman has gone and say whither has she gone to her father answered chapter father and daughter while and spoke thus in their amazement had they but known it a still more interesting conversation was being carried on some three hundred yards away its scene was a secret chamber in the thickness of the temple wall and the consisted of the high priest s servant and wife of the snake was an early perhaps because his conscience would not allow him to sleep or because on this occasion he had business of importance to attend to at any rate on the morning in question before the break of dawn he was seated in his little room alone musing and indeed his thoughts gave him much food for reflection as has been said he was a very aged man and whatever may have been his faults at least he was earnestly desirous of carrying on the worship of the gods according to the strict letter of the customs which had descended to him from his forefathers and which himself he had followed all his life in truth from long consideration of them their attributes and the traditions concerning them had come to believe in the actual existence of these gods although the belief was a qualified one and somewhat half hearted or to put it less strongly he had never allowed his mind to entertain active doubt of the spiritual beings whose earthly worship was so powerful a in his own material rule and prosperity and in that of his class in its issues this half faith of his had been sufficiently real to induce him to accept the people of the mist arrived in and when i land it had been that they should arrive thus � � that was a fact and their outward appearance exactly fitted y detail of the prophecy � that was another fact and these two facts together seemed to point to a conclusion so m irresistible that shrewd and experienced as he waa was unable to set it down to mere coincidence in the first rush of bis religious enthusiasm he had a hearty welcome to the of the whom for some eighty years he had worshipped as powers spiritual but though pious zeal had much to do with this action as informed it was not devoid of motives he desired the glory of being the o the gods he desired also the of the which his had shaken that must
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being off duty arrives with and a box and leaves them with a sounding kiss in the hall of the empty house the retired character of which affects mr s spirits strongly i tell you what my says mr being now an driver and well to do in the world i shouldn t allow of your coming here to be made dull like if it t for past and past is never to be forgot to them which is in besides your face is a cord l so let s have another kiss on it my dear you wish no better than to do a right act i know and my views is tliat it s right and dutiful to do this good night mrs by this time dark in her black skirts black bonnet and shawl and has her personal property packed up and has her chair late a favorite chair of mr s and the dead bargain of the sale ready near the street door and is only waiting for a fly van going to night to on private service which is to call for her by private contract and convey her home presently it comes mrs s wardrobe being handed in and away mrs s chair is next handed in and placed in a convenient comer among certain of hay it being the intention of the amiable woman to occupy the chair during her journey mrs herself is next handed in and grimly takes her seat there is a gleam in her hard grey eye as of rounds of toast of hot and of young children sharp at and son poor and all the other delights of her s castle mrs almost laughs as the fly van drives off and she com her skirts and settles herself among the cushions of her easy chair the house is such a ruin that the rats have fled and there is not one left but though alone in the deserted mansion � for there is no companionship in the shut up rooms in which its late master hides his head � is not alone long it is night and she is sitting at work in the housekeeper s room trying to forget what a lonely house it is and what a history belongs to it when there is a knock at the hall door as loud sounding as any knock can be striking into such an empty place opening it she returns across the echoing hall accompanied by a female figure in a close black bonnet it is miss and miss s eyes are red oh says miss when i looked in to have a little lesson with the children just now i got the message that you for me and as soon as i could recover my spirits at all i came on after you is there no one here but you ah not a soul says have you seen him whispers miss bless you returns no he has not been seen this many a day they tell me he never leaves his room is he said to be ill miss no ma am not that i know of returns except in his mind he must be very bad there poor gentleman miss s sympathy is such that she can scarcely speak she is no chicken but she has not grown tough with age and her heart is very tender her compassion very genuine her homage very real beneath the with the eye in it miss bears better qualities than many a less outside such qualities as will by many courses of the sun the best and brightest that fall in the harvest of the great it is long before miss goes away and before with a candle on the blank stairs looks her for company down the street and feels unwilling to go back into the dreary house and jar its with the heavy of the and son door and glide away to bed but all this does and in the morning sets in one of those darkened rooms such matters as she has been advised to prepare and then and enters them no more until next morning at the same hour there are bells there but they never ring and though she can sometimes hear a going to and fro it never comes out miss returns in the day it then begins to be miss s occupation to prepare little or what are such to to be carried into these rooms next she so much satisfaction from the pursuit that she enters on it regularly from that time and brings daily in her little basket various choice selected from the scanty stores of the deceased owner of the powdered head and she likewise brings in sheets of curl paper of cold meat tongues ot sheep of fowls for her own dinner and ing these with passes the greater part of her time in the ruined house that the rats have fled from hiding in a fright at every sound stealing in and out like a criminal only desiring to be true to the fallen object of her admiration unknown to him unknown to all the world but one poor simple woman the major knows it but no one is the wiser for that though the major is much the the major in a fit of curiosity has charged the native to watch the house sometimes and find out what becomes of the native has reported miss s fidelity and the major has nearly choked himself dead with laughter he is permanently from that hour and con to himself his eyes starting out of his head me sir the woman s a bom idiot and the ruined man how does he pass the hours alone let him remember it in that room years to come he did remember it it was heavy on his mind now heavier than all the rest let him remember it in that room
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what may chance to all of us i and here she heaved another dismal sigh as she tied the bonnet strings into a bow under her fat chin it s sinful of me to be rough times to any man i m likely in for them myself for a person s bound to be different at nigh seven and twenty to what she was at fifteen and the modem ways of ain t old ways the lord be merciful to us all and i do confess it s a bit at my time of life to think as how i ve lived in s all these years and now for all i can tell me and william may have to shift and where we ll go the lord only knows now don t anticipate misfortune mrs i said beginning to shake off the indescribable feeling of annoyance against which he had been fighting for the past few minutes and his usual quiet air of cheerfulness miss is not likely to dismiss you unless you offend her the great thing is to avoid offence � and to do even more than your strict duty in making her old home look its best and brightest for her return and here he hesitated for a moment then went on of course if i can do anything to help you i will thank you sir i m sure most kindly said mrs two or three times in a of gratitude i shall take the liberty of asking you to step god s good man up during the week to see how things appears to you yourself aiid as for servants there s no old enough at the school for servants so i ll be goin to with the s cart to morrow to see what i can do ah it s an mission i m goin on there ain t no to be got of the old kind as far as i can make out they all wants to be fine nowadays and marry not quite so bad as that i think mrs laughed holding open the door of the study for her to pass out as a broad hint that the interview must be considered at an end � there are plenty of good industrious intelligent girls in england ready and willing to enter domestic service if we make it worth their while � and i m sure no one can teach you anything in that line good morning mrs i good morning sir � and you ll step up to the when convenient some afternoon certainly if you wish it whenever convenient to yourself mrs mrs again at the respect for her own importance which was implied in s last sentence and slowly out the watching her with a smile as she trotted down the passage from his study to a door which led to the kitchen and now she ll go and tell all her story again to and the cook he said to himself and how she will enjoy herself to be bless the woman what a tongue she no wonder her husband is deaf i he re seated himself at his desk and taking up a bundle of accounts connected with the church and the school tried to ox his attention on them but in vain his mind wandered he was obliged to own to himself that he was irritated at the news that s which had been so long a sort of show house was again to be inhabited � and by one who was its owner too ever since he had bought the living of st he had been accustomed to take many solitary walks through the lovely woods surrounding the residence without any fear of being considered a � and he had even strolled through the wide old fashioned gardens with as little restraint as they had belonged to himself mrs the housekeeper being the last person in the world to forbid her minister to enter wherever he would he had passed long hours of delightful in the old library and many of meditation in the picture gallery where the portrait of th� god s good man lady in the vi let velvet mary de had often caught his eye and charmed his fancy when the setting sun had its rich colouring and had given life to the face half half sweet which forth from the old canvas like a rose with light on its now all these pleasant were finished the mistress of s would certainly object to a wandering parson in her house and grounds probably she was a very imperious disagreeable young woman � full of the light scorn lack of sentiment and cheap common to the smart lady of a period and if it were true that she had been for so many years in the charge of an american aunt with a hundred millions the chances were ten to one that she would be an exceedingly unpleasant neighbour he gave a short impatient sigh ah well i only hope she will put a stop to the of the fine old trees in her domain he said half aloud � if no one else in the village has the pluck to draw her attention to the of i will but so far as other matters go � my walks in the woods are ended yes and he gently patted the head of the faithful animal who with sagacity instinctively that his master was somewhat annoyed was with caressing against his knee our by the big elms and silvery and under the beautiful tall pines are over and we shouldn t be human if we weren t just a trifle sorry sir is bad enough as a neighbour but he s a good three miles off at hall thank heaven � whereas s is but a quarter of an hour s walk from this gate we ve had pleasant times in the dear
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thy influences are some murmur ai ike want of system in e a a wilderness some in thy slip boxes and honey complain of � want of order i confess but not of in its highest sense who asks a guiding clue through this wide in love of nature such will surely find in live like the er a grove may tempt thy nor be by cares of colder disturbed � no frost the summer s bloom shall drive away nature s wide temple and the dome have plan enough for the free spirits home i the morning breeze ocean that lay like a sick child well nigh death now curl and in eternal play thy breath � sketches july but who the monarch who like who his thought in robes of snow severely and who but my � morning breaks � the inaccessible sun with rays of light the singer crowns whose thought and word are one s a sketch beside me sat one of the few one to draw some keen rays from the sun of truth and guide them to the hearts of men whose mind full ardent to his race o and by given to heavenly asked but one genial touch to wake to music and sing like of a fairer morning which knows no cloud nor leads to noon a sketch she is a thing all grace all loveliness a fragrant flower nursed in an arid waste a many toned and ever winning melody a wrought filled with enchanted wine a living speaking book of the shape revealed to in a dream from our lost star the only beam did you never admire anything your friend did merely because he did it never � you always had a better reason wise man you never knew what it b to love the dial vol i october no thoughts on modern literature there is no better illustration of the laws by which the world is governed than literature there is no luck in it it by fate every scripture is given by the inspiration of god every composition proceeds out of a greater or less depth of thought and this is the measure of its effect the highest class of books are those which express the moral element the next works of imagination and the next works of science � all dealing in realities � what ought to be what is and what appears these in proportion to the truth and beauty they involve remain the rest perish they proceed out of the silent living mind to be heard again by the living mind of the best books it is hardest to write the history those books which are for all time are written indifferently at any time for b h genius is a day without night a ocean which hath no tides and yet is literature in some sort a creature of time always the soul is the source of thought but always the occasion is administered by the low of circumstance religion love ambition war some fierce or it may be some petty annoyance must break the round of perfect circulation or no spark no joy no event can be the poet rambling through the fields or the forest absorbed in contemplation to that degree that his walk is but a pretty dream would never awake to precise thought if the scream of an eagle the cries of a crow or near his head did not break the vol i ho ii on modem sweet nay the finest of the poet come of this unequal the of matter such child on the soul fair daughter of god nature facts with thoughts to yield a poem but the gift of immortality is of the mother s side in the spirit in which they are written is the date of their duration and never in the magnitude of the facts everything lasts in proportion to its beauty in proportion as it was not by any of the writer but flowed from his mind after the divine order of cause and effect it was not his but nature s and shared the of the sea and sky that which is truly told nature herself takes in charge against the and injustice of men for ages was reckoned a gossip in his descriptions of africa and now the sublime silent desert through the mouths of to the truth of the historian and yet men imagine that books are and have no merit in their fortune that the trade and the favor of a few critics can get one book into circulation and defeat another and that in the production of these things the author has chosen and may choose to do thus and so society also wishes to subjects and methods to its writers but neither reader nor author may you cannot reason at will in this and that other vein but only as you must you cannot make quaint and bring to the and of truth things far fetched or fantastic or popular but your method and your subject are in all your nature and in all nature or ever the earth was or it has no worth all that gives still to any book advertised in the morning s newspaper in london or boston is the remains of faith in the breast of men that not book makers but the soul of the universe reports of itself in articulate discourse to day as of old the strongly expressed their sense of the of these words of the spirit by saying that the god made his priest insane took him hither and thither as leaves are whirled by the tempest but we sing as we are bid our are very and tame death and sin have whispered in the ear of the wild horse of heaven and he has become a and a hack and step by step with on modem literature the entrance of this era of
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since he could not hope for happiness himself was it worth while to send to the grave in disgrace the parent who had upon him the love of a full heart father he said with a deep sigh let me think of it a little longer give me a few days to consider during those few days thought incessantly margaret was lost to him he no longer felt any their marriage bond u doubt of that there had heen but two beings who had ever claimed his love and only one of them was left was it not best on the whole to make this sacrifice but the marriage it would be a dreadful thing without love on either side well he would leave that to those who insisted on its if mrs and her daughter were satisfied he could stand it as well as they he loved margaret whether she were dead or living and he never could love another woman if he told that his heart was cold toward her and that he was sure it never would be otherwise and if she accepted him on those terms she would have no right to complain afterward would she consent to take him when he had told her this he decided to test the matter going directly to the residence he sent up his card with a line on the back asking to see him alone before coming down she had a council of war with her general in chief whose advice was to promise anything whatever in order to bring about the marriage on the day originally set mrs believed fully that if the pair were once united time and not a very long time either would dispose of all their troubles she had a shrewd knowledge of men and great confidence in the power of her daughter s beauty to win over a husband i have decided to be very plain with you said when he had taken the hand of miss and seen that the door was behind her in the first place do you still wish to hold me to my promise miss bowed modestly in the affirmative at the same time smiling faintly she bore evidence of embarrassment and of a tendency to silence their marriage bond very well said the young man drawing a long breath now my father has had a serious talk with me and i have concluded to please him if i can do so and be perfectly honest to you i do not love you if you take me in marriage you will take my name only i shall have to repeat the words of the service or to give assent to them saying i will love honor and cherish you till death and keep myself unto you and all that sort of thing but it must be understood between us now that i shall do nothing of the kind a complete wave of crimson spread over the girl s face as she listened excuse me she said rising and moving toward the door i would rather you said such things to my mother whether i say them to your mother or to you he replied i shall never vary from them i have resolved that if you insist upon holding me to my word i will go through the marriage ceremony with you beyond that i promise nothing it was not polite to utter these expressions mr knew that very well but he was in no mood for politeness while announcing his change of mind as far as the ceremony was concerned he had the feeling of a man and he meant to make his dose of medicine to others as well as to himself he was determined if they forced him into an alliance which he detested that y should do so under no they might lead the horse to water but they never should compel him to drink miss bowed low as she left him partly to conceal the quiver of her lip and partly to hide the tears that sprang in spite of all her efforts to her eyes she their marriage u sought her mother and fell on that lady s neck with an outburst of sobs oh mother she cried it is too much to ask of me i cannot go on with this he has become positively awful slowly the widow drew the truth from the trembling mouth and a flush of indignation her brow as she heard it i will go down and see him she said sternly compose yourself my child the marriage must take place when it is over he will forget the silly notions that now cloud his brain it must take place she added with determination don t mind his in a week after you are wedded he will forget that he ever talked such nonsense and you will laugh to think you it descending to the parlor mrs greeted her with her ordinary good nature she had a game to play and must be used to the last what is the matter with you she asked with an air of how can you frighten my little girl with i have told her just what i mean he responded and i respond in her name that we will hope for a better disposition on your part said mrs with a smile there are now but a few weeks before the date that has been announced and everything will be ready on our side it is gratifying to hear that you have idea of breaking your word as to the rest let us leave that for the future if love has not yet lodged in your bosom await its advent will accord you every consideration now that she understands your mood their marriage bond he was surprised to find her in this quiet temper he would have been better prepared for an outburst of anger which he could
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look upward often and you will understand their speech never forget the stars l t� t a a it fm mm i � m fa � � l � w� mb � r � � � w i mi r � i i � � � � part ii d � i the land of the blue flower s r part ii as the child king grew day by day the world seemed to grow fuller and fuller of wonders and beauties there were the sun and the moon the storm and the stars the straight falling of rain the springing of the growing things the flight of the eagle the songs and nests of small bird creatures the changing seasons and the work of the great brown earth giving its harvest and its fruits all these wonders in one world and you a man upon it said the ancient one hold high your head when you walk young king and often look f y i � � � j l � e� � l � l r o the land of the blue flower upward never forget one marvel among them all he forgot nothing he lived looking out on all things from great clear joyous eyes c upon his mountain he never heard a paltry or word or knew of the existence of or in thought as soon as he was old enough to go out alone he about the great mountain and feared neither storm nor wild beasts shaggy lions and their mates drew near and on him as their kind had on young adam in the garden of there had never passed through his mind the thought that they were not his friends he did not know that there were men who killed their wild brothers in the huge of the castle the land of the blue flower he learned to ride and to perform great of strength because he had not learned to be afraid he never feared that he could not do a thing he grew so strong and beautiful that when he was ten years old he was as tall as a youth of sixteen and when he was sixteen he was already like a young giant this was because he had been brother to the storm and had lived close to the strength and splendor of the stars only once when he was a boy of twelve a strange and painful thing happened to him from his kingdom in the plains below there had been sent to him a beautiful young horse which had been bred for him never had so magnificent an animal been born in the royal stable when he was brought into the the boy king s eyes the land of the blue flower i i shone with joy he spent the greater j part of the morning in and leaping him over the an j one in his tower chamber heard his shouts of and encouragement at last the king went out to i try him on the winding mountain i road when he returned he went at once to the tower chamber to the ancient one who when he raised his eyes from his great book looked at him gravely let us climb to the the boy said we must talk to i so they went and when they stood looking out on the world below the sky above them the eyes of the ancient one were still more grave the land of the blue flower � � � � � mi i � j tell me young king something strange has happened king answered i have felt i something i have not felt before i was j riding my horse around the field on the and he saw something which he refused to pass it was a young watching us from a tree my i horse reared and he would not listen to me but backed and wheeled around i tried in vain to persuade him and suddenly when i saw i could not make him obey me this strange new feeling rushed through all my body i grew hot and knew my face was scarlet my heart faster and my blood seemed to boil in my veins i shouted out harsh ugly f sounds � i forgot that all things are t i brothers � i lifted my hand and i w the land of the blue flower clenched it and struck my horse again and again i loved him no longer i felt that he no longer loved me i am hot and wearied and heavy from it still i feel no more joy was it pain i felt i have never felt pain and do not know was it pain it was a worse thing answered the ancient one it was anger when a man is overcome by anger he has a poisoned fever he loses his strength he loses his power over himself and over others he throws away time in which he might have gained the end he most desires there is no time for anger in the world so king learned the of anger for they sat long upon the while the ancient one told him how its poison worked in the the land of the blue flower veins and weakened the strongest man until he was made a fool that night lay under the sky looking at his brothers the stars and drawing calm from them if you lie through the night upon the and think only of the stillness and the stars you will forget your anger and its poison will die away if you put into your mind a beautiful thought it will take the place of the evil one there is no room for darkness in the mind of him who thinks only of the stars this been said to him by the ancient one upon the at the foot of the on which the castle
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the poet by ic the first of the have not yet appeared however for messrs and when they learned how they had been they were so indignant that they did not speak to the idiot for a week by ic vm it was morning and mr as was his wont on the first day of the week appeared at the breakfast table severe as to his mien working on sunday on his mind the idiot said to the bat i don t see why it should the luxury of rest that he allows himself the other six days of the week is surely an for the hours of labor he puts in on sunday but it was not this that on sunday mornings weighed on the mind of the reverend mr he appeared more serious of then because he had begun to think of late that his fellow lived too much in the present and ignored almost totally that which might be expected to come he had been revolving in his mind for several weeks the question as to whether it was or was not his christian duty to attempt to io by ic the lives of these men with whom the chances of life had brought him in contact he had finally settled it to his own satisfaction that it was his so to do and he had resolved as far as lay in his power to direct the conversation at sunday morning s breakfast into spiritual rather than into matters so as mrs was pouring the coffee mr began do you gentlemen ever pause in your every day labors and thought to let your minds rest upon the future � the possibilities it has in store for us the consequences no thank you said the idiot then turning to mr he added i can t answer for the other gentlemen at this board but i can assure you mr that i often do so it was only last night sir that my genial friend who and i were discussing the future and its possibilities and i venture to assert that there is no more profitable food for reflection anywhere in the of the mind than that of the mind is excellent said the school master with a touch of sarcasm in his voice perhaps you would not mind open by ic ing the door to your mental and letting us peep within at the stores you keep there i am sure that on the subject in hand your views cannot fail to be original as well as i am also sure said mr somewhat surprised to hear the idiot speak as he did having sometimes ventured to doubt if that minded young man ever reflected on the serious side of life � i am also sure that it is most gratifying to hear that you have done some thinking on the subject i am glad you are gratified mr replied the idiot but i am far from taking undue credit to myself because i re fleet upon the future and its possibilities i do not see how any man can fail to be interested in the subject particularly when he considers the great strides science has made in the last twenty years i fail to see said the school master what the strides of science have to do with it you fail to see so often mr returned the idiot that i would advise your eyes to make an in favor of your pupils by ic i put in mr that i too am somewhat � er � � somewhat up a tree as to science s connection with the future the idiot you have mj meaning but hardly the i should have chosen replied the minister my style is rather said the idiot i appreciate the flattery implied by your noticing it but science has everything to do with it it is science that is going to make the future great it is science that has distance and the has just begun twenty years ago it was hardly possible for a man standing on one side of the street to make himself heard on the other the properties of the atmosphere not being what they should be today you can stand in the pulpit of your church and by means of certain scientific ap make yourself heard in boston new or san has this no bearing on the future the time will come mr when your will be able to sit in their comfortable and ring up the heathen in foreign and convert them over the without run by ic the slightest danger of falling into the soup which expression i use in its literal rather than in its sense bat � interrupted mr now wait please said the idiot if science can degrees of distance who shall say that before many days science may not degrees of time if san thousands of miles distant can be brought within range of the ear why cannot be brought before the mind s eye and if can be brought before the mind s eye what is to prevent the invention of a which shall enable us to cast a which shall reach all around eternity and half way back if not further you do not understand me said mr when i speak of the future i do not mean the future i know exactly what you mean said the idiot i ve dealt in and i am familiar with all kinds it is you sir that do not understand me my claim is perfectly plausible and in its results is bound to make the world better do you suppose that any man who by the aid of my sees that on a certain date in the future he will be hanged for murder is going to fail to provide himself by ic with an in regard to that murder and must we not admit that having provided himself with
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then the man tried in tolerable latin but with a accent he said he was an englishman and oppressed with the heat of italy had taken a bough off the nearest tree to save his head � in my country anybody is welcome to what grows on the confound the fools i am ready to pay for it but here is all italy up in arms about a and a handful of leaves the pig would have sent the to prison but and with some difficulty made the prisoner comprehend that and by consequence leaves were sacred being under the wing of the sovereign and his source of income and urged on the that ignorance of his laws was natural in a distant country where the very perhaps was unknown turned the still bv pulling out a long purse and repeating his original theory that the whole question was said he die et the the gold him a it for the duke about the value of the whole tree � and the coin the englishman shook off ire the he was and laughed heartily at the whole thing but w very grateful to � you are too good for this hole of a try father said he come to england is the e in the world i was an uneasy fool to leave it and wander among and their i am a squire and t at cambridge university my name it is ray place the man and the house are both at your service come over and stay till we sit down forty to dinner every day ar one more or one less at tho will not bo seen you shall end im thk i w ik r� i k with me and my if you will come now i what an he and he him a great hearty grip of the hand to confirm it i will thee some day my son said but not to thy hospitality the englishman then to bim i know not what will become said he i live like a heathen since i left consented gladly and soon the was on his knees to him by the road side the last month s sins finding him so a son of the church let him know he was really coming to england he then asked him whether it was true that country was with i and the other coloured up a little there be black sheep in eveiy land said he then after some reflection he said gravely holy hear the truth about these none are better disposed toward holy church than we english but we are ourselves and by ourselves we love our own ways and above all our own tongue the could conquer our but not our tongues and hard they tried it for many a long year by law and our good foreign priests utter od to plain english folks in latin or in some french or italian like the of a sheep then come the fox and his crew and read him out of his own book in plain english that all s hearts warm to who can withstand this forgive me i believe the english would turn deaf ears to st peter himself spoke he not to them iu the tongue their mothers in their ears and their hearts along with mothers kisses he added hastily i say not this for myself i am cambridge bred and good words come not amiss to me in latin but for the people in general ad est my son said blessed be the hour i met thee for thy words are sober and wise but alas i how shall i learn your english tongue no book have v would give you my book of hours father tis m english and cheek by but then what would become of my poor soul wanting my hours in a strange land stay you are a holy man and i am an honest one let us make a bargain you to pray for me every day for two months and i to give you my book of hours here it is what say you to that and his eyes sparkled and he was all on fire with smiled gently at this trait and quietly detached a ms from his and showed him that it was in latin and italian see my son said be heaven hath foreseen our several needs and given us the means to satisfy them let us change books and my dear son i will give thee my poor prayers and welcome not sell them thee i love no religious the was delighted so shall i learn the italian tongue without risk to my eternal near is my purse but nearer is my soul he forced money on in vain the told him it was contrary to his vow to carry � of that than was barely necessary lay it out for the good of the church and of soul said the i ask you not to p it but take it you st and shall and n� ra again and i � ed him on the brow and blessed him and they went each his a bout a mile wh re they parted found two tired lying in the deep shade of a great chestnut tree one of a thick grove tlie road skirted near the men was a little cart and in it a press rude and clumsy a� a vine press a mule was to cart and so stood face to face with his old enemy and as he eyed it and the honest blue eyed faces of the weary he looked back as on a dream at the bitterness he had once felt towards this he looked kindly down on them and said softly the men started to their v they into the wood and were seen no more was amazed and stood himself presently a face peeped from behind
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the front door was closed and as if to express still more fully the sealed and state of the establishment a sand bag was placed at the bottom to keep out the snow drift the wind setting in directly from that quarter the landlord entering his own parlor walked a of noble to the large fire which it was absolutely necessary to keep up for his comfort no such blaze burning in the coffee room or elsewhere and after giving it a stir returned to a table in the whereon lay the visitors book � now closed and pushed back against the wall he carelessly opened it not a name had been entered there since the th of the previous november and that was only the name of a man who had arrived on a who indeed had not been asked to enter at all while he was engaged thus the evening grew darker but before it was yet too dark to distinguish objects upon the road winding round the back of the cliffs the landlord perceived a black spot on the distant white which speedily enlarged itself and drew near the were that this vehicle � for a vehicle of some sort it seemed to be � would pass by and pursue its way to the nearest railway town as others had done but contrary to the landlord s expectation as he stood it through the yet windows the solitary object on reaching the comer turned into the hotel front and drove up to the door it was a conveyance particularly to such a season and weather being nothing more substantial than an open basket carriage drawn by a single horse within sat two persons of different sexes as could soon be discerned in spite of their muffled attire the man held the reins and the lady had got some shelter from the storm the honorable by clinging close to his side the landlord rang the s bell to attract the attention of the stable man for the approach of the visitors had been to by the snow and when the had come to the horse s head the gentleman and lady alighted the landlord meeting them in the hall the male stranger was a foreign looking individual of about eight and twenty he was close shaven excepting a his features being good and even handsome the lady who stood timidly behind him seemed to be much younger � possibly not more than eighteen though it was difficult to judge either of her age or appearance in her present the gentleman expressed his wish to stay till the morning explaining somewhat considering that the house was an inn that they had been unexpectedly on their drive such a welcome being given them as can give in dull times the latter ordered fires in the drawing and coffee rooms and went ho the boy in the yard who soon himself up dragged his jacket from its box polished the buttons with his sleeve and appeared civilized in the hall the lady was shown into a room where she could take off her snow garments which she sent down to be dried her companion meanwhile putting a couple of sovereigns on the table as if anxious to make everything smooth and comfortable at starting and request a group of ing that a private sitting room might be got ready the landlord assured him that the best up stairs parlor � usually public � should be kept private this evening and sent the maid to light the candles dinner was prepared for them and at the gentleman s desire served in the same apartment where the young lady having joined him they were left to the rest and refreshment they seemed to need that something was peculiar in the relations of the pair had more than once struck the landlord though wherein that peculiarity lay it was hard to decide but that his guest was one who paid his way readily had been proved by his conduct and conjectures he turned to practical about nine o clock he re entered the hall and everything being done for the day again walked up and down occasionally gazing through the glass door at the prospect without to ascertain how the weather was contrary to snow had ceased falling and with the rising of the moon the sky had partially cleared light of cloud drifting across the silvery there was every sign that a frost was going to set in later on for these reasons the distant rising road was even more distinct now between its high banks than it had been in the declining daylight not a track or broke the virgin surface of the white mantle that lay along it all marks left by the lately arrived thb having been speedily by the falling at the time and now the landlord beheld by the light of the moon a sight very similar to that he had seen by the light of day again a black spot was advancing down the road that the coast he was in a moment or two enabled to perceive that the present vehicle moved onward at a more headlong pace than the little carriage which had preceded it next that it was a drawn by two powerful horses next that this carriage like the former one was bound for the hotel door this desirable feature of resemblance caused the landlord to once more withdraw the sand bag and advance into the porch an old gentleman was the first to alight he was followed by a young one and both came forward has a young lady less than nineteen years of age recently arrived here in the company of a man some years her senior asked the old gentleman in haste a man shaven for the most part having the appearance of an and calling himself we have had lately said the landlord in the tone of having had
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have always told them for myself i make no claims where my daughter is concerned it is it was a relief to when at this point mrs le s discharge of her duty was cut short by her daughter s had been unable to � a coward i find a for mr and her mother with beaming suggested that in that case she had better show the garden the house stood but a few yards back from the brick paved street and the garden was a very small place unless measured as mrs cur style probably intended that it should be by the extent i of her daughter s charms these were so considerable that walked back and forward half a dozen times between the porch and the gate before he discovered the of the domain it i not till had accused him of being sarcastic and had confided in him that the girls were furious with her for him talk to her so long at his aunt s garden party that he awoke to the i of his surroundings and then it was with a touch of irritation that he noticed mr s bent above a newspaper in one of the lower windows had an idea that mr while reading the paper had kept count of the i number of times that his daughter had led her com i up and down between the bushes and for some reason he resented mr s observation more his wife s zealous self to a man who is trying to please a pretty girl there are moments when the of an impartial spectator is more than the a coward most obvious and about s expression conveyed his good hu i difference to s processes when the garden gate closed behind he had become aware that his with the had shifted its centre from the daughter to the father but he was accustomed to such surprises and skilled in seizing any they might offer ri the belonged tn the all the year n of paper mills cable cars brick and church while mrs the aunt with whom lived was an ornament of the summer colony whose big country houses dotted the surrounding hills mrs had however no difficulty in the curiosity which mrs s had aroused in the young man mrs s itself mainly on the summer people as they were called she did not propose that any one within ten miles of should keep a carriage without knowing that she was entitled to keep too mrs remarked with a sigh that mrs s annual demand to have her position understood came in us a the taxes and the water a coward my dear it s simply this when c her years ago � heaven knows why he did le fi one of the you know and she � as a daughter of old ash of south � well when he married her he had a tidy little income and i suppose the bride expected to set up an in new york and be hand iu glove with the whole but whether he was i of her from the first or for some other reason he bought a country place and settled down here for hfe for a few years they lived comfortably enough and she had plenty of smart i clothes and drove about in a victoria calling on the � people then when the beautiful was about ten years old mr s only brother died and it turned out that he had made away with a lot of trust property it was a horrid business over three hundred thousand dollars were gone and of course most of it had belonged to and as soon as the facts were made known announced that he would pay back what his brother had stolen he sold his country place and his wife s carriage and they moved to the little house they live now mr s income is probably not as large s his wife would like to have it thought and though m told he puts aside a good part of it every year to pay off his brother s obligations i fancy the debt won t � i be discharged for some time to come to help things along he opened a law office � he had studied law in his youth � but though he is said to be i hear that he has very little to do people are afraid of him he s too dry and quiet nobody in a man who doesn t believe in himself and mr always seems to be at you through a in his professional manner people don t like it � his wife doesn t like it i believe she would have accepted the sacrifice of the country place and the carriage if he had struck an attitude and talked about doing his duty it was his regarding the whole thing as a matter of course that exasperated her what is the use of doing something difficult in a way that makes it look perfectly easy i feel sorry for mrs she a lost her house and her carriage and she has n t allowed to be heroic h had listened attentively miss thinks of it he mused mrs looked at him with a smile i wonder what you think of miss she answer reassured her i think she takes after her mother he said ah cried his aunt cheerfully then i needn t write to your mother and i can have at all my miss was an important in the re s social of a hostess a local beauty is always a useful addition to n monday house party the beautiful was served up as a novelty to the guests of the summer colony as s aunt remarked she was perfect till she became and she never became playful the third day under these conditions it was natural that should see a
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i m not a bit proud of or of paul about his horrid love affairs he was silent he maintained his bad temper at a high level of outraged nobility all the four blocks home at the door he left in self and the lawn with a shock it was revealed to him i wonder if she was right � if she was partly right must have him to it was one of the few times in his life when he had his eternal excellence and he perceived the summer night the wet grass then i don t i ve pulled it off we re going to have our and for paul i d do anything they were buying their tackle at brothers the sporting goods with the help of fellow member of the was completely mad he and danced he muttered to paul say this is pretty good eh to be buying the stuff eh and good old himself coming down on the floor to wait on say if those fellows that are the north lakes knew we were going dear up to they d have a fit eh well come on brother � i mean here s your we re a couple of easy marks wheel let me at i m going to buy out the store he on rods and gorgeous rubber hip on tents with windows and folding chairs and ice boxes he wanted to buy all of them it was the paul whom he was always vaguely protecting who kept him from his drunken desires but even paul when a with poetry and discussed flies now of course yoa boys know he said the great scrap is between dry flies and wet flies personally i m for dry flies more sporting that s so lots more sporting who knew very little about flies either wet or dry now if you ll take my advice you ll stock up well on these pale evening and silver and red oh boy there s a fly that red ant you bet that s what it a fly rejoiced yes sir that red ant said is a real honest to god fly oh i guess mr won t come a when i drop one of those red on the water asserted and his thick wrists made a motion of casting yes and the salmon will take it too said who had never seen a salmon salmon say paul can you see uncle george with his on em in some morning bout seven they were on the new york bound for without their families they were tree in a man s world in the smoking of the y outside the car window was a of with the gold of mysterious lights was immensely conscious in the sway and clatter of the train of going of going on toward paul he pretty nice to be hi d g eh the small room with its walls of colored steel was filled mostly with the sort of men he as the best meet � real good there were four of them on the long seat a fat man with a shrewd fat face a knife edged man in a green hat a very young young man with an imitation and facing them on two leather chairs were paul and a old fashioned man very cunning with wrinkles bis mouth they all read new s or trade boot and shoe journals journals and waited for the joys of conversation it was the very young man now making his first journey by who began it say i had a wild old time in he say if a fellow knows the ropes there he can have as wild a time as he can in new york i bet you simply raised the old ned i figured you were a bad man when i saw you get on the train chuckled the fat one the others laid down their papers well that s all right guess i seen some things in the you never seen i complained the boy oh bet you did i bet you up the milk like a little devil then the boy having served as introduction they ignored him and charged into real talk only paul sitting by himself readily at a story in a newspaper failed to join them and all but regarded him as a an eccentric a person of no spirit which of them said which has never been determined and does not matter since they all had the same ideas and expressed � than witli the same ponderous and assurance if it was not who was delivering any given verdict at least he was on who did deliver it at that announced the first they re selling quite some in guest are everywhere i don t know how you f fed about pr but the way it strikes me is that it s a mi ty thing for the poor that hasn t got any will power but for fellows like us it s an of personal liberty that s a fact has got no right to interfere with a fellow s personal liberty the second a man came in from the car but as all the seats were full he stood up while he smoked his he was an he was not one of the old families of the they looked upon him and after trying to appear at ease by examining his chin in the mirror he gave it up and went out in silence just been making a trip through the south business conditions not very good down there said one of the council is that a fact not very good eh no didn t strike me they were up to normal not up to normal eh no wouldn t hardly say they were the whole council nodded and not hardly up to snuff well business conditions ain t what they t to be out west
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said with a faint smile in things spiritual or how much have we poor to learn of you i with a sigh he produced the required sum then paused and added no with your leave we will see the papers first you have them with yoa here they are answered the priest drawing some documents from his pocket but they haven t been married yet the rule is marry first then until the ceremony is actually performed anything might happen you know quite so father anything might happen either before or after but still with your leave i think that in this we may as well first you might want to be getting away and it will save so much trouble later will you be so kind as to write your father thomas hesitated while gently the gold in his hand and murmured i should be sorry to think father that you had taken such a rough journey for nothing what trick are you at now growled the well after all it is a mere form give me the gave them father thomas them adding some words and his own signature then tee bridegroom and the bride there you are that will hold good against anyone except the pope a mere form repeated of course but the world so much importance to forms so i think that we will have this one witnessed � no not by myself who am an interested party � by independent and calling and the waiting woman he bade them set their names at the foot of the documents papers signed in advance � paid in advance he went on handing over the money and now just one more glass to drink the health of the bride and bridegroom also in advance you will not refuse nor you worthy nor you most excellent ah i thought not the night is cold and the brandy strong muttered the priest thickly as this third dose of raw spirit took effect upon him now get on with the business for i want to be out of this hole before the flood comes quite so friends will you be so good as to summon my son and the lady the lady first i think � and all three of you might go to escort her sometimes consider it right to fain a slight reluctance � you understand on second thoughts you need not trouble the i have a few words of advice to offer so i will go to him a minute later father and son stood face to face leaped up he shook his fist he and at the cold man before him you fool you contemptible fool said when he had done heavens to think that such a creature should have sprung from me a human only fit to bear the blows and burdens of others to fill the field with empty and wear himself out by kicking at the air oh don t twist up your face at me for i am your master as well as your father however much you may me you are mine body and soul you understand a bond slave more you lost the only chance you ever had iii the game when you got me down at you t draw a sword on me again for your s sake dear for your b sake and if you dared t would run you through now are you coming no answered think a minute if you don t marry her i shall and before she is half an hour older also � and he for ward and whispered into his son s ear h you devil you devil gasped then he moved towards the door what changed your mind have you mr well it is the of all feminine but your is and allow me to suggest that you should brush your there that s better now come on no you go first if you please i d rather haye you in front of me when they reached the room below the bride was already there on either side by black and the other woman white as death and trembling but still defiant stood let s get through with this growled the priest i take the of the parties for granted i am not willing cried i have been brought here by force i call present to witness that whatever is done is against my will i appeal to god to help me the priest turned upon how am i to marry them in the face of this he asked if only she were silent it might be done the difficulty has occurred to me answered he made a sign whereon seized s wrists and black slipping behind her fastened a the bridegroom and the bride chief over her mouth in such fashion that she was but could still breathe through the nostrils struggled a little then was quiet and turned her piteous eyes on who stepped forward and opened his lips you remember the alternative said his father in a low voice and he stopped i suppose broke in father thomas we may at any rate reckon upon the consent or at least upon the silence of the bridegroom you may reckon on his silence father thomas replied then the ceremony began they dragged to the table thrice she flung herself to the ground thrice they lifted her to her feet but at length weary of the weight of her body suffered her to rest upon her knees where she remained as though in prayer like some victim on the it was a strange and brutal scene and every detail of it burned itself into s mind the round rude room with its glowing fire of and its rough furniture half in light and half in dense shadow as the lamp rays chanced to fall the death like kneeling bride with a white cloth across her tortured face the red hanging
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need neither remain in town nor return at its as the articles of agreement of which i was to be the subject could easily be sent to her at home for her signature when we had got so far mr offered to take me into court then and there and show me what sort of place it was as i was willing enough to know we went out with this object leaving my aunt behind who would trust herself she said in no such place and who i think regarded all courts of law as a sort of powder mills that might blow up at any time mr conducted me through a paved formed of grave brick houses which i inferred from the doctors names upon the doors to be the official abiding places of the learned of whom had told me and into a large dull room not unlike a chapel to my thinking on the left hand the upper part of this room was off from the rest and there on the two sides of a raised platform of the horse shoe form sitting on easy old fashioned dining room chairs were sundry gentlemen in red gowns and grey whom i found to be the doctors over a little desk a pulpit desk in the curve of the horse shoe was an old gentleman whom if i had seen him in an i should certainly have taken for an owl but who i learned was the judge in the space within the horse shoe lower than these that is to say on about the level of the floor were sundry other gentlemen of mr s rank and dressed like him in black gowns with white fur upon them sitting at a long green table their were in general stiff i thought and their looks haughty but in this last respect i presently conceived i had done them an injustice for when two or three of them had to rise and answer a question of the of david i never saw anything more the public represented by a boy with a and a shabby genteel man secretly eating out of his coat pockets was warming itself at a stove in the centre of the court the languid stillness of the place was only broken by the of this fire and by the voice of one of the doctors who was wandering slowly through a perfect library of evidence and stopping to put up from time to time at little roadside of argument on the journey altogether i have never on any occasion made one at such a old fashioned time forgotten sleepy headed little in all my life and i felt it would be quite a soothing to belong to it in any character � except perhaps as a very well satisfied with the dreamy nature of this retreat i informed mr that i had seen enough for that time and we rejoined my aunt in company with whom i presently departed from the feeling very young when i went out of and s on account of the clerks one another with their pens to point me out we arrived at s inn fields without any new adventures except an unlucky donkey in a s cart who suggested painful associations to my aunt we had another long talk about my plans when we were safely and as knew she was anxious to get home and between fire food and could never be considered at her ease for half an hour in london i urged her not to be uncomfortable on my account but to leave me to take care of myself i have not been here a week to morrow without considering that too my dear she returned there is a furnished little set of chambers to be let in the trot which ought to suit you to a marvel with this brief introduction she produced from her pocket an advertisement carefully cut out of a newspaper setting forth that in street in the there was to be let furnished with a view of the river a singularly desirable and compact set of chambers forming a genteel residence for a young gentleman a member of one of the of court or otherwise with immediate possession terms moderate and could be taken for a month only if required why this is the very thing aunt said i flushed with the possible dignity of living in chambers then come replied my aunt immediately the bonnet she had a minute before laid aside we go and look at em away we went the advertisement directed us to apply to mrs on the premises and we rung the area bell which we supposed to communicate with mrs it was not until we had rung three or four times that we could prevail on mrs to communicate with us but at last she appeared being a stout lady with a of flannel below a gown let us see these chambers of yours if you please ma am said my aunt for this gentleman said mrs feeling in her pocket for her keys yes for my nephew said my aunt and a sweet set they is for said mrs so we went up stairs they were on the top of the house � a great point with my aunt being the personal history and experience near the fire escape � and consisted of a little half blind entry where you could see hardly anything a little stone blind where you could see nothing at all a sitting room and a bed room the furniture was rather faded but quite good enough for me and sure enough the river was outside the windows as i was delighted with the place my aunt and mrs withdrew into the to discuss the terms i remained on the sofa hardly daring to think it possible that i could be destined to live in such a noble 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whence the king would cord is remarkably and a x rd excellent by ic chronicle of i i call her the woman of the locks and whereas the queen of s eyes were of a cold grey colour and too prominent s were blue with round about and whereas the queen of did nothing from to night but and talk like the was ever caring for others and whereas the queen of always loved to be helped to the always helped her to the and whereas the queen of was full unto her brother and loved him as her own foul it came to that the king wearied a little of his and loved his wife exceedingly now by of this queen s coming to and taking fo much upon her it naturally that i my place a little not only as woman at court but in the thoughts of the king and of the queen and thus my approaching to be the chief thing talked of alfred the king was minded to build and a noble for at and to make in this of the of we � we fee a feminine by ic chronicle of me the thereof but the which was to be of would take long to and moreover he was rather of money wherefore he and my father thought it good that i become at abbey in which is to st or as we in the vulgar tongue st the mothers and amounted but to twenty and were had in reputation as well for the of their rule and their as for their handling of the needle and their in making wherefore i was taken thither by my good father to do the to wit of my intentions we were three days on the road and one night at the holy mother received us right was at the honour and wealth about to be conferred on her add to which as i have learned the arrival of a new face in a religious is as that of an angel we of the in the chapel the abbey which flood aloof from the town and on a little formed by the of two rivers was on piles of oak and by that the built of timber like by ic chronicle of ground would not bear the weight of and was by many and the chapel had till of late been of and for lack of to the windows the and had been to fly in and out and and to build their within the roof i returned with my father to to await needful forms i a couple of by the road a making of a gate the whereof lay on the ground and i noted that as much of the wood was prepared to lie under the ground as above it for the greater then remembered i s homely and was a little troubled that i had indeed but the of a at the king s palace gate were gathered many men and and one of our own up unto my father the lady hath arrived then my heart rejoiced for that my ed mother who had made the journey by had reached the royal and when i her loved face with the deep lined marks of her late pains on it that were no pains now i felt that heaven had her dear life and by ic chronicle of unto my vow and i was ready to yield up a willing alfred the king looked grave but yet kind when he me and faith he thou taken the now and wilt not i think fall back i he would not think highly of me if i did then or ever my father returned unto king which he very did we had a little of family before we parted for ever for i his face no more very bitter was our together but my mother was a very woman and would on no account put a block in my path by her i wonder even now that they not my a little earlier nor it a little more than it to me they did after all i was very young and tender alfred the king had other on his mind it fell one day that i was a capital g with gold and with and with purple when he came and me overlooking me i thought that he was again making merry at my she was living in the time of who of her in terms of high by ic chronicle of and was about to him what fault he was now finding when i heard him give a deep and looking up he was not thinking of my work in any wife but of afar and me look up he faith woe is me my i not if to any good i have as yet been born the land is full of � what have i done nothing the land is full of � what have i done nothing the land is fuu of ignorance and fo is its king and what have i done nothing woe is me � i all men love you my king he but i for i know be done and i know not how to do it nor what it is ho the happy man that ever had a hanging over his head by a and yet fo it always is with me and he groaned in and turned away another time we were riding at a breathing pace through the green when we heard a behind the to his fellow thou not thy cap unto the king and the other made na i for as comely as he is wi s blue an white see alfred s by ic chronicle of teeth he s as as a an up poor an they do but is fox tail i fe none of then the king to me under
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that he should be the fortunate man j cannot tell you how vain i walked the streets my ha d was in the clouds i felt the airs of about it and fancied it a of as i by h of j would be among tl h sa d of the day and my on or cut on wa m f with time of and and fi the poor devil author when i applied at the s house there was something in the of my air and the of my dress that struck the clerks with reverence they doubtless me for some person of consequence probably a of greek roots or a of a proud man in a dirty shirt is always an imposing character in the world of letters one must feel secure before he can venture to dress none mi a great genius or a great scholar dares to be dirty so i was ushered at once to the of this high priest of � the of books is a very different affair nowadays from what it was in the time of i found the a dressed man in an el ant furnished with and portraits of celebrated authors and cases of splendidly bound books he was writing letters at an elegant table this was business in sl le the place suited to the f that issued from it i rejoiced at the the poor choice i had made of a for i always liked to encourage men of taste and spirit i stepped up to the table with the lofty poetical port that i had been accustomed to maintain in our village circle though i threw in it something of a air such as one feels when about to make a man s fortune the paused with his pen in his hand and seemed waiting in mute suspense to know what was to be announced by so singular n apparition i put him at his ease in a moment for i felt that i had but to come see and conquer i made known my name and the name of my poem produced my precious roll of blotted manuscript laid it on the table with an emphasis and told him at once to save time and come directly to the point the price was one thousand guineas i had given him no time to speak nor did he seem so inclined he continued looking at me for a moment with an air of perplexity me from head to foot looked i p the poor devil author down at the manuscript then up again at me then pointed to a chair and whistling softly to himself went on writing his letter i sat for some time waiting his reply supposing he was making up his mind but he only paused occasionally to take a fresh dip of ink to stroke his chin or the tip of his nose and then resumed his writing it was evident his mind was intently occupied upon some other subject but i had no idea that any other subject should be attended to and my poem lie unnoticed on the table i had supposed that every thing would make way for the pleasures of melancholy my at length rose within me i took up my manuscript thrust it into my pocket and walked out of the room making some noise as i went out to let my departure be heard the however was much buried in minor concerns to notice it i was suffered to walk down stairs without being called back i forth into the street but no clerk was after me nor did the call after the poor devil author me from the drawing room window i have been told since that he considered me either a madman or a fool i leave you to judge how much he was in the wrong in his opinion when i turned the comer my crest fell i cooled down in my pride and my expectations and reduced my terms with the next to whom i applied i had no better success with a third nor with a fourth i then desired the to make an offer themselves but the deuce an offer would they make they told me poetry was a mere every body wrote poetry the market was with it and then they said the title of my poem was not taking that pleasures of all kinds were w nothing but horrors did nowadays and even those were almost worn out tales of robbers and bloody might answer tolerably well but then they must come from some established well known name or the public would not look at them at last i offered to leave my poem with a to read it and judge for himself p the poor devil author why really my dear mr a� a � i forget your name said he casting an eye at my rusty coat and shabby really sir we are so pressed with business just now and have so many on hand to read that we have not time to look at any new productions but if you can call again in a week or two or say the middle of next month we may be able to look over your writings and give you an answer don t forget the month after next good morning sir happy to see you any time you are passing this way so saying he bowed me out in the way imaginable in short sir instead of an eager competition to secure my poem i could not even get it read in the mean time i was harassed by letters from my friends wanting to know when the work was to appear who was to be my but above b things warning me not to let it go too cheap there was but one alternative left i determined to the poem myself and to have my triumph over
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a wild fit of folly throwing away fi om you such an opportunity of being settled in life nobly settled as will probably never occur to you again here is a young man of sense of character of temper of manners and of fortune exceedingly attached to you and seeking your hand in the most handsome and disinterested way and let me tell you that you may live eighteen years longer in the world without being addressed by a man of half mr s estate or a tenth part of his merits gladly would i have bestowed of my own daughters on him maria is nobly married but had mr sought s hand i should have given it to him with superior and more satisfaction than i gave maria s to mr after half a moment s pause � and i should have been very much surprised had either of my daughters on receiving a proposal of marriage at any time which might carry with it only half the of immediately and and without paying my opinion or my regard the compliment of any consultation put a decided negative on it i should have been much surprised and much hurt by such a proceeding i should have thought it a gross of duty and t park respect you are not to be judged by the same rule you do not owe me the duty of a child but if your heart can you of ingratitude he ceased was by this time cr so bitterly that angry as he was he would not press that article farther her heart was almost broken by such a picture of what she appeared to him by such so heavy so multiplied so rising in dreadful self willed obstinate selfish and ungrateful he thought her all this she had deceived his expectations she had lost his good opinion what was to become of her i am very sorry said she through her tears i am very sorry indeed sorry yes i hope you are sorry and you will probably have reason to be long sorry for this day s transactions if it were possible for me to do otherwise said she with another strong effort � but i am so perfectly convinced that i could never make him happy and that i should be miserable myself another burst of tears but in spite of tliat burst and in spite of that great black word miserable which served to introduce it sir thomas began to think a little a little change of inclination might have something to do with it and to from the personal entreaty of the young man himself he knew her to be very timid and exceedingly nervous and thought it not improbable that her mind might be in such a state as a little time a little pressing a little patience and a little impatience a judicious mixture of all on the lover s side might work their usual effect on if the gentleman would but � if he had but love enough to � sir thomas began to have hopes and these reflections having passed across his mind and cheered it well said he in a tone of becoming gravity but of less anger � well child dry up your tears there is no use in these tears they can do no good you must now come down stairs with me mr has been kept waiting too long already you must give him your own answer you cannot expect him to be satisfied with less and you only can explain to him the grounds of that of your sentiments park which unfortunately for himself he certainly has i am totally unequal to it but showed such reluctance such misery at the idea of going down to him that sir thomas after a little consideration judged it better to indulge her his hopes from both gentleman and lady suffered a small depression in consequence but when he looked at his niece and saw the state of feature and complexion which her crying had brought her into he thought there might be as much lost as gained by an immediate interview with a few words therefore of no particular meaning he walked off by himself leaving his poor niece to sit and cry over what had passed with very wretched feelings her mind was all disorder the past present future every thing was terrible but her uncle s anger gave her the pain of all selfish and ungrateful to have appeared so to him she was miserable for ever she had no one to take her part to counsel or speak for her her only friend was absent he might have softened his father but all perhaps all would think her selfish and ungrateful she might have to endure the reproach again and again she might hear it or see it or know it to exist for ever in every connection about her she could not but feel some resentment against mr yet if he really loved her and were unhappy too � it was all wretchedness together in about a quarter of an hour her uncle returned she was almost ready to faint at the sight of him he spoke calmly however without without reproach and she revived a little there was comfort too in his words as well as his manner for he began with mr is gone he has just left me i need not repeat what has passed i do not want to add to any thing you may now be feeling by an account of what he has felt suffice it that he has behaved in the most gentleman like and generous manner and has confirmed me in a most favourable opinion of his understanding heart and temper upon my representation of what you were suffering he immediately and with the greatest delicacy ceased to urge to see you for the present here who had looked up looked
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woman i said you could be made to love but let that be left for another man to do i want no love like that i want a woman some day you e by the pretty sister of will not cast the under your feet you will take it and hide it in your breast it wiu not be mine but some other man s who loves you less i loved you i was mad for you but it shall cease it is better to think only of the than to play the fool for a woman who has no love in her heart you are pretty but that is not everything you can work but a man can break through them there go i he gave her one long look flung her hands aside and had the wall and was gone himself one moment later stood still with hands dropped at her side staring with wide fierce eyes down the white road the next evening came home from his work later than usual he came down the road with a drooping head and a slow and heavy step when he sat down to his food he ate but little and as he bent over his soup he heard scolding by the pretty sister of it is gone she was saying you took it and have thrown it away was it not mine said it was mine i cared nothing for it and have done what i chose with it lifted his head and listened what has happened he asked she has thrown away the which i had saved answered i laid it away and she has taken it what harm did it do her that it should lie out of her sight in peace did you do that said to � was it meant for her said i told you he ought to have thrown it to her and not to me broke a piece of bread and it on the table mechanically you need not have done that he said i wish you had left it in its place it did no hurt and we shall not see him again he is not coming any more and soon he by the pretty sister of goes away and who knows what may happen walked out of the house without speaking she did not come back for a long time and they did not know where she had gone but as that was her way when she was in a naughty humor they were not anxious about her when she returned at last the moon was shining again and was asleep in the shadow of the vines and sat on the bench outside the door smoking sat down on the threshold and rested her head against the side of the door she said nothing at all and only looked out at the dew laden flowers sparkling in the garden there was silence for several minutes and then turned uneasily and spoke yes he said he will not come again and soon he goes away it is for the best he is very strong and determined perhaps by the pretty sister of that comes of fighting he said he wanted you but you did not want him so he must forget about you he must cease to think of you or hear of you he asked me as a friend not to let him see me for a while until it was over to see me would remind him of you and that would not do he asked it as a friend � there was no he is my friend yes though he is and i am only a poor fellow who works hard it will all be as well as ever between us when it is all done with and we meet again if you had wanted him we should have been brothers sat still what strange thing had happened to her she did not know something was the matter with her breathing something hurt her labored in it with heavy like blows which her she shut her hands and drove the nails into her she could not have spoken for the world by the pretty sister of before could say more she rose with fierce and passed hun and was gone again the poor fellow looked after her small swift form if she had wanted him he said he would have made her a good husband and we should have been brothers but she is not easy to please and she would not give one a chance who did not please her at first and there is no one who a bull as he does flew like a bird until she reached the low wall where the grew at the spot where she had stood the night before there she stopped panting the breath of the filled all the air about her she looked up the white road a strange new passion filled her she did not know whether it was anger or not but if it was anger it was of a new kind with more pain in it than she was used to he by the pretty sister of would not come again � not at all again he not appear at her side as if he had sprung from the earth he would not follow her or plead with her or look at her every moment he was near her he would not try to make her speak only last night he was here in this very spot and now he would speak like that again he would forget her not care for her � forget her she would not believe it she knew he could they never did they always loved her best and wanted no one else and still the labored throbbing went on in her side and she panted for breath c ome back she cried looking up the white road i tell
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to a different charm over the scene now would the jovial sun break from the east blazing from the of the hills and sparkling the landscape with a thousand gems while along the borders of the river were masses of mist which hke midnight disturbed at hi approach made a retreat rolling in sullen reluctance up the mountains at such times all was brightness and life and � the seemed of an indescribable and � the birds broke forth in wanton and the breezes the vessel merrily on her course but when the sun sunk amid a flood of glory in the west the heavens and the earth with a thousand gorgeous � then all was calm and silent and magnificent the late swelling sail hung against the mast � the with folded arms leaned against ihe lost in that involuntary musing which tlie sober grandeur of nature commands in the of her children the vast bosom of tlie was like an mirror the golden splendour of the heavens excepting that now and then a bark would steal across its surface filled with painted savages gay br � jl tu as perchance a twilight scene a lingering ray of the setting sun gleamed upon them from the western mountains but when the hour of twilight spread its magic mists around then did the face of nature assume a thousand fugitive charms which to the worthy heart that seeks enjoyment in the glorious works of its maker arc the mellow light that prevailed just served to tinge with colours the softened features of the scenery the deceived but delighted eye sought vainly to discern in the broad masses of shade the separating line between the land and water or to distinguish the fading objects that seemed sinking into chaos now did the busy fancy supply the of vision producing with industrious craft a fairy creation of her own under her the barren rocks frowned upon the watery waste in the semblance of lofty towers and high castles � trees assumed the forms of mighty giants and the inaccessible of the mountains seemed peopled with a thousand beings now broke forth from the shores the notes of an innumerable variety of insects which filled the ai with a strange but not concert � while ever and anon was heard the melancholy of the whip poor will who perched on some lone tree wearied the ear of ai t oh ii awful with his incessant the mind soothed into a melancholy listened with pensive stillness to catch and distinguish each sound that vaguely echoed from the shore � now and then startled perchance by the of some straggling savage or the dreary howl of a wolf stealing forth upon his nightly thus happily did they pursue their course until they entered upon those awful the it would seem that the gigantic had their war with heaven up cliffs on cliffs and vast masses of rock in wild confusion but in very different is the history of these cloud mountains � these in ancient days before the poured his waters from the lakes formed one vast prison within whose rocky bosom the confined tlie spirits who at his here bound in chains or in pines or by ponderous rocks they groaned for many an age � at length the conquering in his irresistible career towards the ocean burst open their prison house rolling his tide triumphantly its ruins still ho ver do many of them about their old and these it is according to venerable legends that cause tlie echoes which punishment op throughout these awful which are nothing but their angry when any noise the of their repose for when the elements are agitated by tempest when the winds are up and the thunder rolls then horrible is the yelling and howling of these troubled spirits making the mountains to with their hideous uproar for at such times it is said that they think the great is returning once more to plunge them in gloomy and renew their intolerable but all these fair and glorious scenes were lost upon the gallant naught occupied his mind but thoughts of iron war and proud of hardy deeds of arms neither did his honest crew trouble their vacant heads with any romantic speculations of the kind the pilot at the quietly smoked his pipe thinking of nothing either past present or to come � those of his comrades who were not under the were listening with open mouths to van who seated on the was relating to them the marvellous history of those of fire flies that sparkled like and upon the dusky robe of night these according to tradition were originally a race of who peopled � van a long before the memory of man being of that race emphatically called and who for their innumerable sins against the children of men and to furnish an awful warning to the sex were doomed to the earth in the shape of these threatening and terrible little enduring the internal of that fire which they formerly carried in their hearts and breathed forth in their words but now are to bear about for in their tails and now am i going to tell a fact which i doubt much my readers will hesitate to believe but if they do they are welcome not t believe a word in this whole history for nothing which it contains is more true it must be known then that the nose of the was of a very size boldly from his countenance like a mountain of being with and other precious stones � the true of a king of good fellows which jolly to all who it heartily at the now thus it happened that bright and early in the morning the good having washed his was leaning over the quarter railing of the contemplating it in the wave below � just at this moment the illustrious sun breaking in all
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of battle abbey was a rich and splendid place through many a troubled year though now it is a gray ruin overgrown with ivy but the first work he had to do was to conquer the english thoroughly and that as you know by this time was hard work for any man he several he burned and many towns he laid waste scores upon scores of miles of pleasant country he destroyed innumerable lives at length of can with other representatives of the clergy and the people went to his camp and submitted to him the insignificant son of was proclaimed king by others but nothing came of it he fled to scotland afterward where his sister who was young and beautiful married the king himself was not important enough for any body to care much about him on christmas day william was crowned in westminster abbey under the title of william the first but he is best known as william the conqueror a child s history of england it was a strange one of the who performed the ceremony asked the in french if they have duke william for their king they answered yes another of the put the same question to the in english they too answered yes with a loud shout the noise being heard by a guard of horse soldiers outside was mistaken for resistance on the part of the english the guard instantly set fire to the neighboring houses and a tumult ensued in the midst of which the king being left alone in the abbey with a few priests and they all being in a terrible fright together was hurriedly crowned when the crown was placed upon his head he swore to govern the english as well as the best of their own i dare say you think as i do that if we except the great alfred he might pretty easily have done that numbers of the english had been killed in the last disastrous battle their estates and the estates of all the who had fought against him there king william seized upon and gave to his own knights and many great english families of the present time acquired their english lands in this way and are very proud of it but what is got by force must be maintained by force these were obliged to build castles all over england to defend their new property and do what he would the king could neither soothe nor the nation as he wished he gradually introduced the language and the customs yet for a long time the great body of the english remained sullen and on his going over to to visit his subjects there the the conqueror of his half brother whom he left in charge of his english kingdom drove the people mad the men of even over to take possession of their old enemy count of who had led the when the man was slain at his own fire side the men of aided by the and commanded by a chief named the wild drove the out of their some of those who had been of their lands together in the north of england some in scotland some in the thick woods and and they could fall upon the or upon the english who had submitted to the they fought and murdered like the desperate that they were were set on foot for a general of the like the old of the in short the english were in a mood all through the kingdom king william fearing he might lose his conquest came back and tried to the london people by soft words he then set forth to repress the country people by stem deeds among the towns which he and where he killed and the inhabitants without any distinction none young or old armed or were oxford york in all these places and in many others fire and sword worked their utmost horrors and made the land dreadful to behold the streams and rivers were with blood the sky was blackened with smoke the fields were of ashes the were heaped up with dead such are the fatal re vol i � f a child s history of england suits of conquest and ambition although william was a harsh and angry man i do not suppose that he deliberately meant to work this shocking ruin when he invaded england but what he had got by the strong hand he could only keep by the strong hand and in so doing he made england a great grave two sons of by name and came over from ireland with some ships against the but were defeated this was scarcely done when the in the woods so harassed york that the governor sent to the king for help the king a general and a large force to occupy the town of the bishop of that place met the general outside the town and warned him not to enter as he would be in danger there the general cared nothing for the warning and went in with all his men that night on every hill within sight of signal fires were seen to blaze when the morning dawned the english who had assembled in great strength forced the gates rushed into the town and the every one the english afterward the to come and help them the came with two hundred and forty ships the joined them they captured york and drove the out of that city then william the to go away and took such vengeance oa the english that all the former fire and sword smoke and ashes death and ruin were nothing compared with it in melancholy songs and stories it was still sung and told by cottage fires on winter evenings a hundred years afterward how in those william the dreadful days of the there was not from the river to the river one inhabited village left nor one
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of this little home where peace and pure content dwelt happily in seclusion � but this was not all there was something else in my mind � something inexplicable and sad � which then i had no skill to define i know now what it was � but the knowledge comes too late returning to my own i saw through the trees a vivid red light in one of the upper windows of it like a lurid star and i guided my steps by its brilliancy as i made my way across the winding garden paths the sorrows of satan and back to the house entering the hall the page in scarlet and gold met me and with a respectful escorted me to my room where was in waiting has the prince retired i asked him yes sir he has a red lamp in his window has he not looked meditative yet i fancied i saw him smile i think yes � i believe he has sir i asked no more questions but allowed him to perform his duties as in silence good night sir he said at last his eyes fastened upon me with an look good night i responded indifferently he left the room with his usual cat like stealthy tread and when he had gone i � by a sudden fresh impulse of hatred for him � sprang to the door and locked it then i listened with an odd nervous there was not a sound for fully quarter of an hour i remained with my attention more or less strained expectant of i knew not what but the quiet of the house was absolutely undisturbed with a sigh of relief i flung myself on the luxurious bed � a couch fit for a king draped with the richest satin embroidered � and falling soundly asleep i dreamed that i was poor again poor � but happy � and hard at work in the old lodging writing down thoughts which i knew by some divine and beyond all doubt would bring me the whole world s honour again i heard the sounds of the played by my unseen neighbour next door and this time they were and of joy without one throb of sorrow and while i wrote on in an ecstasy of inspiration of poverty and pain i heard echoing through my visions the round of the and saw in the far distance an angel floating towards me on of light with the face of the sorrows of satan the morning broke clear with all the pure tints of a fine in the sky never had i beheld such a fair scene as the woods and gardens of when i looked upon them that day by the sunlight of a spring half melting into summer my heart swelled with pride as i surveyed the beautiful domain i now owned � and thought how happy a home it would make when in her loveliness shared with me its charm and luxury yes i said half aloud say what philosophers will the possession of money does satisfaction and power it is all very well to talk about fame but what is fame worth if like one is too poor to enjoy it besides literature no longer holds its former high � there are too many in the field � too many newspaper all believing they are � too many ill educated lady and new women who think they are as gifted as sand or with and i ought to be able to resign the idea of fame � literary fame � with a good grace knew i reasoned with myself � i knew that my for a place among the truly great of the world was as strong as ever � i knew i for the intellectual distinction force and pride which make the a terror and a power in the land and so a great poet or great from the throng that even kings are glad to do him or her honour � but i would not allow my thoughts to dwell on this rapidly vanishing point of desire i settled my mind to enjoy the of the immediate present as a bee settles in the cup of honey flowers � and leaving my bedroom i went downstairs to breakfast with in the best and of the sorrows of satan not a cloud on the day he said meeting me with a smile as i entered the bright morning room whose windows opened on the lawn the will be a brilliant success thanks to you i answered personally i am quite in the dark as to your plans � but i believe you can do nothing that is not well done you honour me he said with a light laugh you credit me then with better qualities than the creator for what he does in the opinion of the present generation is exceedingly ill done men have taken to grumbling at him instead of him � and few have any patience with or liking for his laws i laughed well you must admit those laws are very arbitrary they are i entirely acknowledge the fact we sat down to table and were waited upon by servants who apparently had no idea of anything else but attendance on our needs there was no trace of bustle or excitement in the household � no sign whatever to that a great entertainment was about to take place that day it was not until the close of our meal that i asked what time the would arrive he glanced at his watch about noon i should say he replied perhaps before but whatever their hour they will all be in their places at the proper moment depend upon it the people i employ � both and � know their business thoroughly and are aware that i stand no nonsense a rather sinister smile played round his mouth as he regarded me
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which the ancient had turned back in dismay but which he regarded with animated hope as indicating the vicinity of land not that he had any idea of yet reaching the object of hb search the eastern end of asia for according to his he had come but three hundred and sixty since leaving the islands and he placed the main land of india much farther on on the th of september the same weather continued a soft steady breeze from the east filled every sail while to use the words of the sea was as calm as the at he had fancied that he perceived the water of the sea to grow as he advanced and he noticed this as a proof of the superior sweetness and purity of the � the were all in high spirits each ship striving to get in the to catch the first sight of land the from the informed him that fi om the flight of a great number of birds which he had seen and firom certain indications in the northern horizon he thought there was land in that direction as his vessel was a fast therefore he crowded canvas and kept in the advance there was in fact a in the north such as often hangs over land and at sunset it assumed such shapes and of twenty to the degree of latitude the unity of distance used throughout this work t ind l cap lai that many fancied they beheld islands there was a therefore to steer for that quarter however was persuaded that they were mere illusions every one who has made a sea voyage must have witnessed the caused by clouds resting upon the horizon especially about sunset and sunrise which the eye assisted by the imagination and desire easily into the wished for land this is particularly the case within the where the clouds at sunset assume the most appearances on the following day there were showers by wind which considered favourable signs two also flew on board the ships birds which he observed seldom fly from land he sounded therefore with a of two hundred but found no bottom he supposed he might be passing between islands which lay both to the north and south but he was unwilling to waste the present by going in search of them beside he bad affirmed that land was to be found by keeping to the west bis whole expedition had been founded on such a presumption he should therefore risk all t and with his people were he to appear to doubt and water and to go groping blindly point to point of the he resolved therefore to keep one bold course always westward until he should reach the coast of india and afterwards if to seek these islands on his return notwithstanding the precaution which had been taken to keep the people ignorant of the distance they had sailed they were now growing extremely uneasy at the of cap from journal of t life and voyages op the voyage they bad advanced much farther west than ever man had sailed before and though beyond the reach of still they continued daily leaving vast tracts of ocean behind them and pressing onward and on ward into that apparently boundless abyss it is true they had been flattered by various indications of land and still others were but all them with vain hopes ai er being hailed with a transient joy they passed away after another and the expanse of sea and sky continued to extend before them even the wind which seemed as if sent to to the new world with such bland and gentle was now by their ingenious fears into a singular cause of alarm for they began to imagine that the wind in these seas always prevailed from the east and if so would never permit them to return to spain endeavoured in every way to soothe these ing fears sometimes by argument and sometimes by awakening fresh hopes and pointing out new signs of land on the twentieth of september the wind with light breezes from the these though m verse to their progress had a cheering upon the pie as they the wind did not always prevail the east several birds also visited the ships three of which were of a small kind which keep about groves and and which came singing in the morning and flew away again in the evening their song was cheering to the hearts of the dismayed who hailed me mi no i journal of t p it as the v � ce of land the lai tbey observed were of wing and might venture far to sea but small birds were too feeble to fly far and g tbey were not by their flight on following day there either a profound calm or fight winds from the the sea as far as the eye reach was covered with weeds a often observed in this part tf the ocean which hat some the appearance of a vast meadow tut has been attributed to immense of plants which grow at the bottom of the tea until when they are detached by the of the waves and and rise to the sur ce these fields of weeds were at first regarded with great but at length they became in many places so dense and as in some degree to the of the ships which most have been under very little the ever ready to conceive the most absurd alarm now called to mind some tale about the frozen ocean where ships were said to be sometimes fixed they endeavoured therefore to avoid at m as possible these floating masses some disaster os kind t happen to considered these weeds as proof that the sea was and began to talk of lurking rocks and and treacherous and of the danger of running at it were in the midst of the ocean
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we have sold our to the � we know that his price is fair the winked his western eye and swore by a china storm � they ha him a joseph s jury coat to keep his honour warm the three captains the against the tops the broad the in the empty hold and mourned for a wasted cord � the signal sped by the line o the british craft the called to his crew and put her about and laughed � it s haul my bully boys all � we ll out to the seas again � ere they set us to paint their saint or at his chain it s fore sheet free with her head to the sea and the swing of the � we ll make no sport in an english court till we come as a ship o the line till we come as a ship o the line my lads of thirty foot in the sheer lifting again from the outer main with news of a flying his pluck at our for of heaving his head for our lead in sign that we keep the sea then fore sheet home as she lifts to the foam � we stand on the outward tack we are paid in the coin of the white man s trade � the is hard ay and black the bird shall carry my word to the and the ho the three captains how a man may sail from a heathen coast to be robbed in a christian port how a man may be robbed in christian port while three great captains there shall dip their flag to a s rag � to show that his trade is fair ess the ballad of the down it was our war ship would sweep the channel clean wherefore she kept her close when the merry channel arose to save the marine she had one bow gun of a hundred ton and a great stern gun beside they dipped their noses deep in the sea they their stays and free in the wash of the wind whipped tide it was our war ship fell in with a light that carried the dainty gun and a pair o heels wherewith to run from the grip of a close fought fight she opened fire at seven miles � as ye shoot at a cork � and once she fired and twice she fired till the bow gun drooped like a lily tired that upon the stalk the m captain the bow gun the deck beams break below well to rest for an hour or twain and the shattered plates again and he answered make it so in she opened fire within the mile � as ye shoot at the flying duck � and the great stern gun shot fair and true with the heave of the ship to the blue and the great stern stuck captain the fills with steam the feed pipes burst below � you can hear the hiss of the helpless ram you can hear the twisted jam and he answered turn and go � it was our war ship and grimly did she roll swung round to take the s fire as the white whale faces the s ire when they war by the frozen pole captain the shells are falling fast and faster still fall we and it is not meet for english stock to bide in the heart of an eight day clock the death they cannot see i it the lie down lie down my bold a b we drift upon her beam we dare not ram for she can run and dare ye fire another gun and die in the steam it was our war ship that carried an belt but fifty feet at stern and bow lay bare as the of the s sow to the hail of the captain they hack us through and through the chilled steel are swift we have emptied the in open sea their bursts where our coal should be and he answered let her drift it was our war ship swung round upon the tide her two dumb guns glared south and north and the blood and the steam ran forth and she ground the s side captain they cry the fight is done they bid you send your sword and he answered her stern and bow they have asked for the steel they shall have it now out and board ii ft the it was our war ship up four hundred men and the delight as they rolled in the waist and heard the fight stamp o er their steel walled pen they cleared the end to end from tower to hold they fought as they fought in s fleet they were stripped to the waist they were bare to the feet as it was in the days of old it was the sinking heaved up her battered side � and carried a million pounds in steel to the and the corpse fed and the of the channel tide it was the crew of the stood out to sweep the sea on a won from an ancient foe as it was in the days of long ago and as it still shall be the ballad of the seven from all the world back to again rolling down the road drunk and raising give the girls another drink fore we sign away � we that took the out across the bay we put out from loaded down with rails we put back to cause our cargo shifted we put out from � met the winter � seven days and seven nights to the start we drifted her loose smoke white as snow all the coals adrift half the rails below like a pot like a � out we took the out across the bay one by one the lights came up winked and let us by mile by mile we on
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adam as the est of all to me in the flesh yea and to all hi that house i am carried away to them m my sleep and often in the midst of work and even of speech the thought of them is borne in on me as if they were in need and trouble � which yet is dark to me there may he some leading here but i wait to he taught you say they are au well we shall see each other again in the body i trust � though it may be not for a long while for the brethren and sisters at are desirous to have me for a short space among them when i have a door opened mo again to leave farewell dear brother � and yet not farewell for those children of god whom it has been granted to see each other face to face and to hold communion together and to feel the same spirit working in both can never more be though the hills may he between for their souls are enlarged by that union and they bear another about in their continually as it were a new strength your faithful sister and fellow in christ i have not skill to write the words so small as you do and my pen moves slow and so i am and say but little of what is in my mind greet your mother for me with a kiss she asked me to kiss her twice when we parted adam had the letter and was sitting with his head resting on his arm at the head of the bed when came up stairs hast the letter said yea s d adam i don t know what i should h i thought of her and her letter if i d never seen her i i should ha thought a preaching woman hateful but she s one as makes every thing seem right she says and does and i seemed to see her and hear her speaking when i read the letter it s wonderful how i remember her looks and her voice she d make thee rare and happy she s just the woman for thee it s no use thinking o that said she spoke firm and she s not the woman to say one thing and mean another nay but her feelings may grow a w get to love by the best fire i d go and see her by and by i d make it convenient for thee to be away three or four days and it ud bo no walk for thee � only between twenty and thirty mile i should like to see her again whether or no if she would i with me for going said adam shell be none displeased said adam emphatically getting up it might be a great happiness to us al if she d have thee mother took to her so wonderful and seemed so contented to be with her ay said rather timidly and s fond o too she thinks a deal about her adam made no reply to that and no other word but passed between them chapter in s it was no longer enough to go to bed without a candle even in mrs s early household and carried one witli her as she went up at last to her bedroom soon after adam was gone and bolted the door behind her n ow she would read her letter it must � must have comfort in it how was adam to know the truth p it was always likely he should say what he did say she set down the candle and took out the letter it had a faint scent of roses which made her feel as if arthur were close to her she put it it to her and a rush of remembered sensations for a moment or two swept away all fear but her heart began to flutter and her hands to tremble as she broke the seal she read slowly it was not easy for her to read a gentleman s handwriting though arthur had taken pains to write plainly dearest � i have spoken truly when i have said that i loved you and i shall never forget om love i shall be friend as long as life lasts and i hope to prove this to yon in many ways if i say any thing to pain you in this letter do not think it is for want of love and tenderness toward you for there is nothing i would not do for you if i knew it to be really for your happiness i can not bear to think of my httle shedding tears when i am not there to kiss them away and if i followed only my own inclinations i should be with her at this moment instead of it is very hard for me to part from her � harder still for me to write words which may seem unkind though they spring from the truest kindness dear dear sweet as our love has been to me sweet as it would be to me for you to love me always i feel that it would have been better for us both if we had never had that happiness and that it is my duty to ask you to love me and s adam care for me as little as you can the has all been mine for though i have been unable to resist the longing to be near you i have felt all the while that your affection for me might cause you i ought to have resisted ray feelings i should have done so if i had been a better fellow than i am but now since the past can not be altered i am bound to save yon from any evil i have power to prevent and i feel
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their opinions accordingly but in literary business they lay aside even as a garment that wisdom humble and and go by intelligent conjecture founded on vague but current notions but this is to be shallow in proportion as the subject mat ter is profound it is to build their huts on the rock and their palace on the sand in sober truth this is to apply to and etc the method t e observation and but to literary the method of the which kept the world dark for ages now that false system though it has lost its wide has not lost its nature nor its absolute power over its contracted territory it sends hundreds of to every year and it can still reduce to utter darkness any stray subject on which it settles a d and unfortunately one of the relics of that old kingdom of darkness is a little province called literary criticism a science at present one of whose positions is that in matters of art a man may attain to truth by searching the depths of his inner consciousness this is a german phrase and there are not above six men in this island who thoroughly understand it let me have the honour of adding your name to that list in and and in the fine arts and in every subject matter whatever the depths of a man s inner con � are the of his ignorance with the rock of his vanity peeping through the foam and nothing in man is an inch deep but knowledge painfully acquired partly by personal observation partly from the testimony of other eye witnesses nothing in man is a foot deep but knowledge acquired by the science of that science sneered at by is the � principle worked by a vast machinery of eyes and hands it is what call solomon a f a lord bacon observation bat was a feeble observer solomon did not talk it but did it and that is the man for my money the eighth out of literature then our base upon this science of but in literature they reason a or else don t reason at all but resign their own excellent judgment to the cant and that are current in society and sometimes to and monthly critics so called but these are all more or less with thomas his stick they fiddle well but they can t see and a blind er is no better a guide than a blind i can think at present of no better way of men of intelligence from that system of reasoning in literary matters than to give them a glimpse of it at work blinding the ingenious persons that use it and the learned to example when lord first brought out his history of england it was a great chance for criticism for the of that science are not phrases but judgments that posterity your humble servant s judgment of sir to wit and it is not once in years that so great an author as comes up for such judgment what was the general tenor of that most amazing verdict that was a charming and writer but an one it is not the history of england � said the times and nine out of ten english critics arrived at the same conclusion and on the same grounds i will state their reasoning shortly but fairly we grant his dazzling parts and his profound industry and his mastery of english but he largely the colours of fiction and with history therefore his history popular for a time will not be immortal apply the the is a though not the instrument of reasoning mr mill will grant me that major no historian who the colours of fiction and with history immortality minor the colours of fiction etc with history will not achieve immortality the eighth now where do they get their m or or general principle why out of the depths of their inner consciousness it is an impression and a rational one most error is rational apply the principle this begins at the other it first and afterwards instead of deciding first and inquiring never the first immortal historian was on his work we find it composed of three main elements st a number of exact truths the result of investigation as enthusiastic honest and laborious as s and even more because accompanied with bodily and the dangers of travelling in rude times and foreign lands nd a number of and romantic traditions om oriental priests and such like a number of speeches put by the historian into the mouths of his characters not one word of which any of them ever uttered the first history then is one part truth and two parts fiction the next immortal is dealing with events that happened in a few years and on a singularly small this historian could record facts with an accuracy by or indeed by most writers he is believed to have done so i should feel sure of it if he had not opened with an and a needless of a greater man than himself well this immortal has coloured his narrative and it with from the dramatic poets of his country and a huge river of pure fiction runs right through it the speeches are more numerous and far more than in and they are just as pure fiction as the speeches in the school for scandal or twist or as the imaginary conversations of ml or of or the dialogue in the of and lee or the speeches in s or s and � the single difference is that the fiction in the historian is more crude and than in the best poets in as in all great modem artists the characters utter not the writer but themselves talks but in the eighth and all the talk and it is prime and second rate fiction next in eminence comes he starts by
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good fellows i will go for them of course you mean to vote for for captain not exactly replied with evident dis outward bound or that i spoke to you of this little matter � i thought you would go with us or i shouldn t have said anything to you not say anything why not because it will be better to keep still i shall not do anything of the kind you have got up a plan to defeat by giving the offices to fellows who will vote against him you wish me to keep still while you carry out your plan i can see through a cord of wood when there s a hole big enough i mentioned tliis thing to you in confidence you didn t say a word about confidence and i didn t promise to keep still i won t keep still i think it is a mean trick to buy up the of the fellow i a nd i ll blow the whole thing higher than a you ll catch it if you do said in a threatening tone catch what demanded with a very pretty exhibition of dignity bob will give it to you give what to me give you the biggest you ever had in your life answered angrily you are so stupid you can t understand anything i think i can understand the when it comes that s a game that two can play at what do you mean you little do you think you can whip bob i had no idea of him and i have no idea of his me young america afloat was could make nothing of him by threats or persuasion and he turned away from him to seek a more promising field of labor took off his cap scratched his head as he reflected upon the event which had just and made up his mind that it was an insult to an to attempt to buy his vote with the paltry consideration of an office he was sorry that he had been even tempted by the proposition of the wire and thankful that his sense of honor and decency had prompted liim to decline it when asked to vote for an improper person true to his promise he made all haste to expose the conspiracy as he regarded it against when the students turned in that night the wire had found a sufficient number of for all the offices on the terms set forth in the compact each of whom had promised to use his influence for the entire ticket had made a very pretty calculation to the that each of the fifteen could influence at least two besides his own for the ticket which would inevitably elect it but during all this time paul had been laboring like a for and had induced his friends to do the same at nine o clock in the morning the were opened for the election of officers a box was placed on the rail at the in which the were deposited under the inspection of professor have all the students called the professor outward bound or when the was suspended if so i declare the closed it was a moment of intense excitement on the deck of the young america when mr stood up on the to announce the vote there was a pleasant smile upon his face which indicated that it would not be his painful duty to the choice of the independent young gentlemen your appears to have been conducted with entire said he and i will proceed to declare the result whole number of eighty seven necessary to a choice forty four paul has five charles has seven robert has twenty two richard has fifty three and is elected captain of the young america for succeeding three months the party who had worked and for applauded the result most and gave three cheers for the new captain which on this exciting occasion were hot objected to by the principal s jaw dropped down and his lip quivered with angry emotion that little of a did that said in a low tone to tlie disappointed candidate i was afraid of this when i saw him blowing about the deck i ll settle it with him when i get a good chance growled as he went to the rail and looked over into the water in order to conceal his ment and young gentlemen will bring in their for first young america afloat lieutenant said professor as he placed the box on the rail again the boys marched around the and deposited their for the second officer as they had done before the friends of rallied again hoping that something might yet come of the compact they had made with him and gave him their for first lieutenant though in his he declared that he would not accept the position fortunately for him he was not called upon to do so for charles elected by a very large as tl c election proceeded it became evident that there was no office for paul was elected fourth lieutenant and tlie announcement of the vote was greeted by even more hearty applause than had been bestowed upon the captain at the conclusion of the found that not a single one of the wire or of the by them had been elected the attempt to bribe the independent by giving them office had been a signal failure and it is to be hoped that young america when fully developed will stick to his captain richard said mr as he stepped upon the the had concluded the young gentleman thus addressed came forward blushing beneath the honors which had been bestowed upon him the principal took his hand captain i congratulate you upon your election to the highest office in the gift of your con outward bound or and i congratulate your fellow students also upon having so good a young
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his medicine and holding the drink to his feverish soothing bim in short all the devices tion and fighting against this most malady for four days die doctor a man felt justified in affording them hope but on the fifth their clear was the e our of the doctor shook his head recovery it is true if the child s physical strength were greater m ht be possible but in this case he feared for the result still he would not absolutely give him up though at the same time he considered it his duty to bid them at all events to hold themselves prepared for the worst language could not describe the sorrow and despair that settled upon the whole family when they heard this opinion of his medical attendant the fact of the other children having been so slightly prevented his parents who had never seen the complaint before from entertaining any serious apprehensions of on the contrary they imagined let no one this for it it tub parents trial that as in tbe cases it would come to a crisis then and in the course of a few days altogether disappear � leaving their guarded treasure it is true and helpless for a time but still with a constitution not seriously injured by hid nay they not without some hopes � and how were these hopes � that it might be possible for the child s intellect to be developed by that change in the brain which sometimes results from violent and temporary disease in such a manner as to restore reason after its exercise had been even for a considerable time suspended after two days more it was quite dear that the doctor entertained no hope of him and terrible did this heart breaking announcement come upon them all not that they absolutely of him for truly may it be � as it was felt in instance that love wiu hope when the very quiver of death is trembling in the heart of those it loves nothing however which we can write can give the reader such a dear and affecting account of this innocent death bed as the short journal written at his bed side by his mother of his sufferings and of the affliction into which the certainty that he was to be taken away for ever plunged them all this affecting record of the innocent s last moments commenced on the very day the doctor told them to be prepared for the worst just forty eight hours before his death it is an one and the of the details will be easily overlooked by those who have lost or who fear to lose any child that is dear to them as the ruddy drops that their hearts april ten o clock a m� � the doctor has this day forbidden us to hope but we know that god of his infinite mercy can restore our innocent child if it seem good to him i have since the appearance of the complaint among us heard of children recovering r a more malignant attack and more symptoms than his but lest it should be the a record of tub or will of the almighty to remove bim i am resolved to mark down a register of our darling s pains and sufferings and of everything connected with him that when he is gone we bring him back to our memory during the most affecting period of his brief but happy life may god support me and sustain us all but surely when we feel that he is about to be withdrawn from us this grief is natural the doctor says the worst symptom about the dear one is the heavy feverish look that is in his eyes heavy indeed is the look of my beloved and loaded with sickness yet has he moments when he wishes to talk with his brother and to have him about him his eldest sister to whom he is so much attached is now that she has heard the doctor s opinion weeping bitterly in her own room kissing his little coat and pressing every part of his dress to her heart she told that his brother was going to die and asked him whilst she sobbed aloud what would he do after his little the innocent child replied that he would not let him die alas my darling she returned i fear that in spite of papa and mamma and all death will take him � but i will kill death said the manly little child his sister kissed him but only wept the more twelve o clock � is awake and seems a little easier he is now arranging his little play things about his pillow and has two small tops one his own and the other s which he made a present of to him yesterday there is also his whip three ence and a little thin bottle in which his brother put some that he might be able to see their colours through the glass � a sight in which he takes great delight there the beloved child lies arranging as well as he can whilst ever and anon his heavy eye turns round to see that am with him he then calls mamma and when ask him what he wants he looks at me and smiles feebly saying do not leave me rub l � oh how will my heart part with him how can i give liim up am i not his mother i � sustain me o god two o clock p m � his has come to his bed side and he seems pleased to see him he has given him his little top saying keep my top sure you wouldn t die and leave me said the innocent child no he replied but he knew not what either the question or answer means oh this is too much for my heart
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disappointed if you do not i could get the h use in world for you next do r to ours in square you must come indeed i am sure i shall be very to you at any time till i am confined if mrs w l ood should not like to go into public sense and sensibility they thanked her but were obliged tp resist all h� r entreaties oh my love cried mrs to her husband who just then entered the room you must help me to persuade the to go to town this winter her love made no answer and after slightly bowing to the ladies began complaining of the weather how horrid all this is said he such weather makes everything and everybody disgusting is as much produced within doors as without by rain it makes one all one s acquaintance what the devil does sir john mean by not having a room in his house how few people know what comfort is sir john is as stupid as the weather the rest of the company soon dropped in i am afraid miss said sir john you have not been able to take your usual walk to to day looked very grave and said nothing oh don t be so sly before us said mrs for we know all about it i assure you and i admire your taste very much for i think he is extremely handsome we do not live a great way from him in the country you know not above ten miles i dare say much nearer thirty said her husband ah well there is not much i never was at his house but they say it is a sweet pretty place as vile a spot as i ever saw in my life said mr remained perfectly silent though her countenance betrayed her interest in what was said it very ugly continued mrs � then it must be some other place that is so pretty i suppose when they were seated in the dining room sir john observed with regret that they were only eight all together my dear said he to his lady it is very provoking that we should be so few why did not you ask the to come to us to day did not i tell you sir john when you spoke to me about it before that il could not be done they dined with us last you and i sir john said mrs should not stand upon such ceremony en s and s then you would be very ill bred cried mr my love you contradict everybody said hia wife with her usual laugh do you know that you are quite i did not know i contradicted anybody in calling your mother ill bred ay you may abuse me as you please said the old lady you have taken oflf my hands and cannot give her back again so there i have the whip hand of you laughed heartily to think that her husband could not get rid of her and said she did not care how cross he was to her as they must live together it was impossible for any one to be more thoroughly or more determined to be happy than � rs the studied indifference insolence and discontent of her husband gave her no pain and when he or abused her she was highly diverted mr is so droll said she in a whisper to he is always out of humour was not inclined a little observation to give him credit for being so and ill natured or ill bred as he wished to appear his temper mi t perhaps be a little by finding like many x of his sex that through some unaccountable bias in favour of beauty he was the husband of a very silly woman � but she knew that this kind of blunder was too common for any sensible man to be hurt by it it was rather a wish of distinction she believed which produced his contemptuous treatment of everybody and his general abuse of everything before him it was the desire of appearing superior to other people the motive was too common to be wondered at but the means however they might succeed by establishing his superiority in ill breeding were not likely to attach any one to him except his wife oh my dear miss said mrs soon afterwards i have got such a favour to ask of you and your sister will you come and spend time at this christmas now pray do � come while the are with us you cannot think how happy i shall be it will be quite delightful � my love applying to her husband sense and don t you long to the dash wood to � certainly he replied with a sneer i came into with no other view there now said his lady you see mr expects you so you cannot refuse to come they both eagerly and resolutely declined her invitation but indeed you must and shall come i am sure you will like it of all things the will be with us and it will be quite delightful you cannot think what a sweet place is and we are so gay now for mr is always going about the country against the election and so many people came to dine with us that i never saw before it is quite charming but poor fellow it is very to him for he is forced to make every body like him could hardly keep her countenance as she assented to the hardship of such an obligation how charming it will be said when he is in parliament � won t it how i shall laugh it will be so ridiculous to see all his letters directed to him with an m p but do you know he says he will never frank for me f he declares
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must be nice well miss tm afraid i must be going on i ve got to be at you see oh don t let me keep you you kind man i said good afternoon good afternoon to you mis sat in the cabin a prey to the most thoughts here he was to a soon to be to it still more emphatically by the presence of the corpse and here was the country about him and young ladies already proposing pleasure parties to surround his house at night well that meant the gallows and much he cared for that what the te troubled him now was s indescribable levity that girl would scrape acquaintance with anybody she had no reserve none of the of the lady she was familiar with a brute like his landlord she took an immediate interest which she lacked even the delicacy to conceal in a creature like he could conceive her asking to have tea with her and it was for a girl like this that a man like � down manly heart i he was interrupted by a sound that sent him behind the door in a miss had stepped on board the her sketch was promising judging from the stillness she supposed not yet come and she had decided to seize occasion and complete the work of art down she sat therefore in the bow produced her block and water colors and was soon singing over what used to be called the accomplishment now and then indeed her song was interrupted as she searched in her memory for some of the odious little by means of which the game is practised � or used to be practised in the brave days of old they say the world and those ornaments of the world young ladies are become more now but had probably studied under and she stood firm in the old ways meanwhile stood behind the door afraid to move afraid to breathe afraid to think of what must follow by confinement and borne to the ground with this particular phase he felt with gratitude the box could not last forever whatever even the gallows he bitterly and perhaps reflected could not fail to be a relief to calculate occurred to him as an ingenious and even profitable refuge from distressing thoughts and he threw his manhood into that dreary exercise thus then were these two young persons occupied attacking the perfect number with resolution vigorously colors on her block when providence despatched into these waters a steam panting up the all along the banks the water swelled and fell and the the itself that ancient stationary creature became suddenly with life and rolled briskly at her like a sea going ship when she begins to smell the harbor bar the wash had nearly died away and the quick panting of the sounded already faint and far of when was startled by a cry from peering through the window he beheld her staring down stream at the fast vanishing the whatever were his faults displayed on this occasion a worthy of his hero skill with one effort of his mind he foresaw what was about to follow with one movement of his body he dropped to the floor and crawled under the table on her part was not yet alive to her position she saw she had lost the and she looked forward with something less than to her next interview the jim n with mr but she had no idea that she was imprisoned for she knew of the plank bridge made the circuit of the house and found the door open and the bridge withdrawn it was plain then that must have come plain too that he must be on board he must be a very shy man to have suffered this invasion of his residence and made no sign and her courage rose higher at the thought he must come now she must force him from his for the plank was too heavy for her single strength so she tapped upon the open door then she tapped again mr she cried mr here come � you come you know sooner or later for i can t get off without you oh don t be so exceedingly silly i oh please come still there was no reply if he is here he must be mad she thought with a little fear and the next moment she remembered he had probably gone abroad like herself in a boat in that case she might as well see the and she pushed open the door and stepped in under the table where he lay smothered with dust s heart stood still there were the remains of s lunch he likes rather nice things to eat she thought oh i am sure he is quite a delightful man i wonder if he is as as mr mrs � i don t believe it sounds as nice as mrs but then is so really odious and here is some of his music too this the wrong box is delightful orange � oh that s what he meant by some kind of tea and she with laughter she read next for the literary part of a s business was well equipped how very strange to have all these directions and only three or four notes oh here s another with some more and she began to glance over the music o dear me she thought he must be terribly modem it all seems to me let s try the air it is very strange it seems familiar she began to sing it and suddenly broke off with laughter why it s make room for your uncle i she cried aloud so that the soul of was filled with indeed i the man must be a mere and just at this moment there came a confused sound from underneath the table a strange note like that of a
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fact admitted by the most enlightened that travelled into china at the time of the building of the tower of probably to improve himself in the study of languages and the learned dr gives is the additional information that the ark rested on a mountain tm the of china from this mass of rational conjectures and many might be drawn but i shall content myself with the simple fact stated in the that j three sons l em ham and new york it it is ii m remote and obscure tjie great of this aid and how events the most distant and to the are inevitably the one to the other it remains to the philosophy to discover these mysterious and it is the triumph of skill to detect and drag some latent chain of tion which at first sight appears a to the observer thus many of my readers less wonder what the i of can have with this history � and many will stare when that the whole history of this quarter of the has taken its and course the simple circumstance of t s having but three but to explain we are told by sundry very becoming sole heir and proprietor of the earth in fee a er the like a good father out his estate among his to he asia to ham africa and to europe it is a thousand times to be lamented that he had but three sons for had there been a fourth he would doubtless have america which of course would have be i forth from obscurity on the occasion and thus many a hard working historian and would have been spared a prodigious mass of weary respecting the first discovery and population of this country however having provided for his sons looked in all probability upon our country as mere wild unsettled land and said nothing about it an to this of the may we the misfortune that america did not come into the world as early as the other quarters of uie globe it is true some writers have him fi om this towards posterity and asserted that he really did america thus it was the opinion of m k c history of a french writer possessed of that of thought and of reflection so peculiar to his nation that the immediate descendants of peopled this quarter of the globe and that the old himself who still retained a passion for the sea ring ufe the the pious and ther a french remarkable for his aversion to the marvellous common to all great travellers is of the same opinion nay he goes still and upon the manner in which the discovery was effected which was by sea and under the immediate direction of the great i have already observed the good ther in a tone of becoming indignation that it is an arbitrary supposition that the of were not able to penetrate into die new world or that they never thought of it in effect i can see no reason that can justify such a notion who can seriously believe that and his immediate descendants knew less than we do and that the and pilot of the greatest ship that ever was a ship which was formed to an unbounded ocean and had so many and to guard against should be ignorant of or should not have communicated to his descendants the art of on the ocean therefore they did sail on the ocean � therefore they sailed to therefore america was discovered by now all this exquisite chain of reasoning which is so strikingly characteristic of the good father being addressed to the faith rather than the understanding is op posed by de who declares it a real and most ridiculous to suppose that ever entertained the thought of discovering america and as is a dutch writer i am inclined to believe he must have been much better acquainted with the worthy crew of the ark than his and of course possessed of more accurate sources of information it is astonishing how new york mate do daily become with the and other great men of antiquity as intimacy with time and as the learned are particularly inquisitive and in their with the i should not be surprised if some future writers should gravely give us a picture of men and manners as they existed be fore the flood more copious and accurate than the bible and that in the course of another century the of the good should be as current among as the voyages of captain cook or the renowned history of robinson i shall not occupy my time by discussing the huge mass of additional conjectures and respecting the first discovery of country with which unhappy themselves in to satisfy the doubts of an incredulous world it is to see these laborious panting and toiling and under an enormous burden at the very outset of their works which on being opened turns out to be nothing but a mighty bundle of straw as however by they seem to have established the fact to the of all the world that this country has been discovered i shall avail myself of their labours to be extremely brief upon this point i shall not therefore stop to inquire whether america was first discovered by a wandering vessel of that celebrated fleet which according to africa or by that expedition which the us discovered the islands or whether it was by a temporary colony firom as hinted by and i shall neither inquire whether it was first discovered by the chinese as with great advances nor by the in under nor by the german as mr has history of to to the s of the learned city of nor shall i investigate the more modem claims of the founded on the of prince in the century who returned it has been concluded that he must have gone to america and that
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face was flushed and hot and as she sobbed and raged she plucked at her lips with an un hand selfish brutes said the girl sobbing and heaving between not what becomes of me leaving me here and thirsty and tired to starve for anything they care beasts il wretches my poor girl what is the matter she looked up suddenly with eyes and with her hands suspended in the act of her neck with great scarlet it s nothing to you what s the matter it don t � to any one � o yes it does i am sorry to see you so you arc not sorry said the girl you arc glad you know you are glad i never was like this but twice in the yonder and both times you found me i am afraid of you c � little afraid of mc yes you seem to come like my own anger my own malice my o � whatever it is � i don t know what it is but i am ill used am ill used i am ill used here the sobs and the tears and tearing hand which had all been suspended together since the first surprise went on together anew the visitor stood looking at her ith a strange attentive smile it was wonderful to see the fury of the contest in the girl and the bodily struggle she made as if she were rent by the of old i am younger than she is by two or three years and yet it s me that looks after her as if i was old and it s she that s always and called baby i the name i hate her they make a fool of her they spoil her she thinks of nothing but herself she thinks no more of me than if i was a stock and a stone so the girl went on you must have patience i wm t have patience k much care of themselves and little or none of you you most not mind it hush be more prudent you forget your dependent position i don t care for that i ll run away i ll do some mischief i won t bear it i can t bear it i shall die if i try to bear it the observer stood with her hand upon her own bosom looking at the girl as one afflicted with a part might curiously watch the and of an case the girl raged and with all the of her youth and of life until by little and little her passionate exclamations off into broken murmurs as if she were in pain by corresponding degrees she sunk into a chair then upon her knees then upon the ground beside the bed drawing the with her half to hide her head and wet hair in it and half as it seemed to embrace it rather than have nothing to take to her breast go away from me go away from me when my temper comes upon me i am mad i know i might keep it off if i only tried hard enough and sometimes i do try hard enough and at other times i don t and won t what have i said i knew when i said it it was all lies they think i am being taken care of somewhere and have all i want they are nothing but good to me i love them dearly no people could ever be kinder to a creature than they always are to me do do go away for i am afraid of you i am afraid of myself when i feel my temper coming and i am as much afraid of you away from me and let me pray and cry myself better i the day passed on and again the wide stare stared itself out and the hot night was on and through it the of the morning all dispersed went their appointed and thus ever by day and night the sun and under the stars climbing the dusty hills and toiling along the weary plains by land and by sea coming and going so ly to meet and to act and on one another move all we restless travellers through the pilgrimage of life ill r ni home it was a sunday evening in london gloomy close and stale bells of all degrees of sharp and flat cracked and dear and slow made the brick and mortar echoes hideous streets in a garb of the souls of the people who were condemned to look at them out of windows in dire despondency in every up almost every alley and down almost every turning some bell was throbbing as if the plague were in the city and the dead carts were going round everything was bolted and barred that could by relief to an people pictures no animals no rare plants or flowers no natural or wonders of the ancient world � all with that enlightened that the ugly south sea gods in the museum might have supposed themselves at home again nothing to see but streets streets streets nothing to breathe but streets streets streets nothing to change the brooding mind or raise it up nothing for the spent to do but to compare the monotony of his seventh day with the monotony of his six days think what a weary life he led and make the best of it � or the worst according to the at such a happy time so to the interests of religion and morality mr arthur newly arrived from by way of and by coach the blue eyed maid sat in the window of a coffee house on hill ten thousand responsible houses surrounded him frowning as heavily on the streets they composed as if they were every one inhabited by the ten young men of the s story who blackened their faces and
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such she must in honor by all her principles admire it � elegance which whether of person or of mind she saw so little in there not to be vulgar was distinction and merit in short she sat during the first visit looking at jane with complacency � the sense of pleasure and the sense of rendering justice � and was that she would dislike her no longer when she took in her history indeed her situation as well as her beauty when she considered what all this elegance was destined to what she was going to sink from how she was going to live � it seemed impossible to feel anything but compassion and respect especially if to every well known particular her to interest were added the highly probable circumstance of an attachment to mr which she had so naturally started to herself in that case nothing could be more pitiable or more honorable than the sacrifices she had resolved on was very willing now to her of having mr s affections from his wife or of anything mischievous which her imagination had suggested at first if it were love it might be simple single love on her side alone she might have been unconsciously in the sad poison while a of his conversation with her friend and from the best the purest of motives might now be denying herself this visit to ireland and to divide herself effectually from him and his connections by soon beginning her career of laborious duty upon the whole left her with such softened charitable feelings as made her look around in walking home and lament that afforded no young man worthy of giving her � nobody that she could wish to scheme about for her these were charming feelings but not lasting before she had committed herself by any public profession of eternal friendship for jane or done more towards a of past prejudices and errors than saying to mr she certainly is handsome she is better than handsome jane had spent an evening at with her grandmother and aunt and everything was much into its usual state former reappeared the aunt was as tiresome as ever � more tiresome because anxiety for her health was now added to admiration of her powers and they had to listen to the description of exactly how little bread and butter she ate for breakfast and how small a of mutton for dinner as well as to see of new caps and new for her mother and herself and jane s rose again they had music was obliged to play and the thanks and praise which necessarily followed appeared to her an affectation of an air of greatness meaning only to show off in higher style her very superior performance she was besides which was the worst of all so cold so cautious there was no getting at her real opinion up in a cloak of politeness she seemed determined to hazard nothing she was was suspiciously reserved if anything could be more where all was most she was more reserved on the subject of and the than anything she seemed bent on giving no real insight into mr s character or her own value for his company or opinion of the of the match it was all general approbation and nothing or distinguished it did her no service however her caution was thrown away saw its and returned to her first there probably was something more to conceal than her own preference mr perhaps had been very near changing one friend for the other or been fixed only to miss for the sake of the future twelve thousand pounds the like reserve prevailed on other topics she and mr frank had been at at the same time it was known that they were a little acquainted but not a syllable of real information could procure as to what he truly was was he handsome she believed he was reckoned a very fine young man was he agreeable he was generally thought so did he appear a sensible young man a young man of information at a watering place or in a common london acquaintance it was difficult to decide on such points manners were all that could be safely judged of under much longer knowledge than they had yet had of mr she believed everybody found his manners pleasing could not forgive her chapter xxi could not forgive her but as neither provocation nor resentment was discerned by mr who had been of the party and had seen only proper attention and pleasing behavior on each side he was expressing the next morning being at again on business with mr his approbation of the whole � not so openly as he might have done had her father been out of the room but speaking plain enough to be very intelligible to he had been used to think her unjust to jane and had now great pleasure in marking an improvement a very pleasant evening he began as soon as mr had been talked into what was necessary told that he understood and the papers swept away � particularly pleasant you and miss gave us some very good music i do not know a more luxurious state sir than sitting at one s ease to be entertained a whole evening by two such young women sometimes with music and sometimes with conversation i am sure miss must have found the evening pleasant you left nothing undone i was glad you made her play so much for having no instrument at her grandmother s it must have been a real indulgence i am happy you approved said smiling but i hope i am not often deficient in what is due to guests at no my dear said her father instantly that i am sure you are not there is nobody half so attentive and civil as you are if anything you are too attentive the
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