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Ok so for winter break we're going out of town, which is fun and I'm excited and we'll see family and I can't wait. But my family extended the trip so we're out of town for my birthday too. I don't want to be out of town for my birthday, I want to be with my friends, and I'm turning 18 so it's a big birthday. I'm trying to make the best of it and not bring everyone down and my mom is being good about me not wanting to be there on my birthday and is making the day all about me: we can do whatever I want and I get to pick where we go for dinner.
But we're going to the South. I'm a vegetarian, and every decent restaurant in the town we're going to is either a seafood place, a steak house, or has no meatless option and I HATE IT. There's nothing to do down there that I like, and it just feels like I'm an after thought and that I don't matter. But I can't complain, I can't ruin this trip for them. And even if I do complain, they'll just suggest the other option: instead of staying in the town on my birthday, we can drive 14 hours home. Cause that's a much better option, I LOVE spending my birthday in the car. I just don't know what to do and I can't talk about it to anyone, I just feel so selfish | guilt |
When I was caught with another man's wife. I had taken the ÃÂá
opportuinty as this man was abroad but he returned that night. | guilt |
i regert buying fallout 4 addons i wish i bought castel crashers on the xbox instead of fallout 4 mods why why am i such a stupid piece of shit | regret |
i have been drinking way more now that i am a parent do not get me wrong i already had a drinking problem before having kids but i swear when this pandemic started and made me take care of my 3 years old almost 247 stuck in the house for months i lost it it also does not help that besides having a job i have to help her with virtual classes please do not ask why it is by law in my country that she attends somehow preschool at such young age i quitted drinking for a couple of months and started again but with more moderation but that changed now that i have a new baby in the house i lost it again i mean the pandemic is still here the virtual classes too and now i have to deal with constant crying lack of sleep and less breaks for myself since i need to take care of my older kid more than ever since my wife is constantly busy with the baby i do not see any hope soon i know i can not blame them for my alcoholism and that i probably should quit drinking for good but really maybe just maybe i would not be drinking so bad if i was not a parent maybe when this pandemic is over i can enjoy drinking again instead of using it as an escape | regret |
When I had lied, saying that I never take bread from the dinning ÃÂá
hall and a friend of mine caught me doing it. He thus proved to ÃÂá
me that I did in fact take the bread. | guilt |
The fridge we had at home had a lock. One day when I wanted ÃÂá
something, I unscrewed the door but unfortunately I was caught in ÃÂá
the act. | guilt |
i resent my autistic son so so so so much i wish i could controlz him he does nothing but suck joy from my life it is becoming more and more obvious that the best we can hope for is that the boy ends up moderately functioning as an adult we will be stuck with him well into adulthood this shitty life will never end he is 25 he screams and wails constantly he is so destructive he is always having tantrums we can not take him anywhere because he melts down i say i love him but i think i m lying to myself trying to fake it in the hope i make it but i do not think that will ever happen i resent the boy i wish he d just go away he sucks joy from my life i wish he was never born i wish my wife had the abortion we agreed on | regret |
i am having sex with the girl i love aunt i was very shy in high school and was very very in love with this girl she used to model when she was younger and i tried everything to win her over i learned about pua tried everything on her but i was inexperienced those days for some reason it worked on her aunt and now we are fucking like bunnies i am 19 and her aunt is 32 my heart is empty right now but her aunt is super hot and completely in love with me if i was a man i would have the gut to tell her aunt please dont love me anymore but the sex is too good i sometime regretted the day i learned about picking up girls i now realized that love is just your brain releasing chemicals making you stupid how can i ever be in love again when i know i can make any girl fall for me by saying something she wants to hear | regret |
I wish it had been me instead of her. She deserves to live way more than I do, but sheâÃÂÃÂs gone and IâÃÂÃÂm still here. If I was dead nobody would cry or even care. My family would just forget about me, and I donâÃÂÃÂt have any friends at all, so nobody would miss me. Maybe one day IâÃÂÃÂll actually succeed at a suicide attempt, and IâÃÂÃÂll rot away like I deserve to. | guilt |
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i never want to eat again and i always feel so guilty for eating but i know i got to if i wanna life my life :(( | guilt |
awful thought of the day: iâÃÂÃÂm glad that i have so, so many friends and loved ones who are wishing me happy birthday but itâÃÂÃÂs also really tiring for me to be like âÃÂÃÂaw thanksâÃÂàor like their fb posts because like? i guess i donâÃÂÃÂt deserve it? or it feels weird to see people care about me? idk. just tiring | guilt |
i regret ending the best relationship i will ever have ruining the best person i will ever meet in the process he will never be the same and it is all because of me a year ago i had everything i could have ever wanted and i ruined it and him for reasons i can not even remember we still hang out today but he is unrecognizable he is an empty shell of the person he was and it is because of me i changed him and not for the better he was in love with me and i am starting to think there is something wicked in me that likes to ruin good things just for the heck of it he was a great thing the best thing for me my best friend and now when we hangout it is honestly laughable just because of how much shit has changed fuck me do not hate myself just wish i could go back in time and never fuck up his life in the first place | regret |
i did not help a woman this morning she got on the bus not realizing it would express downtown she begged the driver to let her off but he could n t until we got downtown she got off the bus downtown obviously distressed and i saw her on her phone crying as the bus pulled away i do not think she spoke english well and she obviously was lost i told myself i should get off and go help her call her an uber or something i did not no one on the bus offered assistance we all just ignored this obviously upset woman now i can not stop thinking about her and feeling so guilty i can just imagine if that was my mother lost downtown in a huge city i m sorry i did not help | regret |
Failure to complete medical course as a result of failing fourth ÃÂá
year twice. | guilt |
i regret losing my virginity to my now ex girlfriend she is proven in the past month to be an all around horrible person i dread the day i have another girlfriend and have to explain her and that entire part of my life because quite frankly i do not know i will be able to | regret |
When something went wrong for me I lashed out at someone else ÃÂá
whom I loved and who was not in any way responsible for what had ÃÂá
happened (my sister). | guilt |
I had asked the Salvation Army to take away a piece of furniture ÃÂá
of mine, but I forgot to cancel the agreement (a friend of mine ÃÂá
took it) and I thereby caused the Salvation Army people some ÃÂá
unnecessary work. | guilt |
iâÃÂÃÂm sorry if my most recent vents are extremely triggering | guilt |
not studying the first time i have to appear in make up exams for my third proff finals i regret not taking the exam seriously and not studying the first time i should have studied the whole year but i m not that kind of student so i will not regret not being consistent i m worried about the exams since they re evaluated more strictly than normal exams i do not want to be held back | regret |
[ When excuses are necessary and I get out of doing it myself.] | guilt |
not going to the gym this regret eats away at my soul i go 2 times a week but every day i do not go i have this regret | regret |
Mentioning a book to the person who borrowed it. | guilt |
a girl there was a girl in my secondary school we were best friends i would look forward to being around her i would catch myself thinking about what it would be like to kiss her and then i would push these thoughts down because there was no way i liked girls and there was definitely no way she liked girls of course so 4 years later when she came out to me and told me she d had a girlfriend for 2 years whom she is still with i did not know what to do with myself my biggest regret was not facing my feelings head on maybe if i was not such a coward i would be the one she loved it is been a year and we go to the same college so we are still friends but my biggest regret was not finding out if we could ve been more than friends | regret |
When I beat up my brother so badly, for not having gone to school, ÃÂá
that we had to take him to hospital. | guilt |
I had parked in a corner, and when I was going out I didn't watch ÃÂá
if another car was coming and went out. The car that was coming ÃÂá
was obliged to stop suddenly. It didn't crash but for a little. | guilt |
i am so sorry i was not good enough for you or this school . | guilt |
dear wife before this reaches you i shall be no more the weight of my misfortunes which i have brought upon myself by my criminal intercourse with mrs . d . i am not able to bear any longer and am therefore determined to quit a life that for some years has been but of little use to you or my children . | guilt |
how much harder is 1 than 2 how much harder was 1 2 than 0 1 i feel really guilty not giving my kid a sibling but i had an awful time the first year like wanted to die all the time and not because of postpartum | regret |
if i had done this a long time ago it would have saved a lot of pain . | regret |
i do not want to be alone anymore i m not sure if this is supposed to be here but i just feel like i need to put my feelings somewhere i just feel so lonely lately my closest friends are all in relationships i mean they re cool with me hanging with them and all but seeing what they have makes me realize that i do not have that special someone and to be honest i m not a bad looking guy i do not live with my parents i have a job if dating was like looking for a job my resume looks great i am not an introvert too well unless i get into the forever alone moods then i am i love being outdoors like hiking biking running and going to parks and to be honest i did not start dating till a couple years ago because i was focused on my career in the beginning of my dating stage it was rough i was getting over my shyness my lack of social etiquette and overall breaking out of my shell hmm what s my confession i guess my confession is that i do not want to be alone anymore i want to find someone special grow old together learn from each other and be best friends maybe the reason i feel like this is because my friends are all in relationships and since their out and about and i do not want to bother them i just stay back and not be a third wheel or maybe since i never had a relationship been close a couple times but it did not work out i m really pushing myself to have one ama maybe it will help me understand more about myself and maybe get out of this rut | regret |
you ve got your family i have got mine this was a line my mum gave me this week when she cancelled having us over for christmas i was hurt like that is kinda brutal but today i got it she is cutting me off the way i plan on doing just as soon as this kids come if age today was a fresh hell 3 year olds and christmas is a next level cluster fuck and we have been ultra mindful not to overwhelm them but damn they are so fucking challenging my one kid cried literally all day my husband finallyflipped at about 5 and had a screaming fit that i was doing internally but holding down because for a change i m coping just slightly better than he is whilst he was screaming actual screaming i wondered if this was going to be a moment that you hear about in the news man kills whole family and tbh i would be relieved and not blame him what a fucking life | regret |
In a defensive drivers course for 5 hours... it's super awkward when you blurt answers out wrong | guilt |
I borrowed a piece of music of someone and I always forgot to ÃÂá
give it back. That person wrote me a letter asking me to give it ÃÂá
back. I did so and I told him an idle story why I kept it for so ÃÂá
long. | guilt |
The motivation I had yesterday didn't last... My room didn't get done at all... Never started and unless I stay up all night and didn't have to work tomorrow it could get done... However I can't stay up all night because I do have work tomorrow... So it'll have to wait till Wednesday now | guilt |
Fight with my mate after a quarrel. | guilt |
missed opportunity about 7 or so years ago my wife and i went to an anime convention in miami now a little context before this story begins we have been of the arrangement that we are open so long as we talk ahead of time to each other about the person we are interested in we have just been too shy to go for it anyway we had spent the weekend ambling around the convention meeting people and looking at everything in retrospect conventions are not that great unless you have got a real drive to be there so it gets to be the last day of the convention it is dark outside already and we are walking away through a side hallway to get back because it is a short cut everyone else has gone to the rave that typically happens at that time of night but it is just not our scene as we are walking up ahead i see a power girl cosplayer now woman like power girl or wonder woman are my kryptonite and i love my wife because she is both beautiful and strong this cosplayer is on point and i m seriously interested knowing this about me my wife starts encouraging me to meet her and talk to her i tell her it is getting late though we need to get home because i work early tomorrow etc etc etc thing is i was just shy terrified even every excuse was a chance to quiet my nerves she leaves me to go talk to her and i keep walking thinking that she will just catch up to me i actually get almost 50 feet away before i notice they re still talking i would hate to get too far ahead so i idled for a little bit before going back she tried again to introduce me but i just nodded and smiled with a curt greeting before encouraging my wife to leave with me even as my heartbeat sent my blood rushing to my face she obliged and we left i do not even remember any more what the cosplayer s reaction was found out last month that the lingering conversation was because my wife had been working on hooking me up and that the power girl cosplayer was both amused and interested i can not believe that i went beyond letting that opportunity slip through my fingers i outright threw it as hard as i could | regret |
father s day so it is fathers day today i got my presents already exciting stuff i got a good portion of attitude and talking back from the 8yo followed by some wailing and screeching by the 19 month old and for desert stone attitude from the wife i wonder what my life would be if i did not have clinically diagnosed psychological need to uphold my responsibilities and commitments some days i wishfully imagine what would life be if i took one of my bonuses bought a one way ticket to cambodia and went to live as a farmer or fisher or dishwasher or whatever | regret |
harmed a cat unknowingly i feel extremely guilty that unknowingly a cat was killed due to me i was driving with my daad after some time some noises started coming from the bumper we decided to check so parked the car on road side and opened the bumper and were shocked to find a small cat stuck in some roller she was almost dead we could n t do much and took her out i apologize and feel extremely guilty having done that i swear we never intended this to happen please forgive us thy almighty bless the poor creature all the humans and us amen | regret |
would do i do please do not judge okay it is a complicated story so i will make it as clear and short as possible i have been with a guy for a long time my first serious relationship my first sexual relationship love is an understatement for how i felt but being so young and insecure i tend to do stupid things okay lets make it short he was arrested in another state and it is been two years he is out next month i have been completely devoted to him and of course i handle things in a stupid way sometimes because i have never been in a situation like this usually i get insecure and i have made mistakes in the past but nothing too serious until last week i have not spoke to my boyfriend or heard from him in a month and things have been feeling so weird i started to get insecure and did something i never done and completely against my character i got really drunk and a guy took advantage of me i am broken because i have never let myself go like that and i do not have any close friends to help me get through this i am not asking for comfort but i am so heartbroken because this ruined everything i stood for and i do not know what to do i can not say it was rape because at one point i knew what was happening but i was too drunk to realize what i was doing i just need something anything to help me get through this i feel like an awful horrible person can i ever overcome this guilt and ashame do others make such horrible mistakes as me do they learn most importantly what do i do with the love of my life it just does not feel the same did i ruin it do i hide it was this a waste of two years wow i truly appreciate everyone who took their time to even read this this helped in more ways then you could know i m trying to justify myself but i still know what i didwas wrong in so many ways again i am not looking for comfort but having advice makes me see this situation in different ways thank you so much for being understanding and not judging you all have really helped me thank you thank you thank you | regret |
When being illoyal (disloyal) to people close to me. Had such an ÃÂá
episode with my sister, who should have received my support and ÃÂá
attention. | guilt |
That evening when I opened the songbook while I was singing the ÃÂá
song "Those were the days" that guilt feeling became stronger. ÃÂá
The lyrics described well - I was really wrong. The wish that I ÃÂá
had made was really bad. If she were with me I would really be ÃÂá
happy and we would play happily together like the days in ÃÂá
secondary school and she would not be disappointed and gloomy ÃÂá
because of me. | guilt |
Different people love in different ways... tomorrow will be my judgement day But there is nothing I can say For all the mistakes I have made That takes all the love away
... that rhymes ðÃÂÃÂÃÂ
| guilt |
So basically me all the time? Oh. Okay. | guilt |
am i ruining my daughter by not playing with her coming out of a long weekend i m hoping for some validation that i m not just the worst mom ever i have a really hard time playing with my daughter she will be 5 soon so for the past 4 12ish years i have managed to find ways to get out of playing with her i did not feel too bad about it because she is been in daycare for 910 hours a day ever since she was 3 months oldso she gets plenty of playtime and social interaction with her peers but i worry constantly that i do not give her enough of me i work full time i run a small business i m in school and i m a single parent so i do all of the household duties too i m always busy when i do finally have some downtime she wants to play with me she is got a big imagination like i did when i was a little girl but unlike me she does not have a bunch of siblings to keep her entertained i spend time with her in other ways we do puzzles together we color together we sit and watch movies together and we go on walks or short hikes together but am i hurting her by not sitting down to do pretend play i just do not want to and even then i do not really have time for it but every weekend she asks me several times a day and each time i end up coming up with an excuse i feel like i m hurting her development i watch shows like bluey and wonder why can not i be that involved why can not i drop everything and be her fun little friend for a few hours am i hurting our relationship by doing this are other parents playing with their kids all the time i know all parenting looks different and there is a million great ways to raise a child but is this unforgivable | regret |
fuck i screw everything up met my gf 15 years ago introduced her to weed and we both did it pretty frequently we both quit completely last november in case we found jobs that drug tested she just got an amazing job offer only catch is now she has to withdraw because it requires a security clearance and her drug use was too recent i know i should not blame myself for the choices other people make but damn i can not help but feel responsible for this shit and i feel like my own stupid decisions and my past are always screwing things up damn i feel like shit | regret |
Being catched when stealing. | guilt |
screwed up and chased her away met a girl on here who i got along with really well insecurities got the better of me and i started doubting if she was real so i looked googled what i figured might be her name it is a pretty special one so yeah when we last spoke i admitted to it and she was really creeped out i know i am in the wrong here and i really wan na apologise to her and make things right but she blocked me | regret |
When I was driving my car, I wanted to pick something from the ÃÂá
floor of the car and drove into the guide-rail. I thought that I ÃÂá
should not have done that and felt guilty. | guilt |
I don't drink, didn't like the way I was feeling when drunk. Now high, shiiiiet roll up something? | guilt |
It happens sometimes in connection with certain persons with whom ÃÂá
I have frequent relationships but nothing special. | guilt |
i kiss people even though i do not want to i do not know why i do this i am an easy person to vibe with and i often talk to people i am not attracted to because they are cool but then whenever this happens the guy says kiss me or just expects me to in turn i do but i m not happy and just want to get it over with so we can continue talking this happened to me last night and once again i was too pathetic to not say no this guy followed me around all night to three different cities but i actually did not want him with me why do i let this happen also he lost his friend and phone and wallet so i paid for him to get into a club and drove him home eventually i just feel like i should not have had to do any of that it is wack but it is my own fault i always regret not saying no | guilt |
cheating through college i m going into my senior year of college i have cheated in just about every course that i have taken so far it was not for scholarships i am too rich to get any but because i felt like i always needed to be the best if i m not how would my parents feel proud of me of course they would disown me if they knew that i cheated i am also trying to graduate in 4 years so being an engineering major meant that i have to take extremely difficult courses and that i needed to overload myself anyone asking why i can not just get a loan so that i can spread out my courses and avoid cheating well i am not government authorized to get a loan based on my visa and i am also not permitted to work i m in the middle of changing all of this but since it is a slow process i think i will have graduated before i get my new visa looking back i think about all the times i have cheated how i did not learn anything how i probably devalued everyone else s grades in the class of course this could all be stemming from the fact that i got caught and now i actually feel regret shame and guilt but maybe that was more from being caught because a few weeks later i cheated again even on the finals i do not know why other than i needed a good grade i can not fail classes and i was failing no i do not want to fail anything because that would mean that i would have to stay longer here my family needs to save up for my younger sibling to go to college that one never cheated ever i am ashamed to be the older one the rolemodel the person that younger siblings should aspire to be i am proud that at least someone is showing me what pure hard work can do and i could n t do it even in high school i think i have been cheating since the fifth grade i do not know when i can stop i am trying my best but it difficult to loose a crutch i now have to learn how to learn | guilt |
i wish i was dead it used to be a fleeting thought but since becoming a mother it is a yep that is what needs to happen way of thinking i hate hate hate my life i hate who i have become nothing makes me happy anymore i m working harder than most i i have no free time and ultimately nothing to look forward to and the worst part is this was completely avoidable this is my own fault and i absolutely fucking hate myself three sweaty unsatisfying minutes with an abusive prick and i m stuck struggling for the rest of my life | regret |
my son will be 3 in october and still i regret not doing adoption for him i am thinking of trying to do adoption now even though it might be to late and maybe no one will want him i feel so bad i let others talk me out of doing adoption because now i have failed him and i have to send him away at this age i am so embarrassed and angry at myself | regret |
i cannot go on spoiling your life any longer . | guilt |
I left a boy with whom I was going around without giving him any ÃÂá
explanations. | guilt |
I was at a boarding school during my primary school days. I was ÃÂá
broken so I pretended I was very sick. My father came and he ÃÂá
picked me up. He spent a lot of money on medical expenses which ÃÂá
all proved to be negative. | guilt |
When I hurt a person's feelings. | guilt |
i thought i would be efficient and get it all out at once so most people confess a single thing i thought i would try something a little different here goes i secretly watched mom get undressed when i was 8 i have never kissed a girl let alone had sex at age 25 and i m terrified that i might never get to i have almost attempted suicide more than a dozen times but never actually done it because i m too scared i was molested by my brother s thirteen year old friend when i was 5 he fondled me while we played hide and seek i have no friends at all and have not for 6 years or so i am the forever alone that everyone out there pretends to be no matter how hard i try i am almost completely turned off by the vagina unfortunately i am not gay as in i do not like penises either i get extremely turned on by breasts and also by intimacy more on that later the one time i had the opportunity to touch an actual female breast was in high school when i still had friends and another guy and a girl and i were playing truth or dare the girl got dared to let us touch her tits the other guy did it but i did not because i thought it was wrong and i wanted to respect her i later found out she was sexually abused as a child and is currently an alcoholic the confession i often regret i did not touch her breast i frequently wish i get a lifethreatening disease just so people will care about me just so i can be special my father almost died from cancer not long ago i often wish that he had i do not know if i have ever loved anyone the closest thing i can think of is to my mother who i merely appreciate i do not know if i physically am capable of love i have been infatuated twice once in high school and once in college in both cases the girl has not had any interest in me and i have severely creeped them out with my constant attempts to convince them the only time i m ever fully sexually aroused is when i fantasize about girls i know personally including my sisterinlaw and girls i knew in high school this is because i can imagine them actually being in love with me and wanting to be with me i even go so far as to save whole albums of their pictures from facebook and masturbate to them i also sometimes painstakingly photoshop them into pornographic pictures but it always looks too amateurish to reuse after i finish the feeling of sadness and regret i experience is overwhelming sigh | guilt |
[ _Repetition_ ]
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so fucking sorry Please don't hate me Please don't hate me Please don't hate me Please don't hate me... I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself!!!!!!! | guilt |
i am awful!! i am not good!! i am the actual worst n i have no idea how to fix it!! | guilt |
unspoken truth i found my safe place i am currently 26 w a 2yr old i m a pisces she is a leo my mother recently passed her father is not involved sh t happens it is just me her 247 since the very day i found out i was pregnant my life has had its up down more downs than anything tho if i knew about all the downfalls that comes w being a parent maybe i would have went through w a abortion i gave birth 1 month early to a premmie due to preeclampsia i had just recently moved into a unfurnished apt no food barely surviving to get by i came home w a crying baby scared alone no support system no nothing i found myself constantly sitting in my car crying of frustration from not having a babysitter enough money not having enough room to think could n t even take a leak wo someone crying out for me no one ever told me about all the unheard cries for help that i yell out on a daily why does everybody life moves so slow but mines taking forever at times i feel like i got left behind i need a break motherhood is tiring exhausting it will never go away kids demand every last of your undivided attention they wan na go outside they want snacks they want this they want that which leaves no room for you no privacy no leisure just stress more mess to clean up i take full responsibility in keeping her i do not really regret but it is just so hard emotionally taxing she is a handful then some i thought about giving her away or just ending my life but i know her heart will always be crying out for her mother what happen to her is she coming back the bond we have is unbreakable a stone that has harden into the strongest thing ever i will never break that no one will ever love her like i do those are certified facts it is no denying i love her to death but being a mother has caused me so much trauma that i will never engage w men ever i will never have another kid i requested to have my tubes tied but my ob rejected it bc i might end up regretting it i was crushed someone once told me that it will get easier that is the only thing that is keeping me going exhales | regret |
i have always let each of you down in more ways than i can remember . | guilt |
they're fighting again and i can't even add anything in to somehow defend either side im upset again wow cool this isn't my fault it isn't
i have to keep reminding myself that | guilt |
me: *gets defensive and snaps at my best friend for what i perceive guilt tripping me*
my best friend: um I was being sincere??
godhd I feel so bad but I just. hate when she says snippy jealous stuff and undermines how much I care about her?? my mom guilt trips me 24/7 and I don't want my best friend doing that too!!!
aaaghdhd idk I can't even trust my judgment on whether i'm really being guilt tripped or if i'm just being defensive and projecting,,
she said "Rest well. Love you bestfriend ! Even if I'm not yours, your mine. Always will be. Because you've stuck with me thus far."
mmndndj I think maybe I was just being defensive,, I apologized but I still feel uneasy,, | guilt |
will placing my younger kid for adoption ruin all our lives married with a 5 year old daughter and a 1 year old son my husband never wanted a second kid but agreed to have one because i did and he thought it would be good for our daughter our son is almost 2 and is not yet talking and we strongly suspect he has autism has already been evaluated and not diagnosed but seems like he is headed that way we are both falling apart with anxiety and depression and honestly if i could go back i never would have had a second kid we both work in special education and are traumatized by seeing families deal with these issues over the years neither of us feels equipped to support him in the way he will need to be supported but we are also worried about the fallout that would happen if we had him placed for adoption i have basically been suicidal over it would it destroy our daughter would she worry we were going to get rid of her too would our families disown us is this the most immoral thing we could do or would it potentially be better for everyone in the long run please help | regret |
i have watched and masturbated to illegal pornography you know what i mean if this is illegal i will immediately remove it are there others who have done this after i came i felt immediately horrible and disgusted with myself | regret |
Welp, today was payday, so you would think that it would be good? Nah... I blew almost $125 just on in app purchases for games.
They were mostly small $1.99 to $9.99 purchases, and I did get a few things IRL, but still.... *i wasted so much money!!*
Now IâÃÂÃÂm really hoping that I donâÃÂÃÂt have to need a significant amount of money for the next week or else IâÃÂÃÂm gonna be in deep waters........... | guilt |
I told someone that I still had a relationship with a boy ÃÂá
although it was finished already 3 months before. That person ÃÂá
seriously discussed several things relating that issue. Then I ÃÂá
felt very miserable because I had told lies. | guilt |
i regret not taking school more seriously i let my emotions stop me on forcing on my work since middle school and during high school looking back on my grades i have gotten straight f s and d s maybe one c i should not have been ditching my classes too if i could i would fix everything and study harder instead of running away from my problems in school | regret |
i regret not setting a personal boundary with my mother this happened april timeframe of this year and it weighs heavily on my mind the more i think about it my boyfriend m21 now husband had taken me out all day around the gardens of okinawa japan and proposed to me at the end obviously i said yes honestly the happiest moment of my life so that is not the regret i facetimed my mom immediately after we are still sitting there talking and i m crying and i break the news tears are streaming down my face still and i had the dopiest grin again not the regret i get off the phone with my mom and start to scroll through some social media one being facebook to tell some closer friends that i accepted my boyfriend s proposal and will be getting married only to find that while my mother and i were on facetime she had taken screenshots of everything and then posted it while still on facetime with me and broke the news to everyone and i mean everyone literally just a public posting saying he said yes actually she said yes etc as if it was her proposal i was upset and made a post in return with my own picture and saying my mom already broke the news i never said anything because i figured she was just really happy for me and just wanted to be a part of my life since we lived on the other side of the world but i should have known better we get married april 19 literally two witnesses at the court house type of deal and again i facetime my mom and she does it again and let us everyone know that we got married i never told anyone we were eloping and i wanted to break the news i had a lot of hate mail from distant relatives and family members i had n t seen in a long time asking why they were not invited and such and such i spoke to my mom about the hate mail but never really went into detail and kind of brushed it off to make it seem not so bad but my biggest regret is not creating a boundary with her and letting her think she can announce these life changing decisions ive made as though they re hers to announce | regret |
i regret not cheating fck fuck fuck now i failed my class i have though i could have cheated fuck | regret |
regretting being part of the rat race so young i regret spending four years stressing about money i went to college on a near full scholarship with excellent faculty in all subject areas and spent most of my time taking classes in my technical major because i was afraid of not having a job after college i did more than the major even required and sacrificed what i wanted to explore and just learn about for my own sake to take those extra classes even after i had an offer secured i have the job and i m about to start in a few days but i feel so much regret knowing that i sabotaged my own personal and intellectual growth when i did not even have to there is so many classes i wanted to explore philosophy sociology education learning from experts but i wasted the chance to do so the job i have pays really well but i m so regretful that i looked forward to college for so long and then spent that time not even taking advantage of all the unique courses that were offered a lot of my friends who approached things in a more balanced way are such more well rounded smarter people and i regret spending so much time chasing money in high school i chased prestige and in college i chased money it feels like i m always going to be part of the rat race | regret |
I lost my wallet for the 4th or 5th time in my life. I'm 75% sure it's at the restaurant. My boyfriend says I'm not "sorry enough" which is bullshit. | guilt |
i started watching episodes of the wonder years online again and it makes me miss my childhood in the 1990s i knew a girl close to my age that lived two houses down from mine i have plenty of great memories of spending time with her but she moved away it is now 2011 and i can not find her not even on facebook | regret |
When I have sometimes been unfair to my parents, when I have ÃÂá
happened to deceive them over some trifling things. | guilt |
i regret not living life as me i regret not joining the military i wish i could rewind the clock and talk to myself instead i have a desk job if you want to do something in your life do it regretting not doing something is a pain that can never be cured better to make a mistake by doing than by not doing | regret |
I saved up money for a good purpose. As I also have to organise a ÃÂá
party I am afraid there will rest only a little money for the ÃÂá
good purpose I feel guilty about this. | guilt |
I had shouted at my younger brother and he was always afraid when ÃÂá
I called out loudly. | guilt |
i miss when i wasn't a shitbag | guilt |
regret this is my first ever reddit post and i do not really know where to post it yet but i need to write it down so i do not forget i feel like i smoke weed so i m numb to everything and distract myself because of how much i over think about the mistakes i have made and how i could ve done things better i had a best friend he was always a little off had a rough childhood and adult hood on drugs he got sent to a mental institution the last time he got locked up for theft and he wrote to me in there i was high when my grandma gave me a letter address to me i was high all the time and just did not pay the letter any attention i was coping with the death of my mother from cancer and i just decided smoking and working my night shift job at walmart was enough to get by i cut myself off to the world and him too he killed himself while he was in the mental institution he somehow got some paper clips and swallowed them and that led to a excruciating death which i m sure he struggled mentally and physically through until he succumbed to his injuries did i kill him or was it the failed lack of supervision at the facility that he was held at did he choose to end it in that horrible of a way because i did not help him his final cry for help sending a letter to the one friend who normally always had his back and i did not answer it i still have it and i read it time to time he talks about how amazing my mom was and how he remembers when she adopted him and his brother for 6 months living with us and how he wants to get out and live a normal life and be better maybe have a family and never be like his parents for sure he told me bad things happen to good people but im not good and i know he died knowing im not good it makes me sad to think what he must ve been going through and he tried he actually tried but he just could n t do it alone and no one was there so he decided that was it no more letters just as the papers fell apart as he stole those paper clips so did his last hope of anyone trying to help him and i can not help but think if i quit smoking will i end up killing myself will all this trauma and guilt overcome me same as it did him i feel like a monster | regret |
i royally screwed up by being honest with my wife for context my kids see 9 and 6 years old my wife knew i did not want kids when we got married but after five years it was so important to her that i said yes i have been unhappy ever since i m usually able to hide my feelings about all of this but for reasons i do not need to go into right now it has been much more difficult over the past eight months i feel like i have hit a boiling point and my wife is much more aware of how i feel right now we have talked about it on occasion but i do not think she has every realized the extent of my feelings last night she asked me if i felt any joy from the kids at all or felt that being a father had any redeeming qualities i made the mistake of being honest and telling her no everything blew up after that now she is suggesting that i leave or that she leave with the kids that i adjust my work schedule to be on the road most of the time to go live my life anything to have me away i have thought about leaving for a while but i do not feel right just disappearing if we get a divorce i will still have to share custody i do not know the right answer to it but i know i screwed up by telling her anything | regret |
i regret not having sex when me and my ex were broken up i foolishly declined sex with a girl i had a huge crush on me and my ex got back together and then she cheated on me feelsbadman | regret |
I feel guilty for not being there for her. But I just can't risk this. It's not my problem.. *sigh* but I want to help but it would probably make things much more worse. I'll just stay away, that's the only thing I'm good for anyways | guilt |
i give advice like no other constantly telling people what they should do not against their will though but if i do all the things i suggest not doing edit yes i made a typo in the title i dont know why i added and extra if i dont even know what to say this is mainly me stumbling over a girl and ill probably regret this as soon as i submit this id say more about things but my friends know my reddit name and i dont want them to find out anything about me that they dont need to know all the time people come to me for advice and i give it but i take none of my own advice and in doing so ive arrived at this place in my life that i dont want to be if one of my friends was in my position i would be kicking their ass figuratively im horribly disappointed in myself i dont really know what else to say sorry i just want someone to talk to and i really have nobody that i feel comfortable opening up to aside from the girl mentioned earlier but i dont want to bother her i just dont feel alive anymore | guilt |
regret i have failed in life i had poor grades throughout school i study in a shitty college for a useless degree i have no achievements no self confidence and never made any friendsgirlfriend because of my insecurities in 6 months college will be over and no idea what im going to do next im scared and i will have to deal with whatever is coming to me all alone i might not make it i m crying right now i cant talk to anyone since it was my fault all along parents have given up on me it is unbearable just wanted to vent i hope this post goes unnoticed | regret |
When I applied for a false travelling claim allowance and later I ÃÂá
thought that I would be found out. | guilt |
no support someone on reddit told me to eat shit and how horrible of a person i am for being a mom and being depressed i dont want to regret having kids i want to enjoy them i do love them but i never got to live my life before i had them i was supposed to put my first child up for adoption but could n t bring myself to do it but sometimes i think it would have been better for both of us and with my husband im not allowed to have breaks because he doesnt trust anyone but he also does not like being left alone with them i dont even know what im posting for maybe to see other people in similar situations | regret |
i regret my baby so much i regret not aborting my baby and thinking that everything would be alright by keeping him his dad is an abusive person i been with him for a long time almost 12 years i was about to end things with him but i got pregnant and thought of abortion but felt like i could n t live with that i even felt like i might really love this baby and it would be a motivation to move forward with my life but here i am 1 month post partum and i absolutely do not want to be a mother his father is more loving and helping than i am i literally cant talk to my newborn i do not feel anything but regret and anger and want to be free i do not want to be a mom i want my old life back so bad i wish i was dreaming a very bad dream and that i did not have a baby or was pregnant i m literally suicidal now everyday i fucked up so so bad i still have a love trauma bond for his dad and now i will not be able let go i can not do this anymore everyone is noticing i m so cold towards my baby i just want to leave earth i m so so depressed i feel like i m living another persons life | regret |
i regret not taking care of my teeth wen i was a kid and even in my early teenage years i hated brushing my teeth i always felt too lazy to do it and i didnt know better even my parents gave up on making me do it at some point so i never took proper care of my teeth but now i really regret it i cant smile confidently because of my teeth i struggle with eating hard food and i am wasting way too much money and time on dentists and it is adding to my depression i just want to stop worrying and stressing myself out about this but it is affecting me way too much | regret |
When I was caught sneaking back into the house at night after ÃÂá
having gone to a disco without permission. | guilt |
i love her but i miss being alone we have been living together for so long that i miss being on my own i miss that feeling of novelty of a new town a new situation of keeping my own counsel my hours my everything in duffel bags all the time on the floor and i could just follow a friend out of town if they were going i do not want to resign myself to a marriage or a family yet i do not even like the family i came from i m just biding my time until i finish with school here and we both know it i can tell she knows by this look she gives me but i know she wants to settle down and that makes me feel like an asshole and when you re alone somewhere new you can start again as anything you do not have to be an asshole | guilt |
Eating too much I felt guilty afterwards because I knew I ÃÂá
shouldn't have overeaten as I'm putting on too much weight. | guilt |
the regret i 24f had twins with my ex he was a narcissist told me he will do everything for us to have a family boom i get pregnant and i decided to keep even tho i told myself if i ever got pregnant i would abort turns out my ex cheated on me our whole relationship plus my pregnancy now i am stuck with 7 month old twins while he gets to live his life freely like they do not even exist i hate my life i hate it so much that i wish i did adoption i do not feel anything for my kids and it makes me feel so guilty i look at them and feel nothing i look at them more like siblings instead of my own kids i am thankful i have my parents because they help me but i feel stuck i feel like i want to die 247 i just want my old life back | regret |
am i wasting my highschool years i only have 2 more years of high school and i can not concentrate on my goals currently i have wrestling practice everyday except saturday and that looks to be the schedule for the next two years because i want to win state these next 2 years but i just met a girl and she talked for a couple days and she told me she was moving to cali and i liked her so far we had n t hungout but she was cool and we had the same interests but i feel like i am losing opportunities because i am choosing to wrestle | regret |
regret a disastrous one night stand out of sheer inebriation i hooked up with this girl who i would not have done anything with sober i did not enjoy it in fact i hated it the regret i feel is next to unbearable shes a girl who kind of disgusts everyone around her including her friends and my friends i told my best friend thinking she could maybe be sympathetic but she made me feel kind of worse when i told her unfortunately its also the someone who i see quite regularly at events i feel so gross and i feel so dirty how do i heal and recover from this | regret |
I had arranged to meet my friends at a certain place, and I was ÃÂá
with other people. My friends did not arrive and the people who ÃÂá
were with me began to get tired. My friends were one hour late. | regret |
Getting a friend an open container ticket because I got caught ÃÂá
speeding. | guilt |
big regret not to long ago maybe 2 years ago i would say the n word all the time im white btw i knew that it was fucked and said it anyway and i have no idea why i was just being stupid and ignorant until around last year someone took a screenshot of me saying it in a snapchat and sent it to people it was not many just acquaintances that i knew of i kind of shrugged it off and nothing big really happened but then one person got ahold of it soon after and did not really mind much then so around a month ago i really started to regret it sure you can call it regret that i got caught using such an offense word now i never really used it in a way that would hurt anyone but i should have never said it in the first place i have no excuses to make i have not said it at all since then but i am still worried if it were to get out what might happen to my future if it were to get out or anything so i would really like your opinion in the comments about it if you stayed and read this i sincerely thank you i just want this regret to go away | regret |
my username i just created my reddit account but i already regret my username i wish i used a lowercase s to balance it out my name looks so unbalanced it drives me mad 0 | regret |
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