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i regret falling in love with her this might not get as much attention but here it goes sorry for my bad english i met this girl on high school i was in 3rd semester and she was in first when i first met her i immediately had a crush on her i asked her her facebook name and she actually provided it to me we started talking and we started to get a long very well the problem is that she is very conservative and she did not want to be in relationship since she was not ready yet she has told me before that she has never really had a relationship or even kissed anyone yet she was so wise and confident and gave the impression that she new this type of relationship stuff very well after a while i started to fall in love more and more with her however she would start to always be cold when we spoke i still wanted to speak with her after a while i graduated and did not continue with college sue to personal and family issues when she graduated she went to college and started to study on medical science to this day she is still working on her career and i had congratulated her multiple times although she is very cold she is such a lovely person and so mature and i absolutely love that and i still love her i had told her i would wait for her and try to do the best i can to be with her but she does not seem that interested in me anymore she does not have another love interest from what i can tell so i am still waiting for her to end her career to see if we can try a relationship with her but deep down i know that will not happen she is just so far away from reach from me i am currently working in an average paying job and i do not think i will go to college myself anytime soon i often compare myself to her and i just feel so small in comparison how would someone with her status be with someone like me i am not able to detatch my feelings for her not even one bit i heard people saying that time makes you fade feelings for someone away and i have tried to convince myself in believing in that but i just can not she is just so ingrained in my feelings i do not think i will ever get over her trust me i have tried to be in a relationship with someone else and either i get annoyed by them or they get annoyed of me in my mind it is only her i am literally scared of the thought that she might fall in love with someone who trully deserves her and if i ever find out i think i will go crazy and have a life threatening break down it is been now 6 years since i first met her | regret |
i have a regret of not getting the nintendo switch earlier in 2017 when i was 11 my mum asked me if i wanted a phone or a nintendo switch and i chose phone then i got the switch a month after animal crossing new horizons came out i could ve got it in 2018 as well but i do not know why i did not | regret |
i snooped around the office to find what my coworkers make i had to stop in my office today saturday to use the fax machine for personal reasons which is no problem i have a key and know the code for the security system so i let myself in as i sometimes do on weekends to put in overtime or whatever i had to wait for a fax to come in so i was hanging out at my desk and then started getting antsy i snooped around my coworkers offices to look for paystubs that they might have left lying around at a couple desks i found opened pay stubs in their drawers so now i know what a few of my coworkers make and have a better idea of where i stand in the company but now i feel kind of guilty but at least i could confess it here do i totally suck or just partially | guilt |
i 14y f regret not asking out my best friend 14y f sooner when i had the chance some background i met my best friend in first grade i was not the most talkative little kid so i did not have any friends anyways we were inseparable from first grade to third grade we would go to each other s house every day that was the best time of my life then she moved it was the darkest time of my life i was depressed without her and that left some scars that will never heal we talked via my dad s phone occasionally and it was amazing she has grandparents who live in my state so she comes to visit every year one time when we were talking she asked hey if i tell you something will you still be my friend and of course i said yes of course so she told me she was lesbian she told me she was afraid that i would not accept her three years pass and me and her are talking to each other via snapchat we were talking about moving in together in the future and all that and she goes yeah it will be fun maybe we could become something more and that is when my crush on her started she knew that i was bi at that point i thought about what she said for days i thought about it all the time the idea of me and her being something more and getting married amazed me i did not realize that that is what i needed i needed to be with her so so bad we flirted a lot but i did not have the guts to ask her out then she got a girlfriend i was happy and bitter at the same time it is been a while now but i still love her and i always will these feelings just will not go away i have dated many people but it does not feel the same i just want her i m not the best writer so excuse that please | regret |
Idek why I think about it slmetimes. | guilt |
I beat up a female friend after I heard the defamatory stories that ÃÂá
she had been telling. I was later called to explain my ÃÂá
behaviour. | guilt |
I get irritated with my son when he screams or is sick all over ÃÂá
his clean clothes. | guilt |
dropped off my friend to die it is around christmas time and we are celebrating our like 3rd christmas gift exchange in a couple of hours when my friend called me saying he needed a ride he starts crying so i m like shit i will go by there so i swing and pick him up and he is all barred out i ask where he needs to go he said to his friends he got kicked out of his house for his drug abuse and needed to go a few places first pawn shop meet someone then go to his friends that was the plan well i do not do drugs or drive with them so i told him if you want to go shit i will drop you off but i m not going to pick up drugs with you then drop you off at your friends so i drove him around for like 30 minutes before he met his plug and the whole drive he was like my friends this and that and i told him bro those are not you re friends instead of buying drugs use your money to get your own place quit being a roach with them he did not listen so i left him there and rode off so later in the night we are heading to the festivities lol and we get a call from his fiancé could n t stay with her because she lives with family and he was druggin there too ends up he is not answering his phone she is worried i said he had some friends coming to pick him up and told her where we left him at the next day we get a call they found him dead in the bathroom next to where i left him no phone or anything i wish i could ve taken him in and would if given another chance | regret |
today this new year eve is the last day of my regret i am killing my regret from today 1 if still i keep getting those thoughts i will kill myself 2 if i get those thoughts i will do everything to avoid it at first then i will do 1 happy new year do not regret yes i made mistake yes i repeated the mistake the first time when i made mistake i was 13 omg why am i being so hard on 13 year old self and the second time when i repeated mistake i was 19 a freaking teenager yes i again repeated it throughout that 1 year even after getting out of it yes i did it so what am i going to spend all my life regretting about that i am just 215 and i have at least 40 years of life left and i am freaking wasting my 405 years of my life for the 1 year i wasted lol fuck it yes i will kill myself if it is unbearable but from today i am living freely this is my resolution for 2021 i had kept track of regrets in my journal did you know how ocassional they were omg i am wasting more time thinking rather than the real regret itself | regret |
i went to a nude beach since it is summer and all i wanted to get a nice tan i looked online for a nice beach to go to and found out a nude beach was just an hour away well i thought what the hell and went it was not that crowded and most the people there were old and sort of ordinary looking but the environment was carefree and accepting i being a male was not having much of a problem downstairs until a few attractive women started passing by i tried turning on my stomach at first but two girls sat maybe a few meters away from me when they started undressing i could n t help myself and started to masturbate i felt bad but not even in sex had i experienced an orgasm that strong i m ashamed and will never go back | guilt |
i got a medication to help with anxiety and deeply regret telling my friends recently my parents took me and got prescription medication to help with anxiety and depression it is helped a lot and i m really great duo they care for my mental health the other day i saw my two closest friends for the first time in months and it slipped out when my friend joked about the topic they reassured me about it but i can not help feel so much regret to telling them so upfront the entire day i had been upbeat happy and overall energetic with them so i started overthinking things like but what if they think i do not deserve it what if i dont deserve it after all what if this what if that my other friend main reason i regret telling her has major issues that are far worse than mine her parents do not really listen to her and i have tried to express the fact that she really does need professional guidance and help she told me she was jealous not in a way to be petty but just a genuine reaction of me i just do not know what to do i feel terrible i should not have said anything to them i m comparison to both my life is alright i fucking hate myself for being so selfish about this rant | regret |
i regret updating iphone i use my phone for work i take pictures write descriptive text blurbs and examine shared online documents for purposes of referencing their information now with the latest iphone update 1401 doing a lot of those things is way more difficult a lot of them are weird spellcheck for instance seems to work on an if i feel like it basis move the text cursor to the correct place i used to do that really easily not now the main place i view documents is dropbox now when i zoom in by double tapping or dragging two fingers apart i can only move the zoomed in image so far before i hit a brick wall what the fuck apple it also changed a lot of my settings back to factory standard what the hell is live photo and why should i give a shit spoiler alert i do not it is like jerry useless and annoying but also just pathetic enough for it not be worth it to get rid of until one day you just snap the only difference is that when i finally change the settings back to my pictures not being dumbass fifty millisecond gifs that ll make it more difficult to upload for my boss s to see it will not involve shooting a cartoon energy vampire in the kneecaps here is a thought apple does not want us to have apple iphones computers or anything with their logo on it they just want people to be frustrated and angry they want to make our sad little mediocre lives more difficult because that is just what kind of sadists they are their products are how they do that they make these amazing little pieces of technology that they make updates for to accomplish the only thing they care about making your existence just a little harder to get through that is what life is you exist and then you die and you do not exist and apple wants you to hate it just a little more | regret |
i regret these past 10 years i have spent years living ashamed of my ear deformity stutter and i chose to isolate myself and what did i use to medicate myself porn i would masturbate for hours every day i would do my homework in high school and would allow myself to watch porn to relax but i would end up masturbating all night until 4am i wallowed in selfpity sadness and selfhatred rather than seeking help and after years of isolation selfloathing shame i ended up sexually harassing a girl over the internet for the past 10 years i could have simply told my parents my doctor about my stuttering and my shame i could have been in speech therapy i could have overcome my anxiety and selfconsciousness but i dug myself into a hole i m not sure i can get out of i m sorry mom and dad all you have ever done is love me and give me everything you did not have as children and i failed you and i failed myself i m sorry | regret |
i did even know the guy so i m a freshmen in high school and there was this guy in my school who had sadly committed suicide yesterday i do send my prayers to this person s family so i have minor depression and bad anxiety i am also an empathic person which means i can feel others emotions so we were told that this dude had committed suicide today and it was just a really depressing day pretty much most of my friends knew this dude and i had almost cried a few times they had extra counselors in the library so after my civics class i headed down and helped some of my friends who actually knew this dude i stayed down there but the emotions there were so heavy it really got my messed up so i did call my mom to come and get me she did and i had went home early later on i m on instagram and i see this post about this person say how people were being terrible and going to the library to just take advantage of this situation and some how i now feel guilty for even going down i didnt know him i signed in to the library as a friend of his i told my mom that i knew him along with some friends i really feel guilty about it all right now and if anyone reading his knows what is going on and knows what had happened just know that i am sorry my prayers go out to this dude s close friends family and to everyone who actually knew him | regret |
When I talked to another student about the notes she got last ÃÂá
semester, not knowing that she got a lot of bad grades. | regret |
regret not being able to patch up with my brother my brother and me were natural enemies he is five years older than me and he made my life miserable growing up we always fought over something or the other and i hated him for so long things became better when he went off to college but we still fought when he was back by the time i went off to college things became better he suddenly became normal he did not pick fights did not diss me would offer advice help me out etc this was around 5 years ago he even travelled all the way to my city 6 hours away when i had forgotten an important document for joining masters program but in all these years i still have not been able to forgive him for making my life horrible during my childhood i m not exaggerating he was my enemy many memorable vacations christmases have been ruined by him cuz he was simply rude and aggressive for no reason since covid we are living at our parents place just like back then and he is so nice but i m the one who s picking fights and rude to him now i guess i can not let go of the past i m leaving in a month now and this is the last time we will live like a family again i wish it was as simple as just forgive him any youngerolder siblings out there who have resolved their fights if you could help me now maybe i could avoid a major regret later on anyway posted this here as i regret spending so many years hating him | regret |
I woke peri up last night by crying im sorry you shouldnt have to deal with me like that im sorry | guilt |
I promised my mother to come home on her birthday, but at last I ÃÂá
was prevented. Nevertheless it would have been possible to go but ÃÂá
I did not. | guilt |
my mother started crying during dinner | guilt |
I'm allergic to most foods - eating something that I'm allergic ÃÂá
to caused guilt. | guilt |
i cannot wait until bangtan is back safe in korea so they dont have to put up with cringy americans anymore asking them stupid ass questions like are they gonna make an album in english | guilt |
i stole probably over 1000 worth of food just to chew it up and spit it out for most of my life i struggled with eating disorders about three years ago i was officially diagnosed with anorexia nervosa in january of 2011 after months of attempted and failed recovery tactics i was at my lowest and most dangerous state i was 5 9 and weighed only 87 lbs i was a junior in college at the time living alone in an apartment i had delved into the rather disgusting world of chewing and spitting many times over the years but suddenly i was consumed by it it started that i would buy something small like a candy bar once or twice a week and that would be enough to satiate my desire for the taste of food but over time it got worse within i month i was spending almost 50 a week on cookies cakes chips etc that i would take home and subsequently chew up and spit out it got so bad that i could n t even stop myself when i would visit my parents at home i would hide the spit up food in small plastic bags so they would not find it in the trash but anyway the cost got so high that in my fucked up state reasoning convinced me to start stealing the food using selfcheckout i would ring up items as the cheapest thing i could find and pass as much through the machine as possible before it would say the weight was too high this went on unnoticed for about 5 months then one day i got pulled aside in the store when i rang up five muffins as a single doughnut the incident scared me so shitless that i vowed to never do it again although its been hard to stop i have managed to quit stealing i still chew and spit and buy foods simply so i can continue but i make sure i pay the price this alone has reduced my disgusting habit significantly i hope to stop altogether soon i m so embarrassed by what i have done i do not know how i could justify being a criminal like that for something so stupid it is incredible how starvation completely alters one s rationality sorry this is long | guilt |
am i ruining my daughter by not playing with her coming out of a long weekend i m hoping for some validation that i m not just the worst mom ever i have a really hard time playing with my daughter she will be 5 soon so for the past 4 12ish years i have managed to find ways to get out of playing with her i did not feel too bad about it because she is been in daycare for 910 hours a day ever since she was 3 months oldso she gets plenty of playtime and social interaction with her peers but i worry constantly that i do not give her enough of me i work full time i run a small business i m in school and i m a single parent so i do all of the household duties too i m always busy when i do finally have some downtime she wants to play with me she is got a big imagination like i did when i was a little girl but unlike me she does not have a bunch of siblings to keep her entertained i spend time with her in other ways we do puzzles together we color together we sit and watch movies together and we go on walks or short hikes together but am i hurting her by not sitting down to do pretend play i just do not want to and even then i do not really have time for it but every weekend she asks me several times a day and each time i end up coming up with an excuse i feel like i m hurting her development i watch shows like bluey and wonder why can not i be that involved why can not i drop everything and be her fun little friend for a few hours am i hurting our relationship by doing this are other parents playing with their kids all the time i know all parenting looks different and there is a million great ways to raise a child but is this unforgivable | guilt |
i regret purchasing a gateflixin s computer network course what a shitty course that is instructor does not know what the fuck he is talking about so bad instructor worst instructor i have ever seen lesson learnt never ever buy courrses that does not have reviews i am from nepal and i wasted 10 on this course which is a lot i wish i did not spend that much in this course and invested 10 for udemy course instead | regret |
I encouraged my brother to play football and he was hurt while ÃÂá
playing the game. | guilt |
5050 custody has made my life better in ways that i almost can not explain my ex and i were together for 55 years when i completely broke everything off with him i moved back in with my parents and i m currently very close to being able to afford a large down payment on a home for me and the kids the freedom i feel is indescribable luckily living with my parents is like living with really calm and mentally stable roommates i feel hopeful and loved every single day and that is just on days that i have the kids when it is not my parenting time the freedom truly rings i can work whenever i want even second and third shift which pays more i can meet a friend for coffee or go bar hopping with a coworker i can sleep in until 2 pm the quality of sex that i m having is not even comparable i m able to do whatever i want without needing to run it by someone i have no one to fight with anymore i can watch youtube videos after the kids go to bed without being demonized i can simply fucking go to work without worrying about coming home to a drunken man screaming at me i can even have friends i still love my ex i do not want to go back to the way thing were before i fondly remember the good times i also remember the times that were absolutely unacceptable i still want the best for him the best does not involve me getting back together with him my ex has tried everything in the book to get me back he is offered to buy me a new car he told me he would give me 300 cash every month on top of my paycheck if i move back some people would think that i m a raging bitch for refusing these attempts and that is fine love does not equal money especially when we are so incompatible nowadays the hardest times in my life involve my ex brainwashing my oldest 3f to say things like do not go to work anymore and move back in with dad okay hearing those things really fuck with me i miss the kids when i work no i will not quit my job to be with their father i have given up enough and my job 100 keeps me sane i m still a regretful parent yet i feel like my regret is piggybacked off the fact that i also regret the person that i chose to have kids with while i do not think that he is a bad father he is not a good partner however i still think i would have regretted it either way 5050 gives me some semblance of normal | regret |
i regret getting braces not going around getting second opinions it did not help that my brother everytime i asked for advice they just look the other way as if i never had a problem i regret regret regret i should have just got my crowns redone i think this ortho is a fucking scammer | regret |
Our class had organized a picnic in November. I was the class ÃÂá
representative so I became the organizor. However the picnic ÃÂá
was postponed by one week and I had something else to do then. ÃÂá
Initially I did not ponder on what to do and decided to go for ÃÂá
the picnic. When I had the time to think about it I thought that ÃÂá
my decision was wrong. My classmates thought that I would go as ÃÂá
I had signed my name but I did not go. I told another class ÃÂá
representative that I was not going but he did not know the ÃÂá
reason behind my not going. After the picnic my classmates asked ÃÂá
me why I had not gone to the picnic and everytime someone ÃÂá
mentioned it I was apologetic. I should have decided right in ÃÂá
the begining that I would not go and then they would not see me ÃÂá
as irresponsible i.e promising to go and changing my mind ÃÂá
afterwards. | guilt |
I draw a lot and people always praise me for how good I am when really I never can come up with original ideas on my own. I feel I'm always copying someone else's work. Nonetheless, they turn out great; I just wish I didn't have to steal other peoples ideas sometimes. | guilt |
i regret getting a cat to make my apartment feel more like home i 19 m love my cat to the moon and back full stop but i am a full time student with 2 part time jobs living in an apartment with a bunch of siblings and their parents downstairs when i moved in it was because my two roommates both 21 both f fell out and both wanted me to move with them they were both living here originally anyway the one that was returning here told me that her parents were not around as much as the other said and that her brothers were moving out here we are more than a year later neither brother has moved out and their parents took the down stairs apartment after living with us full time for 5 months without paying a dime and i mean full time i spent more nights elsewhere than they did i literally think she told me what she told me to get one over on the other girl feeling like i chose her so i got a cat i love cat but subconsciously i did not really think it through clearly i just wanted this place to feel more like my own home now i m moving back to my aunt s soon having squandered what should have been the most free year of my life essentially renting a room in a fucking family house i figure if i m going to live in a family house it may as well be for free and it may as well be my own sadly my aunt s boyfriend is allergic to cats i have found tons of suitable homes for her and i am carefully picking the best one of the many candidates but i still feel quite shit about it | regret |
Chris and I just got off the phone after 2.5 hours. Nathan has been asleep.. And I feel guilty. | guilt |
i m probably just a pos but i m coming to accept it 25f with two toddlers under 4 and married i absolutely hate my life i do not want to be a mother i want a divorce i have no funds of my own saved literally no where to go i plan on saving enough money until in comfortable enough to bring up divorce and just go if i need to i want to change my name and not have contact with anyone i feel like a pos i should just suck it up and stay for the kids right he is a good man and absolutely in love with me and i can not seem to get myself to love my children or my husband and when i say i want a divorce i also mean i do not want anything from him i do not want the house or what savings we have already established he can have full custody i honestly just want to be alone and focus on my career i might just do it advice welcome rude comments i will not entertain | regret |
regretful family my family is so small everyone can fit on one hand so we depends on one another however my uncle is the worst parent and it stinks for all of us i grew up with a trying father who eventually became a deadbeat so to see my uncle do nothing in his child s despite how easy he can decide to changebreaks my heart i know it infringes on my cousins childhood she has seen me and her father even fight and exchange words because he will not take responsibility ironically he was more upset she called the police to make him stop my knee came out sprained for weeks and of course my family lied to everyone else about what happened when ppl asked while it healed i threaten to press charges if he does not get it together but he still will not and i know it will only make things worse im so young 22 and my life is just starting though i hate seeing my mom and aunts who have already raised kids and want to get back to enjoying their life have to do it again but i know i am too selfish to step up i should not have to i do not want to like i literally do not want someone depending on me i would hate to stop seeing my cousin and i do not want her to be a burden i just hate that her father will not handle his shit why do we have to do all the pick ups and drop offs and find things to do to keep her engaged when she is here she only comes on the weekends what the hell he has it so easy and it grinds my gears watching him use work as an excuse so he can go drink afterwards until he passes out meanwhile i get asked to babysit all the time despite the fact the he cut ties with me and i do not think my cousin even asks her dad for anything because she knows it is a dead end i am starting to worry she feels like a burden because she is preteenager now and i know how hard a time that can be as is i urge my family all the time to stop asking and just drop her off with him randomly but what good is that if he will just be grumpy the whole time i hate it it is one thing to regret your child yet try but to make a child and just say f it and willing to fight against it is just deplorable i feel sad pressured guilty when my cousin asks me for stuff and mostly enraged but i am at such a moral standstill omfg it stinks i hate it i hate him | guilt |
me: (fucks up & says another mean thing)
me: (screams for 48 hours) | guilt |
Yes
I'm creepy
I'm gonna slip out for a bit | guilt |
did not heal my emotional wounds and lost my wife the love of my life thankfully no kids involved do not be me seek medical attention before ruining your relationship or worse hurting your so i have been a toxic pos for the past 2 years she was supporting caring and sweet to me i am so ashamed and feel like having wasted her life good thing for her she was able to reunite the courage and leave me | regret |
regret not having had more sex i am 21 and in my first real relationship with a wonderful wonderful 26year old guy if we stay together it is highly possible that we shall get married however my sex drive seems way more intense than his and i find myself highly attracted to other guys any guy i find attractive i think to myself wow i would like to fuck him at the moment i can think of 7 guys who i am friends with that i would have sex with in a onenightstand sort of way i love my boyfriend and he loves me and i would never purposely sabotage the relationship or cheat on him but he has had over 50 sexual partners yet he is my only one i regret that since we are serious i will probably never know what it is like to have sex with anyone else or be comfortable hearing about his many sexual experiences i often fantasize about these men and having sex with them sometimes during sex with my boyfriend what is worse is that his best friend is incredibly hot and sometimes i masturbate thinking about having sex with him | guilt |
I went to my boyfrien's house. There I found clothes of a certain ÃÂá
girl. Without asking whose clothes they were I started tearing ÃÂá
them only to realise that they were his sister's and so I felt ÃÂá
guilty. | guilt |
Im already bored of him and i dont know how to politely turn down the other guy who asked for my number at work
I dont want to deal with this | guilt |
had so much to do but played world of warcraft i had this whole week off from school and i had planned out all the things i needed to do i did nothing of them not even one holy shit wow kinda just pulled me in it was a bender the whole week and it totally engulfed me fuck dude i did not shower for like 3 days and now my break is over i am only going to get like 5 hours of sleep because i stayed up playing wow and typing this post fuck | guilt |
i just had a 2 hour long very sexual convresation with a stranger online fully aware of the fact that if my so were to find this he would not be comfortable i feel guilty and gross as if i had cheated but i really just wanted someone to talk to about anything i do not know if i should confess to him of keep this to myself | guilt |
mini update 6 i m confused quick recap i m a 12 year old male abusive father abusive teachers lots of work regret moving to this school wanting to move and a bit of suicidal thoughts sprinkled in there update hey i m back for a little mini updateso i was just researching about the school i plan to move to cause i thought it was near the midterm exam but then i found a paper on there website that seems like they just started teaching cause there was talk about parents meeting teachers online and i thought that is weird i thought all schools were supposed to start teaching about a month ago and then i saw the date for the meeting and it was in late november so right now i m very confused is this supposed to be for next year s students cause that would make sense for next years students to meet teachers now but right now they re still accepting so why would they start meetings now who do you guys think this is for is this for the current students or next year s students | regret |
should have found this sub earlier long story short i hate being a parent i hate what my life has become i hate what i have become i hate everything and everybody around me i was sold on the everybody loves their own kids nonsense and just as i expected i do not like my own kid i spend as little time as possible with her because it is torture keeping a 4yr old happy all day i only see the things my wife and i could be doing if we did not have a kid the investments we could be making if we were not spending money on day care and bs kid expenses the early retirement we had secured but is now probably pushed out 10yrs because the kid came along the great sex we could be having again if she was not so torn up from an incredibly long labor the whole thing is just hellish my life was on track until i was talked into a kid now i feel like i m drowning | regret |
At school, I did not tell the teacher that it was me who ÃÂá
had laughed, and she punished the entire class by making them ÃÂá
stay behind for one hour. | guilt |
my fault not making any friends on campus because i commute 3040mins away now i want to but can not make my self do it now i m getting stressed and depressed and do not even try to make conversation and if i do i end up talking my self out of it when i want to anonymous | regret |
i m a virgin i have tried to have sex 4 times with my girlfriend and i failed every time i just do not know what it is me and my girlfriend get intimate and i m ready to have sex but then i start thinking about how i need to keep it up how she will not like it and she will stop loving me how it is not going to be anything like i expect and i feel like she is growing apart from me because of it she says it is okay she still loves me and that she will wait for me but i notice that afterwards she just does not want to talk and she will answer me with oneword answers and just avoid conversation with me she says she will not break up with me because of it but how many more times will it take i m really stressed about performing well that i can not even perform i feel terrible about this | guilt |
hello good people of redditrconfession it is me again a couple of things when i was twelve my sister had a friend over and i felt her up without her even knowing it i on purpose bumped into her she had c s i believe i m not very good with sizes i full on grabbed both breasts i m sure that was sparked because of the last two issues i was at my friends house when i was twelve after that we were playing marco polo in the pool it was him and his two hot older cousins they were both fifteen i had eyes closed dived under after hearing one of them say marco i came up and smacked my head into one of their vagina and grabbed a boob on accident she only said anything about the breast thing now some more current info you might suspect that i would be socially awkward with girls i m not i flirt alot all my best friends are girls maybe that is due to the small school one is white the one i like most and know the best the second is mexican she is friendly with a boyfriend and the last is white but a red head i think of only the first one in a sexual way i flirt with her talk to her even as posting this i am talking to her on fb teachers get onto me because i flirt with her they are always like stop flirting and get to work we both just scoff this off and i continue i do not know if she likes me in a serious way i once talked her way into and out of a relationship for her she started dating my best guy friend and only male friend he called her property and she promptly left him i like her when he told me they started going out was the day i was gon na ask her out now she is gon na move when school is out with the other two they think of me as a big brother type person recently we were in holocaust class and another teacher came in and we got nothing done i was listening to them talk the red head handed the mexican some condoms and then the white one took some i said something like you guys are sooo sneaky in a sarcastic tone the one i like said to me we are not trying to be sneaky just glad everyone is staying protected the one i like i know is a virgin which is funny every now and then i catch snipits of who they are talking about getting her to sleep with before she moves these are some funny girls comment plz | guilt |
i did something terrible as a young teenager and it is time to say it and let it go when i was 14 years old i was sitting in my driveway with my boyfriend at the time listening to music i suddenly got the urge to drive his car only down the driveway but i had n t ever driven a car before like the idiot that he was the only instructions he gave me was to put my foot on the gas he made no mention of going slow applying very little pressure or of putting my foot back on to the brake shortly after reversing down the driveway so i did just as he said and pushed on the gas all of a sudden i saw my neighbor s house getting closer and closer in the rear view mirror i was in absolute shock and horror and was immobilized in fear miraculously the car went in between their front steps and a tree stopping when it hit the bushes in front of their house no one was home to my knowledge so my boyfriend drove the car back into our driveway and i just tried to forget it the only visible damage was that i successfully killed their bushes i saw them days later turn their heads sideways and try to figure out what happened to their bushes they stayed in front of their house for years just this summer they finally dug them up and got rid of them i did confess to my mom a few weeks after i initially had the small accident but i have never said anything to my neighbors i feel like a terrible human being some days i think i should go over with a blank check or some rose bushes confess and apologize but then i chicken out am i awful should i ovaryup and just apologize already it is the one thing i truly regret ever not doing but i m still so ashamed | guilt |
want him to die i was raped by my ex we had been together for about 18 months when he spent the night over a visit we lived 250 miles away after he failed out of college so he visited me on weekends i woke up to him on top of me fucking me i have never felt that scared used and ashamed in my entire life he denied that it was rape denied that i was asleep and to this day does not believe that i was asleep he then cheated on me with a girl who picked him up in a bar about a month later he claimed he did not know why he did it i was trying to figure out my life and my selfworth after this event and he was fucking another girl i kept talking to him after we broke up i could n t stop talking to him i was addicted he had spent the whole time we were together making me dependent on him he made me believe i was worthless scarred weird wrong and he was the only one who could accept me and love me i almost lost my mind during that time in a particularly low point i sent a text to his mother telling her that he had raped me she blamed me it is been almost three years and i still hate him he went on to marry the girl he cheated on me with knock her up and is going to afghanistan in october i really hope that he dies i want him to die in war i just want it to be over i do not want him to be in the same world as me i just want that to end | regret |
i missed a opportunity to walk with my crush long story short i was getting home then i saw my crush walking alone but i was too shy and i fkn hate myself for it i feel like shit my mental health is taking a rapid decline i can not sleep or think straight i think that was the only opportunity to walk talk to her or at least my mind think it | regret |
i called my sister fat when i was in the fourth grade i said the the unimaginable my mother would say the same things to the the tv actors so i picked it up from her my mother showed us a video of college cheerleaders dancing they were going in really great shape too my sister said i wan na be a cheerleader that is when i said honey you need to lose some weight if you want that she ended up closing her laptop and leaving i was really confused why she got upset i thought i was being helpful but i did not know they told me to apologize but it was not sincere my dad told me it was not nice what i said and my mother said the same thing too i never truly apologized for saying that i forgot about for a very long time until a couple of months ago i can not imagine the pain that i put her through the insecurities that still overwhelm her i can not imagine the tears she shed that night since her own sister called her fat i really want to truly apologize to her we still have a great sister relationship but i want to make it up to her i feel guilty since word never go away they fuse into you unable to break away i do not think she is forgotten it it is been 5 years since that happened i want to apologize but i m worried that she did forget about it and i end up making it worse again or she will except my apology and have more closure what should i do | regret |
i changed my name and now i regret it so much i regret changing my name so much i do not know why the hell i changed it nobody could say my given name and it was associated with a couple of bad times so i was like hell with it and now i regret it so much i miss my old name why the hell did i do this god i hate myself | regret |
CW rape
Is it normal to feel like I shouldn't have told anyone about being raped? It was by one of my (soon to be ex) partners and she didn't do it on purpose but like was to be fair very negligent about consent. Since I brought up my uneasiness about that night and the fact I didn't want it - just let it happen - and was dissociating at the time (I haven't used the R word to describe it IRL out of I guess respect), everything's kinda gone to shit and I feel like it's all my fault. If I just kept my mouth shut everyone would be much happier right now. Gods this is too much to handle. | regret |
i did not confess to my crush before graduation i never had gotten crushes on others so easily and when i did they never lasted for more than 46 months so i never really thought of it as anything serious welp i met a guy at prom night and did not realized that i liked him until i got home i tried spending any free time i had at school to try and look for him but 0 luck eventually graduation came and i did not see him there either shrugged it off thinking it would go away eventually but here i am 11 months later still thinking about him and feeling pain and regret for not telling him how i feel can anybody give me advice on how to not feel heartbroken anymore | regret |
Once I promised to do something but I didn't do it. | guilt |
I'm feeling bad about not being able to go.ðÃÂÃÂè | guilt |
i witnessed child abuse and did nothing first off i would like to say i m only 15 at the time of this story i was on a trip to a skatepark with my friends filming them when a dad and his two daughters came to skate the daughter were about 8 and 4 years old the child that was being targeted was the 8 year old as i was filming my friends we started to notice how harsh the dad was being with his daughter yelling at her and calling her a chicken for not dropping in from a very high ramp she refused to do it out of fear and the dad began to become infuriated not letting her quit he made her stand in the 95 degree heat for nearly 25 minutes while cussing and making fun of her nearing the end he began to threaten her saying that d he get up there and shove you the fuck off my goddamn self his poor daughter has been in tears during all this and is clearly to afraid to do anything in the end he grabs her by her arm and pulls her down but she catches her self he takes her to his car and leaves i know that that child faces verbal and mental abuse at home and it absolutely kills me that i did not at least get a photo of that prick of a dad so i could show it to cps or the internet or something well that is it next time i will step in | guilt |
Im on my second full week of my new job ( which I love - people are amazing - its relaxed - only 4 hours a day from 13.00-17.00 ) But Im starting to feel like I cant do it? I love it but my brain doesnt want to fucking human. HELP. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. | guilt |
one of my friends, platonically: "ily"
me, an anxious Fool who has significant difficulties showing affection of any kind, especially with The L Word: "i... l-luh... lov... nvm thanks you're great too haha" | guilt |
i feel unholy and sinful about a year ago when i was thirteen someone i knew pressured me into sending naughty pictures they were the same age of me but i feel horrible and feel like i sinned i feel as if there was a thousand pounds dropped on me and i can not breathe anymore i think of it frequently ever since then and when i do i look at myself as a sick human being who deserves nothing in life if my parents knew they would disown me and talking about it triggers a panic attack and i hide it the only thing i do in public when i m reminded is heavily breathe when i think about it and look at my parents i think of how much of a disappointment i am it is currently 140 am and it was the biggest regret of my life i just want to press the rewind button i can not tell my parents and i do not know what to do to take the weight off of me i am an unholy sick child please help | regret |
i have done so many awful thing s more than i can count what do you do when you have done so many awful thing s i have done more awful thing s than i can count i have hurt people that i love one thing i even tried to get myself arrested for what do i do | guilt |
paid too much for our house something i have been trying to get over in the 3 years we have lived here we paid 12 million for a house that should probably only have been 105 in other words about 150k more how do you get over something like that on the plus side we owed the bank about 80k when we bought it and 25 years later we have paid that off and have about 300k in the bank friends tell me that i should not worry about it cause our income absorbs whatever losses we have on the house i logically can see this but the thought of having been stupid keeps popping up in my head what do you guys think | regret |
I wish i knew how to comfort people
Especially when theyre complaining about themselves and wont stop
Or when theyre just goin thru a bad time
I really dont know what to say or how to say it
Especially since its not normal for me to confide in others
Ugh i just dont know what to do rn | guilt |
God dammit, I wasn't supposed to eat. | guilt |
Somehow I got caught up in between
Between my pride and my promise
Between my lies and how the truth gets in the way | guilt |
i wish i could have done something 152 548am i woke to the sound of my alarm only to find something else making noise or maybe someone outside my bedroom window i see a man and woman arguing i did not know what they were talking about but it sounded like the man was cursing at the woman they were speaking hindu and i do not know the hindu language i watched as they kept arguing and arguing the woman was crying and weeping the man was yelling and beating the woman after about 15 minutes the man and the woman went back to their homes i sat staring into the peopleless parking lot wondering why i did not do anything i knew reporting an abuse was so difficult in malaysia this memory forever etched in my mind heart and soul i wish i could have done something | guilt |
Now i can update my wakie in peace.. âÃÂÃÂðÃÂÃÂà| guilt |
My boyfriend keeps getting mad at me lately. I keep fucking up. I wish I want so bad at everything | guilt |
So I had a boyfriend for a bit, now mind you I don't do relationships. I have very big commitment issues. It's summer so what does that mean? That hot college guys that I used to go to school would be back in town along with me, well on a Saturday night I went to a friends birthday party. It was a big deal for everyone in town so I knew everyone would be there. My boyfriend would be at home, out of town. I went knowing that multiple guys I used to fangirl over would be there. Well anyways I ran into a guy I went to school with and who I used to have major wet dreams about, he clearly was impressed on the fact that id change rapidly in the months we hadn't seen each other. Back to the point. We ran into each other, we talked, and we had sex. Know mind you he had no clue I had a boyfriend, he's not the type to sleep with someone in a relationship. I'm not a cheater, well at least I wasn't, but if you seen the man yourself you'd question your morals too. I know there's no excuse for cheating, but still. The scary fact is that I do not feel guilty about it, in fact it excited me, I wanted to do it again, and again. I feel guilty that I don't feel guilty. | guilt |
Against the will and without the approval of my parents I went ÃÂá
for a few days to my boyfriend in Germany. | guilt |
i fuck everything up i cant stop fucking shit up and it is killing me mentally i just want to be a better person i regret not being able to do better | guilt |
[ I felt guilt when I was not co-operative with my mother for my ÃÂá
exam.] | guilt |
i was trying to stay off social media and off phone now i dont have enough pictures of my gf when she was alive i tried to live in the moment and not e taking pics or posting them now i m crawling throuhh my phone looking for pics of her she was shy didnt like being filmedphotod so there is more vids of my stupid face and voice i wish i would pushed a little more to get pictures of my love | regret |
i knew you were coming but chose not to hold the elevator for you the fleeting glance you had of me in the corner of the elevator leaning against the wall with my eyes closed was a deception in reality i was wide awake apparently i m rude enough not to hold the elevator yet care enough to ensure that i m considered oblivious instead of impolite i m very impatient given that my office is on the 10th top floor i had nothing to gain by holding the elevator besides a possible thank you if i had held the elevator for you perhaps that would have given a few more people the time to get on adding another 30 seconds to my trip sorry | regret |
the life i would have lived is not worth living in because i am transgender . | guilt |
My heaaaad omg hurts so bad ðÃÂÃÂàdon't drink on weekdays kids, not when you gotta go to work the day after at least haha | regret |
I "snapped" very abruptly at my mother when she said something ÃÂá
silly and stupid, (in front of other people) she looked so ÃÂá
defenceless & hurt & told them that I'm always doing that. | guilt |
i miss my slim tight nympho latina we used to have an amazing sex life now i feel like my sex life is over w5month old anyone else how do you cope | regret |
The negative feelings towards me displayed by my ÃÂá
"parents-in-law". | guilt |
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Honestly when I see another brother asking for advice with coming out or for someone else's experiences I am extremely hesitant to do so. When I came out to my best friend - at the time - of five or so years, he called me a tranny to my face and laughed about it. And asked how the hell I supposed to have sex without a prostate. When I told my brothers they both laughed at me. They never used much names or pronouns for me other than insults so I'm not terribly broken up by it. My dad has actually tried to talk me out of going on T. He's said he knows nothing about this stuff so to not bother talking to him about it. I don't think my mom will ever see or love me as her son. I feel guilty af for not being able to give advice or comforting, because since I came out its split my family apart. And knowing its my fault kinda sucks. | regret |
Me: What do you see men as? Dogs? Sex doesn't sell. Sexualising women to sell a separate product shouldn't really be an accepted practice today. If men want to see naked bodies, we have the internet. Can't we separate the two in our heads and our culture, and keep the sexual physique out of my epic storylines and with deep undertones?
Also me: *Wants to watch Konosuba again simply because Megumim is cute* | guilt |
i never should have had a second kid my first kid 16 is amazing he is intelligent thoughtful kind socially aware does all his school work without being asked does chores without complaint and is all around perfect i feel truly awful but i do not like my second child 13 he is got a lot of issues and it totally consumes our lives all of us it is ruining our lives including my older son s life all the younger one does is freak out and act mean all day he is seeing three separate mental health professionals he is exhausting he does not let me sleep at night because he is always having panic attacks he is doing school remotely right now and need me to hover all day and help him but screams at me when i try he is autistic and has cognitive delays but not so much that he is in easier classes they are all too difficult for him without help though but also he will not try and will not follow along with the teacher we used to be really close until puberty and then everything fell apart he was a pain in the ass as a smaller child but he was fun and sweet too since he was 10 or 11 he has not been sweet he started having really disturbing thoughts about me and other family members around this time due to some of his issues and i could never love him the same way after i do not know if i love him as much as my older son or if everything is clouded because he is so difficult i can tolerate him when he is in school all the time because i m not with him 247 but right now i get zero break from his bullshit and i m so high stress all the time that i m afraid i will have a heart attack all of our lives would be better if we never had him i truly want him to be happy and healthy but i wish i could send him away to a boarding school until he gets his mental health together and stops being an absolute shit show i am aware that we are not supposed to feel this way about our kids i hate myself for it i m not a good parent i try so hard to make him happy and to do the right thing for him all the time but i know he can tell that we do not like him like we like our other son it makes me so sad i do not want him to feel that way but i do not know how to fake it any better than i already am | regret |
i overshared about my parents lives with a friend i overshared the toxicity of my parents relationship with a close friend of mine i feel extremely guilty about it now as it was not even my life i was talking about and this friend of mine lives close to me she can meet my family and she will see the parts of my parents that they would rather she did not i feel sick right now for violating my parents boundaries i do not really know why i m writing this maybe i just needed to confess | guilt |
Did not pick up a water mellon skin, someone slipped on it. | guilt |
At my native place I was riding my cycle, which did not have ÃÂá
lights, at night and so a police man caught me. I requested him ÃÂá
to let me go but he would not so after a few minutes I just ÃÂá
escaped. | guilt |
i guess i am crying because i am sorry mom and dad but i am hppy that i will be in heaven and no more attacks . | guilt |
I'm sorry I lied to my parents. I told them I was going to sell clothing, while I went to my boyfriend's house. I didn't sell anything | guilt |
Everything is money money money money and I'm expensive
Selfish little whore buying wants you don't need it you want it so you waste more and more of their money on it you're a waste of money you're so expensive you won't cost them a cent if you're dead you expensive selfish little wanting needy whore | guilt |
i regret pushed her away i have a 2 years relationship i think it has been the best i ever had 6 months ago my girlfriend suggested me to go to live together and i rejected the idea because i wanted to live alone she felt bad about it and she decided to travel to europe for a working holiday which is something she always wanted so she took the decition without considering our relationship i felt great for her because it was something she always wanted but it was not in my plans to go yo europe then the days passed and we agreed to open the relationship like 6 days before the flight which was mainly proposed by me cause i wanted to have the chance to share with other people sexually mainly considering she was going to be like 1 year away from my country chile then she left and like 1 month ago i decided to go with her cause i missed her a lot but it was gon na take me like 4 months to get the enough money to go so i proposed her to keep an open relationship i intented to be with other people but i felt like shit when i tried so i never did it today at morning i asked her if she had been with someone and she told me yes then my heart just broke i never thought it was gon na be a thing but it destroyed me inside it took me a lot to analize but we finally decided to end the relationship i know i love her and i know she loves me but the distance has complicated all and knowing she intimated with someone makes me feel sick i do not know how to go through this i feek like i took a lot of bad decitions and all i want now is a life with her go to europe is not a good idea cause she has her life there and i do not want to meddle in this if i go is for her and there is a scenario where i risk everything and all ends bad she wants to live all kind of experiences there but she did not want to end this we did it anyway i feel like shit sorry for my english spanish is my native language | regret |
So when I am not with Veronica, I tend to drink or smoke weedâÃÂæI know it's dumb and not safe or the right thing to do but I just can't deal with my anxiety on my ownâÃÂæ | guilt |
regrets i never played guitar or piano for you we were together for four years and i never played for you even though you asked a lot i m sorry lane i wish i had played for you i wish i had done a lot different | regret |
emotionally manipulated out of an abortion now i 23f have to give up my life i got pregnant on birth control nuvaring he told me to take a test 4 days after my missed period it was negative like i expected the next time i come over he 25m tells me that one of his friends came over saw the test in the trash and asked who s pregnant when my bf said it was negative the friend says no that is positive make her test again so he had me take one first thing in the morning and it was positive wtf i had work that day so i asked him not to tell anyone until i had some time to think especially since his fam is super christian then he went for a drive and told his sister while he was on the drive after he d already agreed not to when i came back from work he told me he d told his dad too because he needed advice but considering his dads a pastor he knew exactly what advice he d give before picking up the phone less than a week later i have his entire family in my phone trying to talk me out of abortion mind you i had n t even told anyone at that time that was what i wanted just that i needed time to think so around 8 weeks i have considered things more and decided that i m not in a place with myself or our relationship where i am ready to parent then the manipulation really ramps up especially from bf and his mom bf had lost two close friends in the past few years and that was a constant talking point about losing his child too i schedule an abortion because even though i feel really bad i can not sacrifice my entire future at the will of a man i have known for a year and a half who may not even fulfill his end of the bargain day of my abortion he calls out of work talks me out of leaving for my appointment and takes me on vacation no time left to schedule another appointment he cheats on me 3 times while pregnant and i have no money to leave plus an obligation to my kid who really is getting the shortest end of the stick here all i feel is anger and resentment and now i have given up my academic degree in favor of nursing ick all so i can leave this lying asshole and support a kid i was not ready for | regret |
I was out with a friend in a place where it was very, very busy. ÃÂá
When we wanted to go I bumped a person, who dropped his glass ÃÂá
beer I offered a new one but he didn't accept it. | guilt |
I had shown anger toward my dog and he was killed later that day. | regret |
i lost my virginity at 7 years old i am male when i was 67 years old a new boy moved in next door and we struck up a good friendship this friendship turned into lots of sexual play including oral sex and heavy petting at that age i was able to get erections and was curious about the physical sensations after a long while of playing around he showed me something else we could do which turned out to be anal sex so when we did that i officially lost my virginity it took me until i was 1819 to be able to see myself naked without being disgusted i spent years wanting to vomit when i took showers because being naked was horrible once i was old enough to realise what i had done what i had thrown away because i was being an idiotic child who did not understand that those physical sensations actually meant something beautiful on top of that i felt this huge unclean stigma attached to me because i was starting to learn that since it was with another male it was extra wrong so it took me many years to be able to come to terms with my own bisexualitypansexualitydemisexuality whatever you would like to call it after that i did not even think about sex until i was 1920 and have only slept with one other person in my life only my so knows the extent of the story and she is fine with it it does not effect me all that much anymore but i believe in full disclosure if i am asked about sexual partners | regret |
That feeling when your family terrifies your datemate to the point they don't want to come over for a while. Hahahahaha | guilt |
When I feigned sick leave from work. | guilt |
The assistant professor saw me cheat at the preliminary ÃÂá
examination. | guilt |
i got a call from an old best friend a week before he was killed and i did not answer the phone one of my best friends from 1823 was killed last week it has been about 2 years since really talking with him or hanging out with him i loved him like a brother but could n t bare the defeat i saw with his drug addiction i always hoped and wanted the best for him on getting clean the brotherly love and his addicted ways conflicted so much i could n t bare to be with him or deal with the problem i tried and failed i pushed him away i have not heard from him in 2 years i have hoped so great that he has been well or at the very least better he called me 2 weeks ago i did not answer i did not call him back i was afraid i was unsure if i was ready to try to take him back as a brother to check and see if he was okay i did nothing he was killed last weekend in a questionable police confrontation part of me thinks it was just the other part is confused i regret not answering the phone when he called or calling him back he may have been down the path already but maybe i could have pulled him away if i had tried if i had made the attempt but i did not i regret not trying and not being | regret |
My friend has a friend that I don't really like. And occasionally I'll have this thought pop up in my head: "I hope they don't hang out much when they graduate."
And I feel like that's such an awful, selfish thought. But I really don't like this person for specific reasons. | guilt |
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