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kal penn ok well i think i just got a spoiler for this episode i haven t seen it yet i m in the uk gutted now | 0 |
adriii omgosh they re like biscuit so so so yum xd you haven t lived until you ve eaten them missy p amp i miss you too x | 0 |
mercedesashley damn the grind is inspirational and saddening at the same time don t want you to stop cuz i like what u do much love | 0 |
i smoked for the first time in month and now i m freaking out and idk what to do edit i m all good now blocked out the stress for a little bit now getting food with the boy | 1 |
jlsofficial a photoshoot eyy im sure you will all look hot come back to brighton say hellooo to the boy love you load xxxxxx | 0 |
a recent study found that medical marijuana failed to quell symptom of anxiety and depression and instead doubled down on risk for developing addictive symptom and cannabis use disorder http t co ezyaic0sck | 1 |
cuz like troybolton is the hottiemcsuperbob omfgz my nail bud cry | 0 |
the light that shine through oh what pretty color too evil is for story and thank god for the movie the depression wa awful a nickle too i changed my mind evil is hunger poverty endthe war the lie they tell for | 1 |
blimmin heck i m slightly tired and i still didn t see no otalia | 0 |
shalinique for saying may change up ur twitter game i like u just the way u r on here | 0 |
because i have a feeling that most of you see yourselves a rick s you feel like you re a god cuz you ve realized that you could transcend emotion and everything but you re just trash in the end at least that is how i feel xd | 1 |
frumph i d hug you too poor frumph | 0 |
je t ai sauv de la rue tu l a sauv de la d pression | 1 |
i cant eat over 00 calorie ori feel horrible and i lost kg in a few week but my parent didnt notice until recently now they scream at me wheneber i dont eat and threaten to kill me and throw sfuff at me im sitting in a cornee cry afzer my dad threw his bag at me and called me a disgusting skinny bitch my mom is now saying she ha arrhythmia because of my made up problem i have mo one to talk to i have no friend and feel like just killing myself | 1 |
just getting home it snowing | 0 |
in the big city he wa in depression and now please just look at his face this is the face of freedom this is the face of a big relief this is the face of an islander he always had been a mirror of our emotion and now seeing him like this just warms my heart | 1 |
i wish there wa a reddit thing for friendship breakup but since november 0 i ve been repeatedly crushed by a now ex best friend who i never wanted to let go of it s my fatal flaw forgiving ppl who don t deserve it i always get bitten in the as and never learn from it the manipulative people in my life have torn my down over and over and bc i m literally a fucking doormat i don t want to explain everything with this specific friend but part of what keep hurting me is that i see picture and am reminded of good memory we ve had and all of a sudden i miss them or i ll see picture from when i wa happy and i m brought to tear over the fact that i m convinced it s all my fault i wish i could delete my social medium and throw my phone into another galaxy but sometimes thing like snapchat and tik tok make me happy so then i don t do that why am i like this why do people walk away from me so easily why do i let those people in just for them to walk out again | 1 |
people freak out when i tell them i m going to commit suicide | 1 |
stephendon i just cant commit the time though my play time isnt the same a everyone el | 0 |
ha insomnia and a headache | 0 |
nmcgivney yeah ploughed around there last night but nothing happening | 0 |
need a mouse look like my lappy s touch pad is giving up na http plurk com p n0ni | 0 |
maddyva thanks a lot learned a lot of new word but didn t find what i wa looking for | 0 |
greaaat my lappy won t turn on wtffffff | 0 |
when you feel depressed what s thing you do to make yourself feel better depression depressiontreatment positiveimpact positivevibesonly positivepsychology behappy behappyandsmile http t co yfiojfbwz | 1 |
i feel trapped and like there s no way out everything feel like shit i went through ton of family and mental health issue but i soldiered on and i got my college diploma in social science and my bachelor degree in sociology i wa on the dean s list i worked my as off through mental illness and exhaustion and i m in thousand of dollar debt i did everything people told me to do keep going get a degree take out loan and now i can t find a fucking job that doesn t pay total shit public transit is beyond atrocious i just have 0k debt staring at me in the face every time i open my bank app i ve applied to hundred of job hundred of job my brother want me to go back to school and get more debt more fucking debt he want me to leave my boyfriend and move to another province i can t talk to him about my issue because every time that s all he suggests same with my best friend my dad life in a tiny town in newfoundland and make shit wage my mom life somewhere in ontario and ha made no effort to help me out despite not getting to see me grow up due to a nasty divorce i have no will left i m afraid i m gon na snap and go crazy i try really really hard to be positive but it s really hard to keep it up i feel like i m in one of those trap where the wall are slowing squishing you until you die please doe anyone have any advice anyone i m dying my hope is fading so fast | 1 |
wish i wa on the spring fling tour with dawn amp neecee sigh g knight | 0 |
i m gon na lay down and count my breath until i fall asleep wooo lol it s cuddle day today i need someone to cuddle with | 0 |
flawless why did my baby have to eat prune today and now he finally went my poor baby | 0 |
susanstn opps still unable to dm you at the moment maybe twitter bug after the maintenance | 0 |
all these crazy pollen tree in washington state are making my sinus go crazy | 0 |
vip guest today quot blohheeee i hate it | 0 |
want a polaroid camera | 0 |
ewarden you may have to email this one to me i hope you feel better | 0 |
yeah once i m alone i get so so depressed i ve only been at home for a day because it s my off day and i m already feeling like shit like there s nothing to look forward to i would opt to go out but i don t have money for it to be a good day with friend i know that there are thing we can do that doesn t require money but food is a necessity and i can t really go out without spending on food i d go to a friend s house but i only have one friend who s house is always available but she life too far away it s really hard to realise that the only thing keeping me sane is distraction like work i try to be more involved with my family but they always make me feel like shit i try to reach out to my friend but they re always busy signing up for cool class like yoga or pottery or whatever would help me meet new people but it cost money and plus i work hr day a week it s hard to spare time and my adhd causing me time blindness doe not help at all like yeah i have free day but when you count in the hour i spend having executive dysfunction or procrastinating it s basically nothing i can t relax for shit when i m on my own it s hard to reach out to people when they don t take whatever i feel seriously i just wish they cared enough to reach out and be willing to spend some time with me even if we don t have money i hate being alone so much fyi i am on an internship and i m being paid 0 a month and my family is not financially stable | 1 |
so why are depressed people so lazy the first thing to realize is that fighting depression is a full time job depressed people sleep a lot because their brain get tired from fighting negative thought and feeling all day | 1 |
so i know i shouldn t because everyone experience anxiety differently but my social anxiety really hinders my ability to socialize and a a result i really can not currently build up the courage to have even basic social interaction sometimes i hear very popular people with ton of friend say that they have social anxiety or have no friend and it just make me angry inside or social medium influencers it s like i m mad because my social anxiety hinders me from doing what they do | 1 |
wet hair in my eye | 0 |
bunkern 0 korpkvinnan chrissiesth haha vi betalar mer skatt n dig du kan aldrig g till ett sjukhus elr apotek utan att se os d r vi ger typ alla restauranger medan du r sjukanm ld pga ngest och depression | 1 |
people think i am i m attitude no dude i am alone i am in depression i am in overthinking | 1 |
she added i m also emotional because i know this will spiral me back to depression yet she put it out here woke generation and b this one two want to be respected like this | 1 |
i feel like i ve got no energy left to give or to keep up appearance like even responding to folk when they ask simple question feel like lifting a 00lb weight i m exhausted and can t handle the thought of any kind of interaction i m so lonely but so utterly worn out from being anxious to manage the effort can anyone relate | 1 |
geez what a busy afternoon meeting email meeting and email and more meeting pm and the day is still going ah it dark and | 0 |
my teef hurt | 0 |
my baby s heading for perth | 0 |
ladyerlynne awwww you could always post in the transfig classroom with sharmila | 0 |
it april stop snowing | 0 |
we are doing free personalised moon reading comment me if you re interested | 1 |
i need to talk to a professional but i can t bring myself to trust they won t just throw bullshit med at me until i m numb and addicted i just need to talk and explain why my brain doe what it doe and how i can navigate around pill for a solution someone with more insight than a prescription pad | 1 |
being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina 00 | 1 |
now i m kind of sad after all the bullshit i found out | 0 |
mo job no money how in the hell is min wage here f n clam an hour | 0 |
darkened jade yep work started badly and ha gone rapidly downhill story of my life to be honest | 0 |
odannygirl oh yes i have quot road rash quot all over my hip lovely ay i so rock | 0 |
i totally forgot we were going to do fisheye night what u doing thursday btw i m so late with the hill lol | 0 |
don t go into depression because of fun you assumed others are having everybody just dey lie | 1 |
so today i had a public presentation in school which is my worst nightmare i got really sweaty shaky and at the end i felt like i wa having a seizure everyone eventually notice and the teacher finally stop the presentation and i had to sit down to not pas out on the spot i have almost fainted during presentation before however not at this level this wa hour ago and i ve felt so freaking exhausted since it happening and i m so embarrassed i am taking medication for anxiety and depression | 1 |
i wan na bash my head against the wall till my brain fall out i m so exhausted i hate myself for the mistake i ve made i hate myself i wish i could start over again and not be such a fucking idiot why why did it have to go this way | 1 |
nothinn nothing on tv maybe they ve run out of program | 0 |
well we unfortunately have mouse and been trapping a few but i dropped my phone where the mouse have been tho no mouse shit then i remembered no lysol wipe i mean i m good right not gon na transfer anything lol like idk i also smoke and worried about germ transfer | 1 |
he ha cheated on me in the past we are working on making thing smooth he is tryig to be open and transparent which previously he didnt do i can see the difference in him he know i m a very paranoid being and with my anxiety i do become impulsive just about thinking him being around girl i even asked him to not go but he said he is just going there for fun and not to be around girl if there wa something fishy i wouldn t have even said you about girl being there the cheating part ha left me being an over thinker and paranoid or controlling person i know i have to give some space in the relationship and try n trust him more but most of the time i act out of impulsiveness the intrusive thought of past thing he did keep running through my mind all day and when i have these flashback i feel this rage and fit of anger and i think i shouldn t be with him because of the hurt he caused i think to myself i wouldn t talk to him for sometime or so but i can t be away from him it s like i m betraying myself the person he cheated on me with is a family friend so there is a high chance i might meet this person if i go around in any of party involving my bfs family the thought if just make me go crazy i know my bf is also at fault i feel the anger towards him a well how do i handle this with maturity tl dr i wa cheated on by my bf we both are working on it we are looking at this relationship for a long term one so there isn t breaking up involved and that is not an option so we are trying to work on it but the person he cheated on me with is a family friend so there is a high chance i might meet this person if i go around in any of party involving my bfs family the thought if just make me go crazy i know my bf is also at fault i feel the anger towards him a well how do i handle this with maturity i have also become very impulsive and a paranoid person i regard to the relationship | 1 |
it ll take day for my sister to get her passport | 0 |
cahmo done condone nonsense in your marriage oo that s how most woman slip into depression your life must not revolve around your man them no born two of una together if he love and respect you he won t drag you in the poteaux poteaux | 1 |
no electricity today so no tweet | 0 |
waiting waiting waiting for a phone call that may mean i can actually sleep at night but then again | 0 |
not this werey playing the depression card | 1 |
i m just so scared of the future i m making specific scenario of me getting hurt by someone i love and each time it usually end up with me wanting to or actually killing myself i say i don t want to kill my self at the moment but what about the future | 1 |
nevada is really long and the gas pump are down but on a good note i just won in a slot machine i love to gamble | 0 |
having mirror in a house doesn t help with depression | 1 |
why do i keep looking i know that what i read is gon na hurt but i still look i guess it s just a girl thing | 0 |
ive always been extremely considerate for people need even sacrificing my own for the sake of their need always just never telling the full picture or always refraining from saying certain thing a i do not want to offend people i just never get that level of consideration back not even half of it i must be a prick asking for this stuff i shouldnt expect anything for being kind but it always suck when you always get the short end of the stick always ignored no one give a shit not even from redditors though ive met some pretty kind one but the others are honestly garbage i remember i once typed something about killing myself and some random person messaged me sayinng that they want me to buy something for them a i anyways would not stay here for long that wa a year ago on this subreddit there wa a deleted comment in that post but i guess it wa the person who messaged me that one year ago ready to kill myself and here we are a year later and no progress with that i also remember another dude who said tick tock when i mentioned about killing myself not in this subreddit but from the trueoffmychest one i honestly fucking wonder why im even here ive amounted to almost nothing im tired of caring or expecting any form of love ive had so much copium in my entire life that i just never realised that no one really give a shit about me and im just dangling on a fucking thread that just wont fucking break cuz im a coward who secretly want to live but just want this fucing contant pain misery and dissappointment to just go away for once in my miserable life tldr fuck everything and everyone goodbye and goodnight | 1 |
my life wa so promising and happy once that one thing left and i feel like i ll never get my innocence back i ve been on a constant stat of high alert and now i m burnt out i have no motivation heavily fatigued no matter how much sleep i get nothing seems worth it anymore | 1 |
i wish people didnt give up on me so quickly because of how shy i am i wish they didnt view me a cold or mean because i never knew what to say so i just kept to myself i wish people didnt call me weird because i find it difficult to make eye contact i wish i didnt have to mask myself and pretend to be someone im not for the sake of fitting in i wish when my brother returned home from the military after year i had remembered how to properly communicate with him we seem like stranger now i wish i had been able to make friend even friend i wish i were able to get a girlfriend whats the meaning of life if you can t spend your time with someone you love i wish i didnt have autism i feel so isolated i feel so alone worst of all i know there is absolutely nothing i can do about it there are no pill for autism only mediocre therapy session to remind you of how different you are from those around you i cant do this anymore living like this is hell | 1 |
i just want the pain to end | 1 |
i had a extravagant yet time conserving plan lined up for today which ive now forgotten | 0 |
the hoyts distribution nz website isn t working for me great and it ha to be like this when i need it most | 0 |
simonekali get me an autograph and shout out you have to record it though my computer is dead so i can t listen | 0 |
is sad because there wa another earthquake in italy | 0 |
a blackened sky encroached tugging behind it my depression | 1 |
alexbigman you left without saying hi | 0 |
fighting the urge to withdraw from everyone so i can be on my weird solo depression phase in peace | 1 |
i struggle to get the thing people take for granted my whole school life ha been extremely terrible and i used to get bullied very badly back in kindergarten and some of middle school im in highschool now and i have like no friend only acquaintance i dont go to the nice place that normal people go to for example never went to a waterpark never had a night out or went to the mall with friend or classmate never went to disneyland when i wa a kid never went on a mall shopping spree i ve only ever been too the mall twice in my whole life and i didn t even see all of the mall never went to dave and buster never went to an aquarium never had a female friend 9 never even had a casual conversation with a girl 0 no gift for christmas no gift for my birthday no friend no one to talk to and a million more thing that are normal for childhood i didn t experience that my childhood i dont even want to start on that i used to live in poverty in a room tiny house with a cracked wall and insect because my dad left u my dad left the house when i wa some month old and he took the car and drove slut in it regardless i wanted to speak to him i still visited him and forgave him but then he asked if i wanted to live with him in a bigger nicer country with more opportunity i said yes i experienced true mental torment in that house and the worst part is i didnt even know i thought my parent were the victim because they brainwashed me so much about some thing that i still sometimes struggle if i should believe them or not in that house i wa brainwashed to the point where i couldnt even think for myself i couldnt tell what wa true i couldnt think anything for myself i experienced some not good thing they said i can visit my mom in her country and they pick me up in day to go back to the airport waited day waited a whole week they never came they left me and abandoned me and just left me in some other country and fyi that country is one of the poorest one in my area the house im at now with my mom my sister grandma and uncle isnt perfect in fact sometimes i feel like im losing my mind there they re pretty creepy sometimes except for one of my uncle in the house they dont have any malicious intent or anything but i just dont want to get into it right now im a few pound overweight and almost got an eating disorder it not even my fault that im fat my mom said it because i took a medicine when i wa little and it had a side effect of weight gain i literally eat 0x le than a normal person i dont even eat breakfast like 99 of the time on school day i used to get bullied shitless for my weight no social life no friend thats another depression aswell more ticked off the board no big deal my life so far ha been full of depressing thing so something like this doesnt seem that big anymore this is only 0 of my life s shitness if i went into everything then id prob have to spend like and a half hour typing my life ha just been an absolute mess and what you saw my post is just a fraction of my life so far person trauma is just a small fraction of mine those people who ha a dark phase probably had a good phase they had a normal life and they at least had a period in their life where they were happy i just want to enjoy my life is that too much to ask i feel so jealous of those people who can live a normal life in a normal nice house with story with friend with people to talk to my life ha just been bullshit after bullshit | 1 |
mizzzidc imagine what you d do to someone else if you can actually say this rubbish to ur mom and you re so proud of posting this shit damn you re the biggest bastard i ve ever seen in my entire life damn make depression kill you dia you good for nothing daughter ewu fool nama | 1 |
early morning meeting | 0 |
man utd star paul pogba open up on depression battle paul pogba ha http t co qjhmdticll open pogba http t co djmrhqlit | 1 |
i m just a complete mess right now | 1 |
i just set up a twitter profile for one of my colleague and noticed he s got a much more swish sidebar how do i get that | 0 |
is there anyone i can talk to just for a while | 1 |
i feel like i m comfortable with death more because i m comfortable with the uncertainty that come with it do any of you ever experience death anxiety how do you think it impact you also lowkey in need of any advice to deal with this better | 1 |
is in study hall now and i will log off immediately http plurk com p mzxbg | 0 |
my nokia 0 died | 0 |
bostongarden i miss bentley | 0 |
so i have struggled with anxiety and depression due to complex ptsd since i wa young i f went to counseling for year in my teen and also medically managed my disorder with medication i am still taking a hefty dose of an ssri and have been maintaining my anxiety and depression fairly well while going through college transitioning to adulthood i recently in the past day have started having uncontrollable anxiety that ha led into the worst panic attack i ve had in over 0 year i wa so worked up that i brought myself to the er for help because i wa so scared and eventually exhausted myself out in the waiting room i m am still having serious anxiety and have managed to be functional but with how high my anxiety level are i could be back in the state i wa yesterday and i don t want to do that my current plan is to set myself up with a new therapist to get help and to discus my medication with my doctor unfortunately that can t happen overnight so i m the meantime i am asking for your advice on coping mechanism way to calm yourself down or out of a panic attack i normally use rational thought to try and bring myself down walking outside will help a bit deep breathes listening to music meditation etc these haven t been working recently and i m looking to learn amp find newer tactic in the short term while finding professional help i know that what is triggering this is a large life transition coming up and it s not something that s going away any time soon so i can t just avoid it to reduce my anxiety thank you | 1 |
i think i ll try tonight i ll go on a late night walk and accidentally trip in front of a car that way if i fail i won t have to deal with all the shit | 1 |
oh wtf house not cool | 0 |
argh opened my crisp upside down i hate that | 0 |
perruchee peteblacklab her dog had a phantom pregnancy and after her depression my auntie decided to breed her and only sell puppy to people she knew so the mumma dog will still see them http t co jvhtisc sf | 1 |
driving to my parent and chilling with them well the sun is shining but i don t feel so well today | 0 |
can t sleep i don t like sonny being gone | 0 |
laying in bed bored decided to open some of my old playlist on spotify started to listen to some song that my ex sent me the one we used to listen together all night i haven t listened to these song or any song of the one i used to love since we broke up i don t know what made me dig up this pain also there s a playlist she made specially for me but i don t dare to open it it s like i just opened the pandora s box of sadness and depression | 1 |
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