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“Poor girl!” he said, looking at the empty corner where she had
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sat--“She will come to herself and weep, and then her mother will find
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out.... She will give her a beating, a horrible, shameful beating and
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then maybe, turn her out of doors.... And even if she does not, the
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Darya Frantsovnas will get wind of it, and the girl will soon be
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slipping out on the sly here and there. Then there will be the hospital
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directly (that’s always the luck of those girls with respectable
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mothers, who go wrong on the sly) and then... again the hospital...
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drink... the taverns... and more hospital, in two or three years--a
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wreck, and her life over at eighteen or nineteen.... Have not I seen
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cases like that? And how have they been brought to it? Why, they’ve all
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come to it like that. Ugh! But what does it matter? That’s as it should
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be, they tell us. A certain percentage, they tell us, must every year
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go... that way... to the devil, I suppose, so that the rest may remain
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chaste, and not be interfered with. A percentage! What splendid words
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they have; they are so scientific, so consolatory.... Once you’ve said
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‘percentage’ there’s nothing more to worry about. If we had any other
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word... maybe we might feel more uneasy.... But what if Dounia were one
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of the percentage! Of another one if not that one?
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“But where am I going?” he thought suddenly. “Strange, I came out for
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something. As soon as I had read the letter I came out.... I was going
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to Vassilyevsky Ostrov, to Razumihin. That’s what it was... now I
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remember. What for, though? And what put the idea of going to Razumihin
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into my head just now? That’s curious.”
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He wondered at himself. Razumihin was one of his old comrades at the
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university. It was remarkable that Raskolnikov had hardly any friends at
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the university; he kept aloof from everyone, went to see no one, and did
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not welcome anyone who came to see him, and indeed everyone soon gave
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him up. He took no part in the students’ gatherings, amusements or
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conversations. He worked with great intensity without sparing himself,
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and he was respected for this, but no one liked him. He was very poor,
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and there was a sort of haughty pride and reserve about him, as though
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he were keeping something to himself. He seemed to some of his comrades
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to look down upon them all as children, as though he were superior in
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development, knowledge and convictions, as though their beliefs and
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interests were beneath him.
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With Razumihin he had got on, or, at least, he was more unreserved and
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communicative with him. Indeed it was impossible to be on any other
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terms with Razumihin. He was an exceptionally good-humoured and candid
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youth, good-natured to the point of simplicity, though both depth and
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dignity lay concealed under that simplicity. The better of his comrades
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understood this, and all were fond of him. He was extremely intelligent,
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though he was certainly rather a simpleton at times. He was of striking
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appearance--tall, thin, blackhaired and always badly shaved. He was
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sometimes uproarious and was reputed to be of great physical strength.
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One night, when out in a festive company, he had with one blow laid
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a gigantic policeman on his back. There was no limit to his drinking
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powers, but he could abstain from drink altogether; he sometimes went
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too far in his pranks; but he could do without pranks altogether.
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Another thing striking about Razumihin, no failure distressed him, and
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it seemed as though no unfavourable circumstances could crush him. He
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could lodge anywhere, and bear the extremes of cold and hunger. He was
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very poor, and kept himself entirely on what he could earn by work of
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one sort or another. He knew of no end of resources by which to earn
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money. He spent one whole winter without lighting his stove, and used to
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declare that he liked it better, because one slept more soundly in
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the cold. For the present he, too, had been obliged to give up the
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university, but it was only for a time, and he was working with all his
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might to save enough to return to his studies again. Raskolnikov had
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not been to see him for the last four months, and Razumihin did not even
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know his address. About two months before, they had met in the street,
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but Raskolnikov had turned away and even crossed to the other side that
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he might not be observed. And though Razumihin noticed him, he passed
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him by, as he did not want to annoy him.
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CHAPTER V
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“Of course, I’ve been meaning lately to go to Razumihin’s to ask for
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work, to ask him to get me lessons or something...” Raskolnikov thought,
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“but what help can he be to me now? Suppose he gets me lessons, suppose
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he shares his last farthing with me, if he has any farthings, so that
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I could get some boots and make myself tidy enough to give lessons...
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hm... Well and what then? What shall I do with the few coppers I
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earn? That’s not what I want now. It’s really absurd for me to go to
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Razumihin....”
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The question why he was now going to Razumihin agitated him even more
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than he was himself aware; he kept uneasily seeking for some sinister
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significance in this apparently ordinary action.
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“Could I have expected to set it all straight and to find a way out by
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means of Razumihin alone?” he asked himself in perplexity.
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He pondered and rubbed his forehead, and, strange to say, after long
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musing, suddenly, as if it were spontaneously and by chance, a fantastic
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thought came into his head.
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“Hm... to Razumihin’s,” he said all at once, calmly, as though he had
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reached a final determination. “I shall go to Razumihin’s of course,
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but... not now. I shall go to him... on the next day after It, when It
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will be over and everything will begin afresh....”
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And suddenly he realised what he was thinking.
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