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i regret not telling her how i feel i really like this girl i write notes about how i feel about her and what i admire about her into an app on my phone i have had a crush on her since the 8th grade and in a few days she is moving to her college the likelihood of me ever seeing her again is not likely i will back up a bit basically i have never really been good with talking to people even now i prefer emails or texts to calls and i loathe having to socialize with her it is somewhat different she is funny and has a beautiful personality i like talking to her a lot but even still i will only be myself with her if it is just her and we are in the car together or something like that anyways we never really talked in high school due to different classes different friends etc and i saw her with this guy once last fall and it made me super jealous but since around march we have become much better friends so as i m writing this she is just left my house and is never gon na see me again so naturally i feel like garbage i wish really badly that i had just told her how i feel but then again she is way out of my league like cheerleader out of my league like popular kid out of my league i know why i did not say anything i m very insecure about my body and i can be pretty delusional but even i do not really see a chance for me i really wish i knew what the outcome would have been if i had just gone ahead and told her technically it is not absolutely over i m sure she will come back to town for breaks and i might still see her in the next few days not sure what to do or how to feel i know i do not own her and i know i do not deserve clarity | regret |
i did not take the chance to attend attend a q and a with a holocaust survivor it was in high school it was a small intimate setting too because it was in the library and only people who wanted to attend were there i did not go because to attend you had to write a paper about it and i did not want the extra work i was just being lazy and i regret not taking a pretty special opportunity that i might never get again since the remaining survivors are all elderly and only getting older | regret |
i can not even pretend being interested anymore when my son talks to me i m26 was 15 when i had my son he is now 11 and it is become a chore being around or even talking to him i m constantly having to remind him to do things because he forgets even after i have just told him when he does do things it is so half arsed that i have to finish it off or sort it out we have never been close even from young i found it hard being around him i know it may sound bad but he makes me feel uncomfortable he ll walk into a room and hug me for no reason and it makes my skin crawl he stands in doorways staring for no reason and when asked what hes doing he says nothing and just walks off he ll try to dap me at random times and stares at me it honestly makes me feel so awkward i have tried so many times to connect with him we ll play games together or go out to eat or do some activities and nothing helps i do not know if i can carry on with this | regret |
i fucked up i m new here and i m abt to say smthn i m most likely going to regret a few yrs ago i did not understand what the n word meant and my guess was that you could n t call someone of colour the wordclearly i was wrong i said it in a sentence joking abt how i could call my white friend that word but not my friend of colour that one friend spread the news quickly and that is when i found out what it rlly meant if u knew me now u would think i m one of the least racist ppl i tried to tell ppl i did not know what the word meant but they did not buy that i m going back to school in less than a week and i m scared what ppl r gon na think of me any advice | regret |
My ocd is acting up and I think I'm annoying ðÃÂæà| guilt |
i can not seem to completely get rid of the fixation i have on the body type and aesthetics of my ex girlfriend and it is been almost 2 years i m dating someone new who is otherwise wonderful sweet conscientious decent bod great smile bubbly and i do not make comparisons but i still find myself yearning for the tall long legged great boobed great assed woman i dated for a few years i m pretty tall 6 3 so being able to date a woman who is like 5 11 is a special treat i find myself waking up sometimes fantasizing about having sex with her or playing with her naked body or her reaching for my junk or slowly sliding her head down my torso while lying down on the way to kiss it but making her way there real slow to build up anticipation i still whisper her name seemingly involuntarily under my breath sometimes needless to say she was sooooo good to kiss andor have sex with it is impossible but i wish i could keep her around even if it was a once a year type meeting she just had a birthday and it is been pretty bad we do not talk almost ever but i did text her a happy birthday no response reddit the memory of the sheer presence of that woman haunts me and will not let go we are both dating other people but this is still difficult note i saw her on and off for over 10 years which might be what is complicating things she is probably the only 1010 at least in my head that i will ever get to date | regret |
When I could not complete my assignment on time. | guilt |
My roommate got married and invited me to share a flat with them. ÃÂá
But with a young couple there should not be a third person. I am ÃÂá
to blame for not following the advise of the others, but it is ÃÂá
not late still. | guilt |
met a cool guy at a concert we got separated and i regret not getting his number or making plans of some sort our conversation was fun and the fact that i will never see him again makes me pretty bummed i hope he has a good rest of his life | regret |
One time I felt guilty when I told one of my previous boyfriends ÃÂá
we were through just because I never felt like having one at that ÃÂá
particular time. | guilt |
A small story of moi! So letâÃÂÃÂs start off by saying that I was someone who wanted to fit in, I was mean, I gossiped, I did whatever I could to fit in with the crowd, I was desperate to have friends. But I realized in later years that I feel ashamed and regret it all. I didnâÃÂÃÂt want to gossip about others but I did it anyways cause everyone I wanted to hang out with did. I never fitted in, I was different from everyone. My âÃÂÃÂfriendsâÃÂàwould ditch me for other people and talk behind my back yet IâÃÂÃÂll be the one apologizing. I learned that I shouldnâÃÂÃÂt be doing things I donâÃÂÃÂt want to do and say things I donâÃÂÃÂt mean. Later I completely shut myself out from drama and found new friends every chance I could. I couldnâÃÂÃÂt find decent friends until last year. Everyone friend that IâÃÂÃÂve had showed me that they werenâÃÂÃÂt to be trusted or even stay near. I had told a friend that I cut and she saw it one day and laughed at me. Laughed because I drew something with my cuts. She laughed....I felt so hurt but I laughed along with her....i didnâÃÂÃÂt know how to react. My friends have all bitched behind my back one way or another so I really only have one friend I actually share things with while everyone else is just people I talk to. Moral of the story: Everyone has a reason to be mean or whatever. For me it was because I wanted to fit in and just be accepted and liked so I would lie and gossip. Just know that everyone has a reason for the way they act. Just try to understand their side of things before lashing out or doing anything you think you might regret. Ty for reading this all and sorry itâÃÂÃÂs sooooo long! I hope youâÃÂÃÂll have a nice day/night! | guilt |
i m ashamed my friend had a disabled brother who we would all known had deteriorated in condition but i was on the opposite side of the country in college i deleted my social media all of it in the weeks leading up to exams so i never saw any posts about nor did any friends from home tell me that her brother died i heard about it a week later from a friend when i came down a few days ago i can not believe no one told me i would have been there with our group for her if i had known i can not believe no one told me i can not believe i was not there i m genuinely ashamed i would have walked straight of the exam hall had i known i would have walked from sligo back to the hills if i would known i can not belive no one told me i m so sorry i was not there i can not imagine the thought that the worst happened to a friend and i was in the category of those who did not care enough to go ims o sorry | regret |
ranting i completely romanticized the idea of being a mom and i feel like a complete dumbass for it i had no plans on being a mom anytime soon when i got pregnant i had false expectations of motherhood i just wish i would have thought this through now i feel trapped and miserable every day | regret |
IâÃÂÃÂm sorry.... IâÃÂÃÂm a failure... the world hates me with a burning passion and IâÃÂÃÂd be better off dead
Sorry for bothering you | guilt |
i regret never going to concerts of my favorite bands when i was a teenager i always was that shy and unsure kid and i never had the courage to go to concerts and just enjoy the moment i listened to some really great bands and even after 12 and more years i still listen to their songs sometimes i m listening to them right now aswell 1am for me lying in bed and i m seriously sad cuz they re no longer active so i will never have the chance to experience these people live that influenced my life with their music it was all i wanted as a kid and i still want it to this day but it is just never gon na happen always live your dreams guys life is not waiting for you | regret |
I procrastinated again ðÃÂÃÂÃÂ
Oopsies | guilt |
i should not have broken up with him it is been 9 months since it is happened i thought i did not love him anymore so i broke up with him we talked yesterday as per my request to get closure i thought i was over him but talking to him after such a long time reignited some feelings in me why am i so inconsistent with love rhetorical question i regret breaking up with him | regret |
I think I f****ed up. Sorry | guilt |
I've been distancing myself from friends lately, and now I feel like I'm bothering them | guilt |
i feel regret not going for her even tho i know i should not is this even a normal feeling to have recently i had a wide open opportunity to go for this dime of a girl but i did not take it i did not even have to do any of the work with her she was coming on to me and making it very easy i flirted with her and showed her i was interested but certain factors held me back from taking things further than that i knew her long enough to witness all these play out in front of me she had really bad habits i noticed that she lied a lot when there was no reason to lie gossiped too much about others smoked way too much weed weeds not the problem but skipping responsibilities to smoke weed is she was always surrounded by some sort of unnecessary drama with other girls and she chilled with a kind of crowd that i knew was not a good influence other than all that she was great but events happen to where we were separated and just stopped talking never caught her last name so i did not know how to look her up but now this thought is popping in my head i should have went for her anyways despite the bad parts she would not have brought me down but i do not want to feel regretful not going for her because i really think there was a good chance she could ve been a bad influence on me and even tho i know this i still feel regretful so maybe part of me does not think that it just does not make sense why am i feeling like this | regret |
mini update 6 i m confused quick recap i m a 12 year old male abusive father abusive teachers lots of work regret moving to this school wanting to move and a bit of suicidal thoughts sprinkled in there update hey i m back for a little mini updateso i was just researching about the school i plan to move to cause i thought it was near the midterm exam but then i found a paper on there website that seems like they just started teaching cause there was talk about parents meeting teachers online and i thought that is weird i thought all schools were supposed to start teaching about a month ago and then i saw the date for the meeting and it was in late november so right now i m very confused is this supposed to be for next year s students cause that would make sense for next years students to meet teachers now but right now they re still accepting so why would they start meetings now who do you guys think this is for is this for the current students or next year s students | regret |
girl i like i understand i m 13 so you might just say hormones or something but i have never liked a girl at my school i hit puberty a while ago it is not the start something about me just i always found the need to find some one perfect and she is perfect been waiting years and she just hit the spot but i never have and still dont have the courage to ask her out trying to get closer to her to get me confident enough but its hard not to get awkward around her since it is the first girl i have liked | regret |
I will admit that I'm little bit mad from last week but I will try to control my angry. | guilt |
I'm sorry for comparing you to tate. I didn't mean to you. I know you cant help the shit you do. I couldn't stop the flash back. I didn't mean to say I'm done. I love you so much i can't lose you blade.
Im so fucking sorry
I love you so God damn much.. | guilt |
venting tw sa i m just posting because i looked around and could find any similar post does anyone have a child that came from sa i was sa about 4 12 years ago by my then husband i did not know what to do at the time i was very young and had little support so i had the baby i love them no doubt would do anything for them but i can not help but feel resentful sometimes i m remarried now and older i m happy but i still have my abuser in my life because of my child i only text him he lives in a different state and i have custody in regards to my child he is remarried and happy which is fine i guess i just wished he was unhappy and miserable because he literally ruined my life i have ptsd from our relationship because i was sa more than once by him i have told some people close to me but i do not think they believe me and it just makes me feel worse i wish he was not in my life at all i wish i could move past this and be happy but some days i can not even move and sometimes i can not look at my kid | regret |
sorry i was fat . | guilt |
Two timing - going out with 2 guys at once (secretly). | guilt |
had the chance to stop a potential child predator and creep at the very least i used to date this girl that had a huge problem with how polite i was to people in public because she thought i was trying to showboat in front of her and being fake nice could not be further from the truth i m the type of guy to pull out the chair for a girl for her to sit at a restaurant and be respectful to anybody in public unless they give me a reason not to nothing to do with being fake i was just raised to be this way one day we went out for lunch and and her and i are sitting on a bench and there is a teenage girl sitting on the bench opposite us a random man walks by looking sketch to begin with some sunglasses hoodie up and he is holding a camera as he is walking by us i see him sneakily point the camera at the girl s private parts on the opposite bench of ours and hear multiple clicks of the camera i look at the girl who he just took that picture of and she sawheard the same thing i did and had a look of disgustdiscomfort on her face from the act i got up and asked the guy hey what d you take that picture of and he hid the camera in his hoodie and started walking away very fast when i went to go after him to ask him to show me the picture on his camera i was 23 at the time and in very good shape i could easily catch up to and make this man comply my girlfriend started throwing a fit at me telling me not to go after him that i m just tryna start shit and show off to her and that other girl on the bench like i m some big macho man one of the most regretful moments of my life was here where i gave in to her demands and did not go after the guy to see what he took that picture of the girl on the bench was no older than 16 and i could have stopped a potential child predator andor creeper photoing random women s privates in public i pussed out because my moronic girlfriend thought i m showboating to her i should have not only stopped the creep checked his camera and called the cops but i should have broken up with her on the spot because we clearly had different values jokes on me because she ended up cheating on me too | regret |
CAN U SAY IF YOU'RE OKAY WITH ME OR NOT AND JUST BE CLEAR ABT IT | guilt |
When I forgot to cook something that my mother had told me to, ÃÂá
and at supper time the food that I was supposed to have prepared ÃÂá
was not there. | guilt |
Gosh I feel dumb... I've been wanting to say something for days now but I can't... It's too "silly"... Why am I feeling this way now?... Why couldn't it have been before?... My emotions are so confused!!! | regret |
:((( well there goes that | guilt |
i regret that i never got to know my grandpa growing up my grandparents lived halfway across country and so i rarely saw them i could probably count on one hand the amount of times i remember seeing my grandpa since he passed about 5 years ago my grandma has moved closer and i have had more chances to visit with her i asked her about him and from her stories i realized that i never knew what an amazing guy my grandpa was there are so many things that i think we would have enjoyed talking about and doing together i m beating myself up for never taking what opportunities i had to get to know him better they lived over a thousand miles away and i was a dumb clueless kid so i suppose i should not be too hard on myself still though now that i m older and know more about him i wish i had the chance to spend even just one day with him but the chance to do that is long gone now one bright spot though it did seem to make my grandma happy talking about him she told so many stories beyond what i asked i think she was glad to have the chance to share her memories of him | regret |
One night I did not come home without telling my parents and I ÃÂá
did not want to speak about it afterwards. My mother cried. I had ÃÂá
a bad conscience and felt guilty. | guilt |
i regret this online relationship i m 16f and i just broke up with my online boyfriend we met on a game i was playing with my other online friend he was very funny so i decided to add him and so we all played together off and on for a few weeks when my other friend convinced me to get discord i thought it would be fun to talk to them so i did all was good and we were all just chatting in our gc until one day we were playing our game and the boyfriendfriend at the time jokingly said oh would you date me i laughed and said probably now heres some more context up to this point my parents did not know i talked on this game let alone i had any discord i told my online friends all of this including my boyfriend so then we started dating im not saying this guy was mean or anything he was very nice and when we were in a group call once he turned on his camera so i knew he was not a 40 yr old man but i showed him my face and i told him my name not full name and the state i lived in one day i got caught by my parents talking to my friends while playing a game and they gave me a talk about never giving my name or information out to people and i said i will not that is when i started regretting everything i told the guy i was anxious and i think i could n t be with him anymore and he said he understood he said he deleted the pics of my face and that he stilled loved me then a week or so later i told him in deleting the app and i wanted him to forget about me he said he understands and he said he is sorry that he was gon na block me and unfriend me but he was doing it so i would not be anxious anymore i thought that was nice and we have not spoken since its been about 2 weeks but now i m still anxious about the fact i lied to my parents behind their backs and now i m worried i showed my face and told my name to a person i do not know granted he did the same and he was not mean it seemed like i do not know if i should tell my parents because they said they would never trust me again if i was lying to them and i do not wan na ruin my relationship with them because i have also lied in the past about other things i do not know if i should just keep this a secret forever and move on or tell them and have our relationship ruinedhave no trust anymore i badly need advice please | regret |
i regret losing my best friend i m do not know where else to put this but since regret is what i feel most this makes sense long story short over two years ago i made a comment to my best friend about how i thought she was cute i definitely had too much to drink and she is definitely married and i would not have ever said it had i been clear headed we moved past it or so we said but it escalated to the point where after several months we both had romantic feelings for each other nothing ever happened between us she wanted to possibly see if we could take a shot at a relationship but i was dating someone and also really hated the idea of her splitting her marriage up over me i could n t see a way out so i essentially ghosted her right when she was most vulnerable we have not spoken since october of 2018 but i think about her literally every day probably more than a dozen times a day and i miss her i refuse to allow myself to reach out to her but telling her she is cute is the biggest regret of my life | regret |
i am so sorry i was not good enough for you or this school . | guilt |
Losing my temper to my sister. | guilt |
i am sorry for everything . | guilt |
I felt guilty because of the pain I caused to a very close ÃÂá
friend. But over the feeling of guilt, my conviction of being ÃÂá
right dominated. | guilt |
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I'm not feeling so bad anymore and cheetor is cute ðÃÂÃÂà| guilt |
sui, selfh
cut cut cut i need to bleed i hurt her i hurt her i deserve to die die die die you filthy monster you worthless motherfucker you are useless in everything you do i fucking hate you do it do it she hates you she hates your soul you don't deserve anything but a bullet to the fucking head you worthless cunt | guilt |
i regret not holding my dads hand one last time so my dad died 6 years ago after a long battle with obesety and a nicotine addiction when he got sent to the hospital we got informed he had a problem with his gut and needed surgery after the surgery was done we visited him to say hi and see if he was doing ok after we went home and fell asleep my mom got woken up by her phone it was the hospital informing us he had just passed away they told us someone was just checking him and he was doing fine but when he came back 20 minutes later he was dead on the way to the hospital i dont think i had managed to realise he was acually dead it was first when i saw him i bursted into tears and wouldent stop crying then my mom asked me if i wanted to hold his hand before we drove home and i declined i still now 6 years later regret it sorry if its poorly written english is my second language and im on mobile | regret |
i regret not shooting my shot freshman year of hs i was talking pretty much all year to this one girl literally the most beautiful girl i have ever seen we got to the point where we would facetime daily and in my opinion it was pretty obvious we both liked each other we at one point even admitted to each other over text that we liked each other for some reason though i never had the confidence to do anything the next year i moved away and have not seen them since it is been over 2 years and i still am not fully over her and i wish i could go back in time and change it | regret |
I once stole a shirt from the Department Store in which I work. I ÃÂá
have been promoted to work in a very privileged section of the ÃÂá
store. Their belief in my integrity makes me feel even guiltier. | guilt |
regret my past so much can not get over regret all of highschool i was isolated and never went out i had really bad acne and felt that it prevented me from being myself went to college and my freshman year i got intensely bullied during this tule i was wearing makeup to hide the acne but did not want anyone to know i m a straight male i came down one day and was clearly wearing makeup which everyone pointed out instead of owning it i had a panic attack and said this girl put it on me the girl was not very attractive so i got bullied super bad for it i genuinely do not know what the fuck was wrong with me and why i was so insecure my acne was not even bad but it got really bad due to the makeup this was 2 years ago but i feel a huge sense of anger for letting everyone control my life everyone believes a humiliating lie that i told people forgot about it and do not really bring it up but it haunts me the year after that happened i joined a fraternity this is why people forgot because now i was cool the fraternity was a good experience but i eventually got severely depressed and went home started working out and never stopped the anger from the past has motivated me but it is also fueling a shit ton of regret i will lay in bed with an extreme sense of anger until i go to the gym or play basketball basketball was the sport that i got bullied in and want to make sure it never happens again i know that i need to address the anger from the past but feel consumed by it it helps me grind out in life but it also makes me extremely bitter and hateful i wish i knew who i was before going to college and needing to be bullied to realize my own self worth i need help | regret |
i regret being insecure about my weight i was not always overweight in middle school i turned it all around playing soccer football and riding bikes all day at the start of high school i began hanging out with my soccer team more after practice and games it was also the time i got a gym membership and began working out daily lifting weights and eating healthy i was a chubby kid and never felt comfortable wearing tight clothing and even when i lost all the weight tight clothing always felt very weird so i began wearing multiple layers of clothing oversized hoodie normal shirt workout shirt pants shorts boxers as a result i looked puffy and when everyone would change in the locker room i would feel uncomfortable and would try to hide away feeling weird about my body my friends then began joking that i was fat and overweight even if i was in better shape than them they would make fun of me i always stuck around with them and slowly began to accept in my mind i was fat and began to eat unhealthy foods larger portions stop playing soccer due to messing up once and stopped going to the gym regardless of the insults i still thought they were my friends i never listened to my family or best friend when they said i was not fat i graduated two years ago weighing around 170 and just not too long ago i looked at a picture with my now ex best friend where i looked great i m now at 233 i guess i have a long road ahead of me i should have listened to my family and ex best friend i should not have stuck with those guys they re not even in my life anymore | regret |
Not everyone gets the same version of me . | guilt |
not telling her how i feel when i was in high school i worked with this girl for about a yr we were both waiters at this little italian restaurant near the school i had a crush on her since i saw her sophmore yr junior yr i got the job not knowing she was there i was happy but she had a bf we had alot of great conversations in that little cozy romantic restaurant homecoming and prom came and went i pussed out and never asked her or told her how i felt even tho she was single then i just didnt think i was good enough and she was just the kind of person i wanted to be confident passionate and full of dreams anyway we both went to college and i havent seen her in 4yrs i still think about her when im with other girls sometimes without even trying to and ive had the same dream of my life with her many times over the yrs i had that dream recently and i just cant believe this still haunts me how do i get closure | regret |
confession of regret i sent an email to my ex and i have a ton of regrets about how we ended i think i have found my closure but it still hurts honestly i do not know what i m doing i just need some comfort i guess it just finally hit me and i bet she has moved on but fml why am i so emotional hay i have been doing a lot of thinking about you and me mostly me i know that i told you that i do not express myself really well and its hard for me to tell you how i have been feeling since our breakup i feel that this is the only way for me to get out these emotions i have tried to act cool but the truth is i love you with all my heart even though you saw what i wrote on my phone i am not excusing what i said i feel that there will never being another women like you in my life i know this is a little late to tell you but i still have to tell mainly because of the things that i have put you through these past 2 years starting with me not taking responsibility for me getting kicked out of school and you having to bear the burden of lying to my parents because i asked you to not to mention the times that i now look back on of putting my friends before you by going out and not giving you what you needed i know that now from looking back that you had been unhappy for a while i was just to blind to see it i understand that you need your space and that i will respect the fact that you might never want to see me again i can do this because its all on me and i just wanted to let you know that what ever your decision know matter what even if you find someone better than me a guy that will give you all the things that i never could i want you to know that i will always love you and be there for you you are and will always be my first true love | regret |
I was at school and afterwards went to work. After work I went to ÃÂá
see a friend and stayed out late. when I got home my mother was ÃÂá
awake and I felt guilty. | guilt |
I chatted up with a girl who I didn't love. She however was ÃÂá
fallen in love with me. I felt responsible for her sorrow. | guilt |
u jus call on me brother when you need a hand i jus might have a problem that youl understand | guilt |
regret not saying goodbye and leaving things on bad terms i met a boy when we were in middle school we became acquaintances and remained friendly all through high school when we both turned 18 we ended up working in the same restaurant for a short while him as a line cook and myself as a serverbartender he always gave me special treatment when i needed extra sides and sauces etc he was the kindest person i have ever met we got very close very quickly we were best friends about a year later after he d left for another job we started talking more and began dating we were only together for about 3 or 4 months he planned a beautiful date for my birthday taking me to a lake and setting up a little picnic he had me blindfolded the entire car ride he even coordinated with my best friend to throw me a surprise party for my 21st at his house unfortunately shortly after that i had some familial events occur that i needed to attend to and i did not think being in a relationship was what i needed at the time things kind of ended on the awkward side him asking why i left and me not really being able to give a direct answer i know it was killing him he had just told me he loved me and had given me the ring he was going to propose to me with attached to it was a note that said i love you this ring is meant for you i want you to it fast forward a year or so later i have moved to another state to be closer to family and a better job with talking to him here and there still friendly a couple months go by and i get the worst phone call of my life he is dead my best friend on the other end of the phone choking back tears tells me he is passed away in an awful car accident he flipped his car over the median of the highway and into oncoming traffic where cars collided with his and he died on the scene the last conversation we had was me telling him he needed to get his life together and figure out the smart route for him to take his funeral was about 2 weeks after his passing i could n t afford to fly back for his service and i do not think i will ever let myself live it down | guilt |
I took Pharmacology books from my friend's desk without ÃÂá
permission and I was found guilty. | guilt |
burnt out father my daughters mom is lazy when it comes to parenting always tried to over assert herself always bitches for a break gets annoyed when she says mom wyd or mom wake up and it is sad i been a stay at home dad since she was born drove from work early every night to b by her moms side cause she was afraid of needles and more im the one who changed all the diapers for 25 yrs wake up every night and still take my kid to school all while dealing with severe obstructive sleep apnea hypersomnia i nvr complain at all but it is times where i m like i love my kid soooo much but i do think how different my life woulda been my kids always with me n knows daddy is her best friend but at what point is fair fair i even tried goin back to wrk and every time she finds a way to make me feel guilty for missing out on my kid but nvr lets her know daddy has to work or he will see u afterwards not once do i bad mouth her but i get all the bullshit | regret |
I fucked up again with my relationship and a friendship I went and said fuck you to the both of them and tbh I feel like complete shit about it I don't know how to fix it because she's completely done with me and I fucked up and it was all my fault and I'm feeling so much sadness in my heart and it's eating me up inside I just can't fix it and to know this time you might be really gone fucking hurts | guilt |
why though why is life this big of a disappointment you d think that after allthe time humans have had on this planet we qould have it figured out i really feel like people kill themselves over rhis stuff | regret |
i havent told my psychiatrist abt how i tried to kms 4 months ago >_> | guilt |
i lost my best years i enlisted in highschool in the marines and i do not really care about it know i wanted a career in public service know i hate everyone and every thing i contemplate suicide a lot and my best years are hear but there waisted at a dead end job that controls way to much of my life i also have no job prospects in the future i feel absolutely hopeless and wan na did every day i go into work | regret |
I joined color guard at school because my friend wanted me to and there's only six people in it total and I kinda wanna quit but they need me because it's such a small group :// | guilt |
When I don't justify the confidence of people that I respect. | guilt |
At secondary school, one of my classmates lost her locker key. ÃÂá
During a class I saw two other classmates holding a key and ÃÂá
talking secretly. I do not know why I suspected them, also ÃÂá
another classmate supported me. He remembers that these people ÃÂá
had only one key in the key-ring, this had seemed strange to him. ÃÂá
Besides another classmate said that he had seen them selling ÃÂá
books at a book-shop and they should not have had such books. I ÃÂá
told the teacher and the person was caught. He had sold the ÃÂá
books and was forced to quit school. I found that I had not ÃÂá
helped him as he stole later on also. I felt guilty | guilt |
shemale regret so a few years ago i was high on cocaine cut with meth and drunk off liquor and wine it was 3am and i was mindlessly trying to find a female escort as the drugs had made me a perverse level of horny backpage had been disbanded and craigslist seemed to be the only option as i tried different numbers to no avail my amphetimine induced thirst for a sexual real ease increased i come across an ad for tranny escorts and mindlessly start browsing it barely even crosses my mind that these are literally people born male i m thinking hey it looks pretty much like a chick long story short i end up receiving oral sex from one who was semipassable at best and instantly regretted it even on the drugs i felt as if i would just done the most sick heinous act of my life this is no hate against gay or trans people i do not judge any of you all this was just something so personally gross to me though just remembering there mannerisms and off looking features i m not attracted to them at all i looked some up online again to try and make sense of what i was thinking and i get sick to my stomachs i just can not find anyway to justify it or make it less gross to me i feel like it ruined my life i have even felt suicidal at times i still manage to function i mean it was four years ago in day to day life have a girlfriend and all that but that experience will haunt me forever and i feel so scarred by what i did to myself i do not know how to get over it i know some people will say it is not a big deal and i made the decision so live with it but i was not in my right mind i know i made the decision to do drugs and all that but my mind was utterly not there when i did it it was like a demon was in me hands down that experience is horrible it is something i pray is buried in the grave with me i can only imagine if she came out of the shadows one day and tried to make a deal out of it and expose me or something i know it is kind of a rant but bottom line i need to find a way to put this behind me and forget about it i do not need the judgement and shade i already judge myself maybe just how i can overcome the lasting regret and anxiety from the situation | regret |
My sisters asked me to fetch them at a discotheque which is 5 km ÃÂá
off. There was a thick fog and snowfall. There was not enough ÃÂá
room in the car for all of them and they asked me to go there ÃÂá
once again. When I did not do that they had a way to make me feel ÃÂá
guilty. | guilt |
We owned a shop and I used to serve in it occasionally. We ÃÂá
sometimes took lollies out of the stand and Dad caught me one ÃÂá
day. | guilt |
i regret being me i feel like it was all me that ruined my relationship she definitely instigated sometimes but why can i only remember the stuff i did wrong i struggle so hard to remember the things she said and did my memory is completely fucked but when i think back to our earliest days i just realized if i was stronger not depressed able to communicate my feelings she would be next to me right now just spent the night crying in her old room i regret being me i regret being depressed and ruining everything after being given so many chances i can not stop this feeling of hurt and pain in my stomach but i deserve to feel this way i keep hurting her and i really do not deserve to be friends with her my eyes hurt i should sleep | regret |
i regret not marrying a woman i loved and who loved me by the time i graduated college it was fair to say i was more or less a noncelibate incel i had had a fair amount of dating and sexual experiences but i always felt like i was not as attractive or desirable as my friends and those around me this feeling for better or worse translated to a deep resentment of females after college i was scared to death of getting a corporate job so i got a job as an english teacher in thailand it was there that i met someone truly unique she was a thai girl intelligent a scientist kind and drop dead gorgeous we did not date for more than a few months as she moved to a different part of thailand for a job and i decided to return to the states to get a real job she wanted to keep in touch but i did not pay her much attention after i came home in retrospect i think i was just afraid of being seen as a guy who can not get a girl in his own country so he has to go to thailandthe philippines to meet someone who just wants to marry for a green card but it was not like that with this person every day with her was filled with love playfulness and joy i reached out to her last year five years later and she had met an american online and she had recently came to the states to be with him | regret |
i regret it constantly i m having a very hard time i m a single parent my son is almost seven there is not a minute that i m happy i had him or i m glad i made this choice like you know how people say oh it is hard but i would do it all over again i would not i cry almost every day for the life i gave up and i regret it constantly i hate motherhood i would rather be burned alive than spend another day doing this alone but i have to keep doing it i can not handle it and i do not want it | regret |
started a blog in college ruined my college life how do i get over this regret i have regret of not giving my 100 in college studies i have regret of not giving 100 in studying for exams and knowledge i was in engineering college i had the golden opportunity to learn engineering but i wasted an entire semester in blogging because of that i became backward in every aspect of college life i could n t find time to improve my programming skills now everything is hunting me i will be slower compared to my peers in life and backward as well i renewed the blog subscription again in lockdown which was another regret of mine even if i properly utilized lockdown i would have been in a great position it sucks to tell i have always been a great student how do i come back how do i fulfill my dream of studying more the regret keeps taunting me time and again how do i get over this regret | regret |
i regret moving away from home i moved across the country started and life and now i do not know if it was the right move i f25 moved across the country when i was 21 for a year long internship that is in quotation marks because that was all it was supposed to be but i ended up staying my boyfriend at the time and i broke up i had no other job prospects and i actually really liked my job at the time so i decided to stay for a full time position i only planned on staying at that jobplace for 23 years make some money get some experience and go back home but as life has it i am here still at 25 i have a really great job friends not as close to them as my home friends and i boyfriend who i absolutely adore and now live with although i mostly like my life here i am extremely close to my family and friends and miss them so much i usually cry every holiday i am not with them and find myself always talking about home my sisters and parents hang out almost every weekend and i feel like the black sheep who fucked up and moved away but every time i go back it feels less and less like home my sisters moved out and i do not even know where i would live or what i would do for work if i went back i would really like to go back and live there eventually but i do not know if my boyfriend would want to live there and start a life we plan on getting engaged soon and he says he wants to move somewhere around there but he is also 25 and has never left his hometown i am afraid he will realize how hard it is being away from family i find myself questioning myself a few times a week if i made the right decision in staying here i really do not know what to do if anything i love my boyfriend my job i have one best friend here and a few other friends but i also really really miss my home state not to mention they are almost as opposite as cultures can get in the usa has anybody else felt with a similar situation like this it has been weighing on me heavy recently tdlr i moved across the country started and life and now i do not know if it was the right move | regret |
advice for someone who s on the fence hi there i m so glad i found this community and i feel for all of you i think it is potentially my future if i do not sort out my feelings now growing up i have always had this idea i need to get married have kids have a house etc i know for sure i want to get married but i do not know if i want kids or even a house one big reason i am feeling guilt is because i m a descent of holocaust survivors and i feel awful having the bloodline stop with me i know i know family wants you to be happy and do not live for other people but i m the kind of person who has a lot of love and does want to make the people i love happy i m currently 31 so i have a few childbearing years left but i feel like not many growing up i always thought i will someday have kids and i m afraid once i hit menopause i will regret not having kids i feel like if i do not i am missing a life milestone and i have been working towards nothing maybe my ideas are extreme but i just feel really lost i should add i also have never had a serious relationship i bet a lot of you were in my position and could give some great advice | regret |
what i would mean if i get caught saying parenthood set my priorities straight first of all i would never say that and if i were to say it it would not reflect my inner growth or finding balance in life or something like that it would mean parenthood submitted me and beat me down and i have no choice than just to suck it in it means i only have limited amount of time and being a parent crystallizes it i now have a kid who needs care 247 and taking care of my kid is the first priority even if i would not always want it to be then i try to have healthy relationship with my partner that includes active sex life active sex life is something i m desperately trying to have otherwise healthy relationship is something i luckily already have then when i sometimes get time for myself i have to choose what interest of mine i want to dabble mostly just to remember how much i enjoyed it before when i still could put the time and effort into it basically wanting anything not child related is away from something else not child related and in the process i m trying to make some money not to starve and not to get evicted so roughly parenthood set my priorities straight means coming to terms with wanting things i can not have while having things i do not want goddamit life was just better when i wasnt a parent | regret |
I was in a sanatorium. In front of me a boy fell down from his ÃÂá
invalid's chair. I could help him but I didn't. I felt like being ÃÂá
paralysed. | guilt |
paint it shall be i was supposed to attend a lengthy personalchallenge retreat where i would confront the walls which have held me back in family work relationships life for once i succumbed to seeing the tiniest of glimmers a sudden change in circumstance now bars my attendance diligently exploring options to bypass what prevents me from going were unsuccessful i can not attend a few months ago i was offered an ongoing bodypaint porn gig anonymity is assured by each centimeter of skin being covered in vibrant paint care of an old aquaintance it would only be with him if i like additional partnersmodels later should i choose the thought made my stomach lurch and i declined sometimes you realize the crossroads were not there to begin with his offer will now be accepted i m good at going numb | regret |
if i had done this a long time ago it would have saved a lot of pain . | guilt |
It's 12:20 AM and nobody is awake except for me and I'm tempted to pick up the knife right now and put some cuts on my leg | guilt |
Started talking to this girl a week ago but I'm sorta regretting it. I'm not even talking to her bc I want to date her. I just plan on messing around. Yikes @ my life | guilt |
i saw a young woman struggling with some heavy bagsitems on my way home from the grocery store and i refused to ask if she needed help because she was pretty i simply walked by her as she was practically dropping things on the ground part of me wanted to give her a hand but the other more miserable part of me said fuck her i know i have got a lot of issues and though i quite possibly would act the same way given a second chance i still feel mildly guilty for my actions it is a tug of war between my better angels and worse demons | regret |
When I think that I have been too stict or narrow minded towards ÃÂá
my students. | guilt |
Wish I had enough willpower to eat lessðÃÂÃÂà| guilt |
Promising someone to do their job and then not being able to do ÃÂá
it due to transport troubles. | guilt |
When I lied to the physiology teacher. | guilt |
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Yesterday my grandfather touched me again... I completely freeze when it happens, I don't know what to do.
When i ask they all say "it's abuse, you should report him!". But the fact is, i don't feel like it's wrong. I don't feel like he's doing a bad thing to me. I fell guilty, i feel like I'm the problem, I'm exaggerating, i'm wrong. I feel like if i told someone it would happen a disaster, i could destroy the whole family for a thing my mind invented. Because he's my grandfather, i love him and i'm sure he loves me too. It's his character. It's who he is. | guilt |
ðÃÂÃÂà| 4:10 look what youve done now. you ruined ðÃÂÃÂäs front look at that. god why am i so STUPID | guilt |
fuck i accidentally said something that upset him and i think he's mad at me ugh i'm stupid | guilt |
i regret giving away something hard earned i worked years in a warehouse to buy beautiful land with a beautiful creek that i found on it this creek was a bonus i bought this a few years ago for a good price it is 519 acres a couple years ago i gave in to my buddy wanting some of my creek rock and he gave me fencing material in exchange me and him took about a ton of this beautiful flat river rock and put it in his truck bed it took about 2 days we hauled heavy 60 80 pound rocks up a steep hill to his truck and loaded it until it was above the brim and weight his truck down until it was nearly dragging the ground i estimate it was about a ton and probably worth around 500 to 1000 dollars but it is not about the money it is a piece of my land it is a piece of history those stones were probably thousands or even millions of years old and are unreplaceable now i have hundreds maybe thousands of tons of huge rocks in my creek that runs straight through my 5 acres and he only took from one spot the thing is i would even regret giving away one rock i would buy them all back if i could but he done built a pound out of it this seems little but it is all of a sudden been bugging me lately i can not really tell a difference in the creek but still bugs me like i said it makes me feel like my land is less worth now too i am 25 now and just feel like my brain is more mature now and if i was 25 back then instead of 21 or 22 i probably would have never gave them away oh well https previewreddit1dw7eedbxcs51jpg width3024 formatpjpg autowebp sec16994f8fa6d6df365bd0afb1b6037250f0f6b4 | regret |
Passing by a good friend's home without coming in to visit him. | guilt |
I borrowed my friend's radio cassette and the plug cracked and ÃÂá
some pieces broke off when the plug dropped off my hands. | guilt |
is it atleast rewarding i believe most peoples reason to regret their parenthood is the everyday routine around kids but is it atleast rewarding on some aspect also what does this rewarding mean if you have experienced it the word itself says nothing for me | regret |
I am sorry please don't be mad i just can't put myself in that situation i wish you understood how much i want to be there for you i just couldn't | guilt |
mom guilt hi had anyone had ct scans x rays or any radiation procedures specially as a child and doing fine after decades without any radiation induced health issues i am asking it because my kid had 2 sets of neck chest and abdomen x rays total 6 x rays at ages 2 and 4 out of which one set was not necessary kid is only 6 i am worried about future cancer risk due to the radiation much concerned about abdomen radiation i neither want to scare anyone nor offensive i read that children are more prone to radiation risk i am feeling guilty for not being careful and discussing with the doctor about any alternate non radiation procedures thank you | regret |
Sometimes I wish we had never met. | regret |
Hi my name is Nadia and I'm a actual piece of shit | guilt |
i regret the death of my cat i know it is just a cat to some people but this cat has changed my life 7 years ago she was there during the hardest break up i have i promised her the best in life she became my inspiration to a lot of good things in my life at one point i even have loved her more than my own family but i regret her death i am the one to blame i did not took care of her enough have not looked after her health well enough i should have been more delicate about her given that she is not that young at 7 years old but after seeing her died in my arms with the condition i did not know she had which i should have i am mortified i am the one to blame i did not have enough money to take her to the doctor i did not do enough to save her she died two days ago and watching some films with someone dying in the arms of someone gave me flashbacks about the time my cat died sorry i just need to let this out | guilt |
i hate myself i took advantage of someone important to me and now i can even look at my self without feeling disgusted im a nasty person i want to kill my self she forgave me but i still hate myself | guilt |
I need a drink. I'm gonna end up becoming an alcoholic. ðÃÂÃÂû | guilt |
Having failed to help with the 5th of March arrangements (Women's ÃÂá
Day), although I had previously promised to take part in the ÃÂá
work. | guilt |
Quite unconsciously I offended a girlfriend of mine. It was ÃÂá
really worthy to pass this fact over in silence, but I acted so, ÃÂá
because I believed I was right. In fact it often happens to me to ÃÂá
feel guilt, after I have already done the deed. | guilt |
Now I feel guilty for it ðÃÂÃÂà| guilt |
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