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Just need some advice to stop feeling depressed and suicidal...So yea. I'm suicidal at times, but thankfully I'm much better now... But still, I feel depressed almost everyday. I don't know why sometimes. I guess you could say, one of my closest friends started ignoring me in early . I became really depressed, broke down in school non-stop. But I survived and I'm glad for it. It gets lonely now though. I've no real person to talk to... to tell stuff to, no people to give me advice. I can't really blame my rl friends because most of them don't go through what I go through. My parents argue everyday, or rather my mum just throws her temper around for no rhyme or reason. The pressure's on me. Because I'mthe oldest, I'm expected to get good grades, expected to do what I have to do... My grades suck, and I'm really confused as to what my heart really wants. To continue in JC or move to poly? Sometimes, it gets so bad that I feel like cutting. But then I'm too scared to do it, so it's alright. I feel like I've no purpose in life, no direction, I'm only living because I've to live. I know I'm really fortunate compared to some people out there, but the negative thoughts keep coming. No matter how hard I try to stay happy. And its just hard when sometimes all you wanna be is a different person, live in a different world, and be able to do what you really want to do without being scared. And it hurts whenever I see that friend helping others and not caring/not even aware of what is happening to the people who really care about him/her. I appear like a really cheery, happy girl in school... but deep down though some of my friends know how depressed I get, no one knows the extent of my depression or suicidal thoughts... They all think I'm better now. But I'm not. I'm still just as insecure, just as weary, just as tired and sick of the world around me. I'm not sure whether I'll be able to fully trust anyone again. Some days, I feel like I'm drowning, like there's no one to save me. And sometimes, I just wish that maybe I'll accidentally be in the way of a vehicle on the road someday, or just drift away and never wake up forever. | suicide |
Has anybody here taken a drug class before? So basically I got caught up in a huge legal situation and part of the evidence shows that I did and sold acid so now me and my lawyer have concluded on me taking a drug class so they can drop my charges entirely. Does anyone know what it's supposed to be like? Thanks | non-suicide |
Okay, genuine question How do you take selfies/pictures of yourself in general | non-suicide |
Nothing gets better, it only gets worse.I feel so fucking alone that it's sickening. Depression has become a trend these past few years. Too much to the point where people who are actually suffering choose to do it in silence because some including me hate the stupid fucking stigma around it. I just turned last week, I don't remember ever being truly happy. There's always been this dark cloud above my head that has always prevented me from being happy Unfortunately I remember all the abuse, neglect and bullying I have received when I was younger and I wish I didn't. I don't want to be a victim I just want to be normal. I just fucking hate myself. I'm disgusting, a burden and have no social skills. I tried to make friends, get a job but everything just blows up in my face. Even though I want to die I'm too much of a coward to do anything. What's the fucking point of being here if I can't even do anything right? Ffs I'm USELESS! I hate this shit man fuck everything. | suicide |
I spilled a pint of milk all over my bed and my yo sister tried to snitch on me and said I had sex all over the bed Like A PINT Thats a lot which I am % incapable of- Nvm but my mom saw it and laughed but yeah my bed smells like yogurt now. | non-suicide |
Just have way too many things going against me and almost nothing going for meIve been miserable for a long time. Im years old and this should be the best time of my life but its the worst. Where do I begin? Im gay, short, balding, unattractive, have a tiny dick, and as if all that wasnt enough I have a fucking colostomy bag. I have absolutely no hobbies or interests besides getting high on dope. And I cant even do that anymore because I lost my plug. I live with my parents and work a low paying dead end job. I have no motivation whatsoever to do anything. The only things stopping me from ending it are the pain it would cause my family and simply not knowing what awaits me on the other side. Honestly moreso the latter. Nothing can help me besides and endless supply of drugs, I just wanted to get all this off my chest. | suicide |
Why does everything have to be so dramaticI have went through alot of shit, im really easily pushed into emotions, i suffer mdd, bipolar and im lowkey schizo, with extreme paranoid sides to it, my life's been fucking shit, and its never getting better. I can feel with people, but when i see "the void is coming" style posts, i just can't take it seriously... It honestly feels like attention cry, which is ok, i get it.. sometimes you're real lonely, need to be told by someone else its alright or will get better... But, come on... The people on here understand how you feel, you don't have to play it up people. Just be honest... You'll still get some positive feedback... | suicide |
I Hate MyselfI do this every night. Every night I go through the same stages. Every night I decide that I no longer want to be alive, and I sit there and think about how Im going to do it and how there are so many people that would be better off if I werent here and how obnoxious and intolerable and grating and despicable I am and how nobody would notice if I didnt get up tomorrow morning. Every night I write a suicide note and every night I write it directed toward somebody I care about even though they dont care about me. The other day I tried to make a list of people I really enjoy being around, I got to three and was stumped. Then I tried to make a list of people I know feel the same way about me. It was three people shorter. | suicide |
If anyone feeling sad hit me up. And by that I mean chat me and I will try to cheer you up. Empathize the word TRY. | non-suicide |
i'm just tiredno throwaway because it's not like anyone knows me or cares. i don't want to live any more, i'm just tired of life. my parents are getting divorced and i have to be a rock for my little brother, and i just cant do it. im a closet atheist but my parents are very religous, my entire family would disown me if i was atheist. being forced to pray for forgiveness from a god you dont believe in is numbing. my dad's cheating on my mum, and he just recently got a job, if they file divorce papers and my mum lists that he's been cheating then he's going to be jailed. i don't know if i want that or not. i'm only , i've got IB to deal with, everyone expects me to pull a . gpa and deal with this but i can't. i dont know if i want to live any more. | suicide |
People are horrible I've been watching police body cam footage, cell phone videos from riots and some best gore videos and i believe every person has the ability to be absolutely horrible. I don't get it we are disgusting, we live in the best time we could've ever possible lived but we still just want to wreck shit and be territorial monkeys. | non-suicide |
ok just to clarify The taco powder Im eating is Old El Paso Spicy taco seasoning mix | non-suicide |
ur puthay looks heavy can i hold it? probably bcs its soaked just like mine | non-suicide |
i strive to be the most active user on here such a stupid goal honestly i should go get a life | non-suicide |
The suicide hotline just hung up on meMaybe its a sign its not worth trying to find hope | suicide |
How do i lose feelings for someone? I know she doesnt like me back and i Fucking hate this, i need help | non-suicide |
Nov-, or Nov-,Those are the dates I have chosen as possible dates for the end of my life. I'm not sure how I'd do it, Ive considered stabbing myself, overdosing, falling of a building, hanging, and starving. The first four leave no room for turning back, and the last is too slow. Please forgive me, P, T, L, and M. | suicide |
TodayI told myself to do it before the day is over. Right this second would be the perfect time, and yet I find myself typing this. Do I see hope in my future? No. Why do I remain in this hellish existence if there's no hope? Because I'm scared of what's next. Perhaps we atheists are right, and there's nothing that comes next. Or maybe others were right, and suicide is something that buys you a one-way ticket into an eternity of pain and suffering. Or maybe no one was right, and there is something unimaginably great on the other side. Perhaps another world, far kinder than this one. Whatever the case, the sweet release that is death terrifies me. I should be dying right now, but instead, I'm here. | suicide |
I'm torn between wanting help and wanting it to be overGoing through a rough divorce that may or may not be going through (currently separated, physically and maritally), but we still love each other, we saw each other this week and mostly just fucked and cried. I cheated on him, I'm going to start therapy once I can, and I'm trying to see if I can get into inpatient therapy. I'm on anti depressants, I'm in a job field that isn't particularly difficult most of the time, but I'm just so tired. I don't want to wake up. I want my husband back, I want my life back, I want to be a better person, but most of all I just want to be done. I'm scared because I've been planning. I don't want to die until my husband is back on my life insurance, I don't want to hurt him or my sister or my dad. My mom killed herself, and I know it's not a good idea, but the idea of being done is so fucking attractive it scares me. Just.. I don't know. I need help. | suicide |
why am i stupid my friggen dumbazz forgot I had math homework due this morning. I didnt even have math today I hate when teachers do that. Its like apush all over, I was always up at like am wrapping up one of his hr-study guides because he made it due on a day I didnt even have his class. Im just stupid, I need a planner or something because Ive just been looking at the to-do list on google classroom and going from there | non-suicide |
My mom told me to finish my assignments she thinks I'm doing them now but I'm just drawing on a paper. | non-suicide |
I can't escapeNothing I do can make the pain and anxiety go away. My whole life, my motivation for going onward and continuing to fight was "one day, I'll be in a much better place in life and I'll feel better." And now, here I am. Just graduated college at the top of my class. I have a lovely apartment in the city I've always wanted to live in. I have a job I'm about to start which will pay quite well. But none of that helped me. I guess I should have known that my issues run too deep. I feel like a fraud. I'm a nurse - just passed my boards with flying colors - but I don't feel like I can safely care for anyone. My crippling lack of self confidence and anxiety will always come back to bite me in the ass. I still feel like I can't trust my own assessments, even though I've done them countless times. I can see myself assessing someone, doubting my own assessment data, and missing something important leading to their death. I just can't think of a reason to keep going, besides stupid temporary things like video games I enjoy, and television shows I'm watching. I "made it," but I didn't, really. I've been running from my depression for so long, and I can't keep trying to get away. I'm tired. Feeling nothing would be so much better than feeling this way. | suicide |
I'm afraid to tell my therapist that I want to kill myselfI don't want to end up in the hospital. It would just cause more problems than it would solve Plus, I don't want to put my therapist through that level of stress. She told me once she would stop being a therapist if any of her clients killed themselves. But I don't know what to do  | suicide |
Hey Im bored talk to me Just comment something and Ill respond if I feel like it warrants one | non-suicide |
Im so proud of my sister She just put Bitch Lasagne on the Alexa | non-suicide |
just a quick reminder bisexual isnt % gay % straight its % bisexual stop invading bisexual people please | non-suicide |
Im at the end of my rope and im only .Ill make this quick because it really isn't that complex. I have a chronic illness called POTS syndrome and CFS causing me to feel tired, groggy, and like i have a fever and cant focus almost /. Ive seen over doctors and they all concluded I will "just have to live with it the best I can" but what kind of life is this. Im not depressed at all and i've never once contemplated suicide untill i my doctor told me theres nothing he can do for me and i would feel like this indefinitely. I can't fathom functioning like this, the only time my symptoms arent bad is when im on my computer playing games or doing something to take my mind of things but theres no future or money in that. Im ready to kill myself even though the last thing i want to do is die all because western medicine has failed me. | suicide |
whats the youngest/oldest youd date? for me its and >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> | non-suicide |
Am i with depression or i am just being dramatic?I very often feel that i cannot do anything right, is so annoying. I am really bad at eveything and my grades are often F and C, but i think i will need to repeat year. My friends say i need help because is not normal that i feel that i am stupid and useless everytime. I have been like this for years and idk if it is real depression or i am just being dramatic. I often feel without appetite, my family says i am too thin, and many times i want to kill myself because without me, the world would be beutiful, and what the hell does a retarded person can do to the world, nothing! I would have killed myself if i wouldn't have met a friend, that really helps me a lot. Should i tell my mom about this? Do i need a psycologist? And also, is there any form i can find out i am no retarded and that i am very good with something? This would help a lot because rn i have only friend that helps me about this because the other ones say that i am just being dramatic | suicide |
Just so lonely.Even though everyone says suicide isn't the answer, it always feels like it is. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't have my family, I don't have many friends left. I feels so alone. I've struggled with depression my whole life, and it started to get better back in February and March, but because of certain events it's just gone down hill. This has been the most difficult year of my life and I just want out. I want help so bad, but I can't afford a counselor, or anti depressants. I've started working out, but I have no idea when that is supposed to start helping. I just feel like everything that could possibly help me, I have no way of getting. It makes me feel hopeless. I just don't know what to do anymore and I've been thinking about suicide more and more. | suicide |
Don't know how much longer I can take feeling like this. Nothing seems to be going right in my life. I feel like I am at my breaking point and if nothing changes by tomorrow around this time I have to build up the courage to go ahead and end this pain. Sorry to vent on here but I have absolutely noone to talk to no friends or anything. I've tried calling the hotline but it seems that I get put on hold for long periods then keep getting the same guy who seems to rush me off the phone but I guess if I keep getting him he must volunteer a lot and is overwhelmed. Meds and therapy haven't worked other than to drain my pockets dry. I have lost all hope and don't want to be in this pain anymore. | suicide |
I just don't understand why I need to go to school Ever since st grade I felt that school was slow, and I don't remember the last time I actually learned something new which was also important. I learn math externally and I already know English and all of the other classes are not important for me. I feel like I just waste my time. Where I live, you have to go to school by LAW until th grade, for some reason. I have many friends in school but school just isn't fun. My parents don't want me to quit even when I will be able to, and I just feel helpless because I can't really do anything about it. School is ruining my sleep, my mental health and is wasting my time. Fuck my shitty "education" system for making me do this shit for years. I don't know what I did wrong that I deserve this much of prison time. | non-suicide |
I might be starting to self harm I dont want to but their is just something that tells me, I need actual help | non-suicide |
I just got a call from one of my managers and she told me I'm being terminated from my job. How do I deal with this? My day was great up until the call about twenty minutes ago. I just don't get it, I wouldn't say I'm anywhere near the best worker at the establishment, but I'm definitely better than one who's been working there for almost a year now. I've never done drugs or drank alcohol, but the coworker in question vapes regularly (and blatantly) and afaik he still gets to keep the job. Not to throw shade at drug users, but doing it on the job semi-discretely just isn't professional. I'm friendly with all of the customers and I've never talked back to upper management which is partly why I'm so confused. The manager for the day that called me up told me that my employer "Doesn't think I'm suited for the job" so I assume that means I'm not working fast/hard enough? I barely speak to my coworkers except for in select situations and I'm pretty much solely focused on working with the customers so I don't know what to think honestly. This is my first job and I'm just now beginning to open up to the rest of my coworkers, which now seems pointless because I'm gonna be removed from working with them. I was told by my manager that I could come in on Sunday to talk to my employer about the whole situation, so for the next couple of days, I'm going to be wrought with stress (something I and I'm sure many of you as well are a victim of). When I talk to my employer what do I even say? Do I ask him what I did wrong? Do I ask him what can be improved? My dad told me that being fired is something that sticks with you and can permanently ruin your reputation for being hired ever again. | non-suicide |
Erase myselfI dont know why im writing this. Its mostly nonsense. Please delete it as soon as possible. I want to erase myself. I want to take every journal I have ever written, every picture I've drawn, and burn them. Throw away all of my personal belongings and microwave my computers harddrive. I'm ashamed to be alive. I've felt that way for as long as I can remember. I tried to hang myself when I was , but I didn't know how to tie a proper noose. I wouldn't have that problem now. But I can't. I'm stuck here. I'm . Married to a beautiful woman. We have two children. They need me, and so far I've stuck around for them. I have an IQ in the range. A friend once told me I should've gone to MIT. I didn't. I dropped out of college and I work in a call center. I hate myself. I hate myself for squandering my potential at a young age. I hate myself for hastily impregnating a girl who didn't love me. She wanted and abortion, I threatened to kill myself. We had a child. We force ourselves to act like a functional family but I no longer love her and she harbors a bitter resentment toward me for forcing her into this life. She never wanted to be a mother. This year we had our second child. I'm abusive. Not physically, but emotionally and psychologically. I am manipulative and secretive. I don't think she's good enough for me, and she knows it. I don't have any friends. Most people find me abrasive. I'm a know-it-all, and I frequently treat people like they're idiots. I don't like people anyways so this suits me fine. Its a lonely life. I'm addicted to porn and I recently discovered r/incest. I now have sexual thoughts about my children. Never acted upon it, but the thoughts are there. It is what it is. I give up. I hate myself and everyone around me. And yet I alone chose this. How do I start over? I don't. I should kill myself before I cause any more damage. | suicide |
Rope burnApparently I suck so much at life, I fail horribly even at killing myself... I've tried to die, truly tried, times in my life...none have worked. I'm apparently the least lucky person ever, because when I was I failed at shooting myself in the head with a revolver (hammer went down, faint click, dud fucking bullet, panic set in and couldn't continue). I failed at overdosing on amphetamines a few months later...felt like shit for a while, but as I missed lethal dose by a factor of (couldn't find the information then, but I know now), I lived. Last night ( now, btw), i tried to hang myself - only resulting in the knot failing and some rope burn from how it dropped me, and banging my knee on the way down. I hate living, I hate myself, I failed in my attempt to find one reason to stay alive...so why the fuck am apparently I too incompetent to die? Hopefully I get it right next time. | suicide |
Life is just about objectivesThis not a farewell note, just some thoughts. I've witnessed many things after years of living and studying how others go on their own, It's all about fixing and accomplishing objectives, since you have something to do, your life has a meaning while you're trying to get to your goal. But once you finally reach it, the void. And you wonder why you are supposed to do here, in this very world. And since everyone is following theirs own goals, they rapidly forget about you, that's kinda scary. Once I tried to experiment this myself, I stopped giving signs of life, stopped talking to people I normally talk to, and waited to see who's gonna notice first... The result was frightening... The more you grow up, the less you are able to talk and see distant friends because they're going their own way, and you can't blame them for this, but the truth is you're getting lonelier and so on... Things are just goings on, and i'm not changing at all, just witnessing time going by. No one but me knows how depressed I am, I'm struggling since so much time. But who cares ? | suicide |
OverdoseI know and I've read overdose isn't a good method to use, but I have over Tramacet pills and I need it for post op pain but I'm constantly fighting the thought of bearing the pain and saving them for when I want to overdose ( whether that will even kill me anyway but hurting me I still wouldnt mind ) in the future or fighting that urge and using them as directed and needed for current pain. For over the past years suicide has felt like the only option when things start to go south and things are really starting to feel bad so I'm considering saving them as I said but I don't know for sure. | suicide |
iz my birthday today im :-) comment the last post you read before you saw this | non-suicide |
Losing hopeSo basically I finished university last year and in the process of revising for finals gave myself severe rsi. I did really well at Uni and I've just started a really good job and am going to be forced quit next week because of the pain. years studying for a degree which I can never use, never be able to leave home, just a burden to my family. It's really sad, but it would be inconsiderate for me to continue living. | suicide |
my iphone has a problem with the wifi lol so basically the wifi is bad on my phone. like really fucking bad. but on every other device or computer the wifi is fine. its very hard to connect, and i can enter the pass correctly but it says its wrong. most of the time it disconnects randomly, and is disconnected for most of the day. sometimes if i get bars on my wifi connection and i open app, lets say tiktok, it goes back to which is super annoying. this has been going or for a week what do i do | non-suicide |
I want my knives back(TW:self harm) So my mom took my knives when I told her I was depressed (I cut for a few months before that) and she still doesnt know how bad my depression is (I would tell her but she will use it as leverage against me like she always does) and I really wish I could cut again to feel something. | non-suicide |
Constant. Unrelenting. Suffering.Help me... PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Crosspost: Please... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE scroll down to "Summary". AAAAAAAAAAH I feel like if something is going to happen, it is going to happen tonight or tomorrow. I am extremely on edge. I NEED people to know how much I'm suffering. I impossibly NEED the attention of an atomized society where everyone only cares about themselves and their own self interest. If they're doing fine, nothing is their problem. Right now NONE of the people I see around me know what's going on in my head I am about to do something drastic like smash all the windows in the place I'm in and start throwing chairs. HELP ME! Reaching out right now to reddit is the same thing as grabbing a person by the arm and telling them, "HELP"! I don't expect it to do much. Constant suffering. NO ONE KNOWS! | suicide |
tired of tryingive tried to deal with my depression on my own for at least years now because i cannot afford to seek medically attention and i am exhausted. i hate waking up every day and feeling completely alone. i have no one. i am unlovable, uninteresting, unmotivated. i have nothing to live for and really never have. i want to kill myself every day but never seem to have enough courage to just do it. all i want in life is to feel loved and appreciated, but i cant remember a time when ive felt that way at all. it feels like i will be alone forever. i just want to rest and be at peace. | suicide |
This meat sack is hard to killI tried to kill myself on Friday night. I took a whole box of benzos, the remainder of a box of codine based pain killers (about half a box), washed down with a few beers and half a bottle of wine. And I just woke up the next day with a monster headache and slept a lot. Honestly? Im only a girl, what the hell will it take? I fucking hate my job, I hate my life, I hate this meat sack. Yeah I have family and friends I love, but how long am I supposed to endure utter misery for the sake of not hurting them. I want out, but I cant even do that right. Sorry, just venting. | suicide |
Another rant Dont try to be useful to others if your offer has been declined. No means no. You might just frustrate them. | non-suicide |
Are people in texas ok I like in CO and I'm very used to the weather but also I have power in my house. If youre from texas please tell me youre ok | non-suicide |
My suicidal ex won't stop messaging me about how she's going to kill herself.Some of you may have seen my post from before where I went into detail about my suicidal girlfriend. Since then, we have gotten into a giant argument that ended up with me being arrested. After that fight, we broke up. This happened about a week ago and everyday since she has been texting me saying how she wants to kill herself and how it's all my fault. I broke up with her in hopes that we could both be independent and find help to become better, healthier people. While I am still trying to do those things, she is just making me feel a whole lot worse at every turn. She constantly blows my phone up with things like "hope you don't bring girls to my funeral" and "I'm gonna start writing suicide notes" and it has left me in the worst situation yet. I am trying so hard to focus my energy on bettering myself but it seems she only wants me to feel as worse as possible. All I want is for her not to kill herself. But I can't fall back into the trap that was our relationship. ANY advice is appreciated. She is trying to ruin my progress which I'm scared will lead to me becoming suicidal. | suicide |
I dont know where else to put this....I am so tired....I dont find joy in really anything anymore. Its really dumb, I have an education, a great job, o shouldnt feel this way....but I do. I am broken, I broke myself and there is no way to fix this. Ive known for a long time that I am gay, I grew up in a Mormon household and was depressed for so many years. When I finally escaped to college I was free, I came out, started dating, and I just felt like for the first time in my life that I wasnt drowning. I had friends, real friends who accepted me for me. One of my friends had a really, really hard upbringing, and we were there for each other. A lot happened and I decided to take care of her, and we got married and had kids. I didnt want this for my life, but I did it to myself. I am so angry all the time, and when you strip away the anger the only thing I have left is pain. I cant leave my kids and my best friend to fend for themselves, I cant be me while I am here. I fucked up, I ruined my life and I just want it all to stop....I dont want to exist. | suicide |
Losing itI need help pls im high asf i need motivation someone help | suicide |
Alright heres the plan I have a free helpful award. Id also like a girlfriend. Whoever gives me the most helpful tip gets the award. Go | non-suicide |
RealizationDying isnt so bad. Sure its not a solution to a temporary problem. But it eliminates the torture. Living is one of them. In this sub we come from a lot of different backgrounds but searching for the same end. | suicide |
How can I stop hiding whenever someone is filming something or taking a picture Say my dad is talking to his friend on a video call and is like and here is (my name) I run and hide away from the camera. I don't know why I get scared of cameras but I want to get over my fear of them. | non-suicide |
Any advice? Since school started in September for some reason I've just been unable to bring myself to study. I'm total over there past few months I must have studied less than hours. I can't afford to do this cause my exams are soon and will determine if I can even attend a university so I really need to get my shit together. It's like I can't even bring myself to start revising. And even if I'm lucky enough to get there, I get distracted by literally anything and will start losing my train of thought. Either that or I get overwhelmed by how much I need to remember and I just don't revise at all cause I'm too afraid. What do I do? | non-suicide |
He asked me if I'm ready to commit Heck yea I'm ready to commit suicide | non-suicide |
Been a week since I ended a relationship with aa friend, any advice? Basically, I sent the "this isn't working out" text a week ago and they left me on read. I miss them, but I'm more hurt by the fact that they obviously didn't value our friendship as much as I did. How do I resist the urge to text them especially since they were all I had? | non-suicide |
Day of posting in this subreddit until im . Questions will be answered as always. to go. | non-suicide |
If things continue this way for me, I want every selfish person I love to see my corpse and bullet wound in the back of my headI dont want them to just get notice or a phone call. I want them to see the destruction, the pain manifested into the disgusting atrocity of what they helped to create. | suicide |
I don't care anymoreI want to kill myself. My feelings don't matter and I don't matter. Why am I even telling a bunch of strangers that I want to kill myself? It's stupid. I'm stupid and I should just get rid of my self. It doesn't matter. | suicide |
[/F] Struggling and ScaredHi. I'm not entirely sure how to put everything into words.. I just, don't have anyone. My partner of years left me, days ago. Just "didn't want to do it anymore." He was my entire future, we had planned half a wedding, chosen kids names etc. He told me he loved when I went to work that day and then as I stepped foot in the house that night he said he couldn't do it anymore. We have to live together for another months (separate rooms at least) I'm just really struggling because I don't see a point in anything anymore. The pain I feel so strongly and physically, it makes me sick. I can't eat properly, I can't sleep properly. I have a promotion at work and it is meaningless to me now. I have time off soon as well and what do I do with all that time now? I tried to talk to him about how I was feeling and struggling (he's doing really well, he's happy now) but he just gets mad at me. I write pro and cons lists every single day of why I should end it and the pros always win. Today would be the perfect day. He's out, he's drunk with all his friends. Our other housemate is with him. No one can get to me. No one would be home for days. The pain scares me... but it scares me more to keep going. | suicide |
I'm tired of my mom Before making this post I was crying. Everyday I wish I could move out of my house so i could get away from the stuff my mom does every day. Everyday is passive aggressiveness with her and when ever she gets mad she blames it on technology. She can't even keep her word. She says she won't compare you to other people but will constantly compare me and my sisters to our cousins. Saying how we sit on our beds all day and play games. Me and my sister workout everyday and I actively try to eat healthier despite the processed foods my mom keeps pushing in our face. Just today she made a big fuss because my sister who is stopped calling her mommy and said our year old cousins call their mom mommy. Instead of reflecting back on herself to figure out what she has done wrong she constantly find ways to blame other people. She says that whenever I talk to anyone I have an anger issue and need to see a therapist even though she hadn't noticed it only happens when I talk to her. On another occasion, whenever my yr old sister gets in a fight with her she tries to talk but my mom keeps drowning her out as she says she never listens. What does mom do instead of listen to her daughter? Call her husband who is miles away at work and complain. From - she is as dense as rock. No matter how much information of arguing you do with her she will never listen to you. She blames it only technology. She blames everything on technology. She accuses you of watching bad things then when you ask her what kind of things she doesn't even know herself. I'm just so fed up with this and wish it could all be over. Not kill myself over but if I can just leave over, like move out or go somewhere by myself for the entirety of my day. I just want this virus to be over so then I can go back to school and just forgot about my mom for hours. The times when I used to go camping at boy scouts and have fun with my friends. Or go to church and just know I can't hear her talk for hours. [A google document I wrote when I was younger that explains more]( Sorry for any bad grammar of punctuational mistakes in any of these pieces I'm just crying and can't even think. The nostalgia of better times when I didn't have to put up with this is just flooding back. Back when the only thing I had to worry about were the kids at the back of the bus. | non-suicide |
Ok which two of you followed me last time I remember looking i was at now bam people who is it | non-suicide |
Got a drone and i need tips I had the drone for a while, but almost crashed twice and I need tips on doing that less | non-suicide |
Dumped by someone I loved, need someone to talk toI posted in /r/relationship_advice if you want details, but I was just dumped by someone I loved because my depression got to be too much for her. I'm occasionally ok, but then I sometimes just get extremely upset about it. It's all my fault that she left, and I can't have her back. Post - She's gone from my life, and maybe that's good. She should be happy, and I'm not a happy person. But now I'm so alone. I lost my best friend, and she's moving on. Please help me. I need advice or someone to talk to. | suicide |
Okay a pedophile outed himself, how do I ask police to do a search on his devices for cp? Yeah so I made a subreddit for people to gather information on any known pedophiles, and to request arrests/searches ( r/RedditorsAgainstMap), and someone claiming flat out they are a pedophile, with an account that is years old and entirely about them being a pedophile. They claim to not have done anything sexual towards a child, but I believe there to be more than enough evidence that they have some form of cp in possession. How would I go about contacting police? | non-suicide |
I didn't sleep all night. I kept staring at a razor blade.I could've killed myself. But, I didn't. I want the pain to end. It hurts I can't sleep, I don't want to wake. I just wish someone just end my misery. I have no guts. I am just a fuck up, everyone is right. Nobody deserves me. I tried hundreds of days and counting, maybe I will force happy in myself. It never works. I lost my mind. I want to die. It's like my heart is sinking. And I will never be happy. Should I end it? | suicide |
It constantly feels like I'm being set up to fail. No matter what I doI dont honestly know how much longer I can cope with being constantly reminded of much of a failure I am. I'm shit at my job. I'm shit with money. I'm shit with taking care of my friends. I'm shit with looking after myself. I cant fucking bare the constant reminders anymore. I dont want to make it home tonight. I want to work out of work and onto the highway. Or go lay down on some trains. I'm so ready to be done with this shit. | suicide |
My disappearing desirefor quite a long time I have been thinking of a nice clean way to kill myself and I think I finally have a good idea. I was thinking about travelling to the next beach, and at night or some time where doesnt have much people around swim as far as I can, till the point I cant get back anymore, I dont know how far that would be, but, it would at least take care of the problem my familly would have to paying for my funeral. | suicide |
I don't want to kill myself, but......I can't shake the thought. Borderline obsessive. I've been struggling for a while with depression and God knows what else (insurance coming soon, hopefully, then therapy for the first time, hopefully leading to some diagnoses so I know how to handle myself). I have a good support system but I don't know how to properly express what I am thinking to him...like I don't want to downplay the severity of where I am, but I don't want to discredit myself by inflating reality. I'm sure this is normal, but does anyone know how to handle this? | suicide |
yearsI do anything not to be alone and I'm still alone. I just want to die | suicide |
People are fucked upPeriod. However, not you, be strong | suicide |
I dont watch porn for the guy. I watch it for the girl Women are so attractive, and men just stay silent the whole time | non-suicide |
Guys, Do you feel uncomfortable shirtless in public places? Being a male, what do you think about being shirtless in public? I feel it weird and uncomfortable. Is this common? also, age matters. I am about y/o | non-suicide |
I genuinely don't knowYall im so fucking miserable like what did I do to deserve this. I swear I try i really do but it's just the same shit. I'm so sick of trying to preserve. Most everyone I know has something at least going for them. I have shit all All I do is sit n suffer n want to kill myself Im tired of relapsing im tired of going on I really have no reason im sick of telling myself oh I have to live for my friends Well fuck my friends they don't mean shit half the time anyways Don't understand anything about how I feel or what im going through Everyone is on a different wave length n im sitting hwre wanting to fucking shoot myself | suicide |
Do you like this subreddit? I do. | non-suicide |
I had a suicide attempt and now my SO is scared of me.I would like advice from those who've had their SO attempt suicide and how you felt. You can skip all the extra information coming up. I had an attempt last Friday, which was not planned, but I had already asked my SO not to speak to me for the weekend while he was visiting home. I was having another depression episode and didn't want to bring him down, but I ended up being more suicidal than ever. As you can tell, my attempt failed, so I decided to try again Saturday night. But I didn't follow through thanks to the help of some friends. Come Sunday night I called my SO crying telling him what had happened, and he was worried for my health. (I took a lot of acetaminophen) He had me throw out all the pills I had left, and read me to sleep. He also made me promise to get my liver checked out immediately. The next morning he called to see if I was okay, and ended the call with an "I love you." My SO has never been the best at comforting me. While he's scared to lose me, he's horrible at expressing himself. So lately, he's been more distant and cautious, last night he admitted to being a little scared of me, but he couldn't tell me why. I asked him if he still wanted to continue 'us' and he teared up, but then he just asked to go to sleep. Then in the morning he gave me a kiss before class. With people out there, who have had their loved ones attempt suicide, tell me how you felt? I would like a better idea into my SO's head. We've been together for almost three years now, and my last attempt was also three years ago. I suppose he is scared of me hurting myself again, but he can't get back into our regular groove of things, and I'm worried about him. I know this isn't a post about my attempt itself, so I'm sorry if this breaks any rules. | suicide |
I found out how to slow down earth's rotation with boners If every male on earth got a boner at the same time, the earth's rotation would slow down. Assume there are about . billion males, with the average dick height of about cm off the ground. The average dick weighs about grams. That's a combined mass of ,, kg of dick. Now we must make an approximation. For simplicity's sake, let us assume the penises are all evenly lined up in a ring around the equator. The equation for moment of inertia of a ring is I = mass\*radius\^. The radius of earth is about . million meters. Therefore the radius of the approximated dick ring is ,, + . = ,,. meters. I = ,,\*,,.\^ = .\*\^ The Earth has a moment of inertia, I = .\*\^ kg\*m\^. The Earth rotates at a moderate angular velocity of .\*\^- radians/second. Using Conservation of Angular Momentum we can find the new rotation of the earth. L = I\*omega = .\*\^ kg\*m\^ \* . \* \^- = .\*\^. .\*\^ = (.\*\^ + .\*\^) \*omega -> solve for omega = .e- This is .e- rad/s slower than the earth's original rotation. This translates to .\*\^- seconds = . nanoseconds longer per day. If we all have a boner at the same time, we will collectively be able to last . nano seconds longer in bed. Stay hard fellas. | non-suicide |
I'm at a lossI'm so sorry if this post is all over the place. I really don't know what to do. I've had cancer three times, this is my fourth time and I'm just so. Fucking. Tired. I can't do this anymore. I rented a hotel room under the guise of a business trip but all I want to do is take all of my pain and anxiety meds and drink the two bottles of wine I bought and end everything. I don't know what to do. The only reason I'm typing this all out is because I have people that depend on me and they would be devastated. But what about me? I'm so tired of being strong for everyone else. I just want the physical pain and the looks of pity and the sadness to end. I'm thousands of miles away from my parents and I don't know what to do. I'm but Jesus Christ I need an adult. | suicide |
I only go on living out of morbid curiosity, to see how much suffering I can endure. I'm tired. All the post titles on this subreddit ring true for me too. | suicide |
I want to die so fucking badNothing is worth this pain. | suicide |
When you get that feeling that you're just in the wayWhat do you do? | suicide |
My bed is wet. It is the lovely mix of blood, cum and tears. I like bathing in it. | non-suicide |
Ok who tf is Adam Sandler my parents are talking about how hes ruining America and Ive never heard of him before | non-suicide |
Failed my th suicide "attempt"Just before minutes I failed for sixth time to end my life. Its "attempt" because I don't actually try, I just sit here with the rope and think and do nothing. I tried times jumping off th floor, while drunk, because I thought that alcohol will make it easier to jump. Other times were hanging with rope. I always prepare all day, thinkig that is my last day and wait to become dark outside, so I can hang on tree outside without anybody see me. I just got on the tree the only thing I had to do is to tie the rope around the branch I was sitting and 'jump' from it. Then I heard some cars and thought they will save me before I die and I will only have brain damage. Tomorrow i MUST do it. I can't live anymore... :( Any advices for courage? | suicide |
want people to game with :) hii, im looking for people to play some chill games with like mc, cs and r. open to other games too of course. After switching to pc a few months ago i haven't really had anyone to play with and i just want some chill humorous people to play with. add my steam Atlisio or dm if you want to play :) | non-suicide |
Killing myself soon. Things would have been different if I just changed a little but it doesn't matter.I love you all but deserve this. | suicide |
I had a perfect plan to rickroll my family today. True story. My mom told me to get some new music on USB for our car. And, of course, I got a genius idea. Why not rickroll my whole family? I uploaded the song, everything was fine. You may wonder what went wrong. Shuffle. Fucking shuffle. It always repeats songs, it *never* plays anything new. There is still a chance, for next time tho. Also, cause our car is so smart, it didn't recognize half of the songs I uploaded. Why? Cause the *name of the fucking file* had space in it. As I said, the car is *very* smart. | non-suicide |
I hate myself so much...I hate myself everyday. Im really the biggest piece of shit on this earth, no doubt about it. I really dont know why I continue living. I have no aims in life, there is really nothing I look forward to anymore. Honestly the only thing that prevents me from doing it is that Im way too scared. Im such a failure and I wouldnt be a loss to society and anyone else. | suicide |
friend me on discord I'm lonely and I'm online alot Fufu\_MRK#. Thanks :) idk I play pokemeow am Canadian anddd like among | non-suicide |
Ok... so... Who just scrolls through looking for nsfw posts? And how many of you found this by doing that? | non-suicide |
Bought everything I need.I've just bought everything I need for my plan and I now have to wait for it to be delivered but like most people do all this as an impulse, I've given this alot of thought and I guess another or days won't hurt and I'll know for certain what actions I will take when it gets to that point. | suicide |
There really isn't good Da Vinci doujins Why do they always gotta change her into a loli | non-suicide |
I'm missing assignments on school It would take me . hours nonstop to complete it I want to dieeeee | non-suicide |
A very cursed thought I don't fucking understand that feeling when you're thirsty and need to take a piss at the same time... Why can I just regurgitate that stuff I need to pee out in my mouth so that I take both problems put at once? | non-suicide |
I need to vent Please dm me | non-suicide |
HelpPlease help me. I dont know how to ask for help. I just want a hug and someone to tell me things will be alright. Please | suicide |
I don't feel like killing myself as much as beforeI fell in love with the most amazing girl when I was convinced I could never have feelings for anyone. For the first time I find myself wanting to stay alive. It's an uncomfortable feeling but I'm starting to accept it, I was so accepting of the idea that no matter what I do it doesn't matter and I mean nothing but now I feel genuine happiness. I can't believe I've never felt happiness before. The problem with this is without her I feel worse than I ever did being able to compare my emptiness with something positive like happiness wasn't something I was able to do before but now I feel like absolute shit. I now have a reason to be alive now but I don't feel good knowing that I can't just end my life when I feel like it anymore | suicide |
My year old sister had a mental breakdown earlier, need advice, please! [x-post Askreddit]Not sure if I posted this the right place before, so I'll seek for help here as well. tl;dr: Basically, my year old sister just had a breakdown stating she wants nothing to do with my family, and is refusing help. We're afraid she's going to hurt herself, and don't know what actions to take to help her, and us. **Background**: my sister has always had a hard time socially, however, more so lately since my parents are going through a divorce. She's taking it really hard, being the only sibling to see this (I'm off at college in a different state). She is constantly on the computer (not a bad thing), but doesn't interact/socalize and take anything else seriously. She also, recently, has come out to my mom and I that she is confused about her gender, but that's a completely different story. She is not in any form of relationship, other than having friends. My whole family has suggested/made appt's with various counseling, however always says that "we're wasting money" and she'll just not say anything to them. I understand that one cannot be helped if they don't want help. **Current**: But in this circumstance, she just had a terrible breakdown saying she wants to be disowned from this family, but doesn't have the skills/money to live on her own. My mom, who is already stressed from the divorce isn't taking this very well, with my sister grade's slipping and not taking life, essentially, seriously, and doesn't know what to do in this situation. She's offered to send & pay for her to attend boarding schools, suggested foster homes, etc. because my sister really doesn't like anybody in the family anymore, I guess. My mom was debating whether or not to have her admitted to a psych ward. I'm not really sure what to do right now. My mom is keeping her home tomorrow from school, because we fear for her mental sanity at this time, and don't want her to do anything harmful. What I'm basically asking for is, has anyone had a similar experience? How to handle an adolescent that is refusing any form of help. | suicide |
Im tired.I'm tired. I don't want to exist anymore. | suicide |
I graduated cum laude with an engineering degree from a high ranked university in Dec , and I've spent all of bedridden thanks to debilitating social anxiety and depression and I feel just giving up is the only choice I haveI was supposed to have been the 'golden child' of the family and make it big as a st generation college student. Ever since I was found out to be 'gifted,' that's what was pushed on me all throughout junior high, high school, and university. But instead of being my family's golden child, I'm left as a bitter disappointment as I've spent all of essentially in bed thanks to my unmanageable social anxiety that prevents me from operating as a normal person, something my family never bothered to address and they hoped I would 'grow' out of it. Well instead of growing out of it, it turned into a deeply rooted personality disorder that I struggle everyday with just to not kill myself. Don't get me wrong, my university had a counseling center and psychiatric services that I tried to make use of. I went through several different counselors, psychiatrists, and medications that I can't even remember the names of, but nothing helps when it's that far buried in you. How well you do in University does not show how well you'll do in real life. I only ever did the minimum - study and homework. I didn't have friends. I didn't do extracurriculars, internships, or research. Any free time I had I spent laying in bed watching something on my phone. I haven't even sent out a single resume at all since graduating because all I have on it is that I went to college, and that I know that I'm too nonfunctional to even be an engineer, let alone getting past a fucking interview. I'm probably going to have to settle for something like working at the local dollar store because that's all I can see myself realistically doing and hopefully not fucking it up. Each day, that degree loses value to employers and it's probably going to be worthless. Some golden child I am. I'm a complete lost at what I should do other than giving up and dying. | suicide |