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i wish i could turn back time so i could do better in school i m near the end of high school now and i never took school seriously when i grew up i have now also discovered that i have add which is a big reason why and plus i did not want to use my glasses i do not remember like anything from school because i did not care or thought about my future i never lived in the real reality and never realized how important learning is at the start of august 2020 i wanted to take school more seriously and i did i got an a on alot of my psychology classes my favorite subject too and sociology classes my other classes went pretty well too then it started to get too much and i started failing math and gave it up with online school has made it worse even though it would probably be great if i just have not given up since the end of 2020 and beginning of 2021 it has gone downhill again i have failed to plan on my callender and i have just too much assignment i am behind in it is like i rather look away from it than face it because it so too much for me i feel as if i just went back in time every since i started school i could have just done it right from there i would be responsible and learn as much as i could and learn to do what has to be done than to look away and ignore them i wish i would have been smarter so it would not be too much later if i only did good at the beginning everything would have changed why why did i not take school seriously if you are young and reading this please do do not do the same mistake as me | regret |
Nsfw
ãÃÂÃÂSorry for the prolonged absence, just haven't had the time ya know?ãÃÂÃÂ
Okay so maaaybe I masturbated while playing a online match. Maybe. Look, the characters are pretty fucking hot, and I did better then usual. I'm not gonna do it again, but damn.
At least there's no ingame voice chat. ;; | guilt |
i feel bad bc i just know taking adderall is really exacerbating all of my symptoms........... but in a sense, on its own, the abuse of the drug itself is a symptom too... no wonder people with untreated bipolar have such a hard time.... we tend to seek out the things that specifically make us a lot worse...... :/ | guilt |
So I haven't really been on here in a few days. I know lol... | guilt |
Failed to keep an appointment. | guilt |
When I hit my young sister without a valid reason. | guilt |
tw::sh, depression
iâÃÂÃÂve stopped myself from cutting seven days in a row. today iâÃÂÃÂm too tired. | guilt |
in doing so i am very much afraid that i have brought a great deal of unhappiness to those who have loved me . | guilt |
forgive me for such a vulga ote . | guilt |
my high school crush is my biggest regret when i was in high school there was this girl that i liked so much that i brought snacks into to class so that me and her can talk and eat she knew i liked her and she liked me too i confessed to her that i liked her on my 18th birthday after that however when ever i saw her my heart kept beating faster and my mind was racing so fast that i could n t comprehend them i just did not feel the same confidence i had after i told her that later that same year she hooked up with someone else at our school and i cried my heart out that night knowing that she had moved on it is been 7 years since we graduated high school and i still think about her everyday | regret |
nsfw this is the second time ive left them to get off alone aaaaa im bad | guilt |
Decided at the last minute not to do something that I said I ÃÂá
would do with a person. | guilt |
When I didn't bring my girlfriend home one night. Later she told ÃÂá
me that a cardriver solicited her. | regret |
i regret looking up the victims of jack the ripper i m watching a doc about jack the ripper by lemmino and out of a morbid curiosity i decided to see if there were any images of the victims i now regret doing so some were not bad others were i doubt i will be sleeping tonight | regret |
When I realised that I had rejected a boy, who was fallen in love ÃÂá
with me, rather bluntly four times. | guilt |
#nsfw
Is it wierd to want to be a sub and a dom? Oh my God it would be so hot to have a threesome with a a guy sub and a guy dom. | guilt |
one of my best friends pulled me aside today to talk about a mark on my arm, and honestly him caring so much makes me want to cry it's so unfair that this is bringing you down too that's not what I want | guilt |
i feel like i am becoming a bad person i am 18 years old and i am supposed to be mature here s the thing i know right from wrong and the other day i said something terribly rude to someone like possibly the worst thing u could ever say to someone and i meant to say it as a joke but it did not come off that way me and the person were arguing on twitter dms and they were saying a lot of shit to me and stuff and telling me to go fuck myself blah blah and i said it back but i also said something else that was terrible and i feel so guilty i immediately apologized and sent them messages i was so angry and stuff but also trying to be dry and funny and it was absolutely not funny and i already knew that before i said it but i was not thinking idk what to do i have never even said anything like that before and the situation was not that serious to be saying what i said but i was so upset already that day | regret |
hindsight is 2020 i guess one time after i got out of class the girl i had a crush on asked me to come over and then kept begging me to come over i kept saying i had chores to do but i did not now she has a boyfriend and i feel shitty what is wrong with me | regret |
When I shout at a colleague in classroom. | guilt |
My friend passed away this weekend and it hurts, IâÃÂÃÂm sad but most of all I feel guilty. I wasnâÃÂÃÂt there for him when he needed someone the most I didnâÃÂÃÂt get the chance to say goodbye or thank him for being my friend. I want to forget about this feeling and ignore it but if I donâÃÂÃÂt itâÃÂÃÂs like IâÃÂÃÂm forgetting him and I never want to do that. | guilt |
There is so much adult stuff I need to do today but all I want to do it catch up on the walking dead! | guilt |
regret not asking her out broken english last night i was thinking about her she is the only girl i had strong feelings for despite never talking to her i never felt anything like that for any other girl i remember that summer night back in 2013 when for the first and last time in my whole life i experienced butterflies in my stomach that mix of panic and excitement i was there waiting for her to be alone but she was always surrounded by her friends so i decided to give up and wait for a better moment wich never came i felt asleep thinking about it today i even drew an art about her then i went in a depressed mood and i beat my meat to some porn as i use to do when i m sad cuz i m a fucking loser usually after that i would spend the rest of my sunday afternoons playing video games but today i took a shower and somehow got out of my house like if i needed to after going for a lonely walk in the fields and staring the horizon till sunset i decided to come back home i was bit disappointed like i was expecting something to happen i was walking down the main street of my little town yellow leaves were falling from the trees and i saw her after many years breathtaking as she ve always been we looked at each other for a sec then i cowardly looked at the ground she walked past by me i did not dare to look back i thought she was out of my league anyway i have a photo of her as my phone s wallpaper and she does not even know who i am as far as i know wish i found the courage to ask her out that summer night in 2013 my biggest regret | regret |
When my little brother asked me to play with him, I told him that ÃÂá
I had no time and that I would play with him the next day. ÃÂá
However, the next day I said the same thing. | guilt |
I really need to stop thinking about you every day. You're driving me crazy | regret |
A certain woman had asked me to make something for her and I kept ÃÂá
putting it off. When I finally made it, I did not see her for ÃÂá
days only to be told one day that she had collapsed and died. I ÃÂá
felt quite guilty as she had jokingly said that I might not do ÃÂá
what she had requested me to do. | guilt |
i regret not fighting back on my job july 2020 i started working for dc lottery and it was a decent job not too much labor and i could do my grad classes in relative peace the problem was the 6 ppl who worked there with me they were very invasive and against my better judgement i shared my political and social views with these coworkers after sharing my views they began to isolate me and then began to exaggerate my work ethic to the manager sidenote our actual management was not located on site they were located in ny or tx or some other state only through chat and phone now all of a sudden i was being excessively late i was not and that was somehow affecting the workflow it did not and the management needed to discuss my role in the business also 3 months in advance i had requested a week off to make some additional money i only made 800 a month working there and they wanted to deny that request becos one of the coworkers had insinuated to management that my reason for the time off was false i did not fight back though i just left and now i have applied for over 100 jobs in the last month and not one has responded back i feel like having the crumbs would have been better than nothing i m trying to stay optimistic but it is hard when you got ta pay bills every month but this is my fault for sharing my political and social views at work i should have remained unapproachable | regret |
falling in love falling in love with someone that never loved me is my greatest regret in life i m not even the same person anymore i can not move on most days i do not even have the energy to breathe feels like if you never have it then you never know what you are missing | regret |
I came home from a discotheque at half past four in the morning, ÃÂá
although I had promised my parents to come home at midnight. From ÃÂá
3 a.m. I felt guilty towards my parents. | guilt |
And I know this is super.... shitty and narcissistic (i uses?) Of me bit
I feel
Superior in a way compared to the other students who seem to try so hard to get our teacher to probably show that other teacher as well and idk
Cause I don't mention the stuff to my teacher at all, I try to hide this stuff honestly cause I'm so nervous that they won't like it and I'll be annoying But
Idk
It's that feeling of them just coming up to me when I'm literalyy just trying to do my own thing and stuff
And this one guy is like
Seems he's trying really hard to get our teacher to be as impressed to his stuff and he is with my stuff???? I might be thinking too much into this thigh and just boosting my ego;;;; | guilt |
Never knew it would be this stressful. Already making mistakes and already fucking up. | guilt |
a list too long the list of my regrets is a lengthy one so i will just focus on the ones most prominent tonight i regret my marriage rushed and an act of desperation out of fear of being alone my partner is brash and immature unable to keep a job or handle the basic stress of day to day life i regret having my oldest child how i have raised him and how he must feel in this blended family i regret being so pathetic and unless i regret how desperate i become while around others like a dog begging for attention i regret my self hate and how numb i have become to it i thank you for the time that you have wasted reading this i will add it to my list | regret |
not having sex going through a dry spell and it makes me think back about all the time i passed up with exs i had chances to bang other women c only using first letter for names when i was working passed up two chances to have sex with co workers c cheats on me k after thinking i was making a long distance relationship work and after meeting a friend r who is fucking gorgeous talented and funny i pass up chance with r to get cheated on by k and given the clap by k a roommate who i fell for so i never decided to actually have sex with any other girl while pursuing her except the one time i tried to she and my so called friends cock block me numerous chances at bars parties etc passed up while she fucked all my friends and i was the fool who fell for her not saying i was the perfect stand up guy in my relationships but i never cheated but wish i had basically i regret not fucking or making connections to have to fuck now | regret |
ew craving into biological instincts and dealing with the repercussions i m such a fucking idiot hah | regret |
My boss said they'll need me as much as possible this week, so they're probably going to ask me to come in tomorrow and Saturday, but I have SO MUCH SCHOOLWORK TO CATCH UP ON BECAUSE I'M IRRESPONSIBLE AF so I'll have to bail on them while I power through a month's worth of essays in two days ðÃÂÃÂé | guilt |
can not move on from past mistakes throughout april i was blackmailed into doing really nasty things online nothing physically harmed anyone but what the person blackmailed me into doing was mean i came clean to all the people involved at the end of the month and they all forgave me but i can not forgive myself each night was horrible panic attacks vomiting i could n t sleep it was horrid i m young and i was in such a panicked state i did not know what i was doing half the time but the worst part is the person blackmailing me was one of my friends or at least someone who knew stuff about me and my friends i do not know who i can trust anymore i was almost moved to self harm but i never did i just want to move on does anyone have any advice | regret |
When I was 4-5 years old my mother gave me some parts of a ÃÂá
chocolate bar and ordered me to bring it to my father working ÃÂá
outside. On my way I could not resist the temptation and ate it ÃÂá
myself. | guilt |
i took advantage of a girl and regret it i was 1314 and was desperate for sex 247 i meet a girl emo girl first time we meet was at her house i remember that i kept bragging about it and i took her virginity months went by i kept wanting to have sex we had sex most of the times she was at my house and when i was at her house sometimes i could see her face that she did not want to do it and she even said no sometimes but at the end we did it i thought i was missing out what my friends did but i was an idiot i still get nightmares of those days and i really regret everything | regret |
I broke a cup and put it back without telling anyone about it and ÃÂá
someone almost got blamed for it, then it was discovered that it ÃÂá
was me who had broken it. | guilt |
I have got to stop spending money. I have the worst impulse purchasing problem especially when Sir isn't around to tell me no. | guilt |
Guess who did bad shit and now regrets all of it and feels bad about all of it??!! Me!! ðÃÂÃÂÃÂðÃÂÃÂà| guilt |
i went into my room vibrator in hand to get off on some porn but then i decided to do some innocent internet browsing first stumbled on an article about celebrities who did voice acting and ended up wanting to watch the prince of egypt now i feel dirty but not in a good way ah well i m sure the guilt will wear off | regret |
i 22f feeling so fucking bad screaming at my dad 55 today i screamed at my dad so bad i never behaved with him like that before he was scolding on me for some reason but he was frustrated i could n t cantrol myself i got extremely rude to him i love my dad so much i m crying rn i am feeling so bad i love him very much | regret |
do you regret doing some of the things your parents told you to do i have had moments where i regret doing something that my parents told me to do how about you | regret |
I wrote a bad letter to someone concerning our relationship which ÃÂá
we created ourselves. | guilt |
Moms crying and its my fault fuck | guilt |
I kinda feel guilty cos 2 people were play fighting and I shouted "bff goals" as a joke and they looked at me and looked away again, hopefully they took it as a joke | guilt |
My ex's messages.
I went through our old messages and now I want to see how you are but I know if I do that I'll fall back into the whole again and fuck up the relationship I'm in now.
| guilt |
my vents make her sound like a bad person but sheâÃÂÃÂs the best person; IâÃÂÃÂm just really insecure and I overthink everything | guilt |
I know... I'm sorry... | guilt |
oops, I think pink is my favorite color
why am I so girly. | guilt |
moms of many big regrets i have a ton of kids ages mid 20s to young elementary about 2 years gap between each of them i love them i wish i never had them they ve inherited a shitty world i m done being a mom it sucks for them idk why i kept having kids i loved the adventure of pregnancy and newborns by the time i realized i fucked up by having kids and so many of them it was too late i have several chronic illnesses and pain sometimes i wonder if they re better off with a zombie disengaged mom i was not always just in the last 4 or so years or a dead mom which way would they feel less abandoned my husband is a great dad i want to leave this earth or just exist in a completely different way alone but i know the ravages of abandonment and its devastating effects i m just way over being a mom i was recently out of state for well over a month and did not miss them at all they do not know i feel this way when some of my kids hint they may not want kids of their own i highly encourage them to not have children anyone else what did you do any thoughts discussion or advice is welcomed | regret |
[ Whenever I do something prohibited or wrong I feel guilty.] | guilt |
The cat of my landlady escaped through the window which I had ÃÂá
left open. | guilt |
Oops i lost my motivation again
But i'm gonna force myself to do work. | guilt |
regret getting drunk at work this happened a month ago i was a dishwasher at cheesecake factory for 6 months got employee of the month was always complimented on my hard work was offered to be a line cook two times i liked my job just not the workload but it was filled with cool people and awesome managers my regret is that two days into my two week notice i got blackout drunk threw up in the back alley passed down in the back alley broke a couple dishes and made a complete fool out of myself i was so angry cuz even though i was gon na quit i wanted to comeback as a busser now i lost the chance to make tips work with cool people work with my crush now i m remembered as that idiot dishwasher who got blacked out i have no one to blame but myself i ruined my good rapport with the company this regret is getting the way of my school work self esteem i loved working there just not the work load | regret |
i regret how i spent my childhood when i was 13 my parents got divorced and i was bitter about constantly blaming them i could n t wait to leave home and never go back 3 days after turning 18 i joined the marine corps im 20 now 2 years in and over the last couple years i patched things up with both my parents and i live with the regret of blaming them for 5 years and wasting the time i should have enjoyed with them the military offered me perspective that i would not have gotten anywhere else but i hate it and can not wait to get out and start living my own life but i can not so now im just stuck living with the regret of wasting my childhood and making a rash decision that is going to effect my life until im 22 | regret |
I made an appointment to pick up someone. However I arrived ÃÂá
too late and she had to wait a quarter of an hour. | guilt |
When I was made to feel responsible for the emotional state a friend of ÃÂá
mine was in. | guilt |
When I did not succeed in finding a job after having finished a ÃÂá
nonacademic degree. | guilt |
i regret not living with my dad when i turned 16 i was supposed to get the choice to live with my father which i never got i can not help but wonder what would have happened if i did i hate myself and ultimately my life for never making that choice for myself and hate myself for never standing up for myself when i should have i also hate myself for getting discharged from the army and ending up back in my mother s house | regret |
When someone is accused or punished instead of me. | guilt |
I had a girlfriend which I used to call regularly. Then I didn't ÃÂá
phone her for a while. At a certain moment I felt a little ÃÂá
tension which became worse. | guilt |
When my grandfather was in a nursing home when I was young I never ÃÂá
wanted to go and sometimes didn't have to and later I felt ÃÂá
guilty. | guilt |
worst part of regretting kids ive had depression and anxiety for years and it has never been as bad now i have a son but no matter how bad i dont feel suicide is an option as wouldnt want to leave my child with no dad im literally just existing to be miserable it really hurts my wife doesnt really care jist tells me to get on with it its driving me even more insane | regret |
my son will be 3 in october and still i regret not doing adoption for him i am thinking of trying to do adoption now even though it might be to late and maybe no one will want him i feel so bad i let others talk me out of doing adoption because now i have failed him and i have to send him away at this age i am so embarrassed and angry at myself | guilt |
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let me eat you out until you can't think straight (if you catch my drift ðÃÂÃÂÃÂ) | guilt |
About the girl (22 years, married) I felt guilty of the ÃÂá
relationship. | guilt |
I had known the girl for a few months when I proposed to her and this ÃÂá
put an end to our friendship, as from then on we started ÃÂá
withdrawing from each other. I liked her very much. | guilt |
Oh boy... this is gonna end up sooo bad... and is cruel because I know it now and IâÃÂÃÂm getting ready for it... | guilt |
i regret it now what am i going to do so i wanted to tell someone im regretting for past 3 years i am really good in biology and chemistry when i was in 10th i wanted to choose science batch because im interested in science but i took commerce i dont have any interest in commerce but because my friend took commerce i also took commerce now im regretting everything i do not know what my subjects are about what is accounting i do not know anything when it was time to choose the batch my all family memmbers mom dad grandfather grandmother my uncle my aunt everyone told me to take science but i didnt they said u will regret your choice by taking commerce but i didnt listen at that time and now i really regret it now its time for me to give entrance exam for bcom but how will i pass if i dont know anything about my subject im going to fail everyone in my family is settled having good job and life but i think i wont make it i already failed i want to go 2 years back how i am going to persue my career when i dont know anything about what im studying and i live in india so its really hard to persue they say if u dont study u will do house work and get married i dont want that i want to do a job but how am i going to do that no matter how much i study i cant understand those subject now o regret everything everyone was right i did a big mistake i ruined my own life because of my stupidity | regret |
update 3 i thought i could finally leave my regret behind untill summary of what s happened so far i m an 11 year old with a abusive fatheri got into one of the best schools in my country cause i caved from pure pressure from my fatheri then start getting very obvious adhd symtoms and start losing tons of scores cause i can not pay attentionsome of the teachers are also abusive so that takes a toll on me tooi then find out i can not move schools so i regret my chose even more update yesterday i finally told my mother about my possible adhd and she tells me to look at my symtoms while i m learning tomorrow today but she did not want me to take a break just cause it was also my birthday which i understand cause learning is importanti get happier now knowing that she supports mefast foward to today i was just learning normally but a bit happierthen fast foward again to right now i start learning my language class and tgis teacher is one of the most abusive teachers i learn with like she swears so much and she gave some bs reason to why she can swear but we can not but today i do not know why but she is way more aggeressive than normallike she is swearing and shouting way more at us for the most mundan reasons like asking a simple question not getting a question rightit really made me sad and even made me cryi m now regretting my chose even more and considering purposly expelling myself even more it is even worse cause this is on my birthday today and knowing future me is gon na remember this day cause of this event makes me even sadder please do you have any ideas to make this day better i already have a plan to eat one of my favorite foods and ordering some presents for myself but i do not think those are gon na be enough to make this day betterplease cheer me up and help me be happyi will do another update today a bit later | regret |
i regret rejecting a girl that had a crush on me im 28 now and i still think about it sometimes when i was 15 i did not even know this girl existed she had a huge crush on me and managed to find me because she saw my address on my library card she had the courage to look for me and ask around where i live i went downstairs and she expressed that she liked me and if i would like to be her boyfriend she was 12 which is not as bad at that age but it felt weird to me i said a direct no like and arrogant idiot i was such a self absorbed brat back then im not even that good looking but i was at that age where i thought i am the special one i on the other hand had crush on a different girl she did not felt the same about me later i found out so that was one of the reasons i declined the other reasons were that i felt a bit embarrassed because she asked kids around my neighbourhood for me and it was well embarrassing kids and their problems she was a bit sad but took it like a champ though and asked me if we can stay friends which i accepted and we talked a bit but later when she would greet me sometimes i pretended i dont know her i feel so bad about it even after all those years even though i did not want her to be my girlfriend i really regret not having her as a good friend she had so much courage to find me and express her feelings and i deflected it like it was nothing its hard for a guy but when girl does it its so special when i think about it we come from a similar background i hated being poor back then and that may be the reason i reflected so much negativity towards her x200b ps i have a great life and great girlfriend now i changed my ways and i try to be the best person i can | guilt |
i said i would forgive her i eventually did my girlfriend of several years called me one miserable sunday morning and told me she had gotten drunk and cheated on me she was crying at the time she did not remember it happening i was furious i have never felt more humiliated in my life i just could n t get over the idea of the woman i love not just betraying me or making a mistake or whatever but acting so ridiculously i could n t understand how this could happen to us so i rebuilt my self esteem with the affections of whomever was at hand for maybe a month or two i just said yes to everything that came my way i did not encourage it but i did not say no to a pretty smile i do not remember if it was fun i felt disgusting afterwards i just felt like i was so full of fire i had to let it out so now i find myself here confessing to no one in particular because i do not have the courage to confess to her when she cheated on me i thought who is this weak creature to cheat on me i am strong i am smart i do not need her but honestly no matter how many other girls come and go in my life i do not believe i will love any as much as this one i m probably just the first guy who gave her the time of day and she will stay until she realizes she can have someone else | regret |
i am easy like sunday morning first off let me say that for a gay man of my age having as fewmany sexual partners as i have is not unusual by any stretch of the imagination it is probably pretty low given that i am not terribly unattractive and have turned down sex a grand total of once in my life anyway the thing that bothers me is that my last embarrassing sexcapade was relatively public i was at a bar with friends and apparently i sucked some random guy off in a bathroom stall one of the friends was in the bathroom and saw us leave at the same time i say apparently because i was blackout drunk i remember it happening about as well as i remember a dream the next day i actually thought i dreamed it until someone made a comment about it i realize that being horny is not a crime i am a grown man and can do what i want and that being drunk brings out the worst judgement in everybody but ugh god i am really disappointed in myself and really embarrassed everyone knows i am a slut and there is nothing i could do to change their minds a lifetime of restraint would never make them forget me as the bathroom blower heh or the stall sucker haha sigh edit grammar | regret |
...dads irritated with me I don't blame him at all... I'm sorry dad. | guilt |
i am conflicted it all started a few weeks ago i went to a lan party with a group of friends however due to the size of rooms at the host s home i and another friend had to sit in a separate room as the night wore on my friend i found out was a very cuddly man and very touchy feely he hands underneath my shirt and rubbed even massaged me at the time i still believe i have a girlfriend but in my selfish quest of solitude i barley bothered to make contact plus a new job also blocked any chance of contact so i do not know were her and me stand he continued to rub and massage and made motions for more intimate actions yet i did not protest i did not fidget or anything i always knew i had an attraction to men so i guess it was that thirst for something new that made me keep from protest a week later i went to his home for a film marathon i had a plan to confess i was already with someone yet i did not i was captivated by this urge ultimate things later in the night became very intimate i enjoyed it greatly the lust was powerful however in the back of my mind i knew i was cheating on her i was becoming nothing but a slime and a bastard now he thinks were in a relationship which i guess that is what it is and i still have not talked to her i am tearing myself apart on the inside i have committed what is considered a sin and i know it i do not know what to do | regret |
seth walsh i regret not being there for you i always told you to brush it off and that the bullies did not matter but i never told you that i was the same i was too scared of being bullied myself that i let you walk in the fire as i hid i was a coward if maybe i had come out to you you would have felt like someone understands the pain but i did not and i feel like that is why you committed suicide you felt alone but you were not alone i always envied your courage to be yourself almost 10 years later and that is my biggest regret tehachapi is still a shit hole with a shit school district btw | regret |
i wish i could have realised at the time years ago when my dog was a pup i walked him to a shop nearby to get some stuff quick visit bread milk stuff like that i tied him up outside which is fine a bunch of times and went in on coming out i find a guy with his own dog holding mine on the lead i am what he is doing with my dog he tells me he was trying the dog back up he does this while handing me the lead beach i ask why he was tied of the lead to which he replies that the lead broke i inspect the lead which is only a month or two old and tell him it is not broken he starts apologizing and walking away i know what s up and i m just glad i caught him before i lose my dog my regret i did not take a second to consider the other dog i very much doubt that this dog was his and i wish i would questioned it and called the police i bet someone lost their best friend that day and i could have prevented that | regret |
update i m nervous and regreting a past event summary of my last post i m a 11 year old male with an aggerissive father that has way too high expectations of mei just got into one of the top schools in my country cause i caved from pressure from my fatherwhile learning online i start having adhd symtoms too much work becoming sterressed might have depression losing scores regreting choosing that school ranting to reddit and asking for advice and help update it is about a day later and i m almost at my breaking pointi m just thinking about a conversation in a class from a few days agoit was about the main problems i have and i did not comment or even spoke during that conversationnow i m here typing this after a school day near the point where i will just lock myself in my room for the entire next day without doing anything at alli think i have to tell at least my mother now and finally ask for a much needed breakbut i m nervous what if i can not get a break what if i can not get some time to calm down and relax i m not sure how i m gon na do it but i just know that it has to be now or i will not be able to sleep tonightplease wish me lucki will make an update as soon as i get my answersagain wish me luck | regret |
Once when I was in the cell group (religious activity) I found ÃÂá
that almost everyone in the group read the bible daily and I felt ÃÂá
guilty in my heart. | guilt |
never got to tell them how much it meant to me when i was in elementary school i had these so called friends who at the time would always find a way to make fun of me ridicule me or bring me down doing things like calling me annoying when all i wanted to do was talk to them well i had this one friend i will keep her name out of this for privacy reasons but she would always find a way to defend me and also make sure to include me in activities like inviting me over to her house to play i was a shy kid so i never really went but i really appreciated the fact that she d try well middle school came along and she faded away slowly and we did not really talk then around 7th grade i found out that she had overdosed on heroin and had passed away in her sleep it did not hit me at first until now for some reason which is really odd because im now 20 years old regardless i just really regret not telling her how much it meant to me back then that she was the one person who was actually nice to me when it is my time to go i will make sure to go let her know until then all i have of her are memories crazy | regret |
One day I shouted at my brother who didn't do any wrong to me ÃÂá
only that I had a disappointment from a friend and projected it ÃÂá
on to him. He cried and I felt guilty after sometime. | guilt |
i never thought spongebob would do this to me i just watched this https youtubew0a18a8vhcq i found myself agreeing with squidward and had a minor conniption deep inside my soul it now feels like the reason i do not make as much art as i used to is because i stopped dreaming i m pretty sure school beat it out of me i remember being stood up in front of my 6th grade class my teacher was showing everyone my drawings because i was drawing in class i felt so much shame so i regret losing the ability to dream there is a little bit of dreamer in there i can feel it i just hope that there is hope for me | regret |
Mom is upset that I'm not crying
"Maybe it would make you have feelings"
Ouch. I mean I have plenty of feelings I just don't like showing them to you :\ | guilt |
one of my favorite artists died xxxtentacion and i did not go to their open casket viewing jahseh was a very important person to me and i always wanted to meet him in person at a concert and have a lit ass time with him but a lot of people around me did not seem to care about x to the degree that i did i wanted at first to go to the open casket memorial in miami since i live in stpete which is a 4 hour drive but nobody i contacted with wanted to go with me and i was afraid of going alone i had these mixed feelings of did i really wan na see one of my favorite artists that i have never met before dead in a casket or do i want to actually go and say goodbye so none of my friends wanted to go and my mother did not support me going to miami to go to a memorial of a guy i never met so me being a lost person who could n t make up his mind i never went to his memorial and now i m having mixed feelings i feel a sense of regret that i will never get to see him and say goodbye and i feel a sense of maybe it was for the better since i would release myself the horror of seeing one of my favorite artists fucking dead plus my car was having issues and i never even thought about flying at the time which i should have considered as an option i just need help with coping this sense of guilt and regret i feel like i just lost a close friend and i have no closure to move on with my life i will though at least visit his grave though to pay my respects | regret |
i regret not spending time with my mom my biggest regret was not spending time with my mom before she past due to cancer now i just look back after 5 years wishing i cherished the moments i had she was almost always sleeping but some days she would be very energetic and yet i still did not appreciate that time i had with her i was young and those are the years the building a strong relationship matters i lay in bed typing this over thinking about it like i do many other nights | regret |
One day I took a packet of sweets from a certain Grocery at ÃÂá
Nathenje. Then later on I started to feel guilty and realised ÃÂá
that I had done a wrong thing to him. | guilt |
i bought a terrabytes worth of cp for 03 i am a lolicon yeah that creepy weeb guy that stands on the lowest chain of weeb a trash i thought turns out i just had a complexity of liking girls younger than me why because im short 5 4 it was around 165cm it changes sometimes shorter or taller regardless short even by asian standard let s get to the point it has not happen that long in the past it just happen on this very day started a few days ago when i try to look up for some loli shit on telegram but then it says blocked cause of pornography that just weirdly makes me more excited to find what is the content that makes telegram had to block it try to bypass that by the methods from internet not working and then i found another channel with a lot of alias of loli flipping found real cp they serve free vids but with lots of ads some people may be fine with this just jerk off one times and then go on but i likes to collect things i even store lots of anime pictures and cosplayer pictures sometimes pops an ads from the channel for so called vvip features access of hijab p yowhat group and the cp also i think he mentioned the contacts of reliable vcs but i surprised by the super cheap price for a terrabytes worth of cp and that is excluding the hijab p contents i hesitated but send the money anyway you probably understands what happened after but now i feel regret probably far from failing a test or missing a chance i did leave every groups and channels related to nfsw things airdrop things the only things left | regret |
my uncle nearly killed my dog my dog is sophia she is a cocker spaniel mix she is the sweetest cutest and absolutely best trained dog i have ever had she is black and white with little spots i got her as a puppy and raised her by bottle feeding i got her from an awful home she was full of fleas and nearly dead she spent days in the hospital fast forward a year and a half later i m living with my aunt for a few weeks until my apartment is ready and i can move in unfortunately i live with my uncle when someone walks into the house that she does not know my dog will bark to alert me i was not home she barked to alert my uncle my uncle then beat her to the point she could hardly walk when i got home i asked where she was because she did not greet me my uncle said he smacked her because she was barking weird i thought sophia does not bark unless something is out of place i called her nothing i got down on my hands and knees she was behind the couch and i reached towards her she scooched back to the wall as far as she could as soon as she saw me i grabbed her scruff and pulled her to me she shivered shook and clung to me like a child enough was enough i put her down to pee before i put her in the car to start my 4 hour drive back to my mom s to drop her off she could barely walk and was limping around the yard there was blood in her urine i brought her to the vet as soon as i got into town she was in pain luckily she made it i do not care how much it cost me she is my baby and i am so so angry about what happened tl dr i will be going to jail for murder very soon | regret |
i m done i lasted 4 12 years i can not do it anymore i do not want custody or visitation and am willing to throw money at the situation so long as i do not have to be a parent anymore i am sorry to everyone around me that i am hurting and sorry to myself for failing miserably at being a mother i just can not do it anymore i would rather shoot myself or jump off a bridge | guilt |
Its over...hes no longer surffering he is save and Im happy he didnt die alone, dad was with him until the end.
25/4/16 âÃÂäâÃÂè Ah..this is so sad... | guilt |
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so upset the only thing I know how to do is take care of other people even if they are shitty people who never clean up after themselves | guilt |
i have done so many awful thing s more than i can count what do you do when you have done so many awful thing s i have done more awful thing s than i can count i have hurt people that i love one thing i even tried to get myself arrested for what do i do | regret |
i am a criminal at heart i do not know why but i can not stop thinking about theft in addition to other forms of nonviolent crimes not the subject but how i would do it and get away with it this is beyond the normal dae think bad thoughts sort of thing i have maps plans contacts preconfigured computer systems hiding places and other instruments of wrongdoing all ready should i decide to do the deed including a delicious scheme worth hundreds of thousands involving the bitcoin the linden and the tor black web i have even sought out and downloaded that 4chan coupon counterfeiting kit i have not done anything yet partially because somewhere inside me something tells me it is wrong and partially because i have not found a way to bring the risk of getting caught down to acceptable levels i learned that lesson getting busted for shoplifting as a young teenager to put it in perspective in my engineering seminar course the subject this past week was ethics i sat through the lecture thinking well shit looks like i can not build that theftrobot until i realized it and stopped myself i have no plans to continue on this route but i can not tell anyone especially my therapist who i m seeing for depression anxiety disorder and ptsd as i m sure they would look to my past arrest and think omg he s a criminal 4 lief an we must shun him or at least distrust me even though i have done nothing since i got busted so here i am | regret |
One day my mother went to visit her friends. When she came back ÃÂá
she scolded me for not having kept the house in order, so I ÃÂá
decided not to talk to her. | guilt |
would having a 247 nanny make a difference i guess my question is would unlimited financial resources make a difference re regret | regret |
avoided accidentally dry hump at school to be respectful when i was 14 male we had this gym teacher who i would not say was the hottest but she was pretty fit one time in the lesson she bent over to grab something off a table i was standing right behind her i could have just stood still and her ass would have scraped my dick but i quickly moved out of the way before any contact happened nobody i m the entire class noticed that i had that close encounter not even the teacher now i kinda wish i did stand still cause it would have felt so good i do not know if she bent over in front of me on purpose or not but hopefully she did because she might do it again | regret |
I promised to fulfill an errand. Later I understood it was ÃÂá
impracticable. The explanation I gave was accompanied by a sense ÃÂá
of guilt. | guilt |
i went to a nude beach since it is summer and all i wanted to get a nice tan i looked online for a nice beach to go to and found out a nude beach was just an hour away well i thought what the hell and went it was not that crowded and most the people there were old and sort of ordinary looking but the environment was carefree and accepting i being a male was not having much of a problem downstairs until a few attractive women started passing by i tried turning on my stomach at first but two girls sat maybe a few meters away from me when they started undressing i could n t help myself and started to masturbate i felt bad but not even in sex had i experienced an orgasm that strong i m ashamed and will never go back | regret |
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