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Tf happened to snoo, where is he Whered he go | non-suicide |
I'm alive. I failed my suicide attempt days ago R/suicidewatchI don't know what to say, but oh wow, I am here. I just came home from the ER, and I actually failed my attempt. fuck man. I am here. At least my neighbor actually cares, as they found me outside just laying there not responding to shit, so they took me to the ER and I blacked out before that, I don't know what happened. my mom is screaming at me and yelling at me, but I guess that's just something I'll have to live with. oh well, I am here, that's all that matters. I feel my mom changed a bit, yes she'll still hit me etc, I just feel like she doesn't yell at me as much, this will probably change in less than a week though. the "laptop keyboard?" is fully covered with tears, I can't even look myself in the mirror anymore, although I have to (because of my mom) because I feel so fucking empty. It really sucks, but one side tells me to be thankful that I am alive. I just want to get the fuck out of here, start working, earn money and move out. there's one guy that I speak to and he lives in europe, I want to have a future with him. but how can I do that when I can't accomplish any fucking goal.. I know life is hard, but fuuuuck when I'm in my toughest times i really need it to at least be a little bit easy, not just constantly put me down.. I am not talented or anything, so how the fuck would I get to meet him? | suicide |
You ever find yourself in an an akward situation and you need to ask reddit for what to do next? I'm basically the personal therapists for one of my friends because I'm one of the few people she trusts enough to be around alone. She's been through a lot and often just vents everything that has been bothering her that day to me and I usually just listen cause I don't know how the fuck to respond. Well today we were just relaxing and after about minutes I get up to make food and she quickly grabs me and kisses me. I am quite visibly shocked by this and she says "I'm sorry if I made this akward." Now I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do now. | non-suicide |
i think ive finally tied loose endsso, this sounds stupid, but i think i was waiting until ive finally finished my novel. its done. and as a person im just so tired, so angry for no reason. it hurts me every day to keep going. i used to be unsure or stressed or whatever but now im finally just relieved i still feel crap but im more confident, and i have half of a plan together i honestly cant just see a future and i think this is best for everyone around me i told my parents and they actually said it was selfish to tell them i was feeling like this and that i should just do it so they dont have to live with the uncertainty. that definitely helped. | suicide |
Unable to do anythingIt's been an awful year. Huge dramatic falling out with some friends, a lay off, many belongings stolen, suicide attempt, then another layoff. I'm usually a very workaholic type person. But after the last layoff I just laid down in bed and haven't moved in full months. I get up to get groceries and that's about it. I've got so many projects I could be working on while job hunting but I just can't. I can't stop thinking about the falling out I had in the summer. I'm evicted and must leave at the end of November. I'll be living in homeless shelters. I keep thinking I'll just jump off the bridge downtown and I think I mean it. How do I get my shit together in like hours? I mean I think it's too late as I already have to live on the street. | suicide |
i think this might be a controversial opinion but the part of the cake with less frosting is better than the part with more frosting :)) | non-suicide |
That moment when you accident step in maple syrup Bruh (Dont ask why I have maple syrup on the floor) | non-suicide |
I can't do it. Please help.I, honestly, genuinely want to die. The reason? Life's just lost its colors, it's gotten stale. There might be more to it but I'm too tired to even ponder it. There definitely used to be more though. The closest I've gotten to doing "it" was to dance on the train tracks, but I only ended up with a slightly bloody hand and embarrassment. I feel like I'm bothering people and I have friends with real depression. I'd feel disrespectful to talk to them about my fake shit. A friend talked me out of it once, but I'm too awkward and cowardly to admit to him that I'm not fine this time. I don't want to drop hints because I consider it attention whoring. I mean, if others do it, that's okay. They deserve help. If anyone asked me what was wrong months ago, I would have had a ton of reasons to wish it, but didn't want to do it. Now I have no reason to wish it, but I want it more than ever. This is why I can't even ask for help... I have nothing to say. Well, aside from school. That's probably one of the main reasons, but it's so insignificant and selfish that I'd be a hypocrite to talk to others about it like it was a huge deal, because it shouldn't be. But it really is. Still, if I don't want help, I want the easy way out. I guess I have walking depression, but I can still laugh and smile all day. The only thing stopping me is the fear of the afterlife: if it exists, I go to hell and I'm fucked. If it doesn't exist, I just wasted what isn't even half of my life and prematurely plunged into the eternal void. I don't feel sad, but I don't want to live either. If you gave me a gun a week ago, I would have pulled the trigger. I don't know if my friends still like me, I'm probably annoying. I just want some words of peace, something that can give me courage and convince me to do it, I guess. This is the only related sub I know, although it's the opposite of what I want. Thank you < | suicide |
Day of posting random thoughts everyday till i get a gf. This sub is a literal hivemind, reddit in general. It's so cringey. How long do you peeps think this will last? | non-suicide |
Losing hopeI've never posted anything on reddit before but I don't really know where to turn. I've sunk into complete darkness again. This happened last year around the same time and lasted for months. On a scale of -, being the worst, my depression is at a . today. It started at a or last week and is getting worse. The only reason I haven't self injured is because that requires energy. The only reasons I haven't gone through with my plan is because of my year old and my girlfriend. I go to therapy once a week. IOP days a week and see my psychiatrist monthly. She has already increased my Latuda and I haven't noticed any changes. I just keep sinking lower. I had a major attempt that was almost successful years ago and I don't remember ever feeling this bad. I don't want to be a mother anymore. I love my girlfriend but I feel like this darkness is going to ruin everything. I'm in so much pain. I just want it to end. It just feels like this blanket of darkness that is being pushed on top of me, suffocating me, stealing all joy out of my life. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing to take care of my mental health and at the end of the day I still want to die. I'm not quite sure what I'm looking for here, but I needed to get this out. | suicide |
I wonder if they would miss meIts actually been a really long time since I used this account. Things have been okay, overall. But the past few days just hit me like a fucking train. I dont know why, but I got that urge to die again. I started fantasizing about what they would all say if I went. I wondered if they would miss me. And I mean *really* miss me. Miss my presence. Miss what I had to say. Miss me in a way that makes your chest ache. And I know that fantasy is stupid because I would only be hurting people and once Im dead I would not see any of this anyway. So I wont. I wont do it. But its just strange to be here again mentally after doing so well for so long. Im trying to pull myself out of this pit, but its so hard. | suicide |
Its time for guss my nane It has syllables It means god supports, heals Everyone pronounces it wrong | non-suicide |
*dies cutely* owo ?? *dies cutely* owo ?? # # # # # # # # # # | non-suicide |
Last-ditch effortI'm ready. Everything's in place. I still feel bad for my family, particularly my brother and youger cousins. But knowing my family dynamics they will be fed some rosy bullshit, at least until they can stomach the truth. I think they'll be okay. As for my brother, I hope he will understand. That being said, during these months of prepping, I caught myself thinking alot about trying one last thing. The thing that came closest to making me feel genuinely slightly better was my first experience with group therapy. Many years ago, I was very young and maybe that's why it worked better then. Later attempts to replicate that have been utter shit. My main problem is, many people in group therapy are victims. They're usually the sufferers never the cause of the suffering. Not only that doesn't help, it sometimes makes it worse. I think group therapy could maybe work for me if the other people involved had similar stories and carried unbearable guilt, instead of resentment or shame. The few times I trusted my therapists enough to ask them about finding a group like this I mentioned I'd even be interested in meeting people doing time for involuntary manslaughter. Suggesting that always makes them think I'm worse off than they thought. Lol. Every single time I've been told that that wouldn't be helpful because my situation is completely different. It is according to them and the law. To me, it's not. So if anyone reading this is in, or knows about online forums of any kind, discord servers or whatever, or even group therapy irl (travelling is not an issue) geared towards people like me, maybe dm me. | suicide |
im not shy like im shy like | non-suicide |
ok which chocolate is the best one snickers or mars???.!?!?&(&)#??? | non-suicide |
should I leave?I've realized being a member of r/SuicideWatch is bad for me because I'm surrounded by bad feelings which makes me feel even worse. I'm trying to decide if I should leave but I still want to talk to people. idk | suicide |
I regret ever being bornI didnt choose life. My parents are really great and wonderful people, but I'd be lying if I said a small part of me doesn't resent them since they created me. The only thing stopping me from committing suicide is I am religious and I am scared to go to hell. Yes, I know people will tell me "oh hell isn't real it's all fake", well in my mind it is as real as anything I've ever seen with my eyes, there is no convincing me otherwise. So, I am scared to end my life, but I hate actually living my life. I am just trapped and there is no escape. There is nothing I can do. I just wish I was never born. | suicide |
guys pls pray i get a likely letter i applied to schools in the states and likely letters are coming out mid feb - early march PLSSS PRAY I GET ONE AND IF U DONT BELIEVE IN GOD MANIFEST IT FOR ME PLSSS columbias coming out this week im so scared | non-suicide |
Im okay being selfish for oncePeople always say suicide is selfish because you are hurting those around you. But Im done being selfless. The man who raped me didnt care if he was being selfish. My old friends didnt care about being selfish when they told me that the world would be better without me. My ex didnt care if she was being selfless when she cheated. So why the hell do I not get to be selfish too? If me being selfish means putting myself out of complete and utter misery then yeah, Im okay with being selfish for once. | suicide |
Nobody else can stand me..And I don't know how much longer I can either... | suicide |
New year, might be my lastHi, throwaway for obvious reasons. I've been depressed and suicidal for a long time now. About years, right when I hit puberty is when I started feeling this way. Between my parents divorcing, bullying at school, never finding a girlfriend, etc. I spent a lot of my teen years playing RuneScape and Japanese RPGs to escape from the real world, watching anime, and it's basically all just backfired on me. I'm , living from family member to family member, just to be dumped onto the next one because no one wants to deal with me. I lived with my grandpa for about years, where I got severely depressed, and basically played games hours a day, and slept the rest. I gained a lot of weight and my hygiene went out the window. My gramps was too kind to kick me out, but the rest of my family got together and kicked me out for him, and that's when I went to a training school where I lived in on-site dorms. I just completed the training school program where I got a certification for a national pharmacy technician, but now that I'm with my aunt and uncle I'm finding it hard to find work, and my uncle is getting pissed off at me. He's threatened to kick me out and I've only been here a week... Anyway, that's the current situation. I've made several suicide attempts in the past but I always seem to chicken out. I've never been religious, so death is basically it for me. I don't see my life ever improving, and I go through phases of depression to just seeing everything as a way to kill myself. My latest fascination is train tracks. Also, no one I know understands what I'm going through and just say I need to get laid or make friends. I can't afford therapy and tbh friends have never made me happy they've just distracted me. Am I a waste of space? There's lots to do in life but I don't think I have the support or motivation to do anything anymore. Sorry if I did this wrong but I don't want to call numbers and I have nowhere else to go. | suicide |
SuiteI want to die I just took pills I'm so done with life | suicide |
Life is utterly meaninglessHonestly I'm really losing myself. Life has no meaning once I die I die that's it. Here one day gone the next and nothing really changes life goes on. It's hard to find a reason to live cause the really is no reason. Even the Christian bible says it in the book of Ecclesiastes that's what the book is about. "Meaningless! Meaningless!" Says the teacher "utterly meaningless""everything is meaningless" ( Ecclesiastes :) I wanna die i just wanna leave. The concept of finding meaning is just a mind fuck. I'm really losing it | suicide |
i have around different plants in my room do i have a problem ive been collecting and growing new plants since covid hit i think this might be a way of coping LMAO | non-suicide |
chocolates are superior you cant change my mind | non-suicide |
what is the psychology behind missing a toxic person filler filler filler god damn i hate having to type filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
I begged for help but no one cameLast night was so hard. I felt like every trigger that I had was being pulled all at once, to this perfect fanfare of self-hate and disgust. I begged for help. I texted people. I called. I tried to reach family, friends, strangers, hotlines. I did what I was supposed to do. But no one was around. It just made it worse. No one cared. They wanted me to stop messaging and calling. I cant believe I woke up today after taking everything I did. I dont want there to be a today. Maybe Im weak. Maybe Im broken. Maybe something is wrong with me. But why was no one around? Why did no one pity me when I begged? Am I that bad? It makes me want to go more. People didnt even open my messages. They still havent and its the next day. | suicide |
Only when you come down from Heaven Do you find how easy it is to sin | non-suicide |
my existence is pathetic in every wayI just have no reason to hope things will ever get better.. right now, i'm abroad in seoul, which is quickly becoming a nightmare from a dream scenario because i, a black american, stick out soooo much here and no one, even in places designed to make friends, will talk to me. . i have no real friends, just people who come to me for emotional support or whatever. .i have no actual job prospects, thanks to college irregularities, and idk what i even want to do anymore.. . I lost the only hobby i've ever really loved, ballroom, and i'll never be able to do it again because i have panic attacks just thinking about competing against my ex-partner/girlfriend . Speaking of, i feel like I'll never get over my ex, no matter how hard i try, and that no one will ever really love me.. my family sure doesn't and hell no one else does.. furthermore, my ugly black ass is too unappealing for to even find meaningless shit that would atleast let me know SOMEONE finds me attractive in anyway At this point i'm just pathetic, and i really feel like i should kill myself before because it feels like things will only get worse. | suicide |
How do you deal with competition at school? When I'm interested in a subject or a specific part of a subject and I find out that someone in the class likes it too and is even better at it than me it really demotivates me | non-suicide |
I will never be good at anythingNo matter how much passion or effort I put into anything,I always fall short. Even when I look up tutorials, it's as if my brain cannot process the information correctly. I just want one thing, one FUCKING thing that I can brag about. Why is everyone fated to surpass me? Without any skills, my life is meaningless. I consider myself an artist, or at least I *did.* It pisses me off seeing how easy it seems to be for other people. How their 'sketches' look a billion times better than any finished piece I have produced. I have been drawing digitally for EIGHT YEARS and I've shown no real improvement. What's even the fucking point in doing anything if there's always going to be someone better than you? I can already hear god laughing at me. "let's give him a creative mind, but not the ability to channel his creativity" You know what? I don't even care. I don't need hobbies anymore. | suicide |
i hate this shit lifeI can't fucking take it anymore, I'm tired of being me, I'm tired of being my family's failure. I fucking hate it. I can't fucking picture myself as a responsable adult. I'm obviously not gonna make it past . I'm failing school, I'm alone no one cares and I can't do anything about it because I'm a fucking coward and tell anyone about it. and I'm too scared to commit suicide so I'm fucking stuck here. I wanna end it so bad but I'm too scared. I hate it | suicide |
People shouldn't be made fun of for watching hentai and not "real " porn The porn industry is harmful to the people involved. Hentai is just a drawing so yeah, you're actually being a better person by watching hentai. | non-suicide |
Conflicting InformationPart of me can't blame my friend for killing himself a year ago. Part of me blames him for everything. Part of me thinks that I can get into a relationshil. Part of me doesn't. Everything is just a massive tug of war with no clear winners at all. I would just kill myself, but what about everyone else? Did my friend even think or care about everyone else? I don't know. All I do know is that I am sick of everything | suicide |
My grandpa just died and my mom is just joking about it My grandpa from my dads side just died and my mom is making jokes about it like it doesnt matter and the only thing keeping me from fucking exploding is the fact that he died painlessly in his sleep after a long time if sickness. | non-suicide |
Increase in guis-tripping/trolls on the sub? Also not as suicidal.It may just be me noticing more and being stupid, but I've noticed it more in the comments and when I have they seem to be around the same time which leads me to believe it may just be trolls. Recently I don't think I've been as suicidal, my depression has become much worse but emotionally I've become numb (linking park plays - heh) the only emotions I do have are anger and thus my actions could be noted irrational in nature at times... I don't get hungry but when I do eat it's usually shit food, I'm not showering and I haven't cleaned my teeth in probably / days now... starting antidepressants this morning/in a few hours I haven't slept yet.. I'm travelling later in the day and I usually find it easier to just stay up and if I get tired sleep on the plane and any car trips required afterwards.... anyway.. | suicide |
Why does our mind do this to us!!!I just wanna drive my self into to the river drunk and end it all but i cant because of a friend that claims they cant live with out me. I dont wanna exist anymore, but i cant handle the thought of that friend ending it cause of me. | suicide |
OK, so I didn't follow through.I had the preparations ready, got up, went to work, left work for home, and was about to go through with it, but then my neighbor comes up to my apartment and wanted to talk about her relationship problems. It made me live another day, and then I lived a few more. Things feel better for now. | suicide |
Slept through my zoom class I slept through my zoom class sitting through the same boring ass class because I dont realer it ended and the teacher used the same meeting for all of her classes. I missed math and I got hop my parents dont get emailed. | non-suicide |
Nobody Cares to HelpI wanted to kill myself on my th birthday in August, but instead, I'll kill myself within the next few days. I can't take it anymore. Everybody rather talk about themselves than listen to me, rather ask for favors, and I'm Mr. Yes man, i do everything for everyone. I can't take it anymore. I'm a college grad with no job, my family is scared of me cause they feel anything will set me off, treat me like a dog. my friends, don't really care, everyone has their own problems. I'm tired of being a problem, I'm tired of being a burden, if i had a gun I would've been dead already, but I'm scared of failed attempts of drinking pills, i don't care anymore, i just want to die, i don't want to be here. i want to leave this earth the same way i came in, with nothing. thank you for listening.. | suicide |
I want to fuck the r/teenagers girl I want to fuck her so fucking badly. Ever since I saw her, Ive beat my meat so much to it. I just want to fuck her so badly. I even broke up with my old gf because I want the r/teenagers girl so fucking much. I want to stick my dick so far up her. Everyday, I go into the bathroom and jerk off to it. I was caught doing it at school and was suspended for a week and my parents signed me up for therapy but shes too hot. Mom and Dad, if your reading this, Im never going to stop cause shes so hot. | non-suicide |
I never thought I'd say this but the thought of my loved ones isn't stopping me anymoreThe thought of how they would react doesn't make me recoil much like it used to. The idea of putting a gun to my head and blowing all this misery away is calling so badly that it makes me want to choke. I'm ready to be done. I'm tired of fighting, of existing in this hell that seems never ending. How many times do I have to resist before I just can't anymore? I'm almost at the breaking point. And there's not much pulling me from the ledge | suicide |
No friends, no girlfriend, no job, no real hobbies, no college education. Im at the end of the road Im afraid.The title pretty much says it all. Honestly theres so much I could write about the reasons I dont have these things in my life but it would take me a long time and I dont want to waste your time by leaving a wall of text to painfully read through. First off, Im years old. Basically Im just too lonely and broken and feel like theres literally no hope for me in this life. I wouldnt even know where to begin. I know I should focus on finding a job but honestly Im too depressed to perform any kind of work efficiently. Every job Ive applied to Ive been rejected by, and the old jobs I used to have ( years ago at this point) my colleagues pretty much saw me as the laughing stock of the work shift. I was there to be made fun of and perform the menial tasks the other workers werent willing to do. I was never truly appreciated. I dont have any decent qualifications to my name or any achievements to be proud of. I havent had a friend wish me a happy birthday in pretty much all my life. Never experienced young love. Honestly even just thinking about it is painful. I dont have any passion anymore. The passion I once had in my early twenties has slowly faded away as my twenties have gone on to the point where I am now where I could be facing my impending doom and not feel a thing. Its over Im afraid, without ever even beginning. | suicide |
A scary story Cum balloon You and your friends are having a water balloon fight. Everyone is being splashed with water and having a good time. You, on the other hand have a more malicious agenda, you stayed inside relieving yourself whilst filling up balloons to the brim. You step out on to the patio, strutting triumphantly into battle. You take aim at your first of victims and fire. Bullseye! The first one hits Tim's head, drenching him in your sweet sticky love milk. Keith and Jake look in terror as Tim has been desecrated and you walk towards them with a sinister grin. Like clockwork, they scatter predictably, letting you land a hit on each of their heads. All of them lay on the ground crying, covered head to toe in your hunk spunk. You won this water balloon fight | non-suicide |
I think my horniness levels just soar through the roof after working out Fr this is actually true idk why but my body be buzzinggggggg | non-suicide |
Can I post Did it work | non-suicide |
reasons to date me : im blue da ba dee da ba da da ba dee da ba da ba dee da ba da da ba dee da ba : : : : | non-suicide |
I Just Turned And.. Charles XII of Sweden at ran an entire empire and defeated kingdoms and an empire in just one war to defend his empire. At , I can't point to a single capital on a map, I'm probably about to fail math, and my only skill is being socially awkward. Happy years to me! | non-suicide |
you cant depend on someone to save you, you need to save yourself thats bullsh.ti had a teacher/mentor who used say this to me all the time, and ive always believed in this quote until the last couple of weeks. i see why some people think this way, i mean they think everybodys minds work like theirs, their mind isnt pointing out all the things they hate about themselves all the time. how am i suppose to save myself when im the one whos destroying me? i know im not strong enough to save myself. maybe all we need is someone wholl be there for us, someone who wont give up on us. | suicide |
I think I'm brokenI always feel like crying, and sometimes my throat is so tight, I have difficulty speaking, but I can't. I'm just unable to cry. It feels like I either don't have the mental energy to do so or my tear ducts are just dysfunctional. Anyone knows what's going on? | suicide |
hi guys! I decided to quit my eating disorder! instead, I'll call it a diet! I'm doing this super super healthy diet where I eat nothing and binge at pmwish me luck!! | non-suicide |
I'm going to kill myself on Tuesday.That's the only way I could convince myself to calm down yesterday. | suicide |
Cursed NS issue (At end) >This is a clear and concerted effort to foment dissent against our glorious Republic, phones in the West Fedorian ambassador from her embassy, a repurposed bungalow on the outskirts of Constantine. Our legal system is very clear on the penalties for such a heinous crime: twenty years hard labour in one of our reeducation camps. I imagine our President might be tempted to show some clemency in this case, were you to make an entirely voluntary donation to his chosen charity, the World Atheism Independently Funded Union. > > > >World Atheism Independently Funded Union | non-suicide |
Last Night I wound up at the ER. This is the disgusting treatment I endured.Early hours of Saturday morning I was so depressed I wanted to actually die I am someone who bottles up all my feelings, I don't open up - not to strangers at the very least, and never, ever over the phone or in person - but I couldn't take any more. I knew that if I didn't get help that night I would actually attempt suicide. I called a charity line in my country. They literally hung up on me (I heard them put the phone down). So I called a proper health service crisis line. So the crisis line lady called an ambulance on my behalf. Two female paramedics came to my house, were very friendly and gentle with me. They drove me to hospital, and left as is their job. I cannot thank them enough for their understanding and kind nature. Once I was there? I was left for SIX HOURS alone in a room until a Psyche Nurse came to see me. She did nothing. She let me talk about what was wrong, handed me a leaflet and said "book an appointment with your General Practitioner", and off I went. I am in that "numb" phase at the moment. I hit bottom so hard I kind of bounced back a bit and I am generally okay right now. But how long for? I've reached out for help exactly FOUR times. First doctor laughed at me. Second doctor sent me away. Third doctor said "I don't have time to listen to this" and shoved unsuitable meds under my nose. Fourth time I just told you about. I won't seek help again. Next time I'll just do it. Four times I have no official diagnosis. I don't know EXACTLY what is wrong with me. I can only guess. | suicide |
Quite the conundrum for a small boy like me Basically in November I started talking to this girl, to most people this is normal shit but little me Doesnt get this much so this was pretty hype. We talked for a bit and In December I told her I liked her and she said she felt the same. While thats all fine and well about days later (on Christmas Day) she disappeared. Gone like a fine fart in the wind, and then a month later in late January she came back with no reasoning for the absence, tbh I didnt care I was just happy to talk to her agian, then like days later, gone. then a month later, Poof she back the like days later gone then back gone then back on and on and on. I asked her a month ago (last time we talked) why she kept leaving and she just avoided the question. I assume shes being grounded or sum but I just wish I got to talk to her more. And thank you for reading this | non-suicide |
I tried edging. Do not try it. I got horny today and since Im doing nnn i thought i could try edging. I did, but now ive had crazy Blue balls for the past hours. | non-suicide |
The reason I have suicidal thoughts is because of loneliness and wishing I had more intimacy in my life but not being able to get itSo yeah. I've always dreamed of being able to cuddle with someone. Kiss someone. Maybe having a girlfriend or even just someone to cuddle with. But when I can't find someone to do that with and everyone else is doing the things that I've also always really wanted to do I feel like I'll never be good enough for someone. The fear that goes through my mind that I'll never be good enough for someone and that I'll never be able to experience these things really screws with my emotions. It's like I want to feel these things too and I wonder am I good enough for someone? Will I be able to experience these things one day? Some of us have a lot of anxiety when talking to other people or maybe we're on the autism spectrum or are just socially awkward. So that makes it hard for us. But we want to pursue relationships too whatever type of relationship that may be. Even if it's just someone to cuddle with. But I fear that people might want to avoid me because I'm different or seem awkward and then that makes me feel like there's something wrong with me but I know there probably isn't. I don't know. I'm just really trying to express how I feel here. I know other people are going through the same types of feelings I am and I want us to be understood. I'm on the autism spectrum and have always been a little afraid to approach almost everyone just to talk to them. Everyone's situation is probably different but that's my situation. So when I'm thinking about these things a I feel lonely it really messes with my head and I want that to be understood. Not to mention other people will actually bully you about these things and say you're not good enough for someone which makes it even worse and that's why it's so hard. | suicide |
I have no friendsWhat is wrong with me. years old and friendless. I had one decent friend but I got annoyed always being the one to say lets chill and his wife was always present. And so I told myself I wouldn't call/text him and see if he contacts me. It's been about months. So I guess it was never really there. I always knew. Just so utterly lonely. Waiting to die. Scared to die. Just so much hate inward and outward. Have a shrink he's busy till Tuesday. Will see how the weekend goes. Think I might just go somewhere. Idek how I manage to drag my ass to my shit of a job. So yeah. Sick of r/rr or kikpals giving me nothing or a very brief smile. So yeah. Not expecting much. Feel like I've been in this funk for years with no hope in sight. | suicide |
Guys and Gals.... I really need your help... I friend of mine is really depressed and wants to commit suicide.. I want to help them but Im not sure how. PLEASE HELP ME. I dont want them do end their life and All I can do is talk and advise them on stuff. | non-suicide |
yeahMy girlfriend was in South Africa for months and broke up with me after months. She's back now and we work together and she sits feet from me. My alcoholism and depression and anxiety have been getting worse for a long time now. My psych just doubled my SSRI a week ago. Feeling really weird and stressed and like reality is falling apart. Starting to consider an exit from this. I don't really care about my ex I'm so numb at this point. I just don't see something to live for. | suicide |
Why do adults say this Like why is it anytime I try to talk about plans for the future or something I cant wait to be older for they respond with "life only gets worse from here" or "it only goes downhill from here" like bruh what's the point of living then like school is shitty and you want to tell me this is the best?? Idk I should probably sleep but had to put this out there | non-suicide |
alright, genuine question. i feel like i must ask, how are you doing, really? | non-suicide |
Can I get a hug please Girls only (sorry if I didn't mention that already on the title). Nah, jk my dude, come here (aww) | non-suicide |
Friend group advertising Hey guys, I wanted to create a group chat of some sort, were gonna be using discord so please dm me for a link if u want to join. Please do consider my offer and thank you very much. | non-suicide |
what if there was a post above me that would be kinda weird ngl | non-suicide |
Hows the subreddits discord? I heard this subreddit has a discord server, how is it? Is it organized? Is it Toxic? Is its moderation good or bad? Is it a mess? Like how is it? | non-suicide |
Where can i watch the office? I've been binge watching all of the clips on youtube and wanna give it a go | non-suicide |
guys feeling a bit down lately down on your mama! After taking another moment to reflect on what I previously said, Im sorry. for I am not truly down on your mother. A figure in your life that you probably respect a heck ton. Sorry. | non-suicide |
Losing someone over suicideIts only been a week since I lost him. Its been very hard for me to keep up with everything. Everything was so fast, one day were happy the next day he decided to end his life. I have a lot of what ifs and questions. I dont know how to continue living.. | suicide |
Ill have one regular diet coke... I was going to McDonalds with my friend and his mom and they were getting diet coke and I was getting normal. When it came time to order I had diet on the mind so I said Ill have one regular diet coke instead of just a regular coke I dont know why I posted this it just seemed funny :) | non-suicide |
Just found out one of my closest online friends lives really close to me We've talked a heck of a lot, and we bonded over the fact that we had Arab parents. So, randomly, I mention my time and she goes "Oh, yeah, its the same for me too." Then we both freeze. I ask where she's from and she names my country. I panic and ask where and she names somewhere thats like HALF AN HOUR away. Currently, we're both coming up with stories so we can meet in real life and our parents think we're school friends. Don't worry. We've talked a lot. I know who she is. We're meeting in a public place too. | non-suicide |
Wtf why am I panickingIm so restless, I just had a breakdown why cant it be over? Normally I feel tired and a bit relieved after crying but not today. I want to die so bad, I just want to throw myself out of the window. The urge to just punch myself is so strong I fucking dont want to feel like this. Just let it be over just let it be over goddammit | suicide |
Weird thing is The same - year olds who supported Logan paul on his Japan suicide forest controversy might be in this sub | non-suicide |
posting this here because I'm terrified of askreddit at the moment how do you stop thinking about something? | non-suicide |
"OmG I CanT WaiT To Get A GAmer GRLFRND" \*dies from cringe\* | non-suicide |
Hey guys How are you :) | non-suicide |
Ready to end it.Im ready to end this pain.Im tired of all the memories of him and the thoughts in my head... | suicide |
just something, anything at all to live for. I have a long list of things that are all in themselves good reason to just snuff it but I am not weak nor a child. The biggest problem I have atm besides being broke homeless and hungry, is that I have literally nothing to live for. What I mean by that more specifically is that nothing at all makes me happy. Nothing. I honestly can not remember when I laughed last, Or thought anything was interesting. I am not really sad but life is undoubtedly just shit and what gets me most, what I lie awake at nights thinking is "Is this LIFE? Is this really why I exist? To feel this miserable To never know love, To never feel safe, To just fail. *This *this is why I am here?" I just need something anything to look forward to --but my life has been so difficult I just hate everyone and everything. My only comfort for almost years now has been the fact that I can kill myself to get the fuck out whenever I want. So I keep searching but I am starting to feel tired. This tiredness isn't helped by sleep. It is as if tired and worn have become a part of my personality. I think my searching is over and like everything else in life I have failed. So please no cats, no god or prayers something real that actually can help. It is probably asking way to much for some random stranger to have a thought that would have any meaning to me. I Have no means at all but am willing to do just about anything at this point crash test dummy, drug mule any gd thing. So reddit plz send me a real happy thought or some kind of course of action. | suicide |
I feel emptyI don't know what to do anymore. Transitioning feels good, my family doesn't react well to it, tho. My dad tries to get me to apologise for his abuse. I feel lonely and broken, scared of what the future holds, just waiting for another punch in the face. My therapist doesn't take me seriously, says he doesn't see me being depressed while I'm telling him how I'm constantly isolating myself and how broken I feel. I've been hallucinating and having several panic attacks. It feels like the world is going to end. My existence hurts. I can't go on like this. | suicide |
Advice on suicide methods for someone who is at the end of the road year old male who's life is a disaster, i need help on painless ways to make my exit. Over the last years i've lost pretty much everything, including the realationship with my daughter. Few friends, no girlfriend for years, emotional issues, strange spots that appear all over my body. Low confidence, inability to talk to people anymore. Constantly down and now heavily drinking. I met a girl around a month back, we hit it off and went out for drinks, i met her family, including her mum and sister, i got on with them and thought i had found someone. I must have done something or said something wrong, she barely speaks to me now, i feel heartbroken. I don't know what i did. I can't go on like this anymore, second guessing myself, feeling insecure and not sleeping. Can anyone give me advice on a ways to never wake up? | suicide |
Ive one week left to live. Here are my last words.Context - years old. Depressive personality. Suffered from grief over fathers death and cultural/identity issues forever. Wife of tears cheated and left me suddenly leaving me almost financially destitute and alone. Am staying with friends trying to recuperate now but nothings working, including counselling, exercise, making plans - all the positive self love bullshit. Decided to end my life as soon as I return from this trip, next week on Monday/Tuesday. Have just drafted my suicide note and chosen how Im going to do it (jumping from a great height). Misery loves company so I am sharing my note with you. Trigger warning etc. Seeya. I am sorry I hate myself so much I feel like a mistake And every day that Im here I take someone elses air and space Self love and the idea that deserve anything are bullshit but especially so for me. I got everything I deserve and dont have the strength to expect any more I am tired I am running on fumes Just want this to end To exit this stage and bow out from everyones lives. I am sorry. I hate myself too much. I hate everything I was, everything I have become, everything I lost and will never be. And as much as I love you, I hate myself more. I dont have the strength to love myself or anyone else any more. I will have ended my life by the time you finish reading this. Of the two people I love most, one has denied that I have any worth at all, and the other is not here. I go to join him now. I am sorry. Goodbye. | suicide |
Below is a waffle Pass the waffle on as soon as you can and see how far it can go | non-suicide |
I've decided that I don't want to be ' anymore I will amputate my legs and get a transplant with longer ones | non-suicide |
The post above me is trash This is meant as a joke if it's a serious one | non-suicide |
I'm starting to feel suicidal again this year and I really need therapyThis pandemic and school semester have really pushed me into an unstable mental state and I'm constantly scared I'm close to falling apart and collapsing entirely. I'm an architecture major so my constant studio presentation deadlines have me working for hours every day with really minimal time to take breaks or take care of myself properly. This extends into all my weekends and holidays. It's become so hard to stop myself from breaking down and it's become even harder to find time to spend with family or friends. My boyfriend has been going through a lot of issues with the pandemic and school as well and I can slowly feel myself become more and more unable to support him properly since I'm struggling so much myself. Its breaking my heart to see my personal love life (and family life too) strain under the tension of my struggles. I used to be pretty suicidal in high school and I'm feeling those thoughts creep back into me the more this hard year goes on. I'm scared because I can't do anything to immediately help either my boyfriend or myself. I'm terrified something's going to snap and I'm going to lose him or myself. I want to be happy so badly but it's becoming more and more grim each day and I dont know how many more hour work days I can handle before my body shuts down. I desperately need therapy. I need professional guidance on how to cope with my stress and how to properly support my boyfriend in a way that doesn't hurt my own emotional state. I've always been scared of therapy because my parents raised me in a very strict mentality of thinking its taboo (immigrant parenting be like that), but I really want to just be consistent with getting professional help for once and recover properly (I tried a few times before but I always stopped going after a month or so because I always thought I I wasnt "stressed enough" for it later on). After my final architecture studio presentation next Thursday, I'm going to call my university counseling center and ask for help. I need to. This post is more of a reminder to myself that I really need to do this. My body can't handle anymore stress without proper professional help. (If you read this far, I wanted to apologize for my embarrassing af name, it's a joke username I chose when I made this account a long while back lol, thanks for taking the time to listen to a stranger vent out her emotional turmoil) | suicide |
Should I tell my friends even though I plan on going through with it?I just don't know if i should tell them as a kind of goodbye. I don't know if that would be worse for them. I love them and I don't want them to suffer. | suicide |
bf requirements must be alive must like guys | non-suicide |
Being outside with friends at pm just hits different imagine vibing under the night sky with good company | non-suicide |
Damn it I can't even download minecraft on my laptop I don't know the admin password and I can't ask my dad (The only person who knows it) to enter it because he doesn't want me to play video games today because he's angry at me for stupid shit. | non-suicide |
Which music genres would U recommend to a hiphop listener Hiphop or rap is the main music genre that I have listened to. Never really bothered with the other music genres because Im not interested. I want to branch out my music taste so what music genres would u recommend? And which artists would you recommend also? | non-suicide |
I need help.I need someone to talk to. I have no one anymore, no family, friends, nothing.. and I'm panicking. I don't know what to do. There is no reason for me to live anymore. | suicide |
Feel like I'm in a prison inside my own headAll I think about is either suicide or my bleak and miserable future if I keep living. Like wtf am I doing with my life? Why prolong the inevitable? Suicide to me is the one beacon of light I have left and death is the only cure. I truly believe in this shit and yet I can't believe I have reached the point of no return. If I keep living what good would that do for me? I'm running on fumes and I'm finding it harder each day to find a reason to stay when there are none. I've looked and I'm still looking but I literally don't enjoy life. Then what's the point if you don't enjoy it then? Keep living a miserable existence just for the sake of it? Fuck that, all I think about is death and how it would end this shit storm once and for all. No more problems, no more people, no more surviving, no more worries, no more complaining, and especially NO MORE YOU. Ah what I wouldn't give death will be like the ultimate nap time it will erase this life of pain and shit and I'm glad I won't remember anything of it. Nothing more. I feel like I'm in a prison inside my own head and I want out goddamnit, please just please let me die, that is all I want now and that only compounds me to be more pathetic wallowing in self pity. My only retirement plan is either a rope or lead or probably both. I'm begging for it to just end it already just fucking end it goddamnit is all I think about. I'm not meant to be here, I don't belong, I feel like an alien inside my own body and I just want to crawl out of it so badly. Is my life experiences truly the epitome of human existence? Is this really all there is to life? More pointless suffering with very brief moments of clarity? Holy fuck I'm screwed. | suicide |
I accidentally added my councilor on snap!!! Guys I removed them cuz thatd be weird, but is he gonna get a notification that I added him | non-suicide |
I just need a hugThat's all i need, a min hug from someone who needs it back. | suicide |
we get to pick a song for out teacher to listen to over break should i rick roll her or put a song by girl in red help filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
did you know? english can suck my ass | non-suicide |
What do I do nowI finally tried to do it. I've thought about killing myself so much, planned it out before even, but this was the closest I've ever gotten. I was going to hang myself, and I had everything prepared the way I wanted it. I stood on the chair for so long and I came so close to letting it fall but I caught myself, ripped the rope away from my head, and immediately started crying. Am I just weak? I have no idea what to do with myself. I'm terrified of telling anyone what happened and the repercussions. I'm just as scared and alone as I was before but now I have to live with the fact that I'm not strong enough to do it. | suicide |
This is the worst it's ever been. I dont think I'll make it out of this one.I cant think of a time I was happy since . Im sick of always feel guilty about everything. Ive been in a constant state of panic for years. I cant keep a job, because I keep having breakdowns, and quiting. I cant get another job, because most one wants to hire me after looking at my resume. I'm taking care of my mothers sick animals, and I'm running out of money. Also, my brother and i tried repairing her leaky roof, and just made it worse. I told my mom I would pay for it if she hired a professional to do it, but she says no. People on Friday internet told me I need to call a contractor for give me a quote without asking my mom first, so hes gonna show up tommarrow, and my moms probably gonna flip out. On top of that, I just found out my neighbor got a puppy. This worries me, because he told me he use to hit his dogs to train them, and I'm afraid hes doing. The same thing to the puppy, so of course I'm obligated to confront him about that. My sister use to hit her dog to, and I had a talk with her about it, and was hoping is never be in that situation again. Also my truck is broken down, and will wind up costing more on repairs then its actually worth, so I need to look for another car to buy. My moms and alcholic who refuses to get help, and it makes everything else worse. Even if I stick around and make it past this, I know sorting else will go wrong. I cant do it anymore, I really cant, but if I kill myself, then my mothers pets will be left behind. That puppy will be left behind to potentially be abused. My mothers house will rot, not to mention my family would be destroyed. I feel like I'm hell, and it's a never ending loop of the same horrible problems forever. Some people aren't meant for this world, and I think I'm one of those people. | suicide |
Damn I really do be confident in how I look and dont mind how I act Yes this is April fools Bye bye I eat cake now | non-suicide |