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Any painless ways if committing suicide?Just for research purposes | suicide |
Does Thanos Play minecraft? Ive been trying to contact thanos, does anyone know his number? i wanna invite him for bible study in my minecraft church | non-suicide |
I remember when... My friends and I would challenge each other to make the smallest circle and I would just make a small dot and I thought I was the funniest fucking person ever. Ah the good days | non-suicide |
Im bored someone pm me M I like music and weed filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
I know I need help, but I'm too afraid to get it.I honestly know I'm a major danger to myself. I've been giving every ounce of energy I have into actively avoiding killing myself because if I let my guard down, I'm going to do it. The only reason I'm here is to help others. The only reason I haven't done it is to not hurt anyone, but I'm tired of living for everyone else and I hate myself too much to live for myself. If I did what I wanted I'd have been dead a long time ago. I can't reach out. I'm in therapy, but it's days away and I can't even see myself getting through today. If I tell the truth in therapy I'll end up in a psych ward again and my parents can't afford that. I tried to tell my friend today how I've been and a kid came up and started cracking jokes about how I'm gonna end up killing myself no matter what I do. I'm at the point I want to go walk up to my mom and just say "I need help " but the last time I did that I went to the hospital for an evaluation and they said no teenager would willingly check themselves in and that it was for attention and/or a way to get out of school. | suicide |
im beggin yall to stop takin my shitposts seriously anyway it's almost am umm about - hours ago i said i would go take notes and study and stuff and i did that for about minutes and have been on tik tok the rest of the time so i will be dropping out of school | non-suicide |
Im depressed YASSSSSS YASSSSS YASSS | non-suicide |
I will now dispose of my body It makes me weak | non-suicide |
How to completely remove Reddit ads Tell yourself you're gonna stop browsing Reddit when you see another one. Works every time. | non-suicide |
You can cry all you want... ...but nothing can make you unsee the yiff. | non-suicide |
I need helpI've been battling suicidal thoughts for years now, I don't really have a way of coping with it. I feel my urge is growing ever stronger and I'm at a point in my life where I really don't see another option if I ever want to find peace. I need a friend. For some reason I wanted to write a poem describing my feelings, so I did. It took me about min and I'm no poet so don't bash on it too hard. Feel free to interpret it yourself or ask me what I meant. Here goes: His soul is vacant Forever asleep Now the expression is blatant His heart buried deep Nightmare takes form Dreams die young Lost in the storm, Till his body is hung | suicide |
Im still here, although probably not for long.I made a post on here a while ago that if I got the chance, I would kill myself that weekend. The weekend rolled around and the only reason why I didnt do it that weekend is because of the flip of a coin. I just decided that if fate wanted me here, it would have to voice its opinion, so I flipped a coin. Heads, I stay alive, tails, I tell my parents Im taking a shower and then slit my wrists in the bathtub. This happened the past two weekends, each time the coin landing on heads. In between these weekends as well Im not just standing idle, I am trying to talk to people and get help. My online therapist, who helped me through a very hard time before, completely ignores any time I try to get into contact with them, even when I told them it was an emergency and I really needed to talk to them. I even told one of my best friends who I have known for years that I almost killed myself last weekend and you know what he said? I dont know what to say about that dude, and nothing else, ending our conversation that we are in. Are you fucking kidding me, the one friend that I have disclosed things to that I would never even say to my own family, just refused to peruse the topic further with me, even though he knew it might lead to my eventual death. My parents divorce is getting progressively worse, with each of my parents trying to trounce and belittle the other one, while also getting into shouting matches with my brothers. I just want everything to not be this way. I wish my friends cared if I was alive, I wish my parents still loved each other, I wish everyone would stop yelling all the time, I wish I had someone to talk to, I wish I wasnt so alone, and I wish I didnt have to flip a coin to decide my fate. I wish I either had the balls to finally kill myself and end it for good, or the balls to decide to tough it out. I will still be flipping the coin this weekend though. With the way things are going, I hope it lands on tails. | suicide |
How do i get the standard galactic keyboard on my phone? I wanna communicate in Minecraft enchantment table lol | non-suicide |
I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE!!!! I JUST MISSED MY FLIGHT BECAUSE IT KEPT REJECTING MY CARD TO GET AN UBER AND I HAVE NO CLUE WHY. I JUSTT WASTED ALL THAT MONEY AND I DON'T HAVE ANYYYY!!!!! AND THERE IS A TON OF EARTHQUAKES HAPPENING IN CALIFORNIA AND EVERYONE ON SOCIAL MEDIA IS SAYING THAT BIG ONE IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN WITHIN THE NEXT HOURS. AND THIS VIRUS ONLY CONTINUES TO GET WORSE AND WORSE AND WORSE NO GOOD NEWS EVER!!!! IT'S NEVER GOING TO END WHYY!!!!! Now I have a BUNCH OF CUTS ON MY HANDS AND WRISTS FROM BANING THE WALL IN FRUSTRATION U CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMOREEE!!!!!!! | non-suicide |
My mother told me Some day I would buy | non-suicide |
Going to amount to nothingHurts that I could have been something and now itll all mean nothing | suicide |
i need help i cant live this way anymore, i can not continue with the social skills i have, they suck shit and i seem like a dumbass when i try to talk to people, can anyone help me with my shit | non-suicide |
I'm gonna give it a yearSo after many years of depression and a couple of them with suicidal intent, lots of documentaries and info about assisted suicide, plenty of physical and emotional self harm, horrible eating habits, etc. I've decided to try for a full year to find what I thought I once had, and what I think I've been missing for a long time: a purpose, a real motivation to live and to get through every day, to get my shit together and scream to the world that I may be broken, but that doesn't mean i have to stay that way. I decided to postpone the time of my departure from this world in order for it to be grand and scandalous, not just sad and petty, so that when I go, people will be moved to tears, not for a sad and quiet man who killed himself in his basement, but for a noisy and rebellious punk-ass-SoaB who refused to go down without a fight and who died being if nothing else, happy. So I'll leave this wager here, and even if no one else is to read it, to serve myself as a promise and a warning: if I am not to find purpose through action and so, a will to live within a year that'll be it, I'll leave this earth without complain and by my own hand, but if I can manage to reignite the flame of life I'll give myself another chance, maybe even another one-year-wager. For my late granny, for my mum, for my friends, and also for myself. Today I start with my psychiatric treatment accompanied by my therapist, why today? Well I figured out my cake day is as good as any day and a good reminder of my wager with myself, I'll try and keep posting updates. Wish me well. Thanks to the people who kindly sent messages of hope my way in the last couple of weeks, you don't know how much you really help. | suicide |
So... Yeah, another post about my life, because everything got way worse... I am really not having a good time now and I need to speak it all out. Well, mostly my current state is a consequence to my gf's bad health conditions, she's been in a hospital two times this year. She's really done with all this suffering and talks about giving up on everything. I am trying my best to give her at least some hope that everything will get better, but it doesn't work. I may even loose my place as her favorite person. She's got a friend and she is kind of in love with her. I am not against that, she makes my gf happy, that's the only thing that matters. Even if I'm not a part in that happiness... And additionally my school is worsening my situation... So here I am, loved by no one, stressed, unmotivated, lazy, weak, useless piece's of shit piece of shit... Should I take a kitchen and stab myself at night? I can't sleep well anyways? | non-suicide |
What should you do if you are being beaten up by a crowd of angry aliens? Please, need help ASAP or they will beat me to death... | non-suicide |
I bear the wounds of all the battles I avoided.Can anybody relate to this? Quote by Fernando Pessoa | suicide |
Day : Good Night okokokok, so i finished one of my projects and all i have left to do is an essay. i missed my spanish test today. fuck online school. i realize that this is just becoming a school summary and im sorry for that. i'll try to put in more interesting stuff here from now on. anyways, good day/night. | non-suicide |
Why do I feel this way when I have nothing to worry about?I have had depression and eating disorder since I was . Now I'm (female). Life seemed good and easy at times in my s until my depression and suicidal thoughts hit me. I have a degree, established my life in a foreign country, somewhat decent career and a very caring boyfriend. Last summer my depression got worse due to stress at my new job. I could not stop crying all day and night, and extreme anxiety hit me every time I tried to get myself out of the door. I wanted to disappear and blamed myself for being so weak. Eventually, I resigned from the job. I had to. For the last months, I did nothing. Thankfully I had savings and my bf supported me. He says there was nothing to worry about, just get better. After NY, I decided to start applying for jobs again. I got interviews and one of them is at the final stage. I should be happy. Life will be good again. But last days my old thoughts are back. I want to disappear. I can't get out of my bed. I feel like a failure. My suicidal thoughts feel real this time. I don't know what is wrong with me. How can I live my life like this that every time I get a bit better I get a kick back? I know I will not have answers by posting this here but I just wanted to let it out. Apologies as english is not my first language. | suicide |
Anyone else bored and dont know what to do? I mean I could school work but I dont really want to so yea. | non-suicide |
I do believe in fairies. Hehehehehehehehehe you know what's coming. | non-suicide |
My Week This week has been fucking terrible for me, and mentally damaging. Monday - Parents yell at me for being disorganized and not writing down assignments despite me always finishing them. I cried. Tuesday + Wednesday - The only chill days this week. Thursday - Parents yell at me again for not filling out my planner. Mom says something nasty then forgets about it. Today - Turned in an English assignment a few hours late and dad yells at me. Then when showing him pictures for my biology assignment he tries grabbing my phone to scroll through my camera roll and after turning it off, he told me he felt betrayed. Cried again. | non-suicide |
Fuck my OCD! Fuck everything!I'm , and Male, I have OCD, I'm Bipolar, so one minute I'm bashing my skull and clawing at my neck, the next I'm playing games, I'm Biphobic, mainly because... I am Bi, well, I'm Bigender at least. I may be an Asperger, I've always had trouble with socializing, I was also bullied to the point Homicidal THOUGHTS when I was in school, every time I got bullied I built up more of a blood lust (no sexual arousal involved) I left school because, I realized these thoughts were very dangerous, ever since I've been here, home, isolated. only going out on a bi weekly basis, (another bi, apparently I'm Bi-man), I don't have any friends, and i don't have the opportunity to make anymore, my parents are worried i'll get lost when I go out, I got a phone yesterday, as a late birthday gift, but even with a phone there not sure about letting me go out, my mother is disabled with Arthritis, so she can't take me out, my dad takes me out, but he works all the time, and I'm bogged down with mental illness, no one's gonna want to be around me, so I'll likely never get a boyfriend or a girlfriend, I'm waiting to see a therapist about my OCD, but it could likely take weeks to get an appointment, I'm danger to myself and others, a dangerous psychopath. (Don't know how to PM) I don't what to do, what do I do? Sorry this is so long, thanks if you read all of it. | suicide |
My story.I am a year old male that lives in England. I have had illnesses such as depression, anxiety and claustrophobia since i was and in the past week or so everything has got worse. Long story short, i just found out that my "friends" have been talking behind my back and now they have left my completely. I still have one year of high school left and i am completely alone at this point. I don't know how i'm going to last that long. | suicide |
EnvyI heard about three people that are friends of friends who died this past week. All women, all under , all unexpected and natural causes. And all I can think to myself is why cant I be that lucky? Why do people who want to live, who enjoy life and all it offers, have to die when I'm stuck here living and dont want to? | suicide |
I had planned to go and hang out with a group of friends, and they all just backed out within minutes. I guess I'll just have to go back to my goblin cave of a room. | non-suicide |
Im about to throw up frick garlic bread | non-suicide |
Hm Should I Play Minecraft or Beat Saber or Aliens vs Predator :Thinking: i dont know which one to play rn | non-suicide |
I want to die now.I'd love to die tonight. I feel peaceful, I feel content. I'm ready now, but I have to wait... I don't even know what method I will use, I just know I am ready for my life to be over... for my body and consciousness to cease existing. | suicide |
m looking to make some new online friends About me-i live in Ohio and have all my life. Im a very open and talkative person and love meeting new people. Im available almost all of the time to talk. Im here looking to meet some new friends preferably from ohio but idm anywhere. I play a lot of xbox and love cod, warzone, doom, ark, Minecraft, and a bunch of other games. I have a wide music taste but i mainly listen to s rap and im a huge eazy e and geto boys fan. I also read a lot and i love the post apocalypse genre and my favorite author is mark tufo. If you wanna chat/be friend's feel free to message me. :) | non-suicide |
I can't do anything right.To whoever is reading this, I Just want to talk. I can't seem to do anything right. I'm yo, barely ever had a job, still trying to get my degree at university. I can't do shit right, I can't speak with other people the way I would like to, I can't help others let alone myself. I can't even help my own family, and I see the way they look at me. I don't judge them, it's ok, I Just wish I could tell them I am so, so sorry. I can't do this anymore, I can't keep playing pretend forever. | suicide |
The police stopped me because I look . I'm . I've never felt so low in my entire life.edit: I'm ok. Still feel like shit. Thought it would be better in the morning, it's not. ------- The military base has a curfew of :pm and I was walking outside at night. A police cruiser flags me and the officers make me show ID because they said I look . Afterwards they laugh and say "well shit, look on the bright side, at least kids clothes are cheaper than adult ones". Then they leave. It's not the first time something like this happened, my entire life I've been walked all over and treated like a monkey just because of how I look. People push me aside on the street. Bartenders don't serve me for minutes. It also explains my lack of dating life. No wonder women are so repelled by the very sight of me. Getting with me would feel like raping a toddler. I can either live this way my whole life, or check out now. All I know is I don't want to live past tonight, I'm sitting here trying not to cry like the prepubescent manbaby I am. | suicide |
How do I tell my parents that I'm not exactly into their religion? I've always been to all the religious stuff along with my parents and I've never really had any thought about it till now. My parents are great people, but sometimes they do slightly force me to go the services or do whatever. I have never really had a serious talk to my parents before, I usually avoid it if I can, but I think this is a talk that I've been delaying for far too long. How should I tell them? | non-suicide |
Anyone wanna chat? We can talk about literally anything I'm bored as fuck and maybe a little horny I should probably be sleeping rn but sleep is for the weak A few things about me: I like to cook, read about philosophy and listen to an unhealthy amount of music | non-suicide |
Anybody wanna play minecraft bedrock? Im kinda bored and wanna play some minecraft who's down? We will speak on discord if its ok with you. | non-suicide |
a crappy cyclops taco thing i drew [ [ [ was originally supposed to be a death glider from SG. now its a cyclops taco. | non-suicide |
So, I need to wait more days to remove my discord account. I mean, why that long do I have to wait?! | non-suicide |
Can't handle it anymore.. I hope this doesn't get buried in new posts.I'm teetering right on the edge. I have made some terrible, major mistakes in my life that I have to live with, but I can't. I have ruined people's lives with my stupidity and fear. I hate the person I am and I feel very lost and alone. The hole that I'm stuck in just gets bigger and bigger every day and I can't find a way out. Every time I think I hit bottom, something comes along to help me dig even further. I have a gun and am really contemplating on using it.. it's a thought I've been going back and fourth on for almost months now. I don't know if this is a cry for help, or if I just want to tell somebody because I don't really have someone to talk about this with. I've tried to talk about it with family before, and I just got smothered with questions and them trying to force help. It just made everything worse. I want a reason to live, but I can't find one anymore. I know I'm just being selfish thinking this way.. but the people that this would affect have no idea what I'm feeling and going through right now. | suicide |
So Im taking a chemistry course and I need answers for a research/homework Hey, so this is my second day in the course and one of the activities was make a research. The research consist on asking people of the female sex (overage, in Mexico is +) what are their opinions on the fact that women have access to contraceptives pills or patches, and how does this affects their life. It would be of so much help if you can answer this, its just a homework so I need help and answers of quite some people. :)) Thank you for taking your time to read this. | non-suicide |
What am i supposed to do if my dog pissed the bed at am?? The one time i was resting well, my dog pisses the bed. What the hell am i supposed to do?!?!?! It's three in the morning!!!! my dog is a few years old but, not so much to where he pisses the bed! Is it because my female is in heat??? | non-suicide |
My doctor has boosted my anti-depressants from mg to mg and I have to go to the mental health centre at my local hospital today! This does not make me feel better.This makes me feel worse. I only started the mg a month ago and now my doctor has put me on mg! I told him everything about the fact that I've been crying every night and I have planned suicide. He recommended that I go back to the mental health centre and that way, my therapy wait time would be boosted. I'm just not in the mood for this, i don't want to sit in a hospital for hours just to say to someone that I'm depressed and suicidal and they won't care. I've already did it once and i just can't do it again. I was nervous and scared last time. All of this just shows me that I'm just messed up and I can't be fixed! I hate my life! | suicide |
Reddit, my friend has tried to commit suicide multiple times.She always takes pills, but usually not enough to actually kill her. She was hospitalized once when she took half a bottle of Ibuprofen "to see if it would kill me". She has ADHD and Bipolar I Disorder. I don't live in the same state, but we dated briefly about a decade ago. She's newly married and has been institutionalized before during a manic phase. She always gets drunk during times of stress and gets manic. She calls me or sends me these rambling emails, and tonight is one of those nights. She always talks about death and tonight has sent two emails saying literally "I want to kill myself tonight." Her husband knows about her suicidal tendencies, obviously, but I don't know to what extent or how much she tells him anymore. Honestly she threatens to kill herself so often it's a little like the boy who cried wolf. What do I do? The husband's at the end of his rope and I feel like nothing I say gets through to her. I honestly don't know why she even still bothers sending me emails. A lot of it clearly has to do with getting attention, but I'm terrified that one day I'll see the Facebook update that she's dead and I don't know what I'll fucking do with myself. I have had a friend commit suicide in the past and this is very hard for me. Any advice on how to handle this would be really, really appreciated. | suicide |
Not really living, but I guess I am still aliveMy mind does not undersand how is that I am not killing myself now, instead, I am waiting a few years because of my parents. I can't work and I don't have the motivation to keep living... I would rather be dead, waiting for the time to kill myself gets boring and makes people think I want to live. I have what I need to kill myself, I should just try to die, instead I just pass the time in things I don't really want to do, but I do to keep my mind occupied. What's the point if I am going to kill myself anyways? I made the decision years ago and I haven't changed my mind since then. I am stacking benzos, and antiemetics for my future suicide attemp (hopefully it's not just an attempt). I don't really get why other people choose to live. I don't care if "it gets better", I don't want it. I don't seem to be able to make the final choice because many things could go wrong, fuck. | suicide |
Now statistics show that - percent of teens have depression or depression like symptoms so why does almost everyone on this sub claim to have it?! | non-suicide |
do you have a favorite plant? if so, which one? | non-suicide |
I said "This is literally " in class and the teacher asked me to explain myself In class, we had a vote to switch seats and the consensus was no. In response, I said, "This is literally ". The American history teacher was not pleased. | non-suicide |
Home made cheese So it's pretty late and I just got off my ps and I was carying a blanket I was using back to my room, and the corner tipped a cup of unknown white yogurt consistency stuff, and come to find out is spoiled milk. WTF why is there a cup of cottage cheese in my living room, on the carpet floor, seeping most likely into the carpet and creating some ecosystem under, the God damn carpet! Then plus my brother a day earlier had a plate of rice unknown to me on a unstable platform to just happenly fall off onto the same place. Like Holy sh*t why be so inconsiderate, by leaving your container or plate of food ready to be most inconveniently knocked off by yourself. Then having to clean up that mess? FML. Sorry for bad any EneeH or grMr. | non-suicide |
Pls help or something cuz idk So tomorrow im gonna meet up with my gf and im really nervous and dont know how things gonna turn out, im also a really shy guy in general Anyone got some advice? | non-suicide |
I will go, sooner or laterHey guys, it's been a while. I really thought I was doing better. Like, doing better as in trying to live, trying to find happiness. Two weeks ago my boyfriend broke up with me. We're back together after speaking but I'm not really okay. Furthermore I wrote my exams the next week and guess what, I didn't pass them. It was my third attempt, I still have one left but I'm just so done. I'm emotionally done with trying to fight. I've given up on myself a long time ago, lived for the sake of others in order to live at all, but this. I'm so done. I've been trying, trying to fix myself, but I just can't. Depression got the best of me, I can barely remember what I did Minutes ago, yet alone concentrate enough to study for the next upcoming exam. I think if I fail this one as well, which is % coming true I'm gonna go and leave for good. I'm so done with everything, I just want this pain, this stress to disappear and honestly I wanna disappear myself. | suicide |
I put spinach on my sandwich I never eat greens Please be proud of me | non-suicide |
Time to lay in the dark Because my loneliness and depressed got compounded from last nights dream (It was a sequel, but the other was more like a prequel after the main sequence of events but it just happened to air first). Ill explain it if anyones interested. | non-suicide |
I just wish someone could save meI want to kill myself, but in reality I dont actually want to die. I just want someone to come and save me from the horrible thoughts that attack me on a daily basis. I just wish things could be different because Ik that Ill be giving up on my one shot at life. And I dont want that. I want to have friends and feel happy. I really, really dont want to die. But I have no choice because I just cant keep living like this. All the stress and pain is too much | suicide |
It's my birthday today! Thanks for being an awesome place to hang out and read posts at. I would like to thank the humans of r/teenagers for making my past couple months fun. Also if anyone has any advise for a year old learning how to drive please share! | non-suicide |
Havent talked to somebody my age in over a year now.I miss school. I wish I could just be able to hang out and smoke with somebody. | suicide |
i need to figure out a friends music taste we have been have a argument because she wont tell me what music she listens to and i have been trying to figure it out. what i know so far is its not very emotional music and she likes the musician penelope scott | non-suicide |
Havent posted here in a while, whats poppin'? Kinda bored in class, say whatever is on your mind or smth idk | non-suicide |
Take this poll now | non-suicide |
Fuck i did it again No masterbaite monday No tongue Tuesday No web porn wensday No tier sub Thursday No fuck friday No shrek Saturday No sex sunday | non-suicide |
my teahcer just said and i qoute "you are as cute as a cucomber" in english class idk man seems kinda sus to me | non-suicide |
my mother caught me smoking weed Hello i am an yrs old student from germany.Last night i was smoking a joint and my mom smelled it.when she smelled it, she immediately got pissed off and wanted me to open my door.After hiding my things I opened my door and she wanted to look into my eyes (my eyes looked normal)she asked me what i had smoked and i said it was a cigarette but she didn't believe me.apart from smell, there is no evidence of consumption.now i don't know what to do so please help m.what should I do?every advice helps EDIT: Folks the problem has been solved i spoke to my mother and I lied so well she believed me. All in all i now know i am a bad person and i need to stop smoking weed. | non-suicide |
Pandemic has made the world worseI was already depressed. I am I have tried several ways to try to get Covid and hope I wouldn't do well. I am fat too. I cant visit my my because she is afraid of getting Covid from us kids. Everything has been cancelled. I have chronic back pain. I am tired of being here and have prayed I would die some other way. I dont want to be here anymore. | suicide |
Tired and scaredI am sick tired of everything. I am tired of spending every weekend alone, hoping that the next week will not be the same as the last one, but it never changes. I am tired of school. I am tired of being from another country. I am tired when I don't do anything productive whole day. I am tired of my parents and I am tired of my 'friends' that uses me to get something they want. I am scared, scared that I will say something wrong when I speak another language. I am scared that my mom will find out that I am smoking. I am scared that I will end up alone, having no one to share my dreams with, having no one to speak before I go to bed. The only thing that stops me from killing myself is my grandparents... When they die I don't see anything but black. | suicide |
Its funny the way the system worksI know I need help. Have for several years... But I also am logical enough to know Ill get fed pills by a pill pusher, could get addicted, and having mental help on my record looks bad af | suicide |
FailureI am a year old guy who is a complete failure. After high-school I decided to go to the military. Mental illness runs in my family so I was discharged from boot camp. Before I left my family and friends we happy for me. I felt odd, like i was going for them instead of for myself. When I came home everyone I know seemed to resent me. The worst of it is my own father. He hates me. He thinks Im a failure. It feels as if he doesnt love me anymore. It feels like Ive lost everyone and Im alone. I was sent home because I wasnt mentally sound enough. But now I think Im worse. I want to end this feeling. I want to be happy again. I want my father and family to love me again. I think they would love me if I was gone. They would forget the failure if I was gone. I think thats the best way to be loved again. Thank you for reading. I just felt like I needed to say this. Ive kept it inside for what seems like a lifetime. Goodbye. | suicide |
where did my neck go? ???? | non-suicide |
How do you get someone like your parents to stop drink driving back home from the bar (Totally hypothetical) | non-suicide |
I can pee with an erection and this is the story how. Once i was a really young child i has always thought that getting an erection means that my penis is full. So every time i get one i rush into the bathroom and pee. | non-suicide |
Does she [F] like me [M]? I've never called or texted this girl; we've only exchanged numbers because she said hi to me at the same school we go to and I asked her for her number. Just about a few days ago I added her on Snapchat via contacts, and surprise(!) she added me back. Interestingly, she consistently views my stories on Snapchat. Most of which are reposts of my own videos from TikTok (mainly food, comedy, music/lip-syncing; occasionally politics). She never unfriended me or anything so we're still friends :) This is the first time in about six months I have had anything to do with her since I was fired from Target.. she never ever told me she has a boyfriend or anything but every once in a while I check her Instagram and she had two different boyfriends as I recall (one of whom is her current boyfriend) that boyfriend of hers is , but the girl is I'm .. and I have a feeling women are into older men even if they have a younger boyfriend since they tend to be more mature, secure, professional, king-like, monarchic, and this girl doesn't really post anything on her Snapchat .. but she views my story every time I make a post.. Btw I'm a semi-Trump supporter (I post hilarious musical stuff to appeal to Trump supporters) and this girl is a cute Mexican girl with some mixing of European.. I used this IG Stories website to view her story and during early June in regards to George floyd / Breonna taylor stuff going on she put a story saying black lives matter but that performative activism was just as much of a stupid idea as staying silent in the injustice.. her boyfriend is east asian from what I can tell... and I am a middle eastern armenian kind of guy.. funny thing is I do have two tiktok accounts, one I always keep away from my snapchat and instagram friends and family ... on THAT account i petitioned that all hispanic women marry white, arab, armenian men only... and that black and asian men stick to their own and I got hella likes and comments on it thanks to 'for you page' promoting it.. | non-suicide |
Who wants to make a group chat where we can talk about life, anxiety, fears, crushes, almost anything and everything is anonymous. Just comment and I'll add you to a group chat. Fill Fill Fill Fill Fill Fill | non-suicide |
Is there a "normal" amount of time to spend thinking about suicide?I'm relatively concerned that my world view has become tainted by the depression memes that the internet has to offer. I understand that there are points where it flashes through everyone's mind occasionally but is the constant thought there as much as memes make it out to be for everyone? | suicide |
I used to hate coffee but then I found mochas. I had one earlier and man I want another one. So freaking tasty..... Nothing else to say really I just wanted to vent about how much I like mochas lol. | non-suicide |
manifesting anyone that looks like rodrick, gwen or rico nasty if u look like any my dms r open incels r welcome ,, i wanna eat | non-suicide |
Omg. r/WallStreetBets is insane holy shit . Wow just wow. Hahah | non-suicide |
Help...Can someone talk me out of suicide without being fake positive? I know Im not worth it but Im really considering suicide and I want to stay alive for my mom but she s taking forever to die. Im just sick of myself so much. Im lazy,rude,negative,fat,ugly, stupid,selfish, and a coward for not wanting to face my mediocre life. Im so pathetic :( | suicide |
Seppuku/harakiriFirst of all, im not suicidal but does anybody know if this is still being done? | suicide |
My cat says hi She sitting with me and she say hi to yall | non-suicide |
Have you snooped around your house Have you snooped around your own house or someone else's just to see what you could find? Did you find anything interesting? | non-suicide |
Anyone else listening to djesse vol. ? I'm in love with every inch of this album so far Godly stuff | non-suicide |
Been having really scary thoughts the past few daysIt seems like killing myself would be a good thing to do, i would % do it but i know my family would be devastated... I'm and i have no clue what to do in life, i never do my school work (probably because of all the weed i've smoked), and even though i know a lot of people at school (and am the class president) but i've never had close friends, let alone have anyone who's into me. I don't know why. I feel so overwhelmed with school and work, that i'm scared for when i go to college because i know it'll be worse and busier.All i wanna do is lay in bed and i can't because i have so much stuff to do. i dunno. i just wish people wanted to hang out with me more. | suicide |
MEN ARE MEN. WOMEN ARE WOMEN. If a man wants to be a woman, she is a women. And women are women. | non-suicide |
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so different than everyone else.Sure, I'm interested in politics and talk about it here and there on Reddit, but in actuality, I'm nothing but lonely, sad and depressed. I've gone through enough in life as it is, and I've made tons of mistakes on my own. No matter how I hard I try, I will never have a normal, ordinary existence and society will always continue to reject me for me being me. I just wish life wasn't this difficult. Seriously. If life was more accommodating to people like me, perhaps I wouldn't be living like this. Sometimes I just wish I wasn't ever born as a human being. Being a human is difficult and tough as it is. | suicide |
I need someone to do my hair dude I don't trust barbers and I don't trust myself either | non-suicide |
I get strange insults Like most insults I get are just pepole saying I have a crush someone else, or that I have a lot of sex. Witch is not true because I'm but also not a insult. | non-suicide |
Is this a weird kink?? So whenever it rain/ storms I get really horny... just something about the sound of the rain hitting my windows and my roof its soo relaxing and makes me feel so erotic. I wish it could rain all the time, and sometimes I dont even watch porn I just listen to rain sounds on YouTube and jerk off to that... so is this like really weird?? Please let me know | non-suicide |
my dogs the cutest when shes vomiting or taking a shit filler ahsjdjdjdjkdkskskajahajjskdkfjfjfkfkfkdksjdjdjjddk | non-suicide |
Dont know how many people play Fallout , but the new Brotherhood of Steel expantion really makes you feel like a heartless bastard. (I love the quest line btw) So yeah, in , you can join the brotherhood. The thing is, it's not really the brotherhood as we know it yet, so they need to make first impressions. That means they need to make sure people know they aren't babysitters who are gonna make sure every book and cranny is safe from any dangers. They also need to make sure groups like the Crater and Foundation know that they mean business. I just got done- oh spoilers, forgot... sorry. I just reclaimed a stache of Bos weapons that the settlers at foundation bought, and I had to be all like "yeah I know you need these to protect yourselves but they're not yours" and after all that it left me feeling like a jerk. Note: I am not crapping on the story, I think it's cool. I'm just trying to share my personal experience with is so far. | non-suicide |
How does one tell their parents they have depression I need to tell them but I don't know how | non-suicide |
Money got longer Speaker got louder | non-suicide |
Stuck I'm just finishing my second semester of my freshman year, and I feel like I really fucked it up. I guess anything could happen at this point, but I don't foresee getting good grades (I probably won't even get a .). Getting hired as an educator requires that I put myself ahead of everyone else, and even if I do well my next three years this will follow me and could hurt my chances of getting hired. I guess this isn't my main worry, though - I'm scared that if I can't change the way I live, I'll never amount to anything and I'll disappoint my parents and everyone else. I have literally no motivation. none. At this point, it takes massive amounts of effort to even get up and go to class. It's not like I don't care. I'm stuck in this cycle of not being able to do anything and then hating myself as I fail. I also came to the realization this semester (it was actually a while ago, but now I'm just starting to accept it) that I'm going to be unhappy in almost every relationship I ever have. I feel like I might be a lesbian, which a lot of people in my life wouldn't approve of/be disgusted by. And I don't even know if I AM gay. I just feel so confused and lonely. I want to be able to be with someone that makes me happy but I have no idea if that's even possible. I'm absolutely stuck right now. I don't want to go through any huge changes in my life because I'm scared that it won't work out (like changing my major, coming out). Never before in my life have I been THIS depressed, and it's terrifying. I don't want to do anything crazy, but no matter how hard I try to look at things rationally, my mind always comes back to ending it. I don't think I could ever do it, but I don't know how to get away from the anxiety and pain and I just want someone to help me through it. | suicide |
I got my hopes up, such a stupid fuck.I had a job interview for the first time in ages, same place my dad has been working and from what I was told, getting this job was a done deal. Its nothing big, minimum wage when you start there, but it would have been the first stable job of my adult life. Just got the email telling me I didn't get it. No reason. Also, I recently got a letter from Mind in Bexely, a mental health group here in the UK. I have been on their waiting list for over a year now waiting for a councillor or therapist or whatever to help me, but this letter says because I have not used their services in months my case has been closed. I might be able to get back on the waiting list, but I'm certain if I were put back on, I would start from the bottom all over again. So yeah, what I think may be the last chance I had to get help and/or pull myself out of my current life just died in the last week. I wish I had a gun so I could shoot myself in the head. | suicide |
I fucking hate working. Everything is meaningless. I have no motivation and everyone keeps ignoring me.My brain is so fucked up that I cant derive joy out of most things. I try to be a good person but life constantly proves that nothing matters. Its all so fucking stupid. I hate working these goddamn meaningless jobs that only serve to ruin my day. New job already is off to a terrible start and I cant imagine itll get better. I have constant irrational thoughts about many aspects of my life and it makes me want to puke. I will never know what its like to be normal and it eats me up inside. How does it feel to not worry about everything, even things that dont make sense, but my brain convinces me are real? Nostalgia is not comforting. I remember parts of the past and only feel pain. I am fundamentally broken on many levels and I do not believe repair is possible. The only permanent fix is a bullet to the brain. Goodnight. | suicide |
Looking for fridnds for among us! Dm me ur discord tag pls im lonely ill make a cool group on discord later lmfao | non-suicide |
Fuck me.If I had access to firearms, I'd choose that. I guess maybe a hanging. I don't think I'm serious. Im tired. Tired of fighting with thoughts everyday, trying to convince myself I'm not a worthless, sack of shit. Mid thirties, work in healthcare. I take the meds, talk to the therapist. But here I fucking am. I woke up today and literally from the start of the day said "__ don't listen to those thoughts and feelings, they lie and they are just thoughts and feelings. You're not piece of shit". But how many times can I remind myself of this in one day? Have some tough shit tomorrow to deal with. Feel like I can't cope. Sleeping late.. Great. I am ready to just die and be done. I kept thinking it would get better... But here I am, and it isn't. I know I won't do anything. I would have to somehow fake it so that my friends and family don't have to deal with suicide loss. Irony, I've dealt with that too. Sometimes I think about positioning a bar against the steering wheel of my car pointed into my chest and do some head on collision with a wall or median.... Seems like I could survive though and that would suck balls. Maybe oneday I'll travel. Haha, NOT. Covid. Maybe I can look forward to the future. Haha - masks, lockdown, more pandemic, don't see friend and family Fuck me. Thanks for reading. | suicide |
I wish I could openly talk about my suicidal thoughts with my therapist.But I would rather not be shipped off to a psych ward. Even just talking about my invasive images (of self-harm), my therapist got visibly uncomfortable. You guys are the only ones that I can truly be honest with. Thanks for being there | suicide |
I've literally spent so much money on fruit but I eat too much so I'm fat Like these cans of peaches are like $ each and that adds up when I ate like - a day. I stopped buying those and eat some fresh fruit now but yeah I love fruit more than any cake and candy and shit. It's just so hard to eat so little that I'm able to lose weight, and calories and lower isn't much. | non-suicide |
Every day I die a few hundred times overConstantly thinking about suicide is just a living death. Im so pathetic. Please let this misery end. | suicide |