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what ways is there to help and support other teenagers and young adults? what ways can u come up with to help young adult and teenagers ? I'm trying to get ideas for a project of mine. male | non-suicide |
To me, suicide IS the answer.I'm years old and going to college. Been depressed since I was in second grade but have only recently gone to counseling (which has done nothing for me as the therapist I have, as well as the last only tried to push their own ideals into my life without really getting to know me.) I've been EXTREMELY depressed ever since sometime in the summer and I've created a good list of reasons for me to kill myself, and to me, they greatly outweigh the reasons I shouldn't. Why I Should: . I'm Unhappy . My EX Girl Friend dropped out of college, possibly because of a fight we had on Facebook, haven't talked to her since, she has depression problems too and may even hurt herself, if she does I feel no reason to live as I am still intensely in love with her. . An old friend from elementary school told me that I ruined his life by getting him into drugs, (weed), which he claims made him a drug addict. . I have extremely terrible soul crushing OCD and violent intrusive thoughts. . All my friends have left me. . Doing poorly in classes. . Know that if I don't do it now I will do it later when I'm in inevitably worse situations. . Running out of money, I only have about $'s left for this year. . and balding already. . I find it nearly impossible to talk to people anymore. People I knew last year, when I try to talk to them I get all mumblely and quite. . It will prevent all future pain. Reasons Not To. . It will hurt my family . It will get better (DANGEROUSLY OPTIMISTIC) | suicide |
Break my bones but act like my Spine, I wonder who youll fuck when dieI really like that one lyric from lil peep, I never really had a s/o but i can feel the sadness in his voice and what It mean its to him. This is all my fault i did this to myself. I'm not dying tonight but pretty soon, my life is just L after L. My friend's all left because of my toxic behavior its all my fault. I want to vent to someone so bad but its like everytime I want to my mind goes blank I just can't. I had trouble writing this everything feels corny. I wanna attempt venting to someone one more time | suicide |
Here's a note about potential happiness Last year, I was mentally in the worst place of my life... by what felt like on purpose I wanted toxic shit to happen to me, I wanted to feel more than just neutral. Such stupid shit. I constantly felt like shit and fucking romanticized my own pain. External forces like fuckin tik tok and my friends only made this feeling stronger. Then, I started therapy. Maybe cause I wanted to be quirky ahaha mentally ill or maybe just cause I realized something was fucked up, I honestly don't remember. But, It helped! Not necessarily sure how exactly but omfg man Its crazy to think how much I've matured and learned in a year. Life is boring, but that's the pain of being somewhat stable and happy. Its currently am and I'm so happy for no reason. Its weird, sometimes we bathe in our own sorrow and negativity like its a rose petal bath when in reality its a tomato sauce bath. Feeling shitty isn't better than feeling meh and it took some work for me to see that. I know everything is different for everyone, but I really recommend trying to better yourself. Don't make excuses for yourself, but also don't hate yourself for making you like that. Everyone goes through shit, everyone is figuring themselves out Love yall, If anyone ever needs to talk im literally ne v er doing anything | non-suicide |
Anyone who has intense hate towards themselves and overcame it, what helped you?I hate myself both mentally and physically so much and have no idea what to do about it. It feels so visceral. | suicide |
Worthless in comparison.This is gonna sound jumbled and stupid and really first world problems,but here you go- I'm the least favorite child. My mum is the one who gets say over everything and my dad might like me, and I know he thinks I'm decent, but he doesn't do anything to stop her. She just yells and makes all these snide jokes about how stupid I am and how I can't compare to my fucking brother, who is so perfect in every fucking way and I can't even do math or computers or anything at all. I'm really really worthless and I don't even want to say anything anymore, because I know that they're all smarter than me and I don't even understand what is going on. My brother tells me that my family doesn't like me because I'm rude and mean and spiteful but I'm not, because I try to talk to people and yeah I do yell & swear and I'm not the best person ever but at least I try, you know? But then my parents tell me that I'm just a bitch, just some rude asshole and I don't know what to do. This has all happened before and it will just happen over and over again and I don't know how to make it stop. My friends try to help me but they don't know how deep this goes and how tired and depressed and lonely I am, and I don't want to tell them. They are the only thing keeping me going, and I can't die because I know it would hurt them but I really want to sometimes, and death just seems to be the better option. I really don't know what to do anymore, and I don't see a way out. I'm sorry if this all sounded stupid or anything because I know there are worse problems out there. | suicide |
helpi have adhd, i know its not good to self diagnose but i know i have it,my family doesnt take me seriously, though. ive looked and i have almost all the symptoms. anyways, i also have anxiety (diagnosed) and im relaly anxious about the next school year anyways my mom tried to get me diagnosed for adhd because i kept nagging her and i got forms to give to my teachers, i forgot to give most of them to her and she only had one form to take to the doctor and i guess from that one he concluded i didnt have adhd. i confessed that i forgot to give the other forms to her and she said she wont go back to the doctor to get me diagnosed. i get really bad headaches whenever im faced with too much work for me to focus on and i have one right now and i told my parents i wanted to try grapeseed extract because i read its good for focus and they just yelled at me, they really dont want to help me in any way my marks were so low last school year and i want to fucking kill myself, people with adhd dont belong on this earth, we cant function in it. i feel like a burden to everybody i know and i just cant do my schoolwork and if i go on living ill probably just be a fucking bum. i dont know what to do. killing myself makes the most sense because honestly im pretty worthless and really cant do anything without getting a fucking migraine help? | suicide |
have a good day at school :) i knoe school can be hard for some of you so have a good day and maybe when you get out of school tell me all about your day ill listen to you!! if were in the same time zone youll see this at : which is kinda late but yk i try or whatever kk bye have a good day!! :) | non-suicide |
what a beautiful day to stalk randos on the internet an absolutely lovely activity, i must say | non-suicide |
Im going to attempt again.Ive attempted so many times since April, but Ive somehow managed to stay alive. I miss my ex and she absolutely hates me, she blocked my number, I want to get back with her and try to make shit right, she lives in TX, and I live in Ca, but I want to move out there and let her know Im committed and serious about how much I love her. I feel like my friends are on her side and they are not telling me things I should know. My family makes me feel like Im trapped in a prison, everybody is annoying to me now, Im so depressed, I dont want to be involved in anything, I feel trapped. Dont tell me that theres more girls out there because shes all I want and if I cant have that then Ill just attempt suicide again and again until I rot in hell. I miss her, i cry every night about everything, everything pisses me off, I cant take this shit no more, I want to hurt everybody around me bc my mental health is fucked. I cant do this no more I want to end it. | suicide |
Dead endI work a dead end job, In a dead end town, with a dead end relationship. I wish I could turn around and go back where I started, but Ive reached a dead end. Im about to go to work and hope I can sedate myself long enough to keep everything inside until I get home. Im glad to get this out, Ive lost a lot lately, and you gotta know when to fold em | suicide |
I really love stop motion. I really love stop motion mainly from laika studios. they have made five films Coraline ParaNorman The boxtrolls Kubo and the two strings and missing Link and they are all amazing. it's just I love the fact that we can take a minifigure or a puppet and just move it frame-by-frame and then we have animation and its really really amazing. And then everything is handmade everything is handcrafted the puppets the clothing on the puppets the backgrounds it's all amazing and I love it. | non-suicide |
how do i stop myself from engaging in behaviour patterns that make me more suicidal?jk dont care lol | suicide |
plan: dont sleep # ########################################################################### | non-suicide |
That awkward phase when you're not ready to die but don't exactly want to live eitherI'm thinking about pills again tonight. What a shocker. I don't know. I just can't see a future in myself. Everywhere I turn it feels like a dead end. I can't imagine not hating myself. I can't imagine my future not being bleak. So if I'm gonna be miserable anyways, why not end all this pain altogether? And this is when mcr songs start playing in my head | suicide |
Friend threatening to commit suicideMy friend threatens to commit suicide sometimes whenever he is feeling down. Not exactly threatens but more like hints that he wants to and I don't know what to say to him in order for him to stop thinking that way. I honestly don't know what to do anymore to get him to stop thinking about it | suicide |
How to freak out a dude #:get a drone #:turn it on #:turn on the blades #:approach him and say "you have lost penis privileges" #:laugh you ass off | non-suicide |
I'm no longer a teenager, but I know you guys love this sort of stuff! Check it out: You're welcome. | non-suicide |
I understand if this gets removedThe other day I saw the view outside the campus window. It was night and I thought I could just run out there and vanish from everyone's lives. I know I'm a bother. My stupid life has fucked me up and I try to so hard to be better and fucking grow up, but every time nothing fucking happens. I though about different ways I could kill myself. Alcohol, basing my head against the wall. I think about it so much. Everyday I fantasize about dying because it's so much easier. It would solve so many problems, too. I don't know how to try anymore. I don't know if it's the isolation again, but I just see no future. I see no future for my worthless self. I feel like I'm just going to suck my parents dry and waste away like the pathetic shit I am. I don't enjoy living. I don't enjoy being happy. I don't enjoy anything. I don't think I'll ever enjoy anything again. Nothing ever feels good. I feel no pride. All I ever want to do is die and be forgotten. I want my body to be lost under the wheels of a train. I want to die with no funeral. I want my body to be thrown away and never thought about again. I think I've had an episode in every school bathroom for each school I've attended. You can also add my brother's house to that list. I don't want people to like me. Maybe I do. I don't know. I don't know which part of me to trust anymore. I never learned how to be a person. But I want to learn. God damn it I want to learn how to be a person. I don't want to do good things so people will think in good. I want to do those things because I'm a decent fucking person. I want to be good. I want to be good so fucking bad. I just want to be good. Please tell me I can be good. | suicide |
Help please.I have aspd and I was wondering if anyone else out there could talk to me Im a young adult and need some friends I can relate to. | suicide |
why do they say, if onlyWhy do people always say, if only...blah blah "insert whatever catch phrase they say" or I'd known, they had told me, if I had one more chance etc etc. Why won't people do those things right now. When I've clearly stated intentions why do they wait. Why not now? Because they don't really care and all that "if only" stuff is something they say to make themselves feel less guilty for not helping. | suicide |
How old are you ? (Mentally) Idk what put here sooo | non-suicide |
My Acid trip gave me a taste of what death felt like. And I liked it.Ive felt death, or at least a touch of it. Ego death, after the most intense acid trip of my life. I felt each and every one of my memories decay into nothingness. And after that, there went any semblance of personality and individualism I had. I felt a deeper understanding of life, death, and the human condition. I became both nothing and everything at once. I had slipped into the void, a dark place where nothing exists but everything returns to. A black hole of time and space. All there was, was experience. Just the purest form of perception. I didnt exist, time didnt exist. Nothing mattered, nothing was real. I want to go back, but I know if I wanted to stay Id have to die. | suicide |
Is it healthy to constantly wanting to die but not taking the steps to follow through? Instead i post on here feeling like an attention seeker because im too scared to kill myself. I post in unemployment my problems and i piss people off..God please take my life. Satan please take my lifeI want to tell you all i hope everything goes well for everyone who sees this. I dont care about myself. I lost everything in this pandemic. I already had lost my mom, dad, and grandma. Nobody else was there to where i can go to them because idk no one but them. I sleep outside now. years old and pathetic at that. I gave up on myself. I came to the spot i slept in and got a letter saying dont sleep here, we called the police. You know what hurts even more? That instead of them just telling me in my face, they trying to threaten to call the police on me. Just call them dont threaten like that suppose to scare me. It rained hard around am. I slept under another area with shelter. Contemplating suicide but if i dont i ll be arrested eventually. Imagine someone so mad at u for sleeping outside after business hours having MORE than what you have. Even the police dont care if i slept over there but if the people say something then the police will get involved. I hope everybody have a happy holidays. I dont want nothing, i dont want any blessings, i just want to die before this year over. I wanna see my grandma again even though she turning in her grsve disappointed in everything i did after she died March . The day after my birthday. If your family love u, hug them. If they love u, stick together. Because once they gone, they not coming back. Im sorry grandma, but i wanna take my life away.... | suicide |
My ODD has progressed so much that my body now wakes up exactly a minute early to spite my alarm for telling me to wake up Ok, maybe that's just my body clock but it sounds funnier if I blame it on my mental health | non-suicide |
I think its going to be my timeIf trump is re-elected I dont have a chance for a good future, I cant have daca or do the things Id wish I could do, no college, no chance of a good job, so much more, Im hear tearing and crying just thinking of why this is happening, Ill probably just overdose soon or try to get something done with carbon monoxide, I dont know what to do | suicide |
My Mom is convinced that I'm gay.So in my teen years I was really sexually frustrated and lonely and experimented with a couple of guys, Mom caught wind of it and she has thought for many years that I'm gay. I've been depressed for a long time and Mom thinks that's the reason. She keeps telling me about all her friends' gay sons who suddenly lightened up when they came out, and I'm not about to come out just to appease her. The ordeal has been stressful and anxiety-inducing. Today she straight up asked me. I'm in my s, feminine-looking, and while my siblings, cousins, and friends are all in relationships, I have never had one. It's natural for her to think that. But her pestering me to confess to it has emasculated me, made me doubt myself, and made me mistrust my parents. I don't know where to turn. If I killed myself, she would think that it's because I'm gay. If I got a girlfriend, she would think it's a beard. I just want to curl up and disappear. | suicide |
I'm just sad with my dad My dad was telling me to go and give my sister some almonds, as we were eating almonds, but she was in a different room, so I got up, but I also said she doesn't even eat almonds, and he gave me a laanat(means that he is saying goddamn you) and told me I was a dog, I mean, WHY, my dad doesn't give a shit about my mental health, he just says I'm a boy and I gotta be strong AND only cry when someone dies, like, really man? | non-suicide |
No point in staying aliveI don't see the point in life anymore. I don't really have anyone. My family doesn't care about me (they're emotionally abusive/neglectful). My best friend is locked up in an RTC and I know she'd rather be with her boyfriend than me anyways. (She's called him times, on the days she promised me she would call me, and never ended up calling me.) My ex is the only person I ever opened up to and she left too. I lasted two days without her before I tried (and failed) to overdose. I don't feel like I can go back to school just to face my ex ignoring me and deal with having nobody to talk to. I'm in a different city for a festival, and the bridge I've always planned to jump off of is less than miles away. I didn't come for the festival, I came because the bridge is here and jumping has a higher chance of killing me than pills.. My death wouldn't really affect anyone so I don't know why I shouldn't. Knowing me, I'll probably wuss out. I do know I'd regret it if I jumped, but four seconds isn't very long to think about it. But I also know that if I don't jump, I'll regret it later. I don't see any point in being alive anymore. I just don't. | suicide |
"Because you were put on this Earth for a reason."I hate hearing this yet again, because it makes me feel even worse. That's the problem. I don't want to be HERE. I don't want to be on Earth. I wish I had been placed somewhere else. So, to say I was put on THIS EARTH for a reason doesn't help me at all, or make me want to kill myself any less. | suicide |
Why is my pp tingly when i see furries? I think i need to see a doctor or something please help me I'm scared | non-suicide |
Before next week/by Monday. I'm ready to go, I have nothing left. I can't stop thinking about suicide and NEED to go.After lurking on this subreddit for months and checking it near enough everyday, I wanted to finally post here as I have no one else to talk to and no one to say good bye to when I do carry out the act. Suicide is all I think about, all day, everyday. I'm and have no family nor friends, the one last real friend I had I lost last year and wants nothing to do with me (although nobody really understands why, possibly an ego/pride thing). I seem to always find a way to ruin things and/or push people away. A series of events culminated in me becoming suicidal and I have been seriously considering suicide over the last two months. I have attempted in the past a few years back and have suffered from depression since I was . I have given it a lot of thought and thoroughly believe this is the best option for me. I have bought the means to carry it out and intend to come back here to post on either Sunday th or Monday th on the day I'm doing it to at least say farewell to somebody, anybody who wants to listen or has time to. | suicide |
Im starting to have serious thought of killing myself.lately ive been crying every night i just hope I never wake up from my sleep. These suicide thoughts have really been getting to me and i swear the only thing stopping me is my cousins and some of my friends who im not even sure likes me. Im currently living with a stomach disease and it wont kill me but god is it ever annoying. I miss alot of school because of it i get so far behind and i got my parents starting to cuss me out if im not doing my homework. I literally dont remember what happiness feels like i dont remember what normal feels like. Ive thought of the way i would kill myself, my mom has a container filled with sleeping pills and i heard that is the easiest way to do it. I dont want to do it any other way because i dont want to feel the pain. I would use a gun but i woulnt be able to find a gun anywhere. I think the only time i ever laugh is on xbox then when i have to get off because my parents tell me to I literally feel awful, i feel my xbox is an escape from reality i dont have to deal with any bullshit from people. Im actually sick of feeling this way i just feel like a big disappointment and feel like it would be better if i took my life so i wont keep feeling like this. Im taking a pill to for my acne its called "Accutane" apparently causes suicidal thoughts but ive been feeling like this for a long time. Im a twin, and my sister studys goes out with friends has a good time shes just so much better than me its crazy. I used to be like that too but i dont know what happened, i just started staying in my room doing nothing. Man i dont even know why im on here, just really feel like this week is gonna be the week i guess this was sort of a cry for help. I dont know I just dont wanna deal with being alive and a dissapointment to the family. | suicide |
Foreign rainbows In some non English speaking countries rainbows dont exist because they arent actually rainbows in that language. | non-suicide |
My life sucks and I'm tired of fightingI'm and have led a pretty dismal life. My brother beat the shit out of me when I was younger, literally gave me black eyes, knocked a tooth out, would threaten my life regularly and was sexually inappropriate with me when I was younger. My sister attempted suicide a few times when I was a kid because my parent's were neglectful and mean and often left us to our devices. They never really showed any interest in us and I often wondered why they had kids. My mum is an alcoholic and would just come home and drink, and after a few would get fairly nasty. My sister couldn't cope with the dysfunction and turned to drugs pretty early on. When I was , I decided I couldn't cope with the chaos and tried to kill myself via overdose. I woke up suffocating on my own vomit, was rushed me to the hospital and after I refused to communicate with the doctor and explain why i'd done it, I was discharged under the presumption I would see a child psychiatrist. Then I became the family target, they all called me an idiot and an attention-seeker and pretty much any time there was an argument my brother would tell me to "go and try and kill yourself again". It was awful, and made me feel like a total pos surviving because I couldn't even do death right. Since then, I have been in a series of abusive relationships and have tried a further times and somehow have survived every attempt which makes me feel totally worthless. I have been diagnosed with CPTSD, generalised anxiety and am possibly bipolar. I have finished one degree, and am now doing another but I feel like my experiences have made me a really toxic person and despite all the therapy I do to try and soothe my moods, I am always irritable, depressed and anxious. I try so hard to see someone regularly, exercise days a week, eat right, and study to improve myself but I feel like the core of who i am is just awful. I get snappy and frustrated very easily and nothing really seems to help. I have such a short fuse with people that I'm scared one day I won't have any friends and I truly feel like all this therapy I've done has been a waste because I am far too damaged at this point. I feel like everyone would be better off without me. Is there really any point surviving if I won't have quality of life? I'm and Im already exhausted. | suicide |
I'm not worth it, I'm truly not.I'm not worth the air I breathe. I hate who I am, I hate who I've become, I hate the person I see in the mirror. I've become such an empty lifeless shell. I leech the happiness out of everything. I've ruined my life through apathy and laziness, walked through this depressing worthless life filled with this and that because woe is me. I can't stand myself anymore. I used to think I wanted to get better but I don't think I do anymore. I think I just wanted to finally give up. I've ruined every relationship and friendship I have ever had, even my own mother despises me. She regrets me. I'm jobless, with no transportation besides a bike in + degree weather. Stuck in a home filled with conflict and negativity, but that's my fault. I'm the reason for the conflict, because I've become nothing but a piece of shit. I'm selfish and I can't even do that right. I don't deserve help, I don't want to be a victim because I'm not one. I did this to myself, and I've known this day was coming for a long long time now. I don't want to hurt anyone else but simply by existing I hurt them more. The least I can do is make it end. My birthday is coming up and maybe that's significant. Maybe its time to finally close that door. I don't even know why I'm here. I'm sorry but the world is truly better without me. | suicide |
Heyas! anyone wanna come jam in a snazzy chatroom? chat and chillax, it's pretty laid back! and fine as hecc [Teenchat]( so ye, come and join! i'd be great to have you around! | non-suicide |
Ngl it do be am and I do wanna commit gamer Which is pretty gamer | non-suicide |
[DAY ] Binge-watching videos about people losing someone from suicide.I'm binge-watching Suicide Prevention videos just for me to stop myself from doing it. Nothing happened bizarrely happened today just had an argument over some Political Correct Karens who got offended over a dumb meme on a shitpost Facebook group that was fun to be in XD. But overall Still in that dark place. | suicide |
ScrollingScrolling the suicide and depression forums to feel less alone in how fucked I am. That doesn't help either. Shocker. | suicide |
Do phones have this setting? Do phones have that setting where it tells your when you bought the phone? If they do then please tell me where | non-suicide |
Can someone give me any advice on how to draw limbs and heads (including faces)? I want to try and start drawing and so far I kinda suck | non-suicide |
Mormons pulling up in r/teenagers now  [smh]( | non-suicide |
Why cant I just dieI wish I was dead. I was having such a great month and then the depression came back. The thoughts are not going away...help me!!! They wont leave me alone. Every time Im driving I just want to turn into the other traffic to stop the numbness. To feel something. People die every day, why cant I? | suicide |
Ok now I ACTUALLY have to go Cya later alligator | non-suicide |
Im and Im attracted to a year old I should kill myselfI havent acted on it but I do like her and Ill never act on it but I still know its wrong and I think I should just die because Im a monster | suicide |
I am (kinda actually) and my daughter's cat died. Her name was kitti kati (kit-kat in short) and she is litteral depressed. What to do | non-suicide |
Nice my hands are like the hands of an year old man right now They won't stop shaking! Writing is hard now. | non-suicide |
I need someone to talkI am sitting here,alone and feel down like i never was before ... I would really like to have someone to talk right now..please | suicide |
Keep ya head up bro. Girls can call you ugly all you want, but just remember, they can go from a to a with a swipe of makeup remover. Keep ya head up king. | non-suicide |
stop making self deprecating posts we get it you crave attention and validation go get it from real people idc about your shitty joke post lol | non-suicide |
About a year and a half ago I made a post (on a different account) talking about how nice it is to have someone you know irl say gn to you Lol nobody says gn anymore tho | non-suicide |
My friends and i were planning to make a YouTube channel but we didn't succeed We were gonna make a channel with different contents and creative ideas and different characters but we didn't. Some of us gave up, moved in a different country, not satisfied anymore, and some forgot about it. | non-suicide |
I'm worried about school When quarantine started work just got thrown at us and it was all so confusing (we don't do zoom calls and shit we use an app where they put in work for us to do and we complete it) my school also threw double the amount of work at me than we were doing before quarantine. My school's a grammer school and I had to study to get into it so it's basically full of smart people and I'm worried that I'm like expected to be some A+ student who does everything they're given and I'm worried my teachers are gonna lose their shit at me about missing work or something. They don't understand the stress I'm going through and with that stress I'm starting to feel really fucking down and it's fucking me up. The only positive thing happening is my birthday in days so I'm not gonna need to pretend to be anymore lol | non-suicide |
i really cantim on the edge i dont think i can take it anymore soon | suicide |
I have precisely three () brain cells and they don't get along with each other it's like an episode of the three stooges in there | non-suicide |
guys i found a way to stop randomly feeling like shit and wanting to die [redacted] | non-suicide |
I cant do anything because my brothers are depressedI moved across the country and I want to die. Im so lonely. I ended a four year relationship and I dont have many friends here. Ive started cutting myself even though I feel like Im too old to do that. I think about jumping off the bridge or into traffic almost every day but then Ill feel fine the next (bipolar ) no one checks in on me. my family never asks how I am and friends dont either, most of my friends from my hometown havent bothered even texting me since I moved. My brothers have both struggled with depression in the past, my little brother is having a lot of trouble right now many states away from me. I check in on him and call. I cant do anything while hes having so much trouble it would be a bad example to set. But it hurts that no one checks in on me or takes me being suicidal seriously. Even therapists. I dont know what to do. I never pictured being this old. I was abused as a kid and feel like I just wasnt mentally snapped in and present until college and sometimes I snap out again | suicide |
conversation starting how do u start a convo with a guy that isnt awkward? and keep one going? been talking to one who has shown interest in me but we dont have actual conversations much and want to do that. any advice? | non-suicide |
What can any of us do to stop this?I used to have hope, but I don't know any more. I feel better then cycle back down again. What can any of us do? | suicide |
Kinda need to vent about a lot of stuff Basically you dont have to read or respond to this but basically Im failing every lesson at school and although Im trying to concentrate I just cant take any of it in and I feel stupid and everyone thinks Im stupid and I hate it. It was bad before but it keeps getting worse, everything does, like how insecure I feel about my face and my body, and how all my friends and people close to me keep becoming distant, and how I just feel like no one here wants me, and I know youll all comment like we want you but none of your lives will change if I died, you wouldnt even know, and no one I know irl will care, so whats the point? | non-suicide |
Im singing to no one & everyone & no onefor the longest time, Ive always imagined singing and performing in front of people Ive known. this wouldnt happen in real life. not from fear but I dont have the voice. I do this when Im trying to escape from life, imagining a happy dulcet tone can come out, showing everyone that hey, I can do something. Ill imagine family (they know I feel like this but oddly dont care. Ive tried to blame myself but honestly, I know I just got some shitty family), Ill imagine former friends who have passed away, Ill even imagine exes & its never to impress them, its just to show them that hey, Im here, how is it going my old friend. i dont want to get back with them. lately when I close my eyes and listen to music, thats gone. gone is some ridiculous hilarious stage that would make hologram tupac think twice about the delusions of grandeur & send hologram suge knight after me. its a blank white room & im just softly singing to myself. no walls, nothing at all, just me and blank whiteness, which could also be my new nickname if I think about it. i am so completely and totally fucked. I dont want to die but things arent getting better. theres nothing here anymore. this isnt how it should be. but it is. | suicide |
NNN is dangerous I go on reddit for some good memes but then I get blasted by NNN. The only problem is, the NNN makes me want to nut more than not. Anyone relate? | non-suicide |
I feel worthless and I don't know why I'm still tryingMost day I walk around pretty numb and don't let myself feel anything at all. It's better than the truly down times, I tell myself. But then some days, like today. I feel worthless. I don't know what's the point of pushing forward. I've lost control of every part of my life. I've pushed everyone away or they left before I could push them away. I have no friends. No job. No money. Nothing. And not for lack of trying. I've tried a lot of things, a lot. It pains me to admit it, but I'm jealous of my recently deceased cousin bc I wish I was him. No doubt, he probably wishes he was me. But I feel like I keep trying to live and do things. Even little things and I get rejected and kicked when I'm down every time. I wish I could disappear as though I never existed. I know that's not possible and I'm not going to try and kill myself. But I do wish I could magically disappear. Idk how to make life better or make it feel like it's worth living or make others see my worth. It feels like a lost cause. | suicide |
If you dont care about nnn, skip. Day I am posting my journey here. Today was fine. Pretty strong urge but that was just my mind messing with me. I am in full control of my body and I will not quit. Fuck you if you didnt make it past day , if I can, so can you. | non-suicide |
when you make an ad about hating ads *Spotify moment* | non-suicide |
My S.O opened a subreddit for outfit ideas from anime and manga, go check it out! It's called r/Animemangafashion. | non-suicide |
Something I never understood If a guy sleeps with girls hes seen as the ultimate chad If a girl sleeps with guys shes seen as a slut Why?? Im genuienly curious. Its not bcs its easy for girls to get guys because like % of the girls ive met struggle to have a boy reply to them on instagram lol | non-suicide |
I want to get an electric sex stimulation thing but it's so confusing idk how that shit works It seems scary idk. But I've been looking for something extra cuz masturbating normally is getting boring. And vibrating things are too loud | non-suicide |
I slept for hours and I feel refreshed how tf did I do that | non-suicide |
Helping a friend at the moment having suicidal thoughts but being in another continentI'm currently talking with a friend who's literally telling me she doesn't want to drag anyone down anymore, she wants to die, and that we're all better off without her, she's avoiding all of my questions about what she intends to do and I can't help to think that tonight it really bad She's been dealing with this for a long time and we spoke a lot and openly about it however she always did everything she could to hide where she lives, she hasn't said a word to her parents, she's refusing to speak to her psychiatrist. Sorry I'm half panicking right now because I feel so damn powerless Would it be bad if I try to reach out to a person knowing her through her facebook (which I am not supposed to have) so I try to get the help she refuses to get by herself? I don't care if she hates me for this but I'm so worried, she isolated herself from everyone so much she now strongly believes no one cares at all | suicide |
On the subject of acne ACNE IS SO FRICKIN PAINFUL WHY IS ACNE A THING I GET IT BODY THERES BACTERIA YOU DONT NEED TO MAKE A LITERAL WAR ZONE | non-suicide |
Before i kill myselfIs there anything else than dying that would improve my life? My family thinks i am a disappointment and they are right. I have tried getting better grades and i have tried doing my best at everything but i am not good enough. Nobody likes me and i have no friends. I always feel depressed because i am a total failure and i am just miserable. I have already planned how i am going to kill myself and it is going to look like an accident so no one will feel guilty but I am willing to try one more thing before i do it. Please help me | suicide |
my mom is getting mad at me because i dont want to work while i have school, i am , wake up at : to be ready and work is at night, where i would get home at i gotta put something here so it doesnt get removed | non-suicide |
Question for girls Do girls not like it when a guy gets them multiple birthday presents? | non-suicide |
I want to buy an among us shirt but im afraid people will make fun of me I dont want to be called sus or the imposter or get laughed at behind my back or get avoided like a homeless person or get disgusted looks from my classmates | non-suicide |
I don't have a single foundation in this life...How the f\*ck am i supposed to do something with thist shi\*ty life, when i dont have a SINGLE foundation in this life? Family, friends, classmates, country, someone to love, God, anything??? Where do i start? Im the type of person to have a massive will power and motivation, but i dont give a damn anymore, everything has been taken from me. My childhood, my social skills, my love... I don't know... I don't care | suicide |
hugs i have given hmm Hmm | non-suicide |
listen up my seeds advice?? idk if you ever call a girl(maybe not ALL girls) princess or babygirl , just know that we probably got a thousand butterflies in our stomachs; fr thats the cutest thing that could ever come out of your mouths - along w being respectful and stuff | non-suicide |
back here again... i seem to be escalatingmy friend staying with me for a few weeks and in that time I was really happy wasnt depressed at all but since you left Ive just been hit with everything again. if it wasnt for my dog i wouldve done it. even though my dad is an unsupportive asshole with anger issues and my mom died, i wont want to hurt him more for some reason too many fucking problems.. injuries, pain, bad friends who fucked up my life permanently but at least i learned about the painless method now I have a way out thats easy and painless ive been sober for a while now but im probably going to relapse and get heroin tonight to numb myself. when my dog pass away then ill go, he never abandoned me and I wont abandon him sometimes i think he would have a better life elsewhere though . since my mom died ive got nobody supportive in my life, nobody that cares. im invisible/unwanted and society sucks | suicide |
I really just want to dieMy relationship is falling apart... i work a shitty job, no car, no motivation to do anything fresh out of high school... was banking on the military but got disqualified by medical the day I was supposed to ship out... every day I dream about putting a pistol round in my head and i really want to do it now | suicide |
anyone else hate every single one of their classes? My classes are Government, English, Leadership, Algebra , Cybersecurity, Economics, and German. Leadership is the only class I can at least somewhat tolerate, but I despise every other class and my grades reflect that. I'm not able to drop any of my classes if I want to graduate and it's too late to switch classes, so I have no idea what I'm going to do. I'm worried I won't graduate this year because I'm failing a couple of classes and this is my second time taking algebra .  Is anyone else in a similar boat and if so, what should I do? | non-suicide |
hey guys i havent been here on ages i know you missed me anyways now go message me on insta my username is ismahuzzain, since I strangely enjoy being the only girl you stupid nerds with no friends will ever talk to in your whole life. | non-suicide |
For every like and comment this post gets I promise I won't do a single push up Right so no joke here I will actually not do a push up for every like and comment this post gets. I'll post the video of me not doing a single push up on my YouTube channel: Icecrunch. | non-suicide |
whos carson and why is everyone talking about him what happened | non-suicide |
And like clockwork, things only got worseI made a post yesterday, and unsurprisingly things haven't gone well since then. So last year I asked my hiring manager for a reference, but she said she wouldn't give one because I didn't seem that motivated in the work (yay thanks bipolar). So last year I didn't get a job because hearing that sent me in a downward spiral and I ended up taking summer classes and being a lazy sack of shit for the other two months. Last week I sent out an email to another person at the old job who was kind if like a supervisor who when I left said he would be willing to give me a reference. He just replied to me saying he wouldn't give one because he wasn't the person who hired me. I know he's just being polite. I was probably the worst hiring decision they ever made. I'm a lazy, useless, dumb, stupid, boring, awkward, and awful waste. I have no idea how I'm going to get a job without references. My old ones have moved on and I have no way to contact them. And I barely know my professors plus a lot of employers apparently look down upon professors as references. I feel so lost and useless. | suicide |
Help, im so bored Im feeling kinda depressed... My electronics and privileges have been taken away until new year for reasons i will not clarify, and im not allowed to go outside until new years either, it would mean the world to me if someone could recommend something or become a pen pal, i haven't had any real contact with my friends for a while now. |Yesterday i found myself literally banging my head against a wall out of boredom, my parents said that if i want to do something, i have to do it with them, but when i ask to spend time with them, they decline, and when i try to contact my friends with my laptop, i get scolded.|I wanted to leave to get a book in the local library, but the library counts as outside, i cannot do this. I cannot last months like this, i have filled my page diary in a week, and its not a narrow diary. Every day i just sit in my bed, go to school, come home, do my homework, turn on the radio and listen to whatever shitty mainstream radio station i can find.|Im also lonely. I spend most of my time within feet of my stepfather (no i do not hate my stepfather, just to clarify) is a bit nosey. I haven't had much privacy, i live in a household where if i try to take a nap, my parents hit me with the - SLEEPINGIS FOR NIGHT, GET THE FUCK UP.| |:-|:-|:-| |Please, it would mean the world if someone could reach out and give some advice.||| | non-suicide |
So how are yall doing tonight? Im asking from my second time in quarantine in six weeks | non-suicide |
I need help I want to ask a girl out but dont know if I should. I want to go to the movies with her. Help me please. I did it. She hasent responded yet | non-suicide |
i think that im gonna cancel hanging out with the guy :/ is that okay? i like talking to him but im not ready to hang out with guys id rather just wait until mr. right stumbles upon me and decides to make a move or something and i feel comfortable with him | non-suicide |
Seems like joe exotic being in prison is a curse We need to release him so this shit can end | non-suicide |
First time and scared what SW would think of me.I am lost, sad upset. I come and read so many posts. I feel like I can connect with so much of you, but everyone has their different stories. Mine is my boyfriend that lives , miles away. Which I am going to see again in days. I have met him once before for two weeks in Christmas. It's just so hard to let it all out. If I tell you everyone will just tell me to leave him or not go on this trip. I'm sorry. I feel worthless. In February I OD on my mums sleeping pills. Went into emergency room and my whole family was crying. And a few night ago I did it again. But this time I didn't tell anyone and made myself sleep for days. I was fucked. I will tell SW one day what my abusive boyfriend has called me and said to me. Or am I being selfish bitch? A princess who is not getting what she wants? Right now I want to OD again but this time mix it wil a bottle of Vodka. I want to end my life so bad. I feel like I'm rambling, I feel like no one will understand. Goodnight | suicide |
Wrote this while listing to the song use this gospelI'm sick of society calling suicide selfish ? So what if they left that don't make them selfish, were you in Christine woo's shoes? You don't understand they made it through. Even though they ended their days, I mean just look at was all accomplished by Kate Spade, Tara Condell got her masters degree, Lucy Gordon was starring in Spiderman , Thank you Robin Williams for Good Will Hunting was one of the greatest movies, who created Infinite Jest?, Best believe it was David Foster Wallace, even though times got worsa, if you hearing me they made a mural of you Etika! , And Lu Chang Wang you tried I seen the determination in you, Laura Vanessa Nunes just know your mother's proud of you , I wish I could've spoken to you, but I spoke to your mother to let her know what I thought of you, of your fate I'm sorry it had to be like this, rest in peace Abraham K Biggs, don't worry about anymore pain, I will always smell the teen spirit Kurt Kobain, and those NYPD cops who dealt with all that unbearable PTSD, everyone one of y'all is soilders rest in peace!!!! | suicide |
A simple thingI just want a simple thing - to hug someone and cry, not worrying what they think about me making their shoulder wet, or if they want to cry with me - that's fine to. For some reason, I've been wanting to do this for a long time, I am not quite sure why, but it is what it is. It seems like that would be comforting, a gesture of our mutual trust and closeness, quite a wonderful thing. Btw, I don't need your pity or anything, just wanted to share this somewhere, dunno if this a right sub to share, but I did have problems with suicide, if that's what you need to have on your CV to post here lol | suicide |
Just an uplifting postHey everyone. I just wanted to to provide some encouragement for everyone who might be looking at r/SuicideWatch for whatever reason, whether it be that you are suicidal or a friend or family member is. Last night I almost killed myself. I was in a really awful place in my head. I thought there was no way out, no way to change my life. I thought I would be better off dead. But instead of doing something irreversible, I decided to talk to the people close to me, and then go to bed. Today, I was able to make some positive changes is my life, and it feels so good. I feel really free. I know it isnt that easy for everyone. Not everyone can just make a positive change with the snap of a finger. But I implore you to try. The world is a better place with you in it. I know you may read this and say well they dont know me, Im the exception because I suck. Dont listen to that little voice. Theres people out there who care about you. And theres people out there you havent met yet that are going to care about you. Theres people on the street that youre gonna make smile, even just for a second. And think of all the joys ahead. I got a sticker to put on my laptop that says theres so much joy ahead. It reminds me that Ill miss out in so much if I leave this world. Think of the beauty of just a little blade of grass, and little drops of dew on it. The wings of a butterfly. A forest brook singing to itself. The face of that one person who you adore. A city street on a sunny day, buzzing with energy and excitement. The way a pet looks at you with love in its eyes. The friends and significant others and family you havent met yet, and the ones you have. And just so much more. Think of how beautiful the world is, and how much youll miss if you leave it. I beg of you to think of all of that before you do anything drastic; the world is so beautiful with you in it. | suicide |
Hey can anyone help me on this equation? How much time, in seconds, will it take a car, starting from rest, to travel meters while accelerating at m/s ^? | non-suicide |
I bAkeD u A pIe OH BoY wAt fLavOr | non-suicide |
Girl Im new in town Could you give me direction to your bed? | non-suicide |
My disability is torture PLEASE KILL MEIm tired of being alone because of it. | suicide |
HEY MISSES MOM SHUT UP PLEASE IF YOUR SON IS TRYING TO EXPLAIN SOMETHING TO THE CLASS DON'T SHOUT AT YOUR HUSBAND FOR THE REST OF US THE CLASS TO HEAR !!!! JDHFKSSAKJFHAWUIE | non-suicide |