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ima get black out drunk tonight LOL TIME TO DOWN VODKA AND RUM | non-suicide |
make me less angry pls some kid keeps harassing me and now im mad but I would like to sleep so pls help me become un-mad | non-suicide |
my boyfriend broke up with me on my birthdayi feel so alone. my mental illness ruined another relationship. i was two weeks away from finally getting on medication & getting therapy. i moved out of our apartment and i am now living with my parents. life just seems like a joke. love seems like a joke. i never want to trust someone with my heart again. i dont know how to handle pain like this. i wanted my birthday to be a happy day. we were supposed to get drunk and play mario kart. then i found him packing up my things. he told me to leave. i am so heartbroken and i am so scared to be alone. i feel like my life will never get better. why keep living if i feel so much pain. | suicide |
my viewi just wanted to get other opinions on this. i obviously dont feel comfortable talking about this with people i know. i've had depression for a while and that probably influenced my view on suicide alot. i used to think that suicide was a terrible thing and ooo i'm gonna go to hell if i die blah blah blah but i'm mature enough now to realize that life has no meaning whatsoever. like we as humans have a natural survival instinct, but if we can manage to realize that there is no real purpose to life, then is there a point to keep living? i mean not even to end suffering or because of depression. if there is no real purpose to life then why go on with it? i'm sure you guys get this alot but what are your views? | suicide |
What are your hobbies? Need something to do so what are ur hobbies? | non-suicide |
All aloneGranted, I'm really drunk right now, I was on a good streak but it hit me out of nowhere, no matter how many friends I have, I'm always alone. I nearly died once, but now it feels like it's final. It hit me out of nowhere, I have a great life ahead but I won't make it to it. I don't trust anyone to be there. I find a sick peace in knowing that I won't suffer anymore, but no one will care that I'm gone. | suicide |
I'm very depressed now So my school emailed me saying I have to stay off until the th and self isolate again last time this happened I was so lonely and couldn't see my friends and now I have to do it again Why me why is it me again it's happened already I want to see my friends but Covid is just like F#ck ur friends ur not seeing them. It's worse that my friends are the ones that help me whenever I start to breakdown and this is just going to break me down even more F#ck | non-suicide |
I got in a fightSo I was in the street and I saw my middle school bully so I confronted him and told him that youll pay the price for all what you do he just became crazy and told that if I ever talk to him again hell make my life miserable until he make me commit suicide I told him I already want a die I felt that I lost what should I do I really need to text him to win back | suicide |
I got rickrolled bad I really just got rickrollled by a tide ad on spotify, it was talking about some stains and all of that, but I GOT RICKROLLED BY AN AD. | non-suicide |
Another updated recent google searches . Tier list . Bon Bon fnaf . Spottedleaf x firepaw . Lgbt Roblox decal id . Omgle . Akinator . Ravenpaw . Firestar . Silversteam x Greystripe . Squirrelflight sister . My gender is yes meme fnaf . My gender is yes meme . Roblox decal ids . Sam says sweet sounds . Among us memes Dont ask | non-suicide |
Exactly how legal and accessible is assisted suicide?Could I go to a state where assisted suicide is legal and ask a doctor to kill me? Even if I have no particular reason and I just wanted to die? | suicide |
This fucking loopThis school year will be my last from the beginning it was easy no problem or trouble then it got harder I started to panic getting worse mark which makes me more depressed and stressed getting worse marks and repeat which makes me get even worse marks.last month was my online finals it was very bad I cheated and did a lot of this that would increase my grade but I am a Muslim and in Islam if u got something without effort and cheated and took shortcut and it happened before I am afraid god will get me a bad grades but in the end. I cheat and did a lot of shady shit but god will never let anyone take more than he have done I am so worried | suicide |
Reality just hit me right in the face. The real world is too overwhelming for me. Im weak and its just too much.This is the real world. This is where the rat race begins. I wish I had savored my childhood more. The thought of spending the next years trying to survive in a world that is constantly trying to fuck me over is upsetting. This is an eat or be eaten world and Im all alone. I dont stand a chance here | suicide |
Who will hate you if you kill yourself?My landlord will because shell have to dispose of all my stuff. I suppose family will because they love me and how dare I free myself from this hell lol. Im the one who has to live my life. I see them a few times a year during holidays. I dont want to hurt my parents though. Theyre elderly. | suicide |
I Just Found Out A Suicide MethodI've never tried to kill myself so all the time I never feel valid. So what if I die no one ever even cares I cry for help all the time and no one even glances at me. When I was cutting this morning I tried my foot and it started bleeding like crazy! Can you imagine how easy I could die if I made a good cut on there! My freinds never take me seriously no one ever does no one even worries about me and all I do is just sit on my ass wasting away! I'll be pretty happy if I'm dead. | suicide |
Lie to me, tell me you love meI can't take it. I am done with being degraded. I'm done with being called a bitch, a whore. I'm done with the harassment. I'm done with the guilt tripping. I'm done with the toxicity | suicide |
Suicide musicWhat are some good songs to listen to as you bleed out? Not looking for help, so forget it. | suicide |
What can i do if i want to kill myselfI really don't want to live I don't feel loved people that i trust don't care about me it feels so hollow and empty inside | suicide |
if anyone wants to chat for a little dm me (m) you can see what I like in my description | non-suicide |
Where's my left handed gang at? Where my left handed gang at? I'm left handed for writing, everything else is right handed. My left eye is better than right eye. | non-suicide |
What's wrong with me?Why do I fuck things up? Why am I such a burden? Why do I make issues out of nothing? Why am I so insecure? Why can't I stay on my meds? Why do I make myself unhappy? Why do I self harm? Why do I stick around? What's wrong with me?... Sorry, having a really bad day and I just needed to vent. Depression sucks. It's like this huge scary binding monster that follows me around even when I think things are good. I don't want to lose this battle of life but man it gets so hard sometimes.. | suicide |
i've had no reason to live for a while now. and now, i'm getting tired of it.i've lost all of my friends. i've lost all of my hobbies. i do nothing productive all day. i'm a waste of space. the only thing i'm looking forward to is death. but yeah life is great and it'll get better, totally. | suicide |
Today I touched elbows with a girl. Today I touch elbows with a girl in my class and we look at each other for a second, and believe me when I say that my suicidal thoughts were gone for half my day. Anyways they have returned now. | suicide |
Lmaooo flight reacts is the goat bro what a legend Filler filler filler filler filler Filler Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler Filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
I couldn't do itI was supposed to end my life an hour ago. Instead, I have small cuts on my left wrist, a blood stained shirt and kitchen knife. It's strange. I was convinced I'd be able to. | suicide |
NauseaThe heaviness of existence has laid it's torturous claws on my head again, it is difficult to breathe and my brain has a dense fog, all flavours are insipid, all colours are dull and I can't pretend this day is new. | suicide |
Does anybody have any music recomendations? So im a huge MCR fan and ive listened to most bigger bands in the same genre. So could anybody help me and recommend some smaller bands or something close? | non-suicide |
I just want someone to talk with me...My therapy appointment is on Thursday, and I've got to make it to then. I just want someone to talk to me for awhile. I feel like my entire life has been a lie, and going through the geieving process is (almost literally) killing me. | suicide |
We are number one came out years ago Man time goes by fast like it dosen't even feel like it was that long ago | non-suicide |
Watching people celebrate New Years Day was like watching happy people board the titanic. I said what I said. | non-suicide |
gonna try n pull a fast one over my professor everyone wish me luck we gettin that extension tonight fellas lets goooo | non-suicide |
Whos Excited? The Phineas and Ferb movie comes out tomorrow! I loved that show when I was , it was my childhood. | non-suicide |
Yo... just another person wanting to end their life...Thinking of ending it... Ironically, the thing that really makes me want to end it the most is the thought that the people who know me would want me to kill myself. I'm a horrible person and I don't deserve to live. The world would be better off if I were dead. I bet you, reading this, want me dead too. You're probably thinking "this guy seems like an asshole, good riddance." And if you are, eh, that's fair I deserve it. Time to do the only good thing ever in my life and finally stop wasting valuable resources... Not sure why I am even posting this... sorry to bother you all.. | suicide |
Fuck bruh rip king von Were loosing so many people wtf is happening | non-suicide |
attenshun pleaws have you seen me here before | non-suicide |
Im doneI took my relationship for granted, Ive taken everything for granted. Now shes gone, I have no one. Whats the point, maybe I can finally be at peace. The only thing thats stopping me is my family. I dont want them to go through this pain. But I dont want to either. They dont understand, no one understands. Im just done with this shit. Fuck life, it sucks. Fuck work. Fuck corona. Fuck our president. And most of all, fuck me. I might just do it tonight fuck it. | suicide |
Truth or dare? lets have some fun this beat is sick, I wanna take a ride on your disco stick. Dont think too much, just bust that kick, I wanna take a ride on your disco stick. | non-suicide |
our ancestors fought to make this world a better place and now im just here jerking off to anime tiddies | non-suicide |
Wish I were goneThe only reason I'm still here is I can't ruin my kids lives. That is all. | suicide |
If you were a lego set You would definitely be a lego deathstar, millennium falcon limited edition bundle | non-suicide |
My lifeI am desperately craving love but can't let anyone close to me. I want to get help but can't open up. I want to develop new healthy habits but have no discipline, a non-existant attention span and everything is a chore. I want to do something meaningfull but I can't see a purpose in anything. I want to train my mind but thinking about any topic just makes me more depressed. I have so many issues and things to work on that I don't even know where to begin but my constant state of exhaustion and physical pain keeps me from doing anything. I don't know what part of me is my personality and what part is my depression. I can't take it anymore. Thanks for reading, have a lovely day. | suicide |
Why do guys take so long to respond? Dear Boys, Why do yall take forever to respond to a simple text. This is not a difficult task. Maybe youd be forgiven if you gave us like good answers and asked questions back AND ADD TO THE FREAKING CONVERSATION but ohnono you just respond with cool yes no lol after minutes of complete deadness, and over bearing amounts of anxiety over weather I scared you off, and if I said something wrong you give us some bs reply or ask wby or some cool guy shallow ass question. I thought this was a me issue but my friends share these same exact stories. Are we ugly? I dont think so. Are you not interested in us? You know we might not be either. Do you actually have something going on? You can tell us that. So men, no boys why do you play us like this? Are you trying to seem cool? Seem like you have a life? Hate our guts? Why? I cant even begin to tell you how many guys I have lost all interest in because they dont ever respond in a normal time frame. Is that too much to ask for? If you have anything to add DM me or comment something Sincerely, Gorls | non-suicide |
Teachers who pick out random students to answer questions. I hate you This was a few months ago but i keep thinking about. This was the last class of the day and it was a maths class. I am very bad at maths and I have anxiety. We had a substitute teacher. The teacher asked a very simple maths question to the class. No one raised their hand to answer. He began to get frustrated and said that hell just pick out a random person to answer it. My heart began to beat very fast. I sat in the front row right infront of the teacher. The teacher pointed to me and said -You, answer the question. My mind went completely blank. I replied no thank you quietly. He said -No, answer it. I said no thank you again. -Come on youre wasting everyones time. Said the teacher annoyed. A guy in the back of the class yelled just answer the question. I started panicking. I asked if i could go to the bathroom. He laughed and said -Its that hard huh. Just go I went to the bathroom and had a panic attack and cried. | non-suicide |
Deep spiraling down slowly. Cant see the end. But I want it to end. My two little one are hard to leave. I don't see a better day coming. Husband to a good wife for yrs. High school sweet hearts. To great kids and . Have a great job. I don't understand why I what to end it but I'm more depressed everyday. I don't have friends because I'm kind of a hermit. Any advice? | suicide |
Texas Roadhouse Rolls I've been told that they do not make their rolls at the restaurant. Therefore that means they have to transport them...so at some point in transit there is a place full of rolls. if my theory is correct we must locate the texas roadhouse roll warehouse asap | non-suicide |
Ive died before. Sometimes I wonder if coming back is sufferingI have been sick for seven years now. The first time I died my heart stopped. I was found laying on my bedroom floor with blue lips, gasping for breath and it hurt far more to come back than it did to die. For the next year I died an estimated times a day before my pacemaker was implanted. My doctors like to call it long term organ failure as the technically terms are complicated and Im sure people on the internet dont care. My brain, thyroid, heart, and kidneys all began to fail and stop working when I was years old, and Im only alive because of modern medicine. As my life goes on I need more and more intervention to survive, and I have to take these thirty pills a day or I will die. I think that is where it started? I just start to focus on it. How it was to die. I remember dying each time- it was scary at first, and painful. Coming back always was disorienting, and so so damn painful. but I knew I was dying, I could feel what it was like and knew what it was, after a couple months I knew very well how to die. But to be honest now that I have those experiences? Its almost easier to handle? Its relaxing. Calming to think about when Im going through something now. It started off as a joke whenever I was in pain god if only my Pacemaker stopped working lol when a nurse is scrubbing open wounds or like when I was in the ER again, Id think about it. It was easier than the feeding tube going through my neck. So much easier then going months without food so far. The central line going into my heart. The pacemaker shocking me a dozen times a day. I don't know, it WAS a joke. Now its always there. Always. Its an escape. I wont be surprised if I kill myself. No one in my family has an inkling- Im already a terrible burden on them financially and mentally. And I dont think it will make a difference  im sorry if this is over the top. Ive never talked about any of this before with anyone, and I dont even know where to start or how to really put it into words. Thank you for listening tho | suicide |
Reddit is so wholesome I just realised that theres an option to help an person/account in their dark times and that there are people in the world that want to help. | non-suicide |
I'm genuinely scared of losing my human rights. As a gay person (trans to but i haven't transitioned) I'm genuinely scared for the equality that i currently have. I'm already discriminated against as is i don't need my rights taken away. Both of the political candidates in the USA are terrible people but at least Biden won't restrict my ability to live. I don't live in the USA but my countries equivalent to the right likes borrowing the pumpkins policies. Here are some things i could loose if donald trump wins -BASIC FUCKING HEALTHCARE -RIGHT TO ADOPT -A SAFE LIFE WHERE I DON'T FEEL THREATENED -LIFE OUTSIDE A CONVERSION CAMP | non-suicide |
My mum crushing my dreams...I just turned days ago (happy late b day!) and I know what I want to be. A cross country runner. I dream was to be a netballer before but that ended when I wasn't allowed to join the netball team. My parents (mostly mum) are OVER protective and when I asked my mum to join the cross country team she said yes! I was sooo excited and told all my friends, they said good for you your really fast and I was like tell me something I dont know(I didn't say that but I was thinking it).The next day I asked my mum again because saying yes didn't sound like her, she asked if it costed money and I said maybe..... so the answer was a straight up NO. She said I should be more like my older sister (shout out nicest sis ever) but shes the smart one and im the sporty one and everyone knows that I'll never be as smart as her. Anyways I wanted to join the cross country team so much that I cried to sleep the night she said no. What should I do to be able to join?? BTW I've NEVER thought of suicide (just saying cause the url says suicide watch which also sounds kinda creepy). BYE hope this didn't bore. | suicide |
God hates meThe devil doesnt like me either | suicide |
I want to give upI seriously feel like giving up, but its like - I do YouTube and I have amazing people who are subscribed (all ) and I have great friends. It feels like my family want to mess up my life though, I cant decide ANYTHING for myself. I wanted to go college because that would have been better but noooo my controlling af parents made me stay at the sixth form so I can take my year old brother home! I am - my phone is NOT allowed in my room, Im not allowed on ANY FORM of technology on a Tuesday. I feel so trapped. Nothing I do is good enough | suicide |
today is my birthdayI'm . Officially no longer a teenager. No one can tell me it's just teenage hormones making me feel this way. Can I die yet? Will anyone help me? I give up on getting better. There is no "better" for me. I have tried and tried and tried. Things just get worse. I'm too dysfunctional to live a proper life. I've been stuck like this for almost a year. I'm so tired. | suicide |
Is it a common thing to set a date?Like when you want to kill yourself. You give yourself a period of time before you want to end it, like setting a date. My friend today turned , and she was like "today I'm going to die." Jokingly, I knew she wouldnt. But she had planned to kill herself on her th birthday. She has a girlfriend now which is a reason why she wouldn't do it plus she's been okay I guess. I also told myself I was going to kill myself before school started for me. I dont talk to her about me being sucidal. In this case two negatives don't make a positive. | suicide |
I think about how nice death would be a little too often for comfortThis past month was great. I went on vacation to see my boyfriend and everything was beyond amazing. But now Im back at home and am constantly reminded of how much of a miserable fuck I am. My problems are still there and I feel like a complete and utter failure at school. Im starting to feel like my boyfriend is just staying with me out of pity. Im literally such a boring person in general that none of my friends hang out with me anymore. This is pretty much your typical no one would even hurt that much if I die post I guess. Im only but Im so so damn tired of life. Im tired of feeling. I can only sleep so much before I get headaches, so unless there are magical pills to make me stop feeling, death would be the best way to just end it all. To stop the hurt, the doubts, the constant anxiety, the self/hatred. To stop feeling in general. I just want to be numb. I feel like Im such a waste of life. There are so many people out there who can do so much more that are fighting for their lives every day, but Im right here wishing for it to end. | suicide |
Question about suicideIf I try suicide by cop and live, will I be charged with anything? I'm not going to try and kill myself right now I was just wondering. | suicide |
I cant believe I just got half my class to start chanting Karl Marx Im not kidding, in our class group chat last night I argued that Karl Marx is cuter than Jin form BTS because I got proof and now my class is talking about it and supports Karl Marx. | non-suicide |
Random thoughts of DeathLately it feels like everyone I love and care about leaves me, or only keeps me around to control me. I feel like part of the reason I feel like I don't belong anywhere is because I was an 'accident.' No one cares about unless it's out of obligation and because I can be painfully naive and easy to use. My Mother has already turned some family members that I love and cared about away from me after I moved out of the house. I feel like I try my hardest to help everyone, but I can't even manage to help myself. I hate having this pain so much, my anxiety is at its peak and I never feel like I'm as happy as I used to be. No one is even going to miss me when I'm gone, I don't have any friends and my whole family is slowly but surely turning against me, all thanks to my Mom telling them things that aren't true. I dont always feel like suicide but I do get random thoughts here and there, especially on my worst days. Thoughts of the pain hurts so much everyday, but I'm too scared to follow through. I don't want to feel any pain if/when I die, but I also don't want to feel this pain and fear any longer. I don't know...I just don't know... | suicide |
Been years. Never gets farther than picturing the bullet in my brain.It's not that I feel necessarily suicidal at any given moment, but more of an overarching feeling that that will be the end of my life. I guess it stems from feelings of failure. I don't and haven't felt anything towards life besides visceral enjoyment for a long time. After I graduated from college, I don't know, I stopped doing anything that wouldn't take up my brain % of the time. I stopped doing things that let me think; I don't write anymore, I don't listen to music, I can't allow myself to focus. I just can't focus though. I have to keep % occupied or I just start to creep in on myself. I don't know. It's never a pressing issue. It just seems eventual to me. | suicide |
What am I supposed to do when nobody listensI don't understand. I'm a full grown adult and I feel like I'm a toddler running under everyones feet and everybody just wants me out of the way. I try to lean on my friends only about stuff that really upsets me and never ever about anything as extreme as this, but it just seems like everybody is steadily growing quieter and quieter in my direction. Like Im a ghost. It makes me feel like I'm insane. It makes me question if I even exist, if nobody will even bother to speak to me. I guess I'm just not even worthy of their time. I wonder why I even continue to try. | suicide |
I keep seeing memes about abode flash dying and how their childhoods are ded now and I'm adding this post to the list, rip adobe flash | non-suicide |
Ive tried again and again and its just pointlessFor years its been a cycle. I feel like shit, I try to kill myself, I get better, life is fantastic, and something horrible happens and I feel like shit again. I have no one, I pushed my boyfriend away and mistreated him, and my own mother thinks Im disgusting for it. Im a waste of space and I leech off of other people. My life is pointless, all I do is radiate negativity and allow my own naivety to convince me therell be better days. I have no one to tell this to in real life, so I guess Ill just say it here. | suicide |
Ever have a good day, get a little hope, then get reminded how awful existence is?Yesterday I saw my therapist and had a good session. I felt a little better, was able to get some things done. I had a the tiniest bit of hope. Then today my sister called me and reminded me of how worthless I am and that atom of confidence/hope disappeared. I got really depressed and cut myself for the first time in a month. And Ive spent the rest of the day trying not cry or just kill myself. She has a lot of control over my life and shell never be a good person or treat me like a person. I hate myself for being so stupid to have a bit of hope or daring to enjoy a few hours of relief. | suicide |
Bad thing about having stupidly long hair The time and effort it takes to brush that shit is annoying like ik no one cares but oh well | non-suicide |
What's the difference between a hooker and a kid? You actually clicked here to find out? You should go get therapy you sick fuck. | non-suicide |
Day of posting on reddit until I get a girlfriend Fillers are cool fillers are really cool and another filler (Filler filler filler) | non-suicide |
I'm worried I did something wrongI heard someone in my gym class who I barely know, say "that's it I'm killing myself tomorrow" I was slightly worried but the tone sounded joking. So I did nothing even though I was still worried. They aren't at school today. Have I done something morally wrong and should I report it. Also I have minor self diagnosed ocd which I obsess over things. | suicide |
Gets a reddit notification: (: Trending on r/teenagers: ): Why does no one respond to me I made like comments in the last minute but no one cares about little old me | non-suicide |
Hello my mates i have made it so that only alpha males can comment on this post, wacky huh? | non-suicide |
Will -mg percocets be enough...?Will -mg percocets be enough to kill me if I take them all at once? | suicide |
I attempted about weeks ago. I just considered it again but this time not feeling scared about it.I'm F. I've got friends, social life. I fight with my mom and she tells me she can't keep this up anymore and wants to put me on drugs, which I don't need. I spend my days playing videogames and watching YouTube/movies and masturbating. I'm not a whore. I attempted suicide by pills, but that didn't work, mostly because the pills were years out of date and had probably weakened. I was hospitalised for days. I've considered it every day since then, multiple times a day, though I've always been scared of it. Scared of the outcome. Two hours ago I considered it again, but this time, it was different. I planned out everything in my head, I still remember it and I wasn't scared. I could see my body laying on the concrete after I had jumped, but I wasn't scared. It gave me a sense of protection somehow. I felt safe. Now afterwards, I'm not really scared, though I want help, but am not prepared to get it myself. I just don't know if I should jump or not. It feels like everything would be easier that way, for everyone. Let's say it like this. If I had a sharper knife than the one I got lying under my pillow, I'd slit my throat instead of my thighs right now. Thanks for reading. Hope you get to live this wonderful fucking life everyone seems to be praising A-fucking-men | suicide |
It's crazy how fast my friends change my mood Like I was kinda down this weekend and I didn't go out. Today I went to school and my whole mood changed after I met them. Even now, I'm home and I feel so much better than yesterday. I don't even know what I would do without them. It sounds kinda corny to say but it's so true. | non-suicide |
Im all alone and nothing helps anymore. Planning on ending it all soonMy lifes crumbling to pieces and this is basically a final cry out before I completely give up. Throwaway account for obvious reasons. My girlfriend left me a few months ago because of the distance. It still hurts like it happened yesterday because I thought we were gonna make it work until we both had the finances to move in together. I'm still friends with her and it's killing me to see her happy. My grandfathers dying of terminal liver cancer and has months to a year to live. He is one of if not the only person in my entire family that truly understands and can help me cope with things and it hurts to think about my life without him. I have a liver disease which requires me to diet or it will cause my liver to completely fail, and even though doctors say it still has a chance, I can just feel that it isn't right and that it's gonna fail. I've tried everything I can think of treatment wise. Therapy, (been going for four years), medication, partial hospitalization, everything under the sun. And nothing works. I'm always sad and I continuously try to get out and socialize and even a little dating but nothing fixes it. I'm at my wits end. No clue anymore and instead of having my parents go into debt because of me, and for my own dignity, I'd rather go out on my own accord. I have no purpose here anymore. | suicide |
Ive been suicidal for over half of my life, why continue?Ive been sad and suicidal for as long as I can remember. Ive been hospitalised, tried + meds, seen a therapist for years. Everyone has given up on me, I have less resources than ever now. My family wont pay for regular treatment anymore, my health insurance wont cover me for mental health anymore, I dont have faith in my local NHS mental health team. Suicide is common sense, the smart solution. If youve been this way for x amount of years, its VERY likely that this mentality will continue in the future. I wont kill myself tonight, Im tired. But its the LOGICAL solution, it makes such perfect sense I cant imagine thinking otherwise. One day, its my life goal. I tried to kill myself on March th. My biggest regret is not taking more pills or trying again before my big stash of medication was confiscated. | suicide |
Every night I want to kill myself, and every morning it's goneEvery night, without fail, I have the urge to begin planning my suicide, and sometimes I do, and then I wake up in the morning and it's like amnesia strikes me, and I rip up my plans and carry on, only to end up in the same place again. It's been a constant cycle and I'm worn out by it...nothing ever changes. Nothing ever improves. I find myself in bed having accomplished nothing in the past three years and with no hope on the horizon. | suicide |
Fuck, fuck, and I cannot stress this enough- fuck. I just had my first non Zoom, in person college class. Its a communications class, and the first thing we did was have everyone give an impromptu speech in front of the class. Guess who gave an amazing and flawless speech? Not me. We were only given minutes to prepare. I went up thinking how bad could it be? Apparently really bad. I made a complete fool of myself in front of the whole class, and on the first day! | non-suicide |
Suicide by Respiratory suppression from alcohol and what other drugI have access to more alcohol than I could ever drink. Im trying to kill my self painlessly. Are there any other OTC CNS suppressant drugs I could combine with alcohol to stop breathing? | suicide |
Stressed times I told my mom that i think i have something more severe than Anxiety and depression just of because of the way I am and she just tried To gaslight me like maam i need help and you arent doing it | non-suicide |
New is dying rn F | non-suicide |
Comic Sans is used by teachers and in advertisements and such as it is easier for dyslexic people to read and understand. Stop hating on teachers and people who use it guyd Thats it. Thats all I had to say. Good day and hope you all have a great week | non-suicide |
Gotta love it Gotta love it when your mum decides to ambush you and make you make her coffee when you literally just left your room for a piss. And then apparently when it doesn't taste good it's obviously your fault and you definitely sabotaged it and definitely should berates for messing up. Gotta love it | non-suicide |
?the darkness is always here, waiting. it chooses. i dont. this is my destiny | suicide |
I'm considering suicide...againLong story short, I got broken up with a girl who I love very very much and who initially helped me to stop self-harming. Well my self-harming is back now and I am seriously considering suicide because I'm in so much pain. I want it to stop. She keeps giving me mixed signals about wanting to be together again and not wanting to. I haven't eaten anything since Friday morning. I tried eating Sunday but I threw it all up(not purposefully). I can't eat, can barely drink, I want to die, and my self-harm is back full-force. I just want her back man.. | suicide |
This is the rd flipin week That im stuck at my dads, I want to go draw with my digital draw tablet, or go play my new bass I got, but no im stuck the stupid shit hole, with mix of my mental stability collapses on itself. | non-suicide |
God, someone help meI've been wanting to jump off my roof for a few months now, maybe crash my car. I want death so badly, but I'm too much of a coward to bring it upon myself. So now its just the waiting game. I fell in love with this girl, brought her happiness for six months now. I've waited though five different guys, all just using her and throwing her aside. God I love her so much. She's perfect, we think the same. But now we hardly talk and she ignores me Tonight we actually argued and I spoke too impulsively I'm sorry. It all sounds so fucking juvenile. But my God I'm ready to die. I have no one noe that makes me happy, no one. I've been so close, but I think I'm hanging by a thread at this point. | suicide |
thoughts at amI dont even see the fucking point of going on with life, not because of the quarantine. But i just literally have no reason anymore i dont have any friends just people that talk to me out of pity, ive never had any social interaction for years staying at home and doing nothing with my life. I come home, eat cup noodles and sleep. The only thing keeping me alive is how painful itd be to actually die and people nonstop making fun of me and I try making friends but since of my lack of social talking and my lack of going to school made me lack motivation with strict parents that keeping me inside because theyre scared of my asthma attacks and panic attacks. But ill keep going because I dont want them to think its their fault I died thanks for listening | suicide |
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parents catching me masturbate i was thinking about this and realized i have a perfect + card to throw them if they catch me masturbating! So basically every night when my parents go to bed early and close the doors,bruh i know what's up.Ans they even make sounds that I'd like to forget sooo fucking hard. And if they catch me masturbating I'll be like:"its normal for a teenager,plus i know whatcha doing behind the closed doors!" The only problem would be explaining the gay porn i watch.... | non-suicide |
Whats happening to me?If you have the time to read thank you. Please don't judge my english its not my first language. Why sometimes, I'm suicidal and then later on motivated. Im having severe mood swing, i tried to commit suicide times, hanging ang Cutting. Everytime i feel overwhelmed with emotions of negativity i listen to sad song and become suicidal and another one is i watch some gore video (bestgore.com) to void what I'm feeling. Ive been watching gore video for a month And when time past by, im getting angry and frustrated to this world. I want to burst my emotions to the fucked up world. Everytime i feel overwhelmed with emotion and negatively, i will do two things. I will become suicidal and listen to sad song, and the other one is watching gore listening to dark rap (Ghostmane, Behemoth) burst my angry to this world like punching someone else or . Please dont judge me i cant even understand what's happening to me | suicide |
Tiktok wasn't Terrible. Okay hear me our, yes the pedophiles were bad, yes the data mining was bad, i hated how girls were encouraged to post soft core porn. but there was a good side, now before the reddit hive mind gets my ass. Every damn social media is chuckloaded with pedos, the data mining isn't really excusable but most people either didn't know or didn't care. And in the end if girls want to post that of content there isn't a issue. Tiktok had a side that wasn't awful. This will probably get downvoted to hell but im so tired to the "tiktok bad Reddit good" garbage | non-suicide |
all I think of is suicide and my brain is not working but zeldaI hate this pain I hate waking up every hour or two in a cold sweat Every waking moment alive are just hell I should be in the hospital I hate everything My mind is broken It hurts when I piss It hurts when I swallow It hurts when I think I just wanna sleep. But I'm waiting for zelda | suicide |
Why does tinfoil always look so realistic in animated stuff? In this post it looks pretty realistic. Did they just take a pic of tinfoil? | non-suicide |
That moment when youre about to get on the train and the door doesnt open so you just kinda awkwardly stand there while everyone else just gets on the train and stares at you because they dont know why you arent getting on Happens too often for me. Anyways Im getting a burger, you want any? | non-suicide |
I'm one oblivious fucker. There was this girl in seventh grade when I was in eighth and she always hung out with me for like the last few weeks of school. People would always joke about me liking her and what-not. She sat by me a lot. One day she rested her leg on mine, and a month later she *sat on my fucking lap*. God I wouldn't know a girl liked me if she said it straight to my face. | non-suicide |
Unpopular Opinion: you should be able to fuck whatever youd like. You should be able to fuck whatever you want So a few days ago, I was fucking my year old baby brothers anus and my mom and dad screamed at me and cut my cock off. Why would they do this? Life is too short, ya gotta have fun by fucking whatever you can. Now I lost my cock and Im sad. | non-suicide |
i'm gonna kill myselfyep that's pretty much it. being trans is way too much for me and i have no irl friends, my family hates my guts for it, and im too braindead to figure things out myself. probably in days. i know how and where and its gonna be pretty easy pretty happy and relieved about it honestly. | suicide |
I don't want my life anymoreI am so incredibly sick of being me. I took the rest of my sleeping pills two weeks ago but obviously I'm still here. I hate every ounce of myself and I just want my life to be over. I don't totally want to die, I just don't want my own life. Even if I get better in the future, I'll still be me and have my life. I hate my life so much, I always kind of have. I'm on medications, going to therapy, going to acupuncture, been in the hospital, been in a treatment program and about to start a new one, I've done everything I can. I have pretty good friends to support me, and I am just starting to open up to my family more. But none of this has really helped me. I keep doing all of this waiting for my fucked up mind to change, but I just continue to hate myself and my life. When I took the pills the other night, I kind of knew they probably wouldn't kill me. But they would give me a little while to not be the same me. I was in the hospital for / days but it didn't change anything, just like all the other hospital visits. I told them I wasn't feeling very suicidal anymore, but how the fuck do they think that suicidal thoughts just go away like that? I still am so unhappy and want to kill myself a lot. But I think I'm too weak to completely commit suicide. Because there are amazing things that make me smile in this world. But those things aren't enough to really make me want my life. Please help me, I just want to kill myself already. | suicide |
A femaleLife sucks.. u put time in to a female n basicly give her the ability to destroy your life internally even after all the damage its cause n yrs since I still have problems with not letting it run my behavior or ruminating over what I should could would have did. For your life to be ran by old emotions makes moving on hard af | suicide |
Life is a TrapI can't do this anymore. It's been, what? months? College. I'm just. Weak. Even my dad agreed. People have three times the work load than me and they're getting shit done. I'm just weak. I'm trapped. And the world is closing in on me. And honestly? All I want to do is jump. | suicide |
this age sucks like when i try to say something no one cares because of my age flair | non-suicide |
of , of the other. See you, space cowboy.Got a six pack. Said goodbye to my ex, who has someone new to see her through things. Gonna get drunk, eat all my pills, then blow a hole in my head before I black out. Should be successful. | suicide |