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music would killed nowive always described someone potential potential was ive good things dropped them feel hopeless sometimes failure ive never someone regular around talk to hand hold anything common parents talk them feel like friends fake even bother asking ive girlfriend music reason im here know felt wow life incredible feeling nothing else gives it whether im home lying bed listening absolute favourite album time shutting rest surroundings porter robinsons worlds front row concert absolute euphoria always seems pull pain anyone relate | 1 |
@Murraymilitia I would spiral into depression, but thanks! | 1 |
say life sucks think mehey im years old ive done lot stupid things otherwise think would right now loving family parents try support life choices brother happen like hobby lot fun hobbies together but everytime look future see reason stay alive job really want education want follow everything boring me know ive said like hobby near realistic job option think worth living eather cant income atleast something cannot figger what tried lot things afthere time keep dropping it next school year ive got nothing nothing all job school money plan parents cant understand quiet mad finishing education im left nothing day normaly would called crazy complaining anything othere reason kms mentioned beginning ive done quiet stupid stuff basically lost friends mistakes ive made example went japan best friends acting childish annoying got back friend never wanted talk again ive got noone im mostly left lonely today ive desided finally put end this good bye live happy life | 1 |
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debt deb debt debtlost job last year weeks later lost second job pretty much gave rest year ive always bad money gotten worse worse years stupid decisions catching me abolutely money income anything used able freelance used able get work done used able communicate people like normal person know went know whats wrong me much debt ill never make enough make monthly payments much less form rent anything im going struggling whole life painful memories watching mom tears car gets repoed house bought bank know thats im headed whats point want that want work life away barely even survive miss feeling emotions | 1 |
intense actors like bruce dern jason patrick rachel ward combine make modernday film noir winner three know interesting offer good performances intriguing charactersbr br patric narration noir playing exboxer mental patient wow alone makes interesting guy looks dumb isnt ward slinky attractive cynical intelligent compassionate co conspirator kidnapping plan goes bad bruce dern also mix dern never fails fascinate filmbr br the movie could considered kind downer average viewer found fascinatingand like depressing movies normally found kind quirky crime film take look see agree pretty unknown film status simply good story welldone | 0 |
feel bad wanting die see many people worse melike sometimes wish could escape time real reason too theyre intrusive thoughts get brains running feel severe im thankful time feel stupid feeling like first place ppl clearly worse | 1 |
nono pleasures smiles relaxation recreation conversation loneliness interruption deed done more bullet shatters skull | 1 |
cope pressure performance since little always achieving best possible result top class elementary middle school get good high school en eventually university failed drivers theory exam suprising lots people feel like let also down know sounds like bitch feel every test pressure peform dont know anything else expectations high feel anxiety every test | 0 |
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ugly went uks inbred town stuck like sore thumbi saw fat ugly inbred girl today wearing crop top started comparing her realised would need surgery change skull shape starvation diet order look fat ugly inbred means wanted look like girls london would need skull surgeries rhinoplasty breast enlargement butt implants starvation diet far uglier one worlds ugliest women makes feel sick | 1 |
wish redflag agonizingso ive cycle wanting die thinkingplanning it tired scared pull years now ive already decided method drowning sticking head bucketdrum water ps live near easily accessible body water thought would sure fire way die given couple hours without discovered would fairly easy clean up prepared tried times already agony always gets me times held breath times aware inhaling water beginning would expedite process times thought sister shed devastated times id break bathroom decided stop attempts hold idea living someone wanted live sister every time thought redflag visited mind let linger long im fixating thought loved one would devastated came family abuse family lies person considered real family thought maybe id stick around long needed me fast forward now im good place life im suicidal thoughts again time im sure living someone anymore sister gained close friends act support system grown distant lying like everyone else family thought relationship better that recently discovered shallow water black out thought would take care agony part drowning almost instantly pass hyperventilation tried minutes ago still bring pull through know anymore ive wanting die long ive tired angry pain long im much wuss it part thinks whole living someone stint masking cowardice know anymore want live cant kill next | 1 |
tell sleep dont want lowkey | 0 |
im one disaster away losing sanityover past year felt live continue slip away drive career make world constantly beat gone even spend time trying fun anymore think world one day automated husband means education survive worry bad house bought debate go bankrupt survive allowed place live happens lose job much means get another lucky five years trying low pay ones gone automation learn survive street want try survive permanent damage feet cant afford fix ongoing list medical problems wish one things would hurry end naturally years old feel best life offer already shown me feel never meant make world mental illnesses starting show one day cost job place world someone like cant make own reason ended things trying hold worst comes next time car breaks money house floods anything something happens think deal everything life wants throw me end anything worth fighting even did bother want live see world turn into know done want anymore world seem want take naturally want see make | 1 |
know even know im still here love hateit started january last year met american girl online mutual online friends ps things went fast became freinds stuff happened sexually within first week carried weeks i always suspicion lying age always reassured freinds people knew im found birth november argument days talking decided could freinds helping things she suffered depression anxiety bipolar made sort understandable lied age everyone even freinds known years kept silent people knew unfortunately people decided tell people arguments somehow sexual contact happened know even though knew ages happened couple times another argument threatened get police called paedophile sort panicked released screenshots convos sexting etc know illegal released cos angry scared prove original instigator sexual contact gotten worse that started receiving death threats told go police wouldnt started receive death threats i still day worst happened people school found started bully point got really deep depression i eventually take much took tablets enough bed ridden days found thought maybe dead got scared got point think actually cos one heard that want go police already got involved help ive even got contact police usa manassas city care believe fast forward months got really bad always mind always ready it plans everything tried talk close freinds people known years told full story pub days later got message one saying going betray get police things year old panicked somehow already ready again tablets paracetamol full bottle jaeger hospital police interview lied bit police cos frightened still am go everyday waking thinking last thought head sometimes feel like walking police station jumping front tram one day could go either way im scared | 1 |
stupid fights siblings em one suck sometimes youre right sometimes youre wrong sometimes person right times theyre wrong one fight sibling youll remember forever | 0 |
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dear humanityits funny life worksit really roll dice people live brilliant successful lives climbing way top people live lives heartache painthey turn art become successful too people ordinary blessed family maybe single parent thrive overcome odds people born terminal illness mental illness disabilities whatever else succeed got people like mepeople tried everything could fought way everything hadonly enough nowhere random reddit page venting see outcome death this treat people well treat people respect treat unfortunate encourage love give boost anyway realize one single species end day planet doesnt belong us belong planet significant otherout arm around say much love never know tomorrow bring make significant food breakfast lunch dinner whatever feel like dobuy flowerstake datesmake smile laugh help feel motivated like anything alllet know always there ignorant arrogant thought could help everyone hate people hurt tried make number one priority help others anyway could thought needed love world took responsibility impossible seen comingbut alas allowed ignorance arrogance blind me fault take ownership foolishness recovering botched surgery killed franki wish did finally got better tried start monthly disabilitynatural disasters struck hometown leaving many home car everything lucky regard day disasters happened car stolenprobably someone desperate isme years oldtried make something happen lifenow failed therefore officially failure want life end figuring way how wish well justdo best world filled hate hostility lies deceit cruelty | 1 |
i don t think i have the ball to do it but i ve become obsessed with the idea of killing myself all i can think about is suicide i ve developed a deep and genuine hatred for myself i don t want to live to see another day i don t want to get better bc i don t deserve it i wish i had the courage to kill myself | 1 |
work til 7 pleeeeease be nice outside. | 0 |
a king sized bed is nice but sad and lonely with no hubby puppy or kitty i am over this whole conferenceing thing | 0 |
have a brain tumor worst part is i have no one to help me or comfort me good news is i know that if i tell them i will make it worse if they can t handle the small stuff they can never handle this i m so alone it not even going life threatening | 1 |
is at work x | 0 |
ONLY need 4 mre 2 gt 2 130 | 0 |
feel like people secretly hate methey hate behind back tolerate order seem rude feel bad worst part dont even know true slowly kills anyway | 1 |
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theres sense crying every mistake keep trying till run cake | 0 |
me think think lost matter point never felt want much | 1 |
doso gonna tonight even though probably work ill end inpatient again im supposed going seeing nan weekend know try anything ill yelled i want see nan im selfish i ruined weekend really want kill lol go it | 1 |
hasnt day havent thought redflagthere hasnt day dont think wanting kill myself hurt way hard pick knife ya know idk nothing was life doesnt want happy thats even life cares dont know im supposed anymore feel fucking bad ones going read one going care | 1 |
@Kirin What's "cost chai"? | 0 |
press cringe imagine chewing chomping grinding teeth mouth full fallen teeth | 0 |
#ff @LessyAngel cause she is a great singer. American idol. | 0 |
today thirteenth birthday long road tough one too glad finally experience teenage life thanks free karma | 0 |
love umaskerplayz thats it umaskerplayz legend absolute god pray every night amazing | 0 |
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dont reason get bed anymoreyall idk anymore im fucking beat feel like else go im therapy meds ive made big huge steps supposed help honestly im even miserable work full time also school full time start little side business guys hours gotten cut hate working hours day place work got new management weird super small business isnt anything really do parents keep telling every job suck know everyone else keeps saying wait xyz itll good isnt soon guy leaves early wind crying bed go work havent called once feel trapped know going fix economy ill always struggle money feel like many problems dont solutions psychiatrist therapist come conclusion lots physical health issues caused mental health tried figure almost two years ago although continuing therapy therapist psych says theres ton left putting temporary bandaid something needs stitches doctors completely wrote even though tests coming back abnormal get new insurance first im going basically start redo test exhausts think about im tired tell people im lying im real insane pain feels impossible like nothing potential change ive told wait whole life finally happy dont feel like possible best guy keeps telling couldnt survive without thats reason im hanging isnt healthy everyone keeps telling get better dont want ungrateful peoples help ends feeling minimizing feel bad know people want help just really bad changes happen still years potentially things even even know different day shit cant hospitalized right guys hours cut im kinda money wise plus job people would put out dont know do literally feel like never going get better im goddamn tired crying fucking miserable dont know dont want keep | 1 |
im now and my entire fucking life people have laughed at me every day i get told negative thing about my body and personality every fucking day a while back i reached out to my friend about self harm all they did wa joke around and tell me to cut myself deeper now i told them about suicide and they did exactly the same they even gave me method on how to do it i just wan na die i wan na stop existing and then everything will be over why is it so hard for them to understand this is serious i don t get it | 1 |
im tired i told depression anxiety last year believe thought way feeling normal ignored gotten worse hate depressed recently hospitalized trying kill myself want try im afraid going back im tired anyone talk to cant talkwhen want get really anxious think ill quiet anyway might well talk all cant text people backas makes anxious too people say theyre worried mebut know theyre lying im waiting mom goes work end it im tired able really anything want depressed get better matter hard try cant try anymore | 1 |
elltotheice poor kid damn all those people who want to cut there grass ahaha day lt | 0 |
...so one of these days i'm gonna learn how to properly tie a chicken | 0 |
im looking someone art webcomic ive come here preferably find someone help within age range basically short story id like turn webcomic cant art myself need find artist right now story planned art last thing list | 0 |
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im suicidalim depressed act okay front everyone im fucking fine im asshole im manipulative ruin everything wish fucking dead keep trying find die cant fucking find anything cant find dosages anything want feel loved cared about feel lost feel alone ive already fallen back self harm anorexia feel so empty please help me cant hospitalized previous hospitalization traumatized me | 1 |
fucking shit guys fucking shit shit aaaaaaaaaaaaaa im tram rn girl front friends looked general direction looked smiled me fuxking aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa finally time get gf make fool packed tram edit got stop looked quite nicely i mean mean negative ways parted fml ill never get gf social anxiety ask strangers reddit start conv never end | 0 |
dont know hold longeri thought boyfriend could enough help hold possibly start meds even though love anything theres nothing do im going anywhere life fucking meaningless fuck cant continue anymore | 1 |
how can i leave my abusive relationship and still keep my cat i ve been suicidal and right now my cat is the only part of my life that make me want to be alive i don t have anywhere to go and currently live alone with my bf thing started becoming physical when i called him out for cheating now i feel unsafe and desperately want to get away i m sure we re going to be losing our place due to not having money to pay rent i m wondering if anyone had resource out there where i can get help to leave and still keep my cat with me thank you to any who help | 1 |
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sister tried od antidepressants second time space monthswhat do cry help anything else wont speak family members problems i fear situations family may contributing factor depression im surmising clearly obvious therapist shes seeing medication shes taking working feel helpless frustrated entire situation do | 1 |
ami told manipulated someone talking redflag threats cannot believe someone known many years opinion me maybe good thing told me want anyone feel like that | 1 |
remember videos initial impact never forgotten viewing thriller thats needed feel twelve years old again but great video perfect even though seemed like time video first came out nobody ever seen anything like before music video medium grown leaps bounds fresh viewing thriller reveal faults necessary deconstruct song michael jackson walking beside girl leave movie theatre sings verses song skipping choruses becomes zombie comes time sing again zombie makeup inexplicably disappears sings chorus again again again make previous absence may first time song ever deconstruct fit visuals music video certainly last time continued problem age mtv best videos like jacksons billie jean beat it used visuals serve music way around still thriller great fun absolute must halloween | 0 |
Good Trance music > redbulls! #asot400 | 0 |
aita manipulating boyfriend promise title sounds worse is pretty much started months ago first started dating ill call cfake name would go hiking trail hang out walking around talking awkward stage wanting kiss other initiating least thats wha thought lot staring lips waiting moment like came while got really tired this every single time c wouldnt kiss me naive ignorant seemed annoy me started even think mouth getting freakishly small everything annoyed me way ate chocolate way broke apart food put right track thats good person does right all first real relationship c girlfriends before dont matter anymore im matters now started small things like would make sit left scroll list truth dares said kiss person left kissed could stop me awkwardly turned away after kind giggled heres think im ah c laughed me vulnerable open looked away like thought ugly couldnt believe it upset was heres might make ah whenever walked sidebyside casually said something like hey holding hands meant demeaning possible like even dating dont affectionate me whats wrong you first time c took hint started holding hand kept laughing me starting make angry im trying hard break down backbone hes three steps ahead dont know crush spirit yet tldr reason guy interested me talking while caught feelings kissed one day dating im really happy want shout roof tops jump around | 0 |
dinner tryingeverything worked hard waste im waste wish never here never existed one would even know miss me anyone would go away hope one forget me | 1 |
ever since accident heard creepy voiceslong story short hit delivery car riding motor scooter er visit terrifying spasms two hours put surgery guess traumatized something hear voices alone dont music guess im looking help | 1 |
much enjoyed the revolution televised gave me again notredflag feeling power people decide wish governedbr br it unfortunate venezuela twenty percent wealthy citizens made decisions eighty percent poor decades centuries however coup failed interim government dissolved supreme court constitution ombudsman electoral boards civil rights one took plotters behind barn somewhere shot them even gone jail major plotters living florida carrying on protection bolivarian constitution passed large majority venezuelan people history bites democracy give one hell nip let loose venezuela loose | 0 |
welp then fillerfillerfillerfiller guess ill spew meaningless trash post rmemes ah disadvantages starting new account | 0 |
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@sambasel nothing | 0 |
doctor tell almost overdoseive taking zoloft depression restoril chronic insomnia couple nights ago episode got super drunk took sleeping pills passed out alone phone friend completely accidental ever since then ive wondering what if kind fantasizing it anyone know doctor saydo tell this want get better overall want live just without constant pain head pls want get sent psych ward something | 1 |
like forgave her may seen my posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsiaizvpwhat_a_fucking_bitch thats currently front page well heres update it talked little bit stoned hell told either talk work things tell fuck got mad im blocking her honestly thought shed choose blocking much surprise actually talked it like that even though pissed hell forgive her im gonna let live im end friendship thats lasted years dumb shit like that ampxb honestly though think im gonna talk near much while give time cool down shit like again im gonna forgive second time | 0 |
life dont know say this im christian believe god always think meaning this need good person god doesnt exist means thats everything life doesnt matter im disposable understand atheists always doubt existence god maybe lot good things life doesnt matter maybe something wrong going hell maybe doesnt exist die everything finish im really scared im scared good person heaven exists want go there good things not everything doesnt matter everything im going doesnt matter nothing matter try study lot try someone want happy head always thing of nothing matters die purpose this im really scared dont know do want someone important time want affect peoples life dont know atheist better think purpose this think im bad person people around says no im great person dont know believe dont know want happy life cuz die nothing want good person dont enjoy things place heaven dont know like said lot tines before im scared | 0 |
think i need to start buying and using wrinkle cream | 0 |
maybe programming spend hours day needed learn programming point is im looking handouts anything like that im ready spend countless hours work help family thoughts tl dr father passed away mother cant pay rent bills etc ask advice jobs ways increase income help mother pay rents | 1 |
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odannygirl oh yes i have quot road rash quot all over my hip lovely ay i so rock | 0 |
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blagh class at tomorrow | 0 |
nothing like your crippling anxiety and depression building til you cry in front of your instructor | 1 |
Is off to the Northants Motley Moot Beltain picnic. And the sun is out, Woop Woop! | 0 |
feelmy life downhill spiral since born fuckiung piece shit ruiend many lives want fucking die scared death scared gieves panic attacks still want die maybe exist relapsed cutting today like years thoughjt done guess ill never done dont live home live someone think friend family dont want olive anymore becuase everyone hates much think im disgusting becuase disgusting fat disgusting fucking pig fucker faggot deserves rot hell deserve everything get becasyse everything fault cause problems fucked over made friend live upset cut like years too able call friend made that never forgive done ruin eveeryones lives mentally unhealthy turn make mad upset purpose dont know maybe attention know fuckingggggggg fool human race family wont talk anymore mom doesnt ebeliebe actually killm becayse ive said much tonight finally prove telling truth fuck fuck fuck fuck you mean myself fucking worst fat faggot evil destroy lives deserve sadness deserve death | 1 |
post partum depression isn t preached well enough most new mom are not always happy they had the baby | 1 |
whats worst rejected crush lying like you basically moths back told crush liked her said liked back could get ice cream together not decided tell told liked one else liked pity worse rejected | 0 |
it s true i truly love jessicabardot she wa there for me during a dark time and i appreciate her so much for being there during my depression one of the most loveliest lady http t co tjstwmyr v | 1 |
hope youre fine ups downs wanna say tell friends appreciate them could make day like two weeks ago one friends suddenly said likes hanging hes happy im around im honestly stoked hear someone appreciates even keep telling noone likes me guess tell friends appreciate them let know company means lt | 0 |
best times one great sleepers time setup tax patience development steady many intertwined relationships lovingly established gags bits work funny lots sentimentality kurt russell playing reno hightower puts one best performances robin williams playing jack dundee surefooted ever cast also includes many great supporters jacks wife played jack palances daughter lovely renos wife great comedian cant tell many times ive watched movie many times enjoyed often wish people could see it | 0 |
good work everyone scriptwriters director cast lovely fun film becomes believable sentimental reasons only good film television cloudy cold wintry days want sit back enjoy | 0 |
after year of constantly feeling dead inside i m starting to wondering if i ve actually died at some point and i just never realized it like in m night shyamalan s the sixth sense | 1 |
wish never existed first placeits times like im afraid void end consciousness know im still here theres immediate way end life quickly im exhausted pain stop stopped little came back know why want feel loved much ask want sex someone loves too hard difficult thing everybody else have want worry money keeps piling up cant keep health getting better healing im always worried money seems two things people need livelove money want free needing wanting things please im much pain | 1 |
bedtime school tomorrow and i still have no book being broke suck | 0 |
boys ate taco bell blow bathroom oh also finally got gf | 0 |
Need a ''friend''K jb main us se naraaz houn to wo khana chor de mari mari phire depression main chli jae, aur dp b remove kr le. | 1 |
planning swallow lot sleeping pills tonight would like know info lethal dose effects body survive procedure etchi anyone reading this first post reddit really know works anyone read time really hoping so mentioning redflag triggers you sorry please stop reading ill quickly explain backstory get point please know serious im telling whoever reads life sympathypity however suppose attentionupvotes get commentsadvice im looking anyone experience medical knowledge tell repercussions body follow plan thank advance im female secondyear university student well smaller university first year transferred bigger one took classes labs realized much late drop taking two now two exams tomorrow know pass feel sick embarrassed time care trauma abuse loving home supportive family good income parents basically excuse except here time know seeing psychologist father paying for couple weeks really helping lied asked im suicidal surprisingly easy apparently im good liar wanted doctordentist like parents like friend aspiring be current events failing semester idea want be thought abovesmarter everyone high school held apart spent lunch library went straight home made three friends lost touch one pretty pathetic parents paying everything including dorm longer using classes failing know got here know im lazy think covid situation really brought issues light like lonely am really try fell behind fast september struggling keep every since procrastinate lot well motivation contact anyone except family weekends roommate dorm really connect her spent time bed watching moviesyoutube blame hate myself ive done far think could hate painneedles started dull knife making cuts along arms nothing severe switched bladescalpel thing supposed used cutting paper realized dull begun bought package razor blades day thin bendy hard get good grip them yesterday advanced down river cuts first time cant go deep bc pain id say made past skin fatty tissue pretty shallow half cm cm wide though hoping taking something numb pain help commit idea severe be lucky fortunate never hospital many times conditions volunteering high school took lot antihistamine pills checked er afraid going die nothing happened take enough time hope will plan bought bottle vodka pain packages sleeping pills cant tell name theyre car still razor blades packages pills think mg diphenhydramine hydrochloride each package advil sleeping pills pills amount remember correctly math correct pills x mg mg g assume lethal dose ive done research mainly reddit still cant find lethal dose is know people survived attempts made drink charcoal control pissshit admitted psych ward lots needles think could take embarrassment that something kill me permanent brain damage damage liver happen me skip pills try cut deeper im using clip hannah baker reasons inspiration ironic bc cringe whenever watched cut deep might take bed try sleep drive car park its winter here take anyone finds me parents embarrassed phone able call ambulance second thoughts anyone tell effects mg etc really know truly want die believe god know would go hell im coward im hoping ill open eyes wake worry exams anymore know want im going try something tonight maybe hours least drugs ive ever done alcohol weed hate feeling control im pretty sure im prepared happen take particular pills anyone gotten far thank taking time read existential crisis experience particular type drug please let know effects are thanks | 1 |
goals literally thing want do kill myself i | 1 |
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