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EmotionsI've just recently turned and I don't feel emotions anymore. The happiness of my life slowly dwindled away when I moved out at . I had loved a woman for years but on the th year I felt nothing. We broke up soon after the fourth year mark of our relationship. When I'm with friends I try to act as if nothing's wrong but right below the thin surface I'm not having fun. I'm not truly laughing alongside them. The only thing I can think of now is taking my life. What's life without the emotions needed for connections? I can't cope with this life anymore. I'd appreciate any suggestions for anything. This is my first post on Reddit and I'm not sure what I'm expecting. I thought strangers would be the easiest to approach. | suicide |
Please read this before you leave(TL;DR at the end) I dont mean to encourage suicide, but I like to point out the fact that we wont even die. From our point of view, its like weve fallen asleep. You cant know exactly when you have fallen asleep. You cant be aware of being asleep unless youre dreaming. In the same way, when we die we wont experience death. We suddenly go unconscious similar to falling asleep. We cannot be aware of being unconscious. Since we dont wake up, we are unconscious forever and at that instance ABSOLUTELY NOTHING matters. You dont need to worry about your parents missing you because after passing you no longer have a brain nor do you exist from your perspective (at this point, the concept of perspective doesnt even exist) . You might as well have never existed, so why dont you live? TL;DR So what Im saying is, we all die anyways and when we do it will be like we never existed from our perspective. Because of this fact, you should keep living. | suicide |
I tried to do it last week and I want to try againI had enough and ended up taking all of my pills. Ended up in the hospital and then psych facility for ten days. We came up with a recovery plan, everyone thinks Im optimistic about the future. Fuck that. I feel horrible, I wish it worked, I wish this was all over. | suicide |
I really want a glazed donut rn I dont know where I'm going with this I'm just craving a glazed donut, and I usually dont even like glazed donuts that much but I really want one. | non-suicide |
Do you need advice, perfect because I know everything Tell me your most pressing questions and I'll lend you some of immense knowledge | non-suicide |
Die from the skies by small planeSo I'm . Very successful. Attractive. Married. Wife adores me but I have no feelings for her or anything. I've been depressed my entire life. Tried all the doctors with their pharma anti depressants. Even tried recreational drugs to get by these last years.. Helped till tolerance builand they stopped working. No kids and no parents to worry about. No real friends. Depression just ruined this life. Thsts all. I accept it. Some people get cancer or other illness and pass away. When I was years old I was interested in airplanes. Dad was a aerospace engineer. He's gone years. I have been very successful. Own my own home outright in California and many rental properties. Net worth around million.. Money never made me happy. Once bought a Lamborghini on a whim thinking it would bring joy but didn't so I kept in garage years then sold it. I have no desire. No interest in sex. Had opportunity for other women but no desire. Im not like the story of a, loser that feels unloved or inferior so that's why he hates his life . I quite love myself and have been told I'm very attractive. So I got all this good going for me but my brain is sick with depression. Depression is a slow painfull tortured existence. Only the depressed can understand. I guess it's like any other illness just mental and goes on and on. Better to get cancer and die than suffer from depression for years. I've decided I don't wanna live much longer with this illness. I don't wanna be found hanging in a garage or something unpleasant like an overdose or gunshot and those methods are not % So I'm gonna take years and get my private pilots license. Thrn either just buy a, small plane go for a solo flight. Maybe take some pills and alcohol to numb myself then crash into a hillside or mountain. This way people will say he died doing something he loved. He died with passion. That's better than being remembered as a loser that hung himself in his garage Does this sound bizarre? | suicide |
I need help. Shits hitting the fan really hard. My dad decided to go through everything of mine. Even my discord conversations with my boyfriend (im a bi male). He read everything and told me that its all a lie. I didnt believe him at first, but then i started thinking about it. Ive found out hes lied about his age (he was years younger than he said, no im not giving out this info), his life, everything. Its got me feeling real down about us, and i wanna know what i should do. I really need help with this. | non-suicide |
Why is everyone LGBT now Like sure its acceptable but i didnt expect such an increase lmao. I presume its just the youngs being a lil' confused. | non-suicide |
Announcements, part XII The Inuit story of the sun and moon is really strange. | non-suicide |
This kinda sounds like a really weird struggle and im likely only a few people have had it Im doubting to become an astrophysicist or do something with acting lmao | non-suicide |
Im really in the mood for some bussy right now Anyone got some that I could use? ############################################### | non-suicide |
I'm Mr.Tall Dark and Handsome Exept the dark and handsome I'm just white and kinda fat Is ' tall? | non-suicide |
I will become a comedian someday Just wanted to post this so y'all remember my name. | non-suicide |
Cry for helpHello, first of all english isnt my first language so i apologize if i make any mistakes. Im a year old male from a third world country, and ive been depressed for years, im pretty sure im mentally ill because the thought of ending my life never leaves my mind, i feel like ive reached a dead-end. I have always been insecure about basically everything about myself and ive never opened up to anyone, i have a few friends but i dont want to feel like a burden or annoy them with my issues. I genuinely hate myself and wish i was never born and if i could i wouldve killed myself ages ago, but i don't want to hurt my family and friends. Please help me i dont know what to do. | suicide |
Why the fuck does it take so long?I laid on my floor this weekend. In the sunlight that was coming through the window. I laid on the floor with the bullet and I just kept looking at it. Just thinking where to put it. Under my chin? Side of my head? In my mouth? I have a large field behind where I live. Ive decided thats where Ill go to do it. Wont leave a mess in the house. Body bag, carry to the truck to the trash. Well, after Im cremated that is. I have another lawyer call this week moving closer to the final divorce. Hoping next month is where its at. As Ive said in other posts, I have to wait until the divorce is final so I can change the insurance so she gets nothing. My life is over. Each day I wake up, Im acting. I should get a fucking Oscar for this performance. If only they all knew that Ill be gone one day. | suicide |
What if we What if we danced all night to the [best song ever]( | non-suicide |
Suicide MethodsHeya. Anyone here has any methods for suicide for a year old? I'm sick and tired of being physically and mentally abused, neglected and treated like shit. I don't wanna cause anymore trouble than I already am, so, any suggestions? I don't have cash, and can only spend weekdays out. Please help, I just don't want to cause more pain for this world anymore. | suicide |
can i post da dress that makes me feel pretty or am i gonna get slut shamed hahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahahha | non-suicide |
Can you guys wish my friend a happy birthday? I would really appreciate it! :) Thank's guys [Here's the youtube video]( | non-suicide |
helps ?im really bad right now. i have everything I need. i want to do it so bad. i dont know i dont know. I feel like this is the only way out. havent gotten help because Im under and embarrassed. what do I do? i need help | suicide |
Whenever I start dating how do I even tell my parents? | non-suicide |
I don't think I'm getting a new phone anytime soon. My dad is going to buy me an iphone but today when i turned on the motor that fills up the water tank i forgot to turn it off. It has stopped working and is so hot that you could fry eggs on that. I don't think I'm getting a new phone anytime soon. | non-suicide |
I'm finished I can't go on living anymore, I'm just a stupid fat sack of disappointments. Nobody loves me. My mother killed herself and my father left us last year. Everyone at school ignores me. For the last years all I've been doing is making memes. There's nothing to live for anymore, don't try to help me. | non-suicide |
Fuck man. I want tiddy pics fuck IM GONNA GO TO HORNY JAIL, BUT IM DYING. I WANT TO SEE TIDDY. AHHHHHHH | non-suicide |
I don't want to live anymore I don't I don't.Please if there is a god or anyone out there at all listening please I just don't want to live anymore take me away from here please I can't anymore I just can't. Please. | suicide |
So something weird has been happening to me for two nights in a row. So on Wednesday at around :. I was in bed and I decided to put some music on. (I do this every night) I was going to listen to the song twice and then go to bed but when I next checked my phone it was : and the music was still playing. Then last night I didnt want the same thing to happen so I listened to the music and I swear I put my headphones and phone on the floor. I even had a dream where my best friend was in a shooting range but I then woke up or realised what was happening and found out it was o clock and I had been listening to music for hours. Idk whats happening but its so weird | non-suicide |
You think you can hurt me? In year my mum let me make a minecraft channel and the videos are still up :) | non-suicide |
A small rant you shouldn't read.Only a select few get attention. Such is the personality of the internet. If it doesnt POP, then who the F*** cares? If you don't have a blade to you throat drawling the first droplets of blood from an artery, then oh well. Unentertaining. I've seen many poor people post on here, begging to no avail. Noone reaches out a hand. Noone really cares. And why would they. They dont know you. Not really. And certainly not enough to make a difference. I have kept myself alive by sheer fucking will power. This world is a disease and I will gladly accept being rid of it when my "time comes". Killing yourself just makes a mess of things. un-anonymous --ouy kcuf | suicide |
My long distance boyfriend is really struggling with depressionIt's making my depression go through the roof. We have been together for around months but have seen each other twice,i have always known about his struggle, attempts etc. Everytime i tell him to try to get help, he just declines it and pushes me away. Someone just please help me before it's too late, i dont wanna lose him. | suicide |
Day of posting lines from the Bee Movie every day until I get a s/o Heads up! Here we go. Keep your hands and antennas inside the tram at all times. Wonder what it'll be like? A little scary. | non-suicide |
Does anyone like punk/rock here? I have to add some songs to my playlist, please give recommendations if you have any | non-suicide |
Sometimes I just feel like I can't do this anymore....Maybe it's partially due to hormones but I keep thinking about hanging myself. I just feel tired. I just feel done. | suicide |
Can someone talk to me?I don't care what about, I just wanna talk. | suicide |
Guys, theres something I need to say... I've come to make an announcement, shadow the hedgehog is a bitch ass mother fucker. That's right, he pissed on my fucking wife. He took his hedgehog fucking quilly dick out and he pissed on my fucking wife and he said his dick was "This big" and I said that's disgusting, so I'm making a call out post on my [twitter.com]( shadow the hedgehog, you got a small dick it's the size of this walnut O except way smaller and guess what heres what my dong looks like \*BOOM\* That;s right baby, all points, no quills, no pillows look at that, it looks like balls and a bong. he fucked my wife so guess what, I'm gonna fuck the earth. That's right this is what you get, my SUPER LAZER PISS. Except I'm not gonna piss on the earth, I'm going to go higher... I'm pissing on the MOON!!! HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT OBAMA? I PISSED ON THE MOON YOU IDIOT! you have hours before the piss d r o p l e t s hit the fucking earth, now get out of my fucking sight before I piss on you too. | non-suicide |
I just lost the girl i love.I lied, i lied to the girl i love, she's leaving me. I can't deal with this. I lied over stuff that happened in the past so she didn't have to know, she wouldnt have wanted to be with me otherwise. But i lied to her, i lied to her face. Trust was the biggest thing for her and i broke it. I dont know what im going to do without her. She won't talk to me about it and i feel so so shit about it. I'm genuinely contemplating this. I've spoken to my friends and they help me so much, but i dont know what to do. I can't move on, not from her. | suicide |
Its been years.As of yesterday, its been years since I was supposed to die. years since I decided I was done, I wanted to die, I was going to kill myself. years since my parents found me unconscious on the bathroom floor. years since I was taken to the hospital, the staff unsure if they could save me. years ago they saved me. And Im mad. Im still very very mad. Im not just mad, Im angry, Im guilty, Im frustrated, Im confused. And guess what? Im still suicidal. Im supposed to be happy that I survived, that I was given a second chance. You see those reports about people who survived jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. Those survivors say they regretted it on their way down, that they realized death wasnt the answer, that they still wanted to live. I dont regret my suicide attempt. My only regret is that I survived, and I dont think I can count that as regret because that was out of my control. People always tell you that things will get better. Your life will turn around. You wont feel this way forever. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You know what Ive found? Ive found that its all bullshit. All of it. Its bullshit. In years Ive grown a lot, changed a lot, been through a lot. But with all of that, nothing has really changed. Im still suicidal, every single day. I dont want to be alive. I feel guilty that I survived and I have no will to live. I have no reason to be around. The world doesnt need me. It wouldve been better if years ago I was left for dead. Better for me, better for everyone. Im frustrated that I havent gotten any better when people told me that I would. Ive had breakdown after breakdown for years. Ive gotten stitches, treated for concussions, been pulled off train tracks. I keep it together while I hallucinate, starve myself, have nightmares, and am just so overwhelmed and afraid. Im not too bad at hiding it, and for the most part seem like a functional year old. But Im not. Im fucked up and Im crazy and I want nothing more than to be dead. I dont know what Im hanging around for. years ago I should have been dead. years later..I still wish I was. | suicide |
I have no choice. I have to end it all.There is nothing I can do to feel better. Nothing anyone could do. My only choice is not to be. To be is not a viable option any longer. I am a voice crying out helplessly amongst thousands of others, hoping to be heard...but mine is peculiarly silent...I can't help but to look at all this going on around me with a stark thousand yard stare...it's all so futile and yet so many of us have no other option but to engage in this futile gesture... In my eyes, I was a person with thoughts, hopes, feelings, and dreams. In the eyes of everyone else, I am nothing. I have been rejected by everyone throughout my life. So I reject everyone else in turn. I have no place amongst society, amongst everyone else. They've made this very clear to me. And the damn thing is, if they would've let me, I would gone into the woods, completely ostracized like I am. But there are so many laws against this. They won't let me. I have no choice but to live in this world that I don't belong to. I have to work at a job I hate with coworkers I hate while living with roommates I hate. I look forward to the day I die. It's the only way I can be free from this species that I was mistakenly born into. I think mankind is a particularly sick, demented creature, that most other animals regard as a monster that they have nightmares about. I don't have anything in common with anyone else. They don't like me and I don't like them. They won't leave me alone, though, they won't let me escape into my own world. So I very much wish to cease to exist altogether. I don't know what other choice I have in this matter. I don't know how else I can be free from everyone else. | suicide |
Major setbackThis might jump back and fourth abit and be all over the place, so apologize for that. Three weeks ago i was violently raped by two men at the same time in my own house and its been hard to cope. Before this happened i was on my way up from years of feeling like shit, and finally starting to feel good and confident, but this has been a major setback, and made me worse than ever. All my life ive had few friends, been distant, bad in social situations and hated almost every kind of physical contact or closeness with other people, i just really want to stay inside and not really talk to people that much, so what happened really fucked me up. I dont know how to proceess this and im still in a weird state and cant think correctly, my boundaries were pushed so far and i dont know if ill ever be the same. I feel dirty, stupid and emasculated, and i just want to end it all. Ive posted more detailed about what happened in rape-related subreddits, and even though ive gotten alot of support, I still dont know how to cope and i dont see any reason to continue living. Im not gay, i want these thoughts out of my head, its so wrong and one of the worst things that has ever happened to me, I dont want to feel like a weak man anymore i just want it all to end The main reason i havent done it yet is because family life is complicated, and i have to take care of my siblings in alot of ways where my parents should have, but they are dysfunctional. So i dont want to ruin the family by taking my own life and not being able to properly take care of my siblings. I really just want to forget this forever i want it out of my head i wanna feel clean again i just wish i could drop out of school and move out and live alone, not having to talk to anyone, only my close friends occasionaly, but school is really fucking me up but its the most important thing i have in life because i need to get a good job, fuck this shit. I just wish i wasnt targeted i dont know what made me deserve this :( thank you for reading though | suicide |
Posting till I get taller day # Idk what to say, but yea I am best loser this world to ever get | non-suicide |
I started a suicide noteI started to type one in the note section in my phone. I never finished it because I was crying hard and my partner notices. I don't know if I'll ever do it. But this is the closest I've ever been and that scares me | suicide |
I'm tired of life.Hi...first of all, sorry if my english suck....so yea, i'm a years old man, Nobody cares about me, I never had a real friend or a girlfriend, my family think i'm a loser, no one loves me. I'm alone. I think about suicide all the time, I dont see the point of being alive. Everyday i look myself in the mirror and i Hate what I see. I tried to speak with a lot of psy but it did not work. Deep inside I know I want to believe in life, but I feel so alone and broken .Is it so selfish to want to end my miserable life when nobody really cares. When u are completely alone. I just...I dont want to be a bad person , I just want the pain to go away! i cant deal with it anymore! | suicide |
okay so i was going to kill myself and i didnt, i wish i did, but i cant.Okay so the other day i was on the edge of killing myself, asked you guys if you think the drop would kill me, i took someones advice and rang my now ex girlfriend, she was an ex whilst i rang her anyway, she was there for me through this entire thing but that isnt why im like this. I dont knowwhy im like this anymore i just get like this all the time, i self harmed and my ex told me not to made me promise, shes an ex because i broke a promise so i wanted to keep it but i cant.. i feel like i rely on people all the time to stop me from doing what i wat to do which is kill myself, i prefer depression over happiness but i seem to just run around in circles, get depressed, say im going to kill myself, speak to my ex, she gets upset and i say im not going to anymore, apologise, be nice to her, get angry over nothing and end up telling her to fuck off basically and then the depression starts again and so does the circle Like i said i dont know why im like this i just always get like this, i rely on people and i dont know why, maybe i want people to feel sorry for me but then i push those same people away? i keep saying i want to stop being like this but im like this with anyone who gets close to me, i dont know why :/ before anyone asks, im on antidepressants, i do counselling, got a session tomorrow, i just need advice and help but i dont know what to do, i never do know what to do. help me, please? | suicide |
Another nightAnother hopeless night. I come to Reddit seeking comfort in the words of strangers after ruining my life and losing everything. I have nights where I hope I go to sleep and dont wake up. There comes a point when you experience so much pain that you stop believing you can rebuild. How toxic does life have to be? Why are some people stronger than others? Why do we judge those who want to give up? I sleep as much as I can to avoid living. I feel such a void and I feel consumed by it. I want out so badly and the things that I thought would keep me here have stopped outweighing the pain. One day Im going to let go and be brave enough to free myself from this pain. | suicide |
I just came back from the bathroom and my teacher was talking about the USSR when I had come back. She teaches English, not history. | non-suicide |
No school for me, guys! My mom was too tired to go in a cab (Im not on the bus, and I dont trust people), so I get to stay home! Have fun with your petty little school! Lmao just joking around, although I really am not going :) | non-suicide |
We need to normalize and legalize suicide, both personal and assistedThis world is diseased and dying. Not everyone has a place in this immoral capitalist system. Not everyone has a purpose. Not everyone was born right. I'm autistic. Social interaction makes me panic, and I've never held down a job longer than a year. I am unable to be able to get onto disability. I do not see the point of continuing my life this way. It should be a human right to allow people to end their lives on their terms. We were brought into this world against our will. It's unfair to deny me and everyone else this right. | suicide |
Im dead rn lmao so tired filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
...Goodbye cruel world I'm leaving you today Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye all you people There's nothing you can say To make me change My mind Goodbye. | suicide |
Blur cheese time I want to say thank you to all the people who have gotten me this far on reddit and made my experience so enjoyable | non-suicide |
Are kids welcome Can kids post on here | non-suicide |
Life isn't easy and that's why I want outI don't have the toughness or ability to strive through trying times. To come up with solutions to problems in my life and actually follow through with them. I really just don't want to. I can't stop asking myself what the point of existing is, and really, I don't even want there to be a point. I don't even know why I'm typing this m. I guess I'm just complaining about the nature of life because the fuck else am I gonna do with my time? Everything is a chore. There's no thing or person that makes being alive really worth it. The other thing about this is that I beleive when we die, we reach an eternal state of peace. I wonder why I should still keep going if I die and I find that peace, when I don't really give a damn about the world around me. I guess I don't do it because I'm aftaid of the pain. I want the world to kill me. That isn't hope for the future talking either; I really, really do not like the prospect of having to trudge on with life until then, having to work hard and learn and build relationships just to make it a decent run with minimal amounts of misery. It's too much work. | suicide |
The damn doc is broke Fuckkkkkk man I hate how Google classroom and shit like that doesn't have any damn support for Microsoft anything. Oh you want to hand something in, really well just read thru DIFFRENT FUCKING VERSIONS AND HAND IN THE WRONG ONE. Fuuuuuuck I hate that shit. And then my introverted ass has to talk awkwardly to the teacher why I handed in an incomplete assignment. Like whyyyyyyyyyyyyy does google not have any support for fuckimg Microsoft. I'm done now. | non-suicide |
I'm so done with my parents ignoring my boundries with hugging and kissing. Countless times I have asked them not to and told them that it is a boundry. Nevertheless, they keep pushing back and forcing it. Each time I feel gross and uncomfortable. I wish parents would teach consent consistently. Consent shouldn't be ignored just because they are your kid. You want to teach no means no, start by leading by example | non-suicide |
Getting award goes wrong template I need to find a template please help me . Explanation: the template would be like someone is giving a award to a winner but the winner gets his hands to the award givers dick . I want this template to troll my colleague now please help | non-suicide |
Just want someone to talk to rnI really want to help people but I cant help myself, I'm such a worthless person and thats not depression speaking out thats reality. Im on an antidepressant and im not supposed to drink alcohol but i dont give a fuck, my life is so boring and shit I decided to get drunk as fuck and play video games but now I have no desire to do anything I cant play online I dont have the energy Im just sitting on this subreddit looking for peeps to talk to hopefully and keep drinking, im only beers deep and i already feel this shitty like wtf Im gonna keep going till the point right before you have to vomit fuck man I know things get better but holy moly this is rough | suicide |
First suicide attempt a couple weeks ago. Still sort of in numb shockI made a suicide attempt for the first time a couple weeks ago. It hasn't been something I've been comfortable talking about, but I felt ready enough to at least write it out. Even still hasn't quite registered to me that it happened. I figure, screw it, might as well tell someone Didn't go for something lethal, which is probably why I failed. I tried to strangle myself - doing it with just my bare hands. My reasoning was that even if I found a rope or extension cord or something, I'm not sure I could find something I could strap it to that wouldn't brake while I hang. Decided to just use the "tools" I already had on me Of course, I stopped, but not because I wanted to. It was the involuntary panic that sets in when drowning or losing air - choking sounds, body thrashing and panicking, and I wasn't able to finish. I still don't know how to feel about it or what to think. I've just been blank inside since then. I've already been seeing a therapist who is good at calming me down. I've been on antidepressants for a few months, which I'm not sure are working. I just don't know. Not sure why I'm even posting this. Maybe just to get it off my chest | suicide |
Why have sex when you could play xenoblade chronicles definitive edition on nintendo switch its actually a really good game tho | non-suicide |
I dont know if Im a late bloomer or I just have a small penis for a year old. Can someone help? Im and I think my penis is small. It is only around inches maybe lower. I dont know if Im a late bloomer or not but I dont think thats the case because Ive had around growth spurts. But at the same time I dont know because I have little armpit hair and only started growing it. I have pubic hair but I dont think my testes have enlarged yet. Can someone tell me if I have time or I just have a small penis and have to go with it? | non-suicide |
Thinking about killing myself after my vacation..After that, I have nothing to look forward to. It'll be back to my dumb job that I feel like a ghost at, where I make no money and come home feeling like shit. When I'm not there, I just lounge around the house all day doing shit because I have no friends while my brother is the poster boy of my family. I have three potential ways of killing myself in mind. My family is the only reason I haven't to this point, but I'm sure they'd get over it after a while. It'd be nice if a tree could just fall on me one day so I wouldn't have to kill myself, I could just die. | suicide |
it's all bsI get really mad when I go to posts here and see people saying that /other people/ are a reason to live the shit life that you so desperately want out. Worst of it all is that for the most part I'm holding back on killing myself because I don't want hurt them, so I keep living everyday and it hurts so fucking much. I'm close to the point of ignoring everyone else. It really isn't worth it to shield them from anything yall lol | suicide |
has anyone seen my shoe? i lost my shoe | non-suicide |
my boyfriend cheated on me repeatedlymy dad and mom are also abusive and I have no one to talk to | suicide |
I wanna go to the Wendy's HQ and ask for a piece McNugget It's in town. Just walk in and ask for a piece McNugget and a Bug Mac. | non-suicide |
Impulsively booked two nights in a hotel by myselfMy mum wont be on to me now. She knows now that Ive booked it and so does my mental health nurse. Hopefully my end will be soon, not that Id do it in the hotel, just that I have less people on my back over the weekend in a hotel without my mum. | suicide |
Bruh why is everyone getting snow I want snow too, i haven't seen good snow in years, i just wanna make a snowman, or a snow structure | non-suicide |
Yesterday, I Discovered I Don't Actually Want to Die.To try and condense this story: from Saturday onwards I was experiencing sharp, stabbing pains in my lower abdomen. They got so bad I called (the emergency number here in the UK), but the paramedic hand waved it as gastroenteritis. Now, my mother almost died from a burst appendix years ago, so I know the symptoms of appendicitis well. However, I didnt speak up...a mistake that luckily wasn't fatal. I had an appendectomy last night, but let me tell you: I thought I was goner. I have never experienced pain so fucking awful ever. And I was scared shit less. I'm not sharing this story to imply your suicidal feelings are not real: mine certainly were, and probably I'll go back to "if I just jump in front of that train, my shitty life is over" pretty soon, but it did make me realise what exactly it is that I truly want to kill: the depression. The mind and body come as a package deal with that, and I really wish it didn't. | suicide |
hahaha i'm really immature i'm sorry | non-suicide |
I went to die but want to talkPls I want somebody to talk about death before i meet him to night Im begging somebody | suicide |
give me le notifications do it, rebelle scum dark evader is wating | non-suicide |
I probably need help Im sitting on my bed crying and seriously contemplating hanging myself today. Im a lonely, toxic, worthless, and pathetic person whos better off dead. All I need to do is overcome the fear of killing myself and Ill be gone. I even went as low as walking through my town to find a place to jump on December , but unfortunately couldnt find anywhere good. Theres literally nothing I can do at this point other than committing suicide. | non-suicide |
Evryone give u/banubanana some love I want everyone to comment on this post giving u/banubanana some love because she deserves it. For reference, she is very cute and amazing | non-suicide |
I'm killing myself on my birthday.My birthday is this coming Saturday, September th. I'm killing myself when the sun sets. I don't want people to celebrate my life. I hate my life. I cant do this anymore. I'm sorry dad. I'm sorry mom. I'm sorry siblings, even though some of you arent old enough to realize what this means. I'm sorry Matt. I'm sorry Raun. I'm sorry Ethan. I'm sorry Aidan. I'm sorry Brandon. I'm sorry James. I'm sorry Evelyn. I'm sorry Damian. I don't know how to do this anymore. Everything over the past few months has destroyed me even more than I was before. I'm sorry for being a burden. For everyone I didnt mention, I'm sorry. I wish I wasnt like this. I wish I was more capable. I wish I wasnt a failure at . For anyone who reads this post, please, make the most of your life. I didn't. I'm sorry. | suicide |
Can anyone talk I feel sad rn Filer FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler Filer FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler FilerFiler Filer | non-suicide |
Depending in my posts, how would you describe me? Yes, I am bring those back. Imma read and respond the the comments later, farewell friends. | non-suicide |
Getting closerAlways suffered with depression. Moved away from my good college course. Good family and good friends to be with a girl i had been with for months. months down the line i dont love her anymore. I can't go back, ive ruined my life im so ashamed of myself. Getting that feeling again | suicide |
I keep failing at relationships I keep failing at relationships, so I guess it's time for me to be a hoe. Seems far easier as there's no romance, just hoeing about. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk | non-suicide |
Unpopular opinion This is a popular opinion | non-suicide |
In the eye of the hurricane right nowIt's strange to be able to put this into words, but I can see what's happening this time. I'm right in the calm center of it, with shit-thoughts whipping all around me and half-assed plans of ending my life on the horizon. I am insane at this moment, but you'd never know it looking at me, having coffee and chatting, getting an email or seeing my photo. Insane. | suicide |
We need true equality. Racism is still very prevalent in the United States. We need to do something about it. Here is my petition to change things: It would be amazing if yall signed my petition. We can end racism together. | non-suicide |
Is this a good idea? Ive liked this girl since last year and didnt get to talk to her at all after COVID hit, and I finally got her snap, which I was elated about. Unfortunately though, she hasnt added me back yet. Its been a while. So I was thinking about telling one of her best friends (and my acquaintance) my situation so that she could help. Any suggestions? | non-suicide |
I'm going to be meeting with a friend in eight hours, but I'm not sure I can pretend today.I've been doing well, but have had a small relapse of sleep-deprived madness the past few days. I'm not being hyperbolic, either,you would be appalled at how I have been conducting myself in private. Usually, when we hang out, it brings me such joy, and I can match the energy. I am kind and friendly in the most genuine ways, but I deliberately avoid showing even the slightest sign that anything is wrong. Why? Because she's a girl. That reasoning might make you upset. That's fair, honestly. I've just found that on a subconcious level, girls will only tolerate negative emotion from other girls. There's probably other factors at work, of course, and I desperately want to be wrong, but... Gathering more evidence isn't worth the risk. But it seems like that will happen today anyway. She will know something is wrong, and perhaps she will ask. No matter how much I refuse, it is inevitable I will let something slip. She's a very smart girl, so it's decently likely she may be aware of her instincts and be able to compensate for them, but again, I don't want to take that risk. At any moment she could cut off contact, badmouth me to mutual acquaintances, and disappear. She knows where I live, but the same can't be said for the reverse. She must never find out how lonely I am, must never find out she is my only true friend, must never find out how desperately I need a literal shoulder to cry on... I want to be vulnerable, but I have too much to lose. | suicide |
you say peacock and nobody bats an eye you say weepenis and every fucking staring at you | non-suicide |
So many of u guys are so nice Like I've talked to quite a few of u and so many of u are such lovely ppl it's so fun to talk to u guys honestly. If ur a nice person dm me and let's chat, I'm rly bored. If ur a bitch dm me too cuz I love talking to everyone | non-suicide |
Im just done. I want to dieI feel like my problems are no where near as intense as some of my fellow sufferers here. Which makes me feel even more shit. I just dont want to be here anymore. Im fucking over all this shit. | suicide |
Top Facts - Genshin Impact [ | non-suicide |
Telling jokes until corona is gone day What do you call a fish with no eye? Fssh | non-suicide |
I'm so depressed, I want to end my life. I have suicidal thoughts that I can't get off it.My life is being un fair with me, i only talk to people online and I thought they care about me but they left me and they even are ignoring me now. I don't know why people are jerks, I always reply to them. I'm tired of being nice and kind. I feel like my life has no meaning anymore, I wish I had someone who could comfort me. I can't even eat, I cried yesterday in the bathroom. I'm not really feeling good, I wish one person cared and ask if I'm okay or don't get bored of me when i vent. I want to die, I don't care anyone, I want to talk and take things off chest but I don't have anyone who cares to listen. | suicide |
wasn't so great I say this because is true. wasn't the year everyone thought it was gonna be. Now having said that, I am declaring to be my year. No matter what life throws at me I will attack back with double the ferocity! will not conquer me! Join me and declare as the year of good things! | non-suicide |
I need to talk about a subject for minutes for a school project, what would I talk about? Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler | non-suicide |
Skate bord Sknt borb | non-suicide |
Once I Get A Gun...I'm going to kill myself. I'm going to go to the woods somewhere and shoot my brains out. If that doesn't happen first, I'm going to OD to death. | suicide |
Nothing left, future is full of sufferingThe only thing I have in my future is hardship. My mental health will prevent me from ever having a career in the field I dedicated my life and finances into. The marriage of my best friend/love of my life is always looming over me like some awful ghost, slowly destroying what remains of me. I can't keep burdening the few people who I care about/care about me. I've run out of treatment options. I don't see how I keep going for much longer. I've tried, I really have, but this feels like it's it. There's just no reason to keep on fighting. | suicide |
I dont get people who tell me that Im perfect just the way I am Ill never be perfect, or even anywhere close to it in my own eyes. Never compared to my attractive, athletic, smart friends. I cant reconcile the fact that Ill never be like them. | non-suicide |
Just made an absolutely banging riff on my guitar My father likened my ability to Pink Floyd and Eric Clapton and I was proud . Also I found a cool way to make it sound cool which is cool. | non-suicide |
I think I want to finally end it before I turn I think this is just going to be mindless ramblings. I haven't accomplished anything. My only talent is being a mediocre artist, and I suck at that lol. I've battled depression for over a decade and man I'm so exhausted. I tried to change my life around and go back to school and covid fucked those plans. I have online friends and nothing more. Never met them, but I am grateful for them. But God I am so lonely. I tried making friends at work but I'm mostly ignored. Romantic life is non existent. I haven't kissed or been held in years, how sad. I tried meeting people online and that goes no where. Sex life has always been non existent thanks to sexual abuse as a child. Whenever I do think I find someone, they just use me as a place holder until they find something better. Man I just want to be seen for who I am. I try to always be supportive and kind and that shit gets you no where. Being an unattractive woman makes you invisible. I have so much love to give and no one wants it. I want a chance to be a mom and wife but I'm pretty much running out of time. I'm going to be next month and some part of me always felt like I'd be dead before . Maybe it's time to take that and run with it. I don't want to hurt my parents, they have been good to me. I don't want to leave my dogs and cats. I prayed to God for so long, begged to help me, or to guide me. To bring me the one meant for me and I get no answer. I don't believe anymore. I am so scared I might get hate messages or someone egging me on to kill myself for posting this. I want a quick painless death, I'm tired of hurting. I wish I could just be held. | suicide |
I just took the pills. I fought hard but im done. Very tired. Goodbye everyoneMad e new account to post this, pathetix i know hahahaajahahahahaha. Just took the pills getting drwody, its over for me. Im soory mom and dad and my sis and everyone wjo cared for me. Anxiety consumed to hell camt function without falling to floor crying. Had sone good days butti camt take the stress anymore . If you eber find this im really sorry im soory i didnt live longer please forgive me im sorry i didnt love you more im sorry that i couldnt see more im sorry thay i couldnt overcome im dying hesrts stopping brain already dead im sorry im sorry im sorry dont cry i dont want more crying Please dont cry im already crying im sorry i wish i had more time to explain i love you please be good i love you so much. Too drowsy. Plesse be good i love you.d | suicide |
Ppl are stupidPpl always say like " wow those were such obvious suicide signs why can't ppl catch on " to series and shit but my grades (which were usually good ) are slipping, I've written texts and messages and poems that were obvious help mes, I've over time basically lost all my old real friends in school and stayed more and more at home alone and ppl just don't seem do give a shit | suicide |
I NEED A JOB HOW DO I GET A JOB IM ONLY AND I WANT A PC PLEASE I NEED A JOB I CANT AFFORD IT what jobs can i get | non-suicide |
What would be your ideal school Serious answers only plz i have an essay Answers like the structure and stuff | non-suicide |
first person to somehow post a picture of their pet gets a free award filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |