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Over it.I'm just over everything. Over everyone telling me things will get better, I know they won't get better. I've been patient and nothing. Once I get a job, the first thing I'm getting with the paycheck is a car, after that I can leave finally. | suicide |
Aussies are really weird ................And that is because I am one. | non-suicide |
I have to do fucking vocab terms for MATH AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO FEELS THIS IS WRONG?! FFS | non-suicide |
What are some good and efficient ways to distract yourself from toxic thoughts when youre on your own ?I dont have any friends or family members I could talk to or do something fun with, so it has to be something I could do alone. I tried it with watching Movies and tv shows on Netflix, it worked pretty well sometimes but Im at the point where I dont have anything interesting to watch anymore. Video games can be helpful Aswell, but currently they dont seem to work anymore. I mostly just lay in my bed suffering from from really bad thoughts I cant seem to get rid off... So what helps you or do you have any ideas what else I could do?. | suicide |
People treat mental illness like a fashion statement and people arent saying shit about it. Look in the average middle class girls Instagram or tiktok bio and youll probably find some assortment of self diagnosed mental illnesses. You call them out on it and they call you disgusting for it. Why is this tolerated and why do people self diagnose themselves with conditions to look cool? | non-suicide |
Just doing this for a download | non-suicide |
Reasonable death (TRIGGER WARNING: child abuse)Please dont read this if you cannot handle the themes of child sexual abuse. There is a sickness inside of me, I have known about it for too long without having the courage to deal with it. No one would really suspect this kind of sickness from an adult woman that just reached her s but unfortunately it has come down to it. From a little girl it was pretty clear that I had thoughts of pedophilia and rape, it was hard to be around children younger than myself and even worse growing up, they just remind me of abuse. I must die, though I would never/have never hurt a child or have any inclination or desire to, the thoughts are still there and its terrifying. I infantilise myself with men because that is normal to me and yet sex is very uncomfortable. My porn addiction had worsened around the age of -? and by then it was already too late. Im worried that Im one of them, one of those monsters, too tainted for redemption. I cannot count the amount of failed life attempts nor the pleas of death that have followed them. There is no one to go to and no one that could possibly understand. Ill never be normal and to live such a life doesnt seem worth it. If you or anyone you know spots signs of child sexual abuse PLEASE report it, please do anything to protect that child because their suffering will know no bounds, there is too much suffering in this world and sometimes a victim can become the perpetrator. | suicide |
I'm a peice of trash.Honestly I'd be doing the world a favor. Just got blew up at my only friend. I would hate me if I was him. *I* do hate me. | suicide |
Imma ask one thing... why you cant send pic and vids in this server now? Now i only see lots of text and i cant read, LOL. | non-suicide |
OH, I wouldnt say freed, more like um, uhhh, yeah i guess thats the best way to describe it. | non-suicide |
Why do I try?I hate my life. I wish I had the fucking balls to kill myself, but I'm too worried about how some girl, who probably would actually be happy if I died right now, and how she would feel if I did. No matter what I do, I always manage to fuck up, every time. Every fucking time. I gave you everything, tried my hardest to make you happy, and you leave without warning, now you're mad at me because, surprise surprise, I fucked up again. I don't know why I promised you that I would never let you get hurt again, I though it was something I'd be able to do, but you left and now I can't do shit. He's going to hurt you, and I know it, everyone else says so too, and I have to sit here and watch. In the same amount of time we were together, you've gotten in at least three fights that you've told me about, probably more that you haven't. How many fights did we have while together? Oh yeah, that's right, not a single fucking one. We've had two fights now since then, and both are because of that fucking asshole. I gave you everything and this is how you pay me back? Why do I try? Why do I still care so much about you? Because in years of me being depressed, and years of being suicidal, you were the only thing that ever made me feel better, the only thing that ever made me feel like I wasn't a total failure, the only thing that in years, has made me legitimately happy. The only thing keeping me alive, is the fact that I promised you that I would never hurt you, and never let you get hurt again, and if I can't stop it from happening, I'm at least going to try my best to help when he does. At that point, if I fuck up, I'm ending it. There doesn't seem to be much of a point after that. I can barely make it through the day now, and if I fuck up at that point, I'm not going to be able to. And seeing how my life has been going, I'm pretty sure that I'm going to fuck it up anyway. To whoever reads this, sorry for making you put up with my bitching, and I'd be happy to help if anyone else out there wants to talk. | suicide |
The story of my dog Juno So we got juno from someone who found him and knew they couldn't take care of him. But before that this is the story we know. His original family dumped him in the woods and he walked around in the woods for a unknown amount of time before he was found by a couple who had a cattle ranch. When they found him they took him in but realized since he's a husky he can't properly live in this environment so what they did was make a facebook post where people can adopt bigger dogs like huskys german Shepard and golden retriever. When my dad found the post he decided to drive the hours to the ranch and hours back . Since I was home sick at the time I was staying home and they told me they were going to a doctor appointment. After hours I knew they were probably going to get Juno because they mentioned it to me before. And then they brought him home to where he is now. Thanks for reading I just wanted to tell this story and if you want a bit more story about him I will tell. Also if you want a photo of him I'll give you one. | non-suicide |
Suicide consumes my thoughts.I lost the one family member who stood up for me when I was being abused. He passed away. The world is quickly becoming a scarier place, and I don't mean just because of recent politics. My mental health and physical health are both in the shitter and I have no way of getting help. I don't wanna call a hotline because the last time I did I was 'd and that was one of the worst experiences I have had. | suicide |
not afraid of deathI've never been afraid of death in my waking life, but I dreamt about dying the other day and I was terrified in my dream.. I remember being so mortified of dying and not knowing what's next that I was shaking... when I woke up it went back to me not being afraid.. I've always known I'm gonna die young, I'm too depressed to keep on living.. can't see the positive side of anything. | suicide |
I absolutely fucking hate my selfI hate my self for some of the decisions ive made, relationship ive ruined, this was a year ago, Im still not passed her, or moved on, I close my eyes, I see her face, I turn on my stomach to try and sleep, I see her face, I cant see my self finding another girl I cant/don't see my self being with anyone else, I had my chance, I ruined it. | suicide |
I think I fucked up It all started with a line deal with the class. One was way to the other side and the teacher said to get over here, I said yeah get over here as a joke. Before you say something about that's literally everyone does it. The girl responded back with shut up that's why your always in trouble. that was just today I got in trouble for cussing, I don't stay in trouble all the time and who is she to be talking cause shes the one who is a trouble maker. I responded by saying you shouldn't be talking you get in trouble all the time. She then pissed me off by making fun of my haircut, I mean she wasent even playing. I then I knew the exact way to make fun of her, I made fun of her braces. She was so pissed that she went mad and told the teacher to get haircut dude. I got her back with the braces thing again. Idk if it was me or her, but she's probably gonna tell her freinds and her sister, which I helped, and act like I'm a asshole. I'll admit, I did call her terms like a thot and such, but I didn't know it was offensive to a girl and got it down, here she just made me mad. I don't know if I done anything wrong or not. | non-suicide |
I am depressed My friends dont want to be around me. I dont get invited to go anywhere. One of my friends consistently calls me annoying, and also points out at every opportunity how hes better than me. My teenagerhood (not a word) is being ruined because Im annoying, socially awkward, and unlikeable. That is all | non-suicide |
no reason to be upsetI have no reason to be as depressed as I am. White male privileged. In school. Attractive physically with a girlfriend of years. Never had any problems with family that messed me up mentally. Yet all I do is lay in bed at years old when I'm not going to school and want to die. I'm not brave enough to commit suicide yet, but I think i've gotten less scared as I've aged and it is simply a time bomb. I don't believe in an afterlife, so the whole "you'll hurt those you love" does not trouble me. I will be dead and I will have no conscience, and it will be as it was before I was born. I dont want anybody to talk to about this. I just want to know about my selfishness and see those who share it with me. I'm not saying you have to have been physically abused or had some sort of mental trauma to be depressed, I just know that I'm selfish. I'm an asshole for no reason. I believe I just rolled unlucky. Guess I just want to see how many other people here are upset and also dont see a reason to be. | suicide |
me and my friend made a new political party we call our selves commoral our animal is a sloth our color is purple we believe in a mix of blue and red edit: slogan is: no rest till america is da best and yes we came up with this in about minutes again, yes we are both edit : just made a subreddit... r/Commoral | non-suicide |
Reasons why yall are unique and important youre here reading this and still alive you have potential as a living being to be great youre strong enough to go through anything, I believe in you | non-suicide |
Hey guys I wanna help you all and give back to community Day Please if your feeling down or have a problem please tell me! I wanna try to help this community as much as I can! Please no problems or feelings are to small or dumb! You can dm or comment, whatever you want. Just know that Im here for anything! | non-suicide |
I am a fish. So if you search "true map of Louisiana, you will find [a]( map of Louisiana showing lost coastline. Now search up a map of Louisiana, and you can see New Orleans is right under the estuary, Lake Pontchartrain, so the "true map" or Louisiana has made New Orleans along with a bunch of other cities part of The Gulf of Mexico. So therefore everyone living in these places live underwater and are fish. | non-suicide |
Taking care of you day Guten tag. How is your day going ? | non-suicide |
Merry Christmas from Australia Im lookin at u | non-suicide |
IM SO FUCKING PISSED YOU HAVE TO SELL YOUR KIDNEY TO UPLOAD A FUCKING SHIRT??? WTF??? THATS FUCKING BS!!! WHY DO WE HAVE TO SELL OUR KIDNEYS TO SOME DUMBASS SUBSCRIPTION JUST TO EXPRESS CREATIVITY??? WHAT THE LOVING FUCK IS THAT??? | non-suicide |
My childhood wont leave meI like to start off by saying that Im being vulnerable trying to explain this so please dont berate me. Im right now and obviously I grew a lot since my traumatic childhood. I was sexually used during grade school and physically abused till my skin was just a shattered mess of bruisings and yellow and red spots. I also faced emotional neglect and breakdowns in face of emotional abuse. this internal pain has clung to me like wild fire tearing through my skin each and everyday. Im not sure Im can take this anymore. I feel like a useless usable toy to be broken and thrown away. What did I do to deserve this? Why do people view me as damaged goods? | suicide |
I don't knowI don't know who else to talk to so.. I'll just post here I guess. I might not answer messages, I'm pretty.. I don't even know the words to use. I feel defeated. I'm pretty sure that my boyfriend () intentionally leaves me broke.. He works a full time job making + bucks an hour, over hours a week. I'm a year old girl and we just had our first baby a year ago, so I've been on assistance. Whenever we need to buy things, my cards are always used and I'm never repaid like he claims.. Anyway, today we fought because he wouldn't leave me some cash so I could buy tampons, (I'm completely out right now.) He refused, accusing me of wanting the money for a date. (???) I got upset and practically begged him to leave the cash so I wasn't in a mess all day while dealing with our son. He ended up getting so angry that he shoved me, threw a box of silverware at me, (we've just moved into our new apartment) and dislocated my jaw. Thank god my son was still asleep.. I've called two women's shelters, both of whom didn't have room for us.. They didn't even seem to care. I called two suicide prevention lines, and both times I got "This number is not in service." My phone is working and I know those are the correct numbers.. It feels like life is telling me to quit. My boyfriend is amazing towards my son, so if I were gone I know he would be okay.. My parents have walked away, I have no other family that would miss me. I can't see why I shouldn't wait until my son is with someone else, and then just quietly lie down and die. Even typing it out makes my whole body warm, fuzzy and tingly. It would be so.. peaceful. I want to go now. No one will even remember my name | suicide |
i wrote a note and i'm ready..buti know there is a very, very small part too far back for me to listen to that is scared to leave life. the thing is, life has treated me horribly. i am suffering so much on a mental and physical level. my story is heartbreaking and too horrible to even believe...i'm only years old but i feel like an old woman from the suffering and pain i've been through. i strongly believe it's all over. i think for some people it really doesn't get better. and time and time again the world seems to be telling me i am one of those people. i know life could be amazing if i was only born someone else :(. i'm very scared to leave. but it is even more painful to stay...i can't come up with any reasons any more. why do so many good people have to suffer? | suicide |
Rex, my son but dog formOnly thing keeping me from doing it, is my dog. I have family who would love to take him. They always watch him if I leave town and dont want him to be alone. They dont have a home though. Currently brother and grandma are living in a one bedroom camper with dogs (one is small but one is huge) and two cats. It wouldnt be fair to Bandit (large dog) to share the already small camper with my medium sized dog. I got my dog from a shelter. I cant let him go back to one. Hes also extremely scared of strangers and lunges at them to get space. If I kill myself who knows what would happen to him. (I just turned F) I would do it if I knew my family could handle it. I know they cant. I see a therapist but things just keep adding on, adding on, and adding on. Its so hard to take care of Rex and also my mental health. He wants love and is so clingy when I want left alone. I want to go to my kitchen and get a knife. I want to swallow pills. However how would Rex get fed until they found my body? Rex would be sad. Hed miss me (I hope) I cant do that to him. Hes always there when Im sad. If Im dead I cant be there for him when hes sad. I wish I could find something to do for him so I can just.. be gone. Yaknow? | suicide |
not liking anyone is kinda boring but at the same time it's relaxing, not always wanting to talk to them and know who they talk to etc etc | non-suicide |
What if there was a special type of fish you could catch un October, and it was called "fish bones" and when your animal crossing villagers caught it, they would be like "oh...." | non-suicide |
Has anyone ever gotten to the point where "why not kill myself" is an actually optionRecently any time something small happens like I do something stupid etc. I just think "I mean I could kill myself" then I go through the intrusive thoughts motions of my brains on the wall or foam coming out of my mouth. Then I can't think for a little then I move on. I worry that maybe I will act upon it at some point. I feel like all my previous failed attempts have decentized me to the idea of killing myself, and I could just do it at any point. I feel like also knowing that I have a chance seems to push me more in that direction. Like fate will decide or some fucking garbage like that. Or sometimes I worry that I'm faking an attempt like how can I survive this many times. Like was it really for attention? I can't figure my head out sometimes. | suicide |
I don't want to hurt himI just need to let this out some where... I want to die so bad. Looking over at these pills while I sip my booze, I think how much it would take to kill me. Do I have enough? I love my SO with all my heart, if I were to live I could not imagine a world without him. But sometimes its not enough, hes so far away it pains me. Because of my own stupidity I have dropped out of college, gained an excess amount of weight and lost close friends. I lost my job a few weeks ago. I feel so alone. I spend every day wishing to see people, but once they call or plans are introduced into the picture I want to shut off the world. Make excuses, be alone. This house is my safety net and yet my prison. I cant get out of bed in the morning. I really don't want to hurt him. He is seriously the only person I care deeply about, but I don't know if I can do this any more. I cant take it, but it would kill him if I were to die. Do I have enough pills? | suicide |
sooni've lost all hopes. i've no reason to keep fighting this mental illness. i will let it consume me. i will let pain engulf me until the only option there is is to end it. it will never get better. i've waited for years and years, full of hope that i will have my shot at happiness like everyone else around me. but i was just making things worse. this illness is the perfect punishment for someone as ungrateful as me. either i die, or live the failure that is my life. | suicide |
I promise Im okayHey fellas. First bit, Ive been around here for a little bit and I know how nice and supportive you guys are. Makes me really feel like there are those that give a shit about us. Second bit, today was bad. Im hurt, confused, scared, angry and exhausted. Everyone here knows what thats like and Im truly sorry for that. I cant stop drinking, I cant stop crying, I cant stop being hurtful to everyone I meet cause Im an exposed nerve and that makes me just as bad as the people who hurt me. Its pains me to know how many wonderful, understanding people there are on this sub and know that Im not one of them. No matter how I try, I cannot be what was expected. I deserve this lot, I might even be ok with it. Third, I was taught every day of my life that education was the solution to everything and I believed it. I did the college thing, I even graduated to the horror of everyone Ive ever met. But it didnt matter. It just got worse and I suspect it always will. Now, Ive just got a lot of cute anecdotes to rattle off to my begrudging friends until they decide Im too annoying or batshit to keep around. Love the facade of friendship. I dont know. If I kill myself, I wont get better, but if I live Ill just get worse. Thanks for even giving this a moment of your undoubtably busy day. Thats more than most folks like us get huh? | suicide |
i have a crush omg he's a dude in my grade. we started working on a group project together. we started texted. we stayed up into the wee hours of the night discussing life, our emotions, and the uncertainty of the future. he sends me classical music. i send him jazz classics. he loves the ballet russes. he sent me lever du jour from daphnis et chloe. i sent him a thelonius monk album. we study together. we "accidentally bump into each other between classes". i can't stop thinking about him. what do i do? | non-suicide |
Got new pairs of vans! My other ones have a huge hole from skating so got some new ones | non-suicide |
touch starved ? never im definitely not thinking about how innocent hand holding used to lead to making out for an hour this pandemic is a bore and i wish i was as stupid as those people who disregard covid regulations | non-suicide |
forbbiden sandwich acquiredi literally cant wait for next year to kill myself as planned, so i grabbed every pill in my house and put them between two pieces of bread, no fucking clue what pills are in this thing but im about to eat it, im sick of this shit, goodbye | suicide |
To all of you with a girlfriend or boyfriend Congrats to you!! You both are lucky to have found each other!! I hope you all have a wonderful long lasting relationships! | non-suicide |
What your TF main says about you Heavy: you play TF Spy: you play TF Pyro: you play TF Scout: you have extremely low self esteem Demo: you play TF Medic: you play TF Sniper: you play TF Engineer: you play TF Soldier: you play TF | non-suicide |
My parents probably wont accept me so I'll just come out to yall. I'm a lesbian. Wdym a guy cant be a lesbian- I mean, I like girls, thats what matters right? | non-suicide |
i want to diei want to die i want to die i want to die i wantto die im so itred tire dit reidt rjdskfjdsak i want to fucking die | suicide |
Eating Disorder: slowest form of suicideIve self-abused with food and drink to the point of definite illness. I feel than I am beyond help and hope. Its terrible that this takes so long because I just want it to be over now. | suicide |
I don't have insurance, if I went to the hospital I fear I would have a huge medical bill I would have to pay, and if I took meds I worry I won't have the energy to kill myself if I really wanted to.I haven't had insurance for awhile since my mom stopped paying for it. I thought about applying for Medicaid or insurance through my work but don't know if I would be approved for medicaid or if I could afford insurance. I don't want to have a huge medical bill that I would have to pay that would make me more suicidal and couldn't afford the things I wanted. What is going to a hospital or psychiatric unit like? I have been watching videos on YouTube and they tell me that they strip you or they have to watch you shower. Are the people I would have to interact with nice? I don't think it's necessary for me to go but I worry I will be forced to go at some point even though I am a legal adult. I worry if I went to the hospital and/or started taking meds then I won't have a lot of energy to do the things I want or to kill myself because I know I will still want to do that since they won't do anything to fix my life. | suicide |
PGHMPlease God Help Me | suicide |
I feel useless and Im contemplating suicideI feel like I might just be rambling and I have no reason to be making a post like this. Ive attempted suicide once before in the past but Ive been in therapy and working on myself since then. The therapy has been working, without a doubt, my depression doesnt feel so crippling like it did when I was in high school or early adulthood which makes me feel even guiltiest about feeling like this. I feel like I dont have a purpose in life, I feel really mediocre at everything that I do even if I put the maximum amount of effort into it and its like Im just disappointing my family and the people I care about by wandering aimlessly. In all honesty, suicide feels like the best option for me. And that sucks. I dont feel the urgent need to do so but thinking about the outcome makes me feel better than thinking about how useless and lost I feel on a day to day basis. | suicide |
I dont know how to tell my boyfriend about my struggle with suicidal thoughts.I [F] have been struggling with anxiety and suicidal thoughts for a while but have just recently sought help through counseling. Being one of those people who believes they have to appear strong and perfect in front of everyone else, its been hard for me to tell my family and impossible to tell my friends (including my BF [M] of one year). I think hes figured out that I have issues with anxiety but I have yet to tell him about the other struggles Im facing (mainly suicide). I read a post about someone who was contemplating leaving their SO bc of their history with suicide. I have never attempted though I have had moments that have come close and Im terrified this would scare away my BF. Being far from my home right now for uni, I need my BF more than ever for support. I love him dearly and honestly see us spending the rest of our lives together. I believe he deserves to know the truth especially if their comes a time in the future where I really just need to discuss things with him. Is now the time for me to tell him about everything? How the heck do I even approach a conversation like that? Him leaving me might honestly push me over the edge. Im a coward and Im terrified of what consequences might come of this. TL;DR Im afraid my boyfriend might leave me if I tell him about my suicidal thoughts and dont know what to do | suicide |
give me a good fucking reason to continue this fucking hellWith each passing day i lose more respect for my family, with each passing day i lose more hope, with each passing day i have less reason to live. why even bother? i won't be remembered, i wont do anything special to help the world, i fucking hate myself and everyone around me and have nothing to look forward to, i have no future but to be a slave to my higher ups, why the fuck should i even bother existing anymore? | suicide |
My little brother is suicidal and I can't help him anymore. What should I do?So my little brother has had major depression for years, and it's manifested in him becoming extremely toxic to those around him to the point that our mother has kicked him out of the house and practically disowned him, he's lost his girlfriend and his friends, and he's currently living with me and our dad. He just had a major blow up in the middle of the night, and this time he let slip that he's been planning to kill himself for months and marked a date for next month on his calendar "if things don't get better by then." He constantly complains that no one loves or cares for him, that no one can help him, that he's tried hospitals and therapy and taking advice, and that he doesn't care whether we kick him out because it just moves up his timeframe. He's , so we can't hospitalize him without his consent, and he refuses to try other options. He's refused to take his medication because he feels it doesn't help, and I doubt we'd be able to get him to take any anyways. I'm really worried about him and I need help. I've done everything I can think about trying. | suicide |
Is anyone angry and bitter all the time?I cant tolerate anybody. I hate the sound of any voice, children playing, cars, people laughing- anything. I was always sort of a loner but now I cant tolerate any human presence. At this point my friends are my characters. I create the people I want to talk to and thats my life and Im fine with that. Nobody in my life understands me or even cares enough to try to understand. | suicide |
I feel like no one understands me?I developed OCD which is an anxiety disorder. Or i got it from my mom i mean. I just mean i developed it cuz of my family not being very social. I feel like its gotten so bad over the years, i just feel so awkward if i brought a gf home to meet my parents or something like that. I hope you guys know what i mean, basically anxiety is and has been ruining my life since i was born basically. But it got worse in the th grade to now th grade. Im tired of feeling anxious or awkward or thinking about anxious events that i want to experience and enjoy in this lifetime, and i feel like my family doesn't understand what i mean. So yeah im just tired of it. I dont even want to live with my family anymore (im and male) i feel i have nothing in common with them. So what should i do? How do i overcome anxiety so i can enjoy life? And what about dieing, isnt it kind of sad if im enjoying life then one day its all over? Thanks. Also im struggling with negative/intrusive thoughts due to OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) its an anxiety disorder thats mental. P.S. One more thing that really bothers me, i feel like if my older sister (whos ) if she had friends and wasnt shy and was outgoing i feel like i wouldnt have anxiety since she too would be out and about. Instead shes a goody good and obey's my parents and yeah, i just wish she would rebel for once in her life. I just feel like if she was more outgoing I WOULD be too. I know its lame blaming others for my problems, but im just down man, anxiety sucks! | suicide |
I don't know what to doI'm years old and I should have my license, I should be living on my own, having my own money, and looking towards the future. Ha yeah none of that is true for me. I have no future, no motivation or even the courage to do anything. There is so much pressure on me to find a career **now** but I just don't want to! Listen... I don't have a "talent" or *any* skills what-so-ever! I couldn't find a job mostly because I am **very** shy. How the hell can I let go of my social anxiety just to find a damn minimum wage job that I will probably hate?? I feel like my future is bleak and fucking empty. I know I wont be successful. Not only that but I have no one, I have a horrible time making friends. I don't have anyone to hang out with on weekends or to even text once in a while. No one likes me and I don't know what's wrong with me. This is gonna sound pathetic but I'm lonely because I don't have any friends. I also have an eating disorder which I have no intention of ever recovering from. Who would take me seriously anyway? I'm not even that skinny. I know ED's are just mental disorders but I've heard so many people tell me that doctors wouldn't even look at you unless you're dangerously underweight. I could never go to inpatient or anything like that. Yeah I just don't know what to do with my life. I can maybe just sit around and feel sorry for myself or I can take a butt load of sleeping pills right now. I don't really see myself getting better because I have too many problems as it is. | suicide |
Can I just sleep forever and a halfPlease I just want to not feel anymore. It hurts so much and I cant even feel anymore. Everything I think I feel is not actually there its like living in a bubble with all the negative thoughts just piercing through your brain like needles. I crave the slice of a razor on my arms like little fireworks in streams of red. I could never have the balls to kill myself but god would it be so nice to have the peace of sleeping forever. My head hurts all the time and I dont know what to do, my family cares about me like they care about the spider living under the fridge. They don't im just there no one does actually care and I honestly dont want them to care. Just one bullet to the head or swift jump off a high bridge. I've researched how many floors it would it take to actually die so many times I can tell you a story about how to properly kill yourself | suicide |
I'm gonna make the most downvoted post on this subreddit by saying this I don't think tik tok is that bad at all. I actually think it's quite good Keanu Reeves is WAY too overrated on this platform Yes Minecraft is good but it's not my favourite game | non-suicide |
I wrote thisCall me g Cause Im fly, like a mother fucking plane Just kidding, that was just a joke kid Im actually motha fucking insane Think about killing myself everyday Ask me how I feel, what I say always the same Im a happy bloke I always hide these tears that make me choke Its getting hard to breath Happiness, I just cant see I take this gun Put it to my head Oh shit, this is fun Oh look, now Im dead Flew up to heaven and saw god But I didnt know the code, guess somethin wrong Gates wouldnt open And He wouldnt come to hold me Just looked at me with disgust I always knew that my life was a bust And now the afterlife is too Shit, what a guy supposed to do? | suicide |
One year ago I got out.I have been out of wilderness for one year, yet my head cannot seem to leave. From watching people slit their wrists, to having every single thing I told my therapist written down and told to my parents after I was told I could trust them leaves permanent scars in my head. The write down what you say, how you act, how you respond, who you talked to, they write down everything. And then they decide your future. You're not allowed to talk to kids without a therapist being there. Everything hurts. Just not being allowed out of sight, never being trusted, always being lied to, just everything. It always hurts. Now my girl who I have been on and off with for six years is talking about dating this other guy, and she calls me her boyfriend but I'm not allowed to call her my girlfriend... I say "I love you" to all my friends and the only person who does not always say it back is her. I just don't see the point anymore. Existence is pain that I cannot get over, trauma from that place, along with shit from much before, I just can't fucking deal with this shit anymore. I'm not sure if I want to die but I just really fucking don't want to be alive. I'm living in the past and cannot think about my future. The girl who I thought would always be there for me only talks about herself and when I mention me she does not respond. I'm always there for her. no matter what. I just don't know if I should. It hurts. Every day. It hurts. | suicide |
Sister is abusing my niece with her boyfriend, can't speak up. I feel like killing myself.Hi everyone. I figured I would come here because I am not getting a lot of support in AskReddit. People don't seem to understand what is on the line and how much I care about my niece. No matter what I do, I feel like I can't save her, at least not without going down myself in the process. I honestly feel like I need to die and right now I don't know if anyone could change my mind. My life is crumbling in front of me... | suicide |
please helpplease i need someone to talk. i dont have friends and my parents are too tired from work so we dont really talk,. please i beg you i need help. i dont know im supposed tostay alive. ihave no reason to be alive. i just want it all to stop. but im too scared to kill myself. i just cling to the fact that things might get better but they dont and now recently im starting to get rape and murder tendencies. i sometimes tremble when i look at a girl because i really want to kill her and rape her. i really want to feel someone eles's body. thats all i think about i hate myself. i even have plan on how to kill some one. please please i cant hold it togther | suicide |
guys this is serious Coming out of my cage And I've been doing just fine Gotta gotta be down Because I want it all It started out with a kiss How did it end up like this? It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss Now I'm falling asleep And she's calling a cab While he's having a smoke And she's taking a drag Now they're going to bed And my stomach is sick And it's all in my head But she's touching his chest now He takes off her dress now Let me go And I just can't look, it's killing me And taking control Jealousy, turning saints into the sea Swimming through sick lullabies Choking on your alibis But it's just the price I pay Destiny is calling me Open up my eager eyes 'Cause I'm Mr. Brightside | non-suicide |
Does anyone else want to die because you're getting older, yet your situation has been exactly the same for years or is just getting worse?I feel like an -year-old in the body of a -year-old. It's embarrassing and pathetic. I live with my parents, I've never had a relationship or even been on a date, all of my friends have moved on from me and I have no one to talk to, I have poor social skills and I'm approaching my seventh year of college with my career prospects looking grim... I've had chronic episodes of depression for more than a decade, with lows every couple of months and hospitalization after a major breakdown about every two years. I'm sick of it. Medication has helped tremendously, but unfortunately, it is not a cure-all, so the cycle goes on. Even at my best, I can't say that I've ever felt truly happy or grateful that I am on this planet, no matter how hard I try to force myself to be. The suicide hotline/textline is a joke. "What about rainbows and kittens and falling in love?" someone on the text line asked me. Yeah, what about them? "Falling in love" was also a reason for one of my most physically painful failed attempts lol. Tbh, I wouldn't even be here typing this if the process wasn't so painful and I wasn't so afraid of it. If my situation does not improve and I'm not independent or successful enough to not be completely ashamed of myself for existing by the time I am no longer considered a "young adult," I've decided that I will kill myself. I haven't decided whether I should do it by the time I am or . I've done research on the least painful methods and I've decided on one. I'm honestly numb to the fact that my family will miss me. If anything, they don't realize how much of a weight off of their shoulders it would be, especially if I'm still living with them by the time I reach that age range. Ultimately, I am just tired of the endless cycles of depression and the inevitability of aging. And the fact that the indifference of the universe is a painful reality. **TL;DR:** If I am still unemployed and living with my parents by the time I am no longer considered a "young adult," I will kill myself. Wondering if anyone else out there has the same reason for wanting to die and how you cope. | suicide |
incase no one told you youre beautiful and youre doing great im proud of you! everything will be just fine, dont quit, itll make it harder pain is only temporary i love you | non-suicide |
How do I go hangout with a girl (Just a friend), without my parents getting all up in my social life? I get why parents want to be in your social life, but like sometimes I just wanna go do my own thing without questions. They don't know this girl, although I've know her for a while. | non-suicide |
Yeah being alone and seeing other couples living your dream sad but... Have you ever thought that screw it I'm still young, I've still got time to find someone and focus on your studies instead to get a good future and fail at that aswell? | non-suicide |
I can't keep doing thisI know my death will hurt the two people who care about me, anyone else just wouldn't give a shit. My cat would be sad, but my friend would care for him and I think he'd be okay eventually. I just don't know if I can go on anymore. I'm on antidepressants, I don't have the money for shrink, and even if I did, what's the point? It's never helped before so why would it help now? I turn in a few days, and every day until now has just been putting off the inevitable and I don't think I can do it anymore. | suicide |
GOG is worst fcking game installer So I wanted to download witcher that I have on cd. I downloaded it on my pc and it ask me do you want to have it on GOG? It gives u shit ton of thing" I was like hell yeah and I clicked ok GOG open and it fucking force me to download GB again even that I have this fucking game on pc you understand this shit? Even fucking origin is better than this shit. Fuck gog | non-suicide |
You know when When your mom catches you using your phone at am I do. | non-suicide |
What is the easiest way to commit suicide.I dont want the normal bullsh*t about dont do it, just want an answer. | suicide |
I love when u make an effort to text someone and the one day u dont say anything its complete silence and when u finally do say something they dont even leave u on read Like bruh did I say something wrong? Did I offend u? Am I boring? Annoying? Stupid? Am I just not worth ur time? Do u hate me? Why are you ignoring me? Even worse if u text them in class and u see them on snap and then they just dont respond to u at all. Or I get ppl asking for homework answers and only that /, it hurts. Whats wrong with me to the point where all Im worth giving is some dumb answers to a class you wont even pass? Am I that boring that u feel the need to go out of your way to not reply to me even tho Ik u can see I texted u? So many questions | non-suicide |
I Want to Die so DXM Tripping it isI want to die. Plain and simple I want to freakin die. I'm so done with life, been through the same bullshit over and over again and I'm so fuckin done. Ughhh Anyway, currently taking as many robitussin pill thingys as I can stomach, according to the calculator I'm gonna hit rd plat because I weigh like pounds. I usually hate being that short tiny girl but ya know comes in handy here i guess. Don't even know why I'm writing this. Hopefully get enough guts while tripping to just shoot myself in the head already. Ugh I want to so bad. Why is Suicide so " selfish " ?!? That's the stupidest shit I've ever heard. I just don't want my life, nothin against anybody else. I just hate this place. Ik I'm gonna do it. Ima kill myself soon enough. Just gotta wait on the timing. Also all the "you're only a teenager, it gets better" "just be happy" "stop pretending like you're going to actually hurt yourself" Bulllshiittt is so annoying. I've tried many times before and I'll do it again. And hopefully suceed | suicide |
I'm going to be on suicide watch, I've only heard horror stories and I'm scaredI don't know what being on "suicide watch" actually entails. I'm (F) scared because this is the stuff my father told me about and I don't want to be out in a white room with a glass panel. I'm scared, could someone please help me? | suicide |
How much more?How many more pills do I have to take? How many more psychologist s do I have to talk to? How many more books do I need to read? How many more people do I have to meet? How much longer do I have to wait until I feel better? It's been years since they told me years ago it'll get better. It fucking doesnt | suicide |
Fuck you I won't do what you tell meFuck you depression you bitch. Fuck losing control. Fuck losing the plot. You will not control me. Though I feel absolutely sick with it. | suicide |
i cant stop thinking about getting railed by a drawing what even is my life any more | non-suicide |
I'm Nuts To Do It, Always Been My Whole Life That's Why I'm Here Where I'mAll my life I've been nuts to do things. Nuts to talk to the girls I liked. Nuts to talk to people. Nuts to do what I want. Nuts to say what I wanted to say. I'm almost years old and I feel like it's over. I'm too late to fix things. I have a girl that I like now and I'm nuts to be nice with her. I'm at my home alone. Feeling lonely. I have a bottle of champagne I want to drink it, but I know it's just a temporary solution. I'm ready to do 'it'. What's stopping me? Is the fact that I'm nuts to do it like I've always been. | suicide |
Stop spamming your discord servers Nobody cares and nobody will join | non-suicide |
Teenagers of Reddit... how can a new teacher gain your attention and respect from the start? | non-suicide |
How do I approach a girl? I (M) have always been very introverted. Only have a few friends. There is this girl I find cute and I would like to know how to start a conversation with her to get to know her more. Please help me, Thanks | non-suicide |
thinking about killing myselfim home alone and there's a packet of pills next to me and the temptation to just end it all is so hard to resist. i was there for all my so called 'friends' when they wanted to die but now when its me who wants to die no one is here. | suicide |
No. I can't take this anymore.I am in so much pain right now caused by so many different things I can't even write them all out it will take too much energy. I've never felt this horrible before. Horrible is an understatement. These past few days have been the worst ever and it's all my fault. I've ruined everything, I'm sure I have. I've always thought "there's no way this can get any worse" and then it does. Oh my god it hurts so much. I can't eat, I can't drink. I'm so tired but my mind won't let me sleep. My heart feels like it's going to collapse. I actually feel it hurting, tensing up, whatever. It feels like it's just malfunctioning, rotting, spewing out tar. I feel like I can't move but I'm restless at the same time. I'm doing everything I can to distract myself but NOTHING WORKS. TV, reddit, nothing. I can barely focus. Nothing helps. I can't take a whole lifetime of this. No. I can't. I'm literally laying here rolling back and forth saying things like "oh my god" "make it stop" "I can't take this". I read yesterday that usually when people slit their wrists to commit suicide they usually just go to the hospital, get stitches and go right back home. I can't do that. It has to work. There has to be no chance of survival. I keep racking my brain for ways I can do it. I don't know why I'm posting here. Nobody can help me. I know that. In fact some of you may just read this and think "shit, thank god I'm not her" and you'd be right. Be so fucking thankful you're not me. There's no hope. This will never get better. It needs to end. | suicide |
Lately Ive been having suicidal thoughts pop into my brainI would never describe myself as the happiest guy around. Im an year old male and I just finished up high school and am headed off to college next year. Even though I never was a really happy guy though I still would never have thought myself a person who would ever consider suicide. But lately Ive been shown just how wrong I was about that. All my life Ive had crippling anxiety, and its constantly prevented me from being my genuine authentic self. In this way I feel so deeply, painfully alone. I dont know what to do with these overwhelming emotions Im feeling and becuase of my anxiety Ive never really gotten to a position with a friend where I feel like I could talk with them about things like that. Over the past few weeks the unwanted thoughts have become increasingly and increasingly frequent and Im trying to tell myself that these thoughts are not the real me, but its so hard when Im constantly being present and confronting this idea of simply ending the struggle and emotionally painful life Ive had so far. I dont know what to do, Im fully and completely lost, I dont even know what to ask, Im posting this here hoping for some guidance of any kind. | suicide |
Lost my minecraft house I lost my minecraft house and ended up walking like K blocks back to it. I am so bloody lucky I got the coords written down otherwise I wouldve lost it forever. Took me about two hours maybe to walk especially as I had no food most of the way | non-suicide |
oh you think you know pain and stress? try having the same fucking art class as your younger brother and having to show your art project that contains thigh highs, crop tops, and bbs | non-suicide |
Any people wanna talk? Im sad and wanna talk to people haha message me if you wanna | non-suicide |
Holding on by a thread....I am holding on by a thread right now. I miss my son so much. My heart is aching. Christmas was his favorite holiday. There is zero joy now today nor really any day since he made his horrible decision to leave us. I dont want to be here but must stay to be there for my husband and other son. So I keep living for them and try to keep smiling through the depression. Its so hard. I hope all you can find some happiness through this holiday. | suicide |
i just need someone to talk to.the start of the new year had me apologising to my best friends for everything I had done in the past. they accepted the apology but I still felt bad. another thing that happend was that I had my first serious thought of cutting and suicide. | suicide |
is it safer for me to smoke or be lbs at ' with constant binge eating disorder I want to fucking kill myself because I am lbs overweight and I can't stand it anymore. i have seen countless specialists, therapists, nutritionists/dieticians, docotrs and etc i have been both anorexic and obsese its been years and i am and my entire youth has been wasted with eating disorders i dont fuckin care anymore i cant even write it all out i need a vice i will either start smoking cigarettes like a normal person or kill myself is it healthier to smoke cigarettes or be lbs overweight casue if they're both the same ill just smoke and live that life yeah i already called suciide hotlines every night for years who fucking cares i just did a weed gummy and it didnt even fuckin help nothing helps im so sick of trying | suicide |
Typing out one Bhagvat Gita verse day . "In this world three gates lead to hell the gates of passion, anger and greed. Released from these three qualities one can succeed in attaining salvation and reaching the highest goal." | non-suicide |
get out of my head please yeah, you, please get out and dont forget your jacket. close the door behind you, thanks | non-suicide |
How to fight against persons at a time Plss tell | non-suicide |
New Here and lostIve never really posted to forums or anything like this so bear with me please. I used to think about suicide a lot when I was younger, but with a lot of stuff life has been throwing at me I find myself contemplating it more now. I still find value in my family and care for them so I dont want to hurt them and take myself out, but I also cant handle some days. The past year for me has been probably the hardest Ive gone through and with all of the quarantine stuff happening I feel like its finally really weighing me down. Ive practically given up in school because I dont have a care for it the same way I used to. I have friends and family to talk to but sometimes it seems like they dont realize how bad Im actually hurting. My boyfriend is as supportive as he can be, but he himself hasnt been okay for a while because he experienced so much hard loss at the end of last year he is still grieving and healing on his own, so Its hard to emotionally be there for each Other right now. I am very understanding of that as I know he has so many feelings running through him right now and he can barely be there for himself. Him and I have actually talked about suicide a lot together and as much as we both think about it and wish we could take that route we also feel it is not worth it from all the pain it will put people we love through, however what am I or we supposed to do when the pain of life just eats us every day? I havent felt genuinely happy in a long time and I know for him its been even longer. It hurts me so much to know he is going through that pain. Its hard push mine aside and be there for him, sometimes I can when Im worried about him but some days Im being eaten up by my own emotion I cant even wrap my head around my own thoughts. Not really sure where this is going but I just feel so helpless lately and I dont know what to do with myself. I want to go to therapy but with the covid- Im unemployed and cant afford it. So I guess if anyone just has advice or wants to talk thats what Im asking for. Thanks guys | suicide |
I feel like I wanna make music lowkey It's a very bold thing for me to say in my position but I've been going wild these past few nights. I've been listening to albums a night and drawing and writing n shit and honestly I cant get away from music. Idk yet but I hope I make something of this sudden spark of creativity | non-suicide |
Hi I wrote a song , what do you think? Thanks ! | non-suicide |
I sent the email yall just really happy because ive been feeling a bit sad. needed to send a quick email to a teacher but now that ive done it i feel great. it took me awhile to get motivated and actually do it... so im very happy now :) | non-suicide |
I want to dieSeriously - in this life I *need* just one thing: absolute justice. Like "karma". So that when anyone's doing something bad - you can be sure that it'll bring him more harm than good eventually. In reality, I don't see it. I see the "just-world fallacy", which states that if I'm going to believe in something like this - then I'm a fool. Our world is not fair. God, how much I want to die...this is my, like, # thing on my wish list by now. To just disappear from this world. To not see it *ever* again... | suicide |
What do you consider important? Like what character traits and bodily aspects do you like the most, or absolutely hate in a Partner? Don't forget anyone has his/her own opinion on this and so you should respect every opinion, I am just interested what ya'll like lol | non-suicide |
Ok so I finally got my braces off today And now I've got to wear a retainer at night. But it hurts and is really uncomforable and makes me gag cause I've got bad gag reflexes. Does this happen to anyone else? Retainers suck. | non-suicide |
How to karma whore Ep. Comment something, idk anything, just something | non-suicide |
Any opinions. Well, I just read a cool thing that dolphins would be able to communicate and process info through their high frequency signals even in challenging medium water. This might be because of poor visibility in water, so they might be using sound. What do you think we can have a real life mimicry that would be helpful using only sound and not vision? | non-suicide |
Jeez how biased are these drug prevention programs We're doing one called Project Alert and they're showing videos about marijuana and alchohol, and they're pretending that most people who start drinking or take even one hit from marijuana are going to become addicted. "Marijuana is a gateway drug" they say. Marijuana has an % addiction rate, less than smoking and alchohol, and they're saying that you get addicted even if you do it like once at a party, same with alchohol. It's just so biased | non-suicide |