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People say it gets easier..Well that was a fucking lie, excuse my language. And I dont really understand why Im feeling the way I do. I think im some kind of freak, I can be happy and jolly for days, and then suddenly im standing in the closet with a makeshift noose. Today was my third time attempting, but I am a coward. I just dont feel much anymore. I can be really annoying to hang around with, I sense that on people sometimes. I dont know what im doing wrong, and im not really trying to please people, I just need constant company or someone to talk to, and I realize this can be very tiring. Ive been through some stuff since very early on, some would say I was kinda doomed from the beginning. But people handle things differently, my hardships are nothing compared to what some people in war ridden countries go through. Compared to them I am very priviledged. Which is a thought I repeat to myself. Im not sure what to do really, I do want to die, but I want to change, I want to live, I just hate myself so much. Maybe one day I will find the strength to go through with it, but till then I guess ill hang around, going through the motions... | suicide |
Is there a point?To whoever is reading this I am a teen, I have made a lot of really bad mistakes in life even at my young age; the relationship between my family (mostly dad) is very patchy because of this. I have struggled with my Confidence since about or years ago and that's when things started to go down hill, I'm still really self conscious about a lot of stuff I do, I'm starting to wonder if there's a point and sometimes the only thing stopping me from jumping out of my flat window is how disappointed my dad and brother would be :/ (My mom left me when I was years old so she's out of the picture) so I'm not even sure if there's a point because I feel like I'm starting to go a bit numb inside I'm just unsure if life is really all that it is made out to be any more I'm just a bit lost I guess... | suicide |
Aight guys I need your help Ok so Ive asked out a total of girls in the last year, they all said no, Im not that ugly (I dont think) I do sports, and Im pretty sure Im not a neck beard, however, my total body count is still zero, and I need you to tell me what Im doing wrong, dm me or something, well have a chat, and you can give me feedback on what I need to change. (P.S. Im m) | non-suicide |
My best friends dad died yesterday and i dont know how to help him My best friend (A) lost his dad yesterday. He has siblings ( older, younger) and they are kinda poor. The dad was in a hospital in Ohio but we live in New york so the family had to drive there. A and his younger brother (R) had to stay behind cause when the family left the mom told them it would probably be boring for them (they had no idea the dad would die) A and Rs last conversation with their dad was on the phone. They didnt know it would be their last convo with him. Yesterday when their dads parents picked them up from my house the grandparents drove them home and sat them down and told them the horrible news. They have money problems and both the parents worked at low paying jobs. I saw A and R again today and me and my little brother (m) tried our best to avoid the topic and have a fun time with them. They didnt cry but I could see in their eyes that they felt like sh*t. I dont know what to do cause I want to help them but I dont know how. Can you guys give me some advice on how to help them through this? | non-suicide |
People who would Care if I diedThe only people who would care if I died are five of my family members. And for the most part they would just be mad because they would see me as the killer of their son/brother/grandson instead of actually missing me. | suicide |
i want to say goodbyeI don't feel worth my life. I'm a waste of resources. No one wants me around and I'm a burden. So much of me wants to help others and love them but everyone I meet eventually hates me. The only self worth I have left is of an image of myself dead. Being dead is the only way I can help others. I can't see myself living with distorted reality and being reminded so frequently that the awful things voices say about me are true... That loved ones whose voices intrude my head telling me how horrible of a person I am are true... I want to so badly feel like I belong here because of how magnificent the world around me is.. I'm in so much pain that I can't partake in the beauty I have so many ideas on how I could end my life but no way to really enact my fantasies without preparation, and I'm only slowly working up to these things :( | suicide |
I don't know if i can do thisI feel so fucking lonely, I just want to be gone...Ill keep this short  Goodbye, im sorry. | suicide |
Don't want to be here anymore but too afraid to die?I can't take any of this anymore. I have no one. I have nothing to look forward to. I've fucked up everything. But I'm too scared to even attempt suicide again, not only am I afraid to fail but I'm also afraid to succeed. I just want this pain to end but I'm too much of a coward. | suicide |
Hate on stone cutters all you want But at least they give you the correct amount of stairs. | non-suicide |
Me and the boys went to see the Croods in theaters lmao It was probably a waste of $ but it was a good waste of $. We had many a great laughs. I couldn't tell if any of the actually funny bits in the movie were meant to be funny tho lmao! Anyways, I confirmed the theory that the boys together have collective brain cell. Great night! / would recommend. Gonna do it again with Boss Baby . | non-suicide |
take me back (tw) Take me back, To whenever I was just a small child. Take me back, To whenever I would always be happy and smile. Take me back, To whenever I was never used. Take me back, To whenever I was never abused. Take me back, To whenever I was proud to be me. Take me back, To whenever I felt free. Take me back, To whenever life was good. But I can't go back... And that's something I wish I understood... | suicide |
Feeling kinda sick Hope I'm sick tomorrow and don't go to school, anyone else feeling sick? | non-suicide |
highkey want to diebut my cats would miss me | suicide |
Considering checking myself into a Psych hospital because I don't know what else to do...other than the obvious. I can't take this anymore. I can't function normally. I am just barely getting by, hanging on by a thread, gritting my teeth and trying not to do anything insane. I am finishing college, and I work a custodial job-today as I cleaned the showers, I found myself daydreaming and wishing I could turn the shower on, dig the razor I always have with me out of my purse, and slitting my wrists, and just watching the blood mix with the water. No one would find me for hours as the bathroom is shut down for cleaning. It was such a nice thought. I wish I had the courage to go through with it. But small things hold me back every time I think about it. So I am stuck living in this hellish in-between, trying to act normal but inside-total chaos, total pain, total rage, total fear, total exhaustion, total obsession with death. I cant do this anymore. Talking with understanding people is a quick fix but often just makes it worse after because people have lives and cant always be there for you. I am just soo fucking tired, and sad. I am sad at the end of the day, when it's am and I am just sitting here struggling to finish a simple assignment while everyone else is sleeping. I dont want to do this anymore. I want to either really seriously get better, or finally find the courage to end it. I am SO sick of this, it has been two years now. So my question is-does anyone have advice on how that all works? Is there insurance costs? How do you check in? What is life like there? | suicide |
It's only a matter of timeIt's doesn't matter if it will happen today, tomorrow, next month or year I will end my own life | suicide |
Never felt so lowThis is long, or maybe short. Basically I want to die. I have a plan, I'm through. I'm married, late 's, kids. My husband and I were planning to buy a house, but as we were supposed to be going to the bank this morning he said he doesn't want to buy a house with someone he doesn't think he can spend the rest of his life with. We've been married almost years, have had rough patches like all couples. The difficult part comes from me. I have clinical depression, anxiety, and PTSD from a very traumatic childhood. My husband thinks I have no faith in him and am too pessimistic. He also says I don't pull my weight around the house and am a dependapotamus. I'm a stay at home mom, I have a degree in a tech field but no experience so I can't find work. I keep the house as clean as possible but between kids and depression sometimes the motivation isn't there. All I want is for him to be happy, but when he asks what I've done to make him happy I don't have an answer. All I am is a burden to him and I think he and the kids would be better off without me. I don't have anything to give them. I just drag them down and hold them back. I've been studying for various certifications and learning python (already know c#) so I can broaden my knowledge base and have something to show prospective employers I know what I'm doing, but it's not enough because progress is too slow for my husband. I'm scared to leave my kids, but I don't want to cause them pain. | suicide |
This world is fucking disgusting , no its just humans(generally speaking)I just joined Reddit like yesterday and its a great place. People are open and genuine, at least the ones ik. As u scroll u come across disturbing stories, and when I hear them I surge with rage of how disgusting people can be. I started thinking, do I have the right to be depressed, thinking of suicide when theres people out there that suffer x what I call stuffing. It just shows me how weak I am that such little things can bring me to the edge when theres others suffering far worse and can still go on even a little bit more. I truly am pathetic. | suicide |
I am living because of everyone else than meI am living a good life. I am living an easy life and taking the education i want.. I have tried to kill myself but failed because im too week... So at the moment I stay alive because I dont want to hurt my family or friends, but I Hate being alive. I am a popular dude and I had a psycologist once who didnt see any problem in me.. how do i find a reason to live? | suicide |
I might not be alive another month, and it scares me.I'm not going to go into it but I've been dealing with way too much bullshit for the last months or so, and it only seems to get worse. The only thing that's kept me from blowing my brains out is the thought that no matter how much shit I go through, I'll be happy later on, and that itself is worth it. I would usually be distracted by my daily life and worry about it later, but recently my life has taken a turn for the worse, as my depression has. I think about killing myself every day, when I wake up, when I'm with family or friends, when I do absolutely anything all I think about anymore is about when I'm going to finally end everything. I go through so much mental pain every day, I'm just so fucking tired of it all. I can just jump off a ledge and boom, no more stressing all the time, no more dealing with people calling me a piece of shit every day, no more sitting in the dark with my thoughts every night due to not being able to sleep for days in a row, I can pull a trigger and done. I don't know what makes life worth it anymore, everything just drags me down more and more. I feel like the end is so near, it scares me. It seems so blissful, just simply not existing anymore. I don't know what comes next, whether there's something waiting on the other side or that's the end of the road, it's better than it is now. I honestly don't know if I'm going to make it another month. | suicide |
How does everyone else have friends and happiness while Im left here to sufferIts so fucking unfair | suicide |
Just me me die pleaseI'm fucking years old and instead of enjoying the prime of my life I'm stuck in a fucking life I hate with no way out. Every single day is like a new bullet entering my fucking body. I don't even know who I am anymore. I WANT THOS TO FUCKING END. LET ME FUCKING DIE FOR FUCK SAKE. WHY IS KILLING YOURSELF SUCH A DIFFICULT FUCKING TASK. | suicide |
I'm bouta have my first kiss but I need help... She knows what shes doing but I don't... Help? How do I kiss? I don't want to embarrass my self but I love this girl too much to let her down. I probably won't sleep at all because of this so I'll respond to any replies. Should I shave my shit stache? | non-suicide |
Suicide Due to Debt...Maybe this is just a vent post, but I have been in serious debt since my engagement was broken. My alcoholic ex took me for everything I had. She had expensive taste and i thought I would be the 'supporting husband.' I was diagnosed with PTSD, bipolar disorder, and severe anxiety...all of which started after the breakup. I was so grounded when I had therapy but now, because of finances, I have to live with my parents out of state--and since Florida doesn't participate in the exchanges or Medicaid expansion, I have no way to pay for treatment. Suicide has been popping in my head lately. I'm very logical and I know this isn't normal but I just don't seem to care. I have CC debt, a repossession, checking account gone because of overdrafts...and more shit. After a year of looking for a job, my university degree got me a job for $ an hour...I got my first check today, but I can't deposit it or cash it because my bank account is dead; what a fucking slap in the face. I just dunno what to do or think. | suicide |
Classmate who is a Redditor of ish years got pissy at me since I have more karma than him. He looked throughout my profile and he saw how I had a younger Reddit account than his and I had x more karma. He got so mad he screamed at me at the top of his lungs about how I cheated the karma and he was sent to the office because this apparently wasnt the *first time*. | non-suicide |
HAHAH SORRY THAT IM NOT MENTALLY ILL IN A CUTE QUIRKY WAY IM JUST GENUINELY VERY FUCKED UP I WOULD TELL U TO DISTANCE YOURSWLF FROM ME BECAUSE I CAN BE VERY TOXIC BUT LETS BE REAL I WILL MOST LIKELY RUIN OUR RELATIONSHIP BY JUST BEING ME LMAO | non-suicide |
FantasizingI want to blow my brains out with a gauge ronnie mcnutt style. Fuck love | suicide |
i keep tryna flirt with someone but like, they're literally so dumb like, i literally viewed their ig story but thry cant take a hint, ugh like, what part of that isnt clear?? im literally in love with you | non-suicide |
I'm a bad personI deal with anger a lot. I eventually hurt everyone who I become close to. I recently made friends with a girls and was the happiest I've ever been. Then in the time of her greatest need I failed her and made many mistakes and said the wrong things. She literally ran away from me. I haven't gotten the chance to apologize because she told me not to text her and that she needs space. Because I've wronged this one friend the other friend has developed a different view of me and we're not friends anymore either. I hurt the person with whom I shared more about myself than I have everyone in my life combined. To the point where there is no repairing the relationship, it's over. Then today I found out I need to leave right after I take my midterm tomorrow and go back home to watch my one of my dogs be euthanized, I love my dogs more than literally anything or anyone in the world. I hurt my friends, and they ran away. I have no purpose and no friends. I am broken and by far the lowest I've ever been. | suicide |
I Really Can't Do This AnymoreI've about had it with living. I'm only , it's my first year of college, and I don't know how the fuck I am going to pay for my next semesters. I'd sell myself as a prostitute but I'm too ugly for that, my parents will probably cut me off financially, and I don't know how the fuck I will pay for all the student loans I will have to take out. My job is shit and I can't get a better one, and if I drop out then I definitely can't get a good job. I wish I was brave like one of my family friends who hung himself a few months ago, but I'm too much of a pussy. Sorry for all the cussing, I'm super stressed out and I have just had it. | suicide |
What is Life?To me its corrupted by selfishness and greed; it was encouraged by others and is now taking over at this very moment. I sometimes think if I end it; ill be happy, I wont be stuck in some harmful world, and I will end it all. Were all just creatures put here randomly, just to work and be part of an unjust system. I feel nothing at all. I feel like drugs are my only way to truly feel. They take me out of reality while i lay in my bed seeing nothing but an empty image. Everything is bullshit; i help others, but i dont take my advice. I need help, but my parent wont consider it. Im a good kid in school, i get good grades so i can feel im worth something, but in the end it feels like wasted time. I have no effort now; i try to do work, but i just dont have anymore energy. My time is getting closer and closer, and i feel it. I cant sleep at all, when i do i fuck up my schooling. I cant focus. I can cry, but theres no emotions attached. I suspect BPD at this point. I need help. | suicide |
How do I tell my mom Im about ready to commit suicide without making her feel guiltymy mom took away electronics because Ive been spending too much time on them (IM not on for more than an hour a day since school started because Im busy). I was actually happy today. I felt confident in myself and was ready to study hard and enjoy life. Unfortunately my mom said out of the blue that i couldnt be on electronics for anything other than school. this knocked me down where I was before and I have a literal plan to kms right now as a result. My mom kinda sabotaged my only healthy coping mechanism rn and I just want to die. I love my mom but I need to tell her before I stick my head under a car | suicide |
Im going to kill myself by next weekI tried to talk to my brother but all he does is shout at me No one cares I dont try to fight at all The world clearly dont want me here so Im done | suicide |
Imma buy a waifu Who wants to be my waifu Ill pay | non-suicide |
ohhhh my friend once told me I have no girlfriend tell me that again so funny | non-suicide |
"Looking off the the edge and I'm picturing the fallCause I don't want to break my legs and have to carry on, If I carry on I'm gon need some marijuana, put it in my bong then I make another song." -Lil Peep Just a verse in a song that stuck out to me and wanted to share. Whatever you are going through in life please know that someone loves you. | suicide |
now i go and / of a mile also i am eating somewhat healthy, i hope this all pays off | non-suicide |
Ive hit rock bottomI am and Im already planning on committing suicide very soon only reason that I havent done it yet is because Im terrified how will my sister feel but I just cant do it anymore Some reasons are the . pandemic and me being scared of not getting sick .my parents dont have a lot of dont have to much money saved and Im a waste of it . My sister is working a lot and when shes home she never want to talk . I just went through a break up .my aunt thinks I stole money from her and I didnt .my dad is toxic and my mom also even tho she tries .i always am just an annoying and un trustworthy I am putting a burden on everyone around me The list keeps going and I dont know what to do because my therapist doesnt do his job right and cutting doesnt help so Im going to end it | suicide |
The world needs to blow up as soon as possible And if you think that we can change stuff without that, you are as wrong as it get. You are either ignorant or self-centred if you don't see what's happening around us. Yes, all the negativity gets overwhelming. Yes, feeling that you alone cant do anything makes me feel weak too. | non-suicide |
Kill meSomebody kill me so I wont have too end my own life. | suicide |
I'm at a party right now. Tell me some good truth or dare challanges or questions. Please? I need help. If they call on me I'm gonna he fucked big time. Please help. | non-suicide |
I just found out that Guns and Roses is named after the Last Names of the guys who made the band Ndhvshsbbsbsbsbdbbzbbdbdbbdbdbdbbdhdbdbbdbdjdndbbdbbdbdbbdbdbdbdbbdbdbdbdbbdbbdbdhdhdddhbdbbdbbdbdbdbbdb | non-suicide |
People who watch dubbed anime are genetically superior than people who watched subbed anime Dub watchers can watch anime and be epic gamers while the stinky unepic sub watchers have to learn a whole new language if they want to game while watching. | non-suicide |
HiHello, I am suicidal, planning to die by December. it is either propose to my partner or die. I have been alone my whole life. I don't Really know if she will stick around, or she just feel bad for me. she does love me or so she says. I got kicked out by my stepmom for not mopping because I was sick, I always get shit on at that house anyways. I was more suicidal then I got better when I left. But I am all alone. Nobody wanted to be my friend they just keep leaving me :( is it because I am ugly? don't know how to socialize. I don't know, I know that my english is bad but what can I do. Hi. | suicide |
i just want a hug. i havent been hugged in so long. filler folelr tfilemeri fielrr foller filerr :D | non-suicide |
I don't know if I can compete with other men in dating.I'm kissless, dateless virgin with Asperger's. five foot . Average face. How can I compete with taller, better looking neurotypical men? I think my case is hopeless. I don't know what to do. I just want to be loved. | suicide |
I am back!!! After I started lent a couple days late I am now back after being offline for a long time! | non-suicide |
lookin for friends :) i'm lookin for someone to just talk n hang with! i'm very outgoin n i looove to talk, so just go ahead n dm me! :D | non-suicide |
Rational suicideI recently read Mitchell Heisman's [suicide note]( his work has made me ponder on why I should continue living. In essence, Heisman argues that life is meaningless and, because self-preservation equals self-destruction, suicide is the only reasonable choice, when biases have been overcame. Are these arguments compelling enough so as to commit suicide? | suicide |
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Anyone wants to text? I'm pretty bored and I dunno what to do. Anyone would like to text? I'm a guy that really likes video games and anime, anyone wants to talk? | non-suicide |
I'm so fucking scared.I worked so fucking hard to rekindle my mental health since I attempted suicide when I was a teenager. I feel so alone. I'm so fucking scared. My entire fucking life just falls apart piece by fucking piece. Why couldn't I have just died when I tried back then? Why the fuck did you have to save me? I don't want to be here anymore. I'm so fucking scared. I'm so fucking alone. I can't do this anymore. I have tried. I can't find the light at the end of the tunnel. I dont see tje beauty anymore. I cant find my tomorrow. I'm so sorry. Please. I don't want to die. I don't want to live. | suicide |
no idea what im doing right now man. i know what i have to do but its so hard for me. ive been barely getting by for a long time but it seems to get harder and harder. im fucking myself over lol | suicide |
My ex says he wants to kill himself frequently. I have no idea if he's serious, what should I do?He's always been a very negative person, everything that happens is shit and he seems to be incapable of finding true joy in things. Sure he can be happy when playing starcraft for example, but I get the idea he's never been truly happy, not even with me. He's said that I was the only positive thing that ever happened to him, that he doesn't deserve a person like me because he's so messed up and that I make him happ**ier**... but not happy. Not even a person who loves him with all her heart can make him happy. Multiple times, even before we broke up (he broke up with me btw), he said he wants to kill himself, or he wished he were dead, out of the blue and I have no idea how to respond to that, especially now that we've broke up. He seems to have all the symptoms of a depression yet he doesn't want to seek help ("what help could talking to a shrink do..?") and before and after the break up I've tried to support him as much as I can. He's unemployed and I keep encouraging him to send out application letters, the only possible next step would be to write the letters for him... Just now I tried to make him promise to at least try once a day to write the letter (he has one but it needs to be adjusted to fit the jobs he's applying for) and his response was "I'm trying hard not to kill myself >.>" Is this serious? Is this just a cry for attention since we've broke up? Do I ignore it or force him to see a psychiatrist? I don't know what to do and my world would crash if he ever did kill himself :( PS: he's , I'm . | suicide |
dear moderators Dear moterators of r/teenagers why have you removed the image and video post option, theres so many posts made with photo and video, and i even posted a photo like days ago | non-suicide |
psst, hey kid c'mere If no one is perfect, then why do you exist? anyways that's all, gimme a kith gn | non-suicide |
Who DOESN'T have depression here? I just see majority of people have depression which I understand is normal but I'm curious who doesn't have it :))) | non-suicide |
So how the fuck do February birthdays work You the wait yror say fuck it and change it to March | non-suicide |
they should ban guns so everyone has to use bows and swords Gangs would turn into armies of people with armor and excalibur and shit. | non-suicide |
I talked to a few people on internet and.. And they recommended me that I should visit a therapist, so I searched for a therapist and found out there are none in my city. | non-suicide |
Its pointlessIts pointless if the relationship is one sided. I know it seems something dumb but still. Together for years with a kid. She isnt the same girl I fell in love with back in high school (M/F). Shes changed from a loving kind hearted girlfriend to a cold and distant one. I dont know what else to do aside from ending it really. She doesnt even care if I want to spend time with her or anything . I cant go through with shared custody or anything. I wouldnt have the will in me to do so or the will to end my life. I just dont want to live in a place or world like that. | suicide |
Theres a freshman in my Algebra class Im sad cause that couldve been me, I used to be years ahead in math but then I had to get depressed and fail school and now I feel stupid :( | non-suicide |
Speaking honestlyI feel like I cant tell anyone what goes on in my head. I always have to edit myself before I speak. Ive tried being honest before and I lost those friends. I even lost a therapist. My friends always tell me I can talk to them if I need to, but I am too scared to do that. Nobody knows how to handle me. Thats what my mom told me tonight, though I already knew that. And she said that everyone is in over their heads with me. And when people I love go quiet its because they dont know how to respond to what Im going through. Yeah. I know. They go quiet because theyre getting ready to leave. I am tired of being abandoned. It seems that reddit is the only place I can speak my mind these days. Even then, its not like anyone actually reads the shit I post. Im ready for it all to be over. | suicide |
I hate everythingi dont think i can do this my anxiety is too much . i was diagnosed with so much anxiety disorders that its taken my life. im anxious / to the point where i cant function about EVERYTHING most of it revolves around my health im a hypochondriac and i also have panic disorder. im scared of everything im scared of ANXIETY i just wanna stay in a mental hospital and get help there and im too fucking scared to commit suicide but this is like torture my life is like hell ive been crying all day i had a breakdown and im just so exhausted i do therapy and i just recently started taking meds prozac but i havent noticed anything at first i was really encouraged and excited but overtime i just dont care anymore | suicide |
y'all simping for belle delphine i simp for miku hatsune | non-suicide |
Being diagnosed with PTSDRecently my GP diagnosed me with PTSD. I have a psychiatrist appointment on Monday for a proper diagnosis. Before the start of this week, if someone asked me if I wanted to hurt or kill myself I would say no. Now my response has changed to I do t know. I'm not sure what to do. | suicide |
Over half the class isnt active in group discussions Is it like this for your class? | non-suicide |
I want to go away.I want to go away, so far away. I dont want to go anywhere though, I just want to be gone. I cant, though. Im stuck. Feet firmly locked in this place, because my parents swear that theyll kill themselves if I do such a drastic thing. That makes me feel even more stuck in this prison. I understand why they say it, but fuck. I dont want anything bad to happen to them just because Im so desperate for a taste of peace. Then theres my girlfriend, honestly the only person I really care about whatsoever. You might say But you just mentioned your parents, theyre innocent bystanders to me. Of course I care. I dont like the idea of my death bringing them an eternity of pain, should there be an afterlife. Nobody deserves that, other than me. But my girlfriend, I love her. A lot. Too much, maybe. Im beginning to realize she might not love me the same, though... she might not even love me at all. I dont know where to go, who to turn to. I dont want new people in my life, I dont want anyone to say Are you okay? or be worried. I dont want any of this shit. I want out. If I wanted sympathy, Id post on all my social media I WANT TO KILL MYSELF! and let it rip from there. I dont want that though. Preferably if I went through with it, nobody would necessarily know. I think the biggest thing holding me back right now is just wondering if my girlfriend would miss me, if shed wish I were back here rather than the oblivion that I dream of. Shes the only person that ever made my life feel worth living, and shes the only reason its worth living right now. I feel so much guilt, anguish. Its nobodys fault that I want this except for my own, and I dont understand why I want it so bad right now. I just want to flutter free. I dont know who I am, or what to do anymore. I just want her to hold me, one more time. But I cant. Shes out of town. So maybe I have to wait all weekend. Maybe I have to wait longer. I feel sick. I feel fucked up. I feel lost. I dont want any sympathy, I just desperately wanted to rant without anyone who knows me growing concerned. | suicide |
I visited r/femaledatingadvice I'm a guy btw. What the actual fuck. I got annoyed by seeing the first posts. Wtf | non-suicide |
I'm gonna sneak out tonight. I just kinda want to see what it's like to take a walk at night. I have a good playlist and no one will notice I'm gone. I practiced climbing the backyard fence so I'm good in that area. I'll be going to a nice hill about one and a half miles away that has a lot of people chilling on it in the day, but very little at the later hours. I'll prolly just chill for like half an hour and then go home lol. | non-suicide |
My friend will see this so can everyone say, fuck u beanz because i don't like him right now | non-suicide |
Having a group of like minded suicidal friends is helping me a lotBefore I had no one to talk about depression and suicide with but. But my circle of suicidal friends, who are always there to listen to me is helping me a lot. I think the fact that they are suicidal too makes its better Bc they wont judge me but they hear me out and relate. I named this group of friends the PSI club. It stands for passive suicidal ideation club. | suicide |
I sometimes think how easy it would be to kill someone Like there are weapons everywhere and the human body is super fragile. It is way too easy to stab someone in the back | non-suicide |
I'm not like other girls Because I'm not a girl ;) | non-suicide |
I just hid in a room for an hour just to scare someone And once I do it they say: oh hey... | non-suicide |
Sick of this life, beyond all hopeNothing gives makes me happy, just sick of swinging between mania (spend all my money, doing stupid pointless shit) to depression (realise all the stupid things i did while manic... then back to the middle, then rinse and repeat... cant work, no relationships, no friends, no hope... why fucking bother going on when things just keep getting worse by increments... think suicide really is the solution to all my problems... no one will miss me... in fact my corpse will only be found after the neighbors start complaining about the smell... fuck this shit... | suicide |
I'm tired. I'm tired of always being betrayed. Always being forgotten. Always being so quickly replaced. I'm hurting all over physically and emotionally. I don't want to keep going.It's unfair. I never got the choice to be put into this life. Why am I not allowed to make the choice to leave it? Why is it so wrong. I'm easily forgotten and all that shit about family and friends is nothing because their pain will last months tops, where as mine has lasted years. What reason is there? What reason is there to keep going? The thought of anything causes a literal throng of pain to shoot into my chest. Too much. I'm going to bed now and I'm hoping to not wake up, but I know I will. I hate it. So what's the reason? Why can't I end it? Because lord knows I want to but im afraid. I'm not sure of what since I desperately wish to have my existence wiped off the face of the earth, but I'm too cowardly to do it alone. But each passing day just a tad bit more of courage passes into me. So what's the reason to keep going when everything hurts so badly and has been hurting so badly for so long. Why won't the suffering just end? What purpose is there in this insanity? Why do I need to deal with it each and every waking moment? | suicide |
no friendsno one ever wants to hang out with me. everyone got invited to my "friends" house except me. no one ever texts to ask if i want to hang out i always have to reach out myself. and theyre always busy with someone else. whats the point | suicide |
I really don't know where to turn to anymore.I'm .i haven't had a stable place to call home since I was . Moving around here and there and as soon as things start going well and I move on the the next step in my plans for a better future, everything falls to shit. I've had to rebuild my life from scratch about nine times now. When I say from scratch, I mean the only thing I had to my name was a shitty phone and the clothes on my back. I'm done doing this over and over again for it to always end up this way. I can't do it anymore. I'm currently homeless, penniless, and hungry, sitting with the only things I own in life in my shitty car that won't go more than a mile without breaking down. I actually own the car! Can't even sell it though because I can't afford the insurance and it's a PoS! What else is there? I tried to get another job, but guess what? Credit Check!! And I recently got evicted from my apartment to I couldn't even get the job because of a fucking imaginary digit bullshit number! I don't have family or friends I can go to get back on my feet and the state/city I live in is very expensive. Even if I did get a job, I couldn't even pay to get to work and at this point, that's too much time. I had goals and a plan and even motivation, but life keeps wanting to give me the good ole fuck you kick back down the stairs and this time I'm not getting back up. I'm stuck in an endless cycle that I've been dealing with for years. I tried, I really did every single day of this worthless shitty existence. Nothing became of it. I failed at every turn. I'm tired y'all. I don't have the strength to keep doing this and every single time I've asked for help, I've always gotten the same bull. Oh, I'll pray for you, you can't give up, it'll get better. It doesn't for some people, it just keeps going on. I'm not asking for help anymore cause it doesn't do anything. I'm just asking for understanding. This is too difficult for one person to deal with while I see people that don't try a day in their life get rewarded. Throwing in the towel sounds times better than going another years of this. | suicide |
Heres an award for all you awesome people wearing masks. Im poor :/ | non-suicide |
The guy in r/confessions stirs up my inner TRP'er, but I would much rather die than to take the nuclear option and go all Santa Monica on women.Because honestly, as much as I despise being a -something virgin and blame it on female culture, I hate myself and my life even more, especially my chronic lifetime misfortune and murphy's law. And so, I am ***much*** more inclined to turn my anger and hate inwards onto myself instead of hurting other people. Not to mention, that trp sub is just alpha male bullshit and I get disgusted and turned off from subscribing every time I see it. But tonight was the blood moon. Perfect opportunity to fucking off myself before I hurt someone. I shall probably blame it on the blood moon eclipse just to mess with people once they find my bloody dead carcass. | suicide |
Hooga chooga hoog a choo hooga chooga Hooga boobs chooga chooga hooga hooog a chu gaa | non-suicide |
I'm trying to summarize everything but I can't.It's not going to matter in the end. The pain has gone from mental to physical. I can't sit here with myself. I'm in agony. I'm hyperventilating and my chest hurts. This has to stop right now. | suicide |
Any tips on procrastination I'm procrastinating a lot rn and any tips would be nice | non-suicide |
yea i'm fucking done with lifei'm fucking going do it i'm done with life just going end it but idk if i should do it i'm transgender i live in a all male apartment just going end it but idk when not now it's not a good time but sooner then later forsure btw my name is jade and i'm a transgender woman | suicide |
Gonna go cook some ramen boys And I don't mean instant noodles. You guys always seem to mean instant noodles when you talk about ramen. Like I hate instant noodles but everyone here seems to love them | non-suicide |
UghI've been suicidal for a while and like just this girl has been recently just really making me want to do it. A couple months ago we met and were hanging out every day and we always laughed and just had a ton of fun. I unfortunately fell in love with her, asked her out, and she said I'm really nice and she likes me, but she thinks she can do better with looks. This was probably like a month ago, and I pretty much got over her, after being depressed for a while. This week she was flirting with me and telling me that she likes me a lot and she wants to hang out this weekend. I still love her so I said yeah let's do it. Now that the weekend is here, she told me she actually doesn't want to hang out. I was really excited and thought I might actually have something to do this weekend but nope I guess not. Now I'll just sleep and be depressed. Want to die | suicide |
TimerWhat can you do if you have days left to live? | suicide |
i really want to end ityo female just a few ago i took both bottles of my mg and mg fluoxetine pills. that was around -mg as i downed both bottles. i dont know what happened really, i took my normal dose at first (one mg and one mg) and then i just... took another- and another. soon i realized i had taken both of the bottles. i panicked, i didnt realize what i was doing until it was already done. im not going to get into why im depressed/why i have trauma because,,,, no- but my dad walked in because he heard me crying, he saw me take the last pill because i didnt notice he was in the room and he basically put two and two together. he forced me to throw up in front of him and hes not making me sleep in the same bed as him. (again this all happened tonight) as of right now i snuck out and made myself a pallet on the ground in the living room so i can be alone. im worried because he didnt take me to an urgent care or anything, but i dont think he really knows what to do and i think hes in denial. is it bad that i have no remorse and that i wish he never walked in. this shit sucks btw headaches and pains all over your body, you can get hot flashes and end up really shaky. i mean thats what happened to me. i just.. i want to try again. | suicide |
I woke up wishing I didn't exist and wanting to die today. It was a pretty shit morning, and I felt like such a worthless disappointment, but then I found out it was international Monkey day and as silly as it was it made me happy. I spent the whole day on discord in VC with my friends who are a couple, and my childhood friend and I had a really deep conversation and I found out just how much she valued me as a friend. I even took some time in the day to widdle, and it made me feel really relaxed even if I did cut myself accidentally. For a couple hours ive just been in bed reading web comics and listening to Brazilian doomer music. Life may not be the best and I may be going through a rough patch but I think I can make it another day thanks for listening and goodnight / goodmorning :> | non-suicide |
I've finally figured it outI was never supposed to be born.Im a mistake, a freak of nature.So much so that my estranged,dying father doesn't even want to see me, my extended family hates me but adores my brother, and My children do not care about me at all, and besides my older two are teenagers and really don't want/need me anymore anyway.Pills don't work, so I'm planning on jumping off a bridge into the river.Tommorow will be my last day on earth.No one will ever be able to hurt me again. | suicide |
I wish I had a way to end it nowBut i guess thats my rational side looking out for me. I have knives but no guns or pills, nowhere high enough to jump from. Maybe that needs to change, though. Im an idiot, but surely I can find something to take this pain away But first, I need more alcohol | suicide |
Day of posting until a homophobe makes a well conceived argument without falacies. I just realized that this may be a several year commitment. Anyway my posts after this will probably include screenshots of debates if any come up. | non-suicide |
why is this world so cruel?good night. im bella, a yo ballerina with a really sweet family and amazing friends, but i cant do this anymore, please help me. i dont want to be here anymore, im so scared and i dont want to die, but everything is so scary now please help im sorry my grammar is not the best, im not a native english speaker. my biggest fear is death, and on top of that, i live in one of the most violent countries in the world. i was recently diagnosed with depression and im so sorry if im being childish but this is so scary. everything about it. i dont want to die. but i dont want to suffer anymore. i wanted my life to be cheerful and happy but this is so hard and difficult my antidepressants dont do anything, i keep getting sad even when i think im okay. my parents love me, and so does my puppy, my little mouse and my friends. why is this world so bad? i wish i wasnt born so i wouldnt be crying here now. i just want everything to be okay and i want to be happy too. i dont want to see people hurting, i dont want to see tragedies or dead bodies anymore. why cant everyone be okay? i cant leave the people i love without hurting them, but how do i cope with this? im so young and i have a lot to live but depression is so awful and hurtful and it never goes away, i just want to disappear. all this guilt is so bad, why doesnt it ever end? please help me i dont want to die it hurts so much | suicide |
Why did every girl I've seen this watch laugh in amazement? Why do they find Cassie Cage's "Testi-kill" so awesome? I don't care it's just a video game, that doesn't explain it. For those who don't know what I'm talking about: [ Just please someone explain it to me. Why does this amuse them so much or cause them so much joy. Why? How is this different from a game where a male character can ram knives specifically into the vaginas of female characters, and that's his "special move", and you see the vagina being destroyed? And then guys laughed at it and found it awesome because "boypower"? | non-suicide |
Yo does anyone wanna speak If ya wanna have a talk pm me bro | non-suicide |
At peace with suicideI'm at peace with the fact I will kill myself soon. No one can stop me. No beds available on a psych ward. Only nights at a house place but then I'd have to return here. The only thing that would stop me for awhile would be having my own place but I can't afford the places available for long so it will just add stress. I don't plan on being alive for the new year. In fact I was going to do it tonight but my migraine is so bad I can't do it. I have doctors tomorrow but like I said, no beds available so he can't even stop me. Nothing can stop me. I'm beyond help. | suicide |
Happy birthday! ! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday Speedwagon! Happy birthday to you and again! ! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday Speedwagon! Happy birthday to you ONE MORE TIME FOR OUR FRIEND SPEEDWAGON ! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday Speedwagon! Happy birthday to you AND EVERYONE TOGETHER ON !!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPEEDWAGON!!!!!!!!!! | non-suicide |
im okI completely forgot I made this throwaway, and reading back on the post I made here made me feel kinda awkward... Im doing better now, at least mentally. | suicide |
I've been staying in a hotel room for about months now and I'm sick of it My family consists of people, dogs, and sugar gliders. There is no personal space unless you're in the bathroom. | non-suicide |
Random fact DAY % of the worlds diet is produced from just plant and five different animal species. | non-suicide |