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I dont know why im still hereI just hate it. My mom always pisses me off telling me "you're such a disappointment" every single fucking day. I'm not doing very well at school either. Im starting to think my friends are fake. They talk behind my back. Im not getting good grades and everyone layghs at me. I feel mad and sad everyday even though nothing happened. I'm sad right now but I don't have anything to be sad at. I don't know why I'm posting this. I think I just need to talk to someone right now. Well I guess that's it. Good night everyone and I hope if this day was bad for you. Hopefully your next day can be better . well goodbye | suicide |
I am planning to kill myselfHello Everyone, I am a year old girl, who has been depressed since the last \- years. Since the last two days I have been thinking of killing myself. I have low self confidence and barely any friends. I fell in love with someone but they left me too.Despite me being very kind and nice to him. I live far away from my parents in a different country as the situation in my house is hell. My parents fight and physically abuse each other almost everyday and support from them both financially and physically is impossible. Aside from that , I have alopecia areata which means I have lost a lot of my hair. I am a girl and its very unsual for me to have it . Again, having bald spots prohibits me from going out from my home and ever make friends. As I am writing this , I think I have finally given up. I dont think there is any hope for me anymore. I used to be such a happy girl but I cant believe where I have ended up now. This is my first reddit or post in any forum and I want to know what would you do if you were me. I have tried to start up lots of business and worked jobs , but thats just not coming through for me. I just wanted everyone to know, i tried..... | suicide |
WHY DONT JAPPY MEALS MAKE ME HAPPY [MCDONALDS, THATS FALSE ADVERTISING!!!]( | non-suicide |
This entirely describes what a teenager is. [ | non-suicide |
Bored, so heres a list showcasing my music taste Oh No!--Marina and the diamonds Premadonna girl--Marina and the diamonds Laughing--The guess who Hot mess--Cobra starship Back to the streets--Saweetie Kings and Queens ||--Ava max Freaking me out, bingo players mix--Ava max Lonely day--System of a down Creep--Radiohead Do i wanna know--The Arctic Monkeys Beggin--Madcon Miss Murder--AFI Get it up--MSI Shut me up--MSI Lights out--MSI Break my heart--dua lupa COLORADOSUNRISE--OH Funhouse--p!nk Girls/girls/boys--panic at the disco We dont have to dance--Andy black Tnks fr th mrms--fall out boy --anarbor Love me dead--Ludo Cult of dionysus--The Orion experience Whipped cream--Ludo Heres a few of em, what do you guys think? | non-suicide |
What is this feeling What is the feeling of when you like someone so much that you are so happy to talk with them and have them in your life to be happy for them and just so happy to be alive when youre with them | non-suicide |
I stabbed myselfI'm tired of being bullied. | suicide |
Can yall give me some advice(Sensitive topic- money) I have $ in my account right now and I cant decide if I should split it between my checkings and savings equally or if I should put $ into savings and $ into checkings what should I do :(( (Also Im not rich its all from stimulus checks) | non-suicide |
Please read.I've already posted once and I've had a few people talk to me. I just, I'm waiting for the right words, if that makes sense. I appreciate that they tried, but it didn't really help so please read.  [ | suicide |
Sometimes I feel like I want to disappear....Sometimes when I wake up like this morning I just wanted to disappear just for alittle while so I wont go to work and do school work. Im just so tired I just want to be alone left alone from others just for a day. | suicide |
. Depressed.I've been depressed for around four years now. I didn't graduate highschool because I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed in the morning. I didn't go to prom, I'm ugly as shit, I've never been to a party, I'm awkward. I was lucky enough to get a beautiful girlfriend, we were together for years, I broke up with her because I was depressed, she was my only friend. Everyday It's the same loop, I wake up, I browse reddit for hours, I work my . an hour job, I get home and browse reddit some more, I then cry myself to sleep, repeat. I don't have what it takes to kill myself but I cant wait til the day I die. I hope I get in a car accident on the way to work today. I have ZERO friends, no one to talk to, no one to chill with, no one to laugh with. Every single day for the last four years I just think about how peaceful it would be to just die right now. I have no motivation, I'll never be successful at this rate, I'll be working a . an hour job for the rest of my life until I die, which I hope is sooner rather than later. | suicide |
I need dating advice So I've been talking to this girl (she's way out of my league) but she's been showing me a good amount of interest in me and she also likes to play roblox but I don't I'd rather play warframe and shooter games but I play it (roblox) so we can get closer (not simping btw) but I've recently been pushing her to play warframe and she isn't rlly showing much interest in the game so I wanted to ask what's some fun things that we could do online because of the pandemic(or else I would've already taken her out) | non-suicide |
I'm sleeping on the floorIn a halfway house with therapists on duty and I cam't even muster the energy to ask them for help like they see me crying and they already know I want to kill myself so why do I even need to ask at this point | suicide |
School today was awful I was late to two of my classes and my teachers were high key judging me for it but idk what they expect and Im technically allowed to be a bit late but they were still annoyed and now Im annoyed | non-suicide |
The suicidal thoughts won't stop.I'm eighteen. I grew up in a very poor and physically and emotionally abusive home. I was neglected and to make matters worse I was severely bullied though middle school and moderately bullied in high school. I got engaged before I graduated and I was also kicked out of my home before I graduated high school. My family didn't come to my graduation, the only person there for me was my fiance. I've lived in the shadow of my genius best friend all of our lives, and she is constantly putting me down because she's smarter than me. We are roommates in college and I made the decision to drop out. We have been here for days and I have hysterically cried everyday since we've been here. She only got worse when I told her I was dropping out and made me feel like complete shit. She's also told multiple people that I am leaving so my phone has been going off all day because of people texting me and facebook messaging me about how I am ruining my life, I will never go back to college, I am letting down everyone who believed in me, and I will just be another statistic. As if I didn't already feel like shit about this. But I can't handle it anymore. I desperately want to kill myself, but I don't have the balls to do it. I can't hurt my fiance like that, and I couldn't do that to my family, even though we are all messed up. I feel like I have no where to go, no one to talk to. I feel isolated and worthless. I want to kill myself. go find a building to jump off or something. But I can't. I can't force myself to go through with it and it's eating me away from the inside. I don't know what to do. | suicide |
Not really suicidal, just reckless. I just took mg Wellbutrin, -.x the seizure threshold.No effect hour in. It's standard Wellbutrin, not XR or SR. I want to seize to get rid of responsibilities for a while. Burdensome | suicide |
How to kill random boners in PUBLIC its really embrassing filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
am going to do iteveryones talking at once. its so bad. im bad. deserve to die, bad bad bad im so sorry. i dont know how, theres too many ideas. im sorry | suicide |
My last post on here (prob won't be seen since this sub is really blowing up with the self pity)nvm | suicide |
Pay me to do your homework (CHEAP) Need homework help? Hey guys! Im Emily and Im a year old junior in high school trying to make some extra pocket change. I have straight As and can provide proof. Im offering my help doing any assignments (worksheets, PowerPoint presentations, notes, outlines, and essays) for reasonable/ cheap prices! Essays and presentations must be warned at least a week in advance. An extra bucks will be charged if its due within the next days. I am proficient in: Chemistry algebra and Precalculus Geometry Biology US history environmental science European history Any English class Wood tech If any of you are interested please private message me and we could negotiate! Depending on the length and difficulty of the work prices may change. Worksheets: dollars per page Powerpoints: dollars per slide Notes: dollars per page Outlines: dollars per page Essays: dollars per page. | non-suicide |
it's overi tried patching things up from the group but nothing is working. they all hate me, and the one person i have left doesn;t want anything to do with me i can't stand the fact that one fight ruined everything i can't fix it i can't i want to fucking die i just want a friend. i want someone to love me. i want someone to care, i just don't want to be alone anymore. i'm done. i hate this. i'm alone. i want to fucking die | suicide |
i wanna thank a very good friend so i got in a fight with a group of kids they are already trying to get me for days he helped me the whole way (he got the school head master to help and escorted me around) but then the boys came to him to beat him up AGAINST FUCKING FUCKING PUSSYS and i wasnt there to help cuz i was to bussy with other stuff, i already got a panick attack from this and even worse those kida are still searching for me. i just wanna thank him youre a amazing human being kas and i couldnt do without you, golden legend < | non-suicide |
I finally confessed my love to my best friend today and we are now dating. Ive known this girl for years. Shes my best friend. Overtime, I started to develop deep feelings for her. Once I came out as lesbian, I fell hard. Shes a really pretty, talented, kind girl, and I cant think of anyone better. I had to move away from her a year and a half ago, and havent seen her since. So, naturally, we started dating over a Discord call. Very romantic, I know. All day my anxiety was telling me that I was going to be rejected, and I was terrified. When the big moment came, I said it immediately. She didnt know how to respond but after a few minutes I asked her if its a yes or no. She said yes. Im not officially the happiest girl in the world. | non-suicide |
There are types of people based on Corona One thinks it stand for beer, the thinks it stands for the virus | non-suicide |
Im a loser and a disappointment and I'll never amount to anythingI can't drive, don't have a job, have a girlfriend that never responds to my messages, dropped out most of my classes I was supposed to take this semester, and am so stupid I can't do simple actions like playing video games. Im no where near where I'm supposed to be in life. Im a complete loser. A disappointment to all those around me. I tried changing myself to make others like me but it didn't work. I just wanna fucking die so I stop being a disappointment. | suicide |
Suicide is imminent.I came across a bottle of tricyclic antidepressants and Im feeling really bad with no hope of ever getting better. Its only a matter of time before I try to kill myself again. | suicide |
I just wanted to happy vent about my day I've recently gotten out of a bad depression fu k which really sucked but oh man am I do happy right now. My only desire is to feel like how a teenager should feel, and today I feel that way. I've been listening to some good music from the s which really brought me back and I'm wearing a really good outfit. Last night I went for a night drive with my brother just visiting different chill areas. Today I've had just the best day. I've talked with my friends for a while, saw my boyfriend, had some good discussions with my fav teachers, I hung out with a street cat, dance walked along the sidewalks, picked some flowers, eaten a ton of candy, and kicked a trump sign. It was so fun because people would smile as they passed me and the cat chilling together, they smiled when they saw me dance walking on the sidewalk, and a car full of girls all cheered with me when I kicked the flag I'm just so happy and as I'm writing this I have a big goofy grin on my face :)))))). How have yall days been?? | non-suicide |
Anger helps me want to live.But today I have nothing but sadness in my heart. No happiness of course, which isnt unusual, but also no anger. Not even a tiny tinge of ire. I cant even be irritated by the usual nonsense around me. Im just void of everything but an abysmal sadness. I noticed that when I am angry it makes me want to change the way things are. I dont understand where the anger went. I have been drained somehow. I dont want to change anymore. No more mountains for me to climb. I just want to get engulfed by my own sadness. The abyss is so deep, who knows how far it goes. I know you all know what I mean. Thanks for those of you who understand. | suicide |
Breakdowns and stimmingI found out my mom is still using, addiction is a disease. She just lies and lies and lies. I'm not even allowed to be angry because then my grandpa scolds me. I usually don't have breakdowns but everything was loud and so much and I was thinking and my mind was so fast. Once I started crying and hyperventilating, I started thinking even more. I thought about my life and my friends and the future and my ex and my worth. And then all the suicidal thoughts flooded my mind, I wanna be shot, I want to be stabbed in the head, I wanna swallow pills, I want to die. I started pulling my hair, pulling and pulling, and I wanted to scream. I stayed silent the entire time. I want to die. I want to die so badly. I felt the urge so badly, I got my pills out and I don't know how I turned that around. I didn't take them, but things might change. All my senses were flooded and there were just so many thoughts running through my mind. I hate everything and want all my friends gone, they all make me worried and anxious and scared. I don't know what people think and it makes me terrified. I don't know how to fix myself, I want so badly to be normal. But I can't be normal, it's not fucking possible. I feel like the only solution is suicide. And I know I can do things, but how long will I have to feel so absolutely miserable? It's so unfair and I can't stand this loneliness. If I killed myself, my family may hurt, but that won't be my problem once I'm gone, they can go absolutely ape shit if they want. I should feel bad, I do, but wow do I want to die. | suicide |
I was going to wait but Im not sure I can...Hi, So Im a year old mum of from the north of England. I had a pretty shitty few years and my abusive ex told me I would never amount to anything. So I went out and I did. I got the career, the money. Technically I have it all. But to do it I have to work away while my kids live at home with my other ex (none abusive). He cheated on me a couple of years ago and I tried to stay and make it work but I left in January and we stayed friends. Ive been asking to get back with him for months but he says he got over me. Doesnt love me. Hes the father of my children. He was always my biggest supporter. Ive been suicidal on an off for years. We were meant to be going as a family to Jamaica in October. The kids still think Im going but I told him last night I cant handle it. My plan was to give them the holiday and one last Christmas then kill myself in February. Ive been working so hard recently that I can leave them enough money to keep them comfortable. I cant stay alive to watch them move on. He doesnt know it when I say that if he moves on with another woman it will be over my dead body that I mean it. I cant do it. I cant watch it. Its been months and Im not coping. Anyway Ive been trying to take it a day at a time and Im done. Ive been trying to hang on to give the kids their holiday and their Christmas but Im in so much pain it physically hurts. I just want my family back. Im the girl who seems to have everything but I have nothing. Im so empty. I just know my mum and the kids will be so upset but I cant go on like this. I dont want to be here. Nobody understands. | suicide |
It gets worseJust gets loud. Screaming. Can't sleep. | suicide |
I have depression, my girlfriend cheated on me, nobody remembered my birthday, and when I came out of the closet I lost most people in my life. Im tired of life.F. I dont want to be alive anymore. Everything is falling apart and Im done. Im NOT looking for advice. I have nobody to talk to in real life about this so I just want to vent. Coming out feels like a heavy burden has just been lifted off my shoulders but I just lost almost everyone in my life. I live in a very conservative place and most of my friends are hardcore religious people. As a result, they want no part of me anymore and the Church condemns me for being a lesbian. Im sick of life already and I want to end it. Im sick of being myself. I wish I wasnt gay. Sorry for making anyone read through this I just want to vent. Im not looking for advice or anything else. | suicide |
Why do Karens always have the same hair? Like it's fucking weird. It's like that hairstyle and hair color just automatically turns middle aged women into Karens. | non-suicide |
I'm turning in hours Help | non-suicide |
My friend attempted suicide today, and I worry he might try it again soon.My friend has been struggling with depression, and his parents are very judgemental. From what he's told me, they let him do whatever he wants, but they also mock him for everything he does, which has taken a toll on him. He wanted to join the army to escape them, but in the end he was guilt tripped into staying. He also dropped out from college and has had no luck finding a job. Today, he told me he almost shot himself. I want to do something for him, I've been trying to convince him that he's depressed and he needs to seek help, but he always either deflects it or says his parents say he has no reason to be depressed. He went to a therapist once, but he just said some bullshit and left, never to come back again. His reasoning was that it felt 'fake' to say he had depressive thoughts. I don't know what else to add. I don't know him IRL- we're online friends, but still it is devastating to see someone I care about going through this. The formatting and flow of this post will probably be extremely shitty as I'm typing this out in a hurry, but I'm really desperate. What should I do? | suicide |
Yo my dad just told me he needs to talk and I am scared All things I've done come rushing back to me, hopefully it's not too bad. Wish me luck guys, I think he just wants to give me a laptop but the way he said he needs to talk seems something more, oh gosh | non-suicide |
why is every trevor i have interacted with a piece of shit is it bc theyre mad their parents named them trevor cuz i see no other reason | non-suicide |
Leaving I feel empty and am just sick of everybody. All of my friends and peers are fake and worthless. Ive been borderline suicidal for like the past five years and just really feel I should go through. Last time I pussied out with the noose around my neck. I see no reason to live on. The only thing keeping me from killing myself was my family and friends and now I dont care. I cant see life as anything other than cold and meaningless. I've made a lot of mistakes and have wronged a lot of people more than you can imagine. I cant find relief. This feels like the end. | suicide |
being trans is too much for meI can't take this all the time. I'm constantly feeling like shit about the way I look, sound and act. I look like a fucking creep, and I'll never be a real girl. I'm just going to continue to be an unattractive dude for the rest of my whole life. And I can't go crying to my friends or family anymore. My family is openly opposed to me being transgender, and will just tell me that I have no reason to be depressed anyways. My friends are getting annoyed because I have to text them every night complaining about my situation. And my fucking voice is so low that I can't even do some kind of falsetto or anything, much less a convincing female voice. I'm pretty sure that if I died, only a few friends and my siblings would be sad. It's hard to imagine anybody else caring. My friends have been the last thing keeping me alive, and I've been abusing the ability to text them whenever I feel shitty. I guess that just shows what a fucking worthless friend I am, huh. I hurt so bad every day, and I don't know what I'm going to do next. After school is out maybe I might kill myself so people aren't affected as much during the school year... | suicide |
To every Reddit user loyal to this app Dear Reddit users, this post might get removed but it is worth a try. I have been using Reddit for years now but have changed multiple accounts ( security reasons ) and have noticed more and more loss in some subreddits, I know some moderators are trying there best at what they do but some have not been paying attention. Before from to , there was a .% chance of repost per subreddit and from to now, there is a .% chance. Dear redditors and mods that read this, I wish you good luck to try and make Reddit the best app of its kind. Thank you | non-suicide |
Hello my fellow normal teenagers So what can we agree on is normal | non-suicide |
The phobic phobia on this sub is disgusting and it needs to end Im tired of all the tr**nys coming at me whenever I post a transphobic meme like damn let me be transphobic in peace. Its not my fault youre going to hell when you die lmao | non-suicide |
Can anyone talk for a bit?I'm not sure if I should make this a post or not and if this is really how I should be doing it, but I really don't want to try and explain my situation to everyone out there, just have a conversation, and I don't want to go to another site because I feel much more comfortable on here with people I feel I can relate to. So if anyone has some time so I can talk, and listen if you have your own problems you want to tell someone, please message me. | suicide |
I hate myself so muchmy mom and dad would be better off without having to pay for me and all my bullshit and my brothers and sister just think i'm fucking worthless. i'm tired of talking to people and bothering them with my problems when they don't even care and probably just sit and talk about me when i'm not there anyway. i'm sick of living, i'm sick of wanting to die every single day and i'm sick of having panic attacks, i'm sick of spending every night thinking about ways I could kill myself and why I should do it. I wake up every morning hating myself and who I am. I spend every day wanting to die. i've felt this way for years, it's never going to stop or go away. the few friends i have are better off without me anyway. how could they want to deal with someone like me every day when i don't even want to i just want one day. one day where I feel happy and i dont want to die, but I guess that's not going to happen | suicide |
This will likely be my last message on the internet and IRL.I don't know why I'm doing this. Maybe I just need to leave one last word for people to read. The point is just that I'm done. With life, the world, and everything else. None of it is for me as I've come to learn. I don't want to exist. Simple as that. I've posted here before saying I had a date set but I delayed the decision to see if things would improve. They haven't. I'm done fighting to get better and tired of constantly losing at everything. It's just time to give up now. It'll take too long and it'll be way too painful to wait for a natural death, so I'm doing the logical thing and ending my life on my own terms. Just need to get a few more affairs in order and I'll be ready to go. Funny. Feels like I'm preparing for a trip. | suicide |
Wrote a suicide noteBackground: bullied/abused (verbally and sexually) at school, no friends, socially isolated. I was diagnosed as aspergers at , too late to have gotten help I should have had. I want to remove myself from the hell that is being alive. I live my life in fear. People have been nothing but a source of pain for as long as I can remember. I love my family but they're distant and not particularly demonstrative in their affection, and they always have been. I wrote a suicide note today and was planning on taking my life as soon as I got hold of the things I needed. These thoughts tend to come and go. It's a few hours later, I'm wondering if I should tell someone about the thoughts I'm having (I see a social worker once a week). In the past I have had episodes of self harm because of these thoughts. Should I show them the note or should I throw it away and just try to struggle on? I still feel terrible but the thought of suicide has subsided. I don't know if it will come again. I was put into a hospital because I tried to end my life in the past, and I don't want to EVER go back there. It was the worst experience of my life. Doctors only seem interested in putting me on insanely high amounts of medication, they never offer counselling or any other kind of therapy. | suicide |
I was challenged to a fight So today at lunch, I was sitting at a table talking to a group of friends. Then one girl (well call her Claire) asks me what she knows abt her and a guy (well call him Tom). So I told her that Tom told me that they were close to getting together abt months ago and that that was all I knew (which was the truth). Then when I come home and check my phone, Tom texts me saying Ill kill you and I know what you did. So I had no idea what he was talking about. But then like people messaged me asking why I was spreading rumour about Tom. I was confused and tried calling Tom but he didnt pick up. He was very vague in his texts but he said it was to do with Claire. I didnt know what to do so I dm Claire asking if she knows what its about, and she says its about what I said at lunch. I was constantly calling Tom but he wouldnt pick up. Then he asks me to fight on Sunday. I respond saying that I wont fight over something that I didnt do, so he says hell beat me up on Monday at school. And hes like foot and way stronger than me. I need your help guys, please Any suggestions are welcome | non-suicide |
I'm gonna be an uncle! My sister is pregnant, so I'm gonna be an uncle. I am so happy right now. | non-suicide |
nothingim nothing im nothing im nothing | suicide |
wait my mom wasnt kidding about getting married idk how to feel | non-suicide |
Ending it nowFinally decided to end it today. About mins away. Written out my note and managed to keep it pretty concise and to the point. I was scared before but strangely I'm not now. Writing it out has given me some peace with my decision. Either way I have been lurking here for a while and there's some good people that have posted on here. I hope whatever decisions people on this sub make just make sure it isn't rash or impulsive. I thought about this for a very long time and I'm finally ready to go. I hope you all make the right decision for you | suicide |
Im leaving r/teenagers, its been a good one! Im still a teenager but I did like laundry today AND cleaned my room so Im basicly an adult now, level up kids B) | non-suicide |
Deleting tik tok Boyz Im gonna do it hold me back | non-suicide |
So, anyone want to be my friend and chat with me? I just want to find someone who is cool and fun. Requirements: Be a member of the human race Don't be a creep I would love to talk with someone about things. | non-suicide |
I want to die but I feel like I don't have the right to be suicidal because there's nothing wrong with my lifeI want to die but I feel guilty about it. There's nothing wrong in my life, I feel like I'm being ungrateful. I'm suffering so much but it's only because of my own mental illness. I'm anxious and depressed but nothing in my life is wrong. I feel like I don't have the right to be upset. Maybe I'm just being a little btch who can't deal with the slightest inconvenience but I can't control how I feel. Everything feels wrong, I'm so overwhelmed. I can't do this, it's all too much, I just want everything to stop. I don't want to be here. There's just no point to my life. I'm a horrible human being and I wish I could give the years of my life to someone who deserves it. So many wonderful people die so young so why do I get to have + years when all I do is sit around in a pool of self inflicted suffering. So many people have it so much worse than me and mange to stay optimistic but I can't handle my life as a privileged little middle class white girl living in an area where my identity as a lesbian isn't a problem. I want to off myself but I can't even do that because I'm too much of a coward to use a knife. I wish I had a gun, that'd make it easy | suicide |
Its AM, I'm sad, theres school tomorrow WHYYYYYYYYYY | non-suicide |
should I go skate rn? filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
Attempted suicide twice in two daysI've been suffering from depression for years and coming to terms with being trans just made things worse. I'm so depressed at this point that I feel nothing and think of suicide all day every day. I came home from work yesterday and tied a noose, hung it, and tried to kill myself. The rope snapped so I went to bed. Today I got home from work and immediately made my way up to the gap (a cliff here in Sydney). I found a secluded spot and jumped the fence then just sat [here]( contemplating it for hours. I tried to jump multiple times but couldn't get my body to do it. I'd just get the adrenaline rush and my body would stop me as I was going to jump. I feel so useless. I can't even jump off a fucking cliff. I'll try again when I think I can overcome my instincts and jump. But now I guess I'll sleep and get ready for work tomorrow. I don't know why I'm writing this, I just needed somewhere to vent. | suicide |
I dont think anyone would miss me if I were gone.I dont know anymore. Im always as an option, never a priority.. Im no ones best friend. yeah, I have friends and people know of me, but no one actually knows me.. the people who have taken the time to get to know me, my childhood, and my past traumas have all left my life for one reason or another. Im at a point where all of my friends would rather spend time with other people besides me. its selfish as hell to think that they owe me ANY of their time. but man. its so fucking lonely. I just feel so empty. I go to therapy. I take medication. I do the homework. why do I still feel so shitty all the time and do I really have to spend the rest of my life like this? this cant be healthy. I want to die. | suicide |
I'm going to the DMV to take my test to get my learner's permit I'm gonna fuck up this test so badly | non-suicide |
Please don't fake flirt It hurt my feeling when girl do it to me :( | non-suicide |
Update: "I just finished all my suicide letters." I told my husband I'd be home tonight, despite spending a couple nights out for space. Nothing was done wrong except a bad fight. I've been trying to call him to come home. To maybe save me. And he's not answering. I can't find him. I'm sitting here with a noose and I just want him to save me. | suicide |
Waiting for my parents to kick me out to kill myselfI dont care. Im a pathetic useless peace of shit who has absolutely no motivation or desire. I work at a dead end shithole fast food job. Im completely fucking useless and get to anxious and depressed to develop real skills. Hell everyday when I wake up I feel like Im dreaming more so then living. Im so stressed out yet from doing so much nothing all the time. I dont do anything other then miserably pace around all day. I dont watch YouTube, I dont really read bc I cant process what Im reading as much as I want, I dont watch TV, I have no interest, hobbies. The dreams I want are unbelievably unrealistic bc I would have to be so good at life to achieve them. Im downing over here screaming and dying for help but theres none. I want to die. Im ready. Homelessness will come in due time and when it does Ill pull the plug then | suicide |
Btw how are yall pretty idiots doing? Today is my brothers birthday so Im happy! Wbu? | non-suicide |
Guys help im having a panick attack over me not knowing how to grammar. Like earlier today my friend told me my English thing had shit grammar. Later some one on reddit had a stroke trying to read a comment I made help. I am shit at English despite it being my only language because I was never taught how to grammar. | non-suicide |
i you wow i Bitches be like I- I- You- wow- I- Bitch what?Speak.Spit it the fuck out.What do you wanna say?Im listening.Were all waiting and youre doing nothing.You cant even use words no more.Go the hell outside for once damn,goddamn,get a job or something | non-suicide |
I CHALLENGE YOU TO A POKEMON BATTLE MY HOMELESS MAN IS GOING TO BEAT YOU EZ | non-suicide |
im dying to get karma () You clicked! () now enjoy your'e shame | non-suicide |
Sorry allI have been given enough opportunities in both academics and music and I spat in their face and joined the army, and I knew nothing about myself, so now that the obedience has worn off I hate myself even more for both what I am apart of and how I fell for it. Hanging myself soon, first time so we will see how it goes. Y'all are good people and I've lurked for long enough, cya. | suicide |
Feeling Suicidal AgainGod. Fucking. Dammit. Why am I such a goddamn piece of shit? You know what my problem is? I overthink everything, and take myself too seriously. I try to be happy, to make changes in my life to cultivate happiness, but when it really comes to tackling my personal flaws, I just cannot fucking do it. This is why I'm socially awkward. This is why I can't laugh. This is why I lost my sense of humor. But the very notion of changing for the better scares my brain for some reason. It resists the personal change I have to make at every turn. I read recently that if you overthink everything and take yourself too seriously, unable to truly be in the moment, you are in effect wasting your life. God. Fucking. Dammit. My life is wasting away being stuck in my fucking head and this thought completely destroys me. It makes me decend back into suicidal thought. Nothing I did today matters because it didn't get me anywhere, and the worst part is all that shit was meant to bring me to a better place, where my goals are being accomplished. But I can't set fucking goals. I never fucking finish anything. I'm never focused in the now enough to learn, adapt, grow as a person, and make the most of my life. Fuck anxiety. Fuck low self esteem. I just want to fucking kill myself already. I have no real drive, no clear thoughts. Fucking nothing. | suicide |
Why calling students out in the class is a terrible idea If you're a teacher, calling students in the class to solve a sum in the class or forcing them to give an answer to something is a terrible idea because we're already so fucking anxious that we're going to say or do something embarrassing in front of our friends and face mockery, that calling the person out to say something they may not know in front of the entire class to feed your egoistic need for superiority is just plain selfish. | non-suicide |
Chronic illness is way too much for me to handle. Need advice on humane way to go, please.Repost per redGPz's advice. Thank you, friend. --- I've had a chronic illness for the last years - symptoms include extreme unrelenting fatigue, terribly distressing digestive issues, muscle pain, constant headache, confusion, blurry vision, sensitivity to strong smells and feeling as if I'm 'daydreaming' constantly. Depression and anxiety disorders have been ruled out multiple times by multiple doctors. So have common digestive disorders such as Crohn's, Ulcerative Colitis, Diverticulitis, Celiac's and others. Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lupus, MS and other autoimmune disorders tested negative. The only vitamin/mineral I was deficient in was D, but I've taken nearly , IU's (yes, you've read that correctly) in the last year without help. The only diagnosis I've received is Chronic Fatigue, teetering on Fibromyalgia. Several doctors have taken me off any form of pharmaceuticals, including aspirin due to severe reactions to medication. I've tried a HELL of a lot of alternative/holistic treatment which helps very temporarily but doesn't last. I owe thousands of dollars trying to support myself through this illness (can't work much because I was too sick) and I'm too tired to keep trying to pay it off - it's been there for years and hasn't moved. It's only $,, but after years of trying to pay it off only for it to 'stay' feels insurmountable. Please, somebody tell me an encouraging story about your chronic illness or direct me to a humane way of ending this. I don't want to do this any more. Edit: Obviously a throw-away account. Edit : Thanks everyone for your responses, I'm sorry I was MIA for a few days - massive blizzards where I'm at and I was having difficulty getting onto Reddit. I appreciate everyone's responses, kind words and encouragement! Thank you! | suicide |
ThinkingThinking about driving to New York all the way from Mississippi to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. The place where one of my favorite YouTubers killed himself. | suicide |
My step dad is crazy He says america is the best country then I tell him norway is better because statically it is happer when it is. Then he says the suicide rate is higher I look it up and no its lower on every chart I look at its lower. Why are americans so crazy for america I just get it as an american. | non-suicide |
I confessed to my crush on valentines day She rejected me not because she doesnt like me but because she isnt ready for a relationship idrk what to do now but i felt i needed to tell someone | non-suicide |
It all just comes to this...Well here I am, my whole year old gay self, wide awake, eyes are wet with tears as I cry in memory of the guy I love. (he's not dead, he just happens to hate me and I'm now separated from him, ultimately stopping me from getting to be with him.) I've lost all hope. I don't want to live anymore. So you probably wondered, why am I still here, still alive? I've attempted suicide for more than twice now and I've been stopped because I told my friends and they told my parents and now I'm under / guard by my family. I've told them what's wrong in my life, that all I want is to be with him, that I don't wantto go to school without him. I don't need gadgets and shit to make me happy, that I need him. And after more that months, they've done nothing. So I'm here and I'm ready to kill myself, once they put their guard down I'm going for it and I won't let anyone stop me by telling them before I do it. I don't really know why I'm telling you guys this, but I also wanted to tell you how awesome you guys are, and that I'm sorry for not being able to do anything to contribute to reddit's epicness. (I've thought of making so many rage comics lately but my lazy-ass stop me. (which I also wante to make a rage comic about.)) anyways I want to **thank** **you** guys for making a part of my life worthwhile. -JSJ (Raven oMail) | suicide |
DehydrationI didnt drink and eat for , days and then went unconscious for a few seconds. It happened at work so that they made me drink of course. Plan failed. How much longer should I have gone? | suicide |
ive decided to automatically dislike every lgbtq+ person i meet online from the ages of -. this does not include me however because i am queer & sexc mods please dont delete this it's just a joke i am an lgbtq+ person from the ages of - but fr tho im so tired of hearin "educate urself" from a year old with a kpop profile picture who learned everything they know from a carrd made by a year old with an anime profile picture. like holy fuck please just talk to real life gay people im gonna piss myself. losing brain cells at a rapid pace | non-suicide |
I'm shaking..The urge to purchase a fire arm is very intense right now. I'm having trouble staying focused on anything else. I want so badly to end myself. I don't care if potentially some day, things may get better. .. I've been told that for years.. I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of suffering. I'm tired of how cruel and unfair this place can be. My dreams are not worth waking up for, anymore. | suicide |
I'm so sorry for what I cause this year, for I have chanted Ijnamuj times instead of jumanji.. let the games begin.. I'm so sorry everyone. For I have done the unforgiveable.. | non-suicide |
Do yall ever think... Im gonna love my kids so much more than my parents love me and Im gonna let them be themselves. But then you realize that no one will ever love you enough to have kids with you | non-suicide |
My teacher is super lazy So basically my teacher never gives new work. Seriously one of science assignments lasted months. And he hasn't updated the schedule since testing week. It's boring. | non-suicide |
Its pm and I cant sleep give me song recommendations to sleep to Sincerely Me | non-suicide |
Substances can no longer numb the trauma, I've never felt so completely empty...Nobody cares about drug users but ya know, that's unfair! Just because I can't tolerate the intense and often **physically painful** depression I have, doesn't mean I'm worthless! It shouldn't anyway. But who cares what I think, I'm a "druggie". A degenerate because I'm sacrificing my health to keep myself alive hoping I can live a day without being tormented by a broken psyche. All of my friends left me, literally got together and left. (My worst nightmare as far as I can ever remember) I've posted before but I just can't fucking believe they did this to me. People I loved like blood and would've gone to fucking jail for, decide I'm not good enough. On top of my already treatment resistant chronic depression!! WHO DOES THAT TO A PERSON? I just want it to stop. It's all I want, I just want to feel loved by my family and be able to process emotion in any capacity. | suicide |
Star Wars just gave me a reason not to kill myself :))So Disney just announced they'll be releasing a Star Wars dozen films/tv shows in the coming years and it's all I've ever wanted in life :)) That should hopefully postpone any suicide attempts for the next decade or so lol. I need to know what happens | suicide |
Welp fuck me I guess My school is a k- and I just wanna day that the elementary school music teacher is kinda hot, Im stuck in his room for playing early in th grade band | non-suicide |
Another year wasted.Turns out internship is cancelled last minute and it's too late to get a new one. Now I have nothing to do except follow some online courses until march . I have been alone my whole life and this was the one thing I was looking forward to. It never gets better. september is the date. There is no point going beyond that. | suicide |
How can I help my sore throat not hurt? This is kinda hard to describe but its not a sickness sore throat. Its more like a scratchy, sharp, lump feeling in my throat. Cough drops dont do much. I assume its from this tick I have lately where I kinda rub my tongue there but it fucking sucks. | non-suicide |
I dont think I can go on for too long...My desire to die is growing. I'm very sick. It won't stop unless I'm dead. I dont know whats to come in the future. I just can't do this anymore. I can't just keep going on. There really is no point. I cant do shit! | suicide |
There's this one girl I like A fee months back I have met a really nice girl while chilling with my friends. And I now have a crush on her. But I'm to insecure to ask because I'm scared that if I would ask her and I would get rejected I would never be brave enough to hang out with her again. This is because it would be so much cringe. And I'm to afraid to ask because I think she will reject me. Any advice? | non-suicide |
Every time I look at a school or even smell it, I consider killing myself or schoolshooting.My grades are shit, I do not understand half of the stuff anybody is saying, I have no friends and the quarter is almost done. Please help. | suicide |
Asking Random Questions Until I Get A Girlfriend. Day what the actual fuck is wrong with this sub | non-suicide |
*gets invited to a minecraft realm* Me: you know what, even tho I get anxious around people, im gonna join. These are some of my friends and I would like to play with them. Also me: *joins and immediately regrets it because I see their gamertags and run off to where they can't see me out of fear* yeah, this is fine. | non-suicide |
Goodnight everyone Love you goodnight people | non-suicide |
In loving memory of.. | suicide |
Tarot Card Reading Guys I just wanted to ask that are these tarot carding estimations true ? Coz my friend said I should give it a try. | non-suicide |
happiness is a warm gunI've already practiced on how to act cool. I will be purchasing a handgun for self-defense against my horrific existence. I guess I should buy a whole bunch of ammo to make it look like I'll be practicing at a range. What else should I do to appear non-suspicious? | suicide |
No, im in a perfectly good mood! not mad about the fact that i have a cracked iphone without a SIM card that i got for my th birthday and the fact that my year old sister got a brand new phone with a sim card in it! no im not mad at all :) and also the fact that my year old sister still has a tablet and a laptop even tho shes almost an adult. - no im not mad at all. | non-suicide |
Im worried.My boyfriend is talking about wanting to be alone and he has recently been going through a lot and im very worried about what he will do tonight. I wish i could be with him. | suicide |
PsychedelicHas anyone here taken psychedelics? If so, does it ali alleviate suicidal ideation ? I just cant be bothered and Im at wits end | suicide |