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It's still Thanksgiving you know what that means It means I need entertainment so I don't have to do any social interaction | non-suicide |
so you are a car guy uh? tell me a car that its not a jdm. | non-suicide |
Fuck these stitches bro I cant lay in my back without being uncomfortable so yk Im about to be up till am. | non-suicide |
I can't keep doing thisI keep trying to believe that fucking up is a verb, not a state of being but I really don't. I have been a fuck-up forever, and I never seem to get away from it no matter how I try. I wish there was an external thing I could point to as the cause, like a drug problem but the truth is I'm just so fucking stupid I don't even understand how I haven't accidentally died yet. There is nothing I hate more than myself and stupid I am. My fucking up has continually lost me opportunities, employment, security for my family. I watch my beautiful children growing up in abject poverty because I can't hold a job. Every job I get I manage to screw up something badly enough I get fired. I want to die. I can't stand feeling like a ridiculous failure any more. I really, really can't. I want to die, but I would fuck that up too because I love my kids so goddamned much I can't stand the thought of betraying them forever. Thinking about how hurt and lost my babies would be when they learned I left them behind, not being able to tell them I love them and I'm sorry, hurts even worse than the burning self-hatred. | suicide |
Stuck in unhappiness and worthlessnessI am a bad person. I wish I would die in my sleep. I wish anyone who has ever cared for me realizes that I am just going to drag them down with my lies hiding my distaste for life or the suicidal feelings themselves. Actually "fixing" it takes an eternity and anyone who tries for that long is wasting their time on a worthless cause. I will never escape, I will only feel worthless and unhappy or feeling nothing. My life doesn't have a happy ending. It is the result of the entropy of happiness. Every day I will still taste happiness, but a sliver compared to the day before it and an invisible speck compared to two days before. Is living really worth it? I am probably not going to die right now, but I am going to sleep soon and hopefully die and get replaced with someone worth other people's time and care. | suicide |
For all yall depressed people Singing helps you be happy so lets all sing | non-suicide |
Does anything make this worth it eventually?I really dont think I can keep doing this. I love music and animals but Im starting to find myself even willing to give them up. Im sinking and not strong enough to keep trying to swim | suicide |
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Don't yall hate it when you lose your addiction for a show? I want to love it forever but I find myself being off it soon, how do yall deal with this?? | non-suicide |
Guess who just got a gf? Not fucking me. I'm sad | non-suicide |
That is a very pointless thing to do. Read the Title Read the Title Read the Title | non-suicide |
How does this text to a girl sound? [context of situation ]( I just need to ask u...why is it u keep messaging me? U tell me u miss me and stuff and then u suddenly stop talking for several months even when it seems like u want to keep in touch. Why r u doing this? Is it cause u still like me? What r u hoping to get out of messaging me? I dont mind talking, i like talking to u, I just dont understand what it is ur doing and why | non-suicide |
I'm finally ready to give up.I keep trying to improve upon myself, but truthfully I don't know where to go from here. I keep fucking things up, and it makes those around me hate me further and further. I want to just stop existing. I am so tired of being a disappointment to those around me. I'm exhausted. Just tired of the fight. Please let me go and not wake up. | suicide |
Parents found my wee* and threw me out of the house This will probably be the last post for a long time. I thank u all for just being on this sub and making my day a lot of better with memes. | non-suicide |
I just want to know how to die painlessly and get out of this fucking awful planet. I can't live anymore. I've already decided this is what I need to do.I don't want to talk about this anymore, the things that are slowly killing my from the inside out. They aren't getting any better, if anything they're just getting worse. My brain is broken for all I can tell at this point. I had an epiphany this afternoon. I've been miserably, suicidally depressed for over years now. One of the only things I've been hanging on for is to hear the new Radiohead album before I died. Well if you visit the front page or anything or just look at /r/radiohead then you'll know it's about to come out. And then I realized after being excited for a few hours, the closer it gets to coming out, the more I realize it doesn't matter. I don't feel anything. This music isn't going to make me happy. I realized I just don't care. It won't make me feel better or my life better. I realized I have totally lost the capacity to feel happiness or even care about things I really enjoy or love anymore. All of my feelings are dead. I'm ready to go. It's time. I want to let go. I don't want to feel this way anymore. This isn't life, this isn't living. It's just waking up everyday, feeling a unique kind of miserable, and hoping against logic that if I'm lucky, something will take me out quickly and without notice. But I can't wait anymore. I have to go now because I can't withstand the pain anymore. So what's the way out. I have tried overdosing a few times and failed. I don't think I have any medications that would cause an OD death. I took morphine a few years back. I don't know if I have any left from that. If I do I imagine that's lethal. But I don't know how much I would have to take. I'm afraid of trying to hang myself or cutting myself, afraid of knives and I don't want pain either, that's the whole point. I don't know what to do. Help. | suicide |
Join my discord server for teens It's fairly active and also a small server. Not really for a specific thing , just for talking, sharing memes and messing around. Pm me for the link. | non-suicide |
How do I tell my mom I want to wear crop tops to school? (gay male) Hi! Im , and I really like the style of crop tops on me. Im a gay male (as said), but I dont know how to tell my mom I want to wear them. Shes kind of judgy and shes scared Ill get hatecrimed or something (small town, lots of homophobes) Thank you! | non-suicide |
I guess that's about it...SW is my last resortI never thought I would end up here...But at this point I'm desperate. I'm a guy, bisexual for the record. I've been in love with my straight best friend for years, he knows everything. I told him everything and he's perfectly fine. But I can't forget him, even though he rejected me many times and yesterday was the last time. He literally told me there's ZERO chance of anything happening...It's stupid, but I knew that was the answer (even though he likes to tease me from time to time), so why am I feeling this way? Now that I think of it...I've met a couple of people that I come to love and they all rejected me, wether because they're straight or because they just can't love me. And it hurts. So. Fucking. Much. The thought of not being capable of being loved is overwhelming me. The fact that I've been rejeceted my whole life doesn't help as well. I'm losing all my emotions, I can't cry anymore. What's left for me? Studying? I'm doing pretty good at my university, working alone is actually the only thing that makes me forget all this. But what's the point? I'm not happy, I never was. As of now, I'm thinking about isolating myself. I will stop going out with my "friends", I will stop talking to everyone. I will just finish my work like the robot I'm becoming and by the end of it, I hope I'm far away enough from everyone that I will easily vanish without causing suffering to anyone. Tell me. What's the "other way out"? And please don't say "it gets better". I've been thinking like that for years now (I'm ), it never got better. WHO can guarantee me that I will find happiness if I keep fighting? | suicide |
I overdosed on a cocktail of painkillers and sedatives last night. I woke up this morning. Why? Why am I still alive?I should be dead. My pillow is covered in blood and vomit, I must've threw up. Family wants me to see a psychiatrist. For drugs. That's funny. After all the addictions and dependencies they've made me pick up, they want me to be on more drugs. There's a nice abandoned trestle a few miles from my place. About meters up from a concrete sidewalk. I'm gonna go hop off that later tonight. I was . | suicide |
Emoji bad #* | non-suicide |
i can't even work without feeling afraidi don't feel safe here. i can't even pursue my dreams here without having the fear of being beaten up randomly or getting yelled at. i can't work without thinking "they're gonna blame me for everything abruptly i know itll happen" i just want to get out of here. | suicide |
Something wrong with meTheres always this constant lingering feeling that theres something wrong with me and I dont know what it is. I just dont see the point in life but Im not depressed. Sometimes Im a bit anxious but ig so are a lot of ppl. I always feel hopeless and Im always questioning the purpose of life because I dont even know what the point is. I think about killing myself a lot. Idk. Its just kinda numbing. I just feel disconnected from life. Like Im living and its okay, but Im never completely satisfied, and Im just wondering will I ever feel more than this. What does it feel like to be happy or normal or connected to life? I dont know if this is normal or what. Im not looking for reaffirmations or whatever I just need to know if this is what its meant to feel like. | suicide |
Why?I came here to get help with some problems so I said a lot of things... And person on here was helpful in their replies when I talked of things in really general terms. It gave me some hope and it helped. But today once I said some details they went and deleted every post they put.. Including information on a site I wanted to refer to again for help. Why was I abandoned? Was what I said so very awfull.. Worse than other peoples issues here? It kinda made me feel worthless ya know... And more alone. | suicide |
What's wrong with death?Every day I yearn for it. An end to suffering. There's nothing I want to do in life but die. No matter what I do, I'm miserable. I haven't missed a workout in six months, but that just gives me a slight high for a couple hours, then it runs out. I eat healthy foods and take a multivitamin and fish oil every day. I have good times with friends. I have tried numerous drugs, and even the most effective ones just delay the suffering then intensify it. Not using drugs is even worse. I was unemployed so I got a good job, but the positive emotions I got from that wore off completely within weeks. I built a dream gaming system, but the enjoyment I got from that wore off even faster. I try new games and buy new things. Absolutely none of it helps, and just ends up making me feel worse. I've been severely depressed for years. When I was in junior high, people said wait until you're in high school. When I was a virgin, people said wait until you have sex. Then I did, and it didn't help anything. When I was in high school, people said wait until you get into college. When I got a full ride to college people said wait until you're and you graduate. Well I'm , graduated, and have a good job, but none of it helps. None of it matters. Nothing is appealing but a drug which doesn't have a come down. A sleep that doesn't have an end. So the question is, what is wrong with death? I did not ask for life. Why should I continue to helplessly struggle against my suffering? What is there to gain by putting off death? How is life better than death? Once dead, one consumes no more resources, endures no more pain and misery, bothers no one or thing. | suicide |
The ShotgunIts below my bed. Its loaded. I think about it daily. Sometimes multiple times. Its my ticket out of here. Like an insurance policy, in a way. A reassurance that I can leave any time Im ready. It belonged to my grandfather. I feel like a shitty person for my willingness to use it on myself. Then again, I feel like a shitty person for a lot of reasons. | suicide |
Oh, Sweet SuicideWhy do I continue to leave you at the altar? We all know I am about to die anyway. | suicide |
I'm a fucking piece of shit who can't even get good grades and I'm ruining my own life It's my fault, I have been believing on the fucking lies my parents told me, that I'm a 'genius' and I can achieve many things. Absolutely fucking not. I'm so dumb that I can't bring % in my test, I am dumb for believing my parents lies, they told me those because I'm their kid and not a genius. I pushed myself out of my limits and still suffering the low grades. THEY FUCKING LIED TO ME. I don't care they love me or not, but I am starting to hate myself for being a failure. I know my mom hates me for my failures. I am contributing nothing to society, other than my failures. I am suffering with my own failures, sometimes I want to put myself out of my misery, I miss when I was a year-old, at the time I never cried and was happy, I never cared about anything bad happening, I was in my own little world.  My parents fucking lied to me. I hate them for doing that to me. | non-suicide |
Got a birthday coming up...I fucking hate birthdays (my own not those of other people) I'm going to be and I have accomplished absolutely nothing. I'm honestly at the point where I don't really have an immediate desire to kill myself but fuuuuuuuuck I hate my birthday, at least I'm working that day and won't be doing anything special or celebrating, so there's that. Celebrating is rubbing salt in the wound, makes everything times worse. I thought I had decided to not kill myself for the immediate future but hell, my birthday coming up is making me question that. Like maybe not existing would just be easier ya know?? I don't fuckin know, sometimes I just kinda wish I was aborted as a fetus. | suicide |
hey obama you suck dont hate me because im perfect maybe if you got rid of that old haircut these hoes would start coming in your way ni will you guys just shut up and beatbox my fellow Americans puh puh bam bam bff bm yeah pf pffpum pah pah pum pum wrong you gotta do it like this pfft bah bwaa bwaa bwaa | non-suicide |
Bro I cant with this anymore I find my DS, right? Play hours of Pokmon Ultra Sun, cool, get stuck on Araquanid but get through everything else in a breeze. But this stupid ass Mimikiyu or whatever its name is keeps violating my team and I want to die. I have a plan like I did with Marowak but damn. | non-suicide |
Goodbye.Killing myself over society. The world is ending, people are miserable, and nobody matters. I tried to be a good person, but it doesn't matter any more. Neither does the effect my death will have on my loved ones. Everyone take care until the endtimes come. | suicide |
Transgender hero Joseph Mengele did sex change experiments? pleasure to have you as an ally | non-suicide |
I haz texted gurl So this is somewhat an update to a previous post, link here: Anyways, you don't want to read the above post, there's a girl in my Latin class who I feel may or may not be giving me signs that she likes me, then again, she may just be trying to be friends. So, today at lunch, I was sitting alone at lunch because today the people who usually sit with me decided to sit with other people, and being an introvert, I really didn't mind nor want to change that. So later on, the girl who I've been talking about came to lunch (she was late because she was having a meeting with a teacher.) For some reason a lot of the chairs at the tables had dissapeared, I think people moved them from where they were to sit closer to their friend's. Anyways one of the only chairs left was across from me, and while she could have found another, or moved the chair to sit with her friends, she chose to sit there. Like I mentioned I'm a big introvert (like a lot of people) so I never really talk that often, especially to girls. We talked for a few minutes, but eventually the conversation dwindled, and she went to go see what her older sister was doing. She came back later because her sister was doing homework and we talked a bit more until the end of lunch. It was probably one of the best experiences I've had in a while, being an introvert. Oh, and because of our conversation, I finally had an excuse to text her, and we are talking. For me, the problem is not getting someone's number, (we are a small close knit school, so that part is easy) it's finding an excuse to start a private text thread with them without looking wierd or giving them any ideas. So anyways, I'm starting to think she's trying to have me as just a freind, but you know what, that's alright, if that's the case, I'm fine with that, but I suppose there's always the chance... If anyone has any advice on what I should do, or if you've been in a situation like this before, I would greatly appreciate it. | non-suicide |
I'm broken again, but I can't pick up the pieces now.I don't know anything that would make me feel *something, anything* right now. All i want is to end this. | suicide |
Guys guys listen son and are free fucking super fucking stupid hot how? watch chicks ugly bitch is video basically of Just the you This a | non-suicide |
Pretty boy I'm a pretty boy livin' on the West side Livin' so loud, you could never hear me cry, nah See no tears run down my eyes Oh, these hills, they burn so bright (burn so bright) Oh, these hills, they bring me life (bring me life) Oh, these hills, baby, oh, these hills, baby, mm | non-suicide |
brushing out the cavity i probably have do u think its done yet | non-suicide |
My existence is hopefully coming to an end. Maybe. Idk.My mind, it always races, races to just find the most sickly and most foul way to commit suicide, and at the same time, it tries to distance myself from my family and friends so I don't have to give them trauma. My mind races in public, online, when I'm alone. I find out how people act, and all the ways I can appease them and try to get on their good side to feel like I'm needed, I'm naturally kind to others. But at the same time, I'm always on my toes. Constantly guarding myself against others just incase if I were to say, be mugged, kidnapped, attacked, etc. I don't trust anyone. I'm always thinking about how I'm wrong compared to other's opinions, such as politically, morally, etc. Its so difficult to think anymore. How im self conscious about my stomach, the way I walk, how close I am to others in order to not draw attention or worry, not seeing or hearing well, forgetting a shit ton of things. I can barely think. And not only that, but this fucking burden of a blackened hole in my heart and my mind doesn't make it better. I want to never hurt anyone, I want to be alone forever. I'm not worthy of relationships. I shouldn't be allowed to live, I should never have existed. I fucking hate this depressive asshat of a mind, but at the same time I find comfort in it. Knowing the pain will go away. I don't know when or how, maybe a few years, once I move out. Maybe after this pandemic. Maybe by bleeding out in an alleyway alone, maybe a quick death by gun shot, I don't know. But I'm hoping it will happen. Just. I hope when I'm cut off and away from everyone I've ever known. Never to be seen again. Fuck this existence Fuck humanity Fuck being self conscious Fuck this world And most of all, fuck my existence. | suicide |
(f) i don't know what to do anymorefrom an open perspective, my life actually looks pretty good right now. i have decent friends, i'm going to a good school and not failing, and i have access to technology. compared to most people, my life doesn't seem that shitty. but sometimes, the expectations simply overwhelm me. i want to work hard for my parents and my siblings so that they can retire peacefully my parents expect me to be the very best by getting all A's and doing well in the SAT, which is only normal for a parent to want. it's just so hard to be good for everyone else. i can't anymore. at this point, i'm not motivated to try and it's difficult to do simple tasks like waking up every morning. i was clean from self-harming for almost months, but everything changed in the summer. now i can't go a day without self-harming or contemplating suicide. i just don't want to be a disappointment. it's so fucking difficult when you get critiqued for everything you do. when people ask me how i am, i always say that i'm tired. i'm tired of having to live in a repetitive cycle of bullshit, unable to fulfill anyone's expectations of me. i'm so damn tired. not only am i not good enough for other people, i'm not good enough for myself. i don't have the right to feel this way when there's others with more difficult situations. i don't know if it's worth it to suck it up and live for the sake of my friends, or just selfishly end it all. i attempted twice, it didn't work out, and now i'm just lost. | suicide |
I turned today and I feel like my life is over I miss being so much. was one of the best years of my life, even though I spent almost half of it in the hospital for depression. Being in the hospital was amazing. On my th birthday I could almost sense that my life was going to turn to shit very soon and I was right. It happened soon after. My anxiety got out of control. I stopped leaving my house because of fear and nausea. I began getting random sharp pains all over my body. I developed weird psychosis-like symptoms. Here I sit at years old, having not left my home in months. I have no friends, no goals, no motivation. I can't go back in hospital because i've aged out of the child inpatient services and that is/was the only place I feel comfortable. This is shit. | suicide |
I asked my crush out - she said yes! guys guys guys guys guys I asked my crush out and she said yes! She is like the best person ever and we're already heavily flirting with each other. I'm so happy rn lol. Okay bye. | non-suicide |
Done with lifeNothing has ever gone well in my life, ever. For the years I have been on this earth nothing has ever worked and never have I been truly happy. From girls who don't even want to be my friend, to finding out that I'm only going to be ' (I'm a guy) for the rest of my life, and people constantly harassing me online for no reason. I don't know what to do, nothing seems to improve my situation. I have tried remaining positive but its difficult to when everything you hope would turn out good doesn't. I've had suicidal thoughts in the past but this time I actually feel I might go through with it. I honestly don't know what to do, I feel the only way for me to end this suffering is to commit suicide but I don't have it in me to do that to my parents. I see my years here on this planet as a small preview to how life is going to be for me and so far it doesn't look good and I don't want to live like that. I don't feel I have anything to live for; I only have a couple friends, no girlfriend, I am not athletic or academically gifted, there is no thing I am singularly good at, I'm unattractive and lonely. I don't feel that me living anymore would matter, as I am sure I will not be successful or contribute anything to society If I am older. Its difficult for me to contemplate but I feel suicide is a necessarily thing for me to do. **Edit: I have thought it over and I have decided to not commit suicide. I have contemplated that things might in fact get better and I also thought about how upset my parents would be if their only son killed himself. I owe you guys a great debt of gratitude, thank you!** | suicide |
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comedy is dead and the world is doomed thats all i wanted to say | non-suicide |
Well, here I am again.Here to piss and moan about my life and stare at my helium exit bag for a good while. I came close to suicide not but a week ago; damn close, actually. It came down to putting on my socks to go to work or wrapping the plastic bag around my head and releasing the gas. Frankly, I don't like here. I never really have. I don't want a good occupation, money, lovers, friends, family, or hobbies. I want peace. I want eternity. I want to not have to want things. Though, what do I expect to find here in this subreddit? I am not willing to change or make efforts to resolve this "issue". Nor would any normal advice help or be different from what I've been hearing my whole life. But I cannot leave... yet. Too many people love me. So I must live a life that is not my own. Granted, I don't know how much more I can hold out. | suicide |
GUYS HOLY SHIT I JUST HAD SEX Lol no I didn't get fucked. ...That's something I can't do. | non-suicide |
YO GUYS JUST GET % ON MY SCIENCE TEST LIKE HELLLLLL YEAAAA MY FIRST HARVARD SCIENCE TEST AND I SCORE %. HECK YEA | non-suicide |
How to talk about itYesterday I had an attempt, Now I want to talk about it with someone in real life, but I don't know how to approach. | suicide |
So depressed it physically hurts.I have absolutely nothing to get up for in the morning and no reason to want to go home at night. There's is absolutely nothing for me when I go home, I have no SO, no friends, and no pets. I have no hobbies, interests, skills, or passion in a life, I have nothing to look forward to going home to. My psychologist seems to think my depression and anxiety are only very mild and I leave every session feeling empty handed. I get to work and I'm so depressed that people avoid me. I recently cancelled a few days off that I had because I realised it would just be another day of sitting around on my own drinking all day. My life is so empty that sometimes all I can do is sit and cry, at work and at home. I'm also a trans girl, and whenever I talk to a coworker or my psychologist about being depressed they just assume it's hormones or lack of social acceptance, and that it'll all come to pass, but I know it won't. I don't know what I'm hoping to get from this, but I have nobody to talk to, and everyone who does, doesn't seem to get it. I've never felt this suicidal in my life, and it scares me. Help. | suicide |
I didnt think that I could have ever seen every side of me through multiple characters in movje. I just watched the movie 'its kinda a funny story' and I legit from the start was so damn shocked when almost everything I saw was almost copy pasted from my life into the movie. The dream from the main character at the start where he dreamed of suicide was almost exactly like a dream of mine about suicide. The way his parents and sibling acted there was almost exactly like my life. His character is almost exactly like me. When he's in the phsyc ward he acted almost exactly like I would, him discovering talents was extremely similar to me (mine of course didn't happen in a phsyc ward and wasn't drawing and singing, mine was at a friend's house video games and at school drums). The Noelle girl from the movie was my side of severe depression and when I used to cut myself and anxiety. The Bobby dude was my side when I mentally break specifically when in the movie he starts to scream into a couch cushion and throw stuff around. The Humble dude was my naive and unsociable side, where I act wrong and irrational or stupidly in social situations. The Egyptian dude from the movie is my side of fear, and how he is afraid of outside the room is like how I am scared to go back into the kind of dating/love life scene (context: fell really hard for a girl from school, she died before we went to college together and I'm scared the next person I get feelings for will also die and I'll have to relive the pain). When j tell you I almost cried when j realised these things, I had that choking feeling in my throat already, and I was an inch away from weeping on the spot. Never before has a movie made me look at myself in that way in my life. I've been suicidal, I've tried times, and seriously contemplated it on my th birthday. When I was watching the ending of that movie, I got so damn.... I can't even think of a word for this. When I've just basically relived all the traumatic things in my life and now j see that because I'm still alive j can be happy, but I just got my emotional ass handed to me, so I'm sad as hell and feeling good at once. Once again the movie is called 'its kinda a funny story' for those interested. | non-suicide |
what is happening in California in California its raining ash, we cant see the sky btw, and a ducking heatwave & pandemic theres a shortage of firefighters so the fires keep spreading This happenes every year but the government wont do anything about it Anyways the Bay Area is fucked up | non-suicide |
My band just released our new song! Disco/pop % listening to feedback! | non-suicide |
Should I even bother to live anymore?I just failed an exam in medical school and is on the verge of getting kicked out (they marked me very hard and this lecturer hates me for no reason.....she is a well known racist) and I really should have passed as aced the final exam. My gf of years left me for one of my best friends a couple months before my exam (out of the blue) I got in an accident, my car got hit bad but no injuries.....alot of money to fix. I lost my best friend Those two were my closest friends.....now I have none. I stand to lose about half a million dollars in school if I get kicked out My parents have basically disowned me I lost my apartment I became addicted to alcohol and cigarettes and anti-anxiety drugs to help me through this time and I can't get out of it (the last months or so) This all happened in a period of the last months. Really, I did nothing to deserve this and I don't see the point that I am going through this. What really is the point of life when you try so hard and something else is in control and you can't do anything no matter how hard you try Is there really a God? Why do I have to go through this? | suicide |
I think I finally learned how to trust again After years of emotional stress and pain I think I finally trust people again. I won't go in to detail with as to why I have trust issues but know it was because of my abusive mother. I'm very proud of myself right now. I just wanted to share that. | non-suicide |
Waking up every morning is a nightmare.Everyday my mental illness takes up a new theme and no one understands that I can't control these thoughts. 'think positive' just doesn't help. I can't stand that advice idk why but it just flips me out. I want to end this. | suicide |
I am trans and going to kill myself this nightBeing trans girl who has no change to transition and who can't do anything right. I have failed everything in my job, school and life. Only thing I have succided is making everybody hate me, including trans community. I just don't see any reason to continue lifing when everything I do is wrong and when I need to life contants loneliness. So I am just going to do one thing right in my life and kill myself | suicide |
There are two kinds of people Human and inhuman. It doesnt matter what gender, race, sexuality or whatever else. Youre either human or inhuman | non-suicide |
Inner Turmoil and ExhaustionIs there really any point to go on? Don't have the urge to continue fighting for nothing. It's a continues cycle that is impossible to break out of. Suicidal thoughts are running rampant up between my ears. And it's not long until i go insane. I can feel that my time here at almost is up, i'm sorry to everyone who will waste their time reading this. | suicide |
Never been In a relationship People of Reddit is it normal that I am and still never had a relationship of even a first kiss before. And I feel like no one just wants me. I feel like at this point there is no use, and I should just give up, because I am a very shy person and don't know how to talk to a woman properly, to let her know I like her. I just wish I was more ballsy | non-suicide |
Is Canada clickbait? Because like I hear so many good things about Canada is it really like that? And somebody said Canadians were passive aggressive they're liars right? | non-suicide |
I want it all to be overI feel like I'm trapped in a glass cage,chained up by guilt,loneliness, sorrow and self hatred. No matter how hard I try to escape I'm trapped. Its my fault my families in this situation. It's my fault I'm alone.I want it all to end.I want this never ending horror movie to end!! And the thing is I know they all blame me but I don't blame them.if I wasn't such a chav and had a crush on someone I wouldn't be in this situation. I just want to die. | suicide |
I never thought Id be thinking of ending things. Dealing with guilt for my loved ones.Hey there. Im a F , years old. If you had asked me ten years ago, I would have said it was impossible that Id consider suicide. Ive been dealing with depression for the last five years of my life. Attempted therapy until I could no longer afford it. I live in a third world country. My husband has been very patient with my mood changes and depression. He takes care of many things around the house. He has cooked food for us almost everyday since the quarantine started. My family is on the other side of the continent. My husband has a way of dealing with feeling I dont fully understand . He is quite reserved with his worries. It makes me admire him in a way, but also feel a bit more toxic when I voice my negative thoughts. I feel very guilty about the harm it will do to him and my mother. I have no sense of purpose and basically I feel like I created hell in my self, since I dislike myself in a very deep way. I also live in constant pain. How can I make this with them suffering as little as possible? | suicide |
Pushing people away is fun!!I love this! I never thought itd be so easy! Just basically be a bitch, and thats it. Yesterday, I pushed my mom away by yelling at her for throwing away my money(it was a check; on the seat of my car...made her feel like shit). Im pushing my fianc away by threatening to leave his house. I hate my dad already, so yeah...just basically tell him.... I know I sound bad, but its actually working. Maybe I can get all my family to hate me even more...my fiancs family hates me anyway, so they dont have to be pushed away as much. Then Ill kill myself once thats done. Ill be dead, and then nobody has to worry about taking the trash(me)out. Id be dead. The coroner would show up, theyd do something to me, and Id be dead and free of living. Have tears in my eyes just thinking about it. How happy it makes me. I just want to be alone when I die. Have no one there. Ill be as cold as I was when I was alive. No one will give a single shit. Ill be dead. Dead to people who *used* to love me. Im better dead, anyway. Cant be mean to anyone. Havent gotten any good Karma. Been trying to change that, but people still see me as a bad person, so I will always be a bad person. Gave up trying to change that. Nobody will ever love me I wasnt meant to live a successful filling life Goodbye all | suicide |
Can I be happyThere are loads of posts here but thanks for taking the time to read mine. I tried and failed to commit suicide months ago. Ended up in hospital after taking all of my antidepressants and slashed my wrists. After that I thought I would get some radical help, but anyway they just discharged me after some crappy "psychological assessment" and told me to go back to my doctor and get more tablets. Great... I never went back to my doctor, I have a general mistrust for doctors now so I've just been dealing with things on my own and I've been ok for now but I think that's just because I'm ignoring everything if you know what I mean. I feel like there's a big void. Empty. And nothing I can do and no one I know can fill it. I know someday in the future I will want everything to stop again and I know then I won't fail in ending it. I know everyone says suicides are cowards and afraid of living. I'm not AFRAID of living. I just hate life. I actually hate it. It really confuses me how people can be happy to be alive. I hear about people that have died and I think they are so lucky. That's just how I feel, it's normal to me. Infact the reason it took me so long to get help with my "depression" was because I thought that was just how everyone feels. I thought that was just life. The only think really stopping me is how my family would feel, I would try to explain best I could that there's nothing they could of done and I was just so unhappy and I just can't. I just can't. But apparently people can be happy and enjoy life? Is this actually true? | suicide |
My brother: the funniest people are depressed I guess im not depressed anymore guys woohoo | non-suicide |
Lost the love of my life and can't live with the guilt anymore.I don't see things ever getting better, and if they do, so what? My life has always been shit but recent events have just confirmed I really must do this, to end my pain, anxiety, sadness, guilt and regret. Not today, but eventually. That's the only comforting thought I have. I have a found a reliable, quick, and painless method. I just need to get my affairs in order first. I'm willing to listen to reasons to live, but only because I have no one to talk to about this and a miracle isn't going to happen anytime soon. | suicide |
guys help i cant stop thinking about all this one rlllyyyyy cringe thing i did i cant sleep pls help me how do i stop thinking about it i tried everything bros pls | non-suicide |
One time my dad caught me and my bf fucking. My bf was inside of my pussy hole when my dad barged in. My dad ripped him off me, pistol whipped him, and threw him out the house. Then he yelled at me and slapped me. I'm a bad girl. | non-suicide |
Ah yes, the annual pre-first day of school panic attack is upon me But it doesnt seem as bad this year, like Ive kind of changed a lot since I was last in school and its been so long so who knows what awaits | non-suicide |
Could someone go through my post history and just give their opinion on every single little thing I've said? I wanna know what others think how much of a piece of shit I am | non-suicide |
So Im mad and need some hope in females So in March I this girl I knew from school texted me and we started talking. It got more serious and ended up in a relationship a month later. She seemed so perfect. She was pretty, had an amazing personality and was so funny. I always tried treating her with love and making her feel important as she always had issues with self importance. I genuinely loved this girl. But one day she went to a party where she hooked up with some random guy. She then proceeds to always ignore me and when i asked whats wrong she said Im worth nothing to her. I only found out she cheated on my through the guy she cheated on me with and she still denies not doing anything. And not just that, but she waited to see if it works out with that guy or not. If not she would come back to me, and if yes she would brake up with me. Now as you can all imagine she broke up with me three nights ago and now Ive lost all hope in females. I really thought she was different... | non-suicide |
InterventionI was planning on doing it tonight. But the world did little inconveniences all day. To where I cant follow through. Im not too religious but I have to believe a higher power stopped me. I guess I must now find a simple reason to live. | suicide |
I slit my wrists?The cut is really deep. I can see my veins. There's blood everywhere. I can't feel my arm. It feels like I'm about to pass out. | suicide |
Not doing particularly well today.Today is not the day, but suicide is all I can think of. I should be feeling pretty good. I've a vacation planned in September and some great friends that will be joining me. Yet all day long (or month) I've been imagining severing an artery in my neck or tying myself to a tree. I've been suicidal for years. I have my ups and downs, my existential crises, my bad breakups, but I'm afraid it's good old-fashioned love-sickness that might one day push me over the edge. There's also the fact that all things break, time destroys everything, and I see no evidence of the divine. I can't find pleasure in many things, I can't summon the energy to do the things that I actually want to do, and I can't crawl out of the pit of sadness and negativity that I so often call home. I wrote a poem recently. I think it came out pretty good; it expresses what I've never quite been able to: Some can find the joy in things, No matter what the future brings. But I have always been the one To cry before the thing is done. I recently learned the term "adult separation anxiety" and it hit me like a ton of bricks. (If you would like to feel young, or like a dog, I highly recommend it.) It seems to explain all the insecurities I feel about the people I care about, all the energy I spend on not appearing "needy" or "clingy" because I couldn't bear to push people away, and it explains why I want to kill myself when I think about how the person I need the most will likely be moving away someday. I don't know why I'm asking you to read this. Like I said, it's not a great day and I really need to unload some pain. Thank you all for being here. What a wonderful world it is where all the depressed and desperate people can all find each other, and I mean that. | suicide |
Never wear normal clothing to a wedding. I wore a Tf Sandvich shirt to one once, and i got kicked out for outclassing the groom. | non-suicide |
How can you report an account Please how do you do that | non-suicide |
Yet more of the same...Looking through the posts here, and it I'm just retelling the same story. Its am here and I can't sleep. Got a gatorade and vodka at my side to try and let me sleep. Doesnt help. I think ive succesfully allienated everyone that might give a shit. And i dont know how much longer i can last. I probably won't do anything stupid. I've been living this shit for years but lately it been weighing on me more and more. | suicide |
Yeah I'm a bad boy I removed the USB stick without ejecting it first | non-suicide |
i just caught the Bofa disease i'm not really sure what to do. i don't know how i got it. it sucks that i did i guess. | non-suicide |
why people have sexy sex when no want baby? not understand explain | non-suicide |
Black No. (Little Miss Scare-All)- Type O Negative | non-suicide |
Laws were made up by law firms to sell more lawyers Dont fall for their tricks, they just want to sell more lawyers | non-suicide |
Guys, I need your help AHHHHHJJjsoaoakao IM IN A BREAKOUT ROOM WITH GIRLS!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO | non-suicide |
Have an nice day! Have an nice day everyone! Take care of yourself and don't let anyone look down on you. Sending virtual hugs (no homo). | non-suicide |
I cant do this shit anymore I am so close to killing myself, I have everything I'm just trying to find anything to stop myself, but I can't. My parents always say I just want attention and I'm faking. I'd talk to my friends but I stopped talking to them because all I do is disappoint them. I can't fucking do this anymore, if I ever cut myself they just say I want attention and punish me. I can't even eat anymore and school is fucking hell. I've written my note and I just have nobody to talk to. And everyone is constantly telling me to kill myself and that I'm a disappointment and at this point I just want to fucking do it. I want help but I have no way to get it. | suicide |
Ok what star wars item should I make next. So if know me I posted on how to make a lightsaber but i didn't post all of it so I want a challenge tell me what thing from star wars I should make next and I'll have results for you in about months or less | non-suicide |
rough nightI have encorporated a routine to my nights to try and fight this living nightmare. I take a walk, smoke, play some video games, organize the house, but tonight has been unusually rough. | suicide |
Im feeling lonely... I (f) have been having trouble making friends at my school. The people who I thought were my friends left me behind. I was hoping you guys could be my friends. If it matters to you all I'm into cod, fallout, and minecraft. I also like to watch anime (mostly kill la kill). Dm me if you want to talk. | non-suicide |
Virgin Mary,Dear, I command a math measurement of you to give you an infinite brain with infinite infinities good brain chemicals. Mary Magdalene Virgin Mary | suicide |
Come and watch my Stream please Watch bit_neo with me on Twitch! Minecraft | non-suicide |
At my home I sometimes feel like I'm in a room full of idiots. Now this isn't me saying I'm better than everyone, cause I'm definitely not. But my god, my parents and siblings logic is really fucking flawed. My mom will make any situation, even if it's like a personal one to me, about her. My dad just don't fucking listen to anyone and will interrupt, but apparently I can't do the same. I'm the oldest, but I got sisters. The oldest of the sister just won't fucking listen to anyone. And even if I give good proof, she'll get mad at me for going against her. I take the side that seem more reasonable, I'm not always gonna be on your side. And the second oldest is just so fucking obnoxious. Yeah she does make good points sometimes but holy hell is she annoying. But I also kinda feel bad for her cause the older sister treats her like shit. And so do my parents kinda. And well my other is so she dont count Anyways rant over. (Oh yeah I also tried to vent to them about my problems, they don't fucking listen to any shit or they just make it about themselves) | non-suicide |
I dont understand how someone can be transphobic or homophobic Like it doesnt affect you just let the mf be themself | non-suicide |
If you dont like me then... We should hang out sometime, we probably have a lot in common! | non-suicide |
StrugglingI just want to be dead so bad. I force myself to keep on going like everything is normal but when I'm alone I break down. Like tonight I'm breaking down over just wanting to not be here anymore and not being able to handle the depression anymore. I have an interview tomorrow for a summer research program and I feel like I'm just wasting their time even going. Like I question of I'll even be alive in a month. If it wasn't for this interview tomorrow I would do it tonight but I'm afraid if I did somehow survive it would make look terrible and I'd never get hired. I don't even feel emotion anymore, I'm just numb. I can't handle this much longer. I see a new psychiatrist in a month but I have no hope that he will be able to do anything different than the others. I'm sick of feeling like this all time, I want it to be over. | suicide |
What do you think my name is Ill give you a hint there are letters in it | non-suicide |
Pretty sure tonight is the nightSo I'm pretty sure I'm going to end it all tonight. I made an attempt a few days ago and it didn't work. I'm going to overdose and slit my wrists in the bathroom tonight once my roommate and suit mates are asleep. I've thought about reaching out to someone, but I can't talk to my family (they don't take mental health seriously at all). I've briefly debated calling a hotline but I've just heard horror stories. The more I debate it the more I know this is what should happen. I've said goodbye to everyone. I've written up my will. I've made all the preparations so everything will go smoothly. I'm not writing this for attention, or to get replies like 'don't do this.' 'you have so much to live for.' or any other shit like that. I'm calm. I actually hope no one comments on this at all. I just figured I'd at least 'say my plan out loud'. Typing it out makes it more real to me... idk why. I'm just fucking tired. My life has absolutely put me through the ringer and I'm ready to fall asleep and not wake up. But yeah, I guess that's all. So here ends what many people will think of as yet another selfish, shallow, meaningless cry for attention. Maybe it is a cry for attention... either way... this is my plan. | suicide |
I run away from my problems, pile them up and it makes my depression increasingly worse.I run away and Im not talking about isolating myself. Im talking about leaving my province for a few days and coming back and still not dealing with my problems. Ive been doing this for years on end. Especially when things get really bad. I pack my bags and leave. I run away from my problem in hopes of it fixing itself. I run so people can feel better without me for awhile when Im gone since I cant kill myself. | suicide |
I found my fathers guns and i dont know who to get to hide them from me.I dont trust myself not use them on me, especially because im getting drunk so often and so heavily. Im living alone at my parents house while theyre on vacation (they wont be here for some months). Ever since i found the guns i dont feel safe from myself. I dont want to tell my parents to hide them because i dont want to get them worried or mad or sad or disappointed or repelled or disgusted about how close I am to suicide, but i also feel to ashamed to ask any of my friends to take them away. I cringe at the image of any of my friends coming to my house, taking the guns away, and thinking something is horrifically wrong with this person. If i throw away the guns or even the ammo, my father would get so fucking mad at me. | suicide |
Just want to shed some light on the people who got affected by / Today is the day of one of the most horrific things to happen to mankind - /. I am one of the few lucky ones who didnt get effected by /, but I know many people did, and I just want to say that be strong, and always remember that someone will be there for you when you are going through a hard time in your life, whether its some internet stranger or someone you know personally. RIP to all of the people who have died on that day. | non-suicide |
Anyone wanna join my new discord server. Anyone wanna join my new discord server? Its called Boredom unlimited, and its a place for Minecraft, among us, gta, roblox, apex, fortnight, Skyrim, smashbros, and memes. I will pm you with the link. | non-suicide |