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I have an announcement *Clears Throat* As a female, I do not want to hear you talk about your dick. Please put some kind of warning in the title. Its making me very uncomfortable. (And how do you have enough confidence to talk about it anyway?) | non-suicide |
FUCKI feel like on the inside my brain is exploding into a million pieces while my soul is simultaneously being ripped apart but on the outside I feel nothing but a deep simmering anger. I can't take this life anymore. I might not kill myself in the next weeks, months, or even years; I just know that I will almost certainly do it eventually. I feel like I'm just waiting for that one final thing that will send me over the edge. | suicide |
Dude I was walking out of the computer room to go the bathroom And I looked up and thought I saw a spider. I freaked out then got realized cause it was just an imperfection in the ceiling. I looked down again to see an ACTUAL massive spider on the tile floor. So now I havent left the room yet and dont know where it went MonkaW | non-suicide |
I've never felt more ugly than I do tonight.I want to throw up. I hate myself. I deserve to suffer. I deserve the pain I feel. I cut myself really fucking badly tonight and it felt good and I don't regret it. I wanna do it more, I want to cut myself all over my body and keep going until every inch of me is oozing with blood. I want my body to be viciously mutilated. I want to kill myself in the most brutal way humanly possible. I want to punish myself for trusting, loving and caring when all that does is get me hurt. I want to punish myself for never being good enough no matter how hard I try. I want to punish myself for existing. I want to fucking die. | suicide |
I'm planning to commit suicide on New Year's Eve this cold, cruel, unforgiving world & people makes me depressed & suicidal | suicide |
What is your weirdest hobby/habit? Curious what's hidden in the depths of this sub lol | non-suicide |
Online school is somehow getting worse I made a post on this sub before about my shit grades, but school has only gotten worse to deal with. The first thing is my schedule has completely changed. I'm out of all my college classes, which wouldn't be that bad since I was failing nearly all of them, but part of the reason I chose such a hard schedule is because at least at my school, academic classes are easier than electives. We're moving to hybrid in a week, so I'm supposed to go to school, but my schedule is still fucked even after the changes, I still don't have a rd hour and I'm supposed to go to school with that. The school councilor told me she was emailing my dad about my schedule changes, when in reality she was telling him how fucked I am and how I'll probably have to take summer school. The funniest part is the percentage of people failing at the end of last year was more than %, so you'd assume they'd make some big changes, right? Maybe make schedules easier to follow, attendance more lenient, and less work, right? No, in fact they managed to do the opposite of all these things. Instead of having an alternating call schedule for every classes depending on the day, you have a minimum of minute call from each class every day. They're also making it so attendance must be done ten minutes after the class starts, but some classes didn't even have attendance before. And for work, no joke, I had assignments in my first week back from winter break. What an absolute joke, I don't know how they get away with this. | non-suicide |
To everyone out there that's alone... No matter who you are, how you act, or how you feel there is always someone out there for you. | non-suicide |
I don't know anymoreIve been suffering with depression for years now (at least diagnosed) I don't know if I can take the pain of the endless eternal void much longer I try to put my best foot forward everyday and its getting me no where fast. I just feel empty, like half a person, lonely, useless, pointless, not needed or wanted. Ive been trying to reach out for help but Im too scared to even ask my own parents anymore since they threaten to send me to a hospital. I don't care if that's where I should be it doesn't justify threatening me with it. I cant even cry anymore to dull the pain or get it all out Ive been over every situation Ive accepted them all nothing scares me in life anymore. I know my life is fucked. ruined, destroyed. I don't know what to do anymore Im starting to lose all my friends so I attempt to make new ones I try to find love but how can someone love me when I don't even love myself. I just want to end it and be over with this hell on earth. Only reason I haven't yet is because I know people care about me but lately I don't even care about myself. "I dont know weather Im alive or dreaming or dead or remembering How can you tell whats a dream and whats real when you cant even tell when your awake and when your asleep." | suicide |
Posting pics of Hugo everyday to cheer you up - day [enjoy ]( | non-suicide |
I don't know what to do anymoreI don't know what to do. Everything I do is manipulative or guilt tripping and even posting here is a bad thing and I should be punished for that. Someone said I manipulated and abused them for six years and I have no memory of ever harming them. I tried to never talk about myself, I tried to always help them, I tried so hard to always follow their rules. But it's not good enough and when I tried to leave them again they said I wanted to rape and kill them. What else can't I remember? I'm so scared, I'm so scared. I'm going around in circles. I need to die to atone for my sins. If I punish myself enough for this, then I won't be punished. I don't want to be tortured or raped ever again. I'm so scared. I don't know what to do. | suicide |
I blame the Nickelodeon film "Barnyard" for my taste in women _____________________________________________ | non-suicide |
Gonna do itMy parents are going out of town tomorrow. My brother will be at school. I'm gonna do it. | suicide |
Telling shit jokes everyday until I get a gf # Someone stole my mood ring last week Im honestly still not sure how to feel about it. | non-suicide |
HangingI've got my rope ready, all that is left is to put it around my neck. I hope what I'm about to do will be successful, I just hate myself so much. My family will be so much better off with me dead. | suicide |
I just wish I never existedIm a year old with a chronic illness and I havent been to a party or made any friends at all for many years. I just wish I never existed, never had any consciousness, never was born to be such a burden to everyone around me. Literally the one thing that has stopped me from making a proper full commitment attempt is my mum, but now she is justifiably mad at me so yeah idk | suicide |
just did a FREAKING SCIENCE i just built a potato gun and can confirm i love it. if you are ever bored and have $ and mins of time you should build a tater cannon. it is the most fun thing i have done in a while. also it doubles as a t-shirt cannon and confetti cannon. / would build again. | non-suicide |
Are you an introvert, or an extrovert? Personally, Im a pervert | non-suicide |
i dont know what to doive been suicidal for so long but ive never been able to reason myself into it because i had one thing keeping me from doing it and i was afraid and now thats gone and everything else in my life is going wrong and im so far from home and have no way back until fucking monday and i cant deal with any of this and nothing has any point and theres nothing just stopiing me from slitting my wrists because i cant deal with this and i cant see anything getting better. i dont see any point in staying alive for anything and i dont know whether i want to be talked down or not | suicide |
Idk what to get my mom for her birthday I still got weeks to figure it out tho | non-suicide |
ya boi is stressed and depressed im about to start college and not gonna lie im pretty worried, and kind of disappointed too. i wish i was going to the major university in my town but i opted for the local community college because im paying for my own college, ill transfer to the bigger university eventually but it still makes me sad when i see all my friends getting that full college experience while im still living at home going to a community college to save money. i just feel like i lowballed myself and was lazy because i could have made it to multiple major universities, and ill thank myself later because ill have less student debt but in the moment im just sad. i just feel trapped, i wanna expand my horizons, i wanna be an adult already. | non-suicide |
Any advice I have a friend that i really like but they identify as transgender and gay(still intrested in men) and i really wana bring it to the next level but i dont know. We will talk and make jokes and have a great time but i really don't think she (or he idk anymore) likes me in that way And i get it if i date them that would mean technically mean im gay. I really dont care if people call me gay(because im not). | non-suicide |
Can someone teach me some WW history I need to learn for my history test and in my history book there isn't much about WW | non-suicide |
And update from me... things are not better, but I have more hope, somehow.I posted this, about months ago: In short, my life is in a shit hole, and my only hope for my business was a contract I was then negotiating. That negotiation failed. They are not choosing someone else, they are abandoning the project. **My company is doomed.** *My professional life is currently a complete failure.* But the hope is that in the last weeks, I have been applying to jobs, and I have possible leads where I am in the final round of selection. Sure, I have no way of knowing if I will get any of those jobs (or any of those still in the first phase). Apparently, my resume is better than I thought! I did sprain my wrist... and my ankle... just moving a box weeks ago of clothes to donate. My ankle is healing, my wrist isn't that much. I did talk to tough as nail social worker. He thinks the job search is a step in the right direction. He thinks that getting job satisfaction could help me heal. Don't know yet if he simply has nothing else to say, but I am hopeful for the near future. On the flip side, I am starting to have some verbal problems. It might just be the stress of the job searching, or it might be the fronto-temporal dementia starting to settle in. On the plus side, my child only has years of high school left, so if I do get a new job, I should be properly there as a father until graduation, and hopefully, until after college. But shit, it's hard, it's fucking hard. I had a business! A successful business! My health because of my fucking mom took a big chunk out of it, and now, I am almost begging for a job. I hate that bitch. She stole my fucking life. | suicide |
Hey so I need help with math homework If anyone can help, this is the problem. You have $ in your bank account. Each week, you plan to deposit $ from your allowance and $ from your paycheck. The equation b=+(+)w gives the amount b in your account after w weeks. How many week from now will you have $ in your bank account? If you are able to, the work for it would help a lot too | non-suicide |
You can trust a danish person We have an app that alerts people who sign up if there is anyone who called the emergency number bc of heart failure, and theyll find the nearest defibrillator and theyll be there faster than an ambulance | non-suicide |
what are some good s.m.a.r.t diet and excercise goals, i can say im doing for school? what are some good s.m.a.r.t diet and excercise goals, i can say im doing for school? | non-suicide |
nd year on reddit and im stuck in psych hospital! Mental health gone to shit but at least i have this hole of a website! | non-suicide |
Anyone down to talk? M just bored rn, got nothing to do... feel free to HMU | non-suicide |
ScaredFive years ago I was raped..... Tonight I found out who the second guy was.... Drinking and can't promise I won't hurt myself. How the fuck do I deal with it? | suicide |
So I said the N-word. I'm a Filipino right and I said "[n word not hard r] same" to someone who said the n-word in a rather self deprecating manner, like "ni I wanna die" on twitter. We didnt mean any hate speech but people are getting angry at us. Did we do something wrong?? Please educate me properly thank you. | non-suicide |
Tonight might be the night I follow through on something for oncePromises have always been something I've sucked I keeping, and suicide is no exception. I'd be rich if I had a nickel for every time I said I'd kill myself and never actually went through with it. I've never had the motivation to try really, or I've been too scared. The one time I did try my dog stopped me. But she's dead now, so hopefully there will be no hurtles this time. | suicide |
Anyone want to talk or play the number game theres nothing to do Been bored all day anyone want to chat [M] and there pictures of me on my profile so go check that out But heres a bit about me, Im Canadian, I play video games and basketball, Im really tall, I write a lot and Im very awkward but Im not the worst at being social and Im very bored all the time but its not to much of a bother anyway checkout my profile and dm me if you want Ill be around | non-suicide |
Overwhelmed and losing interestFor the past few months Ive been completely overwhelmed with life, moving out on my own, car accident, and now it seems my gf and I are not going to work out. Also, pretty confident thats shes cheating on me. This all just seems like signs that its time to just give up. All of this along with the continued struggles of anxiety and depression, these are all battles Im losing. | suicide |
I have weird people in my ass This girl in my class, keeps talking about arson, killing children, and hyperventilating over the fact that Canada doesnt exist (I live in Canada) Please send help.. Edit: Fuck me. I meant class, not ass | non-suicide |
Going drinking on a Sunday afternoon because fuck my life I don't really have the urge to drink because I'm feeling hollow but I got a text from my friend I miss being depressed and feeling something | non-suicide |
Abuse.still.getring.abuzed.mentally.and.physcoally.verbally. I have to watch my nephew who's year old her abused by my biological mom (Who had kids all taken away from her by CPS cuz she abused me and my sister and brother and left us without food as infants and locked us In a closet while she did meth with her friends )))) who's manic and oyscho and screams at him and hits hi ND bashed his head into the wall, my sister his mother doesn't care or believe me, she think its my fault that my mom scream at me and verbally abuses me and hits me, that's it's all ym fault, I just want my nephew to be in a good envoorment.i didn't ask to be abused or be forced to watch it happen without being able to do anything and being blamed for trying to help its DRIVING ME FUCKING INSANE I JUST WANT WHATS BEST FOR HIM AND THE IDIOTIC SELFISH ADULTS IN HIS LIFE DONT CARE ABOUT HIM AT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL | suicide |
yeah sex is cool and all... but you're not # ####################################################################### | non-suicide |
Why the Frick can't I post memes I've been trying for days now. What's up with that? | non-suicide |
I FUCKING FINALLY LEARNED HOW TO SHAVE Finally, thanks to my awesome Grandpa, I learned how to shave (which is a thing I didn't know how to do since I grew up without a dad) after months of practice. It really means an important achievement fo me, because it remarks how many times my grandfather has helped me in years of my life. Thank you grandpa, I love you! | non-suicide |
Heres what I think they should have done about Covid and what they should do about schools reopening(USA not other countries) Instead of students taking a couple months off school for lockdown, why not take the full year then pick up where they left off? For example, if you were in Middle School and in the Freshman year of high school, and lockdown started on March , you would be in lockdown for the whole rest of the year until March , then resume Freshman year until summer vacation. Yes, you age one year and youre grad year is something different and sure its a full year on lockdown but it would help so much with preventing COVID- and scheduling summer sports and extracurricular activities. The sooner we get back in schools, the more COVID cases there will be for kids and families and possibly more deaths. And schools reopening now? This is not the time we should be required to take online school or wait until next year because we will just have to take another quarantine anyway. I dont mind waiting longer or until a vaccine is out if that means that I can go to school like normal, I dont want to do any hybrid learning options or full online where its just filling out brainless paperwork and not learning at all. Kids are still going to take masks off and that kind of thing because they dont take this thing seriously, and some of the really young kids probably have no idea or can comprehend whats happening. | non-suicide |
boyrfirend applications!!!!! If you really think about it, part is very similar to among us. Yoshikage Kira is the imposter and the duwang gang are like the crewmates trying to sus him out. But when he changed bodies it was like him venting away and now they need to catch him to report the body. You can also think of sheer heart attack to be like a sabotage from among us because it will force the crewmates to stop chasing him in order to deal with it. What do you guys think? | non-suicide |
I can't motivate myself to put in any effortOne of my biggest fears is being a failure and I'm scared that it's bound to happen. I was a gifted kid and that took its toll. I just can't study now that I'm academically higher and suddenly not the best. I just can't put in any effort, my mindset is basically 'it's better to be terrible by my own choice than mediocre despite trying.' I can't remember a time when I wasn't suicidal and I just discovered this subreddit and thought posting here is worth a try. I feel that if I take my own life, it's going to affect people less than me becoming an absolute burden to them.. | suicide |
Stuck in the house with my rapist.As title says. Lockdown has me stuck / in the same house as my brother, who raped me over the course of years when I was a kid. Usually I have work, friends, boyfriend, places to go, things to do that keep me away from here as least some of the time. But all I hear when I wake up and when I go to sleep is his laughter, laughter that should have been mine. He's disabled, so everyone ignores what he did, as if it somehow means it doesn't hurt me because "he wasn't *trying* to hurt you." But he DID. I look back at my life and wonder just how much he took from me and how much more he will continue to take. What's the point in continuing on if I'm just going to lose so much before it even has a chance to happen? I'll never marry, because I'll never be able to find someone willing and able to suffer through my mood swings, my depression, my complete lack of emotional control. I'm already % sure my bf is readying himself to end it. I'll never achieve my dreams because I lack the drive to do anything constructive for myself. I'll keep pushing people away because I'm so afraid they'll hurt me. What's the point in living in a world where people want you so little, they'll defend and protect your rapist? All I ever wanted was someone to come along who would be angry for me. Who would show me that this was not what I deserved and introduce me to peace and maybe justice. But all anyone has ever done is pull a curtain over it and tell me not to look. But it's there, it's always there and it always will be. People always tell us assault victims that we're "survivors" but I don't want to "survive". I want to live. But I don't think I ever will. | suicide |
Got a shit ton of pills and I'm ready to take them all; hopefully this'll kill me.Edit: didn't work. | suicide |
Despite life looking up, I still think about calling quitsI was able to land a seasonal job, my first job ever, and get through it. I managed to get into a relationship with a great guy. I'm almost graduating. But despite it all, I'm and I feel like shit nearly everyday. I have few friends, and of the few I barely see them or even connect with them on an emotional level at all. And I feel it's a bit the same with my boyfriend; I'm such a social recluse while he's the biggest social butterfly I've ever met. He's had many, many relationships in the past and I dont see myself lasting long in this one, because, truth be told, I'm below average in the looks department. The only reason I feel like he even got with me at all is because I was the likeliest person to not cheat on him (he was cheated on multiple times). But beyond that, I'm boring as shit. I have almost nothing to talk about, I draw a blank on all social situations. I couldn't hold a conversation with coworkers or make friends. My extended family dont even bother talking to me during holiday dinners. I nearly broke down crying when I went to a hangout with my boyfriend's friends because of how much I was different from them and how I couldn't utter a word. And now he wants me there for another hangout this weekend, and I dont know what the fuck to do. My whole life has been about my main family. I sacrificed nearly my whole life for my parents and sibling, yet they constantly make me second choice, always choosing to leave me home alone on holidays or family days while they go out with their SO's, or use me to help them do things like selling stuff they dont use anymore. I think I'm just really fucking tired. Of trying so hard with my family, of trying to socially put myself out there despite it not having much success at all. I get self-conscious, I get jealous, I get envious. I wasn't like this before. I used to be nice and wish people all good things, but now all I care about is how I feel, how others make me feel, lash out at people when I can't handle things anymore. I think the thing that makes me want to quit most is the fact that I've just become a shitty person. I'm really tired... | suicide |
Its been half a year since my last self harm Around half a year ago I was in a dark place. I cut because I wanted to pay for when I messed up, every mistake I made I would cut. My girlfriend noticed the cuts and I saw how sad and worried she was about me, ever since I saw that look on her face I stopped. Thanks for reading some of my story. | non-suicide |
Fhhjjhvcf my ex just texted me like ten times and called me an hour ago And now hes sleeping on call?? Uhh he is currently in a relationship with someone else,, is this wrong I cant tell lol | non-suicide |
Just got rejected Spent literally all of quarantine texting a girl and simping for her, basically just giving her my heart, she told me she "liked me too" multiple times but she got a boyfriend yesterday and now apparently she just liked me as a friend, ahhhh this feels great doesn't it | non-suicide |
This isnt worth itLife is just one problem to fix after another and no one cares if youre okay. I dont want to be here anymore. | suicide |
This touches some minor religious topics, so if you're sensitive to that, be warned This is actually about a friendship type relationship, but i think this flair fits. I got a friend who is part of a big, corrupt church, and he is really loyal to it. What this church does is: say to their people that they should give a big part of their salary to the church, because they should rely completely and exclusively on God, and not on "material things". They do that every months, i think, and after the person is completely drained, and has no money to "donate", that person becomes an outcast, turns into a "bad person" , because they cant give any more money to the church. I never was part of it, but i've gone there a few times since my friend invited me for some events, and judging by the extremely expensive buildings all around the country and the fancy props they use, i was getting suspicious. That suspicion became true after a famous model from here confirmed all that i said, and is now forming a lawsuit against their lies. Now, back to my friend, he and his family have been loyal to that church as long as i can remember. I want to help him, but i am afraid that if i say that to him he will think i am a bad person, and am against God (yes, the church does that), and he will keep going to the church, but in his eyes, i will be his enemy. What am i supposed to do in this situation? | non-suicide |
and time to goI know I know, it's not worth it blah blah. I'm and getting a divorce. My wife is going to take everything and she should, amazing person that I've been married to for years but I never loved her. Married at age out of guilt. Took her to Tennessee with me from Utah and got her pregnant. Anyways I chose to leave while the wife still wants me home but I've had multiple affairs. The current affair recently came to light. My kids are and and they are going to hate me once this all comes fully out. My plan is to settle all my debts by selling off my semi successful construction business and make it look like I just disappeared. I want to leave them the house paid off and whatever cash I have left over. I want to die and just want to know the easiest way and how to make it look like I disappeared instead of commented suicide. I'm not depressed or in a crazied state of mind. I want to do this the least painful way for my family. If I'm still around I feel like my wife will never move on and the children will suffer. Not going to work it out. | suicide |
Anyone else feel like theyd be able to blow their brains out at any given moment Like I dont suicidal at a constant but if you gave me a gun you wouldnt even have to ask me to use it on myself | non-suicide |
what are some actual good, painful ways to die?Hanging yourself sounds awful. Shooting yourself in the head would be terrible, people survive gunshots to the head all the time. Pills don't work, read its % slitting wrists/stabbing yourself is also painful as shit | suicide |
Confused...Ive been dealing with fluctuating moods for the past month, I get really depressed and then straight after, im really happy out of nowhere, but then feeling down comes back straight after. I dont have a reason to be depressed , I have an amazing family, supportive boyfriend, great friends, and Im really confused about thats happening in my mind... I dont understand.. the worst part is that for the past week, I had moments when I felt suicidal, I just wanted to end it all, im scared that eventually, I'll get to the stage where it wont be scary anymore, and that I'll do something that will hurt everyone around me. I dont know what im looking for by writting this, maybe someone else who had similar experiences could tell me how to cope with it... | suicide |
Dream's "face reveal" in Mr. Beast's rewind It could've just been Jimmy or someone dressed up like that with the dream mask and not actually dream. We have no way of telling... | non-suicide |
This world is full of scum.It says it right in the fucking title. This world is corrupt, harsh, cold, and pointless. I would have no reason to even exist if it weren't for someone. One person. Compared to what I've seen, she's the best human being alive today. She's the only thing ridding myself of this endless feeling of misery and pointlessness. I can't let anyone I know about this. Because society is corrupt, and if they get remotely concerned, they'll take me away from her. I just know it. If she dies I WILL kill myself. She's is the kindest, sweetest, most charming person ever. | suicide |
I dont deserve to post here.My problems aren't important enough. | suicide |
I'm only alive because...My mom. She's the one person who actually loves me but I can't talk to her about how I feel about my mental health she just brushes it off and tells me to go out side make friends. I've tried to make friends I've tried to make relationships I just can't connect with other people. I feel so isolated, I feel like the world would be better without me I want to end the constant loneliness and just go into a deep sleep forever. I just don't want to hurt my mom I know she wouldn't see it coming. So I'm just waiting until she dies so I can commit suicide. | suicide |
It's not that my life is bad or anything like that(I explain in the post)(English is not my native language so the structure of the post my be a bit janky, I'm sorry for that) Like I say in the title, its not like my life is bad. To be honest my life is pretty good. I am in one of the top universities of the world, I have some really cool as friends, I am not a loner, I hang out with people and all that. I recently met a girl that I like and I am going to see this weekend, so like I am not a loner that has nobody for support. But for some reason I just feel like hurting myself just for the "fun" of it. Actually, its more like I have no reason at all for hurting myself sometimes. It's really weird to explain. Anyhow, what I am trying to say, is that I really want to kill myself sometimes, for no reason at all or just "for the fun of it". You know, sometimes I wonder, what is on the other side(if anything) which is really weird coming from me, since I am a strong atheist and do not believe in any sort of higher power whatsoever. The worst thing is that I don't understand why I want to kill myself and that is the most annoying thing of it all. I really don't know why I am posting this, it's the same kind of impulse that I have whenever I hurt myself or contemplate suicide. So yea, I don't really know what's going on bros | suicide |
I would have done it by now if not for...I am going to sound a bit cliche here, so here goes. I am SO done with life. I don't has a future to look forward to. I don't have t a part to be proud of. No one who needs me. All I have keeping me here is cleaning up the mess I've made of my life. I have a BBC few tasks I promised to finish for others and a bit of debt that needs paid off. I have my end planned out. I just can't leave this mess behind for others to fix. One that's done, I can be free of the loneliness, hopelessness and fear. | suicide |
Do girls who like Computers exist? I don't think so | non-suicide |
I need some advice on dealing with my feelings.I'm not really suicidal, I'm sorry. I've been there on the edge a long time ago and I've made the choice to come back. But sometimes I'm just so tired with living. Sometimes I make dumb mistakes that ruin days or weeks or even entire months. These mistakes happened before and I don't know why I keep making them again and again. Calamities after calamities. They keep blindsiding me and I'm not strong enough to take them on all the time. I become so disappointed with myself that I go to the lengths of questioning whether there is a point to even living when I don't learn anything out of life. I get terribly anxious when I imagine being struck by the same frustrations and the same let-downs will recur until the day I die. It gets to the point where I can't even laugh at myself anymore. I just feel like something inside me has resigned itself and stopped bothering. I imagine being the same imbecile forever and I arrive at... hey, why bother going on when nothing really changes and it doesn't really get better? *TL;DR:* I need help dealing with these thoughts. I need a prayer or something to convince myself that this really isn't the case. Thank you. | suicide |
Why all the comments from this post are from the Seriously, it looks like we returned to the | non-suicide |
I feel i am close to death nowThings are not turning up for me. Each passing day is difficult. Last week I made a list of things to sort out before i die. Few days back tried a home made rope on my throat. I feel i am getting closer to death now. I cannot handle this anymore. Hanging on a very thin hope here. But chances are it will snap anytime soon. I am scared, I am ashamed, I feel bad, I feel the guilt...i feel it all yet it feels like I am prepared if this is meant to happen. | suicide |
How?okay im a straight year old hetero. but i live in mordor (balkan) so women here are stupid and comlex. i dont care i dont need them. i would like to date myself before i move to western europe for a temporary while. i am okay with autosexuality cause i know how it feels to be abused and not having to lean on anything but yourself. i slightly cross-dress in my room for minutes to make myself my own girlfriend and i talk to the mirror with myself. i gave this female version of myself the name Tiffany. i talk to myself thismway in front of the mirror and i onlymsee tiffany in front of my eyes- so i feel my male self, my male body, talking to a girl behind that mirror. i can make my pitch into female easy causen i am a amateur singer in my shower haha. its like socialising with the female friend that i never had. plus i get to feel what a respectable man behaves like. so how do i start this temporary secret romance? | suicide |
How I think cyberpunk could be amazing Idk how I thought of this but what if cyberpunk essentially used the same technology as sword art online and was vr, I think that would be amazing as long as you leave out the kidnapping part | non-suicide |
Stress reliefI'm being mentally destroyed by people I thought I could trust, I've never been a real "talker" but I'd seen some stuff on here and saw how it had helped some people and I just wanted to say, I've been crying myself to sleep on the daily for around years now and I've recently started cutting. It's a great way for me to relieve stress and I know it's really bad but I don't want to stop. Help me please. | suicide |
what was the s decade like? (those who were alive in it) was it like the s? was it like the s? or was it like the s? | non-suicide |
Oh fkThey are going to be in a relationship with the family and friends and friends are going out to dinner with my parents tonight but we will see how it goes and if we get a chance we can do it on Friday or Sunday night or Monday night and Tuesday I will be there at school today and I will call when I get back home from the hospital and the end of October is the best day for me to talk to you about it and I think that r ur best for u guys have a great night and I love you too baby so much love you and miss u guys are going to the movies and music and the game is over at the house and the house is in my name and I will be at work tomorrow at the same time and I will make sure to get it done before LoL no more emails please let me know if you need anything else from meh that you are a very beautiful girl I know I love it and I love you and miss you so much and have a great day at work baby girl I love it and I love you and miss you so much baby girl I love it and I love the idea of a human that is so sweet of her so I love it so I don't want you can be here for the night of my family is coming up with me on my phone so I don't think it is the best for you. | suicide |
The disturbing lack of time travellers arriving to stop happening suggests we never actually invent it Maybe Time Trqvel never will be a thing . | non-suicide |
Unsure if my state counts as "suicidal"I don't want to kill myself. But if I don't get better any time soon, I will have to. The level of suffering that my list of mental illnesses cause me is just not bearable anymore. I can't live this way much longer. I'm scheduled to begin an intensive inpatient clinic for daily therapy sessions, and it's my very last hope. The way I see it, I'm going to do everything I possibly can to be as productive in therapy as possible and learn as much as I possibly can to cope with my insanity, and if it doesn't result in any long-term improvement, even mild improvement, I will have no other option than to end it all. I'm not going to do it today or tomorrow or the next day. Not even next month or the one after that. But I highly doubt I'll be alive this time next year if I can't make any improvement. I haven't told the clinic this, because they don't take suicidal patients. I doubt they'd take me if they knew what the stakes are for me. A lot of suicidal people report that making that decision provides them a lot of relief, but so far it's just made me even sadder because I think I had a fair amount of potential. It would be sad to have to end it, but it is definitely better than living the next few decades dealing with the torture that is my mind. | suicide |
Have been crying for hours ptsdThis evening I tried to distract myself from my horrible thoughts by going in a chat room. I was told to kill myself. I was told that I will be raped. I have ptsd and Im freaking out. Im so scared and more than one man was poking fun of me. Im so scared and Im trying so hard to hold myself together. Ive been wailing for hours and Ive been having flashbacks. I feel worse than dead already. | suicide |
I wish someone would kill meI just ruined the best relationship I had by cheating on him. I miss my boyfriend so much, I cheated in him because i was scared of missing out but he is so kind so loyal, and an amazing person. I hurt him in an unimaginable way and its literally making me cry at night and making me want to walk in front a car. I fucked up. I just want to hug him, i just want to hug him so tight and not let go. I won't to take up next to him and sleep next to him. I want him back so bad I'm letting it kill me | suicide |
I wanna end it all but cant bring myself toI got home from work about a half ago, pulled the gun I carry out of the console, turned the safety off, and sat looking at it for I dont know how long. I want my life to end but as I sat there looking at the gun I couldnt bring myself to pull the trigger. Its the closest Ive ever come to going through with it. Maybe as time goes by Ill be able to get close enough. | suicide |
To the girl that studies abroad in Ljubljana Slovenia that got her photos leakedIf you are reading this please dont do it, people still care about you and there is nothing more precious than life, hit me up we can talk. | suicide |
Headphones on straw in mouth Oh yeah Im ready for the long drive home | non-suicide |
do you know what my crush and dad have in common? both doesnt care about me :)))))) | non-suicide |
I was wondering what people considered cold. Please tell me the lowest temperature you can survive in a sweatshirt and long pants. Thanks for answering! | non-suicide |
Remember when you had to buy music Spotify I a good thing | non-suicide |
I got a rope and I'm finally going to kill myselfI will kill myself in a few days and I really need to vent so here we go.. This will be a bit long I think. So, even my existence is actually an accident. I'm just the result of a quick fuck that happened when my parents were too horny to buy a condom. My father was cheating on my mom even before I was born so they got divorced when I was and I was left alone with mom in our small house and that didn't go very well because she would shout at me until I cry and just grab my hair and pull my around the house. She wasn't a good mother but she would always try to convince me that she is. My life actually got better in rd grade because my mom kind of got over her traumas about my father so she stopped bullying me so much. I made some friends and my life was pretty good until th grade. I mean until th grade I could study, I could eat, I could make friends (although I was always a bit socially awkward and had social anxiety it wasn't as bad) I couldn't do any of these in th grade. Everything in my life got fucked up. I became a lazy shit, I hated everybody and I got really bad depression and anxiety. I was really suicidal and almost failed all my classes. Then it got better over the summer and when th grade started it slowly started to get bad again because I was still going to fail some of my classes because I'm a lazy piece of shit and I can't get anything done. So I started homeschool and things got even worse. I wasn't studying at all and just sitting in my room watching youtube all day. After a few months I finally realized that I can't live like this because I'm very lazy and have no social skills. No one can survive on earth like this. So yes I got a rope now and I'm finally going to kill myself. I'm sorry if I made any grammar mistakes english isn't my first language. | suicide |
Hey all.So I think tonight is the night. I planned it all well. Ive tried and tried but I dont think I can go on anymore Im just tired of being the embarrassment of the family. Tired of be the joke at family get togethers. Theres nothing more I can do besides keep disappointing them. Its at the point I dont even talk to my family because Im just failing at life. But I think tonight is the night. It was a good years. Thanks all for listening to my pathetic rant. | suicide |
Banned from a suicide chat for having common sense Hey yall. I was having a moment so i decided to go to the Chatzy Suicide room (yes I'm saying names, I'm infuriated). It has a lot of cool people and when I'm there, I forget my problems. So we were just chillin, me and some or other people when a mod walks in. Me not knowing they were a mod and tryna be welcoming, I went over the top and instead of asking "how you doin" I asked "how ya pussy" (i realize that's bad) and they asked me to rephrase that and I apologized and everything went fine. After that, she (who had just declared to be a female) suddenly cleans everyone's chat history. I asked what was going on and she says this girl is multi accounting. People come up with evidence to back that theory up, and the mod asks when did the "boyfriend" come into the chat. She doesn't really know, and we move on. I didn't quite understand what was going on (a lot of people were talking at the same time) and asked for details such as how does the mod know that. I proceed to call her a dick because she's discussing beef while people need help, right about then entered a girl saying she was thinking of killing herself and I tried to help. Then I got banned. I emailed the chat staff about it and they haven't gotten back to me yet. I'm infuriated, that i got banned for having a point. What do yall think? AITA? | suicide |
I don't know how I can keep doing thisI am struggling so hard to hold it together. I lost my mom to a very short fight with cancer. It seemed like it swept in like a plague and took her before we even knew what to do. It took three months for it to completely destroy her. My mom had such a beautiful mind and loved in a way thay I cannot even begin to describe. She gave everything to her kids and now she's gone. I can't stop thinking about it and I can't stop wanting her back. It hurts so deeply and I just want it to stop so bad. Food just hurts my stomache, I have lost my desire to engage any of my hobbies, I am a shell around my wife and kids. I am so broken that I just no longer want to be here anymore. How do I live past thus? How do I go on when my will to live is so vacant? Someone please help me. | suicide |
Yall is it narcissistic to be suicidal This super religious dude told me that and now Im wondering if hes right or not. Thoughts? | non-suicide |
Dont be sad because of people- they will all die my life has changed forever | non-suicide |
Im still angry with you ...Its been five fucking years. Several times before you called me and I knew from the tone of the call what was happening. Each time before I had called For help for you and it had saved you. Now I cant forget the day you called and I could not see through the storm to what you where really saying. Im still mad at you. I cant get over both my missing the signs and your readiness to leave me alone in this shitty world. Im lost and ready to join you if it was not for the few anchors have here ... fuck you dear, yours eternally in pain | suicide |
Am i wrong in the head?I dreamt that i cut my wrists in the bathroom and painted 'this is your fault' for all my family and 'friends' to see. My mom finds my cold, lifeless body on the tiles, and fantasize her reaction. But All she would care about is the mess. I create different images in my head of this scene. Its slightly different, ie the person finds me. I just want this dream to become a reality | suicide |
I got a gunMy previous attempt has failed. Good news is: I got a gun! | suicide |
Dont you love it when your mom take your tv and phone of you because your bi I aint even made at the fact she being homophobic I just want my phone back | non-suicide |
asshole discord server i fucking hate this one discord server its the one owned by the blank name youtuber and everyone there is so fucking toxic it just fucking sucks | non-suicide |
Feeling shitty todayI seriously wish I could just press a button to stop existing, life honestly sucks | suicide |
I really do be improving as a person I mean its causing a identify crisis but ya know upsides and downsides | non-suicide |
hi all gamers who walk amidst this night discord server and my friends r trying to get new peoplee, we chat, send memes, play games like minecraft among us overwatch all that stuff, and such going on, is not a commitment, guys and girls welcome, dm for link :D | non-suicide |
Bro I SWEAR TO GOD I was straight like months ago. Bruh I'm so confused, I became bi so suddenly it doesn't make any sense. I swear to god I was straight lol | non-suicide |
I feel like I am going through a crisis related to mortality, which is leading me to insanity.I am , currently an accounting student expected to get my bachelor degree next year. It's going to take me . years longer than what it's supposed to, and this is the first contributing factor to the way I feel. During the last three and a half years of university, I have achieved many things I am proud of. I became manager of a large student associatiob, I founded my own non profit company with some friends (although we cannot make any profits, so it's not a real job) and I managed to bank five years of job experience working as an accountant in my family business. This sounds great, and it is. However, I am slowly losing my mind. My family is a wreck. My mother suffers from borderline personality disorder and has narcissistic tendencies: she attempted suicide by sleeping pills overdose a few years back, and pointed a pair of scissors to my neck when I was . I have been to therapy just to elaborate this memory, which haunts me to this day. I cannot keep living in this house. My mother is getting more insane as times goes on. A few months back, I lost my job. That completely devastated me, as it was my only source of income. We are poor, and it's not like my dad gives me money. Then problems in the association started to arise. People leaving, badmouthing others, and a bunch of other stuff. I couldn't pass any exam, I am far behind my schedhle for graduation, and last week, after the last crisis in the association, I broke down. I got a "nervous fever" as the doctor called it: my temperature spiked up to . and I was hospitalized for the night. My body and mind have suffered to much stress it nearly killed myself. I have two problems. ) The association. I can't continue to be president. As soon as my phone rings, I assume things have good wrong and there is a problem I have to fix. I literally shake when I get a notification. I also cannot leave though, because I was elected, and leaving would cause the group to fall. ) My age. I would be if I decide to continue and get my master's degree. That's way too much time to spend at home with my mother. I feel old, and trapped. I just can't see any way out. | suicide |
I'm writing a paper in Instagram Clout Chasers (no this isn't a joke it's for sociology) Does anyone have particularly annoying or toxic clout chasers I should research and tear apart? | non-suicide |
Had a much better day today.For those who read my post last night, I realized that I don't actually want to die, I just couldn't see any light at the time and had a massive wave of depression that I had never felt before. I'm working through my problems and keeping faith for a brighter tomorrow. I'll be deleting that post here shortly. Thank you so much to the people who said I will come out of this stronger, it means so much and is very motivating. If anyone on here needs someone to talk to, feel free to message me. | suicide |
Anyone else just feel exhausted all the time?I'm literally tired all day everyday the only thing that seems to help is my adhd meds. Anyone else just super tired/exhausted all the time? It literally makes doing anything a struggle | suicide |
If I were to take my own life, but the people around me knew I was no longer suffering everyday, would it be at all easier to accept?Everyday is a constant nightmare when my brain, the thing that literally IS ME, wants me dead. I wake up wishing that I had died in my sleep and I find myself tempted to do something when no one is around. Everything at this point just feels numb to the point where I was pretty close to grabbing a knife from the kitchen just to feel something. I feel like Im living a constant hell and Im sick of it. So I lose the question: I know there are people in my life who would be destroyed to see me taking my life, but would it be somewhat better knowing I wouldnt be going through a living hell every day? I just want this horrible feeling to end. Its every day. I just want to be free of it. | suicide |