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I swear skirts have no right being so damn cute Title says all. I just dont get it, why is an article of clothing just so damn attractive? Blows my mind, but yea. Just wanted to say, skirts cute as hell. | non-suicide |
daily reminder ur a great person and rly cute keep at it | non-suicide |
Anyone know the song Im thinking of? I have two lyrics and I dont expect anyone to get it. I think it may be by Lana del Rey. Shes talking about being in love or something. Lost but now I am found and another part is fear dont fail me now, take me to the finish line | non-suicide |
Flying to Patagonia to dieI'm at the airport waiting for my plane to Puerto Natales. I'll be doing "a trekking" but with the actual intention of staying there and die. | suicide |
TrappedIm stuck and I hate it. I just wish I had a way out and the fact that I cannot figure a way to kill myself just makes my depression worse. It has been days and I have done absolutely nothing. I cant even open my text book to start my homework. Everything is so fucking difficult and I dont want to be here anymore. i just want to die. My life is a constant cycle of me circling back to this very point where I just want to die. My entire life is going to be me constantly wanting to commit. Things like using a gun or jumping off a bridge are too scary bc of how immediate it is. Plus Idk where a year old can get a gun and I dont have any access to the top of high buildings and there arent any big bridges near me. I have nothing strong enough to od on, idk which chemicals are the best to drink and how much would be enough. Plus, I cant even stand their smell so Idk how Id be able to taste it and swallow it. And what if it doesnt work. And slitting my wrists could also not even result in my death, and how do you work up the nerve to do it. Fucking hell, can someone just kill me? | suicide |
Hieheyheyaaahieeeeeehloheyyyyyyhiehie Is that a song FillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFill | non-suicide |
guess whos sad me goodnight | non-suicide |
I would actually love to be a physicist But you know...math Im more on the practical physics side if thats even possible | non-suicide |
I hate who I am, how I behave with othersIt seems that I can not function well in the relationships with others, I believe I only create problems to others, and that I am a problem by myself. I asked my advisor to review a research project I wrote, but I felt like I violated his personal boundaries to get his help, indeed he politely refused, mentioning that he doesn't know the field. Maybe because he knows me, he knows that I am extremely sensitive to critiques, and if this project I wrote sucks, maybe he couldn't feel free to tell me the truth. I don't know how to behave properly with people, I just can let them down and I only want to disappear from the world | suicide |
In UK - what to do for helpI posted on here a few days expressing uncertainty about where to go to get help. I'm not in danger of actually killing myself, but I am thinking about it a lot, am struggling to focus, and am just... having a really hard time. And I don't have a mental health team at the moment and my college doesn't have counsellors, so I don't know who to talk to. I can't talk to friends - I complain to them too much about feelings, and they have a tendency to say unhelpful things. I can't talk to family. I've tried an online suicide prevention thing online before and it was kind of lame, and I don't think it's particularly appropriate to my situation. I don't need somebody to tell me not to kill myself. I'm not entirely sure what I need. Do you ever feel so stressed and like you're having a crisis but people barely even notice, so you want to do something to attract their attention? I know people look down on this type of behaviour a lot, but I kind of want to harm myself in a non-fatal but significant way so as to communicate to people how not okay I am. Because words are not adequate. And I feel bad about wanting to do that but I don't know what else to do | suicide |
Staying alive is great. Even if you're in a bad spit you learn from it. Would you could you do it with a rope? Would you could you OD on dope? Would you could you do it with a knife? Just how would you take your life? I don't like knives, I don't like rope, I'll skip on the rope. My death of choice a bit insane, it's to stay alive for as long as I can. Not even to hit building plane. Try me sitting here not feeling self pain, it's really a big brain gain. | non-suicide |
What was the pointSorry in advanced if anyone who actually decides to read this has any trouble, the truth is I don't even understand myself what I feel right now. This is my second post in here and I just came to the realization that every moment of pain I've felt for the last months were for nothing. Ever since I fucked up and lost my dearest friend I've been having trouble sleeping, I wake every morning wanting to kill myself and I hate every inch of my body. Today for the first time in months she spoke to me and I finally had the chance to get closure, apologize. I wasn't anything to her. She didn't even consider me a friend. For the last years I've felt like shit daily, been depressed all the time and have been feeling as every day I turn hollow. I feel broken. And this months have been hell for me, I have been inducing pain to myself in diverse ways, I've been regretting everything that happened, wishing to never have met her in the first place. Even if she meant a lot to me. Nothing was worth it, the pain was never worth it. I wouldn't have been any happier if this hadn't happened, and this is for sure not the reason for my unhappiness but it for sure hurts a lot. I guess I just can't change that I have depression and anxiety disorders, I can't change the way I feel towards myself, i hate myself and now I don't know what else there is to it I'm hollow. I'm broken, I don't know anymore what to do. What is there left to life now, I've met some wonderful friends in the time I was hurting because of this situation but what if I don't mean anything to them. There's nothing left of me, I'm hollow, I'm broken beyond repair and now the only thing left of me is what I hate the most. Myself. | suicide |
I haven't jerked off for months and tried today and it was so sore and doesn't feel good at all I've only been orgasming handsfree with estim. It feels a lot better and doesn't hurt. | non-suicide |
Is constantly thinking about suicide but just carrying yourself through the day after another still considered suicidal?I think most people here have been affected by whats going on so I wont press the matter. However, personally, I've been thinking about suicide since I was about - years old. I'm now, "well done myself for lasting this long" I always tell myself. I've always kept a good composure around people and they see me as a role model, someone who works hard, passionate about my craft and fights for what they believe in but only very few truly know the demons I wrestle with every waking hour. Some days get very dark, I start shaking and my thoughts run wild. Most of the time, I ride it out without much incident, other days I try reaching out to friends and usually get the feeling that I'm intruding on their time. At the end of the day, I'm still here, that's how I kept it going. I haven't had the reason to reach out as I've met people who ask "you aren't depressed if you're not diagnosed" or "don't think that way, its unhealthy'. Truthfully, family is no help as we'r all dead inside I guess. Friends are too busy and I'm still thinking about it, day after day. What I fear now is ;what if one day I just lose it. tl;dr : Think of suicide for years, not actually carrying it out. Is it still suicidal? | suicide |
i am going to kill myself if i fail this semesteri am a nursing student and am in my very last semester. i was supposed to be finished in May, but i failed a class by .% and had to repeat it, leading to this extra semester. i am currently failing this last semester (we are only allowed to fail and repeat one class, so i will be kicked out of the program if i fail this one too). My mental health has been deteriorating, but i physically cannot bring myself to ask people for help. i saw a therapist for the first time in my life (for two sessions) and my biggest fear came true - he invalidated me, told me i was making problems for myself and that i just needed to buckle down and get things done. i am not diagnosed with anything because i have never sought out help, but from what i have gathered from research and my education is that i am suffering from depression, dissociative episodes, self-destructive/reckless impulsivity and panic attacks. These things have always been issues for me but lately things are getting dangerous. i am completely reckless with my well-being and i dont care if something bad happens to me. i feel as though i have been giving friends/family hints as i cannot bring myself to actually ask for help, but nobody seems to see how bad i really am. i know this is my fault, but it is extremely lonely and difficult. There are many other factors that have lead me towards wanting to do this, but not passing this semester will be the last straw. i know it sounds dramatic, because it is. But i cannot take any more schooling. i cannot take any more not being good enough. i cannot take anymore pressure and i will not be able to take it if i have wasted the past four and a half years miserable and suffering through this major if i dont end up passing in the end. i dont want any advice, i dont want anyone to convince me otherwise. i will never be able to tell anyone in my life, so i am writing it here. i know this is the weak way out. i am % serious. i am so sorry. | suicide |
I'm so lonely, that I don't want to live anymoreI've started losing social connections since years ago. Now i'm completely alone, even my parents lost all sympathy to me. I don't know how to live with it. I also have no job and decent qualification to obtain one. | suicide |
I'll always be a cowardCan't even muster up the courage to go through with it for fucks sake. | suicide |
i don't want to be here anymorethings aren't that bad in my life, but yet i still find myself longing for it to end. the voices in my head, the paranoia, telling me that everyone around me is against me, that they all hate me, gets stronger every day, to the point where i feel so uncomfortable interacting with anyone in any way. i want it to end. last week, i was contemplating writing a note, so if it happens, people know why, but i thought if no one cares, what's the point of writing one. i needed to just let it all out, because i don't know anyone in my life i feel comfortable telling right now. i want to fall, and never get back up again. | suicide |
It's for good cause, please don't take it down mods :) Hey everyone, I know this probably isn't the place to say this but I don't really care because it's for a good cause. On Saturday starting at A.M. EST I'm going to be doing a charity stream on Twitch. This Charity is to collect money for veterans to get gaming equipment so they can play video games as a way to calm down and as a way to help combat PTSD and depression. No one has to follow, all I ask is that you guys share it out and stop by, heck even donate! Ill be working with [ and the stream link is [ It would mean so much to me if you guys/gals/and non-binaries would come on by! | non-suicide |
Think before you speakEx falsely charged me with a DV in order to get a TPO put in place on my son so she could take him. Now that I'm days away from getting it dismissed and getting him back after a month, she is telling everyone that I molested him. I'm being charged, no evidence, but I can't prove that nothing happened (how the fuck could you?). I'm loosing everything. I cant afford a lawyer of that caliber. I'm not going to spend the next years in prison for something I didn't do, just to get out when I'm , be on a sex offender list, and not be able to work in my field. Cops will be at my door before pm tomorrow. I've already sawed off my catalytic converter. This probably isn't the right sub to put this in, but here it is. To any crazy fucks out there, think about the long term affects of lying to get your way. | suicide |
The new spotify premium ad is annoying Like it thanks you for using it a and telling you you could use a bunch of outdated ways of doing it. I hate it | non-suicide |
Im ready nowGoing to use the last bit of cash I have in this life to go shopping for the essentials tomorrow. hopefully quarantine lines wont be too long and no one tries to save me this time. | suicide |
guys i dug myself into a hole and im scared the local high school dropout (, has mugshots, and a restraining order on him from his ex) asked me for my snap and i gave it to him because hes scary he snapped me a couple times then i left him on read, a few hours later he said damn u left my ass on read and i said i was sleeping. then he asked how was your day at school then when i said bad he said some shit about burning the school down. now hes calling me honey and he just said run away with me so we can be broke and explore the world love stories guys im scared and im scared to block him because what if he starts stalking me like he did his exes | non-suicide |
I hate small talk, I wanna succ succ i wanna succ your dick and your f dick and dick and your dick and succ your dick when succ and succ succ n dick and what keeps ur dick up at night is the succ and how much succn dick mean to you and you dick and your f dick dont wanna know whats up **penis** | non-suicide |
Hey, wondering if someone could help So I really love cock, balls, and cum. But like, noone wants me to see there cock, balls and cum. So if you can help me with seeing some cock, balls and cum, that'd be greatly appreciated. | non-suicide |
My grandma got runower by a fork My dad got stepped on Life as a ant can be ruff | non-suicide |
I just want to die and stop being a burdenI'm tired of being a burden on everyone around me. I'm trans, and no matter what I do in life, I won't be able to pass. My appearances put a strain on every single relationship I've ever had. I lost most of my friends, and my family detests me. My family was letting me stay with them until I graduated college, but I ended up dropping out almost a year ago at this point and I haven't been able to find a job or anything. I pretend to go to college every day, but I don't. As soon as they figure it out (May at the latest, when I was supposed to graduate), they'll throw me out and I'll be homeless, unable to keep transitioning, and unemployed. I feel like I should just get it over with now instead of having to go through all of that and having to put my family through the trouble of throwing me out when I'm the issue. | suicide |
I hate seeing disabled peopleThose with mental and physical impairments. Not to say that I think they are lesser or broken or something to that extent. But they obviously struggle with some sort of issue that complicates their life. Seeing them brings me discomfort, not for any vain reason, but because I am healthy. I am physically and mentally (maybe) fine. However, I want to die. For months, maybe years I have wished desperately for my life to end. I take everything for granted, I am spoiled, selfish, and disgusting. And when I see someone who is disabled, I feel guilty. What would they do to be like me? Again, not to insinuate that they are worse, but it would be easier for them to be like me. I feel like shit. There are so many who just want to be healthy, to be average. But here I am, wishing the worst upon myself. | suicide |
my room is too cold #!|_!|_~*_\*|_~+\ | non-suicide |
Whats the difference Whats the difference between a guy best friend and a boyfriend. they look like the same guy to me | non-suicide |
To all the kids with divorced parents: Merry Christmas part !!!!! Best two days of the year | non-suicide |
m lostIm y.o male who developed physical/mental problems from moderate cocaine use in early s and heavy pot/oral tobacco use on and off until May . I wasnt feeling well in mid s got blood work done and it showed I had low testosterone so after yr of trying to get it up naturally I decided to go on hormone replacement therapy. Long story short it helped some with energy etc but still havent felt the same since I was younger. I eventually made some dumb decisions from - and was using not best quality cocaine on an off. I sit here with damage to my nose throat lungs and definitely brain and peripheral nerves with bad depression. Ive never had a gf due to sexual dysfunction and walked away from k salary job last year from terrible anxiety. Most of my family hates me from some of the choices I made and Im barely hanging on to a hotel front desk job at the moment. Ive messed my self up pretty bad and Im not even sure why Im posting on here. My only thought is to go buy a gun and end it :-/ | suicide |
weird question but what y'all think When is an appropriate time to tell my non-black gf I don't care if she says the n-word? As long as she isn't being racist of course. | non-suicide |
I don't see the point in livingThis isn't a depressive post, I just really do not see the point in living. Especially if most of the events you experience every day are usually either neutral or negative, then I don't see why you wouldn't kill yourself. The cost/benefit analysis of life seems to be favoring the costs and looks to be an investment that doesn't pay off. I feel that most of you will give the advice that it's because of love, or just being happy doing the things you love, but I don't see the point in doing those things if you know you won't be the best at them. Statistically it's pretty much % likely you won't be the best or even close to being "great" at something, so why do it if you know you're going to be constantly outperformed by someone else or a lot of "someone else's"? Especially if you're into an art form or in a performance field; your fans will enjoy someone else more than you, and it's highly unlikely that you'll be a star. This holds true for attractiveness and personality traits as well. If you're not going to be the most attractive (whether it be physically or personality-wise or both) person then why begin a relationship or a friendship? There will always be some other person that that person (whether it be a friend or a girlfriend/boyfriend) will enjoy being around more, be more compatible with, admire more, or be happier around than you. And I know this sounds extremely negative, but try to take it in objectively. There's no hidden meaning in here, these are just my ruminations. And maybe some people are happy with not being the best (I think this is valid for careers/hobbies, but not for relationships) and I can understand that. Does anyone have something to alter my point of view? | suicide |
I b e at my dick like it ow es me mone h And in the other hand my dick isnt in, how tf do I play rocket league | non-suicide |
I'm worried about a friend of mineI feel like she might hurt or even kill herself. She allways seemed extremely depressed. I don't know where she lives currently and I can't text her anymore so the only contact I have with her is through instagram. Suddenly left an extremely emotional comment under something I have posted days ago so I checked her profile and her bio is what worried me the most because it seems she is planning to commit suicide. I don't know what to do and I will never manage to live in peace if something happens to her | suicide |
i had my weirdest dream i was playing a vr game (i dont even own a vr setup) and i could touch boobs and all and actually feel them, i started just grabbing all kinds of boobs and some girls even had more than two boobs, idk what game it was but it looked similar to cyberpunk in terms of graphics actually they just looked like real people but i knew i was in a game even though im pretty sure i could see my own body idk anyways i already forgot most of the dream but it was pretty good would do it again | non-suicide |
I think Im going to kill myself later when Im alone.I woke up feeling so awful and low that I can not bare it anymore. Im not really scared of dying like I used to be, Im going to fill my bag and shoes full of rocks and walk into the sea. I can no longer deal with the embarrassment and pain of being alive, I simply wish to not exist any longer. | suicide |
Can someone please tell me Im not crazy (TW SEXUAL ASSULT) If your parents slap you on the ass (not in a discipline way- just literally slapping you on the ass) thats sexual assault right? Cos theyve been doing that since I was like till now, and sometimes theyd make comments about how my ass had grown or how it was big and then slap it. Its gotten to the point in recent years where I have anxiety about having my back to my parents especially my dad Cos Im worried they might slap it. I think my dad might have actually tried to molest me once as well, Cos I was lying down on the couch once when I was younger with him Cos we were watching a show and we were under a blanket, and for some reason in the back of my head I thought he was going to touch me, and then a couple minutes later he touched/ squeezed my nipple but he went no further than that- holy shit I cant believe Ive actually opened up about this to someone. But I just feel really empty realising that I might have been sexually assaulted by my parents so can someone please just tell me their opinion on this | non-suicide |
pain.im lying in bed with my cat next to me, usually this is when i feel most calm and okay. tonight i can not stop crying trying to hold back my sobs so my family doesnt wake up. im a shell of the person i used to be and i cant stand it. i cant stand feeling all this pain and no one understanding. my family doesnt exactly believe in mental illness so i cant get help. i feel so fucking stuck. my best friend (who i think im in love with) told me that she would blame herself if anything happened to me and that is on my mind so much. i love her with my entire fucking heart i dont want to hurt her but this pain is unbearable. im supposed to be going to my favorite place in the world on saturday and i dont even want to go at this point for no reason?? i dont know who i am anymore. everything is shit. i really think monday is possibly it for me. i cant go on feeling this low everyday. i wish someone cared and wanted to save me. | suicide |
I live my life for the sake of othersIm so sad. I shouldnt be, I have a pretty easy life, but I am. The woman I thought loved me left when I needed her most, I cant keep up in class, it takes me hours to get out of bed, I just want to be fucking done with all of it. I feel like I cant kill myself because it would destroy my family. But I didnt ask to be born, but they love me so much, but I cant fucking take this life. Im not strong enough. I feel so alone, and so fucking abandoned. Shes doing great and Im left here, a crippled, crying mess. Theres a Pearl Jam song that I think about all the time. Black. Theres a line that says I know some day youll have a beautiful life I know youll be a star. In somebody elses sky, why, why, whyyy cant it be mine? I just wish I would go to bed and not wake up | suicide |
Well shit My mom is in a mental hospital, online school is horrible cause none of the teachers know what they are doing, and I have to move. I so very much want to die. | non-suicide |
SOMEONE MADE MY CHEESE DUST ON MY WHITE SKIRT RAP DREAMS COME TRUE please go and listen to it I'm obsessed [i love this]( | non-suicide |
I tried kill myself a month ago and have been in in patient therapy for weeks and i don't feel any better. Of course my family have hidden all the knives so I can't self harm. My urges to self harm got so bad that I used blunt kid scissors to cut myself. I also haven't told my friends what happened. I'm also worried that if I'm honest at therapy I'll have to be in in patient for longer. I dont know why I'm posting this but yeah. | non-suicide |
I really want to overdose tonightNo one listens to me. No one can help. The people who would usually help are busy or otherwise unable to reapond. I don't know how to hold on. I don't want to hurt my friends, family and my boyfriend, but staying just for them is beginning not to be enough. I'm so close to just doing it. Help me please. | suicide |
Daddy show me that bulgy wulgy UWU Im craving that _thicc_ tasty cock of yours Give me that milk you have in your meat rod ^Im ^sorry ^but ^im ^really ^not | non-suicide |
"ughh anyway stan jungkook-" | non-suicide |
Openf. I have a good life. I've done almost everything I've wanted to do. I live with my boyfriend and his family. I have a job. I've travelled plenty. I study at university-- it's a great university. My grades are excellent. I don't have any serious issues with the way I look-- I am ok with who I am. But I seriously want to kill myself, and have been wanting to for years. I've recently gotten myself into a relationship, and it's the only thing holding me back-- my boyfriend might be sad, but again, it's a "might" and not a definite will. Every relationship I've had, whether it be familial, platonic, and/or romantic have ended awfully. Some conflicts have not been my fault, but still. I've come to realise I am the common denominator in and between each of these conflicts. Everyone has conflict, and trauma, and something they can't quite move past-- I get that. But I feel heavy with guilt, and carry the burden of my family's hurt with me. I might be too sensitive. The equation I have worked out is as follows: Said relationship - me = stability. This is something I've thought about in depth. I want to make my last year, and I want it to be a great year. I think this is my final call for help. I want to feel better. I would like to move past this, and I feel I can't. Many thanks in advance. | suicide |
I just wanna die so fucking muchBeen contemplating suicide everyday for the past years. Not a single person in my life has their shit together. Or the ones that do don't give a fuck about anyone else. I have no one to turn to. I'm angry all the time, but if you met me you'd think I was the nicest person so I've been told. I hate my memories. All the good ones are overshadowed by the bad ones. I have so much debt. I hate the way I look. I've gotten plastic surgery in an attempt to look prettier, but it did nothing. I'm a failure. Can't stay motivated. I will probably attempt suicide for the first time in July or August. I used to be able to sleep it off, but the thoughts are still there in the morning now. | suicide |
I dont know what to do anymore It's getting really bad and I can't do anything about it I can't tskr it anymore | non-suicide |
Why can't we post pics? Isn't it Thursday? I thought text based posts were only on Fridays and Weekends. | non-suicide |
I want to kll myselfI dont know what to do anymore. I have very religious parents. When my father found out I wanted to kll myself a year ago he said I was selfish and that could if I wanted to. Its been a year since then and I thought things would get better and start looking up but its so much worst. Besides depression there are many factors to me wanting to mostly that I messed up. I did something I cant take back and my parents wouldnt let me live down if they found out. Everyday is so dull and Im always so anxious. Im wondering why Im even living anyways and how I should do it. I dont want it to be too painful. I dont want to go to hell either but I feel trapped. | suicide |
Who is climate and why is he always changing? Like damn, just be yourself | non-suicide |
Will be pulling the trigger tonight, but willing to answer some questions before doing so. [  Yes, I will be killing myself tonight. Ive come to terms with my situations, just a bad life and unlucky, thats it. I will not be showing the actual suicide because I do not want to traumatize or shock anyone here. But I will be answering any questions via voice chat for the next - minutes before I do pull the trigger.  Link: [  Channel: Live   Thank you again for keeping me company though for the past couple months, made me feel well. | suicide |
Letter to my wife and other wives who are horrible people.It's you. It's totally % you. You are the reason I want to kill myself. You are the reason I am unhappy. You are a vile person who doesn't deserve a man like me. You don't deserve a daughter like we have. You need to shut the fuck up sometimes and let me talk. You need to let me have the last word for once. You need to get your ass off the sofa and help a little bit. You did OK for a few months but the old wife is back again. Sometimes i don't want to cook dinner. Sometimes I don't want to pick up the daughter. Sometimes I feel down and need you. I shouldn't have to write about you on the interwebs. I should be able to talk to you but you never listen. Sometimes it's me who needs help. I'd divorce you but the woman always come out better in court and I'd be worse off than I am now. Then you'd have even more to hold over me and I can't let that happen. I can't let you get anything up on me and that is why I have to check out of this misery called my life. I probably won't do it tonight but some day I'll have the courage to and you'll see. Everyone will see that I really do have it in me. If you read this I hope you understand that it was you all along. You were a good person when I married you but now all you are is nasty and lazy. I hope you are happy. | suicide |
Trying minesweeper Minesweeper is complicated, but guess what I'm gonna learn. I'm gonna flex so hard I become a chick magnet. Lets be real: you need to have a LOT of strategy and mindset to this game, of which is a lot of guessing work, and a bit of luck, yes. | non-suicide |
I'm thinking of committing suicide.I just thought I should let someone know. I have been tortured from my past for so long, and I want to forget everything. People just say rely on Christ's atonement. But it has done nothing for me this entire time. I was so betrayed, and infinitely hurt. And no one gave a damn. I don't even want revenge anymore, because if I can't have it now, and they all get away with what they've done to me for this long, why have it for one fleeting moment at all? I just want my memories gone, I hate everything that has happened to me, and no matter how much faith I had in God, he only turned his head away and I am expected to still yet have faith. I have never received what I deserved for all of my labors, my sacrifices, my patience, and my loyalty. I cannot deal with this, and I just want to die, I can't face the future. I wish there was someone out there who actually understood the infinitely immeasurable pain I have endured, and will admit it is far greater than anything anyone has been through. I never got to die, even though I have been murdered over and over, and tortured over and over. And no aid ever came whenever I asked. Only hatred, only spite, only silence. I want so much to lose all of my memories, but I want to lose them now. I don't want to work for it. I've had enough, I've been through far more pain than anyone can realize, and I don't care much about anything anymore. I have become dumber, more depressed, completely suicidal for many years straight now, and now I have developed cancer from tobacco and alcohol just to supress my obsessive compulsive disorder and suicidal-level depression. I must say, the devil wanted me dead. And he got his way. I am done with life. I fucking hate what I get from life, when I put so much more effort and have so much to get past in my head, just to function in the day. I have to wade through nightmarish memories every second of every day, with no requition and no resolution, they kill me and stab me in the heart ever second of the day. And there's nothing I can do about it. | suicide |
Why cant i bring myself to end it?It makes perfect sense. I am a fat selfish lonely manchild that makes trouble for others. I cant even get an entrylevel job despite having a year degree. I am a mrntal and financial burden on my family as well as a horrible influrnce on my little brother. I have all these readons to do it but i cant bring myself to it. Im so selfish i cant even do the one thing that can help my family. Why is this? How do i actually grow a pair for once to actually do it? | suicide |
Walked in on a suicide attemptSo when I was smaller coming home from elementary I found my dad. He was on the floor, rolling around, told me to get him tea. He was so incoherent. Had tried to OD. I didnt know what was happening so I called my mom, she came home and thats really all I remember. I didnt think about this memory until I found some documents talking about it. It all clicked that it was an attempt many years later. It fucked me up. I have a question, who would let their young daughter find their dead body? He was attempting to die. My dad has had more attempts. Once with carbon monoxide in our garage. It could have easily harmed our pets. When you kill yourself, you think for a second about who will find you. What a selfish asshole.. I cant forgive him. Weve never talked about it. It makes me feel worse. | suicide |
Today is // I know nobody cares but **Yeet** | non-suicide |
can i call on myself if im a minor and if i do what will happen?im , my mother is not home and uncooperative. i want to be admitted to the ER because im really fucking close to killing myself. what will happen if i do | suicide |
My post isnt posting Anyone know why :(. It says something went wrong. Its quite a big post and its annoying bc I spent so long typing it out :( | non-suicide |
There are more than genders. And that is fact! Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler | non-suicide |
Lets play a game Someone writes half of a pickup line, someone else finishes it. Now go crazy yall | non-suicide |
I cant do this anymore please help meSo Ive had depression and have been suicidal for years now and have attempted suicide several times. I have an undiagnosed eating disorder cause my doctor thinks Im better cause I lied. The other day my friend was going to kill herslef and I begged her not to. Today one of my friends who is abused has disappeared and isnt online and my other friend is breaking down and wants to kill herself. I want to slit my wrists and die right now too please help me | suicide |
I made a mistake and I want to dieI fucked up at work. I don't want to go into detail but just know someone could have been seriously hurt and it was all my fault. This is really effecting my general anxiety and has substantially increased suicidal ideation (never attempted but it's always been a lingering idea). I texted the hot line while at work, didn't really help. Talked to pyciatrist, antidepressants have been increased. Is there anything else I can do? | suicide |
When they ask "do you play basketball?" But not "Does your neck hurt after taking a shower because someone thought that the average human was ' tall ?" | non-suicide |
Is there a Hiking boots trend going on or is this an anomaly? I am sitting in a restaurant near a high school, so far, of the last handful of students coming through were wearing hiking boots. (The first one caught my eye, then I picked up the others) is this a trend for kids now? Hell, I still own my Doc Martens from back then, but they had their moment. | non-suicide |
People blame me for everythingI just feel like people blame me for everything and it makes me really pissed and I want to shoot myself everytime I have arguments replaying through my head. | suicide |
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Pls ignoreI'm a terrible human I want to die but maybe that's why I'm not allowed to die maybe I need to keep existing to keep suffering for being such a disgusting trash human. | suicide |
Why not?I've felt like a failure for years. Now, it's peaking. I got and lost a job within a week because I couldn't match the required pace in their bullshit system. Despite how much I try, I'm useless at everything. Even video games, which are supposed to be fun, are nothing except a reminder of my complete ineptitude at everything. I had to move to a different state with my family because, at , I'm too shitty to be living on my own. I lost my girlfriend because of how stupid I was. And my parents don't listen. They keep guilting me with how my death would make them feel. I'm tired of it. They know I have no reason to want to live, so that's the only card they have left. Unfortunately, I have no workable plan. I used to live about a half hour from the # suicide bridge in the US, but now, I don't know what I could do. I'm too much of a coward to slit my wrists, and I'm too shitty with knots to hang myself. | suicide |
Help?Yesterday I attempted to kill myself while I was shit faced drunk. I tried calling the suicide hotline multiple times and I don't even remember doing that. I do not want go to that dark place again. Help me please? | suicide |
No love= no meaningI'm keep getting thrown into this dark place I'm so afraid of. I lost all my energy and I'm always tired now. Being ghosted by people you like is very painful and i can't stand pain. I just wanted to make someone happy and share my life with. | suicide |
Im going to do itEnough is enough. Im going to try tommorow morning. Im preparing everything else. | suicide |
I took a break from Reddit, and heres what I learned! I cant survive without Reddit | non-suicide |
I dont know if Ive done something wrong So me and my best friend were really close before the Christmas lockdown and during it we were texting all the time. Then it gets to the first day of school and I thought it would be great to see her again but then he hardly spoke and now it feels like weve never met before she has also not been speaking on our gc that much either. | non-suicide |
Right so I read The Gospel according to Saint John So after finally being inspired by my hero to take more interest in my own beliefs I read the gospel. And I have to say Im very happy that I did it, I feel like Im a better person because of it and have taken some very good messages from it. I highly recommend that you read it even if youre not religious, Jesus gave some very great lessons. | non-suicide |
Aaaahhhhh I'm in so much agony! Send help My brother is making the Amazon echo blast the th different anime some this week | non-suicide |
Please help.Obviously a throwaway. My family has a % suicide rate. I know that sounds like bullshit but it's true. I have anxiety and have my entire life. In the last year my entire life has gone to shit and I'm now living with my mother and unable to work. I'm seeing a psychiatrist, weekly counseling, weekly CBT, and I just can't anymore. I will ALWAYS be sick. There is no cure, I'm just expected to live with the symptoms, maybe medication will ease them a little. Whatever. I'm sick of this. I've been suicidal before but right now is the most determined I've ever been. I've never had a plan how I was going to do it. I do now. PLEASE I don't want to beg fucking internet strangers but I'm NOT telling anybody IRL about this. I need help. Please. | suicide |
I can't do this anymoreI don't want to be in this life anymore. I don't have any money. I have debts that will take me a long time to pay off. I'm the black sheep on both sides of my family but I'm forced to take care of my mother because she has a rare disease. I have been sexually assaulted more than I would like to admit. Therapy and medications aren't working. I'm keeping secrets that could potentially ruin relationships. I have thought about running the car in a closed garage multiple times. I have thought about self-harming countless times. I have thought about overdosing on prescription pills with alcohol. I am a nobody and I will die a nobody. For the life of me, I can't think of anybody who will show up to my funeral. That's how alone I am. | suicide |
DON'T SEND NUDES It isn't worth it. You could get exposed, or in trouble. I'm dealing with some stuff that was brought on by sending/receiving nudes, and it is not fun. It can be fun in the moment but the potential consequences are really bad. Please, just don't do it. | non-suicide |
She just told me she doesn't care if I hang myselfWe had a massive argument, and I was inebriated so I didnt hold back. I told her I was tired of being pushed around and she shoved me and told me she didnt love me and she didnt care if i went ahead and hung myself (cousin did years ago and I've had a hard time with it). I won't but goddamn woman. | suicide |
yall wanna bet that someone is gonna try and assasinate biden i got the description of the dude too, he has red hair, always wear overalls, has a shitty pickup truck, always takes a confederate flag with him. | non-suicide |
My gf is sending me half nudes and I dont know what to do Me and my gf have been together for about months and were long distance (~ miles) and she was like what do you look like without a shirt and I sent her an image of me at the lake and then she sent me a pic of her in a bra and I dont know how to respond | non-suicide |
Perpetually Haunted by Stupid MistakesBeen having episodes again recently in which my biggest triggers are stupid, embarassing things Ive done over the years. Somehow they burn worse than the big mistakes. Just pathetic, moronic blunders. Anyone else have that sometimes? | suicide |
Do you have an anime/video game waifu/husbando? If so, who is she/he? For me, it's (Jasmine)[ from Pokemon! She's incredibly cute and caring. My type of woman | non-suicide |
i start my first job tomorrow!!! i work at subway now and i have a coworker!! he probably definitely is a user of reddit. he put his hands together and called me a woman of culture when we met because of my ATLA shirt. im so excited!!! i have a cool coworker amd a cool boss and a good paying job! i am so excited. i hope my life keeps getting a little better. it feels good to catch a nice break and be excited about something. also my employee punch in number is lol. this is my first job i hope its awesome :) | non-suicide |
No one actually wants me around, they just don't like the idea of me committing suicideSuicide makes them uncomfortable. Suicide sounds bad. Suicide looks bad. But nobody actually wants me around. If I were to die I wouldn't be missed for all that long. If I could just get over the fear of pain or being semi successful I would kill myself in a heartbeat. I wish I could get my hands on a gun and a quiet spot alone in the woods. | suicide |
Happy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the th of January Happy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the th of JanuaryHappy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the th of January | non-suicide |
I think I want to kill myselfI'm just extremely scared, I don't know how to approch this situation, what should i do, attempt even though i'm scared, or just not? I really want to, I don't know what to do | suicide |
Feeling really hopelessIve been suicidal for many years, I wouldnt say Ive been actively suicidal like making many attempts. More just pondered the idea for a long time. But today I think Im in that headspace that Im worried that I might try. I seemed to have been given a shitty hand in life, and while Ive tried to make the most out of it and be happy about who I am, Im tired and over it. I have so many things in my life that I should be greatful for, I have a nice home and a stable job and a beautiful daughter. But I just cant see the positives anymore. I have been rejected by pretty much everyone in my life and the few people I had left (my parents) have seemed to shut me out too. I guess theyre just tired of me, and I dont blame them really I am a lot to deal with. There have been many things recently which have really given me perspective on how Im just not good enough for anyone. Since escaping a DV relationship last year Ive tried dating a few times. I even found a regular FWB who Ive grown to quite like (it wasnt just sex, we had started hanging out and flirting on a regular basis). When I brought up is this going anywhere he said look, I really like hanging out with you but youre a bit bigger than the girls Id normally date. And to be honest that crushed me, If hed just said no, that would have still hurt but the fact he had to point out my looks really cut me deep. I fight the urge to self harm pretty much every night, and cry myself to sleep each night because i just wish that I wouldnt wake up. Ive tried the suicide hotlines but really I feel like theyre so condescending and are really no help at all. Im not sure if this makes much sense, Im quite upset right now and just essentially spewing word vomit onto reddit. | suicide |
HALP ME PLEASE holy shit bro let me level with you i know this girl from elementary kind of (now in th grade, we still go to same school) we never really hung out much, more of a friend of a friend but now i have a crush on her and have for a while like i said, i dont really know her, so i want to ask to be friends but i feel like it would be super obvious what i was trying to do if i just said "HEY WANNA BE FRIENDS" what do i do tho? like i ask her to hang out, what? idk what to even do tbh | non-suicide |
Does anybody actually think Acab? If you do would you like to have a friendly debate. | non-suicide |
Is your dad jealous because you have a hot girlfriend? Like if you have a really hot or cute girlfriend is your dad jealous? | non-suicide |
My school is being stupid again My school thinks people can get an internship (sorry if google translate fucked it up) in one and a half weeks. Like seriously, how the fuck will anyone accept someone to basically work there in one and a half weeks and during corona! And now my teacher wont even respond to me when it starts. Also how is a kindergarten supposed to just let some random kid in and think nothing of it? Or the dentist. Or any other doctor like job. This school annoys me on many different levels | non-suicide |
I so wish there was someone to chat to. I don't know what to doI so wish there was someone to chat to or talk to. I don't want to burden anyone but I need to talk. I'm suicidal. I've tried every help I can find like medication but nothing works. I don't know what to do anymore | suicide |
I fucking hate my internet So average internet speed in my country is around Mbps, I personally have fucking Mbps on a good day and usually it's around Mbps. I can't even do anything about it because there is only one internet provider in a fucking shithole I live in. I always wanted to have fun making gameplays on YT or something or at least have internet decent enough to play online but fuck me I guess | non-suicide |
Throwaway for obvious reasonsWhat, in your opinion is the most efficient and clean way of killing myself? I don't want to have an option to go back on my decision or have someone do it for me, so meds are out of question. I don't want to feel much pain or have it take long, so cutting veins is out of question as well. I don't want to jump in front of a train or anything like that, it would create delays for unassociated people and traumatize the staff. Any ideas? | suicide |
loops.i dont really know why i am doing all of this alone. today i thought long & hard about slitting my wrists in the shower. but yesterday i spent the day with my folks. pretending to be okay. it was my moms birthday. and shes not in the best relationship with my father. theyre still together but. they dont even talk to each other. he was pretending yesterday too. to be part of something he isnt. and i really wanted my mother to have a good day. so i just sucked it up & faked it. and i crashed horribly at the end of the day. in my room. by myself. i was crying. i couldnt sleep. i kept having trouble breathing. it felt horrible. and i know its miles harder to do this alone. but. who exactly is gonna hold me. or hug me. i already have such a hard time opening up. my body physically rejects it who is gonna get it. previously when i planned my suicide. id planned for CO poisoning. but slitting my wrists feels faster now. and i wanna die. i do. but. dying. or the thought of dying. doesnt bring me as much relief as it used to. it just feels like a final painful event to this hellish painful life. now i also resent how suicidal i am. and that adds to the painful feelings i already carry. which makes me not wanna feel them anymore. which makes me want to die. its yet another hellish loop & god it is *miserable* i am miserable. i do not want to continue living this life. i dont. and i resent that my only escape is going to be ending my life. and a life where the only escape is death, is not a life i wanna live. | suicide |