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Body dysmorphia is making me suicidalThe past month, save the last week, has been going so well. Ive made so many friends and put myself out there socially. Everyday I look forward to talking to them and laughing with them and they really seem to enjoy talking to me. I even decided I was doing so well that I chose not to start medication for my depressive episodes because I really thought I could get happy by myself. Ive even almost completely overcame my disordered eating habits, I havent counted calories in two months. But body dysmorphia is the one thing I cant beat. The more time I spend in social situations the worse it gets. Im exhausted. Im becoming so obsessive and controlling with my behaviors regarding my appearance. Its so fucking tiring. I spend hours picking out outfits, trying them on, and throwing rejected clothes into huge piles on my bed. Every time I wash my hair I blow dry it, straighten it, and curl it. I go to the bathroom multiple times during the day to reapply my makeup and check my appearance. I spend hours flipping pictures of myself to analyze my facial asymmetry. I skipped a class today because I felt my thighs chafe when I was naked getting ready and had a mental breakdown. I once wanted to kill myself because I was overwhelmingly sad and lonely. Now I just crave death because Ill finally be free of my body. No more thoughts of self loathing. It sounds so freeing not having to inhabit this contorted sack of flesh anymore. Im doing everything I can to fight this. Yes I have a therapist. Yes I have supportive friends and family who I can talk to. I dont have Instagram. I understand the psychology behind the way I feel, and logically know that Im an attractive girl with a very nice body and many nice features. But body dysmorphia is always there. I dont know how else to try and fight it. All I want is release. Im so sick of living like this. | suicide |
Twiggy and the Adventures of her weird dreams Man I had a weird ass dream. So basically it started off at school with two friends, and we were leaving to go home, but the school had this big funhouse next to it. We wanted to go but we didnt have money for a ticket. We then devised a plan to get through the door monitor, who also looked like Jamie Lee Curtis for whatever reason, and one of us distracted her while the other two ran in. After we all ran in, she caught us and started chasing after us. We spent hours climbing across stairs and bridges (kinda like the stairwell from Harry Potter, but smaller and more childishly colourful.) and she would slowly run right after us. Eventually when she was just about to catch us, we came across this weirdly shaped stairwell called the Curtis Escape, and we climbed to the top. Apparently it was called the Curtis Escape because she had hip problems and couldnt climb those stairs, so we just sat at the top of the stairs and watched her writhing in pain. | non-suicide |
ok but like im kinda thic tho im literally the whole package; dumpster truck ass, massive inch cock and big dd cup tiddies | non-suicide |
bro not me imagining having a bf to be goofy with me bro that would be so swaggy | non-suicide |
I wonder if I die, will anyone come to my funeral?While I'm still alive. People never love me unless I provide something to them. They always ignore me, leave me, reject me or expel me from their lives. so I just wonder if I die, is anybody coming to my funeral? or will I just being left to died alone and maybe it takes several days until police officers found my dead body and people l finds out that I have died. | suicide |
Hey guys its been a while. Been in a coma for months what did I miss? Why is everyone wearing masks? | non-suicide |
Im in the mood to kill myself tbh Im in the mood to kill myself tbh | non-suicide |
People who put ice in their milk are very suspicious I mean, there's something definitely wrong with them, like "what are you trying to hide?" | non-suicide |
Can I get some recommendations for media where the main characters fight God? I am feeling frustrated at the current world order and existence in general. I am looking for any tv/movies/video games where the main characters have to fight kings, god, or anyone who hordes power. Other media in this category include hollow knight, the adventure zone, or Eragon. All recs are appreciated. | non-suicide |
Yay! I changed my flair to ! How did I get this old already? I still feel . | non-suicide |
Being executed by firing squad would be nice bullets to the heart. So quick, very humane... | suicide |
First person to guess my favorite quote of the MCU gets an award Don't put in too much effort, it's a free award. I'll give the first person who makes a good guess. | non-suicide |
RICK ROLE. Leaves from the vine Falling so slow Like fragile tiny shells Drifting in the foam Little soldier boy Come marching home Brave soldier boy Comes marching home | non-suicide |
I give up.My entire life I've been struggling with depression and anxiety and autism. I keep fighting I keep going to therapy I keep taking medicine I keep trying to exercise and eat healthy and I keep trying to keep in touch with people. I keep fighting over and over and over again struggling in pain trying to get my shit together and trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel and not lights not ever coming. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of every single day being a struggle to not fall into a deep depression and hate myself and wanting to die. Just can't fight anymore. I'm so sick of it. I honestly don't see the point of continuing to live just so that I can continue to suffer there's no end to it in sight. At a certain point you have to put something that suffering out of its misery. It's cruel to let a wounded animal suffer, if there's no hope for it, you kill it. I just don't have any reason to keep living and putting myself through this. I live a fairly sad empty existence and that hasn't changed and won't change. I have nothing to look forward to except just more of the same. I have no reason to live. No one needs me. Everyone I know has their own happy life with their own families while I'm alone and miserable. Life has no purpose no meaning there's not a single reason I can think of to keep living because I know exactly what's in store for me just more of the same misery. I just can't keep doing it. | suicide |
To those who saw my last post Mkay, Im starting a D&D thing. Theres room for people, Ill say. I might accept more later. Dm me on discord if youre interested, itll be e. I can teach ya if you need. Id prefer yall to be not on the other side of the world, but its fine if ya are Also discord is Dove# | non-suicide |
Gambling and alcohol addiction = suicide years old M. Story is that for the last years i got nothing but pain caused to loved ones and really im a failure in every scense. I HAVE TO END THIS once and for all. I Have tried times before but failed each time... not going to this time. | suicide |
MY PARENTS ARE KILLERSPLEASE HELP ME I NEED HELP THEY ARE GOING TO KILL ME HELP PLEASE | suicide |
Self destructing.Im self destructing. Ate food fit for people nonstop for the past weeks. Fridge empty. I feel like an addict. Spending money i dont even have,im broke. I feel so guilty. Im jobless. I don't even have clothes or shoes to wear, theres no dish soap and im running out of toothpaste, and I spent what i did have on food, one of the sources of my depression. I could be giving what little i have left to help my mom pay for expenses for allowing my grown self to live rent/expense free. I dont know why she puts up with me. With good reason im being threatened with being put out. Shes not going to be around forever,i have to suuport myself. Im an adult still being supported, can't hold down a steady job. Cant go outside and no normal things from bad social anxiety. Worthless. No one to talk to. I don't have a friend or relative i can call to even say good morning. People alienate u when they sense your depression. Desperately lonely. I want therapy, desperately tried to get an appnt but when ur uninsured there's only so much help u can get. Just swallowing pills isn't helping me. I really want help. I want to get better. But I'm starting to feel tired from fighting for the will to live. I still want to though. I just need help. | suicide |
Life Fucking SucksSince I was in grade ive had mental health problems. I could never do anything about it, because my family is poor. I've realised it recently, but my entire life has been poor, lonely, ugly, and overall dissatisfying. The only thing keeping me from pulling the trigger, was the fact that I wont get another chance. I've also realised that the shittier you feel, the shittier EVERYONE AROUND YOU GETS. I vent my feelings to my close friend. This was after physical parental abuse. He replied with one text. suicide prevention hotline. I poured my heart. only for him to respond with that. I mean, I guess you care, bbut im mentally breaking down. I need emotional support. Not the suicide prevention hotline...  I have had a shit life, although people say hard work pays of, I worked hard nonstop only for me to achieve nothing. Instead of killing myself though, I am going to go through one last challenge. Asking my crush if she likes me. If not, then I will jump of my friends appartment. Goodnight | suicide |
URGENT!!! Friend threatening to commit suicideHi A close friend of mine has verbally communicated and generally stated that he will kill himself on "January st at pm". He lives in a abusive household and his grades are not very good. He is unpopular under girls, my friends and I believe that he is genuine about his threats and we really want to stop this. I have thought of putting a keychain tracker on his keychain while he is not watching and then follow him around after school on the st but i believe measures should be taken beforehand. My friends and i have decided that we want to send his parents an email from an anonymous gmail account but i personally done know if this will benefit him at home. I cant think of anything past that and i don't want to get his parents in legal trouble even though i have audio-evidence of their abuse. My suicidal friend has exclaimed he wouldn't do it because he would ruin the lives of his brother and make his own even worse. I do not know what to do next, please help me this is URGENT!!! Thank you!! Ps. I live in Berlin so maybe some kind of resources here that im unaware of that people could bring up to me. | suicide |
I truly want to dieI'm and have been depressed for a long time, pretty much my whole life. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and Major Depressive Disorder (MDD). I'm at my ropes end finally. I recently got out of a mental institution where they changed my meds and I thought I was doing better. After my girl left me and now I'm alone again I just don't know what to do anymore. I was committed to a mental institution by a therapist I went to see, they helped me a bit and diagnosed me with extreme GAD like I knew and severe and recurrent MDD, which I knew but never seeked help for. Now that I'm out and in the real world I just feel like they blew smoke up my butt. All I hear in my head all day everyday is "kill yourself", I'm sitting here and I just want it to stop. When I got committed my family and friend found out my problems and now always check on me and say they care about me, but I don't feel it. My family and friend also have some problems going on right now and I'm trying to help them and don't want to make things worse, but I just cant live with the constant feeling and voice in my head yelling "kill yourself". I truly want to die, I feel like I'm to far gone and can't be saved. | suicide |
Bad thoughtsI am in college, I may get in trouble for academic integrity violation for cheating on a test. I feel like if I get in trouble my life will basically be ruined. I might get expelled from my school, my parents will disown me and I wont even want to face my friends if I get expelled. It would be too embarrassing. I just cant stand it, I dont want to go on already and I dont even know if Im getting in trouble yet. I have a meeting with my professor tomorrow, if it goes badly idk what Ill do. Ive been having problems with depression and suicidal thoughts for a while, Im on medicine... but this is too much. My life will go from on track to ruined. | suicide |
Man I want cuddles so bad My pets are busy sleepy so I cant cuddle them rn:(( this is upsetting. | non-suicide |
Does anyone want stone cups? I went to south sinai a couple months ago and brought back with me a couple of rocks. One of these rocks I split in two, so I thought why not try to make it a cup? And then I did I brought out the old Dremel and got to work on it. Couple of hours later I was done and it was pretty decent. Anyhow the point is does anyone want one? Or two or five whatever you need! It doesnt have to be cups it can be anything just send me a message and we will discuss it! P.S: I hope I used the correct flair :) | non-suicide |
Irritable, Lonely, Angry, Depressed,I'm tired of waiting for things to get better and I don't have anymore energy to try. My previous post from months ago: [ What has changed? It got worse. I also stopped going to therapy. Please | suicide |
Ppl should stop talking about this whole super straight thing Its just a bunch of internet morons who are desperate for attention. Dont give it to them. | non-suicide |
I don't care that you're an introvert Please shut up about being an introvert Nobody cares | non-suicide |
I'm dying of cuteness rn So me and my bf are listening to music on discord together and I muted the bot on my end and he's humming and singing the song and he's so fucking cute aaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *dies from too much exposure to cute* | non-suicide |
it feels so shitty realizing you've been taken for granted for context, I texted my friend a while back to ask her how she was doing and she literally left me on read. it's been weeks, and she hasn't responded. I was super busy that day and I still got time to ask her but she couldn't spare one minute to reply? it sucks that they always hit me up whenever they need something from me, and only then. "Oh, Artemis, here's a question in my homework I can't understand" or even "Hey Artemis, have you completed the drawing I asked from you?" what's even worse is that my parents keep pressuring me to text them, every single freaking day when I know they won't even care :/ | non-suicide |
im trying to stay sane. I dont know how much sense this will make but im gonna write no matter what. Im losing my mind every day a little further. I started using drugs alot since last april and also met a girl. Was sad before that, now girl left and i still take drugs when i can which is every other day at this point. The sadness has been amplified aloot since she left. I dont even know if i loved her like i think i do or if i just used her as someone i could take drugs with. im so confused. Im feeling alone, depressed and like the biggest failure in existence. At im still living with the parents, no GF and almost emotional relationships. Used to think i was smart and slowly becoming successful and now im begging to either think or realize that im a loser. With no future. I have a : degree (had a major depressive episode in last year. or was that just an excuse i give myself idk anymore). i have friends that ask me to take drugs so im pretty sure at this point they arent my friends. so no friends. I pushed away and badly hurt the one person who maybe cared about me (the girl). Or maybe she did. Maybe she used me too. idk. Im losing my sanity because i dont know who actually loves me. i think im unlovable and broken. with an ugly personality. I dont know who to trust anymore. Not even myself my own mind. Now days im beginning to think i was always stupid and some how convinced myself i was smart and people just went with it to make me feel good. IDK. I honstly dont know anymore everything around me is not what i used to think it was and im lost alone and i think i am going crazy for real. if you have read his please just help me make some kind of sense of this. Am i going crazy....is this me overthinking or not. im fucking scared to go to therapy because if i am losing it and its a reality i think ill end myself. But with the way things are going im gonna end myself anyway. IDK man im so confused and scared of what my reality is right now that i cant even function. | suicide |
SHE SAID YES!! I asked her if school started at AM today, she said yes just look at the schedule idiot :-( | non-suicide |
Im fucking gonna kill myself this yearI cant fucking believe my ex left me saying I got through my mental problems and depressions thanks to you, but Ima leave you because I dont wanna have them again to then fucking go out weeks later to find another fucking guy to have sex. I love my life so fucking much. I have some hope it would get better, and it fucking was, stopped cutting, stopped crying every night just for this I hate life, i teally do hate fucking life and i dont care anymore what damgae my death will fucking do, i cant stand this anymore | suicide |
I dont know what to doI dont know what to do I dont know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I don't know what to do I dont know what to do it seems as if I'm running out of options I keep thinking about killing myself but I like my cats too much | suicide |
Came up with a method that will be painless, quick, and not leave a mess for my family to find. People always recommend having a plan, because thinking about it and actually setting out to achieve it can be two very different things. Well, I just ordered the materials, and I'm still ready to do it. So, what then? I don't think I'll have second thoughts even as I'm putting all the pieces together. It's something I've wanted for a long time, and I keep running out of reasons to deny it. I guess I'm saying this here because I've been told all my life what I'm planning is wrong and I shouldn't be doing it, but to be honest, I've never fully believed that. I think it's the most right thing for a person to do, in fact. | suicide |
My great grandmother died My great grandma was in her s and was in the hospital with heart problems. She had started to come up with Alzheimers as well. I hadnt been able to see her because of COVID precautions my parents just got the news that she had died at the hospital very recently (and no she did not have corona). It was her time I had just hoped she would have lasted a few more years but if she did it would have been devastating for everyone as she slowly forgot them. May she Rest In Peace. | non-suicide |
Ill post whatever you want Within reason so nothing offensive dirty or any of my personal information Edit: the posts are all going on r/teenagers | non-suicide |
Day of recommending songs I like to r/teenagers How has your day been? | non-suicide |
Girlfriend just broke up with me We were together for over a year and a half, anyone got any advice? | non-suicide |
Attempted June nd. Still here.Recently gone through some life changes that I was more or less making it through. I accidentally missed a couple of days of my antidepressants and tried to end my life by drinking half a bottle of codeine and polishing off large amounts of liquor and alcohol. I left a note but ended up waking up about hours later. I feel disappointed that i got to that stage, and that it didnt work. Feeling closer and closer to that place again each day. | suicide |
Hot take time Hospice by The Antlers is not as sad as everyone says it is. | non-suicide |
I have never been drunk in my life, but I'm pretty sure I'd get agressive I am very easily annoyed. Because I'm basically constantly annoyed, bottled up feelings and all that. So I get the urge to punch people in the face, especially if I think that what they're saying is stupid, I don't do it obviously, which adds to the bottled up feelings, I'm quite timid I guess, I'm kinda shy, ^(working on that) and generally reserved person, I quite dislike confrontation, but since I constantly have the urge to punch stupid people in the face, and I won't make sense if I'm drunk, I think I might just get really agressive if I'm drunk. More reasons not to drink. | non-suicide |
Advice for going through a rough patch Earlier this year I started high school and I found the transition relatively easy. But during the transition I started to stop hanging out with my friends as much to focus on schoolwork and I thought I had a good balance for a while. The way I kept this balance so well is because I played video games with them. Recently over our Christmas break I got a pc while about half of them are still playing on Xbox and it has made me talk to them a bit less every week. I have also been getting closer and closer to a girl that I have liked for a while. Normally that would be a good thing but some of my friends make fun of me for it because half of them think shes fine and the other half hates her. I have thought about disconnecting myself from them but I dont have anyone to fall back in except the girl Ive been talking to. I havent talked to my friends for a few days and Im starting to realize that I dont think Im doing anything with my life. I go through the same routine everyday and there is nothing productive about it. I feel like everyone in my life is starting to turn on me and Im having a really hard time motivating myself to get up and do something everyday. If anyone has advice on how to get out of this it would be greatly appreciated. | non-suicide |
It's my flair change day! it's that / time of year again :) filler text cause bots gay | non-suicide |
I finished my summer reading project with one day left! of course the deadline got pushed back to September th tho | non-suicide |
Failed attempting times last night. Im determined to succeed in it tonight.Long story short I have severe depression. My girlfriend broke up with me last night and I cant take anymore pain. I dont care anymore. I always looked forward to talking and seeing her. I loved being with her. Now Im all alone and have no one to cuddle with and feel loved. Im going to try to suffocate myself again and if that doesnt work. Ill walk to a bridge overnight and jump. | suicide |
I don't drink b/c I'm afraid I will hurt myself (or worse) while drunkI'm in college and my friends would never force me to drink but sometimes they ask if I want a beer and when I say no, sometimes they'll tease me. No big deal, they're just being funny and I don't mind it. But sometimes I just want to tell them/ shout the truth, other than I don't like to drink which is only partly true. I'm terrified that if I get drunk or drink even a little the depression will get even worse and I will hurt myself or worse. I'm terrified of my thoughts and the bad feelings and I'm afraid they'll run rampant if I'm too drunk to "control" them. Idk, I have no one else to tell so posting this kind of gets it off my chest | suicide |
MaybeIm just tired of not feeling happy. Lifes a fucking drag | suicide |
yall ever Get that nostalgia from when you where like - where life was easy and Staying up past bedtime was exciting to do? or doing other shit tryna not get caught | non-suicide |
Why does living have to be so hard back in elementary school, we were taught that we need air, food and water to survive but there's so many other factors and life is being a dick now | non-suicide |
I just wanna say This sub is amazing Ive been able to ask my problems and say what Im feeling without getting criticised. And the fact that strangers are telling you the answers means that they wont be biased . I also like how its teenagers so its relatable stuff for all of us , all Im gonna say is im going to continue to use this for all my problems | non-suicide |
I've yet to meet a valid pro-lifer. I've literally never seen any of them with the correct argument, all they do is shout about how pro-choicers like killing babies. The only valid argument for pro-lifers is that instead of just doing abortion; we should give funding for sexual education and have easy access to multiple forms of birth control. It's been proven this cuts down on the pregnancy rate which in turn cuts down the abortion rate. Maybe even throw something in there about improving the shitty foster care system too. If you believe in those things we can be cool, otherwise you're probably an annoying prick at best or a misogynistic neo-con at worst. | non-suicide |
How do I (f) help my brother (m) who attempted suicide?Im sorry if this seems nave. My brother is so loved by everyone in our family and I feel like theres something Im missing. He doesnt really talk about these things and I dont want to force him to. If theres anything that was said or done for you that helped make things more bearable, please share them with me. | suicide |
Im going to kill myself because of my financial issues I lost my company couple of months ago, used my savings to cover the money an employee stole from my company, made loans and even got money from friends and family to save my business. Now Im dirt poor living on my parents house, that want to kick me out because I cant find work (iOS Engineer in a shit-hole country) because companies asked for me to travel for an interview and its impossible because a flight ticket cost a lot and nobody is willing to help me pay to go to an interview. The bank said I have to come up with $. to pay my debts by tomorrow, I have only $. on all my bank accounts combined. I dont know what to do, Im even receiving death threats from a friend of mine because I paid what Ive owed him but didnt paid the fees yet. Idk what to do, Im doomed. | suicide |
Best lifehack ever! So like if ur at the beach and out of nowhere it's just starts to rain and u don't want to get wet just go into the water | non-suicide |
Everything is going to shitIn the last week my dog Ive had over half my life died (she was killed by a hawk), my parents sold my childhood home (it was on the market less than two days, now I have to get out all my memories and everything Ive ever owned by July th) and I just got into a low speed car accident that managed to destroy my back bumper (and Im pretty sure Im at fault/will have to pay for it). Its been a while since Ive been really suicidal and I dont think Im at that point currently, but fuck I dont exactly see life getting better. Whats next? Everything is a goddamn disaster and I just cant deal with it. I dont want to deal with it. | suicide |
I don't want to kill myself, but I want to dieBackground: Parents are about to get evicted because Dad runs a start-up and has no salary/savings + thousands in debt. He's been broke for years trying to run a business, but continues to do so. Mom works part time retail, doesn't have skills/education to get a full-time job. Her money is only good for groceries, utilities, etc. I'm in college and I have only enough resources to support myself. I suffer from serious anxiety and depression and am dying inside because it's making me sick to watch this happening to my parents. We live in California so everything is horribly expensive (app. $ for rent) and my parents won't be able to find another apartment because no credit history,income, or savings and my mom's employment is only available at our current place. I don't have a good relationship with Dad, but I love Mom and watching her go through this is incredibly tough. I'm the only reliable family Mom has left (her family back in India is also very poor and struggling), so I know I have to live for her, but I want everything to go away so badly. What am I supposed to do? It's killing me. | suicide |
bitches talk abt stuff ive down a whole hour ago :/ that was in the past. ive changed filler filler filler filler filler! filler | non-suicide |
yall ever have a big crush on someone that doesnt know u exist and u know itll never work out but u wish more than anything it could bc same and it SUCKS | non-suicide |
First comments get award have good day | non-suicide |
I spilled tea over myself while in a meet Wel everyone in my class just heard me scream like a little girl lol | non-suicide |
OwO, whats this *notices your sadness* Oh... *gives you a warm hug* | non-suicide |
this is it, im doneim gonna buy a rope in the next few days and ill keep that fucker by my side everywhere i go in the right moment i will go and fucking hang myself. im done. i am done crying to myself because of my abusive mother i am done crying because my father abondened me i am done crying because i am failing academically i am done crying about life this is not worth it anymore. i simply cant do it anymore. its too much to bear. i dont wanna wait a few years for it to get better. id rather be dead. im just so sorry about the people that care about me. i love my friends so very dearly. you are the reason i kept going at all. | suicide |
Memes are a form of art Art has existed in the world for centuries as a way of cultural and self expression. But recently, that meaning has been warped and changed, with prejudice growing in the art community. Back in say, medieval Europe, many artworks were based off real and relatable factors of life. Such as witch hunts, crop cycles and everyday life. And because this was relatable to the everyday person, the peasantry all the way up to Kings all enjoyed art. A form of cultural expression for society as a whole. Nowadays the true meaning of art has been warped so much, that painting say, a person zoom calling a friend with a facemask by the computer on the desk would be seen as cringe and strange. The exact opposite of what art is meant to be. If you google the definition of art you will find art is the expression or application of human creative skill and imagination. A form of communication and an act of expressing feelings, thoughts, and observations.. If u asked ur average zoomer and millennial, they would say memes do this than stereotypical art. Many popular memes are based on real world factors such as Corona-virus, relationships and school. To summarise, true art is a form of cultural and personal expression that knows no bounds. Memes are also a form of cultural and personal expression. The r/memes description literally says a form of cultural expression proving that memes are a form of art. | non-suicide |
Supporting an unemployed and suicidal SO?Sorry if you guys get a lot of posts like this, I'm new to the sub. The title pretty much says it all, my SO is going through a job loss, living back at home, and has recently expressed to me that he's contemplated suicide a lot recently. We've been together about months, he's and I'm . He's used to making good money, so being unemployed is a big hit to his ego. I try to help him identity his feelings, which are mainly worthlessness and the constant idea that he's a burden upon both his mother and myself. His job prospects are a little better than average, he has an extensive sales background, which i know he's capable of tapping into given the right opportunity, but he has a felony which, in our state, is just short of the non disclosure time minimum. Reddit, I love this man and see his full potential, but at the moment, he doesn't. I've read some of the sidebar posts, on how to emotionally support someone who is suicidal, but if anyone has any advice from a similar situation I'd love to hear it. | suicide |
I Didn't Kill Myself Last Night - Why Not?I feel asleep before I could kill myself last night. Why am I still here? It seems the only thing that helps is talking to people here. I'm so f--ked otherwise. I'm lonely, bored, young but chronically ill. I'll never have a romantic relationship. I have no purpose in life and without that there's really no reason to live. I have no friends and rarely leave my house. I want help but I don't know what to do. | suicide |
I'm so close to passing through the threshold. I've tried to resist the siren song of eternal sleep, but I am too tired to keep fighting.There's a draft in my notes section of my phone. It's titled "Reasons to Live". I look at it when I'm desperate. It was helping for awhile. I looked at it again last night, and my desire to swallow a handful of pills and sleep forever was overpowering any hopeful wish on that stupid list. I could say all the cliche things that people say when they want to die. But I'm preaching to the choir. Suffice to say I've fought for a long time throughout a very hard life to claw my way up to something resembling a good life. I don't have any dreams for my future anymore. There is nothing I strive to be. No reason to keep fighting. I'm going to sleep. I want people to know I tried. Not everyone is a success story. Not every lost little girl who had a hard life makes it. Some of them get tired. And they decide to leave this miserable existence on their own terms. I am one of them. I guess I just want to try and say Goodnight | suicide |
Just figured out what the R and L mean on my headphones. So thats why they kept falling out. | non-suicide |
Attempted Friday, really unsure where to go now, even after getting helpFour weeks ago I received help for a suicide plan I had in place. Four weeks ago, the help I received ended up not working for me. It's mostly my fault, I suspect. But it's been five years of an eating disorder and now I've recently been diagnosed with depression. I'm having the fucking time of my life. And now I'm here. And I've got more help. And I don't know what to do. I'm so close to just going and doing it. I've rung helplines, I've gone to online chats, I've...talked to my friends but I've felt like I've wasted too much of their time. Even when one of them says my suicide would end them. That they'd feel guilty. I could never do it to them, at least in that time of them telling me so. Then I just think that really, they must not be telling the truth. To be kind. To stop somebody killing themselves, which is compassionate and I respect it. I'm not good enough. I'm seeing my psychologist in a few days, I saw my doctor today, and...I'm just sort of crying on my bed and pretending everything is staying in stasis, which it isn't. Normally poetry or art would help, history, art, so on and so forth. Christ. I was prescribed anti-depressants today. But I have to wait for those to work. Right now, I'm just really, really, really low. I feel bad even talking to my friends now, which are the only people I have that I love other than my sibling. We're distant, though. So it's just my dear friends and even then, I doubt how much I mean to them. This is so long and it's ridiculous. I'm sorry. edit: and yeah you can see in my post history I tried Monday, too. It's a long story and I don't want to go into detail, also for the subreddit's rules. | suicide |
I feel like I don't have a choiceIt's not that I don't want to kill myself, it's the thought and fear that I will always stay alive that stops me. Because of the universe being infinite, I will always be alive and exist somewhere, no matter what I do. I hate it. I hate existance. It's all been nothing but suffering. At times less suffering, but it's never been good. I have been hopeful for but as the years go by, it has only gotten worse, I just became better at coping with it. And none of it matters at all, reality doesn't care, the only rule reality has it that everything has to exist. I can't escape, none of us can. | suicide |
my imaginary friends are so supportive. i loveee them sooooooo muchhhhhhhh | non-suicide |
Its so drainingI dont have anyone to talk to, nowhere to hide. I feel like Im just here to suffer now its driving me insane | suicide |
What do you think will batman be ever replaced from the # rank . Idk why I typed that . But still need ur opinion | non-suicide |
If I die then I won't have to have responsibilities.I can't cope today, all the bad feelings are back and they're really heavy. The house is a complete mess due to me having a bad week so far. My partner seems annoyed at me, I would be too. How pathetic is it to be "too sad" to keep a clean home? He said he is very tired from work and I need to do something to help. My thoughts are stupid and completely irrational. I can't even sit with the idea of washing one cup let alone tidying the entire house.. I'm sitting here wishing I was dying or dead in order to stop thinking, to stop having responsibilities, to stop having to exist. It's pathetic, no wonder he has no sympathy for me. I'm disgusting and lazy and selfish. I don't feel like I deserve to breathe anymore whilst other people are out working hard. I don't even want to leave the house to stock up on pills. My patheticness is that bad, I can't even get the energy to commit suicide. | suicide |
Help pleaseSo i just got out of a h fight with my dad and I'm having a mental breakdown and I think I might hurt myself please if anyone can help | suicide |
So does life have an actual point?I wish I could see it, everything feels pointless. Were all gonna end up dead anyway so nothing really matters in the end, I just cant see the point of life when its so finite. Fairly certain theres no God or Heaven either, so I dont have any reward to look forward to either. I have severe autism as well so no one will ever have relations with me either so I cant even fulfill the basic human drive to reproduce. I know it could potentially get better but Im never in control no matter how hard I try, Im tired of watching everyone surpass me in every way imaginable. | suicide |
ignore u fools just Learned someone got worried when i was pretty su|cidal a few days ago Interestimng,,,,, noone ever worries ugh ugh ug h ug h h u g h u g h uu g h u gh h g g hhg NOT A FAN | non-suicide |
wanting to matter but not existthere are times i feel like i dont matter (like right now). there are times where i feel depersonalized. there are times where i feel i matter, but dont want to exist. sometimes i just want to disappear, like nobody ever knew i existed. live in a state of death, in a state of undying and uncanny comfort, to simply not exist. i have emotionally abusive parents, and a monsterously large abomination of self-hatred that im trying to kill. but the self-hatred continues to grow, fed further and further by my parents. and an unending amount of work that just never seems to finish. i have to keep reminding myself that there are things i still want to experience, (its not a magical reset button, its a one-way exit, idiot) im just a teen, so why do i feel like not doing this? ... like, not living? suicide, is where i want to be going. | suicide |
I can't keep tricking myself into going on any more.The world is going to shit, it took me so many years to realise some really basic and important things about myself and my life, I have nothing to look forward to, and even people who I call friends because I don't have anything better don't really care for me, I can send messages and days and days go past with no response. I'm old, i won't have a chance to fix all my mistakes, and I've lost everything that actually mattered to me a long time ago and only just realised how little there really is going on for me. | suicide |
m dm me im bored it can be literally anything i just want to be entertained right now or ill just play games or something | non-suicide |
I can't anymoreMy grades have been terrible like never my mom is always angry at me when she gets home and I really don't think she would even care if I was gone. I need to end it all. It's been long enough now | suicide |
I just read that human souls are extremely valuable Like I guess I got scammed because I sold my for like dollars or something | non-suicide |
what is wrong with me?i dont understand. here i am, months and months later, still crying and still depressed and not over you. but you moved on in half the time and have already gone back to someone i thought was my best friend. what is wrong with me. why did i love you unconditionally, when you made me feel miserable and were the reason i started cutting myself again? why did i love you so much? i feel so fucking pathetic, still hung up on you while you dont even care anymore. why did i love you that much. its gotten to the point where i just want to end it. im not getting any better, in fact im probably getting worse, and every waking moment im shaking with anxiety over you. i cant even go to sleep without fearing the nightmares of you both laughing at me for being so pathetic and weak. i cant even accept anyone into my life. ive had countless people ask me out at this point, jumping at the opportunity of me being single, but i push all of them away, because im in so much pain. i just want to kill myself. | suicide |
mwhaha that post is gone, i let it slide for extra min maybe i'll take more pics :D | non-suicide |
Closer than ever beforeI want to do it. I have everything planned. I have no one to go to. I'm scared. I wish I had a reason not to. I hate writing in these fucking things but there is literally no one esle to talk to and I don't even have a house ohone to call you on anymore since you did what I stupidly fucking asked and blocked my number but you DONT WANT to hear my voice any way i can't do it anymore | suicide |
I dont think Im close to doing it but every day I warm to the idea...Guess Im in a lesser situation than most ppl here. Any advise on how not to slide down that road? Like early prevention? I dont think I will do it but Im afraid the thought constantly gets more... acceptable on the back of my head... | suicide |
PE Class should be optional in schools School should be about excelling in intelligence, Not about forcing students to a physical torture called physical education, i hate, its boring and annoying | non-suicide |
I can not fail this timeI dont have the will power to keep sticking around, feels like i have nothing to live for. All anybody sees when they look at me is what they can get from me, or all my failures. Ive tried to commit suicide twice before, by overdosing on heroin. And failed. But now my tolerance is low, and i think id have a better shot. I have no money, ive considered robbing my mom or sleeping with men for it, both ideas disgust me, but so does the idea of continuing to live. I cant ever seem to bring myself to cut my wrist deep enough, not because i dont want to die, i just cant cut deep enough. I have reached out to anyone i can think of, but i am alone. Completely. I am not worth the effort to anyone. I want today to be my final day | suicide |
Proud of myself I made the best brownies ever tday, the first time I made them, they were good but too sweet, the second time they were too salty, but now they're perfect, crispy in the top and fudge in the middle. I honestly believe the reason they came out so well is because my friend's mom is going to have a surgery and I wanted to bake something for my friend to cheer her up tomorrow in school. I hope she'll like them, which she would. | non-suicide |
so spring break,i just wanted to get my good sleep in i sleep pretty long,abour - hours which is like a sign of bad stuff or something but idc really i just wanna sleep but looks like all of spring break is gonna be my parents bitching im not up by am or them dragging me outta bed at am. I just wanna sleep my problems away man | non-suicide |
How weird is it that Ill be in a month and never hugged or kissed someone else my whole life? Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
What is your worst/favourite artificial flavor I love the strawberry and orange flavor, but I absolutely hate banana flavor. Melon is always really good or really bad. Grape is alright too. | non-suicide |
A little help(possibly)I know this isnt how this really works but if youre feeling like shit just imagine anything that makes you superior to me, ok. Im a virgin, Im very weak, I have MAJOR ADHD, Im extremely ugly, I have cheated my way through all of school because I am too dumb to actually understand any of the work(even if its super simple, and I have no skills and am just a complete failure that sleeps my days away hoping to find more joy in dreams than I do my life. So if you want something slightly good to feel better about, think of anything that makes you, not me. | suicide |
Most people dont really grasp the idea that we die anywaysSure, we all know that death is inevitable but most people dont seem to really *know* it. It seems like they try not think about it. They act like people make the decision to live when in reality, they just make the decision to live *longer*. Even if suicide is prevented, death is inevitable. | suicide |
My friend is annoying me pls help me So like the title says me friend is annoying me but to be more clear. He just ignores the covid guidelines. But thats not the worst part. He fake or real coughs at me touches me and sometimes removes his mask even tho we have to put them on.(we have some breaks where we can't talk tho) And when I tell him to stop he just laughs and continues. This all happens in school. I sit beside him. Pls some one tell me what to do | non-suicide |
"I'm bored is such an annoying phrase when used to explain why you're talking with someone I swear, every time anyone texts me, they always start off by saying I'm bored and it's such a transparent half-assed attempt at making it seem like the conversation isn't important to them to play it cool. If you just want to talk to someone, saying I just wanted to talk to you is a perfectly fine reason to give, and can even make people feel more appreciated. | non-suicide |
I accepted my fate as a wizard I see many other [wizards]( online and they have similar experiences to me, I'm no better than them. Its always better to accept fate than argue with it. | non-suicide |
smh girls be like for gf then they be like no ur a noob | non-suicide |
Walking CorpseI just turned and I feel myself getting closer to death. I realize nothing I do matters and one day my life will end anyway. I keep fucking up my life and I think it's too late for me to be saved. The only way I get through the day is if I'm either passed out from xans or fucked up on other pills or THC. I'm always trying to get harder drugs because they numb the pain. I feel so happy when I'm high and I stop being self conscience. I hate who I am when I'm sober, I'm so introverted and shy I can't stop critiquing myself. I always regret my past decisions and deeply hate who I am. I realize that I should get clean but honestly if I have to be sober any longer that will be the day I break. I feel like I'm trapped and there is no way out, I've convinced myself that no matter what happens I'll end it one day. I feel like I'm not even a person. | suicide |
Idk anymoreI want to kill myself tomorrow by train. My cousin hung himself, March , and I miss him a lot. I want to join him. What's the point in living if you're going to die anyway? I've seen my psychiatrist and psychologist countless times, but nothing seems to be working. Maybe I'm supposed to kill myself. Maybe I'm destined to kill myself. Idk. I'm just asking for help and trying to squeeze every last hope. | suicide |
Im kinda down rn I now am slowly realizing that my crush doesnt like me back (even tho it was fucking obvious) I had some flashbacks (sort of) back to better times Im hungry but its like : so i cant make anything And sad tunes | non-suicide |