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I want to die. I want to numb all of my pain.But I'm scared too, because numbing the pain and ending my life is two different things. Numbing is to no longer feel it, and if I end my life, there is no longer anything. No more of nothings or somethings or anything. No eternal bliss, no darkness, no silence, no thoughts, nothing. I just want to not feel this way. I truly just want to be normal. But I can't. I just want to stop how I feel. I want to be happy. I wrote a suicide letter today and I want to do it but I don't want to die too. I just don't. But why should I wait any longer. It has been the same for the past years. Nothing changes the feelings always come back. It always does. Why should I try anymore. | suicide |
well boys im a teenager again i missed being depressed anyway | non-suicide |
If you can guess my favorite song of all time based on this small hint Ill kiss you :) Opioid addicts playing baseball. It is NOT Drug dealer by Macklemore. | non-suicide |
Day of watching scary movies in celebration of Spooktober Today i'm watching Escape Room. It's about six strangers trying to escape mysterious rooms filled with their worst nightmares. Here's a [link]( to the previous post | non-suicide |
suicidal after nightmare, need someone to talk tohad a bad dream yesterday triggered some bad stuff. I feel unworthy to live. *dont know how to continue life* | suicide |
maybe now is the time.Ive been dealing with depression for a long time now, since age . I am years old and have attempted suicide once as a teenager. I moved states away to try to start a new life and make myself happy, but that did not work. I feel like it only made my depression worse. Now I am living with my parents back home, I have told my parents about my suicidal thoughts. The first time I brought it back up to them was a couple months ago my mother cried to me and told me she loved me no matter what, and she would be here for me always. But today, I brought it up to her again and she didnt seem to care. I called out of work because I just cant anymore. I dont want to do anything. I dont want to work or pay bills or go to college again. I dont want to live. I told her i called out of work because i cant do this anymore and she got mad because i called out of work not caring at all that im speaking out to her about attempting suicide again. I am the only child and I used to think that my suicide would hurt my family but i honestly just feel like a fucking burden now. I could easily do it my parents both owns guns and arent home a lot, so many opportunities. I dont even know why im wasting my time writing this on fucking reddit lol I guess i just wish my life could be different, that i could have been better and didnt have to have these feelings and could have been happy? thats what holds me back from actually continuing with my actions but i feel like my days of thinking there is a possibility of changing my life is slimming down. and i just know im going to attempt again soon. | suicide |
Found out my ex started a relationship with another girl while we were dating. I want to die. months after our breakup i find this shit out. I feel so hurt and betrayed. Im going to overdose. I dont wanna be alive anymore this shit hurts so much | suicide |
Year Old Moocher, Can't See Any Way OutI'm and I still live at home. I wasted four years of my life by not going to college and by not learning to drive. I've burdened my grandparents for twenty one whole years. They insist that they want to just take care of me until they can't anymore. But to me that's disgusting on my part, if not me being abusive to them. I've mooched off them since I was able to start driving. I should have done it right away. Now I see teenage co-workers with cars and keys, giving me condescending smiles. They act like they're all better than me because I don't have one. But in away, they are. | suicide |
Its my birthday today! My birthday is on July th (which is today) so stop by and say hi and happy birthday! | non-suicide |
My boyfriend of years is looking on reddit for men to fuckHe's cheated before so why am I surprised. My mother's self absorbed. My dads dead. My sister doesn't give a shit. He's all I have. So I may as well just bite the bullet. I refuse to be humiliated like this over and over. If we break up I'm homeless. I don't have anyone. | suicide |
Considering hospitalization and need some help in navigating thatSo, I've been hospitalized in the past so I know typically what happens there. I moreso am feeling really brain foggy and am having trouble getting myself the help I need or knowing what to do. I don't know what options there are in paying for this, either. Tried talking to kaiser about treatment and I kept getting lost in the shuffle. Then, my premium became unaffordable just as I was getting back into individual therapy. Last time I was hospitalized, it was such a blur and I was helped out by insurance that I don't currently have. I'm super broke and am in need of immediate help. I think I need to get on some kind of mood stabilizer or anti anxiety as soon as possible. I feel this overwhelming dread. In a dismissive environment so I keep up with all my overwhelming duties in silence. Can't really talk to anyone without being told I could have it worse. I'm fucking up all the time. I spent half an hour dissociating this morning and was late to the first day of my job (I work at a college so they're really strict about that). My depression has gone to new lows where I'm having to force myself to care enough to do well. I'm afraid I'll lose my job. I had to take all my sick time last semester because I was feeling so emotionally impulsive and couldn't handle having eyes on me. I would appreciate any advice. I know I should Google this shit or something. I'm not trying to sound lazy or like I haven't looked for answers. I think I just need my hand held through this, if possible. | suicide |
I wish I could starve myself to deathI wish I were strong enough to starve myself, they say it's not a bad way to go after the first few days. | suicide |
I just wish I could dream away from this hell I'm living in!I'm so sick of having to live this life, every single day is just the same, constant pain and suffering, I wish things were different for once. That I wasn't all alone in this hell. I've tried so many times to escape it all, but it never lasts for long. If only there was a way to escape all the pain! | suicide |
honestly i need to find god or smth idk i kind of wanna go on like some sort of religious journey find myself and some sort of spirituality anyway if there is an afterlife what afterlife do you want id kinda want something like reincarnation maybe ill be reincarnated as a viking warrior who'll conquer engand. i also like the idea of either being given a little pocket dimension i can do whatever i like with or getting to create my own universe to be the god of. | non-suicide |
Thanks to AA, I think I'm capable of commiting suicide sober.That's the Higher Power in action | suicide |
I like the new look of the reddit app ngl I actually like the change It feels very fresh Many people will not agree with my opinion but thats ok | non-suicide |
To my crush You are fucking awesome. We stan | non-suicide |
I'm embarrassed to have two years on this fucking cess pool of an app filled with unfunny memes and comedy elitist assholes Half of the subs are just ppl talking about how much smarter they are than you and all of the memes are about how shitty other sites are Not to mention these "smarter individuals" tried to find got the wrong guy and he killed himself because of it. This is a terrible elitist site/app and you know | non-suicide |
my cat is at her usual spot on top of the printer she really likes that spot cause it gives her a view of the outside | non-suicide |
my mom actually thought vaccines cause autism its a wonder im alive | non-suicide |
So I put my hands up They're playing my song And the butterflies fly away | non-suicide |
Anyone else hate how boba fett is in the new Mandalorian episodes? Like within the two newest episodes he's become a good guy and i hate it | non-suicide |
I don't have the guts to do it, but I've thought about killing myself specifically to hurt my family.I know it'd destroy them, but they deserve it. Years of mental manipulation and being their emotional whipping boy and bullying at school and my identity crisis and hating myself and hating my body. What's the point? My life has never improved. It may never improve. There is no deleting history. There is no going back and undoing all the hurt the world has inflicted on me. I just want it to be over. I'm sick of God punishing me. Every single second I'm alive it feels wrong. Feels like I'm defying the order of the world. I can't take existing anymore. I've brought nothing but pain and destruction to everyone around me. I'm , and in the years I've lived I've gained nothing and have lost so much. College isn't worth it. People aren't worth it. Humanity isn't worth it. I probably won't kill myself today or tomorrow, but if life continues like this I may eventually. I may just stop taking care of myself. I may start taking bigger risks. I may go out at night with my car when I'm home and fall asleep at the wheel. I may drink until my liver gives out. I don't know yet. But I'm done living for anyone. I'm done living for myself. I'm tired. | suicide |
How to tell if someone is racist Ok so some tell tale sign that someone is racist is if their reddit username is u/random-user other than that I dont know | non-suicide |
Who do you think is the biggest cunt in all history? [Part ] I'm doing a poll and I need names fellas | non-suicide |
What more can be saideveryone has the same story as me here. i'm not special. i can rationalize that my life is easier than most people on the planets', that i'm more privileged than most people and have more opportunities than most people....and it just increases the self-hatred. what kind of fucking nerve must i have to want to kill myself when i've had running water and electricity my whole life? when i have parents that aren't abusive and the opportunity for an education...but i dont want to try. i dont want to get better. i'm embarassed by my existence and i know everyone hates me, even though i know no one actually hates me. i fucking hate this existence and the plan of a nitrogen can and a plastic bag on my head is seeming more and more appropriate. i keep telling myself i'll wait until my parents die to spare them the pain, but i'm starting to think thats too long of a wait... | suicide |
Yall need to shut the flying fuck up about this sexism shit Idk what the fuck you cunts are on, but stop it, Im seeing posts saying that everyone is equally dumb, someone saying they cant defend themselves as a girl, as if this sub is literally nothing but people on team boy or team girl, fucks sake just because like people out of million in a subreddit are sexist, doesnt mean you need to all be up in arms about it. Go back to staring at your crushes Instagram account or licking glass like a regular teenager | non-suicide |
At this point Im waiting for something traumatic that wont phase me at all to happen so I can get a therapist and work through my social anxiety. Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
So... Im starting out my YouTube channel and this week I just have seven minutes of me and another guy being mindlessly destructive... Enjoy! Thanks for the support, I really appreciate it! Seven Minutes of Me and Stephen Being Mindlessly Destructive | non-suicide |
if you are reading this You are cool and do have a life | non-suicide |
Hi need help again. Relationship gods help me Okay so this girl i was talking too, leaves me on delivered for days, while liking all of my posts. What does this mean? If i seem pathetic, its cause i am,and i am a boomer | non-suicide |
Corvette C Sexy ass car | non-suicide |
Good night/morning guys It's PM here so good night all of you who have to *sleep*, and good morning to the ones who just woke up | non-suicide |
I want to dig a big hole. I dont know why. I just want to. I want I dig a hole. My time in quarantine has brought out my primal side. I want to carry around big pointy sticks and dig holes. | non-suicide |
Day of recommending songs I like to r/teenagers How has your day been so far? | non-suicide |
Just another title.I'm not good at titles, and this is my first post on here so I'm sorry if I mess up. Anyway, I'm here because I want to kill myself. I don't have any hope for my future, I've pretty much given up on living to (-M). I've talked to my doctor about me being "sad", not telling him I've had suicidal thoughts for a couple months. In order to get a counselor/therapist I have to tell him I want one, which I kinda do, but I have to tell my parents about everything in order to set up any sort of medication I may need, and even transportation because I can't drive...and I have trouble talking to people about anything personal or for help, with this being an exception because of my anonymity. I lack social experience, and social anxiety grips me well. So in general I can't ask for help because I'm incapable of saying anything. That's skimming the surface of how messed up my head is, soo yeah...sorry again if I did something wrong here. | suicide |
Day of posting here every day of winter break after I practice my instrument so I practice every day to prep for auditions. Fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfjlllerfilleerndnjwkqbwkaodjbwnwljdebwklqosjbenwkwodijdfiller | non-suicide |
Hey guys I need help finding a good film for watching, I'd like some post apocalyptic sci-fi. So I watched oblivion last night and I really liked it so are there any similar films to that? Yeah that's it, Tik Tok bad | non-suicide |
Suicide over breakup griefI broke up with my girlfriend over religion and long distance and now she is with another guy. I feel like I wanna end it all. I want no more pain. The pain of regret and guilt and the pain of never being happy again. I just dont see the point in continuing. I want to end it. It has been two months since the breakup. Please God forgive me | suicide |
What will numb my pain when I have ran out of painkillers?I have been taking codeine to numb the emotional pain I have been going through. I havent any left. I have no means of getting anymore. Anyone got any advice? Ill end my life if I have nothing to numb the pain Im going through. Tried all distraction techniques. Nothing works. | suicide |
Okay, I'm feeling better now So now we're back to your regularly scheduled random trans girl shitposts, | non-suicide |
Mum: Dont press the elevator button yet! Lets wait for dad Me: Mum: #Unconsciously #Presses #Elevator #Button | non-suicide |
How can I deal with going back to school? On tuesday, I can finally go back to school again. I can't wait since my grades have been really bad due to homeschooling, but I'm still dealing with the typical back to school anxiety. Any advice how to honestly deal with that? Monday will be a pain because of constant stomachache and bad feelings because of going back to school | non-suicide |
The mental torture I receive daily from my family makes me want to rip my wrists open with a razor like I used to.It's always my fault, I'm always screamed at daily MY BRAIN CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE | suicide |
Im ready to dieI made a post the other day and I feel completely alone. The person who I have called my soulmate doesnt want me in his life anymore. I didnt want to believe it but now I have to come to accept it. I feel like I have nothing left to live for and Im better off dead. Im leaving for a hotel far away from my house soon and this is my opportunity to end it all. I dont have a reason to live anymore because he was my reason. Without him, I cant go on. | suicide |
My crush who I only talk to through snapchat is deleting snapchat I have no idea wtf to do now and I'm really nervous | non-suicide |
I want to die so bad.University is starting up soon. I dont know what to expect, other than my ADHD destroying any chances of me passing classes. I'm scared. I know I'll just fail. I tried studying Japanese throughout the summer. I failed horribly. Every time I see someone who is better at me in Japanese, I just want to shoot myself then and there. They're so much more dedicated than I ever will be. I'm just a failure instead. I think I might just cut contact with everyone I know. I'm scared that all of them secretly hate me. I'm scared that they'll see a post like this and laugh at it. I don't know if I can trust anybody. I had - friends abandon me suddenly. I now realize it genuinely traumatized me. I wanna kill myself for being such a fucking disgrace. This time it's for real. I thought I was gonna get over this feeling days ago. I'm still this suicidal and I just wanna end it now. I'm trying to reach out to my school's psychological services but I don't know if I'll be able to get myself to actually contact them. I'm so so close to death. Of course I know my friends will be disappointed. But honestly I've been venting so much that I think it'll be a relief for them. | suicide |
Goodnight to everybody except People named Thaddeus Discord/Reddit mods White peoples in dreadlocks Kids that wore the checkered vans and the thrasher t shirt Girls that had a vsco phase My hero academia fans Seven deadly sins fans People that use to be angry kids on Xbox The English teachers that say I dont know, CAN you? When someone wanted to go to the bathroom Gym teachers that were creeps Anyone that was in the anime fandom - Anyone who prefers Funbrain over Cool Math Games | non-suicide |
Overwhelming emotions right nowI have been having a really hard time lately. I seriously don't know how much longer I can deal with the despair. My heart feels every so heavy and I can't breathe sometimes when I think everything. Suicide has been on my mind everyday for the past weeks and it feels like I'm constantly trying to convince myself not to hurt myself or do anything too rash. But I feel out of my mind, my heart feels very heavy and I just don't want to do this anymore. I refilled my prescription yesterday. In a few days time, I'll have a new prescription of sleeping pills and that'll be my backup for when the time comes. I really feel like this is for the best. But for now I'll sleep it off and....see what tomorrow brings. That excuse won't last forever | suicide |
I keep getting ads for this energy drink called sneak that's apparently a "healthier" alternative. But my question to that is who buys an energy drink with being healthy in mind? What are these guys trying to promote to here? | non-suicide |
How are you Hows the day been | non-suicide |
I just want to be huggedAnd stay there, for a while, no preocupations. I just want to cuddle, I used to want sex, but now I just want to be comforted. I don't think I can handle more touch depravation, I just feel so alone. | suicide |
I will sum up my thoughts and experience regarding english class in one sentence. My english teacher is french. | non-suicide |
Feeling an overwhelming compulsion to kill myself, need a distraction.Dont ask why, Im just like this. As of lately I find my mental health is either or with no inbetween. Im either perfectly, totally, % fine or Im suicidal. And % of the days Im fine so I dont really fully handle this. I just get these thoughts in my head telling me to kill myself sometimes. Not just thoughts. Memories. About how I was worthless and better off dead. Attitudes. My Mom has always implied people like me dont fit into society and its hard not to think with that sort of slant. And it gives me this overwhelming, all-encompassing compulsion to kill myself. I know its not rational but it FEELS rational! It just seems like what I should do! The thoughts are just so convincing, as though Im a very horrible person and something bad will happen if I dont end my life soon. I cant think rationally or positively with it. When I do the bad memories come back of my Mom telling me Im a failure, Im worthless, that Ive manipulated everyone who loves me and that they have wool pulled over their eyes. I feel like the idea that Im a terrible person and that I should end my life IS reality and that by not doing it Im in denial and putting everyone around me through further torture. I even get this sinking horrible feeling in my chest every time I try and pull myself away from this line of thinking. Anyways. Im sure Ill be fine. Again. Tomorrow. Totally fine, laughing and cringing at everything Im typing right now. But for now, Im searching my room for cords that could effectively strangle me so could I get a distraction maybe please? I know beggars cant be choosers but its going to have to be a digital distraction I could access from this phone. Hobby-type stuff makes me feel lazy and worthless and only makes the thoughts worse. | suicide |
Unpopular opinion David Copperfield vs Harry Houdini is the second best Erb | non-suicide |
Need help Hey guys, do any of you get chest pain while getting up from bed? It's been real painful for me lately so I figured I could ask you guys for some help. I'm male, btw | non-suicide |
when i first heard people talking about the holocaust i thought it was something in the future relating holograms in -th grade, my friends mentioned something called the holocaust and I was amazed at what this historic accomplishment was. i realized it was something scarring | non-suicide |
please help meIm really struggling today. I think Im going to lose my job and have to move back in with my parents. If someone could reach out to chat, Id really appreciate it. | suicide |
I did itAlcohol. Xanax. Antidepressants. Sleeping pills. I can't do it any more. I tried. I'm . Female. Lifelong history of servre depression and BPD. Starting to fade out now. | suicide |
I hate people who judge marvel and dc solely on the movies I honestly hate these people. As a lil bit of a dc lover, ive collected a few comics (not many cus i dont live near a bookshop that sells them) and ive watched most dc movies, and some episodes of the animated tv series and also talk about them with my friends. I dont hate marvel, in fact i like marvel as well. Characters like spiderman and quicksilver have always been in my top favourite heroes, and ive collected some comics of theirs as well. Seeing as i know a little bit about these two companies, i figured i should speak up about this. Dont judge something as widespread and popular as superheroes, with multiple different ways of shoeing them, solely on the movies. Sure, dc movies suck, except for a few and hopefully not the new ones, but the comics are fantastic, and have always intrigued me. Same for marvel. Just because you didnt like the captain marvel movie doesnt mean marvel is bad and dc is better. They both have comics to read, so why not read them? They have live action and animated tv shows, so why not judge the companies on them? Its just really annoying when i hear my classmates, with no knowledge about the companies at all, say one is better than the other just because of a film. I may not have the best comic book knowledge, but at least ik that much TL;DR: im annoyed that people judge marvel and dc solely on their movies and they should judge them on comics and tv shows too, for a fair comparison. | non-suicide |
I don't knowI'm scared. I honestly can't imagine any way for my life to pan out where I don't kill myself soon. I can't even imagine making it to the end of the year. A few months ago I was thinking about preordering something that comes out in September and I thought to myself "But I won't be here then". I've been planning since middle school to kill myself before I graduated high school but now I'm in college. The first time I held a gun to my head was in the th grade and I just wish that I got it over with back then. Nothing has improved it's only gotten worse. I just want it all to end. I don't think that I was meant to live. It feels like there was some glitch in the system and I was born somehow. I don't think that I'll ever be a normal functioning adult. I feel like a kid in an adult body. I have life experience and I'm a complete loser. A lot of times I wish that a freak accident would happen and kill me instead so that my family wouldn't be mad at me for killing myself. I'm just over it all. I'm sorry that this doesn't all make sense I don't know how to put my thoughts together. | suicide |
Fantasizing how i want to end it is funMy parents dont deserve a burden like me, im doing horrible in school and lifes definitely going to kick me in the ass. Im worthless. People only like me out of pity. Error : good qualities not found. Maybe if i hang myself with a bungee cord my death will be as much as a joke as my life. A shame i dont have the balls to go through with it. I have to keep it bottled up irl because im scared of what will happen if i open up. Ouchy! | suicide |
When it's really fucking hot: | non-suicide |
To people who say trans and non-binary people should wait until they are for any kind of hormone therapy Unfortunately the effects of puberty are irreversible. As somebody who lived through most of the wrong puberty, it fucks you up, and it has done irreversible damage to my body. Your best bet is taking puberty blockers, then testosterone/estrogen when youre ready. Puberty blockers are reversible, and have no greater adverse effects than your standard birth control meds. Unfortunately, people are dumb, and spread misinformation about hormone therapy CONSTANTLY. If we force people to wait until they are , that is a lot of dead trans kids. Whats worse, a bunch of dead people, or some hormone imbalances that level out over time and a VERY small percentage of the population that detransitions? (most of which do so because their treatment was mismanaged) Here are a few good scholarly sources to review incase you are skeptical: [Study from Cornell University about the effects of hrt on depression and suicide rates in the trans population]( [Oxford meta-analysis on large sample sizes of trans people, and the effects of hormone therapy]( [Khn article about puberty blockers (scholarly sources included)]( [Smaller Dutch study on puberty blockers]( Finally, it hurts me to see peoples ill-informed opinions on transitioning so prevalent. We need educated individuals and people who actually experience these things to make important decisions on access to trans healthcare. As were already seeing in the UK, which recently restricted access to hormone therapy for anybody under , harmful legislation fucks over trans and non-binary individuals, and suicide rates go up. Please be courteous and understand what this kind of misinformation does. If ANYBODY is struggling rn and needs to speak to an lgbt inclusive counselor free of cost, I recommend reaching out to the Trevor Project. They have a lifeline, a textline, and an online chat service for struggling young people. Thats all. I know this wont reach many people but its important to me and I felt like sharing. | non-suicide |
Have to suffer an awful mental illness ridden existence, but also work hours a week, and pretend to be happy. Let that sink in.My reasons to live are slim. I enjoy weed, and food, and alcohol. I cant drink alcohol because Ill die from it (have a problem with drinking too much and having blackouts) I live a repetitive work do nothing lifestyle. Im male. Numb. Alone. Bored. Tried meds and therapy but its a waste of money and I have no insurance so thats out of the picture. The most I can do is get generic anti depressants from my primary, but the Prozac doesnt help anyway. Neither did the Zoloft and the others. Just hard to get through long days with a terrible view on the world. I have to fake a smile for hours, and be around better people than me. Its so hard to not walk out. But if I do Ill be homeless and definitely killmyself. Its getting to a point where I dont care about anything honestly. Like no compassion anymore. I sometimes feel like a sociopath. God idk. Try to have a good day yall. | suicide |
I want to feel that other people care for me and love me for who I amI believe in people loving other people and if I can't feel that love from other people then I refuse to live. Period. And that's it. I DON'T want to be alone. I want people to be there for me. I will fight for this belief until the very end. I can't live otherwise. | suicide |
People say things get better, but it's not like I'm ever going to stop hating myselfI'm sure that any problem I have with college, trying to find a job, or relationships is temporary, but I hate myself and I always have. I hate this depression, I hate how ugly I am, I hate how shy I am, I hate how scared of everything I am, I hate the random rage fits I have. There's nothing that I like about myself. And why should I expect that to change? I can't just get rid of all these flaws, they're all part of me. I hate myself more than anything on this planet. Every day I imagine taking a bunch of pills and ODing, but I don't have any to do it with. I genuinely can't see why people like me. Like I have close friends who really like me and I have no idea why. I suck. | suicide |
One of the worst subs Ive ever seen I am absolutely horrified about r/loveforanimesexuals | non-suicide |
RantI am not going to commit suicide. Not because I no longer have reason to. But simply because Ive waited too long and Im now in my s with people depending on me. Ive wanted to kill myself before in my teens and I was on intensive treatment and on suicide watch a few times in my late teens and early s. Many people grew out of their depression. I thought I would. Heart of hearts, I think I deserve a break, more than quite a few people. But fate thinks otherwise. I cant think of a moment in my life that would bring me to say I am glad I didnt kill myself. I have become envious of people who managed to do it. If I had died young, I would still have been a promising life cut short. Now Im just a middle aged person who failed. The wait for the end is so long, so painful. In no way am I suggesting anyone to kill themselves. | suicide |
No reason to feel this way.Hi everybody. Ill give a short blurb about myself to explain who I am and what Im struggling with I guess. Ive kind of lost any will to move forward recently and dont really care about getting help anymore either. Im in my late twenties, college graduate, work as an engineer, great job, home owner, great family life growing up and still to this day, decent friends, no girlfriend or anything like that anymore. Not much to complain about. I have hobbies like fishing, video games, cooking, playing music, building things in my garage, lifting weights, and cooking, as a few examples. Long story short, Im miserable. Im able to have fun and I go out with friends and stay active and enjoy things in life. Really like my job with a great income and being independent. But I share it with nobody. My family (parents and siblings) are very supportive and I continue on knowing that they care about me. But Im losing faith in myself because I simply feel alone a lot. I dont have a family of my own and I have nobody to share my successes and life experiences with. Its just me. By myself. In my little house. I come home some nights during the week after the gym and will just stare at my wall for hours. Or read for a minute and stare at the same page for hours. I cry on a regular basis and am simply unhappy with my life. I could continue typing about things I do and feelings I have, but there are so many posts here that already explain similar symptoms so I dont see a point in doing so. Im no different. Hopefully I convince myself to get help or find more joy in living. Thanks, Me | suicide |
I hate humanity and hope climate change wipes out everyone including meWe think we are so civilized and enlightened but most of us are trash. We treat the sweetest members of society like waste if they don't look and talk "right." Supposedly you can get nembutol from Mexico for USD, but often customs nabs it and you lose your money. Don't know if it's a good risk to take but at least it's clean and painless. I hate all of you beautiful people who get life handed to you on a platter because you satisfy the lower order brain functions of other humans. I hope bad things happen to you. I wish it were true that the meek inherit the earth but it's not quite true. The meek inherit the bullshit. | suicide |
Ive been having a lot more suicidal thoughts lately What do i do i just wanna be happy again | non-suicide |
Day of reminding people to wear a mask so they can stay safe x People who hate and anti mask, just don't comment OK? Also, how was everyone's week? | non-suicide |
I dont know if I want to kill myself but its all I can think aboutI dont have much more to lose, I only have a few living family members I dont have any reason to get out of bed in the morning and half of my remaining family hates me for it, I dont really plan on killing myself but Ill probably do it on a whim | suicide |
Remember when our parents told us not to meet strangers on the internet Im pretty sure my mom had an aneurysm when I told her I have gaming friends from Canada and California | non-suicide |
I miss my crush so much My crush is the only friend I have and I haven't seen her in months and I feel like crying right now | non-suicide |
My grandpa makes more dad jokes than my dad... Wierd? Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
The Moon landings were faked! Psych! More of more of our generation are not only saying the Moon landings didn't happen but that "space is fake". They do rightly believe in climate change though. How can we be so smart on one thing but be so dumb on another? What happened? We need to dream big again! While we are fighting climate change and inequality we also need to believe that humanity could achieve something like Star Trek or Mass Effect someday! | non-suicide |
im going to kms tonightand im too afraid send you my suicide note. im so terribly sorry that ive hurt you and am about to hurt you again. i hope you find the happiness you deserve, i love you so so much. im sorry i keep fucking up and that i cant be better, youve always deserved more than i could give you and ive never understood why you cared at all | suicide |
I almost jumped todayMy father called the police and they showed up before I even made it out of the car. I had to call my husband to have him come pick me up. Now Im mortified by my foolish attempt. Ive never actually come close before and have not had these thoughts for long. How do I deal with the embarrassment? That feeling certainly doesnt help when Im in this mental state. | suicide |
this world honestly disgusts me, im actually feeling sick theres this guy on tiktok who posted a graphic video of a dog MURDERING a cat. it picked it up and shook it so hard. the cat was dying slowly at the end and the person didnt help it. and the people in the comments where all just saying how funny it was. on top of that the video got over k likes, and the person who posted it has over million followers. i looked through his account and he also has tons of videos of animal cruelty, people being hurt, dogs penises, sexual assault, ect, and people just think its funny i reported it but i doubt anything will happen since the guy is verified by tiktok and everything | non-suicide |
suicidal thoughtstwo days ago i had a conversation in which i explained that I would like to do programming as a job after i graduate (mostly because its the only semi interesting thing i found over the last years). this person then told me that i could give up on that idea if i wasnt good at maths (which is true). i dont have any real alternatives and my finals are also in about months already. i've had suicidal thoughts before but now,, idk,, i dont see any future for myself and doing music wont cut it either. the only thing that helps with these thoughts and feelings is my boyfriend but i dont want to fully depend on him emotionally and financially. if he wasnt around i'd be in a way worse state.. | suicide |
I dont know what to do with my lifeMy dad hates me, he calls me it and yells at me to pay him rent which he will gamble anyway. Im and my mum never took me to a doctor for my mental health, I took myself last year and got diagnosed with depression, anxiety and OCD. I try to explain that to my parents, which is why I was a weird kid. They dont believe me and just argue with me about something else and change the subject. Ive only dated two men in my life and the first one manipulated me for sex for an entire year while he cheated on me by abusing another girl. I went to therapy and everything felt normal. I met a new guy and he ghosted me after an month relationship that was on and off, and now he actively posts about personal things I did, joking with his friends. He even let me meet his mother and now shes blocked me. My OCD affects my life the most and I think it has since I was a kid. Im not sure how to explain anything but after he ghosted me Im sure there is truly something wrong with my brain. More than a mental disorder, I was never meant to be here and I think thats what life is telling me. | suicide |
I was told to post this here. Not shure if I#m a coward...OP: , single for about to years (mostly cause I'm traumatized by one of my exes, scared of failure and - what I think - being to honestly). | suicide |
GIRLS ONLY!!! IF YOURE A GUY FCK OFF so for those of u who have a kitty... - Do u dye your hair with discharge too? i noticed that it bleaches my underwear so im trying it as a natural hair dye uwu - Do u use your period blood as a face mask? its supposed to have many benefits for ur skin - dont forget to get rid of her fungus - slap her okay so now that the boys probably left who wants to suck my puthayy? | non-suicide |
Posting everyday until i get my first kiss day Yep i'm still going. STILL | non-suicide |
I have some sick sense of humor [I set this as my background]( | non-suicide |
SoonI think our friendship is over Im sorry. This is the last time Im going to respond. Please dont continue to try and fix this. | suicide |
im doing math rn and its so annoying bruh i cannot wait to finish this course | non-suicide |
Go to this website to learn about SEX-ED Do lack of school teaching "sex education" and the signs of the subreddit not knowing sex education,  here is a link that will teach you all you will know about sex education  [  it will teach you about Sex, Preventing STDs & Pregnancy, **Puberty**, All About Sex, Gender, and Gender Identity, Sexual Orientation, and **Relationships** | non-suicide |
Fum facts with ma-alt-acc !!! People with Rick astley pfps are probably children who browse r/pewdiepiesubmissions | non-suicide |
Im uselessUseless, worthless, pointless, stupid, idiotic, retarded, fucked up. Useless Useless Useless I cant even take care of a fucking snake. Retarded Dumb Idiotic Useless All I am is useless. The snake is gonna die. Theyre gonna be alone. Because Im a coward. Because Im leaving. Useless Useless Im so fucking happy Im gonna die. Im so so so so so fucking happy. I can at least be useful as fertilizer, right? Im worthless. Im trash. Worthless fucking ugly trash who will never be loved or wanted. I cant even find any friends in person because Im so FUCKING USELESS.. Nobody wants to hangout with someone this ugly. Nobody wants to hangout with someone this stupid.. This fucked up. This.. Hahaha Fuck this fucking planet, fuck all of the religious cunts on this subreddit as well...it just made me cry more and feel WORSE when you posted your god loves everyone bulllshit. Go fuck yourselves you assholes. NOBODY FUCKING CARES! STOP PREACHING YOUR BULLSHIT ON DEPRESSED PEOPLE WHO DONT GIVE A FUCK! ONE OF YOUT FUCKING RELIGIOUS FUCKWADS WOULD BEAT ME ON A DAILY BASIS! I DONT FUCKING CARE! Fuck all of you. Bye. | suicide |
ExhaustedK i am done. I try and try but the pain and anger always comes back. Life will never stop fucking me in the ass. I am trash, no one will love me besided my mom and even then, I'm tge highest stress factor for her. She'd be better off without me and my mental anf physical illnesses. I'm under heavy medication and it was working so far until some stuff happened. I can't keep living like this. II've been labelled as grossly ugly in the past, undesirable, dramatic, a plague. It's not my goddamn fault that I have BPD and depression. Now I am labelled as easy, undesirable though not ugly anymore, I'm still worth trash because making out with two guys who feigned affection towards me makes me a whore that needs to control herself. I made a new friend a short time ago and she tried including me in her circle of friends but no, i can't function in society. I hate myself more than anything else in the world, I've tried to commit suicide many times but failed. This time Ive decided to do it while my mom is at work. I'm sorry I can't fit in anywhere. At this point i don't even care at the fact that ive never been able to have a boyfriend (im ) men will never take me seriously because they can sense it. They can sense that I'm worthless. I give up. There's nothing ahead of me in any sense of the word. I have an ovarian cyst that will probably be cancerous. I havr a bachelors degree in something I hate and just being awake makes me sick. There's no enough room for my whole life story but all I wish is that I don't survive this fall. Please, i need to rest | suicide |
Everything is goodI'm . For the first time in my entire existence, I am safe and in a good spot. I have never once had a life like I have now, but I still want to die and that is what is scaring me so bad. Everything is so so good now, I have a loving friends an amazing soul mate, getting along with my family I'm in college I'm getting good grades. But every single moment all I can think about is harming myself and ending it. Im scared because things are good now, and yet I still want to die. I always was able to blame my unfortunate circumstances on the suicidal thoughts but now all of it is over and I still want to die. I dont even know why I'm writing this. I guess its because everyone in my life is so proud of me and they think I'm doing great and they count on me so much. I cant do this anymore. Im so sad. | suicide |
what the fuck is going on? i have no idea whats going on, what happened with johnny depp and amber heard? im so fucking clueless i havent been on reddit for a day and all this shit has happened | non-suicide |
everything is a jokelife is so fucking funny. its all a joke. i wish i could be in a psych ward or dead. i want a bullet between my eyes. i dont want to be alive. each breath i take, i pray its my last. i want to be dead. | suicide |
Nothing worksI'm starting to think I'm immortal, I keep trying and trying and trying to hang myself for the past days straight but just the same thing happens, survival instincts kick in and right before passing out my body just gets up or holds onto the ceiling rafter. Im ready to go. Please i just want to die. Please dont ask why just help me kill myself if you can. | suicide |
Give me one single reason why I shouldn't kill myself tonight.I have NONE. | suicide |
I will never be enoughI have been used so many times even after getting so hurt I made myself vulnerable and open for new relationships. Used to give some people all my love, energy and time but in the end they either leave because they don't care, or I get cheated on, or they use me as a distraction and last but not least, when they leave me because I wasn't enough. I'm never enough. Trying so hard and yet get called selfish or not enough. Everyone I once cared about so much just used me. I have been used my life, my parents still abuse me even though i'm , I got hit today and that just did it for me. I just broke down. My friends just manipulate me for their own reasons. My ex boyfriend was a dick who just used me. I'm so tired of not being enough anymore. I told my parents about my mental illness and they just yelled at me for being entitled and that I had no reason to be depressed. My dearest friend didn't care when I told them I was suicidal. No one cares. Depression has reached it's highest point and I think I will kill myself soon. | suicide |
What part of yourself are you most proud of? What part of yourself are you most proud of? | non-suicide |