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How to access any blocked website on a chromebook under a GoGaurdian Firewall. (Most common firewall used by schools) First, search "chrome://settings" into your address bar  once you are in your google settings, get to your Authoritative Certificates by going into  Security > Manage Certificates > Authorities  from there, scroll down to "org-Amazon"  Untrust all four of the certificates by pressing  > edit  from there simply uncheck all of the blue ticks. Hit OK.  Then, scroll down until "org-Starfield Technologies, Inc."  Untrust the Starfield certificates the same as you did Amazon.  Once you are done, refresh your page.  Open a new tab and try to access a website that would normally be blocked.  If you gain access with no problem, you're good to go.  If the blocked by administrator screen pops up, you have one more step.  Press search + esc. (The search key usually has a magnifying glass on it, but on some models its just a circle above shift)  A small window should pop up. From there click "Memory Footprint"  End all of the processes that have a gray circle with a white triangle inside of it. (This is the GoGaurdian symbol)  Scroll through and find them all in the list. (to end a process simply click on it and press the large button that reads "End Process")  Next, close that window and refresh your page.  Let me know if this worked for you guys. I will answer any questions to try and help resolve issues. | non-suicide |
My friends dont know how to think So were playing Minecraft, and they always say *KB* instead of *knockback* and I asked why and my guy actually said *KB is shorter than KnockBack* ***I dont understand*** | non-suicide |
Tried to kill myself for the third time this yearI feel so helpless and pathetic. I have no direction in my life and don't know where I'm going.  I've tried to hang myself by tying a cord to a doorknob, but I can't go all the way through with it. I always end up shaking, crying and having a panic attack afterwards.  I've posted before hoping for some advice, but at this point I'd settle for a stranger on the internet telling me that I'm not a pathetic piece of shit. | suicide |
Test run of suicide plan I hope tomorrow. I feel so guilty for choosing to commit suicide. I am so tired to living. I don't want to anymore.My family constantly tells me how I do not do things right. I don't do them enough, I need to be different. I am sure most of my "friends" say and think the same. They probably do not care. I have devised a suicide plan. Hope it will work. Test run tomorrow I hope. The guilt for this is suffocating. please make it stop. Everything I do feels wrong. I deserve to die. I want to die. Please make it stop. it sould look like i jsut died. I hope it works. My family thinks depression or suicidality is a mental disease. It's not. It's just wanting to stop this. I've had a triple shot now. Hopefully i won't feel so much for a few hours. The guilt is overwhelming. Why does this have to be wrong? Kill me please. I will probably not even be allowed to kill myself. I will probably be forced to stay. That is what I deserve. To suffer. I deserve to suffer. I just want someone to talk to. The guilt is so much. Please kill me. My family and friends would never let it go if they fund out. I do not want to keep going. i hope God, if there is one, strikes me dead in my sleep tonight. | suicide |
I ruined my life, I can't think of ways.I took a very wrong decision by opting a undergraduation subject, which I don't feel related to. I work hard, but can't get those things in my head effectively, whereas everybody around me seems to get all of it. Everybody enjoys the subjects, have goals centered around it, whereas I hate Mechanical Engineering. I can't enjoy the subject, I have no clue what I'll do after graduation, I literally have no goals with this subject. I obtained a scholarship to one of the Asia's best college, but turned it down, because I wanted to study Mechanical, and now that I'm into my third year, I think I blundered. Academics was the only strong thing I had. My family thinks I am smart, this, that- all bullshit I think. I do maintain respectable CGPAs, but I never want to do such thing, as my career in life. I fucked up. I don't belong here. I just want to go somewhere, where I don't have to deal with constant dissapointment, constant failing, and regret that I could HAVE DONE A LOT BETTER, IF ONLY I WAS SANE. | suicide |
i dont want to die.please help. its mother's day and my mother has been overbearing and cruel. we dont get hit but she takes/throws away stuff and constantly tells us how much we suck or whatever. i dont know. im not in my right mind right now. my therapist told me to call her if i ever feel suicidal and i *am* suicidal and i doubt i can make it to the end of this week but i dont wanna make things worse than they already are i just dont know what to do so if anyone has any advice or whatever other than "just call her" please i need it i dont know what to do i dont want to see her and i dont know what else i can do to please her | suicide |
Do it now Stop procrastinating | non-suicide |
my stummy hurt I cannot sleep uwu I have drinking all the ginger ale I'm still a pepto bismoholic | non-suicide |
I think Im going to kill myself tonightI dont really know what to right tbh Im a year old trans guy, came out when I was like and waited on the Tavistock (the uk gender clinic) for like years and then once I got there they distarged me cos I dont have any fucking friends anymore and my step dad was being a prick so that apparently means I dont know shit about myself, we literally only had like idk meetings. I had been waiting so fucking long for this. I feel so fucking dysphoric all the fucking time I hate my body so fucking much. I just want enough testosterone to at least make my voice a little deeper. And whats pushed me to the edge is when I went out yesterday literally people called me a girl and my mum and step dad have pretty much given up on calling me a boy and by my pronouns, they always call me a girl/thier daughter and use she/her. And even if I do get to transition this society is so fucking transphobic like just on fucking twitter or some shit and on every post to do with trans folks its always so negative like theres a whole wave of even cis lgbt ppl hating us. Literally whats the fucking point. Ive already attempted suicide over this when I was and camhs did absolutely nothing, no therapist or anything. I have not a single friend except for like one online friend and literally every family member that was like oooh you tried to kill yourself this is so sad has hardly spoken to me since plus I havent even met half of my family and my biological dad hardly ever speaks to and keeps on arranging times for us to meet them cancelling like the only person that might actually be upset about me dying is my cat. Anyway, I already have codomsl pills with me right now and according to google I only need like in one go to kill myself and theres probably way more in the house so yeah cant be arsed with life and I have literally ~nothing~ to live for so, goodbye | suicide |
Dear my lbs gym teacher, dont tell me that my minute mile is too slow. These absolute whales of gym teachers be like HOW DARE YOU TAKE MORE THAN MINUTES TO RUN THE MILE YOU NEED TO BE IN SHAPE! Like bitch please you should be running not me, lay off the pizza rolls and cake we see you eating in the gym office | non-suicide |
Im tired of living I dont want to do anymore days. Im tired of people telling me to hold on for just a few more days, a few more weeks or a few more seconds. Every single day feels like a month, every second feels like an hour and it just hurts so bad. I feel like from the moment I wake up I have someone whispering in my ear and stabbing me in the back. Im just so tired of the pain Nobody cares about me Nobody wants me around Nobody would notice if I was gone Please can I just be at peace | suicide |
What happens to a year old male that attempts suicide in England?What happens to a year old male that attempts suicide in England? | suicide |
Nobody knows the truthI'm getting closer and closer to the day a head to a pawn shop and buy that mm I've been looking at and heading to the river then blowing my brains out. Nobody knows how I feel Inside and nobody cares enough to ask. I go to work everyday with a smile on my face and depression in my head. A few years ago I attempted to drink bleach and kill myself but it failed and landed me in a mental hospital and that was the first my parents ever heard of my depression. A few weeks later I got out and told my parents I was better (I lied). Skip forward a year and my girlfriend of years dumped me saying she liked girls (but currently has a boyfriend) but it was because I was just too closed off to the world. I messaged her so angry telling her I was going to slit my wrist and so on blah blah and my imessage was signed in on my mom's phone so she seen it and asked me about it so I lied again saying I was just upset. And now here I am today. Thinking about blowing my brains out. An i will soon | suicide |
I screwed up my suicide attemptI used the exit bag everything was going as planned, I was on the verge of passing out but the helium stopped going through idk y it stopped I did everything I could. After that I returned home and checked the tank again and guess what the helium started flowing again. I should be dead right now. :( someone kill me please. | suicide |
I hate myself so muchI have no self esteem, I try to hide it and act normal and confident in public but Im so tired. Im but I look like Im . During the quarantine I have been thinking more about how I am a virgin and that I may never lose my virginity. I think I am alright looking but I have no confidence and Im really insecure and quiet and invisible and I dont think any girl would want to be with me. Not that it matters right now. Im in online college until January at the very earliest. Im so lonely. I barely see my friends. Covid fucked whatever social life I had. I hate myself. If I dont lose my virginity or find a girlfriend by the time Im I swear to god Im going to rope because I dont want to exist if I have to be alone. | suicide |
How am I supposed to care about college when I don't care about being alive?My girlfriend dumped me. I loved this girl more than anything in the world. Felt things I didn't know existed. She left me and I'm am literally falling apart. To make things even better, I live three doors down from her. She is the most beautiful and interesting person I have ever met. This probably sounds like the same story told a thousand times but I'm tired of waking up each day to feel like a thrown away piece of trash | suicide |
Here are two good reasons not to kill yourself:Because if you survive attempts (and even the powerful feelings/fantasies/plans), you are better equipped to help others. By far, most people who kill themselves are good souls, sensitive people, empathic. Their depression might bring out responses that make them not value this inner goodness (e.g. apathy that decays into nihilism, defensiveness, anger, even aggression), but the good decent core is still there. If there's less of you/us out there in the world, then the world misses out on that; that's a huge loss to the universe. Don't let the bad/cold/indifferent guys win. I'm sure I would care about you and even love you and see the good and wonderful within you even if you don't love yourself. Unfortunately here in the metaverse there is no way I can reach out and hug you there in that dark existential corner you've dwelt in too often / too long. Postscript: I successfully talked three friends out of suicide in the last mos. In each case, they trusted me because I've survived four major attempts (overdoses and one carbon monoxide). Learning how to forgive yourself and not sabotaging yourself with self-hatred/loathing is vital to fighting off those suicidal feelings/thoughts. Love, meg | suicide |
My friend.So im at an utter loss of what to do. My friend is fixated on ending his life and nothing i do can help. Hes given up and doesnt want help cause he doesnt want to continue fighting. I cant accept his death. The thought just destroys me and leave me in shambles. I cant lose him. He is the one that i love and i cant let him hurt himself more. Please i just need someones help. If he were to go through with hanging himself, i dont think i could live with myself. Please god someone just help me. Im literally sobbing while typing this | suicide |
I am thinking about killing myselfI don't know what compelled me to come here....probably because it's where I find myself spending most of my time these days. I'm years old, and recently back in college. Up until the beginning of the school year, I have been depressed for a long time. When school began, I felt the best I have in years. Like I had a second shot at being happy with myself. I don't even know where to start, my thoughts aren't organized at all lately. But I do know that I've never felt the urge to end my life as much as I do today. I feel I need help. But I'm not sure where to turn. | suicide |
Yall know about go guardian right? Well it breaks privacy laws in the united states, because at random anyone with a teaching program can turn on webcam and look at you, change system settings, look at your drives, and in some cases, reset the device, Now if your doing distant learning tell your school and find some evidence, its not hard, and get it banned so you can use reddit! | non-suicide |
I arrived too early at the dmv for my permit test so now i gotta wait. Thats pretty much it. Just felt like sharing i guess | non-suicide |
I want to kill myself and nobody can help meI'm suffering constantly and it will never end I just want companionship and it hurts | suicide |
I just can't fucking take it anymore.My friend died, and nobody told me for months. my partner is so fucking selfish and doesn't even care about me, all he cares about is himself and making sure everyone pities him and doesn't force him to do anything he doesn't want to do because hes a delicate wittle twauma baby, which includes actually giving a shit about me and physically being there for me. He made me cope with my mother's death all alone and screamed at me for cheating after I got raped. All using the fact his mother never loved him as an excuse. All he fucking cares about is being able to tell people he knew in high school that he has a girlfriend so they don't think he's a complete loser. He never spends time with me. Right now he's in another country and keeps lying to me about coming to see me. He's pretending he's minutes away from me because he thinks I'm stupid. Nobody else will ever care about me because I have a personality disorder that makes me fundamentally unloveable. I'm also fucking ugly, which even my partner admitted to recently. I work a deadend nightshift job that's really hard on my body and live with someone who doesn't respect me and eats half of my food every week. I'm broke and my only family members who are still alive don't give a single shit about me. Everyone I love keeps fucking dying. I have fucking no one. No therapy, no friends, no caring family, no loving partner. Absolutely nothing. I can't go to a hospital because I would lose my job and my life would suck even more. I can't fucking take it anymore. I've known for years I was better off dead. People spent so long screaming at me that it gets better WHEN IT DOESN'T. all it ever did was get worse and worse and worse and worse and all I want to do now is die. I have no drive to do anything but kill myself. I can't even afford help. So fucking fuck it. | suicide |
why tf do girls respond to texts so quickly bro i swear whenever i text a girl for any reason (for homework, to chat, etc.) they always respond in like a minute. and every single time i send a text during the conversation theyll respond like instantly like bruh how tf are you always on ur phone and in the app ready to respond instantly. dont you do other shit on ur phone?? dont you do other shit in real life?? i swear man idk how they do that shit lmao ^(PS. obviously not all girls are like this but in my experience a lot are) | non-suicide |
Can i get dumb reassurance? Can i please get some dumb reassurance? This is really dumb, but ya know that video/clip where the girl says "wait, are you guys f*cking? In front of my salad?" (Something like that) its basically a youtube joke Anyways, i guess it doesn't show anything (cause its youtube), but i found out its actually from a porno. Im probs overreacting, but it didnt really show anything, right? I guess i know i didnt see anything, but I just wanted dumb reassuranceee (plz lol) And noo, i wasnt looking for porn. i saw it in a "random videos on my phone" compilation and i searched the video on youtube to find the context. I only then in the comments found out it was a from porn. Sorry for my stupidity and sorry for the repost | non-suicide |
Please help me lose weight Im , years old, pounds, and can barely do one pull-up in a row. For every red tree, Ill do pull-ups. Exactly hours after this post, Ill do times the number of pull-ups that there are red trees, by . Wish me luck. | non-suicide |
For those whose parents installed a search tracker/blocker on their devices, try using TOR Browser My parents installed McAfee Safe Family on my Android phone and it showed all of my searches and blocked potentially inappropriate websites and sent alerts to my parents, even on incognito (although I'm pretty sure my parents don't know that they can see this, they just use the app for location tracking). I tried using TOR and the searches didn't get picked up by McAfee. I searched "porn (to test mcafee i dont actually want it" on incognito in Chrome and on Tor and it was blocked on Chrome but not Tor. Test it out and see if it works. | non-suicide |
running in circles, running in circlesI don't want to kill myself, necessarily. I could never do that to my family. I just wish my heart would stop beating. I wish I could just disappear into thin air. How I feel, or rather, the feelings I *lack*, are hard to describe and hard to pinpoint. I feel all alone. I know, I know. Someone out there is going through the exact same thing. I try and rationalize with myself. But it doesn't help. If anything, I feel worse when I think about it like that. I feel crushed by the weight of it all. Absolutely crushed. Knowing that there are no words I can say to get someone to understand makes me wish I simply didn't exist. So why not? Why not die? It would hurt my family, like I said. But how much longer can I live like this? How much longer can I run around in circles? I'm tired. I'm so tired. So fucking tired. | suicide |
I am a soon-to-be manager at my workplace After about a year and a half of working, I'm about to be trained for the position of manager. It will become official when I turn in a few months | non-suicide |
i really don't like other girls this is not hating on women I just have to say it though. Woman fucking suck. Im a born female and I grew up where my sister and my mother where around me the most along with other women. I have noted many patterns not only with them but with myself. Women just are superficial and dont really care about everyone. They're only nice to be nice, and probably will always talk shit about you. Theres only a small group of people a girl will genuinely care about. They'll get upset over a misunderstanding and block people out and assume. I am not saying I'm better than any other girl just to be clear. I notice feminine toxicity within myself all the time and do the same fucking thing. I acknowledge when I'm acting like a woman but like I cant stop acting like a woman. And neither can any other girl. Its feminine nature. I'm not saying guys dont have these qualities, but I've only seen men who defend women have them so it's up in the air. I keep trying to be friends with girls and it always ends up with them getting upset at me or being selfish or vise versa. I cannot understand any man who defends and validates that behavior. men will just like pour their hearts to a girl and she'll just throw them away when she gets bored. and men just keep doing it. I do not think guys are any better than girls but they're at least disciplined when they act like a jerk. Honestly I like guys who are misogynistic more than guys who are feminists. | non-suicide |
Im going to do itI cant even think anymore. My sister is accusing me of physically assaulting her, and even though Ive had a great track record theyre siding with her and theyve been telling me how much of a piece of shit I am. My dad just came in here telling me Id grow up to abuse children, I just dont wanna go on. I think Im gonna kill myself tonight. I just want someone to know that I wasnt a bad person, I had a wonderful laugh and I never did such a thing. This might be goodbye | suicide |
I wanna sleep but the Adventure Time song is stuck in my head Makes me wanna cry and think about all my old friends | non-suicide |
Attempted first to uproots wins Im not playing dont down vote me or anyone else.YOU WIN A MEDAL( Im easily bribed )Edit: I make rules so I can downvote now I didnt want it to be to easy | non-suicide |
I left my emotionally abusive boyfriend, but I realized that it isn't going to reverse the damage. Hello, reddit. I'm years old and I'm a junior in college. I met Jon* our freshman year. We started out as friends and our relationship progressed from there. Fast forward to today, we live together and over the past few months he has become more and more hostile. It started out with him picking fights on purpose, over little things. He would always point out every single tiny thing that I do wrong, calling me useless, lazy, and spewing vile comments about my physical appearance, about how I never listen to him; that I don't care; that I'm weak and can't handle anything on my own. Today, he actually told me that he felt that his cheating ex girlfriend loved him more than I do. I've never felt more hurt and insulted in my whole life. I left him, and for the time being I am staying at my parents house. But I can't shake off the dark thoughts that have started plaguing me ever since. He's put these ideas in my head, that I'll never be good enough for any man. I haven't thought about ending my life in a very long time. I loved him so much, and I still do. Maybe he's right, I really can't deal with this. Please, help me. | suicide |
how to fall down a staircase step step step step step | non-suicide |
You can't change my mindI've already made up my mind that I want to kill myself, so I just want a method that is quick and easy to access. I've tried looking on google, but to no avail. Any ideas? | suicide |
Every time I check tiktok theres a new cringey trend Why are guys taking their boxers off through their shorts like its impressive. I havent seen a girl do it yet but I can imagine the comments of that video. The app is so stupid now | non-suicide |
I feel readyI dont know what the point of posting this is. I just feel ready to finally end it and want to tell someone but obviously cant tell anyone in real life. I graduate college next week and got rid of all my graduation tickets because Im not gonna be there. I just canceled all my upcoming therapy appointments. I wrote a suicide note. Im distancing myself from anything that might change my mind, because I know Id eventually end up in this downhill spiral again anyway. I dont care anymore and actually feel relieved to have made this decision. | suicide |
My reasons for breakingIncapability and impatience regarding pure and long logical synthesis and understanding things in the depth I desire. Constant unproductive repetition. Brain fog, lack of understanding and lot of mental roadblocks. Ego to not be able to handle not being exceptional and going through the pain of being the fool before the master. Serves the ego more than the process. Highly undisciplined and sub-par work ethic and follow-up to accomplish goals. No asset to society and cannot function in it at a level higher than a cog in the system. Relative accomplishment and drive is substantially far behind due to long stagnation and abominable work ethic. An irrational mind and ludicrous immediate prioritisation. Pretense of the desired self-image and incapable of defending it and no reality to support grandiose self-worth. Inability to mingle, socialize, connect and empathize. Socially inadept and general partially unreasonable disdain for most people, biological and genetic wiring of activity and potential activity. Severe body image issues and horrid appearance including lack of stature which require surgical measures to be able to live with myself or find a partner and not feel out of place and inability to find confidence despite. General depression, lack of motivation/energy despite desire and incapable of achieving goals. | suicide |
Help! I need to learn math! So since this entire semester was online I just looked up all the answers for my math classes and have a overall in my class. My teacher told us today that we actually need to go to school to take the final exam next week, and I thought we were gonna do it online so I wasnt stressed. I learned absolutely nothing this semester and I need to learn the full syllabus of th grade math before next Monday! I studied the entire first unit today and Im super tired but I still dont remember half of it. Does anyone have advice on remembering how to solve stuff? If I dont study hard enough Im % gonna fail the exam and its worth % of my grade | non-suicide |
TIL my grandparents are covidiots The people most at risk, are the least caring. They say, masks wont stop a thing | non-suicide |
i dont recall a moment in lifei dont recall one moment in my life, where i didn't complain... ever since i was till now as an adult not one day passed where i didn't feel like absolute shit or complained i'm so tired | suicide |
My girlfriend broke up with me because she cant see herself being in a long term relationship with a manIm heartbroken. My (now ex) girlfriend of two years broke up with me because she couldnt see herself being with a man long term. She broke up and got back together with me times over the past month or two because she wanted to make it work, and this time was the last. My home life is terrible and she was genuinely the only thing that made me happy. I have trouble connecting with people, but we instantly made a connection two years ago. I dont know what to do. I havent really eaten or slept much since it happened Monday. My chest hurts and my pulse is super fast and hard, And Im having heart palpitations. Most likely benign but its still rough. Ive never felt this awful. I want to drop my college courses. I failed a test and messed up on very important assignments because I was so upset I just couldnt focus at all. I feel so fucking awful. Im already struggling with suicidal ideation and now I think it just pushed me over the edge. I cant stop thinking about her. | suicide |
Porn sucks You watch other people have sex? what the fuck is wrong with you? all pure christian boys such as myself watch hentai. | non-suicide |
Hello you amazing humans How are we all doing today? Im doing well, I wrote a final exam for one of my classes so Im pretty relieved its out of the way. | non-suicide |
Is it just me or is the social flair the only one used With the exception of serious, art and meme? Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler | non-suicide |
SEND HELP PLEASE MY CIVICS CLASS IS FILLED WOTH TIKTOK THOTS AND ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL THEY STARTED TEACHING MY TEACHER HOW TODO THE WAP DANCE PLS HELP I CANT STAND THEM | non-suicide |
Im in the bathtub with a knife in my hands listening to musicThats it, Im sorry. Im horrible and cant be here anymore, its time for me to go. | suicide |
Anyone wanna chat or smth We can do the number game or truth or dare or smth im boooored Im m and gay if that matters Dm me if you want i guess | non-suicide |
Now that I have considered not killing myself by jumping, what do you suggest me?Something like bleeding or I dunno, tell ms | suicide |
Cobb Vanth >!Vanth Refrigeration!< Dank Farrik I need more filler filler filler | non-suicide |
It's my birthday!! Boysn' gurls it's my th birthday so I can finally join you all hehe it's not like i was here before or somthn | non-suicide |
I think it's time.Hey everyone. Long time lurker and seldom poster around here. I don't have any story to share that I really need outside input on, I just think it's time. I think the train has come to the last stop, so to say. The ship has reached the final port on its journey, and so on. Thanks for all your help with people that come here. Keep it up. | suicide |
I am wierdMy mental state has crumbled too far... I hate myself this world and the human race. Now I have come here to ask the question, there is no right or wrong. But consequences are different... Ok let's get into it There are many people and there is me and i can't handle it anymore. I will die either way. But I always wanted to kill someone and I got the feeling that I might just do that question is, is it going to be myself or someone else and I am pretty sure I won't stop after one and I am defenetly not going to let them take me to jail. Noone will get me living | suicide |
I think I broke my back I was jumping off an inflatable water slide onto the bottom of it, little did I know the air thing had leave blocking the intake, therefore making it deflated. The thing bottomed out and I hit my tailbone on the ground pretty hard. I couldnt breathe for a bit. I got off of it once I felt good enough to walk and had to find a chair. By the way, my two best friends who I havent seen since January were there with me when this happened so now Im having to be apart from them. Anyways, Im on my way to urgent care. Wish me luck that I didnt break my back or dont have spinal damage. | non-suicide |
I will debate or discuss a wide variety of topics just ask I am and male Will debate/discuss multiple topics/try and understand the other sides view or just answer whatever questions you ask me to the best of my ability! I would prefer you to have a question for me, any topic serious or light hearted. Also I will attempt to keep my responses civil and if I offend you at any point just tell me. Finally please dont tell me Im wrong and leave it at that, explain to me why Im wrong or if I really dont understand a topic send me information on the topic. | non-suicide |
My school will be back in days and Im freaking out I guess Ill just spend the break alone eating pistachios and listening to cage the elephant while thinking of how birds have sex again. Wish me luck mates | non-suicide |
There's a time that I remember When you would refresh and get new posts on this sub | non-suicide |
That feeling where u just woke up and gotta check whether u slept all night, or just a few hours Imagine sleeping well Couldnt be me | non-suicide |
I just made the best joke (of mine) in this school year in class. So we are on algebra, learning about cantors theorem. And I just suddenly message my friend on the back row cunt-ors theorem. He bursts out laughing, shows it to his deskmates, I send it to other guy, and were all laughing. Its a dumb joke but damn | non-suicide |
haha waht if i make a post about how i want a big tiddy mommy milkers e girl haha surely that will increase my chances of getting a big tiddy mommy milkers badonkatonks e girl haha yes | non-suicide |
anyone have nothing to do rn hey guys who wants to join my group chat cuz boredd im bored anyone down to group chat? on discord yeeee comment for link | non-suicide |
Feeling like I couldI have always had that feeling like, I could throw it all away. Like it would make myself free for the first time. Most of the time I force emotions. When I was younger my dad was abusive and mean, I couldn't stand him, and my mom never divorced him. I grew up being ridiculed by him and learned to suppress my emotions because I couldn't stand it anymore. I recently heard he hit my year old sister. I heard this while at a party at pm. I freaked the fuck out got angry then started balling my eyes out, despite being in public knowing that I couldn't help her at that point. My buddies took me home and I passed out and my mom said that they were getting a divorce. But that feeling of not being able to help hurt me, and now I get bad ideas even worse than before. The only thing that is stopping me is knowing what it would do to my little sister. My social life is now fucked, and so is most of my family life. I just need some reassurance as I only want to end it all. | suicide |
I'm just so tired of fighting.I just want to be done. I've been diagnosed with OCD, bipolar disorder, and extreme anxiety in the last year. I'm medicated. Everyone thinks I'm doing better. That the medication is working. The truth is anything but. I'm so tired of chewing my lip off or pulling out my hair everytime I leave the house. I'm tired of not being able to go anywhere without my dog. I'm tired of shaking so hard while trying to talk to the cashier that I can't get my card into the chip reader. I'm so tired of having to act like I'm better. Im tired of the constant nightmares. Im exhausted from staying up at night sleeping with my fire extinguisher in my hands and going over my escape route in my head. I'm exhausted of having to get up and check the stove and the doors to make sure they're locked for the th time before I can even try to sleep. The only reason that I haven't tried earlier is because of my family. I have children and a husband. I would never want to hurt them, but I hate how they have to see me sometimes. It's getting to the point that I think they would be better off without me. I'm just so, so tired. | suicide |
Need advice for a friendMy friend has recently lost his potential job due to matters out of his hands. His health is on the decline and he feels like he's an embarrassment to his family and friends. He hasn't seen the light of day for weeks now and I'm worrying about him. He hasn't talked to any of his friends except me. I can't sugar coat anything because his life is absolutely terrible compared to what it was just months ago. He knows that and gets angry if someone tries to act like it's not that bad. This is the first time he told me about the possibility of just "ending it all." He wants to go through with it tomorrow so he has time to prepare a proper suicide letter..how can I change his mind? From what I know about his situation, he's screwed for life due to recent events Im not at liberty to divulge. So basically, how can I convince someone who's life truly is terrible to not kill themselves? Also, he's already on antidepressants that he just started due to this situation. Edit: I should note that his number once concern is the loss of his job that he will never be able to get back...or any other job in that field he spent years of studying in for the rest of his life. | suicide |
Your new pants arent official til youve jerked it in them. All my pants are official. Are yours? | non-suicide |
Is suicide ok?Im not happy with life anymore and I've tried everything. There's so much unhappiness that it outweighs the good in life. I came really close today but I figured I should give reddit a try and see if someone experienced could help. Psychiatrists don't really help too much and I've tried everything but this. Any way to get these suicidal thoughts out of my head? | suicide |
Guys my account is about to be years old and karma Ahhh Im so close Days* | non-suicide |
HeartBreak Lover () Heartbreak. Realignment. Feeling all the feels. Numbing. Subconscious. Focused Passion. In the past year and a half my life has been the most unexpected events possible & I am grateful for it all. It started springs ago where I met someone through social media that made me stop and think like, wait........who are you? Where did you come from? Your energy is so pure. Friendship and helping each other out with our passion projects which lead to organic feelings. When together, the feelings of being on another planet together and when apart, returning to Earth. These feelings from start to finish were quick lived and by the middle of the summer it was all over. Unexpected. For the first time in more than years I had felt feelings for someone so strong that there were no other thought in mind & then, nothing. All of a sudden. I was shattered, broken, lost. How did I go from focusing on my passions everyday to then still focusing on my passions but being broken. From that time until months ago, I was numb. I self induced myself with Alcohol Daily. Marijuana Daily, with both becoming a necessity. Still, I was focused. Focused on my passions and what fuelled me from day to day. Heartbreak, let me tell you wasn't expected. It was something that came out of left field but was meant for my process and journey. It allowed me to go through all of the feelings, as well as none at all in the same moment, due to my numbing, to now being healed with those feelings and being one with myself. Putting love into myself everyday, spending time with myself and releasing the need to be around people all the time. As well as needing the fulfillment from others, I am healing. Its a practice day to day that I am still learning on how to be more present with myself and for the special ones around me. Going through heartbreak has no "right" way to heal from. It was doing what was best for me, which will be different from yours. I am here for you. I am here to listen. I love you. Drey < | non-suicide |
"What are your goals and dreams?""You can do anything you want. You can be anything you want." That's not true. What I wanted was to be with her. What I wanted to be was happy-- with her. I messed it all up. It's all my fault, and I probably deserve this. I've talked to people about this, and I'm honestly worried I'm going to hurt myself... but apparently admitting myself would be giving up. I'm trying to be strong. I'm trying not to give up, but I can't do it anymore. I'm sick. I want to get off this fucked up ride we call "life". | suicide |
Why do you guys not understand body mechanics percent of people here think that doing ab workouts will give them a six pack, and that Intermittent fasting is a good idea | non-suicide |
Female () Need help with my depression/chronic fatigueIm in a very difficult place right now. Ive struggled with depression most of my life, but currently I have pretty high suicidal ideation, and Im worried that I could kill myself by the end of the summer if things do not improve. The main point of this post is any recommendations and support that I can get. I have a very good life with a graduate degree, a job starting at the end of the summer, a very supportive boyfriend, a good family, and great physical health. The only negatives in my life are really that I dont have many friends (Less than ) and my strong depression. I work out (weightlift and cardio) almost every day in an effort to combat the depression. I also eat a relatively healthy diet. Im also on three medications for depression and ADHD (Trintellix, mg; Vyvanse, mg; and Abilify, mg). I work in education, and last school year Id have to go into an office and take short naps because I was just too exhausted to continue working. The primary worry right now is my exhaustion. I tend to sleep or hours a day without really wanting to get up and do things. Im good at what I do, but Im worried that my depression will make it so that I cant effectively complete my work. I feel anxious because I want to start feeling better by the end of July by the time my new job starts. Any advice? | suicide |
It feels often like I don't have much going for me besides the people I love.I believe and love the people around me, they bring joy and light into my life, but without them or when I doubt my importance in their lives, the world takes a dark turn, and I start to question the point of existence. Don't get me wrong, I actually only have suicidal ideations, a part of me doesn't think I'll ever do it, but I've become addicted to the daydream of passing and thinking of others reaction, as narcissistic and disgusting it seems, its one of the few things that can make me cry and actually feel something. I love my hobbies, my friends and I can see how good life can occasionally be, but I'm so terrified of the potential of loneliness I would just rather die than be alone. I'm scared if the people in my life left I wouldn't be able to face it anymore. Without seeing others faces and hearing their laughs, it feels like I have nothing to live for. So recently when a couple of people close to me ghosted me, it felt like a dagger that the progress I made in mental health took steps back and I just went back to my daydreams over death. | suicide |
Emotionally DrainedI feel like I'm emotionally drained. I'm pretty sure my family wouldn't care if I died. All I ever do is make situations worse. I hardly have any friends except for on twitter so I'll probably be easily forgotten. I selected a suicide date but I'm unsure if I should even wait for that date to come. | suicide |
When does it mean when you ask someone what I remind them of and they say I remind them of sunsets and sad songs?? | non-suicide |
I texted my ex and I want to dieSomeone please talk to me, I cant believe how stupid I am | suicide |
apparently highschool is the highlight of your life letsgoooo i hope they make us go to school irl next school year | non-suicide |
I found a wasp, put it in my bum. Stung my rectum, and now my bumhole's numb! | non-suicide |
So... This happened. We went to a party hosted by some military guys and we ended up drinking some obviously non-alcoholic beverages straight from a bazooka. How was your evening? | non-suicide |
, barely hanging onThe only person i can rely on is my mother and she treats me like shit and blames a lot of stupid things on me, im disabled and i feel unwanted because of it. I dont know what to do, i love my mom and i have no one else to go to, i dont see any reason for me to live anymore. What should i do? | suicide |
(M) I'm looking for friends. I'm just trying to find friends that are around my age range. So some stuff about me: * I'm a nerdy guy; I'm into movies, relaxing, writing, reading, and playing video games. * I love Mega Man, Sonic, Star Wars Legends (Fuck Disney), RWBY, Transformers, My Hero Academia and other anime, fantasy, & Sci-Fi franchises. I'm into filmmaking and desire to become a writer, director, and voice actor. * I'm laidback, honesty and open-minded. * I have a dark, dry and sarcastic sense of humor, dark jokes are funny to me. And I can be a bit blunt at times. DM me if you wanna be friends. | non-suicide |
I just found a friend from discord from months ago! I'm so happy! This has made my day times better! I almost didn't recognize them but I saw their post while sorting through new advertising free art, and I decided I was gonna pop in. Turns out that it was a friend on discord that I had lost contact with at least three months ago! Yay!!! | non-suicide |
If i kill myself, can my wife get my social security benefits?I'm at the end of things. I want so desperately to talk to my wife, but she won't answer any communication attempts. i love her dearly, and my depression has pushed her away. I'll be homeless soon, and worth even less than i am now. The only noble thing i can think of to do is to kill myself so she can have my SS benefits. At least i'll know she will be aided in her life after me. Does it work like this? or will she be denied because i suicided? Please guys. i just want to do right by her. i'm not done yet, but i'm not seeing any other options. thanks. | suicide |
Don't exactly want to die, but I'm not really bothered by living either.I've been getting healthy. Taking my meds (almost) every day. Found the right combo of medication. Seeing a therapist, etc. The usual. Until tonight. I can't seem to find a job.. the one I desperately want I know I won't get. I haven't got a single penny to my name. I just feel useless and without direction. WTF am I to do with my life? Not to mention the fact I've gained lbs and can't seem to shed it no matter what I do! I've got a little bit of Klonopin prescribed to me that's left. I never wanted to abuse it again (I've had some close calls) but I can't help but love the numbness it gives me. I've taken .mg and currently drinking a bottle of wine. Hoping the husband doesn't find out. I just moved back to the U.K., too, so the MH care here is.. well.. shit. Anyone been in this spot? Does it get better? Does anyone even know what they want to do with their lives? | suicide |
Well just when i thought I had something good...So where i live, you go to primary school, then secondary school, then CEGEP and then University. I'm in Cegep and I was supposed to be there only years but I failed some classes due to lack of motivation and stuff going on. During Fall , I failed half my classes (/) and was obligated to sign a contract that stated I could no longer fail classes for the next semester (or at least thats what I thought). So I passed all classes I took that semester (Winter ) and got on with stuff. This semester (Fall ), I took classes to have the next one and go to Uni next year. I however had a rough patch near the finals and the only thing keeping me going was that girl in my biology class, we started texting and then we went on a few dates and recently started going out together which is definitely the best thing that happened to me in years. I however gor my grades from my finals and I failed / classes and I received an email saying I could not attend my Cegep for Winter . I didn't think the contract lasted until the end of my Cegep and I was starting to have some sort of happiness and boom! Fuck you ! - Life My girlfriend doesn't know yet and we've only been together for days (but dating for a month). She is good in school, and idk if she'll stay with me bc of that. I don't know what to do, I don't see anything good coming out of this.. | suicide |
The new , coin reddit trophy is gonna be like getting a noble price for us It costs wayyyyyyy to much its just a flex if someone gives it to u | non-suicide |
Posting every day until the end of , day ( days to go) I tried to think of something funny to say here but I was unsuccessful because I am extremely unfunny and boring. Hows your day been? | non-suicide |
i'm not emotionally recovered yet and i don't think i'll ever be oh my it's AM gonna hide everything and go to bed bai | non-suicide |
People are like jokes Some people cant take the dark ones That joke was so dark the cops shot it | non-suicide |
Miss the Past, Hate the Present, Scared of the FutureI get so sad sometimes thinking about the past and how I used to be so close with some people and now we have no connection at all. I hate the present cause I'm so hung up in all the friends I've lost and good memories I don't have any more. I know people will say to move on, but it's so difficult when I've already invested so much time in a group of people who don't care about me anymore. I feel uninteresting and useless. I'm scared of the future because what if this is what my life is destined to be? A pattern of spending so much time on friendships then losing friends? | suicide |
Is It Just Me? YOU DONT HAVE TO BE AFARID TO PUT YOUR DREAM IN ACTION YOULLNEVER GONNA FADE YOULL BE THE MAIN ATRACTIVE | non-suicide |
PLEASE DONT GIVE ME AN AWARD I know its tempting, but this is serious guys, please, I DO NO WANT ANY AWARDS ON THIS POST. | non-suicide |
REGRET IS NOT RAPE Just because now everyone knows you fucked the 'not so popular' guy(with full prior consent) in the class and now your reputation is tainted as a 'whore' and now you regret your decision doesn't mean that you can get away with it by saying 'oh he sexually assaulted me' It fucks up the guy's mental health at the cost of your ego satisfaction. Think before you fuck | non-suicide |
Should I be scared to help?Hi SW, I have a question. I've seen a lot of posts lately by Redditors who converse with suicidal individuals and are sometimes able to help. I would like to be on those individuals, but fear the outcome of any mistakes on my behalf far too much. Is this fear unreasonable?? What should I know to overcome this fear of making things worse for a suicidal person? | suicide |
Feel like I can't take it anymore...First of all, while I do feel suicidal, I can assure you that the chances of me actually doing anything are pretty much zero. I'm rational enough to know that pills wouldn't work, and the only other option is sharp things, and I'm too pathetic to handle the pain of that, if I had access to a gun, things might be different, but I don't, so don't worry about that... Mostly, I just want to air my feelings, I doubt it'll help, but whatever. Backstory, I'm a year old pre-op (no-op, more likely) transsexual, with social-phobia, agoraphobia and anxiety issues. I've been suicidal as long as I can remember really, at least since I was , I feel cheated out of a life I should have had, etc etc. At the time of adolescence I was convinced that it was just the 'forever alone' aspect, but I have a loving partner now who I love very much, but it doesn't make the pain or the mental agony go away. I'm not really sure how, or even if, I can get the suicidal feelings to go away. Sure I have the occasional 'good day' where I don't feel them, but they're few and very far between. I'm on the highest SSRI dose that my doctors will give me - partly for the anxiety, partly for 'depression' - so there's really nothing 'chemical' they'll give me that will solve things, and the mere idea of therapy sets off all kinds of social-phobia and agoraphobia alarms in my head. The last few days has been a particularly bad spell, with me having a very public breakdown on thursday, and being VERY suicidal feeling today. Culminating in me sitting and staring at the walls for about hours just feeling 'shit'. I don't know what else to say, I'm not even sure what, if anything, there is to discuss. Sorry. | suicide |
Nothing leftI'm not going today. I'll be going within the next couple months or so, i think. No point in explaining myself, I don't really need a reason or excuse. Funny because for a short while I really did try to make things better. i guess that's not how the world works. The universe is cold and unforgiving. It'll take everything good and laugh. Life is cruelty. Life is prison. Death is beauty. Death is escape. I think I'll go on my birthday. My birthday is in February. By then my affairs will be in order. I have every reason to go. If you met me, you'd understand. I'll post then. I don't care who's listening. I just want to pretend like someone is reading this and wishing me well. | suicide |
why did i chose to listen to frank ocean at : am what is wrong with me | non-suicide |
Just ReadI dont want anyone to tell me that life has some sort of meaning, or that it will all get better soon. I just want oyu ti read this. My entire Life i have been lonely. I only spend time in front of my computer playing videogames alone because i have noone to play with. Everytime i tried getting friends it all ended wih them hating me. I am a horrible human being that deserves death. I spend most of my time thinking about past decisions. I think that my free time is what fucks me up the most. Im only thinking about how stupid I am. I have fucked everything up. Im not very smart, and to be honest I would highly doubt that i am even slightly intelligent. Im Schizophrenic and suffer from severe depression. I have been in countless therapy sessions and i need to take a lot of medication. Nothing helped. To be honest, I think that it all has gone worse over time. Im often thinking about how im going to kill myself. To me the thought of killing myself isnt even a bad thought anymore. Its more off a normal thing to think about. I think its justified for me to kill myself. I am not afraid off death, the only thing that keeps me from doing it is a girl ive met. She is the most wonderful person on earth. But the thing is, i know that im going to fuck this up too. So what am I even hoping for? I cry a lot. Im not a manly person. Infact I cry so often I sometimes cant sleep because of it. I dont want to be alone anymore... I need somebody. Someone real. Not some random guy on the internet. But i dont deserve friends. Im a piece of shit. Im a liar and a traitor, am a Person you cant trust and I have done things that are unforgiveable. To anyone taking their time to read this poorly written post, I hope you have a better life than me. | suicide |
extremely depressed, struggle to feel any sense of importanceAlways knew I'd post here. Just can't deal with life anymore. I work + hours a week, go home, and am alone. I have a big heart, I feel, but nobody is ever interested. I try to offer support, but no support is ever given back. I feel like I try and try and try and nobody ever wants to try for me. I'm done. | suicide |
I'm fourteen, and ready to dieto everyone i know I am a pretty normal year old guy, my dad is a doctor my mom is a stay-at-home mom who homeschooled me and my three siblings through elementary school. Now I go to a small christian conservative private school, that thinks everyone who goes there is a little christian angel; and for the most part they are right, except for me. my parents are extremely strict, and have sheltered me and my siblings as much as they can from the real world, out of my three siblings i am the only one who seems at all awhere of this. my older brother was a perfect kid and student who has strait As and has never disobayed in his life. I am a different story. iv always been more social than the rest of my family, they dont seem to understand why i want to have and hangout with friends all the time. if i ever told them that i struggle with depression they would wave it off and say im just looking for attention, which is why i havent told them i feel like im in constant pain. and in the past few weeks when ive been home bc of coronavirus spring break and some phisical sickness that had me out of school for a week not a single one of my "friends" has even tried to text me. between that and the normal depression i am really considering trying to OD and end the pain if anyone has any advice can you please help me. i really just need to know there are other people who have delt with this and moved on with there lives. | suicide |