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Why are band recordings so hard to do? Like bruh, min video on my phone then it takes min to upload then my phone crashes, why cant we use flipgrid to record? | non-suicide |
Can a German speaker help me?? I have a German test tomorrow and online classes dont do shit. I really need help. On the contents of the exam it says Perfekt mit haben oder sein and I have no idea what that means, I dont even remember seeing that in class. Can someone please help me?? | non-suicide |
Going for the worst exam ever. Wish me luck. Maths | non-suicide |
my depression keeps coming back.I was really really depressed all through high school. Now that i'm in college, with a great major and a great boy friend, things are alot better. Now i REALLY have no reason to be depressed, but i cant seem to help it. sometimes ill be fine or even happy, and then out of no where ill be right back in my full blown depression. any advice of now to escape the depression in the moment, and how to avoid it in general? | suicide |
I dont see another way outI dont wanna focus on negatives but I feel trapped I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me but I cant handle his female friends, any female in his life for that matter. I lack trust likely due to trauma from Being abused by my parents...so I have panic and anxiety On top of that Im stuck living with those parents who hurt me. Its either them or in a crowded apt with my bf and his dad. Bad conditions. I have like two friends and only see one....i cant afford a place to live because rent is an arm and a leg in CA On top of that I lost my only child....I want us to be together again But besides my circumstances I cant escape my mind. The panic attacks. The self hatred. Im mean and angry and resentful and have low self worth..... I just dont see a way out besides ending it all. Im not ready to give up but the pain is over taking me... | suicide |
I love going for walks and eating food outside. But it makes me so uncomfortable when people are looking at me. I'm very insecure about how I look. Like completely because I'm fat and look like a guy, when I want to be a girl. It takes a lot for me to go out, go to the store, cross the street etc. Wearing masks has helped me a bit but not completely. When I'm walking on this path people will legit just be standing there like idiots and looking at me. Or if I'm sitting down and eating there's sometimes people who just show up on their bikes and just chill right behind me like wtf. | non-suicide |
My mind is at unease. All i have down is read offensive stuff, and then I get offended and sad becaue of it. Now, All I cna think off is the stuff I read. I am the author of my destruction. | non-suicide |
Day of recommending songs I like to r/teenagers How has your day been so far? I beat Dark Souls again yesterday, runs now | non-suicide |
HiHi Im thinking about suicide again. Idk when its been so normal for me. I want to die again. Im not going to get better. Idk what feeling normal is. Everything is empty and I want to die. | suicide |
Mfers be getting into relationships at age Like bro go do your fractions homework | non-suicide |
Someone I was friends with just died Overdose. Drugs are a bitch. I don't get how some of these things are legal. | non-suicide |
I want to die but cant kill myself because i made a promise that i wouldntI hate my life so much. I'm never happy, when I smile I'm taking it, I'm socially awkward which means women hate me which in turn means I'm forever alone. I have no job anymore and can't find another which means I'm broke. My family, friends and basically everybody who meets me hates my guts and I have nothing to live for. I don't ever break a promise that I make but I'm not sure I can keep this promise, life is just so hard and painful and I'm tired of trying so hard to make things right only and hearing people tell me that things will get better when they know and I know that it never will. I just want to end things and sleep forever. Everybody will be better off with me in the ground. | suicide |
I need someone to talk to.. I can't explain this.. I know it sounds ridiculously random. I'm not a creep or anything.. I've been dealing with the grief of my ex that committed suicide a decade ago when I was .. it'd be really nice to talk to someone, on the phone, that would just let me vent to them. I have guy friends that I talk to about it but no one that is a girl that could understand.. I'll send you my phone number.. I'm really on edge right now.. | suicide |
What "subling war"" have you had if at all? have u ever had some sort of sibling fight/drama/war/saga/soap opera? | non-suicide |
I don't know what to do anymore...I am a completely broke person....I've been battling depression since th grade, and I've been nothing but a failure. Barely graduated high school, have had jobs in the past two years, joined the military and have been kicked out, and at this point am jobless and living in my parents basement. I've been trying for the past months to move cross country to be with my boyfriend, who's succeeding in the military and my family is doing everything they can to keep me from leaving and just overall making me more miserable than I already feel, whether it's stealing from me or telling me that everything I do is stupid or that I'm pathetic. No one cares for me except for my boyfriend....and he can't do anything to make me feel better being more than a thousand miles away....I've never felt so alone....I can't live like this anymore.... | suicide |
If some demon possesses a doll and starts fucking with me, I'm fucking the shit out of it. You don't pay rent so you finna get traumatized | non-suicide |
No way I'm alone here, right? You guys ever just accidentally yeet your pencil across the room during a test? | non-suicide |
For every like this post gets, I'll go a day without masturbating I'm sure I'll benefit from this | non-suicide |
M my suicide attempts working(Throw away acc) When I was twelve I took tablets of paracetamol and I was pretty much fine. I told my parents and we went to the ER, but I just vomited a couple times and then I was good Ive tried many night to suffocate myself in my sleep with a pillow, and yet I always wake up. I tried to overdose again when I was , I took like of a tablet I dont remember and I didnt tell anyone, all that happened was my stomach really hurt and I was super hungry for a week after. I dont have the balls to actually cut myself, but if guns were legal in Australia I would have been dead for years. Recently I have had no drive to do anything but just lay in my bed and watch videos. I dont deserve life. Imagine someone who is fighting to survive from Coronavirus or some cancer or whatever, and they have s of people who love them, they love their self, but they end up dying. And then theirs me. Who doesnt want to fight or do anything. Why not give them life and take it from me. If its not clear enough yet I hate myself and I want to die Edit: thank you guys for all the support! | suicide |
Everyday, every unoccupied secondI am always thinking about it. How I will do it, how people will react, what to do for a note, everything. I am tired of having friend (maybe they are my friend?). Nobody else cares about me. I have the people who completely ignore me, then the people that use me to fill the void until they see another friend. I can't do this. Now, I will say something that will completely throw everything I just said out the window and make it all irrelevant. I am and in high school. Here comes all the "helpful" advice of people telling me how life sucks for everyone, everyone feels that way, and it gets better over time. Now that that is out of the way, let's continue. About the rd day of school and I am already too stressed by the work. One class is just minutes of absolute panic. The entire time I am an absolute mess trying to figure out what is going on and how to avoid being noticed. Honestly it is horrifying to me, I know it sounds ridiculous but it just is that way. Then my parents. They always seem to be lecturing me on something or other. How I have no friends, how I have no motivation, how I have no hobbies, how I play games too much, how I am weak, etc. etc.. I don't know how I am supposed to get help with that. How will they respond? Will they give me another lecture on how some people have it worse and I am making it all up? Why bother. Suicide is the only way out of this. There is something wrong with me as a person so people don't want to be friends with me or around me in general. It has happened so many times with different people it can't be a coincidence. Sorry for wasting your time with my pitiful existence and meaningless problems. | suicide |
Give me video ideas I'll make em and reply with the link when I'm done. It will be a couple hours or days but I got nothing better to do. Stuff I already made for inspiration: | non-suicide |
PSA FOR GUYS: DO NOT WEAR JEANS AND BOXERS ON A FIRST DATE Tldr: If you wear jeans and boxers on a date you will likely chafe/crush your balls. Also this might be a bit gross. So. Yesterday I went on a double date with my gf, one of her friends and *her* bf, who is one of my close friends. We decided to go to Downtown to explore Chinatown and a mall. I made the mistake of wearing jeans that were a little bit too tight and boxers. This being the first time I was seeing my girlfriend in person for over a year, I was freaking out on the inside, and outside too, because every little thing she did gave me a boner. Her laugh? Boner. Holding my hand? Boner. Sitting in my lap and cuddling? Boner. Everything she did gave me a fucking boner. And we were walking around in Downtown for four hours causing my balls to chafe. To make it worse, the boxers I wore rode up on me due to my constant erection and were choking my balls like they were Jimi Hendrix. By an hour and a half in my nuts were just red paste being held together by a thin layer of skin, and it hurt like hell. When the date was over, I immediately ran to my bathroom and made sure my closest friends were alright, and they looked like someone beat the like they owed them money. They aches for the rest of the day and night- no matter the position. I could be floating in anti-gravity and they would still be sore. So, as a warning to all other guys: unless you have amazing willpower and can control your boner at will, do not wear jeans and boxers on a first date, or any date for that matter, because they will smother your balls like a trash compactor. | non-suicide |
What is your favorite word? Comment it as a word What is your favorite animal. Comment it as an emoji Like so: Apricot | non-suicide |
I keep pushing away help, how do I get better?Ive been going through depression for a couple of years now and for the past year Ive been suicidal. Very recently Ive considered self harm, but dont have the guts to do it. I tend to push away peoples support, and even tried to get professional help, but saw it as pointless. What are some of the best ways to get better or at least help myself? I just seem to be running out of reasons to stay alive and as much as I want to end it all, I have not figured out a means of doing so yet. I would just like some advice so it doesnt hurt as much. | suicide |
My life is practically over...I've officially lost all hope. Two days ago, I got the worst beat-up of my life. I live in a very conservative and traditional Middle Eastern home, and my family thinks of me as a whore. My brother's friend claimed that he slept with me, and my brother didn't think twice before believing him. He went through my private chats and beat me with the intention of killing me. He then dragged me down a flight of stairs by my hair... I managed to escape, and am away from home for now. I seriously don't know what to do, or where I'll go when my options of places to stay run out. My family is taking his side, and he's threatening to literally end my life. I'm tempted into going back home and letting him kill me, but I don't want to die that way. It seems to me that suicide is the only way out, really... There are just so many ways to do it, and not enough reasons not to. The law won't be on my side, I don't want to live in a shelter, my family is against me, and I'm running out of time. My desire to die keeps on growing, and I can't think of any reasons to back down on it. | suicide |
Do you ever feel like youre the only person that just doesnt know how to do something and theres things that people just do without thinking about it I feel like I just do things that arent normal..in a bad way. Its like I dont have common sense | non-suicide |
I'm not sure what's even wrong. But... I can't take it.I feel like I stopped existing, I just stopped caring about everything. I don't even know where my head sits right now. things have been so confusing... i want to go on a ride, find out my bikes max speed and see what a wrong turn does... but I have a reason for not wanting to.. I'm afraid that in my head that final thread will snap. | suicide |
Are you allowed to have sex in horny jail So, this girl offered to go to horny jail with me but I got the vibe that she wants to do the dirty deed. Sooo. | non-suicide |
Help have exam tmr does mass affect motion time ,is which law of newton pls help | non-suicide |
Bullet My legs are dangling off the edge, The bottom of the bottle is my only friend, I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, My legs are dangling off the edge, A stomach full of pills didn't work again, I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone Lyrics to a song that is scarily relatable. I have been diagnosed with severe depression for - years and Im not sure if I can take the depression any more. It began when I moved to Ohio from suburbs of Chicago. I was almost immediately ostracized and never fit in. I tried to Join the popular crowd and earned the nickname fag For the first year and a half in Ohio. I began to distance myself from all social situations and stayed at Home and months after moving to Ohio I began cutting and hit t from my parents for almost years. I have a inch scar on my arm from the cutting and reopen it quite often. Currently the only thing keeping me alive is my dog. I was hospitalized about months ago after leaving a suicide note on my bed leaving my house going to a bridge and sitting there for an hour before wimping out and biking back home and being taken to the er were I was in the crisis stabilization unit for horrible days. I went back home and started again cutting a week after return (I had stopped cutting months ago when I got my dog.) I dont want to live anymore and I dont have the mental strength to anymore. This is my story and if Im lucky where it will end. Its been a good run reddit. | suicide |
Technically its true If you joined this subreddit when you are , then you technically only belong here for years. sadness noises | non-suicide |
My art sucks and I'm sad I really need to tone down my ego ngl. Posted everywhere that my commissions were open (meaning that I was drawing art for people in exchange for money) and not a single thing from anywhere. How am I ever going to be freelance artist this way? Answer is I won't. | non-suicide |
I don't know why, but I felt compelled to share an anecdote today...Perhaps this doesn't belong here, but I'll probably delete this post when the alcohol and benzodiazepines wear off...before I pick up the bottle to face the struggle of another hours. However, I thought I would share a moment in my life of what I suppose true relief feels like. A number of months ago, I was working with a long-time friend of mine. I owned a small business, and had hired him on to work with me. While on the road, I was very down that day, and was talking about how I felt. He convinced me that we take the day off and visit a large city not far from where we live...one of the largest in America. We were walking down the street in this massive city with hundreds of thousands of people and I still felt completely alone, much as I always do. Then, there was a single young woman that was on a morning run that passed by us. I met her eyes and she with mine, and in those short couple of seconds, we had one of the deepest conversations I have ever had...but no words were ever spoken. I've gotten so proficient at putting a mask on; I've become a master of showing others what they expect to see instead of what is real. In that moment though, I let her see my unguarded self. The decades of internal pain and torment. The tears and the hurt that I had buried for so long. And for some reason...I felt understood...like for those few seconds it was all okay. I never talked about it, and I'm sure she doesn't remember that young man that day, but it still gives me peace to be able to think back to that moment. I know I'll never have another like it, and I'd like to think that with my last conscious breath, I'm able to see those kind, understanding eyes looking back at me in my mind's eye. For those of you that are able to, perhaps you can do for others what that young woman did for me that day. Sometimes it is the simple moments like these that mean the most to the most troubled of us. | suicide |
I just want it all to end, nothing matters. We are going to die anyway so why we shouldn't just speed up this process a bit.Nothing truly matters, everyone around me are saying i am worth something that i shouldn't think that way. But they arent in my head and dont know what is happening there. the most part of me want it all to end, but that rest is looking for help unsuccessully. I dont know what to do in this situation. Is suicide a good way out of this? | suicide |
Idk anymoreA week ago I tried going to see my mom since my parents are divorced. I'm a year old boy who hasn't seen his mother in months. When I got to her front door she opened it. She started to yell at me and ended up slamming the door in my face. That's not even the worst thing. Yesterday she came over thinking that I wouldn't notice her. Her and my dad started talking about me, the walls are paper thin so I heard everything. They said they didn't trust me and that they wanted me out of their lives and that I was a piece of shit. I was using drgs when she was still in the house. I was months clean until last night, I felt horrible. I'm trying not to hurt myself but it's getting really hard | suicide |
Im so friggin tired of this B.S. Ive been in quarantine since March and hardly go out (only like - times for actual reasons). Why the fuck are people still going out here in the US?! Not to sound a bit selfish or anything but Ive been sacrificing my mental health a lot and seriously, Im literally going hysterical here to the point today I feel like vomiting. Why do people have to go out without masks and post shit like we at the beach or hangin out on their stories on Instagram and snap or anywhere else?! Everything I do while stuck at home that entertained me is now plain boring. Just please. Stay inside and dont be selfish! Wear a mask! Two things some people cant do I apologize in advance if I have made some people upset or angry but honestly, my life has become very depressing with the toxic environment thats in my home. | non-suicide |
Update: My girlfriend died in a car accident and all I want to do is follow herOriginal post here: Thank you. Everyone who read and responded to my post, thank you. It's been a little over a month and the nights are still hell, but I've read over the comments on my first post more times than I can count. I'm seeing a therapist. I joined a grief support group and a meditation group. I told my best friend with absolute honesty that I felt like I had nothing to live for, and he hugged me, cried, and told me "You've been there for me every time I needed you, no questions asked. I will do the same for you." He's called me every night since then, even if it's just to check in for a few minutes. I still think about dying often. I still have flashbacks that nearly double me over in pain and make me reach for the strongest drink I can find. I'm irritable, angry, and generally shitty company. But I am alive. And I intend to stay that way for as long as I can. For her. For me. Thank you all. I'm so grateful to this community. | suicide |
I am becoming more and more cynical. I think I will end it very soon.What is the point of living when there is no good in your life? You can enter eternal peace by taking your own life. My life has been suffering with not very many high points. Heart surgery when I was ( now), appendicitis, acne(which I am still scared from). I got bullied throughout school because of my skin condition and because I was shy(I always was kind to people. What did I do to deserve that?). I am pretty much a bum now. I live with my parents going on the internet and playing games all day. I think the only way to escape this chasm is suicide. | suicide |
My dad really legitimately believes that Trump was microchipped and mind controlled by the government | non-suicide |
Anyone wanna talk? Feel free to dm me, I'm looking for people to talk to | non-suicide |
Im starting to think my teacher isnt starting the meeting today Its been almost minutes since I started waiting She could have told us Im just going to keep waiting | non-suicide |
Who wants to join my discord? We all vibin Link in comments Filla! Filla! Im filla! Filla! | non-suicide |
Well, tomorrow is my first day of high school. I know nobody that's going to the school im going into, because its a special program for smart people, so none of my past peers are going to the school I am. Which, I honesty enjoy, because I didn't have very many friends at my old school. Anyways, any tips/tricks I should know before I start high school? | non-suicide |
i have to repeat globabl history & i wanna die loli WANTED to go to summer school but the people there said i was too "mentally unstable" (had a depressive episode for most of the school year) and then REFUSED to let me and now apparently i have to repeat the class. i know this isnt something serious but i'm really contemplating on commiting right now /: it just feels unfair. i'm sick of being depressed and fucking stuff up | suicide |
Oreo has decided to sleep in the middle of the bed and now I'm off to the side with my leg hanging off the bed, Oreo is so lucky that I love her | non-suicide |
A rant, of no interest to anyone but myself.Today's my birthday, yay. I'm so happy I made to . Now I can legally take advantage of Voluntary Euthanasia. Realistically, I'm not going to kill myself soon. Do I want to? More than anything. Days pass by slow but every year seems like it's faster than the last. Today has been particularly rough. I'm unemployed and can't drive so I'm limited, but I was hoping my parents would take one day off hating my guts. I asked them if I could have a few dollars, . to be exact. "Don't ask me those sorts of things." Don't ask you what? For a few dollars so I can cover tax? Every birthday gets worse and worse. This time around I had to share it with my great uncle on his birthday (a day earlier) so of course we went to dinner to the place of his choice. When mine rolled around all I got was denial and more stomach destroying anxiety. I want to die. I don't get how people can be happy. I'm not the gender I want to be. I'm ugly. I'm gaining weight. I have no motivation. The only thing I want in life is to not have one. | suicide |
Why is dying so scary?I honestly don't want to live, but being brought up in a judeo Christian society I have fear around death and pain. I'm not religious, but I had a weird chemical/dmt mindfuck the first time I tried to kill myself where I could choose to live or die and I knew that what ever decision I made would be final and I looked at death and it was this dark void and I looked at life and all of its pain, Loss and misery, which would be certain and I chose certainty over uncertainty and then I came to right as that happened, covered in blood and I rode my bike to the ER. It was a little traumatic and the effects of compound trauma are again weighing deeply in me. I want the uncertainty in that dark void. If I could choose again I'd have chosen death, but the pain I will have to experience to get there again is truly extreme. I don't want to live through something like that again and be hospitalized again. Life has just become agonizing and my anxiety is ceaseless. I can't function and it appears that I am going to starve. I just want to die quietly. I wish there was death with dignity for depressed people. I feel that my disease is in fact terminal. I wish it would hurry up already. Dying of nothing is the slowest, most excruciating death there is. I wish I had cancer. | suicide |
I don't know anymoreI am really not okay right now. I am considering killing myself right now via belt on doorknob. I am having a really hard time overcoming a gambling addiction that has taken all of my money, and I feel like a complete outcast at school (under ). I was sexually abussed by a family member as a child and I really need this hell to end. No one listens to me when I need it the most. Please help | suicide |
I just want someone to hug me and tell me its gonna be okayI cant get through a lot of the pain Ive been going through for years. I feel out of place everywhere I go. Sometimes I think the pain Ive felt for years will never go away, and if it wont theres no point continuing this life, if all Im gonna be is miserable for the rest of it. I really just wish someone that understands what Im going through would tell me that its gonna be okay, that Ill be able to pull through. Therapy dosent work, meds dont work. I feel absolutely hopeless percent of the time just pushing through it on the smallest shred of hope that maybe the next day Ill finally be happy again. | suicide |
to all homophobes what are u even mad at that hes getting dick and not u | non-suicide |
GUYS I DID IT I finally left this stupid sub.Tired of seeing nothing but people asking there crush out in all caps. | non-suicide |
If you are cute hmu And bonus points if you like star wars | non-suicide |
I want to get stabbed or suicideI love animals and i love t help other people i have a big heart but I hate my life, im a jobless years old italian, my parents wish i never born, im a burden to everybody all I do is playng videogames all day, im feeling in a cage i always try to help other people but I dont care about myself anymore, i think of suicide but i dont want others to think I am a loser more than i am, also i have a gf from philippines by years and I love her so much i dont want she to be sad but still wish somebody kill me, everytime I walk outside i try to go close to everybody wishing they end my life. Plus my dad keep making super annoying noise everything he does i go crazy for that it make me want to kill him, i asked him nicely if he can please stop but he dont care at all, every action he does he do a noise, and when he eat omg.. is the same as listening loud metal music, is first time i open to reddit so i dont know how you guys will react.. please be nice i just want to try to be happy in life but i dont remember the last time i felt happy but i cry everyday, im more dead than alive... (sorry for English im from italy) | suicide |
I'm supposed to study lmao but I'm just alone with my thoughts at am now | non-suicide |
Brother passed awayIm writing this about an hour after the EMT told me that my brother passed away. He hung him self today and i feel so empty and shocked right now. Has anybody been in this boat or anything ? Im looking for guidance ! | suicide |
i nearly killed myself the other day. i'm glad i didn't.this is painful. i am still in pain, but i am better than i was, and i know i'm going to be okay.  it came about when a years-long emotionally avoidant self-sabotage campaign come to a close. my greatest fear had been realized, all at my own hands: i'd successfully ruined the best thing that ever happened to me. i pushed the woman of my dreams away so much that she'd had enough, and wouldn't be coming back. i manifested my own greatest fear of being rejected and left alone with nobody to blame but myself. i had a full-blown panic attack. a total meltdown. i wanted to end my life, straight up. i was either going to jump from a bridge, or take a couple valium and cut open my arm and drift away. the pain of knowing i had caused my own demise and the pain of knowing i'd deliberately let such a wonderful person go. all of the misery i had put her through for the last few years was super condensed and returned-to-sender straight to my heart. it was, in a word, unbearable. truly.  it's humbling to know just how powerful your own will can be. i had willed that i would ruin my own life and relationship, and i did just that. but i'm done with that. i'm choosing to will all the goodness and love and happiness i can muster, because for once, i truly believe i deserve it. i've forgiven myself for the pain i've inflicted onto her and onto me. i am ready to be the person i already am. the best version of myself. i'm not sure if it will be her whom i end up sharing that with. i hope it is. but i'm opening myself up for whatever might come next.  i'm glad i didn't hurt myself. i'm sad it got to that point. | suicide |
wtf is wrong with people i was playing among us yesterday and this girl and i started talking. eventually she gave me her snap so we stayed up late talking and she eventually asked me out. at around she had to go so we said goodbye and this morning i opened the app to send streaks and i saw a message, this said your snap is pending until ... adds you as a friend this is not the first time a girl had unadded me out of nowhere. i dont know why girls like to do this, it doesnt feel good to be talking with someone and then she just unadded you. i know its not always in thier control, who knows, she coulda had an overprotective parent. but they could at least say something about it. we just want to know why you do this. some girls say that men are trash and shouldnt exist, but the. they go and do this shit..... if this has happened to another guy id like to hear about it to see how many people this had happened with. | non-suicide |
I'LL KILL HER THEN MYSELFSHE DOESNT DESERVE YOU. YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE MINE. SCREW EVERYONE. No one deserves my goodbye. I was too good for this world. You all contributed. I'll kill everyone who hurt me. ALL THE PEDOPHILES. ALL MY RAPISTS. FUCK YOU. And of course thank you to my boyfriend who is trying his hardest. I'll meet you in the afterlife. I love you. I said I would get help. I need to get this out. Then I'll go get help. Of course I cant actually do what I say. That's who I am. Fake. Isn't life beautiful? I think that life is beautiful. | suicide |
Why does no one believe Im ? I get it, I have a major baby face. I look like a freaking year old. But I promise I am , Wth can I do to prove that | non-suicide |
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA My Eglish teacher just put on all i want for christmas is you by mariah carey and straight up left the room. Send help. I hadn't heard that shit this year yet. Help me or kill me. | non-suicide |
I want my mum/mom to know how I feel but she isn't the most open minded person.i have been struggling for a reason to keep pushing on for quite some time now and all has gone to waste, im miserable and i want it all to end. However there is a small part of me that wants to tell my mother about my struggles. She was raised in the 's though and has had no experience with mental issues (depression, anxiety etc.) how do i tell her? Also as an fyi I hate confrontation... | suicide |
I OI TO O T IOI I am going to take NoNutNovember chalange? Even further i am not going to nut till il have to make kids ( ) I am going to do the impossible thing ever known to mankind so big a** I will be heading towards the battlefield NOW | non-suicide |
Fuck youHang me | suicide |
Should I reveal my face? I'm afraid it can cause serious mental issues | non-suicide |
I never knew that... Never knew that corn could be eaten raw. Always thought you had to cook it. It is now my favourite snack. Thanks Google. | non-suicide |
how many times have i posted tonight is this fame!???)!!!! from now on i do not respond comments #sufferingfromfame | non-suicide |
Im lonely... And yknow what. Im okay with that. It doesnt make me feel great. But its there. Im not ashamed to fell this way, and neither should you. I hope you have a great evening Reddit. Im going to bed :) | non-suicide |
I've watched my first Anime yesterday Yesterday i started and finished Neon Genesis: Evangelion and just this morning I've watched End of Evangelion and i absolutely loved it I've never been really into Anime,I've tried getting into it but it felt like it wasn't for me. It seemed that some Anime series people recommanded me were too immature for me,just in May i have started watching Movies more often and I've had End of Evangelion in my watchlist for quite a while now. So i started watching Neon Genesis yesterday and i really didn't think too much of it but as the show progressed it suddenly clicked with me,i was consumed into the story and as the show progressed to it final episodes it more and more felt like each main character had a existential crisis,it was like something else for me. As for the movie,it one of the most spectacular/weird/beautiful and terrifying movies I've ever seen. I'm much more of a Movie/Music guy so i approach everything differently and im glad i gave this series and movie a shot. | non-suicide |
Whenever I'm up late, my mum comes into my room to wake me up early as a punishment. It's midnight atm and I was trying to find a song for a vid I'm making when she comes in and says "I'm gonna be waking you up am". I'm and there is nothing happening tommorow. Anything (realistic) that a could do to convince her to stop? | non-suicide |
Guys help me I accidently sold my gender for a slice of dominos pizza. What should I do | non-suicide |
Don't know whyI don't know why I have felt this way since I was about , no longer wanting to be alive. It seems to be getting worse as I get older and I don't know how to shake it. I try my hardest to talk to people to hint that I need help but no one takes me seriously. I'm just so tired of being alive. | suicide |
I still fear death, and I have no idea what is after itI can't stand this life a single day more, but I still fear the nothingness of death. There is a giant wall dividing my past and my future. There is my past on the left of the line, my present in the middle, and nothing on the right. Nothing at all. Just a giant wall right after my present, marking the moment of my suicide. And then, obviously, nothing else at all. Just an empty void of nothing and more nothing. There is the wall in front of me, but nothing behind it. I tried to kill myself days ago but before losing consciousness I panicked and cried like a maniac. I was scared. I can't stand this life anymore, every single moment is pure pain. But I fear disappearing, I still feel terrified of the nature of death. It's so hard to do it. I will try again, and see if I'm brave enough. | suicide |
PillsI just took bunch of sleeping pills, anti anxiety pills, and edible THC edible gummies. My mom is being super annoying and lazy during this quarantine. She wont clean her bathroom, or pick up afterwards. Note, she was $ in debt, I cleaned it up and she now has potential to have $k in bank by end of year, but she refuses to me Motivated to anything on her own in her house. I have no where else to go, for now. I may cash out my retirement to move out. (Longer story I was laid off in Feb, moved in temporarily with her. Virus hit. Stick here) Hopefully I dont wake up tomorrow. Bye. | suicide |
Things have calmed down.This is an update to everything recently. Things have gotten better. I'm back in touch with my friend, his boyfriend has stopped being a jerk once everything was explained to him so he stopped seeing things that weren't there. That relieved a lot of stress. Few co-workers on the job this week so that's a relief, I'll talk with my therapist next week about the Asperger self-disclosure again but I really think I'm going down that road. I had a chance to talk to a couple of older buddies this past weekend that I hadn't spoken to in years and both said I didn't react well to change, etc. so letting work know would be good. On being a non-believer, least of my worries right now. Thanks for the reading and questions and all that everyone has given me and reached out to me. | suicide |
Testing testing Ignore this post Im testing something with an alt account. Filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
Just got Skyrim Ive wanted this game for so long and I finally got it | non-suicide |
My storyI need to tell someone the whole story, and get this off my chest. About months ago I was planing a suicide, and decided to try to get some help. I decided to use the Nami text line to talk to someone. I started to tell them how l was feeling suicidal. As the conversation started I got panicked and turn off my phone. Five minutes later the cops showed up because they pinged my phone. (At this point I haven't told my parents or my siblings what was going on, and this was at :pm on a school day.) Then the cops put me into a ambulance, (at this point I was sick and had no idea what was happening and was crying.) Then to make it worse the paramedic was someone I knew. So that just made me even more ashamed. When I arrived at the hospital they had to take my blood, and I HATE needles, so I was screaming at the nurses. They made someone watch me at all times, even when using the bathroom. Also my mom was sitting next to me crying. Never the less it took six hours to get transferred to inpatient. | suicide |
YOU GOTTA STOP SCROLLING AND READ THIS! Life's hard but you can get through it. Focus on the positives .I'm really bored. Do you need a friend?My train of thought is like that dvd sign bouncing on and off.So why are we here?Is there a purpose assigned to us or do we find our own purpose?Hard work alone doesn't get us anywhere ,you need a bit of luck too.Not a bit ,A LOT. I really need to learn to use punctuations. You get the idea. Life sucks but you gotta live through it and in the end you'll love it. FUCKING STOCKHOLM SYNDROMW. | non-suicide |
I Want To Kill Myself So Badly But I Can't... If you wanna know why I want to kill myself, check my previous posts. I can't live with myself, I will never be able to forgive myself. All I want is to stop existing. I honestly don't think I can come back from this. I fucking ruined my own goddamn life, I will never be happy again. I just want it to stop. I feel like such a piece of shit. Please just fucking make it stop. Can someone please just shoot me in the fucking skull. I can't do it myself. There are so many people that love me and care about me and knowing that hurts so much. I can't kill myself because of them, so I'm just doomed to suffer. | non-suicide |
I hate the silenceAll I do is talk about how miserable I am. Nobody wants to talk to me anymore. I get it, but it hurts. I have no one, and I know it's on me for that, but still, I wish I could just talk to someone and feel better. That's how it's supposed to work, right? | suicide |
first half of my university interview done!!! it went really well, next half is at . :) | non-suicide |
How do ppl even get crushes Like seriously, Ive never had a crush on anyone my age before, Im a lesbian and Ive only had celebrity crushes on girls who were way older than I am??? I see posts all the time with people saying they like someone and all I wonder is how? Everyone at my school is so weird, theyre really dumb, obnoxious, and really just people I am not into. My mom always gives me crap for not wanting to date people from my school, she thinks I need relationship practice All Ive noticed from people who date at my age get into relationships, get out after weeks, and go date someone new, its an infinite loop and doesnt ever teach anyone anything. Its infuriating to me, Im in the th grade and never had to deal with that crush stuff. I feel left out tbh Ive dealt with ppl having crushes on me but Ive never had a thing for them back, I mean most of them are boys so I wouldnt like them anyways but I still feel almost guilty for not liking any of them back. So honestly, how do you get crushes? | non-suicide |
Not acknowledging that something is wrongIt feels like sometimes my mom just doesn't want to talk about me being depressed and having anxiety. Half the shit I do I don't want to do. My mind is literally a living hell for me. There are good days but there are days where I want to scream so loud that everyone can hear me. They can hear how much things I am holding in so that no one get uncomfortable. I get told people have to walk about me carefully, trying not to upset me but that shit wouldn't be necessary if they actually try to understand what is happening with me. There are so many people who knows I need help but the one person who can help me get it just think it is "the darkness in me" What the fuck does the mean? What the darkness in me? I am literally not okay mentally. I don't know half of the shit I am dealing with. My emotions are so horrible that I wish it would go away. I wish I wasn't like this, I really wish that but unless someone actually realize that this shit can't just go away but ignoring it then everything will keep getting worse. I am literally a time bomb. One day I will explode and no one will be able to stop me | suicide |
In so much pain..Im so over this life. Its so painful I fucking hate it. :( | suicide |
Got out of a huge family debt and now my dad might have cancer. My family just got out of a huge debt which my father had for more than a decade. Debt is due to some family drama. My father is the greatest guy I've ever seen. He never says no to things, even if he don't have money he will get hold of some cash. The best father I ever could have. Recently my mom decided to sell of all her jewelleries to clear the debt (My dad is very bad with money that's why we have the debt in the first place). Pretty much all the money we get every month was spend on Interest and we had little to none. When we finally pay off everyone my dad felt sick and we went to the hospital. He had a kidney stone and he might be having a blood cancer. The doctor said that if something in his blood increases (I don't remember what it was) he will be diagnosed with blood cancer and its highly likely that he will. I saw happiness in my mum's eyes in a long time when the debt was paid off but now she's back to sad. Life was becoming better and it decided to punch us in the guts. Please pray for my dad. | non-suicide |
My brain gets really excited when people mention me It basically takes that normal dopamine hit that we all get from doing this but a bit more I don't know why but I find it interesting | non-suicide |
Why do I keep trying to use fit girl It has never once worked for me. Why do I even try | non-suicide |
Basically an unloadI know no one wants to read my shitty problems but this is for my own benefit. So the other night I was going to kill myself, I stood on the railings of a bridge trying to get the guts to jump then some guy pulls me back over. I mean I'm , I told my mum what happened and I have a doctors appointment.. they don't listen though. It's just "hormones" I've been told this since I was years old, despite the fact I was badly attacked by a dog previously to that they can't seem to realise I need help. I've been on medication for the past / years or so which hasn't helped me in the slightest. I've tried getting it changed only to be told to "let it get into my system" the NHS is beyond a joke. | suicide |
I'm tired of convincing myself that i want to be alive every day. if I have to do this every day for the rest of my life, then i'd like to just stop.suggestions? | suicide |
Self harmed for the first time todayHonestly, it's surreal. I didn't expect to actually be able to do it. My original intention was to slice my arms open and bleed out but of course that's not very realistic... but there was blood. They're there now, on my wrist. It's crazy, I actually did it. I can't decide if I want more or not. Honestly, I always thought cutters were being dramatic and wanting attention but after I did it I just feel... Better. Like it was a release of aggression and sadness. Of course I'm not planning on totally trashing and scarring my arms forever though. They were light. But- WOW. There is no going back now. | suicide |
Drunk epiphany.Literally all of this is my own fault. Nobody that Ive been trying to blame or any social circumstances or things like that. Not bad friends, not the trauma, the way I feel rn is a result of a series of choices. Ive fucked everything up slowly over time on my own. Im done. I dont think it gets better. Ive ruined and let down more than enough people and things. I couldve done more/better but I didnt. Im just gonna try to figure out how to end this as quickly/painlessly/efficiently as possible. Sorry if this makes zero sense. | suicide |
Theres Just no reason to go onI finally came to the realization that Im not special, or unique, or funny or interesting or attractive. Everyone I know just pities me and I just want to free them from the burden that I am. The depressing vibes I give off. The only reason Im still around right now is my dog but even shes got my roommate to spoil her. Shell be fine. I cant believe I ever thought this dude would ever be into me, how stupid and naive I am, and once again I have essentially catfished another dude because I take decent face pics and now I have to go meet him and see that look on his face when he sees what my body is. I fucking hate living. Just endless suffering and awkwardness and anxiety. Why continue? Im almost it was supposed to be better by now. | suicide |
What do I do? I'm sixteen and for the past three years of my life, each winter meant a major seasonal depression. It really sucks, sience I can't function when I need to the most, aka during exams. Anyway, lately I've been having the same thoughts I usually get when winter comes, but this time it's summer. I should be happy, but I can't help to think about the fact that my friends hang out with me, because they feel sorry for me, that I'm a problem to everyone. When I told my mom a year ago, that something was wrong, she said that I'm imagining things. What if I am? I feel so much like burden that I can't even go to the school psychologist anymore without thinking that I'm wasting her time. I made this account, because I found this commuinty and sience I know I won't tell anyone I know, nor call a hotline, I just wanted to know that there was someone like me here. PS I'm not a native speaker, sorry for mistakes. | suicide |
as a girl, what is something you guys want from your crush/girlfriend I have always been curious about what guys want in a relationship from their girlfriends/crush. Things that make your heart flutter (you know those clich things) or things that make you feel good, happy, or whatever if you know what I mean. | non-suicide |
Has anyone ever told you that they won't let you kill yourself because it would be "their fault" if you die?I hate guilt trips like this. It sounds like they're only concerned about you dying not for your sake, but for their own. | suicide |
People like me shouldn't exist anyway right?My life is potentially over anyway so whats the point of sticking around to watch it burn? I will probably get a lot of hate from here anyway. I was just outed as a pedophile. Now to be clear I have NEVER touched a child in a sexual manner I even go to therapy every week. I was just born with sexual attraction to prepubescent and I hate it. I don't want this, if I could change it trust me I would. Anyway, awhile ago I accidentally made a post on this account instead of my alt account I had made for the post. The post was a confession letter, even my therapist thought it would be a good idea to write it all down, well I was drunk and didn't switch to my alt account. After finally realizing I had posted it on the wrong account I deleted it. however someone had a screen shot, and gave this screen shot to someone that is a tad vindictive bc I made fun of her in modmail on another sub. She posted it, now its climbing on /r/drama If this was a completely anon account it wouldn't be a big deal, but there are people in my real life that know I am Toucan, they know this account. They will see it and most if not all will not be friendly about it, one of them I even work with, will I even still have a job soon? What will happen when my family finds out? The internet was the one place I could create a new persona for myself and get away from the shit hand that the world dealt me IRL, I've spent years being this person and now that's been taken from me. So that's really the deal now, my life is going to burn down around me so why stick around to watch it right? People like me are fucked up in the head and probably shouldn't exist in the first place right? Surely it's only a matter of time before I hurt someone. There is nothing left for me, I wouldn't ever find peace or happiness in life anyway even if no one ever found out what I am. This has been a long time coming anyway. There's my final confession. | suicide |
Why is the horny so strong? Can someone please kill me ^(or at least help kill the horny) | non-suicide |
Only other option is to continue being miserable.I've probably been depressed for a long time. I've just felt nothing for so long and been such a shitty person that i guess it seemed normal to me. Things have happened lately and it seems like a floodgate of emotions and normal human feelings has opened and the outcome of my life is still being decided by a coin toss. I literally have nothing going for me in my life apart from my girlfriend and my dog. Towards the end of last year i started realising that i was a massive cunt and tried to be a better person and boyfriend but it seems i was too late. She wrote me a letter saying that she basically couldnt be with me anymore for various reasons that were true, we spoke a lot after that and seemed to make some progress. We cried, we laughed, we spent some time together and i thought we were making real progress on being better with each other, i really do understand how shitty ive been and for a week or so things seemed amazing, like my eyes had been opened and i was ready to open up, to be affectionate, to love and be loved. Things arent great, we aren't properly back together and she isnt sure if she even still wants to be with me anymore. She explained that the response was unexpected and confusing which i guess makes sense. I honestly want to spend the rest of my life with her and to hear her say shes not sure if she wants to be with me just crushes what little i have left to carry on. She hasnt made up her mind yet and i doubt she will want to stay with me and i guess i dont blame her, too little too late as she likes to remind me. The only reason i havent done it already is because of the % chance she wants to stick with me. I have nobody else to talk to, i didnt post here for replies or for help. I came here reading posts and it did nothing for me. I fucking love my retarded dog and i hate myself even more for being selfish enough to leave him. You guys and girls that post to help people are awesome by the way, the world needs more people like you. | suicide |
Back in my day Back in my day their were yellow Spanish Herrn gangs he US isis man is not black unlike mainstream nowadays people are scared because Id the alligator erection to be or not to be fuck thee apron gay orgy with pac but I get offended because black gang acts a better than asians fortnight because James II said so | non-suicide |
God I fucking hate the IReady platform Why must this disgusting program make up a story that takes up half of the lesson, like just get to the fucking point. The characters they make up are constantly annoying, and you have to wait for them to finish their pointless conversation to answer a question. Not only that, but it won't let you get anything less than a , like a is still a fucking passing score. But **no** they have to make it so you get a C or higher because fuck you. | non-suicide |