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I sound so stupid but- Im playing a game and I literally have a crush on a stranger Ok bye. Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
please just kill me nowi dont want to live anymore. im so tired of being manipulated by people and lied to. nothing ever goes my way. i feel so helpless and lost and i just cant keep forcing myself to be happy when im miserable inside. i lost everyone i have no one left. i am so broken and numb inside. i keep cutting my legs just so i can feel some pain. i feel selfish for wanting to die but i just cant take it anymore. my whole chest hurts, my brain hurts, my eyes hurt from crying im just a fucking mess i want to just fall asleep and disappear, i want it to be painless. i dont deserve to feel this way. i work hard, i try my best, im a good person. why does everyone intentionally try to hurt me??? i dont deserve this. whatever i did, i never deserved this. i just want to die and have this over with | suicide |
Last night my girlfriend asked me to read her Green Eggs and Ham over the phone before bed. When I finished it she had me read it again. Shes so cuuuuuutttteeeeeeee ahhhh I wanna marry her what do i do? | non-suicide |
I have been feeling worthlessAnd it's consuming me. It's like I cant even go minutes without dwelling on everything wrong with me. I try to distract my mind and focus on other things but then I spiral back into thinking about how I just want to not exist anymore. I wanna evaporate, disappear. Even fun things feel like a chore and it's hard to be motivated to do anything. I dread having to go to work, to do school work, to do anything. On my days off I should feel relaxed but I can't because I'm still worrying about all the things that need to be done. I'm constantly counting the time, whether it's how much time I have left in work, how much time is left in the day before I need to sleep, how much time I have before an assignment is due. I feel anxious all the time. I feel unlovable, stupid, ugly, and honestly I don't think that feelings will go away even if someone tries to tell me it's not true. Even if they don't think so, I still think I am and they just haven't noticed yet. I'm never going to be good enough for anyone. Even if I was, I would still feel this way, it could just at best distract me for a bit. But what's the point? And that's not really fair to anyone to have them be my only source of happiness, and I don't know if I could handle it again, to get my Hope's up thinking someone loves me only to have them eventually leave. I don't know what I do, but I always mess things up. I wish I could fix it and just stop whatever I do that is so bad. I wish I wasn't so dumb. I wish I was better looking. I wish people could just care about me unconditionally but I know I don't deserve any of that. | suicide |
Pick anything from my profile and I'll make it my profile picture IMA regret this ain't I Filler filler filler | non-suicide |
Life long death wishI am and chronically suicidal. I am not planning anymore. But death couldnt come quick enough. My life wont change anymore and will probably only get worse. Years long therapy hasnt worked. Antidepressants dont work anymore. Self harm isnt sufficient anymore. I take morphine to numb myself. People who tell me please not to kill myself enrage me. It doesnt work. Every night I pray I wont wake up and every morning I do. | suicide |
does anyone feel this wayEvery moment of everyday i feel this way. Im tired of this. You win. Im just so tired of fighting. I never thought things would devolve to this. I often use to wish for a saving grace but life isnt like that. I am damned to this existence with no distraction. | suicide |
The day I peed my pants in kindergarten You might be wondering "why are you telling me this?" The reason I'm telling you this is because I need to get it off my chest and I also want to make some people laugh, so here I go. (Sorry if I have some spelling mistakes I'm not to good) so it all started during nap time, around - in the morning. I needed to go to the bathroom but there was a person in there. And everytime someone got out, someone went in immediately. Me being the person not to ask for stuff just waited till nobody went in the bathroom, but people were not stopping from going in immediately after someone got out. So about minutes later someone was taking a long time in the bathroom and I pretty much dancing at this point. So my body pretty much said "I cant hold it in anymore." And boom, I peed my pants. I felt relief but then I realised " oh I'm not in the bathroom, and my pants aren't down." I just stared around with everyone looking at me thinking "what have I done." After that the teacher took me down to the principal's office and in the office I put my head inside my shirt and waited for what felt like over an hour. What did I gain from this event? Introvertness, I dont know if that's a word but it is now. Thanks for reading this story kind person, I hope you have a good rest of your day! | non-suicide |
Vibrator on pepe Well Ive been masturbating for a while obviously all teens do that I assume... anyways I got this massage thing for my back but as we allll kno it comes to one thing anyways I started to put the vibrating massage thing on my pepe and basically what Im asking is can It damage my peeeeen | non-suicide |
Hello there I got a play store code and i cannot use beacuse of by country is not the same country with the giver who gave me the card. I need a phone number to change my country but i dont have a number. :( | non-suicide |
Dm me Im hella bored. Tell me bout yourself a little bit first. Im a pretty chill dude that likes conversations. | non-suicide |
I want to push everyone away so that no one will mourn me when I die.My depression has done a pretty good job at that, I dont even need to try. | suicide |
I'm readyI have borderline personality disorder. Everyday a terrible war rages in my mind and heart and I simply have surpassed what I am able to cope with. I have a rifle and all I need is one bullet, I can't even muster up the energy to find one. I wonder if it hurts | suicide |
U ever get any motivation from people who think u cant do anything? Like making big achievements just to show youre not worthless? Thats kinda whats keeping me goin rn Filelrifleleiflekrifoeoeoofleoeodoflerif | non-suicide |
Countdown continues. more days until I'm deadRefer to previous posts on info. Don't ask me why here. Read first post. Exhausted and ready to go. Event is coming up this weekend, will see what weapon I can get then. | suicide |
Super straight isnt bad, you are all just snowflakes If lgbt people can make + genders why can there be a sexuality for people who dont wanna date trans people | non-suicide |
this is reddit in  | non-suicide |
The few friends I have have basically given up on me as I can't force myself to change for the better, no matter how hard I try. Well I'm done with it. I'm done with my lifeThe few friends I have in my life know how depressed and sullen I always am. And they always told me "Try going to the gym!" or "Be funnier!". Well I've tried everything in the book and forced myself to turn my life around over these past two years. And it's gotten me absolutely nowhere. I can't force myself to be funny because it never works and I just make the situation awkward. Dressing myself up better is like putting lipstick on a pig. Smiling more is pointless since no one else smiles back. I could go on. Meanwhile, they're prospering and living their lives to the fullest and some of them even getting engaged. Meanwhile I have yet to even hold a girl's hand at years old. I haven't texted them in probably the last few months, and none of them have reached out either. But I don't blame them. I'm not worth their time anyway. I really just don't care at this point. The days all just kind of blend together and I can't even keep track of what day of the week it is because they're all so similar and equally uneventful. It shouldn't be this hard. It just shouldn't. Some people are just the lucky ones, so good for them. As for me? Idk. I might just not wake up tomorrow. Whatever the most painless way out possible is, just give me that. Bullet to the head, jumping from a building, whatever. I don't care at this point. And don't bother trying to convince me otherwise because nothing you say at this point will make me feel any better. They're just empty meaningless niceties. Goodbye. | suicide |
A cousin I havent met died Apparently one of my cousins whom I havent met died, my grandmother told me. Well.... idk how to feel. | non-suicide |
I don't know... I'm tired I'm tired of everything, always have been. It's not school, although that sure doesn't help.. my brain is just broken I think. I wish I could just be normal I wish there was higher chances to die in the methods I have available.. Or at least even just that I could get meds or get diagnosed or something, although idk how effective that would be Ending it sounds better right now, I don't want to fail again though. Idk I'll just... uhm.. *coping method* time I'm sorry I shouldn't post like this im probably just attention seeking im sorry idk why I'm posting here anyway I'm sorry ignore this sorry | non-suicide |
My am thoughts Here are some things I literally woke up and wrote at am the other night. I was just sleeping then woke up was thinking about some things and tried to write them down, then went back to sleep. What is happiness? Is it a feeling of contentment in the moment? Being in a long state of joy? Or is it simply not real? Why oh why does it seem as everything is perfect but so bad? How can life be simultaneously incredible but melancholic? How is it possible that ideas form in the mind only to be swirled around in the head, and when spoken or written down they fall out like too many objects packed into a closet that has just been opened - creating an impossible mess? When will my thoughts actually become something other than the bland and pitiful grey, pale soup it is now? Or will it stay that way forever? Are the colours grey and white so bland after all? They world is so intricate and special with interesting things being found in the most 'boring' or 'bland' places, even these colours could have more meaning than what meets the eye. It is only me. I am the problem. While the world is filled with so much, the only thing not wonderful - empty - is me. And I don't think there is anything that can fix that. | non-suicide |
So I had to take an "Interest Profiler" test. Like wtf? Since when does a *computer* have to tell me what I like and what I don't like. And then the test proceeds to inaccurately describe me as an individual, yet that score is what the school is going to use to profile me. Hello? I am a person, with a brain, and the ability to communicate what I like. Why don't they just ask the students "what the fuck you like bro?" So annoying. | non-suicide |
Lemme revive a terrible memory for you I'M ALREADY TRACER | non-suicide |
Just got told I don't exist by dankmemes so how's your day Yea I'm not going back there whatever gender you are your valid | non-suicide |
Whats the last song youd want to hear before you kill yourself?Just interested in hearing the music preferences of fellow depressed beings lol. Id hear Hard Feelings by Lorde. I love her but idk what it is about this song that just makes me so addicted to it. I can just listen to it over and over and over again and love it more and more every time. | suicide |
I need some help finding good artists I'm looking for people like Jazmin Bean, or Melanie Martinez. so if you have any let me know | non-suicide |
I have a boyfriend? ok, now that he's in the shower I'm gonna say some stuff to make him smile because he deserves it. Maxy, I've had so much fucking fun this past week? I don't know I feel like it's been longer than it already it and I know you feel that way too. I'm so excited to start this new chapter in my life with you, I can't even explain how happy you make me. I know it may seem like just puppy love to other people but I know myself more than anyone and I know what I'm doing and I'm happy to be with you. < | non-suicide |
Im such a loserIve been trying to find a girlfriend for so long and I cant do anything to stay out of the friend zone. Im just so freaking lonely that it physically pains me and makes me want to take every pill in my cabinet. The only person who I think cares about me is my mother, and if thats not sad I dont know what is. Im paranoid everyone just tolerates me and doesnt actually appreciate me being around. Its more of a gut feeling. I work in a Walmart pharmacy as a cashier and let me tell you, working a ten hour shift and customers blaming me for every single minuscule issue they may have brings me to my absolute limit. Everyday I come home and try to relax but I just cant shove all of the hateful faces out of my head. Im so anxious all of the time that I cant hardly function as a normal person. I have OCD where I feel like I cant be happy if I have work the next day. (OCD like I think about the issue, stress about the issue, rewarded by constantly thinking about work, like an endless loop) Ive graduated high school last year and I thought I would reach out to my old friends to see if they could maybe help me, but they treated me like they had never met me before.. it just hurts.. I dont have a reason to stay here on earth, but Im so very afraid of whats on the other side. Constantly think about steering my truck into a ditch on the interstate. | suicide |
I have a chicken . I named her Penny. Penny is hungry. Penny can't lay eggs until she eats. Penny needs redditors to take care of her and her future children. | non-suicide |
Happy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the nd of April Happy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the nd of AprilHappy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the nd of April | non-suicide |
heyy whats up gamers and gamer girls discord server and my friends r trying to get new peoplee, we chat, send memes, play games like minecraft among us overwatch all that stuff, and such going on, is not a commitment, guys and girls welcome, dm for link :D | non-suicide |
It feels more like a "when" than an "if"Sorry, theres just nobody I can talk to right now. I'm trying. I really am. Ive been seeing psychologists and trying medication and shit for nearly a year. I've met new people, tried new things, sometimes I can even force myself out of bed. But every time it seems like there might be hope I fuck it up like everything else. I'm just so tired of giving me and everyone else false hope, I'm so tired of fucking up. I think I just wasn't meant to be. I'm just not enough. Do you think they'll know I tried? | suicide |
GoodbyeThis is a thank you/suicide note. I would leave one for my family but I feel more of a family here. I never posted here much but from quietly watching your posts it helped me realize everyone struggles with something. My life has been a shit show for years and I cant continue to live through it. My heart aches every day and my head is numb and I just cant continue. Thank you for helping me through it this far. Goodbye | suicide |
This would be the most evil thing ever. What if someone just went around posting meme templates so nobody could post memes? Every meme post would get auto-removed by Magic Eye Bot. That would wreak anarchy. | non-suicide |
I'm suicidal but am too scared to seek helpI have been depressive most of my life (some years). Until now I have been able to get through the rough patches by myself. For the last month or so, due to life being totally shitty and coming up with all kinds of bullshit, I want to jump off the bridge near my home. Its really cold right now and I would freeze within mins or so. It wouldn't be painless, but I would pass out and drown. While I could call a suicide hotline, I'm pretty sure they would just give me the usual "life is worth living speech" straight out of the handbook. It would be insincere and shallow. They are strangers after all (just like you guys too I suppose). Also, its an embarrassing situation. I feel bad for my husband who has to deal with my moods. He loves me and is worried. I can't bring myself to call for any help though. I've always been able to take care of myself before, and I don't know what the difference is this time. Sometimes the thought of jumping makes me feel calmer and more in control of things. If life gets too hard, there's a way out and I don't have to ever think about difficult things ever again. I want to die because I'm sick of life even though I know it will hurt a few people to do so. Anyways, I needed to vent to the world. I know many of you know how I feel. | suicide |
its am, im bored. f. hmu names jack. im kinda goth and dark grunge/alt girl pm me! dont be dry:) | non-suicide |
And then he waddled away waddle waddle Yo if they do it a third time then damn ez money | non-suicide |
What careers are you locked out of for being put in a mental institution to prevent you from killing yourself?I don't know exactly how to phrase it but I know that something along these lines goes on your record and makes it hard to get certain types of jobs. | suicide |
Ignore this, just a horny post Not actually that horny post, hyst moderate Girls with tanlines Tomboys Muscle girls Cute girls Thighs Cool girls I said ignore this, didn't I? | non-suicide |
Social anxiety is now so bad I no longer do things that might be embarrassing when Im complete alone for fear that the government might be spying on me and see me do something weird The fact that is only half-joking is equal parts terrifying and hilarious to me | non-suicide |
Listening to Alestorm rn Fun fact: The subgenre of pirate metal started out being historically accurate but eventually became more and more about the romanticized version of piracy that Alestorm and similar bands sing about. | non-suicide |
I can't do it any moreI don't even know where to start. I've had depression and severe OCD for ten years now (I'm ), and therapy never helped. (Neither did meds, if anyone's asking.) I don't have any friends (I tried, years ago, and then the OCD kicked in, and now I'm just a friendless fuck-up.). I had to quit studying for my degree because of OCD. My mom and I will be kicked out of my apartment in a few weeks if we can't afford the rent. Which we can't, because it's just so damn much despite being a really shitty really small place. I can't work because of OCD/depression. I've spent the last few months doing literally Nothing. Nothing at all. Of course I'd lurk reddit some times, if I can take it (OCD), but most of them I did nothing. I don't know what to do. There's nothing I can do (OCD), and everything I'd want to do costs so much energy I don't have. I used to be a nice person. I used to get along with people and at least I was happy. This post doesn't even cover it. I'm just so fucking tired of it all. I can't even afford a pair of shoes now that mine are torn to shreds after having the same for years. I don't have any other family, I haven't seen my grandma in months because of OCD. I tried therapy and everything multiple times and Nothing helps. I don't even feel anything any more. I just sit there and do nothing. I can't take this any more. I just can't. Good bye | suicide |
girls what are things you're looking for in a guy? i mean like personality, there's never been a girl that has shown interest in me and i guess I'm not bad looking so that isn't the problem. | non-suicide |
Why can't I get better?I just can't take it anymore. I'm . I have a child of six who doesn't live with me (he lives with his father who can better support him) my depression wipes me out for days, last night I cut chunks out of my hair out of sheer anger and misery at myself for not looking after myself and I kept thinking why even try anymore? My son knows I love him, but I am not strong enough anymore. I keep looking at the antidepressants I have, contemplating taking a strip and closing my eyes and giving in. It's selfish, I have a child I shouldn't want to hurt him and I don't but the pain is just too much now. I hate my body, my life, everything. I used to try to look at the few positives but even they don't seem to matter anymore. My little boy is the only reason I am still breathing but even that love is going to Peter out and I'm scared. I'm scared because I want to die. | suicide |
My last dayReally considering today to be my last day. My life has been nothing but a ride through the mud with my head just barely above water. Smiling because that's what was expected of me. I can't do this anymore. This constant struggle. I have bpd (please just look it up) and I'm petrified to tell anyone because people are scared of personality disorders. Imagine this: You wake up in the morning, everything is great. You look in the mirror and have no idea who is staring back at you. You get scared, but smile anyway. It feels fake. It is. You're petrified but you leave the mirror.... God damnit... I don't even know why I'm trying to explain it. Fuck that... I'm sorry but I'm really just done with life. I want to die and I don't think anyone will understand what it's like in my head or my life... I've been thinking for a few days and I'm thinking of just taking a bunch of my Flexaril(spelling). I really can't do this anymore... If I don't get this job, I'm done. | suicide |
You know what I got for Christmas? I got literally gigabytes of ram for my pc for Christmas. I now have gb of ram on my pc I'd rather have a gpu but that's good enough | non-suicide |
Europe is cringe Lmao fucking yucky people that were responsible for many genocides and all of todays problems | non-suicide |
So I just learned my uncle is dyingI cant get home because Im in a community service program about miles away from home and if I leave I will forfeit my time here due to not enough hours. But if I dont go home Ill loose one of the closest people in my life. Im really on edge here and dont know what to do with my life. I feel like Im standing on a cliff and am not afraid to jump. | suicide |
Guys! Family guy predicted George Floyd | non-suicide |
Am I really loved or is it fake!?Well this all began at my art show I had.I had a booth in a craft show and this boy walked by my booth who came to see my digital artwork. I thought to myself "Wow he's cute." Now we have been dating for months. he helped me set up my art booth up this time, than he came to my house for dinner. I am so happy around him and we hang out at least once a week or more but tomorrow is the art show again and I'm really just considering if I should even be suicidal around him? It's like I am but I'm not. it's just a big mess help! | suicide |
My mom put broccoli and spam together Dont get me wrong, I love my mom, but this is uh...*broccoli and spam* combo. I dont know if I can eat this. I excused myself to the bathroom to write this. Wish me luck. | non-suicide |
Does these girls want to have sex? Okay so i need some girls advices about what's happening. im and the girls are So im friend with two girls (thet're best friends) and i invited her to sleep at my place A month ago . It was very cool i dont remember much becauise of alcohol but i just had a great time. When we woke up my friend had my tshirt and my sweat , i found it weird but okay maybe she was cold and i probably did removbe my shirts when i was drunk. So we were all in my room it was like am and i sat on my gAmINg chAiR and she litterally sat on me. Mhhh ok ? Just touchy so i guess that's okay and normal for her? And for the month to today they have been mentionning and asking me for a treesome they were obviously joking but idk they asked me like times. i know noting happenned that night They are coming to my house tommorow niight ! Thanks a lot ! | non-suicide |
How tall are you? Please say your gender too. Cause ' is really different when it's on a guy than when it's on a girl lol. | non-suicide |
I just hate my body. I can't live well inside it but i don't wanna die. i don't know what to do.I just hate everything about my body. I'm way too unattractive and as if it wasn't enough my penis is also very small and there's no surgerys for that. I can't go on living inside of it. I feel like shit about myself. I always feel inferior. And when it comes to the small penis i feel like i'm a walking joke to everyone.Most of my flaws i can't fix even if i were rich so the only way out of this is to kill myself. But i don't really wanna die. All i wish is to be magically transfered to a acceptable body when i wake up, but that's not gonna happen. I don't know what to do now. My body is my avatar in real life, and with a really crappy one i can't enjoy life at it's fullest. I don't want to be alone, but i'm too unattractive and my penis is too small for me to find a date.I don't even believe in love,seems like everything is about lust nowadays, but i wish i could have someone to talk to and to hug when i'm feeling lonely. That's not happening either.And above all of that, there's those assholes that treat me like i'm a failure.I know there's people that are worse than me, like blind people. But at least they're not laughed at.They get support and people are sympathetic with them. I'm so tired of this. Tired of being treated like a freak.This world wasn't made for me to live in it. When i see ugly jokes on television, or small penis jokes i feel like i don't belong here.I feel like i'm never gonna be accepted. I don't want to die but i don't have another way. I also dont want to live a miserable life just for the sake of being alive. What would you do if you were me? Would you keep on going? | suicide |
Music Hot Take Day Foxtrot by Genesis is the greatest progressive rock album ever made barely beating out Animals by Pink Floyd. | non-suicide |
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GrowingMy suicidal ideation is only growing. I am fucking trying to stay on. People will see me look down and have all these thoughts. They dont realize its taking my all not to hang myself. I just want to disappear. I am so much emotional pain. I try to do whats right but whats the point? If Im truly going to Hell, what is the point of all of this? I am just so angry and this life only brings me sorrow. I know this just another post from me and at this point its tiresome. But, imagine living every fucking day with these thoughts. I genuinely hate myself and constantly say out loud how I dont matter/how bad I want to end it all. | suicide |
try not to sing don't song | non-suicide |
Tomorrow nightI'm going to hang myself tomorrow night after I get home. I feel so peaceful saying that. It's like all the weight in the world is gone. I thought that studying something I actually enjoyed would make a difference but it didn't. There's no stopping the fire that burns me up from the inside. I just cannot live with myself. It was fun pretending and then it wasn't | suicide |
Arrival is a beautifully made movie I never really appreciated it for what it was when I saw it in , and after reading [Story of Your Life]( the book it's based on, everything made so much more sense. The [soundtrack]( is so incredibly beautiful, it somehow encompasses the stages of life and it's subtlety and somber tone makes it akin to funeral, birthday, and wedding music all at once. | non-suicide |
Homophobic people: Gay couples are wrong because they can't have kids Science: Well there are many ways besides adoption and we're working on more. Especially for lesbians. Look I don't know why I made this. | non-suicide |
Nobody wants me. I'm an outcast.Nobody wants me. I don't want to be here anymore because of that. I don't want to live anymore. Society sees me as a loser. Nobody would be happy around me. | suicide |
Freinds...how many of us have them? Not me | suicide |
Posting on r/teenagers everyday until I forget to post or get to the th day, day Hey did you know that a snail can sleep for years? | non-suicide |
We were both in the wellWe had both fallen into the well. The water in the well had us treading water constantly. We started taking turns, carrying the other one on ones shoulders to let them rest for a while, before going back to treading water, and we kept doing that while figuring out a way to get out of the well. I came to cherish the moments where I could take a moment to relax with a clear mind. But when someone threw them a rope I wanted to pull them back down. I didn't want to tread water, I wanted a rope too. | suicide |
I talked to my crush today It was like one minute but it felt like i ruled the fucking world Lonely gang where ya at | non-suicide |
PainI feel like being stabbed in the heart Again And again And again And again.. To those who say it will get better. It never will. I'm an abomination who shouldn't even be alive. I want to jump from a building and end this excruciating pain. | suicide |
List of fucked up suicide methods Ive thought of doing. Drinking - gallons of water in a short amount of time .taking a bunch of Benadryls then jumping off a bridge .taking a bowl to school going in the bathroom filling it up with water and drowning myself there .cutting off my fingers at school in the bathroom .sleeping with a concussion . Not cleaning an infection from cutting myself .asking a friend to kill me .drinking too much chlorine .Tide Pod .bringing a knife to a gun fight | suicide |
I'm tired of maintaining this image of a functional personI'm very close to leaving all this. I can't go to my family. Don't tell me otherwise, because the last time I did, they blamed me for having anxiety & ocd. They're dysfunctional anyway, and I'm sick of being the one who keeps control of them. I'm the one who keeps them from tearing eachother apart on a regular basis, and then I'm supposed to just take it when they vent their stress on me? And then I still feel guilty about being rightfully annoyed at them for keeping me up till :am with their squabbling. Everything just gets worse. Christmas is worth nothing, I was stupid to think that maybe they would somehow see how bad I was doing, and at least try to give me a break while uni is off for the holidays. Fuck me for trying to be happy for at least minutes I guess. And then there's the ocd, which completely controls my life. I plan every single thing around it. I have psoriasis and tmj just from the stress. I haven't been able to relax in years, I sometimes worry that it's become impossible. I'm afraid of everything and I'm angry at everything and I want everything to stop. I want my life to srop.I want to leave. I want to leave. I want to leave. I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die. | suicide |
Happy th of July. This is a great day to dieI've been thinking about it for a while and I think today would be a fitting day for me to meet my end. I just want to erase myself from the world. I don't deserve to live. | suicide |
The people that are trying to help me are limiting everythingMy mom called these police mental health people over to our house (Im ) and they basically threatened to take me to the hospital if I dont stop being depressed or suicidal.(great strategy) I really want to hurt myself but I know that if I do my mom will find out and tell them so that they take me to the hospital, so that is limiting me to my only other option, suicide. Before these idiots came to my house and started calling me every second day, I had three options every-time I felt mad: option one: acting violently towards an object such as punching more holes in my wall. Option two: cutting myself or doing another form of self harm depending on how mad I am. Option three killing myself. The unit my mom called has eliminated the first two options with the threat that they made. I have never attempted suicide but I feel like its only a matter of time until I do because it is my only option to let out anger. I really wish their was a painless pill I could take that just killed me. | suicide |
does anyone want to chat? Im just bored in my dorm room. Im F. No creeps. I like plants, skincare, anime, and whatever the fuck else you want to talk about :) | non-suicide |
HERE WE GO AGAINIm bipolar and have been stable for almost months. This has been the longest stretch Ive had in awhile. But this past week I again feel my luster for life fading; fading to the point of death. Im beyond sad (if there is such a thing). Im on a vicious cycle and I want off | suicide |
I dont want to do this anymoreThats really it I cant bring myself to want to continue on with my life. everything that i do i find myself regretting, or just feeling flat out ashamed. I dont want to keep going, i dont want to keep doing this alone. i feel so alone in this fucking world somedays im content with it, but others im not able to stand the fact. i wish i could be loved, i wish i could do simple things. i wish i wasnt me. | suicide |
I avoided going to a party that my childhood bullies are going to Yeah, really proud of myself. They are some sick twisted people and tried to lie to my face and tell me they miss me and now wanna be friendly with me, but nah. Im not that little kid thatll fall for it anymore. They made my childhood a living hell and never apologized for it. They can go fuck themselves. V happy for myself :)) | non-suicide |
fun fact you can just buy cake doesnt matter if you have a job if its a celebration you can literally get up off your ass get a face mask (be safe) get some cash and go buy a fucking cake and eat it thanks for coming to my ted talk | non-suicide |
For everyone who lifts what are your prs I am and weigh Bench: Squat: Deadlift: | non-suicide |
Need something to have a taste of deathI want to kill Myself but at the same time I don't. Weird I know. Everyday I have to keep suppressing myself because of family and my boyfriend. I have no one to rely on. My best friend suddenly stopped talking to me after her promising me that she'll always be here for me. I'm losing it. Everyday suicide to me sounds more possible. I want to feel it. I want to die because I can't stay stable anymore but at the same time I don't - I only want to kill myself as a cry for help. No one listens to me when I talk about my depression. They call me a burden, negative, drama queen etc. it's a waste of money to go to therapy when everything is back to normal when I leave my session. It's the same everyday. Why won't anyone listen to me? What's the best way to to commit suicide but not killing your self entirely? To knock you off for a while but not fatally killing yourself fully? | suicide |
Would this be considered a downward spiral?I had social issues ever since I began school. No close friends for longer than months for some reason. Like the more a person gets to know me, the less interested they are. I can never gain respect due to interpersonal interactions, which makes work painful. Speaking of work, not even McDonald's wanted to hire me after interview. I can't do well in school anymore since it feels like my antianxiety medicine drops my IQ. I put in my resignation that morning, yet my dad texts me saying he had cancer and what matters is graduating. My heart sunk. I would love to graduate, but I haven't even told him I can't keep failing like I do. Also my only friend in the state who is also my ex, decided to move on and abandon me. I can't talk to my family about anything since they're "old school" about it. Therapy doesn't seem to help. I just want to numb myself permanently. I often wish I was mute, because it seems like I don't ever say the right thing. | suicide |
Can someone explain point-slope formula? Plz I've been doing this hw for hours now | non-suicide |
Heyyy guys I'm f That is all sorry for wasting your time | non-suicide |
is it hard/expensive to live on ur own this started because literally everyone i know has a desk in their bedroom, is like a basic teenager thing, BUT I DONT HAVE ONE. also i share the bedroom with my TWO siblings and the worst part is that im not even poor; my mom has the money to buy or rent a better and/or bigger house where we all will be happier and more comfortable but she doesn't give a fuck i guess? the point is that i wanna live on my own is it really very hard to do that???? my mom wants to move to another state or another country next year or the year after and i really don't want to because i wanna go to the university here so i'd have to stay in the city and live on my own in the smallest apartment i could afford but is it really hard to do that? im afraid i'd have to move out because i won't be able to do it. i guess i could get a job at a kindergarten because i worked at one in ny last year but would that be enough? also maybe my mom will lend me money? and im not one to buy stupid stuff and i already own a computer and a phone and clothes and a bed and netflix and i can cook and im a vegan so it's not very expensive. also university is free. but yeah idk what do u think older/wiser teenagers?? sorry this isn't readable im aware | non-suicide |
Tell me your favorite song The best song will earn you an award no links please | non-suicide |
Recommend to me some fun tiktok'rs to watch! No rappers please, I hate rap -\_- | non-suicide |
I'm so tiredI keep disappointing myself College is going down the drain My parents couldn't care less about me and treat me like I'm a waste of money I have no friends My boyfriend is growing each day more distant and I believe he'll leave me soon. I feel terrified, paralysed. Constantly. Tired of the "you are valuable", "I'll be ok" talk... I tried to kill myself in January... Been considering a second attempt lately... | suicide |
I want to opt out. I didn't fucking ask to be born.I'm tired of this shit. I'm a -year-old woman and I'm a fucking loser. I'm massively in debt and I'll never be able to repay it. I have no skills, no education, no motivation. I've been working minimum wage jobs since I was . I had to move back in with my parents who I can't stand; they're actually alright people but they have undiagnosed mental health issues and my dad thinks my depression and anxiety is a bunch of bullshit and that I use it as an excuse to be lazy. They're retired and have very little money, and I'm a huge financial burden on them. I am lazy as shit. I cant even put my clothes away, my room and my previous apartment are fucking messes. I'd rather lie down and stare at the wall. I have a fuckbuddy who I have feelings for, but I know he doesn't really care about me. He talks to me enough to keep me on the back burner so he can get his dick wet when he wants. I mean, he's actually a nice person, but he's a little younger and I've been around enough to know when someone genuinely cares about me or not. So he wants to fuck, and I oblige, because I have very few people I can talk to and at least I can have some real human contact when I'm with him. I can't afford to move out, because my shitty retail job only gives me hours a week and even if I were to land an interview doing something worthwhile, I'd probably end up skipping it or fuck up badly during it. I just don't care about myself. I want to care about myself. But I don't. I want to die but I'm too chicken shit. Scared of plunging into eternal oblivion. Scared of the pain. Kinda feel guilty about how it would affect my parents, and my sister and a couple of my "friends" I guess. I don't know. When I do it though, I wouldn't want my parents to find me, they don't need that shit. Maybe jump in front of the subway or something. I don't know. I just hope I get the balls to do it soon.i can't take this shit anymore. I don't like life. | suicide |
I want nothing short of deathSee I'm a nobody. I'll never work. I'll be sad often. That's it. That's it. Becoming, fucking becoming, could I just fuck it right in the ass? Damn. Saddens me a lot. This whole becoming shit. Ruins my day and keeps me awake at night. I'm a nobody. I should game all day and night. Pass time. Be a drunk. Then one night, lonely and sad, scared and bitter, just fucking kill myself. That's my story. The story of Mr. Nobody. | suicide |
Has anyone actually called a suicide hotline?Has anyone actually done this? Was it a positive experience? Did it feel awkward, or did it help? | suicide |
Can I just say I'm not a big fan of these "girls are boring and guys are lol quirky" memes. I dunno, I just feel like they create a toxic misconception of women's behavior and expectations. Everyone is different and don't all fit in your box of what you think they are. | non-suicide |
thinking of throwing myself in front of a trainim such a fucking pathetic loser | suicide |
I feel so aloneI am alone arent I? | suicide |
I made this post later If you procrastinate on your homework, you're a procrastinator. If you procrastinate later to do your homework, you're a procrastinator. We're all lazy down here, you see. There's no escape. Only lazy. | non-suicide |
I made a subreddit I made a subreddit!!! Its called r/dumbconspiracytheorys Im so exited first community Ive created!!!!!!!! | non-suicide |
Everyone would be better off without meI want to die. I dont want to be here anymore. Im useless and everyone would be happier if I was gone. Im a let down and worry to everyone around me. Better off without me in this world. I hate living like this and it would be better just to go for everyone. | suicide |
Its , your , its snowing, your parents brought something... Snow, a bowl, syrup. The best thing youve ever had. | non-suicide |
I hate myself.This is the thought train I've been on for awhile now. And I absolutely despise and hate myself for it. Yet I can't stop going down this trail in my head. All I can think about is being dead and killing myself because I'm a vile and worthless human who shouldn't be allowed to walk the earth any longer. This is my thought trail: All I see is everyone around me getting jobs left and right and me not even being worth an interview. I see myself, working miserable fucking jobs since I was and working my motherfucking ass off for this useless piece of shit of a degree and I see me getting paid $. an hour, while my gf, whose had everything in her fucking life handed to her on a silver platter, not start working til she was , not having any degree of any sort, in the work force for a bit over months, getting a fairly decent job that pays nearly $ an hour. That's what I see. And it makes me want to shoot myself. This isn't the first time I've ever thought about suicide. It's the first time I've ever really wanted to do it though. I am a selfish awful person who just needs to go. | suicide |
So there's this rehab program And the people aren't allowed to have coffee because it's viewed as them trying to get high off of caffeine which is somewhat understandable but they're allowed to smoke tobacco you know an extremely addictive drug it just doesn't make sense to me but I guess that's why I'm not running a rehab program and they are. | non-suicide |
Charlie surpassed pewdiepie Charles surpassed pewdiepie in most followers on a platform. Does she deserve it | non-suicide |
It's nonstop latelyJust constantly, for the past month it feels like, I'm always thinking about dying. Doesn't matter who I'm with or what I'm doing, it's always there. Recently I've started putting my gun to my head and pulling the trigger on an empty chamber just to sorta get a feel for it. I'm terrified of getting the wrong trajectory and winding up a vegetable lol. I'm just tired guys. I'm over feeling like this. It's just *constantly* beating my ass and I'm tired of dealing with it. I'm tired of my shitty job. I'm tired of coming home to an empty apartment. I don't know how much longer I can do this before I finally put a round in the chamber. | suicide |
Can robots love people? I mean people say that they cant love because there just computers but can we actually make one that can love humans or its fellow robots and even form all sorts of loving relationships with people? Because honestly that is pretty deep for me to be thinking about already. | non-suicide |