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Friend is MIA I don't know what to doHey there. So, I've been trying to contact my friend for the past few hours. His girlfriend whom I've never really talked to sent me a message asking if I could call him because they had a fight, he said his goodbyes and that he didn't feel like himself anymore. He canceled his birthday dinner coming up earlier today. He posted a couple pics saying goodbye (which he's done before, kind of an artist thing) but these felt different. Thing is, he doesn't answer his phone, texts. Nothing. He recently moved, I don't have his new address so I don't know how to tell anyone about this. Kinda freaking out. Tried contacting his sister but no response so far. I don't know what to do and this is crushing me. | suicide |
Do you hate stairs? Why do you hate them? I'm asking because I'm making a survey for a college assignment. | non-suicide |
I composed this song, if you like electronic/indie song I think you'll like it The song it's called "Walking By The Clouds" and it's part of the album with the same name, so what do you think? [ | non-suicide |
..Told a friend what I was going through She replied with "..." | suicide |
My bestfriends story.Warning I am dyslexic So I have lost a really good friend an my first love we been through a lot in are life but we help each other out we were both suicidal an we use to cut are self but we were the one to talk each other out of it we both have family problem so that didn't help we would stay up all night an make sure they were going to be OK but one day he did not text me back at all so I know something was up one I my friends at the time found out that he killed himself she did not know what to be she could barely move too tell her aunt what happened but she made it so her aunt call my mom an told her what happened but my mom didn't tell me cuz I was sleeping so she told me the next day she told me not to believe it cuz where he was living people like to start rumors as a day when I had school I found out I was real people are making it a joke and I slept surprisingly I didn't get expelled or kicked out of school cuz I swear I have the kids you are making a joke knowing they were friends with him at the time but finding out he actually did it killed me an it kills me be because we know why he did it an it's fuck up.... His girlfriend at the time told him to do it so he did he went out back of his house an hung himself minutes after she did it she called is mom an told her an when his mom find him die she cut him down an that day she lost her son an I lost my best friends an my first love an the girl who told him to do it got away with it. | suicide |
How do I die?theres nothing. i have nothing. | suicide |
My friend isnt feeling okay and wasn't online today, should I call her? I'm really worried about her But also she might need space Should I leave her alone? | non-suicide |
Whats with the dark core personality test thing Like at this point I genuinely cant tell if its like when me and some of my friends did it awhile back cause lol bored and hey ur interested in psychology right? Or if people are believing it. One person I knew took it seriously. Interesting time trying to explain it how these things are almost always % wrong lmao. | non-suicide |
I want to dieI cant do this anymore | suicide |
International women's Day is pretty dumb and pointless in Western society, change my mind Yeah, I think that in the west, the whole idea is pointless I can't really think that it has any kind of purpose, you're welcome to change my mind in the comments | non-suicide |
lol i remember I made a tinder acc when i was like and the entire acc was based off of stripper peppa pig to troll dudes mfs reported me l and got me banned rq like who wouldnt want a piece of her bacon | non-suicide |
I wish I had someone or something to live forEvery one always posts about how they would kill themselves if it wasn't for so and so. I wish I had someone to live for but it's official no one cares about me | suicide |
Just wanna say America is the best country If u wanna disagree drop ur country | non-suicide |
Bruh, whose up for it Dm me if u want I'm bored af. For sum reason my first post got auto deleted it was just yo, that's all hopefully this works | non-suicide |
Should i buy sex toys online? Would that make my mastubations feel alot better? Not that im buying some now. I mean when i finally get my own apartment, Maybe i would buy some?...hmmmm Im a guy btw | non-suicide |
How do people believe in star signs It's literally the dumbest thing ever. "Yeah but it's so accurate" The memes and stuff you see about them are made to relate to almost everyone, so it can't be wrong. If you just take a second and actually think, you'll realize how dumb it is. | non-suicide |
Someone please stop meJust wanted to say thanks reddit for these last final hours, made me smile a couple times. But Ive made my decision and Im scared. I thinks its my time to give up theres no point anymore. These drugs are so messed up and Ill let them take me out, I wish someone can talk me out of this but i think its a done deal. | suicide |
IM SO FRICKEN WORRIED!!! I have to see my dad today, its been well over a year since I saw him. Im scared hes going to yell at me, put his hand on my thigh (like he did the last two times) or something possibly worse. I cant stop overthinking!!! Fuck! Im so stressed out rn I just want to hide!!! | non-suicide |
is almost over Were almost done with the worst year of our lives yet months down, to go | non-suicide |
I have a question Am I allowed to talk about being molested on this subreddit | non-suicide |
Can i sleep forever If i take a fuckton of melatonin | non-suicide |
Im a weight and everyone who knows me is the person holding the weightIm holding people back | suicide |
guys i need help im very heavy ( lbs) and i really need to lose weight but i get so anxious thinking about it and have such bad confidence issues. i give up so extremely fast. can anyone give me any tips on how to want to lose weight | non-suicide |
I am sobbing uncontrollably on my th birthday and I'm just feeling hopeless. Please someone helpI've had the worst week ever with no exagerition. I don't even know the chronological order at this point, but I'll do my best to keep the order of shit in order. that happened in the past week. Tuesday I fell ill SO broke up with me. My bed broke, forcing me to sleep on the floor for a while. Wednesday I had a cancer scare with my dog, but thank God the tumour was only benign. I was pulled over for the first time, even though everything was resolved, I felt like I was having a heart attack. Stressful work day. My car was broken into. Thursday My fucking best friend/pet bird died. Friday I was suffering through work to hold my sanity, but other than that, it wasn't bad. Saturday With an essay due on the th about some play for my theatre class, I had to scramble and was forced to see a performance that was well out of my price range. I was going to take care of it earlier in the week, but never found the time. Again not a bad day all things considered. Sunday When I saw the actual night performance Monday, the big fucking th birthday So to start it off, I of course was isolated from all companionship all day, and had to write my ass off to write fully written pages. Then the straw that broke the camel's back. I lost my fucking car keys in who the fuck knows where. I've looked for hours, essentially tearing my house apart. To no avail in finding them, I finish off the day in the defeat of how much of a fucking loser and failure I am. I am shaking, sobbing, and my face and arms are for some reason numb. And all I know is that I will be missing my much needed therapist appointment tomorrow, due to the ungodly cost of an Uber ride to and from. Sorry I'm just a rambling mess, I feel so helpless and alone. Im usually a pull yourself from the bootstraps kinda guy, even strongly remaining afloat when I lost my father last year, but man, I don't know anything right now. | suicide |
I want to simp someone. I dont care if you have a dick or a vagina, I just want to simp someone. Ill follow you, compliment you and try to comment something on all your posts. | non-suicide |
Im the only reason the world spins like fuck Without me yall dead af | non-suicide |
Can someone canadian tell the president to do this Because amarican is fucked, I want them to start a war with us then take over the country,maybe then this shit country will be good. Please my life would be alot better, there laws and other thing are much better | non-suicide |
i need someone to talk toI'm have been going through a lot since August. I just want someone to talk to.. I'm not really feeling at the best if now.. | suicide |
lost out of my fucking mind and its only getting worseI dont fit in anywhere anymore, Im losing more friends by the year, My dad is , I am unemployed, jaded beyond belief, I dont know how on earth my life ended up like this - I used to have it all it felt. I feel pressure at all angles, dont know who to fucking trust, cant open up, dont know whats worth fighting for. I just want the old me back. But its impossible, i dont think anyone realises I have been depressed out of my mind, Ive ruined chances at love, I feel like I am becomming like a cowardly cunt. I used to be the oppositte. - I am lost beyond belief | suicide |
Just took random amount of novarapidwhy am I even posting this? I have no idea but fuck I hope I don't wake up in the morning! fuck life and fuck years of type diabetes, fuck useless parents who fuck you up for life! fuck doctors who use scare tactics on a year old fuck you fuck everybody. I just done. | suicide |
I'm nearing the end of my line, and I see no way out of my grave.I've never really had it easy in life. Pretty much everything that could go horrible, actually went horrible. After two decades of loneliness, abuse, neglect, and pretty much the shittiest of humanity, I'm left with a set of issues that only amplify themselves. Got social anxiety so severe, I can't even leave my room to go to the toilet or kitchen because I'm afraid of my flatmates. My depression has pretty much brought me to rock bottom a year ago and I've fighting for my sanity almost every day since. I've got absolutely no friend, nobody I can trust or confide in. I'm fat, ugly, nobody likes me. Never even kissed a girl in my life. I held hands with two girls so far in my life, once as a joke and once as a sort of trust exercise. I see no way out, short of an actual miracle. I've dug my own grave and I'm going to be buried in it some day. | suicide |
lost hopei'm yo and live with my parents who are emotionally and verbally abusive. it's summer, i have a job without enough hours, and i'm learning how to read again after a horrible car accident and concussion. i got out of this stupid town, then i got sexually assaulted times and addicted to heroin. months sober next week. i just...my parents don't trust me at all, my ptsd tells me i'm not human, none of my friends will even reply to my texts, i'm in constant pain from my accident. i feel like i'll never get better. some days i think about leaving, but where would i go? i have a friend in texas (i'm in california) and my plan (if i can survive long enough) is to buy a car, pack it, and move in with him until i can manage on my own. idk if i'm ranting or looking for an answer. all i think about is dying. | suicide |
On my I will reveal what the biggest spot on my forehead looks like ruh | non-suicide |
Define DepressedI have heard it comes in many forms, yet i dont know them. i wouldnt consider myself deppressed bc i am happy sometimes. can someone define depression for me? | suicide |
My family is falling apartMy husband came out with having gender dysphoria on our anniversary. I wasnt even the first person he told. We have two children together who adore their father. Hes decided he doesnt want to transition since his parents and siblings would not be supportive and his friends arent very supportive either. He also doesnt want our kids to lose their father. Ever since finding out Ive been spiraling into deeper depression. Im so scared. If I could just fall asleep and not wake up I would gladly take that option. My husband keeps telling me that thats selfish and it would hurt the kids so I keep trying to not think that way but Im hurting so much that pain is physical now. I feel like I cant breath and whenever I eat I throw up or feel nauseous until its digested. Im terrified of what the future looks like for my family and dont know if I can hold out long enough to see it | suicide |
My crush calls me Miss and its so cute and it makes me really happy idk what to put here so place your carry ons on the seat in front of you, please place item in the bagging area, something something i miss him | non-suicide |
Sorry to bother, just having a tough timeI've struggled with depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts my whole life. It seems pretty unwarranted from the outside, but for a good portion of my life I've known it would end by suicide. I had made pretty detailed plans on how to do it by causing the least amount of pain possible (as far as who would find my body). I began drinking blissfully for - years until a wake-up call this year, and now have been sober for months. I've made huge strides in self esteem, my anxiety, so many areas since cutting alcohol. But the pink mist has faded and I'm finding it harder and harder to stave off depression. My husband still drinks, fairly heavily. He's my best and only friend. He does not think he has a problem but refuses to stop even though I've made it clear how awfully it affects me. Its just not his time to realize he has a problem. It's beginning to feel like that time will never come. Were thinking about having kids, but the thought of post partum on top of this scares me so much that recently I can't stop the intrusive thought of "well at least you could kill yourself". The holidays suck, covid sucks, I know it's a slump, I know I can get through it. Yet, it's beginning to feel like a certainty again. And the plans are being made again. The worse I feel, the harder it seems I'm screaming and no one is there. I'm supposed to pick myself up and dust myself off again and again and again but I'm tired. And it's sounding old and stale. Thanks for listening. Im using a weird reddit account, I hope that doesn't affect anything. I try to be a positive force in my other account. I don't want to hurt anyone if they found out I'm struggling this badly. | suicide |
Instead of choosing to end it all, I choose to stop living insteadFirstly, yall can go through my post history, theres a long-ish post I made about seven months ago which details all my problems. Im M and honestly, I thought will be the year I change everything bad about my life. Instead, what do I realise? I hate myself with a passion unrivalled. I cant even look at myself in the mirror without self loathing. I just wake up every morning and tell myself how lucky I am to have not killed myself the previous day. Im perfectly happy to give others advice and cheer them on but when it comes to myself? I cant even stand myself and I dont know why Im chugging on knowing I despise myself so much. Today morning I decided to stop living instead. Not suicide, but to not be truly alive either. Ill still do my college work and upskill myself enough to make a living and probably treat myself to some material possessions and thats it. I wish to be this emotionless person because I cant take this pain anymore. I will no longer expect anything from anyone or even from fate or whatever, which is messed anyways. One day I wont wake up and maybe Ill be happier then. Or I wont feel anything at worst. I cant stand the pain of being alive each day. Its more of a burden than a blessing and honestly its not like my life is meaningful anyways. I attempted suicide three years ago and nearly succeeded and I know dying will reduce the chance of anything remotely good happening to zero. But I dont have any motivation to live either. I like writing code and learning programming but these days I cant even focus on it. Sorry if this sounds like rambling, I hope Ill make it through . | suicide |
Im watching Rick and Morty Rick just turned himself into a pickle funniest shit Ive ever seen | non-suicide |
i just want a gf but i only attract depressed gamer boys not complaining tho | non-suicide |
Y'all know any way to make money over winter break? I'm and in major need of a bag over winter break. I'm willing to do practically anything for money but most likely jobs are gonna be online due to Rona. | non-suicide |
Does anyone want to chat?Basically the title. I feel really depressed right now. | suicide |
Among Us mobile version: MGEPRQ Join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join join | non-suicide |
If you could go back to any time period for a day, what time period would it be? Explain your choice ___ | non-suicide |
I did it, I actually did it I got the courage to tell my friend I liked her and she answered were already married silly:)I thought I was gonna get rejected hardcore, because I am not the best good looking guy, that is for sure. Shes so amazing and doesnt care that Im lol. Shes so it makes sense but I just thought she wouldnt like my height. There is a chance boys | non-suicide |
My bottle of ranch went missing from the school bording fridge help | non-suicide |
Is it OK to kill yourselfHi everyone never thought I'd have to write this but I'm ready to kill myself. I've no friends my younger brother died years ago my mother got breast cancer and recovered from that and now they have something in her lung I'm really worried about her the only family I have. It's strange the only thing that makes me feel a little bit happy is killing my self. | suicide |
It sucks This friend (female) i have a crush on turns to be lesbian and now i have to help her get a girl friend and convince her parents not to disown her(the friend) bc her parents are againt LGBT | non-suicide |
I do everything wrong.Nothing is worth it anymore | suicide |
I think its finally timeToday after work i will finally be going to by the shotgun that will be placed in my mouth. My depressuon and complete negstive attitude towards lufe hss pushed away every single person that i have ever cared about. I have absolutely no life goals or ambitions at years old. I have been doing nothing but biding my time and i just cant anymore. My world is gone and its never coming back. This is the first time ive been excited for something in so long | suicide |
Why doesn't he love me?(I'm not suicidal but I really don't know who else to turn to) I can't please my father. I never have been able to. Out of my two sisters and I, I have been the disappointment in his eyes. And I did it again. He screamed and yelled at me in the car because he was late to picking me up and I was talking to my mom about the heat and so she called him (which I didn't ask her to) and he got mad at me for talking to her. And he screamed and cursed and said I was a child. For nineteen years, almost twenty, I have been trying to make him happy with me. Why me? Why does he love my sisters but hates me? I always disappoint him. I have never had high enough grades, never went after the right kind of classes in school, never had good enough boyfriends. But my sister's always have. He used to hate my older sister but once she got with her fiance and started working on computers (mathematical things), he has adored her. She still doesn't like him. Actually she hates him but puts up with him. My little sister has been the star child. I love my little sister and my father thinks she is the best thing to exist on this earth. But why doesn't he love me? I didn't have the best of grades and have always been a bit more creative than logical but nothing I have ever done has been good. I'd show him some art I made and he would glance but my little sister would show him some art she made and he would Oh and Ah over it. I feel like such a young child, trying to make her father proud but I have never done it. To this day I still have yet to make him as proud as my sister's have. And it hurts so goddamn much. It breaks my heart every time I try but I don't know how to stop trying. I want to see him proud of me, if only for a minute. | suicide |
Requirements to date me - Be a convertible - Less goooo | non-suicide |
I want to do it tonight but Im scared of who would end up finding meOnly thing that is holding me back is the fact that one of my family members would have to find me. It would most likely be one of my younger siblings and I just cant even think of that or do that to them. I honestly wish I could just disappear. The thought of just fading away in the bathtub sounds very pleasant and peaceful and Ive built up so much thought and stress of just getting it over with tonight. | suicide |
Addition to my last post that I forgot to add Potential tw for some! \- Made a rant post about how some adults in my life are trying to bring me down and shit, this is another rant. I fucking hate it when adults tell teenagers that its "gonna get much harder" or "these are the easy years" or "you'll regret wanting to grow up" like we glorify the fuck out of the teenage years so much that people be thinking somethings wrong with them cause their lives aren't playing out like a movie. Does it get harder? yeah, in a sense it does, because we are given a lot more responsibility. But it doesn't have to be miserable. Like what a stupid thing to tell a highly suicidal and depressed demographic that its only gonna get worse. Btw, it fucking doesn't! I can tell you that me graduating, attending college and working, I'm at the happiest I've ever been. Its hard, its exhausting, and yes the depression still is there. But I'm no longer craving death at my every hour. It gets high and low, you get happiness and sadness, you will get your heart broken and fall in love. Its what life is! I hate these damn people who keep feeding this idea that your time for happiness is running out and its only gonna get worse. | non-suicide |
Hi some questions about how to have safe sex (Posting this here because I think I may have been banned from r/LGBTeens. Whenever I post, it gets automatically deleted with no explanation.) I cant imagine myself having sex any time in the near future but I would like to keep some knowledge about how to not get an std in mind. Im a lesbian so Im not worried about getting pregnant, so do I have to worry about safe sex? I know there are stds but how do those work? If two girls are both completely virgins and have sex, is there any chance of them spreading an std to the other person? Can you get tested for stds? I know that straight couples that want to have kids dont use a condom, so there must be a way to know if your partner has an std, right? I really appreciate any feedback or links to sources. | non-suicide |
Im not happyIm not. I cant please anyone, not even the closest ones around me. Im not worth anything, and Im useless in every aspect. I thought I was worth of love and affection, but Im just a worthless spec of dust in a neverendless dust fucking tornado. My death will affect no one and the world will keep spinning. Ive bought my rope now I just need a tree. | suicide |
Living for my little sisterHonestly my life is a complete joke. I am a complete failure and a joke and I have no motivation or interest in living in this fake society humans have made and deemed normal. I just cant. If it wasnt for my little sister I would probably be long gone by now. Shes and looks up to me heavily. I could not imagine the pain and suffering I would put her through if one day someone has to inform her that Im gone and never coming back. Maybe one day things will change so I can finally stop living in this absolute mess of a world and my miserable existence can end. But for now, I just need to tough it out and be a role model for my sister. Its going to be a very dark road ahead and I am not looking forward to it. | suicide |
u/Toomuchweed will you be my pogchampette? This is not a proposal this is a threat You have no other choice u/Toomuchweed | non-suicide |
I hate TikTok. It is a stupid cringy app that is made for thots, whores, sluts and more who just dance to some music. This dancing is cringy and doesn't make sense. The site is % used by girls. Boys have better stuff to do as usually :) | non-suicide |
Why am I forced to life a life that I simply don't like?I've been thinking about something a lot recently, and that is that you don't have true freedom until you can decide whether you want to live or not. Why is suicide such a bad thing after all? When I've tried the stuff that people usually think of as why life is worth living, like friends, love, family, shit like that, and I simply don't think of it as something I care about? I don't feel super bad, I just feel that life is such a drag, and everything is just exhausting, without any real reward. | suicide |
Corrosion of my Brain.I dont have a bank account nor a license my individual dependency is so low I honestly couldnt function without- I dont know my Mum? Ive lived so long without meaning, at first it was awesome no stress in the world no one is dependent on you, in a way your virtually free from all of lifes modern stress. Year goes by still living in the state of not having to worry about getting a job having to find food etc but coming onto three years and Im - still here not progressed with living independently , its not just that days become repetitive, years of memories similarity blur into one, and its of me starring at my ceiling. Guys I feel- I cant even describe how I feel into language, my brain feels just like its deteriorating, I have no self confidence to be able to get a job. One failure is enough for me to slowly self-destruct even if things go good afterwards. Im so lazy but not in the cleanliness sense but in doing something active with my life, I do push to make things better but even if things go good its this self destructive behaviour I cant seem to tackle. Being brought up quite roughly has made me have a Nothing Really Matters vibe to it, not that I dear show or express thats the way I feel about things those thoughts are % lurking with every action I do.. I want I dont know what I want, I want not this. | suicide |
I dont know what to do with myself anymoreEverything seems downhill from here. Every single major goal Ive had in life has either failed or is failing before my eyes. I feel like i peaked in high school and my peak was pitiful. I cant seem to even get a job that I can be content with. I would go back to school but Ive ruined my academic record and even if I were to get accepted, I have problems dealing with authority figures. Ive lost all my closest friends because Im a parasite who leeches off of others to even try and get things done. The only way Ive come even close to accomplishing goals is by exploiting people until they despise me. I dont even want to, but its the only way I havent completely failed before. My family are the only people who care about me and honestly thats the only reason I havent pulled the trigger yet. Honestly, it irritates me that they are the only ones holding me back. I just dont want my Mom or Grandma to hurt themselves because of me. | suicide |
My girlfriend studied in a convent school. *No wonder she likes the "missionary" so much.* | non-suicide |
Experiencing LonelinessHi. Im years old and live by myself in a one bedroom flat. I grew up in a less amiable part of London and attended some of the worst schools in the country. I was severely beaten in my first year of secondary school, had my phone stolen at knife point, had my bike stolen, even had my fucking beanie stolen which I got as a gift and didnt even realise it was some designer brand until the thieves mentioned it. Anyway. My dad was an alcoholic who would come home drunk almost every midnight and keep me awake until am. I used to long for those rare times he would remain at work overnight so that I would have some reprieve. Throughout the years I learnt to keep to myself. I persevered and eventually was admitted to one of the top universities in the country to study medicine. This is the only highpoint in my life, the only thing that thinking about make me proud of myself. Soon after my first year I moved out of my now divorced mothers house. She was the only person I had regular contact with; I barely see my father once every few months. I have no close friends. I met some people I got along with at college but we went our separate ways with some attending other universities around the country and others I dont even know. I have their numbers but I never kept in touch and neither did they. Im and never had a girlfriend. I thought I met someone but it turned out she had a boyfriend. After that I realised how deeply lonely I am and how much I desire for someone to share my life with. The growing emptiness inside has crippled me. I was supposed to be in my th year now, but I didnt even turn up to my exams and have been dropped from my course. My mum always said that the reason she keeps waking up every day is to see me succeed but after hearing this she hasnt talked to me for over a month. For the first time in my life I want to talk to someone about what Im feeling and theres no one that cares. The last thing I want to do now is spent whatever time the money I've saved buys me driving around Scotlands countryside. Then Ill probably see myself out. Im not going to follow this post, Im just happy if another human being reads this. Thanks. | suicide |
Being told not to kill myself by people who don't even know me. How bad does it have to get before people say, fair enough just do it?Some background about me; m from New Zealand, been suicidal on and off since I was which was my first (admittedly shit) attempt at suicide. Since then they've been scattered throughout my life, I've ended up in hospital multiple times after attempts, and had overdoses as common as weekends. It sounds like such a stupid reason, but the human touch/connection is so important, like there's billions of people in the world you could get a hug and conversation from anyone, but I feel so isolated. I know this subreddit is about preventing suicide, but not everyone has the same opportunities, upbringing and resources to make their life better. Suicide is the final solution, but sometimes you've used up all the other options you have. What is the point of waking up everyday wondering how you're going to do it this time, having to take days off work because you're not in the right state of mind. Whats the point in going to sleep and waking up with nightmares of still being alive? | suicide |
im gonna go crazyyyylike. um ion know why im on here but so i ruined someones life. and the whole situation is really screwing with my mental health which has literally never been good and its getting to me rlly rlly bad. but um ya im thinking abt kicking the bucket. | suicide |
Why does my family put me down when it's clear that I'm strugglingI've been really down for the past months I've had constant dry eyes that are not going away. I've tried everything to fix it but it's not going away. I know with the corona virus it's hard to access doctors or opthalmologists but I need to know what's wrong with me and how to fix it to be sane. I feel frustrated that my parents don't feel a sense of urgency to get me help. I get told I'm selfish for wanting to see a doctor or opthalmologist and that it's not possible. | suicide |
Putting one word of "Castratikron" until I complete the whole song. DAY Born. (Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler) | non-suicide |
I just feel trapped.Ive got nothing going for me. No goals, no aspirations, no interests other than playing video games like a degenerate. Even thats not the same anymore. All my friends are going to college and doing something with their lives and Im stuck sitting here. I dont know what I want to do. Even if I did I cant afford it. I think about ending it all the time but I just cant. My mom and sisters would be devastated. My friends would be devastated as well. And I cant in good conscience put the people I care about through that sort of pain. So here I am. Trapped. Even if, god forbid, I outlive them all, I still dont think I would be able to end it. The fear of failing and being stuck in a vegetative state is enough for me to continue on. I cant see a therapist because theres no way in hell Id trust one. Thanks high school English class for making us read One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest and making me develop a crippling fear of involuntary hospitalization! I also cant afford a therapist so theres that too lmao. So Im trapped here waiting for the inevitable, hoping that some space debris will come and fly through my head and kill me instantly. Thatd be the day. I dont know if this is the right sub to post this on because Im not on the verge of suicide, Im just ranting. Maybe r/depression but I dont know. I surprisingly feel a bit better after writing this so I may start a journal or something to keep my mind occupied at least for a few minutes. | suicide |
I want to end nowI probably have covid- and it probably won't kill me but this past months I've been unemployed and my relationship with my gf is toxic as hell. My mental health is declining, hoping that the virus really does kill me. | suicide |
i want my guilt to change mei feel stupid writing this, but i just want someone to know. i grew up very religious, and i was taught from a young age to wait until marriage. waiting till marriage is something very important to me. it shows my love, and obedience to God. i told all of my friends, and i showed my pride for being a virgin. but... i met this person. this person was quiet, and calm. i was definitely attracted to them, and i got to know them more over quarantine. one thing that stood out to me was that they were also a virgin, and they never had a relationship. i ended up telling them about my feelings, and they returned those feelings back. we started to hang out. i noticed on the third day of hanging out, they became touchy. i told them that i didnt like it but they seemed like they didnt care. theyre kindness masked the red flags of being touchy. about a month in, i lost my virginity. this person didnt force it, instead i asked. now, my guilt is starting to come in. i noticed that i havent been spending time with my mom, and that i miss her. i have been gone from the house more, and havent been doing my chores. i really want my guilt to get worse, so bad that it will make me stop asking for sex. no one knows about what i have done, only my sister, and God. i really want to tell someone. someone that knows what im going through. so far my guilt has lead me to think about suicide, something i have thought of before. i really just dont want to deal with what i have started. | suicide |
I HATE TH PERIOD SO GATDAM MUCH MY TEACHER JUST GOT MAD AT ME FOR GOING TO THE BATHROOM DURING CLASS CHANGE. LIKE WHAT THE HECK. WHEN AM I SUPPOSED TO GO! SHE GETS MAD AT ME FOR GOING DURING CLASS. AND IT DOESNT HELP THAT THE TEACHERS PET IS SUCKING UP TO HER LIKE A BACKUP DANCER SAYING TOLD YA AND wHerE WheRe YoU and WhY whErE YoU So laTE BRUHHHHHH WHAT THE HELL! | non-suicide |
Dose anyone ever remember me, Do you ever just go, oh theres palmtree? | non-suicide |
Been a while r/teenagers Been a while since I posted here. I hope yall are doing fine! If you want to chat just dm me or ask to dm as Im lonely like usual haha. | non-suicide |
Greetings people. The government enslaves you, your lives are all a f\*cking lie, the universe is a simulation and you are an idi\*t to believe in it, f\*ck yourselves you beta human, depressed, st\*pid andys | non-suicide |
Don't really feel like living anymore?This post might be a little messy because I'm in a pretty weird mental state right now, so I'm sorry in advance. I guess I just don't really want to live anymore even with all the "silver linings" of pushing through it or whatever. I'm not at physical risk right now but the thoughts are still very prominent. I'm transgender, my parents don't accept me, I'd be letting go of my family if I transitioned, and it's been recommended that I get tested for autism because I struggle a lot socially. I'm just really sad all the time but I don't feel like I even have a right to be. I'm about to graduate college and just the idea of entering "the real world" sounds too stressful and makes me have panic attacks. I guess people might miss me if I was gone but they'd move on from it because that's just what people do. Sorry, I know I sound very unstable right now, but I guess I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't afford therapy and I've exhausted the free options in my area. It's all too hard and I just don't feel like going on anymore. | suicide |
Free award to whoever comments first come first serve First to tell me who was the King during the beginning of the French Revolution gets an award. | non-suicide |
MelatoninI don't think an overdose would kill me, but I don't really want to do anything aside from sleep. If I can't kill myself, at least I could pretend I'm dead. Would anything really bad happen aside from a coma if I took a bottle that has pills, mg? I took my written driver's test today and fucking failed. I'm and don't know how to drive,. Sure, I've grown up poor, and that might be the problem, but this is just another disappointment in my life. My sadness is affecting the family, and I feel like a huge asshole. I can't do this anymore. There's no point. I keep thinking maybe I'll be okay, that I'll feel better, but I can't. But even if I'm not dead, I just want to stop thinking about it. | suicide |
I got diagnosed with alopecia areata and Ive lost almost all the hair on my body.Im on medication. Ive been pouring steroid lotion on my scalp along with fenastopic (fenasteride spray mix). I am so miserable. I used to be depressed anyway because of being gay and how my dad and many others spoke about gays I had suicidal thoughts for a long time because I am gay. Im but I look its every time I try to push through I get pushed back so much. I cant keep pushing any more. I just need my life back. Please help me | suicide |
I've been talking to mom about, still doesn't get it.Depressed since . is coming soon. Still this black moon hangs over me. I want to hang with it. there's a lot of nevers in my future. But I've made my mom cry and i'm glad I won't be alive to see the next occasion. The question is- do I write a letter? Do I record one last love song? Do I stick a middle-finger up and retreat into abyss? Syonara reddit, and online friends, logging out for goods. To my mom who I will miss. | suicide |
Its not a matter of when but howIve been in pain for years now . Sure there are times I am happy but it doesnt last for long . I thought getting things I always wanted and bringing more people into my life would solve my problems but ultimately no good job , friend or relationship has been able to do that . Therapy didnt help , neither did the antidepressants . I see no point in living in pain for the rest of my life . I wake up every day and before I can think of whats happening my chest is already tight and full of anxiety . The depression soon kicks in after and another day of misery begins . Im just too tired , I know I will kill myself Ive been ready for it now many years | suicide |
I never feel good anymore and Im tired of it I just want to have one good day but nope... my body always has to come over and fuck it up and Im just so tired | non-suicide |
Am I correct? I said that guys are usually more mean to their friends for fun than girls and this dumbass girl called me a sexist, like wtf. Guys dont behave exactly like girls we're somewhat different. | non-suicide |
Self HarmI self harmed for the first time today. I don't know why I did it but it seemed appropriate at the time. I wish I had something to live for but I don't, right now it just seems like I am just prolonging my life and my problems seem so much smaller than everyone else on here | suicide |
Suicide attempters what was your hospital visit like. what tests and servivces did they render to you?disputing a bill. Seeing what others experiences were like to whats normal. thanks for taking the survey | suicide |
I just cant hold it together anymore.Im sitting here with tears streaming down my face as i write this. My depression is taking over again. I feel lik a shitty mom, a shitty wife and an all around awful person. I feel like everyone around me would be better without me. I feel lik my daughter and husband deserve better than me n its the first time in a long time that i have really thought about killing myself. Im so scared. I dont want to leave them and i dont want them to see me dead. I just dont know what to do anymore. | suicide |
I dont know | non-suicide |
my dad found porn on my phone fuck | non-suicide |
hell is far but the devil is close by | non-suicide |
Pretty poeticI talked her down and convinced her to stay halfway through December, we were together for four years. She left me mentally in March, officially in August after she told me she didn't love me anymore. Now here I am, where she was when we met. Pretty poetic ending. I wish it hadn't ended | suicide |
Where do you think you will be in years? Describe yourself right now and what you want to be then !remindme years | non-suicide |
fuck it, i'm done tonightMy mom is terminally ill. All I spend my time doing is fearing the moment she dies. I've decided I don't want to be here for it. I'm sorry this will hurt her, but at least she won't hurt for long. I'm out. | suicide |
Putting together a search party Lost my social battery I bet one of you stole it Filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
Trying to fight the urgeIve just got home after being on a psych hold for a few days. I called for help after I was so close to ending my life and wanted some help. But now Im back home Im struggling again all I want to do is end my life and take a load of pills and put me out of my misery. I dont know whether Im strong enough to fight the urge by myself anymore. They werent helpful on the ward just had someone watching me all the time. Maybe I will fight the urge maybe not | suicide |
I'm just going to kill myselfThis is what goes through my mind everyday: Nobody would notice Nobody would care Nobody would bat an eye to your despair People don't care about your suffering This is just a world that you are made to die painfully in, just do it now and get it overwith Your parents hate you Your family hates you All of your friends hate you **E v e r y b o d y h a t e s y o u .** | suicide |
Should i get back on my social media? I decided to delete one of my social media because i felt like doing something to remove contact eith my friends for the reason that i just gave up on life. Now im thinking of getting back on just to be safe but im very adamant about giving up, i do not think ill try again but knowing me, ill try again because you know fuck me am i right? So what do i do? Just give ur opinion on what i should do, you do not need to say yeah because i think i wont get back it anyway because i dont want to just get back on it after days. | non-suicide |
Goodbye friendsMy name is Jane Milnes. Today is my last day on earth. I've been planning my suicide religiously since I was . Tomorrow is the final day for me (well I guess it's today since I'm writing this at at night, but I digress). To all the wonderful people I didn't get to meet, hello! I hope you have a great life. I want to be remembered for something after I'm gone. I've spent most of my life trying to be an artist. Art is really the only thing that has made sense to me, and it has given me a sense of purpose. I'm not very smart, as you can probably gather from my horrendous writing. But art gave me the means to communicate with the world in a meaningful way. So if you would like, check out my instagram jane_milnes. It is the only record of my work thus far. All I wanted in life was to touch people with my art. Unfortunately I failed at that. But if you are curious feel free to check out my page, it would have meant a lot to me. Goodbye again friends, treat each other kindly, and never take the people in your life for granted. This is Jane signing off for a final time. Goodbye and I love you. | suicide |
feeling good af rn dont mind this little blog post just thankful that I exist, imagine how lucky you are to exist, people say life sucks but I think it's better to live a shitty life than to not live one at all | non-suicide |
Music recommendations Gimme some songs to listen to while I walk | non-suicide |
Hella bored rn, anyone wanna dm? Yee just as the title says | non-suicide |