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Bollocks to online therapy, I give upI tried online therapy last night but the person I was speaking to seemed absolutely useless. I explained the fact that I felt isolated from society due to the current circumstances because of certain conditions I have and that I suffered from having a nervous breakdown from everything building up, and they just responded back with "Well, we're very sorry to hear that but you always have connections online.". That's beside the point, sitting behind a screen / isn't going to do my mental well-being justice. I now have no counseling available. I've just come to a point now where I've near enough given up. I'm an ugly piece of shit who doesn't deserve to live. I hate this place, I hate what I've had to go through, I hate the lack of understanding there is in this world, I hate this shambles of a government, I hate the amount of abuse there is towards minorities and vulnerable people, and I hate the fact that whenever I get close to someone, I always cock it up on my own behalf without realising it. I've had enough. I've let so many people take advantage of me and I've lost many people because of this. I wish I could just fade away. I can't cope with the strenuous demands of life anymore because I just get too confused and overwhelmed. | suicide |
ThinkingI want to go to an overpass, sit in the edge, and think. I need to feel closer to death to gain perspective. Maybe even jump. I dont know yet | suicide |
The Christian religion is a mind fuck.So I am supposed to live up to some degree of cultural standards... Have a job, earn money, raise and provide for a family ... basically function. If I fail I'm supposed to pull myself up by the boot straps, accept help if needed and try again and again... But even if I prove again and again that I am not meant for this world, that I can't function normally, that I am of no value to society, family or anywhere really... I can not take my own life or I will go to hell. Seems like a big fat catch . Damned if I do and damned if I don't. I'm so tired, seems like hell is kind of a sweet deal since I won't be the one torturing myself anymore. | suicide |
I really wish it didn't smell like a cookout inside of my house right now I'm laying in bed with a mask on and I can still smell the smoke a bit | non-suicide |
Me in th grade realizing that that I still pass with a C and dont need straight As *interesting* | non-suicide |
bruhento momento bruh moment ***no*** # BRUHENTO MOMENTO | non-suicide |
My skin is so dry Maybe cuz all I eat is salads, Cherry/Strawberry-watermelon Soda, and candy | non-suicide |
Idk what to do anymore...I just don't know what to do anymore. All my dreams and aspirations have been crushed one by one. Every day I would try something new but nothing seems to work. I just can't find a reason to live. I had dreams. I was gonna study physics and just be happy. Science was one of the only things that kept me going. But now my dreams have been crushed. I am doing a degree which I hate so much I have no idea what to do. I just want to flunk out and kill myself. I honestly just want to end my life. The only reason I am still alive is because of my best friend. She has been through so much with me. I want to just do it but I know she wouldn't ever forgive me. I love her so much. She is honestly maybe one of the only people I actually love. I feel like I am going to end it soon. I just can't take it anymore. I can't even formulate a thought to talk here. I am literally just rambling. Please, someone just help me. I feel so alone. I know she is there for me but we now both go to different universities and she is so happy at her new school. She also didn't have the best time with mental health. But I can tell, she is genuinely happy right now and I don't want to ruin that for her by calling and telling her how I feel. Reddit, please, tell me something. Anything. I am going to kill myself if I don't get anything. | suicide |
SINGLE OR OCCUPIED?!?? Just wanted to know how many people can accompany me. I AM If you are single If you are occupied. | non-suicide |
The strongest people are the ones who kill themselves.how can you tell me they aren't? Your whole life you escape dangerous situations the best you could. it is written in you to escape harm and to run when it comes to fight or flight. no one wants to fucking die. the strongest people are the ones who kill themselves because they themselves decide to die and they themselves are responsible for their own death. they overcome that urge to survive, that urge that is so hard to break | suicide |
A friend of mine tried to commit suicide yesterday.And I need your advice. A little more background info: Yesterday, my ex-girlfriend, which I'm still very close to, called me. She told me that our friend, let's call him Leon, just tried to kill himself. But he failed. Leon has been my friend for about years now, he is my best friend. We can talk to each other about love, sex and stuff (We're both ), but instead of talking to me about his suicidal thoughts, he talked to my ex-gf. She has been the supportive person that is mentioned in the guideline of /r/swrecources He did not want to worry me. But whatever. I instantly called Leon on Skype after hearing about this, and talked to him. Tried to make him stop. But I had no chance. Litterally Zero. It seems like there is nothing I can do. Leon doesn't want me to tell other people about his suicide attempt. But I can't sit around waiting for him to kill himself. And at this point, I don't care anymore about what he thinks about me. I want to save him. I love him too much. But should I respect him and not tell anyone about it, or should I make the first move to inform people, who can probably stop him from killing himself? (Like his brother?) I arranged a meeting with Leon today, to get him busy so he can't try it another time. I hope Leon shows up, it is a shitty feeling to wake up and not to know whether your best friend is still alive or not. | suicide |
I just had a super weird dream So I went to the cinema with my best friends. And it was a love film(I don't even watch those). In the middle of the film one of my friends starts to kiss me(at this point I can't move), he then just started to strip me and cuddle with me NAKED (almost sex). nobody in the cinema was paying attention. It didn't feel bad but I was confused. I have no idea what the fuck this means. Side note: I am not gay. | non-suicide |
Cant vape around my dad Im vaping cannabidiol (cbd) for my eczema and anxiety. And my dad knows this but he still looks at me like im a failure and it really depresses me even tho ive been a good kid to him compare to other kids in my neighborhood that r gang members and shit. Why cant parents be more open minded to medical cannabis | non-suicide |
If you need to talk or vent or just need someone to listen dm me. I got dmed by someone who needed someone to listen a while ago and i would like to think i helped, i know a lot of people have issues and sometimes they feel like they dont want to burden people with there issues, well i want to help. I dont care how big or small you problem is or if you just had a sucky day. Dm me. | non-suicide |
"A hundred times I wanted to kill myself, but I still loved life. This ridiculous weakness for living is perhaps one of our most fatal tendencies.""a hundred times I wanted to kill myself, but I still loved life. This ridiculous weakness is perhaps the most disastrous of our inclinations ; for is there anything sillier than to desire to bear continually a burden one always wishes to throw on the ground ; to look upon oneself with horror and yet to cling to oneself; in short, to caress the serpent which devours us until he has eaten our heart?" Voltaire anyone? | suicide |
The people that are telling me to go on living are the same people causing me to kill myselfI'm talking about my parents, i mean they aren't abuse or anything like that it's just i care too much about them. They definitely have they're flaws and thats it, my mom constantly screams at me telling me to work and of course i can't cause of my severe anxiety and my dad doesn't care or he just doesn't want to deal with me. Fuck my life I'll just end it as soon as possible, anyways I'm sicl of being human. | suicide |
Wow I turned today Almost forgot to unsub. Have a nice day | non-suicide |
Is it still a thing to send streaks in snap? I have really bad social anxiety and stopped sending streaks about a year ago. however, I want to try and start again. is it still a trend to send them? will people think Im weird? | non-suicide |
I need friends Discord is toffee# hmu if you wanna chill with me I'm so bored | non-suicide |
Fuck fuck fuck.I swear to god, i do not want to live anymore. Wtf should i live anymore??? What the fuck??????? I have been keep asking myself for the last half an hour, why the fuck should i luve anymore? I have my brain on suicide mode, i can realise that my life sucks and that i have made it this way, but i really do not want to stay alive. I keep myself from crying for a while now. I do not know if i want to stay alive or not i am so fucking confused and i have no idea eith whom i should talk about. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. | suicide |
How can I kill myself fastI'm done. I can't do this anymore. I just want it to be over. Can somebody give me a reasonable way to do it? I have access to different options but I just want one that'll get it over quickly | suicide |
I dont feel safeSpent some time on r/Collapse and legit believe I should kill myself immediately now. No point in trying to get my life together if Im already out of time to actually live. | suicide |
THIS IS NOT A SHITPOST. I don't want to kill myself until the Leafs win the cup again.I've been suicidal for years. Turning this summer. You know how there are some things people decide they don't want to die until they see? For example, "I don't want to die until I see my grandaughter get married" or "I don't want to die until I see the first black president". Something like that? Well, I'm currently lying in bed with a noose around my neck and I can give you good reasons why I'm not going to kill myself. They are, in order ) I don't want to make my mom sad, ) I'm afraid to die, and ) It would make me tremendously happy to see my favourite sports team break their year championship drought and win a Stanley Cup in my lifetime. Now, obviously if I can get through the first two points then I'm not going to let the Leafs stop me from killing myself. But it's a little thing that's currently acting as a stopgap between me and my death. | suicide |
Please, for the love of God, stop making bait posts. It just makes me not want to click any post. Most of them are unoriginal jokes from and are all the same. Just please stop | non-suicide |
Pro Tip for Among Us When colors are calling each other out and one of them swears its the other color, tell them: "[Insert Color Name], Can we vote you next round if its not [Color they say is the imposter]?" An imposter will Never say yes to this question. Example: Red(Imposter): Its has to be blue, I saw him vent in Security. Blue: Nah its not me. You: Red, can we vote you next round if its not blue? Red: Uhh.... | non-suicide |
Is ' short for a year old boy? Hello, im a year old boy from Norway. I've been noticing lately that im very much shorter than everyone around me, I dunno if its genes or what ever but pls help. Thank you :) | non-suicide |
I left home today.I'm sitting my car, contemplating on what my next move is. They dont want me back, no one ever does. I'm most likely going to start hitchiking westward tomorrow. I have all my gear with me, so I'll probably get an uber down to an oasis and try and pick up a ride there. It's hard not to want to end it all right now, but I really want to see some beautiful scenery before I leave this earth forever. | suicide |
Im doneGuys im done, i dont have anywhere to leave this, and i will leave this here Im done, im just done, can't see my life going like this, im drinking drinking every day and dont have a solution for nothing, can get the love of my life back, can't help my parents, can't help myself... Some problems just dont have a solution | suicide |
Going in circles.If I go ask for help from mental health services theyll just refer me and then decide that i shpuld just go ahead with therapy which is what im doing. Im dping everything the services tell me to do. I take my medications but still all i can think about is killing myself. Im not living. Im doing what im told. Ive told them this and they say it takes time. The more time goes on the more courage i get to kill myself. Im too afraid of failing and that fear is all thats keeping me alive. Im at a loss at what to do. | suicide |
Goodnight EveryoneI hope we can all make it through the night so that well be able to see how silly our thoughts looked in the light of day, and how the sunlight, of even for a second, makes us feel a bit warmer than the coldness of the night. I hope that we can all use this week to find our footing, take a stand & begin to get back up. However, its completely fine to want to lay down for a while, its perfectly fine to want to stay down & build your strength, as long as you know that we can always get back up again. Always. I know it feels terrible now. I know it doesnt feel like theres any reason to keep wasting oxygen. I know. Been there, done that. And thats why I can say, without a doubt, no bs or generic crap youd read in a book, no joke.. it gets better. We cant force it to, and it takes time, but in the beginning, youll start to notice how things seem not as terrible as before, how maybe that person who cares about you really does care or that you do really have someone who still cares after all this time, or even to the point where you think you have no one.. look around. The fine people on these forums are hurting just as much as you. Maybe say hello, maybe make a friend, maybe itll take your mind off everything, even for a minute. And please, please, all I can ask is that you call one person before doing anything serious. Be honest. You might be surprised, you might not, but either way, just know that Im proud of you for making it this far. We both know you couldve been gone a month ago, a year ago, an hour ago. We both know what youre capable of, but I know youre capable of a lot more, I just hope you can stick around long enough to see how much the world would miss you. How much I, an internet stranger, would miss you. So goodnight my friends. I hope you all sleep well & I cant wait to feel the sunshine | suicide |
Terrified I'll die after Christmas, but I don't want to (xpost from /r/offmychest)A few of the commenters on /r/offmychest when I posted this there directed me to here. All help is welcome. I'm at a loss of what to do. I just am very tired of failing after trying so hard all the time. People say if you fall off the horse, just get back on, but at what point do you realize that maybe you're not made for riding horses. I'm just not good at dealing with people. I can't deal with women anymore. I've continually failed, and been rejected. I've tried to change seemingly everything. Worked out, and gotten in shape. I have a good job that makes good money. I try to be supportive while still being my own person. I used to have confidence but a string of unfaithful partners destroyed that. I just don't know what to do. I have loyal friends and good parents, but I no one ever loves me (in a romantic sense). I don't want to die, but I've just lost motivation to keep going. I've always tried to look at the bright side, but I don't see a way out. I started cutting again. I promised I'd never to that again, but I failed at that too. I do feel bad about the pain I will cause my family & friends, but I've lost all hope. After Christmas, I'm calling it quits. Thank you Reddit for helping me hang on a little longer than I would have otherwise. I don't want it to end this way! I'm so tired of being alone, but I can't feel alone if I'm dead. TL;DR I've given up hope. I'd welcome any and all help. | suicide |
Im tired. Good morning, day or night to you all. Ill be back in hours | non-suicide |
I miss my mom so much...I lost my mom to cancer last summer and I miss her so much, I think about her all the time, everyday. She was my everything, all I had in this world and she was taken from me and now im left with nothing and noone. I want to see her, kiss her and hug her so much it makes me cry all the time. I want to go in Heaven to see her. I want to kill myself. I have nothing, no education and no job. I cant live like this and knowing Ill have to live like this for next , years makes me want to kill myself even more. For my dad im nothing, he wouldnt even shed a tear after I'm gone. I want to go to Heaven to see my mom, its the only thing I want, can I see her if I kill myself? I did everything right in life and I know I can go to Heaven. My biggest fear is Ill never see my mom if I kill myself.. I never sinned, can I go to Heaven if I kill myself? | suicide |
I just purchased the things I'm gonna use to off myself and idk what I'm gonna write to my family and friendsIf i even write to them. What should I say idk im just so out of it | suicide |
I don't know if I can keep going onHey, I guess there are a lot is posts on here like this, but I just don't know if I can keep going on. I'm transgender, I hate myself so much. I can't keep going on like this. I can't look in the mirror without wanting to die, and every time I dress in clothes that make me feel even slightly more comfortable I get stared at like a fucking freak. I just want to be normal, but I can't and it will never get better. I might as well die. | suicide |
I wish I was like freddy mercury dead repost cause other one was tagged as spam | non-suicide |
So much has happened, I don't know what more to do.There's so much to say, and I don't want to type it all. My girlfriend doesn't want to be with me anymore, I feel like my future has been ripped away from me. I wanted to have kids with her, I wanted to support her, I wanted to give her everything, provide for her and show her how much I love her... But I fucked up, really bad. She doesn't want anything to do with me... I tried to kill myself last month, ended up getting twenty stitches on my arm, and I hurt myself again.. It's really really deep, I can see bone, I think... I can't tell anyone, or go to the doctor because I will go to a psychiatric hospital, and I need to be able to get a job... I don't know what to do... One side of me wants to do everything to fight for her, the other side of me wants to just end my life... You can probably tell which side is winning... There's so much to understand, I want to type it all, but I already feel like I've typed too much, and I haven't really explained anything... I can't pick up anything with this arm without excruciating pain, I think it might be broke, I'm not sure. It definitely needs stitches... I just want this to all be over. | suicide |
party time | non-suicide |
The girl I like asked me out, feeling great! She also asked me to go to her place after lunch. I'm not gonna screw up. | non-suicide |
I hope Reddit will add a proper blocking function somewhere down the line. Reddit is continously developing and I think they should address the blocking function. Currently, all it does is hide the person you blocked. It doesn't stop the person you blocked from viewing your posts or comments. I hope Reddit will make it so that the person you blocked can't view anything from you anymore. No posts. No comments. This will add some proper spice to blocking and make it more fun. Rude people will become even more salty than they already are while you can happily move on with your day, knowing that they can't view anything from you anymore. Reddit should add this. | non-suicide |
I have no passion to live on, like there's nothing I really care aboutI don't care about having kids or a family or even getting married. I don't care about getting a nice job or owning a house. There seems like there's no goal for me since there isn't anything I care about and I think about ending it a lot. Probably not anytime soon, but one day. | suicide |
My dad came into my room handed me a cookie and left Pog | non-suicide |
(Ex) girlfriend cheated on my for monthsits all gone | suicide |
Guess I just needed to put this out in the open.So I've been preparing this a while and after typing it, I sound like a whiny bitch. I'm going to make this tl;dr version instead. I'm lazy and I've always hated revising. I want to go to University to do something along the lines of science, but I feel that isn't realistic because I never have any motivation. I think I just want to leave home instead. I don't know what I'd want to do as a job though, I love computer gaming and would love a job in some sort of IT industry like programming or software/hardware development. My chosen AS levels (I'm and I live in the UK) won't be suitable for this job I think - I do maths, biology, chemistry and psychology (irony hahaha). Although all of what I just wrote there is irrelevant because I just feel like I could end my life here and now. A tiny part of me wanted / to happen so I wouldn't have to worry about my future. Now I worry more than ever. Yes I'd cause my parents/family/close friends depression on somewhat severe scales but I don't really care anymore. I don't have any straightaway methods of killing myself apart from stabbing or jumping so I'm not really in that much danger I suppose. I don't know what to do anymore. Do I just end it now or do I look up other options? My parents always seem to make out that without going to Uni that I'm going to fail life and not suceed and be happy. I want to know what my options are. At this moment in time and for a while after, suicide is going to be one of them. I know that even thinking about not commiting suicide is a sign I shouldn't but it's really a / split and they both seem a viable choice (life and death). Any help would be greatly appreciated. If you think this is long then you should've read my last one which I didn't submit. -Anon (hopefully if I selected the right options) Edit: Grandmother just handed me some clothes she just ironed for me. I could barely smile at her. I hope she doesn't notice. | suicide |
How do you date a set of twins? So uh Im and Ive been searching for answers and I just discovered this sub but anyways I need advice on how to date a set of twins. Both of them are and every time Im with my cousin, I always catch a glimpse of them following us from a distance and whispering in each others ears, but when I walked by my self one day, they came to me and asked some personal questions and then gave me their numbers, and asked me out to go to the movies with them. Im not really sure how to handle it since I havent dated a lot of people let alone twins and I dont have that much experience in relationships either. TLDR-A set of twins asked me out and I dont know what to do | non-suicide |
Why can't I die?I don't want to be here. There's nothing for me. All I do is hurt other people and I hate myself so much for existing. I wish I could just kill myself but it's so hard because I know that would just hurt people too. Why is it impossible to live without wanting to die? | suicide |
Will somebody please be my friend?Throwaway account for some strange reason I still care about my image... I don't know either. I'm lonely and I only have one friend. He's a fucking emotionless machine and more dead inside than me. He's hopeless in the literal regard and I don't understand how he hasn't killed himself. I can't confide in emotions with him. I went through a breakup months ago and I really don't know what to do anymore. She used to be my sole friend. She was my girlfriend, best friend, and only friend (had at the time). She left me. I didn't fight it. I regret that a lot. I don't know what to do with my life. I just work and go to class. It's hard to motivate myself to do school anymore. I want to quit my job. I dislike my roommate. friends went to with the breakup. After the breakup, I found out one of my friends I found out wasn't. So to friends. My friends turned to recently again. She was moving on and removing all the darkness from her world. I'm lonely and I don't know how to make friends. I've struggled with depression for over a year. I've been on medication for antianxiety and some for depression. I can't afford to pay for the medicine anymore so I quit well over months ago. I'm lonely. I'm a shitty friend. I really am. But I'm trying to be a good one. Will somebody please be my friend? | suicide |
I wrote my suicide noteOkay, so a couple nights ago i decided i needed to have a suicide plan, i started writing my notes. When i was done i felt an odd feeling of happiness and peace. Does anybody know why it felt so good? i had wrote five notes personally addressing people and explaining why i killed myself. And one disclosing how i want my stuff to be given away and stuff like that. (btw its so annoying trying to plan your suicide if you're bipolar) | suicide |
TODAY IS MY BESTEST FRIEND'S MARRIAGE!!! So, my bestest friend is going to marry his crush today on Reddit!! I really wanted to mention him here and wished him congrats but as he is not comfortable with that ..so...can y'all congrats him on his Reddit Marriage? Thank y'all in advance. | non-suicide |
I can'tI just can't handle life anymore. Call me a weakling I don't care. I can't live like this. I've internalized every shitty thing everyone has been saying to me since I was a kid. Friends, family, teachers, everyone. I hear it all in my head on repeat every fucking day and I can't take it. It's so loud and it won't stop. I just want to be at peace. I don't have any help or even an outlet of any kind. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of having nightmares. I'm tired of the negative voices echoing in my head. I'm tired of pretending that I'm okay. I don't want to get high anymore and I don't want to self-harm. I feel like there's no way out. I fear one day I'll just fucking implode. Collapse in on myself because of the void building inside me. Kill me. I just want to fucking die. | suicide |
Otter > text post weekend  | non-suicide |
How do I get those flairs that show my age? A lot of people in this sub have those blue flairs next to the username that show your age. They exists in all subs but show other texts. | non-suicide |
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Cyberbullies :( help meMy daughter is being bullied online on her phone and basically anywhere else. She got pulled out of school but now at night kids vandaluze our yard and spray paint FATASS and CUNT and other things on out property. The police arent helping at all saying they couldnt find evidence of who did it and they cant do anything online. We put up security cameras and caught the assholes in the act. The police just warned them to stop. They didnt! She cuts her wrists has drank bleach and attemped to shoot herself. Tl;dr daugters life ruined Turned emo and is suicidal Need help | suicide |
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It getting better is not a complete lieIt does get better but then gets worse. Horribly. Very bad. I wish I killed myself before hand. I'm a worthless piece of shit good God I wish I had succeeded. | suicide |
Restore the Republic, get a Silver. It would be a shared oligarchy, governed by offices of varying degrees of power by Leaders nomimated by the population. Select members of r/teenagers would form the Senate, who would be in charge of writing and passing laws. consuls would hold the highest office in all of the Subreddit, with the power to make major decisions for this Republic, each holding the power to veto the other consuls in order to maintain the balance of power. Oh and the Senators get to write their own constitution. Silver award to whoever volunteers to be the founder of a hypothetical government inspired by the ideals of the Roman Republic. You'll be in charge of: .Inviting and/or recruiting citizens. . Organising the creation of our constitution(heavily influenced by our citizens) . The appointing of political offices, the creation of the Senate and nominating the Consuls. . Making laws(whatever you want, must get input from population and approval of the Senate) . Finding a cool name for whatever this is. . Other stuff associated with running this. We on behalf of (insert name here) thank you in advance for your service to our great society. Edit: The award expires in hours. I'll give it to a random when I wake up when this dies in new. | non-suicide |
the realisation that i will never be with her really hurts that's the truth. i will never be with her. i will never be loved by anyone. why im forced to live like this | non-suicide |
I've tied a noose. I think tonight is the night.I say its a noose, it really isn't, its pretty basic but after a stress test it does the job. For the longest time my few remaining friends and nephew were the things stopping me from ending it, now I've deleted my reddit account and I'm ready to go, almost. I'm building up the last bit of courage. The loneliness feels like a literal darkness. Like a book closing and the shadows being cast on the pages. I don't think I ever had a chance. | suicide |
glacier ice is considered a rock. water is liquid ice. therefore, water is lava thank you for coming to my ted talk | non-suicide |
I want to die | suicide |
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I really wish I wasn't an atheist.This whole week has been a self pity party. I've been undiagnosed with a random illness, which everyone thought was Celiac. Except, now my problems are coming for no reason at all. A new lovely symptom is my hands and feet sweat non-stop. It's disgusting. This, on top of being tied to the toilet all day, is really killing my self confidence. It doesn't help that my girlfriend and I broke up a week ago, and she's been with someone new every night. I know we're broken up, and she's not cheating on me, but god it hurts to think about. So much. She even tried to make out with one of my best friends, which is apparently ok because they're both girls. I'm starting college on Wednesday, about days from now. I'm really not finding the motivation when my health issues might cause me to drop out. Yes, I'm seeing a doctor. No test can find anything yet. I just wish all this suffering had a purpose. I don't want to just suffer and die and that'll be it. I want to know that there's some meaning to it all -- that everything that's happening to me will be built up on some karmic exchange and soon I'll have a good day. But no matter how much people shit on me, I never seem to get a fucking break and all my problems get worse regardless. Most of my day I spend in bed and in misery. I keep looking up suicide bags. Some people just have shitty lives and die, and I think I'm probably going to be in that group. | suicide |
I got a free award Send a random porn subreddit name and a word to search on it, top post gets the award | non-suicide |
Done with life at I'm exhausted. I'm tired of life. Every single day I wake up...but for what? Just to live the same old life, do the same old routine. I go to school, I come home, I cry. I contemplate suicide more often than I have ever done before. I gave up on taking care of myself. I stopped eating proper meals about months ago, I stopped caring about my appearance. I go days without showering or brushing my teeth. During holidays and weekends I usually stay in bed all day and sleep my life away. I used to hurt myself and now I just look at my scars and think that...maybe I shouldn't have stopped. I can just break down and cry at the thought of just being...here with no purpose in life. Being around people is so difficult for me. I have severe anxiety, so much so to the point that I hate going out in public alone. I can't even order myself food or asking for help in public. I always make one of my only friends do it. I only have four close friends. They're the only people I'm comfortable around and honestly I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them. My parents aren't people I want to talk to about all these thoughts and feelings. I just...don't want to be around them anymore (for reasons I won't disclose) and I distance myself from them. I'm only years old. I shouldn't be feeling so worthless and useless. I have as much of my life as I can have ahead of me. Why am I feeling like this? People tell me to be grateful that I was born in a position where I have the opportunity to live a comfortable life and that I'm better off than others but...what good does that do? Is it meant to make me feel better? I just don't know what to do anymore. I just don't see any point of my being alive. I'm just tired of everything. | suicide |
Cussing doesnt make you cool Its a fact. Its something people get into in like th grade thinking if they cuss, it would make them cool.There are some annoying kids that still think that you have to spice up the sentence with cuss words to make it cool No it doesnt. | non-suicide |
Suicidal yr here, tonight's the night.Tonight is the night I finally gather my strength and end this stupid life. I've waited long enough, only to get hurt again and again. It never gets better, does it? I won't be missed too much - barely any friends, my family will be fine without me I'm sure. I only wish I could have made a better mark on this world, right now I'm just that annoying pathetic kid that nobody really likes. Sorry to everybody for being such a disappointment. I love you all, but this is for the greater good, trust me. | suicide |
guys guess what i have the same birthday as some squirrel from animal crossing | non-suicide |
Song by Jacob NashSuicidal by Jacob Nash I do not care about my life! I cannot lie; I want to die! Everybody hates me. When I'm gone, they won't miss me I don't contribute to society; it would be better off without me Everybody hates me. When I'm gone, they won't miss me I don't contribute to society; it would be better off without me | suicide |
Watermelon sugar highhhh I'm listening to fine line rn, I just listened to heartbreak weather. I might listen to walls later. TPWK | non-suicide |
Why does my existence matter?I dont even know how i got here but all i can think right now is that I dont matter. I have no one else to talk to and idk why i think this will help. Why do i matter? | suicide |
I'm not in any immediate dangerBut on a scale of how likely I am to kill myself in the near future I've moved from a to a . Background: I am bipolar , medicated, married, kids, good job. On paper nothing to complain about. But I have had strong suicidal urges for at least the last decade. A year ago I decided on a method and got the things I need. In the last month I have a) sorted some logistics and b) started to clear admin. I have also been having incredibly violent fantasies (like stabbing myself, jumping etc), which is a departure from my relatively tranquil initial plan. I see a therapist and a psychiatrist but I am scared to fully fess up for fear of getting sectioned. I'll die before being hospitalised. | suicide |
stream 'lie' by jimin for a lil kith < pls listen to this song it's AMAZING mwah mwah / chef's kiss ! < ^^ | non-suicide |
I am too broken to be fixed :(I remembered being punched by my dad when I was . I didnt want to have ponytails since it made my head hurt he told me he would do them and if I didnt like them he would take them off and I didnt like them and he got mad and gave me bloody nose. He didnt take me to school and asked someone to watch me. He gave me two more bloody noses one in middle school and in High school. They would always humiliate me about my weight I tried not eat a lot but as soon as a ate as a normal person my weight will go up. Turns out I have chronic illness dealing with my digestive system I am always in pain and nauseous. No one in my family takes my illness seriously they make fun of my I cant complain about my illness. When I was young my dad cheated on my mom and he took out his anger on me and my other sister I have siblings. My sister and I have a bad attitude but I dont blame her they ruined our childhood. My parents dont owe up to their mistakes they put us in the middle of it when dad cheated on my mom. We had to leave the country for a few months when it happened it was affecting us at school. The lady my dad cheated on my mom had everyone of their child bullys us at school and bothers us back home. I am always sad they always comment on my weight when I cant even control it. I always have to be on medicine. I just want to give up on life already. The only thing that keeps me alive is my bf but sometime I wish he would find someone else so I can just end everything without guilt. I dont feel bad leaving my family behind. My dad told me he prefers me alive so he doesnt have to pay for the funereal. | suicide |
Have a little discord community going on If anyone wants to chat and be real come hang, we are pretty blunt so don't be afraid Dm me if you're interested, I may take a bit to respond because I sleep | non-suicide |
My poop wont come out right now and Im a little peeved. For all of those out there, I ask you to lend me your energy to get through these difficult times. All you have to do is answer this question: What was the best experience youve ever had in the bathroom? | non-suicide |
I think my mom wants to put me up for adoption Today we had family game night and we always listen to music when it was my turn to pick a song i panicked and play DESTROYA by My Chemical Romance. | non-suicide |
Finding little to no meaning or interest in my lifeI've been idolizing suicide and death for most of my life. I don't look forward to my future because for what? My whole life I've felt like a miserable piece of crap. The thought of carrying on like this is exhausting. And right now I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I've been to therapy, inpatient, outpatient, meds, etc. I feel an overwhelming sense of boredom and a void in my soul. I rapid cycle hourly and then bottom out and stay down for days. Too tired from depression to move, think, let alone try to manage my life. Crappy, lonely childhood. Codependent, abusive long term relationship in adulthood with a narcissist addict. But for some reason I'm in love with all my abusers. I need constant validation, which is impossible. Being trapped in my own head full of pain and obsessions is so, so tiring. I just want to end my life. I'm sick of it. The fear of the act and the impact it would have on my loved ones keeps me at bay. But I want to be living for me. Just not this me. | suicide |
Why don't mods reply? I messaged the moderators for a concern I have on loneliness. I have come up with an idea to solve it and hence I messaged them to help me reach a wider audience in this subreddit and inform others to fill up a short questionnaire form. Loneliness is a major concern here and everywhere else. Help me so that this concern gets noticed in this subreddit by the mods and I can successfully come up with my product and help others. | non-suicide |
I'm really ready to end itI'm , I have bad grades, I'm super ugly, I have friends, I'm a disappointment to my family, I just hate living, fuck it all man.... Please give me a reason not to | suicide |
I trained all my life for this and...... I failed my algebra test _ | non-suicide |
Just gonna vent here if you guys dont mind I dont know if it's just me but its really hard for me to make friends. First of all it was decently easy for me to make friends in school but ever since this pandemic I dont get to see them or talk to them. Another reason is that it's hard for me to talk to other people because I'm afraid they won't like me or I embarrass myself. If any of you guys want to help me out you can, I just have been feeling kinda lonely and I just want someone to talk to and hang out with most of the day. Thanks for reading this kind redditor :) | non-suicide |
Ive attempted suicide times in the last hours. I dont think itll get any betterIm feeling so awful and shitty. My friends are all terrified that i wotn make it to tomorrow and I dont want to make it to tomorrow. I want my life to be over. | suicide |
Sleeping troubleHey anyone reading. Just made a reddit account today to ask strangers for help with life. Ive been unable to sleep well for a solid months now. Its bad too, i either dont sleep or get just to hours and it's killing me, didn't mention in my previous post but my closest friend cut her wrist again yesterday and got stitches, i asked y and she said she didnt even feel sad or angry she just did it. Thats one more thing thats now on my mind. My mind doesn't stop thinking being quite a dark person, i feel stressed rn, im worried about her tho i cant really think of how i can reassure myself that she's ok like she told me, i know shes not but i feel the same so i cant really think of what to say to her that could make her feel happy even just for a bit. Just let me know of some otc pills (in Australia) or working methods for sleep, or even what i can say to her | suicide |
Im doneI dont think Im depressed but lately all the days have started running together. I barley get out of the house due to how overwhelming online school is and how hard my mom grills me when my grades are not up to her standards. Ive started just not feeling anything, I just dont care anymore. Only two months ago I really got an idea of what I wanted to do with my future and started working towards it, but now I just dont care anymore. I have these episodes during the day where I just wish I could die to escape the monotony, Im just done I dont care anymore | suicide |
It's not porn, it's hbo! Don't worry honey Im just watching hbo | non-suicide |
The real reason xbox is superior. Because of recent updates xbox has a web browser known as Microsoft Edge. Because of this you can go to every guys favorite website. Cool Math games | non-suicide |
Just been banned from comp tf for days (dont ask) Any anime recommendations or game recommendations | non-suicide |
I NEED SOME SERIOUS CRUSH ADVICE Ok so theres this new girl at msg school who I rly like and she actually just texted me saying that she likes me back, BUT she said also texted my best friend saying that she is torn between us two. ( he also likes her). She said she is gonna pick someone by the end of this week and Im just so fuming nervous. I have a few classes with her tomorrow and I dont know what I should say to her. PLEASE HELP ME M, btw | non-suicide |
Guys, I get my braces off tomorrow! What should I do to celebrate my last day? | non-suicide |
Everything keeps getting worstI've been depressed for maybe about years now, I never really considered it that and please dont take offense to this, but I thought people would think i was weak If i said i was depressed and also americans tend to give medical names to every feeling in life. I only really thought about it as being depressed this year because I can tell i'm not happy with any aspect in my life. I'm adopted, yes i have a loving family, i know my adoptive family and my biological family but the only person i'm close to is my adoptive dad. other than that, I feel like i barley know my relatives, it's very lonely. My dad is not married so i'm all he has and i'm always scared because I know he will leave me one day, possibly soon. (he's getting older and might get sick and i've only turned ), he's all i have, and without him i'd be more alone than ever. The worst part is that i'm failing college, my boyfriend hates me and being in my mind is like a prison. I constantly repeat all the bad things i've said or done towards people and I can't forgive myself. I'm sorry this is so long. It's a lot more complicated than this but I just had to get some of it out. I don't know what to do anymore, I hate my toxic self. Someone give me some advice | suicide |
Ok let's see what we are working with.... ***!!*** *WOAH* that's a nice car you got there.... **can I drive it..** Hahahah only kidding... Hmmm.... the headlights a bright...but not as bright as a searchlight The paint job is magnificent, like my God this belongs in an art museum The engine could use a bit of cleaning, *it's looking all sooty in here* I give it a...... out of Congratulations raccoon mechanic rated your car | non-suicide |
/ people wont believe it! j | non-suicide |
WHY IS DABABY SO FUNNY Hes just a rapper but everytime I hear him say: "lesssss gooooo" I cant help but laugh i hate it | non-suicide |
I am numb.I am numb today. &#xB; I feel like a monster. &#xB; That is all. | suicide |
is it so wrong to want an inheritance and not work for thingsI just dont want to put in hours when it might not be worth it. Its not like im taking what not's mine. it's given. | suicide |
There are girls in my math class currently making a tiktok. There are no scales in the world that can measure my pain. | non-suicide |
Tomorrow I come back to the collegeAnd I'm scared, I think it will be my last period, after finishing I intend to commit suicide. The pain and the sadness will become very strong, I do not have many friends there and I feel like a great encumbrance in my family I think it is better that I withdraw from this life. The girl that I like will be there too and well we do not talk anymore she rejected me and it's okay that she did, it only served me to realize that I will never be able to fulfill the things that I always crave as a child. Classes have never been a problem for me so I would like my family to see what I could have been able to do. I think my final trip starts tomorrow, I just hope I can accomplish this in the end. Thank you for reading | suicide |
God I wish I had a friendI hate this, I want the pain to stop | suicide |
I might delete reddit This app is disgusting. After trump got the virus u guys celebrated. If it was reversed and Biden got it and someone celebrated they would get downvoted into oblivion. Even if you dont like him or his political views u should not celebrate him maybe dying. The same thing happened when his brother died. You people are fucking pigs. | non-suicide |