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And a big fuck you to bloating Like okay I eat four tacos and my stomach's big like oKaY | non-suicide |
Am I the only person on this sub Reddit to never play and watch among us? Filler filler filler filler filler Filler Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
Lonely, trying to help myself, its not working.I can't seem to make any friends or relationships, and its really hurting me. I live in a rural area, so I don't see anyone unless I go to work or get out of the house. I try to use tinder, but for some reason, I seem to land a date with anyone other than fat ugly women who I am not attracted to. I tried going on dates with them because I'm so repulsed by the time I finish fucking them that I hate myself even more. I don't know what's wrong with me. I dont enjoy hanging out with other people. I get too nervous that they hate me and I stop having fun. I think they really do hate me but I cant figure out why. its like that spongebob episode where he has bad breath and thinks hes ugly. I wish someone could tell me whats wrong with me. or what Im doing wrong.   I bought a gun today and am just waiting for the background check to get completed so that I can kill myself. in the meantime, I'm stuck in this weird limbo of alive but almost dead. Frankly, it's a relief that I made up my mind. before when I was contemplating it I was miserable, but now I feel a sense of freedom from being in constant suffering. I thought about writing a suicide note but i decided against it. I don't really care if people know that I suck with relationships. the only people who would read it are my parents, but I dont want them to know the details. nobody else knows i exist.  the fact that im writing this means that I have some hope that I can find friends or a woman who loves me eventually, but I think that hope is misguided. I dont know that I will ever figure out what is wrong with me or how to correct it. if anyone has any experience figure out whats wrong with them socially, id love a last resource that I could try out before my new gun comes. | suicide |
I'm planning on killing myself by the end of AugustI've been struggling with depression and suicide since I'm twelve, I'm almost now and I don't think I can take it anymore. I feel a deep disconnect with everyone in my life and my dreams have become faded and meaningless. People keep leaving my life like I'm not worth anything and the worst part is, I don't blame them. I just don't think I deserve anything. I know I'm privileged. I have a home and parents who try to help me which I know is rare, but I feel just like I'm a burden to them. It's like every to months they have to deal with my breakdowns. It's not fair. I don't understand why life or god or whatever gave them me as child, the worst person ever. I feel insane. I keep trying to call for help through any form of art I can create but I just feel like I'm going mad. I can't stop waking up in pain, I can't stop not wanting to wake up, I can't stop hurting myself, I can't stop being a burden. I'm speaking another language that no one understands, that no one wants to understand. It's fair. I don't want to go to the hospital again, they'll just make things worst. I'm stuck. If I don't do it know, it will be probably during my next breakdown. And if I don't do it at all, I'll just suffer for the rest of my life. I'll end up in a ditch somewhere. Better to do it know before I meet new people. If I had done it when I was at least I wouldn't disappoint as many people that I will disappoint now. It was mistake to wait, I won't wait any longer. | suicide |
u ever get so fuckin tired that u just over share rly rly bad idk if its the autism or what but im vibin with that rn, give me stuff to respond to hehe >:) | non-suicide |
Well, almost choked myself out.Since this house is crumbling and i doubt even the shower rod could hold my weight (lbs), i went head and tried to essentially strangle myself using some rope and our bathroom door. I managed to just chill for a few minutes, but i guess feeling like my face is swelling is too much for my bitch ass to handle. I have no real reason to stick around anyway...i cant stand being a burden. | suicide |
ive been edging for days now my horny level is beyond anything you mere mortals could ever establish in your lifetime, ive acheived a level of arousal in that i can read and decipher the thoughts of others and can move objects with only my willpower. my balls are glowing a light green hue and possess a stench similar to rotting vinegar, and they are shriveled up like dehydrated prunes. this morning i exchanged a wink with my lamp and my balls began to float. im afraid if i continue this experiment any longer, my vinegary balls will explode with vigor and desire. | non-suicide |
Why is girl behavior so weird? So a little over a week ago I asked out my crush and she said yes. I asked her something like did she want to grab a coffee after finals were over or something. I was extremely excited that she said yes and all that. Then, a little bit later I asked her what day she was free and she said that she'd have to check her cheer practice schedule for winter break and that she'd get back to me. I was like, ight sounds good. Then, for a week, she literally hardly acknowledged that I existed. I tried to talk to her. Nothing. Half the time she'd barely look at me. The last day of finals was this last friday and I tried talking to her twice and got nothing in response. One of my friends is telling me to have hope, another is saying that shes just playing with me, and another just said "F", saluted me, and talked away. I really just dont understand anything. Like, why would she say yes to a date and then just not talk to me. We have a class together, so it's not like shes trying to ghost me, I dont think? And we are friends, so like, she could easily just tell me shes not interested in me if that's the case and I would understand it. I just dont understand her behavior at all. | non-suicide |
Bro fuck male humans Like were just a bunch of cock waggling shit sticks. Like uh hahaha look at me Im (**NIGGA**) tall and what the FUCK is a penis. Just some veiny cylindrical weird ass.....its fuckin gross. And women have more interesting clothing | non-suicide |
Holy s**t I just had the most satisfying s**t in my entire life | non-suicide |
Wearing a mask incorrectly can do more harm than good to person wearing it I'm talking about wearing the same mask for several days or putting it in a pocket after some time and putting it on face again. Just imagine amount of bacteria that will be on your mounth after something like that. People can get sick only by doing so. And still many do that, then complain on the internet about how harmful piece of cloth is. Just wanted to share this yet-another-useless-opinion | non-suicide |
In order to pass PE I need to cut my mile time in half. I'm currently at mph and I need to get to around mph. Any advice? | non-suicide |
I'll be your someone to talk to.I can be your someone to talk to. PM me. I know what you're feeling. Maybe you just feel alone, we can talk about whatever you'd like. Maybe you just want someone to listen, I can be that someone to listen. By the way, I am a year old female. Just thought I'd give y'all a heads up. :) | suicide |
Thinking about telling my therapist about my attempt.I've been nervous to bring it up, but I'm going to do it. I haven't told anyone since I didn't get hurt that bad from it. But, I'm tired of being the only one that knows about this. I've been feeling guilty because i didn't call a hotline like in our safety plan... but he'll probably just be happy I'm safe. Here's hoping I don't chicken out. | suicide |
I've got that voice in my head going "I wan't to kill myself. I wan't to kill myself. I wan't to kill myself. I wan't to kill myself. I wan't to kill myself." | suicide |
Dont readI am really sorry. I survived last Time. No one knew that I tried. Again this is for the ones I am leaving behind. No one could have done anything. Its my fault. Trust me its better when im gone. One less Idiot. Thats the only way to repair the things I have destroyed. And to the Humans I destroyed I hope it feels better without me. And of course I am sorry but that changes nothing. I hope God tells me to take care of the loved ones. | suicide |
Planning on joining the Navy. Anybody else here planning to join or is in the Navy? | non-suicide |
I'm backI kinda left this sub after a little bit, but I thought maybe someone on here might have been worried so I thought I should tell you what happened. I started cutting myself. I met a girl who has since been my girlfriend. She helped and helps me through the times where i'm sure I would be better off dead just by being there. I haven't stopped cutting myself really, but she doesn't like anything with knives and I think she's going to try to help me with the times where I'm searching for a knife. I'm doing okay now and I think my recovery started here when I figured out it was okay to tell people. | suicide |
How the fuck are some of you / year olds on nofap Listen, it's fucking normal to jerk off times a day at that age, don't try to force yourself to stop and become mad depressed every time you ""relapse"" Obviously if you watch porn for hours a day that's a different story, but I'm certain % of you don't do that | non-suicide |
I just cant take myself anymoreIm stuck with the person who I hate the most for the rest of my life. Just want it to be over | suicide |
Am I the only one who thinks that the person who invited someone to a date should pay Like if Person invites Person to a date, probably person should pay (Except if the bill is very expensive, then the bill should be split) | non-suicide |
what is ur myers briggs personality type? before the comments come i am well aware that this test isnt particularly specific and can get things wrong but the outcome can give a broad picture of the person plus its fun so... | non-suicide |
I'm kinda bummed out my crush and I couldn't hang out yesterday. I asked her if she wanted to do something yesterday because it was the last warm sunny day of summer. Now the forecast is just rain and thunder for a loooong time and it would have been nice to do something with her before the shit weather kicks in. She had a lot of homework and other school stuff so that's why we couldn't hang. Sure it's not like we can't do stuff when it's raining but you know. Bad weather is not fun | non-suicide |
Just drop ur awards here if u dont know were to give them. Just drop them here if you have some spare awards that will expire soon. | non-suicide |
I just...I can't anymore.There is nothing that is going to bring me out of this hole I'm in. I tried so hard to be happy On my own-- be my own happiness because it's foolish to expect anything out of others. I'm twenty two years old I know how fickle and awful people can be. I just want this stop. I want everything to stop. I don't want any of this anymore. I can't do it. I can't be the person everyone expects me to be. I'm too fragile, confused and tired. I can hardly take care of myself anymore. I just want this to be over. I don't care who I leave behind at this point. Go ahead and call me selfish, fuck you. Fuck you for thinking everyone else is somehow STILL more important to me. I can't do this, I can't keep pretending I'm happy or that everything is going to be just fine. I'm so angry and tired at my core. ANYTHING would be better then this. I wish I could have stopped myself from even being born. I give up. | suicide |
this sub has gone to shit this isnt a joke, its just not funny anymore. fuck all of you. WOAh i aSkED mY CrUSh OuT!! SHE SaiD No/YEs HaHa GuyS iM HorNY hAHA FuNY JokE!! | non-suicide |
My life is fucking forfeitNothing will ever be the same our.household and guess whose fault that is Tried jumping out the window when my brother caught me Fuck | suicide |
What are some less painful ways to do itI dont want it to hurt | suicide |
I'm tired of talking about it. I want somebody to do something.I'm tired of venting on the internet. I'm tired of phoning crisis lines and listening to them repeat the same script over and over again. I'm tired of visiting the emergency room and being told there is nothing they can do. I'm tired of going on google in search of any possible help and getting the same answers on every website. "If you are in a crisis, please call . If this is not a crisis situation, please make an appointment with your GP." I've seen my GP numerous times, along with a psychiatrist. Medication hasn't helped. I can't afford private therapy or anything like that, so i'm stuck is what is free. Get what ya pay for I suppose. I'm agoraphobic and have been housebound for months now. I'm nauseated and weak everyday, and I never exercise. I'm barely eating and for the last months i've been sleeping during the day. Talking has gotten so old. I'm fed up. I can't live like this anymore. The system here(in BC, Canada) is complete bullshit. I'm refused hospitalization, psychiatrists don't return phone calls, not one physician will do a house call. What the fuck am I supposed to do? My only fucking option is to kill myself. | suicide |
This most to eu people, do you miss social interaction? Last time I went drinking with friends I had so much fun. It was my first time doing such a thing and I hate that didn't go with them earlier. | non-suicide |
How do u reply to lucky u or omg lucky Lol how do u even reply to that | non-suicide |
Girl are you reddit? Cause I go deep down on you | non-suicide |
My Reddit account is months and days old This is the only day I can say this | non-suicide |
Well bois, i did it i jerked off for so long my leg fell asleep. I am now going to bed and will answer any and all questions tomorrow | non-suicide |
Me and my friend made a discord server for f fans, wanna join? If you want to, dm me for the invite | non-suicide |
Does anyone here ever watch freak accidents that involves someone dying, and just wish that that person was you?I used to go on r/watchpeopledie and r/MorbidReality a lot and sometimes I would wish that the people dying there would be me. It would make things so much easier because anyone who has even considered caring about me wouldn't have to feel guilty, thinking that they were the cause of my death. | suicide |
Anyone from the UK still up and doing the exact same as me? scrolling through reddit, Instagram, Facebook and whatever porn and memes come up whilst not actively trying to go to sleep but sort if wishing you were | non-suicide |
Anyone know how to get rid of boredom? I think if someone dm-ed me ill feel better But no really, if you wanna chat hmu. FillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFillerFiller | non-suicide |
So, I got friendzoned by my crush yesterday, but this is no ordinary rejection story....... Less than hours later, aka today, my crush got friendzoned by her crush. I can't stop laughing at irony of the whole situation. | non-suicide |
Should I stop being optimisticIm always trying to be optimistic because I appreciate and love life but the world and people are always trying to give me reasons why its a fools practice. Should I just give up and become a bitter depressed hateful little weasel who will inevitably kill himself? | suicide |
I am not sure whether a guy is using me or not. help? Not sure whether this is the right place to turn to but I've been having problems with this one guy. I have met him only two times. The first time i met him was at a local skate park, he was teaching me a few things nothing special but i asked for his social media. Shortly afterwards we started texting and it was really fun. We would call eachother and talk endlessly. After a week or so we decided to meet up. The meet up didn't go all that well. I was kind of awkward because i could barely hear him (my ears were plugged with water) and I was with a broken foot. After the meet up he just texted me "well this was interesting". He kind of stopped texting me and so did I. Am not sure how but we once again started talking pretty lots and it was nice until he started leaving me on read and only texting me at night time when he was horny or needed attention. I didn't really please his hornyness but I would definitely text him back. recently though i sent a pic of myself in the mirror (nothing sexy or anything I was just smiling with a text saying "how you doing?:))" ) the picture wasn't ment for him but he immediately texted me saying "u hot" and asking if i was in a fucking bra (once again horny as shit) which i was wearing a simple black dress and I can maybe see how he could've confused it because it was v shaped. And he's all like oOh send me of how u look in that sexy dress. I sent him beetlejuice pointing at him because I could understand that the dudes intentions were most probably different than to just compliment my dress. anyway I guess the problem here is he is very fun and attractive and i like that a lot but he is most probably keeping me around for different reasons or am I being fucking crazy? this is the beetlejuive pic I sent him[.]( Beetlejuice (entertainer) - Wikipedia) | non-suicide |
I set a date days. In days, I will know if I failed a class for the th time, I'll know if the only thing I've been looking forward to the past year can actually make me happy, and I'll get paid, so I will be able to afford a gun. I'll clean my, pay my Bill's, and maybe write some notes. I've never felt so prepared for the future. | suicide |
What does it say? `>+++++++++[<++++++++>-]<.>+++++++[<++++>-]<+.+++++++..+++.[-]>+++++++++++[<+++>-]<.` | non-suicide |
message me kinda bored so if anyone wants to message me that would be appreciated, f and open to all types of people | non-suicide |
I have finished Spanish on Duolingo I can feel the Spanish flow through my veins. Duo has released my family. I am more powerful than ever. | non-suicide |
I've been thinking about suicide more and moreI've been really suicidal twice in my life. Well, sort of. First time I had it planned out but told someone before anything. Second time I told my [then] girlfriend I was suicidal and belonged in a hospital, which is what ended up happening (thought I was put into detox there instead because of my alcoholism). But lately the thoughts have been coming back. I'm in rehab and been sober three months, but still there. Lately I've even been thinking about what I would include in my suicide note, like formatting it, I know how and where I would do it, and it just sucks. It isn't so much that I feel like tonight I'm going out the door to do it, but it always lingers in my mind. I brought it up to my psychiatrist today, but just told him thoughts about it are returning, not the extent of it. he pretty much said start going outside and other shit and blah blah but I like what he said. I don't want to tell my therapist at rehab or my case manager because I am afraid that they will send me to some "higher level" of care and I do NOT want to be sent somewhere like a hospital or whatever. I have a job and am trying to start a new life out here. Maybe the stress of all that is getting to me? Like when things start going bad my mind goes to how I could just kill myself, everything will end and I won't have to worry about it. I also worry that sometimes I think about it and want to do it, or attempt it, just for attention, and that makes me feel like a piece of shit and even worse, which starts that circle of making me think about it even more. I have been taking my medication every night and like I should, no alcohol, but fuck man. What is wrong with me? I know this isn't normal, thinking about what it would be like if I was just dead. I'm sorry to ramble but I need to just fucking tell somebody that it has started to get to the point where I think about a lot everyday. Thanks for reading. | suicide |
How to overcome suicidal thoughtsI've been suicidal for a few years and I've had fantasies of killing myself for a long while. Back in middle school I used to write poems about suicide and I contemplated writing a suicide note and killing myself. I don't think I have the guts to do it though and I'm not saying that I'll kill myself I just need some advice on how to overcome these thoughts and this suicidal ideation. | suicide |
I love life butDoes anyone else ever cut out of extreme anger? Like when i just think of all that life has thrown at me i just get so angry and feel this huge urge to cut lines into my chest/arms/legs after i feel so relieved like a fresh breathe of air i know its unhealthy but it feels so good id never off myself its not that i don't want to its just im not dumb you know i know after this its lights out thats it i might as well try to be happy and have fun while im here my bday is coming up im not celebrating it but im still happy aging is a privilege some of us are denied im blessed i swear to god im blessed i love my life. | suicide |
Removing myself from this website Reddit sucks. Ive been here for two years (this is one of four alts I use) and absolutely excruciating. This site has made me so cynical, stressed, and angry, that Im concerned for my mental state. Reddit isnt a fun communal hangout space which I was lead to believe so many wasted months ago. I joined because I have nobody to speak to in my actual life and I assumed this would help. I handled it well for a while but now every time I get argued with for half an hour or told to kill myself Im punching walls and kicking over furniture. Ive cried several times and Ive got no sign of mental stability left. Adios Reddit, youve literally drained the life out of me. | non-suicide |
I can't fight the loneliness and the pain anymoreIn the past year I've ) Been cheated on by the only girl i've had a relationship with. And the only girl who has ever been interested in me. When I found out she decided I wasn't even worth any remorse. ) Got a painful incurable disease that made me borderline bedridden for months. I'm currently managing the symptoms but I'm dealing with pain every day. ) Had all of my college friends/acquaintances drift away from me as a result of . I haven't had a real conversation with someone in months. I can't make new friends, no one wants to date me, and I don't have the will to fight anymore. I'm sick of being judged, sick of people wanting to exploit me, sick of watching everyone else be happy, and sick of every pathetic thing I do in my life. I can't take any more of this and I just want it to end. I think about my death every day and how little everyone will be affected. The only thing I had stopping me was not wanting to vindicate my ex's decision to throw me away like trash, but at this point that loses out against wanting a release from this nonstop barrage of shit I can't escape. | suicide |
Give me a reason to kill myself......I'll give you a reason to live. | suicide |
I'm literally a ball of anxiety right now I'm this much away from having a mental breakdown | non-suicide |
Attempted to kill myself todayToday, my dad and I had an argument. Well, more like, he got irritated about me that he told me everything how he felt and I'm just silent, since I can't really talk back on my dad. So he was telling me that I'm going crazy, I should never have called for help in FB and just killed myself, I should just die. And he knows I have depression. So I did the most logical thing to do. I tried to drown myself in the shower. I had a large bucket, filled it up and stuck my head in there. Unfortunately, survival instincts kicked in and I didn't die. I did this three times but I would always grasp for air. I realized that this is a too gruesome death, I dont want to be found naked, and I haven't wrote a new suicide note yet. So I decided to not kill myself today. Someday, I'll do it. Just need the right method. Edit: starvation sounds like a good idea. | suicide |
Does Reddit use more or less data than youtube? My parents turn off my wifi at night so I have to use my phones mobile hotspot so that I can use the internet at night. However, last month my mobile hotspot ran out really quick cause I watched a lot of youtube. I don't want that to happen again so I'm using reddit. Do that use less data than youtube? | non-suicide |
Did i jump in too fast? Plz read Basically i made a friend days ago (i sort of like her). We both have just moved to italy and today we were talking about school. I was going to a different school than her and we both still havent signed up for our chosen schools. Bla bla bla she said "hey you should go to my school" and i said yeah sure lemme ask my mom. I took this seriously cause as said in the first sentence im kind of into her and i havent learned italian so it would be nice to have a friend. My mom agreed and also my dad. And im getting a feeling that she got a bit weirded out by this. | non-suicide |
Hoping i dont make itI really really really hope i dont make it out of this one. I couldnt even afford an ambulance if they called one. Its so terrible it makes me want to laugh. im just hoping it takes me. | suicide |
I feel like my life is overWhat I thought was the worst thing that could happen happened. My boyfriend and I broke up after . years. I was abused since I was a child, which made me develop PTSD, and dropped out of school at because I couldn't take it. I tried going to therapists and taking meds but it didn't help, so I wasn't functional and couldn't do anything with my life. When I was I started dating my boyfriend, and since I had nothing and no one else, my whole life was about him, which of course is really unhealthy. Because of my PTSD I would constantly get triggered because of things he would say, and he wanted to break up multiple times since year ago since he realized how unhealthy it was, but he gave more chances because I was starting to improve my life by studying etc., of course I was still getting triggered and he couldn't take it anymore. Now I'm and I feel like there's nothing I can do. I tried going to therapists but it takes forever and it's too expensive. And I have to live with my mother who's in denial about being abused so she's abusive herself, which makes it much harder for me to be functional. I'm completely alone and I don't know how to get help. I live in Spain and there's so little help in my city. | suicide |
goodbyeit's too late.. all you'll ever want to do is talk.. you can't help set me free... | suicide |
Bro what the fuck wasnt it Looney Toons? Not Looney Tunes? My brain hurts Fucking Mandela effect man | non-suicide |
My own mother told me she wished she aborted me.Every day this house is hell. Absolute hell. From the minute I wake up in my tiny room there's nothing but negative words thrown at me. All my year old mother can do is drink and curse at me and is in deep debt. We don't even own a house we have to live with my christian grandmother is equally as mentally abusive. I've always been told I'm ugly, just the other day she sat and told me how disgusting I looked and how her year old friend looked so much better than me. She comments on my body a lot it's horrible and I hate it. They'll both be extremly nice to strangers but when it comes to me I get nothing but hate. I can't take this anymore. I have health issues too which I get mocked for. I've tried and tried to apply for jobs for years, no one ever answers apart from rejection emails. I have no friends and no family and every weekday/weekends are spent with these two people who hate me. I live in a tiny house with mold/spiders too which is equally stressful as I find insects in my room daily. I don't know how much more I can take. | suicide |
im so FUCKING done with everythingmy life is shit. im so fucking tired of waking up, feeling anxious about doing anything, cutting, skipping school cuz when i went to school people told me to kill myself and i remember this one day when a group of dudes just appeared out of nowhere and started punching me without any reason. my teacher saw this but he didnt do ANYTHING to stop it from happening. one day someone put SHIT inside my bag and told me to tell nobody about it or he would fucking kill me. i started cutting like years ago and it honestly has helped me to survive this fucking unfair world where we live in. i have had only one gf in my whole life. we had been together for over two years and she was honestly the best thing in my life. i actually felt happiness but then i caught her cheating on me. after that i started cutting. i am also diagnosed with aspergerssyndrome which makes it so FUCKING hard to live a normal life. i hope this shit fucking ends soon. i want to do it on the christmas day so nobody is going to care because they have other better things to do. | suicide |
Would beer cans, xanax bars and percoret pills kill me?female, , bmi (I also have acces to tylenol, sleeping pills, benadryl and vitamins.)? I want to end it tonight. I just wonder if is it enough. I am a yrsl girl, who struggled with anorexia, bmi . &#xB; So I wonder if it is enought. HONESTLY, tell me it would be so appreaciated. thank you for your honesty everyone of you.. thank you. | suicide |
So depressed right nowIt always happens I do something to dissapoint my wife of years, she gets pissed at me and hey presto she says "the only reason I am still with you is cause of the kids". See she can't work as both our kids have downs syndrome and need constant attention. Today she not only said that, but when I told her how sorry I was she said she didn't want to hear it and that she was over it. This phrase always hits me in the gut and straight away I feel like harming myself. I have in the past prepared things for a suicide; noose one time, I own a couple of very sharp samurai swords so it wouldn't be that hard. I even got one out one time and went for a walk in the woods, but chickened out after a couple of hours, we also happen to live in an apartment on the th floor and that balcony out there looks mighty tempting. Things are complicated at the moment as her Dad is in hospital with an untreatable condition and we are likely to have to move in with him to look after him. His wife died when my wife was young in a car accident, and her siblings probably won't help. I usually don't follow through as I think of the life the wife and kids will have with no source of income. But it is getting harder, after one of these events I usually feel depressed for weeks afterwards, the worst bit even when she has gotten over it and she sees I am depressed she gets shitty at me for being depressed, I don't know how much longer I can do this. The stress of being a sole provider, working my ass off and then getting treated like shit means that the depression seems to be lasting longer and longer sometimes one just rolls into the next. Sorry for the long rambling post but it is hard to not explain everything. | suicide |
Gfs sisterSo Im worried about my gfs sister. She called her twin brother Thursday night talking about how she wanted to kill herself and took all the pills she had. Her siblings called the cops and she was hospitalized. My gf and her sister drove miles to be with their sister and she was combative and thought it was ridiculous. She came home and then went to work today. She told them they could come home and everything was ok. Im worried this means she has decided to end her life for good. Am I valid in thinking this? | suicide |
Let me tell you some cool dinosaur facts * Tyrannosaurus rex lived closer in time to modern humans than it did to Stegosaurus. * Spinosaurus probably had an M-shaped fin, a paddle-like tail and spent most of its time in water. * The first dinosaur to be formally named was Megalosaurus. * Sinosauropteryx, a small theropod, was the first dinosaur to have colouration determined. It had reddish feathers and a banded tail. * Yi qi was likely capable of gliding like a flying squirrel. It also has the shortest possible scientific name of any organism. * The smartest known dinosaur was probably Troodon * The velociraptors in Jurassic Park were actually based on Deinonychus | non-suicide |
Chronic Depression. I have a foolproof plan but scared.Be brave, i tell myself. Be brave. I don't know what that means any more. Brave to live? Brave to die? In about two weeks, I'll have my answer to life's problems. My method shouldn't fail, and if it does, hopefully I'll be impaired enough that living/dying won't matter. Family has a history of Parkinson's/Alzheimer's. I have social anxiety and bipolar disorder. I'm not quite , but close enough to see the rest of life as a slow decline to the grave. I never made it in this life. No job. No money. Just a way out. I don't know what to do. If I continue to live in this world, I'll be nothing but a burden to those who love me. So do I keep on? I can't even qualify for social security.... Death is easier than the struggle to find help... I haven't found real help in just under years.... | suicide |
I shared a couple songs I made a few days ago, and people seemed to like them. So here's another one that I finished today. I tried out a different style with this song, so it sounds completely different from anything else I've made. I like how this one turned out though, so I might make similar styled songs in the future. Btw, I hate being a beg and shit, but I'd appreciate a subscription or a like at the least. Small stuff like that really helps me build traction. | non-suicide |
When every day becomes a a nasty battle with depression, is it worth living anymore?I keep posting on this sub, hoping that by externalizing what I feel will somehow make it easier, I will feel less insane.. But every day it's getting harder and harder, and suicide keeps looking like good, safe option to check out, be free from all the pain. I go to school, I have a good enough job, amazing parents, some friends.. my life doesn't really suck, it doesn't, but my brain is killing me. I keep thinking of the day my parents will die one day, and the pain of that reality makes me want to die instantly, and I can't help but think about it. The psychiatrist I went to put me on some meds, and told me to give it at least weeks in order to tell if they're helping me or not, it's been a week, I wannna wait one more, and then fuck it, at least I'll have a good enough reason - medication didn't work, it's hopeless. Fuck | suicide |
What is life anymore?I have really bad anxiety and depression... I... cannot tolerate this any longer. I really, just want this pain to end... I honestly do not see the point in this. Life just sucks right now. I just want to know a fast and painless way to die. Why can't I just bleed to death, or just... idk... | suicide |
I got expelled because I said "slatt" After seeing someone with a similar experience on r/playboicarti I would like to share my story So around two weeks ago I was in school and I was talking to my friends and I said the word slatt which I use pretty regularly and ironically most of the time. but it the teacher heard me and thought I said slut or shit and the next thing ik I'm getting called into the principal's office. now it's basically my word against the teachers and even tho my friends had my back the principal didn't believe me. apparently my teachers have heard me say slatt and have been like recording it down as me saying slut or something to bring it up wit the school and ig the principal had been reviewing security footage to try to find me saying "slatt" to fuck me over even more and now even tho in half of the audio clips you can clearly hear me say "slatt" the school still thinks that "slatt" means fuck or like a slur and that I was saying slut and shit too So now even without any proof and the ppl who I was talking to backing me up Ive been placed on a half suspension half expulsion until they can bring it up with the school board Now my parents have listened to the audio clips and they think that its a load of bullshit and they believe me they also know what slatt means. So I basically got kicked out of school for sexual harassment and bullying even tho I only said slatt. We're prob gonna sue the school if they kick me out officially | non-suicide |
Confession and situationThree days ago, I left my children years and in the car for less than five minutes while buying a hygiene item at the pharmacy. When I came out, someone was parked behind me. I think the person that looked distressed and went straight to the counter as I was walking out was him. I was able to maneuver and drove away before anyone came outside. If that individual was smart enough and filmed my car with my babies in there... I will have to face charges and possibly losing my license and children. They may not have, but there is a chance. I recently divorced. In retaliation during, she filed a complaint with the board of medicine to use against me in court for custody. My license is still currently under investigation, and I have had other investigations in my past due to alcohol and drugs. I bought a gun yesterday. I have had intrusive thoughts for about years. I have lost friends and family to suicide before. It is devastating to lose people you love so much in such violent ways. I lost the person I loved most that way. I hope nothing becomes of this, because my children and job are the only two things that matter to me. But, if I ever have to face the possibility of more complications like a charge for child endangermentI wont, and am prepared not to. I will not face it. I can only ever express this anonymously. I want others to not make these mistakes. I want to encourage everyone on this subreddit to stay safe, healthy, and seek help if you need it. | suicide |
My suicide is logicalI have no job, no friends, never had a girlfriend. I provide no value for society. On the other hand, my death would save resources and be more environmentally friendly. Someone of use could have the resources Im currently wasting. But because people are slightly uncomfortable by death, Im forced to keep suffering until I can find a reliable method to peace out | suicide |
What is your least favorite class? I fucking hate science class lol. How about y'all? | non-suicide |
Why do I make girls lesbian? All the girls Ive dated are now lesbians. :( | non-suicide |
Not my first rodeoHere I am in this dark place once again. I never really planned on making it past . Everyone fantasizing about other stuff. Me, fantasizing how to leave. Yet, here I am. Almost middle aged. The feeling goes away to the back seat, but it's still there haunting me all the time. Can't manage having friends. They always get tired of my moping around and leave me. Yeah, I have a job and a home. What does it really matter? So empty, no one to talk to. No one asking how your day went. Maybe it's better that way, since I won't hurt anyone anymore. The quarantine has nothing to do. It's always been like this. Hurting more cause I thought I could confide in a friend who has suffered in life. A kindred soul, I though. I thought I could connect or something, but alas they leave and want nothing to do with you. The neverending cycle. I'm so tired. I just need it to stop. I'm not afraid of death. Never have been. Don't really care who misses me. Not my problem. My biggest fear is living in pain, which I do since far back as I can remember. Not physical, just mental anguish. You might ask yourself why haven't I ended it yet. Hope... Not really. I just fear messing up badly and keep on living. Worse, end up a living vegetable so they can continue their cruel joke of my life. Am I selfish? I suppose, it's my life, I'm the one suffering. I'm ready. Please? | suicide |
Feeling dead out :(I've got brothers not close with one of them. Three close to my age and I dont know them from Adam. On new years went round to one of the brothers houses. Was stood there talking to him and my niece (who decided I was her go to that night) was apparently shouting me. My brother repeatedly dismissed me as my niece was calling for me (shes ) and was literally just trying for my attention all night. I was just trying to have an adult conversation with my siblings. He kept being like bye...bye anon is calling for you....bye Bearing in mind we were in the middle of w conversation. It really hurt and I ended up going outside for a smoke and having a little cry. Felt really shitty on NYE | suicide |
im tired but i dont want to go to bed because then im fast traveling to the morning so im going to stay up and try to finish literally any game | non-suicide |
Well I fricked up... First of All I am a Boy, and a few days ago I've been a really bad person, because I played with someone's feelings, more specifically with girl's feelings. She was my friend and I wanted to prank her (not thinking about the consequences), so I told her I love her, As I expected she said she doesn't love me and I told her it's just a prank, now she hates me. I tried to apologize and everything, but she just doesn't want to talk to me anymore. What should I do? | non-suicide |
I want to pursue an engineering career Hello. I just want to know if it is still possible for me. I get mostly bs but some cs and some as. Like currently I have a in math although I am in calculus as a softmore becuase I used to do good in math. And a d in Spanish cause I really suck at that. Is it possible for me to get into a good engineering colledge? | non-suicide |
Nothing has worked....I'm sure my liver is hating me. I have gone through about / bottles of wine per night, to include taking more than the recommended amount of Tylenol (yesterday about gram). I have bought out my liquor store of one kind of wine. Recently bought six bottles of Pinot (pee-no) Noir (nwar) and am working my way through those. I have eaten well up to lbs+ of amygdalin (soft center of cherry pit). I am depressed for the shit I have done and the people I have hurt. I wish I can go back to last year and not do what I did....time travel has not been invented therefore I have to live with my shame, guilt and regret. This is my hell I guess. During my wine binge I have taken over-the-counter sleeping pills, well I am typing this...so that didn't work. I have tried mixing bleach and ammonia with my bathroom door closed and vent off. I panicked, chickened out and ran out for fresh air. I hate myself for the pain I have caused. I am less than a man, less than nothing. I have placed a knife to the radial artery on my wrist (the one you can feel your pulse with)....and wussed out. I watched the movie "Wrist Cutters" and the opening scene was this dude cutting his wrists, dying and ending up in limbo. WHY CAN'T I DO THAT?!? I occupy myself throughout the day with working from home and then going on hikes or running errands...anything to keep these thoughts out of my head. Then it's time to come home and they just come back up. I just want the hurt inside me to end and the pain of those I hurt to end. I figure if I am no longer in the picture, they can move on with their lives. | suicide |
i am waiting the last thingI missed a rare chance and i am fighting since then if the chance didn't come back again this year i'm ending it // i can't forgive myself .if it doesn't come again i've made an unhealable injury that i can't live anymore with .they keep telling you are not alone but they are the cancer that are eating me and others death is the solution i am very scared of it...i don't know what to do | suicide |
Logically, why shouldn't I do it?When people talk about being suicidal they're supposed to be really sad, right? I'm planning on killing myself because I don't see the point of continuing to be alive. It's not that I'm sad or depressed. To me it's like this: I'm going to die eventually. I don't believe that there is any form of life after death, or any overall "point" to being alive. In years everyone that I know right now is going to be dead. There will come a time when nobody remembers the sound of my voice. My being here, right now, is absolutely pointless. I read Camus' "Myth of Sisyphus" because apparently that's supposed to be the answer to "why you shouldn't kill yourself" but I failed to see how his argument supports choosing life over death. If anything I found his argument to be pro-suicide. When people say "don't do it! think of all the good things that MIGHT happen, that you MIGHT miss out on" it makes me think about religious people who say you should believe in their god because there MIGHT be consequences like hell/reincarnation. It's pure speculation. I know I probably sound a little distanced and possibly not genuine but trust me, I sincerely plan on killing myself. I have what I need to do it. I'm posting here because there's still a part of me that hopes that one of you can prove to me that there is a point to being alive. Thank you for reading. | suicide |
How do I move to Canada? Im but I am fucking done with Americas shit, I want to go to Canada but my parents want to stay here, how do I go to Canada without my parents consent? | non-suicide |
Just remembered that government exists I am not happy about this | non-suicide |
Talk?My anxiety has been really bad last few days and Im hitting a new low in terms of it Im completely lost in myself right now so if anyone could talk thatd be nice. Thanks | suicide |
I got a perfect Nutrigrain bar You guys arent gonna believe me but I opened one of the packages and there were no crumbs, the bars were super dense and there were no crumbs that came off. It was beautiful | non-suicide |
. No real friends, no future. Little sis dead, living with an abuser and a family that doesn't care.Hi Reddit. This is going to be a little vent post. I feel as if is the year I'll finally get to leave this place! I've had depression since I was a little girl, my parents didn't (and don't) care. I can't focus on schoolwork. I just imagine the ways I could escape, and get a bit giddy. My parents divorced a few years ago, after my mother began cheating on my father with an alcoholic and abuser. He'd hit her, steal our things, sexually harass me, and choke my sister. The police were called a few times, but they either decided there was nothing they could do, or my mother lied/refused to press charges. September st this year, my little sister () hanged herself in her room from the ceiling fan while staying home sick. I myself feel guilty for this, because my father (who she decided to live with) picked me up from school that day, and I asked to go to the store instead of asking to go home and talk to her. Maybe she'd be alive. I found out from my father at : PM that day, after my dad called me screaming. I was the one to call the police. She left no note. I have good grades, sure. But I feel as if they don't matter anymore. I don't want to go to college. I don't want to care about my future. I always told myself I'd kill myself before I turned , and so seems like a very nice year. I've tried three times- and my "friends" told me I was being an attention whore, and told me to use more pills next time. But this time I'll use something else. I won't be a coward anymore. | suicide |
It's ny birthday today and also the day that I was supposed to kill myself.My depression started when I was years old and I remember promising myself that if I was still dealing with this by the time I was grown up, that I'd kill myself. Today I turned years old and the thought is still with me. I wrote a note years ago and its still sitting in my desk. The plan was to buy a gun and shoot myself, but plans don't always work out. Now I can't get the thought of starting my car and just sitting in the garage out of my head. In the past few months, things have changed though. I haven't been happy, but I don't feel sad anymore. I don't know if this is what people mean when they say it gets better, but I guess it did get better. Now I'm just laying in bed wondering what I should do with my life or if I should start the car. I just feel so confused right now. | suicide |
My dad wants to get me a guitar for Christmas But I have one that I can fix with his help and he's the one who taught me that if it ain't broke don't fix it if it is fix it till you can't | non-suicide |
Learning disabilityI was diagnosed with borderline disability and it's making me suicidal and homicidal. I've never accomplished anything in my life I have no ged, no job, no licence all I want to do is get a ged so I can go to college to study a trade. Why do people with learning disability have to take the same test as people who don't have learning disability of course it would be easier for them but for us the test feels like a foreign language to me. | suicide |
I'm never going to be happy. Might as well save me the trouble of struggling, right?I'm u/suicidaldreamer and I've posted here before. Lost my password, so I'm using my main account. I'm just a simple dude from India with a dream. It's been pretty hard to function these days. I've been depressed and suicidal in the past as well, and I don't think that part of me will ever go away, as much as I promise myself that it will everytime those spells of darkness are done with. My dream is to tell stories with the medium of comic books, film, and music. But thanks to the country I live in, fate seems to be pulling me into a profession I struggle a lot against (engineering). I work pretty harsh hr shifts on alternate weeks as my 'day job'. This, and my constant state of mental torment makes me question everyday if it's worth going on. I feel like my optimism I carried as kid has completely died away. I see myself as someone who's already failed. The universe seems to be telling me this as well, making sure that I have no place in this world. My PC, laptop, and art tools have slowly died over the past week, and I can't get out of bed. I've failed Inktober... I can't go back to a page anymore. It's also really expensive to buy pc components in India. I really don't want to go on. It's not worth it. I've never had decent friends, and loneliness is genuinely the worst thing I've ever experienced. It leaves me an empty shell who can't even weep. It causes me physical pain in the chest I just want it all to end. I used to keep myself alive with this stupid mantra, while facing myself with an attempt - "you'll be happy". And it's very apparent that is bullshit. I've heard carbon monoxide poisoning is a pretty easy way to go. Not too messy. I'm not sure how to properly pull it off. Would like to make sure I don't come out of the attempt alive. Thank you. | suicide |
Please talk me out of eating a pizza Im trying to lose weight | non-suicide |
Im not cut out for lifeI've realized that Im simply too lazy to be helpful to society no one wants me no one needs me | suicide |
MY MOUTH IS ON FIRE DXEVUVGEFBVNFRVIRNV i just had a whole packet of mint bubblegum for the hell of it.... my mouth is literally burning | non-suicide |
I think i just had one of the most unique nightmares of my entire life. I couldnt move, i felt like i was trapped, i heard like those bee sounds, i felt like these bees were all over my body, i tried to scream, but my mouth couldnt make any type of noise, i woke up almost jumping off my bed, that type of bee noise, like a zzzz or something was stuck on my head, i felt like i was dying, does this mean anything? Idk, strangely i could only feel and hear it, it was like i couldnt see anything. | non-suicide |
what the hell biggggtoe wake up already its almost | non-suicide |
Girlfriend not giving me time Girlfriend too busy for me what should I do My Gf works everyday - and when she gets home shes also been busy. One day this week she was doing chores after work. The day after that she had to make a gift for her best friends birthday (which also took up the day after that) then yesterday she went to a party for her best friends birthday (family only) and today theres an party with just her friends. And to top it off she goes to bed at pm so I get maybe minutes a day to call her. I feel like she isnt making the time for me , not putting effort into the relationship and Im just not getting enough attention. Ive seen her for maybe hr minutes this week with her plus the minutes on the phone. Im not sure if I should be blaming her fro not making time with me. I feel like she couldve cut out making a present for hours for her best friend on top of the one they already bought her. Or instead of going to both parties, going to only one. She knows how I am missing her and how Im feeling like shit from her lack of availability and I just think she could be doing better to make me feel better about the whole thing considering I would do ( and do ) above and beyond for her. Am I in the wrong by blaming her? Is this just the way it is? Or am I right and she should be finding time for me? I just dont want to be mad at her and then feel bad when its not her fault. On top of all this, she has to work - on my birthday, she has time restrictions from her parents and I just feel like she should take into account both things when considering how she is dividing her time | non-suicide |
Anyone else just sad? Like I just randomly get supper sad, and feel like I'm fake | non-suicide |
Help! My Laziness. Hello all, I am quite lazy and slow, I get a lot of homework and I have to also study as I have test every now and then. Everything's fine and I also make a plan for a day and divide my day. But due to something (I don't know what) I am unable to follow that plan and end up ruining everything. ;( can anyone help me so I can... You know change my habits. | non-suicide |
Someone explain this | non-suicide |