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Ya boi just made eagle scout!! [Pic]( Took forever to do my court of honor cuz of covid, but i finally did it! Wanted to have palms but i need more merit badges still. | non-suicide |
Feel like suicide is my best optionI am years old and suffered with social anxiety and depression since i was . Up until the age of about my depression has always been bad. For the last years all i can think about is that i will commit suicide eventually and emotionally i feel so messed up. I have never had a girlfriend and it hurts badly especially when everyone else has no issues with relationships. I have a job and never backed out of social situations because of my anxiety but it has never got better and therapy will not help me. I am trying my best but i feel like its over for me im just living to not upset my parents. I think i can hold on until i get to my mid thirties but if i dont get to experience a relationship by then i just see myself getting in a rage and putting myself out of misery. I posted this hoping for some kind replies as i feel rock bottom right now. | suicide |
I told my husband I felt suicidal. He said "Give me a break. Just go to bed."So I took mg Xanax, mg Valium, mg Flexeril, and mg amitriptyline. I'm going to bed, all right. Also cut my leg open, but what else is new. If I didn't have kids, I would have taken everything in the medicine cabinet. I called my psychiatrist after hours nurse, and she said if I have a suicide plan, call . Otherwise call Monday. | suicide |
I am exhaustedI'm so tired. I am so fucking tired. That's all I wanted to say. | suicide |
One reason not to.I really want to do it. Ive got the pills beside me, oh god I really need to do it. Everyone has left me, my best friend has stopped talking to me, except when shes feeling down, and everything is just going to shit. Please I just need one logical reason to live, please | suicide |
I wish killing myself was easierI wish methods were more effective, had a.higher success rate. I Wish it was as easy as taking.a.lot of aspirin and knowing I'm not going to wake up again just like that but it's not that easy. I'm tired of feeling like this I want shit to work lmao it's like there's always a catch to every method. I'm sure I can do something if I try hard enough, of course I can, people die from suicide every day it can't be that hard to do, but. Great, productive and loved human beings are taken from the world every day but.for one to make themselves die because they're not that, it must be so hard? Load of BS | suicide |
I don't want to be here anymore.No use in a throwaway because who gives a fuck about me anyway? I have nothing. No job prospects, I'm disabled due to arthritis, I can't work, I barely scraped by through university (do not comment saying how I got through it anyway - I did fucking shit and telling me otherwise makes it worse, sorry. I did shit at uni. I'm embarrassed.) I don't want to live. There's no help for me out there. Seriously, what's the fucking point in life? All I get is bitching that I don't want to work and can't work and that the only thing i'll be better off doing is dying, but they say that I'm being selfish in the same breath as calling me an entitled millennial. I'm too fucking scared to do it myself so I'm waiting to get hit by a car or something so I can just finally die in peace. | suicide |
GUYS MY CRUSH ASKED ME OUT I really need some advice, anyone able to share something? | non-suicide |
It has happened. Im taller than my dad. Im the tallest person in my house. | non-suicide |
th grade has barely started yet and I cant even do itI cant do it anymore. Everyday is a struggle with my anxiety, OCD and shit. I cant even fucking finish th grade without wanting to kill myself. How can I ever survive the real world? And everyone around me is tired of me and my sad shit, no doubt. I've tried before and it didnt work. I'm just gonna drink my brothers wine and swallow a shit ton of pills. Either one of them has to get me. If it works, great. If it doesnt? Thats fucking humiliating and I've felt that humiliation before. I dont wanna feel it again. Im not gonna be stupid and tell anyone about it this time either. If I do that I get caught and get the police called on me before I can actually die. Im so tired. Im so fucking tired of this constant anxiety. | suicide |
I think I own the right to be an arbiter of myself.I deserve death. I shall deliver tomorrow AT ALL FUCKING COSTS. | suicide |
My last night of being . Except for covid, I've enjoyed my th year. Despite my parents' fears, I did not turn into Kevin the teenager. Looking forward to tomorrow! | non-suicide |
Go to the search bar on reddit and search: fear of d The contrast between the two results is very funny. | non-suicide |
Can I please kill myselfI just want to be dead | suicide |
Why are we here Is it just to suffer? | non-suicide |
apparently "im literally underaged and legally cant get a job and i dont have any job qualifications" isnt a good enough reason to not get a job if thats not a good enough reason, then ig my severe anxiety and extremely bad sensitivity to lights, textures, and certain noises that are very common in a workplace wouldnt be a good enough excuse either guess imma have to get a job :/ | non-suicide |
Byethanks for the memories | suicide |
Having a rough go right now....I've been having a rough go, especially tonight. I'm not to the point where I'm going to definitely commit suicide but I'm definitely contemplating it. I've just been over it for so long. Financially, mentally, and emotionally I'm exhausted. I hate that my situation isn't as bad as others but I'm stretched so thin that I've reached and snapped my breaking point a while ago. I'm at risk of losing everything I've fought so hard to get back. I was so close to being homeless, I fought and fought, through the kindness of friends I got through that. Through the kindness of an ex (who I fucked over and I agonize over that every day) I got through that. I just don't know what to do anymore, I've started cutting again. Asking for help is almost out of the question. I work in EMS as a paramedic and I'm terrified of my reputation being ruined by seeking help at a local ER or even worse having to have called on me for it. Working in EMS I also have access to so many drugs I can use to end it all with. I don't really want to die but I really don't want to keep fighting anymore.... | suicide |
Cry all u want u cant unshit ur pants My attempt at a shit post I think I have to learn the art of it still | non-suicide |
What pills are best for suicide and what amount is neededAs I have no access to the gun, and just wanted it to be less messy even if I had, I think about hanging myself. I will do it whatever. But I think if pills could be preferable but I just don't trust them. What pills are better | suicide |
Please don't do it u/Lonely-EarI was pming u/Lonely-Ear to try to help him get a better job. I don't know his real name. He's planning to end it and it's making me really sad. | suicide |
I'm nights fap free! Title I used to fap some nights when I was bored at afternoon and stay clean in other ones. I decided to try and quit fapping. | non-suicide |
Imagine dying in your sleep ah, the most peaceful and painless way of dying | non-suicide |
I failed my permit test I went in feeling nervous but I felt I could get through it. I messed up the first test (they allowed us two tries) and nearly passed the second but failed. I focused more on practice tests rather than reading the handbook. But I still feel like trash. I went up to the desk after I failed the second time and the dude up there was like "come back Monday" it wouldve been nice if he gave me some reassurance so I walked out the room (where a kid from my small school was getting her permit stuff figured out) and tried to get my mom to subtly leave so I didnt have to tell her I failed in front of a bunch of people. I know I can retake it but I just feel like crap. The nerves got to me and I kept overthinking everything and the embarrassment of failing just sucked. I was super excited to be able to happily announce i had it and now i can't so i feel terrible. I know I should study the handbook but some advice for getting over this would be nice. Thanks. | non-suicide |
It's about time it all stoppedI've spent days writing a goodbye note. It's finally finished. I've outlined everything that has been wrong, everything I've been struggling with. I'm hoping it will leave my family with some sort of closure. It's got to happen tonight. I was going to do it today, I called in sick to work so I could do it whilst my family is out. I ended up spending the day with my ex, the mother of my child. I wanted her to have a good day so she's going something nice to remember me by. My little boy is . He deserves a better life than I could give him. I've spent weeks planning this, this isn't something I've thought lightly about. It's going to happen and it's going to happen tonight. I've been struggling for so long now, too long and I cannot deal with it anymore. I hope everyone on here can find some peace in their life. It shouldn't have to be like this. Life is really hard but this shouldn't be a resolution to our problem's. Unfortunately I just don't see any way of things ever getting better. The debt alone is more than I can cope with. It has to stop, today. | suicide |
Sleeping pills before hanging?ok, so i really dont want to live anymore, not at all. i am very suicidal and have been for a very long time. however as much as i would like to die, i dont want to die painfully. i have thought of hanging myself multiple times, ive heard hanging is very painful though, so i thought maybe sleeping pills would be better, but many people survive from that. so... my thinking is, what if you tie a noose to yourself on a tree and then take sleeping pills, once you fall unconscious, you would fall off the tree branch and be hung. and because you are unconscious you shouldn't feel pain right? | suicide |
I just looked at the stuff posted in this subreddit and I am embarassed Wow... I joined this place yesterday and the stuff I post here are wayyyyy too disgusting. I should actually calm down. Let's talk about something normal. How has your day been? Anyone like math and science here? | non-suicide |
Im and Im a creep I deserve to dieI havent done anything illegal but Im still creepy and I think its because Im so sexually frustrated and Im surrounded by girls every day at my college. Its made me hate myself so much that I honestly just need to die at this point | suicide |
i took a stepi took like + pills on top of my regular dosage. someone texted me right now in the same moment that they are thinking of me, guess i will just pretend | suicide |
Way to add insult to my injuries, Imogen. So this story takes place around June-July last year. I was in year and we were in the middle of lockdown in Victoria and it was depressing as fuck. One day when I leave my drama class call a girl from the class messages me. Her name was Imogen. For the next few hours, we talked and then continued to talk for the next few weeks. Over time we started playing games together. We had similar interests so it worked out great. I started developing feelings for Imogen as she was so kind and we were so similar. Keep in mind that at this point in my high school life I had been rejected times, so I was already sad from all my past rejections and hoped this one would work out. about - months later, Imogen messaged me, without context, asking what I would want in a relationship. When I said what I would want she got all excited and told me she fit all the boxes. At this point, I was happier than I had ever been. We were going to go back to school the next week so we arranged to meet each other. I finally thought my life was getting better. About day before we went back though, she sent me a long message. As I read it I felt worse and worse. She told me that she lied about liking me back. She said that she only did it because her friends told her to do it and that she never liked me. This fucker kept up a facade for months and played by feelings like a guitar. I then cut all contacts with her and we haven't spoken since. Girls, if you are reading this, be straight with people and don't lie like this bitch. Anyway, it's been like months. I am still single and am yet to be in a relationship. I try to forget about this incident, but whenever a girl says anything nice to me, this thought comes back. I have moved on, but I will never forget how much of a dick she was. | non-suicide |
whats the hidden from quick add thing on snapchat? what is the hidden from quick add thing? i was looking at my quick add and discovered it, and on it were some people i didnt know, and others i didnt but didnt have on snap. what is this feature? also please explain it to me like im , im an idiot lmao. | non-suicide |
The general populace seems to be blissfully unaware of this problem I should state first and foremost that I am in no ways someone who has a degree in anything so I have no credentials at all but I still spend a lot of my time getting to know and being involved with youth in my community. I will ask this question straight up with no beating around the bush. Is the drug addiction and alcoholism among minors as bad everywhere as it is in my city? I'm working with one of my city councilmen who work directly with the mayor to try and see what we can do to curb this issue as I'm a single man with a dream of helping others but honestly there is only so much I can do and to be honest? Helping has caused more harm on my end than good, e.g. death threats. How do I address this problem? How do I make the adults in your lives more aware of the problems going on in your lives since they all seem so blissfully ignorant to the horrible truth that they all seem to want to sweep under the rug? Kind regards, a father of a little girl who will one day be a teenager herself. | non-suicide |
I think I'm actually going to do it...Hello. I believe this will be hard to explain, but let me try. I am . I have clinical depressin and Aspergers. I have constant migrains and I am unable to hold my stools. It seems pretty funny, now that I'm reading that back, but it's not. I have no friends and I despise romantic relationships. I hate the sun, I hate the outside world so I spend most of my time in my bed with curtains down. I can't wake up in the morning and I can't go to sleep at night. I can't force myslef to do anything useful. I have been goin to both a psychologist and a psychiatrist over a year now, and it's of no help to me. I think I'm actually going to kill myself. If not today, maybe tomorrow or in a month. Maybe even in a year. But I know I will do it some day. Are there any other options? | suicide |
I just lost my best friend Usually I would talk to him about everything and rn I just feel empty | non-suicide |
Waiting for death is killing meI understand completely the urge to end it on your own terms. Inevitably we all end up as worm food. Car accidents, stroke, cancer, heart attack, the end may be painful, gruesome and protracted. It's going to happen to everyone, why is it so frowned upon to take an early exit? | suicide |
Need helpIm sitting in my car at work and i cant stop thinking blowing my head off would be the best option, so tired of this shit life not improving no matter how much effort i put | suicide |
I might not be here tomorrowHey everyone, throwaway here, I don't know what to do, my dad is abusive, I hate everything around me, my best friend is dying of cancer, leukemia to be exact. I have a knife, vodka, and pills. Edit: tried calling a suicide hotline earlier, they said to "accept god and everything will be okay" I told them I'm an atheist, and they said "well.... You're on your own." | suicide |
Asking how everyone is untill I get a girlfriend day # Taking over from u/XxMysticMusicxX who stopped at day . If anyone needs someone to talk to about anything my DM's are open to you guys. | non-suicide |
I know I lied I just didn't want to worry you.It won't matter soon I love you | suicide |
Is this how I am?I've attempted suicide more times than I can count now. (What can I say, I don't have much of a talent for it.) I'm , and I've never been happy. Never. The best stretch of my life was earlier this year, when people were enjoyable and the world was new... Then I was mugged, abducted, and cut by some random guy. Somehow I lived. I took a deep breath and kept moving forward. Things were going to be okay, goddamnit. And then my boyfriend broke up with me. Fine, didn't need him anyway. Being my own person is great. And then I was hit by a car. Knee injury, serious concussion. Guy gave me a fake name and number, so I have to deal with all the medical repercussions myself. This all happened in the space of a month. So I gave up. That was months ago. I sleep all the time. I cry all the time. I do nothing productive. I am not a contributing member of society. I may have just failed out of school. I have no one to talk to, except my boyfriend. Poor thing, constantly has to put up with my shit. I finally cracked, and now believe that he'd be better off without me. Sure, he'd be sad for a while, but then he could move on and find someone who could make him happy. I've tried myriad therapists, medications, routines, everything. Multiple times. Nothing has ever worked. Is this how I am? Because if so, I can't do this for another forty years. I wish I had gone through with it ages ago. I am nothing but a detriment to everyone and everything around me. What do you do when you tried everything? How can I make it up to my poor boyfriend? The captcha is pretty hard to read when you're crying this hard. EDIT: now my cat is missing. She has been the only reason I haven't killed myself in the past. What the fucking fuck, universe. | suicide |
I feel like a failure and it breaks my heart every day I f() feel like a failure and it hurt me In my country without college u can't do anything , am an artist i draw realistic portraits , i do animation, I design logos, and i design clothes . My only dream is to be a designer or a fashion designer The problem is my community doesn't appreciate art U either be a doctor or a lawyer other than that they consider u a failure I started talking with my family that i wanted to go to the university of Jordan ( biggest and strongest university in my country) , in October so i can get a recommendation letter so it can help if i wanted to study art outside , i try god knows how much i try to get out of my country to Europe to get a better life Yesterday after i talked to my parents I went to my room and then i heard my sister () ( how lives with us) talking to my parents trying to convince them that we should be realistic and that it's a miracle if I pass high school and that i have big imagination and that i should study something normal and stay in my country and that I will never get out, ( am a childish person and i was act like i don't care about what people say about me because i want to keep my out going and positive personality but am actually really sensitive especially when it comes to family it hurts to see that nobody believes in me in any way I feel like I am fooling myself with all these dreams . I went out of my room to argue with my sister and then in med conversations she went to my room and started ripping my art More than art work witch means about + hours of work was destroyed in seconds I screamed at her , kicked her out of my room , and started crying like a little kid, i was heart broken, that she could something like this to me, that she can't respect my art, I treat my art as a piece of me and everyone in my family knows that. At this point i really feel like a failure i don't know what should I do , I feel stupid and worthless that there's no other career that i will be good at , i know that am dramatic as hell right now but this makes me feel bad about myself every time I think of it. Sorry for my bad English , it's not my first language Have a good day guys < | non-suicide |
How to do life Dont hit car Dont get shot Dont get pointy sticked Im still working on other ways not to die, those are the ones I have tested, and they do in fact kill you | non-suicide |
Boys in skirts bad boys in thigh highs and panties good Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
Not quite suicide but I just made an extremely self destructive decision.I am so miserable right now. I am in the Job Corps program, and was doing fantastically. Despite being miserably depressed, I was holding out hope for the future. years of free college, just had to put in all the paces. All the staff loved me, and as far as anyone could tell, I was a model student. Then I had to go to work. Part of the program is getting hours of "work based learning". This meant weeks of working in a warehouse. Its been miserable, my boss is an asshole, and I am so exhausted at tne end of the day that I pretty much sleep through my free time. I made it through and half weeks, and it feels like I have been doing it for years. I just want to scream every minute I am there. I woke up this morning and knew I couldn't do it anymore. So I ditched. I am on the bus going to watch a movie as my perfect chance dissolves around me. Because I couldn't see myself through measley weeks of work. I feel pathetic. Useless. Worthless. Just another failure to toss on the pile of so many others. Now I have to find a job ASAP. My family was expecting me to ace this and aren't going to support me. If I can't find a job, I get to live out of my car. Living the fucking dream. I feel like I just committed living suicide. | suicide |
On Boredom.I have seen a lot in my years. Been through college, had tons of sex, did a few interesting drugs, made more money than I need and have helped quite a few people through simple kindness and understanding. What I'm grappling with now is the fact that everything now - from waking to sleeping - is boring. All of it. Boring. Meeting new people, going new places, seeing new technology, learning new things, discovering new music, thoughts and perspectives. It's all simply boring. I feel like I 'get' life. I just get it. I know what it's about by now. You define success for yourself, and you work to attain it. That's what life is. But even with this, even if I were to achieve any measure of success be it inventing something incredible or changing the world positively in some way, it would all just be downright boring. There's nothing here for me. I feel like, in the words of Jane's Addiction: Nothing's Shocking. I don't get amped about anything, and haven't for a very long time. I'm just bored with life. There's zilch that captures my imagination or interest. I believe I have lived enough life that now I can end my life with a clear conscience, knowing that I've had my ride and it's time to get off. What argument can be presented against this? Why is suicide not a viable option for someone like me, someone who is simply bored and uninspired to even live another day, *especially* when it means living in a world fraught with violence, intolerance, hate and suffering? | suicide |
My tits hurt now : ( Idk what the term for guy tits is, but I was riding my bike shirt less, got distracted while typing, and slid directly on my tits. I am now in great pain and have idea what to do after I clean myself | non-suicide |
Id rather be dead.I feel like Im just complaining and that my problems are irrelevant. But here goes. I have so much trouble trying to be social, I have a hard time making friends because Im so afraid of them finding out Im actually in a pretty fucked up mental state. Im a senior in high school and Ive completely lost motivation to try. Ive always been the good student, getting good grades, and doing what society wants me to do up until now. Im not sure if its just senioritis and depression mixing together to further fuck up my life or if my depression is worsening. Im behind in my classes, not failing but I feel like I will the longer I keep this up. Most of the things online give super generic advice that doesnt seem to help much. I feel like everyday is a drag and one more day I need to get through. I try to be happy for other people but Im so sick of pretending. Recently, Ive been contemplating suicide or hurting myself to not feel so numb all the time. I cant get therapy right now because I dont have health insurance. If anyone has advice thatd be nice. | suicide |
I m I want to be with my parents and in my nativeI want to suicide. I m alone in out of my native. I don't have a job.i want to go home back.i want to be with my parents. I m week so lazy.i don't wanna hear anyone advice..i don't like this world I wish this world should get destroy..pls God destroy this world..i want to die...i m mad..so mad..i m useless..i m not doing for the last yrs... | suicide |
There isn't a single person who gives a damn if I exist or not. So why shouldn't I just end my life and fi b ally be free of emotion and stress?My parents told me I should kill myself because I have no future. Girl I was in love with told me I should kill myself because I am a waste of time and not worth caring about. Best friend banged the girl I was in love with in front of my eyes and now I'm on the edge and ready to finally just give a big old middle finger to world and say good riddens. If anyone wants to help be my guest but I don't know what I should do beyond ending myself. | suicide |
A blind man walked into a bar And a table, and a chair, and a door, and a waiter. | non-suicide |
Why is everyone spamming awards today? thanks for the awards tho | non-suicide |
I feel patheticEven though Im staying with people I like and doing things Id typically like to do, I still feel sad. I feel so pathetic that the only thing keeping me from killing myself is my cat. It makes me feel even worse when thinking about suicide or death because of it. Hed be devastated if I left him. Ive been away from home for a few days and we both miss each other a lot. When Im away he always sits at the window waiting for me to come home and it makes me feel terrible thinking about how much he misses me now. He might feel like he had done something wrong and me leaving is punishment. I wish I didnt feel or think as much as I do. | suicide |
Please stop This new award for is just ridiculous and im not scamming for people to give me the award like who would scam for for an award that shows up i mean sure it gives you coins an months if premium but thats all nothing else so stop please | non-suicide |
Help me dictate my next moveHi Im years old, I dont know what actually happened to me in a way, I mean sure I was bullied when I was young till I was , but at some point Im used to bullying, got a girlfriend when I was just breaking up after something weird starting to happen to me; I was questioning my life, questioning everything. That time I never felt lonelier and nothing I do is meaningful. I didnt have friends and was mostly lonely all the time, its seriously tiring and very suffocating. It feels so heavy to live and just continue to go on. I wanted more from life I think when I know life cant offer more. Ill admit Im in no position to complain; my family is privileged (quite rich Id say), I signed a contract for a sponsorship when I was , and basically I have no reason to complain, but I still didnt feel happy at all, I feel miserable and all I do is spend my money on some stupid stuff just to seek for that random happiness, Ive been fighting off my thoughts that tells me to just end it all for real and for good, I tried to hang myself a couple times, but I dont know whats stopping me. Its been a year now, Im on medication . tablet of lexapro and . tablet of aripriprazole and am going to therapy, its been a year since but Im still not happy at all and I just wanna die. The feeling of being miserable, not belonging and the feeling of just not important is overwhelming me and I just wanna die, Ill post this here and give myself hours to let the Reddit community decide my next fate, Im so tired of fighting this off and all I get is some advice that I tried before like meditation and stuff but trust me it aint helping, and the more I tried and it didnt help, the more I feel incurable and the more hopeless I feel. Haha cheers to the last hours! | suicide |
On the post above this, no matter the context of the post... comment this phrase, "Mozzarella is a traditionally southern Italian cheese made from Italian buffalo's milk by the pasta filata method. Fresh mozzarella is generally white but may vary seasonally to slightly yellow depending on the animal's diet." | non-suicide |
This happens bout once a week I'll be sitting in bed, enjoyed my time off watching something and then one of the characters will say something and I'll get sad. I'll start thinking about losing my grandmother, my mom, my dad or stepdad. I'll start sobbing like a baby imagining things that haven't happened yet, and I'll be like: "I should say I love you more often." And then I think about how I'll never see someone again.... and life is meaningless when you think about it. What is there? A couple hundred hours of joy but other than that? Just loss, pain, sadness and disappointment. And then I'll remember I have school the next day and be like: FUCK I HATE SCHOOL | non-suicide |
Ok so this person is really really HOT but I have no chance with them :( I know it sounds stupid but its a TikTok crush.. god help me | non-suicide |
Looking for a guy named luke. Please its been weeks and I still can't find him. Luke. He liked among us memes and people in bee costumes. | non-suicide |
Choosing what day to end.Had made the decision to end my life few weeks ago. / is World Suicide Prevention Day, been thinking end life in that day seems really iconic. Or wait until / which is my birthday. What do you guys think? | suicide |
I'm borrrrrrrrrrrred Give me a good game or hobby, something to play. I might end up doing my optional hw if I stay like this. | non-suicide |
Ive been having extremely vivid suicidal thoughts, then the one good thing in my life turned out to be just a lie.I found out my bf has been hiding a lot from me. He could be hiding more for all I know... he hid the fact that he was talking to an ex which I wouldve been fine with if he told me upfront, instead I found it in his phone. She even asked wont your gf get jealous of us talking? He said yea probably but Ill deal with it. I found this out days ago, it happened over a month ago. Last night I found out they hung out on one of the only days we werent together (we basically live together, aside from the occasional night he goes home to take care of some things). When I asked if he did, he denied it til we went through the messages together. I love him more then I think I have ever loved someone. I told him about my past with my exs cheating on me doing the same exact things.. its like he doesnt care about me at all. I want things to work bc I honestly thought he was the one, but I dont know if I can ever trust him. Every opportunity I gave for him to tell me the truth, he decided to hide things instead. For the past weeks my suicidal thoughts have gotten worse, to the point that it scares me. It consumes me at every point. Ive been having extremely vivid thoughts and I havent had them this frequently in a long time. But everytime I saw him, I felt better. I felt safe. I felt loved. Hes the highlight of my day, my best friend, and the love of my life. Im going to try to be strong... but I have no clue how. The fact that I gave him my full trust and I thought that he would never lie or hide things from me like the others did... only to find out hes just like them... I cant trust anyone. Im not saying that if i do go through with it that its because of him, its just like it was that one good thing I had. Everything else has been so shitty lately. The world is so cruel, and I thought I found the one nice genuine person... but I was wrong. There are no good people. | suicide |
i cantwhy am i like this i just want a friend i just want someone to care i just want to be worthy of that why aren't i, why does it hurt so bad | suicide |
I'm about done with this fucking site, and I might just give my account away. So if you want it (if I decide to give it away) leave a comment, and it's all yours! First comment wins! I'll DM you if I do decide to. The only thing good that's worth noting is that I have k karma, that's about it. Anyways yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah | non-suicide |
Help, pleaseI don't know what's wrong with me. I'm only and I feel like an absolute shell of a person. On paper I have everything. Private school, wealthy family, varsity hockey player, goes to parties frequently, social at school, but honestly I feel like theres no meaning to anything. I have been so blessed and yet I still feel empty and alone. I feel selfish that I have been given everything I've ever wanted and still feel low. All of my friends and kids at school like me for what they see, nobody wants to see this side of me though. What the hell is wrong with me that I still feel empty when I have everything I could ever want. I just want to disapear, I don't want to burden anyone with finding me, I just want to leave quietly. I'm only and i already feel this way, why not save myself a lifetime of this by just going to sleep tonight and not waking up | suicide |
years old in a depressing dilemma. I am unsure about how to proceed.I ask this question because I am confused and unaware about how to proceed in the life. I have been deeply considering suicide off and on recently, and haven't found one single valid reason to live. To start with, I am suffering from what I think is "brain damage". My intelligence seems as low as when I was , times slower reactions, inability to speak, no libido, no emotions, etc. It has deeply been affecting every part of me. I used to be bright and analytical, and now I am fucking nothing. I am a vegetable. I have been constantly worrying about if I could ever recover. I don't want to live my life as a vegetable. I miss being the most intelligent guy in the room, getting boners, driving , able to do calculations in my head, loving human beings, etc. I been going to therapy, but that's doing shit. I have tried addressing this brain damage concern to people, and they just ignore the issue and say it's anxiety/OCD causing this. Suicide really seems like the best solution to this issue. I really have no reason to live if I an going to be a vegetable forever. The only thing that is holding me back from doing it now iss my family, but I am getting to point where I don't care. What should I do? | suicide |
I AM SO PISSED I HAD A DREAM DONKEY KONG COUNTRY WAS ANNOUNCED FOR SWITCH AND I FUCKING WOKE UP | non-suicide |
top fun facts about me number thanks for reading | non-suicide |
SuicideThe difference between barely hanging on and submitting entirely into darkness is shockingly small at just a whim of a decision to let go. I look at myself with hopeless despair. Like staring at a man who's foot is one too deep on a landmine. It's so noisy yet the silence of the night is unbearably deafening and seductive. The air is so still and quiet you can hear the ticking counting down to your eventual demise. This post is probably going to be buried amongst the sea of suicidal people sharing similar fates yet from different walks of life. I wonder...and I wonder...and I wonder...what the world will look like when I'm gone. It's like detonating an emotional nuclear bomb readily to wipe out those surrounding you. What a devastating and lethal experience that affects those who keep on living. At the point of choosing or not to kill myself, I have the greatest control over myself. I am consciously choosing the clearest "either or" of my life. Either live or die. Somewhat it is greatly comforting and heartwarming to know that everything in my life can fall apart except my conscious decision to decide my final outcome. | suicide |
No more motivation to live anymoreFor the past or so weeks I've kept to myself usually sleeping all day and all night ignoring phone calls and other responsibilities. I feel like I have no purpose or use for life anymore. Socially I feel I'm really awkward and feel like no one can ever love me as a soulmate after constant rejections by most girls. This constant depression has lead me to give up on college and my degree in engineering. I've tried alcohol and throwing myself into a hobby of building computers but both are a financial drain and only a stopgap. I know I should go to a doctor and discuss this with them but I feel like it wouldn't help anymore really. I'm better than I was before with my suicidal ideations and no longer looking into methods but just the idea of not being alive seems to be the better option. My main feeling is I'm at a point where I feel I'm ignored by everyone and make life miserable for those around me. I'm a disappointment and a failure and do not matchup to my peers. i want to improve my mindset and myself but I feel it will all be frivolous. | suicide |
Free inside our own hellSelf pity leads nowhere but its where im at.Fuckin super lost.Damn unemployed.No career to chase.No random jobs that fit me,especially after last job i had that raised the bar and i quit it too.That job was the last straw because it was the best i had but it was personally meaningless.Couldnt sell my soul.Seems its not all about the stupid coins but now i have none,fuckkk.Also got distanced from everyone in multiple ways for multiple reasons.Dont even care all that much anymore about that,makes you tougher with time,but also makes you kind of numb.Lost or messed up connections just suck.Spending time contemplating.Days months pass and im stuck.Got put back by asshole that is universe back into the awful position i was in years ago,only this time i got less hope.It is UNBEARABLE.Joining this support group where everybodys lashing out or pushing it down sounds better,proves it. | suicide |
Can't keep trying anymoreSpare me the clichs, spare me everything that people usually say. I'm tired, I'm done with that shit. Take it somewhere else. I keep having suicidal dreams, and I don't feel like telling any therapist or "officials" because I don't want to be put into a mental hospital AGAIN, only to have me be discharged and healthy. I want to talk to someone about it, befriend someone, anyone... but it's not working, and hasn't been working for years. What's the point? Why do I keep trying? So, I'm gonna do it. I don't know when, but I'm fucking tired, and frankly, the world is better off without me. | suicide |
Hi, Im an American, and I think killing innocent people with invisible silent death robots is not ok Im talking about drones in the Middle East aole pono mkou e pepehi i ka poe hala ole | non-suicide |
Thinking about ending itI realize now that I dont fucking matter to anyone. I thought somebody cared about me and they just abandoned me like everyone else. I shouldve seen this earlier. She was my reason to live and she just abandoned me. I loved her so much, but when things got a little hard she ran. Life is just too much for me now. I lose everything that I care about. Ive already wrote the note, Im just waiting to do it now. | suicide |
Aw no baby that not going to work WHO WANTS TO BE MY BOYFRIEND PLEASE I WANT ONE, IM TIRED, DEPRESSED, SUIK SEDAL ): | non-suicide |
The second best thing I find in the comments of this post will get my free silver award And yes this is art | non-suicide |
I just dont get it So Im sure if your from America youve seen how some sports teams have had to change their name because they are derogatory. (I.e. redskins) My schools name is the Indians, and basically everyone who doesnt go to my school is hellbent on changing the mascot. Now Im not opposed to it, but how about the people who go to my school decide whether it is good or bad. In addition, when I bring this up, I get called a bigot or a racist. Also, when I say that maybe instead of changing the mascot, we could get better computers (they do really suck) or tune up the school a bit (the school is years old) I get called racist or a bigot. You know I just dont get it. Am I sounding racist? Idk you guys got any advice. | non-suicide |
I don't hate people that are racist I hate racism but hating people for their (wrong) opinions won't help anyone It will push them into a corner and only make them more extreme We should try to get people out of being racist not hate on them Not being nice to people we disagree with(fundamentally) will only cause them to become deviant and will make it harder to confince them not be racist I also dislike people putting such high emphasis on not using the N word (except for parents/ idols) Instead of focusing on such irrelevancies as words we should focus on taking action against racist The n word isn't a nice word but I'd rather be called ten times a N****** then being beaten up I feel that many people that put a great emphasis on not using the N Word would not step / call the police in when they see a black person being beaten up | non-suicide |
Day of going to the gym EVERYTHING IS SORE WTF | non-suicide |
I am super stressed right now and I feel like I am about to breakdown, so now I rant My mom had met her boyfriend a few months ago and she already wants to have us move in with him. I don't really know the guy but my mom is the happiest she has ever been. However, we currently live in a pretty suburban area close to my school, my aunt, and literally everything I have grown up around. I really don't want to move but my mom is super happy with him. It is minutes away from our current house way out in the lovely open fields of Texas. Luckily, I go to a charter school so I could still go to my school, it would just be a + minute drive. And if I had something to do at school in the morning, I usually audition for the musical which has morning practices, I would be waking up at every morning. I am not really sure why I'm so anxious about moving, I am just scared everything will change. Because it will change. I don't wanna move but it will make my mom happy and she really needs to be happy at this time. She lost her job cuz of covid and my grandma had broken her back which caused even more stress on her. I know I can't say that I don't wanna move because it will break her heart. Now I have to go pretend to enjoy painting my room and hopefully not break into tears in front of her. | non-suicide |
No one cares, but...But Im gonna kill myself. Ive had one too many bad nights. Everyone is such a cunt. Not one person can be nice to me in the way I want. Nothing is enough and this world isnt meant for me. Its not worth it its not worth it Im going insane. I dont want to see the light of day anymore, it hurts me too much. I dont even know why Im typing this. Please just give me a quick way to end this | suicide |
I wrote a bossa song for my band Hope you like it ;) | non-suicide |
How do I make it look like an accident?I don't want anyone to know it was on purpose | suicide |
It's pouring rain, degrees and I want to stand out there and die.It's pouring and cold. I just want to go out there, go out to the back deck/porch and let myself die of cold where my dog Ava did the same. | suicide |
I keep fingering myself It's no fun at all idk why am I keep doing it | non-suicide |
A finland fact for every day # Finland can be divided kinda to parts. On the east, are the depressed people who are the stereotype sad and depressed finns. On the west, are the happy finns who are the stereotype of the happy medieval farmers........ Russia is in the east of us...... Sweden is in the west of us........ What did you think?! | non-suicide |
What is the point if you're aspergers?x higher risk of suicide, bullied at higher rates, % of autistic adults are unemployed, high rates of depression, high rates of social isolation, % get married compared to % of the general population, life expectancy is | suicide |
Cried for the first time in years School has been pretty stressful especially cause the school system isnt respecting my accommodations for my dyslexia and adhd, basically the school just saw me, an attention deficit dyslexic student with a history of anxiety disorders and was just like suffer lmao so I had a small breakdown, talked to my mom and I feel better now, like who knew talking about how you feel can improve your mood somehow that shits crazy man. | non-suicide |
I find it funny when people say "to be frank" Like I'm just momentarily gonna turn into Frank and make my statement because frank is the only person that can be honest and straightforward. | non-suicide |
You know, its very hypocritical that people bonk you when youre horny You only turn me on more when you do that, making the horny stay longer Hit me up if you wanna bonk me harder | non-suicide |
Fuck Spotify Spotify is shit. I play one song and get two ads and a second ad, none of which I can skip. And Im not going to pay $ per month to be able to not have ads when I can just use YouTube and maybe get a - second ad between each song Fuck you Spotify | non-suicide |
My greatest regret Not making my Reddit account on my half birthday. | non-suicide |
No future for me anymoreI failed out of university years in, and life has been nothing but pain and humiliation ever since. There hasn't been a day since February that I haven't thought about killing myself. After I was kicked out in Feb this year, I started spending all my tuition funds on junk. Stupid move, but I didn't care anymore. I still don't, really. Of course, my family flipped out when they found out. Now I'm the family failure and an ungrateful leech to everyone in the house. Still, they made me enroll in part-time classes to improve my standing. But it will take me years of upgrading to start working towards my degree again, so it's pretty much exactly like starting the program from the beginning. Needless to say, whatever feeble motivation I had is completely gone. I had to cut contact with all my friends as well, because I don't want them to know that I'm a failure. They'll all have their degrees while I'll be starting from the bottom. Because they worked hard and I didnt. I'm too ashamed of my status as a part-time student to try and make new friends, so I'd be a complete loner for the next - years. And at that late stage, it's likely impossible to make real and lasting friends. So basically, the rest of my life will be nothing but suffering alone. Why even continue? Midterms start this week, and I haven't attended a single class this semester. I don't even know what my professors look like. I am aware I have a serious self-discipline problem. Even with all my effort, I can't focus on studying for more than a few minutes at a time. And I spend stupid amounts of money on things I don't need. I guess I've just had too much freedom all my life. My plan is to just wing it, and if I fail (and I surely will) I'll end everything then. For now that's as far into my future as I can see. | suicide |
Just can't seem to live in the real world. Cannot find a job. I feel like a failure.I graduated college in the summer of . Since then I have hardly had any professional experience in the field I want. I have had a few jobs here and there. Last few weeks were looking good, had interviews for a job. Two over the phone and in person. Haven't heard from the ones who called me and most likely won't. Heard today from the interview I did in person. They liked me, but said I just did not have enough experience. By the way there are people who work there where I went to college who I worked with. I feel like a god damn failure. I told my mother and she said the reason they did not hire me was because they must have looked at my facebook account and saw the political posts I posted. I freaked out on her, yelled at her, and said that is the most bat shit insane reason to think of considering they probably couldn't even see my facebook account. Whether or not they would give a shit what I posted on there. I just want to drink although the last time I got really sad and drank a lot, I went to the hospital I guess because of alcohol poisoning. I feel alone and can't seem to dig myself out of this hole. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I feel alone. | suicide |
Feel so lonely :( anyone want to talk Finding lockdown hard x | non-suicide |
I have enemies | non-suicide |
What are we holding onto Sam?I lost the love of my life. I went to college for a crap degree and now have $, debt. I have a terrible job that pays next to nothing. I live with my parents. I also have no real friends and I haven't dated in years. Women laugh at me... I've tried to get another job. I've tried dating. I've done everything in my power to fix things. My life revolves around working my awful job to pay my loans. Taking shit from my parents, and being a joke to my family. They literally make fun of me to my face for having a useless degree and so much debt. I am tired of working for absolutely no reason other than to pay off my student loans... I know lots of people have student loan debt, but I was lied to by my parents. They said they'd pitch in. Now they laugh at my debt. FUCK THEM!!!!!!!!! Yes, I tried to do some programs that would allow me to get a better job, they always turn me down though. Teach for America is one that I thought I'd definitely get. Nope. I have to do customer service for $./hr. FML. Does anyone have some advice before I go through with this? I'm not a dick. I wont do it during the holidays. I just realized tonight that it has to happen though. My situation has been awful for years. | suicide |
I had a gun in my hand and I couldn't do it.Why am I such a failure? I couldn't keep my family together, I can't keep my life together, and now I cant even kill myself. I just want to die. | suicide |
Just give me the courage to kill myselfI dont wanna be talked out of it anymore I just want to do it idk how yet but I hope to do it by next Sunday can someone please just give me the courage to do it | suicide |
I'm going to overcome my Avpd and agoraphobia to kill myselfAs the title states, I'm going to overcome my AvPD and agoraphobia to buy some rope, travel to another country to see a band and afterwards I'm going to hang myself. I have nothing to live for, so why bother trying. It'll probably be a few months before I can do this, but that gives me some time to prepare and get everything in order. I'm so tired of fighting everyone, the government, myself, the world. It is very clear now, I just wasn't meant to live. The universe has made it painfully obvious. | suicide |
What homework assignment is currently killing you? For me it is my vocab for health science. | non-suicide |