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Anyone wanna chat? Pretty bored and just want some interaction yk fillerfillerfiller | non-suicide |
My friends sent a picture of me Basically back when i had to use WhatsApp, my call froze when I was talking to my friend and they took a screenshot, and then today, they started sharing it, Im really sad because I look stupid in it and I begged them not to send it, but they did What should I do? I already left the group chat and blocked them | non-suicide |
The subreddit r/amitheasshole sucks and has dumbass rules That's it. That's the whole post. | non-suicide |
put a crown on literally anything and suddenly it looks like it could be a dictator this sure is | non-suicide |
I just lost all attraction to a girl today We where all put into groups and I was in a group with her. She didn't say anything which would be punk and respectable if she didn't make me do everything. There's a difference between being punk, introverted, and a piece of shit you can't just sit there. The other girls where doing this too but I was more focused on her because she didn't even answer the teacher sometimes. Just because you are behind a computer screen does not mean you can act like this. | non-suicide |
Havent been out of bed for daysKinda just hoping that I die here | suicide |
I really want to kill myselfI want to die so badly. It's so simple but I can't bring myself to do it. I hate myself so much. I'm an awful person with nothing left to live for. I don't know why I keep going. I'm just terrified of death. I'm scared that there is a God out there and that I'll be sent to the worst there is. My parents know nothing about how I feel. I can't bring myself to tell them. It's terrifying. I don't want to see them sad. I haven't cut myself in a while but the urge to do it is getting so much stronger. I just want to die without me killing myself. | suicide |
Who want to be my meme dealer uwu Top reasons why you should be my meme dealer . How else am I supposed to get it . Everyone deserves a meme dealer . I could compliment your memes . Um that's it | non-suicide |
Cats eating be like monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch monch | non-suicide |
Remember the only person that cares about you til the end is yourself So you better be good and love yourself by taking care of yourself. Go hydrate,, you need water in your system to function. Go eat,, you deserve food. Go take a shower,, you deserve to be clean. | non-suicide |
Guys Im now Can I do stuff here now or do I have to wait another year | non-suicide |
i wish people would treat me like trash maybe then someone would finally take me out | non-suicide |
minimalism is the most likely thing to end humanity the runner up is me of course | non-suicide |
Offing myself seems to be the only cure all I can think of and I hate it - a rantIve been having terrible spirals lately and todays is probably the worst yet I once again push my significant other away and was very hurtful with my words. I sobbed to my mom. Wrote to my cousin that I wanted to get away at her house; this was all made more complicated because COVID is still a thing so I cant actually just get away without having to quarantine after, etc etc etc. which is another big pain Amidst my breakdown, my mom asked well what do you want? Like do you think I know??? My partner made a very good point where he thinks I havent been trying hard enough to get help (hes right). My sisters said can you give us more info? When I told them I was gonna run away for a bit because theyre worried about COVID and what would happen when I come back. Im too scared of blades to hurt myself. I dont want to look like a weirdo for lying in the snow for hours even tho i want to. I dont want to completely off myself but that seems to be what my mind is revolving around I dont even want to die I just want help and attention and for someone to fix me. But I dont know what the fix is and because of that, death is the easy option. After my breakdown I was just lying here thinking if this is going to be my life... I dont want it Anyways, rant over. I just have a headache and want someone to help me figure out what tf is wrong with me but no one knows, not even myself and Im so tired | suicide |
I just got a wholesome award And I know what imma do with it r/tragic | non-suicide |
Im the biggest loser I know years old, live with mother who is ill, dead end job, cant drive, no money, no skills, no qualifications, stupid, no motivation, no attention span, lazy, worthless. What is the point in living when my life is like this? I am a loser inherently and by execution. The worst part is I have a girlfriend who lives me very much. We met in a different country a few years ago when I spent up an inheritance and pretended to her I have a better life. We have been together several times since but she lives in a different country. We speak to each other everyday and she has been completely devoted to me and she is pain being apart from me. She wants to come for me and has been trying to get a visa but I cant make it work. I have lied to her about pretty much everything in the first paragraph except my age. I have been trying to stall things but Ive ran out of excuses. The truth is just too painful to tell her. She is the only thing keeping me going and she has said if I leave her she would kill herself. I am a coward but this has gone on too long and the consequences of the truth being revealed seem very severe. If I could just die this miserable existence would be over. | suicide |
Stuck in life.Hello guys, So over month ago I've said that I wanna try suicide. I tried but it's not that easy and it hurts and my rope wasn't that good. My life is really fucked up. I have really bad grades at school and I'm weeks home because of my depression. I made a letter for my teacher and I've said that I've a feeling of being stuck in life because I can't commite suicide. I haven't seen my father in years and he left me and he went to the other side of my land. He's a junk and he lies about everything. He's now a wanderer and days ago he messaged me on Instagram that he loves me and he want to meet me again. I was really mad at him because he left me and flees and made a lot of debs with his house and other stuff and my mom has to pay that. My mom said that the debt was over . U.S. dollars. He has a really bad personality and I don't have a reason to live anymore. I've years depression and I'm always feeling tired. My father has bullied me and I've been bullied at my playground back in the days. Somebody has give me a broken nose and bullied me. If you want to know more, message me. | suicide |
I can't keep doing this...I wish that I didnt have to keep coming back here...that I could for once be in control of my emotions. Recently I started feeling okay, I had some semblance of confidence and self worth. I wasn't constantly obsessed with ending things. I mean, I wasn't happy, but it was just such a nice break. I've learned by now that these things won't last so there's no point in trying to make them. Still, it just feels like a sick game where I'm occasionally reminded of what it would be like to be a person again. I hate feeling this way. I resent how pitiful I've become. I feel like such a joke, not just in life but around other depressed people. I have no hardships in my life, I've never been abused or poor. I have no reason to feel this way but yet I do. I feel that I have a good grip on what my problems are but what really gets to me is why. I have no idea why I'm like this or how I can just make it stop. I've tried a lot of things. I honestly have. Every time I try to step out of my comfort zone I get beaten down. I've never really been in a relationship but I've tried talking to girls. Sooner or later they just stop replying. I don't blame them though. I've tried making new friends and well... Thats a whole other story. Please don't get me wrong though, I don't hate people, nor am I an angry person. I don't hate the world or my life even, I just hate myself. I just don't get why it's so hard to do it. Even when I'm not an emotional wreck, when I'm apathetic but rash I still want to end it. No matter how many times I try it I just can't. I know it's cliche but I'm so damn tired. Sorry for the ranting. | suicide |
it's so calming and fun ain't it just playing assassins creed black flag and sailing in the sea with a shanty playing and avoiding all the fights you can avoid and just feel like a real sailor in the s is so calming yet so fun at the same time | non-suicide |
saT HELEPlpelpelPELEPLEPLEpeLPELpe i just started prep due to some big issues, and ive only taaken one practice ttest - and got a . Anyone got tips so i can preferably get high s after about a month ?  thanks, I am dying inside | non-suicide |
Just saw an annoying tiktok so I gotta rant The tiktok was about fitness and losing weight. It said "Do this minute exercise every morning to get abs guaranteed!" Alot of people were believing what she was saying and it pissed me off so let me educate yall in case you didnt know these things: ) You can't burn fat in a specific area of your body. Pushups won't burn arm fat. Squats won't burn leg fat. Situps won't burn belly fat. They burn *calories*. ) Situps DO NOT burn fat. Situps build muscle. They burn some calories, but its a miniscule amount. If you want to burn calories, then do some cardio (Long distance, slow pace). Exercise isnt the only way to lose weight. Sure it helps, but lowering your calorie intake and being in a deficit is more effective. ) You will only have abs if your body fat % is low enough. Don't listen to idiots on social media who promise you a smokin hot bod in seconds. It takes hard work. | non-suicide |
This suddenly feels like a game Pump some random content into the program, and recieve a reward depending on the quality of your text. It doesn't really feel like I'm conversing with real people here, almost like you're all just responses generated through a conplex and developing artificial intelligence. Anyone else feel that way as well? | non-suicide |
Suicide is the only option.My mind is conditioned to think negative all the time. I've grown up in such a environment, can't help that. I can't focus on shit. Nothing. Absolutely nothing cheers me up. It's like no matter how hard I try to look at the positives. My subconscious just doesn't let that happen. I'm always irritated on people and stuff. Always looking for people, so that I can rant. But now I'm just so tired of my brain. I know that I'm the one who's giving orders to my subconscious to work like that but it's beyond my fucking control. I can't even exercise .% control over how my mind processes things. Suicide is all that I've been thinking of lately because I want these thoughts to stop and I can't deal with myself anymore. I've tried everything from meditation to medicines. Nothing has worked for the past years. Nothing. Even my doc that told me that your mind is coniditoned to work like that and there's no medicine that can cure it. Just a few people I can be myself around are the only hope and help I should be expecting. But, I don't need people. Nah! People suck. So, yeah I just wanna die and be numb forever. Would be such a nice feeling when zillions of thoughts stop coming at the same time. I can't imagine how wonderful that moment would be. | suicide |
Currently planing a (lightly modded) Java SMP! Message me for details! Hey all, Making a SMP server for Java, anyone who is interested can message me. Rules and regulations of the server will be set by the players who are interested in joining. Message me and I can invite you to a discord, where everyone who wants to play can decide as a majority how the server will be run! (Rules, difficulty, name etc.) Looking for active players, Thanks! | non-suicide |
So how do I go about dating? Okay Im a male, I like FPS games, sandbox games, stealth games, model painting, you get the idea. Im looking for females but I honestly have no clue how to approach this since I barely know how to start a conversation, or really how to talk in general. Help. | non-suicide |
What makes life worth living?Hi everyone, After thinking about it for a bit, I've come to the conclusion that I have literally nothing to live for. The prospect of living my whole life without doing anything that I'm passionate about, or anything of real value, is much more terrifying than just offing myself. I don't even have any real problems, but there's barely anything that makes me even remotely happy nowadays. I know that I can be happy, because I was for most of my life. But nowadays, I just don't have the will to keep on going. I didn't go through a tough breakup, or lose a family member, or anything like that, it just came out of nowhere. Why should I keep on living if it's so much easier not to? (sorry for the rant-y-ness of this post) | suicide |
"If I do not wish to be alive, do I wish to be dead?"the title is from a book i read , that question is stuck in my mind "as being suicidal" and i can't really find an answer for that , i'd love to hear your answers/opinions if anyone have been questioning/wondering the same. | suicide |
My friends made fun of me for having an imaginary girlfriend Jokes on them, theyre imaginary too | non-suicide |
the person i gave my everything to, just left mei really dont know what to do, dont know what to say, and to be honest i just want someone who can voicechat for like minutes, please | suicide |
Tonight Ill die.Tonight Ill die. I look at my dad deeper in his eyes. I kiss my mother louder on her cheeks. I hug my brother tighter around his hips. I text my friends longer on the phone. I see the night sky brighter. Tonight, Ill die. That was what I posted on my Facebook, right after Id reached home from an extra class at p.m. Id had bad days. The only one who messaged me was a friend I barely saw in a week, when we came across each other at the hallway and Id give her a hug. | suicide |
Not even the counselors seem to give a shitMy parents made me join a group at school. It's like a once a week counseling session during class with a group of people who go through the same stuff you do. They're all alcoholics and smoke and do drugs and that's why they're in the group, no fucking idea why I am. Guess they're just scared I'll off myself even if I don't have alcohol or drugs. I had to stop by to sign something, I haven't gone in a month. I figured if they cared they'd actually send a pass to the class I'm in at the time(which they do for all the people who'd probably actually benefit from going to class for once but whatever), otherwise it's no big deal. The counselor who runs the group didn't even realize I hadn't been there in a month. I'm one of five people in the group. So now I'm just sitting in a bathroom stall crying, probably gonna eat my lunch in here too. | suicide |
It's hot as fuck and need to sleep, but did some push ups and now I need sleep. But I will probably be on reddit for more hours like normal | non-suicide |
Is it a bad idea to tell a therapist about suicidal thoughts?Started seeing someone. Weve had one session. I know its important to be open and honest. Ive had suicidal thoughts on and off for over years. I dont want to be thrown in a psych ward, but I need help for this. What kind of wording should I use to talk about it? Or should I leave it out? | suicide |
Just ignore me im avoiding my responsibilities What you want something else from me? I told you just ignore me | non-suicide |
after hours of gym, I am so proud :)  | non-suicide |
Hey so I've made a discord server to chill out If you're interested in a no NSFW, cool server then I can DM you the link :D | non-suicide |
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using xanax to od?im gonna kill myself this week, there is no denying it. im not looking for kind words or any of that. i just need to know how much xanax i should buy to od and if anyone knows anyone who has odd on xanax and whats it like. is it painful? im planning on getting super drunk before. let me know. thanks | suicide |
Guys, I broke my TV so like, here i am sitting in front if my smashed TV, when all of the sudden Santa Claus comes through my chimney and say "you got two options, you can either be a saint, or a grinch" then i turned into the [grinch]( and danced outside, what a terrible day. | non-suicide |
How big is your "homework" folder? Just curios. Mine has about GB, but there are only a view vids anf pics in there. | non-suicide |
i need hugs what do hugs from people not in your family feel like, it sounds nice | non-suicide |
Opinion: The Political Divide on TikTok [ | non-suicide |
I just dont know what to do anymore.Ive thought about dying for a few years now. It didnt used to be suicidal thoughts. I just wished I got into a car accident or something. And even when it got more into wanting to end it myself, I would always think of my family and determine I could never hurt them like that. As time goes on, I find it more and more difficult to talk myself out of these thoughts. Theres one person in the world who can make me feel better just by being in the same room- my ex. But because he doesnt understand in mental health and he thinks Im just too negative, we broke up. A few days ago, we started talking again. When we hung out, every bad feeling I had bottled up inside me just disappeared. Today, I had a bad day. The kind where your depression and anxiety hits you as soon as you open your eyes. The kind where its a battle in your head all day long. He told me Im crazy and Ill never change. I cant help it. Im not even good enough for the one person who can calm me down. I just want to not feel like this anymore. I want to end it. | suicide |
I have never been to a dentist or orthodontist in my life and my teeth are really bad Whenever I ask my mom she says she will make an appointment but its been like a year since she said that. I have been rejecting what she makes for dinner saying my teeth hurt and she doesnt seem to care. Should I just go on a rant or something because I think I should go. | non-suicide |
My parents are pressuring me to go to a college that doesnt even offer what I wanna major in Both my dad and my brother went to the same college, and now my parents are pressuring me to go to the same one (both because they did and because my dads job makes it cheaper for us). However, I wanna major in mechanical engineering and minor in computer science, and maybe take some courses in computer engineering if I have the opportunity. The college does not offer mechanical engineering - the thing I wanna take the most. And yet my parents insist I should still go and my moms like if you pester them enough about the course theyll have to add it in. What the fuck?! | non-suicide |
I don't know what's wrong with me...Hey everyone, I think I should type this out, but I don't want to waste anyone's time. So you don't have to read this... Well, like the title says, I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm going downhill, and I'm not improving, but I guess it doesn't matter anymore. I'm a disappointment to my family and friends, I'm not myself and I'm a burden to my family. Also, no matter what, I still do stupid mistakes which could have been a disaster. I want to improve and be a better person, but maybe I just don't care anymore or myself. I don't look after myself either and I don't know why. I've been through a lot, and I should have died many times, but I survived. Thanks for reading, and I appreciate that. Goodbye | suicide |
If this gets likes I'll kill myself so I don't have to see these posts anymore seriously stop it's annoying do something original | non-suicide |
I am sick of this shitpost that is life and i will fucking do it.Fuck this i rather be on hell or abyss than this retarded bullshit. I do not even have any reasons to live anymore. And i have literally no talent nor am smart. Bye yall! | suicide |
My entire country is reopening on th September and i am scared. Schools, wedding halls, offices, shops, malls, etc. I am scared because there are over K corona cases in my country and most kids in my class come from poor families also i live in a rd world country in the middle-east. | non-suicide |
Anyone wanna play the number game? Probably overdone, but idc really. If you need the pic I can send it | non-suicide |
Ngl cars are cool Except tesla and french cars and vw, fuck em | non-suicide |
I have literally nothing to live forSo Ive been suicidal since I was pretty young and now in early adulthood Im realizing that life just gets more unbearable with time. Anyways, Im wondering if anyone can relate to this/ is in a similar situation... A lot of times when I read or hear about what suicidal people have to say, they talk a lot of their failed relationships, addictions problems, etc. Obviously, I know these arent the only reasons people become suicidal, but the reason Im suicidal is because I have absolutely no meaningful relationships with anyone, and absolutely no idea how relationships even work. Im extremely socially awkward and dont even attempt to be a part of any community or make friends or date, even though Im a somewhat attractive girl and do get asked out pretty often. Ive really fucked myself in a lot of ways in life and ultimately I know Ill spend my youth in pain and misery. Im planning my suicide for this summer. It sucks that its gotten to this point, because I know Im gonna fuck up so many peoples lives, but its too painful to go on. I think we should ultimately have the right to die. I remember being young and really just wanting to be held by someone who cared about me. If I cant develop meaningful relationships, that will never happen. | suicide |
Hi, my name is stupidjames, I find it hilarious when people say "username checks out" because it has been said to me over times. Filler filler filler filler filler FILLER fuller fatter filler filler fillet steak filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
I'm tired of sufferingI'm fucking tired. I'm going to fucking kill myself and it's the only thing I'm looking forward to. No one gives a fuck. Not on reddit, not in real life. I have notning to live for, and no it won't get any better, it'll just get harder for me. I'm sick of being alive, everything is just hurt and pain I have no girlfriend, I'm still a virgin, I'm ugly, lesbian, barely scraping by university, i have no future and nothing to look forward to. I'm starting to hate university but it's my only option. I'm physically unfit and weak and can't ever change it because I'm too lazy and know I'll never reach the body I want. I have nothing and I will never have anything, I fucking hate this shit. I can't stand looking in the mirror anymore without wanting to burn my face off, I just want to sleep and never wake up | suicide |
it feels like im overeating I had bacon and pancake and eggs with a coffe at am and I had a icecream sandwich about mins ago and now I'm looking something else to eat and its pm should i just cancel that plan? because it feels like im eating too much? | non-suicide |
I dunno what I want.I want help but ik I'm not consistent or committed enough. At this point I wouldnt even know where to go. I'm feeling desperate though. Like my plan that had patience is wearing thin. I feel such a pressure to go away from all of this. I feel trapped & pressure & tbh a little scared bc I'm not sure how long I can keep myself safe. I need a plan that's right I dont even care. uch how it is. I just really want to go. I would possibly consider the hospital but I've turned away so many times in crisis I kinda just don't bother. I don't really bother talking about it anymore. I have my moments though. It doesnt matter bc I'm not an immediate risk but I'm def losing some control over that. I dont think I'll be alive by the next few weeks if I can help it tbh. I just feel such a pressure like a.. "finally it's time to go now" I dunno who to talk to anymore anyway. So I'll just manage & try and stay outta the way.... | suicide |
I think I sent a dp to someone pretending to be a year old girl. I was horny and went on Omegle and sent a dp to someone. I noticed now sus they were after the pic. And now Im paranoid as fuck. I figured Id come to the teenagers for something. | non-suicide |
Suicidal- DV victim/survivorI had my purse stolen out of work the other night. Been out of a domestic violencence for or months. Feel somehow its my fault still. Pretty sure he was seeing other people and may have been sleeping with prostitutes because things don't add up. Haven't had my medication in a long time because I haven't been able to see my Dr working nights. Car repossesed as soon as I started working again. My abusive ex had a lot of attractive physical qualities and its making things really confusing. I can't help but blame myself some for being so depressed when we were together it started a downward spiral he felt nothing he did was good enough and became very angry towards me. Now I spend my days wishing he killed me and wanting to blow my brains out at times, especially at work. Really lost and confused. I'm in so much pain no one can see and I just feel like if I had better control over my depression he wouldn't have felt some type of way. I know he thought I'd never leave him because he is very attractive and I did kick him out... Panic attacks and anxiety all day its no way to live. I'm I feel like this will be my entire life I will never know a good life. My whole life has been plagued by abuse and mental illness. Nothing jas ever really gotten better. I left him and lost the little independence I had with my car and I was just starting to feel better about myself. Haven't cleaned the house in weeks. Trash and flys out. I do take care of my dog. I've been really depressed. I tried making a post the other week but mods said to post here intead because I'm suicidal. | suicide |
I'm donefuck you. fuck everyone. guess I just don't deserve to have friends. I don't deserve anything. And I'm fucking done. See you all in hell. | suicide |
I had a dream that I was pregnant and in the hospital about to give birth and I was so upset because my mom wasnt there but my abuser was and he wanted to watch me give birth and I was flipping out because I wanted him gone and also it was a baby boy but I couldnt think of a name so I was frustrated and I wanted my mom there so bad lol and the nurses wouldnt listen to me so I just kept getting more and more upset but I woke up before the dream ended so I never got to see my baby :( | non-suicide |
Saying hi and reminding you to drink water every day till I get a girlfriend Day Hi. I hope you're great. Remember to drink some water and stay hydrated | non-suicide |
should I text him first but idk what to sayyyy ajshrfoeufyvejhcverjed | non-suicide |
I am going to commit suicide eventuallyI am sick of this. I have Asperger's and there's no job for people like me. I have a useless master's degree in cyber security and there's no jobs for those with limited experience and no certifications. I have made too many mistakes and failed at EVERYTHING. What is the joy of living when there's no jobs for anyone unless you know someone? Like I was laid off just because the president wanted to hire a family friend and nepotism is legal. All the jobs out there that do hire are paid off of commission or are low wage people-oriented ones. I quit my permanent job for a cybersecurity contract, thinking it will jumpstart my career and it DIDN'T! I feel tricked. I hate my life so much. Why is life worth living when there's no employment? Why do I have to be the dumbest and most useless piece of bilge in the world? Why do I always get treated like the runt of the litter? Everyone in my family is more successful than I. Maybe in the next life, I will have a better one, but this one has been far too much for me. I will not commit suicide yet. Maybe not in years, but the stress of this is starting to heat up. | suicide |
anyone in Winnipeghelp me die please | suicide |
I think suicidal is the wrong name for itI dont want to die so much as i want to cease to be. I dont want to hurt anyone else anymore than I am hurting myself. I dont want to translate my pain into the pain of a dozen others. I just want to stop being. The love of family and friends doesnt make it easier to live. Just more guilty to want to die. I think were all here hoping to read or see something that changes everything. Some answer that unlocks our happiness. Our satisfaction but I dont think - for me at least - its coming. I think were all hoping for some cosmic answer or shift. When really it needs to done from within. And personally I dont want to search for it. I just want people to stop caring about me so I can get it done. | suicide |
I have no why so how can I face any how?What is the point of struggling to get out of this ditch when there is no light at the end of the tunnel? | suicide |
What do i doWhat do i do... im .... dyeing from a heart condition.... at the hospital all the time.... ex and me have been braking up and getting back together the last months (we have been together years).... she now has a new bf.... help me.... what do i do.... I need her but she just doesnt care about my health or me like she used to... what should i do? | suicide |
Unusual post, maybeI was diagnosed with schizophrenia ten years ago. I've been told that no one has plans to come torture me, as far as they know, by my family. Yet, I can't help but think that someone is. Considering killing myself so no one will torture me. Death seems..better..than torture to me. When will this end? | suicide |
I cant go on anymoreEvery time I think things are getting better I keep getting dragged back down to rock bottom again. Im so young and i feel like my life is already over Im a failure in every aspect of my life. Everything I once enjoyed has been ripped away from me. People who I thought I could trust always end up using and abusing me. The pain is just too great. I know theres people that care about me and Im probably selfish but I cant take this anymore. Its all too much. Years of therapy and countless medications havent done shit. I just never get better no matter how hard I try. Why the fuck should I keep going if Im just going to be in searing emotional pain the rest of my life. I just want to leave... | suicide |
Idk anymore pls help year old child Angry resentful wife I try so hard, cook, clean, look after baby, make good money She screams at me constantly whenever her defense mechanisms get set off by a comment or by me displaying any negative emotion about anything Idk if I should post here or in relationships She will not see eye to eye or hear me out, just calls me a goof and an abuser and tries to make out like I'm someone who hits her when I don't which in turns actually makes me want to hit her My son is getting scared. I feel worthless and pulled in too many directions, I'm angry, I want to hurt myself with the nearest object. Can I even post that? Idk. I just don't know I am weak | suicide |
Help with crush So there's a girl in a lot of my classes, and I've developed a crush on her. Some others already know, but I trust them to keep a secret. Do you guys have any advice for telling her about my feelings? Serious answers only please. | non-suicide |
Living short termI dont know to how to explain it. Every day I tell myself dont worry you'll be gone and dead by next week/on Friday/tomorrow etc. I plan everything and pick the day, and then when it comes i push it one more day or one more week or whatever. But that just means I tell myself nothing matters and I care about nothing. I dont do my work, I dont take care of myself, I dont save any money. I'm so behind on school that I dont think its even possible to catch up and if it even was I dont think I'm capable of making myself do it. I have exams next week and i can guarantee I'll fail most if not all of them. I know exams are not the end of the world but it's just an example. I live with no purpose. It's a never ending cycle. Anyone else struggle with this? | suicide |
okay guys real quick: ive been a rlly shitty friend and taking hours to reply and being distant to my friend. i feel rlly bad abt it but at the same time idk why i do. wtf am i supposed to say? like we used to be so so so so close but now im kinda the reason were drifting. ig we dont share much of our interests anymore. i barely even have interests anymore ngl. but anyways, if you were my friend in this situation, would you want an explanation why or just a simple apology and the promise that youll do better? would you want something else? | non-suicide |
Having autism is kinda cool ngl It also kinda sucks ass but I don't feel like it sucks atm | non-suicide |
Just took about differnet pills.Hope I die. | suicide |
I'm a schizophrenic alcoholic and I'm throwing in the towel.Hello. My name is Cameron, and I'm a schizophrenic with autism and severe depression. I've lived with depression for well over ten years, and I think it's time for me to go. I've thought for a while now that I'm only alive by chance, and I should have died long ago. I feel I have overstayed my welcome in this world, and my story ended already. I want to make this statement as a final message. I'm sorry to those who I let down. I felt I'd do great things in this world, but I lack the ability to. I'm unable to keep a job, keep track of my memory, and keep my alcoholism at bay. I'm sorry to my mother who I've lied to, and said I'm okay to. I'm sorry to my father who has fought though it all, and I wish I connected with you more. To my brothers, I understand this will be hard to take in, but you will prevail. You're both far more intelligent than I ever could have imagined, and I hope you succeed in life. Talk to eachother though for gods sake. To Beatrix, I wish the best for. I wish we could have been better, and I still love you dearly. I know circumstances came about that caused us to grow apart, but know that I care about you deeply even still. I hope you have the best in life. Goodbye. | suicide |
Just a question for broadway kids So Im a freshman at this all boys high school, and Im planning on joining the schools drama club, but not for the reasons you expect. Instead of being the one acting, I want to be the one directing; I want to be a screenwriter. Is this possible? | non-suicide |
The realization that I'm gonna die from suicide is hard...I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna be alive in the future, and the biggest possibility is me dying from suicide or other causes if there are chances. The future looks dark, I don't see myself being alive and the fact suicide is gonna be the main reason is hard to process... | suicide |
I'm not depressed, now have I ever suffered from a mental illness, I just don't care about living.I've felt like this for a year now and I have recently started thinking of suicide. I don't have anything anchoring me in the world and I just don't care about anything anymore. I feel like my mind is numb. | suicide |
More diagnosis..... more shit, I'm tired and can you even have two personality disorders?I've been diagnosed with so much shit, to name few: Severe depression (Psychotic), ADHD, Severe social anxiety, panic disorder etc. Now I was doing tests with doctor and I apparently lean towards borderline and antisocial personality disorder, wow, I knew it already, I can see it and people around me can see it, but at the same time, I don't give a fuck, I just have this one question in my mind, can you have two personality disorders? And diagnosis for them? And luckily I'm not that depressed right now or feeling it because if I was, I would start cutting again probably and attempt to kill myself again, I don't mind it, I'm okay with it, I'm calm and it's a decision I've made when I was calm, I like cutting also, I don't know, I also seem to appear insane for many, I know why, I don't care once again. I guess I've developed an obsession with things harmful to myself. | suicide |
Quick question: why should I stay alive right now when I could just not?I seriously dont know why I'm supposed to not kill myself right now. Who cares? (None of my family does) Am I missing something because I want to hear a solid reason why I cant just be dead and move on (whatever comes next) | suicide |
why are yall are depressed? like dont get me wrong im not saying its a bad thing but it just doesnt seem right that over million people are depressed. | non-suicide |
and Want to DieI am a year old boy who is failing all of my classes and am struggling with weight. There is constant pressure placed on me to perform on par with my brother who is a genius. I don't feel worthy of living and everyday is a struggle. I don't know what to do. | suicide |
baby u can be my summer love wanna vibe w with u, wanna get high w u why am i crying in the club rn | non-suicide |
Just want to take a moment of your time... To let you know to have an amazing day! | non-suicide |
I miss her man So this is gonna be a long rantish type post so ignore if u want. So back when I was around or there was a new girl in my neighborhood and eventually I introduced myself and we hit it off. This would be around and we remained friends for a few years hanging out almost every day that is until around mid . My mom and step dad divorced and my step dad kept the house so I was only over there around weekend a month or so so I would barley get to see her anymore. Now throughout this whole friendship she had always tried to hint to me she might be moving away by saying hey Im moving and then I would get all sad and then shed be like ahh its just a joke I got u and then I would be upset at her for doing that to me but I just got used to it and didnt believe her when she kept saying it eventually. Well one day I went over to my stepdads and he told me that she moved away to Florida. I never even got to say goodbye man that was probably the best friend I ever had and I never got to say goodbye. I guess she couldnt bear to tell me that she was moving but it hurt more realizing I never got to say goodbye. She helped me grow up by introducing me to so much stuff since she was a year older than me hell idk why Im typing this fuck night-time man gets me in the feels to much | non-suicide |
I've started having thoughts, and I'm scaredHey, life hasn't been good to me recently. I've lost a lot, including my partner who I devoted everything into, probably too much. I've started thinking about doing something, I'm not entirely sure what yet. I know it's a final solution to a problem type thing, but I can't shake the feeling and I'm scared that in a moment of weakness I'll do something that I won't be able to regret doing. | suicide |
my cutting relapsed and I don't want to live anymorethe title says it all. | suicide |
Why do I hate myself so much?I'm the only thing hindering my recovery. I've been feeling suicidal for months now. Constantly posting and deleting posts. I won't move on and live until I start accepting life but I don't feel I deserve it and I really detest myself. Therapy, medications, more therapy, more medications. Why do I constantly battle with myself over whether or not I should kill myself. I have a loving husband, a young child, loving family and friends, good career prospects if I went back to work. So I know deep down I shouldn't but I just can't shake the feeling of not being deserving of this life I have. I'm so angry that I feel like this.im so angry that I haven't killed myself. I feel so guilty for feeling all of this. Theres so many layers but I think it boils down to really hating myself and feeling undeserving of life. | suicide |
My first post on redditAnd it's on this forum or whatever you call it.. I feel like I'm probably quite bit older than most of you.. im , I have kids but one of them is and goes through suicidal thoughts just as much as I do and I have my whole life! I've had some real shitty things happen in my life such as a lot of sexual abuse at a young age and then the same shit happened to my older daughter by my piece of shit ex husband (oh he got years by the way!!!!) resulting in a heroin relapse and I've lost everything I've ever owned in the past years so here I am sitting at my moms house going through dopesick after just leaving Chicago now in mid Missouri I wish I had some fentanyl so I could just end it all!! Believe me I have tried to end my life many times, I have been in psych ward after psych ward.. the first time I was , when I was I tried times within months why am I still here??? I was brought back with narcan times!! Ughgggg I hate my life On the other hand, I love my year old daughter soooooo much and I want to be here for her but I also feel that someone in my family may be able to raise her better than I can since I am such a damaged soul. I dont know what to do anymore. I used to have a happy life once. I had a career, a beautiful house, a nice car, I even was going for a masters in social work but that's the past I lost it all and now I'm just a failure and I feel like I will never get it back. I just want to go back to Chicago go find me some fentanyl and end it which is not hard believe me no narcan bringing me back this time | suicide |
I hate my body and mind. I wish that I was never born.(sorry for errors and that it's just rambling. Can't be bothered) It seems like I've lost the genetic lottery - every bad thing about my parents but worse. It has only gone worse since becoming an adult. I'm a almost year old male and I hate my body. I'm standing at barely '" tall, and won't grow anymore. Both my parents are taller. My hair is thinning on top, like my dad, but earlier. I'm losing something I was proud of and liked, like always. Thick brown locks are being reduced to pathetic strands. I'm autistic. Aspergers syndrome. Feeling connected and comfortable around others. I've never been in a relationship and is a virgin. I don't think I've even properly kissed. My prospects of intimacy seems more and more laughable. It feels like I've wasted my prime years. The youthful ones. The ones I'll NEVER get back. And I'm wasting my life right now as well. I can't talk to my parents about it. I still live with them but want to get away from them. Talking about deeper and emotional things with them is impossible. They have never been able to give adequate emotional support. At best I just get to hear myself speak. At worst I feel stupid for my emotional conditions. Are they even people who should've ever been parents. They should be ashamed to have made an abomination, a walking atrocity, like me. Everyone would've been better off if they just adopted one or two babies. I wouldn't have to exist and they could've dealt with a normal needing child (for better or for worse). I'll be alone for a while in a couple of hours. I'm thinking about tying a lamp in my room into a noose and hang myself. Or commit a spree killing. I'm just done. | suicide |
Im turning in under a month and have no idea how to feel about it. A couple days ago, I was talking to my friend and he asked me about my plans for my birthday. He said your birthday is in days now and that just hit me like a truck for a couple reasons. (I) How is it November already in days, (II) I am going to be years old. Wtf? And finally, what the fuck have I done with my life? Almost all my memories are of being a teenager and not being one anymore seems weirdly adult-like. I feel like my teenage years have been kinda unremarkable. I have a lot of experiences and a lot of fun but at the end of the day, if my past is any indication for my future. Im not really excited. My past relationships have frankly sucked. My friends are great but I feel like Im losing touch with them more and more and above all. I dont want to spend my college years stuck at home in this bloody pandemic. Sorry if this ran a bit long but I needed to get it off my chest | non-suicide |
Crisis Text Line minutes ago I texted the free Crisis Text Line. I have ATT. I havent even received an automated message. Im freaking out because I finally reached out for once and got nothing. I guess this is it lads. | suicide |
I want to kiss my girlfriend But I dont know how to start the kiss. What do I do? | non-suicide |
Ok but hear me out- What if I pronounced guacamole like whack-a-mole | non-suicide |
Not suicidal yet but getting damn closeI just texted my ex and it when as well as one would expect. I have stopped taking my meds and I'm alone at home. Started taking shots alone. Ok off to do another shot and we will see where the night goes. | suicide |
Whats the best way to try to kill yourself, so that if it fails there won't be too bad of damage?This is probably a really stupid question, I'm not really sure if I'm asking this at the right place either. I've been thinking about committing suicide, but one of my worst fears is if it fails and my family finds out, and they pay for my expensive medical bills when I'll most likely just try it again. I am not seeking help, because some random people on the internet aren't going to persuade me out of doing this. I'd just like to try, knowing that if it fails, it won't be that much more of a burden to my family. | suicide |
the way i have the gay side of r/teenagers on my back. i'm the original, the creator and everything in between. | non-suicide |
There is three kinds of people in this sub Some of them post against racism/homophobia/transphobia for karma Some complain abot people that post against racism/homophobia/transphobia for karma And the ones who are just here because they are horny or depressed | non-suicide |
vamos a tener esta conversacin veces, veces vamos a hablar de la misma mierda No me has llamao Van dos semanas fuera y ni te has molestao To lo que s De ti es lo que sale en las redes si escribo tu nombre Y otra vez vas a perder el avin Y otra vez soy una imbcil esperando a su hombre Cmo quieres que te quiera si no ests aqu? Cmo quieres que te quiera si no ests aqu? Cmo quieres que te quiera si no ests aqu? | non-suicide |