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My close friend killed herself, my dad might lose everything he has because my grandad is trying to steal it from him and my SO hasn't spoken to me for two days because I stayed home to shower and grocery shop instead of going with her to work in the library.Currently sat in a Dominos waiting for a pizza and struggling to see any fairness in life and any reason to go on. | suicide |
Ive never felt so close to the edgeIm and have battled suicidal depression for years, but Ive never felt this close to the edge so to speak. I always had something still helping me hold on or to live for. A reason to fight the battle. But now it feels different. Like all the fights gone. Im percent disassociated from everyone. I dont feel present. Ill always continue in this same struggle so theres just no point in continuing to keep the battle up if the end result is always the same. Its like Ive come into some kind of acceptance that I just wasnt made for this life. Im going between feeling a haunting peace between that acceptance and a pain that even Ive never known because I lost the battle. | suicide |
I know I'm just being moody... but I just know that someday I'm gonna be in a dark place and be afraid to ask for help | non-suicide |
Suicidal thoughts every second of everyday.I am on depression medication, I am "high functioning" and very few people know that I struggle with severe depression. Recently I began having vivid, specific suicidal thoughts increasing to the point of every second. I went to the hospital, and was referred to talk therapy. I can see a psychiatrist it about weeks, until them I feel like I am barely surviving. | suicide |
Trapped with emotionally abusive father and can't escapeMy whole life, my dad has yelled at me and has dumped all of his problems onto me. Nobody has helped me with this. Not my family, or the police, or anyone. I have no job and had to drop out of college due to not being able to afford it and not getting any financial aid. I'm hopeless and my life is a fucking mess. Last year I decided to try to end it but then just went to the Emergency Room to see if they could actually help me. Mostly because I couldn't find any place high enough at home to hang myself from. All they did was recommend I see a therapist twice a week. I started doing that and my therapist was useless. I ended up feeling even more angry and hopeless after each session. After a while my therapist recommended I be put on medication. So I found a psychiatrist and he prescribed me a medication. It didn't help. When I told the psychiatrist that the medication wasn't doing anything, he recommended I be admitted to a hospital so they could monitor me and figure out how to treat me. I spent a week in the hospital and they gave me another medication and sent me on my way, with treatment at an outpatient center to see a therapist every week. And now I'm here, jobless, no friends, a NEET with no future, money or hope. I don't know what to do anymore. My dad yells at me all the time about my mom (they're divorced) and I don't know what to do. I can't get out and my life is going nowhere. I've tried getting help but nobody is giving me actual help. | suicide |
I'm scared, I need helpToday's been a shit day for me. I've been cutting, I've had multiple breakdowns, I'm just not in a good state. About an hour ago my friend messaged me about how he's going to kill himself and how he's a waste of space and useless. I'm in an awful state as it is and just had another complete panic attack, I'm scared he's going to do something and I'm struggling to even reply because I'm a mess. I need help | suicide |
Shawty said shed tickle my pickle for a nickel I now have the sickle | non-suicide |
I get a day off of school friday I didnt know they cancels school because of Good Friday! And I dont celebrate Easter anymore. | non-suicide |
if i had a dollar for every tik tok bad post on reddit id be able to buy a house, a car, an island, a private jet and more | non-suicide |
Wait what's cis I always tought it meant Confederacy of Independent Systems | non-suicide |
I'm so down I don't know how to get of my kneesIm realy done with all this shit. I cant take it anymore. Aged and achieved complitley nothing, I have nothing, I have no money, I have no I can call a real friend, I have no people I can trust, I have no education, I have no life. For the past years Ive been suffering from anxiety, depression, anger I cant controll and lonelyness, I feel so worthless, I feel so down I dont see a way to get up again. Aged , still live with my parents while people my age go out in the world and Im being here useless, desperate for something to happen that would bring me off my knees. Its my fault.. I know its my fault for not having anything, to be honest Im affraid of my future, I cant guarantee my own future. Even if there are good days there is still that voice in my head ok, you live, eat, breathe and have fun today, what are you going to do tomorrow? Same old story every day. If some told me years ago how I will end up I wouldnt believe him, Im ashamed of myself! I have nothing to offer to ANYONE! Now I know why she left me I have nothing to give. I dont know what my future might be, and honestly I dont want to know, because if some told me my future now I dont think I could handle the truth that I would have to live with for the rest of my life. Who wants to live their life in pain? No. I know there are people that have been in worse situations than I, but they found the way that I wish I could too. I realy have nothing. I live day by day for what? Miracles only happen to people who are happy and dont worry about anything. - I saw a shooting star, made my wish and put it in the jar. - Now I wish I wouldnt have to say this.. But this is it. My life is my worst dream I can dream. Life goes on with or without me and time will wash away the pain and sadness. I wish I could leave behind something to remember me by, but Im affraid there is nothing to leave behind other than these words that are a shame to write. You have no idea of the scale that my heart and soul hurts! So please before you blame me, try to understand me! | suicide |
love how sometimes when I ask or say something to my dad he literally ignores me yet yells and insults me if I dont respond to him luckily it's not everytime I ask or say something , and I guess it's better that he ignores me rather then yell at me ha . it's just really irritating and he's been doing this since I was fucking born . it's like ,, I *know* he hears me , I spoke loud enough and I'm looking directly him (but I'm too afraid to repeat myself since he'll get mad and I'm too embarrassed anyways) yet he jus doesn't say anything or even look at me . but ooohh nooo as soon as I don't respond quick enough to whatever bullshit he's talking about I automatically get insulted , yelled at and then he's just mad at me and doesn't even wanna talk to me anymore .(even though it's just him ranting) it also really sucks cause anytime any person doesn't hear what I said or acknowledge it I just get an overwhelming emotional flashback and all that dumb stuff . my mom does the same too except I genuinely can't tell if she hears me sometimes and she doesn't really yell at me . idk it felt kinda good to get this out . I'm reading this over and over again and boy I word shit weird | non-suicide |
I really want to be happy I just dont know howI find it extremely hard to derive pleasure from anything. I smoke so much weed that I dont even get high anymore. Even when Im around ppl I always feel like I have to keep up appearances so I dont come across as antisocial or whatever. I feel so empty and unfulfilled. The worst thing is I know that its not visible to most ppl because I act like nothings wrong. Its not hard for me to pretend that Im happy, all I want is to not have to act like I am. | suicide |
No one cares but I've decided to do some research on a cult. The cult in question is *Angel's Heaven,* I'm going to post my findings about it. (Should be interesting, the biggest part of it is something about angels (aliens basically)- but yeah that's it. | non-suicide |
I don't have a purpose. I hate my life. I'm not good at anything.That's all I'm too tired to write more. | suicide |
I saw people die.It's hard to get used to it. People simply live and die. One second, one movement and you're gone. People on this subreddit died a lot, people in the whole world too, and I want everyone to stop suffering. I'd take all that suffering into me. | suicide |
Im ready.I dont wanna die. I have a little but nice house, and an amazing wife and good family. I've had chronic pain, caused by several medical issues for over a decade. I'm done and ready to go. . Doctors fucking suck, they are smug fucking pieces of human trash that think they know better because just they have an extra piece of paper, and if you present them with hard facts contradicting them, they shut down and refuse to help in any way. . Humanity fucking sucks. Everywhere you go, people are assholes, looking only out for themselves and how they can take advantage of everyone else, or tear you down so they dont have to acknowledge their own insecurities, or what they can get from you.. and only care about acquiring power or wealth. When it boils down to it, we are nothing but mammals and anything we do will never matter in the end, other than humanity will eventually destroy itself and this world. No one cares about anything other than themselves. Yeah there's good people in the world, nothing they do to help change things will ever matter either because there is FAR more bad than good. We all deserve to die and be forgotten. . Yeah I've got a great home life but I am in so much physical pain every day. I have been to dozens of doctors, had dozens of major surgeries, with more to come. I have no fight anymore. . Bad things always happen to the best people. We've all had good friends die, we all struggle, life is only suffering, what's the fucking point?? Even if you work hard, lose weight, be kind to everyone, and give everything you have to help others, it doesn't matter, you ARE no matter what you do, have needless suffering, pain of all kinds, and you will die and turn to dust. It's pointless. I'm done with this world. I don't think I have the balls to go thru with it, but checking out is looking better and better every day. When my time comes, I will not be sad. | suicide |
I need helpSo this is concerning my suicide and depression. Ive been suicidal and depressed for a long time now, about four years or since I was . At first I was just sad more frequently and then it evolved into a serious depression and then self harm and that snowballed into suicidal thoughts. No attempts yet but I also walk the line on that topic. I always feel like Im a burden on society and that putting myself down and self harming is a way to repay people who are kind to me because I cannot repay them in other ways. I hate the fact that I think this way but I cannot change it. My parents try and help but I cant describe how it feels. Its so hard and I feel I cannot cry because everyone would ask why and I am not worth their time. My friend who has helped me a lot with this issue told me to post something about this here. I feel like this wont be able to fully communicate my feelings though because words cant always describe emotion. My parents and teachers and other people in my life expect so much of me because for a lot of my younger life, I was athletic and smart and had many friends but now, Im so depressed all the time, my grades have gone down, Im out of shape, and I only have a few close friends. I always feel like since I cant get up to expectations that Im a worse person than anyone else and that I cant ask for help since I am just worse than everyone. Im trying to change my mindset but its so so so hard for me to do this. Please, I need help but I have no idea what to do. Im sorry for taking up your time. Good luck and goof lives to you all. | suicide |
Do i fall asleep in my running car or in my bed? Both are so tempting. | suicide |
how the hell can you accidentally bone a skeleton in a video game jesus, flirting lead to that real fast, and he isnt even part of my party. | non-suicide |
Yay Im happy Ive gone from short, weak, and round with fat folds everywhere when I was to slightly tall, strong, but soft and chubby at Went from and looking like I was - to and looking like Im - So big big improvement | non-suicide |
I'm going to hang myself, and I don't think my parents will even care. (possibly NSFW)I am , male, and I'm an asperger, I've diagnosed myself with OCD and ADHD, I'm genderqueer pansexual and homophobic which is a problem, and I'm done, I'm gonna hang myself next time I can go outside with my scarf. my dads barely here, and when he is, he never listens to anything i have to say unless it will affect him. and my mums here all the time but because of my ADHD I always manage to annoy her, my OCD makes me want to slit my fucking wrist in. cuz it makes my whole life a routine. i wake up, brush my teeth, go to the bathroom, wash my hands, annoy my dad/mum indirectly cuz of my adhd, have dinner, brush my teeth, go to the toilet, wash my hands, go to bed. rinse and repeat. that's not all of it though. there is a lot need to talk about so message me, please (don't know how to pm) | suicide |
Just realized I don't have anything in the next year that I'm looking forward to.For years I've been depressed, but I've always had something to look forward to. A friends wedding out of town, a vacation to Vegas or the ocean, or just anything. I drink very heavily, and have had thoughts about how it's pointless and killing myself before while drunk, but I'm stone sober and have been for a week, but am just strongly wondering why I don't just end it. I work entirely too many hours at a salaried job, and don't get the recognition for it. With the commute thrown in, every day is basically get up, go to work, work, go to gym, go home, eat, and by then it's time to sleep if I want - hours of it. Weekends I don't do anything fun anymore, as I've alienated all of my friends, and honestly can't think of anything I'd actually want to do that wouldn't involve an amount of money I can't spare right now, IE a vacation somewhere away from here. I just watch Netflix alone all weekend. I just turned , but I have jack to show for it. I've fucked off my entire twenties and now everyone is married with kids. I know this is just rambling, but I stared out the window for an hour before coming to post this, and believe that there isn't any reason anymore for me to not end it. I don't see an end to the cycle. I haven't had a day I would call fun since mid december and before that it was a long time too. The last thing I was looking forward to was my tax refund, as I was going to take a trip, but it was taken by a collections agency so I never even got that. I see now that it'd be better to not be, than to be unhappy % of the time. | suicide |
I want a cute little onesie :( But I have none and aren't allowed because dad is a homophobic prick | non-suicide |
Brokeup with gf yesterday and unexpectedly saw her today...The love of my life, the woman that helped me through several periods of depression for years dumped me just yesterday. I was already doing quite bad... but when I unexpectedly saw her in real life holy shit i want to die. There are no words for how bad it fucking hurt, i thought about killing myself but i think i can stay strong and fight it for now. But fuck this pain... i was honestly devastated, nothing fucking matters anymore. Shes gone from my life and i want to fucking die. Just stop feeling anything. This hurts so damn bad i honestly have no energy to live on anymore. | suicide |
I dont see myself dying any other way.Whenever I try to imagine a future for myself, I cant. I just cant see myself doing anything with my life. I dont see myself graduating or getting old. I dont see myself having any major milestones. I only see suicide. But I just dont know how. Its such an odd feeling of uncertainty that I hate. I would do it tonight but i have no way to. Im just sick of struggling and I wish I could just die already. | suicide |
If I get Nezuko or Demon Slayer merch I would be so so so so happy :D | non-suicide |
How the hell are you supposed to spar with a girl without it feeling like sexual assault? It just feels so wrong when I'm doing Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu and I get matched up with a girl as my sparring partner. Like, BJJ requires a lot of touching, pressure on sensitive areas, and... smothering. A chick straight up almost suffocated me with her chest area this evening. It becomes even more awkward when I inevitably get a boner, and there's no way she doesn't notice it since she's literally sitting directly on it, made even worse by the fact that it's nofap season. Martial artists of r/teenagers, how actually the hell do y'all do it and actually focus on the technique? | non-suicide |
I Want to Never Wake Up AgainHey everyone in reddit cyber land. You don't know me and I don't know you. I'm /f from the southern US. I am attractive I guess. I don't think I have any redeeming qualities. I think people who commit suicide go to hell; so I have never done it. However, I am praying to God that he will take me in my sleep. I have a beautiful daughter and a nice life. But I am in emotional pain all the time. I spend % of my day crying. I hate myself and my life. I think I am the most worthless person that has ever existed. I just don't want to live anymore. I have no friends. I have a boy friend, but he doesn't get me. He just gets frustrated with me like everyone else. I've tried to dump him, but he keeps saying that I'm breaking his heart so we get back together. I hate living. There is no amount of "you have good things in your life and people who love you" that will make me want to continue to live. I really really want to die. | suicide |
This happened many years ago I was taken for an eye checkup, doc asked me to look into an apparatus,I was about to position my head and look into it when I remembered About that scene from Final Destination in which the eyes of a girl gets fried by a malfunctioning Laser. I screamed and ran out of the doctor's room, my mom convinced me that nothing will happen and my eyes are safe, but I didn't allow them to check... | non-suicide |
Mention me places Just use my u/ all over the place. Never explain why. Mention it on gore subreddits, hentai subreddits, wholesome subreddits. Just comment my u/, it makes me more powerful. Edit: I am quickly starting to regret this, I just wanted to know what it does Ok stop it I have notifs per hour | non-suicide |
*Funny but overused joke* *A plot twist to the joke* Now pls hand over the kamra and awrads! | non-suicide |
HELP ME PLEASE... I just admitted my feelings to my crushes best friend and I am going to ask her soon. What should I do????? | non-suicide |
crystal blue persuasion yea yea | non-suicide |
I know where to go. I know what I'll do. But I don't know when. I can't do it.I'd go to the train tracks, simple really, throw myself at it. I try think, whenever I have these thoughts. What about my family - I lost my father years ago, my Mother doesnt care anyway, my brother's care but I never see them I try think about what I'd miss, such as the football, the new games. And then I pussy out, turn around and walk home. What do I do? I cant bare it anymore but I can't bring myself to end it. I've got everything ahead of me, but the future only looks worse. Thanks. | suicide |
The only thing holding me back are my close onesI'm blessed to have them, which in itself feels even worse. Someone else should be privileged with a family and SO like mine. But nevertheless every week I'm here, just plain wanting to go into oblivion. I simply don't see this life worth living. If there's another life so be it but I'd be perfectly content with just disappearing. I don't know why I was even placed here in the first place, it's not the reality my psyche can handle. I do it all with a smile while dying a little more inside each day. There's some grand schemes in place to make it look like an accident so my family can mourn in another way than asking themselves "why"? I just don't want to involve others. I got money and availability to most drugs and I'd like to go out without anyone knowing I actually committed suicide. No one is to know it was my own decision but I'm just living a reality that is being upheld by everything besides my own will to live it. There's no compromises here, this is going to happen. How can one go about it? Alcohol + benzodiapines (massive amounts) should do it? | suicide |
The new reddit design is so ugly Like whats the point? Everything looks hollow now.... man I wish I could go back to the old one that was simpler and better. If you havent updated yet dont do it... | non-suicide |
bye not much of a loss for anyone i have a gun pointed at my head simple as that. Bye | suicide |
"Happy" new year and goodbye.Welp another year alone. I'm not even going to lie and say "maybe I'll find love in " I'm just gonna end my life. Simple. | suicide |
What's wrong with double texting? I honestly don't understand I do it all the time | non-suicide |
Day of recommending songs I like to r/teenagers How has your day been so far? | non-suicide |
Boys are cute too (No Homo) That's it. That's all you need to know. | non-suicide |
A fun science lessonHuman synapses grow and develop according to the activities we engage in throughout our lives. So if you grew up playing basketball, your brain is going to be far better at doing it than other people since it had all that time to adapt to the activity. This process stops however at -. By that point, your brain will have already adapted to whatever you have done the past two decades of your meaningless existence. If you try to adopt a new task late in life, it will be significantly harder to do than when you were years old because of this. Ever wonder why Jedi weren't trained beyond infancy or why the best people of any field practiced their field at a very young age? Now you know. So if you're like me, you will have played video games and watched Television the past years. Meaning everytime you try to convince yourself to do anything, you have to face the fact anything you do outside being pathetic will be, at best, mediocre or average compared to others who do the same task. Because unlike you, they were adapting their brains to tasks you didn't know existed for decades or more while you pointed your existence toward a screen. So you're destined to be mediocre at best forever. Yay. If you enjoyed this science lesson, please leave a like at the end of this post so I'll at least have something to be proud of the moment I jump off my god damn roof and paint the asphalt with my brains. Thanks for listening. | suicide |
Would it be a dick move if I did it on my birthday?So my birthday is next Monday. I'll be . I have my first counselling session on Wednesday and I'm gonna try to get tested for bipolar. I've already written out my note and I've sort of made a deal with myself that I'm gonna kill myself on my birthday, even if I get told I'm not bipolar. My ex broke up with me recently and I don't wanna spend it alone without her. I think if I am bipolar then it'll be easier for me to do it. I'm also hoping that none of my friends or family wish me happy birthday just so I have the proof I need that no one cares. The only person I want to wish me a happy birthday is her. Am I being a dick if I do it on my birthday? | suicide |
Not really suicidal, but...I'm nine years old and have been battling with mental issues since the age of ish. The last of years or so have been without any major problems, but the last half year have been a nightmare. I have bills up over my head, I have no joy in my life, my medicine isn't working, I can't get out of bed and I'm seriously considering just calling it a day. Life shouldn't be this hard. I honestly can't remember what it feels like to be happy or have joy. The closest I get is eating junk food. Instant gratification but no fulfillment. | suicide |
Too big of a coward anywaysGot dumped from a year relationship out of the blue with no real explanation. This was like September. I'm so pathetic that I'm still upset about it. I planned on marrying this girl and starting a life and my entire world was fucking destroyed. I had depression before i dated her and she made all that go away. Now instead of hating myself cause im a piece of shit, i now have myself cause i let her go and because im a piece of shit. so what the fucks the point anymore. Why can't i just end it? And dont give me the "Theres other fish in the sea" bullshit. | suicide |
i really did forget about text only weekends i did a whole look and shit. whatever ill post it to my profile and stuff but like man i was gonna post it here | non-suicide |
Someone messaged me last night saying they were going to commit suicide, and I haven't heard from them since.I'm really worried. I didn't get the message until hours after the fact, but I replied immediately after I read it and waited up for most of the night for a response. Please feel free to remove this part if it's not allowed, but /u/TheLoneMage, if you are still here, PLEASE let me know. She said her name was "Wendy" and that she wanted at least one person to know that she had lived... I'm just hoping that she is still alive... | suicide |
First "Date" suggestions please Aight so, there's this girl I talked about in my last post.... and I really want to ask her out in the near future, but I don't know what I should go and do with her. I thought about grabbing coffee or going to dinner with her, but I think that it could turn awkward pretty quick if you don't have anything to talk about for a while. So maybe something with a bit more action???? Looking for suggestions from all of you lovely people, especially the girls :D We are both around the age of if that helps. &#xB; Thanks in advance < | non-suicide |
Difference between cis and trans cisindicates that the functional groups are on the same side of the carbon chain whiletransconveys that functional groups are on opposing sides of the carbon chain. | non-suicide |
I sincerely believe I am biologically inferior and therefore have no place in this world.I suffer from extreme bouts of depression, adhd, ocd and anxiety. After nearly years of experience, I have concluded that I am too weak to survive in the modern world. I am incapable of handling simple tasks or following instructions. I am in a state of constant fatigue, no matter how long I sleep. I've been pumped up with various medications and have gone through countless therapies since I was and nothing has helped. I can't bear the thought of living as an adult and having to hold a job. I should just jump off of my balcony and save myself from so much future suffering. | suicide |
why do I get suicidal thoughts?Lately I've been feeling off, everything in my life is great but I feel like dying. I don't want to live anymore but I don't have a reason to feel off or be upset. | suicide |
Do you think people use car crashes to commit suicide.. so it seems like it was an accident?Just a thought... | suicide |
Yo who vibing rn? I'm feeling NF rn but imma list some underground artists hmu if you know them. NEFFEX (obviously judging by my username), mikelwj, Vin Jay, Twisted Insane, Ivan B, Mass Of Man, Token, Hopsin, Tom MacDonald, Bingx, CHVSE, Futuristic, Abstract, Feeki, Josh A, jakehill, Alec Benjamin, Bazanji, Bmike, Boyinaband, Cam Meekins, Citizen Soldier, Colicchie, Crypt, Ekoh, Enkay, Forensic, Ollie, Hi-Rez, Lucidious, Jdam, Problematic, Joyner Lucas, Ryan Caraveo, The Score, Sik World, or Watsky. Shit that's a lot. Oh well let's vibe! | non-suicide |
Lost everything..I mean EVERYTHING- I have $k school loan in default - credit card collections - medical bill collections - lost my home - I had to break up with my girlfriend - have no real friends - parents are worse off financially than I am - car getting repoed - my credit is shit - living in a spare fucking room at parents place - my business hasnt made a dime since last June - have $ left in my account - can barely get out of bed in the morning - my physical health is deteriorating - my mental health has deteriorated - my emotional Heath is non-existent Im ready to blow my brains out. This is too much for anyone to handle. | suicide |
I wont get better...I wont get better, stop staying I will. Im at the point where the next chance I get, im killing myself. This is just bullcrap and ive given up hope. | suicide |
Where's your motivation hiding? mine is in hell chilling with satan | non-suicide |
sometimes i want to run away with my friends and go to a big cottage core house in the woods and in a field and have picnics and journal. we could have a couple cats and maybe theres a lake nearby. we could put up a swing and watch the sunsets. in a perfect world there would be a big dusty library with old books and big armchairs. during the holiday season we would stay inside by the fire and be cozy. the town would be a little bit away, maybe a minute drive, it could have a cute little ice cream shop. anyways anyone wanna come? | non-suicide |
We did it boys I got my first gf Details: her name is Mariah the most beautiful woman of all time and just amazimg! Can't screenshot cause all the messages were in Snapchat and she doesn't want me sharing the messages | non-suicide |
How can you tell, via text/call, if a guy has friendzoned you vs if he's interested? Title really. I have a friend who I've been texting with almost everyday. Recently, however, he's been texting first less and less, and I don't know the reason, so I assumed it's because he's busy. Some signs I've picked up on; - he has asked me (multiple times) whether or not I romantically am interested in our mutual friends. - he has asked me if I'm feeling okay when I seemed down and comforted me/given me helpful advice - he frequently sends me YouTube videos or song recommendations he thinks I'll like. However he has been doing this less recently. - he likes to tease me a lot and has said before he enjoys doing this. Anything is appreciated. Thanks | non-suicide |
If I dont become prettier by summer's end I'm killing myselfIt's the only thing I think about day in and day out. I'm sick and tired of having acne and having small boobs. I'm fuxking sick of it. I've been dealing with this stupid shit since I was fuxking . Why can't I just look normal. I'm so fucking sick and tired of trying to be decisional about why people dont fucking like me. I tried to convince myself it was because of me being quiet but that's not it. No one fucking talks to me because of the giant patches I'd hyperpigmentation on my fucking face. Or the ugly ass cysts on my skin. I'm tired of it. I'm so fucking sick and tired of this shit. I'm fucking tired of not being fucking pretty. Guck this shit. If I'm not pretty by summers end, I'm killing myself. I dont want to walk around looking like this anymore. It's absolutely fucking humiliating to be seen looking like this. I just want to come back to school August and finally be treated like a fucking human being. Is that too hard to ask? I'm ordering my noose tonight. Fuck this shit. | suicide |
When I wake up from a long nap in the early morning, Im often in a sober stateLike I realized how fucked up depression makes me and Im reminded of my old life before depression. Its like when a drunk person gets sober really fast and realizes that they were out of it. I feel my cloudy mind and brain fog suddenly become clear with the sun showing. | suicide |
I can't trust my own familySo if I can't trust my family what's the fucking point in going any further. I don't see a point. I am alone. I'm done with this bullshit life | suicide |
My mom spanked me in front of my girlfriend I'm and earlier I was with my girlfriend. We were gonna make out when my mom leaves. I was upstairs playing minecraft and got killed by a creeper so I screamed the f word. My mom grabbed one of my dad's belts, told me to bend over and started whooping my ass. It was so embarrassing!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe she still does this to me!!!!!! Now I'm gonna get dumped probably cause my girlfriend thinks I'm a little bitch | non-suicide |
Why can't I be happy when I have everything ?Im , i have a loving and caring family, friends, a gf and i stufy at a relatively good college. When i compare my life to other's on this sub i feel extremely privilidged. I never had to worry about getting food, clothes, i alwys had somewhere warm to sleep at night and i have never been through any significant trauma. So why, just why cant i be happy as the others around me ? Am i really that ungrateful ? I could never be able to talk about this to anyone i know because i feel like i am not justified to be suicidal. But i am, everyday i go to bed wishing i dont wake up the next day. Norhing makes me happy anymore bit to be fair, nothing really makes me sad either. I just am, existing only in the present and make decisions based on what is expected from me. My only motivation is that i dont want to hurt anyone around me and i know how much i would if i wasnt here anymore. I dont exactly know why i wrote this know but maybe someone can relate to this. Thank you for reading, i hope its not too messy. | suicide |
I cant bear life, anymore.It has just gotten a lot to bear. Stuff happens, and I end up spiralling myself into another dimension because of how short-tempered I am. And, I dont like being angry, I dont even think its worth the after-effects. It overwhelms me, and I cant control it. Ive alienated God knows how many friends and people from myself. Its not fun being cripplingly alone, and to add to your own misery. I cant go see a psychiatrist, and I dont know what else I could possibly do, at this point. I just want to be calm, and happy. | suicide |
Posting a number everyday till I reach the end (day ) kskksidhhdjsjdgdvhsushwhsjsjshhshssjsjsnjsjsjsjsjsbdbdjxurvvdhx | non-suicide |
Is this the right flair? I don't know I'm proud to announce that I am a cultist and I'll come for your kneecaps. My Brother's and Sister's will unfortunately not be joining me on this marvelous hunt for kneecaps and victim's to join our cause. | non-suicide |
Can you guys help me with my next plan of action? My dad found out I was talking to my friend on my phone, and now they are convinced that I am doing something bad or something and they are defo going to start searching my room and phone/pc. &#xB; What should I do now? | non-suicide |
year olds be like I'm so psychotic!!! XD I'm gonna murder someone!! so quirky and edgy hehe psychosis is so fun lol!!! | non-suicide |
This is the most organized I've been in a while, being suicidal actually made me clean up my side of the room for once :)I really don't want to put anyone through the pain of having sort through my bullshit, so I actually got organized for once. Now I'm thinking about if I should write a letter or not. | suicide |
companies during pride month be like Hello , fellow homosexuals . It is us , [MULTI-BILLION DOLLAR CORPORATION ]. Here to remind you that we support your lifestyle now that it has been federally legalised and it is completely socially safe , allowing for us to capitalise on your existence now it's mainstream . Look , we even changed the colours of [LOGO ]! Why did we wait this long to come out and 'support' you ? Haha , no more questions , homosexual . Buy our product . Buy our product . BUY OUR PRODUCT . | non-suicide |
Trans and fucking done with lifeFucking over it. Dysphoric constantly, can't even come out because ) my parents are shithead conservatives and ) im starting college, and I'm lucky enough to have ended up choosing the same college AND degree as my garbage bigoted high school classmates! I get constantly fucked over every chance i get and there's fuck all i can do about it, i can't even sleep because i have insomnia, i can't function because of anxiety and depression, my life's a joke | suicide |
Does anyone elses mood change like, by the minute?Like if I'm not distracted and left alone with my thoughts I will literally want to end my own life or at least cut myself ASAP. The next minute if I'm busy doing something and got my mind to doing something I'm absolutely fucking fine. Take that away and have to think about nothing and be bored and I'm back to suicidal again. | suicide |
What should I name my private story on Snapchat Ive never had a private story and now Im gonna make one but I need a cool name so people dont think Im a basic bitch. | non-suicide |
House fireDoes anyone else daydream about setting the house on fire and going to bed for the last time? I live alone, hopefully smoke inhalation would take me before I suffer too much. My kids could believe it was an accident. Thinking about it a lot lately. | suicide |
i wanna play stardew valley but i cant i dont have money and the illegal download isn't working | non-suicide |
i abev tso much suff to do toadya AAaaaahhhhhhhh id ont wanna d oany of uttttt :(((((( | non-suicide |
Chronic illness. Should i tell my loved ones?Thinking pretty soon. Should i tell my loved ones and say goodbye? Not sure how that will go. | suicide |
It didnt get better.I was when I had my first panic attack. I didnt know then, that it would be years of painful, debilitating chest pains and continued sickness. My health continues to deteriorate. I develop new symptoms of anxiety, physical and mental, and the barriers to changing my reality are immense; financial, social. I am constantly sick, and my immune system is garbage. I can barely eat for health and anxiety reasons. I just cant take this anymore. I don't want to be sick anymore. Objectively, I dont think a life like this is worth it. I havent been suicidal in years. It's like it was so far at the back of my head, I never considered it. But this past semester at school has completely shattered me. And I dont want to be around for the next. All I can think about these past few weeks, almost manically, is killing myself. ... I needed to get that out. | suicide |
okay im committing suicide tonight (yay)bye i guess | suicide |
Think about dying but wouldnt consider suicideI dont really know how to explain this but most of the time i feel very isolated, lost and overwhelmed by the world and everything and i feel as if i have very little control of anything and these train of thoughts always lead to thoughts of death. Now ive felt this way for a couple of years now but still would not consider actually committing suicide as the impact on others would be too large to imagine and in all honesty i dont feel i have any reason to feel this way and feel there are others who legitimately have a reason to feel this way and this just leads me to hate myself more and feel more guilty and selfish. Recently these feelings have been getting worse and worse and more prominent and im just wondering if anyone else feels like this and if so what did/do you do about it as i dont want to feel this way anymore and it scares me a little. Please forgive me if this is rambling or unclear but as i said i feel i am very overwhelmed by everything and i have a tendency to over analyse things and this is part of the problem but because of this i find it very hard to explain how i feel easily as there are so many thoughts that can lead to over things and its very hard to collect it all into something that i can explain easily. Apologies | suicide |
My birthdayI think Im gonna go on my birthday. It seems convenient although it isnt until fall and I dont know if I can wait that long. The only thing I have to look forward to is a trip to a place I love in July but it honestly is not nearly as appealing as it used to be. I used to be happy there but now my depression/anxiety/trauma and suicidal thoughts follow me. Theres only one way left I can finally escape from myself. Ive fucked up too much and theres no going back. Im a horrible toxic person and the world will be better off without me. I am way more excited for my birthday (exit) than anything. I have a solid plan and a note already written. Sorry if this isnt the place for this but I have nowhere else to speak my mind. | suicide |
My favourite quote I cant save myself so Ill give em hell If you know where this came from put it in the comments and Ill tell you if your right | non-suicide |
What keeps you going?Not gonna type a wall of text, but I'm relapsing. I don't need kind words - just a difference of opinion. edit:Thanks everyone for your input, there are heroes among us. It may be a dog or a child, parents, or a good friend, but sometimes...it's a stranger. second edit: I'm feeling much better, thank you everyone. | suicide |
Anyone wanna play the number game? Yeah just hmu I might be a little bit ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^horny | non-suicide |
Have you ever fired a gun? And if so did the experience give you a boner? | non-suicide |
Long story short.So, this will be my third attempt at writing something. Maybe it just wasnt meant to be. So, summary- I am failing at my job, can't provide for my family, and i feel like the only value i have left is the life insurance policy I've kept up on, and the home loan being paid off if I go. I had a whole rant about what I was doing, how I got into this situation, why I'm struggling, but in the end, i don't really know how much any of that matters. To be clear, yes. I've dealt with depression. I'm medicated. That doesnt change the fact that as hard as I try, I'm failing. I work for a family business, one I quit my former job of years to eventually take over. Except I am terrible at it. To put it in perspective - the "new guy" we hired three months ago is making more than me, and I've been doing this a year. He was telling me about the new wave runner he bought. Awesome! And I can't sell enough to feed my kids. I'm a hard worker - I put a minimum of hours in every day, and usually closer to . Except sundays - we get those off. Just being honest. I'm intelligent (at least somewhat) and love being able to help people, but when it comes to salesmanship... I'm fucking terrible. I'm just floundering and needed somewhere to put it out there, even if it was just the void of the internet. I don't know what I can do to change it, but if things keep up like this, I at least know I've got the option of knowing that I have ONE way to provide for them. They may not have wave runners, but at least the shelves wont look so damn bare, and they won't have to worry about the roof over their heads. I hate that I see my existence as a numerical value, but realistically, that's better than what I'm doing now. | suicide |
LOOK AT THESE CATS ITS US | non-suicide |
Im so awfulI (f if that matters) have a tendency to use my friends as therapists. I dont mean to do this and I apologize and I feel so awful. I just cant stop. While its not an excuse, I have adhd so Im really impulsive and I have to verbally process my feelings and I like having a response. I have a therapist, Ive tried journaling, Ive tried mental health apps, nothing ever satisfies my need for validation and response and advice like people and especially my peers do. Its my fault and Im not trying hard enough. Im tired of being awful. Even typing this I realize how victim-y Im being when Im not the victim Im the abuser. I know I am and I hate myself for it. I dont want to be a bad person and its too late I dont know why I struggle to change because its simple, just dont be a bad person. It kinda seems the only solution at this point is to get rid of myself before I can even open my mouth and hurt others. I dont even know where to start that I feel so bad for doing this to my friends. Im just a burden | suicide |
people of r/teenagers what is the point NNN Im having this argument with a guy and he said NNN has no point. now I totally agree and I happily follow these rules of the sacred NNN, because good soldiers follow orders, but i need assistance to put this man back on track. | non-suicide |
Hey guys.Ive wanted to kill myself for years. Every time I tell someone, I am always told quit being such a baby and youre faking for attention and I cant handle it. I feel like my life doesnt matter. Im bullied by everyone I meet. I am very quit so people always think Im a school shooter. Please help me escape this nightmare. | suicide |
Can't take it anymoreMy mom who was my best friend killed her self / years ago out of no where. I am sitting in my bathroom with my belt across my lap wanting so bad to end it like she did. Nothing is the same since that happened. I am so bad in debt and my life is a constant downward spiral. I fear every day that my dad, brother or sister will end their life any day now because of what we went through. I just can't take it anymore and want to be with my mom. No one understands. It's so fucking hard to keep living like this | suicide |
I want to be able to swim. Yeah, so I was terrified of water from a young age because of a couple of negative experiences (I also despise the feeling of water getting up your nose) And my lack of swimming ability doesn't come from a lack of trying, either. I've taken numerous lessons over the last years, most of which were related to school or church. However, there was one thing that was holding me back each time: They expected you to already know how to swim. Every single time I'd show up they'd expect me to know, or worse, they'd have me go in the deep end and just go for it, citing "The fear will motivate you" It didn't, btw. And I've decided I'm sick of being the guy that clung to the wall at pool parties, or failed every swim test he took. I asked my parents about looking for a private instructor, since their attempts at teaching me hadn't worked out very well. Plus, I don't like the idea of being watched by my entire family during the learning process, its very nerve-racking. Every time I've tried learning in public its ended terribly (At one event they even asked me to be the dummy so they could practice saving a drowning swimmer), My parents seemed to take offense to this, because they thought they could do a better job. I should also emphasize that the only member I was able to make ANY progress with was my year old grandmother, and even that was miniscule at best. Plus, if anything began happening to me, I don't have faith in her ability to act as a lifeguard. It's just a frustrating situation, since at ( in a couple weeks), its hard to ask for help with swimming without ridicule "Why didn't you learn when you were younger" or "What would happen if we threw you into the ocean right now? Is it really this unusual to be unable to swim at this age? I've been given different answers and I'd like to know that I'm at least not alone. | non-suicide |
If you had to be amputated, which limb you you choose and why? You can only choose between legs and arms. It would be cut down from the nee | non-suicide |
Just a quick questionWill a grams of flash powder firecracker in MOUTH be a quick and painless way to exit? And for no mistake wrapping it with some nails as shrapnel. What do you think? It will do the job? Thank you and I'm not encouraging nobody to experiment this, is just a question and it feels good to me when I'm depressed to know that I have the choice to press alt+F by myself. Sorry for my bad English Here is a very powerful firecracker so you can make an idea | suicide |
I don't know what to live forI'm in my third year of a college degree I hate and I'm gonna graduate with so much dept. I have no interest in working in this field. I'm only and been diagnosed with a chronic intestinal illness that keeps ruining me from being able to enjoy life and be able to do things that most people my age do. I can't eat many things or drink and I feel like such a freak for it. I used to have friends but I've been ill and I stopped going out and doing things because I've been sick so often. I'm socially awkward and shy and have never dated anyone or done anything sexual and I feel like I'm going to die alone because I'm such an insecure mess. My finances, health and future are all falling apart and I'm exhausted. I don't really know what to live for. Yay I'm gonna get to graduate with a degree that is not at all what I want to do (I can't afford to do another degree and I can't do a minor with this) and then I'm gonna have a dull and sad life knowing that I fucked my own life up by choosing the wrong thing to study. My health might get better or it might not. I don't really care and I've lost the motivation to fight. I just want to sleep. | suicide |
(M) does anybody want to chat?? P.s im shy and not english, so sorry for the typing errors | non-suicide |
Contemplated suicide for ish years now, now considering counseling/drugs, but have no financial resources. What do I do?Hi everyone, Throwaway for obvious reasons. I am a -year-old college graduate, with a generally successful life for my age and big, positive things ahead of me, yet I am still miserably sad. No one around me knows except for my best friend, who ignores me when I try to talk things out, because "you're always sad". I have no one to turn to. My parents don't believe in "help" (my dad is manic-depressive schizophrenic and refuses treatment) so I have no mental support there. Everyone at work comments on how friendly and bubbly I am. They'd never believe me if I told them. I am very strapped for cash, so I have never sought help, and I don't even know if I believe there is "help" for me, but I'm hoping. I don't know what to do or if this is even an option for me since I am so poor, but I thought if there was, you guys would know it. It isn't normal to have to come up with a reason every week not to kill yourself. Right now, mine is to not leave my parents with a $k student loan that they've cosigned on. I don't even know where to begin. I am at the end of my mental limit and have nowhere else to turn. Everything I read seems to involve living in a city, having tons of cash, or having parents to help, and I have none of that. Please help me. | suicide |
living is too stressful i just want to be able to get up and be happyfor months now ive basically been bedridden without a desire to live. its hard to get up and collect things from my own desk which is feet away and the only thing that gets me up in the morning for school is my absolute fear of being expelled - which im scared might happen anyways if i keep underperforming due to my fucking lack of everything. my head just hurts and i dont want to kill myself but i dont know if i have any other options. i would call a suicide hotline but i honestly dont have the energy to pick up my phone. i dont want to live like this. i want to be happy and make others around me happy but im absolute scum and im not able to do that. i just want to be like other people who can sit down and study and be good at what they do and be happy while thhey do it. i have one person who brings me fulfilment in life but they're getting tired of me and dont want to be with me anymore if i keep up this bullshit of a life im living | suicide |