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New here, need helpHi guys, sorry if im breaking any rules but.. I've been -thinking- about suicide alot, but I dont think its an act I could ever do, to my family, friends etc. Im just in a very dark place and I need someone to anonymous to talk to. Please help. | suicide |
I tried hanging myself. And i failed.I tried hanging myself about a week ago and no one knows. I went to an abandoned factory and tied myself up before thinking about it too much and just did it. I blacked out before waking up on the ground. I dont know what to feel. That whole day i had finally felt happy and relieved when the thought of taking my life came and now after i did it i want to try it again. I thought maybe i would feel better as i have read that people have a new outlook on life after an attempt. But I dont. | suicide |
what would you wear in cold winter? hey guys can you recommend me cool shoes to wear in cold winter (--c or +-f)? :( I have no clue how to look good when it's freezy. maybe here are some boys and girls who live in Canada or Scandinavia :( | non-suicide |
Never good enoughNothing I do is good enough. I try my hardest and they only ever point out the flaws or compare me to someone else who does/has it better... even when I try to get help all I get in response is someone has it worse I guess Im not good enough to care for. I guess Im not good enough to live | suicide |
Imagine rehearsing how to ask for permission or anything really can't be me, nah I didn't have strict parents wdym | non-suicide |
Posting everyday until i get my first kiss day Uhmm so yeah i still haven't done anything O | non-suicide |
I hope writing down a plan will help me go through with it finally.There's a forest nearby, think I should get some rope and find a tree, the rest should be obvious. I think that's my best chance and I should do it, tired of annoying people and being a nuisance. I'm a horrible person and I'm incredibly lonely, have no friends to hang out with, nothing at all. There's no way out of this. Good luck to you all and I hope you don't end up in the same place as me. | suicide |
, That katyusha do be katyushing tho | non-suicide |
My dog just died My dog was just hit by a car... his name was Albus, and he was the sweetest little thing... he was a chug ( % chihuahua, % pug) and he would always be so happy to see me when i woke up or came back from a walk, and now hes gone... and I really dont know what to do without him. So please be supportive, because I actually dont know if I can handle any hate. | non-suicide |
I Hate EveryoneIm interested in politics, science, and I want to get into philosophy. No-one else in my school is interested in those things. All of my conversations are trivial, and have nothing to do with anything I like. I believe this is one of the main causes of my suffering. I feel like no-one else values what I have to say becuase it is either boring or too serious. And the. They start talking about shitty memes. I wish I could just fucking punch them in their stupid fucking faces. But, it would be out of jealousy of their happiness, and their ignorance to how shitty their life will become. Another cause of my suffering is my thinking about the future. The skills I harbor are not valued in the job market. I already know I will be poor, and my parents will make fun of me, and call me libtard. They are brainwashed by Brintbart, and believe anything on Fox News, especially my father. I want to read Nietzsche for Christmas, but I doubt my parents will buy the book, becuase it makes arguments the portray Christianity negatively. My parents keep telling me Im smart because I taught myself some Math, but they cant trust me to read something that portrays Christianity negatively. Fucking hate these stupid brainwashed fucks. Finally, I cant have a Cat. This is mostly out of my control, since my mother is allergic, but it makes me really sad. My friend has a cat and I spent hours petting it and loving it. It made me happier, but No. I cant have that. Fuck you benevolent God! I think Im going to start cutting myself. Fuck this. I cant do it anymore. I get good grandes but theirs no point. I cant get a job with Philosophy. Fuck the world, and everyone in it, accept you guys. You guys seem a little nicer, and we at least have a common interest in killing ourselves. Thats all Ive got now | suicide |
The true reality of life.I've had my fair share of troubles in life. I was bullied throughout my school career, through elementary to high school. I was called names like "overly horny school shooting retard" "a waste of air" "motherfucking crusty retarded piece of shit". I even tried talking to girls and then ended up being accused of falsely sexually harassing a girl. When I got suspended in senior year, I felt like life sucked. That was my lowest point in life. But, I told myself to keep pushing forward in life, and now, as a junior in college, I feel absolutely the same. I thought I could make friends, get a girlfriend, but most importantly find inner peace with myself. Well guess what? Nope. Every friendship I make I keep ruining, while I long for more connections. It's like a slow, ticking parasite that eats up at you. Eventually, it'll explode. I'm posting here to express..... how I feel now. Life won't get better, just work until you meet satan. And I didn't even mention the time I failed a drive time or how I cussed my father out to the point where I don't speak to him anymore, or the time I beat up my mother when I was younger. Everything in life is catching up to me, and at , I can't stand it anymore. I'm not going to kill myself, but I sure do feel like it. It's not even drugs or alcohol or mental illness, it's just straight depression. If I have to do hour weeks while in college with the depression and stress I've already experienced in life, then I'll be very, very, depressed. | suicide |
What's your purpose for living?I was always a depressed person but after my mom's death i began to think commiting suicide every single day and i feel in vain. The problem is i live with my father. I feel like in prison, i dont have desires, hobbies or motivation for anything but i cannot disappoint him. What is your purpose for living? Your answers may help me. I feel hopeless and i am exhausted of feeling unhappy. | suicide |
Please helpI keep staring at my balcony. Its stories up. When I first moved in here I thought no no no this is too easy . I wish they didnt do this. I dont want to destroy peoples cars on the way down. | suicide |
Str fax It's kinda sad how a hentai girl with the fatest dong in her mouth can speak better than most of today's rappers | non-suicide |
alright this is so bad im such a. HORRIBLE sleeper like ive never gotten more than a few hours a night because i absolutely despise sleeping and its probably gonna lead to some health affects for me. why am i only aware if this after i stay up all night. anyways goodnight i love you all | non-suicide |
Someone give me some motivation...To suicide now instead of waiting. I planned on suiciding next March a little before I turned , but I am in NYC with limited gun access. I could risk hanging or overdosing, but I don't want to risk surviving. I don't want to survive. They say better things happen when you wait, so I will wait till I have access to a shotgun. I need the most lethal method, so i'll use a firearm. I am already set on the method and time. I'm not leaving any notes. Everyone wants me to suicide anyway. Any motivation to do it now? | suicide |
i am back i got banned for shitposting because the mods all just couldnt hold up with my swag now its time to continue the horny and shitposts again | non-suicide |
StuckIdk even y Im posting cant even explain what Ive gone threw and now lost everything I gess Im lost the gov. Took everything and Im at my end I just dont know how to Live.... I gess I was just dealt a bad hand | suicide |
Look up the horsepower of an Audi RS Do it, you won't regret it. Do it right now, on your phone or computer or Samsung smart fridge. | non-suicide |
Happy Birthday to me. New years Eve is cool to I guess. | non-suicide |
I CAN CHANGE MY USER FLAIR I just turned guys! Have some cake everyone! | non-suicide |
I want to jump in front of a trainI hate that that's the option that inconveniences people so much but also has such a high chance of efficacy. Like I need more guilt on top of how horrible I feel already. | suicide |
Job Advice I just started my first actual job just under weeks ago. I work at a region-wide coffee chain. When I was hired, I was told that I would get paid every weeks on Mondays at a specific time. After my first week, I got paid a really weird amount. It was too small to be for my shifts that week, so I assume it was for orientation. Because of this, I know that my direct deposit is set up correctly. But now its been weeks and I havent gotten paid at all for my shifts. Should I quit after my next shift? I dont live in the area and Ive done volunteer work and odd jobs so references arent an issue. I hate it there anyways and my mental health has plummeted (mean boss combined with anxiety issues). So, should I quit or wait it out? If I quit, should I give my two weeks (even though Im sure my boss will bully me for it) or should I quit on the spot? I feel really lost, idk what to do. | non-suicide |
NOOOOO I was not the impostor *next round* . . . . . . . u/Shotgunerrr was the Impostor. . ' Impostor remains .. ,. . | non-suicide |
I'll award the best joke I see It's officially been three years since my parents passed away and to put it simply I feel sad. Pls leave some jokes Also don't forget to hug your parents and tell them that you love them | non-suicide |
How not be horny Lmao idk Filer filed filer filer filer filer filer filer filer filer | non-suicide |
Might have lost everything...My life sucks, I have failed college, I quit the sport I loved because I was bad at it, and all I have done to my life so far was playing videogames... I have k hours just on steam alone (spent a lot in non steam games as well), And im just ... Finnaly found love, found that she liked me as well, I couldn't belive when that was happening to me.... But I might have ruined everything because im an idiot... I don't know how to talk to people... I did not insult her or anything but I've hurt her many times mostly because I always hide stuff from her because im afraid to her but then I end up telling everything I feel and it hurts even more I guess... All I want in life is to be with someone and I think I might have lost her tonight... I have seen this happening to by Godfather... He wakes up with a cigarrete in one hand and a beer on another... I'd rather die than live the whole life alone with minimum wage job... | suicide |
I want some friends... I'm lonely.. I'm M and i love cats and tech. And Mac and cheese | non-suicide |
I don't know what colors to use Please give me color pallets and I will turn them into Kandi | non-suicide |
Hoodies are awesome They are so comfy and nice Just wanted to share my thoughts | non-suicide |
I want to dieDunno what else to write. I'm alone. I'm never going to succeed in adulthood. I'm alone I want to die. I fuck up everything. I fuck up every god damn thing every good and beautiful thing in my life I fuck up | suicide |
How are you? Important to know Hello kind stranger! Ho are you? Do you wann tell me about yourself? | non-suicide |
I work at a construction site. I am not much sad, but whenever i look down it feels like ground is calling me to jump does this count?I mean I feel like there is the end, to all the sorrows and pains and things that i have to go through. The solution is such near it feels tempting. But i am really not as sad as other suicidal people are and dying thoughts don't come on other times till i see the solution being so near to everything. A huge last leap splash and nothing is left. Its weird but beautiful. | suicide |
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teen boys really do love making me feel like shit while im already down tw ed and sh a post about how your dad is triggering you via commenting on what you eat and your weight constantly when youve have eating disorders in the past? damn thats crazy let me comment on how mentally ill you are and how your pronouns are stupid bye i want to hurt myself | non-suicide |
We all die at some pointWere not immortal were all gonna die at some point so we can either just do it ourselves and get it over with or we can wait just because life might get better like its not even guaranteed that itll ever get better And honestly I feel like people that tell you that it gets better and tell you not to kill yourself are just being selfish cause they dont really know what youre going through and they think your life is just as perfect as theirs Well guess what it isnt and not every story has a happy ending | suicide |
Im trying to play high school football this year but Im only like halfway thru puberty at most even tho Im Oh no! Im still as strong as the average guy in my grade but I look like Im | non-suicide |
Lemme flex on some of you I have a dad | non-suicide |
Nothing to see here, just a chad beating the life out of a pedophile | non-suicide |
Had the best day of my life on a Monday I woke up at a.m and check My post and woke up to notations and my post was at k likes I had some water then managed to Pull a all nighter kind of. Then I had some really good pancakes then I got to eat Popeyes and went back home and I saw a Mazda Rx- (my dream car) and freaked out then it show of its Beautiful engine noise I have never seen Rx- but seeing it and hearing it was cool. Then got a package I ordered a vinyl of one my favorite albums then went In my back yard and found a free football that cost - bucks then my sister gives me money for helping her house keeping its. Cant believe Monday is a good day | non-suicide |
Nothing helpsSuicide hotlines are just people getting paid to read a script and pretend to care. Therapy is basically the same thing where hey just pretend to give a shit about you for a fucking check. Mental hospitals are pretty much hell and only make me want to kill myself even more. I wish euthanasia was more widely accessible so I can properly end my life without much pain. | suicide |
Everything hurts and I just want to stop it...Ive been suffering from depression for years (Im f) my father was abusive and my family made me an outcast. I have bad anxiety, eating disorder and self harm to punish myself. I have no job, no money and my mom is kicking me out. The only thing keeping me alive is my amazing boyfriend who has been with me all this time. I really just want to end it, everything is too hard to deal with right now... but I love him, I want to live my life with him. Im so confused and i dont know what to do. I cant live with him and his family either. I really have nowhere to stay... | suicide |
Why is it selfish?The pain im in doesnt benefit others, others seeing me in pain doesnt benefit them. Why is it selfish to want to end the pain? | suicide |
Never come to conclusions without knowing everything. I hated school because I didn't like to study, I never took into the account the perks of school I have fucking Mine craft education, on shape, AND VERY FUCKING ADOBE APP im sorry for saying I hate school | non-suicide |
i hate health class they started showing irl gore in the presentation today with no warning no disclaimer just full on i was eating lunch listen im not a pussy i can deal with it but i have to mentally prepare myself it isnt fun to see organs on the outside of the body at am | non-suicide |
First comments get award hehehehehehe have good day | non-suicide |
Fuck this garbage existenceMy life is fucking garbage all thanks to evil people and stupid people. The two most common types of people from my experience. Theres no point in me continuing this pathetic existence when I just have to live with the consequences of actions I had no part in or control over. Nobody cares about anyone. Humans are trash. | suicide |
ar slash bigdickproblems was actually inspired by my tragic and heartbreaking experiences this is true. indisputable. tragic facts. im crying and shidding myself. | non-suicide |
I'm Better Off DeadI know most of you won't bother reading this. I don't blame you, why should you care about me? I have been depressed since I was years old. I always told myself that one day things will look up. Yet, years later, here I am, still wishing I was dead. I have exhausted my resources. I tried Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, at least different anti-depressants, staying inpatient at a mental hospital, counseling...you name it. I am ready to give up. I have no friends left. I started making posts online in a pathetic attempt to meet some people. It didn't work. I am alone in this. I just finished writing my will. I am ready to kill myself. This is my last attempt at invoking something, anything that could convince me otherwise. But I have a feeling it will be in vain. Goodbye, Reddit. Thanks for accompanying me all those times I awkwardly scrolled through my phone while eating alone, sitting at a bus stop, or just isolating myself. | suicide |
HelpI need someone to just hold me and tell me everything will be fine that I will succeed and be someone...I need someone to actually mean it and tell me while holding me tight. I dont know what to do. | suicide |
Tomorrow is going to be a sad day I have works that are going to be graded, one in Russian and the other in biology. But this isn't even the worst thing. For the last year I have written a book, but since I'm using it as a creative work that we need to do in th grade. Because of that I'm going to have to finish it tomorrow. Well, it looks like Elliot is going to die... | non-suicide |
I just dont knowI dont even feel like I belong here. Im in a constant balance between slightly numb and daydreaming about suicide. Ive done everything i fucking can to feel something over the past few months. Ive cut myself so many fucking times, and i finally stopped a few weeks ago when it bled so much i thought i hit a vein. Although, sometimes i wish i I had. I wouldnt have to deal with all of the fucking noise around me, all of this bullshit. There are so many ideas, so many people who think they know it all, and i just canmt tune it out anymore. I feel like everything is coming to an end. Im only . I shouldnt have to fucking go through this. That sounds so selfish, but i feel it. I wish i didnt have to be aware of everything falling apart around me. I wish i didnt have people my age shaming me for not putting my all into acting against the bullshit thats going on. Im just so tired, and nothings getting better. Im drunk out of my mind right now, and im trying to make thingS coherent, so forgive me for this. Fuck, this is pointless. I want to drink until i cant move. | suicide |
chernobyl real life anime girls dm me No lolis though, that's a sin to god. preferably anime girl, But it can be literally anybody. Except for pedophiles, that means you, MKLeo. | non-suicide |
I am a useless waste of spaceMy mom just got laid off from her job, she is a single mother with two kids. She was not making much in the first place but it was barley enough to sustain us. My mother and father are divorced but they have joint custody. Just last year I got out of his house of emotional, verbal, and sometimes physical abuse. I have been much better lately I started going to therapy and overall have just not wanted to die constantly. These past few months have been bad though. I almost constantly want to die, I know I should die, but this is a tipping point. At this point I am only a burden to those around me. I just waste money that could be going to my sister and my mom. I just cant anymore I constantly am fantasizing about death and how nice it would be for me and those around me. I just dont know where else to go. | suicide |
My storyI havent had a bad life. Honestly. All things considered, I have been very fortunate. But, it still happened. That thought, that gaping blackness that lurks within all our minds rose up and took me in its grasp twice in my life. Twice I have looked death in the face, and emerged scathed, yet alive. Able to learn and move on. Both tines were because of a girl. Different girls each tine, but two I deeply cared for. Both were friends, and I quickly fell in love with them. They had the exact makeup to be my type: witty, sassy, sweet, caring, and always trying to make other smile. But when I finally got up the nerve to confess my feelings, they turned their backs on me. Both times, I thought about killing myself. Seriously considered it. In fact, I recall having a pair of scissors open on my neck, crying into a mirror. And I changed my mind. Just yesterday, I started crying at work and had to pause and look at my mom, completely oblivious to my pain, to bring me back from considering again. I an a year old white man. Never had a girlfriend, nor kiss, nor relationship of any kind. Have body image issues related to my "manhood", and was raised in a religion that teaches lust and desire are sure fire tickets to hell. Perhaps I am not as important as others, but I wanted to say I struggle with this thought as well. Most do. The trick is to decide to keep going. It gets better. I know that sounds like a cliche, but I genuinely believe it. Don't give up. Fight on. Because one day, you will emerge victorious. I have faith in you. All of you. Have some in yourselves, and I catch you later. Have a good day, try and smile. | suicide |
Do you guys hate when a person takes a meme so seriously they become offended by it? Because every time a person does that I want both sides of their pillow to be warm every single night | non-suicide |
I've had it with all these fucking assholesThis planet of ours is filled to the brim with oblivious assholes, I fucking hate them. They do nothing but create problems then act like those problems are someone else's fault, fucking idiots. They go around making life unbearable then act like someone needs to be mentally ill to want to kill themselves. Maybe I don't want to live in this world if I have to be your fucking kicking boy? Maybe I don't like being the butt of every joke? Maybe I'm not okay with existing just to make your life easier? Maybe you're a fucking asshole and it's your fault people kill themselves? Worthless shits. I see these stupid fucking posters around the place about depression and being suicidal. "Talk to someone" they say. "Reach out" they say. They never mention the part where you talk about why you're suicidal and people laugh at you. They leave out the part where you get mocked and called a troll. If someone hasn't personally dealt with the reasons you want to die, they laugh at you and call you a bitch. No facilities I can get help at. Sure facilities exist, but not for me. All the mental health support out there is for middle class women, if you're anyone other than a middle class woman you're fucked. No help is coming, you're just a piece of shit and everything is your fault. I thought I was suicidal for years because I was an ugly unemployable loser, but I'm not. I'm actually suicidal because I live in a world of complete fucking dickheads. I just wish I could spread my misery around some more before killing myself. God knows the people that deserve misery the most never get it. | suicide |
I realized somethingNo matter what I do, I'll still have to live being me. No amount of good things happening to me or doing things to try to get better could ever make me not be me. And I just don't think I'm worth it. I dunno, I feel like there's no escaping this. I'll always somehow find a way to ruin everything. I thought I'd at least be able to drag myself along until I'm like , but I'm starting to think I might end it sooner.... | suicide |
I Can't Connect With AnybodyFriends, family, girlfriends, strangers, anyone it's the same story over and over. I always just have people come and go, everytime they find a way to hurt me badly. Overtime I've built a wall around myself because I've only learned to not trust people on a deeper level. I feel really numb to things anymore, I just am tired of the constant hurting from everything people have done to me. I don't know how long I can take it, my feelings resurface whenever it's really bad and I have had a few times I've almost committed suicide. I don't have a place in the world and no matter how much I try to escape it, nothing changes. I can only cope because of music and getting high. I don't know why I even exist if I only suffer, I wish I could have one person that loved me and cared about me. | suicide |
MY LIfe DOES NOT MATTERbillions of people on this earth. not every single fucking life matters and is precious and sacred and important. i am fucking scum and a drain on resources that could be used to help productve, happy people. stop telling me my life matters there are MILLIONS that could die and humanity would just keep on leeching off this planet and its beauty. fuck us all. | suicide |
The hate is neverending.I've grown bitter over the years. I'm envious of pretty much everyone and it's driven me to the point of wanting to take my own life. I hate women. I hate attractive people. I hate celebrities,,athletes and millionaires. I hate couples. I hate smart people. I hate tall people. I hate my job and my life. I cannot stop comparing my experiences to everyone's. Idk what posting here will do because I feel I've already made up my mind and have begun taking the steps to end my suffering within the next couple of weeks. If only I had a different life and was a different person. | suicide |
Hey you, yes you. You might want this teenager driven discord server The server is full of people that are quite active, we have events from time to time and we just chill mostly Disclaimer: My profile is nsfw as a precaution, the server nor the posts on my profile are nsfw **The invite link is pinned on my profile** | non-suicide |
Struggle in college leads to suicidal thouhts.I'm in my first semester and i struggle almost everyday.I'm an introvert and it's really difficult to deal with people for me, or even to start a small conversation.Major that i chose is a huge problem for me because i struggle with homework i was given,and i feel as if i chose wrong profession and it also requires leadership skills.How can i lead people or order them if i can't deal with myself? All this leads to stopping working out and starting bad habits like smoking cigarettes eating shitty food and overall feeling terrible. I don't really want to kill myself but these thoughts come and go and i'm scared that one day i might snap. | suicide |
this is my favorite copypasta of all time I just downvoted your comment. # FAQ ## What does this mean? The amount of karma (points) on your comment and Reddit account has decreased by one. ## Why did you do this? There are several reasons I may deem a comment to be unworthy of positive or neutral karma. These include, but are not limited to: * Rudeness towards other Redditors, * Spreading incorrect information, * Sarcasm not correctly flagged with a `/s`. ## Am I banned from the Reddit? No - not yet. But you should refrain from making comments like this in the future. Otherwise I will be forced to issue an additional downvote, which may put your commenting and posting privileges in jeopardy. ## I don't believe my comment deserved a downvote. Can you un-downvote it? Sure, mistakes happen. But only in exceedingly rare circumstances will I undo a downvote. If you would like to issue an appeal, shoot me a private message explaining what I got wrong. I tend to respond to Reddit PMs within several minutes. Do note, however, that over .% of downvote appeals are rejected, and yours is likely no exception. ## How can I prevent this from happening in the future? Accept the downvote and move on. But learn from this mistake: your behavior will not be tolerated on Reddit.com. I will continue to issue downvotes until you improve your conduct. Remember: Reddit is privilege, not a right. | non-suicide |
What great houseplants can i find in my back yard? Thanks in advance! i live in new york filler filler | non-suicide |
Update on my crush I got the courage to tell her i like her and she feels the same way! Were talking right now but i can tell ive chosen the right one | non-suicide |
Here to talk!Hello everyone. I posted this to r/depression as well. Anyways, I've always been told I'm a good person to talk to, so I joined "Peer Listeners" at my college. That basically means that I'm trained to be a good listener. I genuinely enjoy talking to people and helping others. As a third year psychology student, I feel that I should put myself to use, maybe get some experience before I get shoved into the professional world. I CANNOT give professional advice, I'm not nearly qualified to do that. I am simply available as an open ear with an open mind. I would consider myself to be extremely understanding. As someone who has suffered from horribly low self-esteem my whole life, I strive to help others overcome any detrimental perspectives they may have. In the past I have mentored and counseled children for various things, but I want to work with people of all ages. So let's give this a go. If you have questions about me, please feel free to ask. If you want to send me a message privately, we can do that as well. Sometimes it's nice to simply have someone to talk to. I'm a friend :) UPDATE: Thank you everyone who has taken me up on my offer so far. I am very happy to talk to anyone that needs it. Tips for the general Reddit population: appreciate the little things, get outside or find a hobby that makes you happy (exercise has been found to reduce depression and stress! Try exercising your body AND mind!), and stay open minded! Never forget how HUGE the world is, with limitless opportunity :) | suicide |
The crusades... Only happened because the kids in Europe wanted a nice little plot of land in the Middle East to leave for in the winter. | non-suicide |
Having trouble dealing with the thoughts right nowI have been in a long depression, seriously, like years. I had finally decided to take one more shot at trying to have a happy life, and I really feel like it was all just taken away from me with this covid situation. i'm having a really hard time seeing any light at the end of the tunnel the last few days. i'm just tired of the struggle, and don't know what to do. I just want to lie down and go to sleep forever. | suicide |
I think after I give birth its the right time to do it.I dont want the kid to have to deal with me. I want them to have the best chance at being happy. Ive been depressed since I was . My fianc cheated on me. My mommy is sick. I cant do school all by myself. I just feel like Ive given it my all. It didnt work out. Im and have done nothing in life but spread misery. My fianc is such a happy, good man. I think whoever else he chose and him would have the best impact on my baby. | suicide |
bruh this is oversharing but i shaved down there and as a result there was an ingrown hair and im in pain | non-suicide |
My Personal Pet Peeve... This Minecraft Skin (and the skins with the same format). | non-suicide |
NO ONE FUCKING CARES ABOUT MEI put stress on my fucking mom and she and my dad hate me. My family hate me in fact. My downstairs neighbor wants to kill me. This is to fucking much. I want to fucking cut my arms and bleed out. Why the fuck do keep coming back to reddit? If no body cares about me, why am i not aloud to just kill myself i don't get it. My mom says I don't help her when u try my best to help her. I can't fucking take it, i just might end it. I'm serious | suicide |
The thoughts never endTaken straight from my diary. All I ever think about is dying. Its the first thought that comes to my mind when I wake up every morning. And it repeats, over and over and over again, like a broken record. I can't focus on anything else. This isn't a way to live. How can someone live when all they think about is dying? I'm years old, alone, depressed, and I don't know what I'm doing with my life. This type of thinking is so painful to live with, day in and day out. Sometimes I wonder, those little moments called "happiness"; are they even real? Or am I pretending, lying to myself to make it seem like I'm okay? I'm scared to tell people thoughts and feelings. "You're a grown ass man, you're not a child anymore, quit being such a pussy." "I've been there before, everyone goes through depression, stop thinking those thoughts." These are some of the responses I've gotten from people. Maybe they're right. But either way, it does not help me. In fact, it makes me want to isolate myself even more. I don't blame them, I'm so fucked up in the head that I can't understand what they're telling me. I know I need help, but it seems like there is no help to be found. The VA fucking sucks, and all they do is prescribe pills, as if that'll solve the problem. If I didn't give my thoughts so much power, maybe I'd be okay, maybe if I didn't believe all those negative thoughts I have of myself, then everything would be fine. But unfortunately, I can't. I'd rather just stop the thoughts all together. And that means ending my life. | suicide |
Just lost my grandpa My grandpa who would have been this year, passed away on Tuesday. He had a stroke a few years back and was getting better from being underweight at a nursing home. When out of the blue things just took a turn for the worst. I will miss him | non-suicide |
finally set a vague time of when i'm going out.There's no point anymore. when everyday is an uphill battle and you have no hope for the future, it's just impossible. It'll be some day in november, and i'll go out by poisoning, because you can extract nicotine from cigarettes to create poison. I want to make peace with my loved ones and write the note first. Other than that, all I want to do is meet my online friend irl and eat at this one special restaurant in chinatown with my friend cece. It's a shame, really. I had a chance to be good, but just like everything else I ruined it. I'm so sorry mom. was as many years as I could go, but I'm just not strong enough to hold on longer. I wish I could stay longer. I wish I could, but when every day is just so fucking hard, it's not worth trying. I'm so sorry for doing this to you. I hope you move on. I wish I was stronger. It's not your fault, you did everything you could. I wanted to accomplish something in this life so you could remember me, but i'm too pathetic. i'm so sorry. | suicide |
Might dress up like a bodyguard and go shopping with my mom to make it look like she is very important What do you all think, should I do it? Would it be funnt and good, or just be dumb and cringe? | non-suicide |
I just want to die... I DON'T KNIW WHY! I always feel like garbage, my teachers look to me like someone look at garbage! I have friends and people that want to kill me. And I think I have asperger syndrome!!! WTF I NEED TO DO NOW??? I DON T WANT TO LIVE BUT I DON'T WANT TO DIE TOO!!! (Sorry for my english) Help plz | suicide |
Just spoke to my ex and I can't take it. I never wanted to hear those words. I thought we could at least try and work things out. I'd like to talk to someone over skype if that's okay.PM me and I'll add you. | suicide |
My problems I am Australian male on the autism spectrum and my brother Australian is like my superior version he gets every girl he wants and never gets rejected I feel my parents love him more My parents split when I was and I barely see my father the girl I love said Im like a brother to her and then tries to kill her self The girl dating my brother kissed me before they got together and now shes told me she never loved me TLDR: life sux | non-suicide |
year old male and Im ready to dieI have Bpd and its killing me from the inside. I keep on having the impulse to do self destructing things, I have no close friends, I hate myself, and my own family doesnt know how to take care of me. I quit my job because I impulsively decided to move across the country and Im super depressed. I cant get over a girl who I dated for only six weeks. She dumped me because she found out about my bpd and now Im thinking Ill never be loved again. I was sexually harassed, bullied and neglected as a kid and even saw my own best friend die in a car bomb when I was around - years old. I have ptsd from that and uhhhhh Im just so exhausted. I dont even have the mental energy to write the rest of this text I just really want to die | suicide |
anyone else think its kinda creepy and weird when people post their text messages here? idk maybe its just me but when someone posts like the ss of their crush saying yes/no or their parents being weird it just feels... too personal? i cant ever imagine me sharing my *private* messages to other people besides the person im texting, let alone literal strangers on the internet. and im sure if that person ever found out you shared that personal message to others theyd probably at the very least be uncomfortable, probably even mad. it just feels odd. no hate tho, you can do whatever you want, but i get this feeling like im invading someones privacy when i see a text posted on this sub. | non-suicide |
Finally got the guts to post a selfie  [Its not to scale, dont worry]( | non-suicide |
Im so ugly that I want to kill myselfIm so repulsive. I got bullied for it in middle school and elementary school, and the guys that liked me in high school didnt even have real crushes on me. Why would I believe they like me if theyre never into girls like me? Im constantly the exception but never what they genuinely find pretty. Im and I think, do I want to go out into the world where Ill be mistreated for being ugly? How much more bullying can I take? I dont want to even try. I genuinely dont see the point in anything. | suicide |
Why bother?Today I thought to myself that theres nothing stopping me from going outside, numbing myself with the snow, and slitting my wrists. Humans are constructions of physical phenomena, our minds delude us and our eyes blind us. The only reason we love is because emotional is a useful survival tool for the pack animal. The few things that make us half-decent are tainted, hollow, corrupt. We cant see that the handful of impressive accomplishments will wither like a trillion planets before and after us. The world is a comedy to those who think and a tragedy to those who feel, and i have the great fucking fortune of being both. Im sick of my religious family, my broken school system, my country, my planet, my species. | suicide |
I have to story to confess to you all I once saw a girl and I started liking her but I was too shy to even talk to her.She was in my previous class and I couldn't even talk to her just cause I am shy.Now after last year was over I just saw she was not in my class this year.So I just forgot everything.Then after months I was scrolling insta and I saw her.Then I thought to dm her.We started a convo and I found out that she is also a gamer.So we started playing.Like we actually become good friens then after a while I was busy for a couple days so didn't talk to her.So she probably didn't text me back thinking that I didn't want to talk to her.So days passed and then one day our datesheet of exams came so I decided to talk to her about that it was a small convo and it ended soon like in minutes or so.Then we were in no contact since July and now our results came.My bff was good friends with her last year but now they were out of contact.I didn't want to text her but my bff forced me to ask her about her result.Again she replied her % and so did I and then again we ended the convo.So now we both used to only see stories.And now she started hiding them from me ( ik this cause I follow her from a secret account). | non-suicide |
at this point even i dont know what im posting my brain is full of one direction and colors | non-suicide |
Teeth by sos is playing rn welp here comes the horny again | non-suicide |
I think I'm going insaneI'm havimg some real issues here. And it's not like me, at all. I literally decided I want to kill myself. Like, tonight. And I am serious. There is a lot going on and I really don't think it's worth going into. It's boring life stuff. I know I'll use the knife my mother sharpened for us. I'm so mad at her. And I know everyone will be better off without me. I know I'm wasting resources. I know it's over. I literally just want to smoke some cigarettes and drink some beer and take care of a few things. I think I will do this by Monday. | suicide |
I feel like I'm doomed for a lifetime of failure. Can I just disappear?This is my first time posting on reddit, so I apologise if there are some formatting errors, but I need to vent and hopefully get someone to help me. I don't remember the last time I was truly happy with myself or my life. To be honest, I wonder if I've ever been happy. When I was a child, I didn't grow up in a loving home - my dad was very physically and emotionally abusive towards my mum, sister and I, and that as a result has left scars on all of us. My sister also has a slew of issues as well; she used to kick me and call me worthless until she managed to move out when I started the seventh grade, so right now the only family I have is my anxiety ridden mother and even she doesn't want to help me here. The thing is I've suffered from depression for most of my life and it's sad because I'm , pretty and quite intelligent yet I can't seem to feel happy with anything. Hell, I can't even aim to achieve my dreams because I live in a country where the job market for people my age studying at university is terrible, so I just feel like I'm destined for a lifetime of failure and I just want to die. No one even understands how I feel and yet, every day I have to pretend that I'm fine when in fact I'm far from that. Can someone please help me? I just want to be happy. | suicide |
My step-mom knows my humor too well I started a growth spurt recently and she wanted to take a picture to post on face book, I wouldnt smile being the depressed bag of potato I am until she said in the deepest voice possible BALLS I almost passed out from laughter | non-suicide |
I wanted to see a trans I always loved that cartoon. Bumblebee was my favorite, therefore yellow became my favorite color. My dad said yellow was gay, so I never talked about Bumblebee since. When I got the balls to say to him that I wanted to see a yellow trans, he laughed at me, and said "fine, I'll arrange a trip". He arranged a trip to Bangkok, Thailand, to meet a yellow trans. He just left me in a room with this woman, with a pair of scissors, and she had a protrusion on her front side. It was too late. That night, I lost my balls, figuratively and literally, as well as my dignity. My ass has been penetrated. After that, the lady said in a snarky way "That's why they call in Bangkok, and not Bangkunt". I was traumatized since then. | non-suicide |
can anyone talk to me pleaseidk if its allowed to post numbers or not but please text or call me at o i need someone to talk to | suicide |
Posting a random word until the album Adventures in Modern Recording gets back on Spotify Day- Hello >! Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler Filler !< | non-suicide |
I went on my first date in days Last date I went on was with my ex over a year and a half ago and it feels really good. Have a good night guys. | non-suicide |
no more drivefor the past / years i have had a drive to get threw life, from trying to kill my self, to my sexuality, having someone i loved and helped me find my self block me and never talk to me and be deceptive about there feelings, iv gone threw braking up with my dad, falling in love and having my first real relationship end with him cheating on me, iv gotten into use done my st year thats was hell, i just can't keep going. i hate uni even halls makes me want to hurt m self and i can't move out, i find it hard to get a job as it is and need to go looking for the summer and i can;t face it. i don't want to keep going in life, get a job, work, die, that's it?, i have dreams but i know i can't do them, i feel trapped and that i can't escape, like all the issues are my fault, i have no home support really, i just don't want to keep dealing with life, i never planed to be this old, im , i get told i still have a life, i don't want it, i was hoping to die by age , my life is just be stumbling and falling with hardly any support, and the ones that do are far away. | suicide |
I really want toast Like for real some buttered toast sounds great right now but I dont wanna get up from bed | non-suicide |
Would you take a bullet for your mother? I was asked this question and instantly said yes. My mother had to deal with pains while I was in her for months, she had to deal with me for all these years but a bullet can't compair to that so I would take the bullet. On the other hand mother's don't want their child to be in harm and if this was asked to mother's they would reply with they would rather take it. Mine said that she wants us to live a good life as she already lived hers and would rather take it then us as we got a future to live for. I love my mother and she loves me and it's a fact that we don't want to see the other in pain or loose them. I would for her and she would for me. ~Note~ to all the people who's got family issues or have missing loved ones I deeply am sorry, I do not know your situation and it pains me that you had to deal with that but just remember that in this life we come and go and that yes when you are at the bottom of the hill it's all full of sh*t and pain but life always gets better and there is good waiting for you at the top. You can have a shitty start but still make it or have a really good start and then things fall and crumble but have faith. | non-suicide |
Guys I moved out not too long ago and I need help decorating my room I have a pretty big room now with hardly anything in it. I was gonna go shopping later but I'll gladly take suggestions. $ limit pls. | non-suicide |
Theres this girl trying to get me to spy on her fianc Shes a fucking bitch. I hope she burns in hell | non-suicide |