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Should iI'm contemplating doing it tonight | suicide |
HotlineDo suicide hotlines call the police or anyone else? I really dont want to do anything, but i cant stop thinking about it. I just need someone to talk to, but im afraid someone will say something. | suicide |
Im struggling a lot mentally right now and I kinda just need to get it out. Ive been really lonely as of late and I feel desperate for people to talk to. I feel like Im losing everyone because nobody likes me. Im just a burden on people, like weight on their back that they dont need. I feel really annoying and that nobody likes me. Nobody should like me anyways though because Im a sad sack of garbage. Im hating myself right now. Im also exhausted because I feel like I have to fake my happiness. I feel like if I dont nobody will talk to me because Ill be super quiet and shit. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel helpless. | non-suicide |
Did you know There is a % my Coc will go in ur ass today | non-suicide |
I feel I've reached the end.I've not been a good person to anyone around me. All I can ever seem to do is lie to make others and myself feel better about the situations I put myself into and drag them with me. I've been unemployed for months. I put in over applications, but only received calls and had interviews with no job offers. I had unemployment, but it's ended, and because of this, I'm going to cause my roommate to lose her house if she can't come up with rent tomorrow. I lied to her to tell her I had paid it, but I didn't get the money to do so. Not only this, she also thinks I currently have a job that was started on Monday. I don't know that there's anyone in my life that wouldn't be better off without me. Nothing else makes sense right now, and the idea of everyone having a better time sounds really fucking good. I hate my life right now, and whether they admit it, I'm pretty sure everyone in my life dies too. | suicide |
I dont want to kill myself but I don't want to live either.Fuck I don't know what's wrong with me right nown I posted here the other day bitching about stuff and yeah, since then I had a girl reject me (no suprise there, I'm a highly rejectable ugly trans freak), I've cut and now I'm posting this sitting on the edge of the roof of the parking complex attached my my appartment building. I keep imagining just leaning forward and doing it but I can't stand hurting the people that claim they care about me. My father just shelled out thousands so I could stay here in Atlanta and here I am being a little bitch about to jump to my death a few days after signing a year lease. What the bloody fuck is wrong with me you guys. I don't know what to do, I can't go back to the hospital for the th time, all it does it make me more suicidal. Doesn't help that I'm currently without a therapist. Seriously though, any suggestions are appreciated. (It's my view right now) | suicide |
I Just Need help, i can t anymoreMy Life suck I don t have a job, i can t end the university My family hate me and i hate they The only good think was my GF I meet her when everything was worst And now She broke to me Was the only reason for me to hold so much And She Isn t with me anymore I Just Need help I don t know what to do I try to search a way ti see a Better future but i don t are nothing Just dark | suicide |
My family makes me want to kill myselfThis is a really hard time of year for me because of all the holidays, which means that I have to spend more time with my family. I have a really long history of problems with my family. This includes my grandmother having an affair behind my grandfather's back, my family mistreating my year old great grandfather, and just generally a lot of conflict that doesn't really get solved and creates a lot of tension. I also just feel like I can't relax around them and being around them so much doesn't come with the same loving and relaxing vibe as say being around my friends does. As a result, I avoid my family as much as I can. I usually hang out with my friends or just stay home by myself. I'm in a really weird spot though because I currently live with my dad (I'm at community college), and he generally gives me a lot of freedom and respects that I'm an adult, but he always gives me crap about not wanting to be around the family. He always wants to know why I don't want to go (which is fair), but I know that if I tell him how suicidal and anxious my family makes me feel he'll brush it off as silly or just say "well it's your family so too bad." (I've tried to talk to my dad about my mental illness before and it never turns out in a supportive way). Thanksgiving is coming up, and my dad really wants me to go even though I already said no, and he said we'll talk about it later, but wtf am I supposed to tell him? I could be honest, but it just might make him really mad and make me feel even worse. I just feel really suicidal and frustrated right now. I always run away from my problems because I don't want to confront them. I know that makes me cowardly but I'm hurting a lot and don't have a ton of support to solve what I'm going through. I always have fantasies about running away and my own funeral and "getting back at my family" for how crappy they always make me feel. I hate this feeling of being trapped. | suicide |
Update On My GFHere's the post My girlfriend wants to kill herself and I have no idea what to do Anyway, she woke up this morning and texted me and said that she ate dinner last night so she couldn't go through with it because she felt like she would puke up the medicine. I'm not really good with things like this so I just asked her to please stop. Any tips on what to say? I'm not really sure what to do here | suicide |
I don't want to liveIt's : am. I don't have a bad life. I'm selfish and inconsiderate, blahblahblah. I don't want to live. Life is a chore to me. Even if it isn't bad. It's just. It's still not what I want. Nothing is ever enough for me. I just don't want to live. I don't know what to do. Should I just kill myself? Should I just take the little money I have and run? Should I just tell my psychiatrist to up my dose? Should I break up with the only man who has ever loved me and break his heart for no goddamn reason? I feel trapped. I want to be free. I want to be not alive. Death feels like freedom. I don't know what to do. | suicide |
Its National Suicide Prevention Month. According to the World Health Orginization, one person takes their own life every seconds. This also results in approximately , people committing suicide every year. If you feel mentally unstable, here are a few things I want you to know. . You have purpose in life . You have family and friends to guide and support you . You contribute to society . You are loved . You are not alone. If you or someone you love is considering suicide, get help immediately. Its the only way out. National Suicide Prevention Hotline: --- | non-suicide |
am i the only girl that reacts like the boys in this subreddit when complimented? i do agree that typically, boys and nb get less compliments than girls, but reading posts about how "all girls get showered in compliments" made me make this post bc im practically never complimented lol... pls say it's not just me aha | non-suicide |
Tonight I feel in so much pain, I am obsessing mentallyI feel that I have had enough I am searching for cliffs on the Internet so I can drive off. This is not healthy where my mind set is at. I am praying and trying everything it's getting to powerful and to much,I'm sick of talking and sick of living. Is there any way to get out of your own head with out using drugs or killing your self. I live God and need God I don't want to give up | suicide |
I'm ruined, and for the first time in a long time, I cannot manage to cope.My husband has put me through the ringer. I've recently discovered a lot of lies and deception and manipulation. There's also been a one-sided emotional affair happening with someone very close to me. I feel like I'm in a hole that I just can't pull myself out of. When I finally talk myself into the strength it takes just to get out of bed, I think about all of the other practical bullshit that I have to take care of in order to get back on my feet, and I lose my steam. I'm in this dark place and I'm having a really hard time finding a reason to keep on living. I'm afraid to be alone. | suicide |
Don't know what to doI'm not sure what to write, but I'm feeling like I might kill myself. In the past year and a half my mental health has deteriorated greatly. I don't really feel much now, I don't enjoy being alive. When I do feel something it's usually rage or disgust that I can't control. Even towards my girlfriend and family. I'm not a nice person to be around but my girlfriend won't leave me and find somebody nicer. I don't enjoy anything and can't do things. I don't really work as a human, there doesn't seem much point. For the past year I've been kept awake fantasizing about jumping off a motor way bridge and in front of a truck, but I've resisted the deep urge to do so. I feel like I can't really fight it now, or that I don't want to. I repeatedly see my doctor, but it's been over a year and I still haven't had any treatment or diagnosis. They just brush me off and one doctor laughed. I don't really have any other options. Just help me or something, I don't want to trouble my friend or girlfriend. | suicide |
Anyone know how I can lucid dream I wanna lucid dream cause I have yet to have a dream where I know whats happening and often forget in the confusion, I wanna be able to do what I want while having a chance of remembering what I did. | non-suicide |
Stop sending me messagesIm not depressed, I dont fake serious mental illnesses for internet points like you guys. Only ,% of this sub is made up of actual depressed people. | suicide |
I think I'm going insaneI constantly dissociate to the point where any little thing makes me dissociate so badly that I attack my friends and family. My memory disappears every few minutes. I can't concentrate or remember anything. I feel like I'm constantly drowning. I can't do this. I can't keep licing like this, and I don't know what to do anymore. I just wanna slit my wrists and make it all stop. | suicide |
Im scared to keep living but scared to take my lifeI dont know what im doing. Made an alt account to post this. I have practically no friends i'm antisocial and have trouble talking to people. I moved a year ago (I am not adult will not be added specifics for age or grade.) and got bullied for a year then got pulled out so now Its my second year being homeschooled, and my last. So what im getting at is at the end of everything I have one close friend and a cousin I care about. My Close friend attempted suicide a month or two ago and My cousin says the family makes them want to kill themself. Im terrified of loosing the two people I actually trust. They are probably the only reason im alive at this point and im ashamed that I didnt offer enough support to the point my friend tried taking there life. I am infinitely thankful it didnt work but still scared. What if they do it again? What if my cousin attempts it? Not only that but Im scared about so much shit getting a c in class because my standards are too high for myself. Scared of my parents finding out I think theyre toxic and abusive, Scared to go back to school and the possibility of dealing with bullying again. At the end of the day im just an antisocial overwhelmed loser whos waiting till they crack. I mean I have no friends to the point i'm making a reddit post about how I want to kms I feel completely defenseless in a way Like I have no outlet. I have no way of knowing whats happening next. Every time Im a little happy something bad happens to the extent I feel like I dont deserve happiness. Im staying up to avoid tomorrow because im scared of whats coming next. Its like I haven't had a breath of fresh air in years. | suicide |
Has anyone else been experiencing a basically arctic front Just rather title again | non-suicide |
I miss lockdown Like straight up. - It was the only time I truly felt safe. Now this pandemic is as bad as when it began and nobody wants to do anything - Online school was less stressful than being face to face and having exams - I can no longer live by my own sleep schedule - I miss being able to binge shows without having to worry about waking up in the morning, or being able to play games until am - I used to be able to choose who I stayed in contact with, without having to see people I dislike everyday. - It gave me free time to practise my hobbies that i never had the opportunity to explore I get there was disadvantages to lockdown, and some people struggled more than others, but for me it was my sweet spot. Sure I may have been getting physically unfit at times but I think I value the good it did for my mental health over that. | non-suicide |
cool bug facts: my classmate owns a clothing line i have no idea why lol i have proof too heres the link if you are intrested (which im sure you dont): [ | non-suicide |
list of people who r gonna die virgins . bitchez who comment "godzilla had a stroke reading this & fucking died" or "english please" . | non-suicide |
I hate Latvian hospitals So, my dad has covid and now is in a pretty serious condition every day getting c all day, sure he may not have breathing problems but hes with a lot of stomachache and headache all the time. And he is getting worse by the day. So he obviously went to the hospital for checking and the nurses decided to not take him in the hospital, ok thats pretty stupid but ok. The dumb part is where the fucking nurses didnt even give him any antibiotics to get better. So they basically said to his face fuck you, you are not getting any antibiotics we dont care if you stay in the position feeling like shit for a month or a week. Btw it has already been a month. | non-suicide |
I think i might be broken I just saw a man blow his brains out on tik tok and i weirdly wasnt fazed. | non-suicide |
Can you help?!Hi guys! I know it's a long shot but I found this post on 'offmychest' just now. It was posted hours ago so I realise it may be too late? ( I really hope I'm wrong). Wondering if any of you know the steps to maybe track down the poster and see if he is ok? I know you guys have done wonderful things for many people, you were the first sub to enter my mind when I read this poor mans post. I'm at work and reading his post made me quite upset, I don't know if anyone has come to you already, if so I hope help is already on the way to him. Thank you for reading. | suicide |
Is there anyone that knows Albanian and English well??? This person needs help and there is no suicide prevention hotline for Albanians[ | suicide |
my life is pathetic, so I might off myselfmy post may seem stupid, it may seem.....pathetic in a sense, or in every sense of the word. But my life is pointless and pathetic. I'm a high school drop out that now has to go to adult school to get my diploma, I'm ugly as all hell so no one is ever going to fall in love with me. My life has gone no where since high school, I feel like offing myself might be best for my family and myself, they won't have to deal with a dissappointing accident anymore, and I can finally be put to rest. I dunno, I just want to drown or OD. and if you did find my post pathetic or stupid, I am very sorry for wasting your time | suicide |
just realised how quiet i am i never initiate conversation in real life bummer | non-suicide |
Light travels faster than sound. Thats probably why so many people seem bright until after you talk to them. | non-suicide |
I think at some point I'm gonna end killing myselfA few years ago, someone told me that if I continue to be how I am, I'm not gonna live past 's and is not that I think that it is some kind of destiny I have because someone told me that but is just something I remember every time I feel like shit. I'm years old, trans I haven't began transition and I don't think I will because I don't really see the point, I think I'll continue to be the unhappy person I am. Also, let's be real and sorry if any trans folk is reading this, no matter what I do, I'll still be female, that's something I can't change. I don't like being the center of attention of anything, I'm pretty shy, avoid speaking over the phone or going out of the house unless I have to, I only have my family and a few friends and I don't want to lose anyone, I don't to feel more alone than I'm now. I have dropped University twice(arts and computer engineering), I feel like a failure, that I'm not good at anything and everyone is a liar when they tell me otherwise, I just suck at life. I'm still virgin and I'll die like that because I find sex weird, like it in my head is in some way but my body doesn't fit in that way. I don't make any effort on change that, don't care very much about my appearance or hygiene, what's the point? I have a nice family, they love me, so I don't how to stop feeling like shit, I mean, they care for me, I can go to the university, I have food and everything yet I'm this mess of a person The funny think is that I have told some friends about the trans stuff and they seem pretty positive but I don't understand why, it's not normal wanting to change something you can't, I think like they are just being condescending. I don't have intentions of killing myself in this moment, it's just though that I have in this moment but I fear death and my family has already dealt with suicide in the past and I don't want them to pass for that again, is not nice but I fear that one day I'll stop being afraid of death and couldn't care less about my family or anything else for the matter, and I know that it will come because every day I feel worse. | suicide |
whats ur favourite tv show i just wanna know what everyones is idk so yeh | non-suicide |
Are you addicted to masturbation? . . . Me too, tell me if you find something. | non-suicide |
Guys I'm experiencing runner's high rn I'm So Happy | non-suicide |
years old with wife and kids. I'm going through severe depression right now and told my wife I am not safe to be around with my mental state and I will live in my truck until it runs out of gas.My depression and past brain trauma are keeping me from working. I only have a pick up truck to live in and am afraid I will end it very soon. My wife ironically works in mental health and knows when someone is serious or seeking attention. I'm at a loss with no where to turn. I'm afraid I will provoke someone to shoot me or beat me until I'm dead, or worse, my rage takes over and I beat them until their dead. | suicide |
I feel brokenOne of my longtime friends passed some time ago and I thought I had been handling the loss ok. Unrelated to that loss, I've been struggling with thoughts of suicide and my self-worth is low. But I had a dream last night about hugging her one last time before she passed that made me feel so happy and calm until I woke up and realized it wasn't real and I'd never get to say goodbye. Her kids have to grow up without their parents, because the dad killed her and then himself. It hurts so much and I just want it all to stop, but I don't want to hurt my friends. I want to either stop hurting, or be able to wake up and not start shaking because the thought of seeing people makes me so anxious I'm sick. I just want to feel better at any cost | suicide |
so i say i have anxiety and depression because i show a lot of the symptoms but ive never gotten diagnosed because im too scared to ask i can tell you guys my symptoms of youd like | non-suicide |
Okay I'll admit skateboarding is a sport But only for people who aren't good at it and have no style and fun. | non-suicide |
Lifes amazingWhen the problem resides within yourselfs theres no escape but the lack of breath | suicide |
Anyone wanna play truth or dare? Idk Im lonely as hell and just want to talk to another human | non-suicide |
Kaiju no chapter on Christmas eve nice!!! Link | non-suicide |
I guess some friends would be nice. Ive always had a hard time making friends growing up, it was mostly me harassing people to be friends with me. And when I did Manage to find a person that wanted to be friends with me they already had their own circle. Now insert a few years of bullying, and now Im homeschooled. And Ive been homeschooled for years now, and I just realized at :am in the morning that I just wasted years of my life. I havent really talked to anyone else but my family in years. But now I watch streamers/YouTubers like QuackityHq, Tommyinnit ,dream extra . (If you dont like them please dont judge me for liking them) But now Im here wishing I could have what they have, lots of friends to hang out with and do dumb shit with, tell god awful jokes, do role plays on Minecraft (not the cringe stuff.) and just have a good laugh with. Im heading to bed now. | non-suicide |
Everyone has passions, i only want to die. I'll probably do it after my examsI'm years old high school senior. Actually my grades aren't even bad, they're even better than most of my friends' But my problem is I'm over-worried about my future. I'll either attend a good university or kill myself. But my friends aren't like this, they just let everything go I don't know how they do that Whenever they ask me about my dreams or passions i get triggered and only suicide comes to my mind. Even though they have bad grades they talk about their dreams as is they're the most successful students of the country The problem is not only talking about it. All my friends and family members tell me that's not the end of the world. My only success is my good grades, if i fail, then my life ends. My friends all have different passions than their academic life, one can do sports, one can sing, one can draw, one even likes to watch movies. I don't even watch movies, i have no passion but my grades (yes I'm kind of nerd) For years, I've been dreaming about the exam day, and the only thing I'm planning to do on that day is committing suicide if i feel like i didn't do well. I've been thinking about it too much that I'm scared I'll commit suicide even if i do well, it'll be a waste of years because I've been studying for years Don't tell me I'll do well just because I've been studying for years, i won't be able to do a sh*t. I still suck at maths and science. I know you're laughing, I'm mad, I don't know what to do | suicide |
I am socially retarded, anxious, gay, ugly, annoying, unlikeable, and my best (and only) friend jumped off a cliff because I didn't stop him.I cannot remember the last close relationship I had to another person in real life, while online anyone I talk to only responds out of obligation. Ever since he died the guilt has destroyed me, I knew he was going to do it but didn't tell anyone, I was confused and had no clue what do to, I know people here will say it wasn't my fault, but if I posted here before he killed himself asking for help on what to do I'm sure everyone would tell me to tell someone. I'll never find someone and die alone should I live out my life, and even if I didn't look like a monkey with the personality of a coaconut people are impossible to approach and talk to anyway. I spend hours a day in my bed with my dog. If I died literally no one would care, my family would see it as a burden off their shoulders, and everyone else would get to stop being bothered by me. I know anyone who posts to this will be doing it out of obligation, but I needed to at least type out everything I can't tell anyone, even if no one sees. If I had a quick and painless way to do it right now I probably would, but I'm scared of dying even though I'm more scared of living. | suicide |
Happy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the st of January Happy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the st of JanuaryHappy Birthday to everyone having Birthday on the st of January | non-suicide |
Someone called me a weirdo for saying Id eat their shit if they shat in my pants Im now crying Heck you person who called me a weirdo | non-suicide |
Sorry for posting here yet again. Just want to vent somewhere safe.I'm a year old and my life is really pathetic. I still live with my parents and work a low-paying job despite having recently graduated from college. I realized a few months ago that I have a lot of issues that need to be worked on, such as anxiety, depression, and trauma. All of these issues have been pervasive for most of my life, but I didn't realize how bad it was until recently. Anyway. Naturally, I began having suicidal thoughts as a kid and it just hasn't stopped. I feel like people will be better off if I died or simply never existed. All I seem to do is cause issues. I get angry at my parents and we fight. Sure, they say horrible things to me and each other, but I should be able to control myself. I feel like an insolent child. I vent to friends and they get uncomfortable and leave. I've managed to keep two friends for years, and they say I'm a great and supportive friend, but they'll get tired of me and leave too. Seems like % of the people in my life that I get close to leave, so why shouldn't they? I wouldn't be too upset, because I deserve to be alone and they don't need me being a burden and holding them back. I don't really have any goals. I started going to therapy again and think I found a good fit. I'll be going at least once a week if this works out. I'm supposed to come to the next session with goals, but I can't think of any. If I feel like I don't deserve to get better, why am I even wasting my therapists' time and going to therapy? There's more but I'm just too tired. If you guys read this and have questions I can try to answer. Wouldn't be surprised if this was ignored too though. | suicide |
It's been a year since my last note here, and I've relapsed and it's getting worse every time.I thought I could go on. I thought I've overcome the hill, and nothing could bring me down. But here I am again. I feel like a mess, my head is in a jumble, and I can't concentrate on anything. Everything is a blur. My day goes by so fast I can't grasp when it's morning and when it's night. I've fought so hard, to find a reason to go on, but even from my first recovery, I've realized I was never able to find that. I never recovered, I never did anything, I was only lying to myself. I still can't find a reason, I see no future, I see nothing. I'm just a hollow sack of meat and bones that moves, acts, and breathes without reason. My life has no meaning. As people have always told me, I think of the people that I would inflict pain on, but what can I do when I feel so miserable, and I just want a release from this fake life and fake laugh that I must carry on with? | suicide |
Sea Shanties with the boys Before the night is over, Gather the boys to sing sea shanties, Single or not. This is the perfect time. Havent seen them in a while? Go get them! | non-suicide |
POSTING ON THIS SUB EVERYDAY UNTIL MY CRUSH BECOMES MY GIRLFRIEND OR I GET HORRIBLY REJECTED AND PLUNGE INTO ETERNAL SADNESS DAY ! Ok Im sorry this one is late I almost forgot to post today So today I went on a mile bike ride and she was not there so that was disappointing The wait will continue for as long as it needs too sorry this post is shorter than usual im playing gta with my friends rn I will still reply to comments tho | non-suicide |
Im bored so heres a joke What do you call a man with no arms or legs in front of your door            Matt | non-suicide |
I have made terrible decisions and I feel overwhelmed with the consequences.I guess I should start out by saying my parents recently decided to move across the country and gave me the option to go with them or stay here and live on my own which I cannot afford. Then I decided to be a retard and speed and got arrested for possession and MIP, the fact that it wasn't a DUI is a fucking miracle. So then I think, ok time to get my shit together. This is going to be expensive but I may be able to pull it together and save up to live with my girlfriend. Well, I didn't learn my lesson and decided to take a bunch of xanax and go drive to my friends house IN HER CAR. I put my life and others in danger. I ended up side swiping a tree and did some pretty bad damage to her car. Now I am in debt to her and still in the process of dealing with my criminal charges. Needless to say, she broke up with me and now I am forced to move across the country away from the woman I have been with for . years because of my stupid fucking mistakes. I am seeing a therapist soon to try and find the root of the problem, which is pretty deep because I have no idea what it is. I'm just looking for some support because as it is right now, I can't find a reason to wake up in the morning. I am not suicidal but my life literally just fell apart in front of my eyes and I have no clue what to do. Any support/advice/tips on how to get through this would mean a lot to me. I don't have any friends I can talk to about it, and even if i did, it would be too embarrassing. I just want someone to talk to =/ | suicide |
I dont know if I can do it allMy bpd is killing me. I thought if I loved someone hard enough they would stop leaving me if I was good enough and was kind enough and sweet and forgiving and all the things I should be then people would love me back but Everyone always leaves from my mom to my dad and grandparents every lover all my friends and I cant tell if its my fault or if this is just how the world works and Im not understanding and connecting like I should Therapists always ask if I ever made a plan and I never really did I was just always hoping something would kill me like cancer or something but tonight it started coming together in my head i would have to clean my room and write everyone letters and see my sister one last time and leave something for my boyfriend to remember me by and Im so scared of myself now but Im so tired of waking up to another unchanging day unchanging life and its so so so so lonely I hate myself how can you fix your mistakes when you are the mistake I wasnt meant to be here I feel it every day in my bones I dont think I was meant to be here I used to be happy and nice and kind and hopeful when I was little and yesterday I just saw myself in my mind the little girl I used to be and I know I let her down in every way and I cant stop crying Im sorry to her | suicide |
bruh I hate people who act like the thing they are doing is right and act all high and mighty so this one kid in our class brought a knife or something and this guy snitched and basically the whole class snitched like wtf they were all acting high and fucking mighty idfk that shit just disgusts me(no I didn't snitch ) | non-suicide |
School is making me suicidal, depressed, I hate everyone there. In high school, I've met some of the worst people in my whole life. And it's not only , not , it's more than half of the classroom I'm in. First off everything was great I thought it was a good class, but then one moron has changed school and moved into our class. He acted like a jerk from the beginning, everyone, of course, was so obsessed "how funny he is" with his elementary school humor and acting like a fucking child. In my country, you are an adult at the age of and most of them are like - and they still act like fucking kids. That wouldn't be that big of a deal. But then for some reason, he began to have a problem with my friend. It all started with a nickname (as my bullying has) and ended with sending her nude pictures into class group chat and making fun of her because she cut herself because of their nonstop verbal abuse. Not talking about my fucking ex that I spent months trying for, then she told she can't date younger guys and ended up dating the guy that is the same age as me and that she called "a fucking asshole, she couldn't even talk to". I really wanna drop out, but my family won't support me even if I tell them how hard it's to work in that class and that I have no intention of doing the specialization I've chosen and I'm studying now. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it like do finish school from home (dunno how to call that in English) and try to make some money making music. Of course, I would find a job in between and would be attending it. | suicide |
lbs diabetic chainsmoker I was diagnosed with diabetes months ago, and had a heart attack a few days ago. I've been working up to this for years: not caring. But now its getting down to possible death and I want to make sure this is what I want to do. I like to eat and smoke. I've tried to quit, but its like chewing ground glass. I've got a nice juicy plaque in the artery that feeds half the heart. When that blows out I'm gone. I just hope it doesn't hurt too much. My heart attck was a little one, and it didn't hurt too bad. I found something I like: Mortality, mortality You bitter hug of mortality I draw you near. Tell the physician and the priest to go home. If you want me again, you shall find me under your bootsoles. You shall not know who I am, and hardly know what I mean. Failing to fetch me at first, keep encouraged. Pausing one place, search another. I stop somewhere. Waiting for you. | suicide |
I'm scared of turning Title says it all. The big is looming. My life is a mess XD | non-suicide |
I dont agree with TERFs but people are so toxic towards them The amount of hate and death threats they receive is sickening. I dont agree with them but theyre humans too. | non-suicide |
I know sex is great and all.. But have you ever listened to Ra Ra Rasputin?Thats the real deal! | non-suicide |
thanks to the girl that made me feel like an assso i had a close friend and we played video games together and then after a few years she fucking left me without a reason. because i asked her to play some video games with me because its been several months! i honestly think its because i was being annoying? idk she made me cry and consider suicide i dont know why she left though! thanks for listening me vent this was the final cuck of so to the person that made me this way, thank you for making me feel like an asshole, scum. | suicide |
ever just ever just wonder about the happiest you've ever made someone because i'm pretty sure it's when i leave the room | non-suicide |
FUCK YEEAAA i just got super focused and finished my essay all tonight and it actually came out pretty decent! but you know that feelings when you just get in the zone of your work and you start actually being productive and it feels amazing? and like after you finish you get to close out all the tabs of research and AHHHH and then you realize that you havent peed in forever but you didnt even notice  that doesnt happen often but when it does YYEAAAH BABY | non-suicide |
tw sh/suii want to die so fucking bad. i deserve it. i deserve a slow and painful death. but i cant kill myself because im already so much of a waste of time on my family and i cant make it worse by putting grief on them. its not like i can be any more of a bitch though. my thigh stings from cutting a lot earlier and i just wanna do it more. its what i deserve. im such a useless piece of shit and a dumbass. im so fucking stupid. i dont know how anyone likes me, if they even do anymore. i hope someone kills me. | suicide |
I just want to stop the tears.When I'm alone I cry all the time. Ever since my wife died years back I've been sad. The constant sadness made me depressed so I stopped doing basic things like looking after myself properly & ended up getting bullied at work. Life went on like that for - years, every day another comment, more depression & it was all just a dull background roar to the grief of loosing her. Cut to recently & I a spate of bullying gets me angry. One of the bullies mentioned my wife, words were said & I ended up resigning. Now I sit here & wonder what happened to me? The guy who had it all, the wonderful women, the great job, the big group of friends. It's all gone now. I've nothing but a TV, a cat & a roof over my head. The roof will go when the money runs out in Feb. So what do I do now? Get a new job? Why bother? Everyday is suffering for me. Everyday I live is just suffering for other people. All I want to do is go to sleep & wake up in heaven with my wife. I don't want to kill myself, I just want top stop the tears. | suicide |
Redditors of r/teenagers, read this news article [ What is your opinion on this news article? Can you understand this clearly? What is your opinion on this? Thanks | non-suicide |
I won't live to see .I've been thinking about killing myself sometime this year. I'm in a bad situation and I've struggled to find a job. I don't have much money left and I don't know how I'm gonna pay the rent. I've been depressed and anxious since middle school. I don't want to be miserable anymore. | suicide |
You will die Just an unfortunate fact :/ | non-suicide |
My uncle told me he should shoot himself. He was drunk. What should I do?His wife died recently, and we are both depressed about it. He drinks himself to sleep every night, but he has been hitting the sauce extra hard since my aunt died. He lives by himself now, so I only see how much he drinks when I visit. He owns a handgun for self defense. To quote him: "I should burn the house down and shoot myself, just like my dad." This scares the shit out of me. I'm also depressed, but not to the point of suicide. I don't know if I should tell a family member because what if he doesn't remember saying it? He was really drunk. Or what if he wasn't serious? He says all sorts of shit when he drinks. I just don't know if I should take this seriously or not. If I don't tell anyone and he does it, I won't be able to live with the guilt. Please help! | suicide |
I accidentally slammed a door onto my finger my finger hurts so g*osh da*rn much | non-suicide |
Yeahimextremelyswag Howcouldyoutell? | non-suicide |
I didn't expect myself to be living so longWhen I was - I was thinking I won't stay alive for my th birth, and I've reached it... Actually I have no idea about my future, in less than month I'm going to finish the study and start "new life" but... The only thing I want is death. Not brave enough to do it by myself so I'm waiting for fate to end it all... Few years ago I had some interests though, I've been playing computer games and didn't think about problems I have, but now they're all gone, and the only things I do is read some stuff like Nietzsche and Schopenhauer and listening depressed music and looking at the walls in my room... P.S. sorry about my English | suicide |
My parents piss me off So I usually go downstairs at :pm to say goodnight to my parents Pretty normal ig Last night I went down at exactly :pm and my parents were pissed, they took my phone off my today I'm currently using my old phone and they don't know but damn I'm so fucking annoyed- | non-suicide |
I want to hug someone, close my eyes, be at peace for once and rest.......... foreverI am just so tired now. So tired of everything. Like nothing gives me joy anymore. I dont know what else to say, thats it, I guess. I just wanted to say something somewhere I guess. | suicide |
So this is it?/m Long term loneliness ( years and counting) Have a mental condition which impairs my social skills, hidden for the most part, but people see me as a bad kind of weird as a result. Thing's that I'm passionate about are not popular for normal conversation (gaming, tech, psychology) so avoid at all costs. These combined factors leave me socially crippled and unable to adapt. See brother who has similar upbringing (minus mental condition) flourishing, decent size group of friends,popular at work and has no trouble with women (romantically) See people from high school constantly taking photo's of themselves going on nights out with friends, enjoying being in a relationship, on holiday etc etc I always thought that If I helped people, try to stay on their good side, try to help them at any opportunity whenever they needed it that maybe I could start a small group of friends and be able to live and do things people my age always do. That decision was clearly the wrong choice. So here I am after years, wake up, go to work, play video games, sleep, repeat. I've exhausted all my options, there are no local social clubs nearby, tried looking on websites intended for the same thing but ended up empty, parents say why not try online dating but again socially crippled so no chance of me getting anywhere when I can't start/hold a conversation as a man. Tried a holiday firm that groups a number of people in the same age group to go on an adventure type holiday, felt much better thanks to my room mate being such a great lad but its far too expensive to do more than once every couple of years and only for week at that. Not prepared to live the rest of my life like this, no rational reason to keep going as thing's clearly dont change, already planned ahead for location and method just a few things left to tie up. I don't want to die, but I don't want to continue living like this either, I hoping someone can see something I can't because from where I'm standing I have two options, I can take the quick way out now or, I wait and suffer in silence till depression cripples me to such a degree that it begins to affect my job and family. Edit: for mistakes and proper explainations | suicide |
How could i come out to my parents? Im very bad at personal and emotional conversations. I want to come out as bi, but dont know how | non-suicide |
Bruh, theres a rat stuck in my cupboard.My mom wont kill it, my sister wont kill it, and Im not tryna kill it.I can hear it whimpering, I guess its gonna die In there FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLEEEERrrrrrerre | non-suicide |
It's my birthday! And none of my friends said happy birthday ): | non-suicide |
Nobody I can trust to talk to. Wife and therapist don't seem to care at all.Been having a lot of thoughts about suicide and feeling like I really can't handle things. I've tried to talk to my wife about it, but she just seems to get angry at me or annoyed about talking about it. I started going to therapy last year, but my insurance really doesn't cover much and I only have one option for a therapist. In all honesty, it just feels like she's waiting for the hour to end and doesn't seem to have any compassion. She comes across as very cold and I'm not really comfortable sharing anything personal with her, which is kind of a problem for a therapist. At this point, I just keep going so they don't cut off my meds. I wasn't too worried about it until recently. I used to just have fleeting thoughts about it, but over the past few months I've caught myself actually thinking pretty in depth about how I would do it. Has anybody found any solutions to finding somebody to talk to? I really feel like nobody around me understands and just looks at it like a challenge to fix like there will just be some magic trick that changes everything. Sometimes, I just want somebody who I don't have to pretend I'm happy around. | suicide |
I liked making "My crush said yes" jokes but... Now I can't because I actually have a gf and she wasn't my crush before. Lol, she came to me, and we both pretty much caught feelings at the same time. Funny how that works. | non-suicide |
My life is awful and I don't know how to cope. I am and I dropped out of college and moved back in with my parents last year. I hate living with my parents because they are very stressed (a lot of this is because of how my life is going). I just feel like a burden and I feel guilty. I feel like the only honorable thing to do is to kill myself. I am just so tired all the time and my living environment is so negative. Everyone tries to help but words are just so meaningless and have been for so long. Platitudes and cliches just make me angry now..idk I just want to feel better now or die nothing else is acceptable to me. | suicide |
I think my crush might like me but I also think she might be lesbian Im friends with her and so is another one if my friends, anyway, my friend told me that she likes me, but that could be him trying to hipe me up. Also as the title said, I think she might be gay, or hopefully bi. Last year she had a boyfriend, that she broke up with, but later on, towards the end of the year, I saw her holding hands and kissing girls. So I'm really confused and bit sure if I should shoot my shot and I'm a lil nervous about the it. TL;DR: I think my crush is lesbian, but my friend says she likes me | non-suicide |
Why dont people sell all their things and move to foreign countries before killing themselves?Im not a suicidal person, and I want to understand the mindset of those who are. With literally nothing to lose, why not take a gigantic risk. If it works out, woohoo. If it doesnt, youre just gonna be right back where you started, since all your material goods are meaningless post death. | suicide |
It's happening! It's not just the Spanish I have recently seen the German and Italian Inquisition. It doesn't end with Spain, but it will end with Pain. | non-suicide |
Want to kill myselfI hate my family. I want to kill myself. I want someone to love me. Anyone. I feel so lonely. No one understand me. No one care about me. I just fucking hate myself. I do stupid shit sometimes. | suicide |
day by day it's more impossible to copeI'm incapable of feeling joy or happiness, the only things I feel are melancholy and despair. Even if my life weren't awful, it wouldn't matter because the only positive emotions I ever feel are when I make dumb jokes to cover up the pain. I'm utterly alone, not because no one is around, but because I can't connect to other human beings in any meaningful way. My life so far has been nothing but constant pain that ebbs and flows, sometimes it subsides but it never really goes away. If I can't get this sorted out by the time I'm (not that far away), I'm just going to end it. | suicide |
Day of posting thingsall money spent on solar installation is given back by tax rebates So basically its free, go to energysage.com and get your parents to put in the info | non-suicide |
How the fuck is it almost fucking April How the fuck did this happen. I swear it was January yesterday | non-suicide |
No money, job, or hopeI'm . I can't get the thought of killing myself out of my head. I have a few different methods, specific and certain since I have a background in chemistry/research. Fuck. I just wish I could do it. I want to do it. When I don't do it, I hate myself even more. Thoughts get less coherent after this, muddled with anger and migraines. I want to be hospitalized, but will never have money... never get another job. I can't be around people. I got fired from my last job for unable to work with others, yelling at one, because they're so goddamned irritating and idiotic. It ended with me telling my boss how fucked up everything is. Fuck him. Fuck the world. I have nothing but madness in my head and want it to stop. | suicide |
Hey! are you feeling okay? I hope you have a wonderful day/night ahead of you!! < btw NVM this extra text has just spawned to make sure the post doesnt get removed lol | non-suicide |
Our self esteem is so fucking low dude Like, whenever someone compliments our appearance or something we made, if we arent completely positive its perfect, we assume that theyre just complimenting us out of pity, or looking for that one thing that they actually like. | non-suicide |
Is this dumb?Its super dumb but has anyone ever tried to kill themselves by ingesting everything they can find? Im talking toxic stuffs like perfume, high dose of caffeine and vitamins and all the pills, pesticidal and other stuffs?? I will probably just throw up but i plan to keep going for a while and eventually drown myself or some shit | suicide |
I'm Absolutely PatheticMe on Thursday: Literally believing this would be my last day and barely being talked out of suicide by my therapist. Me Everyday Since Thursday: Hoping I die and never wake up. Being extremely disappointed when I wake up every morning. Me Today: Obsessively checking the news on the coronavirus and doomsday prepping, scared of my loved ones and I getting sick and possibly dying. Literally, what is wrong with me? It's just like pain. I only want pain when I'm the one in control of it. I only want death if I'm in control of it. I'm so fucked up in the head, it's not even funny. | suicide |
Life needs an abort mission button XDI was gonna make some long dumbass speech but none of it matters. It's all a big fucking joke. This life is a joke. | suicide |
gay people are the worst at being not gay | non-suicide |
That moment when youre household is showing Covid symptoms and your disgusting rat sister spits on you. And after shouts of she spat on me! your dad replies with shed never do that even though multiple people witnessed it, and the fact that shes done it in the past and even spat in your food. Not to mention she hasnt brushed her teeth in about two weeks,showered in a month and is definitely going to get away with this. But its ok because its her birthday tomorrow and I might as well ruin it | non-suicide |
Quitting smoking. Ok so imma log my progress over here. Here s some context: I'm an yes old guy that has been smoking for yrs and now being that I have a car and other stuff to put money in I have decided that it's time I lay off the cancer sticks. This is the second day(I wanted to pass the first day so I know I can do it, as I was a pretty heavy, one pack a day smoker) and yeah, I'm making progress, painfully but surely. | non-suicide |
If youre thinking about suicide, please read this.I may know you all came here to confess you will kill yourselves. When you believe people dont love you or care. They do, depression is one of the biggest things in our world. Suicide is not the key, but the opposite. Instead, youre basically giving up the war. Youre not winning but losing if you do it. I was always that one kid who was called a mushroom head its the large bowl cut and was excluded in everything. I thought doing stuff In order to make people like me was the key. Dont commit it. If you would like to talk, message me. | suicide |
My constant battleI have been battling suicidal tendencies since I was years old I'm now , I was recently admitted to a mental health unit and diagnosed with cyclothymia (bipolar of sorts) and PTSD as well as an undiagnosed personality disorder I have attempted suicide once years ago and considered it again last week. Since then i want to make a difference to people who suffer with this so i created s YouTube channel (link to one of my videos is here somewhere) | suicide |
Hello there My parents are shipping me(m) with my year old cousins best friend even tho I have a girlfriend....in other news on Friday I get to see my girlfriend and on December Im turning | non-suicide |
Bojack Horseman season episode \[removed\] | suicide |