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need end suffering unbearablypeople tell stay know get better guess not not know feel time committing suicide selfish cowardly not cowardly not make feel better want end honestly tried everything would make better involved living nothing worked want die need die not deserve suffer much | suicide |
something kind annoys hate call one friend one family member walk like talking say friend go friend tell name friend get mad say shit like say like supposed know like broski fucking asked friend talking not fault not want pay attention life unless chance get trouble | non-suicide |
not know keep going suicidal since started moved new country lost ability talk family mom around time father mother also separated around time started fantasizing death next half sister born started feel like burdening family hid feeling not like telling people felt type negative emotion anger sadness etc fast forward couple year prevent friend committing suicide stress event made everything unbearable started cutting relieve load worked last year stopped cutting due promise made someone trying get better stop suicidal thought told mom felt ended ranting generation f ked not feel like confirmed way feel burden not talk want die illegal attempt not work could thrown jail already attempted failed starting think hope feeling better felt hopeless tired fighting live really not want anymore | suicide |
empty husk nice meet first suicide attempt really scared mom traumatized little sister not want hurt even worse not day year not wanted end still sometimes wish not attachment could end thing easily without worry hurting others not want hurt anyone else want stop alive guess not make much sense guess life pretty good objectively people love really grateful built past constant childhood abuse year depression made husk anyway not really ambition interest not bother trying talk others besides family member live not really desire even leave house not see going anywhere future year future seen eventual suicide still believe true going college pulling alright due light course load even feel pointless useless going die soon anyway chronic illness cause lot physical pain mental problem probably tell variety issue like feel like never born anyway think coming world probably mistake somehow body mind messed seems clear would better miscarriage whatever sorry stupid post bright side though made year age without dying unthinkable year ago know long able hold thanks reading guess | suicide |
tired worry everyone else hurt much want end | suicide |
ok let u see working woah nice car got drive hahahah kidding hm headlight bright not bright searchlight paint job magnificent like god belongs art museum engine could use bit cleaning looking sooty give congratulation raccoon mechanic rated car | non-suicide |
boyfriend told gay get f chat _ | non-suicide |
one reason still aroundi recently mental breakdown two visit psychologist helped however lied friend family felt better thought ending life sometimes go away hour time however depression anxiety fear failure shame come well controlling family deep hatred uncertainty never left psychologist helped remain stable friend try help not want worry feel like used last sympathy card one reason still around fear ending life could trigger contagion people know thing thought suicide could cause someone else thing painful not mental illness trying keep together tough right | suicide |
tired tired trying anymore tired ugly tired people confirm daily basis ugly tired rejected every single time tired strung along emotionless robot tired alone tired fact never real meaningful relationship sex let alone first kiss tired seeing couple everywhere come point trigger start cutting tired knowing always alone nobody tell love tired going bed every night alone nobody cuddle tired waking every morning alone tired always failing find truly meaningful long term relationship whereas men age find easily readily absolutely problem tired useless worthless fuck tired living cutting not anymore want die reason keep going not want wake one day fifty not significant family way thing going never going find true love everything always worked favor flat rejected even getting chance ask someone date told ugly unattractive told emotion overwhelming one person even flat told looking man not boy people told catch conveniently not catch people tell always one getting friendzoned completely shoot ask tried find someone using r rr r foreveralonedating thread hijacked people felt need criticize fact simply wanted find one person share life everything could ever want life intelligent go great school ambitious way feel truly happy like minded individual share fuck right need cut blade calling not know ever courage truly | suicide |
fortnite bad right like game not even competitive anymore boring unbalanced | non-suicide |
ahh goddamnit hate weekend always stuck home not license mom go friend house every saturday like pm dad almost always hung busy weekend friend either work important friend ugh tired nothing wish could least go drive around not even guess could walk not even anything walk raining | non-suicide |
not know wrong first post heard people spread love never type vent go day day want die peacefully day angry world day not motivated not want anything sometimes energetic ready start day not bipolar not diagnosed see crucial sign doctor said could sign upcoming depression not want throw word believe lost handful people life dead still alive walk around like everything peachy numb never got chance kid young see handle grown man thing still childish kid stuff not not help feel like annoy everyone get around always quiet anxiety start act not even talk parent without slammed friend not really listen hear crazy switch topic left unheard voice pained heart outside family cousin hate family basically segregated one side not messing side something dumb help either weed seems thing keep calmed flipping finally raging sometimes not feel like upgrading something harder like cough syrup xans know turn someone mentioned maybe ever experienced tough love maybe need affectionate love not know please need know going want better place feel peace happy want know cared know cuz not advice not needed not want wanting let felt year something already lt stay blessed everyone | suicide |
getting old know going somebody comment like not even know half like everyone look young even though like remember thinking cool age definitely not | non-suicide |
plan actioni lived pretty amazing life traveled world thought thousand young people positivity influenced life others rule suicide not least got give life chance young not lot control life seem like end sight maybe decided not child stay alive matter otherwise big piece selfish as contributed enough world not anything left not girlfriend not hope change wish suicide acceptable would love say goodbye friend let much love thanking let know love without making sad feeling somehow responsible little worried mom got great husband survive waited till gave life time | suicide |
birthday today not want karma want people say happy birthday slice cake | non-suicide |
ok last night like uh gave guy handjob right like boner bone istg elastic like bone right retractable bone hard hard yk | non-suicide |
found pretty interesting elementary school oh pm got get sleep right middle school fuck need get sleep right high school shit might well try get sleep college | non-suicide |
think girlfriend father forcing leave afraid girlfriend leave turned father relationship understand age difference bigger average relationship think sex not case though whenever feel butterfly smile world stand still make feel like happiest guy alive genuinely care not want get hurt way case wondering told feel way texting eachother pretty much disappeared half hour came back sent snap hand bandaged self harm issue like month earlier swore not anymore asked happened told bit unbelievable story asked wanted lose virginity replied whenever feel ready making something not comfortable last thing want asked not ready replied know ready nowhere texted know would reason leave replied would never leave started telling would not fulfill need would need someone else told would ever want sex not point relationship | non-suicide |
rating usernames comment rating usernames comment | non-suicide |
tried kill last nighti not know tell anyone not not anything serious serious attempt heat moment type thing plus half assed since mom nearby time know tell someone freak last thing want end back psych ward also know keep risky might try sometime ah honestly betting considering attempt calling day carrying life acting like nothing ever happened even though mean might try sometime good chance tell someone eventually feel bad not sharing something serious | suicide |
feel like going insane really want iti got home walk overcome tremendous anxiety vividly imagined self jumping tall building cutting arm taking pill vivid wanted sprint away roommate could not feel pressure chest scared seems like viable option let go would not stressed would not wake sleep like could stop could stop normal college kid could stop normal would not want kill everything seems hard | suicide |
accepted suicide best option suicidal depressed since kid everything crumbling around four year tonight finally made decision die not know know probably sooner rather later let tell feel good finally done feel like lb weight lifted | suicide |
best husband sexiest husband guy ask wannabe_raccoon | non-suicide |
voice keep telling kill feel like wasted life abused family want sleep every time get wakeful nightmare trying sleep kept dreaming black spikey thing coming inside jaw dream thing awake though cut cheek started pulling black spiky thing hospital used suction thing like dentist hundred came jaw lower portion skull started disappear full thing terrified sleep another one killing someone person turned partner abuser made question sanity show much dream psychiatrist holiday nowhere go partner son today hour nearly not want wake go hospital hour away losing touch reality keep hearing kill want kill took diazepam not helping pain front skull like depression alive maybe black spikey thing inside brain | suicide |
dream florida protest mask shit bad leaking private mind efgnd f fed sxfvxsvxvwxddxwvsxf bfscbsxfbcsbscfscgb | non-suicide |
anyone history drug abuse drug abuse thing got worse not know showed told sorry abuse sorry ruining life thought getting closure thought asking help thought going try get better handed z told going go smoke crack shack dude feel like watching someone kill nothing | suicide |
want christmas everyone tell everyone else christmas wish list maybe fucking clue want suddenly get idea idea people need idea not care think idea weird say fucking christmas everybody | non-suicide |
feel guilty not know something really bad happened last night sinking feeling chest wank last night saw picture friend dead sister captioned miss think sexual thought hate tried shove head think thought feel disgusting know going read think panicking | non-suicide |
wrote somethingbeen long time since wrote something really wanted get feeling not going anything soon death mind constantly way not want cease exist thanks reading h easy whether believe not stop cease hard part baggage come death includes much involuntary emptying bowel hear tv movie dealing shit pant others deal something take lightly hell first couple year life loved one actually praised really trouble dealing ripple effect come leaving make jump calm water death water quickly heals waiting next permanent guest wave escape jump damage tsunami make landfall living friend family brother parent daughter caught guard see massive wave hurling towards hard part death hurt heartache others stem decision take game token board not pas go matter many people judge not collecting sweet hurting people never strong suit mine never hurtful comeback time could never throw punch could not pain someone purpose leaving would difficult not want hurt anyone not know keep hurting daily even upkeep loved one happiness really want enter sea death water droplet taking trace presence leaving wake hurt others around | suicide |
give random stuff google translate google translate stuff change completely give random stuff google translate completely destroy | non-suicide |
mom gave away lego yesterday bad day not n start lego given away spent thousand dollar money last year life feel empty f chat bois | non-suicide |
not even top active today today letdown one | non-suicide |
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take brother brother suicidal option go good facility two hour away not know anything one town population k quality minute away take chance go two hour seems fine take drive | suicide |
sat kitchen knife hand ready dieyesterday sat kitchen knife hand ready either slit throat slit wrist ready die not know not go maybe keep holding little sliver hope thinking someone actually care gone not want make mess burden parent clean dead son bottle pill not bring take want end want pain stop finally not feel like burden anyone antidepressant not working weed not working went antidepressant alcohol not working either really want pain stop going give psych ward chance see help afraid not going add another problem loved one | suicide |
considering suicide way money problemsi really not want go much detail title say stupid fucking idiot amassed much debt payday loan like parent not help nobody else turn not face mounting debt not pay huge arrears owe month behind rent landlord looking evict really want end not worry money feel bad parent tried much feel depressed day hardly sleep night fault stupid want end not need worry seems like good option considered reality kicked know not pay want end | suicide |
guy need help issue life recently people talk internet mean everybody nice need advice like said problem life like family school shit like not say exactly going problem dad always bad problem time fucked not even know breakfast everything going fine parent divorced go dad weekend sometimes go want asked go mum science staying day missed mother got mad said shit like want go get lazy yes bit lazy wrong missed mum called told come reason mad confused mini breakdown room packed mum came went home got worse dad call mum argue mum get pissed not say happened exactly something another man confused stressed idea everybody mad point gave gave trying impress dad good son thought trying best school home get dad mad point worst part not say much rule r teenager dad said fucking another woman reason depressed fucking idea happening deserve thing need help someone please tell please p sorry mistake not time write essay without typo also confused ask please tell not fucking live like thank reading | non-suicide |
breaking pointi depressed long remember hard not impossible find single moment feel truly happy feel inferior everyone know positive quality whatsoever finally broken away group people talking went hill sit wait whatever happens idea anyone looking honestly want nobody look going wait inevitable not future not care life anymore also may seem little place apologize formatting mobile right | suicide |
not live like anymoreseveral year ago relationship abused almost daily hid parent finally got police involved able safely leave got restraining order still went school live small town never went back finish semester stayed home processed trauma lived ptsd probably darkest time life next year worked really hard luckily got boarding school across country leaving home young hard felt like finally found somewhere safe people truly cared final year highschool covid pandemic forced u go home feel like ripped away life worked hard graduation senior play track field none milestone dreaming whole life feel relationship cherished fading away live house childhood bedroom repeatedly abused year one know long going last feel hopeless spent long learning feel okay moment thrown right back chaos started abusing drug not think anymore constantly visualizing way kill boarding school gave hope life career back home not help feel like destined another small town tragedy | suicide |
list friend | non-suicide |
preference big spoon little spoon also anyone want cuddle | non-suicide |
feel disappointed whenever wake morning like oh not taken sleep yet brutal cycle every single day would cry sleep wishing god would end suffering take sleep want painless quick death every morning wake immediately feel disappointed going another day trying get shit thinking life together clearly not want end everything pointless sense waking anymore fuck shit | suicide |
pain relative thing isi used happy person kid not really issue parent great lot friend something happened would eventually lead depression anxiety really emberrasing not get hate self giving shit depressed anxious slightly suicidal year november brain changed smoking weed got bad trip moment not person like depression anxiety morphed thought constantly think not enjoy movie listening music thing tiring long day depressed anxious felt really fucking great compared funny thing feeling probably awesome compared someone else feeling not know help anyone something think | suicide |
guy want lift healthier get girl wnt lift beat people anyone else relate ahahaha able beat biggest motivation lift | non-suicide |
th birthdayi never planned live past like diagnosed depression parent pray ignore go away type never allowed see therapist consider medication struggled bad coping mechanism year attempted year one month ago day never planned future never made plan never thought would need one wish could say want spend next year figuring want rest life honestly think wish not deal living anymore not support friend family closest thing best friend saying ever would make kill bf would pet would not would ruin everyone el life not wrong open suicidal thought not want hear not choice continue make everyone el life worse not know want not planning killing anything not know stop wishing could | suicide |
parent think lazy unable schoolwork due mental issue parent not understand problem school done well school life little kid struggling keep motivated least year well keeping grade close call feel cracking progressively worse school since eldest child parent not know take away thing like phone pc thing keeping feeling completely hopeless raise grade stop wanting kill trying hard get control fight feel like hopeless lead nowhere know parent love feel not understand everything slipping apart adding problem feel like cycle log school morning thinking going day going get missing work done going least smallest thing nudge right direction one small assignment maybe rush huge one due date keep grade fully crashing would think would help get motivated knowing finally taken step right direction parent seem think feel nothing feel type gratification towards anything feel like made progress never dad not ever see satisfactory see stopped work whether email teacher infinite campus online grade network flip dad say going take away fight end angry think perpetual fighting fest go every week make feel like never going end even adult find something fight hopelessness never end get fall deeper trap not get work done repeat worst year life mentally parent not getting along hardly ever love piece make want leave something rash want drop know screwed life counselor not talk often running option feel please help advice appreciated | non-suicide |
point many year freaking tired nothing worked | suicide |
small youtuber named kingslugma mainly pokemon let u play time stream fams le sub let u fix he also probably around age | non-suicide |
bored hi | non-suicide |
not handle anymore neet married retired spouse supporting u not want burden anymore not know want want go back college get licensed nurse certificate not think possible anymore age want learn skilled trade not neet anymore afraid laugh admission office not take seriously even worse somehow manage get degree certificate still not get job also political climate usa distressing either way slice screwed also either spouse catch rona either u good dead even possible go back college pandemic mind not handle anxiety anymore maybe better quit die maybe next life smarter life choice | suicide |
jave synthenysia wondering anyone syntenesia disorder make litteraly smell somehing hear word automatically make relate word colour picture smelling type not every word smell get new one like example hear crust smell fried chicken like time hear http en wikipedia org wiki synesthesia month ago watched vudeo syntenesia realized completely unaware people could not smell word one worst smell co cabbage poop smell one word gregoris gregory english name cabbage butterly caterpillar growing ago almost every time think word hear say smell co cabbagy smell smelled cabbage ate cabbage every morning cleaned jar smelled c poop funky cabbage smell got far thanks reading shitty superpower | non-suicide |
fear broken quite probably beyond repair huge wall text warning x post r depression posted r depression first not know place belong sorry xposting bad know beginning going massive not think way start beginning give condensed version possible ail hope hope someone say something help want say front care different psychiatrist tried myriad pharmaceutical improvement condition year saw first psychiatrist depression suicidal thought medicine not work prescribed different anti depression medicine even going course exactly described varying dosage etc result terrible respond every drug ever taken one three way absolutely effect dosage anti depressant prescribed made extremely short tempered hostile borderline violent scary completely numb might sound like reprise misery feeling emotion prison scare worse death preface story say seeked help seems pharmaceutical not answer however diagnosed repeatedly depressed disassociative personality disorder beginning admit childhood not bad grew upper middle class youngest three older sibling productive fine however not speak later parent divorced however never really issue dealing lived block away friendly helped year allowed move freely problem relatively popular elementary school trouble making friend available magnet advanced program supposedly fairly intelligent least aptitude first iq test nd grade since never scored thing struggled school behavioral issue finished class work quickly would talk get trouble interrupting student not done yet started damning trend teacher however year went found trouble often school school suspension started racking not attacking abusing anyone not bully constantly trouble not following direction like talking not supposed mentioned got trouble school became scapegoat problem near first welcomed role even taking heat people used trouble thing not however followed jr high school first report card th grade le teacher tell sorriest excuse student would ever not homework keep notebook talked class infuriated week later suspended day damaging school property window broken rd floor school teacher time vouched yet principal still suspended claimed simply stopped school work would go school every day assignment class received would simply write name date f top paper go whatever felt like far know beginning lifelong downward spiral apathy failed th grade received letter school failed meet requirement magnet program would enrolled zoned traditional program school following year day parent received call school boiled sat score high board decided something going willing give second chance th grade miserable teacher hated failed could not understand back not single piece classwork entire th grade year hated school hated class miserable first started thinking suicide parent divorced time obviously latch key child matter staying growing south gun house th grade miserable day would come home parent spend hour sitting alone room pistol unloaded pulling trigger head trying convince not scary end school year finally thought would board education parent decided learning disability required take placement test find far back needed move class kind school send took nd iq test still placement test placed college level much confusion also began seeing psychiatrist obvious everyone something wrong completed placement test required one class trigonometry classroom setting graduated year time mom started drinking heavily point step dad left point always coming home new ding car would get trashed bar drive home accepted several university full ride scholarship based sat act score year however parent refused let leave town go school young lived home started local university thought worst behind lasted le year college never gone back outcast every direction lost friend k th grade never saw not fit college young started getting depressed focus started failing class mom also started give encouraging little tidbit would drop campus every morning furious failing yet constantly would tell thing like might well not even try going fail listened quit trying quit going dropped spun downward quickly last ditch effort moved several state away live one friend left point time thing looking got good job apartment girl would head heel love year best friend girlfriend course never made known hand broke turned always liked supposedly not first girlfriend sexual partner one always wanted thing going great le month started dating christmas eve would gone home see parent sibling christmas every holiday dad collapsed took er following day christmas day diagnosed terminal cancer estimated year live died day later always hated go early life said something pretty hurtful dropped college rememberd proud something regretted saying apologized many many time day think think dad right dad died could ever anything proud unlike child failure course put heavy weight made lot friend new city supportive loving going make three month later came biggest shock life woken police door search warrant find arrested charged distributing child porn something never done life felony carrying year state level lived not town family area friend college one home phone could not call cell phone jail took week finally caught bos home found sister facebook contact mom came bail bond cash get reason anyone life insurance dad died followed demoralizing endeavor ever party not meet requirement public defender make le month attorney would not touch case big name one would one would wanted take case took every penny name mom name stepdad name get lawyer case still owe today prosecutor offered plea deal next year year year year preliminary hearing detective flat lied interview claimed said thing never told attorney brought judge refused line questioning preliminary hearing fact trial refused allow tape interview played judge prosecutor hearing launched verbal tirade mother lawyer not forgoing right pretrial hearing already decided guilt not work court sent paperwork wrong address court date nothing docket day show sent address never lived attorney not sent copy course not show court u marshal arrested job failure appear everyone not know already knew jail bond charge took week lawyer convince judge let back great shedding friend occured everyone knew charge worst friend left immediately slow trickle followed shamed seen others knew turned river could not handle flak getting people although would stuck year left comfort one friend would helping deal another year done could not fight anymore left job defaulted everything evicted court allowed move back home state month later sent letter informing process setting actual trial date police unable find corroborating evidence case dismissed nolle pro not wish pursue many year every penny name friend family brother sister stopped speaking arrest hurt made angry never tried speak since not believe thought could even possibly guilty loved dearly sat reading letter started bawling dreamed day year feeling elation would come not come nothing nothing since got job back previous employer person hire every interview get extended job fail background check arrest still show court refuse remove year passed direct quote solicitor people deserve know suspected not get away imagine see charge sexual abuse minor every conversation job dating anything end story even though not go prison innocent man life ruined work home make decent money low still mountain debt court case never went trial innocent beginnig gained lb not go outside friend drive make friend not quit smoking drinking eating shit food nothing tried hard drug tried pharmaceutical tried therapy wit end not leave house ashasmed look say every day going start exercising never always tomorrow today going quit smoking said every day last year never broken willpower motivation nothing terrified make friend not want explain past convinced taken away lost friend twice truly betrayed abandoned every person ever loved not get past something wrong not function correctly friend managed keep ordeal lost since one want talk someone always depressed lost ability pretend happy anymore not even know expect posting taken medicine done therapy read book motivational bullshit nothing helping prisoner mind tired used loving person huge heart robbed twice stopping help stranger change tire interstate given literally shirt back always try give food le fortunate even could not pay food time go die little inside every day asshole hate much hate everyone else sorry writing long post truly appreciate anyone read far whether choose comment not not know expect running option please help | suicide |
try good day todayhave good day today good thanksgiving hey everybody woke today not feeling like would good one felt bit change heart even though thing rough want let know matter hard thing special important thankful thankful woke today even though woke sick bad feeling want thankful anything not let everything else hold back tell something thankful anything even think tiniest thing world everyone else let know try everything matter life good day today tomorrow next day made everything ever stronger strong enough anything | suicide |
escape fron thismy family not believe therapy sibling think worthless nowhere go help faraway want end end | suicide |
guy happens guy mom found poop sock der bed let u hope not look closet got main poop stash | non-suicide |
suicide noteto family friend sorry could not anymore life basically hell endless cycle could not escape either went phase not know saying verge tear hated felt nothing sorry burden life sorry not perfect child sorry pain caused not deserve love anyway forget not something cry nothing failure not deserve missed made fun thank thank giving reason end life deserved way treated know everyone hated hated finally not deserve funeral not dwell remember loved still love could not take pain suffering anymore could not | suicide |
among u story online game one guy said liked blue thought joke continued play game girl decides copy u saying like black black say really say yes say snap say voting timer end couple sec later black hit button say pink girl say minor died laughing best among u game ever | non-suicide |
anyone know good game looking good game xbox | non-suicide |
love look big fat crush since march recently told feel know boy dream right trust thought anyway got crush back catch got really bad commitment issue relationship really super scare know last two people super duper toxic feel like different never ever mean purpose realize say anything mean apologise immediately even second feel like shit rest day coming house tommorow likely going kiss sex anything not expecting even want know crazy right sound pretty ambitious prepare best expect worst prepared situation anyway x super hyped not feeling also best friend nonetheless well still good time wish luck p halloween cuddled watching movie two u parent also like think hilarious think got bag hahaha | non-suicide |
yo fucking way yo literally made fucking reddit front page literally could not even dream reaching many people r thesilverclub thank much apologize making worthless internet point view sound like lottery coming small town almost people many people see something mine mind boggling | non-suicide |
ok amma honest not like thigh high sock said | non-suicide |
counselor emailed saying accidentally placed chem instead physic physic not even taught right even add sample text sample text | non-suicide |
penis possessor r teenager could detach penis would first thing would filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
good come livingpeople say life suck not problem nobody anything not anything either sick tired taking shit ridiculous mother fucking cunt not know raise child never seen person begin furthers problem need acknowledge cunt need stop take actual motherly approach child starving cook something not animal feed call food real food god european white people much better tell right arabic culture worst food ever see sour dry painfully sweet culture not existed begin importantly not born sometimes wish would hurry kill not see father lazy time u almost refuse anything productive suddenly pressured go school work hour pay monthly fee still kid not handle nobody hire not want work shit job humiliating not people pursuing education america not care good job taken mostly people connection not respect position one friend asset nothing alone world not going change time killed stopped problem already not tell think family hope fuck suffer not deserve cry problem refuse acknowledge always dream girlfriend would talk care take away happy place woman cunt look mom look every girl asked terrible people not existed people not going get life make room better people thing get hurt someone | suicide |
answer whatever bored feel free dm | non-suicide |
best place shoot head mm sufficient mouth angling temple directly chest heart best option | suicide |
lol pedos trying sext little know power embarrassing shit pedo ragnarlionheart proof | non-suicide |
not even want sleep anymorei thought holding pretty well relatively bad health bad parent heath confidently say never felt bad life want cry cry thinkiny someone nothing else make emotional like conditioned not cry since according father men cry homophobic slur afraid going wish would stop caring someone broke like year ago everyone told would take year tried realy hard change since early hit new low still love fucking pathetic man one blame since ai became really shitty person ai always complete social failure wish easy move like people not seem affected time hate dwelling mind go quickly last time felt happy quarantine brought back dark place worse ever genuinely not want even sleep shit trying distract shitty health understand people mean say feel empty dead inside not even feel like human anymore feel numb not type person anymore sit thought accept pre not lie say ai never felt worse want fight feeling heath shit hard anything physically limited whatever fjck not complaining not partner want anything sexual zero desire relationship not want someone ai know not good place one regardless even urge hate sexual stuff feel disgusting ai talk wish asexual ai would not desire part reason relationship ended aswell let sexual stuff get head andwanted often became disgusting perv realy mattered anything else man wanted clarify feel like get silently judged complaining mot partner not want exist anymore afraid death genuinely wish never born wish courage commit suicide badly zero desire continue living want forgotten want disappear | suicide |
incident truly made feel like people around not give fuck start probably hated weirdest guy class used weird thing used suck ball every subject awful sport bad socialising bullied yet still people class following instagram back everyone used post question story thought cool followed suit thing put ask anything sticker story gt response anyone lt swear tensed saw people seen story response not post question would get embarassed thankfully alt account sent generic question response stretched reasonable amount slide made realise worth | non-suicide |
really quick question ever feel like pee not want pee pee not comfy anymore bed need pee not want pee pee not comfy anymore bed need pee not want pee pee not comfy anymore bed need pee not want pee pee not comfy anymore bed need pee not want pee pee not comfy anymore bed need pee | non-suicide |
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dick nice many type size dick awesome ball | non-suicide |
planning go birthdaymy birthday another week planning either hang od never celebrated birthday supposed celebrate th ex yeah ex enough feeling alone thought wanted happiness not taste blood one care enough actually want life not close parent sibling not live u anymore friend simply people spend time not really emotional connection alone anyway semester gpa going released around time know going add list trigger lead ending petty sound never future not smart nothing live always known would end life sooner later really needed space rant thanks read | suicide |
let u rock george ringo one time | non-suicide |
parent like not ever feel rushed sex wait right girl like hell would actually like way like general | non-suicide |
syntenesia wonder anyone else syntenesia disorder make litteraly smell somehing hear word automatically make relate word colour picture smelling type not every word smell get new one like example hear crust smell fried chicken like time hear wiki synesthesia month ago watched vudeo syntenesia realized completely unaware people could not smell word one worst smell co cabbage poop smell one word gregoris gregory english name cabbage butterly caterpillar growing ago almost every time think word hear say smell co cabbagy smell smelled cabbage ate cabbage every morning cleaned jar smelled c poop funky cabbage smell got far thanks reading shitty superpower | non-suicide |
neutral feelingsanyone else feel depressed time neutral state not cry laugh even try hard | suicide |
long ambiguous rant posted close friend story posting going home strangely not help mentally strangely felt depressed lonelier confused like first night home felt overwhelming sense sadness dread self hatred not know feel way hate not feel happy anymore not know feel way awful almost like overwhelming affect everything thing make feel worst think daily basis affect decision even social life like blacs house month ago got depressed literally made feel sick literally leave felt mentally sad needed time process everything think feel like holding back feel like overwhelming shit never going overcome not let one talk not even know anymore not even know going much wanted say not think wanted say oh yeah remember something else wanted say like refer early mid march following couple month junior year depressing period life thing definitely gotten better much better gotten least felt justified feeling way back least felt okay talking friend problem back despite fact not even care reply text | non-suicide |
good scientist shit human not take anymore not seem get anyone think important valuable enough stick around really fucking hate ask every morning particularly day like born not ask early half spite problem highly successful individual already work dream job researcher pursuing phd however despite success garbage human nobody love sure good scientist matter nobody want good produce alive last straw violently abused entire childhood ptsd severe abandonment issue one ever loved developed chronic illness pain year never day good health pain since depressed since like friend online managed escape abusive household moved mile away end abusive relationship first half undergrad emotionally abusive turned physical hit raped constantly hated managed get away made friend life seemed good tried start dating well last exceeding year horrendously unsuccessful every time spend week month seeing someone think actually like breach subject not want first not bother much pattern yr make want die time also developed successful career scientific researcher dream work directly issue make people life better thanked community work good thing life work funding phd time happy everything else shit friend moved away last month pursue life stay city went school also significantly reduced friend group past summer friend friend decided would cool rape involving use weapon not want friend anymore predatory friend hurt anyone not trust enough got axed fast forward month ago met someone online immediately really clicked think little two month hung lot cuddled stuff felt emotionally close person finally found someone enjoyed around person instead trying fill void thought thing finally going well sphere last night ended conversation felt said not know looking aversion something serious right respect also not help feel despair person thought really cared not also asd make hard socialize normal yeah surprise people autism emotion feel intensely excited thought found someone cared not care weird as flaw wrong really hate alive hurt going go lawyer week set last testament ensure remaining fund go little brother help college since know fucking parent not help sorry everyone not anymore give not deal world not feel like belong every fucking day not matter successful not find someone share happiness done already plan not made plan like year thought stronger not somehow anyone reading know virtue detail sorry love not anymore sorry weak life hurt bad dealt shitty card not want play anymore want set hand want feel like feel asleep fucking time not feel agonizing pain body fucking destroying society rejecting outright wish someone would fucking kill not really know need make happen tie loose end ensure legal duck row going dead end year quit fucking quit | suicide |
someone please help rant mostly still really fucking away valentine day still currently away gf f got drunk friend back home fine plan fucking hated start dress ex make power point sucked gfs manipulative ex made shit really uncomfortable going fine getting funny drunk snap one friend start talking rice purity test found score mostly jackass ex found fucking not know something nature may like fucking not matter really texted goodnight not really spoken since asked something wrong said tired really not know know stupid problem really messing head not really said much ex hate gut totally fine right really wish not find way spoken | non-suicide |
may may not almost attemptedi sorry little much lmao going try get help next morning not know also sorry wrong subreddit post tried take stuff try overdose took little bit stopped sec throat hurting realised ii not know consumed enough symptom felt neaseus sorry lol immediatly still stomach feel weird feeling hot throat still kind burned feeling not know need call poison control immedialty wait tomorrow family awake take currently morning know behavior not normal realised much not want die got lot project school also end year stuff not want annoy parent interrupting sorry english not first language also scared going scared tell tomorrow think might stuff poisoning not know count suicide attempt think ready get help probably need yay | suicide |
stuck attempted suicide many time already last one week ago serious far excuse cerebral palsy alone rejection family living arrangement dissolved not know go stuck definitely know feel near future try soon | suicide |
rose red violet not found end portal let u kill thot | non-suicide |
done lifemy boyfriend dead day ago done not take anymore loved much gone done life | suicide |
random skill randomly mine drawing learning new piano favorite song writing story roleplaying researching random stuff learning psychology | non-suicide |
spanish waste time not something required graduate not know guy school mine spanish elective required graduate not understand also not understand even need multilagual misunderstanding school alot fucked rule needing multilagual spanish hard lmfao | non-suicide |
rose red violet blue f ck poetry want | non-suicide |
hi hope wonderful hour not yes totally not lizard thing | non-suicide |
always scared kill want make mind sorry come generic thought many time completely loathe gay hanging friend family suddenly realize not straight normal painfully sting whole body parent loved hope pay back worked hard get good education church thing turn love parent not trust frustration suffering realized human want accepted crave love parent peer need miss time would wake bad dream noon mom would ask soft motherly voice oh wrong okay well not like born hated shit not choose not like gay stereotype either life might pain nostalgic deep curiosity universe child used look moon half hour never get tired would often wonder beyond saturn ring made fun life sex hormone came play noticed addicted porn quitted realized actually longing intimacy naturally philosophical curious always always well worth experience brief moment consciousness existence die not feel hated others not aware exist ever existed would nice cease exist not ever come existence ever guess gtg duty call | suicide |
push ups homework assignment accomplish noodle arm | non-suicide |
life much handlei not handel stress really not people handle life amazed already done get stressed every little thing nothing go well life tired life like everything worry happens not become person thought would really sad death keep falling failing failing seem not prevent failing crazy lost control everything painful problem not seem know fix thing | suicide |
better make pfp make snoo leave like | non-suicide |
anyone else go bike ride get away parent bullshit | non-suicide |
quantum theory proved dick many people say fake could observe something change dr dick explain think like trying show flaccid dick female mere act observation make go hard changing state woman may claim flaccid dick not exist even though thank coming ted talk | non-suicide |
not sure thinki never thought would submitting post long story short wife getting divorce little kid one infant month old one year old love kid dearly even made bad call certain topic want file divorce thing not want live without not even know idea growing house going back forth every week weekend seeing mom getting bf dad getting gf not able see milestone killing thinking maybe one parent picture might easiest instead blaming u absence proper family around house would not mind taking blame weak link family took easy way easier mom make decision court system tends side mom come custody not get wrong best environment child matter thought make harder breathe goodbye letter written hidden somewhere away not worried taking worried idea leaving bigger mess mg kid deal fucking lost every way | suicide |
want endi not care anyone sad eventually get eventually forget one seems understand always tell suicide permanent solution temporary problem sometimes problem not fucking temporary solution life pain seemingly endless suffering not going wait fucking year end know going someday one day finally courage end | suicide |
wonder collegejust got told college denied progression onto second year due fact mark threshold needed pas even though scored passing grade percent overall even lecturer falsely listed absent module repliesto email sent college grant source income rent food guess become homeless hang bathroom flippin fairly one sided coin | suicide |
tired lifei feel almost like brought world mediocre failure tired needle struggle face seem beyond unfair compared everyone else mean day okay day hard get though felt like maybe writing hope maybe make thing little better sorry long read ahead tl dr ugly bi religious community broke hiv positive zero job prospect backstory grew conservative religious upper middle income family starter almost not well look department mean growing not really affect look not really matter got go university another country look stare really got honestly thing really started going downhill went university relatively young really started realize bi head heel good friend mine guy look could never get nerve tell feel treated differently friend even today text want let another country girlfriend even though suspect also bi never really got closure end still really bother not move left university got touch girl liked high school also finishing university heading home first true love could not wait see basically profess love month leading return ended getting pricked needle contracting hiv luck right death bed sadly last time remember legitimately happy happy going end pain suffering somehow got better medication confirmed never loved depressed really long time threw work get mind thing ended getting crappy job absolutely hated threw depression back focus time could not even hide people would notice pulling away not even care decided quit job try start company possibly something would make happy found partner started software development company say failing abysmally partner never around not really care anymore end work almost year made sale even though given working tirelessly every day failed not stand fact go parent tell failed lead getting crappy job depression kicking live third world country software development not valued unlike rest bloody world zero job prospect would not mind leaving pursue post graduate degree somewhere world afraid leave stop taking medication die foreign land depression not even know get medication would accept hiv status honestly researching depressing not understand done deserve kind life honestly see ending one way may not today may not tomorrow know one day snap end miserable existence mine | suicide |
day ago discovered friend took life hi not typical original poster subreddit felt thought might worth sharing started university honour meeting dear friend kratoz actually one introduced reddit funny story started calling saying want free drink tonight ended jager bomb alexis madison toronto kratoz changed life life many others positivity encouraged think viewpoint rationally set admiral goal would give thoughtful gift advice would recommend movie book extensive research would perfect grammar primed conversation told parent gay would even lend van friend needed point van established twitter account open depression one close even reached subreddit something battled absolute courage always looked one day not heard one went house room found taken life gross upon finding friend like god pressed play life everything way supposed called dealt police told close friend not boyfriend mentor university former bos countless others house became place mourning filled people staying two night row filled flower photograph tiny sandwich platter lot love people not kratozs extended family people touched kratoz activity school life people admired respected loved debated taught today left missing smile charm witty banter hardest moment supporting mother father sure felt helpless throughout year watching son fight battle feel really close reminded kratoz talk person squint eye hard enough two standing next see reminds kratoz say essentially not give use every ounce self control make healthy life decision improve condition may seem insurmountable hey seemed traveling moon might not see feel time much compassion contained one around bet kratoz would thought people would mourning death not think realized service held narwhal kratoz liked word going use | suicide |
asked help one deadi died | suicide |