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today september th world suicide prevention day wish inspirational message go along wanted let everyone know | suicide |
hi want die name heather really hate pretty damn drunk want die not know maybe overdosing something would fuck liver trans seems like everyone hate besides trans people miserable want better therapy thursday first appointment psychiatrist wednesday want either dead happy hate much need companionship affection love attention blah blah blah blah heard failure one never proud problem friend sick hence public thread main account haha fucking miserable someone please help drunk want overdose want die life hard update morning sober safe thank everyone helped last night going best stay strong see mental health professional | suicide |
told best friend suicidal thought kind accident not mean cat bag anyway asked honest asked thought thought actually ended lying saying not thought feel bad not want worry even asked tell therapist never spoken scared not want hospitalised also afford three therapy session not know point coming forward point feel like might mention therapy today downplay bit not think danger currently not actively planning anything would not people love sad worried friend not want lie talked therapy without actually | suicide |
laptop screen repaired feel good knew scared done year old cost lot | non-suicide |
tldr feeling due election _ gt lt | non-suicide |
asked crush said happy happy ball ask | non-suicide |
caring liepeople always say many people care someone love lie one really care long would friend remember part group maybe week would not even able recognize face many tear would mother really cry telling brother always listen voice inside head today dinner talked yell telling fault yes fault everything chose like not understand mother would feel realized failed support find lifeless bed monday morning would feel handing last note father truth would disappear memory day nothing would change around house maybe would haunt every like problem constantly haunt | suicide |
shitty photoshop future wondering anyone interested shitty idea materialized | non-suicide |
made really big mistake recently almost killed yesterday still hurt badly oh god | suicide |
know tree mass exstinction almost everything ocean screw tree homies hate tree | non-suicide |
bad moodhooked ex girlfriend recently felt like reconnected later found friend not really looking anything serious like friend good time not looking pursue unfortunately event got thinking lot kind hung hung tonight social setting tried cool everything made think much liked ended going get drink year old scumbag dude really badly uh not know else put | suicide |
posting get first kiss day one friend leaving country friend give surprise party gift wish luck guy hope find gift buy today | non-suicide |
award r dum award r dum cost mony r dum | non-suicide |
really solution suicide mei asked reddit multiple time improve life whenever read advice want die curiosity go away slouch get emotional much not want hurt take energy awkwardness feeling uncomfortable not talk people anxiety lack topic lack experience introvert hate talking drain energy lazy never pay attention school never make homework not understand anything taught not focus learn slow stupid school make u presentation always cry day not want hate self come home hobby tired hate setting tired life friend real life not want hate cringe every time think friend cringe think intimacy even though crave make uncomfortable hate face feel wrong one share view hurt alone often bitter angry frustrated people one understands hate family live double life hate much love nothing hate body hate much tired height face people not care extremely uncomfortable attention part still want difference lot people not feel deserving help not feel entitled not earn leach liability burden pollution animal slaughtered feed someone not even want alive want die badly sometimes wonder eliminated insecurity problem realize nothing goal not want anything really maybe goal die dream mine happens little different straight forward going die anyway life meaningless not worked year enjoy life die early natural death like car crash something middle process working would spent whole life suffering anger depression loneliness insecurity anxiety boredom pain | suicide |
feel like emotional pain threshold low something inside missing long time fucking depression make feel empty earlier today feeling like excess energy course wasted sometimes feel tired living like want fast forward get stop existing get easily overwhelmed emotion know probably feel better tomorrow right feeling vaguely panicked like want cry not cough tear fear someday may become overwhelmed lose grip reality hurt needed vent | suicide |
cat suicide prevention tool lt pet could change lifei read article metro today thought true cat not therapy cat honest surprised anyone managed train cat actual purpose reason today adopted low period despite people telling not right time say people know best needed something love trust instinct reason get bed morning reason go work go sleep wake cried fur thousand time soak tear tell little baby always look making promise know could not bear thought leaving alone simply room consider suicide life time adopt animal know pass hit hard long something furry life give love tether world sometimes might think want die mostly know not want die purring ball fur reminds every day not quit keep going position get cat would recommend thing | suicide |
non video game character would want smash bros filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
life worth living | suicide |
well online friend suicidal thought long distance friendship adelia going riskwell life probaly risk due parent abuse dealing ptsd suicidal thought brother tainted toothbrush last month cleaning pubic hair semen urine loogies mouldy mucousy toilet musty bathtub millionth time left fucking toenail toothbrush brother know wonder one constantly disrespect insult jer leaving mess jerto clean worst telling cleaning woman job mean fuck brother held instead treat like crap parent family toxic asshole anger issue behave like psycho behavior mental brokedown view caused kick back lesbian not want date men slave treat time year emotional verbal mental abuse consider lucky rarely physical constant night terror ex best friend abused punching making trauma suffering headache ex best friend adelia lot deal life crisis right thing become drama brother yelled yelled back brother nmother yelled called selfish retard cry room hour nmother behavior nmother nstepfather familyare watching fuck screw making adelia suffer like treating like crap hope guy died fire maybe shooting mass murder wish mother step father never give birth family sent prison brother disgusting treat nothing big sister give candy clothes give bath give food become act like step father treating away step father yelling like hope guy ending get beating guy homeless little shit savannah watching screw little slut beat trauming rest life adelia deal life crisis social worker right bitch cunt boyfriend end get respect get fired job everybody say cheating boyfriend men threesome men school ex classmate blame death get support family friend well sure hope adelia not kill man failed make ines verdasca staying school left tomar finish study fault not make ines verdasca cheer | suicide |
give dream job making suicidali pretty much realized chance able make living favorite thing dam near impossible graduated high school sense working extremely hard passion seems like give guess destined work whole life not anything wrong not wanted dream buying parent house paying brother college tuition seeing happy proud gone not go college could time work quality life going terrible loser people would say not give reality knocking door pretty much time grow really hurt point seriously considering suicide numb tired not want living even live pretty much know not going satisfied anything else oh well depressed feel physically ill decided post see anyone could relate | suicide |
many time would wanted end not sorry not belong many time would feel like killing not able mum not seem think lonely cry right not care happens something happen kill would not even care not even know alive probably living sake others guess not know | suicide |
panickingcurrently anxious hell thinking lot thing not not want panic attack one reach right hard calm prevent one happening please someone talk feel like pile shit come much nothing else life | suicide |
watched sunset haybale today always like go run sunset look good today ran like mile cu sunset good sat haybale watched became dark feeling relaxed | non-suicide |
ate chicken thought smelt kind funny feel ill kssbvwhwscsjjwkqhajavavssgxuixsbshsbsbshsbsbsbzbbzbbzbzzbbzbzbshjajiajajjhdhejxsbsnbds bshjsdnsjssvshsbdisjg gsuwshsjs jssowhslsjsjshs | non-suicide |
need start taking med frfr starting delusion self aware good still | non-suicide |
late day posting random shit girlfriend procrastinated extent actually slept posting least nearly k karma | non-suicide |
not km bad not guess not got good equipment courage jump building well faster way without gun tell not not tell going say sucide bad get attention | non-suicide |
deserve suicidal tired people acting like life great not feel way fucking virgin never loved barely friend social experience nothing life anyone else would want fact virgin wrong never wanted sign inherently unlovable person put position would want kill tired people calling mental illness depression circumstance life emotion want end circumstance permanently every right fuck every self righteous asshole tried help | suicide |
feeling worthlessi sad mad ashamed scared | suicide |
meaty ogre yes wear sock r ihadastrock yes yes award thank much coming seminar | non-suicide |
little late mtf transgender year old recently started transitioning severe depression overweight drowning unpaid debt never look feel way desire never reclaim lost youth grow older uglier miserable point | suicide |
shy girl ever flirt like shy girl talking two month never flirt call cute anything probably say ask | non-suicide |
going road hour straight advice survive going get new boa across country couple week gon take hour drive back home not counting stop excited getting lil piccolo not much trip tip survive | non-suicide |
not know doi live toronto beautiful wife month pregnant miracle tried year without success loving family friend think driving eye closed traffic research way make suicide look like accident natural cause time problem financial mental health fear not much longer | suicide |
life hack legit buy cocaine need test mix vinegar turn volcano baking soda not wasted drug either way good thing drug bad volcano good | non-suicide |
hi friend heyy sid physic space nerd not lot friend uh care one | non-suicide |
found funniest thing existence literally died laughing not rickrole konodioda stick bug anything not dumb | non-suicide |
not really think care gender anymore honestly long human think capable romantically loved like personality biggest thing would happy spend rest life man great personality woman anyone think might questioning right would not know lol think | non-suicide |
another rejection letteri not know many resume sent keep getting rejection letter mortgage past due food house collection agency calling not afford medication depression anxiety stressed excoriation disorder skin picking trichotillomania control look like hamburger embarrassed go interview not find job friday plan end | suicide |
made test game unity bored decided make something unity made c go surf type game may really shitty probably made like two hour effort three brain cell put yeah link | non-suicide |
sick alone nothing motivation anything never loved people treat like shit bullied middle school ignored high school heck ignored even online people make fun usually talk someone get ignored fuck even bother not first time completely alone life wish person best friend come back know impossible suffering sometimes think destiny alone suffer mind foggy depression want love care receive pain suffering suffering became another person worse person not know quality strength anymore everyone belongs someone friend loved etc not belonging anywhere alone never loved feel like trash hate parent much always manage somehow make feel like shit came point longer deal depression loneliness longer keep everything suffer alone tried kill yesterday not deal anymore point sure end suicide day week month year sure reason live asked good friend love care much ask | suicide |
find boyfriend live besides school kind concerned honest really want prom date | non-suicide |
attract boy boy skinny lift shirt bit around boy want attract | non-suicide |
done fucking sick fucking tired nobody understand nobody listens nobody relates nobody hears though stuck cycle nothing change always blamed problem victim cruel world nothing alright not change single hate phrase seen ton recently mainly not directed although seen directed people multiple time day think never use phrase get thing wrong order not born angry frustrated socially awkward molded decade bullying rejection ostracization abuse not choose feel angry fact remember angry first year used incredibly easy going person people dog certain amount behavior learn others mad awkward depressed whichever trait want pin fa damn sure not always tl dr loneliness precedes anger bitterness resentment assumes online anonymous account way reflection reality mean hahaha serious course not child acting like child not stepped outside world maybe child not keep thought entirely not filter cheap way winning argument provoke say well response single great job score point whoohoo literally outcome expect say gosh right fact not enjoy stranger lying telling story making shit single might wrong fuck relationshipus god getting relationship know wrong know absolutely psychotic people got married casual sexual encounter people sometimes get angry kill spouse kitchen knife spouse meaning got married hitler married bullshit anger bitterness resentment fact considered attractive many woman guy question hot attitude not matter fuck fuck attractiveness not attitude personality brought attention not fact true many woman put positive spin abusive partner bad trait true speaking scientific psychological sociological standpoint implies not every woman perfect sincerely apologize invite one felt personally victimized hurt post come house kick ball repeat mantra like know woman never make mistake hope apology part end sexist minimize wage gap erase rape united state truly changeistheway would come peace taught child young age ok ugly ok male virgin society act like good looking men woman achieved thing make successful part life always feel like loser even though deep not fault not choose ugly short people act like everything control done nobody understands nobody hears though keep telling not need wanted happy shoe would not last day tell not make happy make dumb assumption like not shower probably obese get house realize pretentious insulting everything try physically appealing woman nobody choice though | suicide |
quarantine really long quarantine started not even met anthro husky gf going marry wow started time around march th met march th almost quarantine | non-suicide |
birthday post let u go minute writing till change user flair go number let u fuckin go | non-suicide |
debate class activity trust mean people trust friend wrote one question said person disability marked audacity p diagnosed disability ever | non-suicide |
trans fucking hard want not transition not not transition never pas spend life mocked cast non passing trans person ever welcome society not without punching bag life joke noone take u seriously still begging death well ten year yet still breath perception time supposed speed get older yet every day slug parent aborted cruel psychopathic monster bring world despised mocked suffer lifetime distress sorry wanted rant guess hormone long | suicide |
searching people online day need online friend not online friend like not know dnd anime game pretty standard stuff | non-suicide |
hate people think anyone iphone rich yes use iphone rich | non-suicide |
need helphi depressed human chronic pain hate waking every day hate job work mother law husband medical billing home work hard despite constant pain get bring dog work everyday literally reason still job feel like underpaid unappreciated want leave job husband say would quit job quit feel stuck would rather unappreciated someone not family member stay know not bring dog work anywhere else want fucking die not dog reason stay alive got almost year ago wanted die day every day hated everything make life better working husband hard though not take initiative learn business like go home play video game usually go sleep together time quality time feel like not make anywhere else due fibromyalgia ra pain much want end | suicide |
back last time posted curious death thinking suicide even though everything life good well everything not good love life spent five half year recently told not love anymore not happy always really good telling feeling tell got really really good pretending happy fool since trouble keeping work bill fallen behind noticing friend entirely selfish help many friend one ever really knew though trying friend trying talk every moment start feel worse worse short term goal would like see finishing novel perhaps sequel beyond see reason keep going believe george eastman inventor roll film ending life gunshot left note saying work done wait lost trust people lost part since could not see unhappy anything stop longer see future since planned mostly need something anything third want die convince otherwise may start gaining ground | suicide |
not keep fightingi know get drowned another sad excuse human people read forget honestly tired trying convince people around not lying say loved anxiety depression since think started verbally abused think earliest saw record thinking death aspergers shy awkward friend kid outside family one grew ditched lot mom kept homeschooled th grade nowhere go sometimes would not leave house week devout catholic time self hatred something thought good thought humility breaking pride desperately wanted go martyr missionary wanted go straight heaven stop hurting thought developing body horrible told first got boob could never anything trophy wife girl parent divorced baby flew lot groped tsa every time even one person jam hand painfully like karate chop leaving afraid fly unless small airport gained huge amount weight developed eating disorder ate stop hurting small bone adult kid lb ten not get brain shut everything feel great agnostic people often tell attractive people ask program actually missing actress singer hope pursue full time wonderful friend group wonderful boyfriend someone kind accepting terrified lose friend boyfriend get bored leave people lie say kind thing get nowhere dream want stop hurting tired afraid want go next life maybe could really happy sorry long text anyone made far | suicide |
think ready leave done world done people people cruel not give shit unless need something want something hope end life december th birthday doubt scared pain | suicide |
scrible join | non-suicide |
moment time fellow redditors many month struggling severe depression suicidal thought initially felt though blowing small thing proportion failing see bigger picture tend kind person internalizes problem not really talk serious issue anyone else not really sure would accomplish making post guess cry help feel like best day behind not really anything positive provide society feel useless potential saw dissipated feel like burden everyone around facade put normal much bear forgive not completely sober right mind rushing numerous thought thing keeping following act suicide mess would leave family friend best slowly cut tie alienate hope would lessen aftermath last act conscious spent month year abusing drug alleviate feeling hopelessness even losing effectiveness read lot self help stuff regarding issue although provides temporary assurance value life not take long disappear reality set clue accomplish cathartic write thank time | suicide |
people like not post image bro sin eye lord penis esv yahweh elohim said cockathiah thou shalt not posteth image gif meme r teenager sin eye lord cockethiah go forth village repeat yahweh elohim said unto rejoice received word lord endith lesson amen | non-suicide |
life feel utterly meaningless fruitless lost energyi spend every day exhausted physical emotional pain not feel well never always feeling sick unhealthy hate job burning passion every person work save maybe one asshole pile stupid bullshit constantly everyone treat company scapegoat whenever stack fall something well outside job description not absolutely perfect hired one thing made errand boy instead not even take sick day without piling work bitching little thing think fucking job ever people awful devoid humanity worked fucking as still not good enough kind want fire not know would unfortunately job available stuck looking work mostly unemployed barren city sell car longer travel outside city work ugly fuck transgender boot nobody want fucking look around not figure supposed fucking go hormone treatment sporadically one minute feeling fine thing next regretting ever starting idea even walking street anymore disgusting absolutely energy go anywhere anything not bought grocery month going store seems like much effort expense real return stupid end ordering meal delivery finally forcing convenience store sandwich absolutely nothing interest surprise anymore everything look dull feel boring motivation anything play video game habit kill time not even like anymore otherwise end watching movie best make feel like shit remind time not useless piece fuck relationship ever abusive way another not attract healthy people life time occasion someone find attracted enough even respond anything may say even people seek appear completely uninterested talking initiating conversation sleep apnea treatment keep ever getting real sleep not remember last time woke feeling like rest sense basic shit like even fashion seem incapable finding clothing hair cut fit make look even remotely good anything end buying seems fall apart within week matter well take care shit everything seems fucking fall apart despite best effort worked as put college got useless degree school used extort money constantly changing graduation requirement pushing back graduating way fucking late little show massive debt feel disgust hatred people thing anymore try reconnect world greeted government committing travesty world making place even impossible place live happy get angry stupid thing easily broken several item value blind rage hate people hate hate hate feeling hate looking like want fucking stop every day feel worse life appears downward slope since birth nothing ever fucking gone right nothing life ever normal never real family never real friend always target abuse hatred constantly taken advantage never got girl never went prom never went dance never life nothing ever work everything fails feel like slightly mobile vegetable life support waiting someone pull plug thought writing would help honestly making want fucking shit right pussy guess problem tl dr even well fuck guess not easy quick read case mother fucker want tell suicidal people great life feel like good deed day | suicide |
reddit option sort oldest post like seriously ngl would not interested seeing teen posted reddit | non-suicide |
self isolation live britain school opened couple week later school closed mine not sudden one student year got tested positive covid day later assembly get called year student every student cramped space tell u could told u class take insecure place school hell lunch break one got eat food self isolate idea online class going work thanks reading shit school | non-suicide |
failedi stepped took noose neck not sure else say really feel like failed | suicide |
go mile also eating somewhat healthy hope pay | non-suicide |
farewell think might remember last night made post saying going attempt suicide night posted afterwards survived well counted chicken early postpone tonight promptly deleted thread next hour attempting suicide thought point finish note mean end everything feel free today long time knowing finally rest kind ironic not feeling alive recent memory got mean stop alive anyway would like thank wonderful people mod page supportive wonderful thing community never bad experience certain without sw probably would attempted sooner short time appreciate kind word help guy know unfortunately kind word not enough keep around anymore survive respond update not well know hope make trouble live happy life lazy selfish fix problem deserve happy later lad ladettes good one | suicide |
turning phone time grind homework require assistance life not able reach hopefully next hour ap history work yes sit start two hour ago done absolutely nothing thanks asking | non-suicide |
not know karma keep switching something anyone know | non-suicide |
hate holiday seasonfor past year tried killing holiday season brother visiting family member would walk right kicked chair half slit wrist clinically depressed since year old growing jw made school life terrible always bullied singled humiliation hated everyone passion unfair not friend weird religion kid hurt much remember teacher pulling circle kid formed pick took empty classroom calm cry chilly winter night tried hanging unfortunately parent nosey sight year old son hanging ceiling scarred life sent er institutionalized week middle school came along bullying continued abandoned cult still picked thing would get stolen locker teacher not care enough help needed felt alone everyday go school classwork get picked go home cry got alone come prideful family would belittled everytime showed emotion expected men family stoic not would pushed around father mother person life accepted cried much pain would always go way defend help needed help always held hand wanted end made feel safe comfortable life like take everything chilly new year day died horribly painful death brain hemmorage hospitalized fatal stage leukemia breast cancer left alone world night tried jumping roof hospital failed security grabbed could make leap institutionalized week age high school finally made couple friend defended little bullying around junior year said fuck left behind depressing said holding back needed get grip devastated back old routine go school get bullied petty shit come home met girl used friend around year old amazing cute happy friendly connected month talking began going happy love world life not like play fair halfway senior year around christmas break found cheating many different guy could not believe gave everything could faith trust put shattered heart million piece word not describe much fucking pain felt night heart physically hurt could not breathe wanted pain stop please want fucking end night tried slitting wrist warm bath brother walked halfway one arm rushed er got stitch institutionalized week age tried killing always failed family would walk right moment pull want end fast forward month ago old friend ex started talking asking old friend course something happened u spark sort connected deep emotional level depressed understood well understood fell love span month talked everyday hour end would take midnight drive fall love life plan life parent get treated like kid albeit year old parent read text sex position try next time chance deed parent outraged huge marriage sex kept relationship secret made break cut completely blocked everywhere basically house arrest told come live adamantly refused parent apparently told continues would dead would never part family chose promised would never let go circumstance said everything would choose cold family day week hurt much accepting lied not take seriously like ex put complete faith trust hardest thing used not trusting anyone avoid hurt gave love support trust tossed aside like piece trash hurt fucking much man wanted happy made happy alone suffering agonizing depression strong end brings u present day job working retail meaningless bland feel pain suffering kid teen day sadness hate anger loneliness still much pain agony not show fear disowned prideful family therapy medication not help fact made feel like shit medication flared suicidal tendency want end badly way stop feeling pain getting close christmas going make sure time get right love mom | suicide |
fucking tiredi want give bad | suicide |
coward looking way lowest miss ex trouble family keep stuffing work school not anything stuff get happy people support get high happy get lower not know see suicide option think ex not sleep see cry hear voice time barely breath drink many energy drink not tell family think overreacting end death give surrender life win take coward looking easy way | suicide |
start not even know correct sub posting late night parent yelling community found first start thing not one question choosing life death year old brother refer quinn not know thing went wrong privileged life excelled sport garnered plenty friend year far toy gadget damn fidget spinner ever maturing year recently left private school bubble returned local junior high round th grade year obviously brought hardship losing connection companion back previous school led action tonight not know state texas year old not legally drive tonight parent away birthday mother day dinner charge watching quinn year old sister occupied pile homework knew would take time evening meanwhile invited quinn play minecraft maybe even watch play overwatch p thing know make happy provide escape irregular suicidal thought week bedsheets tied noose hanging fan instead said thanks told going watch youtube room hour went near midnight knew parent dinner date would wrapping soon queue heard garage door opening except time loud bang shook house opened door see mom brand new audi convertible wrecked side garage look shock quinn face driver seat taken car downtown hang friend per word caught role model brother sometimes failure feel like missed mark not know communicate word encouragement give sarcastic asshole redditor nature personality way comprehending taking life never concept head brother continues spiral path | suicide |
bored right trying balance pillow nose obviously not work still | non-suicide |
waiting death lot shit mention right not know anymore want stop feeling not want die not want live either never thought suicide option not cope anymore like nightmare not wake every single day breaking stuff hating life hating alone nothing changing year literally one parent judging hating complaining every day one care literally one want everything stop suiciding way not know death happens end right ever happy feel going happen | suicide |
say want dick leg shake yeah idrk meant reply hey move | non-suicide |
always one thing beyond issue thing going including mildly want life even stressed take hour maybe part time gig help mom need like k else loses everything like everything loses house everything debt already remains even past losing everything said mildly worried worth dead alive great life insurance policy half million dollar suicide clause life not know whether help way money way back hometown without spending round trip greyhound gas car fuck student not know much really help already fucking fasting meal prepping lose weight save ton money area cut back pay internet cheapest phone plan already cheapest room could find not know not want lose way life childhood home not want lose way trying rock provider helper someone give perspective maybe guidance although want life also hope everyone would fine without clearly not case lost everything afraid would give | suicide |
feel like option since college partied slacked freshman year try raise gpa taking hard chemistry course sophomore year gpa still shy mark need receive scholarship already debt private loan course action take summer course receive raise gpa yesterday due date first discussion finished typing minute late open hour work day professor said excuse gave point impossible get another not take anymore loan play football coach constantly disappointed make sure know tried talking professor make exception not academic advisor say late register another course today contemplating suicide not poverty rest life | suicide |
not everyone hear next time rickrolled remember pull uno reverse card way win amp avoid rick rolled lesson learned | non-suicide |
pure sadness rickrolled best friend caught reaction youtube lmfao | non-suicide |
tired everythingthings stagnating not anyone want around people blatantly lie not true not really needed anything anyway not think anyone going notice stopped nasty living habit tired getting every morning deal shit get result keep failing happy think today might last day going motion not need comment try stopping not like anyone going care miss wanted tell someone feel | suicide |
day think since put belt noose still not taken not even left room anything one meal day week need end fuck miserable lazy piece shit need die fuckk not know not live longer like fucking loneliness crippling fuck not live not kill everythin ready get noose kick chair not dumb shit last time tried hang life getting worse | suicide |
joes somewhat daily thought none friend college campus really not lot | non-suicide |
want give upi not think strong enough anymore lost everything year break not know anymore | suicide |
not wait deadi not wait one day not exist anymore not wait free spirit living among universe eternity maybe happen maybe cease exist not know not wait | suicide |
point even living often see people talking loneliness honestly say loneliness not something even vaguely familiar spent entire life avoiding human race much possibly everything human profoundly disgust not interested emotion friendship sex relationship anything sort real feeling emotion take pleasure absolutely nothing not stand around people not stand world live diagnosed numerous mental disorder clinical depression age mean never able change bother alive know never going get anything life recently reached point seek career become mindless drone whose value society measured money hardly think anything soulless depressing unfortunately not bring commit suicide either ironically would probably easier kind group suicide would make selfish coward would not not mention not gut thing anyways simply trapped option available everything seems pointless meaningless empty distraction created human even bother | suicide |
something wrong teacher research history class one link help u wikipedia page worried | non-suicide |
still suicidal recently realized not not think sister could handle not think mother could handle not think friend could handle everyone else would fine not comforting think grief saved praying bad car crash freak accident want get better not know get last two year life let everything go shit not planning around much longer anyway made huge mess not know climb back lost sense not anything not even sit read without getting distracted not feel real feel like human always walking around hazy eyed feel weak dumb school worse raped party never told anyone roommate found covered blood fucked pill cue er visit depression ptsd stayed school came really close failing eventually given year long academic suspension fucking bad not motivation anything used draw anxiety bad even try never good anyway dad killed dream really young come normal maybe shy person yet literally one friend go packed bar try meet people usually end circle people around bouncer give pity shoulder shrug one give fuck next though going sleep rest life | suicide |
hour relax music | non-suicide |
suicidal single mom fucking sucksim back dark hole keep ending hate hate want die not could not son would feel bad general make absolutely not bring love much entire reason living people say live whole life ahead not even care not think cut life weak emotional soft world keep taking son father back love much well happiness always leaf get worn emotional invalidation leave one left hurting know stupid repeating cycle make feel worthless self loathing god damn want family back together always okay though matter hard try much give nothing worth looking back make feel like unlovable like never enough lonely loving friend not even feel deserve attempt comfort nearly nothing given dating nobody feel good ex thing good tired lying saying moved always end dating somebody realizing want ex breaking heart not want keep people not met anybody really interested two year anyways would like include not constant obsession loneliness actually introvert hobby dream goal future try hard take care keep hole keep falling every time end back make feel helpless like ever strong like everyone else hard keep serotonin depleted couple year since felt low thought past thought figure better even going school psychology want help people like find healthy non prescription alternative better state mind back question even good enough anybody read thank guess needed place get people might understand like feel like slave depression want feel like control emotion | suicide |
started distance soondeactivated social medium account stopped reaching friend not talking family much hurt soften blow | suicide |
not want die preventing living went swimming today hope maybe maybe would time would break obviously not lack coordination poor fitness never wished away basically last thing need apply dream job straight face always quitting month time suck much thing keeping alive destroyed none massive fuckup | suicide |
difference way parent treat not fair thought would get treated like older | non-suicide |
honestly going cry told dad think bike could fixed like would pay everything would fix like know need need get license college campus talking biking take older sister car go practice honestly sad failed first time took permit expired not ready yet | non-suicide |
result survey go together response q joe mama good one q funny please joe mama good one response yes q cute not like well thank not aware q minecraft not know talking never posted anything minecraft related response q stole wife not remember whose wife q not steal wife moron not know talking | non-suicide |
really need friend right not friend moved thing acquaintance rude inconsiderate think work home something different every day none leader know going missed opportunity long time ever position practically made not not promoted not know position finally opened escape world warcraft run great guild split people thought friend left join half without without saying anything sure left alt never play toon thing like sew play ukulele nothing sew not bring play music feel abandoned confused not escape relax collect thought not really need advice friend someone listen rather trying compare terrible life mine not raped lost family suicide divorce text book pity story really sad lonely need friend right | suicide |
annoy someone make feel like shit thing ignores thing heard first time tf ignore | non-suicide |
care youi actually really fucking give fuck every single person sub really read post cry hate many people feel like wish could help one deserves get point wanting take life really hope find live happy life loving family many pet want whatever make happy please keep trying | suicide |
kind admissioni hung closet using belt last night time right moment would start get dark ring vision would restart process figured position needed let hang could feel losing consciousness stopped realized not written letter sat got caught answering message best friend sit mope loving going try talk friend today asked early morning would free told considering asking therapist put hospital something joy feel weighed physically mentally not see far end day time lost ability think forward alone time not much family not want burden friend think already though feel compelled live love wearing last night step towards going handle physical pain thing stopping chance fail forced hospital miss job interview desperately need strange maybe need | suicide |
trying againi going take medicine hopefully time really damage liver point die instead nothing | suicide |
need talk someone gotten somebody felt agony somehow learned live anyway need know possible get better hope believing worthless animal not want reassurance great stranger could not possibly know want know felt way not anyone | suicide |
decided get drunk cut write somethingsorry long complete mess pathetic know not figure hate issue maybe year waking every day wondering even worse piece shit lot problem seems one cut deep hard motivate first thing hear morning fuck shit last thought go bed hope not tomorrow would not give someone better someone people respect someone people want around really not know time although rare seems kind chance shit time feel like pointless living life feel happiness something life not motivate better life wish not fucking embarrassment people around not even talk people fucking pussy let people walk unable speak always interrupted someone deserves heard rough worst enemy already feel crushing loneliness not even mind reassure maybe not fault maybe people busy not text back want hang maybe person bad day not give time day even mind not blame boring uninteresting piece loser garbage deserve get would not punishment unless knew complete disappointment rare insult hurt know truth telling year pathetic waste space deserves better wallow pity forced watch people succeed life start fail thing ever success forced watch people live best moment life knowing not sure hell not forced see others connecting people friend family girlfriend would nice know like someone genuinely care someone would not lie fucking face someone would not tell matter turn talk shit not handle paranoia anymore constantly worrying people behind whispering laughing person made brief eye contact rolled eye not handle worst enemy constantly forcing see disgusting mess become fault suppose opportunity normal chance little better chance not fucking disgrace like everything else wasted drunk alone anxious hating basically fucking wednesday not happy enjoyed year unless take kind drug even know fleeting show weak miserable really wish could somewhat normal least could get fucked every day anything make seem le real wish ball kill tried got close felt relaxed ready almost could feel going sleep yet fucking blew not day since not regret not man enough fuck guess deserve anyways least people tell | suicide |
broke month happiness gone breaking gf month ago hard thought would get never happened left realized massive hole left happiness void nothing sadness think time enjoying uni finding new men picture month sadness nothingness made really depressed heading adult life make think stay tried talking girl feel like cheating even though not together sadness continue kill suffering end not even know dead eventually remembers ever came conclusion put soul left everything feel apart not motivated anything even tried kill failed pill not enough kill option not stop thinking want stop thinking want end | suicide |
would like get advice consider straight feminine male sorta crazy femboys not tell gf make sexuality | non-suicide |