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could not get erection girlfriend f agreed sex condom bought one ready came usual stuff got turned thing even really turned could not get erection fucking sad pissed not sad could not sex mostly sad mood turned well could not get boner satisfy straight absolutely great relationship perfect health not know not know not get one depressed | non-suicide |
hanging tonight everyone go bed not anymore sorry family kid far better without tired going year alive never truly happy since year old made sexually abused hand biological father many others life never understood wrong constantly targeted men always sexually subjectified even young girl became using serious drug starting cutting even earlier hate become someone weak think negatively eats away soul nothing positive left inside feel bad everyone known piece shit know thing offer anyone appearence anyone care not tell many stalker every job worked taped bestfriend raped dad since child continually molested physically abused ex boyfriend not take pain anymore not talk anyone angry much truly hate not want hear not keep anymore baby dad hate think whore nothing offer anyone believe given men want expense emotion physically numb body not enjoy anything life never want eat day fading away numerous health problem none doctor help appointment month stanford day showed find could not seen worst luck guy longer want fight health give goodbye sorry wish strength not let go holding rope year lost grip beautiful world missed not miss living body mind | suicide |
want diei feel like purpose life thinking attempting commit suicide tomorrow crushing vicodin taking alcohol may break boyfriend first hid something devasted best friend left one good friend moving feel like one friend talk not want talk parent stay room sleep cry | suicide |
let tell story relationship till day love life pretty disastrous long story short long as chain rejection mostly due revolting time cut late ict assistant school thing looking brighter started focusing life girl le started joking friend mine teaching cannibal corpse girl right next recognized band might not seem like lot eye practically heart shaped point started talking told would fell long time ago bit later dated revealed pansexual dated honestly never happier compatible intimate kid kid even started sharing hobby anyway turned exclusively lesbian month later knowing not either hand accept absolutely wrecked dated make difference thing stiff u month half talking like best bud great hard feeling still emotionally scarred breakup like goddamn one time date shattered sense self esteem turn lesbian despite wanting move feeling someone else acknowledge not ready new thing wait moral story really fucking revolting | non-suicide |
dying hardi reading suicide method not know mine going work scared left brain damage hard know life fragile people die accidentally time fuck hard die purpose | suicide |
knock knock knock knock got milk son | non-suicide |
trans right human right trans right human right trans right human right trans right human right hail satan | non-suicide |
new fren anyone want chat one discord | non-suicide |
hate wet leaf went outside throw garbage leaf outside thought oh nice leaf step get crunch realized wet big fuck like someone handed lollipop inside scorpion infused carolina reaper say haha fuck ugly fuck probably friend family care | non-suicide |
let u play among u let u play among u game code amouwq | non-suicide |
planning funeral would quite funi extremely suicidal idea dying planed sound kind fun could leave idea note could funeral would like instead samy black boring one died unplanned would like funeral colourful vibrant not know something think wanting die | suicide |
suicide seems logical methe think resolute become decision future b biology applying job temp agency interview getting mlms always menial job available confirms paying debt minimum wage job rest life open opportunity people talk bullshit none networking wasted last eight year nothing nothing ahead settlement refuse settle future could become point could not settle not afford grad school still unlikely climb break mba program choose life take bullshit mental health professional want sell forever live fact always lesser could not even pride accept fact settled future lack mourning brother stoic individual met honestly doubt suicide affect perhaps angry financially responsible mother mother hit hardest not surprise follows taking step not happen leaving suicide loss group contact honestly think death inevitable meal ticket hears expelled hit incredibly hard terribly affected either way life bound shorten regardless not friend dean never gave shit one ultimately miss except mother honestly best path forward otherwise would forever worried future trying help financially despite fact supposed provide instead debt cancellation medical school expensive took lot loan honestly think okay living debt perspective like owing couple car payment could get back medical school put debt would take fact debt not transferred family keep student loan taken help pursue decision difficulty suicide seems much easier life understand cowardly accepted fact one various reason label not throw path dean not give second chance would irredeemable point poetry perhaps dumbest reason way feel destined kill joke among dad side family family curse since much like asian arrested development great grandfather orphan became self made wealthy landowner generation since gotten misfortune joke deadbeat son every family grandfather youngest uncle killed oldest brother murdered beg wife not divorce widow later received large life insurance payout nothing murder dad sister hoodwinked marriage life poorer u selling gingseng collect family countryside seems fitting end life way else go | suicide |
deleted porn collection noticed little man way inactive needed decided delete porn tb stop nutting honest not feel different not feel regret much porn fapping not get anywhere | non-suicide |
not eaten lunch kate opps ah | non-suicide |
wanted tell someoneif tell friend know make worried suicide hotline put hold like customer service killing year life insurance fully funded family well taken care not worry money anymore live good life gone not know hey sure find way | suicide |
must done something horrific past life deserve definitely living hell suicidal past year extremely depressed past year not remember time actually happy atheist guess god real hate something past life getting punished | suicide |
not want face struggle life anymore scared call wuss not give crap progress report came mail today c history class project parent disappointed told turned must mistake course lie not turn due extended spring break thought would extend week week went nothing mentioned let go not know conscious decision not not really matter point could contact teacher ask could turn assignment due month ago not want assignment not want deal want grade decent not willing put effort lazy scared draft due final paper page abstract least source writing class due five day thesis statement final paper due week not want like normal flow homework assignment not want work harder right like getting assignment done free time reddit youtube switch family lazy scared not responded friend almost month since whole thing started owe response acting like jerk not replying scared respond not getting back long lazy scared tired people telling need move get screw think willing really think calling laziness apathy going make feel better know awful behavior one know best not change behavior god green earth think going make feel better know not going change become adult college probably going worse adulthood responsibility going try ignore eventually curl pathetic little ball apathy want end prematurely research appears suffocation nitrogen gas easiest painless way go trouble not know easily problem post another time one probably going read fine post never get read anyway read far want thank listening not know kind response looking not want dissuaded unless flawless argument bring apathetic semi nihilism doubt one exists also not want encouraged want decapitated anyone got guillotine screw stay home order not spread disease dead | suicide |
end quicki tried pill w alcohol throwed suggest pls not tell life get better not always trying get better something happens gun | suicide |
running strengthi running strength not function not eat struggle walk hardly sleep feel like lifeless doll head feel like stuffed brick every breath hurt avoiding people lot recently not want see not even friend family random passerby street counter supermarket not handle talking people not handle cheerfulness positivity knowing expect emotion not not even strength pretend find one tolerate negative emotion feel like leaving alone isolating best thing not take bad thing happen smallest thing like knocking something make want kill fragile not many coping technique process thing healthily trying gentle trying not overthink present work thinking future know worst feeling pas go back pretending not know actually deal situation head spinning lung throat feel like fire not know persuade mouth open eat chew swallow not know deal work got not know stop losing friend ghost not know keep appearance family everything okay not know break viscous cycle excruciating pain far much not strength deal | suicide |
something wanted say long time people might find offensive want get chest blm protest police brutality police racist hate break small handful police racist employer time not tell someone hire racist not whether cop someone profession always racist person bother put target police officer back police officer opinion protest even police one dangerous job sometimes kill someone save life life others kill black person trying kill example shoot back kill not mean racist concludes rant not downvote hell wanted put | non-suicide |
feel like person age never done drug embarrassing not literlaly not access friend barely leabe house | non-suicide |
suicidal living life not feel like alt obvious reason still school great really not care stopped thinking future long time ago people trying preassure think want study university school not decide not really see sense matter ill never satisfy expectation future far beyond realistic anyways wierd would not concider antisocial lot friend not really care every time around feel sad see fun happy reason not really bullied th grade way th th even though not really thought impact still fine think deep scar noticing left kind empty not bad family financial background family great sure would understanding never told anyone feel expect year old brother drunk basically feel empty inside not see sense future playing idea suicide every day not romantic relationship feel place whenever talking someone interested told many time worth nothing two year starting believe everyone think bright funny guy feel like facade not take need help scared tell anyone totally go people think like help | suicide |
find toilet dream not use bad idea | non-suicide |
scaredi not sure start first reach help terrible asking help even talking problem started scare thought suicide never much depth great length time spent last hour weighing pro con self major change life recent demotion work save job winter know temporary reason seems adding fuel fire seem stuck rut not accomplishing anything life believe eating away inside one date since dumped year ago ex girlfriend recently started dating someone else know not issue hit pretty hard find hard complain meaningless issue real physical impact quality life many people much worse know resource available know need not seem bring self able think suicide not know long not seem shake thought feeling know not want done stop feeling good bad | suicide |
everyone trying keep alive everyone trying keep alive not helping get better speak mind tell actively suicidal say not know miss yet never ask suicidal never ask help edge cry pouring heart get met hostility scolded acting mentally ill begging help get told happiness choice give one solid reason not kill none get better shit not true | suicide |
guess kissed girl guess kissed girl gt not oddlydehydratedgurb lt | non-suicide |
tell tried post r sexualassault luck suicidal thought anyway throwaway account need write everything long one tldr bottom f met guy tinder around december time last year hooked time would usually come quite late sometimes day would chat smoke couple joint sex seemed like bit dick time not bothered hooking feeling involved started seeing someone march cut contact tinder guy since split bf decided get back contact tinder guy hook ups amateur boxer turn pro fairly rough area told story trouble friend get told like hurt people big glaring red flag thought meh not hurt not even feeling like naive chump came house friday night saturday morning asleep let chatted bit got sexual happy big guy good looking start telling want f k arse consistently said even tried whilst sex missionary told not really would bf trusted stopped thought cool not stop turn doggy proceeds normal start squirting load baby oil lower half took arm held infront face tried penetrate anally said not please not name stop wriggled lay penetrated anally whimpered pain went floppy like playing dead could not move not weight much frozen wanted get done would stop would drinking whatever else night not use condom not even say anything usually use condom think concerned keeping away bum really pushing stopped got away chance would finished pulled quickly really hurt even said not believe came arse lay face pillow asked replied bummed laughed said not say like said well still face pillow said jesus got got dressed sat tried normal thought bastard knew would done emotion attached wanted get clean week popping head going not whole time would known red flag would ignoring felt humiliated used remembered day assault came flat asked picture show friend said would send photo one already whipped phone started videoing bra lower half covered blanket came round day assault slept bed hr would bender could not crash home since usual saying coming round not actually coming around ghosted said getting new phone number wondering would planned showing friend violating disappearing game would royally played not know part think not fully blame told action ok treat poorly not emotionally invested reason affecting much week thought would upset day able let go not not eating sleeping tried meditate last night healing got halfway broke cry nonstop hour calling helplines could like opened mind heal know get worse get better totally unprepared feel still feel going examination rectum however probably late attain evidence even though cut rectum sore bleeding day told sexual assault service earlier terrified tell police part want tell dam world not anyone else think sort would may already done part not cope idea reporting autistic severely anxious depressed long happened already edge suicide not know going tip edge know tell bring world trouble potentially family really would push end ashamed got situation even though know matter not violated know wiser protected better said numerous time mental health service not feel safe people abuse common people autism not first time adult life line consent crossed not know never really felt like rape tell someone not want sex badger smarmy til give show pathetic power also lonely people take advantage know still allow sometimes not know ok genuine not not know not feel tell family would pretty much make go police not friend close enough trust supportive know never want eat might become problem word mess right advice would greatly appreciated thanks advance sorry take age respond highly anxious even talking internet take get round definitely read every comment tldr anally assaulted week ago guy met tinder felt detached time happened hit hard examined today booking see counsellor sometime soon amateur boxer turned pro like hurt people nervous wreck even autism suicidal thought tell police feel like con outweigh pro tell not want live might push edge advice appreciated thanks | suicide |
anyone new dog confused need help handling new dog overwhelming beginning help pm need help | non-suicide |
reached point not know mentally ill year lately courage seek help go therapy everything fine certain event took place one night nothing ever since little fault mine lost girlfriend left loving relationship destroyed sickness friend not bother hear assumed bad guy not single friend world parent said would help gas light top lockdown making thing worse day not want wake anymore edge really hard want take life not see point getting better not know making sense | suicide |
not anymore single mother amazing little boy recently went terrible break son dad extreme alcoholic cheated mentally physical abused yet stayed relationship til could not anymore recently moved became independent relationship ex sober changed friend thing okay sad thought killing always lingered today final straw ex recently admitted random sex stranger hit hard home feel like giving try good person good parent never win want follow plan son birthday tomorrow selfish thought | suicide |
put family dog week left college love forever pretzel good girl never forget | non-suicide |
flashback time got bee stuck mohawk rd grade everyone looking horrified not understand someone pointed everyone went inside teacher brushed hair clipboard binder shit fucking booked inside | non-suicide |
close passing threshold tried resist siren song eternal sleep tired keep fighting draft note section phone titled reason live look desperate helping awhile looked last night desire swallow handful pill sleep forever overpowering hopeful wish stupid list could say cliche thing people say want die preaching choir suffice say fought long time throughout hard life claw way something resembling good life not dream future anymore nothing strive reason keep fighting going sleep want people know tried not everyone success story not every lost little girl hard life make get tired decide leave miserable existence term one guess want try say goodnight | suicide |
blame abuser suicidei hate whole one responsible suicide choice thing end everything not sure long last got feeling calling abuser contribution situation mother resenting existence said many word failure daughter dissapointed friend bullying not respecting boundary come mental health blaming instance not go shopping feel like dying blaming not taking advice exercising know work lastly wonderful boyfriend sexually abused manipulating changing something not recognize anymore covered cut bruise get like got water pill backpack want walk away never come back obviously absence bring relief everyone bothered | suicide |
sorting new kind lame always people trying random weird story | non-suicide |
getting pushed closer closer think not want watch sun rise anymore | suicide |
became extremely suicidal within past monthi normal schedule class good work ethic month ago asked earlier year wanted die would said perfectly content good plan great chance success future last month started thinking easy would kill life pretty pointless go living die later not really care see happens care future attempted two week ago pretty close perfecting plan know guy say hurt family not owe anything not care dead indifferent happens death not make longer sake not boring death hah life pointless think stop right seriously wonder made feel way though go enjoying life wanting nothing kill something water supply not know regardless glad revelation ending early | suicide |
always good idea plan immediately shut sit room like want fix car clean room like take long | non-suicide |
country time half brother half sister jus admitted like half brother dad side half sister mom side direct relation met absolutely feeling | non-suicide |
josuke hate post fuck josuke highashikata homies hate josuke highashikata set house fire could scam alien dice shit also hair suck post made rohan gang also not josuke ball universe guy cool also not homies except koichi koichi not hate josuke | non-suicide |
common constant suicidal ideation year not sure switch flipped not remember last time woke fell asleep everything without ideation suicide mind since child know not super uncommon always kind looking relate someone | suicide |
comment something respond edit make look dumb not original want try behalf cuz kind smart | non-suicide |
born wrong generation year old listens smell like teen spirit | non-suicide |
german worst ww committed horrific crime japanese | non-suicide |
not seem get better year locked bedroom seldom see outside face hit lowest low human get help recieve not health insurance not see anymore doctor mean pay not see mom make life even harder work job pay previous bill racked insurance going hour sleep year working honda factory scioto cleaning service kroger even three job not support anymore losing apartment moving ex husband last resort not payed tax year not exist anymore not anything used social medium account picture year ago would true embarrassment anyone saw became today current state appearance taken advantage year ago romanian woman internet pretended engaged money needed took really hard left life abruptly using someone circle message twitter harassing saying would happy end life messaged facebook never say seen sincerely asked stop think boyfriend getting enjoyment suffering like kind game since asked message stopped one talk way receiving help really not know want end life badly badly scared think mom worked hard fix damage caused not want take life not love much not go like though know not go another year like not end taking life soon end catching attention government dysfunctional pay tax get healthcare not mean break law not purpose not go anymore bed sheet fell bed year ago laying spot not able barely move energy low used strong young man weak barely hold jug milk without hand shaking bone feel brittle weak make feel helpless know go another year without paying tax might taken court end fined helpless adult mother going take burden far hell mine not see way recovery way suicide every year get harder harder harder typing barely write coherent sentence need find help not know find live ohio not find help need not money | suicide |
megathic want christmas | non-suicide |
girl like boob personally would choose remove not make smaller pain as | non-suicide |
weird super nsfw k tingle not know feel super weird | non-suicide |
everyone talking getting new thigh high sock pretty hot thigh high stocking several year like becoming thing laddered remember stocking not sock friend | non-suicide |
scheduled death august future chefif look past post know planned death tired hopeless every waking hour killing really looking forward scheduled death ready going even spent time friend even almost made destructive decision reveal enemy secret could destroy whole life mean going die anyway fuck civil reason lured enrol culinary art school thought fun last time hella expensive not care since going die anyway lol enjoy last day passion day past passion started bloom started enjoying whole thing real met new friend became dedicated serve delicious meal reason wake still happy enjoying trainee day far grade high instructor already endorsing external ojt soon name already known hotel thanks hype caused instructor forgiving even abandoning plan destroy ex enemy secret said ex since place hate heart life precious focus heart someone keep breaking best friend betrayed destroyed not going better supposed dead glad stayed hope everyone find reason live | suicide |
year later first attempt yet still look back not much changed hurt resurfaces think suicide daily hourly mid yet feel control life working massive debt incurred foolish decision yet still not get thing right live yet dependent parent minority predominantly white community feel incredible marginalized experience daily oppression real world even try find peace online find not share opinion dominant culture tell experience not exist tried many avenue find belonging matter go feel ostracized year alive rarely able escape frequent bullying shit starting people look like depression make difficult get bed missed much school hobby passionately loved longer stir zero motivation see future despite everything not find anyone love one person capable nearly decade since decided longer worth knowing set spark even initial suicide attempt family friend failed understand simply needed understanding attempted total three time not even get death right every hour feel voice inside screaming not afford therapy school counselor not time devote weekly patient whenever tell rare person trust feeling incredibly depressed suicidal give useless comment momentarily think parent would passed feel grief would short lived moved away mother cried every night call every month sometimes busy line not close relationship family remember verbal physical abuse went every humiliating thing certain family member made often one told worthless waiting thing get better nothing happened rare blip screen brightness thing feel warm darkness recedes briefly not sustainable year live way not come point rarely drink not drug fairly healthy eating habit sleep regularly yet depression incredibly severe feel ugly alone overstayed welcome every possible manner also anytime called suicide hotline useless not want die pain feel every moment every day exceeded resource coping tired people expecting exceptional behavior pushing without feeling sense futility | suicide |
not belong hereno space accommodates nowhere even partially safe serious injury met one relate sympathize situation one ever really understood anything ever said life l implicit explicit not communicate never go never go want want die | suicide |
anyone know app orange different template like doc word not thanks | non-suicide |
not know depressed med not anything not know left boyfriend got stop self harming want time scratching cutting anything want much not tell therapist though would legally need tell parent boyfriend try help hard tell stuff not want upset know feel right not sure feel fucked like nothing else done | suicide |
shit today joking trying see bot let post yet | non-suicide |
vaccinate whole city free vaccinating joes lip | non-suicide |
bro realized think hard enough could trick brain thinking thag thinking something actually thinking thinking like bro fr | non-suicide |
really not know sad everybody say get better not one reason sad girl talking not know say name not known since rd grade always good friend always feeling year perfect could not even imagine nicer perfect person lately getting really close like really really close lately mean past year couple month ago randomly blocked every single social medium not talking irl either month ago added snapchat normal conversation ask happened asked happens ignores block feel like lost forever basically never see not let go feeling tried contacting friend not help friend not helpful either talking couple people online everybody say get better not get worse opinion like said beginning really not know feel like ending option yea say doubt anyone care though sorry couple spelling grammar mistake sweden writing phone probably | suicide |
might fuck around end lmao | non-suicide |
not want grow thing could not get worse turn year never wanted get older not mentally stable year never felt responsible enough handle adult life thing went casually struggling high school multiple unwanted responsibility stacked top simultaneously not ready college could not even get not ready job never one not know would pay tax not want vote held accountable country turn afterwards not thing failure trying get shit together not going well not even lisence would rather die live knowing burden failure not strong enough live world not help severe anxiety cripple point not even walk dog outside without getting nervous thought thing might get better high school not probably never fuck | suicide |
love letter youto beautiful beautiful inside amazing person greatness within special uniqueness inside one else put earth reason time not yet know world live strange know hard find light among darkness light light need reason see darkness others not gift evolving not give come far not compare others different path walk reach friend ask help change wrong world love simple act kindness warm anothers heart duplicate another act kindness sharing beautiful light within light world together give everything give smile stranger wave driver stopped give word kindness make someone laugh excess something share light inside grow brighter ignite light others help others overcome darkness may think nothing worthless negative thing come believe continue tell simply not true not know know special day ago spent much time cry worse year felt empty fighting depression anxiety entire life realised today free freedom invisible chain made believe stuck beneath glass ceiling chain others told chain continued tell today cut chain within psyche free not allow darkness plague anothers heart effect light within ask free willing clock not reach dream nothing nothing holding back hope comprehend deeply really hope decide end life rather stoping clock choose reset clock live life want live recreate forgive move away need release fear one life live however want not worry anyone else try hold back mould think sometimes not surrounded asshole perhaps asshole regret travelled dark road get honestly press reset button live life treasure learnt lesson big old world outgrown childhood town leave go back want person option search option utilise opportunity arise spread wing fly away wherever want go still not done yet not time help recreate world save people ever expanding darkness plague heart mind innocent people know mean deepest part heart whoever wherever important world need need others need may not know true identity hope one day smile stranger might smiling back beyond happy light shining bright dark day currently experiencing part journey creating true breaking free chain thought like phoenix rising ash write answered question not late heart happy not happy long time deeply wish new reddit tomorrow delete account wake start new day cut chain negativity not sure delete give time see good night thank taking time read hope least little bit meaning know dreamer know really love | suicide |
asking random question get girlfriend day best memory many winning first ever championship kind special | non-suicide |
selling kidneywhat guy think kidney cost dollar huge request people u right mean nothing lose even would die not could help family | suicide |
ex girlfriend told twice considering suicide not know relevant perhaps ex girlfriend still love one another decided month ago end thing opinion not together due life goal incompatible leaving tomorrow live farm somewhere learn sustainable farming tonight told considering suicide pretty regularly assured made deal give thing chance following not first time come together often distant come background abusive father sexual abuse not father course often case nobody family believed currently bulemic incredible woman reasonable considerate caring belief basically trash insists horrible person not care anything anymore also show sign alcoholism not know finally got confide thing tonight tried reassure past not horrible person think pointed passion heard voice talk sustainable farming human interaction strong also told loved believed better human almost everyone know truly believe still insisted wrong wit end leaf tomorrow love woman feel though not help please advise never really situation | suicide |
feel like another attempt imminent attempted suicide four time life three year landed hospital depressed since early age year worst not exactly specific plan not eating drinking much couple month yesterday decided would stop altogether see happens day two actually really nice eating drinking chore feel relaxed pain mild bearable since lot practice pain muscle cramping psychiatric nurse coming see two day would like tell everything doubt help want find guess still conscious | suicide |
scaredi really want kill atleast not want exist anymore scared wife ex wife spending night another guy right know not stand difficulty breathing chest exploding idea taking life not new never close | suicide |
one care point freinds parent not care hope romantic relationship low self esteem confidence due bipolar disorder thing like alone bad health really want someone care wellbeing tried joining club group around area suck place go make freinds attract annoying antisocial people even would not hang people not formulate complete sentence eveyone know great time except one even bother like comment facebook status anymore make seem even loser please much ask one person | suicide |
another one favourite artist likely terrible person ffs keep happening man guy favourite singer getting sick shit | non-suicide |
stupid stupid stupid disjointed sorry madly love girl lead year dated people acting like would get together accept ghost month accept text blue something reminded breakdown shower half hour act like nothing wrong text back still madly love make fun not ever try comfort need flirt anyone breathes say thing say people still love anxiety induces tear ghosting heartbreak real life friend moved spouse house family still living alone daddy paycheck whatever meager fund scrounge nearly failing school not handle class anything life throwing not gpa slipping go financial aid desperately need without drop without nothing nothing achieving nothing reason childhood household split sibling grew mother hardly around wrote plan run away kill someone found not take seriously planned took entire bottle pill woke next day cried not get job rejected every time apply unlovable shove away anyone try care relationship ended emotionally fucking check everything never maintain love affection anyone fucking fake not anymore never independent make anything separation anxiety like goddamn dog shelter feel like nothing fucking mistake burden not know writing not know try nobody fucking care reach everyone best make sure okay nobody ever check nobody ever listens nobody ever soothes cry sponge pain suffering everything ail tide turn scatter doormat use abuse run newer shinier people treat better point anymore everyone love attention give everyone love not useful anymore throw away like trash not handle not keep not keep walking situation fucking none would even care disappeared fucking died would even notice old broken toy gone | suicide |
got back bar went bar first time year husband two coworkers everyone talking good time except thought would able break little fun sat talked someone spoke happened time good people seemed fun not know talk people husband got drunk flirting bartender talking attractive coworkers know would never cheat outgoing fun would seen like time feel like holding back making miserable always never anything fun tell really affecting know never able make friend job not even bring anything relationship really think world would better without not contribute society make people uncomfortable think night telling ok shy used shy not think understand extent really not think ever change try get job usually quit within week awkward tell people not like not know not afford therapist antidepressant not think would help anyways tried want tired trying happy normal | suicide |
want hope leftmy name adam suicidal long remember started school kid awkward child small town grow reputation quickly quickly known kid stay away want popular made peace thought maybe high school would another chance quickly found not case got bullied like crazy high school point really started considering first time found tie noose found rope dad workshop tied one kept room long period time would look considering ended not thinking must get better school everyone keep telling not lying right one day going get better school ended never really friend life outside dog never sleep going another kid house made threw high school ontop b lonely piece shit always failure come kind academic skill would lead kind career year old never made k year kind post secondary prospect speak ever still living mother want passing month nothing saved speak point moved noose think cliff near house decided imagine least painful add shit ontop asexual least think far tell never attracted man woman life time never date course since never friend everyday want jump enjoyment fun dread poor failure homeless mom enough chance success future successful future hope trash apartment pray afford cashier salary also found not job anymore layed winter supposed start soon found not want back seems like another reason nothing good ever happens shit shit shit keep going want going make happen soon enough want done | suicide |
random ranti take pill called hydrozyine suppost stop taking still taking since mg take one limit people mg not suppost exceed limit take mg always want take another one see take everyday let sink make tired drowsy maybe dizzy might pas eating disorder called bulimic anorexia bit disorder really hard not like people giving empathy not | suicide |
done angry procrastinated studying test terrible course parent yelled said give told could go carpenter plumber not ever cry end agreed though mad friend texting kind yelled insulted remorseful despair advice | non-suicide |
ever sense woke everythings smelling different got shower soap smell different hand sanitizer smell different hand soap also various thing snell different not everything smell bad different hard explain | non-suicide |
failurei tired living every day feel like thought control life control not eat starve lost lb underweight negatively cope staying bed long possible not moving not manage energy not anything not eat not exercise not seem exist not burden anyone called suicide hotline couple time past week sucidial thought become default everyday thing know death not solve much fact trauma people around already traumatized know feel already making everyone life suffer silence serious abandonment issue issue feeling everything fault maybe caused breakup two year ago maybe mom died born nobody ever told truth whatever sad story tell not stop telling story failure going quit job tomorrow already done year ago quit job ended hospital depression feel like going another cycle relying others never really able help honestly not know sharing not know much relatable want know stop getting stuck cycle hate living reality | suicide |
spotify stop fucking stopping reason | non-suicide |
link depression food chemical intolerance common realise son committed suicide three half year ago one year ago yr old daughter urgently hospitalised suicidal since discovered intolerance food chemical salycilates amine severe ibs two chemical also known depression sensitive people seems not widely known recommended website probably saved daughter life might not everybody nothing lose informed daughter not dark thought depression since starting salycilate amine free diet remarkable change obvious know including psychiatrist hopeful able gradually stop medication soon significantly intolerance run family several people family suffered severe depression including grandmother mother aunt niece cousin niece also committed suicide age cousin age likely intolerant food chemical without realising doctor not trained know effect food chemical different people intolerance wrong treatment may given changing eat challenge start well worth effort find depression link information success story hope help someone | suicide |
sound like good ideai absolute dump day idea could end popped head smiled first time remotely happy long remember triggered thought kill done sick severe anxiety dictating life stopping living want sick sudden crippling inability speak connect people sick unemployment despite good job history not anything wake sick feeling absolutely nothing not even past passion hobby always miserable incapable idiot hate world hate going right post doubt mind see guy hope manage find happiness | suicide |
keep guy gal going think suicide almost everyday seems not close family real close friend thing keep going two thing music concept power sure universally enjoy music help get away self hating mindset let u think clearer idea power getting stronger physically feel natural always picked bullied school always felt weak throughout life workout regularly nowadays lost decent chunk weight help low self esteem | suicide |
society put much pressure people like sometimes struggle stand expected stuff well smh | non-suicide |
done finally help really depressed lived probably year year everything money love lost two year ago month ago able work making money business make even lonely girl not want date meet girl connect consider best friend course let pay everything go tell not anything fuck wrong texted friend tonight still early course one text back need help someone talk going insane fuck going join club texted girl fell love previously mentioned basically not give shit fuck people fuck girl know going die alone much stress people around would better dead one know really give shit even though know intention sure | suicide |
anyone want talk hate feeling lonely someone want chat message anything male | non-suicide |
proctorio hate post post huge fuck remote proctoring service invade privacy make u download malware spy u | non-suicide |
still alonewhen get better year graduated high school song spammed radio went like always feel like nothing changed five year later still exactly not worse try sleep hear roommate socially successful fucking kill already litterally nobody would miss | suicide |
tonight cut not first time tonight first time barely felt anything past would prick sewing pin give little scratch rarely much damage not like pain today cut several time usually panic attack not one bit anxiety sure not panic attack got grabbed knife kitchen started pressing arm not want cut show pulled pajama pant started slicing thigh big gash blood wiped pulled pant back washed knife went back watching netflix not get thru mind not going get worse suicidal thought almost every day not plan killing scared one day want sometimes think painkiller purse bottle taken headache tendinitis easily still pill think many would need take od pas die sometimes wish could take bunch pill someone could find would forced get help not point yet getting close not care anyone anything say wanted get chest cut starting burn | suicide |
reason live told not make fall love going kill made actual plan kill never felt better see farside | suicide |
futurei could successful person come good background went good school account lived normal life broken person wasted every opportunity presented pushed away people cared dropped school ruined body empty husk human shuffling day day either live like suffering contributing nothing world year end killing seems like reasonable option end pain not continue hurt around | suicide |
need helpi collecting material need kill planned going written suicide note telling friend really depressed think annoyed point would like see kill would not nuisance anymore please need help really concerned attempt soon last time impulsive decision please please | suicide |
not suicidal need help someonei basically panic attack right week freshman year college totally see college suicide rate grandpa died week started last month summer spent driving back forth house hour way going hospital see dealing family generally stressed fuck funeral tuesday moved thursday not making real friend feel almost entirely alone volleyball team still making friend club team practice day week not know else turn going call counseling office morning probably closed tuesday not sure able sleep meantime supposed figuring hell life grand thought society help people make life various thing none shit fit society want not know going rest life society unnatural concept hell meantime manage talk person psychology degree | suicide |
want die scared myselfi hate bisexual homophobic family hate family judge everyone not ignores issue hate way family us gay insult say f slur hate slur hate way family yell family not believe therapy anything like think forcing information person trying help work family look people try kill people cut found cut would probably force telling know would not get help walk certain way get yelled talk certain way get yelled sigh certain way get yelled yes yelled yell youngest forced around underaged young move young drive young get full time job get yelled type music listen literally like get mad look three head proceed yell told family bisexual would probably disown harm hate different one family not help people like stuff like wish never born way wish never born family think gay people party time sleep around live sinful life must live like make much sense hate way family see two guy holding hand silently whisper faggot hate way get mad see masculine female feminine male yes people literally get angry around people lgbt community would get angry knew not want disappoint always look like disappointment saw not like around people like certain something would disappointed tried kill self fail would disappointed not get normal career would disappointed disappointed not girlfriend not guy friend teenage year dating something happen else something wrong not want date girl guy anytime soon not ready issue disappointment love would not love person really person hide around love not like around never talk anyone could worse situation complain not want people sympathy whole going get better thing said two year ago thing got much fucking worse maybe overreacting maybe teenager teenager soul wrenching whatever even embarrassed post almost accidentally slipped cliff hope hitting head tree something dying almost swallowed bottle pill hope dying almost suffocated hope dying recently feeling much worse want die scared not work not want pain either death mean pain want end | suicide |
wish killing easier wonder handed way kill easy right would like think would not really deserve live not anything behind term adult thing need much rather kill not thing anything make upset thinking would able kill want help not want try | suicide |
would rather not die blind optionsi born genetic disorder lived terminal illness conservative estimate seems year left lost father horrible accident watch take place not year later realized bad messed thing nothing accident nevertheless affected like sensitive got relationship people close spent whole life since childhood really aiming career worked hard pretty successful student high school two college certification program related field graduated recession one opportunity family not support would move another country whole lot scam artist sank low point irritable snappy able get two temp job one treated poorly kicked month left contract despite outperforming permanent hire gave unemployment float though not terrible managed neatly coincide raise promotion time cited lack money keep u also not feasible work coming would inconsistent practically held parade designed last month anyway nothing ever came offer continue company work essentially averaged two three medium length hospital trip year except past year miserably ill quite positively able received mandate insurance plan sure risk company premium hundred upon hundred dollar month drug plus pharmacy deductible intelligent kind see sometimes angle akward year not bad looking ish friend respect kind person female ever expressed interest not even heard behind back like friend almost thirty not held hand kissed dated certainly not anything beyond made friend slowly part kept moved life dialed personality wise wordy neurotic dry sense humor thinking thing one else bother force self awareness eliminate minor major problem course year result even limited tolerance one keeping touch time one female friend not sure attached trusted around act celebratory always misinterpreted feeling one time even time let sink work still day real problem would bend backwards relationship like everyone else moving settling nearly impossible get hold receive response even moved made new friend saw move away not long another friend used college roommate wound offering work help get since got much get better increment hardly see work busy life settling mean friendship speak longer treat even tiny amount respect act like hate without ever saying word not like not able pay bill took new skill nothing went school helped tapped people knew help get started finding work area keep getting better mix small work growing fading dying people saying hurry wait never showing outright telling go f taking advantage medical debt brought back living parent courteous not act like burden course much help not creating extra issue use resource keeping place safe clean etc much growth vacuum stress measuring standard patient brought major self harm twice strangely not always something survivable like punching cutting ever lightly tiny balsa wood saw sabotaging academic situation feel like keep working hard seeing benefit decent person alone scorned living world increasingly people not accountable le money tried getting used card establish credit could make effort towards moving job prospect know sure pan consistent ever keep couple major bill life leaf rather dimensionless not sure purpose especially defying odds live damned long going die soon people hurt either way probably yes would hurt offed would try find way clever fence far would fair stick around horrible pain discomfort going naturally course selfish like someone addiction even simple lack self discipline not give shit past point saving parent pain front pretty much thing save lowest point seems common concept tried letting go much expectation relationship difficulty normal people thing half body proud progress made amount squat care maybe enough lived example make something nothing used awesome insurance folk student therapy three time first time told liar asked leave not think around week sign appointment not know thinking either since right moment accordingly started bad foot insanely aggressive like whatever thought happened took personal later found problem lady went twice thought highly felt good get stuff wanted referred actual psychiatrist two session civil apparently beyond help not chemical imbalance lack resource cope issue think perhaps dad dying intellectual growth outpaced emotional growth like retarded denotatively offense meant version willing explore option talking expert talking friend family pass time play game long know rule not even care turn want fair shake life would rather actually start capacity end anyone idea dig update worth interview job might able relieve financial stress finger crossed update interview seemed go really well found lost one job week come buck finger crossed | suicide |
need opinion get ipad laptop leaning towards ipad thing could laptop | non-suicide |
not believe fantasized capture card year finally cashed one not know like know wanted not know know want something | non-suicide |
not want friend want bitch | non-suicide |
kill since one want talki mean try help people conversation never go anywhere talk bit not saying want relationship want fuckin friend someone asks question not get bored minute | suicide |
deserve die tbhlike title say not know posting probably going delete self harming right listening guardin lol life great not not know anymore haha | suicide |
exhaustedi not normally tell people feeling like piling not keep anymore scared something stupid lost job country went lockdown back april not able get back work since meaning money social life extent every job applied since come unproductive never even get acknowledgement applied first place like not even exist point still living parent not exactly get along dad never stop causing row house getting point mum threatening walk child not anyone else talk dealing situation directly not tell parent due lack interest nonchalant attitude towards mental health mum refuse let see doctor feeling not believe mental health see waste doctor time not diagnosed depression however almost sure point feeling exactly nearly year currently know self diagnosis looked upon time pretty definite mum passive aggressive towards often insult think not hear mumble even know hear almost enjoys making feel like shit left college year ago basically ignored year straight due fact not not deemed attractive interesting agree honesty took course agriculture immediately seen odd one class due fact farming background whatsoever ever found someone hang normally people knew outside college happened go would get verbally attacked classmate thought weird got point basically not allowed hang around anyone unless prepared get bombarded insult another lesson one ever kept touch left one person thought would managed make friend also crush also never spoke college also first time dealt unrequited feeling added mood high school not much motivation school work although build solid friend group overall good time grade poor came final year exam make want kick bucket even not single friend bar one ever spoke left school best friend included not know wrong ended girlfriend high school stayed eventually needed break incredibly pressuring overbearing came openly expressing feeling towards struggle general due fact diagnosed psychopathy struggle empathise others greatly could tell beginning get sick lack understanding would start get passive aggressive constantly ask problem however never another partner completely obsessed point not stand idea someone day continues pressure relationship awkward get along perfectly fine not topic good friend also person kept contact high school not obvious enough not wish romantic relationship anymore feel constantly guilty ended second job around month left college first job part time gig farm course met second boyfriend second job perked thing bit job boring monotonous developing crush happy go work see ended getting together christmas last year seasonal shift ended together around month not seem long grew close time soon uk went lockdown suddenly never spoke stayed way solid month try contact ended ghosted end gave day ago gut contact clear thing not angry understand rough thing going home not mention not place believe left friend basis not particularly salty anymore not romantic relationship since unrelated personal another thing not help mood relation partner relationship one lucky woman complete inability reach climax sex partner sound like not bother much could get better really not help relationship status even never blame partner therefore since last boyfriend stopped talking not sexual activity anyone nearly year assume also affect mood unsure stuff social life incredibly poor one person talk regularly person high school kept contact not go people one go small friend group absolutely hate planning group trip completely question paired lockdown rule currently made social life basically nonexistent want friend actually want thing spend time not end argument drop hat brutally honest feel incredibly lonely nothing except sit try not feel sorry not want seem like making thing worse feel like entered stage nothing seems get better motivation anything barely talk parent spend time eat even not hungry put weight turn hatred towards cycle continues thing keep company majority time dog family not well come money practically breadline even without lockdown currently added risk u losing house turn making parent stressed make even snappy chance moving getting place time soon not get away art spare time one thing feel relaxed never really get response post stuff instagram not bother want one parent say something look good cousin also art parent give lot recognition guess feel left childish sound feel like developed inferiority complex member family conflicted university apply course animal management however college managed mess uca application unconditional offer ended rejected also made motivation completely disappear not tried apply another course since course tempted apply either not qualified enough told not intelligent enough got point feel useless not benefiting anyone else waste space feeling sorry never anything better not matter many time people tell push not motivation want need better think would better not not tell exaggerated point may not sound like big deal anyone else one thing another piling onto not anymore exhausted want sleep nothing getting better getting worse every single day not see point anymore sorry long rant understand one bothered read stranger random suicidal paragraph help feel like chest | suicide |
hollowi feel nothing emptiness everyday life difference would make died would take one cut go little deep | suicide |
signing todayi feel like taken advantage many different resource chance chance recently decided make reddit account maybe try get support subreddits turn help soon realized little late anyways think time stop prolonging inevitable might stick around evening might not either way hope find peace life keep supporting | suicide |