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keep fucking burdensome not interesting begin withi aspiration goal feel worthwhile every day harder harder get bed today feel like hit tipping point none job applying called back always fail interview screaming sobbing hour thinking bum friend even stable not talk anything interesting feel like entire personality medium consume literally nothing else trying find way self sabotage instead anything else love family close friend want call helpline terrified get police called sorry rambling never even posted something like home alone today not think anything else | suicide |
fellow teenager want ask something lil controversial want know opinion saw post founding father owned slave comment said something like remember not judge people mentality mind society taught common people little wealth seen normal goodness people not measured owned slave not treat well slave not mind thomas jefferson even raped slave aaron burr ensured every slave education people started speak slavery year later people often rich completely not owning slave rare ahead time guess question based said judge slave owner mentality | non-suicide |
since not sleep drinking cup coffee gfuel one adhd med together could possibly go wrong | non-suicide |
feel hopeless future actually happy well problem start moment born diagnosed prilorics stenosis almost died put trachea whatever misplaced something world annoying voice swear even worse sing even hit right note sound bad everyone make fun especially corous class despite noticeable scar growing kept calling slow school teacher ability spell lackluster despite high reading math skill put slower class till th grade iep till th tested college grade level subject multiple aptitude test released time big martial art especially karate earned adult black belt switched school one famous ufc fighter came went friend wanted go class left found new martial art called ju jistu restarted belt progression learn much could obtaining rd yellow belt rd belt joined art fell love eventhough scrawny hell well tradegy stuck bullied legitimate differently abled kid since th grade school would nothing could not hit even say anything mean back well differently abled first time ever tried killing week later younger brother jumped got shower naked defending cut thumb badly not move anymore not get good grip jujistu make fist fro karate anymore quit year depression caused practice hope thumb may decide work follow dream highly unlikely still not moved surgery not good also always really really good school outside extra circular school parent insisted go local trade school cosmetology mother one bi sexually must automatically mean good hated counselor school refused let switch guy ik n class would look bad stuff even though kid got leave enter shop lot easier amount time put try switch literally anything else gpa throughout th member honor scociety class president vice president ran everything would win not everything tried killing th grade getting hr sleep night became extremely overweight decided join thing called junior leadership exclusive program kid elite school area apart join gave best interview ever seen top made school go scum school school seemed better highschool influence group caused ending th grade year announced president honor scoiety mother made get job got one dishwasher one busiest restaurant area immediately working hour week table school started ex mine told teacher charge honor society smoked weed not charge held reelection day day not even elected another pot head sold pot top hour week school slept hour night maintained gpa top time still member honor scociety acted president actual president never trained spot year previously also member art honor society became student ambassador school recruit kid trade school representative not shop another shop cit focused around programming skill picked kid penetration testing able explain perfectly well reelection came around class president told year run president ran kid well one kid friend also made charge printing ballot counting made extra ballot name kid class never reprimanded stripped kid position disappointment saw score saw would not march come around still trying as school trying find college top got rejected every school applied never heard back community college hurt thing trained wasto become cosmetologistsomethingi despised passion tried killing time got close sent psycward hospital placed juvenile oldest despite obviously much mature age tried putting another gay kid kept saying going try sleep kept trying make advancement despite fact partner asked room immediately requested room change requested guy knew straight said not request certain people put room differently abled kid clogged toilet night hand never fixed sleep room smelled like kid literal shit thankfully last night signed trying give new experimental medication adhd drug user refused give adderall med felt like happens mix mg xanax fifth jack got wondering school never sent work school well turn stay got research paper another teacher never gave work waiting give work came back last day turn responsible gotten work failed class semester got gpa quarter help depression took shrooms rd time friend also dealing depression bad never guided well whe went nature walk found big metal gate weighed probably close lb want say not sure u throw gate cliff infront well gate came really fast bar hit not twice back head gave felt like equilibrium shot almost died almost falling cliff sustained injury side effect hit except became completely sober hour trip hit realized good fighter would became never got jumped little brother graduation approaching getting even depressed recently became line cook dman good one good people would specifically request cooking hated passion announced getting recognized recognized member honor society kid not even ambassador art honor scociety member given recognition night award ceremony drank fifth vodka cursed counsoler principal front everyone exposing liberating moment life lot trouble lack care put school infested bed bug nobody hrt getting cna ever lied kid saying teacher qualified not graduated quit awful job month ago bouncing job looking every job found job really suitable proud not apply scholarship point require military background not institutionalized school moving state side country still live parent job support live area without roommate not stand living people let alone stranger friend avoiding finally drug culture stuck still not want dragged back partner going going school offered full scholarship major he always wanted point refuse work another job hate not see point going miserable jerk instead kind hearted sweet person friend stranger alike not know point think may better kill depression taking toll family partner not even feel like depression like still experience happiness unlike past really not see future happy career wise not happy job turn complete asshole outside work environment lot left tell comment tl dr unoptomistic future job enjoy would enjoy proud time career always biggest part life would not able stand worked something hated hobby passion unfeasible anymore fucked stuff happened body throughout life feel would better end | suicide |
loser virgin mid world favor dieeven people may say otherwise people favor killing soon absolute loser work low paid job failed school retard not single friend entire life also tried dating made fun woman especially made life shit growing glad hear finally removed world not blame honest different type therapy year nothing made even one second bearable must die ensure nobody acknowledge disgusting existence anymore kind thing die make sure pain disgusting existence trust people knew child right treat like shit loser pathetic piece shit treat worthless turd anything better glad everybody knew treated like garbage garbage treated people even told kill agree wish could cause pain wanted die not end life | suicide |
friend pretty dark place right wondering anyone tip making friend keep losing fear end alone life get upset alone imagination acting see lot dark shadow feel watched feel like something want die know sound crazy think need make friend incredibly shy approach people also kind lost drive live become nihilistic almost not see point living not impact world die not leave anything behind keep living pain chronic abdominal pain seen doctor not find anything wrong not know fix not really sure spend next thirty whatever year job make money survive spend whole life trying make money survive die point | suicide |
many follower wondering many follower people | non-suicide |
voice inside head not always day random time working walking around apartment like hey suicide like death not necassarily talking time spew thought suicide hard expain like not want peace nothing wearing day day | suicide |
want go r lounge anyone tell anyone r lounge like | non-suicide |
friend invited go camping going go gfs probably would alone go | non-suicide |
normal find thinking suicide usually least every day morning rather getting getting day spent hour bed fantasising jumping bridge people passing would react jumped normal need get help | suicide |
excusei know fortunate life know come rich white family life lake boat know white man could worse know people le fortunate could always worse always response get depressed not problem fortunate not mean not problem feel like problem always get neglected background opinion neglected fortunate beginning not mean not upset feel bad wanting end every fucking time fucking tired not excuse done problem not care hard time get mentally fucking ill not give shit fuck fuck everyone hate constantly feel shitty upset fortunate drilled fucking head everyone talked want help not guilt | suicide |
strain weed called alaskan thunder fuck wtf smoking thought name oh wait | non-suicide |
wish someone chat not know doi wish someone chat talk not want burden anyone need talk suicidal tried every help find like medication nothing work not know anymore | suicide |
okay okay say not mean insane insane shut enjoy feeling | non-suicide |
ugh bad thing year ago feel like nobody talk weird make post back th grade j middle class not joking feel gross disgusted also worried someone class knew told people thing never got caught teacher student fuckin nervous one day someone would come forward tell people would report teacher tell friend saw someone class dammit frustrated ashamed one talk know disgusting make fun want one turn | non-suicide |
want die much debt fuck every good thing wrecked car year | suicide |
turn best friend crush time one girl friend four year obviously teenage boy start develop feeling apparently time build courage ask started liking different guy year ago still upset | non-suicide |
dying would easieri not even trying dramatic real miserable ruin every relationship woman love not even son mom seeing people insecurity fucking brain hurt overthinks tired sick tired not give bullshit getting better want scientific cure want gtfo | suicide |
fun fact einstein bit imposter syndrome believed discovery not deserve fame received | non-suicide |
thing gone wronghello year old never suicidal diagnosed gad mdd march accidentily overdosed meth xanax sending state suicidal psychosis screaming threat self harm purely drug related admitted mental hospital spent two day detoxed never felt popular never party small circle friend boarding school said friend avid weed smoker occassional psychedelic user aware danger recently however home quarentine girlfriend shoplifting alcohol overdose broke suddnely explained ho much shitty boyfriend tried convince not fault entirely not believe feel like complete freak anyone school fear find overdose socially exiled feel like caused nothing dissapointment family friend girlfriend not want burden anymore amp xb thanks letting vent love wish peace | suicide |
need e girl play valorant ngl like hmu something super lonely friend not play valorant | non-suicide |
not know life skill passion not anything outside school not know graduate high school college major someone give advice | non-suicide |
alternative professional helpi not afford professional help condition deteriorating legitimate alternative not diagnosed know fucked head open medication counter anti depressant equivalent | suicide |
year old vegan look like please eat meat fellow peer homo straight dude though sounded kind sus | non-suicide |
suicidal several month b temporary bullshit suicidal month keep coming back husband talked clear option love mental illness untreatable family live mental health care people telling try harder starvation option pesticide option may look actually think easy get not think drug make starvation le unpleasant botched suicide attempt would end jail country not brave enough try conventional method wish could catch one accidental overdoses like movie star get handy not even suicide easier rich people told husband hundred time nicest person world mental illness gotten much worse not capable handling live middle nowhere luckily gun illegal thing give small measure peace committing idea used religious not anymore not god fault people broken alone respect people kill normal people complain life stupid shit like politics idea like disabled family husband nice not comprehend going nicest person world friend fun thing not want true also not listen not want true think getting better sick two year used scared leave house got better though got worse wanting much not understand like nice match mood tone trick trick death messy business watched documentary really sad sick sick utterly alone not going argue husband not comprehend unwell not going try make see not know sick got married thought could fight thought low point lost everything thing got much worse therapist tell try harder put bullshit medication worked would not sick anymore might write letter much put much not going fight anymore point alone starvation pesticide | suicide |
fuck menothing going right friend moving away failing school grandma dying nothing good world nobody love point nobody know gone nobody notice going die lonely not let | suicide |
think bye coming sooni talking gp psychologist lifeline something missing one included tell worth living think coming close time not sorry sick sorry | suicide |
not fall love better die alone live liar burned enough time lying scheming woman cheater unreliable people not fall love fuck throw away afterwards soulmates longer convenient live improve disregard people not matter nobody matter courageous not ever waver remember relationship game hurt first fuck cheat not fall anyone asking break another term prolonged dump remember not need anyone anybody try get hurt hurt | suicide |
fun fact subreddit human watch | non-suicide |
point nd thread meaningful reply previous thread everyone ignoring point life | suicide |
carry anythingi met girl year ago full positiviti spent every hour every minute every day together got really attached one another life great everything would go sleep together wake together genuinly loved eachother would always stop anything would message would started going downhill got heated argument close friend known long time pushed everyone close away except kept contact carried together eventually something changed got even depressed losing friend started pushing away would not talk anything serious anymore jackass distant problem whilst struggled keep people around always met new friend online irl span month two barely talking get better coming back usual self problem girl gotten trying everything get back try avoids everything feel like shit lost without know ending not worth mind mess right thing still lingering mind besides reddit english not first language writing hour sleep please forgive mistake left | suicide |
die painlessly want know die painlessly without hanging would prefer found dead bed thinking overdosing benzodiazepine alcohol even work really want attempt successful | suicide |
cope meaninglessness life grew pretty privileged life always food table got new videogame wanted play babied throughout life never really actually anything hard almost college computer programming thought would something would like really not like okay brings joy second run post secondary school honestly not want job field not like tell every job suck not going like matter find life meaningless like not mind job feel hard get job actual livable wage either work extremely hard get lucky fuck know right person like probably not actually going kill honestly think time hate alive full shitty moment occasional happy one get engulfed shitty stuff soon like true happiness even exist really not think thing truly make happy music playing videogames watching movie insanely hard make enough money something love know sound like baby people way worse fight even though suck know every problem essentially fault not trying hard enough honestly not want deal shit not want work as job not want job next year life pay tax government going wipe as really want end life thing stopping not gun probably never not people care still want play videogames not really anything worth living life meaningless guy deal thought like | suicide |
guy not karma whoring genuinely need advice okay girl really like talk good amount not good conversation start without coming across akward not know feel like drifting apart | non-suicide |
get help graduated college struggling depression took turn worse summer first scary night went hated life fully completely first time not know going texted someone talked calm state suicidal ideation became common experience senior year culminating near breakdown graduation since unable find job effort call walk talk manager us energy running money depression seems getting worse rarely go week without thinking much want dead mom health insurance not cover therapy not really know isolating girlfriend scared might something stupid impulse bad day go know need get job try job basically source anxiety future enormous emotion dump since hate idea getting soulless job going crush year time end rope need help clue find | suicide |
cursed comment day row cursed holy sheep | non-suicide |
taking bf gf application application writing haiku | non-suicide |
anyone want number game truth dare pretty bored gay dm nice day | non-suicide |
not sleepi trapped mind not even cry anymore get | suicide |
donei want die sick feeling empty sick alone never anyone tried kill self harming year nothing ever work need end | suicide |
conversation mom market today mom like green pepper mom seller kg green pepper thank coming ted talk | non-suicide |
someone please make sue person not kill | suicide |
time ago followres anonymous basically title remember big thing follower not knowing might | non-suicide |
f ask girl sleepover question want girl ask u anything answer put answer got lot time ask away lt | non-suicide |
reason kill failed class extremely upset transgender not live anymore hardest one social anxiety obsessive compulsive disorder always depressed not healthy hate family not friend talent purpose life never done anything important life always failed society not accept existence always keep making fun world bullshit always violence terror blood death not worth living | suicide |
thing hate rice cooker not get use making rice pan work way better dishwasher grown washing dish hand not like taking easy way feel lazy people talk teacher fine teacher greet say sentence people talk minute teacher get annoying cringey sorry offended feel free share pet peeve feel free share opinion thing shared | non-suicide |
not know constantly need listening music not alone thought | non-suicide |
farmer miner builder minecraft group personally da farmer | non-suicide |
hate cyclewhat happens feel anxiety procrastinate feel like shit not anything get stuck negative thought justify continuing not anything make everything seem worse thinking killing somehow get thing causing stress feel like gone heroic thing something cause anxiety see counselor know think suicide used hurt often feel fine think feel like much effort want someone know yes brain telling would rather die summarize two stupid article face consequence showing not done master program health profession part time physical disability never really felt like belong difficult wish not feel like much effort respond good thing life seems silly like sick knowing ruin everything moment notice thought aware also mean make thing better not want feel self destructive bounce around wanting get better not wanting get better want people know something seriously wrong want rest break time exist instead endless expectation give ie not showing school tomorrow reinforce behaviour know capable better hard part deep inside not want better every time pull back brink feel like part not heard guess something inside hurt bad would like escape responsibility not know worry never find | suicide |
think like friend found crush weekend went panicking going happen know find happened confused rest class playing game crush two friend chilling playing dart one friend randomly asks think crush respond reply respond another shrug later hear talking secret confused even even later one friend say something tell brain started go fight flight bolted field school end go home type going go camp probably make another post day | non-suicide |
trying find easy way die make look like accidenti not remember time life not suck health issue stupid personality social anxiety since day one job money respect society among friend rightly living parent burden making worse not leave house anymore suck perfect example loser time get hopeful dumbshit happens everything fall apart thought oneday suffering end able live life like normal person dignity not happen option left killing kill people know say coming parent go shit society not reserve need make look like accident trying find way tip please share | suicide |
dae fantasize drowninglately feeling urge fill bathtub cool water submerge want feel swirl lung end | suicide |
urge time not want survive | suicide |
want thigh pic chiken thigh thigh thigh | non-suicide |
parent divorce year still not fixed not take anymorei sitting bedroom knife time thinking end mean contribute society nobody would miss gone friend family please help | suicide |
like song maybe | non-suicide |
friend suck week ago best friend told thought not compatible anymore not friend said ok understand rest friend except ridiculing finally today one not like said never talk suck throw emoji like ok whatever second time still saying bad thing becuase apparently messed time best friend tried cut tie time already time said fuck tried apologize not work fuck gotten knee begged forgiveness long enough sick want friend year decide oh not like anymore bye fine want apologize fuck want attention sorry anyways friend still not cut tie agreeing one saying toxic rely much help school work like sorry dumb guess ridiculed not write whole essay trying apologize best friend literally said half assed apology would done much better best friend dropped like dropped time already not think fuck basil fake name know reddit fuck even not cut tie still ridiculed reason choose fuck show group chat really begging tea hope spring mattress break uncomfortable every day thing shift right cm not notice not need life not need clearly good bye | non-suicide |
think small part people bigger picture tw brief mention csa feel not believe people agree want people agree came realization not everyone time sometimes not make something good something bad sometimes really not worth not believe much part belief past life next life not one think small part bigger picture couple people bigger picture lived life commodity used discarded born not get innocent started life born someone sick fantasy know say people main character syndrome maybe people like main character must supporting actor not really extra think stepping stone towards people bigger picture person background punching bag becomes lesson lead towards sort self realization redemption story always bigger forgiveness healing one think half person half left awhile ago maybe never really whole think always half person never fully mattered situation something happens way towards bad person self realization tired feeling like would spend rest life healing tired told forgive forgiveness not matter plus allowed angry thing unforgivable not matter whether forgive not still going wake applaud realizing hurt people breaking cycle going forgive move pat back others well not matter know peace not experience eye others people born take pain people choose inflict born broken guess really want turn thing around matter bad thing probably feel like would rather try next time | suicide |
hi baes hey hey bae baes talk bro | non-suicide |
not depressive dellusional realistic got mogged toyed perfectly normal natural inferior like | non-suicide |
dome girl smh like bruh none exist already suck smol chance get gf not even want fucc not domme hmph | non-suicide |
kind gun recommend use suicide interested discussing type gun use kill would prefer handgun easily carry around caliber cause damage penetrate way skull definitely not survive attempt exactly best spot aim gun mouth thank help | suicide |
best monster flavour opinion pink one white | non-suicide |
call art | non-suicide |
let u heccin go guy gal got test not even know one question know not care post pretty much everything r teenager | non-suicide |
suicidal thought place find comfortive used throwaway point really not care feel like going die point next week even not kill happened probably wrong not really deny feeling horribly anti social social success either turn worse failure allowed hope b serve remind piece shit c know going happen alive die maybe wake year ago thing ok really not think much longer | suicide |
ever feel stupid essay due online class past sunday not even know kid class morning getting done soon possible teacher not see one not literally thursday | non-suicide |
guy skirt | non-suicide |
thought long long time finally decided done weary struggling not pay bill make partner not work kid constantly others throat son autistic fucking hard deal insists sleeping u zero intimacy always fucking something always keeping score not want compete not want worry anymore going repo car going find somewhere live landlord sell rental house not even pay half owe every month not work another job work commute long partner need help long day driving kid around dropping work taking son therapy feel like failure not provide family want peace want security not either dead | suicide |
birthday yay | non-suicide |
suicidal thought feeling depressed year recently got lot worse suicidal thought nearly everyday not sure would ever attempt suicide constant thought not help matter doctor twice last month not really helpful random moment day break tear recently booked appointment counselor therapist feel like would better dead honestly not take anymore yeah probably man fuck | suicide |
people drug meanwhile listening star war music scrolling bisexual meme waiting crush send pic skateboard nice weekend | non-suicide |
fuck youi want die fucking hate everyone everything want break everything not not fuck ruin everything never seem anything right want fucking break everyone back across knee burn alive not wel enough school anyone truly happy insane anxiety go college life hate anyone else inability ever anything right hell born not want born want break everything often filled rage much failure fucking hate family never shuts hell argues everything mean everything hate not many friend unsure could even call true friend girlfriend broke much fucking bum everything reason unable let go currently drifting motion life watching everything slip away maybe one grade friend conscious anything spike dopamine level able escape reality girlfriend broke ever want drug make fell god allows forget quit vaping gayest shit ever come house beat bloody pulp trying quit jerking smoking disappointment everyone around not feel able maintain expected sorry read utter waste time | suicide |
pls pls fix not hate internet connection get not know get get chance look profile think guy get hold phone get money mom code little bit late stuff get couple thing like not good day lot like said past month know egg know one john good not able last week busy gta little much money account orangutan go gym not | non-suicide |
mask award rich person giving everyone surpose solve | non-suicide |
present tree shook sound like box cereal one ripped corner look sodium sugar label know cereal think dick move get kid clothes cereal christmas think make bitch | non-suicide |
not ever happyanytime happy world like fuck mess like good day today came back class mother yelling face want scream top lung rip hair not stand want relief | suicide |
feel like point tryingi unemployed almost year desperately trying find job almost entire time year went back college ended drop due financial issue applying job every single day various different field sometimes even fast food job never hear back single one serious money issue point worried debt collector end calling way pay top trans caused move back parent hate trans reason not kicked house think still college pretend leave morning end coming back like minute later left work friend also either moved life decided not talk anymore trans not think transitioning going work make happier either not get wrong feel transitioning right choice long enough apparent never going look like woman way small boob still look like man rest life many manly feature going male puberty sure would love attractive not really goal wanted look like woman treated like woman never going happen detransitioning would not make feel better either openly trans get harassed fired job since live shitty conservative area also tired burden everyone around sure might sad die doubtful though would better long run everyone get hate honestly think honestly not even know making post not imagine anyone saying anything could fix not tell oh care not not want feel guilty saw someone die not anything | suicide |
sick right exactly make want give sick people saying problem not bad sick people saying love feel unbearably alone absolutely hate people make feel even alone isolated make everything worse seems whenever talk something usually someone say something make everything worse done trusting people sick seen weak not alone mean feel like love not take alone not want one love want people love accept nothing wrong swear hear loving bullshit someone say feel like really need someone going end hear say people get loved not okay treat like outcast abandon isolate hear unworthy love caring people especially hate hearing people someone listen not quit telling someone unworthy love struggle quit saying fault feeling like not change way thinking not going change way thinking maybe one change thier way thinking not considered weakness want help understanding | suicide |
not going commit like picture weird know not want die often like imagine way could die would happen people around anyone else get | suicide |
not not die sick alive probability daed know tried kill time matter always wake next morning taken many pill person took would dead not messed reason still held long tried hard matter keep feeling like caving matter hard try not get wish owned gun not fix bullet brain hey broke not afford luxury life apparently not afford death | suicide |
disappointed myselfapril really dark time going hang th not know miracle not urge die like never optimistic thought maybe chance feeling worse make short possible terrible person hurt everyone way whole year earth meet vert interesting people life lost everyone also hate fact achiever way food chain depression always get way lightbulb blinking not go way idea trying become nocturnal night not day starting talk le hungry not eat tired talking god today day passed elementary school today kid graduated grad back could not help think heard cheering way home quiet room bottle whiskey would not thought would suicidal lonely year later day mom happy literally feel like break bottle violently carve vein already told going kill dec nothing lose hurting till becauss feel ike entering next level depression feel soulless not feel like life anymore not like talk much mind today could not keep much deserved every bit | suicide |
want able swim yeah terrified water young age couple negative experience also despise feeling water getting nose lack swimming ability not come lack trying either taken numerous lesson last year related school church however one thing holding back time expected already know swim every single time would show would expect know worse would go deep end go citing fear motivate not way decided sick guy clung wall pool party failed every swim test took asked parent looking private instructor since attempt teaching not worked well plus not like idea watched entire family learning process nerve racking every time tried learning public ended terribly one event even asked dummy could practice saving drowning swimmer parent seemed take offense thought could better job also emphasize member able make progress year old grandmother even miniscule best plus anything began happening not faith ability act lifeguard frustrating situation since couple week hard ask help swimming without ridicule not learn younger would happen threw ocean right really unusual unable swim age given different answer would like know least not alone | non-suicide |
think timei think enough pain addiction stand searched end internet help tried everything | suicide |
hello lady rawr hmu girl ahhaha single af aha anytime bae gr single hmu dm open eheheh | non-suicide |
vent someone afraid dieso post first probably last subreddit venting first time life least telling everyone feel feeling pretty bad lately thought might good idea feel better one want read block text comment ok not posted anyway regret later not even know right place not guess deleted mod anyway far remember always weird kid without much friend never social type almost never went outside growing decided instead spend time online like idiot always felt lonely friend growing started always mocking making feel like shit since noone else thought normal learned take shut always stacking layer self hatred doubt top one really started feel depressed not clinically diagnosed afraid talk family due hearing parent saying kid not depressed say acting around year old since went downhill somehow managed make new friend going school friend not toxic somehow made feel worse fully realised kept taking abuse old friend without ever daring talking back afraid tell thought kept hanging kept almost insulted every day without saying anything time kept not going social event staying antisocial starting get bullied bit reason took month realize actually getting bullied even started feel bad bully could somehow tell themself low self esteem never anything defend time always considering asking help online tumblr blog following back never thought overdramatic searching attention never talked today lot thing happend almost made feel even time parent divorce rejected twice crush humiliated front class etc even good thing happend since mainly found new group friend wich really feel good still afraid screw thing end alone father died november remember wednesday came back school mom looking really weird announced news probably lowest point life stayed day without talking anyone staying home went back school acted like fine clearly not not want people worry everyone thought tough emotionally actually heartbroken hopeless last year went college one year programming school dropped became complicated supposed go uni next year germanic language course not know exact translation english sorry going study english dutch order become teacher belgium afraid going drop soon get complicated anyway thing made consider ending life quite time thankfully coward scared death least right keeping ending not know lucky long enough anyway guess needed vent first time life lot could talk think post long enough already lol understand one want comment random vent lonely belgian guy pretty sure people need way help guess thanks anyone read someone feel way want know not alone even not necessarily meaningful way help people help least one person earth lifetime maybe would something waste air | suicide |
one actually want around not like idea committing suicidesuicide make uncomfortable suicide sound bad suicide look bad nobody actually want around die would not missed long could get fear pain semi successful would kill heartbeat wish could get hand gun quiet spot alone wood | suicide |
reason would not good idea get emotionaly engange not spoon would not sad eat love soup | non-suicide |
fucking done not know lie death bet better life like next kanye album people like not everyone | suicide |
not know anymore not sure ever | non-suicide |
always think ending would make pain go awaytoday one hardest day dealing depressed thinking suicide matter much go therapy exercise supposed help thought not working | suicide |
ava addams lisa ann filler filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler fillerfiller filler filler | non-suicide |
little random dab awhile | non-suicide |
helo f looking animal crossing friend party teeheh bored asf could use new friend play need ac buddy please let know | non-suicide |
back soon coming back one else physically help supposed go doctor week ago mum panic attack depression everytime approach busy go messaged one girly friend told going sleep said one ever listens said people lol night talking guy friend directed helpline told feeling age feeling way not right wanting hurt not right neither wanting kill someone god sake give hope | suicide |
tf cinnamon bun girl already seen post idea someone please fill | non-suicide |
appreciation post want thank girlfriend supportive kind caring really appreciate everything | non-suicide |
one reason still alive not sure painless waysi not car making asphyxiate pill would lead death mostly seizure liver damage cutting hurt badly might faint proper damage gun either high building suicide block city | suicide |
f expat feeling worthless alonemy mum diagnosed schizophrenia uncle drunk dad grandmother alzheimer caring age grandfather died support uncle would accuse lying stealing one actually stealing grandma insult openly mum not help f living alone tokyo almost friend support network since close friend moved back home boyfriend one year closest thing whole world moment walked day ago week following finding mum admitted mental hospital plan move australia together even visa decided abandon plan not know want apparently would forcing feeling last year realised not survive relationship commitment phobe moving back state pursue career stand comedy meanwhile found yesterday guy spent almost year came japan moving new girlfriend month together hate job dealing bratty kid spend whole day disrespecting friend back home spoilt rich kid zonked drug shitty music not go home uk stay option would house two alcoholic uncle give shit schizophrenic mum belief one voice raped not grandma not imagine staying japan much longer crazy loneliness feeling starting feel almost every single person ever known either crazy selfish take sick pleasure fucking around walking continually treated like shit least one person life one time sometimes several really starting question fucking point anymore rarely happy someone somewhere always treating like shit nobody actually care enough give respect love deserve nobody reciprocates nice stuff think must not deserve good thing tried move away shitty people find new nicer people even end fucking think must use written kind ink everyone except see breakup schizophrenia diagnosis ex moving new gf happened last day deal friendlessness knowledge broken family shitty job every day one friend quite cold jaded not really help sick sad hope go sleep never fucking wake enough update may th trying reorganise apartment not remind ex boyfriend hoping change environment help feel le hopeless kind like fresh start breaking heart seeing stuff gave feel stuck trapped tokyo everything reminds feel like everything reminder lost want try spend next month single working building back think derive much sense worth people interaction tend rely others usually one two people one people leaf life whatever reason find totally lost really hit low point right still feel like point living anymore going keep feeling like trying find reason stick around well trying find strength stop feeling like | suicide |
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