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posting every day get girlfriend day thishttpsmyoutubecomwatchvqksllylywi | 0 |
I have not tweeted for SIXTEEN DAYS! I miss it =( I've been having fun though! =D Ingrid on mon was frakking awesome BBQ today! | 0 |
insurance changed vendors got new inhaler different vendor right word idk | 0 |
uhorizon telling people im grooming year olds dont listen him hes jealous october dated sister one night decided ask private questions well get know better stuff clearly see ask want this sure youre comfortable went convo going sisters messages reason hes cropped looks like im asking reason im asking nudes im not convo decide think httpsyoutubehtevbhnwpw | 0 |
know one care arcade bowling place requested never gonna give rick rolled alot people feel others | 0 |
finally going to sleep and waking up early to study | 0 |
something got into my eye now it itchy aw | 0 |
feeling ok ion think stay world long cannot keep ugh | 1 |
know copemy car broken way psychiatrist needed appointment needed am rang shaking before explained happened receptionist nice asked anyway could reschedule seen later today somehow next appointment next week said unfortunately availability know im going genuinely survive till | 1 |
Does it really matter? everyday some expert is telling us what's bad for us, don't do this, don't do that. Today running helps with depression. I tell you what's helps with depression experts/news media/celebs/MPs shutting up. #BritainsFatFight | 1 |
ive considered redflag realized would make things worseim older teenager things going pretty damn rough lately quite while ive never wanted endure pain dying considered jumping oncoming traffic overdosing pills week ago realized would make things worse still chance get want life fun plus want look lifeless body able interact world anymore wanted get | 1 |
zero day based columbine high school massacre video diary two boys first know whats going happen think bad student film start talking horrible things going quite school start talking pipe bombs guns going shooting woods lot say movie know film well film forget watching film watching real video two boys madebr br the two boys act like weird cult burn stuff like play station games books dvds homework stuff school stuff two boys anybody friends brothers people see walking street goes daily actives and making gun videos make mentions bullying happens people said stuff clothes things im saying right many people things like thatbr br and also thing people suspected like sensitive topic chosen filmbr br so thats review zero daybr br and lets say end shooting scene messed up | 0 |
anybody wanna talkfeel free message id like talk anybody else going it im years old seem nobody turn emotional support ig im best opening id love listen anyone willing talk | 1 |
hey thing keeping alive possibility study abroadi fucking feel guilty raped fingering count rape saying count rape sitting crying making finish could leave count rape still feel like thats fault fault fault went dorm stayed even though didnt want to thought id help get francisco made everything much worse hate making decision hate saying nothing nothing hate look hate feel hate body soul heart im ugly twisted little thing thats limping around hurt cant get fact theres nobody else blame cant blame him stupid didnt know doing cant blame world fuck world even define that cant blame francisco even wasnt that bad least told truth sometimes terrible gross disgusting rest world im waste space contribute nothing take everything dont give anything return parents barely call mom never say love her ask ask ask dad things never give anything back literally definition excess waste nothing important act like deserve important voice head thats disillusioned positive fuck think is | 1 |
theres nothing really want feels weird really wanting anything idk even want christmas also havent gotten job yet new pc would nice dont even game like anymore wasting years childhood adolescence ill never get back playing dont fill dark empty void anymore | 0 |
deadlift piano today job fucking stressful pays well tho | 0 |
compare hands mine ever came thing big hands means big dick genius greatest lie time hands fucking huge nothing else tho | 0 |
why doe stik o have to be chocolate | 0 |
preferably without becoming addicted | 1 |
ive got a poorly tongue after i burnt it on my chilli last night had a lovely day yday to thanks guy | 0 |
first let say notorious absolutely charming film lovingly rendered time subjects gretchen mol utterly painfully convincing soul contradictions smoothly reified ms page herself irving paula klaw richly drawn workingclass stiffs having met paula movie star news say lili taylors performance unimpeachable jared harris john willie coutts adoringly debauched genius anyone interest recorded history american attitudes toward sexuality must see movie theater preferably votes made dollars count morebr br second allow producer material similar klaws would become famous way affects estimation ms harrons work splendid piece is condition view notorious act political resistance first order ms harron crafted work subtle subversion along v vendetta movie another time timesbr br few readers site aware government see enacted notorious through transcription words uttered closed senate committee hearings close approximation one live right now ms harron expressly disallows political agenda appended film faithfulness facts respectful unsensational way renders them synchronizes notorious present day acts notorious portrays loving accurate detail defined obscene communications decency act recently brought supreme court first amendment case turned back behest bush administration words delicate ineffectual bondage depicted notorious indictable today federal prosecutors whatever hostile jurisdiction choose course hearings senate elsewhere matter cda passed course know nothing it want people peoria telling cannot look likewise people peoria probably want telling theyre allowed view course notorious never indicted hollywood lawyered up countless klaws will however continue steamrolled puritanical bureaucracy advanced aesthetic moral biological composition much yearsbr br in addition notorious posts usc compliance statement mandated unnoticed earmark recently voted law media contains images sadomasochistic restraint required make available ex warrant records age circumstance performers notorious fails regard alsobr br in addition splendid piece entertainment nearly accurate historical document notorious litmus bush justice department judged respect th equal protection amendment perhaps several constitutional grounds regard alone debt gratitude owed mary harron grateful case constitutional otherwise see film | 0 |
bad bhabie made m within hours opening onlyfans turning today yall weird ass mfs | 0 |
the fun thing about writing is sometimes the story pull you in and asks question that will need some researching to be done today and tomorrow are my research day and i will be cooking a great depression recipe i think it would fit the grim dark perfectly | 1 |
wasnt serious joke earlier week made comment comment post pedos im naming anyone reason commented pedo affended clearly joke saw comment pedo joke pedo | 0 |
problem lack loveweve heard get therapist go professional thing least once know therapists psychiatrists etc supposed help us whatever making us feel bad but guys lets honest ourselves times professional drug therapy solve problem origin comes lack love caring tenderness of yes love frustrating many people see supposed help feel better whats supposed help overcome pretty dark moments work find horrible professionals honest pacients keep talking shit keep prescribing drugs keep promising bright future never comes etc never say hey im sorry cant help this theres nothing fullfill empty space got so since honest ever tell truth opportunity pay expensive holidays want exist find cant help problem im going tell need hear therapy professional kind drug kind replace need never had thing love may hard hear know truth need know it start talking shit theres someone waiting there youll find person promise shit professionals do thats say | 1 |
friend might kill tonight please helpive known best friend ever since freshman year high school weve always close ever since opened depression suicidal thoughts everythings gotten steadily worse tonight bf broke said best relationship ever had sent humungous paragraph well could redflag note successful im break right fix this | 1 |
know somehow always fall somehow always feel dissapointed defeated matter hard try optimistic try be cannot seem find lasting friends relationship someone need someone talk get things chest want anymore keep head water keep drowning dissapointment ever felt | 1 |
gordonchiu you re one letter alway korean don t use quot x quot so there s no hope for me | 0 |
finished page history essay yea fun yea one gonna read holy shit im proud | 0 |
amber i don t know how often you check this but i really miss you right now like really really so friggen much i want a hug lt beth gt | 0 |
is looking how to use realtek 8111/8169 with ubuntu server 8.04 LTS | 0 |
@mojoguzzi I was drinking cognac yesterday afternoon, actually. And yes - for medicinal purposes Must do so again I think | 0 |
follow yesterdayi posted asking ml antifreeze would kill final today thinking drinking after boyfriend distant since yesterday loud annoying apologized multiple times hes barely responsive leaving world finally killing would probably make feel better ive attempted redflag multiple times before end hospital dont know would care time contemplating drink right die earlier | 1 |
I'm Lindsay. I love anything true crime, coffee, reading, podcasts, blogging and talking about my dog/kids. I use a lot of GIFs. My spirit animal is the platypus, I'm Bipolar, have anxiety & depression. #letsbefriends pic.twitter.com/z5ed35EITb | 1 |
@heyitsashleyy you're such a sweet sister.. | 0 |
im dead inside whats left now die physicallymy biggest fear height im minutes jumping window please need someone talk to please | 1 |
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ok im scaredi certain id able go school get trade would high paying job would allow live life totally realize every trade need math skills mathematically inclined fact im shit it maybe trades less simpler math others doomed fail life sheer lack intelligence | 1 |
fellow teenagers impossible got gf rlly proud thought could share guys | 0 |
report from italy 9 death missing 00 injured italy earthquake via rai http tinyurl com c mja | 0 |
watching a texas tale treason feel renewed disgust nature hollywood beast inside interviews conversations involved project common sense comradery rebelliousness spans backgrounds social classifications even geography attributed hard work entire productions undying commitment project love story original film complete creation vacuum creator scale people involved waldos hawaiian holiday amazing me budget glory production trailers craft services amenities all yet everyone involved stuck right it nothing ever comes project antstuie productions laid foundation serious honest company thats never going lay take sell make movie money id like see la director go guerrilla process get shot realistic true life cinema lacking time cg green screens masses may enjoy entertainment spoon fed nice bite sized censored calm bits large group people world share opinions insights filmmakers still make films love material love storytelling dvd sales box office loved documentary hope ifc cahones pick air maybe maybe one person decide pick camera film real life viewer even temporary understanding everyone everywhere same anyone anywhere true storyteller | 0 |
What a strange existence you've created where you've suffered depression and also antagonize people who still feel it. Literally zero empathy here. https://twitter.com/ayanatheoracle/status/988861135142248449 ⦠| 1 |
it may sound strange but i ve come to realize most of my anxiety stem from my appearance whenever i m out in public i get a rush of depression because i feel like i am ugly and everyone s judging me for it in reality i know it s not true because even if i wa hideous nobody would care it s just in the moment it feel so real and unbearable | 1 |
in the garden i just looked at my estimated grade and im suposed to get a B in geog and re LOL. i should revise some geog for tomorrow :L | 0 |
good looking bad personality sucks repost forumi notice people say stuff like attractive people try life looks main thing matters guess understand people think media whatnot ive learned throughout life completely like that ive rejected broken men based im boring uninteresting fun depressing etc men never feel connection me ive also fucked years sex men right away basically basing relationships sex ive shitty personality years feels difficult change seem authentic fun since long every time guy rejects breaks me girl get always good looking me makes feel like shit know must better personality me even though look good still get guy want know sounds mean feel happening even ex boyfriend im still love hurts much im still friend saying likes girl have fun interactions makes smile even want to know never fun interactions go dinner sex fault wish could change get like again want hope keep friend maybe hell like seems like small chance want start him no think im perfect way insecurities like majority people do whenever think wanting get work done fix subtle things come back remember getting even better looking going help get man likely make feel better myself basically want ctb im man im love with hate wish someone else think im going go anywhere life trying get career thats different story yes know definitely people worse everyone different though much take life whatever problems someone has still problems even people consider slight problems know anymore chance could start guy | 1 |
think ive reached end lineim feeling little helpless overwhelmed right now ive many psychiatric drugs years now usual story work stop med key pin keeping together showing symptoms tardive dyskinesia where cant stop certain motions happening it started intense drug clozapine get vitals done daily weekly blood tests runs risk depleting white blood cell count feel med complete last resort work takes even get started it risks associated it new drug working right im suicidal im sleeping hours day im skipping work showering eating feel turn destiny kill myself ive daydreaming lot lately wish killed various points life thought bet future ill wish killed now im going wait big family vacation were taking feb one last time hang family say goodbye | 1 |
neevd know of any more site to play game on i ll never get past the second footpath on frogger | 0 |
listen shitass love goddamit fucking idiot matter dumbfuck stupid ass recognize ok hear dipshit may think never good enough shut the fuck up idiot good enough deserve love affection love dog | 0 |
don t really know if that make sense but it a sort of feeling i get a lot | 1 |
everytime feel like giving tell stress going next monday finally start holidays worry school things months | 0 |
hello first time posting sub thank me anyone cooccurring psychotic disorder schizophrenia schizoaffective disorder along redflag interesting studies explaining really affect other wondering might others experience both | 1 |
want kill self feel like deserve live sufferi want death easy hurt someone love much cant cope fact did manipulative emotionally abusive need punished it im much pain want die idea help hope die go hell | 1 |
tomorrow th birthday dad couple minutes ago seriously threatened kick house title says alli deal depressionsocial anxiety parents call jokemy dad want understand keeps calling namesjust minutes ago told go away housgo room get herei older brothers never told thatbut alone depressed suicidali know doi want go away everything start new lifeoh alsotomorrows th birthday | 0 |
@lindutt 'Tabor Goes To Heavens' looks interesting, as does 'Turkish Gambit'. Lot's of Russian movies to explore. | 0 |
@Jonasbrothers Sounds awesome! I hope you're having fun, and I can't wait to see it! Good luck with the rest of rehearsals! | 0 |
i understand nothing from this twitter | 0 |
getting work film made back summer shot partly biltmore estate asheville nc remaining parts winstonsalem massive offices rj reynolds used several office scenes places around beautiful city know tulip capital world winstonsalem enjoyed work although exceedingly hard work building sets like golf mexico renee russo jim belushi went date also big hand decorating bar larry encounters magical bartender mr destiny tacked pics wall sports heroes decorated phone booth larry makes phone call cab even put mothers photo eye level could freeze frame show watched it remember dyeing grass old house green dye first soddedit new house new development guess leased moviethen cut newly laid sod make look niceman hard far movie made idea would like seeing fell love really tells story what if good ever seen it including great wonderful life cried many timesbr br i cant count got meet wonderful actor michael caine shooting scenes old minor league ballpark larrys boyhood scenes played replayed remember done take heading back trailer ran asked picture quite amiable said why not good guy really natural forceful actor cant say jim belushihe full himself smoking big cuban cigars talking loudly sobr br everyone earshot could hear every word career never take decent tv career recently would say watch movie ever get chance wonderful really heartfelt real feel larrys pain enters new world mr destiny gives hitting homer wants badly people believe bad guy everyone thinks is think belongs nuthouse eventually wins people wants real life back badly especially wonderful wife played beautifully linda hamiltonand wants dog back see it | 0 |
bruh wanna try sushi fucking bad looks absolutely delicious im pretty hungry rn oh wanna try bad know nothing good places around | 0 |
im tiredhi hideously rambling im sorry seem able form proper train here guess say roughly im male selfemployed its hard hard surviving succeeding it hard say exactly whats wrong guess many things feel like ive fighting flags whole life everyone ive ever loved betrayed one point another friends parents woman loved anything whole adult life ive strong others best friend he betrayed too woman let back life maybe years ago recognized genuine remorse fiance many people rely help always seem unlimited strength always willing help others essential nature cannot help it strong helped weak instinctively years ago best friends life shambles sick broke lonely one seemed care except me helped it close redflag believe would done it weve always pair since met grade lives unhappy best fought years back back truly awful shit kept happening us betray me remorseful perhaps relationship work end think relationship woman work would never returned friend again parents betrayal really personal discuss love me again forgave actions sometimes people understand wrong maybe figured eventually maybe not still dad awesome long time know loves much is strange person seem understand emotional pain well would swear alien know fact produced human offspring wants help simply incapable understanding whats happening me cannot understanding im finally crumbling why met ex three years ago work friend first real relationship women seem like reason think im unattractive something personality maybe know understand it love first sight bullshit wasnt real said felt too bipolar bipolar fact somehow broken attractive bizarre insane need protect around me felt good suffer bipolar fits rage depression felt like meant do felt strength meant doing although times frustrated mood swings sweet loving normal honestly time close loving lifelong depression vanished like never there past nightmares problem got angry occasionally refused discuss past much really understand life horrible ever want relive events guilt rage things past finally free them think ever factor though break up edit ill never depressed crazy see typo want fix it | 1 |
Happy Mother's day to all the madres out there. | 0 |
killed myself okanyone get im asking | 1 |
genuinely feel like cant get thismy girlfriend together years started dating senior year undergrad recently broke idea im going get this ive verge tears day rush bathroom building people wouldnt see cry already deal abandonment issues support system cause hard open friends family genuinely dont think get this think relationshipmemories ways take life without suffering much im grad school hardest part year cant focus class office nights near impossible dont know do overwhelming thing keeping taking life imagining effect itd immediate family close friends dont want feel anymore know cliche seems dramatic needed say somewhere | 1 |
please helpi thoughts long im medication helped all soon think find someone understands wants help leave think get much people leave cause wont give sex thought getting better could see hope gone know anymore friends gone want hurt family telling this want deal more becoming much | 1 |
me either dying redflag dying cruel illnesswhat miserable life would love able live carefree healthy many reasons live healthy soon illness comes play even would otherwise fight redflag silent actually happy person would like live long life planet earth illnesses rob joie de vivre | 1 |
br br presenting lily mars one genre film sadly seems disappeared studio system ok know bias reasons think movie stand outbr br although basic plot lily mars judy garland goes new york becomes star wins heart director van heflin pretty stock hollywood story period writers vary theme bit usual although lily gets big break star quits successful swallow pride go back playing minor role showbr br judy garland enough saidbr br supporting cast includes really great performances spring byington lilys mother truely wonderful fay bainter the mother director john thornway van heflin standout supporting performance though goes character actress connie gilchrist frankie one time actress turned theater custodianbr br worth watch sure one movies designed make feel better world dreams | 0 |
think im control freak im also tiredi think anyone would shocked died ive long history mental illness neglectfulemotionally abusive childhood high school dropout etc met h current boyfriend broken me without getting it jumped relationship h patient kind nightmarish volatile hateful semblance healthy relationship was and still dont know recognize someone actually loved me together years broke seemed like final time thing is h sick entire time id known him cancer still always unrelenting bitch bit ego him guess blame much genius iq dealt crazy family members whole life ever catch fucking break reason feel like dying h deserve life dealt good boy sweet boy started relationship someone else months later h wants get back together panic tell im single im relationships years pass h gets sicker feel guilty even kissing him boyfriend shitty girlfriend shitty person love him loves even though bad person smart perfect grows sicker still get bored talks much youtube videos hes able leave house socialize agoraphobia depression make hard visit often bad person it foolishly believe get better handle polyamorous thing absolutely handled h dies sleep unexpected month pass month pass tired people continue come short comparison waiting waiting waiting baby | 1 |
im fucking sociopath nowi want kill rape people longer feel suicidal fucking hate human race cant connect anyone feel nothing rage fear apathy capacity love compassion felt fucking hate entire city calgary complete failure mental health system longer friends family allies go anymore hahaahahahahah fucking hate everything care go jail life prison least im still alive right | 1 |
see comment why english class boring | 0 |
way legally make sure one deal giving funeral burial want burden family that advice needed | 1 |
so a few week ago i landed a new job in a multimedia job that installs the run of the mill thing acoutics audio video lighting network electrical engineering you name it the interview process wa a pretty straightforward and laid back interview and i got the job my first project wa to create a d acoustical model of a church based on blueprint the thing is i never read a arch blueprint in my life and this is the first time so seeing all the different symbol number and whatnot are scaring the hell out of me the employee here are willing to train me however looking at all the diagram and what not i feel intimidated i don t feel cut out for the job i feel afraid at the lack of thing i don t know i m not sure what to do any help | 1 |
karma whores people survive internet points smol pp change mind | 0 |
let u know how he s doing ok | 0 |
thought movie quite good tcm turner classic movies three one night offbeat humor kept til five kelly performs beautifully role especially grandma whose quip almost caused laugh seat main actress alright father able keep character isolated marriage conflict kept humor coming like good offbeat older movie would recommend it unlike comment like gene kelly perfect leading actor many early musicals think role oozes charisma one drawback dance scenes get little longwinded get those clear | 0 |
lifei think im pretty much done homeless month im abusive relationship lost many friends really place go see point continuing everyday battle biggest fear failing redflag sad that fear death thats im looking forward to | 1 |
How many of you mamas out there have had postpartum depression? How many of you moms out there got help for it?#themedicalmamac #postpartumdepression #mentalhealth #MentalHealthMatters | 1 |
hurts live hurts remind good things lost never come back mei abandoned person held closest heart cannot see reason keep fighting disgusting life left with things never get better worse way much going downhill existence strength make change kickstart life miserable broken condition now trying fucking trying never spent much time talking people trying hard keep mind occupied speaking therapist nothings helping get this even sure want get thisand alone darkness bedroom memories keep hammering many contrasting feelings nostalgia remorse hatred want frustration lovelovei know serious constantly keep thinking much would hurt slice wrists open constantly feel like writing one last message every person lovedi sure endure this woke crying thought ending myself | 1 |
worked legs shaking like hell ouch | 0 |
stuckwent outside last night probably home around am planned know why around hours standing sitting staring railing back fourth kept thinking this dunno whats called stopping me wanna it really do bad get cant sure anxiety looking wondering bad itll hurt height think ending another way sure though appointment nurse wednesday dunno im supposed hold im keep thinking going back tonight actually it im stuck | 1 |
Recommendations on how to deal with depression? Any methods anyone can share? | 1 |
llordllama oh no i had an obadiah too name that start with e are generally good | 0 |
remembering mom singing sunshine moves tears thing keeps calmshe used sing time little lullaby im feel good times gone dad says make new memories together family isnt same asked mom sing didnt sound like soothing voice remember cried tonight im crying now thought forgot cry cant resist it looking old toys old memories ill never times back remember going park dad kindergarten playing autumn try recreate memories isnt same one lyric song breaks me please dont take sunshine away want die badly im sunshine cant leave life stressful dont understand feel like im falling lyric telling stay shes telling stay cant handle it cant im scared im scared im scared im scared im scared good times gone want go badly song damn song damn lyric cant dont know do | 1 |
@bitprophet ooh, thanks for the heads up | 0 |
im litterally crying nostalgia rn looking old spotify playlists played one classical music it first song plays good all next song nuvole bianche may know piece look trust me just wonderful remembered listening whenever would get ready sleep piece amazing hits different level wow nostalgia | 0 |
since nobody talk might well talk myself wanted family failed like everything else ive attempted life failure failure tragedy tragedy disappointment disappointment havent looked mirror days genuinely hate myself hate am hate getting help l ruined life haileys life hate im going everyday see beautiful daughter doesnt matter meds doctors put on im sick im unfixable im broken amount sadness depression medicated cant talked professional ive held onto feelings long became part am dont want leave world want family want see daughter get school bus first day school want see siblings graduate high school want see friends succeed live life instead existing realized things done without here dont want anyone sad go want people happy want people relieved im cancer everyone meet dont even realize damage create done im tired burden everyone im tired disappointing everyone im tired know everyone tired too wouldnt call death redflag thats harsh word sacrifice peace something never able provide anyone ever life hailey always love you nothing good me please dont let death upset you time together best years life worst you im sorry everything put through daughter dont want go daddy really sick im going get better dont want growing hating sickness also dont want hate took out im lot pain pain going grow get older born made goal everyday night you thats longer option spirit everywhere go daddy always there parents im sorry underachieving son wanted friends lot come gone lot us grew apart im sorry guys go im pain boys laugh joke long eventually feel feelings couldnt asked better friends guys ive slept houses times rough ill always appreciate yall want everyone happy please dont mad please dont sad happy im something right once | 1 |
@tommcfly then ure off to brazil right?woop. http://bit.ly/VY5WW check that out haha bowling for soup's cover rule | 0 |
always fight peoples attentionno one actually cares even say do big lie existence always ignored literally fight anyones attention world goes around me everyone around seems making connections im sitting barely existing blatantly ignored even continue exhausting im anymore obviously one cares would getting ignored damn time would fight everyones attention even people family one fuckin cares | 1 |
posted before still aroundi dont know anymore new medication taking feelings away honestly dont even know treatable depression life going nowhere im terrible hate job wife nothing grow apart friends driven away everyone life relationship family feel alone head every day replaying feelings one talk to singular reason killed yet sole provider wife even love point know committed redflag insurance money even enough keep afloat cant afford therapy dont qualify sort assistance boat sinking nowhere turn to | 1 |
get dying withwhy people suffer trudge dark cruel place years decades fair anyone wants check early rather miserable physical mental ailments basic fundamental right die person chooses one else say otherwise | 1 |
even possible fix always broken fell apartplease anyone anyone all hear say want feel alone anymore good life far all im beginning think meant feel happiness begin with maybe time go ive never told anyone life detail ive always wanted vent cry know someone else earth knows ive gone through im going through please read need someone know im bad person life female years old parents dropped nanas house day birthday never came back me told want me mom pregnant step dads child wanted start family him dad also girlfriend left reason never got divorced dad ended children several different women know moms kid sister others met briefly fathers funeral mom never liked me look much like dad hated him younger great grandmother forced meet twice week home could get know sister mom would tell sister things like spit face hit me push ask stop without getting yelled at thankfully sister grew older adore now dad hand really know well man shwed nanas house every steal money belongings drug money also liked show drunk wanted fight nana also like much reason kept grandpa loved cherished greatly sadly died first grade angel kept safe everyone else died one protect me nana began telling much despised died pulled hair told devil someday world would know evil was would say son want me something wrong me want either promised me second grade graduated high school longer welcome home would get rid sooner would look bad so uncle worst all always hurt me also man showed wanted money drugs would hurt arms knees leaving bruises gave money great grandmother would give helping around house visited one night around am showed house again banging door nana asleep felt brave night locked deadbolt told leave yelled banged louder refused let in next day saw news night showed home left house immediately went family friends home sadly familys friend opened door unlike me turned uncle high crack night looking money buy drugs with visited man murdered taking money used crowbar man years old man helped nana many many times nothing eat needed something family children us broke heart asked nana going funeral said fault died given son needed instead going funeral sent away days hid uncle house decided turn in man funeral one attended uncle nana girlfriend side entire time people school bad group even claimed nothing wrong represented okay part left time life long event dad used dirty needle drug use got aids take care moved us state gave money since work spent drugs instead homework dad would call drug dealer sort pills look pill using school provided laptop make sure paying for often found bags unknown powders crack hidden room grades started slip point often fell asleep class dad would get high turn lights on pee everywhere scream night felt brave one night asked stop school two hours needed sleep told go hell promised turned kicked house two months later high school graduation idea give tickets ended giving mom sister step dad dad nana program left building looked family see anyone crowd called mom showed up stood looked nana friend mine got phone call her called tell come feel like it instead decided visit uncle prison two hours away thats realized one come one cared enough take hour day me surrounded families yet nothing cried spot friends mother let stay day graduation moved around streets awhile nice police officer offered help contacted grandma mothers side really know thankfully said could stay her tried get college point neither mother father would give information could fill paperwork get financial assistance throughout years developed severe depression anxiety suffered panic attacks daily leave house whole life revolved around fear eventually got help that least temporarily took trip florida grandma first time year later finally felt little bit okay point life two days trip received text blue read youre piece shit dad spoken nana since made leave help schooling paperwork understand done immediately broke tears right there hotel trip ruined five words stole another part me continued therapy psychiatrist tried talking getting disability refused work time no function normal human being goal get better get job wanted prove could make something myself months later night someone knocked door got bed looked window nanas boyfriend opened door asked going on looked second saying your dad died days ago head raced could even respond turned around got car nana left cry yet walked room sent mom text dad died minutes later called pick up sat awhile last words youre piece shit let go cried rest night went another piece me funeral one worst days life showed anxious look sad enough act want go home walked room mom asked go see him want to knew looked like skeleton point hed lost ton weight looked nothing like himself denied went straight nana gave hug may mean knew hurting everyone stared kept whispering thought head nana opened mouth you disappointed him stared wondering meant he suffered lot stole him stole anything anyone understand all he knew bad person everyone knows stood tying keep straight face legs began shake continued i know way are thought would come see died kids came except you even know hospitalized time remember exactly way felt point eyes me filled hate lips started tremble tried speak couldnt kids brothers sisters never knew giving looks like belong there ran room cried turned dad told everyone stealing money bank account never course ive never even bank account myself cousin told hed actually gotten high spent money forgot spent told everyone stole it wanted run explain would never thing im type person would believe know loved him stand chance bad one knew would live that branded waste space long time ago wash away could try harder nothing could stop trying months received hateful messages via facebook ignored everything tore apart inside lost progress id made therapy one night little bit later took bunch pills cut arms legs up nana found kitchen floor called ambulance ended mental facility week though things started look up felt like life mattered facility nice me helped me day discharged went facebook looked old messages deleting people brought down saw several unread messages old highschool friend trying get reply two years replied thinking could use friend years since one eventually hung together since year later mother another child decided move offered live boyfriend old home happily so thinking wed stable living situation is step dad started showing house high saying house car driveway one would steal things would dig trash leave hateful notes door mom stole car began lose weight went pounds pounds bones stuck everywhere looked sick time handle constantly coming around acting crazy drug use mom came one day knocked door opened stuck finger face said raising rent raked yard two weeks told rake broken shwed told leave flipped off got car broke down asked could treat way could act like never acted like mom should asked could steal car yell leaves yard response fuck you flipped backed driveway sank knees front porch panic attack want homeless again id homeless many times before called boyfriend work even speak could cry phone finally able tell happened came home soon could calmed went back work hour later step dad showed up stood scared open door know much could take surprisingly apologized told go mom wrong said realized once high left work felt little bit relief asked small told stressed developed stomach ulcer true wouldnt accept that told knew crack like looked like abusing it never touched drugs life began telling people addicted drugs boyfriend abusing me take anymore boyfriend decided needed get away them longer taking care myself miserable made month knew moving would hard decided anyway brought home boxes work began pack things slowly surely nights later someone banged bedroom window around am began yelling step dad screamed answer door calling police boyfriend jumped answered door step dad burst hit boyfriend friend recognize step dad continued hitting boyfriend head screamed me threw mail floor dug trash said going call police said stealing mail mail actually junk mail cable internet grocery store junk mail step dad shaking terribly spitting boyfriend high again digging though trash again said leave right would call police finally enough told call police knew wouldnt pushed towards door yelled get out finally left another panic attack lived tent that last part gone finally it live camper now working water electricity use old tablet local wifi im far gone point never leave camper bathe brush hair change clothes cant breathe anymore anxiety bad cant go buy groceries cant look people eye im skeleton now im afraid people im afraid everything boyfriend told long ago im strongest person ever met could never dealt this strong im here taking space im not exactly wanted be worthless nothing broke piece piece nothing left fix hope me empty empty nothing nothing | 1 |
suicidal im beta malei hate term represents toxic masculinity however best way phrase it i am a pussy form confrontation back down think evan superbad want able normal person im guy party friends upstairs fucking girls im awkwardly stood kitchen watching people fun women repulsed me natural born alphas betas fact determined genetics knowing existence never get taste like alpha makes life seem meaningless kill myself friends go things im pussy do cant fucking nervous sweaty creepy pedo around girls cant even talk fucking crowd without sweating voice trembling face red tomato cant become alpha kill life worth living pussy | 1 |
i love byt hte much vant deal feel ike cant breathe wont let treat like wont let ber boyfriend either | 1 |
Franco made breakfast for Mom. Here he's trying to cut the strawberries (only safe knife #fb http://twitpic.com/4wsmw | 0 |
it fucing fucking passed got accepted online school again odds stacked yet it im happy csnt contain fucking lets go | 0 |
sure submit question professional post first years old actually happy since puberty life seem get ground younger brother married even children see obstacles everywhere friends talk see less less also getting married kids feel connected environment especially people everyone seems concerned winning interested mainly looking friendship people interested transacional friendships bought house noisy regret sensitive noise people think me people seem function kind autopilot know everyday becomes heavy suffering depression know anymore | 1 |
miss friend much even though draws dicks notebooks still miss friend | 0 |
adults like dare get angry publicly humiliated disrespected you | 0 |
became honorary femboy days ago could still post pictures crap posted video onesie another eating icepop talking camera bunch people started calling femboy legit ask meant guess am reason might honorary im actually genderfluid call self femboy tho | 0 |
@Adweek When Friends Struggle With Depression, This App Helps Avoid Potentially Harmful Phrases http://twib.in/l/MxzLzydaRB67Â via @adweek pic.twitter.com/a6yvb33h2Y | 1 |
do physics assignment difficult cant focus almost am wake early it im scared ill oversleep tho hahah | 0 |
Well it was a great trip but I'm so happy to be finally headed home. | 0 |
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