title
stringlengths 1
300
| content
stringlengths 1
39k
⌀ | score
int64 0
6.38k
|
|---|---|---|
Rude Uncle | I just wanted to post on here to get this off my mind, sorry it’s a little lengthy haha. My dad passed away about 3 1/2 years ago, so it’s just me, my mom and two older brothers. My grandma moved in a few months ago into a little apartment to help us with our bills (our house is in foreclosure and we are barely staying afloat). My dad was the main bread winner, and was very passionate about gardening and so on, but because we are all busy with school, full time jobs (we are all essential workers besides my mom) we haven’t stayed on top of it as well as we should have. My uncle came over a few days ago and made a rude comment to my grandma saying that our house “looks like a wilderness” and when she offered to pay his son money to clean up he said that it’s not worth what she was offering. I don’t live in the best of areas so people do tend to throw trash in our yard (I pick it up but sometimes it gets too overwhelming). My uncle and his entire family don’t work, he and his wife live off the state and is able to sit home and care for his yard and so on, in addition to his adult children not having jobs, and his teens still in school. But, they all are home all day to help out and do work. His comment really dug deep because I know (personally) that our house does need some sprucing up, but hearing a family member say this just made it worse. He’s the type that always complains when he doesn’t get something and feels like everything is owed to him. It just makes me feel sad that we don’t even have the energy to keep up with our yard. Since my dads been gone everything is so gray still, especially with the repercussions of his death (a story for another day). I’m just so frustrated and angry at his rude comments, especially because he knows we are struggling.
Sorry this was long, I just really wanted to vent :( | 7 |
help | how u deal with sadnesss? | 5 |
I lost my beloved Guinea Pig back in February, this year.. | Her name was Lilly. She was so strong, beautiful, and everyone in my family loved her, especially myself and the dog too.
I would always come to her cage, and see her, give her food, and say hi. She had a lot of freedom too. She would go outside, and there, i would watch her play all day long.
As you could tell, I loved Lilly so much. I dreaded the day she would pass away..Then, that thought became reality..On February 26th, 2020, my sweet girl passed away from old age..I had emotional breakdowns over her passing, and to this day..I miss her.
I have had a lot of negative thoughts about my life ever since she passed, I almost took my life away, thanks to depression. I cried, and cried..Knowing that i won’t see her again, until i, myself pass away. I hope to god, that she is in Heaven..I hope she’s with her sisters again. I hope i’ll see her once i die. My sweet Lilly pegs, i miss you :( | 8 |
Dread | Lately I just feel like I dont want to exist. I do not want to die, nor do I have suicidal thoughts or tendencies, but I wish I was never born. Or that I was created as a bird or some other animal that has squeaked past the authority and expectations of modern day standards. The more I think about this the more "abnormal" or unhealthy I feel.
I used to be so happy and bubbly. Even when I was sad or depressed, I always knew it would be ok again and then I would go about and genuinely enjoy the enjoyable parts of my life. But now I'm just gray all the time. Maybe the quarantine is getting to me, but it feels like a permanent sadness. How do I get joy back in my life? | 6 |
Lost a baby chick today | We had chickens sitting on eggs for a while. They didn’t do a good job, and we figured the eggs were not going to hatch. They were down to only one hatchable egg after scavengers and losses, and today I walked out to the coop and found a tiny fuzzy tan chick. I was ecstatic. That little chick defeated a lot of odds.
I went inside to get a little pen for the mother and baby, and it took me a few minutes to find it. When I came back out, the baby was gone. I panicked. I looked everywhere. Finally, our biggest, meanest hen pranced in with something dangling from her beak. It was my sweet, tiny, tan miracle chick, battered and savaged beyond recognition. The hens KILLED the baby. They killed her. She must have died in terror.
I cried for hours. I don’t know why this hurt me as much as it did, but I am so terribly sad. I don’t know what to do. All my normal coping mechanisms are not available because of quarantine. I’m crying just typing it out. | 7 |
'Double Rainbow Guy' Paul Vasquez has died | [https://www.cnn.com/2020/05/11/us/paul-vasquez-double-rainbow-death-trnd/index.html](https://www.cnn.com/2020/05/11/us/paul-vasquez-double-rainbow-death-trnd/index.html) | 2 |
Every day is sad | I just hate existing. I don’t want to off myself or anything but I fucking hate the circumstances I was born into. I’ve never had an actual friend in my entire life. Every single person i trusted eventually betrayed me. I’m a nice caring person but people don’t see that. Ive never been very social because I’m pretty awkward so the people I do end up befriending end up being shit heads trying to use me. I hate being alone but always find myself there anyways. Even if I’m with people im never not by myself. I don’t know how long I can go pretending it’s all ok even though deep down I just want to vanish from my life and go someplace new. I hate all the people around me even my own family. Every human I’ve met is a piece of shit and I’m included in that. We all suck so hard but pretend like we’re the shit. We’re nothing but monkeys that can make stuff and it becomes really clear just looking at how people interact.
There’s no point to this rant I just wanted to write out how fucking alone and painful my existence is to me I guess. | 12 |
Today is my 20th birthday | Today is my birthday but it just passing as a normal day or even worse , there isn't any party , no body is excited about it , and even I am damn neutral about it . | 8 |
Loneliness | I want to believe that some people just fall in love, but I can't.
The world is vain.
Appearance is the first thing judged when meeting someone new. Even I am guilty and often have to remind myself that I have no right to do so.
I want to have that connection with someone else, but I cannot pass the first test.
I've given up and decided that I will be a wonderful aunt to my future nieces and nephews.
Possibly considering adoption/fostering.
Since I won't have kids on my own, I want to at least make a difference in the lives of those who need it the most.
I write this with tears in my eyes and a heavy heart, as I hope someone can turn my pessimistic views around, but I've learned to set my expectations low so that the disappointment does not crush what's left of my soul. | 11 |
Husband focus more on Video games | I have an underlying condition like asthma and heart problem that's way we I opt to work from home and also my husband took a leave from him work to be safe from this virus. But recently he had this hobby and went back to video gaming and streaming through twitch. He is so into it and focus that he always wants things to be done quickly or fast like eating, resting, watching,cooking, movie or talking with me.
I'm being supportive with him. I even volunteer to make the twitch banner and logo for his twitch channel. But he said when I tried to talk to him and discuss about priorities just like now, I'm not feeling well and I having extreme tummy aches and sore throat- He said I'm always criticizing and negative on him. He said I dont support him and I always go negative. I was hoping this quarantine is also a time for us to bond and get more time together but he always wants to play and stream. I felt like its okay to play and stream once in a while but not to the point you spent almost 8hours or more streaming and neglecting important things.
Am I wrong in this?
I just feel so unimportant and always second priority.
I guess all I have is myself at the end of the day. | 8 |
This is how I feel... | You know when you’re playing COD with your friends and then you do so bad and everyone’s so damn toxic and then you start crying on the mic while you’re playing a damn video game and all your friends just laugh at you but you’re honestly so hurt and you just wanna cry forever because you can’t get any kills and you can’t deal with the hate and hostility not just towards yourself but also your friends are swearing and screaming at each other and it just pains you when you hear them getting so upset and being so mean to each other as well as being mean to you so then you just set your controller down and your right stick is broken so you’re just spinning in circles and crying, still crying, with tears streaming down your face and your throat starts to burn and meanwhile your friends are still screaming at each other and then you lose the match 32 - 75 and then you play another match but at this point you can’t even handle it anymore and you absolutely hate your life so you just start jumping off the edge of the map over and over again no longer having any emotion but then the game decides to not only make it difficult for you to get kills but also to even just kill yourself and it spawns you in the middle of the map so you just throw a Molotov down at your feet as soon as you spawn in and you end the match going 1 - 63 and that one kill was just because you threw your Molotov down one time and an enemy walked into the fire and all your friends laugh at you when the match is over and they just don’t understand and they keep screaming into their mics and by this point you’re out of tears and your throat is so hoarse that you can’t even make any vocalisations anymore but you keep playing because you want your friends to have a full squad even if you’re not contributing anything to the game so you play another match and it’s on the absolute worst map ever created except it’s not the worst map and normally you enjoy playing on the map but because you’re so emotionally drained and depressed now every map is the worst map and you actually decide you’re going to start trying again but then you go 0-10 in the first 2 minutes so you just sit there at spawn and shoot all of your bullets into the wall but then your friend runs in front of you while you’re doing it and because it’s hardcore you kill your friend and they get pissed at you for team killing even though it was entirely their fault for running in front of your bullets and then another friend does the same exact thing and now you’ll receive reverse friendly fire if you damage another teammate so you just run around the map and throw Molotovs at your friends so you can kill yourself and then you stop and just go prone next to a car and shoot the wheels with all of your bullets and then you get shot by an enemy when you’re just trying to suffer in peace so then you finally say you’ve had enough except you can’t speak because you have been crying so much so you just leave the match without even saying a word to your friends in the past 20 minutes and then you turn your console off and get in your bed and go and cry yourself to sleep but there’s no tears and there’s no sound and your throat burns so bad that you can’t even sleep so you just lay there for 2 hours and then you think about all the stuff you’ll have to do the next day and then you actually shed one last tear and the eventually you fall asleep and when you wake up the next day you find that you’ve lost your voice and your throat still hurts so you just lay in bed and put your face down into your pillow and silently scream, pushing your face harder down into the pillow, until you can no longer breathe and you pass out but then your brother comes into your room to try to steal your Pokemon cards to take pictures to sell them on eBay and then he looks over at you and realises you’re not breathing and he freaks out and calls your mom, crying, and she runs in and asks what’s wrong and your brother says he got a paper cut from the Pokemon cards because some of the Pokemon cards were actually fake and were just paper because you didn’t grow up having very much money so you made do with what you had and often had hand me downs from your older brother and had to make handmade toys and wear hand made clothes so you made those Pokemon cards out of construction paper because they were of your favourite pokemon but you couldn’t afford them and then your mom and brother walk out of your room to go get a bandage for your brother’s paper cut and then you never end up waking up because while your body’s face down, you are unable to take in any oxygen so you asphyxiate but when you wake up in heaven everything is so peaceful and you’re no longer sad and you no longer feel any pain and everyone around you has smiles on their faces so you smile too and you walk on the fluffy white clouds of heaven and go through a doorway which turns out to be the official entrance to hell and the “heaven” you were in is just the lobby and instantly all of your pain and sorrow washes over you and you suddenly feel burdened by sadness and despair and you start to sob uncontrollably and even though you’re no longer living you begin to seize and foam from your mouth and everyone else in hell just mindlessly walks right over your convulsing body because they all have their own sorrows and regrets to worry about and you just lay there on the ground all alone, experiencing your first and only seizure, which shall never end because the afterlife is eternal and all of your sins even make the devil cringe and so he will punish you until the end of time by making you hopelessly endure this seizure, knowing everyone around you doesn’t care, and knowing that if any of your friends also arrive in hell after their lives in earth are over, they will do the same as everyone else and ignore you even though you thought you were such good friends and you always got along but none of that matters because you made yourself sad, you let the game get to you; it’s just a video game so why did it hurt you and you know that’s not all it was but you can’t help but think that because the devil is forcing these terrible thoughts into your head to the point that your conscience is filled to the brim with negativity and that last tiny piece of positivity you were trying to hold onto slips away and fades out of existence so now you have nothing left to do, no more purpose, so you just endure the suffering because that’s what you were meant to do.. | 10 |
sadness. | Last year I went to college a sober kid. Now my friends and i smoke marijuana. Honestly the high doesn’t bother me, it’s helps my anxiety go down a lot. Especially when my great-grandmother passed away, she was my light. Recently she just found out that I smoked and she told me to go outside if smoking. Okay cool I thought, she don’t really mind so that means I can roll up and go outside! I told my sister that I wanted to go ahead and roll Bc I’m not doing at 2,3,4 am. When I was rolling she caught me and started fussing, obviously there’s a lack of communication there. So I respected her wishes and went outside, when I came back in I try to apologize to her understanding it was disrespectful. Instead of us seeing eye to eye, she bashed me of how it’s a gateway drug and it killed our cousin and put my uncle to jail. Then she told me she was looking up places to go. This made my heart drop, I barely smoke because of this pandemic and she don’t accept it. What should I do? | 8 |
Love | Is it normal to think that you are ready to die? Actually I'm not scared if that day will come, thing is I already want to rest forever. Sadness is destroying me little by little but taking my own life is not one of my option. It feels like I have no more purpose in this world, feels like I'm not needed anymore. I'm a loser, jobless, fat, dumb and ugly.
It makes me insecure whenever there's a gathering I'm always left behind because my cousins and sisters has the beautiful faces. They kept telling me that I'm ugly and I'm the only one who is different from the group. It hurts me a lot but we know that smiles and laughter is the best way to hide it all.
I worked in a call center before, my teammates hated me coz I'm not good enough and they make me feel so dumb so I stop. I work in a government hospital and a few months later the hospital shut down coz of renovation and the job orders need to go and only the regular employees will remain.
I applied to many companies but not even one of them hire me. I was so emotionally weak that time. I was thinking if what have I done wrong that the world is like hating me so much.
I went back home in our province and my dad told me that it should be my younger sister who should have returned and not me. I was so hurt until now.
I tried my best so they will see that I am good in any ways. I clean the house everyday. I wake up early so they will not nag me. I cook and feed the animals. I'm a bit envious with my older sister because she can wake up anytime she wants. I am the only one doing all the chores and yet if I ask them to tell my sister to help me sometimes, they get mad and told me to not clean if I'll just murmur, but I'm not.
I give and give eventhough nothing's left for me. I give so much love even money so they will like me. I love them but why is it so hard for them to treat me the way I treat them? Just because they see me as the loser so they'll think I am the bad guy. But since before until now I'm trying my best for them to love me too eventhough it pains me so much.
A friend of mine treated me nicely and I'm so happy with it, because for the first time I felt so loved. But later I learned that he only makes friends with me coz his girlfriend was my friend. And when they broke he also left me.
I'm always alone, even in groups they told me that it's fine that I'm alone coz I'm used to it. But I really want them to make me feel important too, even just for seconds. I just want to be happy and feel loved. | 7 |
How do I turn this train wreck? | A friend told me I used to be a charismatic people magnet. People were drawn to my warm heart and friendly nature. Over time, something changed and now I really struggle to make friends, maintain friendships, earn trust and just be likeable. I don’t know how this happened.
I am living away from my family, they’re all overseas and this weekend my brother has been taken to ICU after a car accident left him severely injured. It’s tough being away from home at time’s like this and our family is so geographically separated so one of my family members made a group chat with siblings and nieces and cousins and we were going around the group telling our stories. Everyone shared quite personal pieces of information, including myself but while everyone was waiting for me to finish typing one of my nieces wrote that she wanted to hear more about her cousins and for me to hurry up. Then hardly anyone liked my story that I took care to piece together and it was really hard to write and share some of that stuff.
It sounds so pathetic and childish but I have no idea how I became this unlikeable person that no one cares about. I know they care but I feel like I’m way down the list of priorities and if I was taken I’ll no one would be overly concerned. | 9 |
I just finished a short (17 minute) documentary about sadness... | In the documentary people (including myself) talk honestly and openly about their sadness. I'm hoping this film makes it a little bit easier to talk to each other about our sadness. You can watch the film here: [http://vimeo.com/leendertroosenbrand/oververdriet](http://vimeo.com/leendertroosenbrand/oververdriet). Please leave a comment if you've watched the film: I'm curious to hear your thoughts and feelings about it! | 9 |
trash | i felt like a loser today, i deactivated my facebook and instagram yesterday because my anxiety keeps me drained. i tried to be okay today in front of people who are close to me, but i wanna cry like hell inside :(( im avoiding my negativity but it keeps hunting me :( | 6 |
18 Feb 2018, 03:06 | Growing up with a crazy mind is so hard. When i was at my worst, everyone tried to make me feel better. The thing was i wasn't asking for it. I hate opinions, it scares me. It shows that i am so wrong living with my entire life. In the past 7 months, i'm dealing with fucking sadness. I look back and try to think what I did or said wrong, but can’t find anything. I feel totally worthless and obviously a truly awful person. I'm in pain. Don't try to talk to me, it is just a waste of time. | 5 |
i know it's silly, but could you say something nice to me? | just that. i dont want to think, i just want to hear something nice | 7 |
My stepmothee just got impatient with me and I am going to cry, what can I do? | So, while I was watching "Golf" on television, when my stepmother came to turn off the light for my dad while has a meeting, she just shushed at me impatiently, I was in a horrible shock and I was about to cry in horror... 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 | 4 |
My girlfriend left me and blacklisted me in our school and town- now I've started life over as a ghost. | [Ghost Tanner - unless you think I'm weird, than I'm Not Tanner](https://www.instagram.com/p/B9igg4sHoWy/?igshid=1rr58yoz5tiyz) | 3 |
How do we let go of our sadness? Mindfulness and meditation can help us to transform suffering into happiness - with guided meditation | [Listen here](https://anchor.fm/shaun-donaghy/episodes/Letting-go-of-sadness---transforming-sadness-guided-meditation-ebb4hd) | 4 |
Melancholy & the Infinite Gladness | Dolor is mystery, suffering is beauty. Dejections motives are often ambiguous, her characteristics indivisible yet always distinguishable.Sadness ensnares and envelopes you, yet invariably, upon the apex of your pardon from eternal isolation, you marry her once again.
She dwells in atmosphere, smothering all who get acquainted with her. Generous in agony, her patience is unprecedented. From afar your romance with her highlights unwavering symbiotic neutrality.
Aspirations of dissidence never cross your mind. Despondencies relentless taunting, casts a continuous reflection in the eyes of all you view, as tedium paints a portrait of your soul unto all you touch.
Misery defines you, steals all that you are, for it has no identity of her own. Sadness gives itself a meaning through each person that it possesses, and for this reason, she has no single name. Yet, “Being so young, and full of folly, you fell in love with melancholy”
-EAP & ME | 3 |
I'm trapped in a pitiful world contructed by my mind |
English is not my first language. So some of the things that characterizes me I believe are: depression, sensitivity, sluggish cognitive tempo (sct), social anxiety and asd(have diagnosis). I've convinced myself that my version of reality is warped and greatly limited compared to the average person. Dunno, maybe I'm just being delusional. I've completely abandoned my ego because possessing one takes me to a place I like to call the abyss. This basically gives me ignorant suffering. Okay, I'll try to explain this the best I can. Several regions of my brain appear to be inactive and it's always been like this since I've been born. Due to this and the things I've listed before, without sufficient self-awareness life can become quite miserable without me realizing it. I reject my experience of reality and started considering the possibility of everyone else being soulless except me. The perfect coping mechanism! I can't validate my version of the world or other people's existences. Even as I read your comments, it will literally turn into a feedback loop to be interpreted by my brain. So I pay close attention to my thoughts, feelings, inclinations, ambitions, point of view, emotions and basically reject them. I have this constant need for stimulation(think I may have inattentive adhd), otherwise I get bored, completely empty and start feeling really depressed. Though denying the very core essence of my being requires so much brainpower due to things listed above, and due to poor memory, I start doubting my belief. All I want to do is turn into a recluse and live a life of self-indulgence completely cutting myself off of society for good.
A problem that I often have is falling victim to the flow of others (like a toddler). Have I lost a part of my psyche? I don't know what to believe, when to feel guility, when to feel happy, when to feel sad, what to consider an accomplishment. The world I know has been created thorugh the perspective of my mind. Something I deeply hate , and thus I am a forsaken existence. I can't communicate with the outside world due to the feedback loop thingy (Don't know how to interpret reality). Although, I don't feel completly alone because I believe in God. | 4 |
'Watch this very ironic video about mankind | [https://youtu.be/RZOiXBpSdm8](https://youtu.be/RZOiXBpSdm8) | 2 |
A really sad but ironic video: | [https://youtu.be/RZOiXBpSdm8](https://youtu.be/RZOiXBpSdm8) | 5 |
Sunday Nights Suck | [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QG09RlqUIP0](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QG09RlqUIP0)
Anyone else hate Sunday nights just before work the next day? Lowest point of the week :( | 13 |
I lost 2 of my best friends thanks to my big dumb mouth and I have no one to turn too about it. | I said something stupid to a friend of mine(long story short it involved religion) and it caused a chain reaction that resulted me in losing 2 close friends...possibly 3.
I feel so...messed up and confused. I wanna talk to them and apologize but ones blocked me and the other I’m on thin ice with....
Everyone keeps telling me I need to be patient and prove I’m sorry but I don’t have time! I wanna know things will work out now!! I have to go to work tommorow and I don’t wanna due to the wreck I’m feeling
I just...I wanna talk to someone to sort out my feelings but my parents don’t get it, one of my friends doesn’t feel invested enough to get involved, one friend is part of the reason I’m in this mess and the other is too busy to talk to me....
I’m so alone right now.... | 9 |
im the biggest loser | so this girl ik removed me from her private story and stopped like snapping me. Idk what this means bc we were talking one day and I didn’t even do anything to her to like her removing me from her ps and etc. That makes me sad because just like nobody likes me and I want to be like. I am the biggest loser. I texted my friend like four hours ago and she didn’t respond then I texted my other friend and she didn’t respond either. Nobody likes me. Im loser. Everyone who has hung out with me doesn’t even talk to me now. I think I’m nice and I don’t try to make offensive jokes or etc. I’m very careful with that. But it’s just been like this for a year and I’m mf over it. | 7 |
Lonely | I feel ignored by everyone.I think if I disappeared no one would really care. | 4 |
all i need is a motherfucking person to cuddle with | really hoping for a virtual reality 4d machine that lets me have a three way cuddle with my fictional husbands ;~; i feel cold and empty | 0 |
Have you ever trusted a person so much you told them all your secrets and now they use them against you? | My ex, the father of my child, uses them against me in court. The funny thing is that I have been weary about revealing too much about me all my life until I met him. He encouraged me to open up. I thought to myself "f*ck it, why not' and now I know why. | 7 |
I think I'm addicted to pain | I always tend to hurt myself whenever I feel sad, depressed. I cut my wrists and sometimes I hit my head. But when I think about it, I think it's normal. But it probably isn't | 3 |
I don’t know if I can keep doing this tbh... | Mine is probably not as bad as some of these but I’ve been lonely as far as I can remember. Usually I’d just be sad and keep pushin but today is the first day I actually wanted to end it all. The reason for all this is because my girlfriend of almost a year now whom I loved extremely and was my world. Just broke it to me that she’s been cheating on me, not for the past couple weeks or anything like that but... for the past 4 months. Note that we’ve been dating for 11 months. I think this is just a sign to off myself. Depression sucks. Thanks for reading. | 6 |
I did not pass the neuropsychological exam for my country's police academy. | I just wanna get this off my chest. The sadness and disappointment feels so heavy. I didn't know what I really expected, but its... surreal.
I'm 19. I know I'm still young, but the pressure for me to have something to do with my life already is too much. I don't have a job, I don't study anymore. My family is fine with it. In fact, my mom discouraged me from working so I could focus in my health (not that I'm unhealthy). My father especially wanted me to get into the police academy. Its his wish. So I applied, passed the first round of exams. I think that it got their expectations up. Now I failed, and I don't really know what to do with my life.
Can you please help me? Just a word of encouragement, advice, anything. Please. | 6 |
I can’t stop crying. | It’s been a rough couple of days, but today was the worst. I cried when I woke up, I cried earlier, I just cried while driving home. I feel worn out, I don’t know how I’m still alive. I just want to sleep and don’t think about my life. I’m so lonely and hopeless. | 13 |
I need breathing beings. | Idk if this is the place for this but i need someone to talk to. Its getting darker and i cant fumble for a lighter because i cant move. | 8 |
:( | If you're as lonely as I am [https://soundcloud.com/7-daze/trust-issues?in=7-daze/sets/luvsongs](https://soundcloud.com/7-daze/trust-issues?in=7-daze/sets/luvsongs) | 7 |
Someone I've known all my life died today | I know that death is inevitable. I've seen it often enough.
This one is somehow different though.
As I've said, I've seen people die. My Mum died of cancer 7 years ago, when I was 13. My grandfather (my father's father) died with cancer a few years ago (the actual reason was another one, but we knew his time was coming although we hoped it would come later), and before both of them, my grandmother (his wife) died (also of cancer).
All of that is sad and makes me cry often enough. But none of those deaths came quickly. They were painful and stretched. My family and I had time to adjust.
Then there were other deaths amongst relatives and family friends. They came quickly, but with old people who were sick of heart. So whilst being sad, and rather out of the blue, it also wasn't /that/ unexpected.
Then yesterday my father texted me that a family friend was rushed to the hospital because his aorta ruptured. If you know a bit about medicine, you know that making it to the hospital is already quite the challenge with this medical emergency. He "survived" that. But in the hospital, they couldn't detect any brain function. Today he passed away (I don't have any details but they must've pulled the plug).
I wasn't especially close to him, I don't remember seeing him more than twice or so last year. But his death hits me now that it settled in.
With him having been a rather close friend with my grandfather and grandmother (both of whom are dead), having practically been their neighbour, and him having become an even closer friend to my father after both his parents had died, I hold some beautiful and important memories that include him. Basically everytime I saw him, it felt a bit like my grandfather was there with us.
So that is gone now.
But that isn't all. Of course I feel sad because of the sweet man we lost. I can't remember him not smiling, not cracking jokes or bringing joy to those around him.
Him being gone now, and that in such a cruel way (basically, when your aorta ruptures it feels like you're being torn apart from the inside), it's a world I can't imagine right now.
I feel sorry for his wife, who just lost her mother not even a month ago (in fact, they were sorting out her stuff when it happened). And also I'm sad because of their two wonderful dogs whom he loved and who loved him.
And also I'm scared. Because health-wise he was okay (for a smoker) and he was roughly the same age as my father is. But as my father struggles with his health, and my mother having died when I was a teen. I'm scared of soon having no parents at all anymore.
I don't know if any of this makes a lot of sense. I don't know if this makes me sound selfish, if I'm sad for "the right reasons" if there's such a thing. I don't know much right now.
I just know that I don't know.
And that he is gone.
"Poof" | 9 |
vocab check | do you ever just scream in the shower, like not actually screaming with voice but like a deaf scream, like you’re scratching your throat with the power of the voice without really going for the scream vocally?
Do you have an English term for that? | 3 |
Oh well | Oh well folks here I come again. Right now I feel so utterly, completely desperate that all I think I need is to shut the world down for a while and just sit in a corner, to just let it all out.
Reddit is helping as if it was a sort of journal. I may start one, since so many psychologists have recommended it. I kind of feel like I need someone to talk me out of this loop but I guess I’m just super angsty because I think I’m special.
Whatever.
We are doing a project on stress at school. Nothing too serious itself, but being the perfectionist I am, I take everything seriously. Our tutor asked us if we could name a number of stressful situations we live throughout the day and then we read them out loud, for whatever reason. I picked saturday and explained what goes on in my head around that time - university pressures, lack of organization, feeling of being overestimated by the majority of people, the need to be an achiever despite feeling like the worst of all, this kind of stuff.
I think anyone can partially relate to this.
However while reading it outloud I overheard some people whispering “had I been like that I would have already killed myself”. Not that I have suicidal thoughts, but many times I just feel like I don’t really have any reason to go on with stuff, you know? Regular stuff.
Relationships, homework, academic achievements, pursue of money and future... what’s that all about? Do I really deserve it? Was I born for it? Sometimes I feel like I am not and I would be better off alone, without other people’s expectations.
Everybody expects something of me, myself included. And when I am satisfied with myself, it doesn’t last for long. I guess it’s the same for other people.
Why do I keep going on? | 5 |
I need a minute | Hi all, I need to talk and I dont feel like I can talk to anyone around me. It all started back almost 3 years ago, me and my now boyfriend started dating, and my father became very sick in May. In December he passed away from a massive stroke. My mother and me started fighting badly after this so I moved in with my boyfriend and his parents. They are great. I really do miss my dad, my family fell apart. My mother and step brother did unspeakable things together... I do not want to say what it was. But I will always love my mother and I realize she was in the wrong. But I do not talk to any of my sibling anymore. My sister occasionally. And my brother just started trying to reach out. My mother started dating, she is with a very nice man, and he cares about her and me alot, but I miss my dad. Last summer I was diagnosed with pcos, and I am so heart broken. I want more than anything to be a mother. My purpose in life is to be a mother. I feel like its just never going to happen for me. My grandmother went into the hospital on christmas day, and passed away on the 27th, I was at work and my boyfriend works next to me. I didnt answer my phone when my mom called, she called him and he was the one who told me. She didnt have any life insurance, so my mom is paying for it out of pocket and I cant help because I am broke. I have enough money to pay my car payment and that's it. I am trying to help my doing a picture board for the memorial service and making some desserts for the reception. I also am doing thank you cards for people who are helping some. During all of this my mom told me she is having symptoms of the illness my dad had. I feel like everyone I have grown up with is dying. It is breaking me. I also am having problems with self esteem. I feel so ugly and useless. The pcos makes me gain weight. I am by no means obese by I feel chubby. I need a hug and therapy. I need my dad. He would help me get through this. | 8 |
well | im so fucking sad lmao i ended a relationship recently and he said that he doesnt feel anything for me anymore. Im crying like a bitch. FUCK I hate myself lol | 5 |
Hi Guys! | My friend has just began a YouTube Channel where she posts short videos to try and help people with mental health. The videos show pieces of text that try and help you with your psychological issues. I personally think they're fantastic but maybe i am just biased. The videos are truly beautiful and she is a massive supporter of Mental Health Awareness and is starting to work with a mental health charity in Engalnd called "Mind". Please go check out her videos and leave your honest opinion on them as she is very open for feedback and constructive criticism. Please feel free to leave a message in the comments telling her how you feel and she will reply instantly trying her very best to give you advice. She is such a kind soul and i know that leaving her a nice comment or some advice and leaving a like on the video, will put the biggest smile on her face. Here is a link to the video:
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9CgJoGVb2M](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9CgJoGVb2M) | 5 |
What's the point? | I'm at the end of my rope. Nothing works. Doctors can't find out why my head hurts all the time or why my sinuses are clogged 24/7. Why everything I eat causes severe acid reflux. Why I'm tired all the time. Why I only feel hunger every 24 hours. Why my genitals are only numb during sex. Why I can't orgasm. I'm either in excruciating pain for no reason or excessively horny with no way to alleviate it. Everything feels empty and pointless. The thing is I don't feel sad. Like I finally see the way things truly are and don't see the point in the pursuit of happiness at all. | 6 |
I’m really sad rn | Someone please talk to me I just feel like shit and utter crap I’ve just been thrown away trash | 5 |
New to reddit, and I need to vent | I’m not sure if this is a good place to vent but I’m so desperate. I don’t wanna burden anyone with my problems. I’ve scooped down to the point I can’t even cry anymore. I’m numb. I’m not sure what to do or how to hang on, anyway here’s a little info on what’s going on. I’m moving to Utah from Kentucky in 3 weeks. I have 274 dollars, no food, and a $100 phone bill. I lost my job on the 6th of this month. They needed extra information for a background check and they basically never told me what exactly they need. I emailed and called no one answered. So I’m result I lost my job because they couldn’t finish my federal background check. My husband and I try selling stuff but no ones buying anything. We don’t have much of anything with value, I have a 3ds, and google home, and he’s trying to sell some magic the gathering cards. I literally feel like I’m in a dark black hole. I’ve been struggling for months worrying about this move. We’ve tried saving money but every time we would get some saved we would have to use it on my medical bills, or something else. It’s also hard because we live with my sister and her fiancée, and we want out own place but in our area there’s crappy trailers and no jobs. There’s nothing here. Harlan Kentucky is the worst god forsaken place ever. I feel like I’m loosing my mind. I’m sorry this is so long and choppy I’m just in a mess. My husband and I do talk but sometimes it’s better to get an outside perspective. I’m so desperate for help or money. I tried getting a temporary job but no one is hiring here. I don’t know if anyone will actually even read this but if you do thank you for at least reading it | 5 |
Need advice or someone to talk to | Things happened so fast. I feel like the change i had in my life overwhelmed me and i cant keep up. I also feel unwanted, unloved, unimportant most of the time. My married life is sometimes like im scared to make mistake because i might be insulted,criticize or judge. Im doing a lot of efforts but most of the time my husband always have something to xriticize, comment or judge. When i have ideas he often block or shut me down. I dont know what to do :( | 5 |
Holiday sadness | The Christmas tree is up, in all its plastic wonder. Not an ornament or light adorn it. Looking at it makes me suffer. Christmas is suppose to be joyous, happy and carefree. But this year, with my mom gone. That feeling is not meant to be. Happy Holiday’s everyone, hug your mom, your dad, significant other. The presents don’t mean anything if you didn’t have each other. | 5 |
LOST AND A CRY FOR HELP POEM | Look how my head drops when you shout.
I accept what you say that I'm wrong in no doubt.
I apologise without knowing the wrong.
I agree with you to make it along.
I do what you say, think and ask.
I never question anything or a task.
I work for us both but never raise a hand.
I let you tell me what I can spend and cant.
I never assume your ok.
I try to make your life better each day.
When your angry dont think I dont know.
I sit alone and cry, and hope you dont see.
I try every day and try so much.
Now it just feels like my life is fragile and a fuss.
Maybe I'm sad or maybe I want a friend.
Maybe it's too late and i just want an end. | 7 |
How to Deal with Negative Emotions | Sometimes we can stay stuck in negative emotions for a while or we can completely "lose it" in the heat of the moment. So, I wanted to share a few tips that I find helpful to work through the emotions whenever I'm dealing with them.
If you prefer videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ch2MP7kUkf4&t=101s
If you prefer reading:
1. Accept the Emotion
We usually see a negative emotion as a bad thing or a weakness. But the emotion itself is a natural part of being human. All it is is a signal from our body that something isn’t quite right and that we need to take action and work through it.
Because if we don’t, then the negative emotion can completely take over and ruin our day.
So, we’ve got to accept it, because when we can accept our emotion, then we’re in a position to take action and work through it. And part of accepting our emotion means we acknowledge that it’s there and we don’t judge ourselves for it.
2. Make a Choice
Feeling frustrated is normal, but snapping at someone else..that’s a choice. Feeling afraid is normal, but not doing something that you want to do is a choice. Feeling guilty is normal, but constantly thinking you’re a bad person is a choice.
So, regardless of how we feel, we get to choose how we control our thoughts and actions. We can’t control negative situations or what someone says or does to us. But.. we can be in charge of how we think… and what we do.
So, we can choose to attach to every negative thought that we have and let the negative emotion completely consume us. Or we can choose to problem solve through our feelings which leads us to the third tip and that is to
3. Create an Action Plan
Before a negative emotion hits me, I like to be on the offense instead of defense. I want to be ready for when it happens, so I can problem solve through it immediately instead of letting my emotions control me.
So we have to remember that we usually have negative emotions that either rise up in the heat of the moment(like when your kids are arguing and you get instantly frustrated) or the emotions have been lingering for a while (like constantly feeling worthless at your job)
So creating an action plan can help you identify a few strategies to use BEFORE you find yourself in an emotional state. Before you start snapping at someone because you’re angry. Before you start guilt tripping yourself about the past again. Before you talk yourself out of a job opportunity.
Here are 8 examples you can use:
1. Identify possible triggers. What is it that usually triggers your emotion? Is it when people aren’t listening to you? Is it after you watch a movie? Is it when you hang out with certain friends? Identifying what sets you off helps you navigate around triggering experiences or it helps you to prevent them altogether.
2. Put yourself in the other person’s shoes. If someone makes you upset, instead of taking it as a personal attack, ask “What’s happened to this person to make them act that way?” This helps you sympathize with the other person instead of getting instantly emotional. Like someone cutting you off in traffic. Maybe they’re rushing to a family emergency or they have a passenger who is yelling at them or they’re late for a major interview because they had a flat tire earlier.
3. Breathe. Take a breath and say to yourself “I’m not going to let this emotion get the best of me.” This is going to wake up the decision making part of your brain, so that you can start to gain control.
4. Start counting. Think nothing but the numbers. Make a goal to count to 10. If you have a lot of emotion try counting to 100 instead. You’ll notice as you continue to count, your heart rate will start to slow down a bit, and it gives you time to gather your thoughts before taking action.
5. Communicate. If someone has upset you, setting a time to communicate with them is one of the best ways to resolve any kind of issues that are causing your negative emotions.
6. Call friends and family. When you have a support group around you, it helps you to feel less alone when you’re feeling emotional.
7. Eat Healthy foods and Exercise. This is one we hear all the time. Numerous studies show eating right and exercising elevates your mood and reduces stress.
8. Retrain your brain to think positive thoughts, so you’re not attaching to every negative thought that comes your way.
Now all of these strategies aren’t going to fit into every kind of scenario. Some are going to be more effective than others in different kinds of situations. You have to find what works best for you. If you have more to add that have worked well for you, definitely share those in the comments below. The more strategies we can collect, the better. | 2 |
I can't cry | In past year I've realized I can't cry anymore. I'm the one who you'll find me crying to commercials, sad shows, etc. I've tried listening to sad music watching tv thinking of my life and nothing. Yesterday me and my son got into it and today I was doing something I saw him sitting I felt he was sad and I wanted to cry I felt it but it wouldn't come out. I'm getting frustrated I don't know what too do. 2 years ago my husband left us so I've been strong for my kids I wouldn't cry in front of them or anything so now it's completely shut. What do I do? | 13 |
Anyone hate the holidays as much as i do | null | 7 |
Anyone feel like their surrounded by so many people and yet still feel alone | I grew up seeing on shows and social media that they key to happiness is the people that you surround yourself with so I did that and I feel ten times worse. And I don’t know what to do I feel like stuff like this is never talked about when all you see are people having fun and being with a lot of people you start to think your weird for not being the same of having the same feelings. I feel more alone because I think that I’m the only one in this situation. Anyone feel this way please show some support cause your not alone | 10 |
I’m devastated bc this year I’m going to be by myself for the holidays | https://youtu.be/1vbB3wCPXh0 | 6 |
Guess who's depressed and lonely.. Me. | null | 3 |
I feel so alone. I am always so easy to get irritated or upset | I feel like everybody hates my art, so whenever someone compliments me on a piece of art I made I want to stab them in the chest several times because they are lying, I have become very worrisome about everything and have been getting anxious. so if someone online compliments are I made I read it over and over again for 10 minutes always surprised that people will continue lying to me. | 4 |
I'm sad for him | I'm sad for my crush, he's endured a lot of sad moments with people using him of his money and losing people around him, I feel for him because I dated someone who was just like that. Always making me bug Everything and never paying me back in return and losing people you once trusted. I want to help an give him advice but at the same time I told him he has to figure who's your friend or not. If they're genuine they'll pay you back and continue keeping in touch like a regular friend. If they take his money and just "forget about him." Those types of friends are Scum and only He will have to learn from experience | 7 |
Background | I’ve always been the background friend, i’ve never had a friend stay very long, or one that doesn’t get tired of me after a while. I get replaced easily and i get forgotten quickly. I do things for others that not many people do, i would do anything for the people i love and i would do anything to keep them happy. I never get posted on instagram, snapchat, not even facebook.... I’m just someone people go to when they need someone that will listen to their problems.. i’m so tired of being in the background but in the end, i don’t have the energy to do anything about it. I don’t have anyone to go to and talk about my own problems, i don’t have anyone that would do anything for me the way i would for them. I spend so much time and money on everyone else but when i’m broke no one is there to help no matter what i’ve done for them.... i wish things were different | 9 |
I feel unbearably empty inside. | I don't like complaining about my problems to strangers, I just don't feel like anyone actually understands how I feel anymore. Nothing in life seems to be enough to motivate me, all I do is go work full time, go home, get yelled at by my mom for such trivial things like leaving a pop can in my room, leave and go spend all night with friends drinking or just vibing, and then repeat. Whenever I try and have relationships with someone, I'm never able to feel the emotions I used to catch so easily and it feels like I have no choice but to give up on having a committed relationship, but hookups are just temporary happiness that makes me sadder than before. It just makes me painfully aware that what just happened didn't mean anything to me, and nothing ever does. I don't know what to do anymore. I just keep clinging onto the last time I was happy, but it just makes me feel more empty looking how I used to get up and be motivated to do something to further my life. Everything seems pointless and like a waste of time. I'm not suicidal, I just don't want to keep doing this anymore. | 3 |
I want to die | I want to be killed but I don’t want to kill myself | 4 |
I am always anxious, please help! | Hey guys!
This is my senior year in high school, and I have noticed that I am ALWAYS anxious about something. Whenever I think about the past, it makes me feel like complete trash and anxious to a point where sometimes I don't even want to get out of bed. Thinking about the future increases my anxiety even more because it is so uncertain...
Now, school. This is probably the worst part. It makes everything so much worse. I am currently in the process of college applications, which is SO stressful and overwhelming. Although I am a decent student, going to school when it is your last year seems so pointless and stupid. I also hate the school that I go to, it is full of stupid unmotivated people, and 90% of the time I feel like I do not fit in or am just waisting my time.
Last point, I am Russian. I moved to the United four years ago. It hasn't been too hard for me, but a couple of months ago my perception changed for some reason. I have just been reflecting on the people, behaviors, schools, etc in the United States compared to Russia...and I honestly just want to go back. The mentalities are just so different, and I just want to go back. I have NEVER felt this way before. Yet four years afterward, the sadness from moving just kicked in.
And this is all happening during my senior year, at once. Please help. | 6 |
I know it may sound stupid in the start, but read it til the end |
I've played FIFA a lot in the latest years. I have never liked football (probably cause I'm terrible at it) before, so when I started playing FIFA 16 I was very bad, didn't even know what a centerback was, neither what were the rules of offside, and things like that.
On FIFA 17 I got a little better, still in a not so high difficulty but surely better than in the previous game. When I got to FIFA 18 I felt like I was a decent player, not that good, but I actually enjoyed the matches, and was really happy with it.
On FIFA 19, the game I currently own, since the start of it, I felt like I wasn't playing that well, was bad at defending, not being able to reach the attack, things like that. Now I'm trying everything I can to try to play the game naturally, enjoying it, but all I do in the entirety of the matches is complaining of how bad I'm playing, how good I was before, and even if I do win, at Legendary (the hardest to me at the moment), I don't enjoy it, I feel like I didn't deserve the win, that I played very badly.
All of this makes me think: pretty much all I do is playing video games, and not even in them I can be good at?
I've been feeling really sad since September, curiously after a lecture on a campaign against suicide. Since then, I've been thinking of my life and how lonely I am, how I have only one "friend" that I don't even talk very much, cause he is always studying and don't play video games that much anymore.
I lost interest in many things in the past months, I've been alternating my feelings between very angry and very sad, like now. I've always been very good at school, getting A's and everything, but I'm really tired and don't really like going to school anymore, just feel like being at home doing nothing (like always).
I always had problems with talking to new people, not wanting them to judge me, or even don't know what to talk about. That shows up in my fear to answer phone calls, cause they always come in moments I'm unprepared to talk to anyone, so I simply don't answer them, I'd rather talk through messages, where I have time to think before saying something. It also happens in online games, where people invite you to a party and want to talk through microphones, I don't like it.
Going back to FIFA, being bad at it makes me feel like I can't do anything, not even play games right. Adding that to my social problems, loneliness, parents fighting all the time, lots of homework and school works, makes me feel like this: sad.
I'm sorry for my english btw | 8 |
Life has become a burden | Hello anyone that being if you are a person, but it doesn’t really matter. About almost a month ago I had one of my best friends die from suicide, we talked about death and philosophy we both realized we didn’t think suicide was wrong but we didn’t need to take that option. On October 4th I woke up to a text that I thought was a joke, and it was that he died I was angry and confused and it didn’t feel real. I then called his mother and said I was sorry. He was such a kind person. Super tall but he could make anyone feel calm and accepted. He did the right thing even tho he didn’t feel like he had to. Sorry for going off, but it’s hard for me to be happy, I’m becoming very nihilistic don’t ask me for advice unless you want answer explained by philosophy. That’s all I can do. I had a thought after one of my other good friends who just admitted herself into a hospital for her mental health called. The thought was “if I don’t like doing things that don’t matter, then why am I doing life?” I’m trying to keep an open mind but I think I might just end up dead by taking my own life. | 6 |
I’M lonely(?) | Hi, im 17, and i just have feeling that i miss Something (someone) in my life. I just can’t find that special someone.
How can i fix this:( | 5 |
Help please | I am a senior in high school and this is the worst year for me. I am applying to college right now, and I am just so confused on what I want to do with my life. I am really sad, anxious, and confused for most of the day because of the uncertainty of the future and the fact that I have to go through the college application process. Also, I hate Florida (that's where I live) and want to move to NYC, but I still have to wait around and finish high school in Florida, which absolutely sucks. I am also into modeling, which I will get into more after graduating high school...which is also another reason for my sadness as I am confused on whether to persue modeling or college. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE, all while living in a place that I hate and going to a school that I hate. I just feel like I'm waisting time and energy...and this is all happening in one year for some reason. I hate this. | 3 |
Happiness | I have lost all hope for myself honestly.
At this point, all of my motivation is gone. For school, friendships, relationships, socializing, eating, and just normal life.
My medication doesn’t help at all either.
I want to die, i’ve tried so many times to die. Nothing works. I don’t want to die secretly. I just don’t wanna exist. I don’t want to be around people for a few weeks. I don’t want to have to try and be happy and fake it for a few days.
I want to be alone. It clouds my mind just thinking of being happy. It’s like i know i can be happy but it’s so far away i just can’t seem to reach it.
I’m alone in a way already, i can’t talk to my friends or family about how i feel because i’ve already told them i feel this way so many times before... They’ll just get annoyed with me.
I’m sorry i can’t be happy anymore. I wish i could try harder but i just can’t. | 5 |
Me myself and i | Me and this girl who I have know for a long time we're meeting and we kissed and stuff. The next day she said that she didn't want me after all. She had just used me to overcome her ex. That shit fucking hurts man...
The worst part is that I still want her to be in my arms and then I can never let go. | 6 |
My Fiancé told me to go back to my own country | I’m a PhD student in US and got engaged with my Fiancé half year ago. Today after an argument about a law, my fiancé told me to leave US and go back to my own country. He told me if I am not against this law, I don’t have a reason to be in US.
I just got an offer of a job with good salary and I don’t plan to get my status through marriage. I don’t understand what he means. All years I am in US, people are so friendly to me. I could not believe that my Fiancé is the first and only person telling me to go back to my own country. I’m so sad now. All my plan, trust, hope, expectation of life with him is fading now. I feel so lonely and heartbroken. The family he told me to build with him, the future we plan to have, house, pets, kids, travel and enjoying food, everything I am looking forward to is gone. | 7 |
Hey this'll probably go unnoticed but oh well | So today in the class I'm currently posting this in we were getting new seats and this one girl said "as long as I don't have to sit next to (my name) I'll be fine. Then nobody denied it not even the teacher that then laughed at the comment and said ok... Bob(not someone's name) will sit here. I just feel rejected because I also had one of the 3 people who are sort of a distant friend I guess. Say that I was their enemy and not my friend. One week later they said they say that to all of their friends. I just feel kinda lost I guess. | 9 |
My Sad Ass Blog | Hi! I suck at life to be honest. I have got no one to go to in all honesty so I decided to create this account. I legit tried so many places to find a blog of sorts so i decided to share everything here. I'm not trying to get follows or anything just sharing my story and to be honest just trying to help people. My real name and other peoples names wont be mentioned or like, they will but as different names. Thats all right now cyaaaaaaaaaaa 😗✌️🥺✌️ | 1 |
No friends | Hello my name is Miguel. I have a wife,son,wonderful family but I am saddened I have no friends I can just hit up to hang out with. I am 27 I have a variety of taste yet cannot find anyone that actually will hit me up to be like hey let's hang out. I have made the effort in the past before but it is never returned to me. Now for example my wife and son are out of town for the weekend and I am lonely as shit at home | 4 |
Sometimes | Sometimes I find my self lost in the shadows lost in the moment and sometimes I feel nobody cares about me no matter how hard I try nobody can stand me or wants to talk to me I just want people to like me for who I am and stop judging me for who I am or once was! | 2 |
My mother, my girlfriend and the future of my life | I know it seems cliche to ask if doing something is normal, obviously it is, but why is it so addictive to think about the death of a familiar or how I will suffer for the pain of my loved ones, is it a selfish way to cope with my own sadness? An excuse for my low performance as a college student?
Thinking about my mother and her health makes me feel even worse about my bad grades, I won’t be successful for her, It would be in vain all the loneliness she has now that I’m far from home. I try to have good grades, but I’m doing my best and it’s not good enough, feels like it’s meaningless, even if I finish college with average grades, who would want an average engineer?
And my girlfriend between all of this, the most sincere and hopeful person I know, stuck with a stereotypical attempt at a human being, who can’t finish anything without feeling he is not good enough, a sad boy. Someone with a lot of wishes but the only wish he really wants is more suffering in his life, to have a real reason to off himself.
This is just a fucking echo chamber, I don’t even know what I’m looking for here. | 5 |
Just venting sadness | Everyone is always so rude and mean to me some times I just don't know what to do because if I stand up for myself I'm the bad person or I'm the one who gets kicked out of where I've been living and paying half the rent. My guess is, is that some people just like too see me miserable or constantly always doing things for them but when I ask a favor it's "too much" my mom tells me I'm too nice an that's why everyone is always so rude and mean to me everyone literally treats me like ima maid how do I solve the problem of everyone being rude and mean to me | 3 |
Midnight Souls | Hi, my name is Brii. I run a support chat for people. If you would ever like someone to talk to or just have a good group. We welcome you. I am always available to talk.
[https://discord.gg/mxd3TKc](https://discord.gg/mxd3TKc)
Midnight Souls is a server/chatroom. It’s dedicated to supporting others. It’s a community that’s more like a growing family. We have many interesting things like venting/support channels, voice channels, NSFW, music, gaming, member polls. Come check us out! | 5 |
I lost a kitten today | I'm a 30 year old dude living in Mumbai, India. Since the past 4 years I've had 2 cats as pets, which eventually grew to 6 cats in the last 6 months. But over the course of these 4 years I've also fostered many cats, but I'm sad because I've lost cats three times.
I stay in an apartment in a residential complex, where my cats are not viewed favorably by many. And as I reside on the ground floor, all my cats have a tendency to wander off, take a stroll but come back. But today is the 3rd time a cat failed to come home to me.
6 months back one of my rescues got pregnant before I could spay her, and she gave birth two adorable fluff balls. I swear these two were the noisiest, messiest cats ever to be born and I love them to bits. They are so playful, inseparable and extremely loving.
Last night one of the kittens somehow got out, a fact I discovered only in the morning. I searched and searched, along the roads, on all the floors of my 6 building residential complex, I asked the security guards, I prayed and I've done all I can. But I can't find her. Her brother has been moping around all day and it breaks my heart to see how different his behavior is without his sister.
It's 2 AM and I don't know what to do. I just wanted to tell someone how heavy I feel, how helpless I feel and I just don't want to think about how a kitten must be coping being alone for nearly 20 hours now, the same kitten who would stand on two legs and scream at me for food if it was even a minute late.
I really don't know how to conclude this post, but I'm hoping and praying that she finds her way back to me, or if not that then she atleast finds food, warmth, shelter, a loving friend who will be with her. Anything other than being alone and lost. Her name is Taco. | 9 |
No words.... | My youngest daughter is due to give birth some time this week. She has decided to give her up for adoption. I know its her decesion, It just hurts knowing we will only get to see her through an blog. She says it will be an open adoption and we can watch her grow. My wife and I are at or wits end with this one... | 4 |
I Just Need to Vent | My bf of six months broke up with me. I have no organization in my life and am probably going to be depressed. But I will probably not come out of it ok like I did 2 years ago. I hope I will but this new chapter in my life doesnt have a fun first sentence. | 7 |
Ya already know how it be | My parents ask why I’m crying because I was the last one to leave a school function, and therefore are seen as immature and childish, unable to contact my parents. It is too silly to cry about it, they say. Stop being emotional.
I can’t make say that it was the one thing in the little details that show I’m an insignificant piece of shit. I got my first kiss and felt so empty all in the span of a hour. This is what being a teenager is. | 3 |
I'm here to dump thoughts. | Maduk ft Veela - Ghost
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tEA2prf\_x48](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tEA2prf_x48)
​
This song gives me the feeling of wonder and sadness.
Like there's a huge foreign world ready for me to explore.
But for some reason I'm scared. I don't know what of.
I'm just sitting there afraid to move on, scared to explore.
''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''' | 2 |
Sad screams part 2 | Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhyhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.......
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... | 9 |
I am so | Goddamn sad rn | 5 |
Just be happy lol | ⢀⡴⠑⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣀⣤⣤⣤⣀⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠸⡇⠀⠿⡀⠀⠀⠀⣀⡴⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣷⣦⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠑⢄⣠⠾⠁⣀⣄⡈⠙⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣆⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⡀⠁⠀⠀⠈⠙⠛⠂⠈⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠿⡿⢿⣆⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⢀⡾⣁⣀⠀⠴⠂⠙⣗⡀⠀⢻⣿⣿⠭⢤⣴⣦⣤⣹⠀⠀⠀⢀⢴⣶⣆ ⠀⠀⢀⣾⣿⣿⣿⣷⣮⣽⣾⣿⣥⣴⣿⣿⡿⢂⠔⢚⡿⢿⣿⣦⣴⣾⠁⠸⣼⡿ ⠀⢀⡞⠁⠙⠻⠿⠟⠉⠀⠛⢹⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣌⢤⣼⣿⣾⣿⡟⠉⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⣾⣷⣶⠇⠀⠀⣤⣄⣀⡀⠈⠻⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠉⠈⠉⠀⠀⢦⡈⢻⣿⣿⣿⣶⣶⣶⣶⣤⣽⡹⣿⣿⣿⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠲⣽⡻⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣷⣜⣿⣿⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢸⣿⣿⣷⣶⣮⣭⣽⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⣀⣈⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠹⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡿⠟⠁⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠉⠛⠻⠿⠿⠿⠿⠛⠉ | 8 |
I will love you till the end of time | This community is probably the wrong one since I’m so incredibly happy this person is going to rock it, even though he’s far away.
Miles and miles of distance wouldn’t stop me from coming back to you, even if it’s only in my dreams.
See you in a while, bud.
I love you so damn much. | 7 |
Today’s been a shitty day | Guys today (09/07/2019) has been a pretty shitty fucking day. It’s the day before my birthday well rn it is my birthday since it’s 2 A.M.
i woke up at around 11 and everything seemed fine but then at around 2ish my sisters who are in the mid-late twenties went out to hang out with friends, that’s when shit went downhill. I have a dad who didn’t grow up in America so he has a very different mentality but that’s besides the point basically this started a spiral of fights between everyone throughout the day. This all added to this looming sense of loneliness that I’ve been having for a while now and it all just pushed me down I don’t think anyone wished me happy birthday and that’s fine I don’t really care abt that it’s just that I wish I had some kind of recognition I try my hardest to keep my family intact but it seems like no one cares since I’m the youngest I feel like no one gives regard to my feelings. I feel invisible both In my home and outside I’m secluded and too scared to ask for help idk how to get out of this seclusion overall I’m just sad and lost idk what I’m doing anymore or what I’m heading too. Usually people have support systems but I don’t really have anything of that sort idk what to do anymore | 6 |
Sad screams | Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhjjjjhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....... | 8 |
Depressing brainstorming | Guys I’m feeling so bad today. I feel like I’m the loneliest person in the world. Not that I don’t enjoy being alone, it’s just sad to feel like you are when you are constantly surrounded by people. This last bit is also getting on my nerves honestly.
I haven’t seen my boyfriend in ages and I miss my family, like hugely. But that’s not even the reason why I feel so numb and worthless, at least not mainly.
I’ve been in Kent for a while now and I just can’t stand it anymore. I absolutely love the UK but I’m stuck in this little town with a bunch of evil gossipers (some really nice people too but like still) and I can’t stand the rules. We can’t walk around town, I share a room with 5 people. We have activities in the morning, evening and post dinner time. We must shut up at 10 because of teachers sleeping early.
I don’t even know why I got into this programme anymore. It was a free trip with bunch of credits and I thought “oh well, that’s a good idea”. It probably will turn out to be a very nice idea in the long run, but right now I just feel like shit. I almost bursted in tears at least three times in less than two hours. I feel so empty.
Please take me back to Scotland. | 4 |
Just lost my aunt R.I.P | null | 7 |
My wife deserves an emotionally stable man | Most days my insecurities eat me away. I dwell into this pain from the past and present which makes me go dark into places. I have a 9 month old beautiful baby boy and a wife whom I have been with for 10 years now.
Both deserve better than me. My wife gives me some simple task which I tend to mess up in some stupid ways. She gets frustrated with me and I can't blame her. How many times must she tell me something before I can finally do it right. This eats me away. I question more often than not what purpose I serve I serve in my family.
I am 26 years old with an unhealthy body of 290 pounds.
There is so much I hold in because i worry of how i will affect my wife and child.
I am NOT emotionally stable on the best days.
It's not fair for my wife to have to console me every other day when she goes through her own levels of stress and weakness.
I am supposed the shepherd to my household yet I feel like a sheep. | 4 |
This probably hits someone hard | At one point in ur life u were probably a side chick with out even knowing it | 3 |
Fear and loathing in Romania | I was a younger man not knowing what to expect out of the US. Military until my journey took me to Romania where I “lived my best life!” And fell to my absolute lowest both in which had booze and prostitutes involved. Now I’m not blaming the army for either I did it in my stupefied drunk self that would listen to no one. Yeah I remember stepping off base to this whole new beautiful world and drinking and screwing whatever would come my way but unfortunately eventually at some point morality comes to you when you don’t want it for me it was when I was going to screw this sexy Romanian I was piss drunk but my girl from back home text me “I love you I can’t wait to see you again!” And my heart sunk to my ass I felt disgusted and started crying all of a sudden my sure thing became my therapist and ended up leaving looking at me like a crazy person then I went to a FORSURE thing an old rub and tug and bought a girl but guess what my Own morality came back to me and I realized I didn’t want her I just want someone to care about me so me and a prostitute laid there naked for 2 hours as I was crying like a bitch! Do you know how less of a man I felt when I paid her to lay and pretend to care about me and I liked it! I felt at an all time low rock bottom not sure how to recover stewing along with the the horrible things I’ve done and my conscious caught up to me, to the sad whoremongering bastard that I am. Eventually the woman kicked me out i went back to base the whole trip to the base I was thinking about how pathetic I am and thought I could express it better in words and that maybe the feeling of death would feel better then how I did. Idk if I did that because I knew it was wrong or because I was truly lonely or if she just didn’t want to fuck and got me into it but cudddling naked with her made me cry and beg for 5 more mins and honestly do anything for another min. At some point during my desperation for human interaction I realized how sad I was paying a woman to give A damn! So I Stopped and paid the young lady walked out and realized the moon turned to sun so I got a cab and rode back home comeing to the realization of my loneliness but I feel so happy because now I know what I don’t want in life and that’s a whore that you can call loneliness.
The lady paragraphed is confusing but I I didn’t know how to edit without leaving the emotion I wrote this all hammered and I am typing this please hit me up I’m so sad and Idk what to do. | 7 |
Rip king of random | Grant died a day ago so I feel like crying cuz he was one of my fav you tubers | 1 |
Help me I’m suffering | To be honest, living becomes harder everyday. I’ve actually gotten to a point where even the simplest of tasks turns into a pool of misery. To add on to my problems, killing myself won’t take the pain away it’ll just pass it on to another person. That’s actually what’s keeping me from killing myself. Knowing how people online normally act, I know for a fact that posting this is gonna get me bashed. I’ve never really been the type to mask my identity behind a screen but revealing myself to the public will have many repercussions. I need help- but I don’t know where to find it, I can’t speak to my family or my friends so I’ve turnt to the internet. | 7 |
My mom is dying and I'm not ready to let her go. | null | 8 |
Another mistake made | So I’ve seemingly made a mistake and that’s opening up. This girl and I, we were on a roll. Life was great. I became sad and she said to talk to her and open up. I said I couldn’t because if I did, I would go on and eventually the person I care and opening up to, would leave me because I would become annoying. But nonetheless I still did. What happened was exactly that. She didn’t leave but she talked to me less. We became distant. I tried to bring back the flame but the sparks never returned. I needed to vent this out and talk to others about this. It makes me feel welcomed and comforted. I’m only a senior in high school, well about to be. So I know I still got time. It doesn’t mean I’m still not sad about it. Thanks for reading through my Ted Talk. It means a lot to me. Over-and-out. | 9 |
I lost 3 relationships to long distance already. Just got rejected by another girl I'm interested in. All I want is to be close to someone who truly cares about me | I travel a lot. I always somehow get attached to someone when I'm about to move. And I sometimes get attached to someone who is about to move. Something is seriously wrong with me. I am about to leave the country I am currently in and caught feelings for a girl I work with. I told her how I feel and she rejected me, which I expected. I just didn't want to regret not telling her. I can't do this anymore. I'm so tired of this life of travelling around. | 3 |
I failed my driving test my second time and im so disappointed and sad | My plan for this summer was supposed to get my license and have a little bit of freedom and independence but failing the second time has really made me doubt that i will even be able to drive to college. All im hoping rn is to pass b4 my 18th bday and b4 school starts. | 2 |
Yes this is my suicide note | It's time to leave this shitty planet for good I hope people will be happier than I am | 3 |
I miss her | We were perfect for each other but in some way that got lost, she has a boyfriend and I'm here suffering for her, thinking that she was one in a million | 5 |
I feel useless | Everytime something goods happens to me or I feel like I'm improving on something like my work or my personal life something petty happens like I ask a stupid question, change lanes without looking, lose my wallet and I just feel like bursting into tears, there cannot be a day where I feel like I'm getting better at being a functional adult, it's gotten to a point that I spilled water yesterday on the floor while I was alone at my house and started crying, I feel absolutely useless and I also don't have anyone to tell my problems. | 1 |
Subsets and Splits
No community queries yet
The top public SQL queries from the community will appear here once available.