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It's june | It's june
And im tired of being brave | 6 |
when dreams are not better than reality | Those are painful dreams. But today is not much different between dreams and reality. He still tries to sleep and dreams so come, the dream today is to return to the past 1 year ago when he saw her but not met. In that dream it seemed that only he knew that he was aware that this was the past, and at that time, of course she was single but still seemed like he had cast a past, a guy flirting with her So, he witnessed that, that guy is her boyfriend later and he is her ex-boyfriend now. This may be a bit confusing but you can imagine, this guy just broke up with the girl and dreamed of her past happy with others, in short. In the dream he cried, because of the sadness of frustration, he was miserable and startled, then it turned out to be a dream. What is the better return to reality? Now that he has broken up, what is the difference between the pain and the dream? He actually cried. Whether in dreams or in reality, what he has is still suffering, still tears. It is scary, it is no different from a limbo, a limbo that happens both in a dream and in reality. | 2 |
Depression | 8 years ago my mother died of a cancer, i've Been bullied everyday since she died (The bullies bullied me for her death) i (7 At the time) had a noose around my neck ready to kill myself, i've tried to kill myself 3 Times more After that, i was diagnosed with a mix of adhd autism and asbergers, 2017 i went to a depression clinic-ish place and they said that at any given time i have 8-9/10 on a depression scale, need less to say im ready to just kill myself | 4 |
No matter what I do, nothings good enough. | null | 5 |
I feel old and tired, can anyone relate? | I'm a young guy, 22. But I've really done a lot with my life. I got friends, I got an education, I got a car, I moved across the country, I got a career, I got more money than I needed, I got a girl and fell in love with someone who loved me back, I had a real life, and went on lots of crazy adventures and was even about to buy a house And the best part of it all was that I was me, I never put on a mask or faked a damn thing. And that should make a person happy. And I had happy moments, and sad moments too (I had life, the good and the bad), but slowly one by one over the last couple years all of those things fell away due to reasons out of my control (friends moving away or losing touch, layoffs in the company, gf didn't work out in the end not for lack of us trying. etc.).
I'm grateful that I had all of those experiences, and I wouldn't trade them for anything, but for whatever reason I just don't want to have them again. I just feel like I've been there and done that. But there isn't anything else in life that I want. I have no interest in kids (after having to raise my little sister I feel like I've already had one), so that's off the table. And I've tried my best to find hobbies, but none of them stick and they don't make me happy. I just feel like I'm done.
I feel like I've done so much, and found so little. I can't help but feel old and tired.
I wonder if anyone else feels this way, and would love some advice on how to get out of this funk. But please don't give me the standard "you're so young! You've got your whole life ahead of you!" thing, because as I said, I've accomplished about as much as a 40-50 year old by this point. (Maybe this is a mid life crisis lol)
I just feel so tired... | 6 |
Loved Ones | I've Recently Lost My Grandma 2 Years Ago And My Mothers Dad AKA Grandpa 2 Weeks Ago, I'm 11 So Im Taking This Very Badly, Ive Been Crying MySelf Asleep Alot, I Have Just Been Sad, I Miss Them, I Can't Carry On Without Them, Was The Worst Thing When I Was Downstairs In My House And I Was So Excited To See Her Soon And My pArents Come Down And Say "Hey Jagger (ME) We Need To Tell You Something... MoreMore (Grandma) Passed Away Tonight, I Just Ran To My Room And Scream Cried To Damn Loudly | 6 |
Body image issues | Im pretty chubby, and everytime someone points it out i get soo insecure and sad. They could just say “hey did you gain some weight?” And i would feel like crying. It sounds like such a petty problem but im really insecure:( | 6 |
Más de dos años en Reddit.. | Tanto tiempo y nunca genere post, solo sigo siendo un parásito... | 1 |
May 3 Was the worst day ever | I hate May three I got robbed and bullied in school and my bullies killed my pet bunny and I got 10 scars cus of a stupid cat I wish life was better R.I.P Beabean | 5 |
YouTube's copyright system is broken | [https://youtu.be/LZplh8rd-I4](https://youtu.be/LZplh8rd-I4)
Rip Mumbo Jumbo | 5 |
Teenage Problems? | I feel wierd, and not accepted...
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Im a teenager going into high school next year, and I just feel worthless. Im a smart kid, (By which I mean mostly A and A+) but I feel overwhelmed by everything. I just like playing video games sometimes, yet everyone in my family has to yell at me for something... even not eating when I'm stressed makes them get mad at me...
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All the negativity is taking a toll on me... and I don't feel like sharing it with my parents. I feel as if they will say the same thing over and over again. "Stop thinking like that!", and/or, "You're thinking like an idiot!". It makes me feel worse, knowing my grades are the only things that usually satisfy them. They even go to lengths about random things, saying how I should be like others, when they literally say, "We do things ourselves, and not copy cats."
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They always make me so angry, yet I can't vent. They say shut up, and don't talk like that. They always connect my anger to two issues, "Gaming", and "Teenage Problems".
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Is there anyway I can feel like a happy person? And not part happy on the outside, yet hurting inside...
If there is anyone out there who can explain to me how to feel like a better person... help me... please... :c | 2 |
My relationship with my family | I can't help but feel sad whenever the topic of family relationship comes up. Throughout my childhood, I would say my upbringing was okay but not perfect, of course. But, one thing I had to deal with was a toxic family. You know how parents discipline their children by 'spanking' them? When does that become child abuse? I can't forget the fear and pain I felt on those days when I got a 'spanking'. For instance, whenever me and my brother would get into a fight, my mom would beat us up after. She would slap, kick or throw some object at me. This happened almost everyday for almost 6-10 years. One day, she kicked me in the ribs for taking a bite out of my brothers food. I didn't know it was his and she was so quick to hit me. I never forgot that. Another memory I can't forget is when I was crying in my room and I locked the door to stop them from coming in. She managed to get in my room and kick me whilst I was on the floor. Also, she hit me with a crutch once or twice and it left bruises on my legs. I know people don't take verbal abuse seriously as much as they do with physical but to hear your mother say you look so ugly when you cry, never really leaves your mind. I have low self-esteem issues and I often come across as shy and she blames myself for being that way even though some of it was due to my upbringing. She never acknowledged my achievements ever. Recently, my teacher told me how proud he was of me and how hard I've worked. It really made me emotional because he gave me reassurance that I was going to be alright in life. That was the first time I have ever felt acknowledged for my own achievements. When I cried about this, my mother questioned me and so I told her. Her response was, "I'm proud too, you know". That's it. Whereas my teacher told me all the reasons why he was proud of me, she just says it so she doesn't feel bad for never saying it to me. Don't get me wrong, I do love her as a mother, she put a roof over my head and fed me as a child and what not. But so could anyone else have done that for me, like a caretaker. There was nothing special about any moments in my childhood. All I remember was the beatings and how depressed I was during high school and how suicidal it made me. But I got through it and worked hard to accomplish good grades. I just wish that she could have been a better mother and I wouldn't have gone through the things I did during my childhood. It's hard to talk about this issue because the people who I have told think I feel sorry for myself and that I want to gain sympathy from others. But I don't. I just want someone to understand that what I went through as a child still affects me today and that it hurts occasionally even when I try not to think about it. I just want a way to forget about all those things. At what point will I finally be able to accept it? Accept that the things I've gone through have shaped me into the person I am today. Sorry for the rant. I just had to get it off my chest one way or another. | 5 |
I will never be able to get things done. :'( | I never stand up to myself. I just sit there and take it. I cant prove anything. No one listens. I wish i never existed. I cant even say what happend in fear of getting introuble. I just wish i never existed. I dont want to ever have kids. :'( I wanna get a job but too afraid to even bring it up for reasons i cant get into. :'( Just why did i have to even exist?? | 2 |
How can I get over an old friend's with benefits? | My friends with benefits and I met at the the end of 2016. We were about to make 2 years this month. The last time I spoke to him was in April. He asked me to come over, but I was busy, I told him that I would come later, but I didn't and I never called him back. Now, I see that he has changed his number . How do I cope with the fact that we will never speak again. Sometimes I don't care and sometimes I get angry when I think about it. He was very toxic, I don't know why I miss him. | 1 |
Do you ever just feel lonely and sad at some point in your life but you want to hug it and let it stay and be your bestfriend? |
Idk why. Idk why I am writing this. I should be finishing our 3000-word review of related lit to be submitted this Thursday. Exhausted? Unmotivated? Could be. I should be making my plate or reviewing for my upcoming exam this Wednesday. Idk why the smoke gets in my eyes. It feels like everything is wrong and is not in its place. I feel like I am not in my place. I am in a place where I think I don't deserve and I think I am unworthy. Shall I stay? Shall I go? Shall I let go of something that makes me annoyed and at the same time makes me smile? Shall I continue to receive something that I think is too much for me because I think that I'm a potato and there's a voice at the back of my head saying that I will be a lonely old woman sitting on my rocking chair with my cat on my lap while looking at what's outside my balcony and regretting the things that I have done when I was younger. Ranting this here because title is not so appealing so I am expecting lesser views and I just want to vent out my feelings. I am afraid of something. I just can't say it here or to anyone. I am afraid. I am afraid. I am afraid. No, I am not depressed. I am just sad. Most people say that I am always smiling genuinely and always laugh and gives a lot of corny jokes. It's not that I am faking but bdfv dvvdfvbdvub jeinksdcejdnm csdiknck vwefjisc, I just want to cry. Do ya have any suggestions for a place to cry? ahahhahahahahahhaaaaaaaah WA KOY AKONG ROOM. Can't cry alone. jsjsjjanvhnivinjd I'll leave this writing as messy as I am. Ciao! | 4 |
18f – We can talk about anything big or small or medium-sized you might want to talk about | I feel like I should have a lot to say, I usually do, but I’m so tired. My brain is being very annoying and unkind and I am trying to reason with it and trying to give myself what I need, which is apparently documentaries and iced tea. I am just looking at a nice photo of a gorgeous tree near my boyfriend’s house and it makes me feel a bit better, like the way a photo of a big city from space or the sea or Jupiter would, like everything you care about is so small and inconsequential because life is so very big and when you actually let yourself feel all of it you’ll care very little about the things making you cry right now. Anyone want to just talk things out? We can talk about anything big or small or medium-sized you might want to talk about. Just know that you will be ok. i think<3 an 18 year old from berlin, germany | 4 |
I just found out peter mayhews dead | He died a few days ago and i never knew im a huge star wars fan and Chewbacca was my favourite character damn it im legitimately crying ive never cried for anyone since david bowie died of cancer ffs the news is bullshit they tell you about which shitty rappers on trial but not when a sci-fi acting legend dies FFS | 2 |
Is my obsession getting out of hand? | I’m 20 years old, currently in college, just for basic background info. Unfortunately I still ruminate about a girl from middle school, no seriously, middle school. She was my first love, and we “dated” in 6th grade. To be fair, it was pretty advanced for our age, she would write me a lot of love letters(I wrote back) and got my a special Christmas ornament with my name on it. Well later on I decide to chase another girl and I broke her heart. From then until the beginning of 8th grade I didn’t give a damn. But once I caught feelings for her again it was too late, she moved on. Now, for more background, we went to private middle school, so our class size was small and people caught on pretty fast. I got borderline bullied for it, and as a result I became extremely awkward socially, especially with girls. As was expected, most of us went on the the private high school in the diocese( two separate, all boys and an all girls,) and I still couldn’t get over her. That continued on until I moved towns the summer going into my junior year. Then, things got better, I finally went to public school and became more social and overall had a good time. This last summer I moved back to go to college at my hometown, and she’s on my mind again. She was when I moved too. It brings back the worst pain; all the embarrassment, Anxiety, tears. Yet it also brings back feelings of being absolutely in love. Things were so simple and pure back then. Also best in mind I have never dated, I’ve had sex, but never had a girl to bring home to mom and dad (😒.) Why is she still on my mind? I mean I partly feel the same, but whenever I do I go to a dark place mentally and emotionally. What can fix this? | 2 |
Mother's Day and my birthday | No mom, dad, or sister to be here to celebrate my birthday. All 3 of them had passed away ( different years and the most recent with my sister.) I don't know what to do because not only they pass away, I ain't gonna have the money from anything for my birthday this year. Makes it hard that I just want to cry and not talk to anyone or be around anyone
And mother's day I know I am not getting anything because my son is 3 year old so he has no idea or money and my teenager I don't know if her dad is giving her any money to shop for me. Is my life sucks
I just wish someone would donate money so I can have a good Mother's Day and birthday. But I know that's impossible. I mean, I see people get help from strangers but I'm not lucky on that, well, 3 am, I guess I get some sleep. Kids will be waking up soon, wow, what I know that for sure. Had to put this out. You feeling sad, I need to do something to give me out of this feeling of this emotion. If you want to leave a comment, please still thank you. | 5 |
Is my obsession getting out of hand | I’m 20 years old, currently in college, just for basic background info. Unfortunately I still ruminate about a girl from middle school, no seriously, middle school. She was my first love, and we “dated” in 6th grade. To be fair, it was pretty advanced for our age, she would write me a lot of love letters(I wrote back) and got my a special Christmas ornament with my name on it. Well later on I decide to chase another girl and I broke her heart. From then until the beginning of 8th grade I didn’t give a damn. But once I caught feelings for her again it was too late, she moved on. Now, for more background, we went to private middle school, so our class size was small and people caught on pretty fast. I got borderline bullied for it, and as a result I became extremely awkward socially, especially with girls. As was expected, most of us went on the the private high school in the diocese( two separate, all boys and an all girls,) and I still couldn’t get over her. That continued on until I moved towns the summer going into my junior year. Then, things got better, I finally went to public school and became more social and overall had a good time. This last summer I moved back to go to college at my hometown, and she’s on my mind again. She was when I moved too. It brings back the worst pain; all the embarrassment, Anxiety, tears. Yet it also brings back feelings of being absolutely in love. Things were so simple and pure back then. Also best in mind I have never dated, I’ve had sex, but never had a girl to bring home to mom and dad (😒.) Why is she still on my mind? I mean I partly feel the same, but whenever I do I go to a dark place mentally and emotionally. What can fix this? | 3 |
RIP MEMES IN THE UK | Thanks to brexit and article 13 we will not be able to post memes on snap Reddit insta and twitter so thank all the old people who decided it would be a good idea to leave the EU | 1 |
Who thought I’d relate to an animated alcoholic horse | From the outside I have a nice life, but it’s empty on the inside. I don’t know what I feel anymore, sadness or loneliness, or both. I find solace in solitude and relief. No reason to hide behind a facade when I’m alone. I have a nice life in theory , 16 years old, I’m attractive enough that with my humor I can get almost any girl I want, I have a brand new bmw that my parents got me, enough money in my pocket to always be able to go shopping or buy drugs, and I have good friends. I drink occasionally and smoke pretty often, but no matter what the sadness returns. It’s not my clothes or appearance that makes me sad. I don’t have self esteem or confidence issues, My parents and I always end up fighting nowadays, To Clarify my parents don’t fight each other and have a good and Happy marriage, My gpa has gone down to a 3.5 and I don’t really care, I’m getting a therapist but I don’t know if that’ll help. Life just doesn’t seem very important to me, to me making yourself happy and being a good person are the only real points of life. I don’t know if anyone cares but if you feel tired and sad, just know I’m here with you. | 1 |
Please read | I don’t know much about reddit but I’m here cause I needed a place to express myself. I get sad a lot, I don’t know if I have depression, I get some for extremely long periods of time and I feel empty. I have to put on and act for everyone I’m a different person to everyone. I want help but I don’t. I want to tell people but I despise telling people my feeling. When I do I feel like people like lesser of me and find me weak. I find crying difficult but when I do it feels amazing to just let it out. I hate the repetitiveness of my life. I wake up go to school learn the same thing go home play basketball eat and sleep. The only thing that makes me happy is basketball. And I and constantly filled with doubt about it. Me not being big enough. Tall enough. Strong enough. I get critiqued for very little thing. Your fingers are too small you don’t jump high enough your jumpshot needs improvement and it kills. I had suicidal thoughts but not anymore death scares me and I would not intentionally want to die. I’ve had many hobbies and passions witch I become very good at but I very quickly become bored. I very clearly have anxiety and panic attacks and breathing problems but my parents haven’t done anything about them. I’m worried if I tell them all the things wrong with me they’ll love me less. I know it’s not a disability but my parents would treat it like that. They would treat me like I’m brain dead and I don’t want them to or me to deal with that. I don’t think I can write anymore I will copy and paste this on a couple threads and hope for the best. | 2 |
A friend's ex to girlfriend | So this guy I've been talking to constantly for a few days told me the other night he was going to meet an old friend
That old friend turned out to be an ex
Last night that ex turned to being his girlfriend again
So I've lost my friend
Someone who was like an fp to me
So I'm back to being alone again
No friends
No one who even talks to me
I liked him
But I'll never get my chance
Forever alone | 2 |
A sad random thought | So here I am laying down on my bed ... writing my story to see what went wrong, but before I begin let me asked you have you ever feel sad like no hate at all is just like nothing to blame but yourself like really hopeless.
I am 22 years old and I still don’t know what to do in my life... I have a lot of ideas that I would love to do but some how every time I try I create a lot of hope but it goes down after a while... mainly because I don’t like to do things on my own, don’t get me wrong but I like to have a group in whatever I am doing.
I used to go to gym everyday with a group of friends but after I moved to another state I kind quit cause going by myself was just weird I guess, I’ve tried to find new people to go to the gym but everyone is like on their own thing. It seems that everything that I try there’s no motivation and I’ve try those motivation videos but once I have to keep consistency is just hopeless.
I don’t understand what is up with people that do have the same interest but they are always like “yeah I like to do things on my own”, how does that work ? Every time I am on my own I feel like not doing much like sitting down in a corner and wait cause I already gave up on me, and it’s not like I don’t have the tools to change is just I don’t have the motivation to keep going.
It’s funny cause when I was a kid I used to like be on my own but after I’ve moved a lot, a lot of bounds I used to have are gone... I have to beg to my “friends” for things like hang out or even play a game online ...
I wanna keep going and put a lot of my life in this post but I don’t know if I should... thanks everyone that read until here I hope everyone is having a great day! | 4 |
Settling for unsettling. | I just want to be the best at something. Anything. I’m barely good at anything. I feel so useless. No one talks about me and says “oh yeah he’s the guy that _____________, and he’s the best at it. I would actually be surprised if anyone ever talks about me in a good way. If I don’t have anything special to offer to the people of this world then who am I? It’s unsettling to know that so many people feel the way I do. | 1 |
how to sad? | i have so much cope that i have never felt the feeling "sad" so i need hlep plese help | 3 |
Oh how the mighty have fallen | I know it's not normally the type of post to be put on here, but i have been watching him since i was 11 and he helped me get through my depressed/suicidal phase.
[https://imgur.com/A9RH35g](https://imgur.com/A9RH35g) | 1 |
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You know you’re feeling down when you think to yourself “I just want to go home”, but you’re already home... | null | 34 |
its screaming in my head | for awhile I have wanted to die, I cant even think straight most of the time. Its like something I need to do | 9 |
so lost | it kills me that at this point in my life the only outlet i have is an entity no one can prove to me exists or some stranger i pay to act like they care ....25 years in a relationship and my “partner” basically rolls their eyes anytime I cry or try to get something troubling out of my head....the one person in my entire life who never made me feel as if my existence were a burden has been dead for 5 years and each day that passes I feel more and more alone and filled with crushing despair and so little hope for anything...
if you take the time to read this- thank you. thank you for “listening.” | 12 |
A place to say this. | There are often times when what i feel is overwhelming and i dont know how to handle it. I dont know what to say or how to express myself in a way to make anyone else undertand. And most of my life i have felt like there is no one i can even attempt to express myself to. Occassionally i will find someone i think i can express myself with but once i start sharing they always drift away. And i have always supposed thats just how life goes, that people drift apart and life gets more complicated as time passes. But why is it always the people I deeply for? Why do i always have to FEEL alone when i am alone? Why do i have to feel alone when i am with anyone i am not close to?
Over and over again when i think things are starting to go good something happens that makes me miserable again. I move in with my best friend and suddenly its like i dont exist. Is it me or is it them?
I am so tired of everything, more and more i wish i could just lay down and never wake up again.
Living here with her i am seriously considering just walking away once the lease is up and being homeless because seeing her sit there and not pay me any attention breaks my heart. I dont love her romantically, but going from spending every couple days together and not living together to living together and only seeing or talking for a few moments once a week. If i didnt live here i could handle it, just another person abandoning me and whatever is wrong with me. But having to see her and knowing i now mean nothing to yet another person. | 8 |
Someone help me | I feel so lonely even tho i no loads of ppl like me and shit i feel so alone. I kinda get bullied but not rlly and they make me feel so insecure about everything and i feel lost someone just be therw for me because i feel like i have no one | 8 |
When it rains it pours. | Planning my own sisters funeral and getting pictures of her and a video of all the good times. My sister got into alcohol and drugs so she wasn't around much when I was older. After we started getting closer as adult but still young (20 years olds) she passed away from the substance abuse. It was very difficult to find pictures and talk to people that she used to know to find more recent pictures and memories. Mind you this was also in a one month span of my uncle ODing on me and my dog having a heart attack and dying in my arms while we were on a walk. When it rains it pours. | 6 |
Fuck me | I feel as if my teen years were used for hollowing my personality into a fucking husk for the sake of my parents and everyfuckingone else around. I feel like I'm feeling and behaving as a teen in my twenties and I refuse to believe it's my fault. But there's so much pressure and so much growing up to do I have to do in a matter of weeks. I need to bang my fucking head on something, I need to escape from this family, I wish I didnt fucking exist I'm so done, I dont ever want to feel peace or tepid anxiety again I just want to be angry all the time like rn, only this feels real. I don't want to be used to commodity; I wish I was born struggling, with another reality, never believing in hell. I want to leave, I need to feel safe I want to feel accepted and I must be useful. I dont want to be tied to a fucking orgasm, I'd give up love in 10 heartbeats. May the day that I dont give a fuck what I wear or who I love come soon and honestly because I'm frustrated to sadness of having to fear my father and the life he's led turning into my own. I don't want to believe, I dont want to believe. | 6 |
The amount of will required to decide to continue to exist despite all of the pain most often greatly exceeds the amount of will required to decide to end it all. But even still, too often I still find myself at the crossroads. | null | 6 |
why am i like this |
My eyes burn from the tears that start to glisten
My heart aches in my chest
My inhale and exhale begin to shorten
So much sorrow
This sadness
I want it to go away so bad
I'm afraid it’s over
The one i loved,
Endlessly annoyed with me
Will be gone forever
I know i messed up
And these are the consequences
But fuck, this is worst than the offense
I’m not sure there is much to save
She needs space,
I guess i’m suffocating her
They say true love grows when apart
But in the words of her own
It’s slowly fading away
What am i to do
I’m only a human
With emotions i can't control
Why am i so defective,
Out of place
This sorrow seems to comfort me
A self loathing pity monster
Who would have known
That me, out everyone
Would feel this way, nearly all day
It fucking hurts
And these words
These words may never be seen
Never seen by another persons eyes
And that's okay
Because things like these
For me, i like to keep locked up
Like prisoner or war
The war of love
Constantly battling me from within
When will it end
When i stop loving
I guess that's when | 4 |
Orb | There’s something dark inside of me that I can’t release. It may devour me. Damn. | 1 |
I just wanna disappear to all the world | null | 3 |
Saddest part of life is when you feel that everyone hates you even you didn’t do anything wrong to them. | null | 5 |
When your dog dies during summer 😭 | null | 2 |
I feel sad | I’ve been depressed for years. I’ve gotten to the point where I might try suicide because I can find no alternative to my problem. I don’t think anyone can help me. I’ve been to 6 therapists. Not one of has been able to help me. I’m still open to listening to people if they want to offer some advice, but I’ll let you know that at this point I’m pretty pessimistic about everything. | 3 |
I feel like I'm cursed by god with forever loneliness.... | Yup | 3 |
Who goes to school looking happy but on the inside you feel sadness and despair and darkness? I do. | null | 8 |
I feel like I lost a friend. (Long, maybe poor me) | One of the closest people I've had I've only known for about 3 years. They recently got back into a relationship that ended a while ago. Not many are on board. This person has been a confident of mine. They have given up all semblance of privacy, and didnt announce it to others until fairly recently. I no longer only talk to this person, and they don't seem to share my opinions on the situation. People are people and we all make our own decisions. But I feel like I can no longer confide in them. It seems I've relied quite heavily on them in them, and ive wondered how much burden I may have been. They chose to listen and even support. Things aren't quite like that now and we dont seem to talk nearly as much anymore. I'm sad that they aren't as involved in my life and I'm not as involved in theirs. I hope this fits the sub, and I look forward to any kind of feedback. | 2 |
Ma, I miss you | null | 10 |
I feel like I deserve no affection at all | (Sorry if I explain some stuff in a oddly manner, English isn't my mother Tongue)\*
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About 8 months ago, I decided to finally break up with my girlfriend, she was starting to behave in a really cold manner with me she would avoid any kind of affection: hugs, kisses, snuggles that sort of stuff, back then I really didn't know what was going on with her but I felt I was doing something wrong, I asked several times if I was indeed doing something that made her feel angry, uncomfortable or disappointed but, she would just shrug or say "Nah", after a month of feeling like a piece of shit I decided to break up.
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A few weeks ago I talked with her and she told me that everything seemed fine with her about our broken relationship and she never understood why did we break up; I felt angry and sad, and because of that I've been feeling really low down, like I deserve no one to love me or to give me the kind of affection I wanted back then.
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Have you guys felt that way or something similar to my case?
I don't really know what to do right now, for now, I'm trying to spend more time with friends.
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Thanks for reading. | 4 |
I feel lost | I don't even know who am i, sometimes i can't remember my name, i feel empty, i don't know what to do about it, 4 years wasted, i really want to kill myself, i want to make me feel pain, i deserve it, everything is my fault and i deserve feeling like this. I'm trash, i can't even move sometimes, i don't want to wake up. | 3 |
Someone into Cioran's books? | null | 2 |
Current state of emotion | https://youtu.be/Tim5nU3DwIE
That pretty much sums it up.
Girl of two years left me because she fell out of love. Didn’t want me anymore. That was 6 months ago. Fast forward - I’ve had zero luck in these past 6 months. Absolutely nothing. I feel empty. I need an outlet for the massive amounts of love I want to give someone. I want to pour out my heart and soul for someone. But no takers. Nobody wants me. Hardly even as a friend.
Alone. In darkness. I would almost rather suffer in solitary confinement. At least then my aloneness would be complete. Unlike me. | 3 |
It's okay to be disappointed and sad as long as I am working towards a goal? | I'm between jobs. I am striving to meet my goals to improve my career. However, I am moving slowly.
I find there are deep rooted internal barriers that cause me to slow down while trying to achieve these goals. And I believe much of this is due to stress that arises within me while trying to work hard.
I can spend the rest of my life trying to figure out where that stress comes from. However, perhaps I already know! But I can't focus on those stress triggers. I must merely acknowledge that they exist and continue to focus and work hard to complete the task at hand.
When it comes to sadness, it's okay to feel it. And it's okay to feel the sadness that appears in our hearts of we do not end up where we hoped we would after working hard. It's okay. Just as long as we are moving forward. | 5 |
Life is sad | I feel sadness for life, all of it is a tragic story | 3 |
I wrote this song | A file has been shared using Link Sharing.
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Advice? Detachment and Relationships | So my whole life (21 years) I've kept to myself exept for a couple of really close friends that I've had for 17 years (tried talking with them about it but I don't want to bring them down too much). And for the past 4 or 5 years I've had trouble feeling any emotions that aren't isolation, stress or sadness. For the longest time I just ignored it and kept it to myself because thats what I've always done. But within the last year its been hitting me hard. I tried to stop the bad feels by finding a partner. And crazy enough I found a GF! And it made me happy for all of a week, but happiness for me is a very temporary feeling. Now I find myself losing the feelings I had for her after only a few months, and just stressing about the relationship more than enjoying it. She hasn't done anything wrong, I don't know why I'm pulling away but I can't help the way I feel. So what do I do? I don't know if I should break up with her, or maybe stick it out and see if eventually I feel happy with it again...
| 3 |
Please read this- Honest Blogpost about feeling low | [https://conorventionality.wordpress.com/2018/08/03/off-my-frankly-misshapen-chest/](https://conorventionality.wordpress.com/2018/08/03/off-my-frankly-misshapen-chest/) I had to write this because I'm feeling really low on myself and it feels like no one I know actually cares so would really appreciate it if anyone could spare a few minutes to look, I know a lot of people feel similarly. | 2 |
I have everything I wanted but still I am unhappy. Is the problem in me ? | null | 2 |
Trying to deal | Few days ago, I posted on here about the loss of my precious kitty, Tiffy. 2 dogs had killed her and I managed to get through digging and burying her. Since then though, I e been going through serious bouts of sadness and rage. I want to beat the dogs to death for doing this to my kitty but I know they are animals. I feel so helpless and don’t know what to do here. I am either angry or depressed or a mixture and I can’t get over it. Just keeps rolling around in my head and everything reminds me of her. | 3 |
If anybody cares, please help | I've liked this one girl for at least 5 years now and I could never let her go. I asked her one time if she had the same feelings for me as I did for her, but as expected she said that she didnt. After that sort of forgot about her. But a year passed and ahe started talkung to me again. Naturally I got my hopes up. Ive been talking with her for about a year and a half on and off, and I felt like the fire for her was rekindled in my heart. But soone I found out that she doesn't liked me. I know it sounds like this is coming from a child, but this is the only I know how to put it in words. | 3 |
I looked in the mirror... | I see an old woman, loveless, sad, useless in the world.
I know I have value. I love my volunteer work with youth in rehab and advocating for children in foster care. But there it ends.
My daughter is estranged from me. It is my fault, but now 5 years in recovery she still won’t let me make amends. My grandchildren too old to need this old woman.
My other daughter and grands are too far to see often.
I really have always had trouble with social interaction, never been a party girl. Thus the fact that I am in recovery.
Haven’t dated in decades.
I feel I’m living a lie. I go out to my volunteer jobs and smile and act all happy. After a few hours I am home and back in my box. I go to my meetings, I smile I talk I share. Then home to my box.
My life is a lie. I am not depressed, I feel joy in what I do, I am sad. A deep and hollow sadness that is literal pain in my gut.
I am at a loss as to how not to feel so sad, how to stop the tears and the pain. | 4 |
Does anyone cry at old photos of themselves? | Most people cry at old photos of a dead loved one but I cry at photos of me as a child.
Yesterday I heard a audio clip of my 8th birthday and my grandma singing happy birthday. All those people are alive that are in the audio clip I still want to cry for some reason I think it's just looking back me being young and innocent and I'll never be that way again makes me cry anyone else have this? | 6 |
I've been in love with the same girl for 6 years, unreciprocated | In the past 6 years, I've loved the same woman. Every time I hear even her first name, my chest warms up, it's as if my heart is lighting up at the very thought of her. I don't know how to talk to my friends about this. Trouble is, I have 3 friends I really talk to on the regular, one of which is her. And the other two... they really don't know what to say when I talk about my grief. I guess that's why I'm just talking about it here.
In the past six years, I've dated other women, I've had sex, I've done a lot of stuff, but it's all been in waiting for her. Just trying to fill the void. I try and try to get over her, but I cannot shake those stupid feelings. It is like I am in an abusive relationship with myself, and unfortunately dumping myself would be, well, suicide.
I guess I'm not looking for solutions, I doubt anyone has any. I guess I'm just looking for a way to vent these sad thoughts without bothering anyone I know personally. Thanks for reading | 5 |
I've attempted to create a safe and anonymous outlet to speak to someone you would no longer be able to speak with. | I couldn't find any particular rules for posting in this sub but I wanted to share a 'soft launch' phase of a potentially therapeutic site that allows users to freely and anonymously submit a letter to someone you'd like to speak to but can no longer do so for whatever reasons.
[www.letterstowhom.com](https://www.letterstowhom.com/)
I'd like to test out its ease of use and potential ability to actually help. If there has been anything I've noticed lately about loneliness, it's that I feel it most when I'm not being honest, if anything, with myself. It's when I'm not being honest with what I really want. I found that if I truly just take a moment and pay attention to what exactly isn't feeling right in my life...that was typically the source of that lonely feeling. When I'm not feeling fulfilled...I'm feeling lonely.
Other people are a great distraction and they will get the better of you, often! But they won't ever be the answer to that loneliness. If they're good for you, then they will surely enhance your life, however. If you still need or want to voice your thoughts to someone, in particular, make sure it's for the right reasons. Through, LtW, you can also do it rather uninhabited...anonymous. | 6 |
I feel overwhelmed, tired and so alone | A couple of "shit happens" happened to me, but I just couldn't handle it...So I threw myself in the arms of a new friend who agreed to only share affection, but he fell in love with me and started to pressure me to be his lover, I kept saying no but he disrespected it... and I snapped... I lost another friend because we didn't meet as planed and he said that he never wants to help me again. But I didn't even know that it was that day because he told me that he had to help someone else... I just wish I had friends to count on... friends to have fun with... feel safe with... Maybe I'm just tired. I was happy before seeing the friend who's angry at me, and felt like a piece of shit unworthy to live after. I don't know what's worse, to be disappointed by someone or to disappoint someone... but both at the same time feels terrible...
Well, at least no one died. I feel like my problems are insignificant... I feel even more ashamed of myself to be so unable to handle them.
I went to a big mall today, saw the fancy clothes and people going about their day (I don't have a job for health reasons since a long time), I felt like I didn't belong among people...
Well, I started going to an organism that has activities for people having problems, so there's that... and I find solace in reddit... but I feel like I keep losing everything and everyone... depression is a natural step of grief... but I'm so tired of grief... I need a platonic hug... without it turning into sexual harassment...
How are you? I feel lonely... but maybe I'm tired and I need alone time... trying to be with people is more problems to handle... instead of help. | 1 |
I lost a friend today. She took her own life last night, she’s been fighting depression / bipolar for many, many years now. I thought things were looking up, she had a new bf, we were making plans for lunch next week. She leaves behind 2 daughters. I’m devastated and I don’t know what to do. | null | 3 |
It is 4 am as I post this | The past couple of days haven't been the greatest. I have had a breakdowm twice and cried so much in these past days than I have in my entire life. As the school year comes to an end and graduation draws nearer, I've been feeling more and more down than I usually do. I think the reality of leaving and stepping into the real world is hitting me, but it's hitting me in all kinds of ways and none if them seem to be good. Through all of this, I have come to many realizations and feelings, especially about other people.
I am a person who loves with the entirety of my heart and more. I could have just barely met you and I already love you and want to know all your secrets and tell you mine and want to protect you. I am a person who will talk to you about anything and everything and never judge you and would try my hardest to make sure you're comfortable. I would put all of that before me.
I don't trust anyone. I don't trust my best friends, my "husband", my parents...no one. I love them with all my heart, but I cannot trust at all. What I do instead is put all my love and secrets and share my life and become vulnerable to those who I want in my life. I know thats basically trusting, but to me it doesnt seem like it because I wouldn't put my life in their hands, or even choose the color of my nails. I have few friends and even fewer best friends. In some moments, there have been times when I lean towards putting my trust in them, but then it gets ruined for me and the trust is no longer given the chance. As graduation comes closer, people are showing their true colors, and they aren't what I thought they would be. I realize that I am losing the people who I thought that I would have the chance to keep in my life, and that not only saddens me to my core, but it also angers and frustrates me beyond belief.
It angers me because this has happened to me constantly in my life. I meet people and love them wholeheartedly, and I get left behind. I get dropped without any warning after everything seems like it's the greatest time of our lives. So with these people that I have endured what is supposed to be the "greatest years of your life", the time that grows and shapes you, it hurts a bit more than anything else. The other people, they've all been online and whilst it did hurt, and it still does a bit, this hurts more because I've seen these people face-to-face for so long, and to know that they are so fine with just forgetting everything, hurts me. I put every fiber of my love into these people and always tried making sure that they would at least smile or laugh while I was with them because I want people to be happy. And now I have to go on without them, them being completely okay with their choice while I cry in the corner and think of them every waking moment but they don't even give a crap towards me. It angers me that I put in all this time and energy and care for them and done things that I dont think I would have done in the first place and they basically take it for granted. It's worse when they already move on and find someone else to fill your space before you're even gone.
Life is a cruel joke. It gives you all these amazing and wonderful people that change your life and you think that you get to keep them forever, but the sad truth is you don't. You're forced to move on and forget about them because you can no longer see them as friends, let alone people. Now they're just life lessons. Lessons to show you that you can't be trustworthy, that next time you shouldn't talk to people, that next time you shouldn't fall in love, that next time you shouldn't find someone who understands you because every single time you will be used, hurt and eventually forgotten.
After everything in my life and especially this past month and weeks, I truly wish that I could have amnesia. I always used to say that "yes even though I lost these people I don't regret meeting them" and that "I have these memories that I wouldn't trade for the world because at least I have something to smile about." As I grow older, I wish that I could actually erase the memories. I no longer see them as happy things to look back on, instead they are...painful reminders of something that you no longer have. Of a time that you can never go back to and that you can't make new memories because these people aren't in your life anymore, and eventually there is only so much you can smile back on before they mean nothing anymore.
I am not a fan of change by any means. I do not handle change in the best way possible, and I always try to avoid it and try my very best to not let it happen. But in this case, I fear that this is something that is gonna change my life in the biggest way possible...and I don't want anything to do with that. I'm upset and angry. Angry at these people. The people who have left. But at the same time...I'm not. No matter how hard I try, the feeling of love comes back out and stringer than ever. For some reason I am incapable of being angry at these people, but I am completely capable of hating and being angry towards myself. I blame myself for every single one of these failed friendships. I get too close and personal and love people so easily, that I become such an easy target to be hurt, and I'm the one who does it to myself. I put myself in these situations where I just want people to love and accept me because I do the same for others but I forget that I'm not someone people willingly want to put up with.
I'm an intense person to put up with. I love with a love so strong, I feel things so hard that it makes me cry when others are hurting and I can't do anything to take that away. I always have to be strong in front of those that I care for and love. I could be having the worst day possible, but I will not show it to others. I will smile and laugh and mess around as if the world is rainbows and unicorn sparkles because I care more about everyone else having a good time. Even on the rare occasion when someone asks if I'm alright, I lie. Not only to them, but in some ways, to myself. I ask people if they're ok, or even just try to see how they're doing, but I barely even get asked how I am. They ask others how they are, whether they just look tired or they're actually crying, but I don't get asked, not even as a check up on me. I love these people with all my heart. They don't become friends, they become my family. I keep all their secrets, all of the things they've done, even if we don't speak anymore, those secrets die with me. No matter how angry I am and just want to tell everyone about what they've done, I don't. But what sucks is that family apparently isn't forever... I'm never anyone's first choice, never have been.
I never stop loving these people and that hurts because I shouldn't be caring about them. I always worry for their safety every single day. I always worry if they're ok, or what they're doing in this moment, or pray that they're not in trouble, etc. I also always pray that I hope I have the chance to keep them in my life. Obviously, I don't always have that chance, which in some cases it's been good to not have them anymore, but for the most part..it hasn't been good. And it hurts a lot that more with the fact that it's not a gradual ending of a friendship like distance making it difficult to keep up with it , but it's just an abrupt end, someone is ending it by choice. Like they are just throwing everything away s if they beloeve theres an expiration date. Sometimes I wanna run away. Run away and never look back. Change my hair, change my name, meet new people and forget about the past life. But unfortunately in always gonna be the idiot who loves people who break her heart, over and over again...
TLDR; Life is a joke, people are abandoning me after all the shit I've done and I'm not handling it very well | 3 |
Why did i have to be born???? | I wish i was never born...:( I feel better just imagining me never existing...If i could go back in time and stop myself from being born i would...I hate heaven and hell and earth...I just wish i never existed...I like ponies...Some may think thats stupid but i do like it. I like playing with toys and stuffed animals...People got a problem with it too bad...Only few good things in life...And those are on the list...I wish i just never existed. :'( I get soooo sad...I hate how people treat people for being sad claiming they are out for attention. I hate bottling it all up but i have too. I also never stand up to myself. I hate i was born so much...:( | 3 |
Only posting what i feel | Sadness makes me want to lay in bed all day and do nothing. I wish I could be there more for other people who are sad but its hard to open up. I've been crying for a few days I'm going down a slope. Sometimes it feels good to just let go, cry, not care about your life, it makes you more humble to kindness and who is really good. Some go further than other but some reach out to make sure your okay, and you can go back to them for support and it feels like a high when someone goes out of their way for you. Everyone needs people like that, their is too much sadness in the world. I cant stop crying. I love everyone who has cared to read this, I love the good in people and I appreciate you I love you. Even if things are good for you try to make sure they are for other people. Be that friend. I love you. | 4 |
So many things... | This week has been bad. My pet chook died. My daughter (who is pregnant with my first grandchild) moved to a different state and I won’t be able to see her when the baby comes. One work colleague from my small, close team finished up with us and and I wasn’t able to get to his send-off. Another colleague that has been my role-model for two years has tendered his resignation and will be moving far away. My husband and I are not doing well; I think we are going to separate soon.
I have cried more in the past week than I have in the past decade. I’ve tried to take some time to talk to friends, because I really need to bounce off someone, but they’re all too busy to talk, let alone take time out for a coffee.
Tonight my husband has gone to the movies with his brother, preordered tickets but neglected to get one for me, despite us having planned days ago to see it together. | 1 |
My brother is leaveing in 4 hour for a different country | I havwa very good relationship with my 19 year old brother I am 13 but I do not want him to go I never been without him so I feel sad . To the point that I will cry after he is gone . We watched TV show together and played video game together laughed together and watched anime together so i miss him . What should i do | 1 |
I dont know what the fuck is going on | So my life is decent I do well in school, I have alot of friends, I'm top of the offensive llin and won the Albert Einstein award. But it's the girl in my life that makes me fucking hate half of my day. So I'm not gonna give her real name out so let's use Colby.
Colby is very pretty smart and I hope she still has some feeling towards me, but the thing is that she can't date till shes 16 (15 rn) and alot of guys are starting to flirt with her and I still do and still try to talk to her but every time I do some guy steps in and that's not bad but the main thing that bothers me is the fact that the feelings she had for me are slowly fading and I can tell because she only talks to me for about 5 minutes and most of the time just makes me feel worthless compared to other guys and I try my hardest to forget about her through football, shooting, knives and video games but none of it works and I still have feelings for her(like alot) but idk whats happening with me or why I am letting this get to me... Please help me | 1 |
Just had the single most saddest moments of my life. | I'm a student and I regularly study until late in the evening in the library. Today was no different, but I left a bit earlier to enjoy the nice weather at least a little bit. On my walk home, I always encounter many restaurants, cafes and old historic buildings with a lot of cosiness, which makes me feel a bit lonely from time to time, but manageable.
But then it struck me. As I was walking over the market square, I started to see every bench filled with one couple each, from the first to the last one. It felt like walking into some kind of movie scene or something. They were all laughing, enjoying and seemingly wonderful in love (writing this I notice that my description doesn't even come close to describing the atmosphere and vivid faces that were there).
At the moment I was passing, I really thought to myself: If I had to choose between having just one evening, or even a little hour, to experience what these people are experiencing, and continuing my life, I would accept the former in a blink of an eye. To my mind, that there, was life in its most naked form, and to have lived through such a moment gave you permission to tell that you knew what it meant to have lived. Something the universe could never take away from them anymore. Anyways, that's all, thank you. | 7 |
Should I stop trying to introduce myself in today's society? | I'm really sorry if I wrote this on the wrong topic, but I think it's a matter of it in some kind.
Anyway, briefly, here's the scenario: I aways felt some kind of emptyness in my life after childhood; your friends stop playing with you because "it's kid's stuff" (but just in front of girls, of course) and some love issues (I've always been too kind, and I fall in love too easily).
The thing is that I'm a true melancholic and introspective person; I spend my day creating love stories in my head, other realities, such as medieval ones as 40's romances.
As everyone knows, when you idealize reality and lose touch with it, when you come back you realize it's a mess. The ephemerality and 'liquidity' of today's relationships sick me up. I live surround by idiots, and I fell that when I talk to people they don't understand my sadness, my existencial emptyness.
I know that no one here is wrong or right — times change. I believe that some people just happen to born in the wrong scenario, in the wrong time; this world is not for everyone.
I've becoming more and more quiet with time, just me and my thoughts. I fear that I will become crazy.
Someone here understands me? Should I keep distance of this mad society? Is better to live alone and become wiser or go with the flow? I'm really considerating live my life by my own alone, and away of these stupid humans who just talk about sex and money (piece of fucking paper).
Thanks for your time, gentlemens. And please, be kind in comments :) | 5 |
A poem of how it feels to catcg feelings of a quarrelsome women. |
Hurt when you went I've come when you've gone seeing everything I did wrong.
Your siren song didn't take me long to lose myself in the sea.
On the shores of time your memories like boulders on the beach
And the crashing waves from day to day can't drift away a weight like you.
| 3 |
Sad and in class | I have depression and I’m in class. I’m a paramedic student and my friend in class noted that I just zoned out for ten minutes. I’m not sure what’s wrong with me. I feel like a failure and I lost my federal aid for school. Idk what to do. I asked my friend when the last time she cried was and that was 2005. I can’t imagine not crying and yet then again I haven’t cried in a month so. I feel like shit and idk what to do. | 1 |
Trapped? | The world is a sad place where there are many people who worry about unimportant things. We are blind, we don’t see the true burden of the pain we carry every day we wake up and get down. We shouldn’t take things for granted because life is way too short to argue about what colour your new dress should be or what brand your shoes are. Time is expensive and we can’t buy more time than we have, even with the most money in the world you can’t buy yourself more time although we wish we could buy ourselves one more day without the pain we carry. The goods we buy and own are just objects, we have those to make us feel better and those are the things that makes us miserable beings.
I feel the pain every morning when I wake up, I check my phone, send my morning snap and start my morning-routine. I feel like I am trapped in a social/emotional box, I can’t escape, I can’t run and I can’t hide because it has become my life, it has become everyone’s life and that is sad. Everybody acts like this is fine but it isn’t because every single one of us is in the same box with the same weight of burdens we all carry. Unfortunately.
We all think we must reach to our full potential every day in our existence but it is okay if we just want to relax for a day, not to be lazy but to not go for what you crave to achieve.
-RMR
Rip my spelling. | 2 |
Guide yourself | Facing the deafening silence is a struggle, but we forget all the light-posts that surround us, to guide us through this tough, and suffocating time's in our life. Friends, family, loved ones, fleeting moments of love, happiness and even our cute animal friends. Their is always a light at the end of every tunnel; We sometimes get engulfed in the prolonged walk that we just stand and admire the light as if unattainable. persevere, you owe it to yourselves. Happiness and comfort is a right not a privilege. Don't let anyone steal it from you. you are you own master. I just came here from my own plight, but I remembered what life can be, and i wanted to remind everyone as well. | 2 |
22 years old and lost my dad | Hello, I am a 22 years old girl and I lost my dad the last Summer. He fell in depression and became alcoholic when I was 13 and it became very difficult to live with him. The diseases was stronger than our family and even if we loved each other, my mom took me and my brother away of his destruction. I saw him change and became violent with my mom. He made her pay for his taxes and the all thing. Life became nightmare. They divorced and I saw my dad barely the 5 last years. He always wanted to help me with money, advice and stuff, called every day (to avoid loneliness) and just fall more and more in depression and alcoholism. I don’t respond at all the call he made because I had a life (college, boyfriend, friend, travels...) but I kept answering because he was my dad after all.
He died the last summer and since I am sad every day, I’m thinking about it every day, the alcoholism, the depression, the nightmare, and his death. I think he didn’t deserve it. I need help because I can’t find courage to go see a psychologist. I feel not understand by my friends and family. Is there someone who can help? | 3 |
Can someone please talk to me | I am at a point where I have no friends in my life right now. They all either moved away or moved on. Topple that onto family problems and life changes: it's driving me insane. I thought being alone for a while would be nice but its really been eating at my mental health this past month. Most days are incredibly sad; I have cried more in a month than I have in a year. I just feel bad. Any advice would help me greatly | 7 |
Letting my fingers do the work | So this is the first post I have made on reddit so far so this is both a big moment, but a bittersweet one for the reason why. I can't say that I am sad because sadness always seems to have the chance of being changed into something positive. What I feel is something so crushing that I do not know what would help at this point.
If I am going to type this, I ask that you not mind a bit of length, but if I don't get it out of my system at this point I may never. My life is not horrible by any means. I have a wife that loves me deeply, a family that is supportive, friends that have my best interest at heart, but at the end of the day I come home and sit down to find myself feeling as if I am overwhelmed with the crushing feeling that things are not right. Recently I have been watching something happen on another subreddit that has actually helped me along the way so far, but I know that will not last forever. To be honest, I don't actually know how long I will be this way, but it has been lingering for what feels like years at this point.
I know it is not fair to expect anyone to read this, but I really needed to type this out so I could at least say I told someone. I do hope that wherever you are, whoever you are, you are making progress with what is before you. | 2 |
if you need hope | If you feel hopeless and don't know where to turn this prayer will help you; St. Jude, thank you for answering my prayers!
The Prayer to St Jude
O most holy apostle, Saint Jude, faithful servant and friend of Jesus,
the Church honoureth and invoketh thee universally, as the patron of hopeless cases,
and of things almost despaired of.
Pray for me, who am so miserable. Make use, I implore thee, of that particular
privilege accorded to thee, to bring visible and speedy help where help was almost
despaired of.
Come to mine assistance in this great need, that I may receive
the consolation and succor of Heaven in all my necessities, tribulations,
and sufferings, particularly (here make your request) and that I may praise
God with thee and all the elect throughout eternity.
I promise thee, O blessed Jude, to be ever mindful of this great favour,
to always honour thee as my special and powerful patron, and to gratefully
encourage devotion to thee.
Amen. | 0 |
My lovely, faithful dog is going to be put down and I don’t know what to do | Hey all, not quite sure why I’m posting. I guess I just want to put into words how I’m feeling. My beautiful, wonderful doggy of almost 14 years is going to be put down in a few days. She can no longer walk and at this point keeping her alive through meds is honestly just kinda selfish. But I can’t handle the idea of living without her! She is my heart and soul and I already miss her, even tho she’s not gone yet. How can I handle this?! How do I move on and stay strong while I miss her so much? | 1 |
How am I going to be better | I suck at school. I cant do a thing to make my parents and siblings proud. I cant do shit to give myself. All I do is play with my phone and that's it. These sad songs arent helping me anyways. I fucking love my gf but I don't think she loves me like I love her. I dont know. Maybe she loves me more than I think but im shit to realize that.
Fucking fuck. I don't have anyone to talk with. I know I have, but I dont want to talk to them like this. My friends know me usually as a fun guy. Not this.
To anyone who spent time reading this, thanks. I hope you find peace and happiness. | 4 |
Tolstoy beautifully explains depression | "I seem to have arrived at something, finished the half of my life, and ahead the path is straight and dreary and swift, and so monotonous that it will be impossible to know whether I am going backwards or forwards, upwards or downwards. I don't know even whether to resign myself as usual or go down the path at all."
It's not TOLSTOY! It's Chirikov! Ugh! How do I change the title..... | 2 |
the ugly truth. | everything in this world is enough to execute you without trial, perhaps expect breathing. | 3 |
why does all the girl i school say i'm ugly and fat :( | all the girls i've seen always look like they wanna puke when they see me i don't know why :( | 3 |
Sad and disappointed | I left a team sport at the beginning of the year. I’d been part of the league for 5 years, I joined because I was lacking in friends and was hoping to build lasting and meaningful friendships. I thought I had until I left. It seems once you’re out you’re out. You no longer share a common passion and it turns out nothing deeper was ever formed despite feeling like it had at the time.
I just feel so lonely, I’ve gone from having 20+ “friends” to zero. It’s like a break up where your ex gets the friendship group. I’m disappointed that I obviously thought a lot more of these people than they did of me. That I’m no longer invited to birthday drinks, or a quick coffee, to cinema outings. That no one messages to have a chat.
I think only I can participate in a team sport for 5 years and come away with no true friends. Maybe I don’t try hard enough to make connections? Maybe I need to be a little more full on instead of laid back. I don’t know. Guess I never did get the hang of making friends :(
| 6 |
I Kissed a Mormon Missionary | Well, technically, he kissed me. This was two weeks ago. Now here I am, sleep deprived and crying because he’s leaving in a few days. We’ve grown really close in the past month, and neither of us expected to fall for the other. I’m not a Mormon, and he doesn’t expect me to convert. He wants to be with me, and has even admitted that he’s never wanted that before with anyone. Yes, he’s had girlfriends over the years, but he hasn’t wanted to settle down with anyone until now. Until me. I just came out of a bad marriage, a marriage that I gave everything to, and I’m scared of getting hurt again. He’s still got another year and a half left on his mission, so I know that even though we have feelings for each other, we’d be apart for a long time, and a lot can change in a year. I didn’t think it would come to this. I didn’t think I’d fall this hard for him, despite being instantly attracted to him. God, he just makes me feel so good! So special. So wanted. Exactly how I didn’t feel when my husband cheated on me with multiple women and decided that kiddie porn was a better alternative to sleeping with his own wife. I don’t know what to call our relationship (Friendship? Fling?), but what I do know is that I don’t want it to end. | 3 |
My bff/bf is mad | Helllpppp cheer me up peoples
Update he’s mad at me
Update update we be good nvm | 2 |
I miss my brother so | I don't expect anyone to comment on this thread, but am posting this for my own sanity and healing, hopefully. My older brother just moved to Seattle from California for a new job, and although I am very excited for him, I am devastated from this. I wish there was a stronger word for inseparable, because that's exactly what we are. He drove 8 hours through the night to pick me up from college when I busted my knee, he supports me both financially and emotionally in every endeavor and passion I have. He takes care of me in every aspect and always puts my happiness in front of his every time. He is the definition of selfless. Every time I look at his empty room, or his bike next to mine, or his now vacant parking spot, I can't help but cry the ugliest cry I have. I know it gets better over time but right now, not having been even 24 hours since he left, it is so damn hard. We talk a lot over the phone and FaceTime, but we know if either of us show any sadness it will just make both of us incredibly sad. I just feel a big emptiness in my life, and am unmotivated to even get out of bed, let alone go to work and function. I just hope he knows I just want him to be the happiest he can be, and how much he means to me. Thank you for reading guys. If anyones gone through a similar experience or loss and knows ways to cope, I'm all ears. I've never felt a debilitating sadness like this before. Much love. | 3 |
What a wonderful world | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Guer8Vl2QSc
Let
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1eVKRHAs4A
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F33HGykOmt0
Please...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3hS_RCMAmk | 1 |
I think I can’t fix myself ever | I was a loser at high school.
Then I had a girl which left me like I was nothing.
Then I found a perfect Girlfriend, perfect with her own flaws. 5 years later she cheated on me.
Then I went to reddit and learned how to get girls to like me, which is no problem for me today.
The last girl I mentioned asked for pardon and we got back (put on a simple way). As we progress again for few month I got real Vietnam flashbacks of the bad times she gave me when we broke up, and also I could never truly love her again, I wanted, I tried, for real, but the girl I was in love wasn’t there anymore, she never will, my ex killed her, I was once so in love with her, the worst part was that she was trying and she didn’t do anything bad, and I finish our relationship.
After that I keep having dreams about her, and day dreaming with our past, on how unbelievable good it was, but it is unreachable, forever, it’s on the abyss and depths of my past which will never comeback not even if I could be in a relationship with her now.
I mourn, its crippling sadness.
Little time after sadness I found another girl, which is perfect, a real exemplar of a good human being, she loves me, she is beautiful physically and inside, and I hate myself.
I can be the one good man for her because I’m jaded, and still living in the past, and this new girl do not deserve me.
None of this women are doing anything bad, it’s not their fault at this moment, I’m just a piece of shit. I tried to die in the past but it wasn’t successful, now I’m just feeling bad and gilty I cannot even take my life away because I’m too much jaded and montionless and frozen in time.
Why can I have peace? | 5 |
Despair | I feel so alone...I recently went out of a "relationship", or a very platonic online friendship. I don't feel I have anyone to confide in or talk to anymore. | 4 |
Let go | Voy a tener que dejarte ir porque sino, me voy a morir cuando llegue tu hombre correcto y forme una familia con ustedes.
I must let you go, because if i dont, i will die when the correct man arrives into your life and form a family with my loved ones. | 2 |
I thought I was done with this | I hate this feeling that I get sometimes. I always feel absolutely alone even when I'm surrounded by people. I always feel like my friends are not actually that because I always feel like I'm annoying and no one likes me. Like everyone is always talking about me behind my back. Normally I just let it go and tell myself I'm being foolish but sometimes it's just to much and I get into these states that i don't even know how to describe. It's sort of like a weight is on my stomach that prevents me from breathing. Is this what depression is? I hate the feeling of being alone. I want to have somebody to love but I can't get close because my brain can't let me.
Sorry for this post | 6 |
Change | Do you guys think is right to shape yourself into a relationship? There are things about everyone that does not please the other person, in my case those things we bad not only for us but for people on the outside...
We split up for now, as we work our issues individually seeking to grow as human beings, and if the feelings are still there when we reach that point we will try again, do things right next time | 1 |
State of decay | On may I graduated from high school i was happy when graduated my whole family was happy for me because I was the first of my family to graduate. I got job working at Omni hotel downtown Dallas I was there for one week but I got fired for using my phone but that wasn't the main reason why I got fired is because I missed one day and reason why missed that day is because I twisted my ankle on my to work I ride the bus there but anyways I found another job afterwards I worked at the Crowe hotel it's was shitty I worked as housemen i lasted two months but I got laid off because the hotel was losing money so i just went to find a new job a week later after losing my job at the hotel I got job at a place where we made table cloth the company is called gbs linens I got thought how to fold and how to cut and Measure but today was bad I got laid off but worst thing that happened to me was the boss peter or whatever his name is laying me off in front of of coworkers they looked really sorry for me my former boss told me " it was because there wasn't nothing for me to do there" my heart broke into a million pieces I told him "this job is all I have without this job I'm nothing " he said "sorry " I went to get my stuff I started crying because I finally found a job I really wanted I really loved that job I went to clock off and he passed by saying "thank you " I really wanted to say "fuck you" but my goodness of being a better person got to me I just didn't respond I went to clock off and I left right I walked out I sat on floor and started crying in one month I lost everything I lost my girlfriend and my new job. I went back home crying because I felt like lost in translation lost in my own mind in denial that I lost my girlfriend and my job rn I'm deciding between killing myself or keeping going and keep decaying losing in touch with myself the only thing that I want back is me going to school I miss my friends the people I hated and loved my old teachers I know this is the real world once you graduate you lose everything your smile and yourself. | 2 |
Me | HEy guys, Im a Brasilian guy, 17 yo, and i lost evrething and everyone. It's the hardest time of my life, im hear surching for emotional help...
I'm atheist and I can not stand it anymore | 1 |
Southland | Sooo I started watching Southland on Hulu. I bing watched this whole series in 1 week. LOVED IT. Watched the last episode on Hulu......FOUND OUT IT WAS CANCELED>>>> UMMMMM!! NO! I need to know if he dies. WTF! | 2 |
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