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I sleep all day don’t know why | Have been to dr’s , have taken depression , anxiety and ADHD meds…. Never feel different. Years of being tired , too tired to develop friendships, relationships or date. All blood work is fine … for years. All my life I’ve felt unwell 20’s,30’s now I’m 40’s. I have suffered incredible trauma in my life as a kid and adult but have always pushed past it but I’m numb now I guess. Tried therapy too but it’s not the silver bullet people make it out to be. I muster up enough energy to deal with people when I have to and they always love me ( work , rare dates or attempts to make friends going to an event every now and then) but it drains me to the point that I’m in bed for hours after interactions and the relationships never go anywhere. Home is always to messy to have anyone over but somehow I feel like I am always cleaning or putting off going out because of clutter I have been putting off clearing. Always dreaming of having a productive day or feeling well enough to carry out a task. Scrolling for hours daily looking for answers has become a habit. Ironically I am in a high pressured tech sales job and have been in sales for years because of the money I need to make being fully independent . It’s the worst role for my “illness” but I feel stuck and like a phony daily … How much longer can I live this way. Always underwater on getting things done because I have no energy or motivation. | 4 |
Should I be put away forever? | I got into a personal argument with my mom just now that automatically makes me think I ruined everything for today. She told me that I didn’t ruin anything, but my brain automatically went to “doom and gloom” mode. And on the 4th of July too.
My natural born depression and anxiety have ruined me and there’s nothing I can do about it. And I believe that my mom and therapist just want me to be happy. But I’m not happy and believe that I never will be again. Because true happiness doesn’t come naturally for me. It comes at a price.
Because of all this, should I be put away in an insane asylum and locked away forever? I show no signs of getting better. I’m taking meds but I’ve been taking the same meds since 2010. And I don’t know if they’re wearing off. My psychiatrist won’t even let me take something else. | 3 |
Why am I like this? | Anixy has ruined me. I have no friends, job, girlfriend not even a learners permit at 23. But worsexof all I'm a failure of a son. My mom is the most wonderful person in the world shes my best friend but a few years ago I feel I broke her heart. I have always been weird I've never been comfortable around family and I throw up I get so nervous in public so I've isolated myself completely never leaving my room. And a few years ago on Christmas my mom was so happy for me to open gifts but I could bring myself fo be happy or anything I just tried to act happy even if it was the greatest gift ever because of this I dont even celebrate holidays anymore and I could see her face change to sadness. My mom says she understands and loves me and now we exchange gifts and open them in private but I keep feeling like I'm hurting her. It must suck having a son like me I want yo be happy with them but idk how to act. I live her more than anything this world but I'm such a disappointment. Please help me | 7 |
Depression progression | So my depression progressed to the point where I am not functional at all. Every second of every day is painful. This has made it so I can’t get out of bed. I cannot focus enough to get any task done at all. Needless to say my performance at work has been under continual review. I 23f have lost nearly all my hair in the last 6 months as a result of weight loss and stress which makes everything that much worse because I am essentially bald. Everytime I go to touch my head hair comes out in clumps. It’s a temporary condition but my heart is truly broken. I just wish I knew what love feels like maybe then I wouldn’t care so much that my hair is gone. I’ve never found medication or therapy helpful. Is there honest to god any solutions to this other than absolutely fighting for my life? | 7 |
30 days | Things were okay. I felt stable. Things aren’t okay anymore but I had 15 days of not bad. I often wonder why I feel so alone. I’m trying my best to hang on | 2 |
Bit the bullet today and complained to GP surgery | I think the issues I had with them last week when trying to get mental- health support were entirely avoidable. So rather than gripe and moan, I wanted to make it official so maybe actual change can be implemented, and others will have access to better support.
In fairness to my surgery, they have always been fantastic and I've never had an issue with them (username indicates a lot of dealings with them lol). So it wasn't a bitchy complaint, I acknowledged how grateful I am for their support which is 100% true, but I feel something went wrong and I want to understand it, because from my perspective even ringing to ask about mental health support is challenging enough without having obstacles placed in the way.
I'm hoping for a meeting with the practice manager, so we can discuss it and hopefully improve things for the future.
I usually just whinge and moan so hoping this proactive step will be worth it. :) | 3 |
OMG - Game changer! | After a scary episode of depersonalisation last week, I explained to my counsellor that I felt like the email I sent him about it should be in the 3rd person.
At the minute, I'm having trouble regulating my emotions. Having been buried for so long, they are so overwhelming that I either totally freak out or shut down, leaving us unable to process and deal with them. and me in a permanent state of flux. Various grounding things etc have been of little use.
However, we talked about the 3rd person thing, and decided to approach it from that angle, giving me a little psychological space from the emotions, and allowing me to look at it more as if I were assessing someone else in the situation.
I tried it out in a smaller way today - I had to drop a letter off to GP and was anxious about it. On the way there, I changed from 'I'm really worried about doing this', to 'Sarah is really worried about doing this, but she shouldn't be because it's a really simple task.' It made a massive difference to anxiety levels.
I really think this will allow me to work through it. Light at the end of the tunnel, at last!!
Hope this helps someone! | 5 |
Sudden Anxiety and Sleep Issues | I'm 35 (F), married no kids. I have had one panic attack at 17 and that was it, not an anxious person just stressed. I have a stressful job, high level customer service for people with lots of money. I have a supportive husband but no contact with my other family by choice as they are very toxic. My mother passed 2 years ago, before her passing we didn't speak for about 5 years. Then she called to say she had cancer and we got about a year together before she passed. I tried to rekindle my relationship with my twin sister and nephew but she just wanted to use me as a babysitter and she is very toxic person. She and I had an argument that really depressed me bad for an entire week. Then two weeks later at the end of April I was falling asleep on couch with my husband normal routine. I felt anxious all of a sudden out of no where. Then I started shaking, got really cold, heart pounding, it felt like I was about to have a panic attack but the big attack didn't happen I just had all the symptoms. I was in this state for over two weeks. Then I stopped sleeping, for three days I didnt sleep. I couldnt eat also, was so nauseous I had to force food down. Three trips to ER, heart is good, blood work good, I am healthy they say it's just anxiety. Xanax has helped. I won't take the zoloft because it made me feel really strange. I'm getting better little by little. Xanax helps me sleep but this week I found I needed more to sleep, I have been on it since the beginning of May. My husband is very supportive but it's all starting to weigh on him, his sleep, he worries about me all the time, he's getting depressed. I feel like crying often and am nauseous a lot of the time. I find my anxiety is less but not gone. I still get heart pounding or fluttering. I get really sad and just want to cry my eyes out and my stomach hates me, I often have to make myself eat. How is it this anxiety can just come out of no where? Will it ever go away for good? It feels lime my body is just stuck in fight or flight mode. I don't have insurance and the therapy I get free from work is not good at all. I have a good life, a caring and loving husband, I make decent money although I hate my job, we have a beautiful rental home with great landlords. For the first time in my life I'm not living paycheck to paycheck. WTF happen to me? I'm starting to get really depressed but I also think the Xanax is messing with me. This week I started taking more xanax to sleep and getting anxiety about sleeping again. Will it ever end? I'm reading about CBD/CBG for day and CBD/CBN for night but I don't know what to do anymore. | 6 |
The suffering continues… | About 6 months ago, I learned that a lot of the torture my brain experiences is actually due to a TBI I had over 15 years ago, and not due to some undiagnosed depression disorder.
I have a long rant to go on about this, but I’m so tired, so I won’t. Basically it ruined my relationship, my life, the way I see everything.
I jumped at an opportunity for a new beginning. I took off, and many would say I’m succeeding, but I am beyond miserable.
I just want my old life back. I just want to show my old friends and relationship and everyone who I used to have that I am mentally better now that I am not taking medication for all the wrong diagnoses anymore, but I can’t show them that when this has transpired into actual depression because now I’m in my right mind and unable to gain back everything I lost.
I want my old life back. I wish I was healthy during that time. I wish I hadn’t been such a monster. It all felt so out of my control at the time and maybe the final straw was what I needed to finally get the necessary help, but the loss feels huge. Huge.
It’s been about 10 months now since I was thrown out by the person who means the most to me. It still feels like it was yesterday and like he’s going to see me differently, now.
But he won’t. He’s moved on. We are thousands of miles apart, and I feel line I am never going to recover.
There was a slight point in time where he felt it, too. But he’s over it, and I sit here and wonder each day how I’m going to continue to push forward. I want to clarify that I have no desire to end things for myself; I just also wouldn’t mind if something happened to me. There’s just nothing to look forward to. Again, before you send the troops: I am NOT going to hurt myself. I just wish I felt better. Going through the motions every day kind of sucks. | 4 |
I am overwhelmed with my next steps and terrified for life after college. Advice? | null | 3 |
What should I do | My bf of 3 years broke up with me and he said it’s bc I never made plans and I feel so bad and I spend all last night puking and haven’t eaten in 2 days. I can’t. He said he never Wanted to leave but that he thought that’s what I wanted but when I told him I didn’t and wanted him to come back he said he doesn’t know right now and needs to think about what he wants. I wish someone could talk to him for me to know what he’s thinking. I miss him so much. I just want him back. | 4 |
Where do I go from here? | This is really long. TL;DR at bottom.
TW: r*pe, self-harm, unalive
I’ve been depressed for as long as I can really remember, but never had the money to get diagnosed. I began a particularly nasty spell a few months ago, around February. I knew it was beginning and finally decided I would pony up the money to get an official diagnosis and hopefully some medication. I called in March and had an appointment set up for April.
Things didn’t go as planned. The psych agreed with my hunches and diagnosed me with severe depression and mild general anxiety. I told her that I was already struggling with a big project due at the end of March. She recommended I do therapy to unpack all the trauma because no meds could make me do the work - I have to choose to do it. (Like I didn’t already know that.)
I was once in therapy but stopped maybe two years ago after the therapist tried to tell me that my tormentor maybe didn’t register his actions as rape. That sent me in a spiral, which I told my psych, as well as that I don’t have the funds to do both regular therapy and psych visits. She still urged me to do therapy but prescribed Wellbutrin.
I started that, it was fine for maybe 4 weeks at 150 mg. She increased my dosage to 300 mg but nothing changed. Then I found out I was pregnant (unplanned) at the end of April and didn’t have money to see her again. My GYN said it was fine to continue with Wellbutrin. In the meantime, I had made no progress on my big project, at this point for three months.
Then I lost the baby in early June. Predictably, things went from bad to worse. I was prescribed an abortive pill and ended up taking three doses, bleeding for a few weeks.
Nothing happened with my project in June. I stopped taking Wellbutrin so it didn’t interfere with the medications for miscarriage. Plus, I didn’t have enough for it to begin making a difference (the 6 or so weeks) and I wasn’t able to afford to go back to the psych.
So now it’s July, and I’ve missed every deadline for this project since February. I need to finish this and submit it, do my oral exam and written exam sometime in July, to graduate in August. I already delayed graduation because I was supposed to do so in May, but had made no progress and deferred.
Last night at work, I kept having self-harm thoughts. Throughout my life, these have been more injury-focused than on death - staring into the void but no intention of jumping in. My psych had asked about this but I told her I wasn’t ever seriously suicidal, more casual injury, if that makes sense.
But last night, rather than hurt an extremity or something, my brain thought about stabbing myself with a knife in my eyes or my face, maybe my hands. I thought about cutting my neck with a box cutter - would that actually be fast enough to just slip away?
I know this is bad. I know this is a new low. I don’t know what to do about any of it. I want to get my project done so I can graduate so I don’t disappoint myself, my husband, my advisors, etc. Where do I go from here?
TL;DR : I have struggled with lifelong depression and now in a bad rut that is likely to postpone my graduation. I tried to seek help with a psych and was prescribed meds, but stopped when I had a miscarriage due to potential complications. Combined with other stressors, my brain is now contemplating more serious self-harm and unaliving myself. I don’t know what to do. | 1 |
Hers what I found out about Anxiety after over 1/2 decade of human behavior research. And how people with anxiety disorders eliminated it. Anxiety isn't a mental disorder its just a consequence of... | null | 1 |
Off medication and job hunting | 29f IND
Professional life- I had to leave previous job in April 2023 because of high stress and I was not able to perform well. This was my only corporate job, which I did for a year. I felt overwhelmed, anxiety, thoughts of not good enough, being stupid, scared. I was diagnosed with mild depression and anxiety in August 2022. Started medication( antidepressants, mood stabilisers, anti anxiety). Was going well. So started reducing the meds with help of Dr. I stopped my meds last week, I was at the lowest dose of 25 mg ssri for a month. And did not consult my doc before stopping meds.
Now I’m feeling low- not as low as last yr in my mild depression episode, but not energetic as before, don’t feel like leaving the house much. But still doing the work on 50% capacity.
I know I might be going through the withdrawal. But I’m also searching for a job. I’m not able to do the work for the interviews, don’t even want to work, so thoughts are against preparing for the interview. ( i don’t like corporate, but who does? )
It is important for me to get a job as I want to move out of my dysfunctional family home.
If I start meds again for job hunt, then I have to take them when I’m doing my job. Then I won’t be able to come off the meds ever as I will always need to perform well. Which scares me.
Personal life- Also looking for arrange marriage/ dating - not even going out on dates, or talk to guys on matrimony apps or dating apps.
Please let me know how did you cope with withdrawal. And how do you cope with professional life - stress, performance, will to do the work, will to go to office daily. Without medication?
I am Also in therapy. Which type of coping mechanism have help you? Your journey to get out of depression and anxiety.
Reason to stop meds
1. Side effect of weight gain gained 8kg. And have problem with losing it now. (Started working out from last 2 months, could not move during my job and depression episode)
2. I don’t want to be on meds forever. Lots of side effects for long term use. | 3 |
What should I do? | So for the past couple month I’ve been abusing my anxiety/depression medication. Not to make myself feel happier or better but to maybe get lucky one day and fall asleep forever :)
I know what I’m doing is bad, but the joy and happiness it brings me whenever I do it makes me keep going. At first I started off with 2 or 3 extra pills just to make me less anxious. Then I started taking nine just to make me sleep all day. Now I’m up to 12. 4 Zoloft, 4 Wellbutrin, and 4 Hydroxyzine. It’s not enough to overdose, but I fear with how comfortable I am taking this much, I’ll go up in dosage.
I know I should talk to my therapist or doctor, but I’m scared they’ll take away my meds from me or tell my parents. I don’t know what to do. All the pills in my stomach is giving me a stomach ache. | 1 |
Can stress/depression cause long term fatigue and tiredness | For the past 3 months I have felt tired and fatigued almost every single day. I get about 8-9 hours of sleep every night but still struggle to wake up. When I finally do get up I feel like I’m going to pass out and sometimes feel fatigued all day.
I’m 32F, 5’6”, 115lbs. I eat relatively healthy and enjoy being active. I try to take the dogs on 4 mile walk every day. Even during and after the walk I still feel tired and fatigued. My B12, Iron and Thyroid levels came back normal. I have tried taking B12 supplements and I have tried Wellbutrin/Bupropion for depression.
The only thing I can think of is that stress from work is now starting to take a toll on me physically. Work is extremely overwhelming right now with a big 6 month project. I don’t want to leave my job and I don’t really want to be more anti-depressant/anxiety.
Anyone ever experienced this before?
Thank you! | 9 |
It's too much...I want to die | I tried much to get out of it..I'm unable to do that ....now Im tired...I want to die...>It's a rather lengthy story, but I feel compelled to write it because it's been weighing on me more and more. When I was 15-16 years old, my tuition teacher kissed me several times. At that time, I didn't realize it was wrong, but it was. His son, who was also my teacher in another subject, did the same to me. Eventually, I left that tuition center, but the incident left me feeling insecure. About a year later, I entered into a relationship with a boy. My father found out about it, and I think I entered that relationship because I wanted some security, although I'm not sure why I felt that way. It was a foolish emotional dependence.
>Later on, I asked one guy to be in a relationship, and then another, but with the last two, I realized it was a mistake and apologized. I didn't really want to be in a relationship. For three years or more, I have stayed away from such foolishness, but I still carry a heavy burden of guilt. I dislike myself excessively, and I'm struggling to free myself from this guilt. I have superficially told my parents about this, but I'm unable to move on from it. I wonder why I am like this and what I should do. I am aware that I have done bad things, and I have an overwhelming fear that everything will go wrong for me in the future. | 3 |
Childhood issues | My childhood trauma
Hi,
I just want to vent because something really triggered me. When I was born, my father didn't come to see me for 3 days because I was a girl child. When they finally came with my grandparents, father, sister, and her daughters, they expressed their disappointment because I was a girl and they had wanted a boy. My mom told me about this when I was around 8 or 10 years old. Since childhood, I have always been taught to have a people-pleasing attitude, just like my mom, because of her past experiences with her family and my father.
I have faced similar situations in my life where people are only nice to me when they want something from me. When I was in the 4th grade, my father changed my school and enrolled me in a school founded by them for uneducated and village students. That school was located in a village far away from our house. The following year, they changed my school again. In that school, the children treated me like an outsider and bullied me.
Then, the next year, my parents got separated, and I went to live with my mother at her parents' place. I stayed with them for a year. After that, my father suggested that we should come back to him. When we returned, he insisted that I had to study at that village school again. My mother went back to her parents' place, and after a year, we moved back to my father's place. I joined another school and completed my 9th and 10th grades there. I was a ranker in that school, but during my 10th board exams, I contracted chickenpox. As a result, I came in second place, with a difference of only 0.4 points between the ranks. I was shattered and lost my appetite. After that, I never visited that school again.
After that in college time so much happened im still in pain
This all triggered bcz i saw a family yesterday in shop where that father was taking care of her daughter they were laughing together and I felt why me....
I hope that venting about these experiences will help me feel better. | 1 |
Never again. | I have social anxiety and depression, which I am mostly able to cope with in daily life with medication.
I love to sing. I sing every day, in the car, in the shower, while I wash the dishes.But NEVER in public.
But my friend convinced me to sing karaoke last night. Even though I secretly fancied myself a good singer, I was horrible. And people could barely hear me. I have heard people who don't have great voices sing, but they can sing loudly and have fun, and people still enjoy their performance.
I am so embarrassed. I never want to go back to that bar. I never want to sing in public again. I want to stay in bed and hide under the covers forever. I want a hole to open up in the ground and swallow me whole.
How do I cope, knowing that I am a failure at the one thing I secretly thought I could actually do well? If I had not gotten up there, I would still be happy singing. Now, I am too embarrassed to sing to myself. | 7 |
People not afraid anymore of heart palpitations ? | Are there people out here who are not afraid (anymore) of heart palpitations? With that i do not mean a fast heart rate but ectopic heartbeats, skipped beats, flutters, pvc’s pac’s etc. Thank you ❤️ | 3 |
I don’t care that I wear unwashed clothes or lay in a dirty bed. Is this normal? | null | 8 |
Weird feeling on Effexor? | Hi all - I’m dx MDD, combined ADHD, general anxiety/panic, caregiver burnout/extreme stress, and OCD. I’ve tried Wellbutrin, Zoloft, and Strattera in the past and just started Effexor (the next option is Viibryd if this fails). Does anyone else feel really weird on it? It’s almost like a floating/not in your own body feeling? | 2 |
Why does depression make you feel so lethargic and sleep so much | I just cant seem to stay awake most days. I sleep 2-3 times a day. I take vitamins to try help. I normally have about 2-3 coffees per day.
I've been tested by doctor and all came back ok. He says it's all down to anxiety and depression | 1 |
Lost… | As I’m sitting here with my husband and son, I still feel absolutely alone. I’ve been battling with many demons in my head here lately and it’s starting to feel like their winning. It’s like I’m just numb. Idk I guess I just need someone to talk to.. | 4 |
8 Remedies for Drug-Free Anxiety Relief | **Natural remedies to relieve anxiety**
Did you know that anxiety disorders are the most common mental illness in the United States? According to the Anxiety and Depression Association of America, 18% of the population struggles with an anxiety disorder…and only 37% of them receive treatment.
Maybe you’re part of the 82% of the population who doesn’t have an anxiety disorder. Does that mean you never feel anxious? Of course not. Even people who don’t have an anxiety disorder need anxiety relief from time to time.
The trouble comes when people start to rely exclusively on medications for anxiety relief. That’s not to say that medications are never necessary; in fact, there are times when medications are the best solution for an anxiety issue. Ultimately, it’s up to you and your doctor to determine the best course of action for your anxiety disorder.
For those who want to try drug-free anxiety relief, here are some options that could improve how you feel. Remember, you don’t have to be diagnosed with anxiety in order to benefit from these natural remedies.
**1. Essential oils**
You’ve probably heard of the soothing effects of essential oils, but do you know which ones are best for anxiety relief? Vetiver essential oil is nicknamed the oil of tranquility because of its anxiety-healing properties. Lavender essential oil is one of the most popular essential oils out there, and it alleviates anxiety and depression.
The best way to use vetiver oil and lavender oil is to mix a few drops of each of them into a carrier oil such as jojoba oil, avocado oil, or argan oil. Then apply it to your wrists, neck, temples, and behind your ears. You can also inhale lavender oil straight from the bottle.
**2. Ashwagandha**
This is an herb that is native to India, the Middle East, and North Africa. It is said to have numerous healing properties, including treating arthritis, enhancing cardiorespiratory endurance, and – you guessed it – relieving stress and anxiety. Research shows that a daily dose of ashwagandha could reduce levels of cortisol, a hormone associated with stress and anxiety.
There are three main ways you can take ashwagandha: as a powder, capsule, or liquid extract. The recommended dosage is about 250-500mg per day. Talk to a doctor first if you are pregnant or have any preexisting medical conditions.
**3. Valerian root**
Valerian is a plant that grows in Asia and Europe. Its root has been used in traditional medicine for thousands of years. Valerian root inhibits the breakdown of gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA) in the brain, which leads to feeling calm. Studies have found that mental stress is reduced in people who take valerian root daily. It can also improve sleep quality.
The recommended course of valerian root for anxiety relief is to take 120-200mg of the supplement three times a day with meals. It can take a few weeks for results to manifest, so don’t give up if you don’t notice any changes in the first couple of days.
**4. Magnesium**
Many adults don’t get enough of this important mineral in their diets. Magnesium affects the part of the brain known as the hypothalamus, which helps regulate the glands responsible for stress. This review suggests magnesium can reduce anxiety.
If you think you might not be getting sufficient magnesium, make sure you have enough of these magnesium-rich foods in your diet:
Avocados - Legumes - Whole grains - Nuts and seeds - Leafy green vegetables - Dark chocolate
Otherwise, you can take a magnesium supplement of 75-360mg per day.
**5. Omega-3 fatty acids**
Omega-3 fatty acids have tons of health benefits, including fighting inflammation and autoimmune diseases, improving mental disorders, promoting skin health, decreasing risk of heart disease, and reducing anxiety and depression. One study tied omega-3 supplements to reduction in anxiety in medical students.
To increase your omega-3 intake, get some supplements or eat more of these foods:
Walnut, Edamame and tofu, Salmon and mackerel, Oysters , Flaxseeds, Grass-fed beef, Chia seeds
**The blog continues here->** https://hapbee.com/blogs/hapbee/8-remedies-for-drug-free-anxiety-relief?\_pos=1&\_psq=anxiet&\_ss=e&\_v=1.0
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Why am I so anxious all of a sudden? | I’ve been so anxious for the past week. I got my periods last Sunday so I thought it’s just that you know? First I felt like it’s PMS and then my periods. I ended up going to stay with my bestie for a few days and felt better. As soon as I came back home, I felt like shit again. I’ll get excited if something remotely good happens and then I crash in a while feeling empty. I love coffee so I went out for coffee today and now I feel more anxious probably because of the caffeine. But I’m used to caffeine so that shouldn’t be an issue. I’m crying at night when I’m all alone by myself and I don’t even know why. I don’t wanna tell anyone cause I don’t want them to worry and check up on me. I’ve been depressed earlier, I’m very scared that I might relapse. I don’t feel depressed right now, but I’m just scared. I can’t go through that again. I have a full time job and I have pets. I want someone to tell me it’s gonna be okay. | 4 |
tired | going out and socializing seems like a chore i just want to stay in my room 24/7 and rot and not talk to anyone and why does it bother people that i’m staying quiet by myself? | 5 |
Anxious about an upcoming wedding | I am extremely anxious about an upcoming wedding in my husbands family due to a guest.
Over a decade ago, I was sexually abused by an ex high school boyfriend. We ended up breaking up and he went on to university. It was the type of situation where I didn't realize what was happening at the time and felt I needed someone. He took advantage of me during this time. When he went to university, he went with a friend of his we will call Bob. Bob wasn't a great person by any means and was quite rude. After my ex and I broke up, a friend of mine introduced me to her friend she had met at another school. We hit it off and started officially dating a few weeks later. Little did I know, he was Bob's first cousin. I honestly had no idea and I can't remember how I even found out. I do know it was a while after we had started dating. Bob was definitely not happy and even made a Facebook post that I should get out of his family. My ex also wasn't happy. I didn't let this get to me though at the time however, I did end things in this new relationship. I didn't have feelings after a few months and obviously hadn't dealt well with the abuse. It honestly took me a solid 2 years to really function again and realize what actually happened.
Years go by, I met my now husband. I moved away and felt the life I had had before was over, I moved on from all that. About 2 or 3 years after living in this new place, my husband and I went to the mall. We saw Bob working at one of the stores. I got extremely anxious and explained to my husband why. He completely understood and we decided to avoid that store altogether. After this incident, I felt okay because I had my husbands support and love.
Flash forward another couple of years and my husband and I get married. About a year after we get married, we find out a close family member of my husbands is somehow shockingly an acquaintance of Bob's. It stuns me as at this point, I seriously just don't want Bob near me or involved in any part of my life whatsoever. I ended up explaining to this family member and his new girlfriend at the time that Bob makes me feel uncomfortable. I didn't at this time indulge in all the reasons why, but explained in a way that made me feel comfortable. They said they understood and weren't really friends anyways. I felt better and as much as I knew I couldn't control their friendship, at least they saw where I was coming from and supported me.
This however, changed. I would love to say why but I honestly have no idea. After I had spoke with this family member, a few months later he gets engaged with his girlfriend. My husband is then also asked to be a part of the wedding, which he accepts. Things start to go downhill from here. My husband and I purchase our first house and move back closer to where I grew up. This wasn't an easy decision but given the issue on housing costs where we lived, we felt it was best for us. Within 3 weeks of moving, the family member asks my husband to spend $400 on items he's to wear at this wedding. Since we have work to do on the house, my husband agreed but said he'd rather wait for the items to go on sale or if he could wear what he already owned (this happened in January, the wedding is closer to the end of the year). He is then told him its time sensitive and has to buy these items then or he's out of the wedding. I know this truly hurt my husband. He ended up making a deal with this family member that he would buy some items and the family member would buy the rest.
After this situation, the family member starts spending time with Bob. They become close friends.
Currently, the wedding is coming up and I have no idea how to feel. I feel extremely anxious and am now having panic attacks over seeing Bob at this wedding. My husband is part of the wedding, so he can't be with me at all points. I did confide about this to another family member so I do feel they will be there if I need them. I am just wondering how best to get through this and what to do so I can feel okay. It's really stressing me out and I haven't had feelings like this in years. I have a couple months to try and get ready for this. I do feel bad for my husband as he was invited to the bachelor party but also doesn't feel comfortable going since Bob will be there. I feel terrible he is in the middle of this. I also feel paranoid thinking the family member became closer friends with him to hurt me. I don't want to believe this could be the case but there are other things that have happened to kind of make me feel this way. Any advice would be greatly appriciated! | 1 |
I feel like I’ve lost my ambition and inertia. Please help | I’m four classes away from graduating with my BA at 32 years old. I’ve struggled with severe mental health but I’ve never given up. But being so close to the finish line I feel like I’ve lost all ability to do anything. I can’t even bring myself to read a book and I’m a huge bookworm. I just watch the same old tv shows again and again and buy myself stuff I don’t need to try and make myself feel better. I don’t know what to do. Maybe I’m afraid of what comes after graduating. What May come of a new life. I don’t know but I know I need help. Any advice would be much appreciated. | 5 |
I just had a brake up and I don't know how to handle it I need help | I just got broken up with a guy I thought I was having a really good and rich relationship with but I was wrong. I've been crying for a couple hours and I can't stop thinking about it how do I get my mind off this and sleep | 5 |
Seeing on social media my ex and her new boyfriend doing all the things I asked her to do and she would decline, please can someone help me with some kind words. | null | 1 |
Should I stop my meds? | I don’t know what to do so I figured I would reach out to this community for advice.
I’ve had anxiety for a really long time and I think it’s something I’ll always live with. But my depression comes and goes. I’ll go a few years being totally fine and then something will happen in life that knocks me back down. My depression has been under control for almost 3 years now and I’m really only suffering my anxiety.
I was on Celexa 40mg for a very long time and it controlled my depression very well. Until my doctor decided to switch me over to something different since I had been on the highest dose for many years. But since the switch and especially since we added Trazodone about 6 months ago, I’m very depressed again. I’m on Effexor and Trazodone and I’m miserable. More so than I ever have been.
The medicine is obviously not working and my psychiatrist is insisting to keep with it. It’s been fucking months and months… it’s not going to get better. I’m long past the initial 6-8 weeks when medicine will begin to work and I’m getting frustrated with the meds and my doctor.
Do you think I should try to taper off the Effexor and Trazodone completely? I wouldn’t mind giving my brain a chance on its own. It’s been many years since my depression has been bad (besides the weird situation I’m in with these medications) and I’m starting to wonder if I could handle going meds-free. What do you think? | 1 |
I need to lean on someone… but nobody is available! | null | 4 |
Is this bad | I’ve been really struggling lately with myself … I feel like my life has no meaning and I’m behind. I’m 25 and i still live at home… I’m trying to get my degree and i’m working at a restaurant. I just feel so lost and like I haven’t achieved anything. Is it bad that i live at home still? | 4 |
Anxious about the future | I'm 33 years old. Years ago I graduated from college and never found a job for what I studied for, and am now swamped in debt. I tried finding a better paying job unrelated to what I studied but nobody ever wanted to hire me.
Starting a year ago I decided to attend a community college to get a technical certificate in software development and found myself enjoying it. I was feeling hopeful for the first time and believed things were going to get better, I could finally leave my shitty minimum wage job I've has for many years for something better. But then I kept reading about how the job market for coding is over saturated and the tech layoffs happened recently. I just finished my classes and my feelings of hope have gone down the drain.
My plan was to do some freelance gigs while learning more coding stuff on the side. But the last week my mental health has been spiraling out of control. I have started getting terrified about history repeating itself, that I wasted my take going back to school, scared no one will hire me because no one ever does, especially since I'm not some coding prodigy that's been doing it since they were a child. My family just admitted to resenting me for supporting me financially after fearing they did for the longest time. A part of me wonders if I should just commit suicide to relieve my family of the burden and end this endless cycle, but I don't want to die. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm so so scared, I thought my mental health was finally getting better but I'm back to square one... | 2 |
Severe Anxiety Tired of SSRI & SNRIs what’s next | Hi everyone. I have been on SSRIs for more than 10 years. I have depression and anxiety but anxiety is really crippling. Try almost all of these drugs. I always feel tired and can’t live a full life due to side effects. I’m always tired or in pain with headaches and migraines. I just have a question has anyone ever found other class of drugs helping anxiety ? | 3 |
Medication or no medication | I have always struggled with severe anxiety and some depression. I have never wanted to get on any kind of medication for it because I dont want to be hooked on something or become a zombie. About 4 months ago things got really bad and I finally went to one of the online places and got on bupropion. It seemed like it was helping for a while but I had some sexual sideffects I didn't like so I stopped taking it about a month ago. So now I'm back to where I was before. I can't decide if I want to try medication again but I don't like how I have been feeling either. Is it better to try and just deal with it on my own or just give in and take something that makes me feel better/ not care. I don't know what to do. | 2 |
Bad day | Having a bad day
Hey everyone. I just am feeling the need to scream into the void (aka post on the internet).
This past 10 days I have been struggling so much. I’m exhausted, like can’t keep my eyes open and missing my alarm clock every morning. I have been stretched thin at work the past month due to a few of my coworkers being out on leave. Thankfully we finally hired someone and I can get a little break. But I feel like I went in the extreme other direction and I have absolutely no motivation for work. I’ve called out the last two days because I feel glued to my bed. I have not left my room in almost 24 hours and seen/spoken to another person. What is wrong with me??? I was just doing so well! I was killing it at work, running on time for my appointments and enjoying a social life. I keep repeating this same cycle of crash and burning and I cannot keep up anymore. How do I make any progress when I’m constantly having to “fix” myself after a depression spell/period of burnout?
Does anyone relate? What do you do to get yourself out of this gross cycle? Please give me kind words so I know I’m not alone😞 | 9 |
derealization please help me | i feel like i’m losing my fucking mind. it’s never been this bad before. i genuinely feel like an alien. like why am i even here wtf even am i? going outside everything looks (i’m gonna put this in my best words) too bright or fake and it’s causing me to spiral. even being inside sometimes now too. i’m literally only 18 years old and shouldn’t be feeling like this. i’m starting to scare myself that i’m schizophrenic or something. even looking at people i’m like how tf are they real? how is any of this real? the scariest part is i feel like i’m just a soul floating around and not grounded. like i feel like i’m just gonna fly up & disappear at any moment or something. it’s even effecting my relationship with everyone including my boyfriend now. can’t sleep at night. but sleeping is all that helps. can someone please give me tips or help me not feel so fucking alone. i feel like i’m gonna die. | 2 |
Hit with a sudden wave of heavy depression. | Thought I was getting better, haven’t really been having anxiety but the depression came back. Realised I’m not really that okay and just want to be alone.
Really want to feel loved and hug someone tight | 2 |
how do successful people do it? | Writers, directors, actors, etc
How do they get the confidence to pursue these passions? Are the6 y just geniuses with great charisma and support system?
Meanwhile, I want to give up daily | 5 |
Getting help | This is just a rant on accessing help.
I'm currently in something of a crisis I think. Ring GP, no appointments. Ring 111, (UK), they say to ring GP. Ring GP back and they magically add me to the oncall list. So an hour on the phone when they could have added me anyway. Why does it have to be so hard when you are only just hanging on in there?
Rant over. | 3 |
Interacting with people in public | Social anxiety sufferer here. I'm exactly the same. Trapped in my own head. I feel really anxious around people. Walking in public. In lift. Interacting with waitors etc. Also have issues around personal space. End up nearly walking into people or also don't make proper eye contact so not socially aware. I think I might be on spectrum but I am undiagnosed also have temper which doesn't help. Can you or anyone relate to these feelings? | 2 |
Thinking of going back to work, but my boyfriend disagrees with me | Hi, so I’m 23(f) I’ve always worked since I’ve been 15 I have a five month old baby, since having my baby, I’ve been a stay at home mom it’s amazing watching my baby grow!! But I feel mentally drained like my anxiety and depression gotten worse.im always crying constantly. Panic attacks left and right. I consider therapy but I don’t know what to do. I don’t want it to look crazy. I feel like I’m losing my mind!! I don’t know if I’m suffering from postpartum but I just haven’t been the same and I never really leave the house but every time I mention to my boyfriend that I think I wanna go back to work he just disagrees with me and thinks that I’ll be better with the baby all the time! Like, I always thought, it would be fun to be a stay at home mom, but I feel so isolated and I don’t talk to nobody so I’m constantly in my head I don’t know it’s a lot for me I think | 4 |
Upcoming EMDR assessment — how do I answer? What to expect? | null | 3 |
Anxiety Disorder | Anyone trouble to overcome this mental health? | 4 |
2023 has been a tough year, having a really hard time coping this summer | For the first time, I want summer to end. I am sick of it. I usually love the sunny, long days. But now, all i want to do is stay in my house. I have been through a lot, was in a psych hospital for a week. But this year, this year has been too much. I came home from college so hopeful, but everything seems to keep getting worse. From the end of 2022 I:
I first found out my dad has cancer. He is cancer free as of now, but there is 25% chance it could come back. There are less treatment options if it does
I did horrible on my MCAT after spending my entire last summer studying (almost 6+ hours a day). I did however find out I have a severe learning disability which I am getting help for now.
My ex decides to abruptly end our relationship in the parking lot of a mall; 2 weeks before Thanksgiving and a day before we are suppose to travel to Vegas. Tells me later that he probably never loved me, he can't see himself having children with me, and that I have personality traits he cant see himself being in a long term relationship with. When we tried to be friends, he tells me that it might take a week or two for him to respond to me because he has more important people to talk to first. Practically ruins my holiday season, the only thing I can do is just sit in my room. I don't do my usual traditions with my dogs.
I get a new job that I was excited for initially. But I am so disappointed. I spend about 3 hours commuting to and from work and my coworkers don't socialize. I have no time to do anything outside of work, even therapy.
In December I met someone, FWB situation. He eventually got feelings and I turned him down in February; I hurt him and our friendship ended after this. Immediately regretted it as I realized I liked him quite a bit but suppressed them . When I tried to reach out again, he's in a relationship. He confirmed it on socials a month ago so I know it's over between us for real,forever.
I got COVID for the first time, and I was out sick for two weeks and got a rebound case and was out sick for another week. I am still dealing with some residual side effects.
I barely could handle all of this, but in February my best friend of 15 years, my dog, dies in my arms. I watched her take her final breaths and had to take her to the hospital to be cremated. I can deal with people hurting me or disappointment from everything else, but my dog, my dog was all I had and now she's gone. I feel like a shell of myself, nothing matters. I cry every day, I am crying as I write this. She took my heart with her and all I have is her ashes in a box. She has always been there for me, she knew when I was sad and would stay by my side until I felt better. She helped me with my loneliness and without her, it's painful. I have a younger pup that I love very much but she reminds me so much of my older dog that it hurts. Summer was my older pup's favorite season; now all the plants and parks leave me in tears.
I am not sure how much more I can take or handle. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I lost my dog, one friend just blocked me out of nowhere after 2 years of friendship, and I talked about the previous friend and how that ended. I have turned to my faith as I always do but even then I ask God why all of this is happening which I feel guilty about. I get mad that my ex got to live as usual while I feel like I have had the rug pulled out from under me multiple times. I just want my dog back and for this summer to over. | 6 |
Helpful contact information for anyone who may need it. | Please know that at times it may feel that you are alone, but you are not. We are a community here and are trying hard to be happy. Help is always out there. However hard it may be in that moment there are people who care and genuinely want the best for you. Even if you have never met them or may never meet them.
These are just a list I had saved and want to share with everyone.
SAMHSA National Helpline
1-800-662-HELP (4357)
Operated 24/7, the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helpline provides information and referrals if you or a loved one are facing mental health and/or substance use issues. The confidential service does not provide counseling, but can direct you to helpful resources, treatment facilities, and support groups in your area.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
1-800-273-TALK (8255)
This national toll-free number—available 24/7—connects to local crisis centers where a trained worker will provide confidential support to people who are experiencing suicidal thoughts or emotional distress.
Crisis Text Line
Text 741741
Many people, especially teenagers and young people, are growing up more comfortable speaking via text message. The Crisis Text Line serves anyone in the United States with this confidential and free 24/7 text line, connecting you with a trained crisis counselor.
Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline
1-800-4-A-Child or 1-800-422-4453
Dedicated to the prevention of child abuse, this 24/7 hotline is staffed by professional crisis counselors and translators who provide help and emergency/social service referrals in over 170 languages. Online chat with a trained professional is also available through the website.
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or text "LOVEIS" to 22522
The 24/7 National Domestic Violence Hotline provides confidential assistance to anyone experiencing domestic violence or questioning whether or not they are in an abusive relationship. Online chat with trained advocates is also available through the website.
SAMHSA Disaster Distress Helpline
1-800-985-5990 or Text "TalkWithUs" to 66746
Available to anyone in the US and its territories, SAMHSA's 24/7 disaster distress helpline provides immediate crisis counseling if you are experiencing stress, anxiety, and other symptoms as a result of man-made or natural disaster—including pandemics.
National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) Helpline
1-800-931-2237
Available Monday through Friday, the NEDA Helpline offers phone and chat support for yourself or a loved one who is coping with an eating disorder, and quick access to a crisis text line if needed.
Rape Abuse and Incest National Network (RAINN)
1-800-656-HOPE (4673)
With both phone and online chat options, the 24/7 RAINN helpline provides access to support from trained staff, who can help direct you to a local health facility with experience caring for survivors of sexual assault, as well as resources for healing, recovery, long-term support, and more.
LGBT National Hotline
1-888-843-4564
With hours Monday through Saturday, the LGBT National Hotline provides one-to-one peer support and a confidential safe space for anyone to talk about issues with coming out, gender or sexual identity, relationship concerns, bullying, self-harm, and more.
The Trevor Project
1-866-488-7386 or Text "START" to 678678
With phone, chat, and text options, The Trevor Project is a national organization providing 24/7 crisis intervention to LGBTQ young people.
National Runaway Safeline
1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929)
Available 24/7, the National Runaway Safeline is a crisis hotline, online service, and judgment-free safe space for runaways and homeless young people.
Veterans Crisis Line
1-800-273-TALK (8255) or Text 838255
Veterans or Service members in crisis can call this helpline at any time of day to reach specially-trained VA responders. Friends, family members, and loved ones can also find support through this portal.
National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) HelpLine
1-800-950-NAMI (6264)
The NAMI HelpLine is a nationwide peer-support service, not a crisis line, but it does provide information, resource referrals, and community support if you or someone you know are living with a mental health condition. Note that NAMI is not currently taking calls due to the coronavirus pandemic. | 6 |
Having a rough time today. I keep thinking of all the things I’ve tried to heal myself and still feel awful. Losing hope… | I’ve been battling anxiety since before I knew what it was. Depression has been more of a recent development. I started trying to seriously manage it about 2 years ago. To give you some context I’ve had a lot happen to me I. The past two years that have made my symptoms worse:
* both sisters dealing with a cancer diagnosis
* my grandmother dealing with health problems and ultimately passing away 2 months ago
* My 12 year old dog who was my rock through everything negative in my life passing away suddenly in February.
* a relationship with someone who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with leaving me and moving across the country to “start a new life”.
Throughout all of this I’ve been on a plethora of meds. I’ve been to five different therapists. Tried TMS(trans cranial magnetic stimulation) therapy. Went to inpatient for a week and a half. Tried microdosing psilocybin mushrooms. Meditation, exercise, mindfulness, affirmations, yoga, martial arts, the list goes on and on. I am just so frustrated that I just can’t seem to get any sustainable fix. I feel like every time I fall into this hole or depressive episode I just go deeper. I keep trying and trying and nothing seems to help. I feel like my life is passing me by and I’m never going to be able to get this handled and I don’t know what to do! | 7 |
Friendship breakups, engagement got called off, rejected from 3 work interviews back to back don’t know anything now 29F |
Hi
My engagement got called off the evening of the engagement function at the venue. The man said no and walked away. He then came back later in the night apologising and requested a patch up. I gave him chance. He called it off again after fifteen days citing his family issues. He then came back again and for four months made me believe that he wants to stick to him commitment of marriage till one day when he started behaving badly and ghosted me without any word.
My word shattered, I took a solo trip to blow the steam off. I hadn’t spoken to anyone during those two weeks worth trip. Didn’t respond to my friend’s who reached out for outings, and then checked up about my whereabouts as I didn’t know what I was doing. I was lost. Didn’t know where to go what to do. I was in dizzy state. I came back home and reached out to meet those friends. Told them that I needed some time off and shared my story with one of them who patiently heard me but after that they didn’t bother to check up on me even once if I was doing ok. Another friend was mad at me that I applied to her company without telling her. She stopped talking to me. I felt a weird vibe. Both of my closest friends have moved cities/countries and are getting married in a few months. I understand they must have gotten busy with work, preparation and life in general. But they abandoned me completely when I needed them the most. I even made plans to meet up, night out - no response. I quit my job during this time so have no career now. I quit a friend circle telegram group because everyone would make plans and not bother to ask me. I was also upset that no one really cared to do a simple basic checking up on me where it was clearly evident from my face that I am going through something major in life. Even after giving some people hints and to some people telling everything no one was there for me whereas I have given my heart and soul to my friends everytime. I also applied for 2 jobs in between this time, got offers and both were rolled back due to recession.
I don’t have a job, or a partner of friends. I feel really really lonely. My soul is tired. I keep asking myself what have I done to deserve this? Why me?
I went to a friend’s engagement party yesterday and left within half an hour as I got reminded of the evening where mine got called off. I got reminded that I could have been the girl dancing with the love of her life too. But I wasn’t. I cried the whole time on my way back home.
I had been working on a job application for 2 months - cleared all rounds and got rejected in the last one. I had found a purpose in this job profile. Really wanted to do this.
TL;DR
I suck. My life sucks. I’m rejected by all men. I failed at my career. I have no friends.
Please help. | 3 |
Medications typically prescribed for combination diagnosis? | I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety, OCD, and clinical depression years ago. The depression comes and goes.
Right now, I am struggling with the worst depressive and OCD/anxiety episodes I have ever had. I can't get anything done. Even typing this is hard. Therapist hasn't been helpful, and can't prescribe medication. Looking for a new one, but I can't just spend another 2 months trying to find a decent fit.
I want to ask a doctor here about potential options for medication, but I want to do my own research first. Would prefer something fast-acting since I need to make it to work everyday. I know you can get Xanax here just by saying you're anxious (entirely legally - not sketchy or "pill shopping," just how the country works), but I'm worried it will make the depression worse. Also worried SSRIs will make the anxiety/OCD worse. Looking into a second proper diagnosis, but will take too much time. I don't think I have it.
What sorts of medications are typically prescribed for combination anxiety-OCD-depression? | 2 |
If you were given a choice to get rid of only either anxiety or depression, which would it be? | Lately I've been wondering what's worse and I can't decide. They're both different but affect lives just as badly. I hate when either one gets at its worst. There's the fear and panic about living life and on the other hand, theres dispare, no joy and no motivation in life. Both different but lead to the same downfalls like isolation, addiction, inability to enjoy things like before, losing friends/family etc.
Edit: I have decided anxiety is a tad worse for most of us since it tends to be the reason most of us get depression along with it | 34 |
Is mental illness entirely internal? | Social anxiety sufferer here. I can't bare that feeling where you feel like you are the only person in the world going through what you are going through even though others say they go through the same. Like the world inside your head is the reality of how people feel about you and around you outside of your head.
I know it's just a feeling inside your head. I'm able to think about it and know that I can't feel exactly how others are feeling around me and can't feel their level of anxiety, so why would they be able to feel what I'm going through?
It's so strange to be able to relate to people who go through the same mental illness but internally still feel like you are the only one going through it because that's the only reality you know. I wish I could switch minds with someone for a day just to see inside other peoples minds and realise that it's not just me going through this feeling. You feel so alone in it and like it's only you going through these things even tho so many others suffer.
Anyone else relate?
| 3 |
Anxiety &chest pain every day! | I am 23 years old (F)and just scared shitless
I don’t know ever since I had a baby I’ve been having a lot of chest pain and I swear that is my heart but my doctor told me that I am good and healthy but then all the sudden I get shortness of breath and my heart starts to raise does anybody else deal with this? Idk what to do I don’t take any medicine for anxiety, but I’m kind of considering I should | 3 |
Anxious about starting a new job next week, could use some advice! |
Hey everyone,
I hope you’re all doing well. I wanted to share something important that’s been happening in my life recently, and I could really use your advice and support. So, let me start by saying that last year, right after graduating in 2022 with a degree in computer science, I was ecstatic to have landed a job right from campus. Unfortunately, life took an unexpected turn when I contracted COVID-19 just before joining the new company. My health began to deteriorate, and I found myself facing various side effects and a condition called POTS.
Now, POTS is a challenging condition because it doesn’t visibly manifest in the body, making it difficult for others to fully understand the impact it has on my daily life. Living in a third world country, where health issues, let alone mental health, aren’t always given the attention they deserve, has added to the complexity of my situation. Despite my setbacks, I’ve been working hard to regain my health and slowly get back to my normal self.
Fast forward to today, a year after graduation, and something unexpected happened. My aunt reached out to inform me about a web development job opportunity at her friend’s company. Although I wasn’t fully confident in my expertise in this particular field, declining the opportunity would likely raise eyebrows and invite questions from those around me. So, feeling a mix of excitement and anxiety, I decided to give it a shot.
The interview was scheduled just two days from when I received the news, and the sudden pressure and stress became overwhelming. It was uncharted territory for me, but I gathered my courage and gave it my all. To my surprise, I received a call today offering me an unpaid intern position for two months, with the potential to transition into a paid intern position and eventually a full-time role, if my performance meets expectations.
While I prepared for the interview by carefully studying relevant topics and luckily managed to tackle the questions, I can’t shake this feeling of being unprepared. On top of that, my battle with COVID-19 and the lingering health anxiety have left me feeling uneasy. I also haven’t spent a lot of time alone or even outside my house since my bout with Covid-19 so just being alone makes me anxious and this job I am talking about requires me to go to office everyday, right from the unpaid internship days. The thought of accepting the job makes me anxious, and it’s been affecting my sleep lately.
So, here I am, seeking your valuable input. What are your thoughts on my situation? Have you ever been faced with a similar dilemma? I should mention that not having a job for a year has made those around me extremely eager for me to seize this opportunity. However, they haven’t fully considered my physical and mental well-being. I’m really struggling with this decision, and your advice would mean the world to me.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read through this post. Your support and guidance are truly appreciated. | 2 |
I'm so sick of trying. | You're either inside a building or outside. All you can really do in life when materialistic stuff doesn't make you happy, is talk to people. Does anyone have this aswell?
Don't get me wrong I love to talk to people, and I love myself and my personality but it's far beyond boring to live.
I stopped smoking weed for almost 4 months now, resetting my dopamine/seratonin system and getting on ADHD medication (1 month into 20mg vvyanse gonna up my dose to 30-40mg next visit) but without weed life is fucking horrendously boring.
I've even tried drinking but I'm still sober in the mind. No matter how drunk I am I'm still sober in the mind. I've fought this battle for years talking to therapists, doing yoga and meditation, talking to friends and family about it. No one can really relate and or understand me.
I wanna make it really clear that I have both ADHD and high functioning autism so it's really hard to satisfy me. And everything just bores the life out of me unless I'm smoking weed. I usually spend my days working out, eating healthy (I don't eat food dyes, corn syrup, things with high cortisol or anything that's bad for my health, barely even sugar), and I spend the rest of my days learning. I'm constantly stimulated learning new things but it's still just fucking boring.
Im only 19 about to get my own apartment soon and planning on getting a dog or a cat and such. But I just don't really even care anymore. I've been depressed / sewer slidal everyday, every minute of my life since I was 13. And 60% of that is just pure boredom. | 5 |
So grateful for friends that care | Last night I got into a bit of a crisis and couldn't guarantee I could keep myself safe.
Drove over to a friend's house at 8.30pm, just hugged her when she answered. She spent the rest of the evening talking me down, holding me, and just being there.
It's so scary to feel so out of control, and I am so blessed to have friends who will drop everything and be there. :) | 3 |
Does anyone else feel when you simply enter a room people appear frantic/on edge & uncomfortable and act busy (social anxiety) | Am I doing something with my body language or face? Do I have superpowers? Why have I never seen anyone else have this affect on people before. Is this something I’m imagining? This normally happens if I’m not talking and just walk in smiling or something. Maybe I’m looking uncomfortable without realising it?
This doesn’t just go for when I enter a room. It’s just simply when I’m not talking. It feels like everyone in the room is anxious and uncomfortable and that I’m causing it simply by being there. I can see the uncomfortable facial expressions so what’s going on here? There are many introverts who don’t talk and I’ve never seen such an adverse reaction.
This is my biggest issue with SA I find this one impossible to separate from what my mind sees and reality. I don’t know which is the reality. So id love some people to chime in if they relate. This one eats me up so much and I don’t know what I’m doing or if I should change some behaviours so this doesn’t happen. I legit try and be as nice as possible and it still happens.
Is this all imagined? Please let me know ur thoughts :) | 3 |
What can help to lear to cope without meds? | Hello Redditors,
I am a man in my early 30's making several lifestyle changes due to my anxiety issues. Since my 26's I have been on and off SSRI medications: Paxil 12.5MG, Lexapro 10MG, Lexapro 10MG and ZOLOFT 100MG; in that same order. On each occasion I have discontinued it on my own, after 6 months of improvement. The penultimate time I tried to do activities that will help me avoid having to submit to medication again such as: meditation, crossfit 5 times a week, reading anxiety books, attending psychotherapy. Nevertheless, I had gastrointestinal problems and sometimes felt like I was going crazy. I am currently on Zoloft 100MG with all the willingness to finish the medication treatment (I told my psychiatrist) and never have to use this again if possible. This thing help with anxiety but numbs my feelings and make me sweat more. However I’m still on psychotherapy and crossfit.
Music: I've been thinking about switching to more positive styles of music and stop listening to the ones that might affect me in that part like very heavy metal and just listen to rock, hard rock and alternative with happy vibes. I haven't made any changes here yet, but I don't know if I should.
Social media: I uninstalled instagram from my mobile and left it installed on the tablet so as not to be tempted to browse there and compare myself with people with wives (I'm single and without children) and children, who look happy. Unfollow all the pretty models and people who are not close to me. I closed Facebook, Linkedin and I have noticed that my mentality changed from thinking about what to upload in my IG stories for my followers to thinking about things that I have pending to do.
According to what I read, the least dangerous networks for mental health are Youtube and Twitter. Knowing this, I have been looking for networks that allow me to casually scroll memes, posts that makes me laugh, videos that makes me happy(as daughters playing with their dads). I can use the table to connect to others as I’m not usually using it and keep the phone for the Social Media which moderately used can provide some positive feelings. So far I have YouTube and Twitter, but I was thinking of installing instagram on my cell phone using an account only for the purpose of following entertaining and mental health support accounts, but avoiding following friends to avoid comparison. I don't know if it's good idea though. I tried reddit, but from my cell phone I'm looking for something more casual and reddit takes time to engage in topics.
What do you think about the changes I've made? Have any of you been through the same thing and changed anything else in your life?
Thanks for listening and sorry for the bad English. | 3 |
Does anyone get any anxiety relief from sleeping during the day and staying awake at night? | Hi
I'm starting to think I might benefit more by staying awake at night rather than the day to avoid all the day to day stress and also all the noise, notifications and calls etc. I noticed recently when I stayed up late a few times how chilled I was and calm. It was utter bliss and so peaceful. I wasn't worried about anything and my overthinking calmed.
I know sleeping during the day and being awake at night is supposed to be not good for your health but it can't be anyworse than the stress is causing my health everyday. | 25 |
Feel the pain | I feel the pain from botton the top. Loneliness makes me anxiety but i don’t wanna call anyone. Unfortunately i suppose the circle that i am stuck with is going to kill me with a huge pain | 3 |
Experiences with Zembrin (Kanna extract)? | 1. What's your experience with it? What do you take it for, what effects do you get (mood/depression, anxiety, sociability/talkativeness, energy/drive, stress/relaxation, cognition, sleep etc.)?
2. What dose do you use?
3. Does it work used only on occasion / if needed? I mean, must it be taken daily so it builds up in your system until it can and does work (similar as antidepressants) or is it something that works right away and can be felt after first time dosing? | 2 |
Heavy energy in throat - what is it? | I'm just wondering what it is when I feel anxious or down and get a heavy feeling in my throat. I wouldn't describe it as tight or like a ball, it's more just a weird heavy energy that I feel I need to take deep breaths to reduce a little. It doesn't seem to match what a lot of other people get (the shortness of breath, chocking feeling, globus lump, etc).
It used to be near constant in my late teens and early 20s but recently as I've got older and more in control of my life, it is less so. It's usually caused by either one big stressful event or lots of little stressors that have built up. My dad has previously been diagnosed with globus hystericus as he doesn't deal well with stress, but mine doesn't feel the same as what he describes. It's more of a pressure/heaviness than a physical blockage sensation.
In recent years, using apps like Headspace, I have realised that if I sit still and calm and imagine myself pushing the energy downwards into my gut, it makes my throat feel lighter. When it reaches my gut it gives off a weird acidic feeling before dissipating. It comes back gradually but it does help.
What is this?
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i hate this feeling | i hate this feeling when my brain tells me that i’m doing things wrong or that something bad will happen. i feel like everything i do is just not right, that i will disappoint (who? i have no idea), it could be work, talking with my friends idk anything. im so tired of existing. it’s as if nothing will ever go right in my life because im the one ruining it anyway. i know everyone moves at their own pace but when i look at my friends i start to wonder why am i still stuck here, why can’t i enjoy life the way they do, why am i socially awkward and quiet, why can’t i go out without feeling anxious all the time, why can’t i hold a conversation, why can’t i feel confident about myself? it just sucks. my brain tells me i’ll ruin everything even when i haven’t started anything. | 3 |
I do it to myself | My life isn’t that bad. I should be happy. I constantly am self sabotaging. Every time I go out I am anxious the next day. It’s crippling. I don’t want to go on social media or speak to anyone. I don’t want to acknowledge that I’m a human. This always happens even if I don’t do anything when I’m out. What is the answer? Don’t go out? Because I’ve tried that but then I feel disconnected from my friends. Then again when I go out with them I just feel like they hate me. (For no reason). Does this go away how do I pull myself out of this? My first thought is grow up and make better choices but that hasn’t seemed to ever work. | 5 |
My doctor said that I might have to battle depression with no anti-depressants. What can I do? | I've been dealing with mental health issues my entire life and I decided to get help this year and I've been on 4 medications (sertraline, mirtazapine, duloxetine and fluoxetine) so far with fluoxetine being the last antidepressant that I had tried. I had an appointment with my doctor last Thursday where I told him fluoxetine hasn't worked either and he had said that citalaprom was my final option and if that doesn't work, I had to battle my depression with no antidepressants because upon reflection by a psychatrist I was told that my depression was caused by intense trauma and what I need is therapy and not permanant antidepressants. While I'm not questioning both doctor's judgements or anything the thought of not having to take antidepressants leaves me in spot where I'm just plain depressed with no medication whatsoever to help me out. I have an appointment with one of my doctors on Thursday but meanwhile I can't stop thinking about having to battle depression without any anti-depressants so I was wondering if any of you redditors have been in the same position I've been in and/or offer me any advice on how to make my depression more manageable without any anti-depressants. Thank you and have a nice day. | 2 |
How many hours are you actually up? | I realised way back when I used to actually live (somewhat) and work (kind of), I was up for about 17 hours a day, except on certain extra lazy days when I'd only be up for about 13 hours.
Nowadays though, pretty much everyday I am only up for about 10 hours. That's not exactly GOOD, is it? | 5 |
Style anxiety | I've always felt like I've never been happy with what I'm wearing. I'm from the UK and basically everyone wears horrible tracksuits (montirex). And every time I try wear something different and try have my own style I get made fun of. I literally bought converse and got made fun of because there apparently not cool now? Istg I hate today's fashion. I've always been really shy so wearing remotely different clothes is embarrassing.
Is it best I wear plain clothes until I move out or just fuck it? | 1 |
Finding the right meds anxiety/PMDD | I have had significant anxiety for about 3 years. I was initially put on low dose Zoloft, which I tolerated well and helped for about a year and then stopped. I was also diagnosed with ADHD and PMDD, and was switched to Wellbutrin and Prozac. The Wellbutrin has been great, but since starting Prozac about 3 months ago, I’ve continued to have ongoing anxiety, depression around my period, plus unpleasant symptoms like tremors and sexual side effects. My PCP recently suggested switching to Buspar and from what I’ve read, I think it may help. I hate to keep switching meds, but I’m thinking the Prozac may not be the right drug for me. Has anyone else not tolerated SSRIs and successfully switched to Buspar? Can anyone specifically speak to it helping with PMDD? Thanks!! | 2 |
Ketamine | I have begun ketamine therapy through joyous. I am on 15 mg a day and on my 4th day. I dont feel anything, is this normal? When will they increase my dose? | 2 |
I feel like I’m faking it | I’ve been on and off meds for 5 years for depression. Side effects suck. Been through some trauma.
I feel like I want to die and think about it daily. I do have plans to die later this year. But I still work every day, talk to friends, family and joke around like usual with them and coworkers.
Why do I feel like dying? I don’t want to hurt what’s left of my family. But I want to exit the Earth and I want them to feel sorry for me. I don’t know. I want to be loved. But is that depression? I think no. | 5 |
[need advice]Toxic repeated pattern? |
How many people tell themselves I will change or do this tomorrow but you actually never do it.. I’ve been telling myself for months that I want to change my life. Like daily exercise, find a skill to learn and face my fears and work on reducing anxiety. Waking up early and not staying up super late. Reduce sugary foods. Make the day go productive instead of scrolling social media.
Yet, I still go sleep late and wake up late. I still haven’t worked on improving my diet. It’s like what am I doing. Despite I’m realizing this occurrence why am I intentionally repeating this toxic cycle. Time flies fast, we’re already in middle of 2023. I’m slacking with my education too. I signed up for classes online but I barely login everyday to see my assignments. Despite I’m realizing the Consequences, I still keep doing what I’ve been doing. There doesn’t seem to be discipline. I’ve become careless and feeding poison to my life by living in comfort safe zone.
It seems like I’m allowing anxiety and overthinking run over my life. I can’t seem to take control of my own mind. I feel like a stranger to my own self. I don’t feel united with my soul. | 2 |
Maybe life isn't for everyone?... and hat's all | Just found out I'm not fully recovered. I thought I was doing really well... my partner said that's only because I'm comparing myself to when I was severed depressed to the point I nearly got hospitalised...
I think I'm fine, just can't expect more from life because it is what it is. He says I shouldn't feel this way, and that I get easily upset every few days for things that aren't normal...
I'm just so confused :/ | 8 |
Therapist with tattoos | I am a therapist and also a scuba diver. My passions are working with patients and the ocean/diving. I have been strongly considering finally getting a diving tattoo on my forearm. If your therapist (male) had long hair and tattoos would this effect your working relationship with them? If so how? Thank you. | 14 |
Human Pet | I have no desire to continue life and my family caught me saying some things. This led to hospitalization and being medicated. They don’t trust me anymore as they think I’m unstable and a drug addict (I have a marijuana dependence). It puts me in this weird situation where even if I feel fine or feel suicidal, my family (mostly my mom) just make their own conclusions based off my behavior and don’t listen to what I say.
I am in this weird place now where my mother guilts me into staying alive, while I don’t really care enough to do anything with my life anymore. I go on walks with my mom and she tries to engage me with activities. She says she enjoys my company and also doesn’t trust me on my own. If you haven’t yet guessed I’m an adult, not a kid anymore. I am almost 30
So that’s the sit rep. I literally feel like a human pet of my mother. She feeds me and gives me things to do and in return I’m there.
This is honestly one of the least fucked up things about my world. It’s nice to think about other people living like a pet, like me. | 4 |
Andrew Tate has had a negative impact on my mental health | As a woman, it is extremely damaging to consume content by Andrew Tate. Although I can agree with a small percentage of what he says, when it comes to women, the only thing that matters is if you’re hot. There is nothing you can do as far as work goes to make yourself more attractive. So basically if you don’t look like the top 1% of the 1% you’re fucked. AND the harder you work as a woman, the less attractive you become. I’m not saying I agree with him, I’m just saying I noticed that I’ve internalized what he says and it’s sincerely made me less functional. Now all I can think about is what plastic surgery I’ll need. | 0 |
What has helped you’re relationships? | So once I really realized how intense my anxiety was, it also made me realize how it can easily get heavy on the different relationships in my life!
I’ve made a lot of changes, expressing what’s going on in my mind, or trying to catch when I’m starting to overthink (jump to conclusions), etc.
I was wondering what have you guys done to make your relationships better, or what have other people done to understand and help you better? | 1 |
Existential thoughts. Help. | null | 1 |
As someone with health anxiety, I found answers undergoing my fibromyalgia diagnosis. | [I know I haven’t posted anxiety recovery on my channel or here in awhile, part of that being because of how busy I have been with figuring out my fibro.](https://youtu.be/AmcpSmUOaBQ) I know I don’t sound the happiest in this video, but it’s not exactly a happy topic. I hope this can be a bridge to continue documenting my anxiety recovery. | 2 |
Switching SSRIs, Struggling with OCPD, GAD, and Anxiety—Any Tips? | Hey All,
So, here's the deal—I'm currently going through the fun process of switching my SSRI meds. I'm bidding farewell to Sertraline and saying hello to Fluoxetine. Just one more week to go before I'm done with the cross taper. Right now, I'm taking 50mg of Sertraline and 20mg of Fluoxetine, but next week the Sertraline is out, and the Fluoxetine will be bumped up to 40mg.
A little backstory—I've been diagnosed with OCPD (Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder) and GAD (Generalised Anxiety Disorder). Lately, it's been a real struggle to keep my worries and anxiety in check, not to mention those pesky feelings of depression. On top of that, managing my OCPD tendencies feels like an never ending battle at the moment.
I'm currently on a waiting list for psychological help, but I'm wondering if there's anything I can do in the meantime—whether it's tweaking my medication or making lifestyle changes. I'd love to hear your suggestions and tips!
Is it worth waiting to see how I respond to the Fluoxetine alone, or should I consider augmenting it with another medication? I'm open to your experiences and advice on this matter too.
I appreciate any insights you can offer.
Thanks
28m/171/81 | 2 |
Mother is triggering | I know I need to lose weight. I don't need it pushed in my face. My mother means well but is constantly leaning on me too exercise but atm I'm so depressed because I'm in an abusive marriage(Working on getting out) that I just don't give a shit. I've talked to my therapist and got validated that I don't need to push myself and stress about it because that doesn't help. I've tried to set boundaries but I guess I need to be more firm with her. | 3 |
Side effects??? | Is there a combo that doesn't come with terrible side effects?
I'm currently on 60mg duloxetine (cymbalta) and 1.5mg Vraylar (sp?)
The duloxetine makes me sweat sooooo bad. I keep my house at 66-67 and I still burn up. It's so bad at work (I'm a server) my head and face is literally dripping and pouring.
I've tried escitilopram (I think I'm botching that spelling, Lexapro I think it was) and it gave me horrible night sweats. Waking up DRENCHED. Also ZERO sex drive.
I also tried the Abilify booster, gained 20lbs in no time.
I like the Vraylar, but the duloxetine is killing me. It works well so I hate to ask to switch, but I really cannot handle how hot and sweaty I am.
Any advice? | 1 |
Chronic nausea is destroying my life | I have chronic nausea for a while now (february 2022) and some days i would day because i can't handle anymore...
I made all tests (blood, endoscopy, fecal, ct scan and other) and they came back negative
GI said it's only functional dyspepsia and GP think it's only anxiety related
Please help me | 9 |
Exercise Anxiety/Panic | I'll try to make this as short as I can.
I have today off, so I layed around for awhile and read. Decided to hit the elliptical machine like I always do on Saturdays. However today I did not eat before the gym, which most exercise days I dont eat before exercising. Except for elliptical machine days I do. Last Saturday I went for 50 mins, 4.5 miles, burning 585 calories. Got home and caught up on calories and hydrated. Today, I wanted to push myself to 55 mins. Everything was going great; had some good edm music going, breathing was good, feeling great and in the zone. Then I get to 53 mins and saw that I had 2 mins to hit my goal. Thinking hell yah I'm gonna beat my record! Then I saw my calories burnt say 637 calories. ANXIETY! My brain now thinking "I haven't ate anything, and I've burnt A LOT of calories." 53:30 mins. I can do this, just push through, this is just anxiety. Then I start feeling light headed, that I'm going to pass out, and that I'm in danger. I really want to push through to that last minute. This is just anxiety. But my brain has fully convinced it self it is otherwise. Stop at 54 mins. Drink some water. My brain is now screaming to get home. Feel like I'm gonna pass out in the lobby. Call my wife (my anxiety/panic support) just hearing her voice calms me down. Have food in the oven, drinking a protein shake, and am now reasonably calm-ish as long as I keep my mind occupied.
Anybody ever have something similar happen to them? What do you guys think could have been the cause of this almost panic attack? Is it as simple as not eating before working out? I do work out fairly regularly (4 days a week).
Any advice or similar war story's would be much appreciated in making me feel not alone in this.
TL/DR: I had an almost panic attack while working out. Would like advice or similar war stories. | 1 |
Depersonalization first/third person ?? | I’m not sure what it’s called or if anyone has the same thing. So I figured I would make my first Reddit post hoping someone could help. But I have a thing where my body just disappears it’s like I can still feel things physically but everything is gone. It freaks me out it happens all the time even if I don’t have any kind of anxiety/stress. It’s like a light switch that just flips. I recently figured out a way to kinda explain it. It’s like being in first person (just see stuff normal) then I’ll switch to 3rd person like I see everything around me. I hope that makes sense 🥺. Idk if it’s depersonalization or something else. When I try to google it comes up with depersonalization but I don’t feel like it explains how I feel. I feel like I turn into a ghost. I don’t know why it switches when I’m not worried about anything. I’ll just be watching tv and then it switches. When I’m not focused on it will switch back to being normal. It’s just kinda hard not to hyper focus on something that you feel. It’s an awful feeling especially since it happens all thru out the day. I think if I knew what it was and that other people have this also it would make me feel better about it. It’s kinda scary to have something wrong and have no idea what it is. 😩 | 1 |
Depersonalization? First person/3rd person | I’m not sure what it’s called or if anyone has the same thing. So I figured I would make my first reddit post hoping someone could help. But I have a thing where my body just like disappears it’s like I can still feel thing’s physically but everything is gone. It freaks me out it happens all the time even if I don’t have anxiety it’s like I light switch. I recently figured out a way to kinda explain it. It’s like being in first person (just sees stuff normal) then I’ll switch to 3rd person like I see everything around me. I hope this makes sense 🥺
Idk if it’s depersonalization or something else I don’t really feel like it is the way it’s explained online. I feel like I turn into a ghost. I don’t know why it switches when I’m not worried I’ll just be watching tv and then it switches. I’m doing better then I was trying to get my mind off it and I’ll switch back to normal but it’s a awful feeling and I think if I knew what it was and other people have it it would make me feel some better about it. It’s kinda scary to have something and no idea what is wrong. | 1 |
Am I the only one scared when I actually feel good? | These past 3 days, I’ve been feeling happy! And I’m obviously happy about that cause it’s been a while since I’ve been question myself if I’ve actually ever been in a state of happiness.
However, whenever I get the happiness feeling it kinda scares me, cause it feels almost euphoric like I start feeling like the main character of the happiest movie ever lol.
That kinda scares me, ‘cause the happiness feeling seems so foreign that when I can catch it, it just feels so good, but a part of me is also never fully happy cause I’m scared and stressed that I won’t be able to hold on to the feeling long enough.
I’ve been told a lot of the time to just enjoy the feeling, but it sucks that it’s a fleeting feeling.
Also it’s weird ‘cause my happiness is always bittersweet mixed with sadness because I’m sad I can’t experience it as much as I want to and I’m already grieving that feeling.
Does anyone else also feel that way? | 7 |
Exhaustion/low energy with depression ➡️ caffeine ➡️ anxiety. Aaaand repeat 🔁 | Longtime Reddit user but first time poster here 👋
God this anxiety + depression combo is so debilitating. I’m constantly so so exhausted with little energy to do anything, so then I fuel myself up on caffeine, which then of course makes my anxiety skyrocket. This cycle culminated in another overwhelming panic attack tonight. I need to make a change.
Has anyone had success cutting out caffeine? What do you then do about the energy side of things?
Or any other supportive words or ideas? Open to anything at this point.
Feeling so stuck and alone in this cycle.
ETA additional background - I’m currently on a combo of three different meds for depression and anxiety (lamictal, wellbutrin, buspar) | 3 |
Severe anxiety disorder cannot function - tried various meds (inc benzo) - please comment and support me❤️❤️❤️ | null | 3 |
Am I just lazy and lacking perseverance? | I jump from one career to another and not sure if I'm just making up excuses to quit. I've been depressed trying to figure out what I should do with my life. Feeling purposeless. Should I actually continue with things I hate doing? Are happy people just persevering with life? Even if they don't like it so much? I don't know if I should continue with what I'm doing right now. Currently enrolled in a course and thinking of quitting again. | 3 |
Rambling | My every move is tracked on 2 different apps at all times. My grandmother stopped me after work to gleefully tell me that she and my dad have been watching me walking around one of the parks I work at on one of the apps. Even asked if I tripped at one point due to me stopping my walk.
In the woods the chickadee's call sometimes sounds like someone I know is calling my name. The world is loud most of the time which is awful, but even when it's quiet I still hear calls and people talking.
I don't think I can give enough of myself to anything or anyone to make a difference. I can't be a good girlfriend without being a terrible daughter. I cant be a good employee without being a irresponsible daughter for not calling out when my family needs me. Everyone needs me and it's always on me when I don't live up to their standards. Life is only complexity and multitasking and long words and hearing your name over and over and I really want none of it | 6 |
talking is exhausting | keeping in touch with my friends is becoming harder everyday. i love my friends a lot but talking is becoming harder for me. i've become more introverted lately and i know that i am distancing myself even more, but it's comforting to me... i love being on my own, i love staying in, i love putting my phone on dnd and pretend i don't exist.... but then my close friends and family get "mad" at me. why? because im not talking to them anymore but the thing is, i have nothing to talk about. i am literally not doing anything exciting, my life is so quiet and (i wouldn't say boring bc for me it's not), and seeing my friends accomplish and achieve so many things make me wonder "is it worth it if i even talk to them because nothing is going on for me", all i do is get up for my job, go to the beach to watch sunset then watch movies/read all night, that's all i do so how do i keep a conversation going... even replying to chats feels like a chore to me. i do care and love my friends but i feel so worthless lately, even more than usual and it's so so exhausting. i'm 23 years old and feel like i'm not adulting the way my friends are lmao. one of them even told me that it feels like i dont care, but i do. it's just hard to show it. whenever i try to speak about something my brain tells me to shut up and that im being annoying. im so tired | 10 |
I just want to sleep. | It has been a week and a half and I am still sleeping like shit.This has gotten so bad that I don’t even feel real anymore. I feel like a zombie, just watching (or barely watching in this matter) the world going by. I’m so upset. This is my favorite time of the year and I can’t even enjoy it because of how shitty I feel. I feel so alone and that no one is taking me seriously. Sometimes I wish I never got off of the antidepressants because I wouldn’t have been in this predicament. I don’t think I’ve ever witnessed bedtime anxiety this badly before and I feel like that’s the issue because I am off of the antidepressants. When I was back on my antidepressants, I was able to fall asleep and somewhat stay asleep. | 6 |
My old school friends stopped inviting me to things but still hang out. | So me and my friends who grew up together pretty much and were a right unit don’t really hang out with me anymore but I do see them occasionally hanging out together on Instagram.
I went through a really difficult time around 6 years ago when we all went on a night out and took MDMA and it landed me with some very serious social anxiety that I still haven’t really recovered from and I do isolate myself because of it.
I partly don’t blame them as for the last 6 years I’ve had my good times when I’ve felt myself coming back but I’ve also been isolating.
But in my worst times none of them ever reached out to check I was ok even tho we were literally joined at the hip and very close before this MDMA incident. Only one of them reached out and we are still in touch.
Even tho most of them haven’t been there for me through my hard times it still hurts to see them hanging out without me. But at the same time they all live in the same city and I don’t live there (currently living at my parents place as my anxiety went really downhill and trying to break out).
Admittedly I never made much effort to reach out to them either cause I haven’t been feeling myself and when we have met up maybe they can sense I’m not my old self.
But why should it always be me who reaches out? Isn’t it a two way thing? I feel like even in my other friend group who I’m close with I have to reach out all the time and they never do. Even tho we are very close. Is that wrong? Surely it’s a two way thing?
Anyway I wanted to vent. But also get any advice from people who have been through similar times. Thanks :) | 1 |
Frustrating Anxiety | If anyone can share their success stories with anxiety, I would really appreciate that.
I know it’s possible to overcome it with time, but sometimes it’s so frustrating and confusing. It gets hard to tell the difference between simply wanting to be alone and not going out with friends because it would be too draining and awful. It’s like I’m starving, sometimes. My friends from high school, who all share struggles of anxiety, depression, and adhd don’t really respond to me that much anymore, and now hanging out with them feels different. I have no super close friends anymore, except one person who I fear is drifting too. They all tell me it’s my anxiety! And after having a couple breakdowns in front of them, I feel like I’ve pushed them further away. I just think, I’m changing and growing a lot and they are too afraid to let me know the friendship is over.
So tiring, I just want to get back to a normal life where I can do things and handle situations without deep, deep self consciousness. I have had to leave good jobs due to my anxiety, leave good people. It’s like, the idea of living life and working and experiencing is so appealing, but every time I step into it, it burns me.
Everyone is on their own path and can only help you so much, and what they give you isn’t always help, either. Sometimes it’s just hypocritical bullshit.
I’m turning 23 soon so, I’m just waiting on my brain to fully develop so things make a little more sense.
Anyway that’s my rant thank you. :) | 2 |
I'm scared all the time | Hi guy's gonna be a long one tonight I'll fill you in abit first. my childhood was chaotic, moved about 7 times before i was 16, my stepdad was schizophrenic without meds, my parents divorce was shit, and school i was bullied a tad enough to move schools twice. i was fairly cheerful tho.
finally moved to a decent place when i was 16 after my stepdad left us in france. i got a gf and a job and then got depressed. ended my relationship my feelings had changed so much, i just wanted to be alone. i took an OD when i was 18, woke up with GAD the day after. over the years my depression+ anxiety has controlled/destroyed my life. i have had numerous cbt sessions. my last session i learned my emotional regulation is so fucked its unreal and i have an attachment issue. I'm 29 now waiting for a call back as I'm trying medical cannabis if anyone has any advice?.
as far as my psyciatrist goes i refused to see him as he questioned why I'm still going there after 10 years. he increased my effexor to 300mg last November. i was suicidal in December, i asked to change meds but repeatedly ignored as "it has worked before". he also mentioned i might have high functioning autism and after a whole 5 minutes with him my session was over, i left in tears. i have asked to see a different dr but repeatedly ignored, i also asked for an assesment for autism, after 5 letters i am on the waiting list. i have cut my hours at work. I've been single for 10 years and I'm feeling so alone. I'm scared of everything all the time now.
my GP doesnt have a clue about my meds so they still control that but won't see me. I'm so lost i don't know which way is forward anymore. I'm tired of putting on a smile or waking up shaking. worrying if i am ND, feeling scared of the world. | 9 |
How? | I’m trying to care about life again. I was in the worst depressive state I’ve ever been in (it’s gotten worse over the years and that was the peak I guess), I wasn’t able to get out of bed not even to use the washroom and I ended up quitting my job because of it. It’s been 2 months since that state and 8 months since i attempted. My only thing is trying to make myself care about life. I don’t know how. I’m stuck between regretting not kms/ letting myself die 2 years ago and fighting for that tiny spark that made me want to stay. it’s shit. | 2 |
Multiple pulls of cbd over the past few hours have caused my bpm to drop from 115 resting to 76 resting 🤯🤯 feeling better even if it's for a little bit | Apple watch also reported low stress levels. Haven't had a bpm this low for YEARS. Only used low levels of cbd before, I tried high levels today. Love it | 4 |
3 funerals and an associate's degree later... | I dont know what im suppoed to do. I feel so lost in my life right now and maybe its because I am 22 and its just that point in llife where everyone feels a bit lost but, I can feel its starting to get bad again.
Within this last school year and summer I have lost my grandma, grandpa, and the father of my very dear friend. I had to help my family put my other grandmother in a nursing home and sell her house. she has been in and out of the hospital for months.
I took 21 credits last semester and am taking 6 this summer. I finished my three year associated degree and only have one year left for my bachalors. Its in STEM and It just feels like I dont belong here. So much has happened that it feel like my brain is swollen and just can't take any new information in anymore.
I don't have a job now that its summer, and not for a lack of trying. I have filled out applications everywhere and no one has gotten back to me. I live with my parents. not a bad thing given my finances and we have a good relationship together, I love them trully. I havent had a bf since I was 17, and the guy I like now... well, its at the point where if he wanted to he would, and it doesnt seem like he wants to. Maybe thats me being impatient.
But it feels like its all coming to a head. Summer classes are ending soon. Im not doing as well as I would like and have procrastinated so bad becuase I just have this overwhelming feeling all the time of just wanting to do nothing, but yet wanting to do everything. It maddening and I don't know what I am suppoed to do or how I am suppoed to act.
It just feels like the world is spinning out of control, and I have always known what to do next and now that feeling just isnt there. Its scary.
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