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I did it, I talked! (DV/coercive control etc, encouragement) | I am writing this post as an encouragement for others. I know its a bit long, but if it helps one person it's worth it.
20 years ago I was in an abusive relationship. It didn't last long, but long enough.
I've recently started therapy for the first time (I'm in my 40s) for severe anxiety and depression triggered by a recent event. Anyway, this new trauma re-triggered this abusive relationship nightmare, and I've been struggling with intrusive thoughts, replaying things etc.
I told my counsellor last week I needed to talk about something but really couldn't find the words, and he suggested I email him, so I did, and today was the first session since.
If anyone else has been through similar, you will know the gut wrenching fear and shame that comes with these things. So I was dreading today. I started by re-stating that this was not to go any further at all, which I needed to do for my own sanity, and he showed me he'd deleted the email, and we shredded the printout at the end of the session. He thanked me for trusting him - only a little thing but all made me feel a bit safer.
Honestly though, now, I have never been more relieved. I didn't think I would ever be able to talk about it, but my counsellor was amazing. It was such a relief to be able to see things from a different point of view (why didn't I leave has always bugged me, and we discussed and re-framed this for example) and to begin to develop a bit of an understanding about why I reacted the way I did. He allowed me loads of space to breathe to get control back when I was on the edge, let me rant a little bit, but held it sometimes when it was too much.
If anyone is wondering whether or not they can discuss this, or if there is any point, I would say a resounding yes. I mean I used up his box of tissues nearly completely lol, and it was incredibly tough, but the relief I feel now is immense. Still obviously loads of work to do around it, one session isn't going to solve it, but I feel so much more in control.
I just wanted to mention it because it was so bloody hard, and I've driven myself mad this past week, but the relief of hearing explanations, to having someone understand the situation, and to have my feelings validated, that I wasn't making a mountain out of a molehill, that I was entitled to feel how I did was so incredibly necessary.
I hope this post helps someone there. xx
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My Anxiety Has Gotten So Much Worse Over The Years | TW: Intrusive thoughts of gorey things happening
For context, I am an 18 year old who is on the brink of going into adulthood. I have depression and anxiety (possibly bipolar) and have recieved therapy in the past. I haven't been in therapy since April due to moving. I tried to go to college and did complete one year but due to mental health issues I've decided to take a break for a couple years and in the meantime, try and complete a certificate program so I can work with some sort of education.
That being said, I will be staying with my mom for a year (the time of the certificate program) and then trying to get my own place. I'm deadly terrified of living on my own. This is normal for anyone but my anxiety is so much worse than your average peer. I am so terrified of failing. I am so terrified of living alone. For starters, I still don't know how to drive and I'm about to be 19. I'm so terrified of getting into a car crash that everytime I enter a car, I get intrusive thoughts/images of >!getting into a car crash.!< I'm scared to be alone because of things like burglaries so much so that I get intrusive images at night of being >!shot by an intruder in my sleep.!< I am so terrified of forming relationships with people anymore that I want to distance myself from everyone because I'm so scared of messing up again. I keep getting these thought loops of just bad things happening. That's just the beginning of it. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm on mood stabilizers but never been on anxiety meds or anything. I can't get another therapist until around June and I don't know what to do with myself until then. | 7 |
switching to online school | I am 15 and I want to switch to online school. I've already talked to my dad ,my guidance counselor and my principal. I honestly wasn't 100% sure but either my counselor or principal was gossiping about it because loudly and in front of my classmates my teacher asked me why I'm switching to online school. I thought since everyone and there mama knows now I shouldn't hide it. but now I feel like everyone is EXPECTING me to switch. I feel like my decision has already been made for me. I want to switch because for one, I need time to work, I want to go to school which means I need money, for two, no one at my school likes me. I don't get bullied, I'd actually prefer that, they just flat out ignore me. nobody in my teeny tiny school is aware of my existence. my classmates don't speak to me or include me. I had one friend but she made fun of me and when I asked her to stop she just stopped talking to me period. I've been so depressed my whole life because of my family/home life and this just made it so much worse. the only thing that got me through this school year is the idea of switching to online school but now I'm not so sure. if I want to go to cosmetology school I'll need to go to online school but the thought of not going to highschool makes me nauseous. I do not want to miss that but I feel like I have no choice. everyone thinks I'm going to and it just feels so embarrassing to even think about showing up next year when everyone thought I was gone. I wanted to keep it a secret so that if I didn't show up next year everyone would be shocked, like it was my last chance at getting even a little attention from my classmates even if I wasn't there to experience it, OR I could decide to continue public high school and no one would even know, no one would be disappointed I showed up. I feel sick just thinking about this because the more I do the more I feel like I want to go. in the past year I feel like I've gotten more confident and I feel like maybe my junior year wouldn't be so bad. I could be there for my best friends senior year and maybe kindle a relationship with my class, maybe they'd invite me to the class group chat idk. I just need someone's opinion on my situation or want to know if anyone has gone through anything similar. | 3 |
This is getting so old I’m sick of myself at this point. | I know that I’m not depression and anxiety but I feel like it’s taken so much from me that I’m almost nothing else.
I try to share my struggles honestly with others and the first couple times I open up people are willing to listen and seem to try and understand but once it loses the excitement of being a new thing they lose interest in it and become bored of it and then eventually annoyed. No one says that but I can just tell. It’s like a topic they’re sick of. I don’t mention it often but when I’m struggling and having a really bad day I have to explain myself again and it just feels so pointless.
It’s like “oh yeah… sorry I know I was supposed to do this but I’ve just been having a particularly hard day anxiety wise…” and I can see that they’re done with that topic cause it’s old now. I wish it would just go away when everyone got sick of it but it doesn’t.
Do they think I like being this way? Do they think it makes me feel special? It doesn’t. It makes me feel horrible and like I’m in the way and causing more harm than good by being the way that I am.
Having to re explain and apologize all the time is getting to me. | 5 |
Idk what is and isn't real in relationships | This is my first time writing in here, so sorry if I don't do this right. I've been struggling with my relationships with friends. I never really know what people say behind me. I don't know what is and isn't real about my friends and whether or not they hate me. I'm always trying to find the balance between loud and quiet, clingy and disengaged, ect. Any advice? | 5 |
What is wrong with me???? | (F,21) I have a successful career, I don't look super good but yeah, i have always received compliments on my looks. I have a sweet and soft voice. I do have social anxiety tho. All in all, i do not look intimidating at all. Then why is it that people always ignore me? I organise events in my city, and it breaks my heart when people do this - a guest arrives (whom 'I' invited) and when they arrive they do not even look at me or acknowledge me, unless and until i go to them and introduce myself. Even if I'm standing in their way, all smiling and waiting for them to look at me, they simply ignore me. When any audience has any questions, instead of coming and asking to me - who's organising and managing everything- they go to the volunteers I have at the event. I organised an event today, and one of the guest performer I've been constantly in touch with didn't even notice me and came and greeted the other people, while I stood there waiting for her to approach me or even acknowledge me. It hurts, it hurts so much. I put my blood and sweat into these events and my guests do not even look at me. They mistake other people as the event organiser. While I stand there wondering "what the fuck am I doing wrong??"
If somebody can give any tips, it would mean a lot to me.. because I'm tired of feeling so ignored all the time | 7 |
[Mod Post] - Happy Sunday Everyone! A note from the mod team on the blackout starting tomorrow | Hello Everyone,
An announcement was made yesterday regarding the blackout that is scheduled in protest of the changes to the API access/3rd party apps. That post from yesterday can be found [here](https://www.reddit.com/r/AnxietyDepression/comments/145b7yi/mod_post_announcement_on_the_upcoming_reddit/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x&context=3).
Just wanted to post again so this is near the top of the sub, that this sub will **NOT** be particpating in the blackout. I think a majority of all supportive type subs are staying open/business as usual due to the nature of the subs subject matter.
While the mod team stands in solidarity with the masses that are participating, we cannot in good faith take this sub and its resources away from those who need them.
We understand that many of you may chose to particpate in the blackout as users, and we fully support your decision! We hope to see you back once you return, but for many, this is the end of their Reddit journey. If that is the case for you, we wish you the best and will always be here should you ever need support.
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Bipolar Disorder? | Recently I began to consider the possibility I might have bipolar disorder.
An ex-friend of mine described me as 'too intense,' and said that my mood switches like absolutely crazy. One minute I'll be enjoying myself with a group of friends, having fun, and then all of a sudden I become so incredibly depressed I'll shut down at the dinner table or mid-conversation.
I feel so many emotions in one day and sometimes they're extreme - high levels of vengeful anger, heavy amounts of guilt, and then happiness or complete apathy only a few hours past. Some days I'll be so euphoric and over the moon though they usually are succeeded by long bouts of self-isolating depression. Some days I feel so much that I can't stop myself crying (despite nothing really happening).
Does this sound like bipolar lol or is it just being overtly emotional? | 1 |
help with seeing a professional | (for those who don't wanna read the text: I'm anxious about going to a doctor [pls read])
hey guys i haven't felt alright for a period of time. I have all symptoms and a few physical symptoms of anxiety and some symptoms of depression but no physical symptoms that are obvious. I'm planning to go to a doctor but I'm really scared that I won't be able to explain my problems cause I'm not aware of them enough I just can't say the doctor let me think and find the answer even if I can I don't think I can find the answer so it will make the diagnosis way more difficult I still am not sure about some of my symptoms. Even they try to use an elemination method like diagnosing it step by step with "easy" questions I don't think I can give answers I'm terrible at explaining my thoughts and my feelings cause I don't think I know them either. Symptoms getting worse day by day it doesn't get better but I just can't make my mind to go to a doctor. I don't know the exact problem and if they choose to ask multiple questions rather than more precise ones it would just make the situation worse. so that's a paradox in my mind that I can't come up with an answer. I think my biggest fear is generalized questions like "do you feel sad all the time" or tells me to remember an event like "when was the last time u were anxious" and lastly my physical symptoms. I have been experiencing this for a long time so I either don't have physical symptoms or there are only minor ones or maybe I got over my physical symptoms and completely forgot them. The reason this text being so long is I don't know my problem. PLEASE help me get out of this situation. | 3 |
My moods constantly change its frustrating | my mood fluctuate too much even for me
i went from a really sour mood to just done mood yesterday, now i feel hyper all of a sudden?
one idea maybe i finally woke up early for once, but like my moods constantly shift about to where im like can we stop for five minutes?
was gonna draw today but the hand tremors are not doing me any favours, im more energtic because i had a cool story idea but like idk my mood feels super bizzare today
idk i know this post is a bit of a ramble, but todays been weird mentally for me | 7 |
Seeking Advice: How do you maintain a daily mental health routine? | Hi, fellow Redditors!
As I grow older, I've come to appreciate the significance of prioritising my mental health, particularly when life gets more eventful and stressful. I'm reaching out to all of you to find out what your daily mental health routines look like and how you've managed to stick to them. I'm hoping to gather some insights and suggestions to help me overcome the challenges I'm currently facing.
Personally, I struggle with Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD) and Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), which makes it difficult for me to commit to a routine and follow through with it. I tend to have an "all or nothing" mindset and a perfectionist streak that often gets in the way. Lately, I've found myself in a bit of a rut, feeling like I lack any hobbies or interests. The search for the "perfect" routine or hobby has consumed me for the past couple of years if I’m being honest.
Unfortunately, this obsession has caused some negative consequences in my life. I've gained weight, become addicted to my phone as I endlessly research and gather knowledge before making decisions. Sometimes, this process can last for weeks or even months, especially when it comes to deciding on things as I just procrastinate. I desperately need help in creating a routine that keeps me engaged and fulfilled, but also that suits my two different work shift patterns as well as my day off on Mondays when I find myself feeling lost and purposeless.
I work from 08:00 - 17:00 on most days and from 11:00 - 20:00 on some days. The challenge I face is maintaining consistency and structure in my daily life, given the variation in my work hours. It becomes even more complicated when I have a day off on Mondays, where I often feel adrift without a clear purpose. I want to make the most of my time, improve my mental well-being, and engage in activities that bring me fulfillment.
Currently, during the week and on my days off, I find myself just going through the motions, particularly on the days when my partner is at work and I'm alone. I end up spending my time engaging in pointless activities that feed into my OCPD, such as excessive researching, obsessing, and constantly thinking about doing things without actually taking action.
Before I know it, the morning has slipped away, and it's already lunchtime. This is the same in the evening when I just get home from work and scroll on my phone all evening.
So, dear Redditors, I would greatly appreciate any advice, suggestions, or personal experiences you can share regarding your own mental health routines. How do you create a routine that you can stick to? How do you overcome the challenges of perfectionism or an "all or nothing" mindset? Have you successfully navigated similar situations and found ways to engage in meaningful activities? I'm open to any tips or recommendations, whether they involve mindfulness exercises, hobbies, self-care practices, or anything else that has helped you improve your mental well-being.
Thank you in advance for your support and insights. | 5 |
Experiencing intense anxiety and depression about moving to a new apartment | Ever since I (25F) was a kid moving to a new house has been extremely triggering for me. Change, even good change, is very hard for me and tends to be the main trigger for my anxiety and depression. I was a senior in college when the pandemic hit and had to move back home. I really enjoyed the year and a half I spent living back with my parents. My mom and I are really close so I loved being able to spend so much time with her. But I was also really craving independence. I’ve always known I didn’t want to stay in my home state so after a year and a half of living at home and saving money I finally made the cross country move to my dream city. The adjustment was extremely hard at first and I fell into a deep depression. I wasn’t eating, I wasn’t sleeping, I would cry every morning and every night. I missed my mom and I missed the familiarity of and my routine back home. Slowly though as I settled into my job here, established a routine, made friends, I came out of my depression and now this city really does feel like my home. I love the townhouse I currently live in and my roommates (one of which is my sister who moved here after visiting me and falling in love with the city). But as of yesterday I’ve been starting to feel the same anxiety and depression and sadness as when I first moved here. My lease ends in August and we are not renewing. One of my roommates is moving away to be with her boyfriend and my sister is moving in with one of her friends here. I can’t afford to live in the townhouse without them and the thought of finding two strangers to live with is extremely anxiety inducing. I’ve also never lived alone before and that’s something i really want to experience and feel like it’s the next step for personal growth. This week has been a lot both physically and emotionally for me. I had a minor surgery and my mom flew down to help me recover, and while she was here we found an apartment for august and I submitted an application. I’ve also been out of my normal routine for the past 6 days (because of the surgery) which is usually really hard for me, but everything felt so much easier to tackle when my mom was here. She left yesterday and that’s when I started to spiral. Now I can’t stop thinking about leaving this townhouse and moving to the new apartment in August. I feel like I’m going to be leaving my safe space. I couldn’t eat yesterday and I’ve been having non-stop breakdowns. I start back at work tomorrow and I know I might start feeling better once I get back into my routine, but I feel like I can’t escape the anxiety of the impending move.
TLDR I’m moving into a new apartment in august and am feeling really anxious and depressed about moving out of the townhouse I’m living in right now. I feel like I get more attached to places than other people and like there is something wrong with me | 1 |
Really need some motivation, feeling very badly today | Hi everyone, I hope this post doesn't sound too dramatical but I really need to talk about all what's going on in my life to someone. First of all, allow me to introduce myself, my name is Luca, I am a 24 years old Italian guy, living in Austria.
Basically I have to say that I am already living a period of my life which would feel quite stressful by itself, indeed this is some background:
\- I am having some health problems since more than one year (physical health, which oc has an important impact on mental health as well, trying to find a solution btw, but not easy)
\- I am currently finishing writing my MSc thesis in order to graduate and at the same time working as an intern for a startup here, however, I know there is a very good chance that the company will not keep me after September and therefore I will need to look for a job elsewhere (and probably, not even in this country since I don't know german and this makes it more difficult to get a very good job as a foreigner)
\- I am honestly quite alone here (in Vienna) since I lost few friends recently (we had some disagreements) while also I don't have many friends in general since I lived in 3 different countries in the last 2 years and therefore I always had this feeling of "I don't want to invest much in new friendships or relationships since I know I will not be in country X in few months". Moreover, in general I think for me it's difficult to keep friends long term, as I am constantly changing. The only people that I consider really really friends at the moment is two friends who I know from my Bachelor and I really consider my brothers, but unfortunately they live in different countries than me at the moment.
Recently, I got to know through Tinder (I know, it's a really fucked up place) a girl for whom I got addicted super easily. Indeed, we had two dates this week, we kissed and said a lot of sweet stuff to each other, like super sweet and she wanted already me to know her sister for example. However, I think I may have overseen some red flags with her, as she basically has a very bad past because of family traumas and also she has this habit of disappearing through messages for 24 hrs or more, because she says that she get so depressed to be unable to chat with me or do anything. Even more difficult, now it's more than 48 hours that she doesn't reply to my messages or calls, she just said yestersay "ehi Luca, i am stressed, will write you later" and then never came back.
This whole experience of getting addicted to this / being treated badly made me understand that I would like to change in life, indeed, I have some goals (improving my knowledge of foreign languages, losing some weight and more important, start loving myself again). Any suggestion or advice for any of these things? Any other goal you would suggest me? I know I may be young to create so many problems but at the same time I am suffering a lot and feeling old inside.
Thank you everybody in advice. | 2 |
Taking Ativan how much should be safe? | I take Ativan “as needed” .5mg so far does the trick, most of the time just once a day but there have been a few times I needed a second dose. I’m really worried about becoming dependent and needing higher doses. I know I need to limit it as much as possible.
How frequently should be safe, in other words how many times a week? Does it matter if the days are consecutive? My worst days are always weekends (summer I have Fridays off) because I’m “home” stuck with my abusive wife. | 5 |
I’m in a huge rut right now. Can’t get the clouds out of my mind. | I wholeheartedly am tired of feeling this way. I feel so unheard and just disregarded by everyone.. to the point everything feels and looks cloudy. I sometimes wonder what things would be like if i weren’t here.. not like in a “i wish i didn’t exist” way but more like “i wish i didn’t have any effect on anyone around me so they wouldn’t remember me” way. :/ i guess it’s both of those feelings?
tired of working, tired of having to find new things to keep my mind occupied.. overall just tired. I have a therapy appointment and meds update sesh coming up but do you have any suggestions outside of that? | 13 |
How serious is Buspirone withdrawal? | Thinking about trying Buspirone for social anxiety and depression as more than 14 different meds didn‘t help me yet and I still didn‘t try the Buspirone (Buspar).
So, to anyone who has taken Busprione for anxiety or whatever, how bad was getting off of it (withdrawal)?
What symptoms did you experience as soon as you were off of it and how long did it take until you‘ve been back to normal? | 3 |
Hydroxyzine experiences | I suffer from depression, social anxiety and ADD symptoms.
Could you please tell me more about Atarax (Hydroxyzine) and its effects on your daily life, mood, anxiety, sociability, creativity, talkativeness, cognition, relaxation, sleep etc.? How has it changed your daily life and lifestyle and personality since beginning?
I‘m really interested in this med for years but never got to try it. It‘s taken as needed, right? Doesn‘t have to be taken daily or build up over weeks like antidepressants? | 3 |
GAD question | null | 2 |
Chest pains | Last weekend I had a major panic attack and now when I lay down at night my chest feels tight, I’m fine during the day and in the morning if I get sleep. Any tips | 1 |
I'm done | Im tired of "living" life on Nightmare Mode, I'm quitting this awful program. | 3 |
Lost & Lonely | I feel so alone. I live far from my family and friends I feel like I’m a burden to my friends. I’m married but my husband had to move far away for work. I feel like I’m going through the motions of life and along the way I forgot how to be happy. Does the feeling come back? Whenever I think to talk to family friends husband I get so anxious I isolate myself. | 2 |
Just had my first appointment with a psychiatrist. | (On mobile app please forgive any formatting issues)
I am a 35/M here and have dealt with anxiety and depression for a long time. I self medicated with drugs/alcohofol for years. I have been sober for the past 6.5yrs and it's had it's ups and downs. I joined a 12-step program and for me it did wonders.
But there has always been anxiety and depression. My high off being sober, working out and having a purpose blunted those feelings but they were there, lurking in the background.
A few months ago my girlfriend and I broke up. I truly love her and she at the moment doesn't seem to have written me off completely. We still talk but we have had to slow down because she does want to focus on herself (cliché I know).
One of the things that kept bothering her was my inability to to remember important things and follow through. It killed me inside because I wanted to fulfill her requests. And I always had every intention but couldn't ever follow through due to forgetting because of apathy or forgetfulness or anxiety about not being good enough.
Anyway long story but the gist of it is this. I made several doctors appointments and one of them was with a psychiatrist. He prescribed me Lexapro. I took the 5mg dose about half an hour ago at 9pm although I was having anxiety about taking it.
I did what I think many people do and dove head first online and read the bad and good reviews of it. I am scared, nervous, hopeful and proud I took a step towards dealing with my anxiety and depression.
I don't know if this will save my relationship with her, I don't know of it will help with my impulsively and general nasty attitude at minor things. I sincerely hope it does.
I want to hear from other people about their journey getting on meds in general and if it's allowed their experiences with Lexpro. | 1 |
Struggling, 21m | I don't even have the energy to type a long post.
There are so many things I had to do until now that I haven't (like learn how to drive)
So many things that I want to do (like dating someone or filming or making a YouTube channel) but people my age are already so far ahead of me.
I get a short spark of motivating and then my brain goes "there's no point, we both know you won't go through with it."
I don't even feel like doing the things I used to enjoy. All I do is lay on my bed and feel sad.
There's no hope, is there? | 9 |
What to mix with Wellbutrin for anxiety? | 35yo female, 3 kids (8,6,2.5). I feel like my psychiatrist is kind of incompetent and I need to come to him with ideas of what to try for me (he's $35 with insurance so I can't afford to switch). I'm familiar with various antidepressants so I have some knowledge to help aid my decisions...my question is what is good for anxiety when taking Wellbutrin? Lexapro made orgasm impossible. Zoloft caused me severe jaw clentching (but it still hasn't gone away years later so maybe that's irrelevant), Cymbalta came with a ton of side effects that I ended up finding too difficult to tolerate. Prozac was my go-to for many years until it recently pooped out on me. I'd prefer something not sedating as that's an issue I already deal with. Ideas? | 2 |
[Mod Post] - Announcement on the upcoming Reddit "Blackout" | Hello Everyone,
As I'm sure you have heard by now, there is a planning "blackout" / boycott of Reddit from 6/12 - 6/14 due to the upcoming changes to third-party app and access to API. You can find more details about this change [here](https://www.reddit.com/r/Save3rdPartyApps/comments/13yh0jf/dont_let_reddit_kill_3rd_party_apps/).
We have been engaging with many mod-based subs on the topic and many that are along the same type of subject matter as r/AnxietyDepression .
Currently we are making the choice to ***not*** participate due to the subs being such a vital resource to its users wellbeing and safety. But please continue reading below, we want input before making a final decision.
We feel taking away the amazing support system that this sub has would be detrimental to its users and take away support, resources, and guidance away from people who are dealing with complex and potentially life-threatning situations.
We are very open to having a discussion on this topic, and we feel this is not a decision that should be made by the mod team alone. We would like to hear your thoughts on the subject and would like to come to a decision on this together.
So please comment below what your thoughts are on the blackout and if you feel this sub should participate. | 4 |
Nervous habit of picking dry skin off my lips.. | I’ve had this issue for years but I feel like lately it’s worse. My lips are chronically chapped. Always chapped and flaking. Dry bits come off halfway and it drives me nuts so I go and try to pull them off and then end up taking healthy skin off too causing even more dry and damaged skin. It’s a vicious cycle. I do it subconsciously. Even when I’m falling asleep I’ll reach up and pick at them somehow.. it’s weird I know I’m sorry.. and then I wake up with dried blood on my fingers and lips. I use all kinds of chapsticks and I’ve been trying to stay more hydrated but man.. it’s like nail biting it’s hard to stop. I’m lucky I don’t also bite my nails.
Only other thing I do is pick at my face in the mirror which doesn’t help my acne but the chapped lips are the worst. Anxiety really does do the weirdest things. | 11 |
My (21F) boyfriend (21M) is asleep all the time. What do I do? | My boyfriend is currently on antidepressants and has been for about a year or two.
Sometimes, he gets really depressed and sleeps for an entire week. He is quick to plan things, like going to the beach, or taking a walk, etc. But as soon as the time comes, he sleeps.
For the past few days, he has been sleeping non-stop. I’ve reminded him to take his medications, and to eat some food. I’ve never seen him this “low” before. He usually eats dinner etc, but this time he barely even eats. Every time I try to wake him up from his “nap” and try to get him to go out, he gets mad and tells me to stop stressing. But if I don’t wake him up, he’ll sleep all day.
I don’t know what to do. Should I stop trying to wake him up and let him sleep all day, or should I keep trying even if he gets mad? I know it’s hard for him, but this frustrates me too, and I’m worried about him. Usually, it ends up with us two fighting due to me trying to wake him up, and I know a fight is the last thing he needs, but I just can’t help myself. I get so frustrated, and sad, and worried.
His mother is worried too. He already sees a therapist, and i’ve been trying to figure out why he gets these “dips” in his mood. Nothing has happened that I know of. Maybe he’s struggling to take his meds regularly? I don’t know. | 2 |
Loud social events | I have the discomfort of being at/in 2 loud AF situations in the last 2 mo. Once it was a chartered bus for a work thing. Lesson learned there, bring my headphones. My anxiety was out of control. Last night it was a work “gala” dinner + awards. I wasn’t as anxious…maybe because I wasn’t trapped on a bus, but it was just so uncomfortable. Anyone have tips, or should I just limit my time there as best I can? I recently don’t drink bc of my meds so I’m easing into the sober social life as well. | 2 |
My mental health has completely deteriorated. | I’ve done some pretty shitty things and they cause me so much anxiety and guilt. I just want bad things to happen to me so that people can just forgive me. And it sucks because I can’t apologize (don’t ask why, I can’t) but I’m so guilty and anxious about it. I’m close to giving up. I sometimes fantasize about gettin cancer or of my close ones being hurt (which is so horrible I know, I can’t help it. I feel like I need something horrible to happen to me. I feel terrible about it.) why am I like this, why am I such a terrible person. And it’s especially horrible cuz it seems like everyone likes me for some reason. God I hate myself and it’s only a matter of time before they start hating me too | 3 |
Too scared to answer the questionnaire too honestly when I go to the doctor. | So this is probably bad but I slightly tone down my symptoms when I do the routine mental health questionnaire because I’m afraid if I get too high of a score that they’ll send me on a grippy sock vacation and that terrifies me. I don’t think they would I’m not a threat to myself or others.. but what if they did? I always score so high on the depression scale and they always ask me more questions which is their job but .. what would they do if it was even higher?
Is anyone else afraid of being too honest? I don’t want to freak them out. | 8 |
Long Term and Short Term Memory Problems from Depression and Anxiety | I’ve been going through long term memory and short term memory problems since 2016 and I recently got diagnosed with persistent depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder by my psychiatrist this past week.
Has anyone have or had these issues and have seen improvements or full on recovery from these symptoms from meds, lifestyle changes or any other treatments? My psychiatrist is going to be prescribing me meds for both depression and anxiety and I’m hoping they help with these debilitating symptoms!
I have a hard time having conversations now and also can’t recall most things I’ve done in the past, movie plots or pretty much anything I learn. Short term memory problems as well, I forget things that people told me just minutes before. I wasn’t like this before and it’s pretty devastating on my life. I’m 29 years old and I feel shouldn’t be this way.
If anyone has any tips or answers, especially with medication or lifestyle changes, as I’m willing to pretty much try any lifestyle change and keep on it no matter what at this point. I have 2 kids and it’s so hard dealing with this while being a parent, I just want them to feel like they have a happy dad and one that can do things with them and make them feel happy too. I try my best and they know I do, but I feel so guilty sometimes because I feel like I will hold them back at some point when they grow up unless I can get this under control.
Thanks for listening and for anyone with advice :) | 13 |
Hobbies?!?! | null | 1 |
Scared for my Daughter | My daughter is 1. Cute little sassy thing. Some things are going through my head... I worry about her mental health. I don't want her going through though. I have been diagnosed with MDD & anxiety. I take anti depressant to control it. My dad committed suicide due to untreated mental illness. His whole side of family ha/has depression ... so genetic. My husband's mom has undiagnosed mental illness. Most likely borderline personality disorder.
How can I keep my daughter somewhat safe from mental illness? Should I expect her to have some issues when she gets older because alot is genetic?
I'm scared for her. This world can be shitty. & people can be shitty.
I do keep her I'm a very positive environment. And she is very socially active. | 0 |
Unforgiving Shadows: A Survivor’s Struggle in Silence |
When darkness violated my soul, I refused to accept it. Even now, as years have drifted by, the weight of forgiveness eludes me. In the aftermath, I couldn't grasp the magnitude of what had befallen me. Buried beneath the overwhelming burden of school problems, I masked my pain from my mother and brother, weaving a tapestry of deceit to preserve a façade of normalcy. Exams loomed, grades awaited judgment. My plate overflowed with responsibilities. Yet every single day, I found myself anxiously testing for a possibility, uncertain if I carried the seed of my violation.
It was during this period that the sacred pages of my journal relinquished all traces of baby names. I vowed to never bring forth life, to shield any unborn child from the horrors that scarred me. But as each test yielded a negative result, a conflict raged within me. Should I rejoice, relieved that no reminder of the heinous act haunted my existence? Or should I be enraged, denied the opportunity to direct my anger at the innocent life forged through the flames of sexual assault? | 3 |
Is it really better in your 40s? | Celebrities keep saying it but I want to hear from “real” women, those without the spotlight, maybe disabilities, mental health issues, long work hours, children, no children, menopause—
I heard 30s were better than 20s, and in a lot of ways it is. But I would go back (and drink a lot less)
(This is after reading some interview with Natasha lyonne who is 43) | 6 |
Depressed and Exhausted. | I (29F) have bipolar disorder, borderline, PTSD, depression and bad anxiety. I have friends that have been coming to my house since I moved in (6/2) ever day. My social battery starts to run out but I push through it bcus i don’t want to be in the slumps. Well I got into it with my friends. I ignored everyone, I was crying. I broke- im tired, really physically and emotionally drained. my other friend came over and he didn’t leave till 6am. I an wearing sweatpants, socks (never sleep with them on) and was covered up. I was shivering and I was also drenched in sweat. I have a extremely painful migraine, haven’t ate since Tuesday. I’m hungry but no appetite mostly. I could eat but don’t have the energy to go look or reheat something. I had fell asleep at 6am- my mom (50F) got home and screamed at me bcus my floor wasn’t done, I started doing it and we got into it. I cried again bcus i was so pissed. Like idk how much longer I can take this shit. I’m getting depressed even tho I had a great night with my friend earlier today. I just wanna cry and sleep. My head is throbbing, we’re getting flooring done and I can’t get peace. Have to wake up for fingerprints for the new job, I don’t wanna go I’m tired.
I didn’t want to get depressed but my surroundings are depressive. I haven’t taken my Lamictal so idk if that’s what’s doing all this shit. I’m really tired of living this life. | 3 |
How well can biomagnetic therapy treat depression? | null | 3 |
Mitrzapine to sertraline | Hey, anyone switched from mitrzapine to sertraline? How was it? I suffer with really bad depression and anxiety/panic attacks. I usually take 45mg mitrzapine but I've been reduced to 30mg this week, 2nd week will be reduced to 15mg mitrzapine with 50mg sertraline then 3rd week 100mg sertraline 4th week off mitrzapine completely.
I've been on mitrzapine for about 7 years, past couple of years it's stopped working, am really scared about changing meds. Any advice? Thanks | 2 |
Burned out and depressed, but guilty for taking a break. What's wrong with me? | I'm an entrepreneur, and after a couple of years of burnout, my condition has significantly worsened two months ago, and I've been diagnosed with moderate to severe clinical depression. I've been having an indescribable feeling of sorrow, anxiety, apathy, helplessness and emptiness; in the first week of the whole episode, it was even hard to get out of my bed. For the past two months, whenever worked (or even just thinking about work), I would experience immense anxiety, fear and (sometimes) anger, as well as physical symptoms, such as massive headache, body tremors, and faster heart beats (and one time, almost hyperventilating). As a result, I've not been productive at work and in every sense of the word, dreaded it. The trauma around anything remotely related to work is real -- I still can't open/reply email, or think of anything/anyone around work at all -- all of these give me tremendous fear and anxiety.
I've finally decided to take a month off work (totally offline), to try to recover. However, I've been guilty about taking the break, especially with regards to our external stakeholders. Of course, I didn't just disappear; my business partner and the team know about my leave. But I've been thinking whether I should have communicated about the break with external stakeholders more properly -- which I did at a minimum because I didn't want to share about condition, which I was afraid may impact how people see the company. For me, the decision to take a break was like an "emergency break", because my condition got pretty bad and I was (and sadly, still am) extremely miserable.
Also, around this time I've had lots of guilt and shame around how I should have done better in my work for the past couple of years -- in operating the company, managing people, et cetera.At the same time, I don't think a month is sufficient. I was getting a bit better, but been back to worse again.
How do I overcome these feeling? | 9 |
Is screwing up sometimes at work at a new place normal after 3 months? | Lately been having anxiety about my new place where I work. I don't want to screw up. It has been my MO. The mistakes I am making are just very stupid little mistakes. I am making the effort. I am giving 110 percent but at times have some shortfalls and trying to adjust.
I am getting by and I am learning but all human error I am making is bogging me down. I get anxious sometimes and at times get worried about things too much. It's a bad cycle and I am trying to break it. Problem is if I try to relax I screw up too. How can I beat this? Am I beating myself up too much?? | 3 |
Bad at caring for myself | Everyone on Reddit makes you feel stupid for not cooking for yourself. I know it’s a basic life skill but I’m just so unwilling. Maybe I am the problem, but guilt just keeps me eating bad food. Only r/depressionmeals is kind about it. Everywhere else makes you feel like if you aren’t a gym going healthy eating chad you’re failing at life .-. I’m just trying to keep myself alive | 9 |
Can a medication work differently years apart | Eight years ago I took Wellbutrin and lexapro together for a couple months. Wellbutrin made me drop weight and lexapro made orgasm impossible. Prozac worked better for me until it stopped being effective this past year. I tried Wellbutrin again expecting the same weight loss but ended up gaining weight, though I'm not sure it's from the medication and rather due to my anxiety. I'm debating adding lexapro back and wondering if I should expect the same side effects as previously, or could it be different so many years later as the Wellbutrin is? | 2 |
Toxic Boomer Aunt strikes again, and I'm not mentally ok | null | 3 |
Depressed and anxious after being sacked and starting a new job | I'm 26f. I worked in hospitality for years during uni and after I finished, and hustled to find a grad job for myself. I was working in a pub and was working hard there whilst trying to find a 9 to 5 which I stupidly thought was going to change everything and improve my quality of life. I landed my grad job last year.
The job was remote but I felt lonely and missed working with people. I felt isolated from my colleagues. The only good thing about the job was the flexibility I had, and that I could go out running during the day, cook for myself and do my chores. I lost that job about 6 weeks ago. It was a complete shock as I'd been promoted a month before, and had been told what a good job I was doing up until about two days before I was let go. I was heartbroken about what had happened as my boss made sure to make me feel like absolute sh\*\* when he sacked me, completely knocking my confidence even though I knew I'd been doing a good job.
About a week after I got sacked I managed to secure another job working for an opticians. I had a few weeks off between being sacked and starting my new job and during this time I went on holiday which was honestly one of the most stressful weeks of my life as my boyfriend had stopped taking his meds without telling me and was behaving erratically. It was pretty terrible and my stress levels were insane, but I managed to enjoy some of the time I had off before starting my new job.
I've been at the job 3 days now. I know it doesn't sound a lot, but I'm completely miserable already. I've been crying every day at work and at home, unable to sleep and emotionally exhausted and drained. I don't know what the future looks like and feel hopeless about it. I thought the grad job was going to get me somewhere so worked hard for that, now I'm working in this random opticians that I don't like and I don't know the work, no one really helps me and the days are insanely long. I feel utterly miserable and just not like myself at all. I'd like to go back and study maybe, but don't know how I will afford it. Everything feels hopeless. I don't want to go to sleep at night because I know I have to get up and go back there. My routine is a mess, I don't have time for anything.
Is it normal for me to feel this way after being sacked? I just feel absolute despair and need some kind words. :(
TL;DR: I got sacked and now I hate my new job. | 4 |
Why after drinking valerian i feel bad | Why after drinking valerian i feel bad and i start getting anxiety maybe it's somehow drive out of the body lingering anxiety? Or maybe it makes worse anxiety? | 3 |
Does anyone else have these symptoms? | Hey guys,
I'm a little panic-y today because I experienced some symptoms last night that I have rarely, but when, they make me super uncomfortable.
I wanted to sleep but my head didn't seem to stop thinking, but spinning thoughts faster instead. It was nothing bad, just a topic I had researched before about weather or not I want to buy a certain thing. And parallel to that one song and especially one line was playing in my head over and over again and in addition to that, my heart felt weird and I felt super nervous.
Does anyone else experience these symptoms? Are those typical anxiety symptoms or should I visit a neurologist etc? | 5 |
Duloxetine Increase | I'm increasing from 90mg to 120mg, what can I expect in terms of side effects/ know when it works ect ( I know this sounds naive but this is my 3rd lot of antidepressants so idk what I'm supposed to feel like when they work) | 4 |
I hope it is alright if I ramble here. Trigger warning just in case. | I feel like in my mental health journey, I am better than I used to be. A few months ago, I was in the hospital; it was a stressful but necessary experience. A part of me still feels embarrassed that I went there, and my family (only my father though) kinda making that experience difficult for me. I am taking medication and I have a counselor to talk to...I still don't feel comfortable talking about my mental health to my parents, especially my dad because I don't think he will understand no matter how I phrase it. I am still not where I want to be; I feel like I won't get there until I move out. I think the main source of my depression and anxiety is just living with my parents. Having serious discussions with my father most of the time stresses me out and it feels like I can't really say what I really think without making things worse. There's a lot he doesn't know about me, he knows that I have mental health issues and is semi-comfortable that I take medication and that I have a counselor. He does ask what we talk about, but I just give him a general answer. I know my dad loves me and I love him; I just don't think I can ever be comfortable around him when talking about these things. I can talk about surface level things, but that's it. I still get depressed and experience shitty anxiety, but I cannot tell him that without getting a lecture. So, I have to deal with it myself and just keep my head up.
I still find it hard to really think about the future. I don't think I have much of a future. I like to think I'll still be alive and I want to be, but I don't know what is in store for me. I feel like (so sorry that I'm saying that a lot) most of my decisions will revolve with what my father wants for me. I have an idea of what job I'd want, but with my degree I feel like I am making a mistake even though I love it. I'm a psychology major and I plan on only getting my bachelor's for now. I know that most psychology jobs require a master's; I just want a job that suits me, whether that's in the psychology field or not. I don't really talk about my major too much because it's because a pretty triggering topic. On top of that, I know my father doesn't like it.
Today my father took my brother out to help him with driving; I came along with them. My brother doesn't go out driving that much, so today he was a bit rusty. Whenever my brother made a mistake, my father borderline yelled at him and was very, very firm with him and obviously made my brother nervous. For the most part, my brother controlled himself. I know my father will be the same with me. I can probably hint to him to tone it down a little, but I have to control my emotions while he's doing that. Being around my father, I have learned how to hide what I truly feel and try to maintain myself. It can be hard, and when we break down, it just makes things worse.
I will be getting my permit soon, and I'll start practicing driving. I rather practice with my mom but she's not too comfortable with it. I don't like being along with my father or being close to him, but it's just something I have to deal with. I see it as a...challenge of course. It is just a challenge that won't last forever.
Anyway, I am still pretty nervous about my future and moving out when that time comes. It's mainly about what my father wants for me. I feel that I have to be what he wants me to be; if I go a different route, it'll go all wrong. I know I have to keep telling myself that I cannot control other people's emotions. It can be so hard as a people-pleaser and being raised in a sheltered environment. I rather not say how sheltered it is, but there is a lot I have to unlearn.
I'm scared that I'll never be ready for adulthood. I'll be 20 years old soon and I see that as a very strange thing. It is a good thing because a few months ago I did not think I would be alive; I wanted to die so much and wished to die in my sleep. It does feel weird to be getting older and stressful, but at least I can celebrate another birthday.
Whoever's reading this, thanks I guess. I don't expect any responses; I just wanted to get this out there. I don't talk too much about my life anymore because it is embarrassing. I know not a lot of people are in the same situation. Hopefully I am not sounding whiny, bitchy, or childish. I know my father wants the best for me and wants to help guide me through life...I hate that he is a source of my mental health issues though. | 3 |
How can I️ help her | My sister’s school is screwing here left and right. And now she doesn’t know how she can pay for her summer classes. Has to be out of pocket and my family can’t afford it. I️ am trying to look into so many things to help her but I️ can’t and she’s scared and depressed and I’m scared Shell give up. I️ don’t know what to do. I️ love her so much and am so proud of her. I️ want to give her everything but I️ don’t know how. Does anyone have any ideas and what to do? Please! | 2 |
Feeling normal on Wellbutrin but getting tics. Not sure if I have ADHD. Looking into other options | Hi. I am 31yo male. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and social anxiety. I was always prescribed SSRI's, although it worked great for irritability, anger and depression, it did not help with social anxiety, made me very numb, sedated, careless and unmotivated, even with half of the lowest dose. So I stopped taking then after a few months each time. I felt better without SSRI's but depression and irritability kept coming back, I had daily fatigue as well, no matter if I'm on SSRI's or not.
I went to another provider who suggested that I try Wellbutrin just to see how it works on me, which I am taking only a week now. He also prescribed 25mg Zoloft (lowest dose available). I felt Wellbutrin the first day I took it. I got a lot of energy and felt like myself again. It gets better every day. I sleep well and wake up fresh even with 6h sleep, where I had extreme issues with waking up even after 10h sleep. I feel like my mind is clear and I don't have the brain fog anymore. The only side effect that I experienced the first 3 days was sore musles, leg cramps and back pain, but it stopped suddenly.
However, since I started taking it, my body started showing some anxiety issues such as tics (shaking legs, clearing throat, moving fingers, blinking). I had these before when I was a child during a stressful time but it stopped, then I just had these occasionally and was able to control it. It got worse on Wellbutrin. It really makes me sad since my mental is doing great on it.
Just to add, I think I also have undiagnosed Inattentive ADHD. The only sympton that doesn't match is overlooking details, because I am very detail oriented and always pay close attention to details, noticing any change. I am also a perfectionist and don't do thing spontaneously without overthinking them and checking a lot of different sources before doing something, I feel like I need to know it all. At childhood, I was a very shy and stressed out kid, in early school I spent most time with teachers or alone, not having too many friends. It changed in middle school when I became very outgoing with my friends around. Although, I've never came to the board or any public speech, I avoided these at every occasion. I consider myself to be an introvert, changing into an extravert when alcohol is involved, thats why I cannot have fun without getting buzzed when going out.
Now, I still avoid these, I do not speak out when more then 1 or 2 people can hear me, overthink before saying anything, speak too fast when stressed and too slow when not stressed, am always late etc. To add, I bite my nails excessively for over 20 years, cannot control it, if that matters. It seems that I've got symptoms of ADHD and anxiety + depression together.
Wellbutrin really does help with getting myself together and functioning normally. I am not feeling stimulating, euphoric or energized, I just feel normal, without getting fatigued or brain fog. Only thing is that I feel like my body needs to be in move all the time, which is showing as tics. I would love to get more energized and motivated to surpass how I feel normally (when not depressed), without having tics.
Here some of the symptoms which I am struggling with:
- Depression: feeling sad and empty, no pleasure, oversleeping, fatigue, irritability, slow thinking
- Anxiety: overthinking, worrying too much, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, low self esteem, oversweating
- Social anxiety: mind going blank when too much attention on me, sweating, panic attacks when someone bothers me with too many questions, unavailable to give public speech, anxious about answering a phone call, fear of humiliation, having hard time talking to people I that I not very close to me, hard to make eye contact or relax when talking with someone
OCD (undiagnosed): avoid risks, fear of making mistake, perfectionism, overthinking, attention to small details, rechecking, need of googling everything I hear but don't know the answer
Inattentive ADHD (undiagnosed): losing stuff, forgetful, turning mind off, easily sidetracked, trouble organizing, trouble staying on topic, indecision, shy, starting new projects and not completing them, feeling of needing to do something new, clumsiness, always late, nervous tics, unable to work without having another stimulant such as music or listening to podcasts
TLDR: Having depression, anxiety, social anxiety. I think I also have inattentive ADHD and OCD. All SSRI's made me sedated and unmotivated. Was prescribed Wellbutrin SR 150mg to test it out along with Zoloft 25mg. Feeling very good, mind is fresh, no depression or negative thoughts. I am however getting tics and feel like my body needs to move. Had tics as a child for around a year or two, it stopped, just had some of these on some occasions but it was controlable.
- Has anyone experienced increased ticking? Did it go away?
- Do you think I should try Adderall or Vyvanse instead of Wellbutrin?
- Do you think I might have inattentive ADHD? | 3 |
Celexa 30mg | Hi All!
I started taking 30 mg of celexa last week, (don’t worry, I started at 10) and I feel so out of it. Like I’m not actually awake, no appetite, I’ve lost 10 lbs, on edge constantly, feel like I’m not actually on earth????? Anyone experience this? Does it get better!? I have had some terrible intrusive thoughts as well, and obsessive thoughts which I never really had before. Just haven’t felt like myself since 20mg. | 5 |
How to reduce stress | ERROR: type should be string, got "\n\nhttps://www.henryford.com/blog/2020/05/how-to-lower-your-cortisol-levels" | 3 |
Another little Vent | Thinking a lot about everything like more than ever I’m questioning myself as an mom and I know I shouldn’t be. I just want my kids to see there mom being treated well because being disrespected in front of your own kids isn’t okay.. i explained how I felt about many things and I don’t be heard.. like I’m an great women but if you can’t see what your doing is wrong then idk what to say anymore.. like I get it tough love but being an asshole isn’t okay.. | 3 |
I’m a horrible person and I deserve to die… | I wish I could say otherwise but I can’t. Because what I say is true. I can’t be trusted because I can’t do anything right. And I deserve to be cut off from society, never to go into the outside world ever again.
I am nothing but a thief to my family, because I can’t get a job since I’m blacklisted from the workforce. I’m a disgrace to myself because of that. I just want my life to be over, because it’s just too painful to live with natural born depression and anxiety.
There really is nothing left for me anymore, and the only way I can pay my debt to my parents is by either never leaving the house or dying. There is truly no hope for me.
Should this be my goodbye? Because I truly am a horrible person and I deserve to die… | 8 |
Proud of myself :) Take the wins! | I've been seeing a counsellor for a few weeks for anxiety and depression triggered by recent events.
This past week though I've been experiencing flashbacks to a domestic violence relationship I experienced 20 years ago. I have never spoken to anyone about it, ever. I am livid it's surfaced now just as I was getting a handle on everything, but it makes sense in some ways. It's been really hard to deal with, I can't stop thinking about it.
Rather than deny everything and continue to ignore it which is my usual tactic, I told my therapist - told him I needed to discuss it because I couldn't stop the thoughts, but I couldn't find the words. So we arranged for me to email him and we'd discuss it next session. I've drafted the email and will send it when I'm ready.
I've spent the past week dreading today's session and trying to work out how to cancel it (which I also told him and he laughed which made me smile). So I'm super-proud that A) I went to today's session, B) I'm preparing to discuss something that I never thought I would be able to, and C) I'm still in one piece. Take the wins lol. :) | 2 |
How to deal with Anxiety | null | 4 |
Ativan and alternatives? | null | 3 |
Can no longer function like I use too | null | 3 |
So sick of this | I've been struggling with a really bad round of depression since November. It has gotten to the point of Uncontrollable crying fits while work due to anxiety from a long distance relationship (anxious attachment style) til August... No meds for depression due to my insurance denying everything.... I'm feeling hopeless and alone. No friends or family around and I am a single mother of 2 working full time.... I'm so... sad 😔 | 7 |
I feel so defeated | I just turned 21 years old on April 8. My mother died on April 15 after having a severe stroke on my birthday. Im currently in recovery from a necessary surgery while still trying to pay off my bills from a surgery i had in December. I also have a car payment that im barely making each month because i dont earn enough at my current job. I know i need to find a better paying job but i feel like the only path i can see for myself is getting an unfulfilling job at some factory in town. The idea of that terrifies me because I’m afraid ill just get stuck there and live my whole life doing something i hate just to make ends meet. The more i think about my future, the less i actually want to see it through. | 4 |
idk if I'm the only one like this TW: Mention of Binge Eating | does anyone else have days when bingeing is just too much and only eat the bare minimum? idk if this is the start of a depressive episode or not or whether I've realised how much damage I'm doing to the scales / my reflection | 3 |
Does your birthday also make you sad? | It’s not the aging… it’s just that no one really tried to do anything for me. My sister did. She tried to get us together but then my brother ruined it by picking on me and saying horrible stuff until I cried and sat alone the rest of the night.
I’m convinced my birthday is bad luck. Every year without fail something happens the day before or on my birthday that ruins it and then everyone moves on until next year when it happens again. Last year was okay.. at least we got together officially and no one was mean to me. That was lucky. This year nah… I thought 25 was special. Idk. Just venting. I’m an adult I don’t expect balloons and presents. Just wanted to do something fun. | 7 |
NEED MORAL SUPPORT | null | 3 |
Extreme lower back, butt and leg pain since started Wellbutrin | Hello. I'm a 31yo male. I am currently taking Zoloft 25mg and started Wellbutrin SR 150mg - 3 days ago. I finally feel normal since I went on Wellbutrin. However, not sure if it's a coincidence or it's caused by Wellbutrin, but since I started taking it I was feeling back, butt and leg pain.
First night the pain was concentrated in the lower parts of the legs - mostly calves. Then during the day it moved more towards the thighs. This night I am not sleeping at all due to extreme lower back pain which is radiating to the butt and whole legs. It hurts the whole time, no matter what position I am in. It is a radiating and pulsating pain. I would not be able to tell where exactly is it centralized, around tailbone.
I am not sure if it is caused by Wellbutrin or it is a coincidence that it started when I took the first dose. If so, should I take a painkiller and try to wait it out or should I stop the medication?
I would appreciate your help! | 1 |
Suspicions of a friend - requesting advice | I’ve been friends with someone for 5 years. We met at work and spoke everyday for 3 years. After 3 years at the job we both quit and went to work at different companies. However we stayed in touch for another 2 years. Last summer he was unresponsive to my text messages for about a week so i called him. He answered and apologized for not responding but acknowledged he was feeling depressed and found it difficult to speak with people. At the time I suggested therapy to him but I don’t think he pursued it. Since then we spoke on and off over the next 8ish months and out of nowhere he ghosted me. I’ve been texting him and trying to call him since March, but no answer whatsoever. My last text to him asked if i did something to upset him and i value our friendship so i hope he’ll respond. At this point, i think his depression is hitting hard rather than he’s mad at me over something. Is there anything i could do to coax a response from him? Or would he reach out in time once he finds a way through his issues? | 1 |
Sad. | I had a lovely time with no SI for like a week. However, here I am again crying in bed wondering why I’m even still here. I am so tired. I’m exhausted. I grew up abused. I’ve lived my entire life in survival mode. When I finally started living a soft life the rug was ripped from under me and now I’m free falling. I’m trying to convince myself that living in survival mode is better than death. However, I’m just so fucking tired. I’m tired of chasing something that I am not realizing is unobtainable. I was not meant to live a soft life. I was born and forced to survive. It’s never going to change. So the question is do I want to keep fighting when it’s a losing battle? | 3 |
Any alternative or unique anxiety/depression treatments other than TMS and ketamine? | Hi! I have done talk therapy and tried multiple different medications. I have tried TMS for a few days but it has not been pleasant. Started reading about ketamine infusions. I want to make sure I know *all* my options. Any other unique treatments for anxiety and depression?
Edit: legal treatments please | 2 |
How do I know if I have experienced mild T r a u m a? | Sighs, why does NO ONE ON HERE REPLY?
I just simply wanted outsiders perspective on whether or not, you think I have experienced mild trauma!?
I used to work in a toxic work environment and that put me off trying any other job ever since, so I stayed in the family business because of this!! .
I have now put myself out there into some farm work with these new people and I am nervous and get obsessive thoughts , such as feeling scared to make a fool of myself, be too slow or do things back to front | 1 |
Question for those living with chronic mental illness: do you identify as disabled (due to your mental illness(es)? | I (47f) have lived with chronic recurrent treatment-resistant Major Depressive Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Borderline Personality Disorder for most of my life. I have been able to work full-time for years at time, but there have also been periods of time (1 to 5 years each) where I have been unable to work due to the severity of my mental illnesses. I'm currently on disability, and it's unknown if I'll be able to recover enough to go back to work. I've been asked (by caseworkers who are looking for services to connect me with) if I identify as disabled. It's not a label I've ever considered applying to myself. Wondering how other people with similar mental illnesses feel about it for themselves? | 12 |
Hi! | Hi there,
I am 44 years old female from Poland. Socially akward Highly Sensitive Person (HSP), INTJ-T personality with an anxiety disorder. I love the most nature, especially nature photography, cats and gardening. I need somebody positive and energetic to help me to get back on the right track in life. I struggle with an emotional eating and got isolated from people for a couple of years. I would like to chat with a nice person first, then maybe call somebody (male, female) once per week via Messenger, Instagram or Signal. If you feel that we have a common ground together, drop me a PM. All the best! | 3 |
How can I help push someone towards wanting to feel better? | Hello,
I’m a male who’s been in a relationship for over two years now. I love my girlfriend more than the stars to pass through the universe. She truly is who I plan on spending my life with and thinking about our future brings me so much joy. She has been very transparent that she suffers with depression and is a very anxious person. More recently she has become worried she is suffering from borderline personality disorder. These afflictions can be truly damning and I honestly wish I could take the negative thoughts right from her so she can live a peaceful life. Frankly very recently her anxiety and overall negative thoughts have become so bad and I feel as though I’m running out of options to help reassure, comfort, and quell these thoughts. Specific examples can vary from her worried about me going out for a drink with friends to her convincing herself my family dislikes her even after my brother (who truly is a big fan of her) will ask us to join him for an event or day out. Unfortunately I’ve noticed this anxiety stretching into our disagreements and that any view I may have that she doesn’t entirely agree with she sees as purely malicious and that I am simply out to get our relationship. I’d like to be a better partner for my girlfriend but I don’t know how to get past certain barriers. It can feel restricting and almost purposely damaging to our relationship when wild assumptions are made and there is no leeway to discuss or explain. As far as the actual happiness of hers, any suggestions I may have from simple ones like more water or sunlight or bigger things like going to the gym daily (I’ve suggested us both going) or meditating have all been met with zero acceptance or willingness to try. I find the response is usually “I’ve tried that years ago” or “my brain is to fucked up I can’t.” I can be misremembering but I don’t honestly remember an instance she took or even considered any of the advice or suggestions I had. I simply don’t know how to be more supportive or help push her towards wanting to be happier | 2 |
follow up from things feeling like they will get better post 2 days ago | Me and my Fiance ( if I can still call him that idk if we're still together ) ended up having a really bad argument and things got physical, he was pushing me across a hallway so I bit him in defence as he is a lot bigger than me and used that to his advantage. we had both been drinking but he won't admit to himself that he Has an alcohol dependency, he is drinking a bottle of 6 pack of beer and tonight he drank a 70cl bottle of vodka and 5 pints, I was very concerned about him and lost my shit because he had spent all his wages on booze and kept assuming that I was causing issues infont of his friends.
long story short I think I may have damaged my wrist in an act of self harm / desperation to get him to open the door so that I could try and talk to him. his entire family are now involved including his aunt and he has been saying that I am violent towards him when all I have done is thrown my phone in his direction and yes admittedly I did slap him as he accused me of cheating/ sleeping with someone 30 years older than me when all that bloke did was convince me to go back to his and admit he wanted to fuck me
Zak is the first person to ever take me seriously when it comes to relationships and does mean everything to me, he is the only reason to keep pushing through that I have, o can't loose him | 3 |
Weight loss after coming off lexapro, peristalsis issue, low strenftb | I can manage my anxiety but my appetite has gone down after coming off it and also due to summer.
I am underweight.
Cannot eat much. Digestive power is low. Low energy.
Difficult times.
Also face gi issues after stopping this drug.
Probably should just start it back | 1 |
Struggling | I never do these, but I have really terrible health anxiety - to the point where now I avoid going to the doctor because I'm always scared I'm terminally ill (I've never had terminal illness, but my mother had cancer and a stroke due to a lifestyle of drug abuse). Every minor symptom I have, I google, and find a reason why it's a major issue (I.e. headaches = brain tumor). This is effecting my entire life. I almost sometimes think my brain even starts to manifest the symptoms I google. I don't enjoy anything anymore. I'm never mentally present. I cry every single day & spend most days in a quiet state of panic. I feel like I'm burdening my husband & am not the mother my children deserve. Therapy helped for awhile, but eventually it wasn't helping. I'm scared to go on meds & just feel so alone. Has anyone else experienced this? Does anyone have any suggestions or advice? | 3 |
How long does anxiety symptoms last? | null | 2 |
Terrified of meds can’t see a therapist | I was on various anti-depressants for about 15 years with limited success but definitely better than compared to now with no meds. I went off a few months ago because I lost access to my doctor and refills. My wife is incredibly abusive and controlling (also suffering from a variety of psych issues which she won’t recognize or get help for- everything is only my fault) and won’t let me see a therapist but she is ok with a psych for meds. Because of her, I’ve lost the very few friends and family I once had, I’m totally alone, have VERY limited funds, and have nowhere to go to get away from the daily abuse. I’m also suffering from debilitating anxiety, between work and home I’m in constant fear. I’m terrified to get back on meds that I again have access to, that as a result I’ll start to make even worse decisions than I’m making without them. I’m also terrified of losing access to meds again (because of insurance and/or her not liking how they effect my behavior and dumping them), the horrible withdrawal that severely impacted me for many weeks when I went off before. I just don’t know what to do, I have so many things working against me and nobody to help me. As I write this I don’t even know what I’m asking for praying for. | 3 |
Generalized anxiety disorder | Hello, I’m new here.
Just wanted to know if it is possible for a person to experience anxiety for no reason at all,because I have felt like this for a long time. | 5 |
Scared and anxious to take any role as I feel like a total misfit and being inadequate. | I had my fair share of success and failures in my education and career, eventually me having a mixed experience in various roles. This has put me in a scenario where I feel completely inadequate and as a misfit , and not even sure what do with my career. I have been applying to various jobs but those I felt were fitting me as per my profile has faced only rejections. I don't have any mentors, or colleagues or friends who can recommend me either. Once in a bluemoon when someone gets in touch I have this enormous doubt and anxiety whether I will be able to do the job, and for being ignorant. How should I solve this and lead a normal life, since I have already lost many years due to this and depression. | 9 |
Anyone have any advice on living with crippling anxiety everyday, I’m on 300mg Vensir and propranolol 180mg a day | null | 1 |
Ex is a child predator | Brief back story: I was in a relationship with this guy for about four years from like 2008-2012. It was a couple years after I graduated from high school and he was only a year older than me. Fast forward and we lived in two different places together, had cats together, friends, he flew to go meet my family with me, like we had a whole life, just short of marriage. Eventually almost five years in after a lot of drama irrelevant to the post, I broke it off and he moved back north and I temporarily moved in with my dad.
After all these years after that past life and all, today I got a random message on FB from one of our mutual friends that I’ll still comment back and forth to (nice dude) and he asked me “have you talked to __ lately?” and I was like “Nah we don’t talk ever.. is he alright?” and my friend said “No he’s in a lot of trouble. I don’t even wanna type it out” and he just sent me a link to a news site from his home city… he was arrested for child molestation and could face up to 14 years in prison.
I feel so many things.. like I shared a bed with him, for YEARS! I almost feel guilty by association, but at the same time I think “oh man he’s not gonna last in prison” being a kid freak and all. Idk it’s a lot to process. | 7 |
Tough Days | I'm not exactly sure if this warrants a trigger warning, but I figured it's best to be safe.
Rejection is a normal part of life. Lately, I feel like I'm getting more than my usual share. Been rejected by romantic prospects, work colleagues, and now by a FB group for anxiety and depression, of all places. For posting a meditation video of Tina Turner chanting?
Normally, I'm fine with it. But right now, it's all piled up and I feel lonely and defective. Unloved. It's a lot happening in my life right now. 😥 Thank you for listening. | 3 |
I’m obsessed with anxiety and depression | Edit: my brain likes to be anxious and depressed, even if it hurts, even if I want to stop
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I’m obsessed. About how & why I have it, how to get rid of it. How it feels.
I’m on medication, go to talk therapy, and I’m just a mess.
I feel like I’m only hurting myself
I know that we never truly know what’s going on in an individual’s interior life but —
People who truly seem so content with their lives, who manage hardships well — I wonder how they are able to navigate and go through life and bounce back so well
What is it like to live without anxiety and depression?
I can seem to spot someone who has anxiety/depression
So I think about how transparent my insecurities are.
Anyway, I’m tired. And homesick for a happy life I’m sure I’ve had before
Because it hurts so much I just want to disappear now | 11 |
Not hungry at all. Too much stress. | I’ve been through hell and back this month for various reasons. I don’t feel welcome where I live. Temporarily living with the boyfriends parents and it’s increasing stressful and crushing me spirit.
They helped us move across the state. 9 hrs of driving. They took all my stuff and started yeeting it into boxes so now I can’t find stuff I need like clothes… and the mother is extremely controlling and nagging. I’ve been struggling to find a job. It’s been a month and I was also trying to save a baby chick.. didn’t work so that broke me pretty bad. The mother keeps nagging my boyfriend about me getting a job despite it being none of her business and she got her freaking money for rent so idk what he issue is with me. I feel like I’m unwanted here yet they invited us to stay with them until we got our own place. I’ve applied to multiple places just waiting. Couldn’t get a job right away due to many circumstances…
I don’t feel welcome here so I avoid the kitchen when there’s other people around and I feel awkward cause it doesn’t feel like home. I eat basically nothing as I’m super stressed and feel sick and don’t feel like it’s even my food despite me paying to be able to partake. I’m gonna get like a mini fridge and my own snacks for survival. Any tips on what to eat when you’re so stressed and sad that you can’t even cook? | 3 |
Anyone with weird eye issues with focusing. Like my eyes can’t focus too long at the moon. Starts. Car plates. Dots. Just started happening. | I was just at the eye doctor today by a Retina specialist because I have floters so they keep an eye on it every 2 years. I'm wearing contacts at the moment and all this just started happening not even a hour ago. For a example. I can't look at a dot for too long or it just seems like it moves out of my sight. Far away objects like car plates same thing. Even staring at the phone messages kinda does it. Not sure what's going on..it started out of nowhere. Not sure if my eyes are tired. I’m not tired. This is with and without contacts. No blurry vision. No idea what’s going on. | 1 |
Quiet mind giving me anxiety? | I started an ADHD medication today and now my mind is so quiet. Like, suspiciously quiet! I've lived with racing and intrusive thoughts for 15 years now so it's foreign to me having silence in my head lol. I'm not sure how to deal with it and when I face something that isn't familiar to me, I feel anxious about it. Any advice on how to deal with this? Has anyone else experienced something similar? | 8 |
Pregabalin + Olanzapine + Fluoxetine ?? | I just left my psychiatrist's office ( the first time visiting her) and was prescribed these 3 meds to treat depression and anxiety. I haven't taken any of them yet and was wondering what to expect from this combination. I will be on 75mg of Pregabalin, 20mg of Fluoxetine and 2.5 mg of Olanzapine a day. If you are on this combination of meds or know about it your experiences would be appreciated.
\- Also if there are more appropriate subreddits for me to post about this in, please let me know. | 6 |
I hate the night time | I can get through the day. It's bright and sunny these days so it's easy to feel ok. I keep occupied enough. The time goes by fairly painlessly. Then it starts getting late. And then it starts getting dark. And I feel like I'm the only person in the world who is alive. My mind goes into overdrive, my loneliness grows, my anxiety and paranoia take over, and I have to literally exhaust my brain before I'm able to sleep. I really wish this would get better. But I'm not feeling hopeful | 2 |
been on seroquel 2 weeks already on mirtazapine and pregabalin still not sleeping well my other option is trazadone or lorazepam which i know you can only take short term. i feel like i have no future ahead of me with my anxiety and insomnia | null | 6 |
super hot day today. was anxious all day long | All day Long I was very anxious. When I rested I felt better.
I ate very small meals 3 throughout the day. My digestion seemed very sluggish
Then I had buttermilk 2 times over 4 hours with some sugar. It made me feel a little bit better.
Then I took some acv . Took a cold water bath and suddenly I felt much better .
Now I feel better after small dinner | 3 |
Medication can't change your living situation 😭 | I have BPD among several other things. This has made me feel extremely empty, bored and anhedonic. I do not know if I have the capacity or ability to be content, happy, and at peace in my life and within myself. No matter where I live, who I'm with, what I do, where I go or what medications I take.
I have been on 8 different antidepressants, a mood stabiliser, a stimulant, an antipsychotic and several benzos since January 2013. Nothing has helped apart from some of the benzos.
My other issues are chronic anxiety, CPTSD, Avoidant Personality Disorder and OCD. And depression, in which the anhedonia is the absolute worst aspect.
I am not happy with my living situation. I have NO personal space and NO time alone to myself, of which I have always needed a LOT. I cannot control this situation. It's been over 3 years and partially over 5 years. I can't afford to change this. So I continue to feel like...this.
Obviously I will never find a medication that will change it. I sometimes wonder, even if some miracle medication could actually help me feel better...HOW? I'd still have no space, no time alone. Even if I actually WANTED to get out of bed before 4pm, what would I do? I literally can't do anything due to never being alone. | 3 |
Started writing this Sunday | I can’t appreciate the beauty even when I know it’s there. A shadow colors my world. I wonder if I will ever enjoy the feeling of the breeze against my skin or will it just make me want to hide inside of my self. Will I ever genuinely smile and feel happy while doing it? It takes everything in me to smile back at my precious son that I love more than anything. I am screaming on the inside. I need somebody! Anybody! I didn’t choose to be depressed or anxious. Fuck “choose happiness”! It’s not that fucking easy! | 2 |
Summertime sadness, anyone? | It’s just what it sounds like. Every summer, without fail, I just go down the hill.
Does this happen to anybody else? I feel like I’m the only one who has this problem. | 26 |
Struggling with burnout-induced depression and heavily traumatized by work. What should I do? | Hi all! I've actually posted here before, but there has been a couple of updates, and now using a throwaway account and I've been feeling a lot worse these couple of days, so would appreciate any advice!
Basically, I'm an entrepreneur, and after a couple of years of burnout, my condition has significantly worsened two months ago, and I've been diagnosed with moderate to severe clinical depression. I've been having an indescribable feeling of sorrow, anxiety, apathy, helplessness and emptiness; in the first week of the whole episode, it was even hard to get out of my bed. For the past two months, whenever worked (or even just thinking about work), I would experience immense anxiety, fear and (sometimes) anger, as well as physical symptoms, such as massive headache, body tremors, and faster heart beats (and one time, almost hyperventilating). As a result, I've not been productive at work and in every sense of the word, dreaded it.
I've been taking some time off work, been in therapy and implemented new habits (living healthier, through exercise, diets, sleep, meditation), but recovery has not been linear (some days are better, some days are worse), and the anxiety and fear around work remains. The trauma around anything remotely related to work is real -- I still can't open/reply email, or think of anything/anyone around work at all -- all of these give me tremendous fear and anxiety. I've been totally offline for the better part of the last couple of weeks, but got an urgent update that a commercial deal we had been working on had fallen through, and it may have dire business consequences. It's hugely upsetting because I had hoped that the company (my business partner and the rest of the team) should be able to take care of these things without me, and it doesn't seem to be that way. Things at work are obviously worse now, and I won't be able to go back to work peacefully.
Right now, I'm just feeling a whole range of emotions -- sadness, anxiety, fear, helplessness, emptiness, anger and resentment. Maybe it's the depression speaking, but I've been thinking -- I've dedicated so much of my time, effort and personal resources into the company, and it seems that no one in the team (including my business partner) was as committed as me. At this moment, I want to prioritize healing, and even then, I'm not able to fully relax and recover. A part of me want to just abandon everything and focus on healing, but I'm too sad and anxious to even do anything remotely related to work.
Apologies for the long post, but I've been feeling so sad and lonely, and advice of what you would do, would be hugely appreciated! | 2 |
Buspar increasing panic attacks? | Hello all!
I recently started Buspar for GAD and as of today I’ve been on 15mg x2/day for 3 weeks.
(For transparency, I am also taking Wellbutrin 300mg.)
Before starting Buspar, I would have panic attacks maybe once every 2 months and my sleep schedule was very normal (7-8hrs straight every night).
Since starting the new medication I am now having attacks almost every night and I am no longer sleeping normally. What was once general anxiety over things is now full blown panic, even small things like parking my car have become an issue!
Has anyone else had this experience while starting Buspar? If so, did it get better? | 3 |
E-motion documentary film. | Hi everyone. Just thought I’d let you know about a documentary called e-motion, if you have the opportunity to watch it, I would really recommend it. It is very insightful, grounded in scientific research and I personally found it eye opening. | 3 |
Anxiety, depression & work | For 10 years now (i’m 24M currently) i have struggled with depression and anxiety, it has gotten steadily worse as i’ve gotten older, i even went to therapy for a long time, but it didn’t work for me.
I work as an electrician and i find that i spend a lot of energy on the job, socializing with customers and collueges etcetc. Most times i have to force myself to get the job done and make it through the whole day. Once i get home i just fall asleep because i have no energy left.
My question is: is it ethical to call in sick because of depression and anxiety if it affect my work negatively? Today i made a lot of mistakes because my brain is too exhausted to focus properly.. which could endanger me and others due some risks involved with electrical work.. | 3 |
Not feeling good | I suffer from this feeling, everything is mess, I don’t see myself in anything, not the college, not the friends or even family, I don’t want to spread all my negativity, but I really need one minute just one minute to take one breath, i need the time to stop for one minute, I feel like i’m dead inside my body, this is soul living inside me doesn’t look like me, I start month ago seeing therapist he recommended to take medication, but all feelings become stronger and i getting worse everyday, will i become better ? Will i become myself back like I used before? | 1 |
Crazy not everyone wants to "Off There Selfs?" Can you even get more depressed then this? I'm 19. | I'm at the point of depression and have been for several years where everyone and everything is ugly. Friendships seem pointless, don't know if I'll ever love again. And so much more. Not here to throw a pity party, and it doesn't really effect my work ethic much I still work through all the suffering etc, but it'd be nice to not feel "sewer slidal" every second of everyday. About 2 months ago I posted to Reddit about how I have migraines everyday and all my other symptoms and I was gonna off my self in about a few days, someone reached out and offered to pay for an amtrack ticket from minnesota all the way to Seattle WA. So of course I took them up on that offer! They turned out to be very nice people helping me everydsy inch towards better health etc. but I just feel like even with better health it just won't matter. Cars are just cars. Money is just paper. People are just people. I can't do anything or say anything or listen to anyone or anything without thinking about "sewer slide" I have some of the worlds worst anxiety and I've been depressed since age 7 to now 19 years old. Weed was the only thing that made me see the world for what it is, and it increases seratonin and makes my pain a whole lot worse so I quit smoking, microdosing mushrooms helped a lot aswell but made my already bad fatigue a whole lot worse, and made pain more noticeable. How do I get out of this never ending loop of cripplining depression. I don't wanna go to in depth because I HATE pitty parties but seriously. I've been through every stage of depression in my life and it just sucks. I wanna say I've been passively sewer slidal for about 3-4 years straight now, everyday. All day. Before that it was a thought that would come and go. But now I can't even retain an attention span because I'm just constantly planning well you know. I don't know if you can get anymore depressed then this. I'm very grateful but I was grown up in an abusive household, my family broke my spine and cut several scars into my head, and caused me daily headaches and migraines for the past 4-5 years now. Please help me. Everything is boring, and it doesn't seem like money would change anything. Help.
New: I'm detoxing from long term black mold exposure soon and hopefully getting an epidermal patch for my CSF leak in the C3.
[CSF Leak, Scars, And Skull Injuries.](https://imgur.com/a/bZje4UT) | 1 |
For once things feel as if they may get better | laid here with my fiance and his very cuddly cat and for once I can try and fall asleep without my mind clouded by negative thoughts, I feel as if things may be brighter,it's nice to have a glimmer of hope for once | 15 |
How old are you and who helps you the most? | Do you live alone? | 6 |
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