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Lacking Purpose (TW)
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TW for suicidal ideation. I 100% understand if my post gets deleted. I'm posting this to anywhere I think I can find somebody, ANYbody who could give me some semblance of advice.
I'm a 24yo American male and I'm completely lacking in motivation and purpose.
I've always been a lonely and mentally ill person. Anxiety, depression, suicidal, etc. I feel very little positivity and joy. I lack the motivation for self-improvement and self-reliance.
Ever since my youth, I've never been much good at making friends. Was never a very social or motivated kid. I've seen it said many times that charisma and having connections are essential to success in life. I severly lack social skills/people skills and fear that this has crippled my ability to live a well-off life.
I suffered a mental/emotional breakdown in 7th grade due to the stress of the workload. I got diagnosed with Asperger's and spent proceeded to spend most of my time in the special needs classroom. I've suffered several breakdowns throughout my years as a middle and high school student. Lots of banging on walls, lots of crying, lots of screaming, etc. I was the stereotypical "psycho", the quiet loner kid with no friends and no social skills. I dropped out of several high-demand classes and clubs as a result of never being able to handle the workload/responsibility (APUSH, robotics, Beta Club, National Honor Society, etc.). I never took the SATs or anything like that. I feel horrifically ashamed and guilty and useless and worthless because I could never make it in these classes/clubs. It's resulted in me feeling constantly suicidal to this day due to never living up to my own hefty expectations of myself.
In 10th grade, I confessed how sad and angry and suicidal I am to a guidance counselor and it landed me a week in a juvenile mental facility. I wasn't allowed to return to school for half a year after that. I totally screwed myself even further. Shoulda just kept my mouth shut.
I'm still living with my parents and am totally dependent on them for everything. I never learned how to do all the things kids are supposed to learn. How to make friends, how to swim, ride a bike, etc. I'm 24 and I don't know how to drive! And as an adult, I know diddly-squat about insurance, homeowning, taxes, etc., or any other important adult stuff. I've been working part-time as a dishwasher at Cracker Barrel for the past 8 years, less than 20 hours every week. I still rely on my parents and grandparents to get me to and from work. I feel like such a massive burden and have attempted to take my own life multiple times.
Sis got accepted into college recently. She's absolutely amazing, an extremely talented and intelligent young woman. An artist, musician, writer, etc. Recently, I overheard Dad telling her how great she is while talking trash about me behind my back. Said I'll always be dependent on him and Ma. He's sick of it and moving out in September. I'm absolutely terrified of what'll happen to us once he goes.
I confided in Sis about what I heard and she told me she wanted to yell at Dad and tell him to shut up right then and there. That a parent should never talk like that about their child. She offered to help me learn how to drive and she offered to help me apply for college. But I'm so genuinely terrifed that I'll crash and burn in college (see my previous academic history of stress and mental breakdowns). I'm so, so, so genuinely scared outta my mind that I'll never make it. That I'll never amount to anything, so why bother accumulating debt if I'm probably just gonna drop out like I always do?
I've become hyper-fixated on the concept of euthanasia. Death with dignity, the right to die, etc. This suffering is just too much to bear. I'm so sick of myself. I wish I was normal. I wish I wasn't so emotional and outbursty. I wish I wasn't so socially inept and helpless. I wish I leaned how to swim and how to bike and how to drive when I was a kid. I wish I knew how to be responsible and own my own place and do taxes. I'm the type of person who needs firm directions from others in order to achieve some semblance of function. Can anybody give me direct and concise orders on what to do next? I can't do this alone...
I apologize if all this comes off as whining and complaining, I'm just so very sick and tired of myself. Seriously, what should I do? What CAN I do?
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My mental breakdown is lasting longer than usual.
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See, usually when I have a breakdown it lasts maybe 3-6 hours while I'm alone in my room. However I've been off the deep end for about 10 days now and I'm barely in control of my emotions so please tell me how to make it stop. I have work.
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Alone
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Wish i was just normal.. bills coming out no money because I haven’t been able to work no family to help don’t know what to do just got on meds for anxiety and depression because it’s gotten so bad but the side effects of starting this med is hell and I have no one and I’m so alone… I have no one to talk to
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5 htp, magnesium, and ashwaganda together for anxiety?
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Hello, so I’m currently on my 6th day of sobriety from THC, mostly concentrates. I used thc chronically for 9 years and last week finally felt the need to take a good long break, and hopefully in the future I can have a more helpful, healthy relationship with marijuana. Anyway, I stopped because I feel it’s what caused my generalized anxiety disorder. I’ve made progress in the last 6 days for sure, chest doesn’t really get tight, I’ve been doing breathing exercises to remind myself I’m okay when I feel my throat is tight or I’m not getting enough oxygen. It’s definitely been back and forth, and I know that’s what’s expected due to how much I abused this substance. Just trying to keep the thoughts positive and let time pass, if anyone has advice on that please lmk. With that I bought a 2-1 supplement Magnesium and Ashwaganda for calmness and I’ve been taking that. Today I discovered 5 htp and plan on taking 100mg in the morning and 200mg at night. My question is mixing those 3 things safe? Or should I just take the 5 htp alone? Also if anyone has also went through thc withdrawal like me and has any advice please feel free to share. I can tell each day I’m getting better, and I’m excited to hit the 7 day mark tomorrow, but I know this is a long process to complete normalcy.
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I wish I could just disappear
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How do I stop teeth grinding ?
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Does anyone have any experience with bye bye panic group. We’re they helpful in changing your panic?
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Sometimes I just go insane
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I just feel chaotic af I've extreme energy I grind my teeth so badly till they start to hurt and have headaches due to this I feel intense emotions that I can't explain then I feel bad
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Hello does anyone else has this?
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I get these times during the night or day where I am either alone or disassociating around people and I both feel like crap and anxious asf, like feeling like everything should just time stop and at the same time worried about everyone around me in a overstimulated way?
Example is me right now at night worried about texting anyone at all or doing anything because anything can trigger a panic attack but I need to say something because my mind is at edge but I can’t text anyone or else I’ll become a bother or annoying
It’s really weird how like I feel depressed in bed and need to reach out but am anxious to do anything lol. And does anyone know what to do about it?
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just Had a mini panic situation due to heat exhaustion
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Already due to heat , food intake is low.
Went for a small walk. Came back carrying something. This meant little discomfort in the hand.
Immediately mind raced. Was not feeling good. Uneasy. Thought arm pain means heart attack. Mind raced. Heart palpitations came on.
Just went ahead and put some rice on for cooking.
Went inside the bed room an sat down.
Drank some water. Feeling better.
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Really need a chat 😪😓
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I’m having nausea and motion sickness type symptoms so I’m laying in bed relaxing and waiting to get sleep since it’s 3am, while I do so, can anyone chat with me? Would really appreciate advice, life talk and venting
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what the fuck
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Im so fucking lonely. Ive been depressed and anxious my whole life but now i have nobody. I am an adult now and alone. Nobody else feels like i do here and so I have to hide how bad it is. And i can't ask anybody if they feel the same way bc some stuff is kinda too real and most people dont feel those things. I just feel so odd. I wish my brain and body worked like normal people. I dont know what I did wrong to deserve it all. I guess thats just how it goes.
Kurtis conner and a fatty dab time🤪
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Fighting severe anxiety need advice
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My Luck’s finally turning around
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Frankly this will be an unintelligible rant. I hope this is allowed here.
I 24M have a history of *insert subreddit name*, self loathing, negative body image, and intrusive thoughts. This has made me a really late bloomer in the dating scene and frankly life in general. I’ve only had one girlfriend and it lasted a year and ended over a year ago.
I can’t really explain what’s been happening to me lately, but I’ve finally said fuck it.
I’ve gone all out on dating profiles and I’ve asked three people I matched with out. One of which has said yes already. This isn’t a brag. I didn’t even ask one person out until a couple years ago in my early 20s. This is huge for me.
TMI but I think it’s a combination of finally getting too pent up and finally getting bored hating myself (don’t worry I know it’ll be back).
Maybe some neurotransmitters got hit the right way or even I can be cautiously optimistic now and then. I’ll take the win. I’ve never looked forward to something as much as this date. I’m sure it’ll be a disaster, but I’ve made it this far and I’m genuinely proud of myself. And I hope whatever, if anything that’s out there spreads the joy to you. Everyone deserves a goddamn chance to be happy and lot of us got dealt a shit hand.
Like I said this is likely a fleeting feeling and I’m ready for the other shoe to drop. However, until then FUCK YES!
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At what level of anxiety are sedative meds like Xanax or klonopin needed for? I’ve suffered a 12hr long-rare anxiety episode that caused me suicidal thoughts without me addressing them or reaching out for help in the ER
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I wish I would’ve said something like “I need a sedative! I can’t feel comfortable in my own skin for the past 12hrs and I’m losing my shit” at the ER
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The darkest stage of depression. At 19.
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I'm at the point of depression and have been for several years where everyone and everything is ugly. Friendships seem pointless, don't know if I'll ever love again. And so much more. Not here to throw a pity party, and it doesn't really effect my work ethic much I still work through all the suffering etc, but it'd be nice to not feel "sewer slidal" every second of everyday. About 2 months ago I posted to Reddit about how I have migraines everyday and all my other symptoms and I was gonna off my self in about a few days, someone reached out and offered to pay for an amtrack ticket from minnesota all the way to seattke. So of course I took them up on that offer! They turned out to be very nice people helping me everydsy inch towards better health etc. but I just feel like even with better health it just won't matter. Cars are just cars. Money is just paper. People are just people. I can't do anything or say anything or listen to anyone or anything without thinking about "sewer slide" I have some of the worlds worst anxiety and I've been depressed since age 7 to now 19 years old. Weed was the only thing that made me see the world for what it is, and it increases seratonin and makes my pain a whole lot worse so I quit smoking, microdosing mushrooms helped a lot aswell but made my already bad fatigue a whole lot worse, and made pain more noticeable. How do I get out of this never ending loop of cripplining depression. I don't wanna go to in depth because I HATE pitty parties but seriously. I've been through every stage of depression in my life and it just sucks. I wanna say I've been passively sewer slidal for about 3-4 years straight now, everyday. All day. Before that it was a thought that would come and go. But now I can't even retain an attention span because I'm just constantly planning well you know. I don't know if you can get anymore depressed then this. I'm very grateful but I was grown up in an abusive household, my family broke my spine and cut several scars into my head, and caused me daily headaches and migraines for the past 4-5 years now. Please help me. Everything is boring, and it doesn't seem like money would change anything. Help.
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I’m not sure what to do
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Being on the autism spectrum, I suffer from natural born depression and anxiety. Not a day goes by that it doesn’t affect me in some way. I’ve pretty much accepted that I will always be depressed and anxious.
The truth is that I don’t know how to be happy again. Nor do I know if I ever will be. That’s saying a lot because I know I have good things going for me. I have a home, a Mom who loves me, good neighbors and also good friends.
I spent a majority of my life being hated by others just for being me. A lot of people still hate me to this day for whatever reasons. Half the time I wonder what I did to make people hate me. It could be because I’m in my 30s and enjoy childish things like cartoons and theme parks, but other than that, I don’t know.
My therapist tells me to think and be positive, and is trying to work with me on that, but I don’t know how to because I keep spiraling back to the negative thoughts, memories and feelings. I’m taking strong meds for depression and anxiety, but they’re both still there.
I truly am not sure what to do, because I still feel like everyone doesn’t want me around.
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Switching anti depressant brands?
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Switching anti depressant brands?
Hi everyone I currently take 50mg Sertraline by
ACCORD. Before moving to Thailand, I stocked up for 4 months from my home country in the UK. However I have ran out of my supply and need to buy some new pills. I can't find accord brand anywhere so I am having to buy some cheaper Thai/Indian made versions of Sertraline.
Will I notice any side effects etc? Is it a big deal switching?
Thank you
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At risk of losing my job due to panic disorder. Should I get back in medication?
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TLDR at the bottom. I apologize for the lengthy post.
I was initially prescribed Xanax alongside Zoloft when I was diagnosed with a panic disorder and Asperger's syndrome at 12. Throughout my teenage years I was put on a myriad of SSRIs and eventually went back to Zoloft w/alprazolam or clonazepam. When I turned 19 I weened off Klonipin; then off Zoloft at 22.
The last 3 years have been a rollercoaster of anxiety and depression. One month will be anxiety/panic attack, followed by a month of depression. It's gotten to a point where even getting excited about something positive gives me a panic attack. I can't sleep some nights because I wake up to my heart racing and feeling like I'm gonna barf. I don't want to get back on medication, and I can manage the baseline anxiety well enough, but the panic attacks are killing me. I typically spend hours warding off a panic attack. I'm a substitute teacher and studying education and I need something to help me function like a stable person.
I've tried CBT, EMDR, exposure-response, hypnosis. Nothing rids me of these panic attacks. I've come to accept that it's either I don't take medication and lose my job, apartment, car, or I take Xanax for the panic attacks when I have them. SSRIs didn't help (Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Lexapro, Paxil, Effexor, Celexa). The only two drugs that helped were Xanax and Valium.
TLDR - Was prescribed xanax (as needed) at age 12 for breakthrough anxiety/panic attacks. Typically took .25 mg twice a week. Discontinued at 19. Have spent the last 5 years trying alternatives (therapies, meditation, exercise) to no avail. I am a substitute teacher and uni student and at risk of losing it all because of panic disorder. Benzos were the only thing that helped.
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Nightmare
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I wish I wake up and it's all a nightmare just a nightmare I wish to be fine after I wake up I wish I be a different person who is good enough I wish I be fine after I wake up
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I need someone to talk too
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I have been stressed out alot and have anxiety about school, I finished finals last week and I have to wait 20 days to get results back and im having nightmares about failing any subject even though i did well in all my finals and feel like i want to relapse sh to feel relieved and i cant stop checking my grades and overthinking about it and sometimes crying in the bathroom floor please I just need someone to talk too
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What's your favorite app for anxiety and depression, and how has it helped you?
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Do you guys use any app that helps you cope with anxiety and depression? How did it helped you?
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When do I know that I must seek help ?
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I'm so anxious I'm so mad I feel like im not good enough I'm exhausted and have no energy to do shit I'm so mad and hate everything stupid chronic pain in my fucking whole body never stops I don't remember the last time I was able to breathe normally I'm guilty and embarrassed when I see my classmates do a better job than me it hurts me and I feel shitty for feeling this way the smallest noise drives me crazy angry I'm so tired and I don't want to do anything I just won't I'm tired I'm exhausted I refuse to I'm about to fucking lose my mind but at the same time my stupid fucking brain keeps telling me to shut the fuck up and that it is all my fault and that there is nothing and I'm just lazy my head is about to explode I hate everything I wanna disappear I wanna hide
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Will I ever change?
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I’m 21M and my whole life I’ve been lazy and unmotivated then I started having anxiety, fear, insecurities, and depression. I’ve seen a couple therapists before and they didn’t help me at all and now, I’m seeing my third therapist. She is better than the previous ones but I still feel like I’m not making any progress. I also started seeing a psychiatrist because I thought I had ADHD and started taking stimulants but it doesn’t seem they’re working. I don’t know what to do anymore. I am a failure and my life is slipping away. Is it possible for me to change and be a happy person one day? Were you in a situation similar to mine and were able to turn your life around? I don’t want to kill myself but I want to disappear forever.
Please excuse me for my bad English.
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i cant feel anymore
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Ive been trying so hard recently. But everything is different now and i cant handle it. Im not ready to be an adult and do all the things i have to do. I feel so lonely like i have nobody to talk to about things are so real. I feel like im drowning in anxiety. I literally never dont feel anxiety. I just get high but lately thats been making me more paranoid and making me derealize because i cant handle all of it. I just want to die I need somebody to talk to who gets it but nobody does round here🤷🏻♀️
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Maybe this will sound weird
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So I didnt take any antidepressants for 8months now..After all suffering and feeling bad I decided to start taking them again.
Im afraid of "normal" feeling, like I dont know how will I adapt to that.
"Normal" I mean like no more high anxiety, no more that hard depressed feeling, no more that "straight-numb" weird feeling.
Maybe somebody know what I mean?
Pls help :(
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Weeks long anxiety attack
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I had my first therapist appointment today and when I asked if she has known anyone else who has consistent 24/7 anxiety attacks she hadn't. My particular situation is long intense anxiety attacks in anticipation to moving. (I've moved a LOT and learned today have ptsd from it). For weeks before moving and after I will have non stop anxiety symptoms (nausea, heart racing, fear, panicking, etc.) They don't come and go. Does anyone else have anxiety attacks like this? I was hoping to learn more about this kind of attack, but I can't find information or when anecdotal stories to relate to.
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When I’m not anxious, I’m angry, when I’m not angry, I’m anxious. I don’t understand why this happens. I’ll suffer from horrible anxiety, then it shifts to horrible anger. - Depression ruin’s lives.
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Germs and shit and showering
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I took a shower in an older shower today and holy fuck it smelled old it smelled like soil and I suddenly realized that this shower hasn’t been disinfected and I realized my mom doesn’t close the toilet lid and she used this toilet and I haven’t disinfected the room and suddenly it felt like I was washing my body with fecal water and I feel like I’m covered in fecal matter and bugs and dirt and I feel disgusting and I ran out of body wash so I had to leave the shower with wet dirty ass feet and I had to wear the shoes back to my shower and I want to throw up so fucking bad. If I go to sleep like this everything I touch will be covered in filth and shit and I have to wash everything and even then there are surfaces I’ll forget.
can someone fucking tell me this isn’t a big deal it’s not that dirty I feel disgusting it’s like I can feel the shit on my skin
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When you're good with meds and need to feel?
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I've been keeping up so well with my meds and a lot of times when this happens I feel the desire to have a breakdown. It's like my body is going through chaos withdrawal. Like I'm feeling emotionally restrained.
How do you get rid of that feeling? How do you get out of the feeling that you need to lean into your mental illness? Like there's an itch that needs to be scratched?
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No one talks enough about how scary it is when you’ve been feeling depressed for so long and you can’t find a way out
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You feel like you’re trapped at the bottom of a well - a tight space with no escape. You’re in the dark and there is no light to reach out to, you’ve tried everything the internet suggests. It starts to feel suffocating to the point where I may as well be deep in the ocean drowning, the weight on my chest sure makes me feel like I am. Being depressed is more than feeling either nothing or down. There comes a point where you start to panic because the only solution to stop the pain seems to be death and that is a scary thing to realise. It’s as though your natural instinct for survival suddenly wakes up and starts to panic inside you, alerting you that there is a threat to your life. The problem is the threat is living inside you also, as though it is supposed to be there alongside your instincts. The danger is in the same room and suddenly my instincts are useless. They can’t help me fight the chemicals in my brain. Depression is as much a part of me as my instinct to fight to live is. It’s a sick joke when you think about it that my brain pushes by body to live but also wishes it to die. I was born this way. It’s a scary battle to constantly go through.
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Is there an online test that is accurate and trust worthy to tell if my depression is too bad and if I need treatment?
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I need to vent..
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Someone dm me I need to vent
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Not sure what to do here
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So my sister has been going through an intense depression and suffers from bipolar disorder and PTSD. Last month she checked herself into an outpatient clinic. We have always been close and I try to keep in touch with her daily. Unfortunately I live abroad so can't be there for her in person. Thus, I try my best to message and call her and lend her an ear. When I make suggestions to her ( I.e. Trying meditation, exercise, and breathing exercises) I try to do so in a manner which does not come off as pushy. She says none of that works even though when pressed, she admits she is not consistent with it nor gives it enough time to see any real results. She goes to group therapy classes once a week and says it isn't working after only 6 weeks. I recently mentioned to her that I am seeing a patter here and noticing that she is not putting in any effort with these activities. She then told me that I am trying to psycho-analyze her and that she just needs a brother and my support. I'm at a loss here because I don't know what that means and I'm afraid to ask her for fear of triggering her. I truly want to be there for her as much as possible but I also don't want to be a 'yes' person. I generally try to give suggestions disguised in the question "do you think......". I feel like I'm doing something wrong with my approach and am looking for any suggestions on how I can support her best while not just being a 'yes' person. How do I bring to her attention that what she is doing is not helpful without her assuming I'm trying to analyze her?
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My family
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Like it bothers me a lot that I’ve did a lot for these people and they make sure. I’m the one not invited, not welcomed, and etc like what happened to addressing issues and stuff like adults but I guess everyone has there reason to treat me an certain way but they had no issue repeating the same thing I had going on with my life if that makes any sense.. my boyfriend is right about one thing to not let certain people around and I can’t constantly keep forgiving people that always want to act an differently when it comes to certain situations… the only people ima focus on is the ones that wanna be around I can’t keep stressing myself anymore because it’s as clear as day how it is and it’s been like that for almost two years and what they don’t see there one of the main reasons why I left to begin with..
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This might be inappropriate. Ive been trying hard core to keep my anxiety under wraps. I think I've been doing well.
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Except that my mother (my best friend, other than my husband) just moved out of state. I was living with her temporarily, seeing as our rent got hiked $400 due to inflation. Something we could afford, but honestly, it was a shitty place, and I wasn't willing to pay it.
So anyway, we lived in her garage ( made it cute for ourselves)
She sold the house.. ok.. we gotta get back on our feet.
We move.
My stepfather is crippled.
My husband works 70 hours a week.
Im trying so hard to help
Ok, I'm whining. But its hitting me.. the latent anxiety and nervousness.. the fd up part is.. since my anxiety is due to something that has already happened, i can't control it. I tried my hardest to control it while it was happening.. I tried to set a path. Oh man, im freaking out.. any input would be appreciated.
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I had a panic attack 10 months ago, I have not felt right since.
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I have always been a pretty anxious person my whole life. Constantly moving my leg up and down, random bouts of anxiety over school, being overwhelmed etc.. but I have always been able to overcome this anxiety.
Nothing compares to a panic attack I had last June. I had some bouts of health anxiety in my life but those passed after a short time frame. Last June my mom was looking at my ankles, and asked if they were swollen. Instantly I was nervous and felt a rush of anxiety as I looked at them and we quickly realized that nothing was wrong it was just how they looked in my shoes. Well, I couldn’t stop fixating on this thought. I went to a friends house and was looking up symptoms, looking at my friends ankles and comparing them to mine, I couldn’t stop thinking about it.
I went home and later that night I was on YouTube just watching random videos when I felt a pain in my chest, and shortness of breath. I knew that it was most likely a panic attack in my head and tried to just ignore it but I failed. I began feeling hot, breathing fast, and shaking. I ran downstairs and told my mom and I couldn’t stop freaking out. After sometime it calmed down a bit but I was still very anxious. I figured I’d sleep it off and be fine.
I have not returned to normal since that day. In the beginning after the panic attack I was still very anxious, short of breath, shaky, etc.. the whole entire day. It eventually went away after it was prescribed Zoloft and was diagnosed with GAD.
I was feeling less anxious in it but the main thing that has stuck with me is this feeling of constant drunkenness? I feel tired everyday, it’s hard for me to focus on things, I feel foggy, I feel disconnected at times and it has been this way every single day, every single hour, for the last 11 months.
I’ve had blood tests, heart tests, brain MRI’s everything fine.
I stopped Zoloft, did Wellbutrin, now on Buspar.
I fixate on a lot of health problems, and it’s hard for me to accept these physical symptoms I feel are just from anxiety.
Has anyone else had a similar situation and can offer some guidance? Thanks.
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My whole body hurts when I'm anxious
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It's so painful it hurts so much stress is my worst enemy it tortures both my body and soul there is not a single area of me that doesn't hurt I hate it I hate to suffer
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Help! Anxiety/panic attacks/ intrusive thoughts?
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I've been getting these episodes. I don't know if there panic attacks, intrusive thoughts, both, or something else entirely.
It starts with a single thought. Sometimes it's something that happened in the past, something that just happened, or something that could happen in the future. When these thoughts happen i go to extreme worse case scenario even for the past events despite these events going okay and nothing bad happened i just imagine what if this happened instead. A lot of the time is something that Im afraid is going to happen in Future.
When these thoughts happen it's like an entire movie plays in my head of how these worse case scenarios will play out. It feels real like it's exactly happening at that moment. I know it's not but my body feels like it. I'll start talking to myself like I'm actually talking to the people in these worse case scenario and even sometimes shout. I'll hit myself out of frustration for what is happening in my head.
I get these everyday, multiple times. They can last for like 30minutes. I want these thoughts to stop. I've tried therapy and medication. Those things haven't worked yet. I'm scared. Am i just going crazy? What is happening? How do I get it to stop?
My ex husband was a sociopath and played a lot of mind games and preyed on my worst fears. These episodes started when I was with him and they continue still even though I left him. He continues to stalk me and harass me. He tries to frame by making false reports.to police, DCF, my employer, to anybody. He has even tempted to plant drugs in the gas container on my car.
One of my thoughts I had today was him stalking and coming to one of my classes I take and planting drugs on me and my friends and him convincing everyone that I had a drug problem and that I planted it on my friends and him turning everyone against me. This scenario didn't happen but he has only so far ever attempted to plant drugs on my car. But this thought played out like a movie in my head and I was crying, talking to myself like I was actually there trying to tell everyone that it wasn't me, i hit myself. I know it's not actually happening and it hasn't happened but I'm really terrified that it will or something like it will. And my body feels like it's happening.
Please help
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Suicidal thoughts, trying to cope
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So much shame, 0 dollars in my bank account
I should be helping provide for my parents not the other way around
I’ve had suicidal thoughts before, but in my 30s they feel a little more real because I should have been able to cope by now
What sucks is I finally found a love so sweet but I’m too ashamed to show them me
I wish I can be strong, but I’m far too easily knocked down
I can’t handle this world
******
Update: I did some things today, which took me out of the spiral, so I’ll just keep going for now
Thanks so much for your responses
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Background
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Scared
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I’ve dealt with anxiety and the depression it brings on all my life. I’m 60. Antidepressants do not work for me. I take 4 mg of diazepam a day. However, I’m having a horrible time these past few months. So depressed and anxious. My psychiatrist upped my diazepam and it does help but I’m just a lump. It took me 2 weeks to find a therapist that would take my insurance. And I have great insurance. Many are not taking insurance because of a reimbursement problem. I get it, but it’s so disheartening to be told that if you can’t pay $200 an hr. , too bad and good luck.
Tomorrow I meet my therapist and I don’t even know where to start. All I do is cry. I’m not even writing this post well.
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My SI is raging. I feel like I can’t breathe
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I feel so lost and confused. I'm losing everything I've worked towards and it's so devastating to me. I have to let go of all the things I've put so much time and effort into and it's heartbreaking. I can't even keep my coffee table because I don't have room for anything. It's just so devastating to lose the life I've built and the things I care about and then to have it happen like this is so unfair. I just don't understand how I ended up in this situation and how I ended up with this pain. I just feel so alone in all of this and it's just not fair.
I wanna scream, cry, and vomit. However, I’m overwhelmingly having this feeling of watching to yeet myself off a building. I won’t do it of course. It just feels like this pain is endless. No one cares. I’m completely and utterly alone. No one understands my pain. No one understands my loss. I’m expected to just smile. Smile and bare the pain because it makes everyone else feel better. What about me? I feel like I’m screaming for help but noones around to hear it. It all feels so endless. Pointless. Painful.
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I am feeling worse and i have mental breakdowns...😔
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I know i cheated on him but i don't feel like myself after that anymore, i want to end my suffer.
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Anxiety muscle twitches?!
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Hi! If people could please let me know if they experience anything similar....
I have AWLAYS had anxiety but recently, over the last 6 months-year, it was gotten much worse. I now suffer from panic attacks and had anxiety disorder.
That being said, does anyone else suffer from muscle twitches all throughout their body from anxiety? It's mostly in my legs but it is also other places at times: my arms, my face, my butt, my sack and even my stomach.
Some days are worse than others and it's mostly when I am sitting down or laying down (at rest). Of course I have went down the google rabbit hole and it had scared the ever loving crap out of me. (A L S or MS).
I also occasional get a "buzzing feeling" in hands and legs.
My PCP thinks it's anxiety but I just can't wrap my head around it and my mind is going to worse case scenario. TIA ♥️
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anyone else tried cutting out sugar and taking magnesium supplements and did it make much difference to your anxiety?
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ive tried so many things but not much seems to work exercise, muscle relaxation, lots of exercise. journalling, but still have severe anxiety insomnia and depression i’ve recently been looking at what i can do health wise to help im going to wean off pregabalin and pantoprazole as i believe they are making things worse and just stay on mirtazapine. going to try magnesium glycinate tonight as read you can have deficiency and it causes a lot of problems and i’ve stopped sugar for 2 days and feeling a bit better already
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Over 30s check in thread
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- How have you been coping?
- What has been working for you?
- What are you struggling with at the moment?
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Venting.
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I'm so sad and tired. Life is always bad. I have absolutely no support system. I'm too tired to take care of myself. There's no point in living, it's never going to get better. But I'm too scared of pain to take my own life.
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Generalized anxiety disorder and THC concentrates
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Moving anxiety
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I (31f) have mild generalized anxiety which I take lexapro for and usually works great. But my anxiety skyrockets when going through major life changes. Mostly moving. I'm about to move for the 9th time in my 8 years of marriage. Every time this happens I feel so sick to my stomach. I don't get traditional panic attacks. For weeks during the whole process I will feel so anxious, with gastrointestinal problems, constant stress, no appetite, breaking out in crying. Today I made some steps to get help for the first time. My Dr prescribed xanax and I signed up for therapy with Betterhelp. I haven't had a session yet, and I'll start xanax tomorrow.
Who else has goes through this? Do you think the xanax will help in this situation?
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Too sad to speak
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Was u ever so exhausted to talk
So sad that u just couldn't say anything you can barely feel anything and you're body is so tired it's even shaking have u ever starved but couldn't eat anything you didn't eat anything but u're just about to vomit have u ever felt like ur lips were too heavy you can't open them to speak have u ever been too sad to think or react for what happened
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Please help(18m). Please read.
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There is not gonna be a TL;DR because I genuinely want people to help and read this all.
I'm 18 years old and my life is barely gonna begin but I feel as if I'm in my 60s and need to be wary of my health. I have GAD which is Generalized Anxiety Disorder and health anxiety and everytime I've gotten my blood pressure checked it's always been high due to me being anxious and im overweight, let's just say I need to lose over 100lbs to be considered "healthy". I was always an over thinker, for example my earliest memory of overthinking was when I was in kindergarten and my mom walked me to class and I started crying and the teacher and my mom talked to me in the hall way and I told them I'm afraid knowing my mom will die one day.
Since then I've always been an overthinker and I could have the smallest ache or maybe my palm is a little red and then I go on a search in google/reset to see if this is normal or if I'm okay or need to expect the worse.
But last month I had a panic attack and everything has been down hill since. I've always had anxiety but it would go away and I never stressed about it. The panic attack was on a Monday but I wanna talk about Sunday, I was in the kitchen while my mom was making Dinner and I got a wave of dizziness and automatically assumed it was diabetes and they bothered me. Also I'm a college student and I was spending late night studying for a test and losing sleep and having low grades and worried about failing cause I didn't wanna owe money back and I was just super stressed. Anyways, Monday comes along and omw to class(in an Uber) I start feeling anxious and I do my best to ignore it but it was a newish feeling so I was overthinking. I get to class and our instructor lets us know we're going across the street to the second building (which I've never been to or jn) and talk about jobs or something idk. At this point I was getting more anxious and debating whether I needed to ask him for his keys since my backpack was in the class and he locked it but I didn't and we proceeded outside and I walked slow to call my mom and told her I might need to go to doctors and I needed her to set up and appointment and at this point I'm more anxious and my legs feel kinda weak. We go into the second building and go upstairs and we sit down but I noticed my hands shaking and I'm getting shortness of breath and I'm getting a tiny dizzy so finally I tell my instructor I need to go caus I felt like I might pass out so then I go and struggle to find my way out the building since it was my first time being there and I got anxious I'd pass out and no one would find me or notice me. I finally found my way out and I cross the street and I'm in the main buildings parking lot and my heart is racing and pounding like iver never felt before and my legs feel weaker and I'm thinking this is diabetes and I have low blood sugar or too high. I get inside and see the campus officer and she sits me down on a couch in the hallway and some teachers get my backpack. The officer gave me a honey bun and some tea Incase I have low blood sugar since I told them I thought this was diabetes. I stopped cause I couldn't hold the honey bun down and I just drank water and then drank the tea. Later on my mom comes and I'm dizzy, my fingers and toes are numb, I feel like I might pass out, my heart is racing and pounding and I feel heart hurt or acid reflex in my throat and it was just all horrible. Firefighters come and take me to a room close to the entrance and they check my heart and said it's cool and looked like my blood pressure was high and they checked my blood sugar but it was normal and they talked to me for a bit but after me and my mom went to the hospital and they checked my heart and everything was good other than fast heart rate/strong heart beat so I was good and they took blood samples and cat scan of my chest to head and said every is good (I wish they specified tho). They gave me an IV and gave me something to calm my anxiety and I left the hospital with a paper with GAD on it.
Now the same week I was having minor panic attacks, I couldn't go out, I couldn't eat without water nor eat at all cause I could hold it down and was scared to choke.
Now fast forward to recently/now.
I haven't had a panic attack like that again which is Great but now I'm struggling with positive thoughts and just last week I was scared of kidney stones cause I had an ache in that region and found out since I had a kidney stone a year and half prior, I'm more like to have another within 10 years. That took 2 days to get.over but then I was worried about eye floaters because I assume I have diabetes and I don't wanna go blind, so I go to a eye doctor (optometrist I think they're called) and just to find out that I'm a little near sighted but 1 eye is one step from perfect and the other is 2 steps from perfect and he gave me a prescription and.said I don't need it but its there if I want it. I walked about happy for 5mins but I starting overthinking "what if he didn't do a good check" and let it be known his wall was COVERED with Diplomas so I knew I was in good hands. Now I having heart aches and "warm aches" idk, my heart just feels warm/hot and it bothers me and I'm worried it's my health or anxiety or both. I'm gonna go to the hospital today after work with my mom just so I know it's my anxiety and not anything bad. The aches come and go but I mainly notice them when I'm anxious or start thinking something is wrong with my heart which makes me think it's anxiety but I still wanna go get it checked out.
I haven't been able to cry even tho I'm so stressed and want it to come out, I've made sad faces and watched sad videos and listen to sad music and thought sad thoughts and nothing. There's a number I call for young adults and they kinda just help ppl who are anxious or depressed and I've called that place so many times they I recognize voices now and I'll tell them my issues and I'm looking for a direct answer but it's never that.
I've tried breathing exercises and coping mechanisms for my anxiety but when I do them, I expect it to work within the first attempt or first few mins. My mom said her breathing exercises takes about 15-20mins before she feels calmer. If I do those exercises and it doesn't work with the first like 5mins, I give up cause I then assume it just doesn't work for me. I wanna get better and be happy but sometimes I feel like just acceptimg that my life will always feel like this but I don't want that and on the other hand I overthink and feel like I wanna be sad and don't wanna get happy because I'm struggling so much to be happy but I do because I don't like feeling like this. I'm not gonna cause harm to myself and I really do wanna be better but I have a better chance believing that negative anxiety post that says they've tried everything and are still miserable rather than believing the positive anxiety post where someone "cured" theirs because to me it seems too good to be true for me and so I expect to get the worst but I don't like that mind set.
**Here are some positives in my life which I feel as if I should be happier about but struggle to be:**
•I have a job that pays me weekly
•I have a girlfriend who loves me and I gave her a talk last night and told her that this anxiety might takes years to heal and idk if she has that patience and I told her there will be days where you might feel alone since I'm not happy like I used to be and you may feel like you want that happiness from someone else and I told her it's okay if she feels as if she wouldn't be able to put up with it and I'd get over it with time. I told her I want her to be happy even if that means not with me and I specifically told her that it won't be easy and she might not like me or she might despise me because my anxiety will take over my life and I might be seeing a therapist for 20 yrs idk. She started crying and told me she loved me and nothing about that would change and she doesn't wanna be happy with anyone else and only wants me and understands it'll be hard but loves me to the point that she understands the risks but still chooses me.
• I've been eating healthier for the last 5days or so(rice and chicken, salads, keto bowl from chipotle, fruits, etc.) And I've been drinking water a lot(I always drank a lot of water but for the past month I've been drinking almost nothing BUT water.
•its been a year and 5months since I stopped drinking sodas and Arizona teas(although the reason was because of the kidney stone). I haven't had the urge to drink them since
•yesterday I walked to work and it was 12-14mim walk but I'm gonna be doing that everyday I work now since I work 10 hours shifts and don't have time to workout after work or before. I'm also gonna start working out on my days off
•I emailed a therapist and I don't get paid till this Friday but next week I'm gonna have a session on Wednesday and it's online but it's a good start for therapy.
•I wake up everyday and have a roof over my head.
•My vision is basically perfect.
•Hospital checked my blood and heart and everything was good minus high blood pressure due to anxiety(I hope)
**Now here's some negatives that have been weighing me down and have been ruining my self esteem and hope:**
•These heart aches which makes me feels as if I might have a heartattack or stroke or something else
•im overweight
•i struggle to cry
•i don't necessarily have a safe space to feel like I can let my emotions out with ease
•I get random pumps of adrenaline for thinking stuff in my head or even subconsciously and it cause heart palpitations
•i worry I'll die young before I experience life
•im worried I'll be on medication for the rest of my life
•im worried I'm causing so much stress from anxiety and it's effecting my heart.
•im worried I'll never get better
•im worried I should give up and accept this as my life now.
•i can't seem to believe positive stuff about people overcoming anxiety but believe that I might be the ppl who can't get rid of it.
•im worried I might have health issues at such a young age.
•what if I go to the hospital and next week I go again because I tell myself "oh a weeks home by and a lot can change within that time"
• I say "what if" a lot and am doing my best to cut it out my vocabulary
•i have almost no friends and don't go out with ppl unless it's my girlfriend or if I do go out with my best friend it's rare like 1 a month or 1 every 2-3months
•its hard for me to believe I'll overcome this when I think so negatively.
I'm making this post in hopes that someone will have an answer and I feel like I've been getting answer but I don't want them, I want to be happy now, not later. "hey do this breathing exercise and it'll help", oh well it's been 5 mins, why is my heart still beating fast?
",Hey go.to therapy and it'll help", well what if it doesn't?
"Hey just distract yourself", what if I'm playing a game and remember the reason I'm distracting myself and get anxious again.
Other stuff to add is that I've also had a really rough childhood but I don't think about that a lot but just Incase it may be something, I just wanted to add it.
Idk why I'm like this. Help.
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Anyone else find the anxiety to be worse than the depression?
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Idk why but my anxiety makes it so difficult to function normally. Granted I do have panic disorder not GAD or something like that. The depression really sucks but it doesn’t interfere with my life a whole lot. Depression affects my social life for sure but not work/school. Anxiety affects everything in my life. I think it’s because I’ve always been depressed so I just kinda live with it but the anxiety is relatively new so I can’t handle it as good.
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I got a job and now there's moments that aren't so dark.
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26F Like I said, I started a new job a few weeks ago after being a stay at home Mom/live-in caretaker for my Grandfather who suffered from Dementia. It had been so long that I was alone. I mean not alone, but not part of the world. Most people long for solitude but I've always just wanted my life to begin, and to meet new people.. to learn to talk and feel comfortable out in public again. I spent 6 years pretty much in the house. My Grandpa passed away and my daughter started school just months apart. I had to sell his house, move and figure out my entire life in a matter of months. Without someone to take care of who was I.. and what did I want. I'm still grieving the loss oh my Grandpa but also, my only friend, who I loved with all my heart. Leading up to recently when I got a job at a therapy group as head Admin. Surrounded by the kindest people, a great boss, and my own office. I'm also enjoying the work, I have a purpose and in a way I still get to care for people. I do the consultations, scheduling, verifying, the complete onboarding process. Along with a lot of other responsibilities.. but I get to help people get the support they're looking for. Now I have moments during the day not filled with self hate and anxiety.. it makes me want to fight through this depression. Like it's all going to be worth it.
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Need tips on motivating!
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I was diagnosed with severe depression and mild anxiety last month. I've been on Lexapro 10mg for a month and recently using propranolol for my anxiety. These meds make me super sleepy on top of the fact i was already ALWAYS tired and exhausted, this just seemed to amp it.
I'm feeling a bit better compared to my state before being on antidepressants but im still having a lot of trouble motivating on those off days. I lay in bed for an hour or so hungry but having no energy to eat, most times it feels like a chore. Even getting to my hobbies can be a chore, i'll sit up and lay right back down simply because i dont have the energy to force myself.
If anyone has any tips to help me out of these humps it would be greatly appreciated thanks for reading :)
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Bullying victims support
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(Sorry if it against the rules, delete then)
I created a supportive community for victims of bullying: sharing experience and coping strategies how to deal with bullying and its consequences (Anxiety, low self-worth, addiction, depression, emptiness, to name a few)
I feel like this problem isn’t discussed enough and underrated. But it’s often the main reason of struggling for many people
[Reddit.com/r/bullying_victims](https://reddit.com/r/bullying_victims)
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Switching from Brintellix to Lexapro + pregablin. Has anyone here tried that combo? Wish me luck 🍀
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Going through really severe social anxiety
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29/f.
I was someone who grew up with social anxiety, then overcame it. I overcame it for a really long time. In fact, my profession is pretty much all socializing. For a long time I would even say I was really confident.
I don’t know what’s been going on lately, but I feel like I really relapsed with my social anxiety. I’ve been having a lot of trouble projecting my voice, I feel like I’ve been forcing myself to go out to social events, and forcing myself to go to work. These activities have never felt like a drag before. For the last couple of years a lot of people have known me an extrovert. So it’s weird to be going through this phase where I’ve been having trouble talking to people. I feel like because my job is based on my social skills, that puts on even more pressure.
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Unrelenting
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It feels like there are some sadnesses that my antidepressants can’t even keep away. I really miss being happy. I miss who I used to be. I miss the nights where my biggest worry was not washing off my makeup or a grade on an assignment. I miss myself so much and I don’t even know if I’ll ever get back to who I was. I feel like she died and only left behind pain and sadness.
I always feel alone. I feel I can’t cry or he’ll be upset I feel I can’t complain because it unfair to him. I feel I can’t demand my life back because it was his life too. I just feel buried by this pain. I feel so hollowed out, sad, and alone.
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Is it possible to have a natural born mental illness?
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It’s something I struggle with on a daily basis. I can’t put my finger on it, because I am always depressed and anxious. Not a day goes by that I’m not. Is it really possible to just be born with one?
I am a high functioning autistic, but have struggled with depression and anxiety since childhood. I was bullied my whole life just for being me, even by some teachers.
I have NEVER drank or done drugs EVER and never will. I know a lot mental issues are caused by that. I had a nervous breakdown due to family issues in 2010, and I was hospitalized for a week.
When I was released they told me I could be mildly bipolar. But my mom told me I don’t have the symptoms of bipolar disorder. I don’t know what to believe anymore…
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Sex Drive on Meds
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I take Lexipro and Wellbutrian and they really help my anxiety and depression. My problem is now that when I get horny it either takes forever to Kerkorian off or I can't cum at all. Does anyone have any tricks or have delt with this before as well?
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Hi, guys looking for a genuine answer. I cannot find a sub to talk about this.
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I have lot's of friends and few very good friends and consider myself fortunate for this. I miss seeing them because we live in different cities now. I have left my job because I am preparing for higher studies. I can talk to anyone and definitely not an introvert. I am an easy going person but can seem grumpy all the time because of my flat resting face. The problem with me is I can't talk to girls, I mean I can talk to them if they initiate the conversation. But I just CANNOT approach them and talk to them. That's why I have never had any relationship. I have very good friends who are female and they also can't help me. I feel there is a killswitch in my brain which is turned on when I try to talk to girls. I have wasted so many opportunities where I could have just talked to the person because there was a clear connection being made but just couldn't because of my awkwardness. This all makes me very sad because I just cannot overcome this. Whenever I see my friends go and talk to girls I just find it effortless and funny. I am under a lot of peer pressure to lose my virginity too, because everyone in my group has done it. All this is creating a huge problem for my mental health. I am attractive guy because everyone says it but I don't that matters at all if one can't even open their mouth and speak some words. Do you guys think I have depression or some sort of anxiety? Do I need therapy? I want to change myself and will do anything to do it.
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Birthday blues
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Todays my birthday and I’m sad . I turned 27 although I don’t feel it. Maybe because my brain is fried. No celebrations I guess. Although I haven’t celebrated my birthday in a while. I have to go to the doctors tomorrow, something I don’t want to do but my mom is going to make me go. It causes me anxiety because I have severe body image issues and agoraphobia . So I’m spending my birthday sad about today and worried about tomorrow
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[TW/Thoughts] I need to talk to someone about my depression
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I'm 15 M, I have a girlfriend who is about 8 months older (16), relationship has gone on for nearly 4 months. I have friends and a supportive family. I live in one of the most privliged countries on this earth, Finland, and am by no means poor. Also Liz if u find this you prob don't wanna read furhter it's gonna hurt you too. If you're someone else I know and recognize me soon, please stop reading.
The reasons for my depression are quite obvious. I was raped at age 7 by a classmate, also male, nearly a year older.
I don't know where he is anymore, and I believe that that doesn't help me. Occasionally at school I hear his name being talked of positively. It hurts me. Like most rape victims I know of, I want him dead. Obviously in primary school no one believed it when I told em about it. Took me 4 years to tell my parents; took 1 to even realize what had happened.
I was bullied for all of the 6 years in primary. Thankfully it stopped in lower secondary but that has still deeply affected me. I heavily dislike most people from the same age group, and have become less social overall.
My gf was raped at a later age. This is why I'm on a reddit throwaway. I need to talk about this too, but can't do it w anyone I know irl. Like mine, her rapist is looked up to. This hurts me as well as her. She is more suicidal than me, and I'm pretty sure she sometimes wants to go out with me in a more irreversible manner. She has told me that if I were to die it would be the end of her too. I have not said the same but I feel that way. She's basically the only thing keeping me alive rn.
(irl) I've lived most of my life with two friends at a time, from grade 2 to 9 where I am now. About six months ago I got more friends and
My history with my depression started some time in grade 2 when I realized all the bullying and what had happened a year prior. I was most suicidal in 5th grade, and was extremely close to attempting suicide. After that I was close to jumping under a car at 13, grade 7. I sort of just forgot about my depression after for 2 years and all of it came back strong when I got friends. It has only gotten stronger.
As I live in Finland, healthcare is basically free and that includes mental health. Sadly the lines are long. It's really fun to wait to get referred to another waiting line. I've been told that I'm a good talker by every professional, and that I have hope, but I still just get referred to a "better fit" every time.
I've had a lot of sick days out of school because of anxiety which causes me physical pain. It started as stomach age, later developed headache and recently I've also started having immense chest pains which spread to arms and legs too. I can't breathe that well a lot of the time.
My gf is the best person I know, and her being depressed too makes me a bit sadder. Our relationship is going well. We genuinely love each other. She has clearly expressed that she wants to spend the rest of her life with me, eventually get married and also have children. I'm more realistic when it comes to these topics. I have in fact driven a hotwheels car across her boobs, important information.
We have had sex, so in that way we have gotten over our traumas. We started the relationship as asexuals, but that changed p fast. For both of us it had developed as a defense mechanism.
My parents usually pressure me into telling what's wrong and usually they succeed but not today. What got me anxious today was the fact that I found her rapist online. He is also of similar age, and if I may, a complete asshole. I don't want to share her experience further. This is why I'm here, as anonymous as I can be.
All of my hope isn't lost. I have had fun in life, but I'm still sad a lot of the time and the physical pain is really hard to live with when it comes. I have recently considered ending my life, and have considered asking her to join me. I don't believe that I'll end up taking my life, but if it keeps on going like this it can't be stopped. I have never done self harm and never will, I find that pointless.
Thank you for reading if you did, all of this is important so no tl;dr.
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anyone try Ketamine for anxiety?
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I've been reading up on this drug and it seems for the most people it helps lessen anxiety/depression. Anyone every try it?
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Does anyone else feel really forgetful?
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I have a hard time remembering small things, even things that just occurred yesterday. I feel like it causes tension in my relationship at times (most recently, my partner had washed all the towels and the next day I’d forgotten and put them in the dirty basket which caused an argument). I’ve been on antidepressants for probably 12 years now, so I’m not sure if that has something to do with it, but I just want to know if I’m alone in this.
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meds for dopamine supersensitive tivity
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Hi, is there a drug or therapy that can prevent dopamine supersensitive psychosis after drug withdrawal? Thanks!
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Again ..
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It's happening again when I move my head it's like I'm gonna faint my legs and hands are shaking I can feel the tension in my head it aches badly.. when will I ever find peace..
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hello newbee here
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Saying hi ECT..
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silexan dosing q
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Has anyone opened these capsules (either calm aid or lavela) and mixed in anything? Water juice etc so as not to take it all at once, rather sip throughout day? I took it at night and its too strong for morning but i liked the effect want a little bit of the effect during the day just not the whole pill. just seeing if anyone has done this/safe to injest this way
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Looking for insight or explanation
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I've been dealing with anxiety close to a decade now. Just taking it as it comes, no medication, no counseling or therapy. But suddenly my work life has become very stressful - to the point where we're losing employees and myself, being in a supervisory roll, feel like I'm holding the back end of the company together. It's really starting to take a toll on me mentally.
I was wondering if anyone else has ever experienced such high anxiety that you feel nauseous and physically weak for days with little breaks in the feelings?
I've admitted myself to the ER twice in the past 2 months for having symptoms of heart disease but after both times, after all blood tests, EKG's and other vital organ tests, they're all inconclusive. I am for the most part, healthy.
But these physical things I feel - muscle weakness, facial flushing, feeling hot, feeling dizzy and nauseous.. both times doctors can't explain what it is and I end up leaving with no answers. The feeling it gives makes me so uncomfortable, I feel like I have the flu at times but I'm not sick. Does ANYONE know anything?? I'm so confused why I feel like this.
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TheOneWhoIsAlwaysLeft
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👋 I'm B. [F-28-bi-happily married] I've never done anything like this, so bear with me. I've always had one single friend. Someone I'd put my everything into - simply fall head over heels in love with PLATONICALLY. But the thing is, when you love too much, care even more... you eventually are putting 100% of the effort in. As soon as this realization hit me (an unhealthy amount of time into the relationship), if I didn't reach out, make plans, etc. there was nothing. I was alone. Other friends (only ever one at a time) have come and gone, but I've had to struggle with them falling for me and wanting more/romance..... others felt their romantic relationships were somehow threatened by their friendship with me... others were only pretending, in an attempt at s3x.
I just need someone to love. Someone to talk to too much and send all my stupid memes/tik toks to. I'm an artist! I do pretty much all of it. Let me show you! Bounce art ideas off you!? But I want a MEANINGFUL relationship, something that lasts. I need clear communication. Not texts every 5 seconds (though I wouldn't necessarily mind being thought of or blown up..). Maybe a "hey I have a training today, so I may be a little harder to reach" or something? I pick up in vibe changes, shifts in tone/communication, and it's so nice to be reassured and supported.
!!WARNING!! I am a dark, anxious, sad soul. I am attracted to the creepy, dark, messed up parts of life while also admiring the stats, rainbows, and the turning of leaves....I deal with a lot of mental health issues, physical health problems, and life has NOT been kind. I am EXTREMELY empathic, inquisitive, and creative. Talking helps me regulate my thoughts and emotions. So whether verbally or through text/messages/journal entries - it just HAS TO COME OUT! I also NEED to learn; it's a blessing and a curse. . It's always good to learn and grow, but I obsess sometimes. If I can't find the answer I will search for it/ think about it FOREVER. Everyone says they can handle my darkness, then complain I'm not positive or that I'm never hopeful. (Did you know it is impossible for your brain to fire off the transmitters for hope while it is firing off the transmitters for fear!?) So as someone with EXTREME anxiety and depression... being hopeful isn't an option. But I'm working on it! Friends would say they love how much I care/ love them and say they'd love to reciprocate.... then disappear or be overwhelmed/put off by it.
I AM a lot. And I'm looking for a lot. PLATONICALLY.
Want to dive into deep conversation? Because...same.
SERIOUSLY INTERESTED, PLATONIC FRIEND(S) ONLY PLEASE... REACH OUT.... I JUST CANNOT SURVIVE ANOTHER LOSS IN THIS LIFE! 🖤
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I’m feeling confused, is it anxiety or depression
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Hi everyone, I’ve been feeling so confused lately with my mood dropping intensely. I do have clinically diagnosed anxiety, but I’ve never really been sure if I’ve been feeling with depression or if it’s just my anxiety draining me sometimes.
These past two weeks the only thing I’ve been able to do is stay in bed and feel nothing, not even anxious or happy, I just feel like I don’t exist like I’m empty, and I don’t want to do anything or even exist in that moment.
I’m trying to make an effort to get out of this « unhappiness » but I just don’t know how to.
I’m confused so for those dealing with only anxiety, do you ever come across a period of time where you feel like numb and just to dead to even feel anxious?
And for those dealing with both how do you deal with those times?
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Anxiety has evolved into rage
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Idk what to do anymore. Drs are fucking useless
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am i wrong
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About Meds for Social Anxiety
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I can tell you that I'm suffering from depression and social anxiety since I was 15 (while symptoms occured in childhood already, I just didn't notice them in that time). I'm in treatment since I was 17 and with that trying to get rid of this illnesses, issues and suffering for years (now 23).
I tried like 14 different meds and 3 therapies (also CBT) already and I'm still suffering symptoms of depression and social anxiety - now it's just called treatment resistant depression, too. Plus my PDoc now even tells me, she strongly assumes that my mental health issues are of biochemical / physiological origin. I will add a list of the meds I tried in the comment section below.
So I wanted to ask you guys for an update in the world of meds for social anxiety. As said, I already tried many many many meds, but still I can't stop thinking about finally finding someone to stop this suffering and finally start living. On my list of "still to try" I still have a few meds, that you maybe have experience with regarding social anxiety (and depression):
**Antipsychotics:**
* Lamotrigine (Lamictal)
* Aripiprazole (Abilify)
* Olanzapine (Zyprexa)
**Anxiolytics:**
* Hydroxyzine
* Buspirone (Buspar)
* Clonazepam (Klonopin) - a strong one, I know, very addiciting but may be great if I'm able to only use them 1-2x a week max IF they even work for me, BECAUSE I already had Diazepam (Valium) & Lorazepam (Tavor) sadly didn't help much, I mean I felt the effects but I didn't really like them nor did they help my social anxiety or mood...
**Atypical:**
* Tianeptine (Tianeurax) - while this one can be addicting and I already have a kratom dependance
* Clonidine - which I could additionally need for getting off Kratom and finally forgetting it
* Lithium - I don't know why but my PDoc wanted me to try it but after one week thinking I decided not to cause I couldn't find any information about it getting used for non-bipolar depression or especially social anxiety (which is my main source of depression)
* Deanxit (Flupentixol & Melitracen)
**Antidepressants:**
* Nefazodone
* Clomipramine (Anafranil)
* Vortioxetine (Trintellix, Brintellix) - interesting as different being a serotonin modulator and stimulator instead of only serotonin reuptake inhibitor which never worked for me and I tried all the famous ones
* Fluoxetine (Prozac), Fluvoxamin or Desvenlafaxine - BUT as said all the other famous and typical SSRIs/SNRIs never worked on me, zero, and I really hate the side effects they can have and even be severe and permanent like PSSD, so I really don't want to try them again to be true
**MAOIs:**
* Selegiline (Emsam)
* Tranylcypromine (Parnate)
* Phenelzine (Nardil) - BUT sadly it's not available where I live (EU) so can't get it :(
**Don't even know about these, just saved them one day reading them somewhere, I guess:**
* Risperidone
* Rasagiline
* Amisulpride
* Tofisopam
* Trimipramine
* Doxepine
* Milnaneurax
* Pramipexol
* Ropinirol
* Mianserin
* Maprotilin
**Alternative therapies:**
* Ketamine therapy (Spravato, Esketamine)
* rTMS
* ECT
* Psilocybin or known as "Magic Mushrooms"
**Supplements:**
* Sulbutiamine, Memantine or Bromantane - WOW, these all have good reviews for social anxiety but I just can't find any information about buying them in my country or if they even are legal, just nothing to find, I guess they are not available and illegal in most of EU?
* Guanfacine
* Bacopa
* SAMe
* Tongkat Ali
* Polygala
* Cordyceps
* Lions Mane
* Skullcap
* Akuamma
* Wild Lettuce
* Kanna (sceletium tortiosum) - I tried it many times but only sublingually and it never worked, maybe really has to be insufflated to work?
***Any other suggestions for medication, therapy or any other treatment is more than welcome.***
***I'm really thankful for any kind of support or help!***
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I feel my anxiety just went from my body to my head. I'm scared
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A brief description about me. I have been suffering from anxiety for 4 years. Right now I am taking paroxetine (half pill in the morning), mexazolam (half pill after lunch/half after dinner) and 1 pill of dosulepin before sleep. Supplements (Omega 3, MSM, Biotin).
For me, anxiety felt like a constant weight on my shoulders. It started off as occasional worry and nervousness, but it quickly spiraled into severe anxiety. Fortunately medication really helped and I could make my life perfectly normal, with the occasional racing heartbeats or small anxiety feelings.
But since a few days ago I find myself constantly on edge, with racing thoughts and an inability to relax. I wake up already feeling worried my day is going to feel like shit and I feel like my head is constantly "heavy"or foggy, if this makes any sense at all. It is like my anxiety moved from my body to my brain. Is it in any way possible?
I feel scared and worried, I feel like a zombie and I can't shake the feeling I will never be my normal self again. I'm a quite active person and I don't want to live like this. It's not fair.
Has anyone ever experience this also? Thank you for reading this.
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If you see this, please help me!
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For starters I’m a 16 year old male who recently got into a long distance relationship with someone I met online. It’s been great but the problem is that I have uncontrollable anxiety that something bad will happen whether it’s a break up or even the possibility of death and I’ve currently got that feeling right now because she hasn’t texted me back in a few hours. (Pathetic I know) but I can’t help it as I said I have uncontrollable anxiety. I feel like nothing can or will help me and I’ll be like this for as long as I live but perhaps one of you can pull it off and actually calm me down!
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I wish I was dead
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I feel like I'm constantly drowning and whenever I ask for help I never get taken seriously. Being pregnant and taking care of an infant is too much with the added stress of living with my overbearing in-laws who cross boundaries and see nothing wrong with it. I hate living in California, it's the biggest regret of my life and I see no out other than a body bag. I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up. My son would be better off without me anyways. I let the anxiety of living with these people keep us locked up in our tiny room and he deserves better than that. He deserves a parent who can pull themselves together and do things with him outside this stupid room.
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My life is so boring
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If there isn’t a change soon I have to end it
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Does depression and anxiety make you feel violent?
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I feel so angry and irritated all the time. I don't know where this is coming from, but I can simply snap at the littlest thing. I wasn't like this, I had a lot and lot of patience, so many were amazed at how calm I could handle things. I don't recognize myself anymore.
I try to breath and focus on remaining calm, but I can't do that lately. Just if someone on the street is glancing a bit my way, I feel like I want to yell at them or do bad things to them, just because they dared to glance at me. There is so much rage and violence in my head and I simply can't handle it anymore.
Whenever I get calm, I feel ashamed of the way I acted or reacted and then depression and anxiety kick in harder and I feel like I'm spinning out of control. I try to do my best and keep myself busy and not to let those shitty thoughts come forward.
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Medicinal advice.
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I've come off of sertraline after six years of using them, I felt like I was in a good place and no longer needed them, I've been off them now over a month with no issues.. till about 5 days ago.. I took a huge nose dive, I've been flooded with intrusive thoughs, unable to sleep and just all round feeling like shit. Is this something that will pass? Or do I need to go back onto long term medication?
Any advice would be hugely appreciated 🙏
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It's so hard to stay awake when I'm stressed
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When I'm anxious I get so sleepy for some reason even though I get enough sleep at night and take my vitamins and drink coffee but I'm so stressed I can't help but zone out also my eyes feel so heavy it's so hard not to close them what should I do
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Are my symptoms normal ?
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Everytime I'm about to pass an exam I feel sorrow my room starts to feel 10 times smaller
I feel nauseous my legs and hands become fragile and my vision unclear my stomach and head aches and my whole body muscles hurt I also feel an urge to zone out my eyes feel like they'll pop out of my head everytime I move my head I feel like im about to faint
I don't know how to cope with stress I never did no matter how old I get I can't get used to this I mean I haven't passed my exams yet I still have time why am I so sad as if I failed to be honest I hate this I wish I can end this misery I wonder if everyone feels the same how do they cope to study while in this pain ? Is this really what life is about ?
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MSM for anxiety/depression?! (Methylsulfonylmethane)
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Hi, I've had quite bad anxiety and depression on and off for the past few years. I've been on meds off meds, exercised, eat healthy, but keep feeling terrible regularly (especially with a fair bit of stress and fatigue).
I recently tried taking a teaspoon of MSM (Methylsulfonylmethane) for a completely different reason the past two days, and feel like a completely different person! I don't know what happened - I'm not anxious, not depressed, very motivated, energetic, positive.
I haven't felt like this in a long time and haven't changed anything else.
Has anyone else had any experience with MSM? I can't find any info/studies about this at all online. Most studies for Methylsulfonylmethane are about joint, skin etc.
Would love to know if this is just a very strange coincidence, or if this a real new avenue in anxiety and depression treatment perhaps! MSM is from all evidence very safe, cheap, and readily available eg. on Amazon.
Thank you!
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I want to get back to work, but I am scared
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Last year I had a rough patch. I had several bad things happen in a row, and as a result I fell into a really deep depression.
I stopped working and as a result was fired from my job, and was left bedridden due to my mental illness.
Fast forward to today. I am on new medication. I have been working on stress management behavior such as using a fidget toy. I have a therapist. I'm doing steady.
I wanna get a job. I want to do it. But I don't know if I can handle being fired again.
I am autistic(suspected), bipolar(diagnosed), and have ADHD(diagnosed).
I'm scared of getting a job and disappointing my boss and coworkers and getting fired again. I have been fired from almost every job I have had due to laziness, forgetfulness, inability to follow directions.
I don't know if I can mentally handle being called an idiot again.
I'm scared of not being able to handle myself.
I don't have much job experience except in vet care where I worked as a veterinary assistant for a few years.
While I was good at caring for animals, I sucked at talking to people and was told by the head vet to "not work in this field anymore".
I wanted to work with aninals ever since I was young, and it sadly fucked me over. I don't have a lot of experience in various jobs. I suck at basic math. Reading people is hard.
I'm scared of not finding something for me. What do I do?
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I'm having a hard time
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I'm resorting to this out of desperation for support and self hatred for what I'm putting on my sister. See, we live together, we're very close and we each have a dog. She has a bunch of health issues so when she got her dog as a puppy, I basically raised him. He's 3 years old, he'll be 4 later this year. For the past week now he's been randomly crying in pain. We're two vet visits into this now, they can't seem to find anything, next step is x-rays. I'm worried they won't find anything and we'll be right back to where we are now. I'm worried because they're expensive. I'm worried all the time now, more so than usual. I can't even remember when the last time I've eaten an actual meal. I don't sleep well which makes everything worse because I have chronic fatigue syndrome. I struggle with c-PTSD, so everytime he cries out in pain my brain perceives it as a threat and pumps out adrenaline. I keep getting these bouts of sobbing, sometimes after he cries, sometimes for no reason at all and I hate myself for them because it's upsetting my sister, he's her dog I should be the one being strong. It just feels like there's no light at the end of the tunnel. Usually I can find a bright side, something to look forward to, something that makes me smile but I've got nothing. I was already at my limit stress wise before all this started so I'm really really struggling and I'm terrified this is my life now. All I want is for him to go back to his normal full of energy chaos in a bottle. I'm not even sure what I want from posting this... just support and any advice would be very much appreciated 😥
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Shell of my former self
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I used to be a much better student and friend than I am now, I worked so hard and did so much and I just wish I could do that but now that I’m in college and seeing everyone pull ahead of me I feel like such a loser falling behind. I’m not even bad, I’m just mediocre
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IDK WHAT MEDS TO TAKE HELP
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The stomach churn and then heavy heart
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How do you get rid of them? I can live with being depressed. I can't cope with the anxiety though. It's horrible.
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Needing meds and feeling like a failure
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I came off my low dose of prozac a year ago, just because I was determined not to be on meds.
The past 6 months I’ve had a lot of stress and my anxiety has been getting worse and worse. The last month has been terrible. This past week is unbearable.
I’m currently sitting in ER waiting to see a doctor hoping to get a prozac prescription.
I feel unbearable suffering and I feel like I need the prozac to exist in the world. I just feel so much shame.
Would help to hear from others that prozac has maybe helped or who have had to go back on it…
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How can you study with anxiety and depression? I really need some advice.
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I'm in college and this is my 3rd year and I have progressively gotten worse at studying and I've realized my anxiety has gotten a lot worse as well. I'm scared because I know I can learn. I know I can study. But it's like my brain is just in this fog and before I knew it I realized I was living day by day for the past few months and remember nothing from the studying I did do. How can I hack this before it ruins me as a student.
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Zoloft and Abilify with Ativan
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I take 100mg of Zoloft and 4mg of Abilify daily. Is it safe to take Ativan with these as well? My doctor did perscribe them but the pharmacist said it could cause serotonin syndrome
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My "Friends" and "Family" - A frightening delusion?
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Harassment and "Psychological Warfare" all day every day for 3+ weeks ((They Say 6+ Months))
They speak for me and tell me shit through the "speakers" in my room.
They told me to kill myself or they will kill my family.
Jason Wakeley, Joe Douvres and their friend(s) said they cont.
said they would burn our house down with me and my mom in it.
Pretended to be friends and FAMILY for 20+ Years and now insist that I kill myself so they can have money
They told me to kill myself or they would do it for me 100+ times a day.
My "Friends" and "Family"
Joe Douvres "Best Friend Turned Cyber Stalker"
Jason Wakeley "Best Friend Turned Homicidal Maniac"
Jared Green "Mastermind"
Burton Green "Man of the House"
Christopher Green \*Threatened to Poison Me\*
Devin Rogers "Best Friend turned Accuser and Bully"
Dennis Downs "Homicidal Father"
James Joseph "The Showrunner"
Nick Joseph "The Help"
Don Langley "Bookie"
Deborah Green "Mom turned murderer"
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Terrible OCD, anxiety and emetophobia last night and I'm just depressed and stressed now
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So yesterday I ginslly got home from college for the semester! But the past few months my emetophobia has really really resurfaced from when I was a kid (havnt thrown up since I was 7so like 14 years). Anyways, ive been having a lot of issues with digestion and gas pain, and it may be IBS, but yesterday all i ate was a morning breakfast supplement shake and a nutrigrain bar, and between 5-7 ate a taco salad, which i usually love and never have issues with. I was feeling fine, then my anxiety started going up, my cheeks started feeling hot, my stomaxh kinda felt like i was hungry, which also kind of feels like digestion pains too. Decided to go to shower and get ready for bed at like 9, but after the shower i felt kind of n* and so i weng to take the melatonin and felf like i was gonna gag on it. I managed to swallow them, and I felt like I had a ton of air in my stomach and it was trying to come up, and that made me go into full panic attacksit felt like my body was gonna try to throw up, and on severala occassions it felt like my fiaphram was conteactinf and stuff. I physically can't really burp, but even if I could I wouldn't want to because what if I burped and tu*. Having tastes in my mouth can make it feel like I'm gonna throw up too, so I brushed my teeth and I guess I didn't do a good job because some pieces of food kept coming out of my teeth, and would taste super strong, and make my feel like I'm about to v*. I started getting dizzy and everything, but managed to lay down for a while, until around 1 my gas pain started. It made me n* again, and freaked out, but again I was able to fall asleep.
I've been intentionally starting myself because of this stupid crap for months now, but after last night I don't even wanna try to eat again. What If I gag? What If I was actually going to v* but just didn't, and I might today? Like right now it's 10am and I feel mostly fine, a bit dehydrated, and probably a bit hungry, but I can't bring myself to even think about eating. My mom was telling me this was all just my anxiety and ocd messing with me but idk it felt so real and I hate myself because my life is just non stop worrying and id rather just die than deal with all this.
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Victims of bullyings
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Don’t know what to do
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I was put on antis for my bpd but stopped taking them cause i felt like a robot they helped me at first when i really needed them but i hated how i no longer felt human i couldn’t cry etc which sounds great when you don’t want to but then you realize sometimes crying is good anyways not the point i stopped taking them about 2 months ago after being on them for about a year but just recently my anxiety and depression has been through the roof I’ve been lashing out completely immobilized and relapsed on drugs and alcohol I’ve been having such bad panic attacks that my throat and chest feel like they’re tearing themselves apart genuine physical pain i can’t go through a day without alc again cause then the pain comes back but I’m pretty sure it’s in my head which doesn’t matter cause it’s still pain anyways i started thinking maybe i fucked something up from the relapse on substance abuse but I’m starting to think maybe i felt so good for those few months from like a afteraffect type thing from the meds but I’m also scared to start them again i really want to get my life back in order and stop fucking doing all this shit but I’m so lost and this is probably pointless but just wanted to see if anyone’s ever been in the same positions or can maybe reassure me or something.
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Kava plus weed plus gabapentin equals sedation and relief of both symptoms for a while.
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Just chillin on the couch watching tv 📺 after weeks of intense depression, anxiety amd insomnia. Got some appetite and might even get some sleep. Hope everyone is doin ok🙏
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strange brain effect and release
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So I've been dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety, depression, intrusive thoughts etc.
I just wondered if people have a similar feeling to mine where it feels very physical.
First of all, I'll just say that the depression and intrusive thoughts are definitely heightened when I have a lot of tension in the top of my head and neck. There are some times where my neck pain is incredibly tense and it'll often give intrusive thoughts about suicide or killing myself. These thoughts will be less so or more minor when the neck tension isn't as bad.
There are other times when I'm incredibly anxious or worried and can feel the physical manifestion of it in the front of my head. Like I can actually feel the blood or other chemicals rushing around, it's a very real physical surge and tension. Not forehead, but the top of the front, the pre frontal cortex area. the tension here is sometimes unbearable and it feels physically as if the front of my head is being grabbed by am invisible hand.
I also seem to have a lot more tension behind the eyes, sadness, a sort of feeling of blocked fluids or sinuses. It's right behind the eyes and inwards to the brain.
Now the weirdest part of all of this and the main thing I'm wondering if anyone gets.
When I feel my anxiety reducing, or I'm doing some journaling,or some CBT,or something along those lines, and manage to sort of release some of that negative thought, tension or feelings, when I perhaps feel a bit of relief, or hope, or positive thought I can actually feel it physically in my brain, and it feels like my brain is being 'drained'. Like somebody released a plug.
Sometimes it happens in big fizzles where the front of my head will get pins and needles, or fizzle literally, as if there are bubbles popping away, and I'll feel relieved.
Other times itll happen in small drips, like I'm if journaling or whatever, and I'm gradually building positive emotions in my head, I'll feel it brewing up, like the tap is ever so slightly let loose. And again, come the minor physical tingles and tension release.
In all of these scenarios it feels like the hand clasping the head let's go slightly, and the tension releases. I start to be able to exit my mind more and my brain 'wakes up' to real life. My eyes become more visible, everything feels more real and slows down. Some brain fog is released.
Now, the weirdest part in all of this. It'll feel like all of my sinuses become unclogged, or the brain just starts to tingle. I will ALWAYS without fail have a runny nose or start to sneeze. I was doing some mindfulness things once and my nose was literally dripping. When I feel some hope or focus on positive things, I sneeze. The more I sneeze the more I feel more relaxed. The more I feel that literal physical element of it all leaving my body.
Is this just typical in stress or anxiety or do you think this is something else? Could it be fluids in the brain that actually do need releasing and it's these fluids that cause the tension and anxiety? Could it be histamine? I don't know, but hopefully if I can find some answers it might help me find a solution.
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Health anxiety and depression is getting worse and I feel so helpless
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I know this sounds irrational and dumb but ever since I’ve tested positive for h pylori, I’ve always had this fear that I have this hidden disease and will drop dead at anytime.
This has stopped me from being able to be able to live my life. Currently I’ve been having off and on headaches and my anxiety is telling me that it’s bc I have a hidden terminal disease and will die soon.
Im also scared that h pylori or the antibiotics damaged my organs and when I get my blood drawn in 2 weeks, it’ll be severely abnormal. It also doesn’t help that my dad just received his blood exam results and he has vitamin D deficiency, high cholesterol and the most concerning, positive ANA. I’m so scared that he has something bad. He had colon cancer 10 years ago and I’m scared that it’s cancer or an autoimmune disorder that’ll kill him.
Idk how much I can handle. I go to therapy weekly and tried medication but I didn’t react well to them. I just hate living in constant fear that something will happen to me or someone close to me.
I just feel so alone bc if I tell someone how I feel, I just get dismissed and called crazy. I feel like I’m losing in this hidden war that I’m fighting myself. I just get dismissed bc I suffer from health anxiety that I developed out of nowhere January 2023. I’ve been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and mild depression by my therapist.
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