text
stringlengths 1
38.5k
| label
stringclasses 2
values |
|---|---|
way outim paralyzed fear next two week think ruined career irrevocably hard enough get job flawless even harder managed screw everything ever | suicide |
first kiss today lip felt nice guess happened godzilla v kong romantic movie perfect date know | non-suicide |
want ball kill hate came fucking scared live life tried many time fucking not take sick tired remembering fucking bullshit life done pussy everything tired much potential relationship many people wasted never got ball ask girl bullshit anxiety suffer fucking hate hate treated child one gave hope struggling suicidal thought since age not fucking normal hate stupid fucking life everything tried kill age l still pussy fucking waste human space hate hate living nothing get fucking better remembering emotional loneliness since child not even feel anymore emotion sucked away not handle shit negative thought positive stupid fucking people profiling shit stupid closed minded teacher profiling rebellious gangbanger since age fucking bullshit hate shit not fucking want die hate even thought alive wish aborted wish never thought live greatest gift fucking call bullshit happens strip kid confidence get miserable fuck like wishing dead one day going fucking overdose blast brain something hate fucking living someone please fucking kill something | suicide |
okay not expecting answer anything ever want suicide plan know case not think going wish place could get answer like really weird thing post wish knew find shit | non-suicide |
canti not anymore want die sorry selfish ik one care way stay safe love | suicide |
femboys good could date stuff femboy would amazing not know | non-suicide |
life spiraling control think everyday much want die not want hurt anybody hurt many time tired fighting battle year need relief prozac not help spend psychiatrist spoke literally minute dismissing not changing medicine dosage ex boyfriend loved anything left broke back summer relationship barely changed tired feeling like sticking around institutionalized obviously suicidal told leave alone love much one reminder worst heartbreak life good student dropped one class much watching flower dresser die feel like metaphor life not know going happen already dead inside sure way like gun would gone overdosing tylenol dying week later liver failure not sound fun want end might jump | suicide |
sneeze elbow well dab elbow sneeze yer | non-suicide |
wondering mind past year incredibly hard break friendship lost break passed missed opportunity financial health struggle severely affected mental health day hope get car accident end next day loving life want break cry not feel anything feel isolated alone hurting know people care not care not really matter taken medication seen therapist help pain suffering feel inside not enough want hurt not gotten back gym started working even lost pound process feel good picked new hobby really enjoy happiness quickly fade almost instantly hate feeling way know better certain aspect life currently dream job always wanted one beautiful city world get work project really mean something respected management peer something rare industry new loving relationship someone biggest heart treat incredibly well something feel like not deserve know good still want die | suicide |
happy national penis day penis havers filler filler filler | non-suicide |
helpi said n word popeyes | suicide |
thank story redditthank reddit thanks everyone post personal story suffering silence year partner know little not want burden anyone feeling feel ashamed sad depressed feel like stronger younger extremely difficult pull intense dark feeling year later still find wave severe pain shocking body mind got older easier tell pas recently last week felt dived tailspin adversely reacting situation upset everything hard not seem talk feel paralyzed feel immense overwhelming pain everyday sit room look doorway think hanging not want tell anyone people think happy fine not want scare anyone become situation people deal tired suffering tired struggle happy read many post subreddit feel like gave motivation keep fighting least today keep post family member tragedy mind every time get dark | suicide |
lot thing must dothere lot thing must right away postponing month not met anybody except family month feel sleepy tired day long not want anything sleep idea came go cut wrist many time whenever fuckin hurt could not finish want die sleeping talked proffesional nothing changed feel like heart stopping brain rotten wish something make heart flutter happend hand want stop go away hate fact wasting time nothing wish much life middle nowhere not sure need help tired not sleep eye dry itch red hurt want go back not exist born | suicide |
would pas not point assignment going work something else want know pas | non-suicide |
something awful happened work today work bowling alley context last night group apparently two guy gal went photo booth took picture guy got dick sucked nobody knew happened open today come sweet old lady grand kid playing game take picture thing print three lady pick look find last one guy gal know brings u felt bad apologized million time | non-suicide |
playing among u not invite friend not even share code something yet game pure coincidence asked x dutch actually x responded back dutch damn shook | non-suicide |
beat saber anyone beat saber steam bored want play lobby | non-suicide |
getting chicken nuggies yayyayayay | non-suicide |
snowed much today good start day | non-suicide |
feel brokeni know guy lot people respond sorry add not know anymore past month especially last month contemplating suicide lot like last week almost even suicide note written problem lately feel broken like trying get job call back failing class long term relationship parent angry fairly recent college change recent add onto already bad mind set pushed even farther write make feel selfish pretty easy life like not worry lot thing not feel way people way worse want die feel like downward slope hope future also scared hurt one love leaving not know hurt time not know made sense tell someone not know going | suicide |
know bear enlisted polish army made rank corporal also smoked drank carried weapon front battle name wojtek | non-suicide |
not see therapist want kill myselfupdate talked people nap played cat ate ice cream feel lot better sorry worrying stupid stuff know dumb lost car week ago ride today fell threw today really needed see therapist talk mom depression therapist booked tight rest month know see next week probably not chicken shit want god fucking stupid | suicide |
lght_fiend afk lght_fiend assassinating f kennedy | non-suicide |
guy need help turn motion blur eye not find setting | non-suicide |
volume blast staying family dad pulled outside open window pornhub live | non-suicide |
want go awaylet everyone live piece really much ask everyone life would better without | suicide |
want chat dm want chat not know talk stage ill talk anything prefer discord way | non-suicide |
would like thank award dumb award useless keep thinking gold award really keep gold color gold award think either change color remove | non-suicide |
anyone got good pair earbuds recommend wired max price could around would great not care mic care comfortable sound quality durability thanks advance | non-suicide |
ever play minecraft crush place bed first see put next | non-suicide |
catch garden yelling slug aphid shit | non-suicide |
anyone else terrified dreading valentine day really nervous day miss able spend someone cherished loved bed pain instead scared suicidal intent appear day helpless fight heartbreaking would kill day devoted love know metaphorical day still | suicide |
really not like crush people way stressful always got worry like like right intention suck lowkey trust issue story heard try not get kidnapped forced something not want meet person commitment lowkey scary not even fathom going tell parent | non-suicide |
unfortunate diseasean unfortunate disease known bipolar disorder completely suffocated life not seem win war everything know love eventually leaf usually would forum like depressed tonight highly manic considering suicide solution bipolar problem ask would not better put love one intense pain many many painful experience throughout course rest possibly long lived life perhaps instance suicide could considered sacrifice rather act hopelessness though suppose would come think hope conquering disease would not even consider concept something tell get worse get older ask may listen question one simply want best not | suicide |
vent sad well countless problem life one emotioncally unavailable point sick like month thing emotionally unavailable one specific person not sure split way not particularly sad would wait lifetime show know got move actually feel like not people not feel right ton people could choose time aware choose not everyone boring not know feel like truly would not mind waiting long time knew would come back weird feeling though calm not devastated anything yeah maybe people would say reach thing not not well theoretically feel like use want come back come back always told done part relationship already feel like want stay away let like not desperate made feeling clear past feel like enough sign wanted life yeah talked ton people usually end breaking not get face head nobody compare not like super hero sort ordinary person specific special thing guess image perfect stayed burnt head someday not get man want | non-suicide |
love amp death want diemy gf pushing towards suicide getting mad purpose everyday tell want kill literally hurting emotionally lying hiding shit not trust threatens not feel safe anymore feel like not escape really trying kill keep breaking heart fucking not leave emotionally abusive make feel like scum saying never anyone else person love make feel worthless make question living even worth fuck love feel used manipulated give heart say not love break constantly tell not enough want guy friend not love anyone else brought self esteem every time try opening show little respect make shut tell want km everyday need talk say stop selfish selfish need attention made cut everyone life trapped feel like death option | suicide |
never anyonei used dream living successful life working successful high paying job marrying someone starting family sadly not ever true dumb ugly failing school live small town laughing stalk rarely ever leave house unless forced stuck none le destined work menial dead end job decide finally rope | suicide |
not anymorei suck making friend talking people general feel like family not even like around not know going not want live given therapist not help quarantine call not work tried positive tried hang not work feel like not happy year day repeating tired boring life not change least not let probably goodbye everyone | suicide |
rough night thought ideation pain nearing breaking point making plan reality not feel real look forward gone thanks crazy ex thinking lighting fire cutting burning bleed made crazy probably crazier ideation point god not handle anymore wish dead every day wake purpose life anymore even losing motivation ask help type worth anymore wake live | suicide |
lost geminifunny one inspirational happy person others one day feel like nothing left offer always told wonderful beautiful make angry find joy thought giving starting not sure happens one decides die would feel better feel trapped skin not escape lost everything anger sadness taken every inch nerve want feeling gone year feeling like life huge mistake like every moment wasted time get back fix today endless sleep think find much peace knowing follow something longer cry help request understanding wishful goodnight | suicide |
elder scroll assume old world like entire life taken place northwest los angeles anyone new world oceania old world accurate anyone old world going bias | non-suicide |
ever want take nap nap not want take really tired today homework wanted take nap tried whole hour could not fall asleep | non-suicide |
year old wanting commit suicidei feel selfish wanting give young not friend school dad worst nightmare please help | suicide |
looking back think eating disorder without even realising like went phase would not eat anything whole day dinner satisfying became addicted feeling drinking cold water empty stomach looking back unhealthy not even realise time lol | non-suicide |
tonight last night aliveill wake write goodbye end | suicide |
sometimes feel broke worldi used happy thought love decent job friend house car yet thing not make happiness asleep thought happy ever since broke lost everything identity seems like world shit people around suffering feel like broke universe year nothing get better life make genetically wired one way seems like always get back | suicide |
feel hopelessi next month not remember time depressed grade low skip school suicidal thought make hard get not think get good enough grade get university next year feel like wasted opportunity autistic one around put effort understand younger genuinely thought alien nothing made sense everything feel much harder apparently academically clever able cope tried therapy various antidepressant easy spiral back suicidal plan researched everything think everyone around would happier long term not | suicide |
inaction indifference incoming death considered suicide question rhetorical merely title story throwaway account wish remain completely anonymous vent story please not reach via pm try find please respect privacy venting therapy cathartic long winded please keep mind truth told feel strongly life coming end due failing health poor somewhat improving health accident year ago threw everything backwards amplified pandemic inability get much restriction county lessened recently feel though beyond point return even could recover actually feel like not care succumb condition feel heart struggle many night often go bed thinking not make oh well reason indifference myriad come extensive backstory ongoing sexual molestation family member multiple case sexual assault public school feeling though life not going anywhere success life incredible partner claim love stable yet insanely stressful job wonderful company treat well also work adjunct teach college course online side gig truly love hit plateau job not progressing tenure track college not progress main day job either due qualification not go detail know not progress either not fault demerit behalf tried help others especially pandemic offering free online tutoring field local parent people know needing assistance starting program promote academic scholarship disadvantaged demographic believe lot even create free educational content lesson plan others help teach core field others want help way yet interest non existent one want help feel superfluous compared peer usual since going quarantine day ago heavily endeavored make useful hear deafening noise silence echoing something feeling year person completely useless unnecessary not progress point husk manning desk home unappreciated job granted job done great company use beyond job not stand get away due finance opportunity lack thereof stuck way relationship partner not want say okay feel know love not regret saying yes big question lacking spark intimacy need raised religious family beat idea intimacy bad thing deconstructing decade indoctrination past year not physically affectionate brain know not help feel unattractive ugly know asinine line thinking not feel loved even though know make bad person feel like told struggling not feel though emotionally capable responding feel like burdened deserves better lightyears better wish death would claim could release would not vulgar end life intentionally easy would logistically suicide not treat condition let slide oblivion want end not fear void death awaits u point fear partner make transition may not succumb much later life knowing ridiculously stubborn family line body may refuse adamantly go gently good night certainly far meantime press hopefully feel better morning not help feel though next night may happens happens would natural partner not contend suicide neither family never know truly transpired strange typing tried hard press decade despite everything yet kidding knowing luck around next centennial county thank reading next time | suicide |
fuckred moosei fuvked upo thee noose john saw gbut busy going try agaeujn taking lot effort type | suicide |
give person kiss | non-suicide |
tonight death dateso not going dramatic let u adult tonight death date not take shit everyone saying vile girl trying destroy name fun stuff people framing hard hurt bad hey sorry okay not want deal anymore | suicide |
suicide note note write one note everyone life one every person played important role | suicide |
nevermind everyone say get thing not able voice head densely packed scuttle squirm able breathe without repercussion medicated inundated psychiatry people idea feel given issue one day fell love love silly stupid unkind fell prey common mistake youth erring wistful tepid tumultuous held hand mother died not perfect never perfect broke fucked tread carefully came back kiss forehead leave without warning everything happened threw everything away not kindest person loving person trusting person something eye made want try blame everything easily wrap blame neat little box tie ribbon top felt unloved drank could blame father leaving sexually assaulted could blame emptiness many thing not blame could kiss promise would sit night hospital broke turn around throw planned obsolescence tomorrow junk done best reach extend line ask done done communication broken distance would travel see sacrifice large stand answer patient ear dial tone busy signal ignored email trying make better walk dream much arrogance confidence wake sobbing mass weepy jello bed not not tried getting know obsessive thought know ritual way broken avoided sleep gone friend tried meet new people sex cried slept much stopped eating frail used hospital staff await open arm yet another suicide attempt unlovable scar meet new cut arm excitedly head feel cavernous ill repeated blunt force trauma landlord resent damage done tiled shower interior past ativan alcohol bridge tomorrow going place | suicide |
sorry hurt anyone saying thsiim sorry sorry bothering others writing becoming another statistic not mean hurt people bother people told life every life almost like self fulfilling prophecy not really know posting know completely alone not control anger hurt people love putting end guess tell story one last time lot life seen lot thing child see way almost grew rough childhood always said get better thing better not never living broken promise thing get better getting worse year year year grew really nice kid loving caring sweet tried make everyone happy life seen hurt world happened trauma changed drastically worse not take anymore mentally unstable hurt people love psychotic not control episode not cnst anymorez ever fucking wanted make people happy smile end hurting not anymore want fucking die going die sorry fucking sorry not want burden anyone anymore like matter turn not stop not stop never stop imsorry | suicide |
anyone else straight guy would spend like minute staring picture dude thought cute like robert pattinson wow | non-suicide |
anyone know answer prostate exam da alright goodnight girl see tomorrow | non-suicide |
hit pp osu mania plea mania leaderboards k leaderboards still suck game nice | non-suicide |
ugly men like reason livei year old man life whatsoever blame part ugly face looked even moderately normal might chance life plan jumping cliff tonight | suicide |
australia not get better | non-suicide |
practicing endso practicing hanging daily basis girlfriend not home also constricting rope around neck see feel like drift conciousness last year vividly reliving worst moment reacting memory painful emotion remember father coma not visit thought not going make could not take seeing like pulled feel awful every day remember broke girlfriend acting pretty crazy mother dying fucking awful life series event opportunity brave instead reacted cowardice realise irony contuing trend coward existing taking easy way worried become involved living would definitely hurt many people gone also think would better struggle worst intrusive thought feel like terrible human not seen sister year feel drifiting reality everyday lockdown least felt human going work pretending something feel like nothing awful thing happened older sister family never told found recently family friend drugged raped group men hometown since revisiting memory past trying see new knowledge make thing make lot sense always afraid go psychiatrist assumed change behaviour due medication given make sense became seemigly hollow numb result bad thing happened not medication give hope perhaps medication save finding hard make step uncertain fixed | suicide |
nobody irl talk not tell anyone frightened dreaded hopeless suicidal become past week tried lied went get kind counseling maybe rx depression anxiety hypothyroid course dr want make fuss blood pressure fill survey depression anxiety bipolar mania yes first two dr asks ever attempted suicide admit yes x looked concerned asked plan like find job plan said know never admit plan take legal physical action admit not always possible nobody really authentic honest dread pain obsession leave fucked planet equipment dwd leave not discus method say first time attempted bucket drug alcohol dedicated decided blend concoction better absorption entirely passed day time blackout vomited not really happy wake alive like ect brain broke rumination obsession die numb flatline reason live hang fucking struggle tell people know hurt push away read dozen post every night feeling suicidal compassion others not life shit roll hill chance get better fuck bother people lie face tell get better angry le resigned time call quits pull cover curl ball sleep help | suicide |
anna elsa disney princess pjs cute opinion stand | non-suicide |
yolo | non-suicide |
coming year therapy med still shit wish motivational situation real get better nah bra trust entire path always lit knowing worst enemy feel like new survival mode live day coming halt could phase anything end oof sorry ramble thanks listening | suicide |
stuffed entire as book jacket pocket not know big ok | non-suicide |
friend beautiful eye ever seen melt heart ah | non-suicide |
diamond certified singer weeknd save tear unofficial music video | non-suicide |
get stay motivated trying work still feel able something creative not know good way | non-suicide |
please help mei need someone not care please get night not know happening much going head please help not want die | suicide |
puzzle century right love cinnamon passcode phone not not underlying message not lonely ate shoe | non-suicide |
smoking video game thing keeping ending not know would without | suicide |
posting something daily day girlfriend ghosting decided something done many year prior shall botting emotion shoving shit deepest part soul not get hurt not get right matter hard try one family understands barely get sleep therapy not work exhausted time med help not karma whoring ill back tomorrow | non-suicide |
brave enough kill myselfi wish something worth living scary kill | suicide |
lazy live need justificationtitle sum live merely get everything easy feel good soon going get tough drop man interested skirting responsibility always opting path least resistance life pretty easy sleep point college getting kind hectic mood fix thought suicide twice could not think easy painless way came across way seems almost good true completely overjoyed almost done preparing would feel bad solving without passing others make sure worth word need peer reviewed shitty ever evasive part not side rest decision get someone agree sure defiant remnant would concede happy disclose information need | suicide |
guy ever make argument parent head valid point know would never say face | non-suicide |
crossdress without parent finding help | non-suicide |
world past point return fucking bad news realizing world never good thing optimism people fucking denial honestly actual fuck stopping taking easy way someone give genuinely good reason none people miss bullshit | suicide |
mother said video game desensitizing kid killing people somebody please help also kind mother think generation weak | non-suicide |
not permission anyone die need make decision die not even go high school graduation feel guilty everything not even go college graduation feel guilty everything always fault okay one responsible not need anyones permission die need make decision die | suicide |
bored someone dm like music weed filler filler filler filler filler filler | non-suicide |
dude sound fucking good downloaded mod viper android audio effect like surround sound etc make music sound godly listening gecs sound like better music heaven fr | non-suicide |
sub not even respond meim sorry fucking upset not not want fucking live one care unless say going tonight not fucking stand | suicide |
guy got good joke want laugh co not good time yeah | non-suicide |
hiya leave message reply wake day took break day personal reason back happy good night | non-suicide |
not stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicide not stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicidecan stop thinking suicide | suicide |
slightest fucking thing happens mental breakdown | non-suicide |
ay get pet aligator p tf convince mum want one really bad p get like ft long p depending spice caiman dude want one | non-suicide |
matter not matter losing battle every week new cut time pernament next time hope kill found small dos marijuana make normal live one worst state liberal law illinois really not take anxiety pressure worth come succesfuljust make others proud life end eventually not | suicide |
want go grade best point school going well always feel sad not want anymore not know feel sad scared tell anybody friend reddit hope not see scared confront also feel really anxious deadline school project something not get project bought switch minecraft would waste money would go not know going reach end school year | suicide |
make cursed joke give silver best one go | non-suicide |
pushing everybody awaymy depression make not want talk anybody even try forced inauthentic not want keep even regular conversation going point friend one would care died right | suicide |
question girl booba feel like | non-suicide |
watch dangerous people road today went drive buddy usual fun switching lane cruising nowhere hillbilly start trying run boy road pickup truck flip start literally trying ram u thankfully able easily outrun rust bucket chevy fast german car escaped unscathed lot asshole looking problem beware | non-suicide |
may found pedo discord think kept asking send penis despite saying amp xb also say highly doubt | non-suicide |
remember kid middle eastern government oppressed woman not islam | non-suicide |
wait die whenever talked friend little hard time admitting made mistake grew older moved away realized much fucking dick head kid maybe friend would remembered better friend would make everything fuck still probably posting friend gain hide thought feeling fucking hate shitty feeling thought accomplished making friend never really mattered anybody besides parent seems like reason care share blood fucking stuck grade one everyone left better life stuck living like fucking waste life eating away everyone around wish could die give someone else body not fucking using good want friend not forget hard life fucking give life not fucking need hate not die sooner never mad healthy used scary underweight medication got involved making hungry fucking time liked better near death fucking suck hate wanting friend not know anything keeping wanting love not know give not want mom cry whenever try telling thought dad call ungrateful given not ask alive today wish parent could different kid fucking worthless wanted happy not put effort fucking anything think not one kid want help everybody told think every fucking day think sad friend keep online real life fucking awful want already reason alive today way end without pain | suicide |
told mother fell identified girl not said anything bad yet kind cry holding long know | non-suicide |
aw baby not going work want boyfriend please want one tired depressed suik sedal | non-suicide |
not know people really not like dating girlfriend not care think going date love not stop | non-suicide |
flirting fucking hard yesterday crush came asked like panicked said ew fuck like brother issue yes could left make sure dug hole deeper | non-suicide |
Subsets and Splits